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Speaker 1 (00:00):
All right, hi everybody, justin Winne Whinnie. I'm sick. I
have a cold.
Speaker 2 (00:03):
I'm sorry to hear that. And we have a meeting.
Speaker 1 (00:05):
I don't care about the meeting. I care more about
my cold.
Speaker 2 (00:08):
I have it.
Speaker 1 (00:08):
What's called a man cold.
Speaker 2 (00:09):
I know. I hate this time year. You get them
and then you bitch out.
Speaker 1 (00:12):
Yeah, I'm actually not doing bad. I'm not right.
Speaker 2 (00:15):
No, you haven't complained to Yeah.
Speaker 1 (00:16):
Yeah, yeah, I'm just very congested in the head. I
last week I had a little something something, but I
would describe now mind you. My daughter is too, Yeah,
she's daycare. I've been sick for three months. Yeah, like
runny nose all that. So I've dodged it. My wife
had it bad a few weeks ago. But last week
I started to feel a little something something, but it
was only like twenty to thirty percent. I felt it
(00:39):
was in me, but it was like nothing. Yeah, I
go nice. My immune system is breaking this thing down,
kicking it's fucking ass yep. Okay. So then on Friday
after Thanksgiving, I worked out my buddy Chris, and he
shows up to the gym in the morning, gets out
of the car, and he's liked it. I'm so sick,
like I'm my head's packed, like I can't hear whatever.
I go. Good, dude, I got the same thing. But
(01:01):
I mean it didn't really hit me like it's hitting you.
I'm good. So we worked out together, we did ice
baths together, make out with you too. Got it in
the hot tub, I know. But we're working out, we're touching,
we're talking close talking. Yeah. Yeah, and so sure enough,
Monday night or Monday Sunday night, I stopped feeling a
little something something. He gave me something. Today's given Tuesday,
(01:22):
and he gave me.
Speaker 2 (01:23):
Give it to me.
Speaker 1 (01:24):
I'm sorry if I do. There's nothing I can do.
Do you stay home for a cold? No, please don't.
The only thing you stay home for are flu, I
think right, and stomach stuff. That's a big one, you know.
I always say, you know, I've had COVID several times,
luckily not that bad, just a running nose. I had
the stomach bug and it was like the end of
the world. Yeah, I was in my bed like in
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the fetal position. It was bad.
Speaker 3 (01:47):
It's bad, but you kind of feel good afterwards, y'all
cleaned out.
Speaker 1 (01:50):
I guess the one thing I hate about the stomach
bug is whatever you ate the last thing you ate
before it hits. Yeah. So the last time it was
ground turkey, which I eat a lot of and now
and I couldn't eat it for a while after. So
you know that there were certain I'm gonna talkative mood
even though I'm sick. Did you know that when I
was younger, there was you know, I would take pills
(02:11):
when I was a teenager, you know, I started with
pills and stuff like you run, yeah, not to keep
going back to the drugs. So I was really into
what's called benzo diazepines. That's klonopin, xanax, valume, ata van.
So the anti anxiety medications. They essentially calm you down,
that's what's supposed to do, but you know they make
you kind of crazy.
Speaker 2 (02:30):
They so if you overdose on them, right.
Speaker 1 (02:33):
Well, take a lot of them, you get fucked up.
Speaker 2 (02:37):
So you get super calm.
Speaker 1 (02:39):
No, I didn't get crazy. There's a big joke about
you steal It makes you. It makes you think you're superman.
Basically you lose all fear, like you have no fear. Yeah,
So I'll give you an example. I think pretty much
every if not maybe close to if not all times
I got arrested in my life, I was on those pills.
(03:00):
Really yeah, I mean I would just like walk into
a store and just walk out with stuff I needn't
and and the here's the crazy thing about it's scary.
I would wake up and not have any recollection. It
killed my memory. So it got to a point where
my friends and I we would take them, like on
a Monday, and as soon as I was taking them,
I would think to myself, we would joke about it.
(03:21):
They'd be like, see you on Thursday. We would lose days.
I lost days, I lost weeks of my life. I
have no recollection.
Speaker 2 (03:27):
Wow.
Speaker 1 (03:27):
Actually, one of the last times that I used before
I finally got clean, I was living in newbury Port, right,
and I took the train to Malden to my grandmother's house.
I met, I got a kid, I got some stuff,
and he had pills, and so I took the pills
and I did the stuff. Okay, So the last thing
I remember was I was at my grandmother's house and
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she made me a sandwich. I'm like, okay, I ate
the sandwich. I wake up the next day and I
had no car. Right, this is all train, buses, whatever.
I wake up the next day home in newberry Port.
You have no idea how you got there, no idea
how I got there. So I always thought to myself,
what was I like? When I took the train from
Malden Station's North station, then the Purple Line. Then I
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had to take a taxi because it was far with
What was I like?
Speaker 2 (04:13):
You think, like the people that you see on mass
and casts.
Speaker 1 (04:16):
I guess, I guess.
Speaker 2 (04:18):
I don't even know.
Speaker 1 (04:19):
I don't even know what I was doing, you know.
But anyway, I bring that up because those pills ruined
food for me, so I couldn't anything that I ate
or drank while on them. It did something to my
taste buds. So mountain dew was a big one. I
loved mountain dew, and I could never drink it again
after that. It ruined the taste.
Speaker 2 (04:37):
Funny, because then you ended up gaining two hundred pounds.
Speaker 1 (04:39):
Yeah, when I got cleaned.
Speaker 2 (04:41):
Oh, I didn't ruin it for you that much.
Speaker 1 (04:42):
Now, But I didn't drink mountain dew. I didn't drink
mountain dew.
Speaker 2 (04:45):
Yeah, you didn't ruin McDonald's for you.
Speaker 1 (04:48):
It did not know. I love McDonald's. We got McDonald's
over the long weekend. No, no, the weekend before your
usual No? Wells, no, yes, yes, yes. So I get
a meet large with a twenty piece on the side.
Speaker 2 (05:02):
You do a quarter pound, right?
Speaker 3 (05:03):
No?
Speaker 1 (05:03):
I switch it up. Sometimes I get the Choo cheeseburgers
and then I get only Big Mac sauce and bacon
and mayo.
Speaker 2 (05:10):
I do only Big Mac.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
That's the hack.
Speaker 2 (05:12):
Wait, do you ever do a Big.
Speaker 1 (05:13):
Mac or No? Sometimes they're really messy to me. I
don't like the lettuce. Yeah, I like it, but it's
too messy. But necessary, it really is. I don't know
what the point is about you. So I'll get a
mail large and then i'll get sometime i'll get a
side fry twenty piece and I'll get and then i'll
get a mcflurry. I get both, so they'll they'll do both.
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She mixed them all together, and then right, this is
how fat I am. I'll also like around now is
a good time Halloween. So I'll go home and when
I get to go to eat it, I'll pull the
candy from the bowl and add to it, and I'll
add to it. Well, I'll eat like half of it.
And get most of the candy and then go and
pull and put more in.
Speaker 2 (05:52):
You know what I love about you is you'll do
all this to get a coke zero.
Speaker 1 (05:55):
Yeah. I don't want to added calories. I know, it's
really weird. I know at that point the coke is
You want to know another hack? Do you get ice
cream and a cone or a cup?
Speaker 3 (06:07):
So okay, sometimes I'll do a cone, or sometimes I'll
do a cup of the cone inside.
Speaker 1 (06:11):
That's a good idea. Here's here's a hot tip for you.
If you get it in a cup. Okay, do you
get sprinkles? Okay? You have you order it and you
say I want the sprinkles on the bottom and the top.
Speaker 2 (06:22):
Okay, yeah, okay.
Speaker 1 (06:23):
Yeah, because my whole life I would eat the ice
cream out of the cup and I would get to
the bottom, they'd be gone. I like the crunch. And
then there's a spot in Haverol, Bradford. It's called Carter's
ice Cream And when we lived in Haverol, we went
there and they automatically do that. They put the sprinkles
on the bottom of the top, so it's like a
prize at the bottom. You do all that work and
then at the bottom and there's a whole brand new
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layer of sprinkles. It's so good.
Speaker 2 (06:49):
So again, it didn't ruin food for you that much.
Speaker 1 (06:51):
It's everyone certain certain types of food for sure. Yeah.
Those benzos were no joke though, Like all my stealing
happened when I was on them, Like imagine when he
imagine like having no fear of the police. Well, because I.
Speaker 3 (07:05):
Feel like anybody when you were doing intravenous Yeah right,
you were kind of you weren't as.
Speaker 1 (07:10):
But I had fear. I had fear saying.
Speaker 2 (07:13):
You were not like you were more like a shadow
of yourself.
Speaker 3 (07:16):
Yeah, yeah, you know what I mean, where you were
just like just taking the drugs, get nodding off and
going to sleep.
Speaker 1 (07:21):
Yeah. Right, Well it gets to a point where you
just you're not even getting high, You're just trying not to.
Speaker 3 (07:24):
Be sick, right, and then what with the pills that
they were, they were actually getting you like high. Yeah,
to the point where you're like I'm invisible, I'm invincible.
Speaker 1 (07:32):
All my fights happened on those I mean everything that
I every crazy thing that I could happen, Like when
I was just on shooting drugs, like I was just
did nothing right.
Speaker 3 (07:42):
That's what I'm saying. The pills were like worse. Yeah,
but you know what, I also feel like you said
you didn't remember days or weeks of your life.
Speaker 2 (07:49):
That's why I'm still shocked. You don't have a kid
that's like twenty walking around. You probably have a kid
in college.
Speaker 1 (07:57):
Well, there was there was a girl that I hoped
up with at my house. This is actually actually a
crazy story. Crazy. I actually told this recently. I met
a girl. She came to my house. She was an
IVY drug user. We cought some stuff, we went back.
When we got back to my house, she said to me,
when this is gonna blow your mind. She goes, I'm
gonna need you to help me. You can go first,
I need you to help me after. And I thought
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that just meant she needed me to yes, because that
was very common for people to do other people. So
I said, no problem. So I did myself and then
I go, okay, let's go, and she in her purse
pulls out a little mirror and she goes, Okay, I
just need you to hold this up for me, And
I'm like, what do you mean? She could just hold
it up in front of my face, and I had
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no idea what she was talking about, and she pulled
it out. She shot herself up in the neck, in
her jugular vein. That's where she went. It was I
couldn't have I mean I didn't. I did it. I
held it up for it and she went. I was
so scared that she was going to die. And she
was like, it's fine, I do it all the time.
It actually it hits you harder. Yeah. Crazy. Anyway, we
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did our thing, and you know, you know yes. And
months later I showed up to a detox and she
was in there. She had been there for a couple
of days, and she was pregnant. I didn't know how
long she was, but I started talking to her and
she was like, oh remember me, Oh yeah, and the
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hometime looking at her belly and I'm like trying to
do the math in my head. And then finally, after
a couple of days, I said to her, or she
said to me, like, are you concerned? This is your kid?
I'm like, yeah, she goes, don't I don't think it is.
Speaker 2 (09:33):
I don't think.
Speaker 1 (09:34):
Yeah, I don't think.
Speaker 2 (09:35):
I don't think she doesn't know.
Speaker 1 (09:37):
I go, you sure, And she's kind of like played
the whole tabe. I don't think it is because shed
the way she explained it, she had that didn't really
match up. But that was time and.
Speaker 2 (09:50):
She was high.
Speaker 1 (09:51):
That's true.
Speaker 2 (09:52):
So where is the kid now?
Speaker 1 (09:53):
I never saw her again?
Speaker 2 (09:55):
You think she's alive?
Speaker 1 (09:57):
I mean she was shooting in her neck. I know,
I'd never seen that before.
Speaker 2 (10:01):
You know her name?
Speaker 1 (10:02):
I don't remember her name.
Speaker 3 (10:03):
Okay, So you have a child with somebody you know, Well,
then there was my cousin's kid.
Speaker 1 (10:10):
They thought that was my kid.
Speaker 2 (10:11):
He looks just like you.
Speaker 1 (10:12):
He does, but we all look alike. We're in the
same family. And I never had I never hooked up
with like his mom said to me, you don't know
that well. His mom said to me, like, I did
you ever? And I'm like, no, Auntie, I didn't. And
she goes, well, you sure like you don't remember I did.
She's like, I remember, you were not really present.
Speaker 2 (10:30):
The girl on drugs too?
Speaker 1 (10:32):
She is now. I think I don't think she really
was at the time. I would have remembered. I swear
I would have remembered.
Speaker 2 (10:37):
You wouldn't have remembered. You just said you lost days
in month.
Speaker 1 (10:40):
No, I know, but you can't say that there was
a chance drugs, but it's not. It's definitely not. He
he now that he's grown up more, he does look
like his dad. It's just when he was younger, he
looked like me. So there was like some concern about it.
But it was so funny. Walking around was so funny.
I just went to this whole speech about how I
forgot years of my life.
Speaker 2 (11:02):
I would, yeah, I would know. I don't know. I
have I have a clear recollection of my cousin's wife.
Speaker 1 (11:10):
Oh my god, what are we talking about? This is
this is what happened. This is what happens when I'm sick.
Speaker 2 (11:15):
Okay, I exposed myself this morning on the show. You're
exposing yourself on the efter There we go.
Speaker 1 (11:20):
Oh, I can't wait for the follow up on this
week you dogged, They're gonna dive you out.
Speaker 2 (11:24):
So fucked. Yeah, do for this show to expose myself.
Speaker 1 (11:29):
Someone's gonna hear something and dime you out. That's gonna
be great. So look for the follow up on the
winning dog saga. But uh, everyone else or all of
you guys, we will talk tomorrow on the after show.
I'm really sorry about this one. I think it was
good you do.
Speaker 2 (11:43):
Yeah. I love talking about.
Speaker 1 (11:44):
We talked about shooting up in the neck. We talked
about pills. We talked about fathering children that you don't know. Yeah, real,
real hitter when real Great job guys,