Ep 59 | TRAILER | Finding Love Within: A Journey of Self-Discovery and Acceptance feat. King Cas Ajani

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For me as a developing adult, that really warpedmy idea around relationships in general. So
I developed quite late when it comes to howto have quote unquote normal relationships
without my brain doing 10,000 miles an hourbecause everything was so topsy-turvy growing

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up.
If somebody does something to me, close or no,and I express that, hey, I don't like that
thing that you do. And if they decide to door say whatever to try and turn things around
on me when all I did was set a boundary, thenthat person can be loved from a distance. I'm

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not going to develop disrespect towards them.I'm not going to talk ill of them. I'm not
gonna tell the whole world what they did becauseI also understand that when people do dumb
stuff like that, they usually tend to be goingthrough something that other people don't know
about. It's not a justification, but you know,people when they act out, sometimes there are

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symptoms of something that you probably don'teven understand.
And she said to me, oh, you know, it's goodto see you looking good and so on and so forth.
And I was like, thank you very much. And thenshe said something interesting, completely
out of a good heart, no, no malice whatsoever.Completely out of a good heart. She goes, I'm

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just so glad that you finally met someone whomakes you so happy. I was like, huh? I was
like, no, sis, I'm, I'm single. She's like,what? I thought you was all loved up. I was
like, no, not at all. Like, I mean, I'm lovedup with me. I said, what you're seeing is that
I've dug a well of love within myself. Becausewhen I start thinking about how I get when

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I have a romantic interest in somebody, oh man,I'm ready to fly from here to the moon. But
when have I flown to the moon for myself? Itold you internal conversation. I've had to
sort out that internal dialogue as well. ThereI go. Typing a love letter on my phone. When
have you said these words to yourself? Legit.And I had to be honest with myself at the time.

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and be like, I haven't.