Crooked Butterfly Podcast

Crooked Butterfly Podcast

This is me, sharing where I'm arriving in thoughts, perspectives, and ideas after a dynamic 21 years serving in the Marine Corps and wrestling with "Who Am I"; authentically, and Who Do I Want To Be" now that the military construct is not forcibly shadowing my life. I've found that Nature and tackling the physical & emotional challenges of ultra endurance adventuring provide more insight and clarity on the why's of my experiences and the where's that I can seek for continued personal growth.

Episodes

December 12, 2025 17 mins

The more I observe and talk about these things, the more I think I sound like my father.

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Sharing why I decided to start fasting once a week for 36 hours and where it took me.




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November 27, 2025 20 mins

I was checking in with myself around being so irritable, grumpy, negative, and complainy the past few days and made a commitment to auto-correct. Sharing my thought process and steps to unwind it all.

It was working great until I went to Whole Foods...

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November 21, 2025 25 mins

I get asked quite a bit about how to create culture.

The simple answer is you don't create it, you're living it.

You don't start out with a blueprint of how to create a culture. You begin by living the values you've spent time thinking about and invested in upholding ruthlessly and consistently.


 

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November 13, 2025 20 mins

If you give a little of something you have to someone who needs a little of that something - the net value is greater.


It might not work with the numbers & maths, but it's absolutely true for the things that matter most.

 

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November 6, 2025 18 mins

Call it whatever you want, it still is so much more than can be described.

You can't use loyalty to capture it and likely a distorted concept of loyalty would ruin what would be the greater part of the sentiment.


Using our recent Annual Elk Camp Trip to try to build the picture of what I'm trying to talk about. Maybe it wasn't as well spoken as it feels or sits in my head & heart.

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I generally have to manage my first reaction & pop up thoughts anytime someone talks to me with their arms folded across their chest or hands on their hips. More so with strangers than with knowns, but even still.

There's  lot of suggested non verbal communication and room for misinterpretation for sure. However, the majority of the time there's a trend or pattern of something - righteousness, dominance, arrogance, ego...

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October 23, 2025 23 mins

A little clean up from last week's ending.

People are messy. Life is complex. I believe that most people are good and well intended. Driven be self-interest to varying degrees, but that doesn't necessarily mean we are wrong or bad.

Giving some tolerance & allowance for each other and ourselves to be messy w/o a major character flaw indictment, to be personally ok when others show up and elicit some sort of injury within...

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October 16, 2025 38 mins

Kind of a babble this evening talking about spam email & phone calls through feeling guilty or held hostage by those free return labels that come in the mail.

Not sure what prompted me to start a little rant about shit talkers and gossip champs leading into 'consider the source'. But maybe there's a full circle in there somewhere.

Mostly not a heavy or deep session other than just listening to myself talk to let th...

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October 9, 2025 43 mins

I've been asked for my thoughts/opinions regarding the Pete Hegseth address in Quantico last week. I was reluctant to share for the better part of the last few days as I am with the Tim Kennedy Stolen Valor discussion. But here I am, not speaking about it politically and almost as a bit of a continuation from last weeks struggle bus regarding the world & our country's state of the human element. 

'Holding the Midd...

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October 3, 2025 35 mins

Seems like the world is crazy and so full of ignorance, hate, & confusion. Not sure what it's all about, how we got here, or if even half of it isn't just sensationalized.

The last few weeks I can't seem to shake the 'looping' on it all. In my head, when I try to break away from productivity sprints to refresh & refocus, I feel consumed with frustration and sadness; even anger, about the "news&q...

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September 25, 2025 24 mins

After a long break, I'm digging back into sharing stories and my internal dialogue about life, leadership, and random thoughts.

During my break I haven't been just slacking off; Connor and I have been writing a book on Leadership and these Identity Circles I've been working on. I've been engaged with a lot of material with Diesel Day & 'Checking In w/ the Left Hand' Framework, as well as, putting an...

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October 1, 2024 22 mins

Some story telling and reflections that a Wolf Spider gave me regarding Resilience and Persistence.

How we've let learned behaviors get transferred into areas of our lives where they don't belong...

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July 13, 2024 24 mins

Wrapping up a year of sobriety and processing the take-aways that I couldn't have scripted going into the journey.

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June 1, 2024 25 mins

I'm at no shortage of receiving conversations about what I could, should, or need to being doing; personally & professionally.

Most of the time I'm required to wonder if I'm getting opinion, advice, or counsel.

What I'm finding as a common theme is that the more someone offers answers vs questions, the quality ( for my best interest ) of what they are delivering goes lower and lower.

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Coming out of the trough (again) after a few really hard weeks of trying to simply hold on. As I get better and better at managing/ navigating these times I somehow still keep finding myself back in them.

After a recent procedure in Annapolis, I'm finding myself happier & more productive than I've been in the past few years. I'm also in a place recognizing what needs to happen to break the cycle of going...

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December 14, 2023 42 mins

Coming back from running a 40h marathon in TN and sharing some thoughts, observations, and where I'm focusing on personal growth.

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November 29, 2023 64 mins

Talking about the importance of Self Care not only for a leader but also as an example for their people. it's about creating an appropriate balance to keep operating levels for individuals at a high.

We also introduce setting good boundaries for leaders and their relationships. Healthy boundaries that support growth, expectations, & professional relationships through consistency.

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November 21, 2023 33 mins

Connor and I exploring out loud trying to tease the subtleties & nuances that differentiate experts and masters. Not the sheer skill aspect, more of the 'soft' skills/ traits as it helps us inform our discussion on Leadership.

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We what happens when we reward; whether it's through praise, recognition, opportunity, award, etc.  always results and absent effort? Same thing holds true in reverse. What are the unintended consequences on our audience that is excluded in the reward.

It's not as simple as acknowledging everyone for their unique contributions. And, everyone is wired to respond differently to different types of rewards. 

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