October 16, 2025 • 22 mins
A tender question sits at the center of this conversation: what happens when we trust the heart more than the plan? We follow that thread through three original readings from Revelations of the Sky and into the lived terrain of starting over, moving from Alaska to Kauai, and rebuilding identity with fewer titles and more truth. Along the way, we challenge the myth of a single calling, exploring purpose as plural—something we practice in small daily choices, not just in big career moves—and invite permission to experiment with language, work, and self-expression.
We talk openly about grief as a beginning rather than an end point: the catalyst that widened the path to spirituality, intuition, and creative risk. If you identify as sensitive or empathic, you’ll hear a reframe you might need today: feeling deeply is not a flaw to fix but a strength to master. That intensity can hurt, but it also heals—it’s the same openness that lets joy register in bright color and makes meaning easier to find in ordinary moments. From that place, wisdom becomes less theoretical and more embodied, tempered by trial, mistake, and the quiet kind of courage that accrues over time.
The final movement is a call to be seen. Not as a performance, but as an act of alignment—peeling back old skins, integrating professional expertise with spiritual gifts, and allowing your voice to carry the life you’ve actually lived. Trust here isn’t a leap into nothing; it’s a series of grounded steps toward what feels alive. If you’ve been waiting for permission to shine, consider this your gentle green light. Listen, reflect, and then tell us: where is your heart asking you to go next? If this conversation resonates, follow the show, share it with a friend who needs it, and leave a review so more seekers can find their way here.
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Intro/Outro Music (00:13):
Aloha and welcome to Your Heart Magic, an
illuminating space wherepsychology, spirituality, and
heart wisdom meet.
Here's your host, Dr.
Bethane Kapansky Wright,author, psychologist, and
spiritual educator.
Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wr (00:32):
Aloha, everybody.
Welcome to Your Heart Magic.
This is Dr.
Bethane Kapansky Wright.
And today we have a talk storytime episode where I'm going to
be sharing a few passages fromone of my books and doing some
candid reflections on thewriting.
The selection I chose today isfrom Revelations of the Sky.
(00:52):
And a lot of times when I dotalk story episodes, I will
sometimes choose a topic likeautumn, autumn equinox, or
something like that.
And I will find passages thatmaybe speak to me from various
books that I've written thatspeak to that particular topic.
But today I actually picked upRevelations of the Sky.
(01:13):
It's a book that I wrote backin 2018, 19, 20.
I think it came out in 2020.
And it is the third book in thegrief trilogy that I wrote
after losing my brother Brent,which is so much more than a
grief trilogy.
It's really a trilogy thatbegan with grief and the impetus
(01:33):
of losing my brother andputting together a collection of
writings about that is whatbegan it.
But it's really about grief andlove and loss and finding one's
purpose.
And it carries me through sucha transformative time in my life
where I had moved to the islandof Kauai a year after the loss,
(01:55):
about a year and a half, andwas opening up in bigger ways to
a more spiritual and intuitiveand creative path.
So the trilogy itselfencapsulates such a beautiful
chunk of my life that I justcould never write it again, not
like that.
It's the kind of writing thatwas written while I was living
(02:17):
it.
And I'm so grateful that I wasable to put words to those
experiences and capture them inthese little gems to share with
others.
But I also look at it and knowthat it really reflects this
very unique passage in life.
And as I was flipping throughRevelations today to get some
(02:37):
inspiration for a topic toshare, it just jumped out at me
to share a few passages fromthere because the book itself is
really a book on becoming.
It is a book onself-determination and finding
purpose and going throughintense personal growth.
I actually started to read anessay and it was almost painful
(02:58):
to read.
I wanted to go back through thepages and give myself a hug.
I was in such a questioning andseeking phase of my life at
that time.
And something that ofteninspires me as an author is to
write down what would I say tomy younger self.
And some of the things that I'mworking on right now are the
kinds of things that I might goback and say to myself five
(03:21):
years, six years ago, sevenyears ago.
So that time in my life is agift that has kept on giving as
a writer in terms of richness ofexperience and going back and
retilling that soil andthinking, well, what do I know
now?
What might I tell myself now?
And yet, the beautiful alchemyof life is that the only way to
(03:43):
get to any wisdom that I mightnow have that I would go back
and tell that younger version ofmyself was to live it and go
through it.
And isn't that part of whatpersonal growth is about?
Part of our spiritual wisdom isthat we really can't access
certain parts of wisdom withoutthe life experience.
(04:04):
We can study it, we canidentify as being an old soul
and feel like we might know morethan our biological age.
But there are some things thatare best understood through
living it.
And I found that real wisdom istried and tested.
It's something that we know,but then we go through these
(04:25):
trials or tribulations in ourlife, and that wisdom gets
challenged and it gets refinedand it gets tempered by that
life experience.
And we test out what parts ofit are true, what parts of it
might be an ideal, what parts ofit might be true, but it looks
different than how we expected.
And so our treasure trove ofwisdom becomes deeper and more
(04:48):
nuanced, and our awarenessaround it becomes richer and
more flavorful andmulti-layered.
And that is one of thebeautiful things that I cherish
about life wisdom and trying tobe grateful for any wisdom that
I have found on my own path.
We all have our unique brand ofwisdom, I think, and learn from
(05:11):
each other.
So, with that, this firstpassage that I want to share is
called Your Heart is Magic, andit's passage 81 from Revelations
of the Sky.
I like to think of each of usas cosmic investigators, soul
explorers, heart adventurers whoget to play Scooby-Doo with the
(05:31):
cosmos as we search for theclues that resonate in our heart
and piece together our biggerpicture of soul.
Our life then becomes apatchwork of silk scraps, love
notes, and starry truths, whichhelp us make sense of who we are
and what our purpose is in thislifetime.
One thing I've learned ispurpose is multilingual and open
(05:54):
to many interpretations.
It's not about one set path,it's about who we are, the
choices we make on a dailybasis, and how we choose to
direct our energies.
After all, there are many waysto be a light, or to be a
motivator for peace, or to be anunruly heart who does things
(06:15):
backward and out of the book,yet still states an elegant case
for the cause of love.
Purposes are like the stars.
There are billions of them,which means there are billions
of ways to shine bright andlight up the night.
Don't stop listening to thefeelings whispering and calling
to you.
Follow them.
(06:35):
Put on your spy glass and takea closer look at the things that
make your heart sing.
Collect those experiences andtapestry them together into the
bigger picture of you, even ifthey don't make sense.
They don't need to make senseto your mind.
They already make sense to yourheart.
Allow yourself the grace to bea topographer of the universe.
(06:59):
Take notes on the page of yourheart of everything you find and
see.
You're not foolish for seekingmore.
You are big, bold, beautiful,intuitive, and your heart is
magic.
Hang on to that and let theknowledge be your boon travel
companion.
Trust yourself, trust yourheart, and you can always trust
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your magic.
When I look back on that timein my life, I think one of the
gifts that I really see is thatI had stepped out of a lot of
the structures that had held mein my previous version of self.
And when I say previous versionof myself, I just mean leaving
my very well-set Alaska life,all the roles that I understood
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myself in.
I had long-term relationshipsthere.
I had a lot of deeply groupedspaces that I plugged into.
And I understood myself withinthe context of those spaces.
And so transplanting and cominghere, I took a little bit of
that with me, but a lot of it Ileft behind, or I was allowing
(08:06):
for a redefinition of it.
What do I look like over hereas a professional?
What do I look like over hereon my spiritual path?
I had to start over and havenew relationships and make new
friends.
And some of that wasn't at theforefront.
When I first came here, Ireally craved a lot of solitude
(08:27):
and time on my own.
And so I didn't necessarilyseek out relationships right
away, but I did give myself alot of permission to explore.
And sometimes I felt reallylost in that space.
And I wondered if I was doingit right.
And I really questioned myselfand wondered if I had just
really made this huge mistake.
Basically, starting overmidlife is how it felt, and not
(08:50):
having a well-formed plan ofwhat I was going to do on the
island or what it was going tolook like, but really allowing
the path to direct me was such aleap of faith.
But part of what I receivedfrom that time was the idea of
self-determination, soulsovereignty, the right to know
myself and understand myself onmy own terms, and the right to
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unbox myself from these oldconstraints and old roles that
have held me and be moreexploratory and try out new
shades of self and aspects ofself and see, well, what happens
if I step forward and callmyself an intuitive healer?
And I had intuitive gifts.
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I wasn't just slapping a labelon myself without anything there
to back it up.
But as somebody who had been ina long-term field of being a
clinical psychologist, that wasvery scary when I started
allowing myself to bring thespiritual in and playing with
words.
And how do I identify and howdo I shape my work?
And how do I integrate whereI've been with where I'm going
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and all of that?
There was so much freedom init.
And there was a lot of soulexploration going on.
And so when I wrote this piece,it was from this lens that each
of us has the capacity and theright to get to know our
personal spiritual path on ourown terms, to move towards and
be drawn towards the things thatlight us up and speak to our
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soul, to learn about somethingand say, oh, that's for me, or
maybe that's not for me, tolearn to embrace our unique
intuitive gifts and our uniquespiritual path and to give
ourselves permission to playwith it a little bit and to not
have to worry so much if I'mgetting it right, but more to be
(10:40):
in that creative experimentalphase where we step outside of
the lines and step outside ofthe lines we previously maybe
understood ourselves in andallow for this unloosening and
repatterning of self.
And so I really love thispiece.
And of course, your heart ismagic.
Well, this is the Your HeartMagic podcast.
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So for a while, I've reallyembraced the idea that if we can
learn to listen to our heartand follow its inclinations,
even if we don't understand howit's going to add up on paper,
that we will take the moreinteresting, wild, uncharted,
intuitive path, but we can trustit and it's beautiful in how it
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asks us to lean in and listento what's inside of us and
prioritize that, and then allowthat inner wisdom, that heart
wisdom, that inner guidance tobe what informs our choices and
informs our path in life.
So this next piece that I wantto read is called unpedaling.
(11:43):
And earlier, when I said I liketo sometimes write out what
would I say to my younger self?
Sometimes that's my youngerself 10 years ago, sometimes
it's my younger self from acouple weeks ago, where I'm
integrating a lesson justlearned.
And I think this passagereflects that.
Unpeddling.
My dear one, I know thestruggle is real.
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Sometimes there's a dividebetween the mind and the heart,
which tells you to believe thefear over the love.
It is a strange thing, thislife.
We move through it inaccordance to what we're first
taught.
Then growing up allows us tobecome more true.
We learn to open in the processand pedaling like a rose as our
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heart seeks to bloom.
I cannot take the struggleaway.
And my dear one, I know you'reready to release the pain.
But this I can gift to you tohelp ease the way.
Your heart is a storyteller ofworlds untold, words which speak
love, and drenched thistles andsilken breath.
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The pain you feel is the woundin the balm.
Your soul is a wild creaturewho feels to your bones.
Fleets of angels call you theirown.
Find the love, and you'll findyour way home.
I obviously wrote this during atime of struggle.
From what I recall from myvantage point, now is at the
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time I was just reallystruggling with the dreams in my
heart and bigger questionsabout my soul path, and why did
I move here and what's next?
And what is it supposed to looklike?
And all sorts of teeny tinylife lessons as well, where
things weren't easy at thatparticular point in my life,
despite the ease of being onthis beautiful tropical island
(13:31):
in my personal journey and mypersonal world, things felt
quite hard.
And I think stressors had comeup as well that left me there
kind of wringing my hand,saying, like, why is it all so
hard?
And this was this letter tomyself, this idea to myself of
you have to trust yourself andthis recognition that you're
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here to experience life.
I do feel things down to mybones.
I think that is what it is tobe an empath and a highly
sensitive person and to be sosensitive.
It's to feel things on thisheart level and this reassurance
that it's okay to feel thingsthat deeply.
That pain that you feel, it'sthe wound, but it's also the
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balm.
And that's the line that stoodout to me the most when I read
this just now is the pain youfeel is the wound and the balm.
And I often think that when wecan feel things in this
extraordinarily in-depth way,then it means our heart is open.
It is receiving, it isprocessing, it is giving us
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feedback of, oh my gosh, thishurts.
It's letting us know that it isvibrant and alive.
And those who can feel thingsso deeply tend to have a lot of
intuitive intelligence andcreativity and
mystic-mindedness.
They tend to have some kind ofsensory perception that informs
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their experience as well.
And so there's gifts in that.
They might not be the easiestgifts, but if we can learn to
work with them and harness themand see that our pathway through
is not to shut down our heartor not to feel as much.
It's to recognize theirstrength in being able to feel
so much.
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It means that I am emotionallybig.
I am a live wire for love.
I remember one time I gotthrough a season of heartbreak
where the other person had movedon and I felt like I was still
like hard on the floor, kind ofripped out of my chest.
And I remember thinking, howcan you move on so quickly?
And then it really struck methat my ability to love and to
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feel and to attach and to reallytruly care about something is
such an asset.
And sometimes it might hurt me,but it also means that like
love is my superpower.
And I've told that story beforeon the podcast, but I found
such strength in that and reallyconceptualized it, like taking
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my love and kind of wrapping itaround me, like my superhero
cloak, and being like, I'm abadass for love, that I can feel
things so deeply.
And so I like to play withthat.
I like to take something wheresometimes we say, Why is it so
hard?
And it's like, well, it's hardbecause you feel so much and you
attach to things deeply.
And I have a very idealisticside of me that has absolutely
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been tempered by life.
And when I talked about wisdomearlier, that's some of the
tempering and the challengingprocess and this exfoliation of
my ideals against what's real.
But very grounded wisdom cancome from that.
And I wouldn't change thatabout myself.
Maybe it's made parts of thejourney harder where I feel
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things so deeply, but I alsothink it makes it so much more
beautiful.
And then the capacity toexperience joy and magic and
finding the sacred in theeveryday is so rich.
This last piece that I want toshare today is called permission
to shine.
And part of what came throughsome of the struggle of what I
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shared earlier was a lot ofcourage and really seeing the
strength in myself ofundertaking this journey and
trusting my heart.
And a lot of what we do in lifethat is so meaningful, it's
invisible.
We can try and put it intowords to share with somebody
else why something meantsomething to us to such a
degree.
But it is hard to translate ourexperience in a way that
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sometimes resonates with others.
It's almost like words make itone-dimensional when the
richness of the experienceitself is so like 5D, 90.
It is multidimensional.
And part of what came throughthat time of struggle in my life
that I did my best to captureinto words is this real radical
abidance in myself and belief infor better or for worse, I can
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trust myself on this path.
I can trust my heart, I cantrust my growth, I can trust my
mistakes, I can trust theimperfect perfection of my life
and see the whole of it.
And that gave me courage to bebraver and to be stronger.
And at some point on myjourney, I started to stop
doubting myself as much and stopdoubting or worrying about how
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my work might be received, or ifI shared my words via writing
or speaking, what might happen.
Because my own journey hadgiven me a lot of confidence
that I will walk the long roadwhen it comes to the matter of
my heart and the vision of myheart.
I will walk there, I will walkback again, I will stay on that
(18:41):
journey for as long as I needto.
I'm still on that journey.
But this kind of encapsulates apart of a cycle of that
journey.
And as I was coming throughsome of the struggle, there's
always the gift on the otherside of struggle.
There's always a growth, uh,wisdom learned, some new jewels
of the heart and gems of themind if we are paying attention
(19:03):
and listening.
And so part of the gift for mewas this greater sense of
expansion and more freedom ofself-expression.
So this is called permission toshine.
A voice floated in on atangerine dream, confetied with
flecks of white and gold.
It is safe to become and beseen is your highest expression
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of self.
Words of growth and changewhich say trust is key when we
are fully ready to commit to thesensitive knowing in our
contrary hearts who refuse tofit the boxes this world has
carved out.
Trust can be hard.
Unpealing fears like onionssheds our old skins and ignites
(19:48):
us to live life from a deeplyvulnerable space.
But this space is where yourmagic is found.
This space is where your heartcries and soul sighs, sigh the
loudest and can tip your lifeupside down in dazzling spirals
of adventure and grace, shouldyou have the courage to follow.
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Doubts are human and valid,reluctance understandable in the
face of brave change.
Take all the time you need,dear one, to go within and let
the amber flames of your lifeforce refine such things.
But please don't let yourselfbe steeped, stopped, or stepped
by others' careless words andblind opinions who judge what
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they do not see or know.
Because they smother theirheart cries and soul sighs long
ago.
You were meant to experiencethe world and celestial
technicolor and symphonicsymphony, bright soul.
So let yourself grow.
Let yourself move with thetrees and listen to the music of
the elven beats.
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Let yourself see the sky pinkand hear the world and dreams.
Let yourself keep tunnelinginto your most authentic,
exquisite, soulful being.
If anyone should look at youaskance, keep on with your dance
and joyfully say, It is safe tobecome and be seen is my
highest expression of self.
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Thank you so much for joiningme on the podcast today.
All of those passages were fromRevelations of the Sky.
And you can find that on Amazonand other online book
retailers.
I will be back next week withan all-new Your Heart Magic
episode.
In the meantime, have abeautiful week.
And as always, be well, belove, be you, and be magic.
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your light.
Aloha and welcome to Your Heart Magic, an
illuminating space wherepsychology, spirituality, and
heart wisdom meet.
Here's your host, Dr.
Bethane Kapansky Wright,author, psychologist, and
spiritual educator.
Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wr (00:32):
Aloha, everybody.
Welcome to Your Heart Magic.
This is Dr.
Bethane Kapansky Wright.
And today we have a talk storytime episode where I'm going to
be sharing a few passages fromone of my books and doing some
candid reflections on thewriting.
The selection I chose today isfrom Revelations of the Sky.
(00:52):
And a lot of times when I dotalk story episodes, I will
sometimes choose a topic likeautumn, autumn equinox, or
something like that.
And I will find passages thatmaybe speak to me from various
books that I've written thatspeak to that particular topic.
But today I actually picked upRevelations of the Sky.
(01:13):
It's a book that I wrote backin 2018, 19, 20.
I think it came out in 2020.
And it is the third book in thegrief trilogy that I wrote
after losing my brother Brent,which is so much more than a
grief trilogy.
It's really a trilogy thatbegan with grief and the impetus
(01:33):
of losing my brother andputting together a collection of
writings about that is whatbegan it.
But it's really about grief andlove and loss and finding one's
purpose.
And it carries me through sucha transformative time in my life
where I had moved to the islandof Kauai a year after the loss,
(01:55):
about a year and a half, andwas opening up in bigger ways to
a more spiritual and intuitiveand creative path.
So the trilogy itselfencapsulates such a beautiful
chunk of my life that I justcould never write it again, not
like that.
It's the kind of writing thatwas written while I was living
(02:17):
it.
And I'm so grateful that I wasable to put words to those
experiences and capture them inthese little gems to share with
others.
But I also look at it and knowthat it really reflects this
very unique passage in life.
And as I was flipping throughRevelations today to get some
(02:37):
inspiration for a topic toshare, it just jumped out at me
to share a few passages fromthere because the book itself is
really a book on becoming.
It is a book onself-determination and finding
purpose and going throughintense personal growth.
I actually started to read anessay and it was almost painful
(02:58):
to read.
I wanted to go back through thepages and give myself a hug.
I was in such a questioning andseeking phase of my life at
that time.
And something that ofteninspires me as an author is to
write down what would I say tomy younger self.
And some of the things that I'mworking on right now are the
kinds of things that I might goback and say to myself five
(03:21):
years, six years ago, sevenyears ago.
So that time in my life is agift that has kept on giving as
a writer in terms of richness ofexperience and going back and
retilling that soil andthinking, well, what do I know
now?
What might I tell myself now?
And yet, the beautiful alchemyof life is that the only way to
(03:43):
get to any wisdom that I mightnow have that I would go back
and tell that younger version ofmyself was to live it and go
through it.
And isn't that part of whatpersonal growth is about?
Part of our spiritual wisdom isthat we really can't access
certain parts of wisdom withoutthe life experience.
(04:04):
We can study it, we canidentify as being an old soul
and feel like we might know morethan our biological age.
But there are some things thatare best understood through
living it.
And I found that real wisdom istried and tested.
It's something that we know,but then we go through these
(04:25):
trials or tribulations in ourlife, and that wisdom gets
challenged and it gets refinedand it gets tempered by that
life experience.
And we test out what parts ofit are true, what parts of it
might be an ideal, what parts ofit might be true, but it looks
different than how we expected.
And so our treasure trove ofwisdom becomes deeper and more
(04:48):
nuanced, and our awarenessaround it becomes richer and
more flavorful andmulti-layered.
And that is one of thebeautiful things that I cherish
about life wisdom and trying tobe grateful for any wisdom that
I have found on my own path.
We all have our unique brand ofwisdom, I think, and learn from
(05:11):
each other.
So, with that, this firstpassage that I want to share is
called Your Heart is Magic, andit's passage 81 from Revelations
of the Sky.
I like to think of each of usas cosmic investigators, soul
explorers, heart adventurers whoget to play Scooby-Doo with the
(05:31):
cosmos as we search for theclues that resonate in our heart
and piece together our biggerpicture of soul.
Our life then becomes apatchwork of silk scraps, love
notes, and starry truths, whichhelp us make sense of who we are
and what our purpose is in thislifetime.
One thing I've learned ispurpose is multilingual and open
(05:54):
to many interpretations.
It's not about one set path,it's about who we are, the
choices we make on a dailybasis, and how we choose to
direct our energies.
After all, there are many waysto be a light, or to be a
motivator for peace, or to be anunruly heart who does things
(06:15):
backward and out of the book,yet still states an elegant case
for the cause of love.
Purposes are like the stars.
There are billions of them,which means there are billions
of ways to shine bright andlight up the night.
Don't stop listening to thefeelings whispering and calling
to you.
Follow them.
(06:35):
Put on your spy glass and takea closer look at the things that
make your heart sing.
Collect those experiences andtapestry them together into the
bigger picture of you, even ifthey don't make sense.
They don't need to make senseto your mind.
They already make sense to yourheart.
Allow yourself the grace to bea topographer of the universe.
(06:59):
Take notes on the page of yourheart of everything you find and
see.
You're not foolish for seekingmore.
You are big, bold, beautiful,intuitive, and your heart is
magic.
Hang on to that and let theknowledge be your boon travel
companion.
Trust yourself, trust yourheart, and you can always trust
(07:21):
your magic.
When I look back on that timein my life, I think one of the
gifts that I really see is thatI had stepped out of a lot of
the structures that had held mein my previous version of self.
And when I say previous versionof myself, I just mean leaving
my very well-set Alaska life,all the roles that I understood
(07:44):
myself in.
I had long-term relationshipsthere.
I had a lot of deeply groupedspaces that I plugged into.
And I understood myself withinthe context of those spaces.
And so transplanting and cominghere, I took a little bit of
that with me, but a lot of it Ileft behind, or I was allowing
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for a redefinition of it.
What do I look like over hereas a professional?
What do I look like over hereon my spiritual path?
I had to start over and havenew relationships and make new
friends.
And some of that wasn't at theforefront.
When I first came here, Ireally craved a lot of solitude
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and time on my own.
And so I didn't necessarilyseek out relationships right
away, but I did give myself alot of permission to explore.
And sometimes I felt reallylost in that space.
And I wondered if I was doingit right.
And I really questioned myselfand wondered if I had just
really made this huge mistake.
Basically, starting overmidlife is how it felt, and not
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having a well-formed plan ofwhat I was going to do on the
island or what it was going tolook like, but really allowing
the path to direct me was such aleap of faith.
But part of what I receivedfrom that time was the idea of
self-determination, soulsovereignty, the right to know
myself and understand myself onmy own terms, and the right to
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unbox myself from these oldconstraints and old roles that
have held me and be moreexploratory and try out new
shades of self and aspects ofself and see, well, what happens
if I step forward and callmyself an intuitive healer?
And I had intuitive gifts.
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I wasn't just slapping a labelon myself without anything there
to back it up.
But as somebody who had been ina long-term field of being a
clinical psychologist, that wasvery scary when I started
allowing myself to bring thespiritual in and playing with
words.
And how do I identify and howdo I shape my work?
And how do I integrate whereI've been with where I'm going
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and all of that?
There was so much freedom init.
And there was a lot of soulexploration going on.
And so when I wrote this piece,it was from this lens that each
of us has the capacity and theright to get to know our
personal spiritual path on ourown terms, to move towards and
be drawn towards the things thatlight us up and speak to our
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soul, to learn about somethingand say, oh, that's for me, or
maybe that's not for me, tolearn to embrace our unique
intuitive gifts and our uniquespiritual path and to give
ourselves permission to playwith it a little bit and to not
have to worry so much if I'mgetting it right, but more to be
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in that creative experimentalphase where we step outside of
the lines and step outside ofthe lines we previously maybe
understood ourselves in andallow for this unloosening and
repatterning of self.
And so I really love thispiece.
And of course, your heart ismagic.
Well, this is the Your HeartMagic podcast.
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So for a while, I've reallyembraced the idea that if we can
learn to listen to our heartand follow its inclinations,
even if we don't understand howit's going to add up on paper,
that we will take the moreinteresting, wild, uncharted,
intuitive path, but we can trustit and it's beautiful in how it
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asks us to lean in and listento what's inside of us and
prioritize that, and then allowthat inner wisdom, that heart
wisdom, that inner guidance tobe what informs our choices and
informs our path in life.
So this next piece that I wantto read is called unpedaling.
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And earlier, when I said I liketo sometimes write out what
would I say to my younger self?
Sometimes that's my youngerself 10 years ago, sometimes
it's my younger self from acouple weeks ago, where I'm
integrating a lesson justlearned.
And I think this passagereflects that.
Unpeddling.
My dear one, I know thestruggle is real.
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Sometimes there's a dividebetween the mind and the heart,
which tells you to believe thefear over the love.
It is a strange thing, thislife.
We move through it inaccordance to what we're first
taught.
Then growing up allows us tobecome more true.
We learn to open in the processand pedaling like a rose as our
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heart seeks to bloom.
I cannot take the struggleaway.
And my dear one, I know you'reready to release the pain.
But this I can gift to you tohelp ease the way.
Your heart is a storyteller ofworlds untold, words which speak
love, and drenched thistles andsilken breath.
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The pain you feel is the woundin the balm.
Your soul is a wild creaturewho feels to your bones.
Fleets of angels call you theirown.
Find the love, and you'll findyour way home.
I obviously wrote this during atime of struggle.
From what I recall from myvantage point, now is at the
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time I was just reallystruggling with the dreams in my
heart and bigger questionsabout my soul path, and why did
I move here and what's next?
And what is it supposed to looklike?
And all sorts of teeny tinylife lessons as well, where
things weren't easy at thatparticular point in my life,
despite the ease of being onthis beautiful tropical island
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in my personal journey and mypersonal world, things felt
quite hard.
And I think stressors had comeup as well that left me there
kind of wringing my hand,saying, like, why is it all so
hard?
And this was this letter tomyself, this idea to myself of
you have to trust yourself andthis recognition that you're
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here to experience life.
I do feel things down to mybones.
I think that is what it is tobe an empath and a highly
sensitive person and to be sosensitive.
It's to feel things on thisheart level and this reassurance
that it's okay to feel thingsthat deeply.
That pain that you feel, it'sthe wound, but it's also the
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balm.
And that's the line that stoodout to me the most when I read
this just now is the pain youfeel is the wound and the balm.
And I often think that when wecan feel things in this
extraordinarily in-depth way,then it means our heart is open.
It is receiving, it isprocessing, it is giving us
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feedback of, oh my gosh, thishurts.
It's letting us know that it isvibrant and alive.
And those who can feel thingsso deeply tend to have a lot of
intuitive intelligence andcreativity and
mystic-mindedness.
They tend to have some kind ofsensory perception that informs
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their experience as well.
And so there's gifts in that.
They might not be the easiestgifts, but if we can learn to
work with them and harness themand see that our pathway through
is not to shut down our heartor not to feel as much.
It's to recognize theirstrength in being able to feel
so much.
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It means that I am emotionallybig.
I am a live wire for love.
I remember one time I gotthrough a season of heartbreak
where the other person had movedon and I felt like I was still
like hard on the floor, kind ofripped out of my chest.
And I remember thinking, howcan you move on so quickly?
And then it really struck methat my ability to love and to
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feel and to attach and to reallytruly care about something is
such an asset.
And sometimes it might hurt me,but it also means that like
love is my superpower.
And I've told that story beforeon the podcast, but I found
such strength in that and reallyconceptualized it, like taking
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my love and kind of wrapping itaround me, like my superhero
cloak, and being like, I'm abadass for love, that I can feel
things so deeply.
And so I like to play withthat.
I like to take something wheresometimes we say, Why is it so
hard?
And it's like, well, it's hardbecause you feel so much and you
attach to things deeply.
And I have a very idealisticside of me that has absolutely
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been tempered by life.
And when I talked about wisdomearlier, that's some of the
tempering and the challengingprocess and this exfoliation of
my ideals against what's real.
But very grounded wisdom cancome from that.
And I wouldn't change thatabout myself.
Maybe it's made parts of thejourney harder where I feel
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things so deeply, but I alsothink it makes it so much more
beautiful.
And then the capacity toexperience joy and magic and
finding the sacred in theeveryday is so rich.
This last piece that I want toshare today is called permission
to shine.
And part of what came throughsome of the struggle of what I
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shared earlier was a lot ofcourage and really seeing the
strength in myself ofundertaking this journey and
trusting my heart.
And a lot of what we do in lifethat is so meaningful, it's
invisible.
We can try and put it intowords to share with somebody
else why something meantsomething to us to such a
degree.
But it is hard to translate ourexperience in a way that
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sometimes resonates with others.
It's almost like words make itone-dimensional when the
richness of the experienceitself is so like 5D, 90.
It is multidimensional.
And part of what came throughthat time of struggle in my life
that I did my best to captureinto words is this real radical
abidance in myself and belief infor better or for worse, I can
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trust myself on this path.
I can trust my heart, I cantrust my growth, I can trust my
mistakes, I can trust theimperfect perfection of my life
and see the whole of it.
And that gave me courage to bebraver and to be stronger.
And at some point on myjourney, I started to stop
doubting myself as much and stopdoubting or worrying about how
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my work might be received, or ifI shared my words via writing
or speaking, what might happen.
Because my own journey hadgiven me a lot of confidence
that I will walk the long roadwhen it comes to the matter of
my heart and the vision of myheart.
I will walk there, I will walkback again, I will stay on that
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journey for as long as I needto.
I'm still on that journey.
But this kind of encapsulates apart of a cycle of that
journey.
And as I was coming throughsome of the struggle, there's
always the gift on the otherside of struggle.
There's always a growth, uh,wisdom learned, some new jewels
of the heart and gems of themind if we are paying attention
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and listening.
And so part of the gift for mewas this greater sense of
expansion and more freedom ofself-expression.
So this is called permission toshine.
A voice floated in on atangerine dream, confetied with
flecks of white and gold.
It is safe to become and beseen is your highest expression
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of self.
Words of growth and changewhich say trust is key when we
are fully ready to commit to thesensitive knowing in our
contrary hearts who refuse tofit the boxes this world has
carved out.
Trust can be hard.
Unpealing fears like onionssheds our old skins and ignites
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us to live life from a deeplyvulnerable space.
But this space is where yourmagic is found.
This space is where your heartcries and soul sighs, sigh the
loudest and can tip your lifeupside down in dazzling spirals
of adventure and grace, shouldyou have the courage to follow.
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Doubts are human and valid,reluctance understandable in the
face of brave change.
Take all the time you need,dear one, to go within and let
the amber flames of your lifeforce refine such things.
But please don't let yourselfbe steeped, stopped, or stepped
by others' careless words andblind opinions who judge what
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they do not see or know.
Because they smother theirheart cries and soul sighs long
ago.
You were meant to experiencethe world and celestial
technicolor and symphonicsymphony, bright soul.
So let yourself grow.
Let yourself move with thetrees and listen to the music of
the elven beats.
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Let yourself see the sky pinkand hear the world and dreams.
Let yourself keep tunnelinginto your most authentic,
exquisite, soulful being.
If anyone should look at youaskance, keep on with your dance
and joyfully say, It is safe tobecome and be seen is my
highest expression of self.
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Thank you so much for joiningme on the podcast today.
All of those passages were fromRevelations of the Sky.
And you can find that on Amazonand other online book
retailers.
I will be back next week withan all-new Your Heart Magic
episode.
In the meantime, have abeautiful week.
And as always, be well, belove, be you, and be magic.
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