May 6, 2024 • 51 mins
In this empowering episode of 'The Pretty Red ENT Show', host Naquita guides us through her journey of personal development and determination. As she balances work, school, and self-improvement, she emphasizes the importance of honesty, perseverance, and self-love amidst external opinions. Highlighting her success story of maintaining great academic performance despite a packed schedule, this episode will inspire those undertaking final exams or graduation. Naquita reemphasizes the significance of self-love and authenticity in the face of untruths and misconceptions spread by others, sharing an important life lesson from the Mercury retrograde.
The episode takes an intriguing turn as we delve into the complexities of online communication, particularly within a group chat for graduates and Honor Society members. Naquita a shares a challenging scenario of misunderstandings fueled by contrasting perspectives, leading to emotional accusations and sense of being stalked. Fascinatingly, she unravels the gender dynamics within these virtual spaces, adding another layer to our understanding of social interactions online.
In weaving her personal encounters and experiences, Naquita presents a sincere exploration of societal dynamics, misconceptions, and the importance of maintaining one's narrative. Amid challenging control dynamics, and tussles over privacy, she underscores personal boundaries and self-assertion. Despite the painful intricacies of being misunderstood, Naquita rises above the negativity, her courage loudly proclaiming the truth of her character more than any argument or explanation.
We conclude this journey with the realization that one need not exhaust oneself justifying actions or explaining happenings—especially to deaf ears. We learn about the liberating feeling of letting go, embracing self-love, and standing firm with bold decisions. Naquita illuminates the compelling contrast between the low-energy exertion of explaining oneself and the empowering act of embracing self-love and personal assertion. Find motivation, learn the art of letting go, and uncover your infinite potential in this powerful episode.
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Welcome to the pretty red and t show it's
your girl goddess nikita aka pretty red and if nobody told you they loved you
today just know that goddess nikita she loves you today and And I'm sending
so much love and light out into the whole entire universe, the planet, to myself.
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And shout out and sending so much love and light out to the people who just
graduated and people still doing finals.
Shout out to y'all because, baby, it's going down on everybody who's about to finish school. Okay.
But give us a round of applause one time for the one time. Guys,
I'm over here rocking with the best of 4.0.
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Once again. See, this girl did it again. Like, I'm really super proud of myself, guys.
I've been really busy. I'm sorry I didn't post.
I've been, like, really tired, busy, making sure I get done with these exams
and doing my one-two step and doing my thing and doing my wing.
Because every time I do my thing, I do my wing.
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And it's so very important to the point where I focus and I love me for that.
And shout out to all the people that's grads, graduating, and you did your thing.
Like I'm very proud of y'all okay all right guys we survived the mercury retrograde let me see,
so now we enter in Pluto retrograde I'm probably gonna do my next episode on
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that so I'm gonna be on y'all top this week but let me see a reality making
for the mercury retrograde,
So the 25th, so about the 9th is when everything, the planet starts to speed up.
You're going to see everybody go away. Okay.
Then we also got a very powerful new moon. So I'm happy about that.
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But guys, let me talk to you about something that's really important, guys.
Like, oh my gosh, I got to talk about it. Okay. So shots fired because I'm on y'all.
I'm on y'all. Okay. I'm on y'all. I'm on y'all. so me this year with i would
god was working on me with with my angels and ancestors my spiritual guys like
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you know holy spirit whoever you believe in like was working with me from mercury retrograde.
Was not telling my side of the story like and i don't know some people were
like what like no i ain't telling my side of the story you know what it was
you know what you did you made up some false narrative and I don't have to speak about it.
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Like when I say like, I don't have to speak about it, I really am not speaking on it.
I don't really care what side of the story you told, what lie you told.
I just don't care at this point. I did everything right.
I have been a great friend. I have been a great motivator.
I have just been wonderful and I have been nice to people. I have been doing my thing.
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And sometimes guys, it's really important to not tell your side of the story.
I remember like my sister used to always tell me, she used to be like,
Keita, stop explaining yourself to people. I know that you like to do that. Stop it.
And this is me as a young girl. I've been taught the game from an early age.
So sometimes when I do tell my side of the story or I'm explaining myself to
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somebody, it's because like, I really want them to understand like what happened,
what concurred, what took down.
But the one thing my brother told hold me like shout out to my brother okay
you know what I'm talking about y'all know what I'm talking about you know I'm
talking about my brother Elijah shout out to him my brother said Keita.
If somebody already has their mind made up about whatever that you did or you
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said, especially like Prime is able, my brother used to talk to me about guys when I was younger.
He's like, if a guy think you cheating, Keita, there's nothing that you can
say or do to make this man believe that you aren't.
If a man think you a ho, there's nothing that you can say or do to make him feel that you're not.
So stop explaining your side of the story. It doesn't matter.
You're wasting time. Move on. Okay? Okay.
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And then go for men too. Like if you, if a woman thinks that you're cheating,
move on, bro. Stop staying there.
Why are you going to keep trying to prove your point to somebody who does not care?
Okay. Because if a person really thought you were really cheating on them,
like some people are just manipulators. Some people are users. Like leave this person.
Like, what are you doing? You're wasting time. Time is valuable to us.
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One thing we cannot get back is time.
And I take my time very serious. I really love me.
I show up for me. I really do to things for myself that
most people really don't take the time out to do but back
to back to the basics guys like i just
like it was like a thing was me with mercury retrograde
where it was like a few people like a lot of people were just
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saying stuff and then this is me trusting
the universe me trust that my angels me trusting my ancestors
me trusting god like me me just trusting
in holy spirit me and me trusting who the
higher being okay like this
just like god showing me like this is what i need you to say in
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certain times and i just want to step there i want to be in the presence so
prime example somebody said something to me said something about me they made
up this whole particular lie and i could tell by like the lie that they were
telling was that so important that everybody started looking at me different
but then when everybody like really started to talk to me, like,
laugh and giggle with me, and then we just started looking.
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I can tell that they were, like, kind of questioning the information that they
received, and then, like, at the end of everything that happened,
I, like, said my little spiel, and everybody was, like, cracking up,
laughing, but they was, like, wow, I didn't actually know that.
I actually was told that you done this, like, a few times. I didn't know it
was really your first time doing this.
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I don't know if y'all know, but I got into a play.
And I went and tried out and got casted into a play. It's really weird, but I did.
I tried something new. We're going to have a whole new episode.
I'm on y'all next this week. So just know I'm like releasing, releasing, releasing.
I'm on y'all next this week. But I literally did this play and like everybody
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thought like I was in a play before.
And it was so crazy because the director of the play at the end of where we're
critiquing the play and talking about what went good, went bad.
And he was like, I really, I know that you said it was your first play,
but I got totally different information, but I'm so sorry.
Cause I didn't know this was your first play, but you did really good.
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Like you did like extremely really good to the point where like you shocked
when I played my part, there's this lady that goes around for the Kennedy festival,
Kennedy, like the president.
And she goes around the world and she goes around watching plays and doing this.
Like She literally asked about me to the point where it got blown up,
to the point where everybody was like, oh my gosh, who's this girl?
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She did that. I don't know how to explain it, but she did that.
And she did a really good job. And I was like, what? I'm like, hold on.
But it was an amazing experience for me. But there were some things that happened
where people said things about me.
And then I could tell certain people were like, I'm not getting that energy from her.
And I could tell the certain people that were saying this about me And it's
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so weird because It's like God placed a few Aries around me And I love Aries
people, bro Like because,
We like genuinely love people If they're like they're really good people We're
gonna vibe with you Whether or not we vibe with you We still will vibe with you and respect you,
They were really great to me And really nice to me Like really
gave me a lot of energy To get me through the first
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night And after the first night It was like rock and roll And then like we
were just All cracking up laughing it was like
a movement on my side where I entered
in the play at but they really genuinely helped
me out guys and it was really amazing thing but
me not telling my side of the story I felt like gave a time to reflect on how
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I could have responded because I could have responded and went crazy like I'm
an Aries type and it's Aries season two like oh my gosh I'm not right now but
But when this was taking place, it was Aerie season.
Happened right through my birthday, all of that. Like, as soon as Aerie season
started, that's when we started practicing for this play.
So, like, the whole Aerie season, I was doing a play.
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And going through Mercury, right, yo? Great. Ooh, I'm a rapper.
Y'all just said that, okay.
But I'm so proud of myself that, like, I didn't blow up.
I was able to articulate certain times when I needed to, to let people know,
like, I'm still standing on business.
I'm standing on exactly what I said. I'm just not clearing up what I said.
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Like, I can't apologize for things that don't make no sense to me.
I only can apologize if I know that for a fact I did something wrong.
But like you can i'm never apologizing for my opinion i just can't but what i've learned is
that people will try to throw shade on you to make themselves seem better so
sometimes guys not even saying anything can be the biggest thing because then
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i'm gonna let the people that you told us told about me some negative stuff
i'm gonna let them see that whatever you said ain't right.
But I didn't even have to say anything because baby, please believe the universe walk with me.
God walk with me. My angels walk with me. My ancestors walk with me.
So please believe that anytime truth walks with me, I am a part of the love and light team.
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So love walks with me everywhere I go.
So love conquers all. So you're going to see the love in me,
regardless of anything that is happening to me, for me, and around me.
So it's so crazy because like now when I'm walking on like campus and when I'm
walking around different places, people are like, you're that girl that played in the play?
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And I'm like, yes. And they're like, oh my gosh. And they had so many theories. I'm like, no.
But it was a really amazing experience for me. And like all the people that
came to really support me,
I only had like two people come support me besides like my teacher and because they go to the school,
But people outside of my school Only had two people come support me And that
really meant a lot to me Compared to everybody else You know what I'm saying
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So shout out to them two people That came and supported me for real.
Alright, Miss Bill Miss Judy They came and supported me And I'm glad that they
experienced And had a good time It was really touchy I didn't know if I wanted
to invite them Because the stuff that they were saying In the play But they
had a good time Especially his wife But I really appreciate them
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because like everybody that I know up here and this
area that I stay in them two were the only two people
that showed up but granted if I was at home I know a lot of people a lot of
more people would have showed up because when I had got inducted into honor
society like the people that really meant a lot for me showed up so I'm like
my brother now you know my ex my ex and some Some of my ex friends showed up,
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but it was like really cool.
Like the, like I have like a support team, but to me, this meant a whole lot to me.
But I just feel like guys, like sometimes your side of the story doesn't matter.
Like, I'm telling you, like, I can tell, like, when people have stories about
me and when they're talking about me compared to how people are perceiving me.
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So, with Mr. Bill showing up and Miss Judy showing up, and I didn't know,
like, they went into the office and was telling everybody, like,
yeah, you know, Nikita was in a play.
And, like, they said that they sit front row and, like, they really experienced.
And they was like, well, where's Nikita at?
And they was like, well, I'm gonna wait for her to come out because I know that
she says she's been working really hard on this play.
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And they sat through the whole play and watched me and they
said they really enjoyed it and I did a really good job and they
went around bragging about me and.
I did not know this and then to the point where I come
into a situation and a few people that was there so
there was this lady she was supposed to help me with something and she
didn't help me and she didn't follow
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up with me she didn't do anything basically right boom next thing
I know is she's like hey I talked to mr bill mr
bill said like you were involved in a play i did not
know that like oh my gosh like do you still
need help i was like i do and i was like i'm sorry i'm just i'm
not from this area so i don't know what i'm doing and
like it's a lot for me right now because it's final
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week and she's like well when can i help you like she was trying her best to
help me and i'm like i don't really need it right now because it's final week and i
don't really care about anything else right now besides getting
these finals done like shout out to the people in school like because
you know what what I'm talking about like we don't really care about anything not unless
we get our finals done because finals usually hold more
weight than everything that you did the whole 16 weeks
like period so I felt like
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that was an experience to actually hear this lady and she apologized to me and
I think like the way she was looking at me for a moment because she stared at
me for a while before she came and said something that she kind of like felt
really bad because maybe I felt
like Like she perceived wrong information about me, if that makes sense.
Like, it was just like everybody that was around me, it was like things were
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being said about me and people were realizing that things that were being said was wrong.
And it was like, wow. Like, and everybody was like, oh, let me try to amend
this situation with her.
And because everybody's like, well, you know, she's very forgiving and stuff.
Like, why don't you just talk to her? And she's pretty understanding, which I am.
I'm very forgiving and I do understand that people are in their own era.
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But I can't accept like you
allowing someone to taunt your perception of
me or change your perception of me it's so crazy like prime example guys like
and I know I don't like to give shine to anybody so I won't say this person's
name so I am also on this app that I got into with my
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chapter or whatnot when I got inducted to Honor Society and make a long story
short I had to use this app because of the play because they had us on here
and this is how we like was keeping up with the play and different things like
that so bam next thing I know is.
This young man they were in this group chat because I guess a lot of people
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are about to graduate right now, all over the world.
Okay. So this is all over the United States and over the world.
So a lot of people are about to graduate right now. Some people are going to
go on to their next semester, but a lot of people are about to graduate.
So next thing I do know is, is that a lot of people ask these questions in this group chat.
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And so I'm thinking this a part of the group chat that I'm in with my school,
my chapter and different stuff like that, my new school.
So anyone said anyone in here pro-Pakistan?
Okay. And there's a few people in here that says, do you know if anyone's representing at graduation?
So this is like a group chat and people are talking about, okay,
are we allowed to do, to say that we pro-Pakistan like at graduation?
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Are we allowed to do this or not?
So this is like somebody just asking this question about graduation
in the group with honor people like
they're they talking about graduation ceremony so somebody sent the
picture out about graduation ceremony and then this somebody responded back
like this and it says some girls like she's she she's wearing her her little
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thing that she got and it says have you seen the graduation process and a state
it's inspired Michigan, it's inspiring.
And so this girl was saying she's wearing her Keithley as well as her PTK and Honor Society cord.
And it says, no, and some girls said, no, where can I watch this?
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They said, well, let me post it in the chat.
It's been running a disturbing protest in New York Times and most media and CNN. Okay.
So basically like they're in here, they go on for a while and they start talking. Right.
So I'm thinking that this is about my school because right now they are protesting at my school.
So I'm like, all right, cool. next thing i know is
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and it says somebody wrote i'm done
continuing this conversation here is not the best medium and is
much more controversial in person i'm free
to chat in the dm2 so then somebody said as a past president of the ptk chapter
it would be best interest of the chapter members to not publicly announce your
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opinion on a foreign wars any statement that calls harm can can,
and will get you removed from the chapter.
Personal opinions should stay personal as this is not the right form.
Mind you, you're not even president, right? You're saying something.
Shut up. Who cares, right?
So it says, what if those foreign wars are being funded by our taxes?
I will never be silent before genocide. I'm probably using my first amendment right.
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And this girl says, I stand in solitary with the oppressed.
That doesn't cause harm and should not be perceived as a threat against anyone
is my first amendment right protesting under the constitution it says again
this is not the foreign right.
Form and this shouldn't be discussed on this chat. You're right.
This is our group chat with a very specific topic and we may have misused it.
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However, you could have stopped there, but you chose to threaten with false accusations.
Us saying stop killing children, women, and innocent civilization in Gaza has nothing harmful in it.
Threats can and won't silence us. No intensity of gaslight will let us believe
that killing 40,000 people or 14,800 children,
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10,000 women, 492 medical crews, and 141 journalists is not wrong.
And it's something we should be concerned about. Thank you. Have a good day.
And I will never be silent before genocide, period.
And then somebody wrote, like, I erased the news link.
So this is what I posted. Okay. Cause I'm like, first of all,
I'm thinking it's my school. Like we just had to talk. Like we were supposed
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to make sure everybody comes in safe.
This isn't that. We have a buddy system. We have some people pro.
We have some people against it. Okay. So I say you did, you did post in general.
Cause it's like a general post. It's not like, hey, this is with the officers,
the chapters. This is a general topic.
It all got started about what can we do at graduation? Let's stay focused.
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Okay. And it says, I say you did post in general. So you should be okay to talk
about whatever you want to talk about.
Now, if this was a topic thread and not it was not a general because like if
this is a topic thread, like we can only talk about this, then that's a problem.
But if it's general, who cares?
OK, general, then, yes, it was wrong.
This has everything to do with how you are feeling as a graduate,
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as a former vice president is all fair game.
Do as you please. Don't let someone tell you what to do when it's when it is
your place or your heart to talk to your fellow members. If you can't talk to
your fellow members, then who are you supposed to talk to?
And then this guy wrote back and said, a counselor. I said, some people are
not comfortable talking to a counselor. We consider ourselves brothers and sisters.
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Then they should be treated that way.
Or they don't have the funds to talk to one. I don't think it is fair to them.
Mental health is serious.
You're asking the right questions about graduation. So I don't see nothing wrong
with this. Then somebody said, hello, everyone. Let's talk PTK.
I don't want any other discussion here. Please text to each other in a private
conversation. Thank you for understanding.
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Graduation is PTK, right? Nikita, I'm happy to read you. Hope you are doing okay.
And so this is like people actually realizing who I am at this point.
I was like, hey, little buck, I am over here at UCLA right now. I'm living my best life.
I am the president of my chapter right now. I'm blessed. I hope you're doing
well. I said, woo, congratulations. I said, are you still in Ohio?
And somebody wrote, understood, and says, thanks. Yes, Nikita,
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I'm still in Ohio, and we'll do a book.
And then somebody says, congratulations to all the grad students,
because they just graduated from the school I used to go to.
So they, everybody just graduated, right?
So this man chose, instead of telling everybody, congratulations,
he chose to say, that's odd.
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UCLA doesn't have a PTK chapter, Ms. Chapter President.
I said, that's odd because you never asked what my chapter was,
but instead of saying congratulations.
Or it's nice to hear from you, you try to say what,
what is and so so thanks be blessed like
i love my responses like i'm not telling my
side of the story if you feel like you want to go do whatever go
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do whatever like baby because please god will have the last face out
okay and i said also i never said it was ptk or
not and then this girl was like wow this is crazy and then she said why are
you bullying people in the chat that is for ptk discussion if it isn't conductive
to the message of that is the culture of this community opportunity is is it
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it's a bullying house so please explain and so she said this here she,
forwarded my message I said thank you because that is exactly how I felt because
I do feel that way every time I talk to this man it's always a problem and it's
like it's really weird that you have a problem with me like because I really
have no problem with you but it's really weird that you have one with me so
he goes on to say and this is an old man too at that y'all this This ace of my body,
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like, he's not a millennium.
He's not a Gen X. He's not a Gen Z. Like, I don't, you're old to me.
Like, you're like 10, 20 years older than me. I'm confused what's going on.
And he said, and then he said, ha ha, you don't know me. So try again.
You don't know the history. And I'm thinking about like, what do you mean history?
I never dated you. Like what?
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And then I said, a lot of the times when I was, when I was the vice president
of this chapter, he used to taunt me and no one would say anything out loud.
I don't even go to this school anymore, but I was speaking about something.
But instead of him being nice, he was being rude and very offensive and bullying me.
Me we don't have a history besides you bullying me
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and I am happy someone said something it's all
love wishing you nothing but the best he said wow time
to you that's a lot like when I looked you up
in UCLA student directory and you don't exist
if you're not a Cincinnati State student you shouldn't
be in this chat first of all once you get inducted as
a PTK dummy you're a member for
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life I signed up my grace okay so
basically what are you talking about shut up so like
but you went through all this information to look me
up right so here's what I here's how I respond I
said you are giving stalker vibes this is
scary this is scary to me this is one of
the reasons why I keep myself private in my information the joke
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really is on you and he said no worries I
will leave the chat stalker please grew up and then this
girl said hello everyone i hope everyone is having a fantastic
night this chat is for cincinnati state ptk please
keep the conversation such i said wow bully bullying
me again and then one of my friends
he said graduation i said and says congratulations how many other ptk member
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graduates and some people said i saw several today that's amazing woohoo way
to go congratulations to everyone you made it and says congratulations Congratulations
to you on your new adventure as well. Talking to me.
I said, thank you. I do appreciate it. And the same to you, love bug.
And he says, where are we all heading?
And like, we start having conversations. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is my guy.
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Like when I was at PCH after I was so upset because I got rigged out of being
the president and I acted as the president. I talked to my people.
I knew what was going on with my people. So I did footwork and this man came
in and like scared the advisors.
And I have to say what I said because I said what I said. He scared the advisors
By mentioning the bylaws And.
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That's how he Became president Of our chapter,
But really Everybody still thought I was president And I'm like Okay well if
It's anybody who I would give president To of this chapter It would definitely
be This young man Like he got ripped out Of being a Young man I'm talking about Like oh I miss him And,
And then I was like, oh my gosh. And I said to him, I was like, I miss you.
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I was like, what school is you going to? And we just had a great conversation and it's crazy.
But the whole point of this is I could have really went in and proven my point.
Like this is what school I go to, but I'm going to choose not to.
But you don't know if I got my information in private or not.
And so assuming that you think that my information is public,
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I really would think that you have a issue within yourself self because one
thing's for sure and two things for certain sir okay let me shot fire okay.
Is this I have a very popping podcast why would I ever be why would I ever be
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and and where you can get my information publicly right I at some point I have to be private in my
life because i'm not just the average person anymore so
i'm not just walking around just average anymore so you
can't just go to google and ask where does drake live
and you just pop up and find where drake lives maybe chris brown
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because chris brown don't care chris brown a fuck run up
on him you're gonna get popped gucci man run up on
him you're gonna get popped but it's the whole point like
you can't i don't want you to know where i'm at you're not supposed to
don't know where I'm at you're not my man what is
wrong with you so the problem is is
that not one man in this group chat spoke
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up and said bro you are wrong okay that's the problem it took women to actually
say hey you're really I feel like you're bullying this girl I feel like I don't
know what's going on but and I feel like that maybe they might have had a conversation
and somebody was like well maybe I I see what she's saying like I'm like what
is going on like these These girls literally just ask questions.
What can they and cannot do with being an honor society when they're going to graduate?
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Are they allowed to do their representation for pro-Pakistan?
And then you're like, oh, no, this is a wrong conversation. What did they say
that was wrong besides asking questions about graduation?
This is what this forum is for, is asking general questions.
And this was a general question. But instead, you like to control things and
you're not even the presence in it.
So sit down somewhere and chillax. so it's
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like it's really kind of crazy because it's like okay like
you're right and there's different things that
people do there's different things that people say and it's like I'm tired
of hearing this narrative like all jokes aside like I'm tired of hearing this
like I'm not telling my side of the story you believe whatever you want to believe
but to me you are a stalker why are you stalking me I'm not your woman are you
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on top of things with your wife this way like you can do
that with them people there you're just not about to do me like that I'm not your child,
you're not my dad like you're literally nobody to me besides somebody who like fake their way to the top,
But what did God show me? Like, hey, even though you wasn't president over there,
you was vice president, people still applaud you as president and that's all that matters.
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But guess what? I'm gonna take you somewhere else and just blow you up, pow, and here I go. Okay.
Here you go being a hater, not knowing that this is what my plans is and what
I'm destined for, but you're not really destined for that.
So you need to mind your own business. And I feel like me not really snapping
off like how I usually snap up with me, just being like, hey, listen,
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Dude, I don't really care what you're talking about It is what it is like you're
really harassing me like and bullying me at this point Like I don't say nothing
wrong to you Besides i'm standing up for these people because I don't know who said what?
I actually literally just respond because i'm like what is going on?
I didn't even pay attention. It was this man that said this It's crazy.
But like people they do certain things to the point where it's like,
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oh my gosh Like I want this person to feel like and then it's like some people
will antagonize you They will say certain things to try to get a reaction out
of you Because there's certain things as he said to me that I normally will
react to Maybe a year ago,
I would have reacted to that and I would have reacted totally different But
now i'm in a space where growth i'm beautiful. I'm out of survival mode.
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What are you talking about?
Baby, i'm chilling. I'm loving life right now. How about you?
I love to see people have healthy conversations. We are adults.
We should be able to conversate and say, hey, I don't like this or I do.
Okay, well, I'm glad that you stand up for this. I'm glad that you stand up for that.
Or I'm glad that you're against it. Like we should be able to have those conversations.
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We are in college, hello.
But we are adults and you're with college people that's younger than you and
you're not teaching them how to communicate.
And this is the problem that we have. well not me
but pertaining to like some of the
older generations older than me they don't
know how to communicate healthy enough for the younger
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people because we're making you communicate better and that's fine but just
leave us alone okay like where's my knight in shining armor like where you was
that you're a little bit out in there like ah don't talk to her like that pipe
down like pipe Pipe down, Shorty.
Like, I don't even know what's wrong with you, dude. Like, this girl literally said nothing to you.
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Only thing I said was something positive. I even told the people that just graduated,
congratulations on graduation.
This man chose not to say congratulations to nobody that graduated.
But instead, you attacked me. Instead of saying congratulations,
and then I put in my post, why do you say congratulations? That's horrible.
So I think, like, sometimes, guys, like, people just don't understand the things
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that Really goes on and how to deal with certain situations because they might
have internal issues going on and that's fine But you won't take that out on me.
I will reflect that energy right back at you. Goodbye sitting in that But what did god show me today?
What did the universe show me? What did my angels and ancestors say?
I got you Like I didn't even have to say nothing because that's how I felt and
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then god just came over It's like you're bullying this girl.
Like, and then just hitting back with the same thing they said to him.
Like, and I felt so loved at that point. I told that girl, thank you.
Like, and I really meant that from the bottom of my heart. Because a lot of
times people knew that he was talking to me wrong.
And they would say to me, like, I know that he's talking to you wrong.
And I don't like it. But they would never speak out loud about it.
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Because they were scared.
Like, man, F dude and move on. Fuck dude. And move on.
I know this is a little vibrational. But it kind of came out strong.
But it is what it is. But telling my side of the story.
It's no longer my job. I don't care believe whatever you're gonna believe I'm
not telling the side of the story.
I said what I said once If you want me to go to more details,
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i'm not i'm just not i'm just i'm out Like believe whatever you want to believe
I do not care anymore And I love people.
I love the things that I do. I love every single body I have no problem with anybody at all.
I'm just over telling my side of the story to
for people them you're gonna believe what you're gonna believe anyways but believe
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it if people tell you something about them
believe it I'm just I'm just
not over it I'm over telling my side of the story because I don't have to I'm
grown and it is what it is like you know what you did I know what I did I know
what I said and I'm just like over it like guys so this episode is really about
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not Not telling your side of the story, because sometimes your side of the story,
sometimes you not telling your side of the story gives time for people to see
the people that gave them the message.
Or sometimes it gives people a chance to think about what really happened,
what transpired and what did they see if it was wrong?
Because sometimes when I be talking to people and they don't tell their side
of the story, I actually can sit back and see what's going on. I'm like, okay.
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And sometimes people are like, okay, well, what are you doing over here?
What are you doing over there?
That's fine. If you're in a relationship, a committed relationship,
like you're married, fiance, you're dating someone,
And they ask you a question like, what would you do over here with this person?
If you choose not to tell your side of the story, then that means that you're not communicating.
That's not what I'm saying here. I'm saying if a person comes up to you and
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says, listen, I know you was cheating on me with Ralph.
And you know that you wasn't cheating on this person with Ralph?
Or you wasn't cheating on this person with Sarah?
And you told this person, no, I was not cheating on you with Sarah.
I was actually over here at this time.
But if they got proof that you was over there, you got to admit it. but at
some point if you know this person accuses you
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constantly of cheating and doing certain things stop
telling your side of the story stop telling
your side of the story it does not matter
there's nothing that you can say that can change this person's mind
at all oh my
gosh it was so crazy because like a person said that
I didn't help them I put them down I did
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nothing but do bad things but then they told
this story but then people were looking like but then
why is she helping you if she you just said this person's not helping you you
said she put you down why is this person encouraging you why is she helping
you like what and you felt like this person was a mean person you're saying
that this person's a mean person but all we see is good things coming from her
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I'm concerned like what's going on because she has did nothing but encourage me I'm telling
y'all guys this is how it be sometimes that's
like you could you could be working for somebody and the
person that you're working was like oh you're mean you're this that you're that but
then you got like five other people that's around like I didn't see that behavior
like I don't know if it happened but I didn't see that behavior and they're
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like okay then one person just takes that side like oh what they said had to
be true but then what happens is is that this This person who's trying to tarnish your character, right?
Everything that's in the dark, got to come to light. Boom. Here it goes.
God doing a sweep. The universe doing a sweep.
Your angels and ancestors doing a sweep. Their angels and ancestors just doing a sweep on them.
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That's what happened. A lot of people don't know. Sometimes y'all angels and
ancestors be exposing y'all.
Because you're doing so wrong to people that your angels and ancestors say, I can't.
There's nothing that we can do to support you because you're doing horrible stuff.
Like this person did nothing but be loved to you and this is that and but look at you boom.
I'm telling you, it's like this to the point where everything and everybody
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around me, it was like, I could tell that people, more people started talking
to me. They started treating me a little bit different.
And I feel like that's because they were told wrong information about me.
Like, oh, she's just so aggressive or she just, she complains a whole lot.
And this isn't that, but when people see the things that I'm talking about and
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the issues that I'm bringing up, they're like, oh, she actually got a point now.
Like okay we can't be maybe we need
to go and do some research and maybe help her
and maybe educate herself a little bit better because maybe this
is wrong and like it was so
crazy but doing this whole mercury retrograde it was like people were saying
things about me but people were actually seeing and hearing what I was saying
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they were like okay but she's right she she 100% right and so I love that and
it's one one one one o'clock guys um so whoever's in alignment myself but But look at,
look at the angel number 1111, four ones, like 1111.
But I'm just happy and I'm blessed. Like I was able to learn,
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like sometimes telling my side of the story, because it was like at times I
couldn't even tell my side of the story.
When somebody came up and said something to me, I was like, dang,
I wanted to say like, oh, this is not what happened. This is really what happened.
It's like, I didn't even have enough time to get this side of the story out.
Like somebody literally told somebody else that I said something bad about the
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paper they submitted And I could tell that because they they're how they started
acting towards me was totally different I'm, like why why would they start acting different?
Like they act normal to everybody else. But to me, they're acting different.
And it's like, it's nonchalant.
But then I see that at some point she realized like what was being told to her was incorrect.
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She's like, I don't know. She said it like, baby, I'm going to say this about myself.
There's things that I should have spoke up on, but I chose not to speak up on
that situation. And then it is what it is.
And then like when people actually heard what I was saying and they were like,
wow, like I, it was like a really amazing time.
Like so what guys what I've learned is I'm no
longer telling my side of the story believe whatever
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you want to believe you said like oh I some
such told me that you talked about
me and you said this I slept with white people and if I tell you I didn't say
it and you still be like well this person believe them that's my next line believe
them what are we gonna do from this point moving forward you want to keep talking
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or you don't you don't want to be friends or you You won't,
you need to, I believe whatever you want to believe.
I am no longer telling my side of the story. It doesn't matter.
It does not matter. And it's okay.
And I'm about love. I'm about light. I'm all about like producing this.
So guys, if you're in a situation where people just constantly doubting you,
and you constantly like verbally telling your side of the story,
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trying to explain, and it's not getting anywhere, stop.
There's nothing you can do to change this person's mind. They have their mind made up.
It's already where it was going to be It was already there in the first place
Because if a person believes you They believe you If they don't,
they don't Like their mind was already there In the first place Believe them.
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Then move on, drop them, let it go, I've been telling people that all the time,
like, hey, like, I went through an exam during Mercury Retrograde,
where I'm examining myself late,
even down to, like, certain stuff
that happened with me in previous relationships, I'm like, oh my gosh,
like, this person, I was trying to prove myself to this person,
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but this person literally judged me, like, it was so weird how they judged me,
I'm like, how did you come up with this conclusion. You know what?
I don't even care. Believe it.
If you thought I was like this, believe it.
I don't care no more. Believe it. And I'm moving on.
I'm moving on.
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I'll be moving on. Y'all know this song by my own. Moving on.
Cause I'll be moving on.
I'm telling y'all, You got to be moving on. Let these people go.
Let these people breathe.
Stop telling your side of the story. If you know, like I'm telling you,
some people like, hey, you said this, you said that.
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Like, I'm just going to look at them like, do you think I said that? Yes or no?
Because if you thought I said that, then I said it. And I don't even care if
I didn't say it, which typically I might not say it.
But it's the fact that your mind is already made up. I can't even undo that. Okay, like I can't.
The only person that can change your mind is you.
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I literally told somebody, I said, your version of me is not the me that I presented to you at all.
And so the only person that can heal that version of me that you have of me is you.
And so I'm going to talk about this. I'm going to go live and talk about that.
But I got to make sure y'all call me so we can talk live about this situation
because it's very highly important about this.
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But guys, I'm no longer zero mindset of story. It is what it is.
Believe what you want to believe.
I just don't care anymore. more. I don't care. Like I'm not,
I don't care to try to change your mind.
I'm not here to change you. The only person that could change you is you.
You are responsible for how you act, how you talk, what you do.
I'm not accountable for your sins. You're not accountable for my mind.
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I'm not accountable for anything that you do.
I am only accountable for how I act and how I react to certain things.
And I, I really love me and I do my best to be the brightest person that I am
And to be the most loving person that I am and people who really got me in a
life They really appreciate me like every single day.
Like I really hear like I love you You always show up for me.
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You always do really positive things for me Like I don't know how to explain
it But you just there for me when a lot of people don't be and i'm happy for
that Like so anytime I tell them something like I don't have to tell them twice or nothing. Oh, what?
No, like let me they react and they move Like you stand on that if you said
you was gonna do something you didn't maybe stand on that because you better
stay over there Just don't come over here Because I'm not going to play with
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you Go play with your mama Just not me Okay.
And I'm so sorry Okay Let me Let me And I'm so sorry Like you know If your mama's
deceased I don't mean to disrespect anybody Or nothing But go play with somebody
else Just don't play with me Play with anybody else But just not me Okay Because
I'm standing on business.
Standing on business All 2024 And for the rest of my life But I'm no longer
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Telling my side of the story It is what it is Because telling my side of the
story Also guys This is stress,
that's undeniable stress that's a low vibration telling your side of the story
telling your side of the story it's a low vibration thing.
If y'all really think about it and we talk about low vibrations,
that's a low vibration thing. I'm not, I'm not going there with anybody else anymore.
And Mercury retrograde, this Mercury retrograde, I needed it.
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It helped me to tap into my passions, tap into my love.
But most importantly, it really helped me tap into some things that I was missing out on.
I was really missing out on a lot of things. Like, and like,
I really had a time to sit back and examine a lot of things.
Like, man, like, I am so proud of me and how far I came because,
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like, maybe a year ago, maybe even six months ago, I would have been going for a throttle.
Word for word, bar for bar. I just don't got it no more.
Believe them. If you believe someone, I said something, believe them.
I'm no longer taking it back. Believe them. I don't care.
Because you already got your mind made up. If you really want to know what I
said, you would call me. You ask.
There's certain questions that you ask. But if you believe me then and i'm your
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friend or if i'm not your friend or i'm somebody that you really care about
You're gonna be like well,
I can't see this person doing that This person has done nothing but show you
love So I can't see this person doing what you're saying that you're doing.
Maybe there's something wrong with you So that's the one thing that I really
love about me that i'm actually like taking my time out to really like say Hey,
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this is what it is I'm, really proud of me and i'm able to like let go,
and not tell my side of the story and say, fuck you.
And I'm like, and I know like when I say that's not a low vibration because
I'm really like, when I say fuck you, I'm really detaching myself from you,
your core, your energy, all of that. Like, and you got to understand something.
I'm doing it in my Aries energy. Fuck you.
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Whatever energy that you're in and that's your sun sign or whatever sign is
your Mars, then you need to use that.
Okay? F you. It is what it is. I don't care no more. I just,
I want to be at peace, love, and happiness.
And if I have to be at peace, love, and happiness and say, fuck you,
and I'm good, and I move on, hey, I'm great.
I prayed away. I meditated away. Whatever I need to do to talk to the angels
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and ancestors. I'm like, baby, okay. I know I said I should have been there.
Baby, but it'll be all good. but I feel better at the end of the day
that I don't have this attachment on me anymore and I'm okay
because I felt like hey I gave a lot of people opportunities a lot
of people just oh I didn't know that okay you know
what I don't even care and I remember like maybe like four years ago I was talking
to this one dude me and him was kicking in for like a very long time there's
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one of my used to be one of my favorite buddies and he was like I never knew
you wanted a relationship I said yes you did because I always talked about it
so don't act like you did not know that oh so So you just say, fuck you.
I'm cool. I'm over it. Like, see, y'all be forgetting that I'm an Aries because
all this earth energy be coming through and you be feeling the vibe all the time.
But you must forget, baby, I'll burn you up on this earth. You on the earth and I'm fire.
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That's a bad combination. That means I will burn you while you're standing there,
dummy. You don't even got to be close to me. I will hit you wherever you at.
So it's like I'm okay with not telling myself that story. I'm okay with that.
I just don't care. It is what it is. I'm not explaining myself to nobody.
If I don't want to do it, I don't want to do it. If I did, I did.
If I did it and you know you asked me, I might tell you. And then again,
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I might not. I might be like, does it really matter?
At the end of the day, no matter what I say, does it really matter?
And that's the thing, guys. No matter what you're saying, when somebody asks
you for clarification or anything, does it really matter?
Because if they already have their mind made up, there's nothing you can do.
So stop wasting your time.
Alright guys Well you know I got a lot to talk about with y'all This rest of
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this week Make sure y'all tune in with my lives I'm gonna at least try to go
live twice I might go live on Thursday and Friday,
So y'all can tap in and zoom in with me. But guys, like, please,
please, please, people, like, make sure that you stop telling your side of the
story to people who, who's irrelevant.
Like, if you're in a relationship and you need to communicate, communicate.
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But if these are people that just like, hey, like, you know that they already
have their mind made up. You could tell when people already have their mind
made up when you talk to them. Let them be.
And it's okay. Let them move on. like completely move
on and be happy with her life and be loved and be
vibrant because baby please believe God's waiting on
you your angels waiting on you your universe waiting on you Allah whoever you
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believe in they waiting on you they waiting on you to like just let go I'm telling
people like I the moment I let go and this let me bring this back one more time
the moment that I let go for real for real that's when karma and God stepped
right on in I didn't have to say nothing,
i had like at least three witnesses that was like that happened
what this girl's talking about that happened oh
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what she's talking about that happened look at
that i didn't even have to say nothing i had i didn't even have to go in and
prove my point because it was already proven guys like i didn't have only thing
i had to say was like make a complaint i had to just say and it was just like
oh here we go it's proven it's there it's there this this and that i was like
oh okay it's like God's like, I'm taking care of it.
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Taking care of it. Taking care of it. My angel's like, I'm taking care of it. It's over with.
My angel's like, yeah, play with it. Fuck around and find out. Okay.
But y'all got to start trusting the universe. Y'all got to start trusting God.
Y'all got to start trusting whoever you believe in and really standing at power
because that right there is power itself.
It's a whole protection field, a whole different field, like flowing with the
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universe. People don't understand, like, baby, I'll flow.
I'm living my best life. I'm happy. I'm not, I'm not going to be anything else but happy.
If anything else makes me not happy, then baby, I have to go.
You have to go. You have to get up out of my life.
If you're making me unhappy, please believe you have to get up out of my life
because I really love me and I appreciate me.
I vibe with me. I really love me to the whole extreme point to where it's like,
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I can't do anything else but smile because I really love me and I vibe with me all the time.
So guys, I thank you for always tuning in and tapping in with the Pretty Red A&T show.
Like, I just want to let y'all Y'all know, like, stop telling y'all side of
the story. It doesn't matter. And this is what this episode is called.
Stop telling your side of the story. Because it doesn't really matter.
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It doesn't even matter at all. You heard what Lauryn Hill said.
It doesn't matter. Because if people love you, they're going to love you anyways.
If they're going to hate you, they're going to hate you anyways.
Just, you just, you're just giving extra words that don't even matter.
So, all right, guys, like, thanks for tuning in, tapping in.
I'm going to be on y'all top this week. I really love y'all.
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Thanks y'all for vibing with me. A lot of people ask me, when you're posting up, how it goes?
Like, you ain't did one in a while. I'm like, gosh, it's final week. Y'all know how it is.
It's crunch time for me, but I do have time to vibe in and touch in with y'all
and actually really vibe with y'all and love on y'all.
And I really appreciate everybody who took their time out to really vibe with
me and be patient with me.
Make sure y'all let me know how y'all feel about this episode.
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Make sure you take your time out to follow me on my actual webpage at theprettyredent.pobbing.com,
or subscribe to me on YouTube at the Pretty Red ENT Show or follow me on any
social media platform at the Pretty Red ENT Show.
Like, you know, it's always your girl Nikita. I'm always here checking in with
y'all, but guys, stop telling y'all side of the story, okay?
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But thank you for always tuning in tapping in it's your girl pretty real ent aka goddess nakita okay.
Welcome to the pretty red and t show it's
your girl goddess nikita aka pretty red and if nobody told you they loved you
today just know that goddess nikita she loves you today and And I'm sending
so much love and light out into the whole entire universe, the planet, to myself.
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And shout out and sending so much love and light out to the people who just
graduated and people still doing finals.
Shout out to y'all because, baby, it's going down on everybody who's about to finish school. Okay.
But give us a round of applause one time for the one time. Guys,
I'm over here rocking with the best of 4.0.
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Once again. See, this girl did it again. Like, I'm really super proud of myself, guys.
I've been really busy. I'm sorry I didn't post.
I've been, like, really tired, busy, making sure I get done with these exams
and doing my one-two step and doing my thing and doing my wing.
Because every time I do my thing, I do my wing.
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And it's so very important to the point where I focus and I love me for that.
And shout out to all the people that's grads, graduating, and you did your thing.
Like I'm very proud of y'all okay all right guys we survived the mercury retrograde let me see,
so now we enter in Pluto retrograde I'm probably gonna do my next episode on
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that so I'm gonna be on y'all top this week but let me see a reality making
for the mercury retrograde,
So the 25th, so about the 9th is when everything, the planet starts to speed up.
You're going to see everybody go away. Okay.
Then we also got a very powerful new moon. So I'm happy about that.
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But guys, let me talk to you about something that's really important, guys.
Like, oh my gosh, I got to talk about it. Okay. So shots fired because I'm on y'all.
I'm on y'all. Okay. I'm on y'all. I'm on y'all. so me this year with i would
god was working on me with with my angels and ancestors my spiritual guys like
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you know holy spirit whoever you believe in like was working with me from mercury retrograde.
Was not telling my side of the story like and i don't know some people were
like what like no i ain't telling my side of the story you know what it was
you know what you did you made up some false narrative and I don't have to speak about it.
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Like when I say like, I don't have to speak about it, I really am not speaking on it.
I don't really care what side of the story you told, what lie you told.
I just don't care at this point. I did everything right.
I have been a great friend. I have been a great motivator.
I have just been wonderful and I have been nice to people. I have been doing my thing.
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And sometimes guys, it's really important to not tell your side of the story.
I remember like my sister used to always tell me, she used to be like,
Keita, stop explaining yourself to people. I know that you like to do that. Stop it.
And this is me as a young girl. I've been taught the game from an early age.
So sometimes when I do tell my side of the story or I'm explaining myself to
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somebody, it's because like, I really want them to understand like what happened,
what concurred, what took down.
But the one thing my brother told hold me like shout out to my brother okay
you know what I'm talking about y'all know what I'm talking about you know I'm
talking about my brother Elijah shout out to him my brother said Keita.
If somebody already has their mind made up about whatever that you did or you
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said, especially like Prime is able, my brother used to talk to me about guys when I was younger.
He's like, if a guy think you cheating, Keita, there's nothing that you can
say or do to make this man believe that you aren't.
If a man think you a ho, there's nothing that you can say or do to make him feel that you're not.
So stop explaining your side of the story. It doesn't matter.
You're wasting time. Move on. Okay? Okay.
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And then go for men too. Like if you, if a woman thinks that you're cheating,
move on, bro. Stop staying there.
Why are you going to keep trying to prove your point to somebody who does not care?
Okay. Because if a person really thought you were really cheating on them,
like some people are just manipulators. Some people are users. Like leave this person.
Like, what are you doing? You're wasting time. Time is valuable to us.
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One thing we cannot get back is time.
And I take my time very serious. I really love me.
I show up for me. I really do to things for myself that
most people really don't take the time out to do but back
to back to the basics guys like i just
like it was like a thing was me with mercury retrograde
where it was like a few people like a lot of people were just
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saying stuff and then this is me trusting
the universe me trust that my angels me trusting my ancestors
me trusting god like me me just trusting
in holy spirit me and me trusting who the
higher being okay like this
just like god showing me like this is what i need you to say in
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certain times and i just want to step there i want to be in the presence so
prime example somebody said something to me said something about me they made
up this whole particular lie and i could tell by like the lie that they were
telling was that so important that everybody started looking at me different
but then when everybody like really started to talk to me, like,
laugh and giggle with me, and then we just started looking.
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I can tell that they were, like, kind of questioning the information that they
received, and then, like, at the end of everything that happened,
I, like, said my little spiel, and everybody was, like, cracking up,
laughing, but they was, like, wow, I didn't actually know that.
I actually was told that you done this, like, a few times. I didn't know it
was really your first time doing this.
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I don't know if y'all know, but I got into a play.
And I went and tried out and got casted into a play. It's really weird, but I did.
I tried something new. We're going to have a whole new episode.
I'm on y'all next this week. So just know I'm like releasing, releasing, releasing.
I'm on y'all next this week. But I literally did this play and like everybody
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thought like I was in a play before.
And it was so crazy because the director of the play at the end of where we're
critiquing the play and talking about what went good, went bad.
And he was like, I really, I know that you said it was your first play,
but I got totally different information, but I'm so sorry.
Cause I didn't know this was your first play, but you did really good.
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Like you did like extremely really good to the point where like you shocked
when I played my part, there's this lady that goes around for the Kennedy festival,
Kennedy, like the president.
And she goes around the world and she goes around watching plays and doing this.
Like She literally asked about me to the point where it got blown up,
to the point where everybody was like, oh my gosh, who's this girl?
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She did that. I don't know how to explain it, but she did that.
And she did a really good job. And I was like, what? I'm like, hold on.
But it was an amazing experience for me. But there were some things that happened
where people said things about me.
And then I could tell certain people were like, I'm not getting that energy from her.
And I could tell the certain people that were saying this about me And it's
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so weird because It's like God placed a few Aries around me And I love Aries
people, bro Like because,
We like genuinely love people If they're like they're really good people We're
gonna vibe with you Whether or not we vibe with you We still will vibe with you and respect you,
They were really great to me And really nice to me Like really
gave me a lot of energy To get me through the first
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night And after the first night It was like rock and roll And then like we
were just All cracking up laughing it was like
a movement on my side where I entered
in the play at but they really genuinely helped
me out guys and it was really amazing thing but
me not telling my side of the story I felt like gave a time to reflect on how
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I could have responded because I could have responded and went crazy like I'm
an Aries type and it's Aries season two like oh my gosh I'm not right now but
But when this was taking place, it was Aerie season.
Happened right through my birthday, all of that. Like, as soon as Aerie season
started, that's when we started practicing for this play.
So, like, the whole Aerie season, I was doing a play.
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And going through Mercury, right, yo? Great. Ooh, I'm a rapper.
Y'all just said that, okay.
But I'm so proud of myself that, like, I didn't blow up.
I was able to articulate certain times when I needed to, to let people know,
like, I'm still standing on business.
I'm standing on exactly what I said. I'm just not clearing up what I said.
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Like, I can't apologize for things that don't make no sense to me.
I only can apologize if I know that for a fact I did something wrong.
But like you can i'm never apologizing for my opinion i just can't but what i've learned is
that people will try to throw shade on you to make themselves seem better so
sometimes guys not even saying anything can be the biggest thing because then
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i'm gonna let the people that you told us told about me some negative stuff
i'm gonna let them see that whatever you said ain't right.
But I didn't even have to say anything because baby, please believe the universe walk with me.
God walk with me. My angels walk with me. My ancestors walk with me.
So please believe that anytime truth walks with me, I am a part of the love and light team.
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So love walks with me everywhere I go.
So love conquers all. So you're going to see the love in me,
regardless of anything that is happening to me, for me, and around me.
So it's so crazy because like now when I'm walking on like campus and when I'm
walking around different places, people are like, you're that girl that played in the play?
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And I'm like, yes. And they're like, oh my gosh. And they had so many theories. I'm like, no.
But it was a really amazing experience for me. And like all the people that
came to really support me,
I only had like two people come support me besides like my teacher and because they go to the school,
But people outside of my school Only had two people come support me And that
really meant a lot to me Compared to everybody else You know what I'm saying
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So shout out to them two people That came and supported me for real.
Alright, Miss Bill Miss Judy They came and supported me And I'm glad that they
experienced And had a good time It was really touchy I didn't know if I wanted
to invite them Because the stuff that they were saying In the play But they
had a good time Especially his wife But I really appreciate them
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because like everybody that I know up here and this
area that I stay in them two were the only two people
that showed up but granted if I was at home I know a lot of people a lot of
more people would have showed up because when I had got inducted into honor
society like the people that really meant a lot for me showed up so I'm like
my brother now you know my ex my ex and some Some of my ex friends showed up,
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but it was like really cool.
Like the, like I have like a support team, but to me, this meant a whole lot to me.
But I just feel like guys, like sometimes your side of the story doesn't matter.
Like, I'm telling you, like, I can tell, like, when people have stories about
me and when they're talking about me compared to how people are perceiving me.
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So, with Mr. Bill showing up and Miss Judy showing up, and I didn't know,
like, they went into the office and was telling everybody, like,
yeah, you know, Nikita was in a play.
And, like, they said that they sit front row and, like, they really experienced.
And they was like, well, where's Nikita at?
And they was like, well, I'm gonna wait for her to come out because I know that
she says she's been working really hard on this play.
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And they sat through the whole play and watched me and they
said they really enjoyed it and I did a really good job and they
went around bragging about me and.
I did not know this and then to the point where I come
into a situation and a few people that was there so
there was this lady she was supposed to help me with something and she
didn't help me and she didn't follow
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up with me she didn't do anything basically right boom next thing
I know is she's like hey I talked to mr bill mr
bill said like you were involved in a play i did not
know that like oh my gosh like do you still
need help i was like i do and i was like i'm sorry i'm just i'm
not from this area so i don't know what i'm doing and
like it's a lot for me right now because it's final
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week and she's like well when can i help you like she was trying her best to
help me and i'm like i don't really need it right now because it's final week and i
don't really care about anything else right now besides getting
these finals done like shout out to the people in school like because
you know what what I'm talking about like we don't really care about anything not unless
we get our finals done because finals usually hold more
weight than everything that you did the whole 16 weeks
like period so I felt like
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that was an experience to actually hear this lady and she apologized to me and
I think like the way she was looking at me for a moment because she stared at
me for a while before she came and said something that she kind of like felt
really bad because maybe I felt
like Like she perceived wrong information about me, if that makes sense.
Like, it was just like everybody that was around me, it was like things were
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being said about me and people were realizing that things that were being said was wrong.
And it was like, wow. Like, and everybody was like, oh, let me try to amend
this situation with her.
And because everybody's like, well, you know, she's very forgiving and stuff.
Like, why don't you just talk to her? And she's pretty understanding, which I am.
I'm very forgiving and I do understand that people are in their own era.
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But I can't accept like you
allowing someone to taunt your perception of
me or change your perception of me it's so crazy like prime example guys like
and I know I don't like to give shine to anybody so I won't say this person's
name so I am also on this app that I got into with my
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chapter or whatnot when I got inducted to Honor Society and make a long story
short I had to use this app because of the play because they had us on here
and this is how we like was keeping up with the play and different things like
that so bam next thing I know is.
This young man they were in this group chat because I guess a lot of people
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are about to graduate right now, all over the world.
Okay. So this is all over the United States and over the world.
So a lot of people are about to graduate right now. Some people are going to
go on to their next semester, but a lot of people are about to graduate.
So next thing I do know is, is that a lot of people ask these questions in this group chat.
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And so I'm thinking this a part of the group chat that I'm in with my school,
my chapter and different stuff like that, my new school.
So anyone said anyone in here pro-Pakistan?
Okay. And there's a few people in here that says, do you know if anyone's representing at graduation?
So this is like a group chat and people are talking about, okay,
are we allowed to do, to say that we pro-Pakistan like at graduation?
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Are we allowed to do this or not?
So this is like somebody just asking this question about graduation
in the group with honor people like
they're they talking about graduation ceremony so somebody sent the
picture out about graduation ceremony and then this somebody responded back
like this and it says some girls like she's she she's wearing her her little
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thing that she got and it says have you seen the graduation process and a state
it's inspired Michigan, it's inspiring.
And so this girl was saying she's wearing her Keithley as well as her PTK and Honor Society cord.
And it says, no, and some girls said, no, where can I watch this?
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They said, well, let me post it in the chat.
It's been running a disturbing protest in New York Times and most media and CNN. Okay.
So basically like they're in here, they go on for a while and they start talking. Right.
So I'm thinking that this is about my school because right now they are protesting at my school.
So I'm like, all right, cool. next thing i know is
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and it says somebody wrote i'm done
continuing this conversation here is not the best medium and is
much more controversial in person i'm free
to chat in the dm2 so then somebody said as a past president of the ptk chapter
it would be best interest of the chapter members to not publicly announce your
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opinion on a foreign wars any statement that calls harm can can,
and will get you removed from the chapter.
Personal opinions should stay personal as this is not the right form.
Mind you, you're not even president, right? You're saying something.
Shut up. Who cares, right?
So it says, what if those foreign wars are being funded by our taxes?
I will never be silent before genocide. I'm probably using my first amendment right.
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And this girl says, I stand in solitary with the oppressed.
That doesn't cause harm and should not be perceived as a threat against anyone
is my first amendment right protesting under the constitution it says again
this is not the foreign right.
Form and this shouldn't be discussed on this chat. You're right.
This is our group chat with a very specific topic and we may have misused it.
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However, you could have stopped there, but you chose to threaten with false accusations.
Us saying stop killing children, women, and innocent civilization in Gaza has nothing harmful in it.
Threats can and won't silence us. No intensity of gaslight will let us believe
that killing 40,000 people or 14,800 children,
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10,000 women, 492 medical crews, and 141 journalists is not wrong.
And it's something we should be concerned about. Thank you. Have a good day.
And I will never be silent before genocide, period.
And then somebody wrote, like, I erased the news link.
So this is what I posted. Okay. Cause I'm like, first of all,
I'm thinking it's my school. Like we just had to talk. Like we were supposed
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to make sure everybody comes in safe.
This isn't that. We have a buddy system. We have some people pro.
We have some people against it. Okay. So I say you did, you did post in general.
Cause it's like a general post. It's not like, hey, this is with the officers,
the chapters. This is a general topic.
It all got started about what can we do at graduation? Let's stay focused.
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Okay. And it says, I say you did post in general. So you should be okay to talk
about whatever you want to talk about.
Now, if this was a topic thread and not it was not a general because like if
this is a topic thread, like we can only talk about this, then that's a problem.
But if it's general, who cares?
OK, general, then, yes, it was wrong.
This has everything to do with how you are feeling as a graduate,
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as a former vice president is all fair game.
Do as you please. Don't let someone tell you what to do when it's when it is
your place or your heart to talk to your fellow members. If you can't talk to
your fellow members, then who are you supposed to talk to?
And then this guy wrote back and said, a counselor. I said, some people are
not comfortable talking to a counselor. We consider ourselves brothers and sisters.
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Then they should be treated that way.
Or they don't have the funds to talk to one. I don't think it is fair to them.
Mental health is serious.
You're asking the right questions about graduation. So I don't see nothing wrong
with this. Then somebody said, hello, everyone. Let's talk PTK.
I don't want any other discussion here. Please text to each other in a private
conversation. Thank you for understanding.
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Graduation is PTK, right? Nikita, I'm happy to read you. Hope you are doing okay.
And so this is like people actually realizing who I am at this point.
I was like, hey, little buck, I am over here at UCLA right now. I'm living my best life.
I am the president of my chapter right now. I'm blessed. I hope you're doing
well. I said, woo, congratulations. I said, are you still in Ohio?
And somebody wrote, understood, and says, thanks. Yes, Nikita,
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I'm still in Ohio, and we'll do a book.
And then somebody says, congratulations to all the grad students,
because they just graduated from the school I used to go to.
So they, everybody just graduated, right?
So this man chose, instead of telling everybody, congratulations,
he chose to say, that's odd.
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UCLA doesn't have a PTK chapter, Ms. Chapter President.
I said, that's odd because you never asked what my chapter was,
but instead of saying congratulations.
Or it's nice to hear from you, you try to say what,
what is and so so thanks be blessed like
i love my responses like i'm not telling my
side of the story if you feel like you want to go do whatever go
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do whatever like baby because please god will have the last face out
okay and i said also i never said it was ptk or
not and then this girl was like wow this is crazy and then she said why are
you bullying people in the chat that is for ptk discussion if it isn't conductive
to the message of that is the culture of this community opportunity is is it
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it's a bullying house so please explain and so she said this here she,
forwarded my message I said thank you because that is exactly how I felt because
I do feel that way every time I talk to this man it's always a problem and it's
like it's really weird that you have a problem with me like because I really
have no problem with you but it's really weird that you have one with me so
he goes on to say and this is an old man too at that y'all this This ace of my body,
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like, he's not a millennium.
He's not a Gen X. He's not a Gen Z. Like, I don't, you're old to me.
Like, you're like 10, 20 years older than me. I'm confused what's going on.
And he said, and then he said, ha ha, you don't know me. So try again.
You don't know the history. And I'm thinking about like, what do you mean history?
I never dated you. Like what?
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And then I said, a lot of the times when I was, when I was the vice president
of this chapter, he used to taunt me and no one would say anything out loud.
I don't even go to this school anymore, but I was speaking about something.
But instead of him being nice, he was being rude and very offensive and bullying me.
Me we don't have a history besides you bullying me
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and I am happy someone said something it's all
love wishing you nothing but the best he said wow time
to you that's a lot like when I looked you up
in UCLA student directory and you don't exist
if you're not a Cincinnati State student you shouldn't
be in this chat first of all once you get inducted as
a PTK dummy you're a member for
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life I signed up my grace okay so
basically what are you talking about shut up so like
but you went through all this information to look me
up right so here's what I here's how I respond I
said you are giving stalker vibes this is
scary this is scary to me this is one of
the reasons why I keep myself private in my information the joke
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really is on you and he said no worries I
will leave the chat stalker please grew up and then this
girl said hello everyone i hope everyone is having a fantastic
night this chat is for cincinnati state ptk please
keep the conversation such i said wow bully bullying
me again and then one of my friends
he said graduation i said and says congratulations how many other ptk member
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graduates and some people said i saw several today that's amazing woohoo way
to go congratulations to everyone you made it and says congratulations Congratulations
to you on your new adventure as well. Talking to me.
I said, thank you. I do appreciate it. And the same to you, love bug.
And he says, where are we all heading?
And like, we start having conversations. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is my guy.
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Like when I was at PCH after I was so upset because I got rigged out of being
the president and I acted as the president. I talked to my people.
I knew what was going on with my people. So I did footwork and this man came
in and like scared the advisors.
And I have to say what I said because I said what I said. He scared the advisors
By mentioning the bylaws And.
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That's how he Became president Of our chapter,
But really Everybody still thought I was president And I'm like Okay well if
It's anybody who I would give president To of this chapter It would definitely
be This young man Like he got ripped out Of being a Young man I'm talking about Like oh I miss him And,
And then I was like, oh my gosh. And I said to him, I was like, I miss you.
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I was like, what school is you going to? And we just had a great conversation and it's crazy.
But the whole point of this is I could have really went in and proven my point.
Like this is what school I go to, but I'm going to choose not to.
But you don't know if I got my information in private or not.
And so assuming that you think that my information is public,
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I really would think that you have a issue within yourself self because one
thing's for sure and two things for certain sir okay let me shot fire okay.
Is this I have a very popping podcast why would I ever be why would I ever be
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and and where you can get my information publicly right I at some point I have to be private in my
life because i'm not just the average person anymore so
i'm not just walking around just average anymore so you
can't just go to google and ask where does drake live
and you just pop up and find where drake lives maybe chris brown
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because chris brown don't care chris brown a fuck run up
on him you're gonna get popped gucci man run up on
him you're gonna get popped but it's the whole point like
you can't i don't want you to know where i'm at you're not supposed to
don't know where I'm at you're not my man what is
wrong with you so the problem is is
that not one man in this group chat spoke
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up and said bro you are wrong okay that's the problem it took women to actually
say hey you're really I feel like you're bullying this girl I feel like I don't
know what's going on but and I feel like that maybe they might have had a conversation
and somebody was like well maybe I I see what she's saying like I'm like what
is going on like these These girls literally just ask questions.
What can they and cannot do with being an honor society when they're going to graduate?
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Are they allowed to do their representation for pro-Pakistan?
And then you're like, oh, no, this is a wrong conversation. What did they say
that was wrong besides asking questions about graduation?
This is what this forum is for, is asking general questions.
And this was a general question. But instead, you like to control things and
you're not even the presence in it.
So sit down somewhere and chillax. so it's
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like it's really kind of crazy because it's like okay like
you're right and there's different things that
people do there's different things that people say and it's like I'm tired
of hearing this narrative like all jokes aside like I'm tired of hearing this
like I'm not telling my side of the story you believe whatever you want to believe
but to me you are a stalker why are you stalking me I'm not your woman are you
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on top of things with your wife this way like you can do
that with them people there you're just not about to do me like that I'm not your child,
you're not my dad like you're literally nobody to me besides somebody who like fake their way to the top,
But what did God show me? Like, hey, even though you wasn't president over there,
you was vice president, people still applaud you as president and that's all that matters.
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But guess what? I'm gonna take you somewhere else and just blow you up, pow, and here I go. Okay.
Here you go being a hater, not knowing that this is what my plans is and what
I'm destined for, but you're not really destined for that.
So you need to mind your own business. And I feel like me not really snapping
off like how I usually snap up with me, just being like, hey, listen,
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Dude, I don't really care what you're talking about It is what it is like you're
really harassing me like and bullying me at this point Like I don't say nothing
wrong to you Besides i'm standing up for these people because I don't know who said what?
I actually literally just respond because i'm like what is going on?
I didn't even pay attention. It was this man that said this It's crazy.
But like people they do certain things to the point where it's like,
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oh my gosh Like I want this person to feel like and then it's like some people
will antagonize you They will say certain things to try to get a reaction out
of you Because there's certain things as he said to me that I normally will
react to Maybe a year ago,
I would have reacted to that and I would have reacted totally different But
now i'm in a space where growth i'm beautiful. I'm out of survival mode.
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What are you talking about?
Baby, i'm chilling. I'm loving life right now. How about you?
I love to see people have healthy conversations. We are adults.
We should be able to conversate and say, hey, I don't like this or I do.
Okay, well, I'm glad that you stand up for this. I'm glad that you stand up for that.
Or I'm glad that you're against it. Like we should be able to have those conversations.
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We are in college, hello.
But we are adults and you're with college people that's younger than you and
you're not teaching them how to communicate.
And this is the problem that we have. well not me
but pertaining to like some of the
older generations older than me they don't
know how to communicate healthy enough for the younger
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people because we're making you communicate better and that's fine but just
leave us alone okay like where's my knight in shining armor like where you was
that you're a little bit out in there like ah don't talk to her like that pipe
down like pipe Pipe down, Shorty.
Like, I don't even know what's wrong with you, dude. Like, this girl literally said nothing to you.
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Only thing I said was something positive. I even told the people that just graduated,
congratulations on graduation.
This man chose not to say congratulations to nobody that graduated.
But instead, you attacked me. Instead of saying congratulations,
and then I put in my post, why do you say congratulations? That's horrible.
So I think, like, sometimes, guys, like, people just don't understand the things
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that Really goes on and how to deal with certain situations because they might
have internal issues going on and that's fine But you won't take that out on me.
I will reflect that energy right back at you. Goodbye sitting in that But what did god show me today?
What did the universe show me? What did my angels and ancestors say?
I got you Like I didn't even have to say nothing because that's how I felt and
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then god just came over It's like you're bullying this girl.
Like, and then just hitting back with the same thing they said to him.
Like, and I felt so loved at that point. I told that girl, thank you.
Like, and I really meant that from the bottom of my heart. Because a lot of
times people knew that he was talking to me wrong.
And they would say to me, like, I know that he's talking to you wrong.
And I don't like it. But they would never speak out loud about it.
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Because they were scared.
Like, man, F dude and move on. Fuck dude. And move on.
I know this is a little vibrational. But it kind of came out strong.
But it is what it is. But telling my side of the story.
It's no longer my job. I don't care believe whatever you're gonna believe I'm
not telling the side of the story.
I said what I said once If you want me to go to more details,
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i'm not i'm just not i'm just i'm out Like believe whatever you want to believe
I do not care anymore And I love people.
I love the things that I do. I love every single body I have no problem with anybody at all.
I'm just over telling my side of the story to
for people them you're gonna believe what you're gonna believe anyways but believe
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it if people tell you something about them
believe it I'm just I'm just
not over it I'm over telling my side of the story because I don't have to I'm
grown and it is what it is like you know what you did I know what I did I know
what I said and I'm just like over it like guys so this episode is really about
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not Not telling your side of the story, because sometimes your side of the story,
sometimes you not telling your side of the story gives time for people to see
the people that gave them the message.
Or sometimes it gives people a chance to think about what really happened,
what transpired and what did they see if it was wrong?
Because sometimes when I be talking to people and they don't tell their side
of the story, I actually can sit back and see what's going on. I'm like, okay.
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And sometimes people are like, okay, well, what are you doing over here?
What are you doing over there?
That's fine. If you're in a relationship, a committed relationship,
like you're married, fiance, you're dating someone,
And they ask you a question like, what would you do over here with this person?
If you choose not to tell your side of the story, then that means that you're not communicating.
That's not what I'm saying here. I'm saying if a person comes up to you and
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says, listen, I know you was cheating on me with Ralph.
And you know that you wasn't cheating on this person with Ralph?
Or you wasn't cheating on this person with Sarah?
And you told this person, no, I was not cheating on you with Sarah.
I was actually over here at this time.
But if they got proof that you was over there, you got to admit it. but at
some point if you know this person accuses you
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constantly of cheating and doing certain things stop
telling your side of the story stop telling
your side of the story it does not matter
there's nothing that you can say that can change this person's mind
at all oh my
gosh it was so crazy because like a person said that
I didn't help them I put them down I did
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nothing but do bad things but then they told
this story but then people were looking like but then
why is she helping you if she you just said this person's not helping you you
said she put you down why is this person encouraging you why is she helping
you like what and you felt like this person was a mean person you're saying
that this person's a mean person but all we see is good things coming from her
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I'm concerned like what's going on because she has did nothing but encourage me I'm telling
y'all guys this is how it be sometimes that's
like you could you could be working for somebody and the
person that you're working was like oh you're mean you're this that you're that but
then you got like five other people that's around like I didn't see that behavior
like I don't know if it happened but I didn't see that behavior and they're
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like okay then one person just takes that side like oh what they said had to
be true but then what happens is is that this This person who's trying to tarnish your character, right?
Everything that's in the dark, got to come to light. Boom. Here it goes.
God doing a sweep. The universe doing a sweep.
Your angels and ancestors doing a sweep. Their angels and ancestors just doing a sweep on them.
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That's what happened. A lot of people don't know. Sometimes y'all angels and
ancestors be exposing y'all.
Because you're doing so wrong to people that your angels and ancestors say, I can't.
There's nothing that we can do to support you because you're doing horrible stuff.
Like this person did nothing but be loved to you and this is that and but look at you boom.
I'm telling you, it's like this to the point where everything and everybody
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around me, it was like, I could tell that people, more people started talking
to me. They started treating me a little bit different.
And I feel like that's because they were told wrong information about me.
Like, oh, she's just so aggressive or she just, she complains a whole lot.
And this isn't that, but when people see the things that I'm talking about and
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the issues that I'm bringing up, they're like, oh, she actually got a point now.
Like okay we can't be maybe we need
to go and do some research and maybe help her
and maybe educate herself a little bit better because maybe this
is wrong and like it was so
crazy but doing this whole mercury retrograde it was like people were saying
things about me but people were actually seeing and hearing what I was saying
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they were like okay but she's right she she 100% right and so I love that and
it's one one one one o'clock guys um so whoever's in alignment myself but But look at,
look at the angel number 1111, four ones, like 1111.
But I'm just happy and I'm blessed. Like I was able to learn,
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like sometimes telling my side of the story, because it was like at times I
couldn't even tell my side of the story.
When somebody came up and said something to me, I was like, dang,
I wanted to say like, oh, this is not what happened. This is really what happened.
It's like, I didn't even have enough time to get this side of the story out.
Like somebody literally told somebody else that I said something bad about the
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paper they submitted And I could tell that because they they're how they started
acting towards me was totally different I'm, like why why would they start acting different?
Like they act normal to everybody else. But to me, they're acting different.
And it's like, it's nonchalant.
But then I see that at some point she realized like what was being told to her was incorrect.
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She's like, I don't know. She said it like, baby, I'm going to say this about myself.
There's things that I should have spoke up on, but I chose not to speak up on
that situation. And then it is what it is.
And then like when people actually heard what I was saying and they were like,
wow, like I, it was like a really amazing time.
Like so what guys what I've learned is I'm no
longer telling my side of the story believe whatever
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you want to believe you said like oh I some
such told me that you talked about
me and you said this I slept with white people and if I tell you I didn't say
it and you still be like well this person believe them that's my next line believe
them what are we gonna do from this point moving forward you want to keep talking
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or you don't you don't want to be friends or you You won't,
you need to, I believe whatever you want to believe.
I am no longer telling my side of the story. It doesn't matter.
It does not matter. And it's okay.
And I'm about love. I'm about light. I'm all about like producing this.
So guys, if you're in a situation where people just constantly doubting you,
and you constantly like verbally telling your side of the story,
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trying to explain, and it's not getting anywhere, stop.
There's nothing you can do to change this person's mind. They have their mind made up.
It's already where it was going to be It was already there in the first place
Because if a person believes you They believe you If they don't,
they don't Like their mind was already there In the first place Believe them.
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Then move on, drop them, let it go, I've been telling people that all the time,
like, hey, like, I went through an exam during Mercury Retrograde,
where I'm examining myself late,
even down to, like, certain stuff
that happened with me in previous relationships, I'm like, oh my gosh,
like, this person, I was trying to prove myself to this person,
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but this person literally judged me, like, it was so weird how they judged me,
I'm like, how did you come up with this conclusion. You know what?
I don't even care. Believe it.
If you thought I was like this, believe it.
I don't care no more. Believe it. And I'm moving on.
I'm moving on.
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I'll be moving on. Y'all know this song by my own. Moving on.
Cause I'll be moving on.
I'm telling y'all, You got to be moving on. Let these people go.
Let these people breathe.
Stop telling your side of the story. If you know, like I'm telling you,
some people like, hey, you said this, you said that.
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Like, I'm just going to look at them like, do you think I said that? Yes or no?
Because if you thought I said that, then I said it. And I don't even care if
I didn't say it, which typically I might not say it.
But it's the fact that your mind is already made up. I can't even undo that. Okay, like I can't.
The only person that can change your mind is you.
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I literally told somebody, I said, your version of me is not the me that I presented to you at all.
And so the only person that can heal that version of me that you have of me is you.
And so I'm going to talk about this. I'm going to go live and talk about that.
But I got to make sure y'all call me so we can talk live about this situation
because it's very highly important about this.
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But guys, I'm no longer zero mindset of story. It is what it is.
Believe what you want to believe.
I just don't care anymore. more. I don't care. Like I'm not,
I don't care to try to change your mind.
I'm not here to change you. The only person that could change you is you.
You are responsible for how you act, how you talk, what you do.
I'm not accountable for your sins. You're not accountable for my mind.
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I'm not accountable for anything that you do.
I am only accountable for how I act and how I react to certain things.
And I, I really love me and I do my best to be the brightest person that I am
And to be the most loving person that I am and people who really got me in a
life They really appreciate me like every single day.
Like I really hear like I love you You always show up for me.
(40:32):
You always do really positive things for me Like I don't know how to explain
it But you just there for me when a lot of people don't be and i'm happy for
that Like so anytime I tell them something like I don't have to tell them twice or nothing. Oh, what?
No, like let me they react and they move Like you stand on that if you said
you was gonna do something you didn't maybe stand on that because you better
stay over there Just don't come over here Because I'm not going to play with
(40:54):
you Go play with your mama Just not me Okay.
And I'm so sorry Okay Let me Let me And I'm so sorry Like you know If your mama's
deceased I don't mean to disrespect anybody Or nothing But go play with somebody
else Just don't play with me Play with anybody else But just not me Okay Because
I'm standing on business.
Standing on business All 2024 And for the rest of my life But I'm no longer
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Telling my side of the story It is what it is Because telling my side of the
story Also guys This is stress,
that's undeniable stress that's a low vibration telling your side of the story
telling your side of the story it's a low vibration thing.
If y'all really think about it and we talk about low vibrations,
that's a low vibration thing. I'm not, I'm not going there with anybody else anymore.
And Mercury retrograde, this Mercury retrograde, I needed it.
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It helped me to tap into my passions, tap into my love.
But most importantly, it really helped me tap into some things that I was missing out on.
I was really missing out on a lot of things. Like, and like,
I really had a time to sit back and examine a lot of things.
Like, man, like, I am so proud of me and how far I came because,
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like, maybe a year ago, maybe even six months ago, I would have been going for a throttle.
Word for word, bar for bar. I just don't got it no more.
Believe them. If you believe someone, I said something, believe them.
I'm no longer taking it back. Believe them. I don't care.
Because you already got your mind made up. If you really want to know what I
said, you would call me. You ask.
There's certain questions that you ask. But if you believe me then and i'm your
(42:25):
friend or if i'm not your friend or i'm somebody that you really care about
You're gonna be like well,
I can't see this person doing that This person has done nothing but show you
love So I can't see this person doing what you're saying that you're doing.
Maybe there's something wrong with you So that's the one thing that I really
love about me that i'm actually like taking my time out to really like say Hey,
(42:45):
this is what it is I'm, really proud of me and i'm able to like let go,
and not tell my side of the story and say, fuck you.
And I'm like, and I know like when I say that's not a low vibration because
I'm really like, when I say fuck you, I'm really detaching myself from you,
your core, your energy, all of that. Like, and you got to understand something.
I'm doing it in my Aries energy. Fuck you.
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Whatever energy that you're in and that's your sun sign or whatever sign is
your Mars, then you need to use that.
Okay? F you. It is what it is. I don't care no more. I just,
I want to be at peace, love, and happiness.
And if I have to be at peace, love, and happiness and say, fuck you,
and I'm good, and I move on, hey, I'm great.
I prayed away. I meditated away. Whatever I need to do to talk to the angels
(43:29):
and ancestors. I'm like, baby, okay. I know I said I should have been there.
Baby, but it'll be all good. but I feel better at the end of the day
that I don't have this attachment on me anymore and I'm okay
because I felt like hey I gave a lot of people opportunities a lot
of people just oh I didn't know that okay you know
what I don't even care and I remember like maybe like four years ago I was talking
to this one dude me and him was kicking in for like a very long time there's
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one of my used to be one of my favorite buddies and he was like I never knew
you wanted a relationship I said yes you did because I always talked about it
so don't act like you did not know that oh so So you just say, fuck you.
I'm cool. I'm over it. Like, see, y'all be forgetting that I'm an Aries because
all this earth energy be coming through and you be feeling the vibe all the time.
But you must forget, baby, I'll burn you up on this earth. You on the earth and I'm fire.
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That's a bad combination. That means I will burn you while you're standing there,
dummy. You don't even got to be close to me. I will hit you wherever you at.
So it's like I'm okay with not telling myself that story. I'm okay with that.
I just don't care. It is what it is. I'm not explaining myself to nobody.
If I don't want to do it, I don't want to do it. If I did, I did.
If I did it and you know you asked me, I might tell you. And then again,
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I might not. I might be like, does it really matter?
At the end of the day, no matter what I say, does it really matter?
And that's the thing, guys. No matter what you're saying, when somebody asks
you for clarification or anything, does it really matter?
Because if they already have their mind made up, there's nothing you can do.
So stop wasting your time.
Alright guys Well you know I got a lot to talk about with y'all This rest of
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this week Make sure y'all tune in with my lives I'm gonna at least try to go
live twice I might go live on Thursday and Friday,
So y'all can tap in and zoom in with me. But guys, like, please,
please, please, people, like, make sure that you stop telling your side of the
story to people who, who's irrelevant.
Like, if you're in a relationship and you need to communicate, communicate.
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But if these are people that just like, hey, like, you know that they already
have their mind made up. You could tell when people already have their mind
made up when you talk to them. Let them be.
And it's okay. Let them move on. like completely move
on and be happy with her life and be loved and be
vibrant because baby please believe God's waiting on
you your angels waiting on you your universe waiting on you Allah whoever you
(45:49):
believe in they waiting on you they waiting on you to like just let go I'm telling
people like I the moment I let go and this let me bring this back one more time
the moment that I let go for real for real that's when karma and God stepped
right on in I didn't have to say nothing,
i had like at least three witnesses that was like that happened
what this girl's talking about that happened oh
(46:11):
what she's talking about that happened look at
that i didn't even have to say nothing i had i didn't even have to go in and
prove my point because it was already proven guys like i didn't have only thing
i had to say was like make a complaint i had to just say and it was just like
oh here we go it's proven it's there it's there this this and that i was like
oh okay it's like God's like, I'm taking care of it.
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Taking care of it. Taking care of it. My angel's like, I'm taking care of it. It's over with.
My angel's like, yeah, play with it. Fuck around and find out. Okay.
But y'all got to start trusting the universe. Y'all got to start trusting God.
Y'all got to start trusting whoever you believe in and really standing at power
because that right there is power itself.
It's a whole protection field, a whole different field, like flowing with the
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universe. People don't understand, like, baby, I'll flow.
I'm living my best life. I'm happy. I'm not, I'm not going to be anything else but happy.
If anything else makes me not happy, then baby, I have to go.
You have to go. You have to get up out of my life.
If you're making me unhappy, please believe you have to get up out of my life
because I really love me and I appreciate me.
I vibe with me. I really love me to the whole extreme point to where it's like,
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I can't do anything else but smile because I really love me and I vibe with me all the time.
So guys, I thank you for always tuning in and tapping in with the Pretty Red A&T show.
Like, I just want to let y'all Y'all know, like, stop telling y'all side of
the story. It doesn't matter. And this is what this episode is called.
Stop telling your side of the story. Because it doesn't really matter.
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It doesn't even matter at all. You heard what Lauryn Hill said.
It doesn't matter. Because if people love you, they're going to love you anyways.
If they're going to hate you, they're going to hate you anyways.
Just, you just, you're just giving extra words that don't even matter.
So, all right, guys, like, thanks for tuning in, tapping in.
I'm going to be on y'all top this week. I really love y'all.
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Thanks y'all for vibing with me. A lot of people ask me, when you're posting up, how it goes?
Like, you ain't did one in a while. I'm like, gosh, it's final week. Y'all know how it is.
It's crunch time for me, but I do have time to vibe in and touch in with y'all
and actually really vibe with y'all and love on y'all.
And I really appreciate everybody who took their time out to really vibe with
me and be patient with me.
Make sure y'all let me know how y'all feel about this episode.
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Make sure you take your time out to follow me on my actual webpage at theprettyredent.pobbing.com,
or subscribe to me on YouTube at the Pretty Red ENT Show or follow me on any
social media platform at the Pretty Red ENT Show.
Like, you know, it's always your girl Nikita. I'm always here checking in with
y'all, but guys, stop telling y'all side of the story, okay?
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But thank you for always tuning in tapping in it's your girl pretty real ent aka goddess nakita okay.
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