Ep 62 | TRAILER | Honouring Memories & Building Legacies: A Story of Love and Loss feat. Amit Kalley

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It was a decision for my mum to make. She onlytold the rest of her siblings, you know, when
it was sort of near the end. And again, herchoice, right? It's not for me to take that
decision away from her. So I don't rememberthe exact moments of when people, you know,
friends and families and family and all of thatwere told. But yeah, she made, she made her

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own decisions. It was important that we lether make her own decisions. Of course, we argued
about them. We disagreed about them. and wediscussed them, but ultimately the final say
would always be hers because it was her diagnosis,it was her cancer, it was her going through
it, not me. I was a bystander, a helpless bystanderthat could do absolutely nothing.

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You could see, you know, the body was beginningto, you know, her ability to walk was beginning
to, you know, it was disappearing, her abilityto communicate was getting less and less. To
try and speak was a real effort for her. Itwas the beginning of the end, ultimately, that
year and a half before where she was fighting.You know, there were real high moments and
real good moments. That period was, you know,was probably when, I think, when this conversation

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happened. And it was, I didn't know what tosay to her. I just cried, I just sat there
and cried. And I just, you know, like a baby.I just cried like a baby. I couldn't control
how I was because, you know, I wasn't strong.You know, I wasn't strong. I may have put this
persona that I was strong, but I wasn't. I wascrumbling. I was falling apart inside because

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I just, I couldn't face this.
I put out a post a couple of weeks ago on mysocials about the fact that you know I am beginning
to forget you know I'm forgetting what she soundedlike what her accent was like I'm beginning
to forget the way she spoke I've also forgottenhow she looked in real life you know I look

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at photos all the time but I've forgotten ifyou told me to describe her standing in front
of me and I'm really scared about that I'm reallyscared about forgetting and I talked to people
who lost parents you know 10, 15, 20 years agoand they're all on the same journey, but there's
that horrible fear that I've got inside of meof forgetting. This episode will go live this

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