S2 E15: Conquering Fears of Both Inadequacy and Bombs

Rachel convinces an *exhausted from running to bomb shelters* Katherine that while women face our own challenges to form community, a lot of them are because of the vise-like grip of patriarchal self-discipline and self-improvement ideals requiring women to compete with/seek-to-destroy each other, and there is no need to panic. Unless the shelter alert goes off.

Rachel wrote a smutty thing and talks about why. (The new edit of the full short story, which significantly updates the already-published part, will be released soon at stonebutchdisco.substack.com.)

We discuss:

* Random Jewish marriage trivia

* Patriarchy and capitalism’s folie à deux situation that inspires unhealthy competition among women

* Queer as a process of commodification

* Rachel’s theory about why the Sexual Revolution of the 1960s didn’t actually “take” for women; i.e., it was never about usHow a lot of “liberated” sexuality was really women being called to perform a new sexual fluidity. The needle didn’t move much on male sexual agency, because it didn’t need to (their agency to choose their object of desire was and is still assumed).

* Many thinkers at this time set the stage for queer discourse. Ironically, women pushing back in lesbian discourse tried so hard to build an entirely new system of representation around sexuality that they made language/symbol prior to reality, created a safe harbor for postmodernism, and basically let men “win” structure.

* Rachel’s take on the supposed academic rejection of butch-femme in groups like Radicallesbians (she thinks it’s overblown and that even academics have always known butch-femme lesbians are real across history, even as we scare them)

* Women’s Studies and what it WAS (what it WAS was the creation of lesbians who did at least 60% of the work and then became like 5% of the beneficiaries, and finally 0% when it turned “queer”)

* We talk about philosopher Luce Irigaray and other early lesbian feminist philosophers who allowed women to be fluid and men to be stable, and… We do have the right to blame them.

* We talk about how Judith Butler started her career making space for butches and femmes, insisting that “queer” was not an identity, and arguing that gender could not be separated from sex or sexuality. Then, she sold out.

* We argue about why women’s structural and symbolic relation to the truth and to truth-telling is unique compared to men’s. Katherine thinks it’s a woman problem; Rachel says it requires analysis of patriarchy’s reward structure

* We discuss experiences whether/how straight women have felt like allies, successfully, and when the field has felt hostile

* Rachel: “I feel like it's just a socialized tendency for all of us to seek others' approval. And I think that comes from the patriarchy. I think there's no way that it doesn't. Women are to be seen, like it's John Berger, we always think about what we look like to other people. Men just exist.”

* We talk about feeling more or less comfortable with men and women, socially (and feel differently, as predicted)

* We talk about similar feelings about gender and similar experiences with bullying as we were growing up, before our opinions/experiences started to somewhat diverge

* How we played as kids, and how Rachel felt like boys could be ambiguously feminine but she would be disciplined if she was too masculine or “unladylike” (Texas), while Katherine felt like the girls created a conformist and hierarchical social world that felt similarly to how “queer” feels now

* Drag queens pretending like (or truly thinking?) they know things about lesbiansSad meme lesbians and why that doesn’t help us find each other

* People belittling femininity and femme identity, and our anger on behalf of femmes

* FEMMES CAN HAVE SHORT HAIR AND WEAR ANY CLOTHES

* How lesbians may be afraid that taking the “butch” or “femme” label means they need to conform to a narrow version of femininity or masculinity, when that’s not actually what it is — what makes it coherent is the relationality. Without the living thing being the sexual tension, masculinity becomes conflated with maleness.

* Dyads, dildos, and meaning-making

* Defending our womanhood versus defending our masculinity: where this puts us in feminist camps

* Rachel convinces Katherine in the 44th minute that it’s worth blaming the patriarchy, because that’s what’s going on (women are made to feel like we are nothing BUT appearances)

* Katherine’s flabbers are gasted despite having experienced the same herself(!!): “I didn’t realize that women [in general] don’t get that they have intrinsic worth separate from their appearance.”

* Extremely stupid definitions of butch like “