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think and be grateful for their service, sacrifice, love for
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We've got a couple of v's in the studio with us.

Speaker 4 (07:46):
Will write back with more of Road to Hope Radio.

Speaker 3 (08:11):
And we're welcome back Rode Hope Rio. Glad to have
you along.

Speaker 5 (08:15):
All right.

Speaker 3 (08:16):
We got a couple of guys in the studio with
us that are super excited about getting a chanced to
talk and tell some of their stories. It's always fun
to try to draw it out of them. Meach Week, Lindburg,
welcome back. Not your first rodeo.

Speaker 2 (08:29):
Here, No, no, sir, thank you for having me.

Speaker 3 (08:32):
Remind the world branch and where you're from and where
you're deployed.

Speaker 2 (08:37):
Linburg Freeman, the third United States Army fifteen Juliet Mos
does not exist anymore, but that is air cavalry for
the Army.

Speaker 3 (08:48):
And where are you from?

Speaker 2 (08:49):
Originally originally born and raised in New York, Long.

Speaker 3 (08:52):
Island, Okay. And where'd you deploy?

Speaker 2 (08:56):
I deployed to Iraq for Operation nu Dawn. Okay, gotcha,
all right, New York. We we love, we love you.

Speaker 3 (09:07):
We have to limit how many Yankees we allow and
at any particular time.

Speaker 2 (09:10):
Well, I've adopted wearing the Astroe.

Speaker 3 (09:14):
There you go for you. So the program does work,
works if you work it. So there's a couple of
guys around there. I keep threatening me that CAP's gotta go. Man,
you gotta know where you're at now. Glad to have
you here, and what do you do for the foundation now?
Because you're you came through the program? When you did
you come through?

Speaker 2 (09:34):
I've been through the program twice. My first time was
at the end of twenty nineteen into twenty twenty, twenty twenty,
second time was twenty twenty two, graduated twenty twenty three,
and currently right now I am a yellow phase mentor
for the program.

Speaker 3 (09:53):
Okay, very cool. So we may come back to that
a little bit, because folks driving around sixteen right now, I
have no idea what yellow phase means, but we may
come back and talk a a little bit about the
phases of the program. Also in the studio with us,
we've got Jeremy who's currently in the program at Camp Hope.
You want to tell everybody in the world who you
are and all your good stuff.

Speaker 6 (10:14):
My name is Jeremy Holt. I'm from Mace, Arizona. Served
in the United States Marine Corps First Battalion, six Marines.
I served in Ramadi, Iraq in two thousand and six
and then down in the Hellman Province in Afghanistan city

(10:38):
of Garmentshire in two thousand and eight.

Speaker 3 (10:43):
Okay, so let's back up in just a second. When
did you join the Corps?

Speaker 6 (10:47):
I joined the Corps two thousand and five. It was
August two thousand and five.

Speaker 3 (10:55):
Right out of high school or no, I.

Speaker 5 (11:00):
Kind of went in a little later.

Speaker 6 (11:01):
I was about twenty one when I joined, and uh, yeah,
I just felt the calling to to answer you know
what happened, uh after nine to eleven. I just felt
the conviction to serve my country.

Speaker 3 (11:20):
Why did you choose the Marine Corps?

Speaker 5 (11:24):
Because, uh, it was.

Speaker 6 (11:27):
Just my my grandfather was a marine in Korea, and
you know some of the stories he told me, and
just like seeing the uniforms and and uh just you know,
the Marine Corps to me was the best in the
best branch.

Speaker 5 (11:44):
So I wanted to walk in those same footsteps.

Speaker 2 (11:48):
You agree, history can repeat itself, you know with his
lineage coming from the Marines's My ground father was army
in World War Two, so it was kind of inevitable that.

Speaker 3 (12:05):
So is that a big reason why you chose the Army?

Speaker 5 (12:07):
Absolutely?

Speaker 3 (12:08):
Family, Yes, sir, got you? Okay, all right, It's always
interesting you know what I mean. Sometimes it's something like
that that makes a lot of sense, and then sometimes
it's just how in the world did that just come
out of his mouth? That that's why he chose that
particular branch. Okay, so family history, marine Corps, goodness, going

(12:28):
back to Korea.

Speaker 5 (12:29):
That's Uh.

Speaker 3 (12:32):
Those stories are sometimes really difficult to hear if you
can ever get them.

Speaker 6 (12:37):
Yeah, he was here. Yeah, my he was injured over there.
He got hit with a grenade. Luckily he didn't lose
any limbs, but he had trap metal in him.

Speaker 5 (12:48):
He's a prople heart recipient. Uh, he just was. Uh. Yeah,
he he's a role model to me.

Speaker 3 (12:57):
Uh.

Speaker 6 (12:57):
I kind of followed in his footsteps after I got
all the War two. He was an engineer, and uh
I kind of chose that path after I got on
the Marine Corps as well, kind of followed in his
footsteps there as well.

Speaker 3 (13:09):
So what did you do in between high school and
the Corps?

Speaker 5 (13:12):
Uh? Trouble, Yeah, I was, I was. I was getting
in a little trouble.

Speaker 6 (13:18):
I was working construction mainly, Uh, in and out of jobs.
I was just still young. I had no Yeah, no,
I knew I wanted to join the service. I got
in a little bit of trouble, so it delayed it,
uh for about a year and a half. Uh And
you know, once that, once I put that behind me,

(13:40):
I was full steam ahead and uh yeah I went
in right away.

Speaker 3 (13:45):
Okay. And what were what were you doing? Typical day
out there's it was a typical day, but kind of
the main thing you were doing while you were deployed.

Speaker 6 (13:58):
So, uh, I was communicatations. I was uh. Uh I
was in the first Town six Marines Infantry.

Speaker 5 (14:06):
Uh. You know.

Speaker 6 (14:07):
Two thousand and six, I was attached to Bravo Company,
uh as a radio operator. Uh again in uh two
thousand and eight, Uh, I got attached to a weapons company,
and I mainly was a dismount hervey. I uh helped
sweet for IEDs uh you know uh h helped with

(14:35):
communication between the platoon and uh yeah just uh.

Speaker 5 (14:47):
Just uh yeah. This is the this very difficult with deployments.

Speaker 3 (14:52):
Yeah, certainly, neither of those countries are on my bucket
list in any way, shape or form. Not a place
I want to go, not people I want to have
to interact with. What were you doing on your deployment, Lindburgh,

(15:12):
Your basic job at typical day as if they were
typical day.

Speaker 2 (15:16):
I was a fifteen Juliet which was an avionic electrician
and weapons tech on the Kyawa Scout helicopter. So a
typical day was me on the flight line oftentimes, you know,
we serviced electronics, you know, cockpit instruments, things of that nature,

(15:38):
like things I can't really go into. But then you know,
we had the weapons component of the job, which I
really love. I just didn't you know, you know, uh,
I had to understand, like you know, working with things
that can make me disappear, you know. But yeah, it

(15:59):
was a It's different than being with the infantry unit
tremendously because I was typically stationary one spot in the
on the flight line, unless you know, we had a
split fob operation which required driving or we had to

(16:21):
fly out of the camp camp site itself. So with
us being stationary, anybody that's stationary over there, you are
prone to attack, you know. So we definitely were attacked.
I came very close to, you know, not making it
back home. Grace of God saved me.

Speaker 5 (16:43):
You know.

Speaker 2 (16:45):
My grandmother died before the deployment, and I was not
allowed to come home to New York for her funeral,
and so I wrote a letter for my older sister
to read at her her wake, and you know, I
just believed that she was there with me on that day.

(17:06):
You know, tell a lot of people that you know,
my life hasn't been mine since that day. You know,
like all this is borrowed time, is God's time. So
very thankful, thankful that you know, I was able to
get through that. I was one and done after that deployment.
I came back and I was diagnosed with the sarcoidosis

(17:31):
after I PCs from the unit that I deployed with.
And you know, I was out of the military within
two years. What year was that I was diagnosed in
twenty thirteen? I was out by twenty fifteen.

Speaker 3 (17:48):
Okay, those are you listening on KPRC. We're going to
take a quick news break those listening through the podcast
the Little Music, and be right back with more Road
to Hope Radio, and we welcome you back Road to

(18:14):
Hope Radio. Got Lindbergh, United States Army Jeremy United States
Marine Corps veterans. Glad to have both of you all.
I appreciate you sharing some of your story. I know
it's not the most favorite parts of what you do
in a day. But a quick reminder as we do
go through these stories not only of time and combat,

(18:37):
but the struggles coming home with the mental health diagnosis
and that type of thing, we know these can be triggering.
So we want to ask everyone if you would please
get out your phone put this phone number in it.
Whether you think it's something you'll ever need or not,
you never know whom you might come across someone who
needs the number. And the great thing is when someone

(19:01):
calls this number, a combat veteran will answer the phone.
So for anyone struggling with combat related trauma, that will
mean the world to them to know that when they
call a combat that's going to answer the phone that
numbers eight seven seven seven one seven PTSD or seventy

(19:22):
eight seventy three. There's a lot of seven. I'm gonna
give it to you one more time eight seven seven
seven one seven seventy eight seventy three. And the website
for the foundation PTSD Foundation of America and our interim
housing facility called Camp Hope. That website is PTSD USA

(19:45):
dot org. PTSD usa dot org. You can also follow
along through our social media PTSD USA both on Facebook
and uh formerly known as the Twitter currently known as
the x PTSD USA on both of those platforms and
on Instagram. Oh also on YouTube, I should have that

(20:06):
PTSD USA on YouTube, and then the PTSD Foundation of
America on Instagram. So two deployments you mentioned. I don't
remember these act words, but there were some difficult times. Obviously,

(20:29):
Limberg went into a little bit of his and I'm
not asking you go into yours, but clearly, if you're
at Camp Hope for veterans who are dealing with combat
related PTSD, now we deal with everything else in the
world while they're with us. But that's the shared experience
that everybody there has for you after two deployments. So

(20:55):
maybe it was, you know, during a deployment. I don't know,
but when did you first notice something's something's not the
way it should be.

Speaker 6 (21:03):
It was after my first deployment to Ramadi. Uh I
lost some brothers there. It was a really difficult deployment,
very dangerous. Uh I d threats, indirect fire UH firefights
on the on a daily basis, you know, then losing

(21:27):
and losing people close to me. When I got back,
you know, at the time, I didn't have time to grieve,
and uh, I started noticing it when I got back
from my first deployment a little more detached. My my
drinking started to pick up. And yeah, I was kind

(21:50):
of just not following orders the way I used to.
Just was kind of had some anxieties depression.

Speaker 3 (22:04):
Did you talk to anybody about it while you were
still in.

Speaker 6 (22:07):
I didn't talk to anybody until after my second deployment.
I had some other difficult things that happened while I
lost my My grandfather passed away right before I went
to Afghanistan. And then my father passed away about a
week after I got back from Afghanistan. So, you know,

(22:31):
coming back home, I was grieving with you know, my
deployment to Afghanistan and getting out of the core.

Speaker 5 (22:40):
Didn't know.

Speaker 6 (22:42):
Too many people anymore, had been gone for a long time,
and uh, yeah, I uh, you know, and then my
dad passed away. And once he passed away, you know,
I was there for about a week and then I
went back to Campbell's Une. Uh and uh the last

(23:04):
about three or four months before getting out, it was
just dealing with the loss of every everybody, and and
uh I started drinking. Uh you know, UH kind of
got put out of the unit.

Speaker 5 (23:19):
Uh.

Speaker 6 (23:20):
So I was in another unit with a bunch of
people I had uh not served with. Uh wasn't it
wasn't close to anybody.

Speaker 5 (23:28):
Uh. I was drinking. Uh.

Speaker 3 (23:31):
You know, were either of you guys married when you
were deployed?

Speaker 5 (23:35):
No?

Speaker 3 (23:36):
No, I was? Were you?

Speaker 5 (23:38):
Yes?

Speaker 3 (23:41):
I think that made it more difficult for you or
find strength in that. How do you look at that now?

Speaker 2 (23:49):
Oh, my wife and I at the time we are
now divorced. But during that time period we actually communicated
a lot better, and the communication between us was a
lot stronger. Uh, being that my grandmother had just died
before the deployment. I had a goal, you know, because

(24:14):
before that I was not a model soldier at all.
I was actually on my way to getting chaptered out
of the army before the deployment, But it came down
to a numbers game and I ended up deploying. But
you know, I decided to turn my loss into success,

(24:36):
and communication with with my ex wife during that time
definitely helped. So Yeah, Like, you know, being deployed and
setting goals for the both of us, achieving them, being
able to talk, you know, whether it was a good
day or a bad day. It definitely helped during that time.

Speaker 3 (24:59):
Okay, Uh, Jeremy, so you were struggling while you were
still in when did you finally decide to reach out
to get some some real help.

Speaker 6 (25:16):
So when I first got out, I moved back to Arizona.
I lived there for about a year, and I was
really having a hard time. You know, I ended rolled
into school right away and I was flunking out of classes.

Speaker 5 (25:33):
I was partying too much.

Speaker 6 (25:35):
And my mom decided to taught me into coming back
to Texas, and so I moved in with my mother,
and I was still having a hard time, and uh,
you know, I ended up abusing prescription drugs from the VA,

(25:55):
and uh, you know, I ended up going to the
mental hospital.

Speaker 5 (25:59):
For a.

Speaker 6 (26:01):
Couple of weeks there, and then I enrolled into a
PTSD program about two thousand and twelve in Waco, Texas.

Speaker 5 (26:10):
It was about a four month.

Speaker 3 (26:11):
Program and we had guys come to us from there
in the early days.

Speaker 5 (26:17):
And you know, I did that program.

Speaker 6 (26:19):
But you know, honestly, after I got out of that program,
I went back into isolation drinking still. You know, just
kind of just wasn't present in the moment and at
the time this is when I first met my wife
and we were raising two kids, young young boys, and

(26:42):
and uh, you know, my drinking was a lot heavier.

Speaker 5 (26:48):
I was depressed all the time.

Speaker 6 (26:50):
I just had a lot of anxiety and uh and uh,
you know, I just kind of just stuffed everything that
happened to me in my past and just just didn't
really deal with the thoughts and the feelings that were
you make me kind of self medicated with alcohol, and so.

Speaker 5 (27:14):
You know, it is fifteen years of you know, avoidance.

Speaker 3 (27:20):
That's always the part that just kind of hurts my heart, Linburger.
You know, like your story, like, thank God for where
you're at today and what you're able to do. And
that's inspiring. It brings a lot of joy to a
lot of people. To see where you are, to see
how you are, what you're doing with your life. It

(27:42):
truly is just an inspiring thing to get to see.
But to think about all those years in between where
there was such a struggle and such you know, self
harm and to you know, in whatever form or fashion,
but stroying a life, not building a life, and just
seeing that much time take place in between, it just

(28:04):
always kind of hurts my heart to hear that a
little bit, but we're going to uh in just a
moment where we could take a break, but we'll come back.
I want to talk a little bit about the program
at camp. You mentioned your yellow face will give a
real high level, real fast version of the different phases
of the program, but what you are able to do

(28:27):
and how you're able to interact with the guys and
help make some serious life choices as they start their
journey of looking forward for the next phase of their life.
All right, we're going to take a quick break, come
back with more in just a moment, road to Hope Radio,

(29:07):
and we walk me back road to Hope Radio. Glad
to have you along. So how long have you been
at camp, Jeremy.

Speaker 6 (29:17):
I've been at camp for crap. I just added that up.
Oh that's all right, I think like seventy five days.

Speaker 3 (29:24):
Okay, so you are still in rid I am yeah, okay.
So black phase just kind of the real fast. The
first thirty days of any veteran coming to the programs
a black phase, and it's basically just we're shutting them
out from the world during those thirty days. No communications,
no cell phones, no Internet connectivity, none of that. That's

(29:48):
just and a big part of that is just to
stabilize and to familiarize with here's who you're with, here's
kind of how a day goes, and you know, all
the stuff that was anxiety, uh pushing for you that
led you to come to Camp Hope, let's just we'll

(30:08):
deal with that in time. Right now, we're just let's
let's let's calm down, Let's just take a breath and
know you're in a safe place.

Speaker 5 (30:16):
Black phase.

Speaker 3 (30:18):
Red phase is really kind of the meat of the program.
It's the bulk of the time in the program, generally speaking,
and that's where they they're really digging in and learning
and understanding a what PTSD has actually done to your
brain and then you do start the whole how do

(30:39):
you process all this? And that's why, yes, we will
always say we're a program that serves combat related PTSD,
but life We've all experienced trauma in our life and
you can't pull one apart from the rest of them.
So while you're in that, particularly the red phase of

(31:00):
the program, we're going to work on all of it.
We're going to work through every whatever the traumas were
and for for all of us, I mean lived a minute.
You've got multiple traumas in your life. So we'll work
on that once Red phase is completed, which is a process, uh,
and they enter into yellow. You want to talk a
little bit about what happens in yellow.

Speaker 2 (31:22):
Yes, So Yellow phase is the late phase of the program.
It is a tu month phase before graduation. During this phase,
residence of Camp Hope are able to get their phones back.
You know, with the US mentors also being past residents
of the program, we understand where you where you need

(31:45):
to get to where you uh the how down in
the depths you know you have to go to come
somewhere where you're willing to give your cell phone away
in this day and age, but it is it is
vital because you know, people that do not understand may
not be the best to help during that period in time.

(32:07):
So we help reintegrate residents with it and to happen
their cell phones once again. We kind of limit the
time that they do have it initially because it can
be overload on the senses and provide too much stimulus
at one period in time.

Speaker 3 (32:27):
Yeah, I kind of. I mean there's ups and downs
in every phase of life, in every phase of our program,
but Yellow. It can get really extreme because they are
they are reintegrating, they are starting to have those conversations
and sometimes those people are having to have conversations with
are part of the problem. So that can come with

(32:48):
some really tremendous highs and some really difficult lows. The
emotions can be all over the place during that time.

Speaker 2 (32:57):
Yes, definitely, we do our best to give our residents
the tools to help with these tough situations where they
are repairing relationships with the family, spouses, children, you know,
people that were there in their corner before they came
to Camp Hope. We we do provide classes that that

(33:19):
we as Yellow Phase mentors do teach. We do provide
outside resources to come in and help them with different things,
whether it be financial management, you know, education on how
to manage their own finances, education on how to get

(33:40):
enrolled in school, take them to different job fairs, uh,
you know, get them in touch with different outside organizations
and register with them so that should they need assistance,
they know who they can go to. All that as
well as you know, managing them today as they begin

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to speak with family and speak with their kids, their children,
their spouses on a more consistent basis and dealing with
a lot of things that they were weren't weren't present
to see, you know, because they've been in program, you know,
trying to help them communicate more effectively, assertively, helping them

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to understand what their role is, you know, reintegrating you know,
you can jump on the horse and go full gallop.

Speaker 1 (34:35):
You know.

Speaker 3 (34:37):
Jeremy, so you been read for a little bit. Is
there anything that's kind of changed in your mindset yet?
Is there some there a moment of victory somewhere in
the program where like this really helped.

Speaker 6 (34:51):
Or yeah, so right now it's coming into the program,
I have got a reconnection with my uh Lord and
Savior Jesus Christ. Uh, growing more spiritual uh in this journey,
just started going processing some of my trauma with counseling,

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so you know, learning about some of my behaviors, and
you know why I was doing that, and and uh
you know uh and then also sobriety, yea, that helps
a lot by itself. Yeah, And and the main thing

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that that that I've that's helped me here is just
the other veterans that are in the program, peer to
peer being able to have conversations with them Uh, day
day in, day out, just getting closer to these guys
and and uh, you know kind of experience and a

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lot of us the same similar experiences and and so
uh just I'm basically reconnecting back with the world.

Speaker 3 (36:06):
How did you hear about Camp Hope?

Speaker 5 (36:09):
My wife?

Speaker 6 (36:10):
Okay, Yeah, we we were having some marriage uh problems,
and my wife was just worried. You know, she's watched
me go do this for thirteen years that we've been together,
and you know, she just ah, she had she met

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one of the outreach guys, Jake, at an event, and.

Speaker 5 (36:36):
He he called me.

Speaker 3 (36:38):
Uh.

Speaker 5 (36:39):
I was reluctant to come to the program the first time.

Speaker 3 (36:42):
Nothing just about everybody.

Speaker 6 (36:44):
Yeah, And I mean that six months scared me a
little bit, but you know, I kind of backed myself
into a place where, you know, it was a saving
grace for me. So you know, I'm happy that I
chose to come. I gave up my job everything to
come into this program and work on myself and you know,

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stop looking at the past and and focusing more on
the present and being present for there, for my kids,
my family, you and my mom, my sister.

Speaker 3 (37:18):
You're you're very fortunate because you've been there long enough,
seeing enough guys coming into the program and guys exiting
the program. Not everybody has family support like you appear
to have, so you're very blessed in that. Thank God
for Yeah. All right, well, thank you for sharing, I
know you know again sharing these kind of stories and

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talking about mental health diagnosis and all that stuff. It's
not really oh boy, this is what I get to
do today. It's going to be great. Hopefully wasn't too painful.
I try to It can be heavy, it can be
like a really like you mentioned lots of several guys
on that first deployment. I hear this all the time
from guys. Yeah, I lost two or three or twelve
whatever the number is while we were deployed, and I've

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lost multiples of that since I'm coming home. And that's
a dark, heavy conversation. So try to let lighten it
up before we can insert some humor along the way
and try to make it not too all the painful.
So thanks for sharing some of your story. You being
fed while you're there, I mean food in again.

Speaker 5 (38:19):
Yeah, the food.

Speaker 6 (38:20):
Yeah, I've gained some weight here and it's good food.
I mean a lot of protein, a lot of carbohydrates.

Speaker 3 (38:28):
So I'm grateful over for our community that helps make
it all happen. It's a great community. Ptsd us a
dot org. If you're looking for help, if you're looking
for a way how you can help make these stories
continue to happen. PTSDUSA dot org. All that information is there.
We thank you for listening and look forward to being
with you again next week for more of Road to

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