Inner Integration Podcast

This episode explores the tangle between your defenses and your desire to be free. We'll expose the illusion of “feeling good” as a false measure of healing, revealing how defense mechanisms like avoidance, numbing, suppressing, fixing and bypassing often mask deeper trauma loops. This is a journey from escapism into embodiment, from coping into coherence. We’ll explore the false construct of comfort as a marker of healing and...

After five years of silence, Meredith returns for a soul-stirring exploration of the personal, ancestral, and collective trauma we’ve been carrying—often in silence. In this soul-baring premiere of Season 2, she shares the deeper story behind her absence—a journey through ego reckoning, ancestral integration, and the collective trauma that weaved it all together. This episode explores the shadows of performance, the courage of with...

In this episode, we will explore the importance of setting and maintaining boundaries even during difficult times like now.

You’ll get 9 tips to set healthy boundaries in general plus some specialized tips on how to deal with toxic people.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how to identify a manipulator when you set a boundary.

The guided meditation part will help you understand how your body sen...

In this episode, we will explore some ways that you can make the best of the quarantine and time at home. 

You’ll find out about some practical exercises that you can do to rescue yourself when intense emotions come up, especially if you already have CPTSD.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how important it is to allow for the grieving process. 

You’ll understand why your past traumas and the recovery work you’re doing are goin...

In this episode, we will explore deeper into the narcissist’s discard, when they throw you away like an object.

You’ll find out about 5 reasons why the narcissist might have discarded you.

You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how the discard is different than No Contact.

You’ll finally understand why the discard is so painful and what you can do about it now.

Cord Cutting & Energetic Pro...

In this episode, we will explore 5 common narcissistic fleas.

You’ll finally understand why you might have taken on unhealthy behaviors, mindsets and habits via contact with narcissists.

You’ll also find out the most important thing you need to do before you can get rid of the fleas.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how to reprogram yourself so you can get rid of these dysfunctional patterns.

In this episode, we will explore how abusers use gaslighting to cancel the reality of their victims. 

You’ll finally understand how similar this pattern is when it happens in interpersonal relationships, family and society.

You’ll also find out how to recognize covert forms of gaslighting through doublespeak. 

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how this erasure of reality applies to the recent novel coronavirus pandemic.

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In this episode, we will explore the false guilt that you might feel upon setting boundaries.

You’ll finally understand exactly what happens when you set boundaries with toxic people.

You’ll also find out about the particular type of manipulator who is the master of the guilt-tripping tactic and how to see this coming a mile away.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn the 3 most important guidelines for se...

In this episode, we will explore the dangers of fantasy on an individual and collective level.

You’ll finally understand more about why you might have developed the habit of fantasizing since childhood and how that can be affecting your life now.

You’ll also find out about common fantasies like the rescue fantasy, unconditional love, idealization and oneitis.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn some hel...

In this episode, we will explore the topic of narcissistic abuse in society during the last decade and where that might lead in the next one.

You’ll finally understand more about how the patterns of narcissistic abuse shows up in the world through real life examples.

You’ll also find out how you can participate in creating solutions.

You’ll get the opportunity to do an exercise to help you wrap up the ...

In this episode, we will explore the topic of malignant narcissism and how to recognize the #1 sign.

You’ll finally understand what differentiates narcissists from malignant narcissists.

You’ll get the opportunity to hear real life examples of malignancy vs. non-malignancy so you can evaluate where on the spectrum are the narcissists in your life.

You’ll also find out how you can discover the silver li...

In this episode, we will explore the topic of the narcissism pandemic in our world today.

You’ll finally understand why it seems like they all read the same book no matter which country, race, gender and socio-economic class they come from.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how this narcissism pandemic is spreading across the world.

You’ll find out how the institutions of psychology and psychiatry are ...

In this episode, we will explore the topic of having compassion with boundaries.

You’ll finally understand why compassion becomes toxic when it doesn’t have limits.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn how to set boundaries around your compassion.

You’ll find out how you can intentionally overcome the guilt, shame and self-doubt that you’ll likely feel when you set limits on your compassion.

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In this episode, we will explore the topic of narcissistic abuse in society and the family through the 2019 Joker movie.

You’ll find out how people could unconsciously allow resentment, bitterness and the injustices of the world to turn them into the monster who hurt them.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn more about covert abuse in the family, even when the abusers are also victims.

You’ll finally u...

In this episode we will explore the topic of what happens when we don’t get a secure attachment in childhood.

You’ll finally understand why it’s normal that you keep repeating the same story from childhood with different characters now as an adult.

You’ll find out about the importance of facing the truth about your life so you can heal and feel free from the past.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn wha...

In this episode we will explore the topic of reactive abuse where the abuser focuses on your reaction to the abuse instead of the abuse.

You’ll finally understand why it’s normal that you reacted the way you did.

You’ll find out about 5 steps to restore your integrity and power if you fell into this trap.

You’ll get the opportunity to figure out how to handle these situations in a more empowering way.

In this episode, we will explore the challenge of getting stuck during the recovery process and not knowing how to move forward. 

You’ll find out about why it’s normal that you could get stuck at certain common points along the way. Almost everyone goes through this!

You’ll get the opportunity to figure out in which of these points you are currently stuck and how to get unstuck. You can come back to this episode a...

In this episode we will explore the challenge of recovering your integrity and self-worth after disappointing experiences in dating and relationships. 

You’ll find out about why it’s important to identify your values, then to set standards and boundaries around those in order to raise your self-worth and maintain it moving forward. 

You’ll get the opportunity to do exploration exercises to find out what most matte...

In this episode we will explore the challenging and confusing topic of forgiving, or not, those who abused you.

You’ll find out about why spiritual bypassing is dangerous and how it’s used to force forgiveness.

You’ll get the opportunity to learn about codependent forgiveness and how it’s detrimental to your wellbeing.

You’ll also learn 8 steps that you can put into place to help yourself work toward fo...