I Ended Up Having No Armor At All - December 12th 2025

December 12th 2025

In this episode, Yuriy, a journalist-turned-soldier, reflects on his experiences with body armor during his reporting years in conflict zones such as Syria, Iraq, and Gaza. He explains his decision to forgo wearing body armor due to its cumbersome nature and the logistical challenges it presented. Reflecting on the early days of his military service during the full-scale war in his country, he discusses the difficulties in acquiring suitable protective gear and the realization that body armor has an expiration date. Facing an uncertain future, he hopes that the war will end before his current body armor becomes unreliable.

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 It is December 12th.

In my former life as a reporter, I eventually started neglecting my body armor. And that's easy to explain: it is heavy, takes up a lot of space, it is hot inside it, and it's difficult to move. I always took a helmet with me to every dangerous assignment, Syria, Iraq, Gaza, and so on. But the west I carried far from always did I ever regret, not taking it with me? No, at least I don't remember ever regretting it. Did I regret it when I did bring the vest? Almost every single time. I had to look for a bag big enough to fit it, pay huge extra fees for its excessive weight at airports, and once the border guards confiscated it from me, right upon arrival for the Arab Spring in Cairo- it just sat in the warehouse for two weeks until I flew back. Essentially, I just took the vest on a round trip to Africa at my own expense. And it is very hard to run in it, especially with asthma: getting into a car or an APC is a struggle and clothing under it gets ruined very quickly from friction and sweat. Long story short, at some point I simply decided I was not going to take it anymore -that a helmet alone was really enough for me.

I even justified that decision with Vietnam War era statistics claiming what the likelihood of suffering a severe head injury was much higher than getting hit in the body by a bullet or shrapnel. I did not know how accurate those numbers really were, but they suited me, so I clung to them. The helmet did save me a few times. It took hits from the stones and tear gas grenades, it served as my pillow, my chair, and my hammer. At one point, I just gave my body armor to a friend who was heading into a dangerous place and told him he could keep it. I said that it only collected dust and took up space. So when the full scale war came to my own country, I ended up having no armor at all.

In the first weeks of the war, they gave me a strange old plate carrier with large, heavy plates. It was poorly sewn and fell apart very quickly. I tried to find a new carrier for the plates that remained, but it turned out those plates were completely non-standard and simply did not fit into normal carriers.

I had to buy new plates- with the money raised through this podcast -ordered from Austria, they arrived very quickly and fit perfectly into standard vest. Honestly, I don't remember whether I read the markings on those plates at that time or not, but recently I took them out of the vest and accidentally noticed that they have an expiration date. They are not eternal and in fact not very long lasting. Mine are good until June 2027. What happens after that is hard to say. As far as I understand, some kind of composite material, which makes the plates somewhat lighter than the solid metal ones, will start losing its properties and won't be as strong as before. Of course, they won't crumble into dust in July 2027, but they won't be as reliable as we are now.

I hope I won't be serving in the army long enough for that date to matter, that the war will be over before then. But there is no guarantee at all. In the winter of 2022.    When I went into the Army, I thought it would be for a few weeks, maybe a couple of months, but I've been serving for almost four years now. June 2027 is already much closer than February 2022. 

Episode Transcript

(00:00):
It is December 12th.
In my former life as areporter, I eventually started
neglecting my body armor.

And that's easy to explain (00:07):
it is heavy, takes up a lot of space, it is hot
inside it, and it's difficult to move.
I always took a helmet with meto every dangerous assignment,
Syria, Iraq, Gaza, and so on.
But the west I carried far from alwaysdid I ever regret, not taking it with me?

(00:31):
No, at least I don'tremember ever regretting it.
Did I regret it when I did bring the vest?
Almost every single time.
I had to look for a bag big enough tofit it, pay huge extra fees for its
excessive weight at airports, and oncethe border guards confiscated it from

(00:53):
me, right upon arrival for the ArabSpring in Cairo- it just sat in the
warehouse for two weeks until I flew back.
Essentially, I just took the vest on around trip to Africa at my own expense.
And it is very hard to run in it,especially with asthma: getting into

(01:13):
a car or an APC is a struggle andclothing under it gets ruined very
quickly from friction and sweat.
Long story short, at some pointI simply decided I was not going
to take it anymore -that a helmetalone was really enough for me.
I even justified that decision withVietnam War era statistics claiming what

(01:37):
the likelihood of suffering a severehead injury was much higher than getting
hit in the body by a bullet or shrapnel.
I did not know how accurate thosenumbers really were, but they
suited me, so I clung to them.
The helmet did save me a few times.
It took hits from the stones andtear gas grenades, it served as my

(02:00):
pillow, my chair, and my hammer.
At one point, I just gave my body armor toa friend who was heading into a dangerous
place and told him he could keep it.
I said that it only collecteddust and took up space.
So when the full scale warcame to my own country, I ended
up having no armor at all.

(02:22):
In the first weeks of the war,they gave me a strange old plate
carrier with large, heavy plates.
It was poorly sewn andfell apart very quickly.
I tried to find a new carrierfor the plates that remained, but
it turned out those plates werecompletely non-standard and simply
did not fit into normal carriers.

(02:44):
I had to buy new plates- with the moneyraised through this podcast -ordered
from Austria, they arrived very quicklyand fit perfectly into standard vest.
Honestly, I don't remember whether Iread the markings on those plates at
that time or not, but recently I tookthem out of the vest and accidentally

(03:04):
noticed that they have an expiration date.
They are not eternal and infact not very long lasting.
Mine are good until June 2027.
What happens after that is hard to say.
As far as I understand, some kind ofcomposite material, which makes the plates
somewhat lighter than the solid metalones, will start losing its properties

(03:28):
and won't be as strong as before.
Of course, they won't crumble intodust in July 2027, but they won't
be as reliable as we are now.
I hope I won't be serving in the armylong enough for that date to matter,
that the war will be over before then.

(03:49):
But there is no guarantee at all.
In the winter of 2022.
When I went into the Army, I thoughtit would be for a few weeks, maybe
a couple of months, but I've beenserving for almost four years now.
June 2027 is already muchcloser than February 2022.