IT DID NOT SMELL GOOD

In tonight’s episode of "Crystal’s Nightcap" Beyonce kicks off her tour, let’s speak on the hate Katy Perry is getting, Kim K is taking the stand against the jewel thieves, the petty crown to this hiker, we go wedding dress shopping again, we are FINALLY OUTSIDE again, come to a NYC apartment party with me, and MORE!

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello to my beautiful jigglypuff, thanks for being back for
another episode of A Crystal's Nightcap. Tonight, Beyonce kicks off
her tour. Let's speak on the hate Katy Perry has
been getting. Kim Kay is taking the stand against the
jewel thieves, the petty Crown to this hiker, we go
wedding dress shopping again. We are finally outside, come to
a New York City apartment party with me and more.

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Sit back, relax. It's Crystal's Nightcap, and what a beautiful
day to be hanging out with you. Actually know, it's
really ugly today. It's super raining. It's been raining all
week here in New York City. It rained a little
bit yesterday, and I guess, you know, I feel like
the Internet loves random stats. I was scrolling and I

(00:50):
saw a post that said New York City will be
raining for the next twenty six hours. It's like, bro,
all right, who is timing this? Like the hours is
going on? But yeah, hope you're staying dry. Hope you
had a good weekend and week. I'm so happy back
with you for another episode of A Crystal's Nightcap. If
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(01:31):
man there of life and what's going on. I always
give you heads up on all the giveaways we have
on my show. And I'm live in New York City
Monday through Friday two to six pm on ZE one hundred.
I'm on tons of stations all the weekends, so check
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little syndicated over one hundred radio stations with the new
hit list eleven to midnight every single weeknight. So we

(01:52):
got a lot going on over here, and I'm so
excited to get into the Cheesema of the week. What
was trying to were the big headlines? What is my
take on it? We're going to get into it right here.
We're going to be sharing the cheese meaguamarre yo have
you seen this? Did she chut? Really? Oh my god,

(02:13):
I can't believe it. We're sharing the cheese man, We're
sharing the chief Man. Beyonce. Beyonce and Beyonce kicked off

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her Cowboy Carter tour. She kicked it off in LA
She had one, two, three, four, five, has five shows there.
Each stadium for the La Rams holds seventy thousand people.
She's gonna set the record for the most performances of
any artist at Sofi Stadium, which is huge. She's hidden

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up thirty two stadiums across nine different cities. We go Atlanta, Chicago, Houston, Vegas, London, NYC,
Paris and DC. This album, Cowboy Carter, she collabed with
post Malone, Dolly Parton, Miley Cyrus. We're crossing her fingers
that they will pop out. So far, we haven't had
any guest appearances. I mean, it's Beyonce, so we don't

(03:21):
really need a guest appearance from anybody else other than her.
But we are seeing that she is slang, she is serving.
We're all plauding little Blue Ivy. She's not little, she't little,
no mouth, She's as tall as Beyonce now and the
confidence from when she went on Beyonce's last tour Renaissance,

(03:41):
when she had the stage the first time, to where
we see her now she's all grown up. She's not
grown up still little girl. She's I believe, only thirteen
years old, so she's still little but got confidence and
her movements. Now you see the growth. How cool and
it kind of shows anybody that whoever you are, you

(04:03):
can do it too. You could be Beyonce's daughter and
be a little timid and not come out busting out
with the moves, but then just what two years later
you could be Stunn in La at Sofi Stadium. We also,
for the first time see another one of Beyonce's kids
on stage with her for her tour, Little Roomy, Oh

(04:24):
my gosh. She's a little bundle of smiles and a
bundle of waves and a bundle of happiness. That little girl.
She looks chaotic like she looks she looks like some
of my nephews. I cannot sit still and you're just
like Bassi. But she is so cute and it was
so cute seeing both of them and all them and

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Beyonce doing her thing. We saw that one moment of
her show where it looks like someone didn't mark the
stage correctly, and there were these mechanical picture frames that
were that one was coming from It was like an
arm coming from the front, coming from the back. So
it was really vital that she stood exactly where she
needed to stand because if she didn't this, they could
have honestly chopped her head off. I mean, I'm not

(05:07):
saying it was a blade, but you never know, and
with mechanical tools like that, that could have been so
disastrous and sad to watch. We all know Queen Bee
is a professional, so even though it looked like that
part of the stage wasn't marked exactly, she knew exactly
where she should have gone, even though it was only

(05:28):
their show two or three I believe, And so luckily
nothing ended up happening. But people that were working at
the stadium said that her team didn't pack up and
leave until six am the next day. That that night
the show, and then the next dage six am, which
means that she told everyone, y'all are on timeout. Yes

(05:49):
someone is getting fired, and if you don't want to
get fired, go through every single second of my show
and make sure that everything is marked correctly. Because I'm
not gonna have you guys making me look like a fool.
I'm not going to have you guys having some electronic
arms crushed me alive on stage in front of my
seventy thousand fans. That was interesting. Another good thing is

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that we were noticing the night of the show the
tickets were going down crazy. It looks like scalpers were
getting a little desperate and selling some tickets on the low.
When I went to check the first night of the show,
tickets were selling for I believe eighty dollars when I looked,
including the fees, because you know, the politicians at hand

(06:31):
are forcing ticket Master and everything else that puts in
a hidden fees to put in those fees. So including
fees eighty dollars to see Beyonce at SOFI. That is
manageable because when tickets for her show first started coming out,
five hundred minimum for Nose Bleeds with the Bats. So
that's pretty cool if Beyonce is going to be around you,

(06:52):
or maybe you can go fight a visit her. I
was just getting last minute tickets. You never know, maybe
sometimes it's not going to be that low. But stadium
after stadium after stadium odds are we'll be able to
see Queen Bee on the low this tour. So are
you interested in seeing Beyonce? Are you going to travel
to see her? I did enjoy her album, I did

(07:15):
hear the whole thing. I just think it's not one
hundred percent for me, So I'm okay. If I don't
end up seeing Beyonce, I probably will end up seeing her.
But if I don't, I won't be crushed. So that's
that with Beyonce. Now, this particular person I haven't talked
about because they haven't responded to the criticism, but it

(07:37):
has really not been settling well with me. All the
hate that Katy Perry has been getting. Now, hear me out,
hear me out. I know some people find her a
little polarizing. Some people don't really like her at the moment.
It's very evident. And this did stem back to when
she popped out with her record last year that was

(07:59):
a Woman in Power record, and people had issue with
the fact that she was working with Doctor Luke, who
is the man producer that Kesha alleged did awful awful
things to her back in the day. So people were
calling out Katy Perry saying that she's a hypocrite for
trying to put out this woman empowerment song when you're
working with someone that is allegedly an R word, that

(08:24):
is an issue because of so many other things. But
my take on it is and it's kind of similar
to what Katie herself said. She said, I understand that
I started a lot of conversations and he was one
of many collaborators that I collaborated with, but the reality
is it comes from me. So she says that the
song came from her personal experiences and said that she

(08:47):
felt grounded and her identity and creative process. She said,
I created all of this with several different collaborators, people
that I have corroborated from the past. So she didn't
really issue a four apology or distance herself from doctor Luke.
She just focused on highlighting her personal growth and authenticity
through her music. So she said a whole lot of

(09:09):
not much, but at the end of the day, like
I'm not really the I personally feel like I'm not
the one to judge. I understand that Kesha had a
really tough situation with doctor Luke, but I also know
that different people can have different experiences with things. So
if Katie Perry wants to work with someone, I feel
like she could work with whoever she wants, and people

(09:32):
do have the right to judge her for that, I suppose.
I just feel like that's not really my role here.
I personally did not like the song, and that's just
that I just felt like she was trying to jump
on this like woman empowerment hype and then drop this
woman empowerment song. I just really didn't like it. But
I could not like a song. You could not like
a song. That's okay. That's where her backlash started, and

(09:55):
it's carried on since then from different things. But it
really blew up with this whole Jeff Bezos and Amazon
Blue Origin flight to Space where we see her Gail
King miss Sanchez going to space, and people were just
like people were taking out all on Katy Perry though,

(10:15):
and they're like, you're so riche and why are you
doing this? And okay, even more hate, even more hate
on Katy Perry. But I'm just like girl, So many
people went out. It wasn't just Katy Perry that went
up there. And if you're really mad about something, to
be mad at Ja Bezos. He's the one that's doing this.
You guys are saying, oh, you know, rich people, there's
wasting also whole much money when they can be helping
things here on earth. You could say that about anybody.

(10:37):
You could say that about anything. Literally, you could say
that about the person in line at Starbucks buying the
Starbucks that they could be not buying a nine dollars
coffee and using that money for something else. Sure, Jeff
Bezos is worth maybe like nine hundred billion dollars, but
it's just you could really say that about every single thing. Like,
there's always gonna be economic differences and classes, and if

(11:01):
you're in the lower in the middle class, we're always
going to think that the rich elite are using their
resources shrewdly and I don't even know if that's word
but selfishly. And so that's not going to change. That
really is not going to change. And I don't feel
like it's fair that everyone's dragging and being so mey
to Katy Perry. She's on tour right now and people

(11:24):
are picking apart her tour and her dancing and this
and that, but she hasn't said anything up until this point.
She did finally address the hate and here's what she said,
Please know, I am okay. I have done a lot
of work around knowing who I am. My therapist said,
no one can make you believe something about yourself that

(11:45):
you don't already believe about yourself. She also commented on
an Instagram fan page about herself because there was obviously
haters in the comment, and Katie said, I'm so grateful
for you guys. We're in this beautiful, wild journey together.
I can continue to remain true to myself, heart open,
and honest, especially because of our bond. I love you, guys,

(12:06):
and I've grown up together with you, and I'm so
excited to see you all over the world this year.
Please know, I am okay. I have done a lot
of work around knowing who I am, what is real,
and what is important to me. She says what her
therapist said, and then she adds, if I ever do
have any feelings about it, then it's an opportunity to
investigate the feeling underneath. When the online world tries to

(12:30):
make me a human biniata, I take it with grace
and I send them love because I know so many
people are hurting in so many ways, and the Internet
is very much a dumping ground for unhinged and unhealed.
What's real is seeing your faces every night, singing in unison,
reading your notes, feeling your warmth. I find people to
lock eyes and sing with, and I know we're all
healing together in a small way when I get to

(12:52):
do that. I'm not perfect, and I actually have omitted
that word from my vocabulary. I'm on a human journey,
playing the game of life with an audio of many
and sometimes I fall, but I get back up and
I go on and continue to play the game. And somehow,
through my battered and bruised adventure, I keep looking to
the light. In that light, a new level unlocks little heart.

(13:12):
So she's it seems like she's mentally in a okay space.
I mean she's literally saying I'm okay. She does see
the hate that grows hard on you. I mean, that's
not easy, and a lot of the hate are things
that you can't fully control. So I'm happy that she's
looking at the positive things. I'm happy that she's in
a place where she can go perform around the world

(13:34):
to fans that love her and love her music, and
she can feel that connection and she gives that and
she gets that in. It just hurts to see hate
like it just it and then like, didn't we just
do this whole me too move? Didn't we just do
this woman empowerment movement? And then we're dragging down women
Like what? Girl? Come on, be real, be real. You

(13:58):
cannot call your golf, you cannot call yourself a girls
goal and hate on a girl period, no matter what
they are doing or did, like that is just the
opposite of what we should be doing. So I know
that you may have your opinions on Katy Perry. They
might be strong, but I just it hurts me to
see people get dragged and hated so much when there
are so many other things that to be dragged. What

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do you think about it? Let me know again the
best way to reach me is on Snapchat at lat
Crystotle sas Yo, this is crazy what was happening in
this Kim Kardashian theft case? Remember the theft heist happened
in twenty sixteen, the Julia heist in Paris, which was
probably the most heartbreaking thing to see. I know you
also might have your own opinions about Kim Kardashian and

(14:44):
the Kardashians, but at the end of the day. I
do also feel like she's pretty unproblematic. She stays in
her lane. I think she's a beautiful, amazing mother. I
think her and her sisters are entertaining. I do like
watching those shows. But let's talk about when those men
went into her hotel room, she was alone, they tied
her up. She literally thought she was going to have
the worst things in the world happened to her, and

(15:05):
they ran away with ten million dollars in jewels. At
the end of the day, it is material things. She
says that she's learned a lot from that situation, especially
about going around and prancing in with big jewels and
things like that, and being less flashy. We've seen a
lot of that. But what about the guys that are now.
I mean, they've been in jail and they are finally

(15:27):
going to court. There is one of the defendants. He's
seventy one years old. His name is Eunice Abbas, and
at first, when he was asked about the highest twenty sixteen,
twenty seventeen, he said that he had no regrets about it.
But now and since he actually put out a memoir
is titled I Held Up Kim Kardashian, and part of

(15:49):
it says, we just grabbed the lady's handbag, but I
have discovered that there is trauma behind it. This time,
I do regret what I did. It did open my eyes,
So that is growth. I'm happy that he's feeling that way,
that he regrets the situation. Who knows if it's only
because they got caught right, But wow, Number one, I'm

(16:13):
so impressed and proud that these guys are facing time
and they're in the courts, and I'm so shook at
how brave Kim Kardashian is because she is going to
testify in court against these men. How strong you have
to be, how brave as a human you have to
be to be again in the same room as these

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grown men that traumatized you for the rest of your life.
If I was Kika, I feel like I would have
these nightmares that would not be able to get out
of my brain about what had happened to her. When
have you ever seen that episode or interviews with Kim
k when she speaks about that happening. And you know, granted,

(16:57):
of course, there's people that have been through a lot
of things, been people that have quote been through harder things,
but that is a really tough thing to go through.
I am shook at her bravery. That is like the
bravest woman in the world to be able to stand
in Core and speak her truth and look at that guy,
those men in the eyes and probably get them locked

(17:20):
up for the rest of their lives as they should
as they should be. I'm really interested in seeing all
this go down and Core. I want to see what
else is going to come out of this. I'm really
invested in this one. Can you believe it's already almost
been ten years since that happened. Time is flying by
now quickly. I want to throw some shade on this
twenty seven year old mountain climber. That is a joke,

(17:41):
he'll hear why. I want to give him grace for
this because I feel like I would do the exact
same thing. Listen, he's a Chinese college student, but he
was in Japan's Mount Fuji on it. I mean, this
is one of the world's highest and hardest to climb
outs over ten thousand feet high. So he's out here climbing,
hoofen and holler, and he is feeling really sick. He's

(18:02):
not cool with the altitude. He was not ready for
this climb, so he had to call Japan's nine one
one and get rescued from that g thing. And so
he gets rescued right he comes down, he's recouping. Four
days go by, He's like, you know what, I lost
my phone up there and I really need those pictures.

(18:24):
I'm gonna go back. He goes back. He goes back
up the way that he went to try to find
his phone again, and again I would have done this.
I would have done the same thing. So even though
I kind of want to give this guy the petty crown,
I do light away. Understand. He went back to try
to find his phone and get his phone, and guess
what they get. The EMT gets another emergency call that

(18:46):
they need to go back on the maul and to
rescue another person. And it's the same guy that has
to get rescued again without his phone, and they refuse
to let his name out in the news. I want
to know his name because I want to call him
by his name and let him know I would doe
the same thing. Like I am judging, but I'm also
identifying as this man because there's a lot of links

(19:09):
that I would go to get my phone. I so sadly,
so sadly lost my phone last year in the middle
of link in the middle of a swamp, and which
was in the Hampton's, very very very sad after like
only one what was it, one white claw and I
was with my primagavi and we were on a two

(19:31):
person canoe, living our best lives, the speaker and everything,
and I just get way too comfortable with my phone
and it like slips while it was on the edge
and boom goes all the way in I yeet off
into the lake. And I mean it's I cannot see
through the lake. It's not like we're not talking to
Lake Tahosis. We're in a murky swamp in the Hampton's
and that thing was gone. But I tried, girl, I tried,

(19:53):
And if I could have swam to the bottom, I
I would have. If I had a lake light, a
sea light, if I had a water light, I would
have gone down there and got my thing. So sad,
so sad. Where did you lose your phone? I lost
my phone one time in the snow in high school.
That was just one time. And then yeah, this one
I lost in the Hamptons. And then I was driving

(20:16):
home Hella late from work after an event. I had
a cup of coffee in the where you put the
cups of water in between when you're driving next to
the prindle, and I didn't look when I put my
phone in, and I just dunked my phone in the
coffee and I didn't even realize I did. And by
the time I got home, I was like, where's my phone?
And it was in the cup of coffee. I'm like, girl,

(20:37):
you're freaking embarrassment. But yeah, shout out to that guy.
I hope that he can get a phone endorsement for
that one. I hope that he can get like a
Red Bull climbing endorsement too, a parachute to jump off
next time he gets stuck on Mount Fuji Yo. This
is crazy. Producer Alyssa found this, but I have to
tell you about this. I think his name is car
Carpet Kyle in New York City. This is so flipp

(21:01):
and weird and apparently this guy's been doing this for
like twenty years allegedly. Okay, there's not one guy, there's
two guys. So in New York City, there's a whole
bunch of scaffolding like The scaffolding comes up and down
all year around on every single block of New York
City because the scaffolding is to make sure that buildings
are up to code and earthquake proof and all the things.

(21:22):
So there's always that's why there is always so much
scaffolding in New York City. And obviously we know there's
a lot of construction that goes around the city as well,
so with the scaffolding, it can get kind of a
hot mess up in the streets and things will just
get thrown around. So there's this. There's these two guys
that they call one of them carpet Kyle. Okay, I

(21:44):
don't know if that's his real name, but that's what
they're calling him. This is really weird. He rolls himself
up loosely in a big rug, a big carpeted rug,
and he just throws himself in the middle of constructioned sidewalks.
People are still walking through the sidewalks, but hazardous, right,

(22:05):
so there's kind of stuff everywhere, there's scaffolding and all
the things. And he just lays himself in the carpet
like again, loosely rolled up in the middle, like horizontal
on the sidewalk, not like along the sidewalk, but like
across the entire sidewalk, because he enjoys fetishizes, fetish sizes,

(22:30):
one would say, getting stepped on. Yes, and girl, there's
a video. There's a video like there's this girl there's
New Yorker that was walking around and finally saw him
and started taking a video of it. She didn't call
him out, but she did step on it. There was
a person there. It was like moving like she was
there for a while, just kind of recording it and

(22:52):
speaking about it in a low voice. And she was
recording people. Some people were walking over it, like stepping
over it. Some people were walking on it. And this
guy just likes getting stepped on, you know. It's like
weirdos that liked getting that, just like weird things. He's
one of them. Okay. And not only that I told
you about the other guy. There's another carpet Kyle, and

(23:12):
they beef. There's beef on site because they are always
fighting over the most steppable areas. So bizarre, and this
guy is known for being out in the scene like
he'd be partying. He goes to all the weird underground
raves around probably in Brooklyn. So he is out and about.

(23:33):
He's out, he's in abouties and when he gets that tangle,
he'll whirll himself into a carpet and just beat himself
on the floor so that people can stomp all over him.
That is the most diabolical and bizarre thing that I
have heard. There's been some you know, we've heard of
the bush man likes the scare people, right. We hear

(23:55):
of the sewer people, the tunnel people that live in
the tunnels here in New York City, the categor home
people that like to be in the catacombs. But a
carpet Kyle getting stepped on, isn't that so weird? If
you want to see the video, just DM me or

(24:17):
hate mail, snapchat, I'll send you the link. Because it's
like I couldn't even believe it until I was watching
the video, I couldn't even believe it. It was jaw dropping.
So yeah, if you can help me out and find
him and contact him, I would love to have him
on the pod and I would love to have interview
with him because I just I have so many questions.
I have so many questions. What's been the best stomp?

(24:39):
How often are you out in the streets. How many
rats have tried to come roll up with you? What
is the biggest celebrity that you got stomped on by?
There's a lot, a lot of stompag questions. So if
you can help me with that, I would really appreciate you.
And of course I have to say Felisinko. Then my
own Happy birthday to my mam, I say that I

(24:59):
love you so much. Mom Me, I love you. I
love you, Happy birthday. You are the best mother in
the whole world. And I really wish I would have
listened to you a lot more when I was younger.
I'm sorry for being such a reckless rat. I really
am so sorry for every time I had the craziest
attitude towards you and just like was so just the
worst to I love you with all my heart, and

(25:21):
you know, being away from you from these years, I
really realized how down you were and how down you are,
and I did not appreciate you as much as I should.
So I love you so much. By me. Happy birthday,
Itami and Phelli Sinkle the Mayo. I think a lot
of people think that Sink of the Male is our
Mexican independence day, it's not that's in September. So I'm
going to give you a little history lesson. It's still

(25:43):
important for us to remember what sinc of the Male is.
It's where we celebrate the Battle of Puebla May fifth,
eighteen sixty two, when Napoleon the Third his basinass he
tried to pull up to my hical with his French
army and colonize our people, and we were like, yeah,
yet thought we slayed him in the French. His army

(26:04):
went home crying and unlived to France and us Mexicanos,
even though we were not prepared like that, we came
together and it brought a lot of morale to Mexico.
It made a lot of us proud, and it brought
a lot of spirit to the country. And it's what
we remember to this day. So I love seeing you
celebrate single the Mio. I encourage you, if you're not Mexican,

(26:27):
enjoy arcuo meda, enjoy artacles, enjoy artequila, enjoy your margarita's respectfully.
I encourage you to share in our culture and appreciate it.
And I also encourage you to treat us Mexicanos and
all other immigrants that you see working hard to achieve
this American dream. You know, I encourage you to treat

(26:48):
us all like your brothers and sisters. Gevive Mexico, e
felis single the male with that, how about we get
into my cave? Wrapping up at sharing the cheese Maya,
stepping into crystal cave? What's going on in my life?
What's happening with the crevices? What have I been up to?
We're getting into it right MEO, Hello, who's in here?

(27:09):
It's so dark? Ew? What's dripping? I get step on
something something? You're now inside Crystal's caves. Caves. Thank you
for hanging out with me and my crevices. I am
trying to get over my seasonal depression. I'm trying to
get over the fact that I be lonely out here
in New York City, without my family, without my man's

(27:31):
I talk about it all the time. But also it's
been so hard, and I share that that the weather
has been crusty since September, but finally it's been beautiful.
So Sissy, we outside and I'm forcing myself to get
the heck out and just be in these streets. There
is a reason I'm out here. There's a reason I
pay an exponentious amount of rent every single month to

(27:53):
live in one of the best cities in the world.
So I'm gonna enjoy it, especially now because the weather
is nice, so people really are outside like we are outside,
and things are happening, things are cracking, things are popping.
So over the weekend, I got invited by one of
my besties. No no, no, no, no, I'm gonna rewind.
Over the week I was thinking, Okay, it's so nice
this week. What could I do? Where should I go?

(28:13):
Where are some things happened in the city. So I
was looking on TikTok and I found that there is
this bar that does line dancing on Tuesdays. And I
was thinking, I, this is gonna be so fun. I
love dancing. I used to go to the country bar
that's closed now, the saddle Rock in Freemont. Girl, that's

(28:35):
why I went for my twenty first birthday. Yes I did.
I went to the saddle Rock. I had some good
memories at the saddle Rack with my besties, even my family,
my cousins. So yeah, rip to saddle Rock. That is
so sad. That is hella sad. They had a mechanical
bull up there. Remember they had like the shot chair
where you would sit in the chair and then like
it would recline and they would like bring you a
back and forth and just throw shots into your mouth.

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We had my boppy. My dad went on the shot chair.
Yes he did that. Got onto World Star, by the way.
But throw back, throw back, back back in my day,
back in my day, we had the saddle rack. So
there is a country bar here in New York City
called Common Country. It's pretty new. And I saw on
TikTok that they on Tuesdays do line dancing. So I

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hit my girl, Jewels. I'm like, Jewels, we out we
are going to go line dancing on Tuesday. And she
is not the line dancing kind of girl. I mean,
she will not be found there. She will be found
backstage at a Yogaudi concert. But because Jewles is such
a good friend, and because Jewels loves me, she is
always down. She's down for everything, and that's what we
love Jewels. So me and her decide it's a date.

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I tell her, you get your both thoughts ready, sist.
She was flexing that she had gotten some brand new boots,
so she brought the boots out and we are ready
to stomp the country ground. So we pull up to
Common Country on a Tuesday. It says it's from seven
to mid to eleven. So we pulled back seven and
I'm getting there. I'm there, I'm gonna meet her there.

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She's inside already. I'm out the bouncer and he say, hey, like,
let me see your ID. I'm like, okay, here and
I show him my phone. He goes, oh, you don't
have your ID. I said no, but this scans. You
can work. It will work. And he goes, oh, it
doesn't scan. And I'm like, it does scan. And he goes, no,
it doesn't scan. And I say it does scan and
he goes, I'm telling you it does not work. It's

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a slow night tonight. I'll let you in, but if
you come on a Friday or Saturday, you have to
have a physical ID. You cannot come in with a
photo of your ID. And I was just like, okay,
I don't need to argue right now. Why'm even arguing? Okay, yes,
thank you, I thank you. I appreciate you by So
I go inside. It's empty as hell, like there is
one person at the bar, other than jewels. And I'm like, oh,
this is odd, Like maybe we're a little early to

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line dancing night. What is going on? So me and
jewels are just there. I get a drink, she gets
a drink, or do just yip yap and yip yap
and away. Thirty minutes go by, forty five minutes go by,
an hour goes by. I'm just like, dang, there's we
are the only ones in bar. What is going on
on a Tuesday? And we're supposed to be the line
dancing right now? So I asked the bartender. I'm like, hey, sis,

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don't you guys have line dancings on Tuesdays? And she goes, oh,
I canceled like two months ago. I said, what, I
just saw a TikTok promoting that y'all do line dancing here,
and she said yeah, no. The neighbors complained about the
stomping against the stomping was too I'm like, the neighbors complained,
we're on the ground floor. We have basement neighbors down here.

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That is sometimes normal in Manhattan, but this was this
is like a this is around this is like around
the the what is it the Flat Iron District? So
at this particular place. There was no I knew there
was an abasement down. She says. Noah was upstairs and
all around us that we're complaining that the stomping was
just too loud. So we got shut down by the city.

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I was like, are you go. We can't have nothing
fun in New York City? You're telling me you can't
be stomping in your cowboy booms to eleven pm on
a Tuesday. What in who? So that was really annoying.
And I do understand because let's say you move somewhere
and then all of a sudden, this new country bar
opens and now you have to get up for work
at five six am and there's stomping. Yeah, that would

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that would trigger me. That would trigger me. I I'd
get some pretty good what earplugs for that case, but
it could only do so much. Yeah, I get it,
I get it. I'm just like, dang, this is what happens.
I try to do something fun. I try to go
out and do something that I would be interested in,
and Boom has been canceled for two months, so whatever.
Me and Juel's just kind of run the streets and

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that was that. So I didn't get to go line dancing,
which is annoying, and then Jules hits me up and
it is like, hey, you know what, I got invited
to an apartment my my family friend is throwing an
apartment party close to where you live on Saturday night.
Would you be down and go to that? And I say, girl,
I love apartment parties. Like that is my number one.
If I could choose what kind of an event I'm

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going to or like, if I have to go out,
I would love like a hell or an apartment party.
Those are my speed. So I'm geeked because I haven't
been to a house and it's been so long since,
like I've been locked up because of this crummy cold
weather since September. So I'm ready to be out in
the streets. So Friday comes around and I'm just chilling
because I have a Saturday shift. It's my one Saturday

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shift a month, So I wake up early Saturday, I
get my ship going. After that, I go to TJ
Max and I'm just living my best life in the
TJ maxisles. I link up with my girl Michelle. I
haven't seen her in a long time, so her and
her and I chit chat and then after that I
take a nap at home and then I wake up

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like eight thirty nine to get ready to go to
this apartment party. So we go to this apartment party
and it's cool, there's drinks, there's quite a few people.
I'm in little Canny Hills, so I'm just staring down
the couch waiting for people to get up so I
can sit on the couch a your girl wants to
be comfortable. And then as soon as they get up,
I yeat over there. And I'm just kind of chilling

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with have a glass of wine with jewels, and this
woman comes up to us and she starts talking to us.
Her name is Jay, we'll call her Jay, and we
just start chit chat. She's really sweet. She's from Syracuse,
so up north. It's a college town and it's kind
of close to the Canadian Lake Lake something, and she

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just kind of starts talking about living over there and
what she does here in New York City. She works
for the city, so she contracts people. Whenever there's an
issue where something that the city needs to do, she
will find consultants for it. So she is a busy girl,
and I'm just kind of like asking her about that
and then there's this like little nerdy guy, and then
to my right there's this white guy sitting next to me.

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He's pretty quiet, but I'm like, oh yeah, let's just
start chit chan. So we all start chit chat together.
And he's in finance. So I'm asking him about his
day and what he does for his job and what
does the day's day look like and what is some
of the peak and pits of his job. And it's interesting.
I'm learning this interesting stuff. And then the man of
the apartment pulls around, and I have so many questions

(35:03):
about his apartment, and I'll get to that right here.
So he's this really cool guy. He's a data data SI.
He's a digital lawyer, which is dope. And I see
a lot of those books around. But then I see
that there's this one shelf that has a whole bunch
of vials of what looks like liquids, Like it looks
like this guy is a chemist. So I ask him,

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I say, what is that over there? What are those things?
And he says, oh, I used to be really into
perfume making in sense. I say really, He goes yeah,
and I go, so I su yap in him about
sense and what his favorites were and his least favorites.
And with the most expensive one, he's like, jasmine, probably
over there is the most expensive a little tiny vials

(35:44):
like twenty bucks. I was like, oh okay, and I
ask what one smells the worst? So he is giving
me a whole bit of samples to smell, and it's
just so cool. It's like you're at the counter of Macy's.
The girls are like trying to have you smell different
perfumes and testing them. It was so cool. And then
I see all these bookshelves everywhere and I asked him
like a z, like have you read all these books?
He goes, well, that whole row I did read. That's

(36:07):
when I was learning Chinese. And then this I got
into Chinese history. I didn't read any of this. This
down here is about that. I'm a I'm like, wow,
this guy read, like has read that's what he does.
He reads so so much. He brings out like a
little sliver book and he opens it up and it's
a Chinese comic book and I say, do you remember
a lot? Can you still speak? And he just starts

(36:29):
going off in Chinese woo chou ya yong Chat Chipiti
Lai Nang quing Chu Yixi zong gwen de dong chi
wouguau Wu shuau de douey de huajia woll Snapchat. And
I was just shook, Like the entire apartment just stopped
and started listening to him speaking Chinese. And then another
girl that was down the hall started responding to him

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in Chinese and they just and this guy is Jewish,
like he is just straight up Jewish. So seeing him
and this Chinese girl go back and forth in Chinese,
he was so cool. I've just I've never seen something
like that. It was like a hell of cool to scene.
Everyone was like, wait what, and he kept saying, I'm
just I'm not that good at Chinese. But he was
reading this comic book like and having a conversation like crazy.

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So then he starts talking oh and so that was that.
And then I asked him. I was like, is there
any other cool hobbies you have? Because this is awesome?
And he points over there and he says, well, that
whole row of books is just cook books. I like
to cook. I'm saying you're a chef too, what's your
favorite thing to cook? And he goes ice cream. I said, wow,
ice cream. I guess that's just a lot of sugar

(37:35):
and milk, right, And he goes, wow, you know how
to make ice cream too. I'm like, no, I just
I assume that's just what ice cream is. So he
starts telling me that he has this like this thing
that makes ice cream at his house. It's it's some machine.
I don't know. It's a certain machine that makes ice
cream at his house. He makes so many different types
of ice creams. And he asks he wants me to
whip out his neutella hazelnut chocolate peanut butter ice cream

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that he homemade, and I said absolutely. He whips out
this tub and a spoon for everyone. Everyone is like
spooning this ice cream that made him. It tastes like
a peanut butter cup with news. It was so good,
and I was just having the time of my life.
So we were just living it up. And I was
only there for maybe two hours, two and a half

(38:22):
hours before I noticed already eleven thirty it's raining hard
this night, and I got to get up early Sunday
to go to MISA. So it was a good time.
I'm so thankful that Jules took me out and I
met some awesome people. I heard some interesting things, I
learned some stuff. Everyone was a little older than us,
probably in their late thirties early forties, so it was

(38:45):
a chill crowd and I just had a good time
talking to cool people and learning about them and what
they do every day and where they're from and what
they do. So it was cool. It was chill, you know.
That's I like that. I like just having good conversations
people that are cool people. So we were outside. That
was Saturday night. I wake up to go to MISA

(39:07):
on Sunday, and then after MISA, I head over to
another bridal shop because I am having a crisis with
that wedding dress that I'm getting scammed over. I told
you that I want very specific sleeves for my wedding dress.
I want bell sleeves, and it's impossible to find. Girl.
There's been some bell sleeves that I've found online, but
there's one dress that I really like because the bell

(39:29):
sleeves they're almost They're just simple. There's not a whole
bunch of lace on it. It's very simple bell sleeves
that isn't infiltrated with lace vomit, like, I don't want
to look like the mom from Adam's Family I or
the corpse bride. I just want to look I want
the sleeves to be low key, low key bell sleeves.
So that's what it's been so difficult me trying to

(39:51):
find bell sleeves on a dress. I finally find the
exact dress that I want in my size on a
still white which is is a reusable dressed website, like
a cycle wedding dress website. So I found the dress
and I'm messaging this lady. I'm going back and forth
with her, and I'm about to have her ship it
to me and send her the money until I read

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like a different part of the description which says that
she took in the sleeves, and I say, wait, man,
you took in the sleeves like you cut the bell
sieves off. She says, yes, Now it's just a normal
long sleeve, a tight long sleeve. I'm in my head.
I went, why would you take off the bell's leave
that is the most beautiful part of the dress. She said,
it kept snagging onto the rest of her dress, and
I'm just like, dang, girl, this was the exact dress

(40:35):
that I wanted, and you butchered it up, so I
wasn't able to get it through her. I hit up
this boutique to get a wedding dress here around the city,
and they're still back and forth with the dress designers
saying if they can order it or not. They haven't
heard back, so I had to just start charge, just

(40:55):
start starting from scratch. And it's kind of annoying that
no designers have that kind of dress that I want.
And a lot of these dresses are just as I've
said it before, they're just kind of basic to me.
I've seen them over and over and over again. I'm
kind of unimpressed by a lot of them. I try
on maybe like five dresses and it's just not really

(41:18):
what I want. And then I finally try on this
one dress and I actually really like it. It's very simple,
it's white white. It's mermaid style, like a sweetheart cut
on the top, no sleeves at all. But it has
very dainty, beautifully detailed minimal flowers, like fabric flowers, and

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they're all white, and they have some pearls, they have
some little crystals, and it's not like the other dresses
I see where it's exploded all over the top of
the dress or exploded all over the dress. They're just
very delicately quaiinetly placed, and it's so beautiful and it's
just it's simp but it's still so elegant and nice

(42:03):
and detailed. And so I finally I saw this stress
and I thought, wow, this is beautiful for this for
our marriage that's coming up, Like we are going to
get married and we're going to have a small ceremony
back home with my family in California, very small, very
very intimate and small. And that's why I want like
a more low key is stress, like not all out

(42:24):
there dress because when I get married, when we have
our wedding, we're going to have a wedding in twenty
twenty eight when I move back home. That's why I
keep saying, like I'm going to have two I'm technically
having two weddings because I'm getting married, but then I'm
going to have a wedding in two years. So that's
why i've been That's why I have a few dresses

(42:45):
that I need to find and I want like a boom,
big Albanian ball gown wedding dress for the big batchanga
down in a few years, and I want something that's
still really nice and beautiful and me doesn't break the bank.
That's what I'm open to use, slightly used dresses. But

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it's been a struggle. So I did find one that
I liked, I mean, I liked her. That's the only
dress I've tried on that I really liked so far.
But the thing is that these dresses are so expensive.
I mean it's either you go t J Max and
find a dress for two hundred dollars, or you go
to a boutique and minimum you're spending two thousand dollars.

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They don't even have dresses on the rack that are
less than two thousand dollars, which to me is just wild.
I suppose I understand about the time, and they usually
make these dresses by hand, and I mean I get
in the materials and the ship, I mean I get it,
I get it make a coin, but it's been hard
for me to find it in between because anything in
between is just a simple white underslip. Literally, anything that's

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between two hundred dollars and two thousand dollars is just
a white simple just the fabric period, nothing cute or different,
about it. So it's been kind of rough. If you
have any suggestions, please let me know. I know some
of you have been telling me to go to the
custom route, and that's just I don't thinking about having

(44:12):
to design my own dress somewhere is just like a
lot you guys are going home in California. I don't
have time for that. Some of you've been telling me
to go to Mexico. I don't have time for that. Girl,
I just do not have time for that. Spend money
on flights and hotels. It's gonna be more than the dress.
It's just kind of crazy. So that's what I've been
dealing with. Let me know if you have any ideas

(44:34):
or whatever. But the one dress that I really want
with the belsis every time I show it to my
friends or family, their jaw drops, Oh my gosh, this
is gorgeous. Yes, I love it period and anything else
I've shown them, they're like, oh, I still like that
one more. And that's how I feel like. I like
the dress that I tried on yes yesterday. It's beautiful,

(44:55):
but it also I like the other one better. So
let's crush your fingers that somehow I can still order
that in time or find it somehow. So that's what's
going on with that. This is very chill week. I
filmed some content earlier. I have a few interviews lined
up for this week. Tomorrow we are doing Ivan Gornejo,

(45:16):
which is a good one and I've becan mass. Is
that it? This week? I'm gonna have someone else last minute,
so I'll keep posted on how that goes. And that's
kind of what's going on in my world. Girl. I
hope that, you, like I said, had a good week
and a good weekend. How's your week bend? Do you
have anything you want to talk to me about? Let
me know on Snapchat O thrivice. I'm at La Crystal

(45:39):
la Rosas. Now I think were I wrap up with
our daily motivator. Let's see what this says to day,
because I feel like last week it really really hiit Okay,
this one's called counter veiling goodness. Don't let it get
you down, Let it get you motivated. You cannot control
much of what happens, However, you can control all of
what you do with it. You decide where to focus

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your attention. You decide how and in what direction to
apply your efforts. If anything is causing you to feel discouraged,
it's because that's the response you have allowed it. Your
great power is in being able to respond in a
more positive and life enhancing way. Many unfair and unfortunate
events occur all the time. Rather than adding to the negativity,

(46:23):
making your business to create and promote counter veiling goodness.
There's always room, and there's always option for a more
positive perspective, for more positive action. Step up to that
opportunity and deliberate. Oh dang, If anything is causing you

(46:44):
to feel discouraged, it's because that's the response you have allowed.
Your power is in being able to respond in a
more positive and life enhancing way. Dude, I feel like
I have been nailing that power. I feel like I
have been getting so much control of my brain and

(47:06):
my emotions, more than I ever have in my life.
Ah not easy, girl, It's not easy. But in the
words of Michelle Obama, when they go low, you go high,
and nobody can ever talk down to you when you're
going high. All the time, like, people will make up lies,
people will say things about you, people will throw hate

(47:27):
on you, people will be negative towards you. But girl,
if you just keep it classy and if you just block, delete,
ignore the negativity, then that is your reality. You don't
have negativity. Those things that are bothering you, those people
that are just obsessed with you and bringing you down,

(47:49):
they don't do that. They don't bring you down because
you don't let that be your reality. How are you
managing that? How are you and to make sure that
whenever you feel discouraged you have the control and your responses.
Especially you know, I've been getting triggered lately, like with

(48:10):
work emails and people just like being annoying, like coworkers
being annoying to me, Like there's a coworker that I
have that just like triggers me a lot. But I
just keep it very short with them. I tell them
exactly how I feel. I don't go too much into
the emotion of it. I just go into the facts

(48:32):
and I just try to keep it pushing and push,
keep it moving. And I feel like they always use
like very dictorial language, like always want to make it
seem like they have the last say. They'll always be like, oh,
I'll think on it, or like just like a girl,
I'm trying to help you up bright, I'm trying to
help you out, like why why do you always have

(48:53):
to act and think like you are the ultimate like
rule master here. I don't understand that, but you know what,
that doesn't have to be my reality. I can I
can shape shift that and understand like what is truly
going on in that situation and then just be like,
you know what, I'm gonna breathe. I'm not gonna respond
right now because I want to get snappy, so I'm

(49:13):
just not gonna respond. I was a wait and then
later like when you do that, when you it helps
so much when you take a breath before responding, or
just like say I'm not gonna do deal with this
right now and then just don't and then just don't
unless it's obviously a very pressing matter. But there was
something that went on this weekend with a coworker that

(49:34):
was like, you know, for the past few years, I've
been doing something. I've been bringing a single demile to
my job and I've been bringing a mariachi band and
just kind of spreading the single them out cheer right,
and then people around me have been like trying to
throw the ideas like that of how to do something
like that, and it just felt to me personally like
very inauthentic, and it felt kind of selling out and

(49:58):
the idea to me was just very low hanging fruit.
And I was just like, at first, they caught me
off guard when they called me, and so I kind
of felt pressured to be like, oh, okay, yeah, like
we could do that. And then when I sat it
and thought about it, I was like, this is cringe.
This is if I saw somebody doing this online, I'd
be like, that's that's what we're doing, Like that's lame.

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So I brought that to the tension. I was just like, actually,
I on second thought, I have been sitting on this
and I just don't really feel like I want to
do this. And then they're like, okay, well then I'll
try to find someone else, and I'm like there, I said,
I don't think they would do it either, but okay,
and they did try to find someone else and everybody
else I know, because they agree like it's cringey, Like

(50:42):
it was cringe. The idea was cringe. I had brought
other ideas that they were like, oh, I'll think on it,
and then like didn't clearly didn't think on that, which
is okay, Like it's okay, and then are going to
spin it around on me and being like, you know,
let's just pull the plug because next time, let's give
each other more time. I'm just like, homeboy, I tried
to collabor with you and think of ideas and you

(51:04):
just kind of blew it off and you made it
like your thing, And what am I gonna do there?
So that's one situation where I'm like, you know what,
I really am just gonna give the facts. I'm gonna
take my time with responding so that I don't get triggered.
And because at the end of the day, I know
that they're just doing their best. I know that they're
not doing anything maliciously, and they were very understanding when

(51:27):
I voiced my concerns, so that's awesome. They weren't forcing
me to do anything I didn't want to do. It's
not like I had to do this. I know that
they were just trying to do something fun and cool.
It just it just for me, it just fell flat.
And I know that they're trying their best, and so
you know, I'm just gonna keep a pushing and let

(51:47):
them know that, Yeah, next time, I'm down to collaborate
and help and I know that they also have a
lot on their plate. They have like a lot on
their plate. So even them offering to like have me
do something with first sinkle with the mile was like
it was a nice gesture. I feel like the intention
was there, but the execution and planning the execution obviously

(52:08):
fell flat. But it's okay. We got other things going on,
and like I don't have any ill will or like
maliciousness against that person. It's just like sometimes it can
I'm like, why what are these responses going on here?
For which way? And those times again I can work
on just giving more more grace. And that's why I say,

(52:30):
instead of being snappy immediately if something isn't rubbing you
the right way, just take a deep breath and breathe
on it and to sit on it and deal with
it later. And I promise you when you get back
to it, you will have like a less snappy thought
on how to get back to that situation. Now we're
going to get into our prayer of the day. This
is a book called Jesus Calling and Join Peace in

(52:52):
His Presence by Sarah Jung. I always encourage you to
look it up on Amazon and order if you think
it's helpful for you. It's everyday calendar prayer that just
helped you stay present in your life. If you've been
dealing with anxiety or stress or even depression. Depression is
when you are dwelling in what I've wanted. You are
dwelling and sorrow of the past. And then anxiety and

(53:13):
stress is when you are dwelling in anxiety and stress
of the future. And one way to help heal those
either of those, which I've dealt with before, is doing
the best you can to stay present. So that is
this is what's been helping me with that. If you
are not someone that is religious or praise or really

(53:35):
want to get into that stuff, that is totally fine.
I love you and I respect you, and I'm wishing
you all love and good energy, and I will see
you in next week's episode. And if you want to
stick around for the prayer, or maybe you're curious about
what this prayer is going to be, let's do it together.
Let's see what may fifth sinkle that m Io has

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for us today. This one says, m come to me
for all that you need. Come into my presence with thanksgiving,
for thankfulness opens the doors to my treasures. When you
are thankful, you affirm the central truth that I am good.
I am light in whom there is no darkness at all.

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The assurance that I am entirely God meets your basic
needs for security. Your life is not subject to the
whims of a sin stained deity died deity. Relax in
the knowledge that the one who controls your life is
totally trustworthy. Come to me with confidence expectations. There is

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nothing you need that I cannot provide. Come to me
with confident expectation. There is nothing you need that I
cannot provide. He will prevail, He will provide. What do
you think about that? Thankfulness? Thankfulness, thankfulness. I've read some
more that couples that are happy together and stay together

(55:03):
for a long time, they say that they're always saying
thank you for everything to each other. And I think
that is so necessary. I'm the light in whom there
is no darkness at all. That line also calls to
me because I have some really dark thoughts sometimes, especially

(55:25):
I've told you have a p problem right where I like,
I have to pee all the time. I feel like
maybe like two times in the middle of the night.
It's really flipping annoying. But the problem is that because
I've seen so many scary movies. I really love scary
and like horror movies, but it has not been very
helpful to my psyche. And sometimes when I'm going to

(55:46):
the bathroom at night, Oh, I hate this. I hate this.
I have visions like I have those like horror movie visions.
And I don't want to tell you too much because
I don't want to like throw the energy towards you.
But I was opening up to this about my girlfriend,
one of my girlfriends, one of my church sisters, Love you, Brenda.

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I was opening up to this about her, and she
had dealt with that too, about other even darker things
like darker visions, and so she told me to pray
on it and to like pray it away. And something
I just kind of thought about in my own head
is like, what if I this kind of sounds corny, right,
but I thought, what if I just think of like

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Jesus showing up in front of or next to that
dark vision that I have whenever I have that vision.
And girl, it's been working, dude, it's been working because
the thing about like Jesus and his light and God
and their light is that like they draw out darkness,
anything negative, anything bad, like if you pray for it

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to be bind and banished through the words of Jesus
Christ of Nazareth, it will be gone. Like with time
it will get better. Time it will be gone. And girl,
it has helped so much, like now and those visions
still come, like those visions still come. But then I
immediately think Jesus pops out and then Jesus is just
standing there looking at the vision and then the vision

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gets quicks in their boots and skeats away and just
shame and embarrassment and sorrow for even thinking they can
even come at me. Isn't that crazy? Jesus himself comes
pulls up in his robe and his and their majestic
hair and light way to life saber like I don't
know why, like I feel like Jesus has a life saber,

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a life saber, and just like pulls up and it's
like what and what And then the vision like gets
scared and like Shimmy's away And that has been helping
me so much. I know this is weird. I know
it's weird to me talking about the vision. I know
it's weird. I know it's weird, but you know, we

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all go through things. We've all had things, and I've
I'm just scared of the dark. Girl. I have a
night light in I keep my microwave light on so
that there's a little bit of light in the kitchen.
I keep like little blinky lights around my living room
so like that's illuminated. I keep the blinds in my
living room open so I can see the skyline so
that there's light coming from that. And then I have

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a night light in my bathroom so that it's I'm
never dark. I'm never in the dark alone, like I
am lightweights afraid of the dark, kind of kind of
just like I'm alone. I'm alone in my apartment, so
it's just kind of scary. I do have, you know,
dead bullets and things like that on my door. So
and I feel very thankful and blessed I live in

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a secure apartment. It's not about that. It's just I
still kind of get a little scared that I'm alone.
And then when it's nighttime and most of the lights
are off, I just would get these scary visions because
of these scary movies that I've used to watch. And
that's why Zaddy doesn't. I have told you before, Zaddy
does not watch scary stuff. I mean, he has had

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a terrifying and horror filled childhood and young adulthood. So
his life was a thank goodness that we found God
because his life growing up was a horror film. But
he has just prevailed through that and found God and

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has been able to be just an amazing human being
despite all that. So he refuses to indulge in anything
negative like that, like he and it annoys me because
I like that stuff, like I like scary movies. I
like haunted houses. I like those things. But he cannot,
like he cannot and will not because he says the
same thing. He says that he gets crazy scary flip

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in nightmares, and he already gets nightmares as it is
of his childhood, so like that on top of like
scary movies, He's like, why do I need to traumatize
myself even more? So he refuses, But I understand. I
understand because it's scary. So oh girl, if that vision
of the lightness, because that just said it right there, right,

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I am light in whom there is no darkness at all,
The assurance that I am entirely good. It meets your
basic needs for security. So when we come with thankfulness,
it opens the doors for God's treasures and the truth
that God is good. So I hope that this has

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helped you do. Do you like this prayer? How does
it reflect in you? Why don't we think about our blessings?
Why don't we think about what we want to pray
for this week? Oh? My goodness, I had so many blessings.
I honestly feel like one of my biggest blessings was
like being outside and going outside again and just hanging
out with jewels and even that little the few hours

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that I was at that apartment party, it made me
feel thankful again to live in the city and just
to meet people and the awesome just conversations you can
have with everyday people that live here. That made me happy.
That's such a blessing. Me and Zaddy have been going
through some personal legal things, and girl, I prayed. I

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prayed so much because the Devil's hand was really in
this situation that me and Zaddy were facing, and the
Devil's been at play and is at play. But we
have gone so close to our faith and we have

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been trying to dot our eyes and cross our teas
and just be like the best people we can be
for the situation. And so we we. When I first
even met Zaddi, we didn't have as much control. We
were kind of like getting just so distraught, so distraught
and hurt and sad and felt hopeless. But as we've

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been getting cold to our faith, we've been getting just
our head has just been so much clearer and better.
And we have worked so hard on deflecting negativity and
the devil's work and that darkness that is just trying
to rip joy from our lives, and we have just

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made so many strives, like so many strives. And so
this past week we were dealing with that situation again,
and while it was happening, I was praying so hard.
It was happening while I was here at work, while
I was live on air, but I was like, you
know what, I'm kind of nervous right now. So the

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only thing that can really calm my nerves is praying.
So I did the prayer of deliverance. And if you
look up Catholic prayers for deliverance and healing, this is
the one. This is like, when you have negative or
around you feel like it's been binding you. I learned

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this through my hospitality at church, and I learned I'd
have to say thank you so much to Claudia because
she has really taught me to just pray so intentionally
and out loud and with diction. So I found I
don't know who told me this, she I think she
did the prayer for healing and deliverance. So, oh my gosh,

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this is so good. This is such a good prayer.
I'm gonna pray it with you right now because I
was holding my hands so tight and I was praying
this so so seriously while this really heavy situation was
going on. My prayer for deliverance. You can look it
up on Google. My Lord, you are all powerful. You
are God, You are Father. We beg you, through the

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intercession and help of the archangels Michael, Raphael, and Gabriel,
for the deliverance of our brothers and sisters who are
enslaved by the Evil One. All saints of Heaven come
to our aid anxiety, sadness, and obsessions. We beg you
free us o Lord from hatred, fornication, envy. We beg
you free us o Lord from thoughts of jealousy, rage,
and death. We beg you free us A Lord from

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every thought of suicide and abortion. We beg you free
us O Lord from every form of sinful sexuality. We
beg you free us O Lord from every division in
our family and every harmful friendship. We beg you free
us O Lord from every sort of spell, malafice, witchcraft,
and every form of the occult. We beg you free
us O Lord. Lord, you who said I leave you

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peace my piece, I gave you grant that through the
intercession of the Virgin Mary, we may be liberated from
every evil spell, from every evil spell, and enjoy your
peace always. And the name of Christ our Lord a
men bind and banish any evil spell, malafice, witchcraft, every

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form of the occult. We beg you free us our Lord,
in the name of Jesus Christ, of Our Lord of Nazareth.
Amen girl again. Hot. I'm like my heart is beating
right now. I'm getting hot. I held my hands so
tight and was praying that over and over and over again.

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In between Chapel Roon and Sabrina Carpenter at work, in
between Benson Boone and Ed Sheer and Asi Zam, in
between commercials for food bizarre and top dog law. I
was holding my hands and I was praying this over
and over and over and over again, and so the
situation was through and everything that I prayed for happened,

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Like everything that we were asking the Lord for was
in our favor. Now, listen, I know maybe maybe you're
not spiritually, but you're not maybe not faith based. Maybe
you don't believe in these things like I hear you.
Maybe it maybe it was gonna maybe you believe that
it was just it's going to be fine anyways. But

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for me and what I've been through and what we're
still going through and are gonna, hopefully please continue to
pray to God that doesn't keep going on. I just
do believe that because we've been trying to be our
best selves, because we've been staying close to our faith,
because we've been trying to be honest and not lie

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and be good God following people, things have been going
in our favor. And that just hasn't always been the
case in my life when I didn't have God. And
so I think I have to say I really think

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that that's why things like this have been working out
so well for me and Zaddy in the situation that
we're in. So that is I have such also a
blessing this week what else And there's just been so many,
so those were blessings of the week. Definitely going out
and definitely like what happened between uh, like with with
Zaddy and I and that like amazing outcome to that

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just really gross and evil situation. And I'm going to
continue to pray. I'm going to continue to pray for
that situation healing and love and energy and light and
for that aura to know that they are loved and
that any negativity or hate that is cast upon us,

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we are just gonna pray for it and only give
back positivity and love because that's what we're that's what
we're taught to do, that's what we're supposed to do.
That's what I feel like I need to keep doing.
So did that did you feel that prayer? I feel that,
I feel I feel I feel the spear in the room.
I feel a spear in the room. Isn't that funny? Yeah?

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I know, girl. If you would have told me, if
you had told me five years ago, i'd be praying
on the on here, I would not been I would
not have known. So yeah, a lot of growth. That
was my blessings. And I want you to also pray
for that aura like I want you to. My prayer
for the week is praying that I continue to stay
motivated to get outside and I live my best life here.

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I want you to. I want you to help pray
for me for that aura of like negativity and evilness
that is shadowing, attempting to chatto around us, that they
find healing and love because they're just a person like
us and they deserve to be loved and they are.
They could be a really cool person. They really could slay,

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like all the way they slay, but they could slay
all the way, and I'm praying for that. I want
them to slay at their vessels. So I'm praying for that.
And I'm praying for my mommy because I love you
so much. And all the mommies hanging out and listening
to us right now, every single mom, every single biological mom,
every single step mom, every single grandma and and Bisaelita

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and metaphorical moms, Thias, people that want to be wanted
to be moms, and it just like it wasn't in
the card for them. Your motherly instincts and your motherly
soul is still felt, it is still present. It doesn't
have to be with your own kid. It could be
with the world. So all love and blessings to all

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the mommies. I hope you feel special. I hope you
make the moms around you feel special. I hope the
people around you make you feel so special because you are,
and moms are so underappreciated and so undervalued and so underpaid,
and we are just so blessed. And all the mommies
in Heaven, to Zaddie's mommy and heaven, I love you
so much. I can't wait to meet you in heaven
one day, queen. And yeah, all the moms pray for them.

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Happy pray. Mother's Day a weekend, and that is a rap.
I hope you enjoyed this episode. I will be back.
I will be better next week. I love, love, love
love you, and I'll see on the next one.