Like so many of us with antenatal anxiety, Natalie downplayed her symptoms and clung to the belief that she would find relief from the all-consuming worry and insomnia when her baby was finally in her arms. But instead of finding relief after birth, Natalie’s symptoms only grew stronger.
In this heartfelt episode, Natalie shares in excruciating detail the messiness of mental health during pregnancy and recounts how a flare of her pre-existing autoimmune disease and a ‘high-risk’ label only fuelled her tireless need for reassurance: fixating on the baby’s movements, counting down the days until the next scan at the hospital, scouring Facebook groups to compare stories, and trying to interpret doppler readings on Google.
This is a story I hear all too often, and one that I personally know all too well.
This is a story about the human mind’s desperate attempts to find safety from constant anxiety and insomnia.
This is a story about deep love and deep fear, and how closely those can exist side-by-side.
This is part one of Natalie’s raw and profoundly relatable story.
If you’ve ever felt consumed by anxiety in pregnancy or early postpartum, or know someone who has, this episode is for you.
Please note, this episode discusses suicidal ideation. Go gently.
EPISODE SPONSOR
This episode of Perinatal Stories Australia is proudly sponsored by Mums Matter Psychology—because your mental health matters.
Frances and her expert team of psychologists, social workers, and occupational therapists are passionate about providing affordable, high-quality mental health care for pregnant women and parents with children up to 4 years old.
Through Medicare bulk-billed therapy sessions—up to 20 at no cost to you—they make support accessible to everyone. If you’re in Victoria, visit one of their welcoming clinic locations. Outside Victoria? Their nationwide Telehealth services bring care to your fingertips.
Mums Matter Psychology also offers a range of online therapy groups and webinars, providing additional ways to access support and connect with others on a similar journey.
Ready to take the next step? Visit mumsmatterpsychology.com to learn more and book your appointment today.
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MADE WITH LOVE by Rebecca (host, founder, storyteller) x
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