GOING TO THE CLUB AT 31

In tonight’s episode of Crystal Nightcap we actually make our Broadway Debut on Disney’s Aladdin! Let’s hit up Atlantic City with the family, we go to Philly and get a little history lesson, we interview Jenelle Evans from Teen Mom OG, Jade from LittleMix,  the international star CKay, what’s going on in LA, and MORE! 

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello to your beautiful pinky Puzzler. It's a Crystal little
sets back with another episode of Crystal's Nightcap. Tonight, we
actually make our Broadway debut on Disney's Aladdin. Let's hit
up Atlantic City with the family. We go to Philly
and get a little history lesson. We get to interview
Janelle Evans from Teen Mom, og Jade from Little Mix,
and the International Superstar c K. Also what's going on

(00:20):
in La and more. Sit back, relax, It's Crystal's Nightcap.
Thank you for being so patient with me. I know,
I know, I know, it's been what like two weeks.

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It's been the longest, craziest two weeks. I don't even
know where to start with you, but I do want
to start from the beginning where my mom, my, dad,
and Zaddie all pull up to EWR in Newark, New
Jersey because we're going to go on a little family vacation.
I'm so blessed to have my amazing parents that are

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willing to come and hang out with me, because it
really was the Broadway debut on Aladdin that reeled them
over here. But we were also celebrating my homie David's
birthday in Atlantic City, so I thought we could just
hit a two fur for that and do a two
for one. My family or Zaddy's never been to Atlantic City.
So they pull up. I'm down there with the rental car.

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We all pack in. Producer Alyssa gives us this amazing
recommendation and it's called Red Bank, New Jersey. This amazing
Italian restaurant, Patresia's. I'm a foodie, so our girl really
gave us the best options. And I'm so thankful we
pulled up here because everything we ate. Girl, I've never
had lobster raviole like that in my life. My mom

(01:44):
got crab stuffed salmon. Zaddy got some meat thing he likes,
like meat sauce, red pasta stuff. My dad got crab
stuffed shrimp. Yo this man, oh man, thank you. Patrizia's.
There's also one in Manhattan. We ended up going to

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later on and it was just it was good. It
didn't have the same menu, but it was really good too,
So we went over there. We stayed at Hara's in
Atlantic City. We wake up the next day. I want
to take my family to a Tropicana because I love
the tropicana over there in Atlantic City. It's just so cute,
it's so pretty. It's not like the one that used

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to be in Vegas or is in Vegas. Not like
that at all. It's very fun. We went to the
different hotels around their Ocean Hotel, which is the new one,
the Borgatta, which is like the bougie one, which to
me is a little underwhelming. I liked Ocean a lot more.

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But we also went to the boardwalk. It was raining
a little bit when we went to the boardwalk. I
booked us tickets for this show called The Hook. It's
the only variety show in Atlantic City. The description says
it's an uproar, sleep, funny, adults only homage to Atlantic
City's gorgeous golden age of live entertainment. I'm gonna tell
you what. It was a good show because the acts

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were so crazy. You know, when you go to cirk
Disola a few times or Circus acts a few times,
you kind of feel, I gotta go to another one
because I feel like I've seen it all. Dude. Somehow, someway,
we just be sitting the bar higher and higher and higher,
and we got the girl that's hanging from her hair
doing crazy stuff. We got this contortionist. That's freaking Zaddy out.

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We have this couple doing on roller skates, crazy act,
the craziest act on roller skates, and I enjoyed it.
It was the host for the Hook was a little
on the vulgar side, but I think it's because he's
trying to really hone in on that like East Coasting
New Yaukee Atlantic City character. So for me, that was

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a little vulgar with the jokes, but at the end
of the day, we had a really good time. It
was so much much fun. So I definitely suggest for
a night out go check out Yeah the Hook Show
at Atlantic City. It's right next to Caesar's Palace. Afterwards
we went to Caesar's. My mom was going to gamble
a little bit. We wanted to watch the last It

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was ended up being the last playoff game for the Knicks,
which was really sad that they lost. I completely front
of my ID, so I couldn't even gamble. They carded
me the first table. I tried to go play the
roulette and so lucky for Zaddy, I didn't have to
take none of his money to gamble. My dad's not
a big gambler either, so we were just kind of
hanging out the bar and watching basketball and my mom

(04:35):
she'd be out hitting those slots. Girl. All of a sudden,
when we're trying to leave, we get a call and
she's like, Yo, the security is here. We won. So
Sandra won some money. She always wins. She always wins,
and she's so generous. She flashes out her winning tickets
upside down and she lets each of us pick one.
And I was going to pick one. But then the

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way that we structured who was going to pick first,
Zaddi was picking first. He saw the one that I
was going to pick and he grabbed it. I ended
up being a few hundred dollars and I was so mad.
Mine was only like one hundred bucks, which is a lot.
I'm very generous of Sandra, But yeah, my mom always
shares with us when she wins, and I think it's
so nice that she does that. Anytime my mom goes
out with us into a casino, she always wins back,

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however much she spent on the trip. Because my parents
were coming out, it was my first time taking them
to Atlantic City, we fitted the bill for them against
their wishes. But the ticket that Zady got back it
paid back for what we spent on the hotel for them,
so it all worked out. That was the first part
of the first night, and then the second part was

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a surprising David, one of my besties here at work.
I'm just so blessed to have David in my life.
He is like my rock here in New York City
when it comes to pretty much everything. I've talked about
David a few times when I had to go to
the emergency room and was hospitalized for stuff that I
had going on. He was the person that I called

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and drove immediately to me and was able to drive
me home. When I needed to get a camera shove
down my throat for like the weird heartburn stuff I
had going on, someone had to physically pick me up.
I couldn't leave the office without someone grabbing me the
doctor's office. So he's always been so supportive of me.
And whenever we have some cheese may whenever I just

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need someone to talk to her vent to, David is
always there and he's just I cannot tell you how
much I love that man, like he is everything and
more to me. So I was really thankful that we
got invited to go surprise him at Atlantic City we
were doing the pool after Dark and it was Taylor
swift era's theme, so his best friend put it all
together for him. And she's so great too. She's such

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a sweetheart. We've hung out a few times and I
really really like her a lot. And so she was like,
if y'all want to dress up as Taylor Swift's eras.
So I have my little fringe pink, shiny sequin dy
dress that I actually did wear to the Aras tour.
And Zaddi did not want to drive up as Travis
kelce He does not like the idea of putting another

(07:03):
man's jersey on him. He doesn't like jerseys that doesn't
have his own name on them, and he does not
like the Chiefs. He is a forty nine Ers fan,
so you know, if you know, you know that cuts
deep to him. So he's just saying, absolutely not, I'm
not going to dress as Travis kelcey. But then I
asked if he would dress as my security guard and
he was totally down. So I got him a security vest,

(07:24):
the belt crow, I got him a security hat. We
were all set up. We were walking through har As.
I was in my heels, he was in his You
know aviators and security hat vest, and we get right
to the door and we tell them, Hi, we're here
on the table for blah blah blah. And he goes
back to the back a little bit, talks to someone,
comes back to us, and he goes, see, I don't

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know what you guys got going on, but you cannot
come in here with the security hat. So you're gonna
have to take the hat off and take the vest
off if you want to get in here. And we
means that. He just look at each other and we're like, okay,
we just marched back to the room. We marched back
to the room. We're like, that is embarrassing. Oh my gosh,
it is so embarrassing. Luckily, we didn't pull up to
the club until like one am, so there weren't a

(08:07):
lot of people like out there to see the embarrassment
that we just bestowed upon ourselves. And we were already
ready to party, so we were just like, you know what,
let's just hop an elevator, go upstairs, take off the
vest and the hat. We already took our photos and videos,
and we'll just mark up back there like nothing happened.
You know, it does make sense. I mean because it's

(08:30):
a club, because alcohol gets involved, and because they already
do have their own security guards. You can't just like
walk in there as you're a quote security guard with
security big on your short hat. It's a liability, Like
we don't like people at that club. Don't know what
Zaddy's gonna you know, Let's say he had bad intentions
and was trying to like make rules for other people
or that. It makes sense. It does make sense. So

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we marched right back in and immediately last soon as
we got to the people already are you know, having
a good time, and we surprise David and was so cute.
We're taking shots and we're just you know, living our
best lives. David's friends are cool. They're not our friends,
but David's friends are cool. So we did find ourselves

(09:15):
just kind of running around and just like torking amongst ourselves.
We don't Zaddy and I don't go out like that.
We have a good time partying with our family when
we have family parties, but especially when we first started dating,
I did drag him out a lot more. But he's
the club scene is not his scene or really even

(09:35):
mine anymore. At the matter, we're we we're old, like
we're already in our thirties. We're definitely aging out. I
think that's gonna be and I always say this, but
I do think that's gonna be one of our last
club hurrahs. It was perfect because my family or that
he's never been to Atlantic City. It was perfect because
we were going to go show love to David. But
other I don't really see much many more scenario. It

(10:00):
was where we're gonna have to go out to a club.
Nonetheless means Zaddy gone down, means Thatddy had those drinks
cold and sippin' and we had a really, really, really
good time. We were probably there for maybe like two hours.
We get back to the hotel. We wake up the
next morning and I think that was it. I think

(10:20):
we only spent Yeah, that was the second night. So
we are heading now to Philly because luckily for me,
the Phillies I have a day game. So my dad's
never been to the Phillies stadium. Neither had Zaddy. If
you remember the first time that Zaddi came out to

(10:43):
visit me in New York City, it was only for
a forty nine er game. It was for a Championship
game or I don't know it was. It was like
the finals, right, but it was a game before the
Super Bowl and the Niners were playing the Eagles, and
my cousins were going out and I got the plug
on TiO tickets and me and Zaddy kind of had
a little rough patch, and to make it up to him,

(11:05):
I told him please fly out and I will take
you to the Nighter game. And he was like, wait,
are you serious. I'm like yes. So the first time
that Zaddi ever came to the East Coast to visit
me was in Philly, and he said he never wanted
to go back again because the Ford Niners lost and
it was probably the worst night of his entire life, honestly.

(11:27):
But he's also been talking about how he wants to
hit a whole bunch of baseball stadiums across the country,
and because my dad also is on that journey, Zaddi
is like, you know what, him and my dad were talking,
might as well go to a Phillies game and me
and my mom we're just around for the food. So
we wake up. Zaddi finds an awesome Jersey diner that

(11:48):
we go to on the way to Philly, and it
was so authentic, it was so cute, it was so
so Jersey people, and we loved it. And then my
dad had a few other things on his bucket list.
He wanted to go to the Liberty Bill. He wanted
to take a photo at that place that is on

(12:09):
the one hundred dollars bill, girl my history, I what is
it called? City Hall? Independence Hall? That one. My dad
wanted to go to Independence Hall because for all of
the bills, the American bills one through one hundred, he
has taken a photo with that bill and the building.

(12:31):
So he's taken a photo at the Lincoln Memorial with
the five and there are or I don't even know
if it's in Lincoln Memorial. I don't know which exactly ones.
But for any building on bills, American US bills, my
dad has taken a photo with the bill and that
building on every single one except for the one hundred

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dollars bill. Independence Hall. My dad's and mom has never
been to Philly, so my dad really wanted to do that,
and he wanted to do the Rocky Stairs. So we
get there just on time for all three of those things,
so we did that. It was cool. It was interesting
learning about the Liberty bell I I pick and choose

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the history that I like, and I feel like whenever
I go to a new place, I love to learn
the history of that. So that was amazing to watch.
We got an awesome selfie and then the Phillies game,
I mean, off the bat, there were when we walked
into the gate of the Phillies game, there were some
cardboard boxes with T shirts and attendants they're kind of
handing out the T shirts and he was just kind

(13:36):
of standing there, not handing anything out. So I reach
in to grab and he goes, no, don't grab, like
literally schoolds at me like a child, and I'm like okay,
and then he grabs it and hands it to me
and I'm like, oh, it's okay. I don't want it.
Like his attitude, I was just like I don't need that.
And then literally a minute later, my dad goes and

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he's like, oh, can I grab one? And the guy goes, oh,
it's just for kids. And then my dad's like, well, yeah,
I want all with my grandson and he goes no,
he has to be present. And in my head I'm
like this man just handed tried to hand one to
me a grown adult, like, okay, he annoyed me that, man, really,
my vibe already was at zero negative ten the first

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five seconds of being at the Phillies game. Then we
walked around a little bit and another guy that was
helping us find our chairs really made up for it
because he was so sweet and nice, and I'm just
like that, that's the attitude. That's the energy that I
would hope we can get for my dad and Zaddie
and Mom's the first Phillies game. So we walk around,
we're taking selfies, we get some little snackies, and we

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watched the Phillies game for a little bit of few
innings and I think by maybe the eighth inning weiska
dautle and then we just drive on down to good
old Manhattan. So the first night in the city, I mean,
this is the sleeping arrangement. My mom and dad are
sleeping in my room and Zaddy and I are going
to sleep in the living room in the pullout couch,

(15:03):
which is a newer pullout couch. The other pullout couch
that I had it broke, so Costco was able to
let us return it and exchange it for a different one.
And this different one I flip and hate. It's hard
as a rock. It sucks. I hate that couch, not
even like sitting on that couch. That's how much I
hate that couch. But sleeping on it was even worse. Girl,

(15:24):
I threw out my dang back. I'm thirty one and
I'm throwing out my back sleeping on the Dane couch.
It is unbearable. But you know, that's just how the
cookie crumbles. You know, you can't always be a princess
in your own bed and your parents are in town.
So that was that what we're doing. And I go
to work on Monday. After work on Monday, we meet

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at We meet at my job, and then we're kind
of wandering down to Bryan Park because I want to
show our parents the people that do botchy ball. Because
the people at Bryant Park that play bochy ball are
I would argue, probably the best bochiball players in the
entire world because they come from all over the world
and they do this every single night and they're so good.

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So it's really Me and Zaddy have stayed at Brian
Park for hours watching strangers play boci ball. We don't
know how to play. We don't really exactly when million
percent know how it works, but it's really fun to watch.
So I wanted my parents to see it. So we're
watching it, and then we noticed there's a huge crowd
on the lawn of Brian Park. So I rally everyone.

(16:28):
I say, let's go over there. Girl, I forgot that
it was happening, and then going down. But this was
the world's biggest game of musical chairs that they do
every year. I think this is the twelfth year they've
done it in Manhattan. And people had their wristbands, people
were sitting. There were probably thirty circles of ten fifteen
people mm hm, and they were going to squeeze it

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down to one person. Now, the person that wins wins
a Bryant Park chair with their name engraved for park
and for themselves to take home, which is so cool,
like the coolest gift ever. And I think, I think,
like a gift card to something or whatever. But we
started watching the first round and it was getting crazy.

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It was getting wild. It's sixteen and over who can play.
It's people from all over the world, all different colors, backgrounds, accents,
but they're all playing musical chairs. They're all going one way.
The announcer is telling you go go now clockwise, counterclockwise,
hop on one foot ballerina dance around. It was so cool,

(17:34):
It was so fun to watch. It got really spicy.
We were in front of the exact circle that started
going viral because there was like a chant going on
for this little old lady after allegedly the man broke
the rule or whatever. Because there was rules too. You
couldn't go backwards, so if you're running around a certain
clockwise and if you miss the chair, you have to

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go all the way back around to get on the chair.
You can't go backwards, and that I feel like it
was kind of an annoying rule because if you pass
the chair, it's over. But also it does prevent injuries
and violences, so I do understand why they made that rule. Anyways,
we didn't stay for the entire thing because I think
it took about an hour and a half to two

(18:17):
just to get it down from thirty circles of fifteen
down to one circle of fifteen or twenty. So Zaddi
was already crashing out. He was hungry, he wanted to
go have dinner. We didn't end up seeing the whole
thing because and then also instead of us watching from
the outside of the lawn, they made everyone crouch into
the circle, the last circle, all everyone that was watching

(18:40):
the bystanders. So it was just too crowdy. My mom
would have been able to watch it would it was
just hot mess. So we just decided to leave. And
that's the night that we ended up going to Patresia's.
So that was night like one, and then night two,
I took the fam to my one of my favorite
places in New York City, one of my favorite interactive
museums touristy places. It's called Rise New York, and I've

(19:04):
talked about it a few times before, but I love
it so much because it gives you the history of
the subways, It gives you the history of the buildings,
It gives you the history of Wall Street and the
Stock Exchange. It gives you the history of technology there
in radio it has a Radio Hall of Fame thing
and TV and how New York was so instrumental in
television and networks. And then you move to Broadway, and

(19:27):
then you move to like kind of if you've been
to California, Soarin and Disneyland, Sore in California. It's kind
of like that, but of New York. And I cried.
I cried anything like that that gives me kind of
a montage of New York City. It hits my heart
strings so much because I appreciate the city so much,
because I've wanted to live here for years, and because

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the city has given me so much love, and because
with time, I feel like I'm making my own little
imprints for myself in New York. I get really emotional
when I see things like that. It was so beautiful,
it was so great, and honestly, it was a highlight
even for my parents too and for Zaddy, so I'm
very thankful we got to do that. So that was

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Tuesday Thursday nights. Because these men are trying to, you know,
mark off their baseball stadium little less they have, we
took them to a Yankees game for the first time.
Zaddy's only been to see the Mets stadium, which I
really loved. And it was during hell week. I remember
that week before we broke up, like two summers ago,

(20:34):
and it was just awful, And I mean that week
led to our first and only breakup. Yeah, we went
to the Mets game during Hell week, so it was.
It was interesting. I loved the Mets Stadium. We went
to Yankee Stadium and Yankee Stadium. It's cool, It's not

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my favorite. The food also, isn't that that good? But
it did. Had to do that was Wednesday night. Thursday
was crazy because Thursday was my Broadway debut on Disney's
Aladdin in Sanity. I mentioned it in the last episode
that I was going to do it, and it finally arrived.

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I got my script the day before a few lines.
I got there early to do dress rehearsal and rehearsal
with them, and I feel like when I was getting
ready and walking back to the theater for the night
of the show, I knew my lines, I knew my
movements for my dance, many many tiny dance sequence, and
I just felt like I was ready and I felt

(21:41):
very present. I've been working really hard to stay as
present as I can and not be anxious about these
amazing things that I always get to do here, and
I felt like I really took it in. I feel
like my my mental was in such a great place.
I was prepared, I had everything I needed. I felt

(22:02):
very confident in the way I looked I've been working
really hard on limiting bad foods in my diet and
just trying to stick to healthy things, and it's really
been going off. So I felt very confident inside and out.
I was praying a lot, making sure that my spirit
was good in the moment, and I was going to
deliver when I need to be delivered. It just all

(22:22):
perfectly worked out. My mom, my dad, Zaddie is Stebbi's.
Is Stebbi's pulled up as Stebbi's surprised us, well, he's
surprised the family. I knew it was happening. I paid
to fly out, but as Stebbi's. My little brother, who's
twenty five and twenty four to twenty five and in

(22:45):
the middle of studying for his ELSAT to get into
law school, decided to switch his l SAT test from Oakland, California,
to New York City so that he can make my
Broadway debut. So the essentials were there. I really wish
our son could have pulled up the rizzler, but he

(23:06):
was in school or like, we didn't have him that
weekend or something like that. I think I think we
didn't have him that weekend, which is really annoying. But
the duck was in school. So because the duck was
still in school, we were just like, okay, the duck
isn't going to be there, It's okay if the rizzler
misses out on it too, because they're a two for
there are a two for one package. If the Wrizzler

(23:27):
is going, the duck is going. If the duck is going,
the Wrizzor is going. If one of them can't pull up,
then that's just how the cook it crumbles. So they
couldn't make it. My other brother, my older brother Junior,
couldn't make it either. He had to work. But I
feel like my heart felt so full that at least
my little brother Stema could make it, and my parents
and Zaddy, so that was awesome. And on top of it, Jody,

(23:48):
who helped put it all together for this opportunity with Aladdin,
was able to come too, which is just so sweet.
She's seen the show many of times and for her
to come and see it again for my Broadway debut
made me feel so special and I was so thankful
because she's a busy woman, she's a new grandma, she's
a busy woman. Her heart is just always so so

(24:09):
abundantly filled with love for me and everything that I do.
And she's someone here in the sales department, and I
heart that I can confide in her, and I've opened
up to her about tough things that I've been going
through and she always hears me out. So I was
so thankful. Jody pulled up and David came to. David
was able to come and his best friend Britt, which
I love her. She's the one that helped put everything
together in Atlantic City for him so and she's always

(24:32):
been there, like as one of my biggest supporters. So
I love that they both were able to come to.
My girl, Jewels pulled up, my neighbors came. I mean,
it was just Jewles. I'm so thankful because she is
such a good friend and has such a good heart
and looks out for me a lot here too, and
we have her fun nights here in New York City.
So I feel like I feel like my family was there,

(24:54):
My work family was there, and my like New York
family was there, and it just it made me feel
so full and happy that they were all there to
root me on. So here it is time to get
on the Broadway stage. I'm probably only on for like
a minute or two. But I'm on the sidelines now.
I practice my lines. I practiced my dance, and there's

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one part of my line that I keep getting wrong.
When I'm a when I see scripts, I say them
out loud as I see them written out, and sometimes
I mix up a word to a similar word and
then it just sticks. And that's happened for me for
a very long time. It continues to happen now when

(25:36):
I do camera work, and it's very annoying, but it
is what it is. There was a line that says
one hundred Okay, the line said one hundred Arabian whites,
but I kept saying one hundred Arabic whites, which is
similar words but not And I got called out for

(25:59):
that maybe like two times during rehearsal, and I tried
to amend it, and I did. And then while I
was prepping my hair and makeup and walking over alyssa
producer Lissa, she was going over and over and over
with me the lines to make sure that I was good.
So then here comes my moment. I'm a side stage
counting me down. My cue to go out is hear

(26:23):
Jeanie himself says, and help us out ze one hundred
New York's crystal rosas. And I get out there, and
I pull up to my first line, and of course
and stay instead of saying one hundred Arabian whites, I
say one hundred Arabic whites. Screwed up, And then the
next lines were flawless, though I was calm, cool, collected, articulate.

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And then the moment at the end is where I'm
supposed to do my little pee wee herman type of
dance thing. But girl, I got to that moment so
fast and I could really keep up, but here where
the music was so I just was wiggling. I couldn't
even hit the moves because I didn't know where we were, like,
it was just it was so much so it kind

(27:09):
of flipped on that a little bit too. And that's okay, though, girl,
We're still on Broadway, weren't we. If that would have
been my audition, I would not have made it to
the next round. I would have been cut off. But
good thing I didn't. Good thing we were on there. Now.
I do want to say again thank you so much

(27:30):
to everyone out Aladdin for being so sweet to me,
and I do know that there are people in their
lives that work their whole life to just try to
get any type of side role that they can on Broadway,
let alone being on that stage. So it is not
done to me that that was a huge opportunity I
had and that I was just so blessed to cut

(27:53):
the line and get that little role on there in
front of a lot more deserving people. So I just
want to say again, thank you so much to you,
thank you so much to everyone that supports me and
gives me so much love. I felt so much love
on Socials when I posted the recap, and it was
truly the most magical experience. I was able to go
up to the balcony and walk like the little side

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balconies and watch the rest of the show, and while
that was happening, I also got to wave down to
my family my homies out were down there, and then
afterwards everyone just showered me with hell a bouquets of
flowers and gifts and it was just the sweetest thing.
There was a whole bunch of little girls back at
the exit that we're asking for my autograph and pictures,

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and it was incredible. It was such a pinch me moment.
I couldn't believe we were able to do that, and
I'm so so blessed. I cannot be more thankful. I
just never in my mind what I've ever thought I
could be on Broadway. Someone that I look up to
so much Tricia Paetus. She is a controversial YouTuber. She's

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grown a lot since her controversial days, and she was
a huge Broadway fan. She has always done funny spoofs
and recreations and covers of Broadway songs, and she really
popped off mainstream last year. She was an SNL and
then got invited to do her own Broadway show. I
was able. Actually that's not the one I saw. She

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did a Broadway show for charity. I didn't go to
that when I went to her other show, but I
remember when seeing her on Broadway that she had a show.
I was like, dang, she really made it. She just
as herself is on Broadway. I would never be able
to do that. And then within those next few weeks,
I was hit up with the opportunity that Aladdin wanted
me to make a cameo on their show. So it

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was just kind of crazy that that same month and
weeks that I had that idea of I would never
be able to be on Broadway. I was, and not
only that I got to see my name on the marquee,
and seeing my name on the marquee that shook me.
I cannot believe I saw my name on a Broadway

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marquee in lights, my first and last name alone up there.
I've shared a little bit behind the scenes of how
rough it's been for me here the past few years
in New York City and my situation at ZE one hundred.
I've told you that I prayed relentlessly for a variation
of what I have now, and I feel like, in

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another circumstance, if this had happened yet last year, the
year before, it wouldn't have just been my name up there.
I would have had to share that with a situation
that I wasn't fully embraced to buy or proud of.
And now being able to look at my name just
up there, just period, just me, period first and last
night like that, I was so so, so so proud

(30:45):
of myself at that moment because I just thought, dang, Crystal,
you've gone through so much here, You've done so much
to be the best self, no matter what people threw
at you. No matter how people treated you, You've just
went high when they went low, and it showed. It
still shows. I'm just I'm so so blessed. I'm still

(31:08):
like Processing Broadway. But that was so beautiful. That was Thursday,
and then a Friday morning, Zaddie and my dad left.
They went back to California, but it was still me,
my mom and a stev On, my little brother, so
we were able to enjoy a Friday night. Girl, it
never stops, It never stops. Right after work, we hung
out with my girl, Neza on Ig. She's at Baby Nezza.

(31:30):
She was in town. She's promoting that she's been finishing
up her album. She wanted to chat with me as
one hundred, so we did some social we chatted. She
had an Albi album preview party, so I was able
to host that with her. And then after that, me
and Steven went to MSGDC Lil Wayne and the label
gave us flour seats. So we're here at Madison Square Garden.
My little brother Stevan has never been. It was his

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first time there and we were on the floor watching Toci.
It was so cool. Little Wayne he performed how to
Love and that is my favorite Little Wayne song. That
song reminds me of getting into junior year. I had
a car. I had a big green expedition. The family
car was driving around to cheer practice during summertime, and

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I would just blast Little Wayne how to Love over
and over again. And being able to finally see Little
Wayne perform that I'm Cool bucket list checked off. I've
always wanted to see that. I've seen him before, but
I've never seen it. I saw I was actually on
stage with him at our hear Redeo Music festival in Vegas.
If it wasn't last year, it was a year before,
but I didn't get to see and perform that song,

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and that song was so important to me. So we
got to see that. We woke up Saturday and just
kind of took it chill. We did some touristy stuff.
I took my little brother my mom to this place
called the merchant House House here in New York City.
It's one of the oldest still standing houses that also

(32:56):
has all like the furniture and you can tour it
and it has like a walk through story and all
the things at the merchant House. It was awesome. I
love things like that. I love history. I love old stuff,
antique stuff. This was from girl. This was from like
the eighteen forties, which is insane. So I was able
to take them to that. And we went to this
place pretty bold. But there's this place here in the

(33:17):
city that some of my girls took me to. It's
called Ladybird. It's a vegan restaurant, and I'm not a vegan,
but the food there was so good, and I convinced
them to come with me and they loved it. So
we did that and we just kind of walked around
the city. We got stuck in the rain, which was hilarious.
We literally got stuck in the rain. We were at
Washington Square Park, no umbrella's insight, and all of a

(33:38):
sudden it started downpouring. We had to hide under like
a tree canopy kind of that was helping a little bit,
but we got head to toe soaked. I was using
my cotton sweater as an umbrella for me. My mom
she was pitched. She saw that I was so angry.
She was so angry. But it's a funny story looking back,
even though it was really annoying, But afterwards, because it

(34:00):
it was nice and humid, we actually did get pretty
dry not too late after so that was a funny memory.
We're not gonna forget. And then Sunday evening is Theevan
skidaddled away. He went back to California, and he said
he felt like he did really good on his l SAT,
which he took Friday when I was at work. So
congrats to the Stebbies. Congrats to you all are grads.

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I know a lot of kids are graduating. Oh this
is graduation time, so shout out to all of our grads.
It's a big feat. Take those grad picks, post those
grad picks, because you know, education here in America, we
do take it for granted, and we are so blessed
that we get to do things like that. I know
some schools are not cheap. I'm very blessed. My parents
sent me to a private school, and I'm very proud

(34:44):
that I paid my way through college and graduated there.
And I know a lot of our grads are celebrating,
So don't forget to celebrate. And even if you haven't
graduated from anything, it's never too late to get your
education on. So I will encourage you to take it.
First step, check online and see what's up. So you
could do a slow take us a class a semester

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or something like that, you'd be surprised. So there was that,
and then the week went on with me and my mommy,
which was so awesome. I had some massive interviews the
past two weeks from Love on the Spectrum Abby Yo.
She was amazing. Hearing her story so inspiring. It was

(35:25):
definitely different for me. I've never had to have I've
never gotten the opportunity to have a conversation with someone
that is on the spectrum like Abby, But being around
her and seeing her heart and having her open up
to me about things was just so sweet and it
made me feel so thankful that I'm able to be

(35:48):
kind of like an intercessor for people that want to
hear more about her and her story. Were able to
celebrate her new song, so that was so amazing. I
interviewed an art that used to be in the group
Little Mix, Big Girl group from the UK. Her name
is Jade and she's putting out a new project, so

(36:08):
I talked with her, and I've talked with her a
handful of times, so I was really familiar with that.
And then last week me and producer Alyssa secured an
interview with from Sixteen and Pregnant from teen Mom to
Janelle Evans, which was major for me because I grew
up watching Sixteen and Pregnant and teen Mom, and Janelle

(36:29):
obviously at that time was one of the more volatile
people on the show. So seeing her from there to
where she's grown now, I'm so, so, so proud of her.
She was so sweet when she came in. She was
celebrating her divorce party. She's been through a lot with
her ex husband, and she picked New York City to

(36:49):
have a divorce party at a strict club, which was
so funny. I couldn't make it that night because my
mom was in town and my mom didn't want to go.
But she came in. I didn't really know what to expect,
but she was so sweet. She was a ray of light,
and she was really open and honest about what I
was asking her. Something that was disheartening was when I
posted a snippet with her, people were so awful and

(37:10):
mean in the comments, and they just judge her so
hard and they're like, you're not a good mom. Where
are your kids now? You're partying and you're out in
New York City, or where are your kids, like yo.
People do not get that energy when they're working like
this is her job. Her job is to try to
her brand. Her being as a person is a job.
So she's trying to be out here, she's trying to
do stuff, and people are talking so down to her,

(37:32):
and people can grow, people can change. We only see
what we see on reality TV. We don't know the
truth behind things. And honestly, me talking to her, it
made me so proud of everything that she's gone through
and she looks like an example of someone that can
really go on the other side. Girl. If they were

(37:53):
filming and I said that to her, I said, if
they're filming me when I was sixteen, seventeen, eighty ninety twenty,
I I would have been so off the walls, like
you would not like me if I was filmed. I
I'm I'm on documents for a lot of years of
my life because of the podcast. And that was even
cringe for a lot of you. I'm not proud of
even the stuff that I talked about or did on

(38:15):
just my podcast, so I can't even imagine how it
is if my podcast was live on a reality show,
that would have been a whole other level, so that
hay towards her really hurt me. And I just challenge
people that do have those negative views on her to
just check out that conversation I had with her and
is to open your heart and just to understand that

(38:35):
people can change and a lot of us have been
through things. She was open about why she was using
marijuana those years and why this and that, and now
marijuana is legal, like, let's talk about that. How many
parents now are still doing those things around their kids
or still battling with those addictions and that and even
more so, I don't judge. Everyone has her own journey.
I'm very thankful that I was able to chat with her,

(38:57):
so I would suggest you go watch that. I was
also but I was also able to hang out with
the world Wide star. His name is c K. He
had a very popular song that played during COVID. It's
love Noan Tet. I know you've heard it, yeah, that song.

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So he came in. I got to chat with him.
He was so cool, he was so present, he was
so humble, He is very mature. He taught me a lot.
One of my favorite parts of our conversation was I
asked him because he's traveled all over the world performing
for years, and I asked him what he's learned from

(39:42):
humanity seeing a whole bunch of people from all over
the world and performing them with them for them, and
he said that we're all very, very similar, and it
was kind of strange to him. He would go perform
at one part of the world and for let's say,
a song or a different part of a song, the
way that the crowd would react to a certain part

(40:03):
of a song in one place of the world. He
would go to a completely different part of the world
and the crowd would react pretty much the same way
to that moment or that snippet of a song or
a vibe of a song. He just said, it was
so interesting learning that humans all react to music very similarly.
So that was really cool to learn. If you haven't

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watched that interview, I suggest you to go check it out.
Actually hasn't dropped yet, it's dropping next week. But that
was a little sneak peek, a little sneak peak of
what we have coming up. We chatted for like forty
five minutes and it was everything. It was so great.
He was so sweet. Also, over the week, my mommy
and I really got into it with wedding planning. I'll
explain that and a little bit, but I can just

(40:45):
fast forward to the weekend. Saturday, I went to the
one hundred and sixteenth Street Festival, which is pretty much
a Puerto Rican Latinal festival of New York City. I'm
so blessed that I get to host part of it
and food bizarre. Puol me out for that and it
was so much fun. It rained right after I left,
so I was very thankful about that. But my favorite

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part is over there in Spanish Harlem. They have the
best food. So I was able to stop by and
get some amazing authentic Cuban food, some carnitas and the
fejolees that they have and that ros is. It's something
I've never had before, other than maybe Miami has a
really good Cuban food too, obviously, but yeah, Spanish Harlem
is where it's app And then I was asked by

(41:30):
my church group if I could fill in because they
do Salsonites a few Saturdays a month to raise money
for people in need here in New York City. We
have a man that comes out and teaches for Salsinites,
but he backed out last minute. And they asked if
I could teach satasa. Now I do not know satasa.
I actually don't like saltasa. It's not I don't like
dancing salasa at all. I do not understand it. But

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I told them that I could try to teach Cumbia,
and they were like, sure, whatever you want to do.
So I was a little nervous, but I looked into
the history of Columbia and I learned a lot that
it actually started in Colombia on the coastal regions from
Afro Latinos. And it's heavy with the flutes, it's heavy

(42:13):
with the drums. In the nineteen forties, Mexico started playing
kumbias on air and then as Mahicanos, we love to,
as I say, appreciate and adapt. So when we started
hearing Columbiano coumbias, we kind of turned it into our own.
And then it was in the sixties and seventies we
started adding accordions, and then we started adding electric guitars,

(42:38):
and we started adding electric pianos. So that's how we
got the eighties nineties sounds of cumbias. And then artists
like Selena, the Cumbia Kings, they popularized Atclumbia even more
with the times. So that was a little history of
Gumbia which I didn't even learned, but I wanted to
know it so that I can explain it to the
class that I was going to teach. And on my

(43:00):
cute little tight white pants, I put on my little
gold platforms, and I put on my cute little roughly
top and it's just a quick little one ant two,
an three and one ants and it was it was
cool by the end of the class, everybody, which is
so funny because people from our church are from all
over the world. We have Jamaicans, we have Indians, we

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have people from Gabon and the Republic of Congo. We
have what else. We have Ecuadorians, we have people from China,
we have people that are New Yorkers for so many years.
So it's really cool that I'm able to share our
culture with people that I love here in New York City,

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but people that come from all over the world. These
are people that have never heard even Kumbia music before.
So I was so thankful that I was able to
share our culture with that, especially over the weekend, which
is a really tough It was really tough weekend weekend,
especially for people in the West Coast, especially for people
in LA and Chicago and in the Bay. Obviously, I

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cannot skeep over what has been happening to our people.
It's a heartbreaking like, no matter where you are politically,
this is a human issue. And I've shared before I
come from parents of immigrants. My dad was born in
moscowa Hala school. My mom was born in Torrance, but

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Mayaoalitos were from Durngo and Mexicali. And being a Chicana
American born myself, the privilege that I have, I know
that it runs deep, and seeing what's happening to our people,
it's just so heartbreaking. I was getting messages, hey, christ

(44:49):
you haven't said anything, like what are your thoughts? Like
you should really be defending our people right now. And
that was no excuse. That was the weekend of Broadway,
in the weekend that my family was there, and really
needed to sit down with myself and write something that
I felt like was fair and use my platform on socials.
And at the same time, although I don't always agree

(45:11):
with opposing thoughts, I don't want to alienate people. I
don't want people with their own beliefs to feel like
I'm alienating them or not understanding for them. So I
posted this on my ig story. As a daughter of immigrants,
it is horrifiicing the events taking place in LA. If
you feel strongly either way, I encourage you to do

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research on why immigrants work so desperately to live the
American dream like my parents or even yours gave some
of us the privilege to I pray we all find
empathy to treat one another like you would like to
be treated with your words, feelings, actions, and live a
life led by love. And of course I had to

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put a quote on this because a lot of the
times people like to throw politics with religious ideas, and
it's just there's a lot of hypocrisy on either end.
So if you do believe in the word and you're
not really living the word, I just wanted to double
that down on that, reminding us that any immigrant who

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lives with you must be treated as if they were
one of your citizens. You must love them as yourself
because you were immigrants in the land of Egypt. I
am Lord your God, Levity Kiss, nineteen thirty four. The
Bible does speak about immigrants, and about strangers, and about foreigners,
and if we're living by the Golden rule, which is

(46:36):
treat others how you'd want to be treated, let's think
about that. And I feel like in these times it's
important for us to have empathy. I know it's a
really politically charged time right now. I know my role
on air is to veer people away from that. I
know sometimes people expect me to try to bring the
politics on air, but I do know that there are

(46:57):
so many places that are dedicated to that, and my job,
I feel like, is just to give love and just
to give suppoor and just to entertain you. I'm not
a talk radio station, I'm not a political radio station.
But this is my voice right here with you. I'm

(47:18):
allowed to say whatever I want, however I want. And
I know that there are laws. I know that policies
have fluctuated, and I do understand that when my Awa
Lithos came to America, when my parents came to America,
they were embraced, they were wanted because of work, of jobs.

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And now it looks like the policies are trying to
be lenient to our immigrant people because of work, because
of jobs, and they want illegal immigrants to keep doing
those jobs other people aren't going to do. And it's
on one side, I could see how that's helpful, and
then on the other side, I could see how that's

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just so you're just using humans. And I know people
in my family that are still trying to go through
the immigration process. I don't think that they should be
treated any less human than anyone else. It is not
illegal to be undocumented in America. It is treated as
a citation, just like a parking ticket would. That's what

(48:28):
I've learned. So I just feel like the way that
people have been treating immigrants and the language and the
physicality and the violence is it's not the American way.
America is built on immigrants, period, And the problem is
that there's a lot of racism built in America. It's systematic,

(48:50):
so that gets warped into the immigration process. And so
why I feel like it's so hurtful to see how
our people are treated is because as people of different
skin tones are treated differently. My Aalitama, she told me
and my little brother sev On straight up when we
asked her about it. She was like, when I would
come back and forth from Mexico to California, an immigration

(49:12):
officer came up and looked at me and said, oh, hi, ma'am,
how are you doing so good? And then to everyone
else that was dark skinned, because my Awita is very,
very light skin, she looks like a young white woman.
Everyone else they were so mean to and rude because
they assumed that she was white. Colorism is so and
racism is so integrated all around the world. It's integrated

(49:35):
in our own cultures. So I encourage us Latinos to
first look in within ourselves. That's the first step if
we want respect from the world is to try to
fight colorism within ourselves too, not to bat an eye
to that, to embrace that all colors are beautiful, light, dark, yellow, orange, purple,

(49:59):
all beautiful, and then just stem from that. So I've
done a lot of political work. When the Black Lives
Matter movement was spawned by George Floyd, rest in paradise
to him, and I was out on the streets, I
was out with the signs, I was on the front lines,
and I was very thankful for that. And now here,

(50:21):
my circumstances are a little different. I'm alone, I don't
have family around me, I don't have my fiance here.
I don't have my family to go out or friends
to go out and do things like that, So I
feel like my role is a little different here, but
I will still use my voice within reason to stand
up for us. And I'm very proud to be the

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first Latina to be a guest on the Aladdin Broadway.
I'm so proud to be the first woman to have
a solo show on Z one hundred. Not only that
I'm a Latina woman, I feel like my presence in
my career and what I've been trying to do just
being in those rooms are making barriers. And I am
encouraging you to keep using your voice because you being

(51:04):
in those rooms, whatever color you are, is advocating for
and can be a voice for those that are voiceless.
So I just want to give support. I want you
to also guard your heart. I want you to guard
your heart because I remember when I was I was
really involved in the BLM movement, it was it became

(51:25):
overcompassing and it was very hard in my heart and
it became very easily draining. And I can't even imagine
how our black brothers and sisters felt during that movement
and still feel because woheardedly not a whole lot has changed.
It's just now getting pushed to different colors. And thank
you to everyone that's been supporting us Latinos and all

(51:46):
the Latinos that were supporting the BLM movement. They said
one day it's going to be you, and now it's us,
and here we are now and a lot of our
black brothers and sisters, I want to say thank you
for helping us, and not only black, but of all minorities.
And when it turns the corner to another minority, I
hope that we can be a voice for them too,
and just be a voice for what's right, because this

(52:08):
is to me the basis of a racial issue, a
color issue. So I am praying for everyone. Like I said,
I want you to guard your heart and if you
feel like your timeline is just so enthralled by that,
just take a deep breath and just disconnect from that. Obviously,
we can't ignore something, but you do need to stay healthy.
You need to stay mentally healthy first. You can't be

(52:31):
a reasonable voice if you're not sane. So we're going
to keep praying, keep showing love to each other, and
that is my stance on that. So thank you for
being patient with me about that, and I'm very proud
of you for being a voice and trying to be
a voice for people that are just trying to make
it and trying to have the American dream. Awalitos. If

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my dad, if our ancestors didn't take this jump of
faith to be in this beautiful, amazing country, that it
could be. There are amazing parts of it, and there's
still a lot of work. But I am the I
am the seed of an American dream, and you can
be an R two and we all can be and
we all can continue to work together with love and empathy,

(53:16):
I think is the most important thing. And just understand
that if someone doesn't see your view, it's because it's
a lack of education. They just don't know. They probably
don't have people around them that have explained to them
why people work so hard to get into and fight
so hard to get into this country, and why it's
so hard now as it wasn't years ago. Now it's

(53:38):
harder than ever to get into this country. And it
really has a lot to do with racism and honestly money.
So let's all take a deep breath. Let's all just
try to show more love and empathy. That's I can
you know me. I can't ramble and ramble and rant

(53:59):
about these injustices. So I hope you heard me out,
and I love you and I'm really sorry that we're
all going through this together. Now, I think that I've
a yapped your ear off enough for this episode. We're
going to wrap up with our Daily Motivator and our
Daily Prayer, but I definitely want to make sure you're
back for next week's episode. It's going to be big.
We interview another Team mom star, fair Abraham. She's coming

(54:22):
in live. We also interview a machine gun Kelly, which
was insane. He said it was his funnest interview that
he's pretty much ever done. So I'm so geek to
tell you all the details about that. I'll be back
home to do more wedding planning, and I need to
tell you about the wedding planning how it's been going
down with my mother, Sandra, because a girl, I have
a notes app full of just rants about planning with

(54:46):
my mother, who I love so much, but she could
be a lot. So let's get into all of the things.
Our daily motivator today is called m Exceeding Expectations It's
great to exceed your own expectations, but it's also frightening.
You begin to wonder was it a fluke? Can this continue?
It's the catch No, inflact, it was not a fluke.

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You did it, You can do it again, and now
is a good time to begin. When you fall off
a horse, the best response is to get right back on.
When your performance exceeds your expectations, then raise those expectations
even higher. Yes, you're an unfamiliar territory, so start doing
all you can to make it more familiar. The evidence
of your increased capability is clear except that evidence. Get

(55:30):
yourself used to it and continue to move forward at
higher and higher levels. Eoh, I kind of love that
wait insane because I feel like I think I even
told you about that, how I felt like, Oh my
godsh is my own show, and I'm doing it myself.
I don't want to, Like, I want to work hard,

(55:50):
and I want to do all the things, but I
don't know what else there is to do, Like I
feel like I've done a lot of it, but then
I get asked to do Broadway, and then I'm hanging
out with Janelle Evans and then I'm playing you know,
it's like life is still there is always room for up,
and I don't want you to forget that too. I
feel like sometimes we're so stuck in a wheel where
it's like what are we? Where are we moving to?

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What's the next step? Is there even a next step?
But you would really be surprised. So I'm happy that
I heard that. That definitely was needed for me, and
I hope that it motivated you. So it's our daily
motivator for the day. Let's move on to our daily prayer.
Don't feel pressured. If you're not the praying type, you

(56:33):
don't have to stay. Thank you so so much for
hanging out with another episode of Crystal's night Cap. If
you're not familiar with praying, but you're like, oh, I
want to see what this is about. What do we
got to say tonight? Then why don't you just stick around?
If you're not used sticking around, why don't you just
see what's up today, see what prayers actually do. But
if not, thank you so so so much. I love, love,
love you, and I'll see you on the next one.

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This is a book called Jesus Calling and Enjoining Peace
in His Presence by Sarah young. You can find it
on Amazon so you can do this daily prayer every
day even without me. This one says you are my
beloved child. I chose you before the foundation of the
world to walk with me along paths designed uniquely for you.
Concentrate on keeping it in step with me instead of

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trying to anticipate my plans for you. We're just talking
about that. If you trust that MY plans are to
prosper you and not to harm you, you can relax
and enjoy the present moment. Your hope and your futures
are rooted in heaven, where eternal ecstasy awaits you. Nothing
can rob you of your inheritance of unimaginable riches and
well being. Sometimes I grant you glimpses of your glorious

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future to encourage you and spur you on, but your
main focus should be staying close to me. I set
the pace in keeping with your needs and my purposes.
Ephesians one, four, Proverbs sixteen nine, Jeremiah twenty nine to eleven,
Ephesians one thirteen fourteen. Oh, that was so good to
hear all is just said with that. Wow, man, that

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was so good. I feel like that's so important to hear,
and I try. I try so hard to push us
that we need to stay present. I feel like today
was an example of me staying as present as I could.
I can't wait to tell you next week about my
interview with MGK. But it was like jaw dropping in

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so many facets. We were just talking about this, how
like you feel like sometimes you're just what's the next thing,
and you're just on a wheel. And that's not how
we should be living. We should be living present. We
should be literally smelling the roses, smelling the senses, just
being happy. That's what you deserve. That's what we deserve,

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is to find joy in this moment right now. And
it's true, like God has a plan, So if you're
not taking that time I'm you, you can't prosper. If
you trust that my plans are to prosper you and
not to harm you, you can relax and enjoy the
present moment. That's what this just said. It's aid concentrate

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on keeping in step with me instead of trying to
anticipate my plans for you. Sometimes you get a glimpse
of your glorious future, and that's to encourage you and
spur you. But your main focus should be staying close
to God, because God sets the pace. And I feel
like a lot of times too, we want things now,

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or we look around and see how everyone else is moving,
You're like, why can't I be that? Why? Why did
she get engaged for me? Why did they get a promotion?
I still haven't gone a promotion. Why are they homeowners
and I'm still renting? Why? Like so many whys? Right,
But that is the number one way to just feel

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pity about yourself. And because I've done it, because I
have been it, and I always and I sometimes see
that around me, and I tell people God's time. God's
time is always perfect, It's never late, It's always perfect.
And it really just reminds me of those years that
I wanted to be away from the Bay. I was
struggling a lot, and I was having a lot of

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messed up things happened to me back home, and I
just wanted to run away, and I wanted to be
in New York so bad, to be somewhere else so bad.
And I got my dream and you know the story,
you know the rest, and then I was put through
so much the first few years I was here until
literally last November I got my own show, and I

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understand now why God put me through all those things.
I really understand. I could not be the person I
am to the afternoon drive in New York City if
it wasn't for all that that I went through. I
can't be the fiance that I am to my future
husband if it wasn't for all those things. I can't
be the daughter, thea, the coworker, the sister, the older

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cousin if I didn't go through all those things. And
so I really pray that if you're in that area
of feeling like, dang, this person gets this. When is
it my turn? When is it my shot? You know,
I feel like I'm trying and I'm working. Pray, stay present,
be thankful, Be thankful, because so many people wish that

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they could be you. So many people wish that they
had your blessings and your quote your quote problems are
actually your blessings. And if we don't stay present, we're
just going to either be depressed or we're going to
have about the past, or we're gonna have anxiety about
the future. And I've been at both. I've been at both,

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and I do not want that for you. So I
hope that this helps you to when you feel those
those thoughts, be like it's okay, God's time. My time
is not here yet. I'm gonna be thankful that I
have a bed. I'm gonna be thankful that I have
a job. I'm gonna be thankful that I'm on unemployment.

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I'm gonna be thankful that. You know, I'm struggling right now.
But at least to have a roof, you know, I
least to always have food. I at least always have
a way to get food. At least to always have TikTok.
I mean that too, that that is a drug within
itself that I've been finding myself. And I've told you
that I've had, like I have sometimes addiction to TikTok

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in my phone. Whenever I'm alone in my apartment, I
just feel alone. Instead of wanting to go out and
explore the world, I just like kind of want to
forget everything and just go into my phone. And so
I yesterday I was like, I'm gonna go to yoga
and I'm gonna go to take a hot tub. And
I felt really happy at doing that, and I felt
like I'm just not wasting away in my bed because

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I do that, and I hope that this helped you today.
And I just want you to remember that giving thanks
giving yourself, grace, and giving thinks is one of the
best ways to stay present. So whenever you are feeling anxiety,
whenever you are feeling depression, whenever you are feeling comparison,

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just think, you know, I don't know what they're going through.
That's awesome for them. They could be going through tough
things as well. But let me say thank you for
what I have right now and continue to say thank
you as much as you can. I hope that this
helped you. Thank you so much again. Another episode of
Crystal's Nightcap. I'm back next weekend. Next week until that
on Everything at Lack, Crystal ro Sauce and I love, love,
love you