May 24, 2023 • 23 mins
Welcome to Soul Sessions! Amanda Rieger Green invites you on a journey to explore your intuitive development- deepening your connection with your higher power, the universe, God, or faith in an effort to better know yourSelf and feel aligned with your soul’s evolutionary path.
Intuition takes courage, practice and dedication. As children, we come onto the planet highly intuitive and curious. For some people that sticks, and for others it’s underdeveloped or halted at times based on life experience. Amanda is going to show you how to build and strengthen your intuitive muscles while developing a community where we can get curious and have fun together in our own self-exploration.
This week, Amanda shares her journey through the dark night of the soul, which blocked her from the sunlight of the spirit. Dealing with old traumas through alcoholism, addiction, depression, and anxiety, Amanda wasn’t living an aligned life or feeling connected to God and source energy. When she came to a place of compassionate surrender, she started developing hope and the desire for peace- wanting to heal, live clearer and more aligned with something greater.
While her gifts are organic, they didn’t happen overnight. Amanda was using her intuitive gifts in a leadership capacity in the healthcare field and eventually could not deny her soul’s calling to support others in channeling and focusing their divine spark. Amanda wants to share practical tools & techniques to help you learn to embody your innate wisdom. She tells the story of her first time reading spirit for someone she didn’t know which affirmed her God-given gifts, sparked deeper personal meaning, and helped her know that we are not alone.
Join us on this journey – be curious, ask questions, get your spiritual light turned on, and learn to live authentically yourself!
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Speaker 1 (00:08):
Hi everyone, I'm Amanda Rieger Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions.
Are you curious about developing your intuition, living more aligned,
feeling like you're in the flow, and finding practical tools
and resources they create magic in your everyday life. You're
in the right place. I've been curious about all of
(00:29):
those things almost my entire life, but I didn't know
how to develop them at a young age. It took
a while before I gained a better understanding of myself,
and it also took a lot of courage, courage and vulnerability,
stuff that I wasn't willing or even ready to cultivate
at certain points in my life. And what happened is
(00:52):
I had a really dark night of the soul, probably
from age twenty eight to about thirty two, And that
darkest time is what solidified my gifts coming out of it,
finding tools and resources to work on my personal growth
and development, healing past traumas, pain and circumstances that really
(01:15):
limited my belief and myself and also blocked me from
what I love to call the sunlight of the Spirit,
from God, from the Divine, from my faith, so intuitive development.
Just so you know, at least on my part, is
just as much about connecting with source, connecting with God
and whatever faith you hold or have, little how small,
(01:37):
whatever religious ideologies you align with, this fits. This is
about deepening your connection, better knowing yourself and better feeling
and living that part of you that's connected to the divine.
And again, it takes practice. It takes courage, it takes
building muscles, it takes dedication, repetition some times a framework,
(02:01):
but it also takes talking about it, having people, having
a community where you find things that resonate with you
and you're able to share those experiences, you're able to
practice and you get curious, you have fun. It's also
about fun because it's about self exploration ultimately, and that's
(02:21):
another piece to what this podcast is about. From a
young age, I had the gift of clear cognizance. We
all have intuition. It's just underdeveloped a lot of times
because of societal norms and we frankly don't have a
framework at a young age yet, which is happening a
little bit, but we don't have that framework to cultivate
(02:42):
and nourish intuition. As children are highly intuitive, but the
light gets shut down because we live in a linear
practical world, and I had that gift from an early age.
My clear cognizance was difficult because I would get these
downloads of information, intuitive insights that were like a knowing,
(03:03):
and I would know things in conversations. I would know
things before they happened, and I thought everybody could do that.
I thought it was a natural ability, which it is
a natural ability, but I didn't realize how highly developed
my intuition was, and it was overwhelming. Overwhelming Emotionally, I'm
a Libra, by the way, and we tend to wear
(03:24):
our heart on our sleeves sometimes, so I was sensitive
and I was afraid of criticism. That was a big
thing as being criticized. So again, developing intuition takes courage
and vulnerability, and I didn't have that until I did.
And I came to a place in my life where
I hit a pretty dark night of the soul. From
about twenty eight to thirty two, it was the most
(03:47):
challenging time of my life. Old traumas had come back
up to haunt me that I had suppressed or pushed down.
I was not living an aligned life. I did not
feel connected to God, to source. I wasn't living in faith.
I was living in a lot of shut down fear,
ego based fear, and I came from a place of reaction.
(04:07):
And it wasn't that I wasn't successful in work or
in some relationships, but I wasn't ultimately happy. I didn't
feel awake, alive, connected and inspired. It really felt lackluster
and it was hard. It was like it would be
like just climbing uphill and it was exhausting, quite frankly, unfortunately,
(04:30):
through a series of very divinely orchestrated events that were
pretty traumatic for me, a story of alcoholism and addiction
and depression, anxiety, crippling, crippling, mental challenges, emotional challenges, and
then all of these energetic and psychic challenges, I came
to a place of surrender. I love the acronym for
(04:51):
God of the gift of desperation good, and that's what
I had at about age thirty two. I was exhausted,
I was desperate. There was no light on in my eyes.
It was like I was a shell of a human
being going through the motions. And I finally came to
a place where I said, I surrender. I can't do this,
I need help. I want to live I want to
(05:13):
live better, and I'm not sure that I even believed that,
but I was hungry for it. I knew that something
had to or could be better, and I ended up
in my recovery starting to heal, starting to work on myself.
I had a better framework for living and tools to
really focus on all of the deep seated, deep rooted
(05:36):
things that I had suppressed or held down that had
become this unconscious patterning that dictated my life versus me
clearing that away to live in a more aligned, fluid,
faith based path. Essentially, And as I came to and
(05:56):
I began to wake up and start to see the
small miracles, divine orchestration of things through people, through experiences
and signs and synchronicities, and my energy started to revitalize.
Speaker 2 (06:09):
There was this hope that developed.
Speaker 1 (06:11):
And the desperation started to heal, and the hope started
to increase. And hope is an important thing to feel
hopeful even on our challenging days, our darkest days. It's
having hope, having faith, it's something is coming, something I'm
learning from this, And that's what happened through that gift
of desperation, through beginning to heal and wake up and
(06:34):
become clear. One thing I know for sure, and I
know this through some of my darkest experiences, which I
will share later on in this podcast, because I know
it will come up and I know some of you
will align with it and it will help. But in
my darkest hour, I was a channel for darker energies,
darker entities, and I was susceptible to an overwhelming darkness.
(06:56):
So just as I am a vessel of light, I
am also a vessel of darkness. I believe that we
all have the dark and the light, and you know,
it takes the darkness to make the light brighter, and
it takes ferreting through that darkness, shining a beautiful torch
into the darkness to illuminate our light, to clean it out.
(07:16):
When I started to wake up, started to heal, my
mind got clearer and light started to come back on
in my eyes. And instead of holding and channeling heavy, dark, angry,
fear based energies with doubt and worry, self consciousness, instead curiosity, happiness, joy, clarity, ease,
(07:41):
peace for goodness sakes peace like that was a big one.
I remember the moment I felt serenity and it was
fleeting it wasn't like I just felt serene, and that's
been the end of the story. But I remember I
was sitting in a rocking chair and I was doing
some journaling, I was doing some self refe I looked
(08:02):
up and there was this gorgeous sunset, and I remember thinking, Wow.
Speaker 2 (08:08):
This is beautiful.
Speaker 1 (08:10):
I feel peaceful, and it was jarring. It was alarming
because I hadn't felt peace like that maybe in my
entire life, but I had been painstaking about wanting to heal,
wanting to live clearer, to live more aligned with something
greater and more divine than I could humanly cultivate in
(08:34):
my ego based frame of mind. And when I experienced
that piece, you know, a smile just flooded through my
whole being of You're okay, things are opening up and expanding.
Speaker 2 (08:49):
You're on the path. Capital T capital P. You're on
the path.
Speaker 1 (08:54):
And it's like, once you wake up to that path,
at least for me, it's really hard to go back
to sleep. And when you know a healthier, better, clearer
way of living, when you have moments of divine alignment
and you see God, you see God in the every day,
you see it in relationships, you see it in work,
you see it in yourself. It's hard to deny that
(09:17):
it can't exist or it can't grow, so it's getting
hungry for it. I mean, I've always been a seeker
and a searcher. I just was looking in the wrong
places and I didn't know how to embody it. So
much of what I want to share on this podcast
is learning how not only to use practical tools and
techniques that resonate with you, but learning how to embody
(09:39):
your innate wisdom, your innate abilities, and to communicate them,
to live them, to allow them to live through you,
to channel that divinely seated part of you that was
given by source, by God, your higher power, in whatever
way you see or experience that. My professional background is
(10:04):
in healthcare. I have a Master of Public Health, where
I focused in health law, bioethics, human rights, and health
service delivery.
Speaker 2 (10:12):
I worked in the healthcare system. I loved what I did.
Speaker 1 (10:15):
But a lot of where I was useful was in
helping cultivate people. My leadership gifts come from a place
of learning to inspire other people, to astound them with
their innate abilities, and all the while I'm using my
intuitive gifts but not realizing it. I'm learning how to
read people, I am learning to listen better, and then
(10:36):
I'm giving people the ability to shine or bloom where
they're planted, providing them with tools and resources. And so
that was happening while I was in the healthcare field.
But at the more that I woke up, the more
that I aligned with myself, developed my intuition, ritualistically and
routinely developed my spiritual and personal muscles, and they got stronger.
(10:58):
It was almost as if I could not deny my
soul's call. And it was twenty sixteen when I made
a pretty bold leap of faith and I left corporate
health care and I started working with clients, doing readings, retreats, workshops, seminars,
and coaching people one to one on a spiritual basis,
(11:18):
soul to soul, helping channel people's higher wisdom, reflect that
back to them, and illuminate and ignite their own innate,
divine spark. And that's what I've been doing ever since.
It didn't just happen organically. It was organic, but it
didn't just happen overnight. I remember specifically, I had a
doctor's appointment and it was in the middle of a workday,
(11:42):
and I was waiting for the physician, and the tech
was in the room and she was apologizing. This physician
was still in a surgery. The physician was late. And
the whole time I'm sitting in the room, I could
feel the presence of this tech's mother or who I
thought at the time was her decay east mother on
the other side, and this woman on the other side,
(12:03):
the spirit.
Speaker 2 (12:04):
She is relentless. She will not.
Speaker 1 (12:06):
Leave me alone. She's wanting me to communicate with her daughter.
And I'm having this whole discourse with her in my head.
Mind you as I'm talking to the woman. This is
the way my gift works. I'm outwardly talking to this woman.
We're just making small talk. And then in the background
and in this disassociated state, simultaneously, her mother is saying,
you need to tell her I'm here. I have all
(12:26):
these messages. First, she needs to hear them. And I mean,
it is just chitter chatter. And I'm saying to her,
this is inappropriate. I don't know this woman. I'm in
the doctor's office. What if she thinks I'm crazy? And
the woman is arguing with me, and she's talking fast,
and she's also talking in Spanish. You know, she's giving
me signs and symbols, and she's Hispanic, and she's she's
moving faster than I can even handle. And I just
(12:48):
said to her, in my mind's eye, the way that
I communicate, I said, fine, if you give me a sign,
if you give me a sign that is so clear
from this woman that I cannot deny your existence or
communicating your messages to her, then I will have the
bravery and the courage and the boldness and the vulnerability
to say something. And she's like, fine, Well it wasn't.
(13:11):
Thirty seconds later, the woman says to me, I love
your shoes and I said, oh, thanks, thanks so much.
She said, you know who would have loved those shoes,
and I said who and she said my mother.
Speaker 2 (13:25):
And I just.
Speaker 1 (13:27):
Rolled my eyes and was nervous and annoyed. And then
also I had made a promise. I had made a
promise to this guide, the spirit guide her mother on
the other side, that I would deliver the messages. And
I said, well, funny, you say that I have the
gift of mediumship, and ever since I walked into this office,
(13:49):
your mother has been bombarding me to share messages with
you are you open to hearing from her, and the
room got silent, and I thought, oh, no, here it comes.
She's going to think I'm crazy, you know. I mean
twenty five things rolling through my head of every scenario
that could play out there. And tears started rolling down
(14:10):
her face and her cheeks. She says, my mother died
thirty days ago today, and I'm really angry. I haven't cried.
And she said, I moved her here from out of town.
We put her on hospice. She was very sick and
it was not an easy death. And immediately her mother
(14:33):
started delivering very clear evidential messages. So evidential mediumship is
where they give you messages that validate who the soul
is and that help the person really know they're connected
with the soul. And she started giving her messages, and
she said that she did not die in pain. The
hospice at the time did not really do a good
(14:55):
job with her pain management, and she was in a
lot of agony at the en and the daughter felt
a lot of guilt because she had made the decision
to move her closer so she could be with her,
and she thought it would be comfortable and smooth, and
instead it ended up being a really difficult transition, not
only for the mother, but for the daughter that I
(15:17):
was speaking with and her sister. And the mother said,
oh no, you know, she says, I'm fine. She said,
I got out of my body, you know, despite all
that human suffering, the body trying to let go. She says,
what you saw was my body letting go, not my spirit.
My spirit was holding you, holding you and your sister.
(15:39):
And I remember there was a song that she referenced.
I can't remember the song, but I remember saying, and
she's talking about this song, and the woman said that
was that's the song that's playing in my car. I've
been playing it over and over and thinking of her.
And I'm angry instead of being able to cry, and
the woman is bawling, and she's and the woman says
to me, it's probably so inappropriate that I'm crying in here,
(16:02):
and you're the patient, and you know, I'm the one
that thinking is thinking this is inappropriate or unethical, or
I'm crossing a line. And she iterated the same thing,
and all the while the doctor is not there yet,
she's stuck in a surgery. You know, we have been
gifted this space together. Anyway, The messages continued to be
(16:23):
healing and remarkable, and the woman.
Speaker 2 (16:25):
Said, this is the biggest gift.
Speaker 1 (16:28):
She says, I hadn't been able to grieve because I've
been in that state of anger. And sure enough, it
was a moment where you know, we embraced, we hugged.
I felt lighter, she felt lighter. It was bigger than us,
and the mother delivered such wonderful, loving, gracious messages that
(16:50):
I could see healing happening, and it healed my soul.
You know, mediumship, connecting with our souls, our higher selves,
with the the world around us that is unseen, is
not always just about us. It's about other people. It's
about connection. It's about knowing we're not alone, that there
is this divine plan. Even when it is traumatic or
(17:11):
tragic or difficult, we're learning, we're growing, and we're building
faith rather than losing faith. Well, ironically enough, the follow
up to that story is when I left the doctor
that day, you know, we embraced. It was really precious
and I walked out of there and I felt light
and I thought, oh my goodness, like, this isn't about me,
This is bigger than me. My gifts the way that
(17:32):
they're developing. They are about being of service, and that
is ultimately what I ask of God every morning. God,
may I be a vessel of service. Help me get
out of the way, and help me show up and
be useful for the highest good, for the highest light,
for your light to create expansiveness, higher vibrational living. Interestingly,
there was something that came up in my medical report
(17:55):
after the doctor showed up where it required a follow
up visit six months later, and so it wasn't anything
super alarming. They just wanted to do a follow up
in six months. So I showed back up six months later,
and I remember on the way there, of course, I'm
thinking about this woman and guess who shows up, her mother.
I'm driving in the car and the mother is talking
about Louby's. If you live in Texas, we have a cafeteria.
(18:18):
It's cafeteria style food called Loubi's. And all this woman
can show me is just all this food from Loubies,
tons of food from Louby's. And then she's showing me
these candles, and I'm thinking, Okay, maybe i'll see this
woman again. Maybe not food from Louby's. Candles, got it?
Speaker 2 (18:37):
Okay?
Speaker 1 (18:38):
If she's there, I'll deliver the message. Who knows where
we'll be. Now, she might think I'm crazy, you know,
she might. Who knows where her experience will of letter. Anyway,
I get back in to the office. Sure enough, the
same woman is there, and she says, I have so
much to tell you, And she just begins to share
with me all the healing that she and her sister
(18:58):
have had, the ways her her mother has continued to
show up and validate, create greater healing, help with her
organic grieving process. And it's just beautiful. And I say, well, funny,
you say that the whole way here. I don't know
what this means to you, but your mother's been trying
to get my attention, and all she can talk about
is loubies. Now, mind you, this is the way that
(19:20):
my intuition tricks me when I get in my ego
and in my fear, I went to a place of Okay,
this Hispanic lady, I'm sure she cooks great, amazing food
and has big family gatherings, because that's my own preconception.
I'm thinking, why is this Hispanic lady talking to me
about loubies, not that not everybody loves Lubies. But it
was just I couldn't.
Speaker 2 (19:39):
Figure it out.
Speaker 1 (19:40):
So I was kind of afraid to say Lubies because
I thought, well, this isn't going to make sense to
her anyway. The moment I said Loubies, she's talking about Loubies,
she said, the only restaurant my mother would want us
to take her is Loubies. And she said, we have
ordered our entire Thanksgiving dinner from Luby in her honor.
(20:02):
And I said, well, she is ready for it, and
she's ready for the feast, and she's glad you're doing this.
And I said, and then she keeps talking about candles.
She said, ever since I met with you, we met,
and we spent that time together, my sister and I
both have candles that we have lit and we have
been burning in her honor. And I said, okay, that
(20:22):
makes sense. So you know, this story, this juncture, this
point in my intuitive development, when I had one foot
in a professional role that I loved, that I was
good at, that I was trained for and qualified for
and excelling at actually, and then this other foot in
this spiritual world, this spiritual development of people seeing how
(20:44):
hungry this woman was for healing and clarification and growth
and feeling her joy, her lightness, her vibration lift in
our encounters, our chants or divinely inspired encounters. It showed
me this is your path. It would be a little
(21:04):
bit while, a little bit before I took a leap
of faith and I made the decision to jump all in,
but not that much longer because a series of events
basically told me, if you don't jump in, if you
don't utilize this gift to be of service, you are
denying a call in your soul. So my question for
you is, where's the call of your soul? Are you
(21:28):
listening to the call? Are you hearing it? Are you
pushing it down out of fear, out of insecurity? Imposter syndrome?
Speaker 2 (21:35):
We all have that. I have that all the time.
Speaker 1 (21:37):
And I've been doing this for a long time, and
i have a lot of evidence and a lot of experience,
but I still get those insecurities.
Speaker 2 (21:45):
I'm human, I'm messy.
Speaker 1 (21:47):
That's why developing our spiritual gifts, our tools, building these
muscles with practical resources, metaphysical resources, learning from other people,
listening to other people, connecting with their guides, their souls,
their higher consciousness, their higher cells, their loved ones on
the other side, interpreting dreams, tapping into astrology, numerology, finding
(22:12):
all the signs and synchronicities.
Speaker 2 (22:14):
That start to click.
Speaker 1 (22:16):
That's the stuff that helps us grow, evolve, gain the wisdom,
and gain the courage to speak from that place of wisdom.
I'm so excited you're joining me, that you're along for
the ride of your soul. I have a feeling that
this podcast is going to develop in extremely divinely aligned ways.
(22:41):
So I'm curious. I hope you get curious, and I
hope you stay tuned. You jump in, you connect, you
ask questions, you listen. But more than anything, I hope
you get your spiritual light turned on. Your muscles get stronger,
and you live more authentic. Flee yourself each and every day.
Speaker 2 (23:05):
Stay tuned.
Hi everyone, I'm Amanda Rieger Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions.
Are you curious about developing your intuition, living more aligned,
feeling like you're in the flow, and finding practical tools
and resources they create magic in your everyday life. You're
in the right place. I've been curious about all of
(00:29):
those things almost my entire life, but I didn't know
how to develop them at a young age. It took
a while before I gained a better understanding of myself,
and it also took a lot of courage, courage and vulnerability,
stuff that I wasn't willing or even ready to cultivate
at certain points in my life. And what happened is
(00:52):
I had a really dark night of the soul, probably
from age twenty eight to about thirty two, And that
darkest time is what solidified my gifts coming out of it,
finding tools and resources to work on my personal growth
and development, healing past traumas, pain and circumstances that really
(01:15):
limited my belief and myself and also blocked me from
what I love to call the sunlight of the Spirit,
from God, from the Divine, from my faith, so intuitive development.
Just so you know, at least on my part, is
just as much about connecting with source, connecting with God
and whatever faith you hold or have, little how small,
(01:37):
whatever religious ideologies you align with, this fits. This is
about deepening your connection, better knowing yourself and better feeling
and living that part of you that's connected to the divine.
And again, it takes practice. It takes courage, it takes
building muscles, it takes dedication, repetition some times a framework,
(02:01):
but it also takes talking about it, having people, having
a community where you find things that resonate with you
and you're able to share those experiences, you're able to
practice and you get curious, you have fun. It's also
about fun because it's about self exploration ultimately, and that's
(02:21):
another piece to what this podcast is about. From a
young age, I had the gift of clear cognizance. We
all have intuition. It's just underdeveloped a lot of times
because of societal norms and we frankly don't have a
framework at a young age yet, which is happening a
little bit, but we don't have that framework to cultivate
(02:42):
and nourish intuition. As children are highly intuitive, but the
light gets shut down because we live in a linear
practical world, and I had that gift from an early age.
My clear cognizance was difficult because I would get these
downloads of information, intuitive insights that were like a knowing,
(03:03):
and I would know things in conversations. I would know
things before they happened, and I thought everybody could do that.
I thought it was a natural ability, which it is
a natural ability, but I didn't realize how highly developed
my intuition was, and it was overwhelming. Overwhelming Emotionally, I'm
a Libra, by the way, and we tend to wear
(03:24):
our heart on our sleeves sometimes, so I was sensitive
and I was afraid of criticism. That was a big
thing as being criticized. So again, developing intuition takes courage
and vulnerability, and I didn't have that until I did.
And I came to a place in my life where
I hit a pretty dark night of the soul. From
about twenty eight to thirty two, it was the most
(03:47):
challenging time of my life. Old traumas had come back
up to haunt me that I had suppressed or pushed down.
I was not living an aligned life. I did not
feel connected to God, to source. I wasn't living in faith.
I was living in a lot of shut down fear,
ego based fear, and I came from a place of reaction.
(04:07):
And it wasn't that I wasn't successful in work or
in some relationships, but I wasn't ultimately happy. I didn't
feel awake, alive, connected and inspired. It really felt lackluster
and it was hard. It was like it would be
like just climbing uphill and it was exhausting, quite frankly, unfortunately,
(04:30):
through a series of very divinely orchestrated events that were
pretty traumatic for me, a story of alcoholism and addiction
and depression, anxiety, crippling, crippling, mental challenges, emotional challenges, and
then all of these energetic and psychic challenges, I came
to a place of surrender. I love the acronym for
(04:51):
God of the gift of desperation good, and that's what
I had at about age thirty two. I was exhausted,
I was desperate. There was no light on in my eyes.
It was like I was a shell of a human
being going through the motions. And I finally came to
a place where I said, I surrender. I can't do this,
I need help. I want to live I want to
(05:13):
live better, and I'm not sure that I even believed that,
but I was hungry for it. I knew that something
had to or could be better, and I ended up
in my recovery starting to heal, starting to work on myself.
I had a better framework for living and tools to
really focus on all of the deep seated, deep rooted
(05:36):
things that I had suppressed or held down that had
become this unconscious patterning that dictated my life versus me
clearing that away to live in a more aligned, fluid,
faith based path. Essentially, And as I came to and
(05:56):
I began to wake up and start to see the
small miracles, divine orchestration of things through people, through experiences
and signs and synchronicities, and my energy started to revitalize.
Speaker 2 (06:09):
There was this hope that developed.
Speaker 1 (06:11):
And the desperation started to heal, and the hope started
to increase. And hope is an important thing to feel
hopeful even on our challenging days, our darkest days. It's
having hope, having faith, it's something is coming, something I'm
learning from this, And that's what happened through that gift
of desperation, through beginning to heal and wake up and
(06:34):
become clear. One thing I know for sure, and I
know this through some of my darkest experiences, which I
will share later on in this podcast, because I know
it will come up and I know some of you
will align with it and it will help. But in
my darkest hour, I was a channel for darker energies,
darker entities, and I was susceptible to an overwhelming darkness.
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So just as I am a vessel of light, I
am also a vessel of darkness. I believe that we
all have the dark and the light, and you know,
it takes the darkness to make the light brighter, and
it takes ferreting through that darkness, shining a beautiful torch
into the darkness to illuminate our light, to clean it out.
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When I started to wake up, started to heal, my
mind got clearer and light started to come back on
in my eyes. And instead of holding and channeling heavy, dark, angry,
fear based energies with doubt and worry, self consciousness, instead curiosity, happiness, joy, clarity, ease,
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peace for goodness sakes peace like that was a big one.
I remember the moment I felt serenity and it was
fleeting it wasn't like I just felt serene, and that's
been the end of the story. But I remember I
was sitting in a rocking chair and I was doing
some journaling, I was doing some self refe I looked
(08:02):
up and there was this gorgeous sunset, and I remember thinking, Wow.
Speaker 2 (08:08):
This is beautiful.
Speaker 1 (08:10):
I feel peaceful, and it was jarring. It was alarming
because I hadn't felt peace like that maybe in my
entire life, but I had been painstaking about wanting to heal,
wanting to live clearer, to live more aligned with something
greater and more divine than I could humanly cultivate in
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my ego based frame of mind. And when I experienced
that piece, you know, a smile just flooded through my
whole being of You're okay, things are opening up and expanding.
Speaker 2 (08:49):
You're on the path. Capital T capital P. You're on
the path.
Speaker 1 (08:54):
And it's like, once you wake up to that path,
at least for me, it's really hard to go back
to sleep. And when you know a healthier, better, clearer
way of living, when you have moments of divine alignment
and you see God, you see God in the every day,
you see it in relationships, you see it in work,
you see it in yourself. It's hard to deny that
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it can't exist or it can't grow, so it's getting
hungry for it. I mean, I've always been a seeker
and a searcher. I just was looking in the wrong
places and I didn't know how to embody it. So
much of what I want to share on this podcast
is learning how not only to use practical tools and
techniques that resonate with you, but learning how to embody
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your innate wisdom, your innate abilities, and to communicate them,
to live them, to allow them to live through you,
to channel that divinely seated part of you that was
given by source, by God, your higher power, in whatever
way you see or experience that. My professional background is
(10:04):
in healthcare. I have a Master of Public Health, where
I focused in health law, bioethics, human rights, and health
service delivery.
Speaker 2 (10:12):
I worked in the healthcare system. I loved what I did.
Speaker 1 (10:15):
But a lot of where I was useful was in
helping cultivate people. My leadership gifts come from a place
of learning to inspire other people, to astound them with
their innate abilities, and all the while I'm using my
intuitive gifts but not realizing it. I'm learning how to
read people, I am learning to listen better, and then
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I'm giving people the ability to shine or bloom where
they're planted, providing them with tools and resources. And so
that was happening while I was in the healthcare field.
But at the more that I woke up, the more
that I aligned with myself, developed my intuition, ritualistically and
routinely developed my spiritual and personal muscles, and they got stronger.
(10:58):
It was almost as if I could not deny my
soul's call. And it was twenty sixteen when I made
a pretty bold leap of faith and I left corporate
health care and I started working with clients, doing readings, retreats, workshops, seminars,
and coaching people one to one on a spiritual basis,
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soul to soul, helping channel people's higher wisdom, reflect that
back to them, and illuminate and ignite their own innate,
divine spark. And that's what I've been doing ever since.
It didn't just happen organically. It was organic, but it
didn't just happen overnight. I remember specifically, I had a
doctor's appointment and it was in the middle of a workday,
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and I was waiting for the physician, and the tech
was in the room and she was apologizing. This physician
was still in a surgery. The physician was late. And
the whole time I'm sitting in the room, I could
feel the presence of this tech's mother or who I
thought at the time was her decay east mother on
the other side, and this woman on the other side,
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the spirit.
Speaker 2 (12:04):
She is relentless. She will not.
Speaker 1 (12:06):
Leave me alone. She's wanting me to communicate with her daughter.
And I'm having this whole discourse with her in my head.
Mind you as I'm talking to the woman. This is
the way my gift works. I'm outwardly talking to this woman.
We're just making small talk. And then in the background
and in this disassociated state, simultaneously, her mother is saying,
you need to tell her I'm here. I have all
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these messages. First, she needs to hear them. And I mean,
it is just chitter chatter. And I'm saying to her,
this is inappropriate. I don't know this woman. I'm in
the doctor's office. What if she thinks I'm crazy? And
the woman is arguing with me, and she's talking fast,
and she's also talking in Spanish. You know, she's giving
me signs and symbols, and she's Hispanic, and she's she's
moving faster than I can even handle. And I just
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said to her, in my mind's eye, the way that
I communicate, I said, fine, if you give me a sign,
if you give me a sign that is so clear
from this woman that I cannot deny your existence or
communicating your messages to her, then I will have the
bravery and the courage and the boldness and the vulnerability
to say something. And she's like, fine, Well it wasn't.
(13:11):
Thirty seconds later, the woman says to me, I love
your shoes and I said, oh, thanks, thanks so much.
She said, you know who would have loved those shoes,
and I said who and she said my mother.
Speaker 2 (13:25):
And I just.
Speaker 1 (13:27):
Rolled my eyes and was nervous and annoyed. And then
also I had made a promise. I had made a
promise to this guide, the spirit guide her mother on
the other side, that I would deliver the messages. And
I said, well, funny, you say that I have the
gift of mediumship, and ever since I walked into this office,
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your mother has been bombarding me to share messages with
you are you open to hearing from her, and the
room got silent, and I thought, oh, no, here it comes.
She's going to think I'm crazy, you know. I mean
twenty five things rolling through my head of every scenario
that could play out there. And tears started rolling down
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her face and her cheeks. She says, my mother died
thirty days ago today, and I'm really angry. I haven't cried.
And she said, I moved her here from out of town.
We put her on hospice. She was very sick and
it was not an easy death. And immediately her mother
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started delivering very clear evidential messages. So evidential mediumship is
where they give you messages that validate who the soul
is and that help the person really know they're connected
with the soul. And she started giving her messages, and
she said that she did not die in pain. The
hospice at the time did not really do a good
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job with her pain management, and she was in a
lot of agony at the en and the daughter felt
a lot of guilt because she had made the decision
to move her closer so she could be with her,
and she thought it would be comfortable and smooth, and
instead it ended up being a really difficult transition, not
only for the mother, but for the daughter that I
(15:17):
was speaking with and her sister. And the mother said,
oh no, you know, she says, I'm fine. She said,
I got out of my body, you know, despite all
that human suffering, the body trying to let go. She says,
what you saw was my body letting go, not my spirit.
My spirit was holding you, holding you and your sister.
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And I remember there was a song that she referenced.
I can't remember the song, but I remember saying, and
she's talking about this song, and the woman said that
was that's the song that's playing in my car. I've
been playing it over and over and thinking of her.
And I'm angry instead of being able to cry, and
the woman is bawling, and she's and the woman says
to me, it's probably so inappropriate that I'm crying in here,
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and you're the patient, and you know, I'm the one
that thinking is thinking this is inappropriate or unethical, or
I'm crossing a line. And she iterated the same thing,
and all the while the doctor is not there yet,
she's stuck in a surgery. You know, we have been
gifted this space together. Anyway, The messages continued to be
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healing and remarkable, and the woman.
Speaker 2 (16:25):
Said, this is the biggest gift.
Speaker 1 (16:28):
She says, I hadn't been able to grieve because I've
been in that state of anger. And sure enough, it
was a moment where you know, we embraced, we hugged.
I felt lighter, she felt lighter. It was bigger than us,
and the mother delivered such wonderful, loving, gracious messages that
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I could see healing happening, and it healed my soul.
You know, mediumship, connecting with our souls, our higher selves,
with the the world around us that is unseen, is
not always just about us. It's about other people. It's
about connection. It's about knowing we're not alone, that there
is this divine plan. Even when it is traumatic or
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tragic or difficult, we're learning, we're growing, and we're building
faith rather than losing faith. Well, ironically enough, the follow
up to that story is when I left the doctor
that day, you know, we embraced. It was really precious
and I walked out of there and I felt light
and I thought, oh my goodness, like, this isn't about me,
This is bigger than me. My gifts the way that
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they're developing. They are about being of service, and that
is ultimately what I ask of God every morning. God,
may I be a vessel of service. Help me get
out of the way, and help me show up and
be useful for the highest good, for the highest light,
for your light to create expansiveness, higher vibrational living. Interestingly,
there was something that came up in my medical report
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after the doctor showed up where it required a follow
up visit six months later, and so it wasn't anything
super alarming. They just wanted to do a follow up
in six months. So I showed back up six months later,
and I remember on the way there, of course, I'm
thinking about this woman and guess who shows up, her mother.
I'm driving in the car and the mother is talking
about Louby's. If you live in Texas, we have a cafeteria.
(18:18):
It's cafeteria style food called Loubi's. And all this woman
can show me is just all this food from Loubies,
tons of food from Louby's. And then she's showing me
these candles, and I'm thinking, Okay, maybe i'll see this
woman again. Maybe not food from Louby's. Candles, got it?
Speaker 2 (18:37):
Okay?
Speaker 1 (18:38):
If she's there, I'll deliver the message. Who knows where
we'll be. Now, she might think I'm crazy, you know,
she might. Who knows where her experience will of letter. Anyway,
I get back in to the office. Sure enough, the
same woman is there, and she says, I have so
much to tell you, And she just begins to share
with me all the healing that she and her sister
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have had, the ways her her mother has continued to
show up and validate, create greater healing, help with her
organic grieving process. And it's just beautiful. And I say, well, funny,
you say that the whole way here. I don't know
what this means to you, but your mother's been trying
to get my attention, and all she can talk about
is loubies. Now, mind you, this is the way that
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my intuition tricks me when I get in my ego
and in my fear, I went to a place of Okay,
this Hispanic lady, I'm sure she cooks great, amazing food
and has big family gatherings, because that's my own preconception.
I'm thinking, why is this Hispanic lady talking to me
about loubies, not that not everybody loves Lubies. But it
was just I couldn't.
Speaker 2 (19:39):
Figure it out.
Speaker 1 (19:40):
So I was kind of afraid to say Lubies because
I thought, well, this isn't going to make sense to
her anyway. The moment I said Loubies, she's talking about Loubies,
she said, the only restaurant my mother would want us
to take her is Loubies. And she said, we have
ordered our entire Thanksgiving dinner from Luby in her honor.
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And I said, well, she is ready for it, and
she's ready for the feast, and she's glad you're doing this.
And I said, and then she keeps talking about candles.
She said, ever since I met with you, we met,
and we spent that time together, my sister and I
both have candles that we have lit and we have
been burning in her honor. And I said, okay, that
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makes sense. So you know, this story, this juncture, this
point in my intuitive development, when I had one foot
in a professional role that I loved, that I was
good at, that I was trained for and qualified for
and excelling at actually, and then this other foot in
this spiritual world, this spiritual development of people seeing how
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hungry this woman was for healing and clarification and growth
and feeling her joy, her lightness, her vibration lift in
our encounters, our chants or divinely inspired encounters. It showed
me this is your path. It would be a little
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bit while, a little bit before I took a leap
of faith and I made the decision to jump all in,
but not that much longer because a series of events
basically told me, if you don't jump in, if you
don't utilize this gift to be of service, you are
denying a call in your soul. So my question for
you is, where's the call of your soul? Are you
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listening to the call? Are you hearing it? Are you
pushing it down out of fear, out of insecurity? Imposter syndrome?
Speaker 2 (21:35):
We all have that. I have that all the time.
Speaker 1 (21:37):
And I've been doing this for a long time, and
i have a lot of evidence and a lot of experience,
but I still get those insecurities.
Speaker 2 (21:45):
I'm human, I'm messy.
Speaker 1 (21:47):
That's why developing our spiritual gifts, our tools, building these
muscles with practical resources, metaphysical resources, learning from other people,
listening to other people, connecting with their guides, their souls,
their higher consciousness, their higher cells, their loved ones on
the other side, interpreting dreams, tapping into astrology, numerology, finding
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all the signs and synchronicities.
Speaker 2 (22:14):
That start to click.
Speaker 1 (22:16):
That's the stuff that helps us grow, evolve, gain the wisdom,
and gain the courage to speak from that place of wisdom.
I'm so excited you're joining me, that you're along for
the ride of your soul. I have a feeling that
this podcast is going to develop in extremely divinely aligned ways.
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So I'm curious. I hope you get curious, and I
hope you stay tuned. You jump in, you connect, you
ask questions, you listen. But more than anything, I hope
you get your spiritual light turned on. Your muscles get stronger,
and you live more authentic. Flee yourself each and every day.
Speaker 2 (23:05):
Stay tuned.
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