January 30, 2024 • 53 mins
Shayla returns in this great episode of catching up between her and Payton. On the tail end of the first full moon in 2024 which was in the sign of Leo, the two discuss how they noticed the energy effecting their weeks surrounding. Not only had the full moon created some speed bumps but the two also talked about how so far this year they had both been experiencing a lot of changes in their spiritual experiences. Shayla shares how she had been having very heavy dreams and talks about the phenomenon of awakening within the dream. Payton then shares some dreams he had been having along with a resignation of his ability to physically see Spirit with his naked eye again.
They both end the show with a beautiful card reading that not only did they know was going to touch a lot of listeners, but they both share how this reading really hit home for both of them. A lot of reminders around personal empowerment, self worth healing and specifically around issues surrounding self image.
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Meg Bartlett Oracle and Dream Expert
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All right.
Hello everybody.
Welcome to the show.
I'm excited to be back,you know, Payton was.
There last week already he wasdoing a solo episode while I kind
of navigated some life thingshappening in my life right now.
So I'm happy to be back and happy tobe sitting here with Payton today.
It's a Friday and I think we both hada little bit of a week, so we're like
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excited just to chill out and justhave a conversation and just talk about
certain things that have been happeningin our life and talk about a little bit
of like the full moon energy too thatpassed here with the full moon, in Leo,
which is actually one of my favorite.
Full moons.
I love the Leo energy so much.
So excited to have you all here listening.
Yay.
Welcome back.
I'm so excited that you're back.
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Yeah, I know it's been, it's been solong for us because we had to take
a break with, Christmas and just theholiday season and stuff like that.
And we were supposed to gettogether last week, right.
But Things just was adifficult day for me.
So
I really appreciate you.
We're back now.
And yeah, we're here.
Yeah.
We're back now and we'reready to, to get it going.
So, so tell me why is, the fullmoon we just had yesterday,
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like you said, full moon in Leo.
Why is that your favorite,one of your favorites?
Okay.
So for the Leo full moon, I just alwaysfeel Just so much uplifting energy, like
it just feels so powerful and empowering.
I guess would be the word.
I always just notice theenergy in the sky too.
Like I think out of all the moons,I'm always gravitated and I'll
be like, Oh, what moon is it?
Like, which full moon is it?
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And so, Leo, that I always just likenotice the most, I feel literally
just like, This energy that radiates,when it comes out in so much.
So like for me, when I tap into thatenergy, it's really about speaking my, my
voice and just allowing myself to be seen.
and that can even just be like, well,what are my desires in my life right now?
What do I want to do in mylife that I've held back?
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And I've maybe been a little bit moreshy to pursue or, you know, that kind
of thing where it just, it's really likea pedestal energy where you can kind of
like go on top of it and just like itcan kind of carry you a bit, which is why
I really like it so I've been using itfor sure and I feel like it's a good, a
very timely energy right now for me toobecause I'm kind of in this phase right
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now where I'm making decisions in mylife of okay, what do I want to do next?
Where do I want to go?
you know, how do I want to use my timeand You know, my gifts in this world.
So yeah, it's a good energy.
How about you?
What, how do you feel with this?
Leo energy.
I love that.
I, I done a little bit.
Well, let's start with just Leo energy.
I noticed this week.
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This week was a bit of a struggle forme So for those of you, and I am not
completely versed in all astrology,as I have made very clear on this
show, but I am a lifelong student andI will eventually someday fully, I
feel, understand it more, but what I'vebegun to learn is that, you know, my.
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Sun sign is an Aquarius,which is an opposition to Leo.
Aquarius is tend to filter things throughthe lens of everyone else and us as a
group and, and, and the thing as a whole,where Leo energy tends to be more about.
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My role singular, like who am I, youknow, the, the center stage, um, and
these are broad strokes of the brush ofdescriptions, but this is just general.
So when the Leo full moon comesin, I noticed myself this week in
different, aspects and ways I'vehad to refocus my focus on self and.
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you know, relationships with others.
So instead of like always worryingabout how I'm taking care of everyone
else, how do I take care of me?
And, that usually is a great thing, youknow, that is a good positive, mindset
to have, but then, it can also, Ithink it can also cause some friction.
Because, I'm a, like I said, I'm AquariusSun, I'm a Cancer Moon, so I'm very
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much, like, nurturing and taking care ofeveryone, and there's just a lot of that
energy, so then to be forced to kind ofgo the other direction, I don't know.
I have found some, some trialsand tribulations with that.
And maybe to a point of like, why do Igive so much to all these places and,
to every, you know, to all these others.
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And, and am I getting theright, amount of that back?
You know, am I getting the right,is it being reciprocated in a,
you know, Appropriate way for theamount that I'm always giving.
so I, for me, it was a littlebit of a struggle because I, it
kind of, it goes against whatI'm comfortable in flowing in.
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And so it's, it's just beeninteresting, but it, it feels like
there is like a positive lessonor a positive growth moment.
So, at the end, but it wasn'tnecessarily the smoothest week I've
had, cause it challenged a lot ofdifferent areas of my day to day.
you know, and I don't know, it isinteresting, you know, one thing that
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every time a full moon comes aroundand I kind of feel into which ones I
notice a little bit more than others.
I then always naturally go to the thoughtof, you know, did I notice this before?
Did I not notice it before?
Is it just because I'm payingattention, but I don't necessarily.
I do have an app on my phone that showsme what moon we're in, but I don't,
you know, I don't make necessarilydecisions or focus too much on it.
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I just kind of, you know, I get thenotification and I reflect, but it
does feel like the energy in Leo is astronger, like there is a little bit more
power behind that energy with this moon.
So, I would be curious, youknow, I wonder if, yeah.
Um, all of you out there listening, if,if you follow, you know, if you follow
your moon, the moon cycles and what signit's in, if you track it all, if you
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feel, more pulled in one direction oranother with the different signs that
it's in, or even, especially with Leo,I would love to hear from some of you
out there, you know, kind of, if youhad anything similar come up for you.
Yeah, for sure.
I really like how you said, too,it wasn't the most comfortable
thing because that's so true.
Like, sometimes we're in these energiesand they don't feel natural to us and
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so it's like Really give yourself someopportunity for some self reflection and
kind of like going beyond your comfortzone What you normally would right
and I think like what you mentionedtoo about, you know I'm very much
like that to like that cancer energyIt's my sun sign so it is always like
for other people and then when I stepback and think okay What do I need?
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It's like really hard to putmyself in the spotlight, right?
That's a challenge for sure.
So Yeah, definitely.
Like I needed that energy to kind oflike help me have that confidence,
especially in like the last for me tolike last week, it's been like a lot
of looking into things and decisionmakings and I have a lot of family
stuff happening at the same time.
And right.
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Yeah.
Interesting how we can, like, if we chooseto tap into that energy and kind of go
in the flow with it, it can be A reallybeautiful to kind of help elevate our
lives and open our energy up a bit more.
Right.
I, it's interesting as I've sharedI, you know, I pull cards for myself
daily and it's just kind of part of mylittle morning ritual and, um, A lot of
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cards were coming up about, this weekfor me about, strongly standing up for
yourself, but in a compassionate way,and there was a lot of compassion, like
Quan Yin kept popping up in my, cards.
And if you were familiar with her,she's the goddess of compassion
and, You know, all these things.
and then Archangel Ariel kept showing up.
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She also is that like powerfulenergy, but to do it in a, you know,
in a more peaceful, tactful way.
so it was interesting because thatthe, the way it challenged me, you
know, it kind of was like, well, I'mnot putting up with this anymore.
I'm raw, you know?
And that was like theenergy I wanted to go.
And like, you know, I apologizeto everyone that works for me.
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Cause I was probably not the softest.
Person this week in certain moments,but, or some of my clients actually.
But, um, it, you know, it was justthis energy that's like, no, I'm
not, I'm standing up for myself.
I'm going to, I'm gonna take care of me.
but I was glad that I kept gettingthose cards because then like, I would
have, I would feel into that and belike, you know, yes, that's true, but
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move through it in a compassionate waybecause that's gonna get you further.
Then the reaction.
So that was, so I'm very gratefulthat I kind of, I had a little
bit of guidance along the way.
Yeah,
no, for sure.
And compassion.
It's like, that's the key word, right?
For sure.
For sure.
And I have to say, I do have to givelike a bit of a shout out, the only,
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not the only reason, but, I took anastrology course a little while ago.
It was actually in the fall.
by, we had her on ourshow, Emily and her stars.
I will put her in the show notes.
She offers, this like intro to astrology.
It was so incredibly helpful.
And I just can't.
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Praise the way that she teaches quiteenough the way, I mean, astrology is
such a complex system of information andit's, there's just so many layers to it.
There's so many aspects to it.
It is not something thatcan necessarily be mastered.
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I think it's just something you haveto keep being a student of forever.
Um, but the way that she wasable to, dissect the information,
deliver these mass quantities ofinformation in very digestible ways
for a novice learner, Was amazing.
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So Emily, I'm giving you a huge shout outbecause you really helped me feel like I
can at least now have these conversationswithout sounding like a total fool.
So, yeah, so I, I highly.
Yes, so I highly recommend, uh, I believeshe is going to do another course, this
year, possibly another two courses,but I'm not sure how she's, what,
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what she's, uh, working out with that.
However, if that is somethingyou're interested in, I would
highly recommend going to checkher out, Emily and her stars.
She also runs, this communitycalled third eye library.
and that's where she wouldlike ran the courses through.
Um, and I know she offered a discounttoo, if you were a member there.
So, yeah, go check it out.
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I'll put information aboutthat in the show notes.
And, yeah, and she's just,she's, she's just amazing.
I just, I'd love her.
So, okay.
That's, that was my, I waslike, I need, I need to give a
big shout out to Emily today.
She's
definitely like on my top fiveof like the astrologers I follow.
And she always has really funny.
Stories too.
Like I love looking at her stories.
They're always like hilarious andastrology based and spiritual based
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and she just finds all the good stuff.
So definitely
check her out.
I don't know where she finds them.
She always has so many likeon her story and there.
Yeah.
She is odd.
She is on the algorithm.
I think she figured it out in the stars.
She uses that astrology magically.
Yeah,
for sure.
So another thing I wanted to talk about.
And I'm curious, like, if you'vehad anything happen recently.
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I've been having the craziest dreamslately, where I've been having, I
don't know if you've ever had thembefore, like, false awakenings, where
I think I'm actually up, but I'm not.
And so that's been, like, super weird.
And then also, the other day, I had adream where I'm almost like, was I out
of my body and, like, walking around?
Because it happened the setting was inmy room in the hallway and so basically
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in my dream I was up suddenly and Ihad this little lamp by my bed and
it's like a touch lamp so it can go todifferent like shades kind of thing.
And so in my dream, but I thought thiswas real because it just felt so real.
I'm like tapping it and it's not moving.
It's like stuck at one setting.
What the heck?
This is so weird.
I'm tapping it and thensuddenly it turns off.
And I'm like, oh no, the light burnt out.
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That's not good, because it'slike a special light bulb, and
it's a whole thing, so in myhead I'm thinking about this.
And then suddenly I just felt soheavy, like my body felt like it
weighed like a thousand pounds.
And I had this intense feelingthat I was being pushed down.
And then I started to kindof like black in and out.
And then I started trying to walk tomy husband, who was in the other room.
And so in my dream I'm like crawling onthe floor because I can't move and then
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I finally get to him and during thistime when I'm in the hallway I felt like
someone was staring at me like I just feltsuper watched and unsafe like if anybody's
ever had like paranormal encounters orlike ghostly experiences and you've had
that feeling of someone like watching you.
That's what was happening.
And then I was like crawling tomy husband and in my dream, he was
like taking a nap in the other room.
And then in my dream,I couldn't talk either.
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So I was like trying to likespeak and nothing was coming out.
And then I ran or I went up to him and Igrabbed his leg and I was like squeezing
it and trying to get him to wake up.
And then he woke up and that'swhen I woke up for real life.
And that was just, it was such aweird dream because it felt so real.
Like I was like, where am I?
Like, it was so weird.
And just, it So real, but at thesame time, like there was a tone
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to the dream where everythingwas like a little bit darker.
And so I almost feel like,was I walking around my room?
was I astral projecting a little bit?
And not like the funnest astralprojection dream, you know, like I wish
I could have done something more fun.
Yeah.
It was just really weird and usually Ican recognize If I'm dreaming, like if
something was really heavy like that, Ican kind of be like, Oh, I'm dreaming.
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But this time it really just felt so real.
And then I've had dreams latelywhere like, I'll wake up and I'll
see somebody walking into the room,like my husband or one of my kids
and then boom, I like wake up again.
I'm like, what the heck?
So that's been a newexperience in dreaming for me.
and then it was funny cause I wastalking to my sister, one of them,
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and she was saying how recently.
She had a dream with my other sister,and they were almost exactly the same.
So there's like a staircase thattwirled around, and they were both
running away from someone, and itwas like, all these different things
that kind of mushed together, and Iwas like, that's very interesting.
So, I don't know, have you hadany like, Your dreams lately.
I'm curious if it's likea collective thing as well
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or I was having a period not that longago where I was dreaming quite a lot
and I just remember feeling like I washaving a lot of it just felt like I was
doing a lot of work in my dreams andit felt like There was a lot of stuff
happening in my dream space and it wasinteresting because during a meditation
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not that long ago, I was given somemessaging that, was something that I
needed to start really paying attentionto and something that, Was a way that
I'm somehow able to get messaging.
I'm not sure if that is always goingto be something I'm conscious of or
if it's just going to kind of happenand then be in my subconscious.
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I know that got a little out therefor just a second, but for any
of our non spiritual listeners,but, so that's interesting.
You brought that upbecause I've been having.
a lot of stuff around dreaming andsome divine things and all of this.
however, that all being said shouldhave been a pretty big sign to
start writing my dreams down again.
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I did not.
So, I, I know I was having a lot ofheavier dreams that were, that felt very
complex, which just kind of sounds likewhat, you know, you were experiencing.
and I, I remember.
Cause in my dreams, I'm usually awarethat I'm dreaming, but I know what
you're meaning where then there'sthose moments where you think you wake
up and you're not, and you have to belike, Oh wait, I'm still in my dream.
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but, I start trying to understandthose, like something complex would
happen and I would start to try andbreak it down while I'm in the dream.
I'm like, okay, so this must mean thisbecause, you know, I'm like working
the dream while I'm trying to dream.
So I, I was having a lot of that.
So yeah, I wonder what would have been,happening or, you know, if, is there
something astrologically or cosmicallyor whatever, is it just kind of the
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time of year of us kind of our energykind of restarting or kind of like
picking up again or, you know, our,our, our psyche kind of waking up again
after kind of a more restful moment.
you know, I, when you were talking,I remember when we had Meg Bartlett
on our show and she talked a lotabout, what the house represented
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and what each room represented.
so I would, I would journey back throughthat and kind of see if that makes sense.
And then, you know, thatfeeling of like, not.
Not having the power to movethrough something and not having
the power to get somewhere.
Like what could all that be tiedto, but dreams are fascinating.
They
are.
I know.
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And it's funny, like you said, you know,when you're working through your dreams,
like there are some nights when I wakeup and I'm like, I'm so tired because I
didn't feel like properly was resting.
And like, it was like going throughall these different things, like you
were saying and working things out.
And I've had a lot of, like, spiritvisitation dreams too lately, and
it's funny because my grandpa on mydad's side, I probably dream about
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him like three or four times a year,which is so weird because out of all
the people I've lost in my life, I'mlike, you're not the one I want to see.
Like, you know, I didn't have a goodrelationship with him and all that stuff.
And then everyone else, I'm like,oh, I would love to have a dream.
If you in it, it's like really farbetween, like sometimes years in between.
So I'm like, what is this?
Like, but I like, I think I knowwhat he's kind of trying to like You
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know, the messaging that he's tryingto give me, but it's just really
fascinating how we can work throughso many things in our dreams and how
even relationships can be oftentimes.
I don't want to say like fixed, butkind of healed in some ways too, so.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Very fascinating.
So if anybody listening has had anylike weird dreams, I want to hear
about it too, because I'm like, I'mbasically only like having all this like
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intense, like dreaming, like probablythe last, I would say month, it's
just been so crazy in my dream world.
I'm like, am I, am I even here?
I mean, I may be real becauselike, I feel like I'm like living
in these alternate realities.
Are you like, it's just so weird.
It's very interesting.
I'm glad I'm glad you brought thatup because it just reminded me.
Um, and this had to have been, thiswas probably a couple of weeks ago.
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I lost a dog like, well, itwould have been, it'll be too.
It's almost two years ago.
my dog Sophie and she cameand visited me, in my dream.
She pops in every now and then.
and I forgot about that.
So thank you.
Cause that just, I just rememberedlike I'm, I can remember like
that little moment in the dream.
That's the other thing that's kind ofinteresting with dreams is like, you will
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forget them and then you're just going on.
I think we've talked about this beforeand then you're walking through your
day or something happens and youjust go right back to that memory.
And it's just like asplit second, you know?
yeah.
so something interesting that'sbeen happening to me again.
it hasn't happened since I was little.
when I was little, I have very specificmemories of, being able to see spirit
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in my periphery and like, actuallyseeing it with my physical eye.
So objectively, if I ever talkabout objectively and subjectively
objectively is your naked eyesubjectively is in your psychic mind.
but, when I was little,I had that a lot and.
It's been happening again lately, like alot, and it's been so interesting because
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I, it like, I will see something in thecorner of my eye and I know it's a person.
And then I go to look to, because I'mlike almost startled because I knew
there wasn't a person there before.
Like, I'm not even in themindset of this is spirit.
I'm like, I literallythink it's a real human.
And then I go to look and they're gone.
Like it's been happening a lot lately.
So I don't know if it's been reignited.
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Or if it is just because I'm in a spacewhere I'm now my mind is understanding
how all of this works and what's happeningthat, I'm paying attention to it.
Maybe it's been going on forever.
I just ignored it.
but that's been weird.
Do you ever have that?
Yeah.
So that's funny.
When I was younger I did.
I feel like that type of thingreally kind of creeps me out.
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I have been listening to like a lotof ghost stories, podcasts kind of
thing, and so many people experiencethat and like, oh no, like, I don't
want anything to do with that.
You know, but I think it is fascinatingand it really reminds me of my sister
because she used to work in a movietheater and she used to see so many
different like physical things whereshe would be in the building alone
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and suddenly she'd see like an oldman walking and then she'd go and
he'd like literally just disappear.
and then a lot too, there is.
This one, I, maybe I mentioned it before,but there's a staircase that goes up to
the projection area and stuff like that.
Now it's more like digital or whatever,but a room with all the equipments in it.
And my sister had seen this woman alldressed in white, and then she had
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like kind of like blood on her and shewas just like really like distressed.
And so my sister was really freakedout from that situation and then
she ended up finding out through.
A friend that she worked with,like a co worker that someone else
had seen the exact same thing.
And so she was like, Oh my gosh,like it was kind of those moments
where you're like, Oh, I'm notthe only one kind of thing.
So I always thought that wasinteresting too, because there's so
many people going through like a movietheater, like a day kind of thing.
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You get so much different energy.
The land itself is just likefarmland who knows like where it
was at one point too, like way back.
and then even just the electricalcomponent, like so many times.
Like electrical items or technologywill have different energy.
So I don't know.
I thought it was really fascinating, butso many stories, it happens to her a lot
in general, like she's always kind ofseen things more with her physical eye.
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And I've been like, I'm so sorry.
It's terrifying because it's like,you know, especially when you're
little and you see something, you'rejust like, I'm walking with like a
top hat and you're like living roomand then you just like disappears.
It's kind of.
Yeah, it's a littlejarring, but that's cool.
Like, are you, how do you feel about it?
Are you like open to seeingmore or like, does it feel
comfortable compared to before?
How did you feel before you?
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Yeah, I remember there's like,there is like one memory.
I specifically remember when I waslittle, I was sitting in the living
room and it would be, I could seepeople walking into my kitchen.
That was just like a little, it wasn'tnecessarily a hallway, but, And I
remember in that moment, I saw it andthen I, I looked and obviously nothing
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was there and then I sat there andlooked at it again the same way that I
did to see it, you know, like throughmy periphery and I could perfectly
see like it continuing to happen.
and then I, that was like, I don'tremember then what happened after that,
but I remember that specific memory.
I do remember also, It happened oncewhen I was, how old would I have been?
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18, 19, 20 ish.
I had lived at this really old apartmentbuilding and, uh, we had pulled up
one night, getting ready to get outof the car to go in and the door, I
looked up and for like a moment therewas a woman standing in the door.
Like I remember her face and thenI like, I looked down again and
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then I was like, wait a minute.
No one, you're like, thereshouldn't be anyone there.
And she was gone.
so how, do I feel about it?
I'm, I'm very open to it.
I, and I, this, maybe this isignorant of me, but I am not.
Afraid of any of it.
Like it doesn't, it doesn't scare me.
I'm not, you know, I don'tpersonally, believe in spiritual evil.
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That's just my own personalbelief where I'm at today.
You know, as I've said, I'm here before.
I hope I, I hope I'm not like provenwrong or anything, but, to me,
it's more like, you know, what'sthe message that's coming across?
Why am I being shown this?
I don't know.
So yeah, it doesn't scare me.
So I'm open to it.
it's interesting because I had onethe other day very specifically,
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I, I had taken my dog Baxter outand, I was standing there while
he was doing his business and, andI live in an apartment, complex.
I'm, you know, there's a lot ofpeople around and in my periphery
is the door that I come out of and.
Yeah.
I just noticed a woman thatwas walking towards me.
And it was interesting because thenI looked to see, cause I, I didn't
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hear the door open, you know, likeI, to my detriment, I'm constantly
paying attention to everything.
Like I am like, it's maybe it'scause I'm a business owner too.
Like I'm just constantly takingin all information around me.
So.
You know, I, I was like, Oh, Ididn't even notice she was there.
And so I go to look and she wasn't there.
But then all of a sudden I startedgetting all this like psychic information.
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It was like, she was a nurse and shelike, you know, she was wearing all white,
but it was like a nurse of yesteryear.
It wasn't like, you know, it waslike all the steps started coming in.
And, And then that was it.
I don't have any more, you know,so I don't know if it's, you know,
she's going to end up being forsomeone that I read for later.
and I didn't, you know, usuallywhen spirit has come to me,
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not necessarily that, apparentthat it's in my objective view.
You know, usually if it's something likethat, I just kind of assume because I'll
maybe I'll have a reading the next day.
So I'm like, okay, this experienceI had, this must have to tie, but
I, I didn't like there was, it wasjust kind of random out of nowhere.
So we'll see, you know, maybe it wasjust to have the conversation and
maybe it's gonna, I mean, I didn't get,there wasn't that much information,
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so that could connect to a lot ofpeople, but, yeah, I don't know.
I don't know, but itdoesn't, it doesn't scare me.
I'm, you know, I'm, I'm so buckledinto this now that I'm, I'm like,
yeah, let's keep, let's keep expanding.
Let's see what else can I do?
What else can we do?
What else, what else can we have happen?
That's so interesting.
I also too, like I found when I'mgoing through kind of almost like
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an elevated moment where I canfeel my senses getting stronger.
That will kind of happen to know where Ican like see people, but suddenly I was
starting like information from like peopleand like, Oh my gosh, like, I'm not going
to go up to them and say that, but it'sinteresting how some people like open that
door and try to even just to kind of liketest you or open you up a bit more almost.
So yeah, it could be that I just like moreof an expensive time right now for you.
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And yeah.
That type of thing.
So I guess you'll have toupdate us if anything comes
through later on with somebody.
Yeah,
we'll have to see.
I feel, I do get kind of a feelingin my being that this year is going
to stretch me and expand me a littlebit further, which I'm, I'm excited
about just to see like what that,you know, what that looks like.
you know, and for me personally, this,this journey, this, this walk with spirit,
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Has really brought a lot of healingand a lot of, amazing things so far.
And just, you know, the, the few yearsthat I've just been in it so far.
So I would, I would assume, and I hope,and I'm excited that that will continue
to grow and, you know, continue toevolve as I continue down this path.
So.
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Yeah, that's
awesome.
I wanted to share because I reminded meto kind of talking about more like seeing
things or like apparition type things.
there is a podcast episode that I wantto recommend for people to check out.
So, it's called Snap Judgment PresentsSpooked, and it's a bunch of stories
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that are either, like, paranormal,haunted kind of stuff, but there's
also some really, like, surprisinglybeautiful, like, spiritual stories
that are kind of sprinkled in there.
this podcast it has like at the beginningthe host does this kind of like slam
poetry almost i don't even know i idon't really quite understand it but
maybe some people will really like it ifeel like it's just kind of like random
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words kind of thing if you listen toit you'll understand what i'm saying
but so you might if you're not intothat you can always skip i think it's
like four to six minutes in but therewas this one episode and it was called
smell you later And it was so good.
I hope that everybody takes sometime to listen to it because it
was just such a good example of Theways that spirit will communicate
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with us and it was just touching.
I was laughing and I was crying.
So if you guys want to like an upbeatstory, but also that's something
that has a deeper meaning to it.
Definitely go check it out becauseit was really, really great.
And if you love paranormal stuff, thisis also a great podcast to listen to.
If you're into that.
So
I had, so another person that we had onour show, Son early on, she was, I think,
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one of our first interviews we did, herand I, maybe once a month, once every
other month, we'll do a little phonechat and pull cards for each other, and
so this last Monday, her and I had asession, and It was really good, and she
was reading these cards for me, and asshe was reading them, I got, like, my
grandmother came, I could feel her, butit was so interesting because I could
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smell her, and, so when you said smellyou later, that's what took me there, and
it's interesting because that's a good youknow, that's a Claire that I've had since
I was, I was also very young and I don'tremember, I know I said it to someone that
like, sometimes I can smell informationand it is not the same as like, I just
use the word smell because that's theclosest thing I can compare it to.
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It's obviously not like, youknow, smelling of, you know,
fresh flower or whatever.
Um, it, it's, it's, it's different.
but.
And it was just so interestingbecause when I could feel her close
and then I'm going to try not to geta little verklempt um, if that's,
I think that's the right word.
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Um, as she got close, it, it just, it wasthe smell, but it was also the feeling
in the time period and like a moment.
And it was like a memory andit just, it took me right back.
There's the smell is so specific to her.
I smell it when she comes tome in dreams when she visits,
does spirit visitations with me.
I could not, I could notexplain the smell to you.
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but I remember it's, it'slike a scent that she had.
and you know, I couldn't even, I wouldn'teven know how to recreate that smell
or find that smell today or whatever.
But the second I smellit, I know it's her.
So yeah, that was anotherthing you just reminded me.
So thank you.
I thought I would share, butthat was, yeah, that was cool
like the smell, like the smelland the taste aspect of the
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clairs, I think it's kind of likeunderrated and underestimated.
Like, I think there's so much informationthat can come from that as well.
And like, It's there's something sonostalgic about those two that really
bring things like they just make it soreal like how you're getting emotional
it's because it just it really brings itinto this reality right and it just right
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that's really powerful so that's that'samazing I love that she brings that to
you.
Yeah, it's, it is cool.
I'm very grateful for it.
And it's, it's amazing.
And, you know, it's kind of likewhat you were saying earlier, you
know, I, I loved that grandma.
Um, before she passed, like we had madea pack that she would come and visit me,
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you know, afterwards and she did like,and she has for all these years, you know,
she's, I know I've shared it on the show.
She's come in, like, you know, shecame to, she kind of came and warned
me that there was like a reallydifficult period about to come.
but then I have another grandmotherwho's also in spirit and her and I,
I mean, she just passed away the,the grandmother I was referring to
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passed away when I was in fifth grade.
So whatever age that wouldbe 10 or 11 or something.
You know, and the other grandmotherjust passed away a few years ago.
So, and I had a lot of more years,obviously with her and her and I were
very close, and she does come andvisit, but it's, it's, it's just, it's
different because you would expect like.
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You know, and I don't know.
So I, I, that would be a topicI would love to kind of discuss.
if there is anyone out there thatis in the spiritual space that does
maybe like kind of focus on that areaof maybe dreaming, maybe we could ask
Meg dreaming or spirit visitations, orhow come, certain people come closer
than others, you know, that maybeyou wouldn't, you wouldn't expect.
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I would love to hear people'sdiscussion, around that because, I
mean, you just have to, I guess,surrender the spirit knows best, but
sometimes it's like hard.
Cause you want to connect withother people too, you know, or
like I said, maybe you don't wantto connect with somebody as much,
but it's funny, like my grandpa, mydad's not a spiritual guy whatsoever.
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So like, I find it hilarious in a lot ofways, but I think when you kind of yeah.
If you kind of just like tap into yourrelationship with a person, like that's
what I kind of had to do with that dream,I had to kind of like tap into the, okay,
what was going on with us, what's goingon now, what would he want to say to me,
and I know he has come to me in the pastand apologized in an interesting way.
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I think I shared it on the podcastbefore, it was like in a grocery store
and there was a guy that looked exactlylike him, like to the tee, also like
weird, and then I just heard in myhead like, you know, I'm sorry I didn't
understand, like I understand now,because he got the fuller picture.
Wow.
So, that was really, really interesting.
But yeah, it just, and it's funny too.
And I think about it because I only hadmy grandfather really in my life until
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I was about 12 or 13, no, 12 or 13.
And then a little bit untilI was 16, but we just didn't
really see each other that much.
But when I think about what wasgoing on in the times that I did
know him, it's like a lot of innerchild stuff, which I have been kind
of tapping into a lot, especiallythis last month, inner child wounds.
And so I can kind of see.
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Where he may be kind ofcoming in together, right?
So like when you kind of tap into itand think about it and just kind of
hold that energy, I think it's usuallysomething that will explain itself.
Kind of like what I'mgoing through right now.
Of course,
right?
So it is how we work through stuff.
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So that's something to try out to, youknow, when you have A dream like that
where you're like, okay, what, whatdoes that mean for me kind of thing.
So, but yeah, it is interesting.
And like we've talked about before too,like spirit, each spirit is different in
their personality and their strengths ofhow they communicate, which is always,
I've always found really fascinating too.
Like you can have a spirit who justlike blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
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I'm just so like talkativeand straightforward.
And others are just like reallyconvoluted and just like don't
explain things very well.
And, you know, so it's likethat with our family members too
and spirit and our loved ones.
So they each come in andin the ways they can.
So it's tough to trust, trustin the right time from them
and all that.
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You do.
And that's, you know, when I doreadings, I, I think most mediums do
because this is just how it works.
But, you know, I try to, I very muchexplain to people, like, I don't have a
lot of control over who comes through mosttimes that person that you're wanting to
connect with does show up, but they mightnot be the loudest voice in that moment.
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And, Yeah.
That can be hard if you're, if, youknow, if you haven't received a reading
before and you're expecting, like, Ionly want to hear from this person.
I mean, you have to really beopen that like maybe the message
that you really need today, isn'tgoing to come from that person.
You know, maybe it is from that, thatgreat uncle that you don't think about
(35:52):
very often that, you know, That himshowing up today is going to make you
then question, why would he show up?
What, what connection do I have with him?
Why would that, how does that make sense?
And then maybe you'll start todiscover like, Oh, like you just did
like, Oh, I, you know, I tend to getconnected with him when I'm working
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through this stuff that I've happenedto be working through right now.
And, you know, and then.
He's clearly making it knownthat I'm, you know, I'm, I'm
helping guide you through this.
And, so I, I'm glad this came up becauseI think that's, I think that's really
important, for people to understand, youknow, when you're receiving a reading,
to just, you have to just be open andjust trust that what's coming through
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today is what I need to hear today.
And, You know, are there, everyone'sthere, you know, that's another thing too,
is sometimes I wonder if like, you know,with this grandmother, I'm so close with,
I know she's close because we were close.
So like, what benefit do I getfor her using energy in that way?
Just to let me know that she's there.
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I, you know what I mean?
When.
She can help me and, you know, it's, it's,it would be a little more surprising and
a little more eye opening and maybe wakeme up a little bit more if it's this
kind of, you know, someone on the side.
So anyway.
Yeah, for sure.
Well, should we go into some cards?
Yeah, I was gonna saylet's do some card pulls.
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So mine today, everyone, we'vebeen on this journey with the
cards that, um, we've beengetting, over the past few months.
And I just find it kindof interesting that as.
Specific theme kind of keeps, occurring.
So that just must mean that there's a lotof our listeners out there kind of working
on a similar journey and a similar path.
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Today's cards, hold upthat narrative as well.
However, I was kind of getting afeeling of a little bit of a shift.
So here we go.
the cards today again.
Are talking about, there'sa lot about self worth.
but I'm being shown that thereis this kind of renewed energy.
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There's this renewed, faith in self and.
You know, before what I've beentalking about is a lot of, self worth
connected to like this new thing, thisnew achievement, this new, whatever,
this new job or this new change orall of that, that's coming today.
It's not necessarily about that.
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this one has a lot more to do.
Interestingly enough with selfworth when related to self image.
So, I'm getting a lot ofmessaging that there is.
And obviously this is January.
This is a time of year that a lot ofpeople are focusing on self image.
This is a time to go start goingback to the gym, start, you know,
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dry January, all of the things.
and I was a, you know, when Istarted my fitness journey, it was,
I was a new year's resolutioner.
And it changed my life.
So I'm not, I'm not boohooing it.
I, I very much believe in it.
but I'm, I'm just beingshown that there's, there's,
there's a corner being turned.
There's some, there's some issuesconnected with self image that have
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been eating away at your self worth.
And as you're growing andexpanding and trying to heal
these things, you are aware.
Of navigating through self worthissues, but this is maybe a corner of
that room you've been trying to justavoid and not deal with and not look
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at and but now it feels like you havethis new feeling within that it's.
It's time to really just embrace it.
It's time to really just face it.
It's time to quit beatingyourself up over it.
It's time to somehow find aplace of acceptance with it, with
whatever this, this issue is.
And it feels different this time.
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It feels like, uh, thisis finally a time that.
We're going to be at a better placewith our relationship with our self
image and how that relates to how wevalue ourselves, what we think we're
capable of, what we think we deserve,and maybe how that has limited us.
and created limitations for us, so far inour life, and it's time to move past that.
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So, this might not apply to every singleperson out there listening, but I'm, I'm
getting a lot of getting a lot of tingles.
I'm getting a lot of feeling right nowthat this is going to connect with,
um, a good portion of you out there.
so really lean into there's,there's a momentum of, uh, a
momentum of energy right now.
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Of this feeling of self renewal, thisfeeling of self confidence, this feeling
of I can, I can finally manage thisarea of my psyche in a more healthy way.
. So That feels really beautifulfor a lot of reasons.
I know, I know myself personally,this is a journey I am also on.
So, for all of you out there, likeI'm, I'm here with you, I'm, you
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know, this, this feels definitelylike it's talking to myself as well.
So that was what I was receiving today.
And I hope it, I hope it doesmake sense for some of you.
Okay.
That was amazing.
That was for me.
I swear to God, I always say this
for real.
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I'm
sure it will resonate with
other people.
I think it's going to resonate witha lot of us, but I was like, Oh,
spirit's going to take us there today.
Okay.
Okay.
Here we go.
That's so funny.
Yeah.
okay.
So the cards that I picked, itsays empowerment and freedom on it.
So kind of going back to like whatwe were talking about too with
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the full moon and that feeling ofempowerment and empowering yourself.
and I think that's.
It's a word, that could be used aslike your word of the month, even if it
resonates for you, but I keep being shownlike 12 weeks, you know, we look at the
year sometimes we're like, okay, thiswhole year, I'm going to do this whole
thing in this year spirit saying that wehave to kind of shave it down a little
bit and kind of focus more on increments.
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So like they're showing likethree month period, 12 weeks kind
of thing, just to kind of focus.
on yourself and your goals thatyou want to kind of connect to.
and so a lot of what Payton is saying,it's like, you know, self worth is
that's also what I've been getting to.
That's been a huge message forme to this last little while.
And I was talking aboutthe inner child work.
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So I feel like there's a lot of peoplewho could use some inner child work.
that could even just be somethingsimple, like writing yourself a letter.
To your child self, you know, just kindof sit with yourself and feel like which
part of me wants to speak right now,because our lives are so interconnected
to with our childhood, right?
Like a lot of the patternsI'm seeing now unfolding or.
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You know, almost healing even, arereally in alignment with what's
happening in my life right now.
So, I'll just kind of share like a littlestory because it really kind of correlates
with what you were talking about.
Like the self image and things like that.
So, I just got my braces off, whichI'm super excited about because it
was really hard to talk in them.
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I kind of had like an extralittle lisp happening there.
So I'm happy to be free from thechains of my own mouth, basically.
But it's just interesting becausethat was like a long time coming.
So like, I had thisexperience when I was younger.
That to this day affects me in a waythat I wish it didn't like I it's
simple But I'm like, why is it so heavy?
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But it is like it's carried its waythrough my whole life So I remember
going to the doctor and it's funnytoo because even now it's like weirdly
connecting So like I remember my dadtaking me to the doctor I'd strep throat
or something and we were my grandmagrandpa's house ironically enough.
So that same grandpa and so we wentto this doctor nearby his house.
And so I remember the doctor that we sawwas like, he reminds me of like a guy
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that would be on a movie like I love Lucyor something like a doctor of that time.
he was older already at that time.
probably in his like seventiesor something nearing retirement.
And I remember he said to me,Oh, she's, she's such a pretty
girl, but she needs braces.
And I just remember feeling like,Oh, like this horrible feeling.
And so there's That was somethingthat was like always a very
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sensitive thing for me kind of thing.
Growing up and just even trying to getbraces throughout my life, always there
was an obstacle in the way kind of thing.
Whether it was money or one parentwas like, I don't want to pay for it.
Or I was like, I'll pay for it.
My mom was like, no, we have towait till all of your sisters
can get at the same time.
Kind of all these like little things,but it was just something that I needed.
I really wanted to have fixed.
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and I felt like it reallyaffected my confidence.
So all my life.
I kind of felt like this voice in myhead of saying the doctor hearing and
saying, you're so pretty, but kind ofthing, or, you know, there was always
like this, but so it felt like this.
Kind of hindering of myconfidence, and I hate to say
that, like, that even affected me.
But at the same time, I alsolook at it and I'm like, why
would a doctor even say that?
Like, where do you haveyour place to say that?
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But, you know, I think especiallyas, girls, women, females, whatever,
you know, a lot of the times theseoutside voices can really affect us
and, like, kind of carry throughout ourlives, and sometimes we may not even
be aware that they're so loud in ourhead, repeating over and over again.
So you know what you were saying withlike the self image thing like it could
even be something like that it could besomething else but it's taking the time
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to kind of like acknowledge it and beingable to heal through it and it does feel
like like for me i know this is a timewhere i am able to heal that part of
myself which has been for so long and iwould have not been able to manage it even
mentally like a few years ago or whatever.
and so just knowing that you're worthyof the things that you want in your life.
And regardless even to, if you're notexactly happy with your self image
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too, or where you're at, you arestill worthy of your dreams and your
desires and that shouldn't really.
You know, limit you.
And I understand I can because I kind offelt that too, like right now I'm like, oh
my gosh, I can go on Instagram and talk.
I can be more open and like, it's thisfreedom kind of coming through, but I
do think we have to be careful, likea fine balance between saying like,
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but when or if this happens or whenI lose 15 pounds or when I finally
get my brace off or when I have ourmoney, like we're constantly me.
Looking for these things, almostlike this lottery ticket in
life to make things happen.
It could even be career wise, like, I'mgoing to get this job and everything's
okay, or I'm going to land thisinterview and it's going to be amazing.
And I'm going to expand from this.
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But Spirit is really saying yes, wecan have these moments, but it's more
so about like the little moments inbetween, and these building blocks
that we give ourselves and justthe ability to build our own self
esteem and self worth and love.
And so.
Again, they're just, Spirit is showingme, you know, a lot of these things are
happening, these wounds are happeningfrom childhood and even in our teens.
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And so the importance of juststopping and feeling it a little
bit, because sometimes we push themaside and then they keep building and
building and building and suddenlywe're like, boom, it's an explosion.
And so, To really pay attention tothese feelings and take the moment
to actually cry or scream or whateveryou're feeling just so you can get
that emotion out so that you can takethe moment then to navigate how you
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want to move forward in your life.
So there's a lot of opportunityfor like healing and expansion.
And they're just showingme that like, there's this.
Feeling of releasing tensionand like a heavyweight.
So there's a lot of fluid energythis spring that is going to open
a lot of doors for a lot of people.
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And really like the next word I have onhere is like freedom that will give you
freedom to be who you are and to expand.
and to move forward in yourlife in different ways.
And, there's also this message of like,if there's things that you thought
were supposed to be, but didn't workout, if you were rejected, or things
didn't line up the way you thoughtthey were going to, it's okay to
trust that something better is goingto come, and is on its way for you.
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And sometimes, you know, with the wordempowerment, we have to be the ones to
give ourselves the opportunities for life.
We can't always be looking for thatone person to save us or that company
job or whatever it may be to like liftus up, really bring it back to self
empowerment of knowing that you canlift yourself up, even if you don't have
like a village to support you like knowthat you have the power inside of you.
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You have your spirit team to be with you,even if you don't maybe have family or
friends in the same way that you wishyou did to kind of help lift you up.
So I think that's kind of the messagesthat I'm getting through that I
hope that resonates to some people.
and then another card here I have,it's kind of like a little affirmation.
It says when I focus on my inner light,I see the world through the lens of love.
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So I think that's kind of anice little thing to wrap it up.
It's just like leaning into love,and leaning into your light.
And we've talked about this before.
There's a lot going onin the world right now.
It's really heavy, but when we lean intolove, we can Make choices and decisions
that lead to more love and to more, highempowerment and loving energy, even in
times of difficult, you know, momentsand darkness and all that stuff and yeah,
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so that's I think what I have to say.
I
hope that resonates.
Well, that one was for me.
So, wow.
Amazing.
Shayla.
Um, like also trying not to cry.
Um, it was interesting because I was goingto, I was going to reach out to you and
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see if I could get a reading from you.
But I think I just got one.
So, yeah.
Okay.
I'm gonna digest thatone for a little bit.
Yeah, listen back to it.
Um, I'm gonna have, yeah, I,yeah, I'm gonna definitely have
to listen back to that one.
So this is Peyton andShayla's Healing Hour.
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We hope that it also helps someof you out there listening.
It's definitely, it's not justfor us, but today might, today
might be a little more focused.
Um, wow.
Okay.
One thing that like did pop in, youknow, when I'm relating with some body
issues that I, you know, I grew up withand struggled with as an adolescent
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and have carried into my adulthood,which have definitely triggered, self
worth, issues, is one thing I have Tryto realize or try to understand or kind
of maybe look at, is, and you were kindof touching on this is that it did kind
of dawn on me that if I could snap myfinger and like solve this or, you know,
(50:34):
change this the way that I think wouldmake me feel better or more perfect.
I would then just focus on somethingelse, like I would just find something
else that I didn't love, you know,about myself that, you know, it
wouldn't, it probably wouldn't solveevery problem that I, you know, I think
it's creating, even though I'm alsoacknowledging that it has created,
(50:57):
some mental, you know, mental stufffor me that I've had to work through.
So we all have, we all have our crosses tobear, I guess, is that the right word or.
We all have our, you know, we allhave our stuff that we carry in.
so yes, I think, I think a lot ofthis messaging was that spirit is
acknowledging they are, they areaware they are, they are around us.
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They are walking with us.
I've been getting a lot of thatlately that they walk with us.
you know, they're not going to.
necessarily do things for usbecause it's our life to live.
It's our journey.
It's our mission, but they arewalking with us and they are
supporting us along that way.
So, yeah, this definitely wasa lot of that in the messaging.
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So, well, Shayla, this was awesome.
So good to reconnect with you.
And I'm so excited.
Year two, we're in year two, and I knowwe have a couple really fun interviews
coming up that we've got scheduled, andyeah, lots of things coming like we've
talked about, so please follow us onInstagram, Souly podcast there, you can
(52:04):
find all the links to contact us, allof our personal pages and such, and as
always, please feel free to reach out,with any comments or anything that you
felt like during the show, like if therewas anything that resonated with you.
if you see things in your periphery,uh, you know, if you've had some crazy
(52:25):
dreams, we want to hear about it.
So please reach out.
We'd love to hear from you.
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Hello everybody.
Welcome to the show.
I'm excited to be back,you know, Payton was.
There last week already he wasdoing a solo episode while I kind
of navigated some life thingshappening in my life right now.
So I'm happy to be back and happy tobe sitting here with Payton today.
It's a Friday and I think we both hada little bit of a week, so we're like
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excited just to chill out and justhave a conversation and just talk about
certain things that have been happeningin our life and talk about a little bit
of like the full moon energy too thatpassed here with the full moon, in Leo,
which is actually one of my favorite.
Full moons.
I love the Leo energy so much.
So excited to have you all here listening.
Yay.
Welcome back.
I'm so excited that you're back.
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Yeah, I know it's been, it's been solong for us because we had to take
a break with, Christmas and just theholiday season and stuff like that.
And we were supposed to gettogether last week, right.
But Things just was adifficult day for me.
So
I really appreciate you.
We're back now.
And yeah, we're here.
Yeah.
We're back now and we'reready to, to get it going.
So, so tell me why is, the fullmoon we just had yesterday,
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like you said, full moon in Leo.
Why is that your favorite,one of your favorites?
Okay.
So for the Leo full moon, I just alwaysfeel Just so much uplifting energy, like
it just feels so powerful and empowering.
I guess would be the word.
I always just notice theenergy in the sky too.
Like I think out of all the moons,I'm always gravitated and I'll
be like, Oh, what moon is it?
Like, which full moon is it?
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And so, Leo, that I always just likenotice the most, I feel literally
just like, This energy that radiates,when it comes out in so much.
So like for me, when I tap into thatenergy, it's really about speaking my, my
voice and just allowing myself to be seen.
and that can even just be like, well,what are my desires in my life right now?
What do I want to do in mylife that I've held back?
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And I've maybe been a little bit moreshy to pursue or, you know, that kind
of thing where it just, it's really likea pedestal energy where you can kind of
like go on top of it and just like itcan kind of carry you a bit, which is why
I really like it so I've been using itfor sure and I feel like it's a good, a
very timely energy right now for me toobecause I'm kind of in this phase right
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now where I'm making decisions in mylife of okay, what do I want to do next?
Where do I want to go?
you know, how do I want to use my timeand You know, my gifts in this world.
So yeah, it's a good energy.
How about you?
What, how do you feel with this?
Leo energy.
I love that.
I, I done a little bit.
Well, let's start with just Leo energy.
I noticed this week.
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This week was a bit of a struggle forme So for those of you, and I am not
completely versed in all astrology,as I have made very clear on this
show, but I am a lifelong student andI will eventually someday fully, I
feel, understand it more, but what I'vebegun to learn is that, you know, my.
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Sun sign is an Aquarius,which is an opposition to Leo.
Aquarius is tend to filter things throughthe lens of everyone else and us as a
group and, and, and the thing as a whole,where Leo energy tends to be more about.
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My role singular, like who am I, youknow, the, the center stage, um, and
these are broad strokes of the brush ofdescriptions, but this is just general.
So when the Leo full moon comesin, I noticed myself this week in
different, aspects and ways I'vehad to refocus my focus on self and.
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you know, relationships with others.
So instead of like always worryingabout how I'm taking care of everyone
else, how do I take care of me?
And, that usually is a great thing, youknow, that is a good positive, mindset
to have, but then, it can also, Ithink it can also cause some friction.
Because, I'm a, like I said, I'm AquariusSun, I'm a Cancer Moon, so I'm very
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much, like, nurturing and taking care ofeveryone, and there's just a lot of that
energy, so then to be forced to kind ofgo the other direction, I don't know.
I have found some, some trialsand tribulations with that.
And maybe to a point of like, why do Igive so much to all these places and,
to every, you know, to all these others.
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And, and am I getting theright, amount of that back?
You know, am I getting the right,is it being reciprocated in a,
you know, Appropriate way for theamount that I'm always giving.
so I, for me, it was a littlebit of a struggle because I, it
kind of, it goes against whatI'm comfortable in flowing in.
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And so it's, it's just beeninteresting, but it, it feels like
there is like a positive lessonor a positive growth moment.
So, at the end, but it wasn'tnecessarily the smoothest week I've
had, cause it challenged a lot ofdifferent areas of my day to day.
you know, and I don't know, it isinteresting, you know, one thing that
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every time a full moon comes aroundand I kind of feel into which ones I
notice a little bit more than others.
I then always naturally go to the thoughtof, you know, did I notice this before?
Did I not notice it before?
Is it just because I'm payingattention, but I don't necessarily.
I do have an app on my phone that showsme what moon we're in, but I don't,
you know, I don't make necessarilydecisions or focus too much on it.
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I just kind of, you know, I get thenotification and I reflect, but it
does feel like the energy in Leo is astronger, like there is a little bit more
power behind that energy with this moon.
So, I would be curious, youknow, I wonder if, yeah.
Um, all of you out there listening, if,if you follow, you know, if you follow
your moon, the moon cycles and what signit's in, if you track it all, if you
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feel, more pulled in one direction oranother with the different signs that
it's in, or even, especially with Leo,I would love to hear from some of you
out there, you know, kind of, if youhad anything similar come up for you.
Yeah, for sure.
I really like how you said, too,it wasn't the most comfortable
thing because that's so true.
Like, sometimes we're in these energiesand they don't feel natural to us and
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so it's like Really give yourself someopportunity for some self reflection and
kind of like going beyond your comfortzone What you normally would right
and I think like what you mentionedtoo about, you know I'm very much
like that to like that cancer energyIt's my sun sign so it is always like
for other people and then when I stepback and think okay What do I need?
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It's like really hard to putmyself in the spotlight, right?
That's a challenge for sure.
So Yeah, definitely.
Like I needed that energy to kind oflike help me have that confidence,
especially in like the last for me tolike last week, it's been like a lot
of looking into things and decisionmakings and I have a lot of family
stuff happening at the same time.
And right.
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Yeah.
Interesting how we can, like, if we chooseto tap into that energy and kind of go
in the flow with it, it can be A reallybeautiful to kind of help elevate our
lives and open our energy up a bit more.
Right.
I, it's interesting as I've sharedI, you know, I pull cards for myself
daily and it's just kind of part of mylittle morning ritual and, um, A lot of
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cards were coming up about, this weekfor me about, strongly standing up for
yourself, but in a compassionate way,and there was a lot of compassion, like
Quan Yin kept popping up in my, cards.
And if you were familiar with her,she's the goddess of compassion
and, You know, all these things.
and then Archangel Ariel kept showing up.
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She also is that like powerfulenergy, but to do it in a, you know,
in a more peaceful, tactful way.
so it was interesting because thatthe, the way it challenged me, you
know, it kind of was like, well, I'mnot putting up with this anymore.
I'm raw, you know?
And that was like theenergy I wanted to go.
And like, you know, I apologizeto everyone that works for me.
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Cause I was probably not the softest.
Person this week in certain moments,but, or some of my clients actually.
But, um, it, you know, it was justthis energy that's like, no, I'm
not, I'm standing up for myself.
I'm going to, I'm gonna take care of me.
but I was glad that I kept gettingthose cards because then like, I would
have, I would feel into that and belike, you know, yes, that's true, but
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move through it in a compassionate waybecause that's gonna get you further.
Then the reaction.
So that was, so I'm very gratefulthat I kind of, I had a little
bit of guidance along the way.
Yeah,
no, for sure.
And compassion.
It's like, that's the key word, right?
For sure.
For sure.
And I have to say, I do have to givelike a bit of a shout out, the only,
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not the only reason, but, I took anastrology course a little while ago.
It was actually in the fall.
by, we had her on ourshow, Emily and her stars.
I will put her in the show notes.
She offers, this like intro to astrology.
It was so incredibly helpful.
And I just can't.
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Praise the way that she teaches quiteenough the way, I mean, astrology is
such a complex system of information andit's, there's just so many layers to it.
There's so many aspects to it.
It is not something thatcan necessarily be mastered.
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I think it's just something you haveto keep being a student of forever.
Um, but the way that she wasable to, dissect the information,
deliver these mass quantities ofinformation in very digestible ways
for a novice learner, Was amazing.
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So Emily, I'm giving you a huge shout outbecause you really helped me feel like I
can at least now have these conversationswithout sounding like a total fool.
So, yeah, so I, I highly.
Yes, so I highly recommend, uh, I believeshe is going to do another course, this
year, possibly another two courses,but I'm not sure how she's, what,
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what she's, uh, working out with that.
However, if that is somethingyou're interested in, I would
highly recommend going to checkher out, Emily and her stars.
She also runs, this communitycalled third eye library.
and that's where she wouldlike ran the courses through.
Um, and I know she offered a discounttoo, if you were a member there.
So, yeah, go check it out.
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I'll put information aboutthat in the show notes.
And, yeah, and she's just,she's, she's just amazing.
I just, I'd love her.
So, okay.
That's, that was my, I waslike, I need, I need to give a
big shout out to Emily today.
She's
definitely like on my top fiveof like the astrologers I follow.
And she always has really funny.
Stories too.
Like I love looking at her stories.
They're always like hilarious andastrology based and spiritual based
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and she just finds all the good stuff.
So definitely
check her out.
I don't know where she finds them.
She always has so many likeon her story and there.
Yeah.
She is odd.
She is on the algorithm.
I think she figured it out in the stars.
She uses that astrology magically.
Yeah,
for sure.
So another thing I wanted to talk about.
And I'm curious, like, if you'vehad anything happen recently.
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I've been having the craziest dreamslately, where I've been having, I
don't know if you've ever had thembefore, like, false awakenings, where
I think I'm actually up, but I'm not.
And so that's been, like, super weird.
And then also, the other day, I had adream where I'm almost like, was I out
of my body and, like, walking around?
Because it happened the setting was inmy room in the hallway and so basically
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in my dream I was up suddenly and Ihad this little lamp by my bed and
it's like a touch lamp so it can go todifferent like shades kind of thing.
And so in my dream, but I thought thiswas real because it just felt so real.
I'm like tapping it and it's not moving.
It's like stuck at one setting.
What the heck?
This is so weird.
I'm tapping it and thensuddenly it turns off.
And I'm like, oh no, the light burnt out.
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That's not good, because it'slike a special light bulb, and
it's a whole thing, so in myhead I'm thinking about this.
And then suddenly I just felt soheavy, like my body felt like it
weighed like a thousand pounds.
And I had this intense feelingthat I was being pushed down.
And then I started to kindof like black in and out.
And then I started trying to walk tomy husband, who was in the other room.
And so in my dream I'm like crawling onthe floor because I can't move and then
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I finally get to him and during thistime when I'm in the hallway I felt like
someone was staring at me like I just feltsuper watched and unsafe like if anybody's
ever had like paranormal encounters orlike ghostly experiences and you've had
that feeling of someone like watching you.
That's what was happening.
And then I was like crawling tomy husband and in my dream, he was
like taking a nap in the other room.
And then in my dream,I couldn't talk either.
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So I was like trying to likespeak and nothing was coming out.
And then I ran or I went up to him and Igrabbed his leg and I was like squeezing
it and trying to get him to wake up.
And then he woke up and that'swhen I woke up for real life.
And that was just, it was such aweird dream because it felt so real.
Like I was like, where am I?
Like, it was so weird.
And just, it So real, but at thesame time, like there was a tone
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to the dream where everythingwas like a little bit darker.
And so I almost feel like,was I walking around my room?
was I astral projecting a little bit?
And not like the funnest astralprojection dream, you know, like I wish
I could have done something more fun.
Yeah.
It was just really weird and usually Ican recognize If I'm dreaming, like if
something was really heavy like that, Ican kind of be like, Oh, I'm dreaming.
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But this time it really just felt so real.
And then I've had dreams latelywhere like, I'll wake up and I'll
see somebody walking into the room,like my husband or one of my kids
and then boom, I like wake up again.
I'm like, what the heck?
So that's been a newexperience in dreaming for me.
and then it was funny cause I wastalking to my sister, one of them,
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and she was saying how recently.
She had a dream with my other sister,and they were almost exactly the same.
So there's like a staircase thattwirled around, and they were both
running away from someone, and itwas like, all these different things
that kind of mushed together, and Iwas like, that's very interesting.
So, I don't know, have you hadany like, Your dreams lately.
I'm curious if it's likea collective thing as well
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or I was having a period not that longago where I was dreaming quite a lot
and I just remember feeling like I washaving a lot of it just felt like I was
doing a lot of work in my dreams andit felt like There was a lot of stuff
happening in my dream space and it wasinteresting because during a meditation
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not that long ago, I was given somemessaging that, was something that I
needed to start really paying attentionto and something that, Was a way that
I'm somehow able to get messaging.
I'm not sure if that is always goingto be something I'm conscious of or
if it's just going to kind of happenand then be in my subconscious.
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I know that got a little out therefor just a second, but for any
of our non spiritual listeners,but, so that's interesting.
You brought that upbecause I've been having.
a lot of stuff around dreaming andsome divine things and all of this.
however, that all being said shouldhave been a pretty big sign to
start writing my dreams down again.
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I did not.
So, I, I know I was having a lot ofheavier dreams that were, that felt very
complex, which just kind of sounds likewhat, you know, you were experiencing.
and I, I remember.
Cause in my dreams, I'm usually awarethat I'm dreaming, but I know what
you're meaning where then there'sthose moments where you think you wake
up and you're not, and you have to belike, Oh wait, I'm still in my dream.
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but, I start trying to understandthose, like something complex would
happen and I would start to try andbreak it down while I'm in the dream.
I'm like, okay, so this must mean thisbecause, you know, I'm like working
the dream while I'm trying to dream.
So I, I was having a lot of that.
So yeah, I wonder what would have been,happening or, you know, if, is there
something astrologically or cosmicallyor whatever, is it just kind of the
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time of year of us kind of our energykind of restarting or kind of like
picking up again or, you know, our,our, our psyche kind of waking up again
after kind of a more restful moment.
you know, I, when you were talking,I remember when we had Meg Bartlett
on our show and she talked a lotabout, what the house represented
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and what each room represented.
so I would, I would journey back throughthat and kind of see if that makes sense.
And then, you know, thatfeeling of like, not.
Not having the power to movethrough something and not having
the power to get somewhere.
Like what could all that be tiedto, but dreams are fascinating.
They
are.
I know.
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And it's funny, like you said, you know,when you're working through your dreams,
like there are some nights when I wakeup and I'm like, I'm so tired because I
didn't feel like properly was resting.
And like, it was like going throughall these different things, like you
were saying and working things out.
And I've had a lot of, like, spiritvisitation dreams too lately, and
it's funny because my grandpa on mydad's side, I probably dream about
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him like three or four times a year,which is so weird because out of all
the people I've lost in my life, I'mlike, you're not the one I want to see.
Like, you know, I didn't have a goodrelationship with him and all that stuff.
And then everyone else, I'm like,oh, I would love to have a dream.
If you in it, it's like really farbetween, like sometimes years in between.
So I'm like, what is this?
Like, but I like, I think I knowwhat he's kind of trying to like You
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know, the messaging that he's tryingto give me, but it's just really
fascinating how we can work throughso many things in our dreams and how
even relationships can be oftentimes.
I don't want to say like fixed, butkind of healed in some ways too, so.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Very fascinating.
So if anybody listening has had anylike weird dreams, I want to hear
about it too, because I'm like, I'mbasically only like having all this like
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intense, like dreaming, like probablythe last, I would say month, it's
just been so crazy in my dream world.
I'm like, am I, am I even here?
I mean, I may be real becauselike, I feel like I'm like living
in these alternate realities.
Are you like, it's just so weird.
It's very interesting.
I'm glad I'm glad you brought thatup because it just reminded me.
Um, and this had to have been, thiswas probably a couple of weeks ago.
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I lost a dog like, well, itwould have been, it'll be too.
It's almost two years ago.
my dog Sophie and she cameand visited me, in my dream.
She pops in every now and then.
and I forgot about that.
So thank you.
Cause that just, I just rememberedlike I'm, I can remember like
that little moment in the dream.
That's the other thing that's kind ofinteresting with dreams is like, you will
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forget them and then you're just going on.
I think we've talked about this beforeand then you're walking through your
day or something happens and youjust go right back to that memory.
And it's just like asplit second, you know?
yeah.
so something interesting that'sbeen happening to me again.
it hasn't happened since I was little.
when I was little, I have very specificmemories of, being able to see spirit
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in my periphery and like, actuallyseeing it with my physical eye.
So objectively, if I ever talkabout objectively and subjectively
objectively is your naked eyesubjectively is in your psychic mind.
but, when I was little,I had that a lot and.
It's been happening again lately, like alot, and it's been so interesting because
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I, it like, I will see something in thecorner of my eye and I know it's a person.
And then I go to look to, because I'mlike almost startled because I knew
there wasn't a person there before.
Like, I'm not even in themindset of this is spirit.
I'm like, I literallythink it's a real human.
And then I go to look and they're gone.
Like it's been happening a lot lately.
So I don't know if it's been reignited.
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Or if it is just because I'm in a spacewhere I'm now my mind is understanding
how all of this works and what's happeningthat, I'm paying attention to it.
Maybe it's been going on forever.
I just ignored it.
but that's been weird.
Do you ever have that?
Yeah.
So that's funny.
When I was younger I did.
I feel like that type of thingreally kind of creeps me out.
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I have been listening to like a lotof ghost stories, podcasts kind of
thing, and so many people experiencethat and like, oh no, like, I don't
want anything to do with that.
You know, but I think it is fascinatingand it really reminds me of my sister
because she used to work in a movietheater and she used to see so many
different like physical things whereshe would be in the building alone
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and suddenly she'd see like an oldman walking and then she'd go and
he'd like literally just disappear.
and then a lot too, there is.
This one, I, maybe I mentioned it before,but there's a staircase that goes up to
the projection area and stuff like that.
Now it's more like digital or whatever,but a room with all the equipments in it.
And my sister had seen this woman alldressed in white, and then she had
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like kind of like blood on her and shewas just like really like distressed.
And so my sister was really freakedout from that situation and then
she ended up finding out through.
A friend that she worked with,like a co worker that someone else
had seen the exact same thing.
And so she was like, Oh my gosh,like it was kind of those moments
where you're like, Oh, I'm notthe only one kind of thing.
So I always thought that wasinteresting too, because there's so
many people going through like a movietheater, like a day kind of thing.
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You get so much different energy.
The land itself is just likefarmland who knows like where it
was at one point too, like way back.
and then even just the electricalcomponent, like so many times.
Like electrical items or technologywill have different energy.
So I don't know.
I thought it was really fascinating, butso many stories, it happens to her a lot
in general, like she's always kind ofseen things more with her physical eye.
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And I've been like, I'm so sorry.
It's terrifying because it's like,you know, especially when you're
little and you see something, you'rejust like, I'm walking with like a
top hat and you're like living roomand then you just like disappears.
It's kind of.
Yeah, it's a littlejarring, but that's cool.
Like, are you, how do you feel about it?
Are you like open to seeingmore or like, does it feel
comfortable compared to before?
How did you feel before you?
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Yeah, I remember there's like,there is like one memory.
I specifically remember when I waslittle, I was sitting in the living
room and it would be, I could seepeople walking into my kitchen.
That was just like a little, it wasn'tnecessarily a hallway, but, And I
remember in that moment, I saw it andthen I, I looked and obviously nothing
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was there and then I sat there andlooked at it again the same way that I
did to see it, you know, like throughmy periphery and I could perfectly
see like it continuing to happen.
and then I, that was like, I don'tremember then what happened after that,
but I remember that specific memory.
I do remember also, It happened oncewhen I was, how old would I have been?
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18, 19, 20 ish.
I had lived at this really old apartmentbuilding and, uh, we had pulled up
one night, getting ready to get outof the car to go in and the door, I
looked up and for like a moment therewas a woman standing in the door.
Like I remember her face and thenI like, I looked down again and
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then I was like, wait a minute.
No one, you're like, thereshouldn't be anyone there.
And she was gone.
so how, do I feel about it?
I'm, I'm very open to it.
I, and I, this, maybe this isignorant of me, but I am not.
Afraid of any of it.
Like it doesn't, it doesn't scare me.
I'm not, you know, I don'tpersonally, believe in spiritual evil.
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That's just my own personalbelief where I'm at today.
You know, as I've said, I'm here before.
I hope I, I hope I'm not like provenwrong or anything, but, to me,
it's more like, you know, what'sthe message that's coming across?
Why am I being shown this?
I don't know.
So yeah, it doesn't scare me.
So I'm open to it.
it's interesting because I had onethe other day very specifically,
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I, I had taken my dog Baxter outand, I was standing there while
he was doing his business and, andI live in an apartment, complex.
I'm, you know, there's a lot ofpeople around and in my periphery
is the door that I come out of and.
Yeah.
I just noticed a woman thatwas walking towards me.
And it was interesting because thenI looked to see, cause I, I didn't
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hear the door open, you know, likeI, to my detriment, I'm constantly
paying attention to everything.
Like I am like, it's maybe it'scause I'm a business owner too.
Like I'm just constantly takingin all information around me.
So.
You know, I, I was like, Oh, Ididn't even notice she was there.
And so I go to look and she wasn't there.
But then all of a sudden I startedgetting all this like psychic information.
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It was like, she was a nurse and shelike, you know, she was wearing all white,
but it was like a nurse of yesteryear.
It wasn't like, you know, it waslike all the steps started coming in.
And, And then that was it.
I don't have any more, you know,so I don't know if it's, you know,
she's going to end up being forsomeone that I read for later.
and I didn't, you know, usuallywhen spirit has come to me,
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not necessarily that, apparentthat it's in my objective view.
You know, usually if it's something likethat, I just kind of assume because I'll
maybe I'll have a reading the next day.
So I'm like, okay, this experienceI had, this must have to tie, but
I, I didn't like there was, it wasjust kind of random out of nowhere.
So we'll see, you know, maybe it wasjust to have the conversation and
maybe it's gonna, I mean, I didn't get,there wasn't that much information,
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so that could connect to a lot ofpeople, but, yeah, I don't know.
I don't know, but itdoesn't, it doesn't scare me.
I'm, you know, I'm, I'm so buckledinto this now that I'm, I'm like,
yeah, let's keep, let's keep expanding.
Let's see what else can I do?
What else can we do?
What else, what else can we have happen?
That's so interesting.
I also too, like I found when I'mgoing through kind of almost like
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an elevated moment where I canfeel my senses getting stronger.
That will kind of happen to know where Ican like see people, but suddenly I was
starting like information from like peopleand like, Oh my gosh, like, I'm not going
to go up to them and say that, but it'sinteresting how some people like open that
door and try to even just to kind of liketest you or open you up a bit more almost.
So yeah, it could be that I just like moreof an expensive time right now for you.
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And yeah.
That type of thing.
So I guess you'll have toupdate us if anything comes
through later on with somebody.
Yeah,
we'll have to see.
I feel, I do get kind of a feelingin my being that this year is going
to stretch me and expand me a littlebit further, which I'm, I'm excited
about just to see like what that,you know, what that looks like.
you know, and for me personally, this,this journey, this, this walk with spirit,
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Has really brought a lot of healingand a lot of, amazing things so far.
And just, you know, the, the few yearsthat I've just been in it so far.
So I would, I would assume, and I hope,and I'm excited that that will continue
to grow and, you know, continue toevolve as I continue down this path.
So.
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Yeah, that's
awesome.
I wanted to share because I reminded meto kind of talking about more like seeing
things or like apparition type things.
there is a podcast episode that I wantto recommend for people to check out.
So, it's called Snap Judgment PresentsSpooked, and it's a bunch of stories
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that are either, like, paranormal,haunted kind of stuff, but there's
also some really, like, surprisinglybeautiful, like, spiritual stories
that are kind of sprinkled in there.
this podcast it has like at the beginningthe host does this kind of like slam
poetry almost i don't even know i idon't really quite understand it but
maybe some people will really like it ifeel like it's just kind of like random
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words kind of thing if you listen toit you'll understand what i'm saying
but so you might if you're not intothat you can always skip i think it's
like four to six minutes in but therewas this one episode and it was called
smell you later And it was so good.
I hope that everybody takes sometime to listen to it because it
was just such a good example of Theways that spirit will communicate
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with us and it was just touching.
I was laughing and I was crying.
So if you guys want to like an upbeatstory, but also that's something
that has a deeper meaning to it.
Definitely go check it out becauseit was really, really great.
And if you love paranormal stuff, thisis also a great podcast to listen to.
If you're into that.
So
I had, so another person that we had onour show, Son early on, she was, I think,
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one of our first interviews we did, herand I, maybe once a month, once every
other month, we'll do a little phonechat and pull cards for each other, and
so this last Monday, her and I had asession, and It was really good, and she
was reading these cards for me, and asshe was reading them, I got, like, my
grandmother came, I could feel her, butit was so interesting because I could
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smell her, and, so when you said smellyou later, that's what took me there, and
it's interesting because that's a good youknow, that's a Claire that I've had since
I was, I was also very young and I don'tremember, I know I said it to someone that
like, sometimes I can smell informationand it is not the same as like, I just
use the word smell because that's theclosest thing I can compare it to.
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It's obviously not like, youknow, smelling of, you know,
fresh flower or whatever.
Um, it, it's, it's, it's different.
but.
And it was just so interestingbecause when I could feel her close
and then I'm going to try not to geta little verklempt um, if that's,
I think that's the right word.
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Um, as she got close, it, it just, it wasthe smell, but it was also the feeling
in the time period and like a moment.
And it was like a memory andit just, it took me right back.
There's the smell is so specific to her.
I smell it when she comes tome in dreams when she visits,
does spirit visitations with me.
I could not, I could notexplain the smell to you.
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but I remember it's, it'slike a scent that she had.
and you know, I couldn't even, I wouldn'teven know how to recreate that smell
or find that smell today or whatever.
But the second I smellit, I know it's her.
So yeah, that was anotherthing you just reminded me.
So thank you.
I thought I would share, butthat was, yeah, that was cool
like the smell, like the smelland the taste aspect of the
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clairs, I think it's kind of likeunderrated and underestimated.
Like, I think there's so much informationthat can come from that as well.
And like, It's there's something sonostalgic about those two that really
bring things like they just make it soreal like how you're getting emotional
it's because it just it really brings itinto this reality right and it just right
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that's really powerful so that's that'samazing I love that she brings that to
you.
Yeah, it's, it is cool.
I'm very grateful for it.
And it's, it's amazing.
And, you know, it's kind of likewhat you were saying earlier, you
know, I, I loved that grandma.
Um, before she passed, like we had madea pack that she would come and visit me,
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you know, afterwards and she did like,and she has for all these years, you know,
she's, I know I've shared it on the show.
She's come in, like, you know, shecame to, she kind of came and warned
me that there was like a reallydifficult period about to come.
but then I have another grandmotherwho's also in spirit and her and I,
I mean, she just passed away the,the grandmother I was referring to
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passed away when I was in fifth grade.
So whatever age that wouldbe 10 or 11 or something.
You know, and the other grandmotherjust passed away a few years ago.
So, and I had a lot of more years,obviously with her and her and I were
very close, and she does come andvisit, but it's, it's, it's just, it's
different because you would expect like.
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You know, and I don't know.
So I, I, that would be a topicI would love to kind of discuss.
if there is anyone out there thatis in the spiritual space that does
maybe like kind of focus on that areaof maybe dreaming, maybe we could ask
Meg dreaming or spirit visitations, orhow come, certain people come closer
than others, you know, that maybeyou wouldn't, you wouldn't expect.
(32:43):
I would love to hear people'sdiscussion, around that because, I
mean, you just have to, I guess,surrender the spirit knows best, but
sometimes it's like hard.
Cause you want to connect withother people too, you know, or
like I said, maybe you don't wantto connect with somebody as much,
but it's funny, like my grandpa, mydad's not a spiritual guy whatsoever.
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So like, I find it hilarious in a lot ofways, but I think when you kind of yeah.
If you kind of just like tap into yourrelationship with a person, like that's
what I kind of had to do with that dream,I had to kind of like tap into the, okay,
what was going on with us, what's goingon now, what would he want to say to me,
and I know he has come to me in the pastand apologized in an interesting way.
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I think I shared it on the podcastbefore, it was like in a grocery store
and there was a guy that looked exactlylike him, like to the tee, also like
weird, and then I just heard in myhead like, you know, I'm sorry I didn't
understand, like I understand now,because he got the fuller picture.
Wow.
So, that was really, really interesting.
But yeah, it just, and it's funny too.
And I think about it because I only hadmy grandfather really in my life until
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I was about 12 or 13, no, 12 or 13.
And then a little bit untilI was 16, but we just didn't
really see each other that much.
But when I think about what wasgoing on in the times that I did
know him, it's like a lot of innerchild stuff, which I have been kind
of tapping into a lot, especiallythis last month, inner child wounds.
And so I can kind of see.
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Where he may be kind ofcoming in together, right?
So like when you kind of tap into itand think about it and just kind of
hold that energy, I think it's usuallysomething that will explain itself.
Kind of like what I'mgoing through right now.
Of course,
right?
So it is how we work through stuff.
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So that's something to try out to, youknow, when you have A dream like that
where you're like, okay, what, whatdoes that mean for me kind of thing.
So, but yeah, it is interesting.
And like we've talked about before too,like spirit, each spirit is different in
their personality and their strengths ofhow they communicate, which is always,
I've always found really fascinating too.
Like you can have a spirit who justlike blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
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I'm just so like talkativeand straightforward.
And others are just like reallyconvoluted and just like don't
explain things very well.
And, you know, so it's likethat with our family members too
and spirit and our loved ones.
So they each come in andin the ways they can.
So it's tough to trust, trustin the right time from them
and all that.
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You do.
And that's, you know, when I doreadings, I, I think most mediums do
because this is just how it works.
But, you know, I try to, I very muchexplain to people, like, I don't have a
lot of control over who comes through mosttimes that person that you're wanting to
connect with does show up, but they mightnot be the loudest voice in that moment.
(35:32):
And, Yeah.
That can be hard if you're, if, youknow, if you haven't received a reading
before and you're expecting, like, Ionly want to hear from this person.
I mean, you have to really beopen that like maybe the message
that you really need today, isn'tgoing to come from that person.
You know, maybe it is from that, thatgreat uncle that you don't think about
(35:52):
very often that, you know, That himshowing up today is going to make you
then question, why would he show up?
What, what connection do I have with him?
Why would that, how does that make sense?
And then maybe you'll start todiscover like, Oh, like you just did
like, Oh, I, you know, I tend to getconnected with him when I'm working
(36:16):
through this stuff that I've happenedto be working through right now.
And, you know, and then.
He's clearly making it knownthat I'm, you know, I'm, I'm
helping guide you through this.
And, so I, I'm glad this came up becauseI think that's, I think that's really
important, for people to understand, youknow, when you're receiving a reading,
to just, you have to just be open andjust trust that what's coming through
(36:37):
today is what I need to hear today.
And, You know, are there, everyone'sthere, you know, that's another thing too,
is sometimes I wonder if like, you know,with this grandmother, I'm so close with,
I know she's close because we were close.
So like, what benefit do I getfor her using energy in that way?
Just to let me know that she's there.
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I, you know what I mean?
When.
She can help me and, you know, it's, it's,it would be a little more surprising and
a little more eye opening and maybe wakeme up a little bit more if it's this
kind of, you know, someone on the side.
So anyway.
Yeah, for sure.
Well, should we go into some cards?
Yeah, I was gonna saylet's do some card pulls.
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So mine today, everyone, we'vebeen on this journey with the
cards that, um, we've beengetting, over the past few months.
And I just find it kindof interesting that as.
Specific theme kind of keeps, occurring.
So that just must mean that there's a lotof our listeners out there kind of working
on a similar journey and a similar path.
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Today's cards, hold upthat narrative as well.
However, I was kind of getting afeeling of a little bit of a shift.
So here we go.
the cards today again.
Are talking about, there'sa lot about self worth.
but I'm being shown that thereis this kind of renewed energy.
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There's this renewed, faith in self and.
You know, before what I've beentalking about is a lot of, self worth
connected to like this new thing, thisnew achievement, this new, whatever,
this new job or this new change orall of that, that's coming today.
It's not necessarily about that.
(38:24):
this one has a lot more to do.
Interestingly enough with selfworth when related to self image.
So, I'm getting a lot ofmessaging that there is.
And obviously this is January.
This is a time of year that a lot ofpeople are focusing on self image.
This is a time to go start goingback to the gym, start, you know,
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dry January, all of the things.
and I was a, you know, when Istarted my fitness journey, it was,
I was a new year's resolutioner.
And it changed my life.
So I'm not, I'm not boohooing it.
I, I very much believe in it.
but I'm, I'm just beingshown that there's, there's,
there's a corner being turned.
There's some, there's some issuesconnected with self image that have
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been eating away at your self worth.
And as you're growing andexpanding and trying to heal
these things, you are aware.
Of navigating through self worthissues, but this is maybe a corner of
that room you've been trying to justavoid and not deal with and not look
(39:28):
at and but now it feels like you havethis new feeling within that it's.
It's time to really just embrace it.
It's time to really just face it.
It's time to quit beatingyourself up over it.
It's time to somehow find aplace of acceptance with it, with
whatever this, this issue is.
And it feels different this time.
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It feels like, uh, thisis finally a time that.
We're going to be at a better placewith our relationship with our self
image and how that relates to how wevalue ourselves, what we think we're
capable of, what we think we deserve,and maybe how that has limited us.
and created limitations for us, so far inour life, and it's time to move past that.
(40:14):
So, this might not apply to every singleperson out there listening, but I'm, I'm
getting a lot of getting a lot of tingles.
I'm getting a lot of feeling right nowthat this is going to connect with,
um, a good portion of you out there.
so really lean into there's,there's a momentum of, uh, a
momentum of energy right now.
(40:35):
Of this feeling of self renewal, thisfeeling of self confidence, this feeling
of I can, I can finally manage thisarea of my psyche in a more healthy way.
. So That feels really beautifulfor a lot of reasons.
I know, I know myself personally,this is a journey I am also on.
So, for all of you out there, likeI'm, I'm here with you, I'm, you
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know, this, this feels definitelylike it's talking to myself as well.
So that was what I was receiving today.
And I hope it, I hope it doesmake sense for some of you.
Okay.
That was amazing.
That was for me.
I swear to God, I always say this
for real.
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I'm
sure it will resonate with
other people.
I think it's going to resonate witha lot of us, but I was like, Oh,
spirit's going to take us there today.
Okay.
Okay.
Here we go.
That's so funny.
Yeah.
okay.
So the cards that I picked, itsays empowerment and freedom on it.
So kind of going back to like whatwe were talking about too with
(41:43):
the full moon and that feeling ofempowerment and empowering yourself.
and I think that's.
It's a word, that could be used aslike your word of the month, even if it
resonates for you, but I keep being shownlike 12 weeks, you know, we look at the
year sometimes we're like, okay, thiswhole year, I'm going to do this whole
thing in this year spirit saying that wehave to kind of shave it down a little
bit and kind of focus more on increments.
(42:05):
So like they're showing likethree month period, 12 weeks kind
of thing, just to kind of focus.
on yourself and your goals thatyou want to kind of connect to.
and so a lot of what Payton is saying,it's like, you know, self worth is
that's also what I've been getting to.
That's been a huge message forme to this last little while.
And I was talking aboutthe inner child work.
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So I feel like there's a lot of peoplewho could use some inner child work.
that could even just be somethingsimple, like writing yourself a letter.
To your child self, you know, just kindof sit with yourself and feel like which
part of me wants to speak right now,because our lives are so interconnected
to with our childhood, right?
Like a lot of the patternsI'm seeing now unfolding or.
(42:46):
You know, almost healing even, arereally in alignment with what's
happening in my life right now.
So, I'll just kind of share like a littlestory because it really kind of correlates
with what you were talking about.
Like the self image and things like that.
So, I just got my braces off, whichI'm super excited about because it
was really hard to talk in them.
(43:06):
I kind of had like an extralittle lisp happening there.
So I'm happy to be free from thechains of my own mouth, basically.
But it's just interesting becausethat was like a long time coming.
So like, I had thisexperience when I was younger.
That to this day affects me in a waythat I wish it didn't like I it's
simple But I'm like, why is it so heavy?
(43:28):
But it is like it's carried its waythrough my whole life So I remember
going to the doctor and it's funnytoo because even now it's like weirdly
connecting So like I remember my dadtaking me to the doctor I'd strep throat
or something and we were my grandmagrandpa's house ironically enough.
So that same grandpa and so we wentto this doctor nearby his house.
And so I remember the doctor that we sawwas like, he reminds me of like a guy
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that would be on a movie like I love Lucyor something like a doctor of that time.
he was older already at that time.
probably in his like seventiesor something nearing retirement.
And I remember he said to me,Oh, she's, she's such a pretty
girl, but she needs braces.
And I just remember feeling like,Oh, like this horrible feeling.
And so there's That was somethingthat was like always a very
(44:13):
sensitive thing for me kind of thing.
Growing up and just even trying to getbraces throughout my life, always there
was an obstacle in the way kind of thing.
Whether it was money or one parentwas like, I don't want to pay for it.
Or I was like, I'll pay for it.
My mom was like, no, we have towait till all of your sisters
can get at the same time.
Kind of all these like little things,but it was just something that I needed.
I really wanted to have fixed.
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and I felt like it reallyaffected my confidence.
So all my life.
I kind of felt like this voice in myhead of saying the doctor hearing and
saying, you're so pretty, but kind ofthing, or, you know, there was always
like this, but so it felt like this.
Kind of hindering of myconfidence, and I hate to say
that, like, that even affected me.
But at the same time, I alsolook at it and I'm like, why
would a doctor even say that?
Like, where do you haveyour place to say that?
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But, you know, I think especiallyas, girls, women, females, whatever,
you know, a lot of the times theseoutside voices can really affect us
and, like, kind of carry throughout ourlives, and sometimes we may not even
be aware that they're so loud in ourhead, repeating over and over again.
So you know what you were saying withlike the self image thing like it could
even be something like that it could besomething else but it's taking the time
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to kind of like acknowledge it and beingable to heal through it and it does feel
like like for me i know this is a timewhere i am able to heal that part of
myself which has been for so long and iwould have not been able to manage it even
mentally like a few years ago or whatever.
and so just knowing that you're worthyof the things that you want in your life.
And regardless even to, if you're notexactly happy with your self image
(45:39):
too, or where you're at, you arestill worthy of your dreams and your
desires and that shouldn't really.
You know, limit you.
And I understand I can because I kind offelt that too, like right now I'm like, oh
my gosh, I can go on Instagram and talk.
I can be more open and like, it's thisfreedom kind of coming through, but I
do think we have to be careful, likea fine balance between saying like,
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but when or if this happens or whenI lose 15 pounds or when I finally
get my brace off or when I have ourmoney, like we're constantly me.
Looking for these things, almostlike this lottery ticket in
life to make things happen.
It could even be career wise, like, I'mgoing to get this job and everything's
okay, or I'm going to land thisinterview and it's going to be amazing.
And I'm going to expand from this.
(46:21):
But Spirit is really saying yes, wecan have these moments, but it's more
so about like the little moments inbetween, and these building blocks
that we give ourselves and justthe ability to build our own self
esteem and self worth and love.
And so.
Again, they're just, Spirit is showingme, you know, a lot of these things are
happening, these wounds are happeningfrom childhood and even in our teens.
(46:41):
And so the importance of juststopping and feeling it a little
bit, because sometimes we push themaside and then they keep building and
building and building and suddenlywe're like, boom, it's an explosion.
And so, To really pay attention tothese feelings and take the moment
to actually cry or scream or whateveryou're feeling just so you can get
that emotion out so that you can takethe moment then to navigate how you
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want to move forward in your life.
So there's a lot of opportunityfor like healing and expansion.
And they're just showingme that like, there's this.
Feeling of releasing tensionand like a heavyweight.
So there's a lot of fluid energythis spring that is going to open
a lot of doors for a lot of people.
(47:25):
And really like the next word I have onhere is like freedom that will give you
freedom to be who you are and to expand.
and to move forward in yourlife in different ways.
And, there's also this message of like,if there's things that you thought
were supposed to be, but didn't workout, if you were rejected, or things
didn't line up the way you thoughtthey were going to, it's okay to
trust that something better is goingto come, and is on its way for you.
(47:49):
And sometimes, you know, with the wordempowerment, we have to be the ones to
give ourselves the opportunities for life.
We can't always be looking for thatone person to save us or that company
job or whatever it may be to like liftus up, really bring it back to self
empowerment of knowing that you canlift yourself up, even if you don't have
like a village to support you like knowthat you have the power inside of you.
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You have your spirit team to be with you,even if you don't maybe have family or
friends in the same way that you wishyou did to kind of help lift you up.
So I think that's kind of the messagesthat I'm getting through that I
hope that resonates to some people.
and then another card here I have,it's kind of like a little affirmation.
It says when I focus on my inner light,I see the world through the lens of love.
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So I think that's kind of anice little thing to wrap it up.
It's just like leaning into love,and leaning into your light.
And we've talked about this before.
There's a lot going onin the world right now.
It's really heavy, but when we lean intolove, we can Make choices and decisions
that lead to more love and to more, highempowerment and loving energy, even in
times of difficult, you know, momentsand darkness and all that stuff and yeah,
(48:57):
so that's I think what I have to say.
I
hope that resonates.
Well, that one was for me.
So, wow.
Amazing.
Shayla.
Um, like also trying not to cry.
Um, it was interesting because I was goingto, I was going to reach out to you and
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see if I could get a reading from you.
But I think I just got one.
So, yeah.
Okay.
I'm gonna digest thatone for a little bit.
Yeah, listen back to it.
Um, I'm gonna have, yeah, I,yeah, I'm gonna definitely have
to listen back to that one.
So this is Peyton andShayla's Healing Hour.
(49:46):
We hope that it also helps someof you out there listening.
It's definitely, it's not justfor us, but today might, today
might be a little more focused.
Um, wow.
Okay.
One thing that like did pop in, youknow, when I'm relating with some body
issues that I, you know, I grew up withand struggled with as an adolescent
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and have carried into my adulthood,which have definitely triggered, self
worth, issues, is one thing I have Tryto realize or try to understand or kind
of maybe look at, is, and you were kindof touching on this is that it did kind
of dawn on me that if I could snap myfinger and like solve this or, you know,
(50:34):
change this the way that I think wouldmake me feel better or more perfect.
I would then just focus on somethingelse, like I would just find something
else that I didn't love, you know,about myself that, you know, it
wouldn't, it probably wouldn't solveevery problem that I, you know, I think
it's creating, even though I'm alsoacknowledging that it has created,
(50:57):
some mental, you know, mental stufffor me that I've had to work through.
So we all have, we all have our crosses tobear, I guess, is that the right word or.
We all have our, you know, we allhave our stuff that we carry in.
so yes, I think, I think a lot ofthis messaging was that spirit is
acknowledging they are, they areaware they are, they are around us.
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They are walking with us.
I've been getting a lot of thatlately that they walk with us.
you know, they're not going to.
necessarily do things for usbecause it's our life to live.
It's our journey.
It's our mission, but they arewalking with us and they are
supporting us along that way.
So, yeah, this definitely wasa lot of that in the messaging.
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So, well, Shayla, this was awesome.
So good to reconnect with you.
And I'm so excited.
Year two, we're in year two, and I knowwe have a couple really fun interviews
coming up that we've got scheduled, andyeah, lots of things coming like we've
talked about, so please follow us onInstagram, Souly podcast there, you can
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felt like during the show, like if therewas anything that resonated with you.
if you see things in your periphery,uh, you know, if you've had some crazy
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So please reach out.
We'd love to hear from you.
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