I Heard The Other Day

So much of our time is spent in yearning.   A slow despair of knowing life is slipping by, and of somehow not being able to wrap our arms around its fullness. Of, time and again, sinking our fingers into something we see as compressible but finding mere nothingness.   Of having touched love, but having lost it before experiencing its infinite lushness or its prickly pleasures. Because through love, we know how we are given this limited-edition life but often just lose the opportunity of making something worthwhile of it.   It's worse when we see the copiousness we have lost being embraced instinctively by those who we've jettisoned in our myriad journies. Even as we live our sad life in a minuscule corner of the universe, with our bag of barrenness.   What is this depth of relationship, which is often close in definition to depth of life?   It could take on so many forms. But each has to do with immersion. What probably lasts in us at the cellular level is being fully with the person we love, when we are with them. In conversations, in silences, in disagreements, whilst grieving, when in joy. As close as possible physically, as much in soul when not. The importance is the intermeshing. Of being so close that we are able to experience each other's breath.   Because relationships show us the way to life. The way to immersion. Because in that lies the way to our sense of immortality. Which might not be what we want - but which  gives us the satisfaction that we've lived life to its very lees.   And in love, as in life, this often means turning back to what we've left, or letting go of what merely shines, or of just sinking deeper into the present because that is all that we have.   This could lead to infinite joy, or depthless grief. But, ultimately, it would be giving our infinite to the only thing we possess - the moment in which we breathe.   If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on yearning in love -  

• Here We Are in The Years
• Return To You
• Tenderly

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