March 6, 2025 • 22 mins
Discover the transformative power of chaos in our latest podcast episode, as Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wright opens the door to understanding how chaotic energies can foster creativity and growth. March, a month of transition, serves as the perfect backdrop to explore the emotional landscapes we navigate amid life's unpredictable storms.
Listeners are invited to embark on a journey that acknowledges the feelings of confusion, grief, and uncertainty that chaos often brings. Through Dr. BethAnne's personal anecdotes and reflections, learn how to harness the energy of chaos as a meaningful catalyst for creative expression.
We dive into the importance of surrender and flexibility, encouraging you to embrace the unexpected and recognize how it can elevate your creative potential. Key talking points include:
- Creative chaos invites growth and inspiration
- Discussion on March's energy as a time of transition
- Exploring the relationship between chaos and creativity
- Personal reflections on navigating life changes
- Embracing uncertainty as an opportunity for innovation
- Encouragement to find hidden gifts in chaos
Engaging deeply with questions around identity and personal growth, this episode reframes chaos as an essential component of the creative process. Join us as we explore the hidden gifts that emerge through periods of disruption and how to leverage these experiences to inspire authenticity in your own life.
Join us next week for an all-new episode of Your Heart Magic and more psychology, spirituality, storytelling, and heart wisdom.
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Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wright is a Licensed Psychologist, Spiritual Educator, and Akashic Records Reader. She is the author of Small Pearls Big Wisdom, the Award-Winning Lamentations of the Sea, its sequels, and several books of poetry. A psychologist with a mystic mind, she weaves perspectives from both worlds to offer holistic wisdom.
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Intro/Outro Music (00:13):
Aloha and welcome to your Heart Magic, an
illuminating space wherepsychology, spirituality and
heart wisdom meet.
Here's your host, dr BethannKapansky-Wright.
Author, psychologist andspiritual educator.
Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wri (00:33):
Aloha everybody, welcome to your
Heart Magic this is Dr BethannKapansky-Wright, and happy March
.
We are talking today about thethemes of creativity and chaos,
and how can we work with chaos,energy when it comes into our
life and use it to inspiregreater creativity.
(00:54):
And I chose this topic forseveral reasons.
First of all, it's March and Ioften think that March is big,
transitional energy.
Sometimes it can feel a littlebit chaotic.
So, first of all, march itselfis named after Mars, the Roman
god of war, and I've oftenthought that things associated
(01:16):
with Mars can have that very bigdrive, energy, inspiration,
energy.
Mars is about taking action,but that war piece of things and
I'm not looking at thatliterally today, more
metaphorically and energeticallyand what it might mean for the
energy itself I often see thatas being energy that can be
(01:39):
really scattered or disorderedor things kind of clashing in
order to try and find a neworder, try and find peace or
something like that, and I thinkthe weather echoes that in
March in many parts of the world.
Growing up in Alaska, march wassuch an interesting month
because that hole comes in likea lion, goes out like a lamb.
(02:00):
It didn't always hold true ifyou were an Alaskan kid.
Sometimes it did and sometimesyou would see like big snow
storms in March and towards theend of the month the weather
would start to mellow out andmore sun would come out, which
was absolutely not a guaranteethat we were going into spring
in April.
It was very possible in Alaskathat the snow would still come
(02:22):
in April.
I remember one year when itsnowed in like the second week
of May and just like standingout there in my spring heels and
I had a flowered skirt on andit was gray and it was gritty
and the snow was falling andkind of like shaking my fist at
the sky and being like are youkidding me?
You know we are so ready forsunshine and flowers.
(02:44):
But I do think there istransitional weather, energy and
a lot of places.
I think that for many parts ofthe world that there is a shift
going on during this time, andso there is always these
energies of something ending,something else beginning.
Last week on the podcast wewere talking about the
(03:04):
astrological new year coming upand Pisces being the last sign
in the zodiac before we moveinto Aries, and then the last
piece just in terms of theenergy right now is the Akashic
records talked about how thisentire year is about creating
new pathways and new neuralnetworks and creating new ways
(03:25):
of doing things, new systems ofdoing things.
There is quite a bit of chaosjust going on in general in the
world right now and in worldevents and on the bigger scene,
and so we're really seeing thathappen and a lot of systems that
are out there and the goodorder being able to reorder and
make sense of it hasn't come inyet.
(03:45):
Things just feel reallydisorderly and we don't have any
control over any of that, butwe do have control over
ourselves and control overbinding our pathways through.
Well, how do we work with theshifting energy right now and
how do we bring new harmony andcreativity into a time when
(04:07):
things are changing?
And then, on that personallevel, how does the Akashic
message about new neuralpathways and finding new ways of
doing things and creativelyredirecting our focus and our
energy when we are working oncreating a new story and moving
away from something that we nolonger want to invest our energy
(04:29):
in?
What does that look like?
And so that in-between phase,when we are still establishing a
different way of doing it,often looks chaotic.
It often looks like the waythat things were is no longer
working.
It doesn't exist.
There's a lot of energy that cancome from that and a lot of
feelings, like big feelings,that can come from that when
(04:49):
we've gone through some sort ofupheaval or change in our life.
And those big feelings canrange from uncertainty to anger,
to grief, to confusion.
We can feel like we've lost asense of identity.
We can feel like I just want togo back to the old way of doing
things I was.
That was predictable, I knewwhat I was doing.
I feel uncertain, I feel reallyvulnerable.
(05:11):
Those are all things that Ihave felt when I have chaos type
storm energy sweep through mylife and of course, it takes
time to establish a newequilibrium.
We don't walk away fromsomething or have it crumble
beneath us or dismantle it onour own, make a big change in
our life and say I'm leavingthis relationship or I'm making
(05:32):
this change, or I'm settingbetter boundaries, so I'm no
longer going to do it this way.
We don't do that andautomatically feel at peace and
have a new sense of beingcentered and where we're going.
Next.
There's this in-between phasethat I love talking about on
here.
I love talking about sort ofthe magic being in this middle
phase and that's where so muchof the creativity comes in and
(05:55):
we're invited to think aboutwhat do I want to create from
this?
So chaos and creativity go handin hand because, on the one
hand, chaos energy often feelsdestructive or deconstructing,
it feels like it isdisintegrating something somehow
.
But huge creativity can comefrom that and new, inspired
(06:18):
action and feeling like thereare opportunities to take our
pieces and put them together ina new way or pick up new pieces.
There's so much potential thereand I love focusing on that
potential when we have any sortof chaos energy in our life,
whether that's big or small andI was thinking about that today
(06:38):
and how it's applied to myselfand what story of my own life I
might want to share on here.
I feel like I've spoke so muchabout losing my brother or
moving to Kauai or these reallybig things happening, that of
course there was chaos there andit just felt like something
that had once been establishedand was once firm and understood
(07:00):
a certain way was absolutelygone, and so all those big
feelings that I was talkingabout, of course they came with
those things, but sometimeschaos isn't always that dramatic
.
Sometimes it happens in wayswhere some sort of personal
crisis or relational crisis orsomething happens in our life.
It might not be a 10 on ourpersonal Richter scale of how
(07:22):
much something earthquakeed andshocked our life, maybe it's
just a four or five, but it'senough that it's disruptive.
Those things happen all thetime where something knocks us
off of our center and we get outof rhythm and out of routine.
And sometimes when we havethings going on in our life,
life crisis kinds of things.
I've had a few smaller oneshappening lately and they
(07:46):
weren't my personal ones, buthappening to people around me
that I care about and love, andit completely disrupted my
schedule and how I've been doingthings and needing to be really
adaptive and really resilientand really resourceful.
And as things are calming downnow and I'm having a little bit
more time to integrate that, Iam thinking about like what were
(08:08):
the hidden gifts in this?
What is it that?
This chaos energy, the stormenergy that came into my life?
What was the invitation of whatI can create from that?
And right now, one of it wasthat it's an opportunity to
really dive into.
What do I value?
How do I want to structure mytime.
Why do I do what I do and takea look at some of those core
(08:31):
value pieces and my heart'sdesires in a much deeper way.
And so something that happenswhen we have this chaos energy
come into our life is.
It is disruptive, but in thatdisruption we are knocked off
the course of our daily routineand our daily ruts and our set
way of doing things, and thereis space that opens up.
(08:53):
There's an opportunity to seesomething from a different
vantage point or to look at itfrom a higher perspective.
Maybe we look at it from alower perspective and we feel
like we're down in the mud andwe're working through really
hard feelings.
Or to look at it from a higherperspective.
Maybe we look at it from alower perspective and we feel
like we're down in the mud andwe're working through really
hard feelings and digging forour diamonds in the coal mine or
searching for that proverbialhidden treasure buried in the
(09:15):
earth, because we're having tolike really be in the thick of
it and go through hard things.
Wherever we find ourself, thereis usually some sort of seeking
or questioning, there's anevaluation process, there's the
self-reflection that we oftenhave, and in that space, we can
see things differently, we cannotice things or realize things
(09:38):
or contrast how we were doinglife to whatever this new
information is, that is shakingthings up and making us think
about it in a new way and thatmight be really uncertain.
I think uncertainty is just apart of chaos, unless you are so
grounded into your meditationpractice that you just go
(09:58):
through it in this very zen-likeway.
That is not me, it's not mostpeople that I know.
I think more of us than notreally struggle with feeling
centered when we are in thosechaos moments and what's this
unknown and we feel theuncertainty and it's
uncomfortable because it'spsychologically ambiguous.
We don't know what to expectand we might have all sorts of
(10:20):
feelings and they could becontradictory, and so that
dissonance and that ambiguity inour mind feels uncomfortable.
Emotionally it feelsuncomfortable.
That is somethingpsychologically that's often
difficult for us.
And making friends withuncertainty and making friends
with our contradictions andlearning to internalize a
(10:41):
perspective that how we feelfrom one moment to the next
might not always match up,especially if we're going
through change, and so if we canfind some sort of comfort, some
sort of peace in the middle ofuncertainty, it helps us
navigate it and find a mindsetto stay more open during it.
But there is space there and,as I said, in that space we get
(11:05):
to examine and as we examine wemight feel inspired to do
something differently.
It can take a while to look atthose questions for yourself.
The questions that I sharedearlier that I'm asking those
are big ticket questions.
Those are not necessarilysomething when I'm thinking
about.
What is my heart's desire?
What are my motivations?
How do I want to structure mytime?
(11:26):
I am 47 years old.
I hopefully have a good amountof years left.
What do I want to do with them?
What do I want to fill my dayswith?
Like?
These are not questions that Iexpect to sit down and answer in
a journaling session, notquestions that I expect to sit
down and answer in a journalingsession.
They're not questions that Ithink I could answer even in
multiple sessions or going awayfor a retreat weekend.
(11:48):
There's a lot of unknownswithin those questions to solve.
But I can find answers for thislife season and I can work on
these bigger questions that I'mevaluating for my heart and my
soul.
Work on these bigger questionsthat I'm evaluating for my heart
and my soul and I can come tothe best resting place that I'm
able to get to at this point intime, and it's going to take a
(12:09):
little bit of time to do that.
So for me, I have mentally setMarch aside as a month where I
am continuing to question andsoul search, and I've been doing
that a while now with somedifferent pieces and as these
new things have happened some ofthe things having to do with
aging, parents and healthcareneeds and all of that with my
(12:29):
parents, those kinds of things.
That is new information.
So I'm going to add that to thethings I was already learning
about myself during this timeand take this new information in
and continue to use March toreally try and find that soul
space.
So chaos shows up in many, manyways.
Chaos could just be.
I'd hope to sit down and dothis podcast much earlier today.
(12:52):
And then my day went not quitesideways.
It just ended up differentlythan what I thought.
There were hyper dogs thatneeded walking and they needed a
hike and all sorts of thingshave tied up my time and earlier
I sat down and I thought, okay,I'm going to sit down and do
this podcast now and talk aboutthis topic.
And then the dogs came runningin and of course, they needed
(13:14):
lots of love, and this was on mymind because I knew I was going
to be sharing it, and I thought, okay, this is chaos energy.
It's small chaos energy, but Ihad a plan.
It's been interrupted and sowhat will I do with that?
Well, I'm going to lean into itright now and try and create a
moment of just appreciating thatboy I am loved and adored by
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these fur beings, that is forsure and try and create a moment
of just being surrounded byaffection fur affection and
being surrounded by love.
So chaos shows up in many waysand what we can create from that
can be something grand and bigand soul-searching.
It could be something artistic.
(13:59):
It could be big life changesand it can be something small.
It can be being more mindfulabout something.
It can be thinking about how wewant to move our energy and
deciding to go in a slightlydifferent direction or just try
something out.
It could be that we are off ofour normal routine and so we're
(14:20):
not going to the places wenormally visit, we're not doing
the grounding activities wenormally do, and maybe we still
have some pockets of time and wecome up with something
different during that time, weget really creative.
We take a walk somewhere new,we play around with our
meditation practice and trydoing it differently.
(14:40):
Try something.
If we don't have the 15 minuteswe normally have, we decide to
do a 60 second meditation andthink well, this is better than
nothing.
It's not about what it is thatwe're creating.
It's more that energy ofinspiration and creativity and
looking at chaos as anopportunity to create, and not
(15:01):
just create with ourselves, tocreate with life and what life
is presenting us with and whatthe moment itself is presenting
us with.
And we get to decide do Isuperimpose how I wanted things
on this?
Do I lean into this and just gowith it and see what happens?
What feels right for my hearttoday, and see what happens what
(15:22):
feels right for my heart today?
So it's being in thatpartnership with what is coming
into our path and figuringourselves out the best that we
know how and, through that,seeing the potential for
creativity and framing it likethat.
So we have a positive way toanchor into ourselves and to
think about things.
When it shows up just messy anddisorganized and you have a
(15:49):
crisis going on, to remindyourself like yes, this is
difficult, this feels chaoticright now.
Yet I'm also a very creativebeing and I'm going to use this
to create my path forward.
I'm going to use this right nowto create, fill in the blank,
more peace in my life, moreresilience or adaptability, more
(16:10):
wisdom in my life.
More resilience or adaptability, more wisdom, so that
empowering piece of seeing ourcreativity and owning our role
as a co-creator in that momentis so powerful.
So with that, I want to closetoday and share a passage from
Small Pearls, big Wisdom.
It's called Come Together, andI feel like this sums up all the
(16:31):
concepts that we're talkingabout and encompasses all these
ideas Come Together.
Life is not a controlledenvironment.
It is an ever-fluctuatingterrain governed by a constant
rule of change, with millions ofvariables and unpredictable
outcomes.
We lay the groundwork for ourbest plans and sometimes they
(16:55):
work out, but often things turnout much different than expected
.
We are left trying to navigatethe unexpected and often feel
frustrated, uncertain andconfused, learning to surrender
to an alchemy greater thanourselves and how to become part
of the greater flow, when wefeel caught up in its streams
(17:17):
and need to allow our path tounfold instead of trying to
shape our path.
During these times, we learn agreat deal about patience and
change, and we often forget asmuch as we often say we don't
like change.
We are built for change.
We are built with the capacityto create, develop, grow, evolve
(17:39):
and adapt to change habits,thoughts, perspective patterns,
love, lose and learn to let go.
We are built with the capacityto create something out of
whatever resources we've beengiven, with the capacity to
create something out of whateverresources we've been given,
remembering that all thegoodbyes, all the voids, all the
chaos and everything that fallsapart in our lives are simply
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part of the ingredients we needfor new creation.
Life is in a constant state ofcreation and, whether we realize
it, we are in a relationshipwith life and therefore part of
its creation.
Best, then, to release thereins of control, learn to trust
the process and give life alittle space to do its thing.
(18:22):
You never know what the two ofyou might create when you come
together.
Life is always happening and welive on such a creative planet,
and part of creativity is thatchaos, energy, that sometimes
seeming destruction that takessomething apart so that
(18:44):
something new can come through,and I think, realizing that
that's just a principle of life.
Chaos is a principle of life,no matter how much we really try
and value our inner peace.
I always see these little memeson Instagram and little graphics
that say released from youanything that threatens your
inner peace, and I agree withthat to a certain extent.
(19:06):
I think there's a lot of thingsthat we can release that create
more drama or an ease in ourlife or interrupt things, and I
think sometimes life justhappens and we're walking along
working on nurturing our innerpeace and we're just doing our
thing and we kind of get smackedby life storms or smacked by
chaos.
When I think about some of thethings that have brought more
(19:28):
chaos, storm energy into my lifeover the last couple years,
they are not something that hadto do with anything I had much
of a choice over.
It's more like life happenedand it showed up and I found
myself intersecting with it andsaying, oh wow, like what do you
want to do with this?
Like this is such a threatright now to enter peace.
I am not that meme on Instagram.
(19:49):
I'm not whoever that person isthrowing out love and light and
just be peaceful.
I am in the chaos energy andhow can I choose to work with
that in a way that opens myheart further, that serves my
soul, that helps my soul havejoy over a new experience that
I'm going through, even if mymind right now isn't such a big
(20:10):
fan of these circumstances.
What can I do with that?
And, of course, as a writer, Iusually at some point in the
process, sometimes after thefact, will write a reflection
about it or use that as aningredient to come up with a
poem or create something.
And I am so grateful for thatvery tangible way that I can
(20:31):
take chaos, energy, storm energy, challenge and difficulties and
actively work on transmuting it, when it feels right, into
something that offers some formof true soul nourishment to
other people and some form oflight or some sort of offering a
service of love to others.
(20:51):
So that's a beautiful thing tobe able to do and, no matter how
you direct your creativity, nomatter what practices you have,
like you to have the ability towork with the chaos energy in
your life.
Think about what can I do withthis and create something new
and use that to continue tospread a ripple wave of kindness
(21:14):
or love or compassion or justkeeping your personal space as
harmonious as possible throughyour willingness to work with
that when it shows up in yourlife and do your inner work.
So, no matter what you'recreating, it is an offering of
light to the world, becauseanytime we invest in growing our
(21:36):
light and growing our energy,it is going to radiate out from
us on an energetic level.
So you are a light artist inyour own right.
You are a creator of beauty andmagic and transmutation, and I
hope you have an absolutelyamazing week seeing what you can
(21:57):
create.
I will be back next week with anew your Heart Magic podcast
and we will be talking about bewell, be love, be you and be
(22:19):
magic.
Intro/Outro Music (22:23):
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with Dr Bethann Kapansky-Wright.
Tune in next week for a newepisode to support and empower
your light.
Aloha and welcome to your Heart Magic, an
illuminating space wherepsychology, spirituality and
heart wisdom meet.
Here's your host, dr BethannKapansky-Wright.
Author, psychologist andspiritual educator.
Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wri (00:33):
Aloha everybody, welcome to your
Heart Magic this is Dr BethannKapansky-Wright, and happy March
.
We are talking today about thethemes of creativity and chaos,
and how can we work with chaos,energy when it comes into our
life and use it to inspiregreater creativity.
(00:54):
And I chose this topic forseveral reasons.
First of all, it's March and Ioften think that March is big,
transitional energy.
Sometimes it can feel a littlebit chaotic.
So, first of all, march itselfis named after Mars, the Roman
god of war, and I've oftenthought that things associated
(01:16):
with Mars can have that very bigdrive, energy, inspiration,
energy.
Mars is about taking action,but that war piece of things and
I'm not looking at thatliterally today, more
metaphorically and energeticallyand what it might mean for the
energy itself I often see thatas being energy that can be
(01:39):
really scattered or disorderedor things kind of clashing in
order to try and find a neworder, try and find peace or
something like that, and I thinkthe weather echoes that in
March in many parts of the world.
Growing up in Alaska, march wassuch an interesting month
because that hole comes in likea lion, goes out like a lamb.
(02:00):
It didn't always hold true ifyou were an Alaskan kid.
Sometimes it did and sometimesyou would see like big snow
storms in March and towards theend of the month the weather
would start to mellow out andmore sun would come out, which
was absolutely not a guaranteethat we were going into spring
in April.
It was very possible in Alaskathat the snow would still come
(02:22):
in April.
I remember one year when itsnowed in like the second week
of May and just like standingout there in my spring heels and
I had a flowered skirt on andit was gray and it was gritty
and the snow was falling andkind of like shaking my fist at
the sky and being like are youkidding me?
You know we are so ready forsunshine and flowers.
(02:44):
But I do think there istransitional weather, energy and
a lot of places.
I think that for many parts ofthe world that there is a shift
going on during this time, andso there is always these
energies of something ending,something else beginning.
Last week on the podcast wewere talking about the
(03:04):
astrological new year coming upand Pisces being the last sign
in the zodiac before we moveinto Aries, and then the last
piece just in terms of theenergy right now is the Akashic
records talked about how thisentire year is about creating
new pathways and new neuralnetworks and creating new ways
(03:25):
of doing things, new systems ofdoing things.
There is quite a bit of chaosjust going on in general in the
world right now and in worldevents and on the bigger scene,
and so we're really seeing thathappen and a lot of systems that
are out there and the goodorder being able to reorder and
make sense of it hasn't come inyet.
(03:45):
Things just feel reallydisorderly and we don't have any
control over any of that, butwe do have control over
ourselves and control overbinding our pathways through.
Well, how do we work with theshifting energy right now and
how do we bring new harmony andcreativity into a time when
(04:07):
things are changing?
And then, on that personallevel, how does the Akashic
message about new neuralpathways and finding new ways of
doing things and creativelyredirecting our focus and our
energy when we are working oncreating a new story and moving
away from something that we nolonger want to invest our energy
(04:29):
in?
What does that look like?
And so that in-between phase,when we are still establishing a
different way of doing it,often looks chaotic.
It often looks like the waythat things were is no longer
working.
It doesn't exist.
There's a lot of energy that cancome from that and a lot of
feelings, like big feelings,that can come from that when
(04:49):
we've gone through some sort ofupheaval or change in our life.
And those big feelings canrange from uncertainty to anger,
to grief, to confusion.
We can feel like we've lost asense of identity.
We can feel like I just want togo back to the old way of doing
things I was.
That was predictable, I knewwhat I was doing.
I feel uncertain, I feel reallyvulnerable.
(05:11):
Those are all things that Ihave felt when I have chaos type
storm energy sweep through mylife and of course, it takes
time to establish a newequilibrium.
We don't walk away fromsomething or have it crumble
beneath us or dismantle it onour own, make a big change in
our life and say I'm leavingthis relationship or I'm making
(05:32):
this change, or I'm settingbetter boundaries, so I'm no
longer going to do it this way.
We don't do that andautomatically feel at peace and
have a new sense of beingcentered and where we're going.
Next.
There's this in-between phasethat I love talking about on
here.
I love talking about sort ofthe magic being in this middle
phase and that's where so muchof the creativity comes in and
(05:55):
we're invited to think aboutwhat do I want to create from
this?
So chaos and creativity go handin hand because, on the one
hand, chaos energy often feelsdestructive or deconstructing,
it feels like it isdisintegrating something somehow
.
But huge creativity can comefrom that and new, inspired
(06:18):
action and feeling like thereare opportunities to take our
pieces and put them together ina new way or pick up new pieces.
There's so much potential thereand I love focusing on that
potential when we have any sortof chaos energy in our life,
whether that's big or small andI was thinking about that today
(06:38):
and how it's applied to myselfand what story of my own life I
might want to share on here.
I feel like I've spoke so muchabout losing my brother or
moving to Kauai or these reallybig things happening, that of
course there was chaos there andit just felt like something
that had once been establishedand was once firm and understood
(07:00):
a certain way was absolutelygone, and so all those big
feelings that I was talkingabout, of course they came with
those things, but sometimeschaos isn't always that dramatic
.
Sometimes it happens in wayswhere some sort of personal
crisis or relational crisis orsomething happens in our life.
It might not be a 10 on ourpersonal Richter scale of how
(07:22):
much something earthquakeed andshocked our life, maybe it's
just a four or five, but it'senough that it's disruptive.
Those things happen all thetime where something knocks us
off of our center and we get outof rhythm and out of routine.
And sometimes when we havethings going on in our life,
life crisis kinds of things.
I've had a few smaller oneshappening lately and they
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weren't my personal ones, buthappening to people around me
that I care about and love, andit completely disrupted my
schedule and how I've been doingthings and needing to be really
adaptive and really resilientand really resourceful.
And as things are calming downnow and I'm having a little bit
more time to integrate that, Iam thinking about like what were
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the hidden gifts in this?
What is it that?
This chaos energy, the stormenergy that came into my life?
What was the invitation of whatI can create from that?
And right now, one of it wasthat it's an opportunity to
really dive into.
What do I value?
How do I want to structure mytime.
Why do I do what I do and takea look at some of those core
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value pieces and my heart'sdesires in a much deeper way.
And so something that happenswhen we have this chaos energy
come into our life is.
It is disruptive, but in thatdisruption we are knocked off
the course of our daily routineand our daily ruts and our set
way of doing things, and thereis space that opens up.
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There's an opportunity to seesomething from a different
vantage point or to look at itfrom a higher perspective.
Maybe we look at it from alower perspective and we feel
like we're down in the mud andwe're working through really
hard feelings.
Or to look at it from a higherperspective.
Maybe we look at it from alower perspective and we feel
like we're down in the mud andwe're working through really
hard feelings and digging forour diamonds in the coal mine or
searching for that proverbialhidden treasure buried in the
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earth, because we're having tolike really be in the thick of
it and go through hard things.
Wherever we find ourself, thereis usually some sort of seeking
or questioning, there's anevaluation process, there's the
self-reflection that we oftenhave, and in that space, we can
see things differently, we cannotice things or realize things
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or contrast how we were doinglife to whatever this new
information is, that is shakingthings up and making us think
about it in a new way and thatmight be really uncertain.
I think uncertainty is just apart of chaos, unless you are so
grounded into your meditationpractice that you just go
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through it in this very zen-likeway.
That is not me, it's not mostpeople that I know.
I think more of us than notreally struggle with feeling
centered when we are in thosechaos moments and what's this
unknown and we feel theuncertainty and it's
uncomfortable because it'spsychologically ambiguous.
We don't know what to expectand we might have all sorts of
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feelings and they could becontradictory, and so that
dissonance and that ambiguity inour mind feels uncomfortable.
Emotionally it feelsuncomfortable.
That is somethingpsychologically that's often
difficult for us.
And making friends withuncertainty and making friends
with our contradictions andlearning to internalize a
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perspective that how we feelfrom one moment to the next
might not always match up,especially if we're going
through change, and so if we canfind some sort of comfort, some
sort of peace in the middle ofuncertainty, it helps us
navigate it and find a mindsetto stay more open during it.
But there is space there and,as I said, in that space we get
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to examine and as we examine wemight feel inspired to do
something differently.
It can take a while to look atthose questions for yourself.
The questions that I sharedearlier that I'm asking those
are big ticket questions.
Those are not necessarilysomething when I'm thinking
about.
What is my heart's desire?
What are my motivations?
How do I want to structure mytime?
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I am 47 years old.
I hopefully have a good amountof years left.
What do I want to do with them?
What do I want to fill my dayswith?
Like?
These are not questions that Iexpect to sit down and answer in
a journaling session, notquestions that I expect to sit
down and answer in a journalingsession.
They're not questions that Ithink I could answer even in
multiple sessions or going awayfor a retreat weekend.
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There's a lot of unknownswithin those questions to solve.
But I can find answers for thislife season and I can work on
these bigger questions that I'mevaluating for my heart and my
soul.
Work on these bigger questionsthat I'm evaluating for my heart
and my soul and I can come tothe best resting place that I'm
able to get to at this point intime, and it's going to take a
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little bit of time to do that.
So for me, I have mentally setMarch aside as a month where I
am continuing to question andsoul search, and I've been doing
that a while now with somedifferent pieces and as these
new things have happened some ofthe things having to do with
aging, parents and healthcareneeds and all of that with my
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parents, those kinds of things.
That is new information.
So I'm going to add that to thethings I was already learning
about myself during this timeand take this new information in
and continue to use March toreally try and find that soul
space.
So chaos shows up in many, manyways.
Chaos could just be.
I'd hope to sit down and dothis podcast much earlier today.
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And then my day went not quitesideways.
It just ended up differentlythan what I thought.
There were hyper dogs thatneeded walking and they needed a
hike and all sorts of thingshave tied up my time and earlier
I sat down and I thought, okay,I'm going to sit down and do
this podcast now and talk aboutthis topic.
And then the dogs came runningin and of course, they needed
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lots of love, and this was on mymind because I knew I was going
to be sharing it, and I thought, okay, this is chaos energy.
It's small chaos energy, but Ihad a plan.
It's been interrupted and sowhat will I do with that?
Well, I'm going to lean into itright now and try and create a
moment of just appreciating thatboy I am loved and adored by
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these fur beings, that is forsure and try and create a moment
of just being surrounded byaffection fur affection and
being surrounded by love.
So chaos shows up in many waysand what we can create from that
can be something grand and bigand soul-searching.
It could be something artistic.
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It could be big life changesand it can be something small.
It can be being more mindfulabout something.
It can be thinking about how wewant to move our energy and
deciding to go in a slightlydifferent direction or just try
something out.
It could be that we are off ofour normal routine and so we're
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not going to the places wenormally visit, we're not doing
the grounding activities wenormally do, and maybe we still
have some pockets of time and wecome up with something
different during that time, weget really creative.
We take a walk somewhere new,we play around with our
meditation practice and trydoing it differently.
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Try something.
If we don't have the 15 minuteswe normally have, we decide to
do a 60 second meditation andthink well, this is better than
nothing.
It's not about what it is thatwe're creating.
It's more that energy ofinspiration and creativity and
looking at chaos as anopportunity to create, and not
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just create with ourselves, tocreate with life and what life
is presenting us with and whatthe moment itself is presenting
us with.
And we get to decide do Isuperimpose how I wanted things
on this?
Do I lean into this and just gowith it and see what happens?
What feels right for my hearttoday, and see what happens what
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feels right for my heart today?
So it's being in thatpartnership with what is coming
into our path and figuringourselves out the best that we
know how and, through that,seeing the potential for
creativity and framing it likethat.
So we have a positive way toanchor into ourselves and to
think about things.
When it shows up just messy anddisorganized and you have a
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crisis going on, to remindyourself like yes, this is
difficult, this feels chaoticright now.
Yet I'm also a very creativebeing and I'm going to use this
to create my path forward.
I'm going to use this right nowto create, fill in the blank,
more peace in my life, moreresilience or adaptability, more
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wisdom in my life.
More resilience or adaptability, more wisdom, so that
empowering piece of seeing ourcreativity and owning our role
as a co-creator in that momentis so powerful.
So with that, I want to closetoday and share a passage from
Small Pearls, big Wisdom.
It's called Come Together, andI feel like this sums up all the
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concepts that we're talkingabout and encompasses all these
ideas Come Together.
Life is not a controlledenvironment.
It is an ever-fluctuatingterrain governed by a constant
rule of change, with millions ofvariables and unpredictable
outcomes.
We lay the groundwork for ourbest plans and sometimes they
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work out, but often things turnout much different than expected
.
We are left trying to navigatethe unexpected and often feel
frustrated, uncertain andconfused, learning to surrender
to an alchemy greater thanourselves and how to become part
of the greater flow, when wefeel caught up in its streams
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and need to allow our path tounfold instead of trying to
shape our path.
During these times, we learn agreat deal about patience and
change, and we often forget asmuch as we often say we don't
like change.
We are built for change.
We are built with the capacityto create, develop, grow, evolve
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and adapt to change habits,thoughts, perspective patterns,
love, lose and learn to let go.
We are built with the capacityto create something out of
whatever resources we've beengiven, with the capacity to
create something out of whateverresources we've been given,
remembering that all thegoodbyes, all the voids, all the
chaos and everything that fallsapart in our lives are simply
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part of the ingredients we needfor new creation.
Life is in a constant state ofcreation and, whether we realize
it, we are in a relationshipwith life and therefore part of
its creation.
Best, then, to release thereins of control, learn to trust
the process and give life alittle space to do its thing.
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You never know what the two ofyou might create when you come
together.
Life is always happening and welive on such a creative planet,
and part of creativity is thatchaos, energy, that sometimes
seeming destruction that takessomething apart so that
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something new can come through,and I think, realizing that
that's just a principle of life.
Chaos is a principle of life,no matter how much we really try
and value our inner peace.
I always see these little memeson Instagram and little graphics
that say released from youanything that threatens your
inner peace, and I agree withthat to a certain extent.
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I think there's a lot of thingsthat we can release that create
more drama or an ease in ourlife or interrupt things, and I
think sometimes life justhappens and we're walking along
working on nurturing our innerpeace and we're just doing our
thing and we kind of get smackedby life storms or smacked by
chaos.
When I think about some of thethings that have brought more
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chaos, storm energy into my lifeover the last couple years,
they are not something that hadto do with anything I had much
of a choice over.
It's more like life happenedand it showed up and I found
myself intersecting with it andsaying, oh wow, like what do you
want to do with this?
Like this is such a threatright now to enter peace.
I am not that meme on Instagram.
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I'm not whoever that person isthrowing out love and light and
just be peaceful.
I am in the chaos energy andhow can I choose to work with
that in a way that opens myheart further, that serves my
soul, that helps my soul havejoy over a new experience that
I'm going through, even if mymind right now isn't such a big
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fan of these circumstances.
What can I do with that?
And, of course, as a writer, Iusually at some point in the
process, sometimes after thefact, will write a reflection
about it or use that as aningredient to come up with a
poem or create something.
And I am so grateful for thatvery tangible way that I can
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take chaos, energy, storm energy, challenge and difficulties and
actively work on transmuting it, when it feels right, into
something that offers some formof true soul nourishment to
other people and some form oflight or some sort of offering a
service of love to others.
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So that's a beautiful thing tobe able to do and, no matter how
you direct your creativity, nomatter what practices you have,
like you to have the ability towork with the chaos energy in
your life.
Think about what can I do withthis and create something new
and use that to continue tospread a ripple wave of kindness
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or love or compassion or justkeeping your personal space as
harmonious as possible throughyour willingness to work with
that when it shows up in yourlife and do your inner work.
So, no matter what you'recreating, it is an offering of
light to the world, becauseanytime we invest in growing our
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light and growing our energy,it is going to radiate out from
us on an energetic level.
So you are a light artist inyour own right.
You are a creator of beauty andmagic and transmutation, and I
hope you have an absolutelyamazing week seeing what you can
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create.
I will be back next week with anew your Heart Magic podcast
and we will be talking about bewell, be love, be you and be
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magic.
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You've been listening to your Heart Magic
with Dr Bethann Kapansky-Wright.
Tune in next week for a newepisode to support and empower
your light.
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