MY ENCOUNTER WITH PARIS HILTON

In tonight’s episode of "Crystal’s Nightcap" we fly to LA’s Jingle Ball, I moshpit with Flo Rida, Olivia Rodrigo tells me she loves me, my encounter with Paris Hilton, Hard launching my BF Zaddy on IG, our 1 year anniversary, what I put in his Birthday Basket, and MORE!

Episode Transcript

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Hello to your beautiful heart. HulaHoop. It's a Crystal Rosas back with
another episode of Crystal's Nightcap. Wefly to La for their jingle Ball I
mashpit with flow Rida, Olivier Rodrigotells me she loves me, My encounter
with Paris Hilton Hard, launching myboyfriend Zatti on Instagram, plus our one
year anniversary, and what I putin his birthday basket. Get Usa.

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My name is Crystal role Sas.I'm a twenty something Latina who just moved
from California to the Big app Happy. Sorry that was my cat frappuccino.
They're still getting used to the citylife. Anyways. Where was I am?
Oh yeah, I take over afternoonradio every day on the world famous
Z one hundred, But when nightfalls, I'm looking for all the cloud

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I can get and casually searching thesestreets for my prince Charming. Come on
this sexy single journey where we'll goon a date with a new guy from
the Apps every week, host redcarpets and interviews, and weasel our way
into the secret society of New York'stop social life. Oh yeah, and
someone's always watching. That's my overprotectivemom. This is Crystal's Nightcap. Happy

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Tuesday. Oh my god, don'thate me. Don't hate me. You've
been messaging me. I've been gettingsome slanderous comments. I don't even know
what to say. One of youwas like, looks like it's going to
be a monthly podcast at this rate. I am sorry, And that's just
that's on that. I have somany updates because so many things have been
going on, and I want toshare all the good news with you of

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everything. Yeah, it's just beenkind of cristy. But first and foremost,
thank you so much for being herefor another episode of Crystal's Nightcap.
If you're eleven episodes, please sharewith your besties. We're live in New
York City Monday through Friday two tosix pm on Z one hundred. We're
also on tons of other stations acrossthe country on the weekends at check which

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ones. And I also have abig announcement about something else that I'm going
to share in a second. Butyeah, you can listen on our free
iHeart Radio app wherever you go oneverything. I'm at Lack Crystal Little SaaS
and we're just gonna get a big, old deep dive into it right now,
because there's just too much to updateyou on. Sit back, relax,

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It's Crystal's nightcap. Okay, let'stake a deep breath, and now
I am so happy I could finallyshare the news about what's been going on
with my job. But you cannow officially hear me on over one hundred

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radio stations across the country, whichis crazy. Now, let's take a
few steps back and really get intoit about what this even means and what
exactly is going on now. Inradio, you start off however you start
off. You might start off asan intern, you might start off as
a phone op picking up phones.I started off as an intern, and

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I've been doing radio now for tenyears, which is cray cray. But
I remember growing up in my journeyof radio, and a huge goal for
people in radio is to have asyndicated show. Now, a syndicated show
means that you are recording one showand you have people chopping it up and
it began sent to different markets.Right here's some examples of syndicated show Ryan

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Seacrest on Arth Ryan Seacrest, ElvisDuran and the Z one hundred Morning Show.
That show is syndicated. Angela Yeefrom The Breakfast Club. The Breakfast
Club is syndicated. There are alsoother stations in LA that are syndicated,
which is so cool, but ittakes a long time. It takes a
big, solid, foundational group tobe syndicated. When I was on The

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JB Show and Wildney for nine,like a huge goal for us was to
always be syndicated, and it neverhas hapen, and the time that I
was there, it still hasn't happenedyet. Hopefully one day it could be,
but it's it's really hard. Thereare so many pawns that need to
be moved to have a syndicated show. And I do share that I'm on
tons of stations across the country onthe weekend, which I am. I

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range from one to ten stations onthe weekend sometimes, but those aren't syndicated
shows because those are point to pointshows where I actually produce and record and
track these shows dedicated to the market. So when I'm on in Texas,
that show is specifically for Texas,and I'm gearing it for Texas. When
I'm on in Florida, it's specificallygeared for that. That's a lot of

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work so when you see me promoting, listen to me here here, here,
here, here, Like every singleone of those shows, I am
doing specifically, and it's it takesa lot of time. It takes a
lot of prep because I'm prepping what'spopping on those stations, what's relevant,
the topics of that market and area. I'm getting listeners and audio for that
specific area. So it is alot of work, but I love to

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do it, and I can doit, and I have the opportunity to,
so I will. Now what ishappening with this new show that I'm
on Now, it's called the Newhit List. Every night pretty much top
forty stations from the hours of elevenPM to twelve PM, I have this
show where I'm just directing new music. The whole show is dedicated to the

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new music you need to know about, which is really awesome because we have
artists that you love on there.We have new artists on there, and
all of those artists want their songs, especially their new songs on the radios
to get spins. And in mostof those situations, I'm going to get
interviews with those artists that I didn'tif I didn't have the show, and

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the show is a syndicated show,So I do one dedicated show and it
goes on hell of different markets,Top forty markets, honestly, every single
Top forty market that I heart has, So it's just so crazy, it's
so iconic. I am so thankful. I always wanted to have some sort

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of syndicated show. I didn't knowhow it was going to go down.
It looks like the afternoon show Ihave here in New York. That's not
the exact direction. So with thisnew opportunity that I was presented with,
it's just I'm able to do iton my own and it's awesome because it's
new music and it's just another wayfor me to connect with you wherever you

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are. So if you know whatTop forty radio station is playing in your
market, you are going to beable to hang out with me every single
night from eleven to midnight, whichis just iconic. I was super thankful
about this, and of course Iwanted to pop out like a promo video
for it, so we had ourteam out here helped me with that,
which was triggering because I like,we worked on this project and we recorded

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it all and then when I waslooking at the playbacks. I was like,
Bro, this camera looks not itlike this looks and it's not our
team's fault. It's just the camerathat we used. It's giving college project.
And I was just like, Icannot release this. Like the idea
and the concept is great, butthe footage that we got it's I could

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have probably shot it better on myiPhone. So we're still figuring that out.
That's why I didn't post anything onIG or like do anything like that.
But you know, and the entirecompany knows, and it was like
in a company wide email and it'slike a huge thing. I'm so so
so so so so so excited.This is one of the first times that

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we're doing something like this with thetop forty stations we have with iHeart,
and I'm so thankful to be oneof the pioneers for it. So around
of applause we did that. I'mtaking over the majority of the like kind
of like middle and east coast ofthe country, and then we have a
partner in San Francisco that is doingthe West coast side, so that we

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can have like an a side inthe B side of the country. Nonetheless,
it's still a huge opportunity for theboth of us, and I'm very,
very thankful for that. So that'sone lab of good news. The
other lab of good news that Ishared I believe I shared in the last
episode is that my brother Junior andI went Havesis In We bought our first

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investment property, which is a hugedream and has been a huge dream of
ours. My mom, you know, is in real estate, and she's
been looking on the market for somethingperfect for us, and she finally found
the perfect fixer upper and it It'snot such shiny rainbows like at all at

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all, because my mom said thatin all of her years of real estate,
this was the worst horror situation shehas ever seen in her life.
We needed like and of those garbagebins that my family was just like hauling
stuff out of and there's black moldsin there. You know, Hoarding is

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a disease. So I feel reallyreally bad for the people that live there
and the people that go through hoardingsituations for themselves or their family members.
It is so so unfortunate, andit's also really unfortunate for the people that
have to clean that out. Man. I feel so bad that they were
living like that and they're actually reallyhappy with where they're moving now, so

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that's good. They've been living inthat same house forever, so for them
to move out, it felt likea breath of fresh air for them,
like they can start over. Hopefullythey can get help with our hoarding problem.
But thankful for me. I havebeen working in writing out here in
New York City, so I haven'tbeen going back home to help with any

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of those things. But my brotherjun or my brother is sev On and
some other family members have been gettingout that house and they're doing the inside.
We also have a homeless problem inCalifornia, which is awful, and
it has been very evident, especiallyin this house that we just got,

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because the homeless people have been rippingopen our fence and been trying to sleep
under the overhang because they notice thatwe're like it's becoming vacant now. So
my brothers have been dealing with themand that because that's just heartbreaking to see.
And then people have been sleeping theircars in front of the house,

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which is tough if we're like literallyrebuilding the inside of it. I mean,
it's heartbreaking to know that people haveto live in their cars and are
homeless around where we have the house. It's just like all pretty a tough,
awful situation that I'm very thankful I'mnot seeing in dealing with, and

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that my brothers are brave enough todeal with. But that has been what's
been going on in that situation.Yep. You know, trying to be
homeowners in your twenties and thirties isa dream of all of ours, and
then when it's happening, like it'seven harder than ever, especially if you're
trying to own property in California.So shout out to you if you're on

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that journey, and you will getthere when the time is right for you.
You know, our parents were allable to put down a five thousand
dollars down payment for a ten thousanddollar mortgage, and it's just not like
that anymore. So the fact thatmy brother and I got to endeavor in
this new opportunity, we're very thankful, and we're very thankful for my mom
and her partner too, that helpedus so so much to find it and

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talk to the seller and do thosethings. So good things with that.
Now, another amazing opportunity I gotwith my job is they wanted to send
me and my partner here at Zone hundred to Los Angeles for LA's jingle
Ball. Now, if you didn'tknow, jingle Ball is an iHeartRadio concert
tour where we get a lot ofthe biggest artists and pop and we tore

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them around the country to the bigmarkets in the country. And we still
have one in San Francisco, butthe Christmas market wasn't too good. So
now they do a huge summer concertwhich was iconic. It's called Our Wild
Nupher nine Wismatads. And in LAthey're still doing their Kiss La jingle Ball.

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So we got to go and dothat, and my only job was
to run around and clout chase andoh did I do that? So I
was like, what is a concept, something different, something fun, something
engaging that I can do with allthe amazing artists and celebrities are going to
come in. So the first groupthat came in was the amazing K pop

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group g Idol, and I waslooking at them and they have these like
stomper boots, these like crazy calmbatI will slit your throat with these boots.
So I started taking videos of theirboots and I was like, why
don't I do like a shoecam reveal. So I did that with the idol
and it was so cute and oursocial director loved it. She's like,
do that with everyone. So Idid it with the next artist, Charlie

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on a Friday. You might knowone of his songs. I did it
with his actor, Chris Brainy Briani. Oh my god, I feel like
I feel like a boomer right now. Chris Brainy Okay, And he is
going to be in the New MeanGirls musical movie, so that's iconic.
He was also in a TV showthat I didn't watch, but I know

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it was very popular. He washashtag Team Conrad at what show is this
the Summer I Turned Pretty? Factcheck, Yes it was that. So
if you watch the Summer I TurnedPretty, then you know him from that
hashtag Team Conrad. Again, I'ma boomer. I have no idea but
that I knew it was a veryvery popular show, but I just I
did not watch. So did itwith him. He's a cuteie Patuity.

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And then I did it with myqueen, Dixie Demilio. I love her.
She I think one the shoecamp.She had these bright pink metallic cowboy
boots and then a really shimmery,cute little mini dress. She's such a
sweetheart, and I could not believe, could not believe that. I get

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tapped on the shoulder and says,Crystal, Maddie's next, and I'm like,
Maddie who, And she goes MaddieZiegler and I say, no flippin'
way. Me and my little brother, A Sevan used to love and be
obsessed with Dance Moms. I gota Stevan a cameo. Was his twenty
first birth No, his twentieth birthday? I got him Was it twenty Yes,

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it was his twentieth birthday. Igot him a cameo from Abby Lee
Miller herself to a Stevan telling himcongratulations for getting it to U C.
Berkeley and then I just like DanceMoms was everything. When my auld Ethols
were in town in May for Mother'sDay, when they came to New York
City to visit me, me andI'm a We're just watching Dance Moms the

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entire time, so to see,I never thought it would be a situation
where I would actually meet any ofthe cast from Dance Bombs, But the
fact that I Maddie, Oh myGotho's like Cia, Cia, Maddie,
I'm gonna swing from the chandelier,Maddie. I just I learned all that
choreo. I learned all that choreo. A very iconic moment to do a

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shoecam with her. She's all grownup. She is just so sweet and
humble as ever, like she ough, Oh my gosh. And then of
course Flavor Flave. He is ouriHeart ambassador at this point. He loves
pulling up to our events anytime weinvite him. He's always so gracious and
so sweet. This is the coolestguy ever. And then they were like,
Paris is coming and I said no, They're like, yeah, Paris

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Hilton. I was like, there'sno way Paris Hilton is oh my got
thos. Okay, so she's gonnabe down to do shoe camp. Absolutely.
She always has her pumps. Thatis the Paris Hilton's signature. But
then we hear, no, she'snot coming to this social stop. She's
just gonna come by and do likethe broadcast or whatever room. I'm like,
oh, come on, come on, Paris. So as she's going

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through, I'm like running with mycamera. It all happens so fast.
I'm just screaming at her slay Parissleigh, yes, queen, yes,
Oh my god, Paris said yasto me. Paris said yaws to me.
I don't care. I don't careif I did get a shoe camp.
I don't care if I did getan interview. My time will come.

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But as of now, the ParisHilton gave me a yos. And
honestly, like this is on theheels of her announcing baby London, her
baby girl is coming soon. Imean, there's just so many things.
I am so thankful for the opportunityto be graced by Paris's yes one more

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time. Oh my god, thoseamazing And I was gonna say this is
a highlight of my night, butlike the night just kept like okay,
let me tell you again. Iwas told, Crystal, all you have
to do is get the content,and I'm like, say less, So
that's literally all I had to do. But every time they send me to

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these events, it's like, howcan I one up? How can I
one up? I don't feel likethey put the pressure on me, but
I put the pressure on myself.You know what, I'm saying like,
I don't want to be flown outhere, coach and not deliver, right.
So then Jimmy Fallon comes. AndI have had one encounter before with

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Jimmy Fallon when I was working atthe Natural History Museum for like a gala
and I was helping do social mediafor one of my mentors, and I
was pretty much just getting content forher and like helping her prepper questions and
things like that, and Jimmy Falloncame out and everyone was kind of waiting
for Jimmy Fallon. His energy,his aura, it's honestly unless anything,

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and when you are around him,you realize why he has gone to where
he is. He is just suchan entertainment presence and a professional. So
one social stop that we had atthat social stop was there is pretty much
like an empty chalkboard and you havewrapping paper, and so then the artist

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or celebrity is like ripping it open, kind of like surprise, like I'm
your present kind of vibe. Right, So everyone was kind of do it
in their own cute, unique way. But when it comes to Jimmy Fallon,
he just I mean, he stoppedthe show. Like we were all
jaw dropped at how he just keptgoing and giving it to the camera and
was just so you couldn't take youreyes off of him. He is so

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entertaining and so good at this stuff. I mean, remember he was on
snel for years and years and years, so good with the improv like so
good impromptu, like just ready toserve. So he was serving and then
I asked him. You know,the all the pr people really loved the
shoecam idea, Like as soon asI would give them an example of it,
they're like, yeah, this iskind of fire, even though it's

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a very simple thing. It's maybebeen done before. I'm not exactly sure.
I'm not going to hundred percent takecredit for that. I just honestly
don't know. But when Jimmy's publicistsaw her, she's like yeah, because
I was a little nervous that shewas probably gonna say no, but he
was totally down to do everything.So then we do the shoe cam with
Jimmy Fallon and he's just he's socool, gives me the biggest high five,

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gives me a hug. I'm justlike, oh my gosh, Jimmy,
I want to be you. Iwant to be you, and he
says, do it, then doit. I was like, I'm trying,
I will. I will. He'slike yeah, and we just like
give each other a high five anda hug, and I'm just like,
thank you for always being so cooland like so awesome. He's like,
yeah, yeah, that's just thatis just Jimmy, and he's going to
give that energy and love to anyonefor anything, because there are some artists

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and celebs that like think they're toocool or don't want to do stuff like
this, but it's like if you'reshowing up, like might as well go
off, And that's what Jimmy alwaysdoes and standing ovation for the king,
the legend that is the icon.Jimmy Fallon love him so much. So

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then after the Jimmy Fallon moment,it was about ten o'clock and the social
stop, but everything was wrapping,so my end of things were pretty much
done behind the scenes. So they'relike, Crystal, you can go and
enjoy r now you can go homeif you want, do whatever you want
to do. I was going tocatch the one am flight from LA back
to New York City because my beautifulboyfriend Zattie was waiting for me in New

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York. I'm visiting me that weekend, so it was like ten and I
was like, you know what,let me go mingle with my coworkers.
Let me go talk and schmooz withthe big wigs. Let's go see what
the VIP lounge is like. SoI start doing that with my coworker Nick,
who is amazing and awesome. He'sthe one that captured all the Shucam
stuff and also were other coworker Carlitos. So we're kind of roaming and we

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see that Fluorida is on stage andif you remember, flow Rider headlined are
Ze one hundred Jenkinsa's Summer Bash atthe Jersey Shore and he is just so
fun to watch, Like, nomatter what you think of the man,
nothing is like a flow right alive performance, he brings it and you

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forget how many hits flow Rider has, and you forget that you know every
single word to every one of hissongs. So here comes flow Rider.
And when we're part of these events, we don't have tickets to the events,
so we don't have seats. Wejust have our credentials, which let's
lets us roam wherever. But thesecurity guards they don't really want you roaming,

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because you just look like someone tryingto steal a seat somewhere. So
the securities are constantly on you.So me and Nick are constantly running away
from the securities. So we getkicked out from one spot. And as
I'm walking back towards the VIP areanot on on the floor of where the
seats are, I see everyone's phonesdirected kind of towards the back of the

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arena. We were at the KiaForum where the Lakers played for many many
years, and it's right in frontof so Fi in La, which is
a really iconic venue, and Isee that everyone's phones are pointed away from
the stage towards like the back,and I'm like, what's going on there?
And there it is galloping, gallopingon his securities shoulders, flow Rider
coming literally towards where I'm going.Nick Nik come back back, So we

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go over there and there's like nowamash pit around flow Rider. He gets
off of the arms and I'm recordingit all. I'm jumping it. I'm
like doing selfies a flow Rider.It is insane, Like the entire Kia
Forum is just pumping, bumping withenergy right now. And then in that
exact midst right in front of me. Flo Rider's big old booty cheeks get

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lifted up to a security again andhe just gallops away with his hype man
back to the stage, and I'mjust like, the timing, the timing
of this could not have been better. I just could not believe it.
So that just that got my adrenalinetoo, like a whole new level,
and I'm like, come on,let's get it. We're taking shots.

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So me and my coworker Nick,we go to the vip era. We
start taking shots and start getting somedrinks. We start hanging out with some
people backstage, Jojo Wright from KissFM, who is just so amazing,
so talented, always gives so muchlove. He is a radio icon,
honestly living. Him and I arechat for a little bit. I'm so
thankful that he is taking the timeto talk to me. I see big

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Boy back there from Real and I'mhanging out with some other people and then
we're just taking more shots, andthen Olivia Rodrigu goes on. I think
Olivia Rodrigo is amazing. I thinkshe is talented, she has I liked
her album. I just do knowthat she has like more slower songs.
So even though you can rock outto Olivia, I I'm just not like

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a huge, crazy super fan ofOlivia, but I know that she is
it. She is the moment,she is the time. She is a
gonna be a legend in music forsure. And I mean just the way
that the entire arena was waiting ontheir tippy toes for Olivia, I was
like, I gotta watch a littlebit of this. So we're watching on
the sidelines and it's getting closer tothe time that I need to get to

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the airport. I mean it's likeeleven thirty at this point, and the
door's going to close at twelve fortyfive, So I'm like kind of cutting
it, even though the airport's reallyclose, you know, getting out with
the ride shares and getting all mystuff, Like, I know it's going
to take time, but I waslike whatever, like let's watch Olivia for
a little bit. So we're watchingOlivia and she's starting off with her rock
songs that I'm just going off tothem because we play these on Z one

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hundred to play these on the newhit lists, who played these songs obviously
around the entire country. So we'rewalking out to Olivia and then she's started
one of her slower songs and Nicklooks at me. He's like, come
on, let's go to the front. I'm like, all right, final,
let's just let's just do it forthe content for the one time.
So we're trying to dodge the securitiesbecause we've already gotten kicked out like three

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separate times where dodging and securities.We get right to the front. It
was like the easiest that we've everbeen able to get to the front.
I pull my phone out. Thebarricade is literally in front of me.
It's like me and Olivia, andthis is what I'm hearing. She walks
over to me, says I love. He blows me a kiss. I

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couldnt believe it. I cannot believeI was like, this is a one
in a billion lifetime moments, likewho. And then when she blew me
a kiss and like walked away,everyone around me was like, oh my
God, like like cheering at me, like I'm telling you right now.
I couldn't live. But I waslike, I need to get the content.
I need to get the content.I need to get the content.

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I need to let her sing alittle bit and then I'm gonna just like
combust. You could have wore someonebrought out a knife at me to shake
me. No, for real,I just if it wasn't for Nick saying
come on, let's just do itone more time. I'm telling you right

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now. After that, I waslike, that's it. Let me go.
I need to get on the plane. I need to stop drinking and
I need to get on the plane. I need to go home. I
need to go home. And thekid's my big old bald boyfriend in the
head and show him this dang video. So I immediately text him. I'm
like, you're not gonna believe it, Olivia literally, and he's simultaneously on
a flight right now, Like asI'm texting him, he's on a flight

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to meet me in the morning inNew York. So I'm like, listen,
Olivia, Ardio literally just kissed me, like just blew me a kiss.
And he's like, no, I'msure it wasn't you. I'm sure
it was a person next to him, Like listen, you little twat,
because he was a flight so hecouldn't get the video. I'm like,
it was directly to me. Itwas directly to me, So I just

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immediately sent it to our director,our video our digital director. I'm like,
oh mfg, Queen, you cannotbelieve this. Watch And she said,
oh my gosh, let me getapproval right now. So then she
got approval real quick, and shewas like posted posted we got approval.
I mean, like the odds,the odds. She literally mouthed I love

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you and then blew me a kiss. I couldn't believe it. Did we
do it? Did we do whatwe needed to do? Ladies and gentlemen,
did we Did we not get afrom Paris Hilton? Did we not
get a I Love you in ablown kiss from Olivia Rodrigo? Did we
not get a shoe cam from MaddieZiegler Jimmy Fallon, Yes, we did

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so, And then hopped into well, let's talk about this, Okay.
I'm walking out of the KIF Forumand there's obviously a long parking lot you
have to get out of the parkinglot to try to get a car to
get to the airport, right,and there's like a line of men that
are like rides rides ubers, ubers. I'm like, how much like one
hundred and fifty dollars? I'm like, it's twelve minutes away. He goes,

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it's gonna take so long. You'renot going to get an uber.
You're not going to get an uberout there. I'm like, I'm not.
I don't care. I'm not payingone hundred and twenty dollars all right
for you to take me twelve minutes. So I walk out. There's actually
a taxi line. So I pullup to the taxi. I'm like,
how much to get to the airport. He's like forty bucks. I'm like,
thank you. Why did this guysay one hundred and twenty. He's

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like, they're over there rip peopleoff. That's so unfair. That's so
unfair. And I forgot the entiretime. My job is paying for this.
But it's just it is the itis the broke girl in me that
still is surviving and living and thriving. Like forgetting that, and my job
pays for my transportations. You know, I could. I could have pulled
up to Lax in a blacked outsuburban, a blacked out Denali if I

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wanted to, and just charge itto iHeart daddy. But that's just not
the person I am. So yet, so yeah, so we took a
cute little tax and my taximan wasamazing. Loved him, by the way,
Thank you for for Rock was hisname. He was giving me some
solid tea about crazy passengers as he'shad in his taxis. I'm sure that
there is like a taxi podcast orYouTube channel where these taxi people are just

(29:29):
like going off about crazy encounters they'vehad, or maybe we should do that.
Let's talk about that. Anyways.So the flight home, you know
me, I'm a pop three melatoninand just be out. I was out.
Woke up ran Reno to my beautifulBalld boyfriend Saddie, love him,
and I told him, I'm like, here's the video. You tell me.

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If Olivia is a mouthing I loveyou and doing a kissy to me,
you tell me. And he wassilent, which means that I was
right because he hates being wrong.But he knew exactly who Olivia said I
love you, and he just kindof started googling. He's like wow,
and I'm like I know. Iwas like, trust me, I would
not tell you Olivia said I loveyou and blew me a kiss to me
directly if it wasn't to me directly. So go watch the video. For

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yourself again on ig We're at LaCurist a little size that was really great.
And then we're celebrating our one year, one year of zating, and
we're celebrating his birthday. So it'sa lot to celebrate. I mentioned,
no, I haven't I even talkedto you. It was his birthday month
last month, so for his wholebirthday month. I was like, you

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know what, you pay for everythingwherever we are all the time. So
I'm gonna be a good person andpay for you for everything for your birthday
month, even though I hate ithere. No, I'm a beach generous
and I'm a pay for for yourbirthday month. How about that? So
the plan was for him to onlyvisit me one weekend for his birthday month,

(31:06):
but then he ended up pulling upagain. He ended up pulling up
again and I was like, yeah, as you should, and we went
off. That was a few weekendsago. It was the weekend before Thanksgiving,
which was really great. We hadso much fun. I took him
shopping and explurged on him shopping forsome things that he wanted. And where

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what else did we do that longweekend? Oh? We went to his
favorite restaurant peak and we went toolate for lunch again. We went to
Misa, we went to church andit was just really cute. It was
really sweet. It was really fun. And he I asked him, I'm
like, how did he feel thatI'm, you know, paying for everything?
And He's like, I just feelunmanly, like I don't like it,

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Like I really don't like it,Like I think it's it's a cool
feeling, but I don't need this, Like I don't really care for this.
I'm like, correct answer, Ilove that for you, but I
will continue to spoil you for yourbirthday months because you deserve it. You
know, at least one month ofthe year. Let me spoil you,
king. So it was super superfun. And so when he came back

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this past weekend, we were technicallycelebrating his birthday weekend because his birthday was
a few days ago. So Ibooked the greatest restaurants. I booked us
Meduza Mediterranean and like, soho vibes, Oh my gosh, I had a
I had a whole thing for himfor his birthday because this is like the

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first honestly love the people that I'vedated in the past, and they were
so essential for my growth and myjourney. But this guy just hits different
for me, like I just we'rejust on different. He's just so so

(32:58):
so special. And let me seemy other boyfriends, I feel like I
was coerced a little bit into beingtheir girlfriends. Like even though they're amazing
and I did like them, Iwas a little coerced. I feel like
they were very pushy on being boyfriendand girlfriend. I was kind of indifferent
and I agreed because I was like, sure, I guess, I mean,

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this would be a natural next step. But for me, Zaddy,
like this just feels very very right. And I feel like him and I
have had these conversations where I canand he can like fully open up and
we can like agape love each other, which means unconditional love, like no

(33:44):
holding back barriers, like just givingeach other the love that we would want
for ourselves and that we think thatthat person deserves in more in a bigger
and broader way, like loving withno conditions, just free formally, openly
loving. And I feel that Ithink because we're both really in touch with
our spiritualities and have been getting reallyclose to God and love and peace and

(34:07):
enjoy that God wants for all ofus. I think that it's been easier
for me to just like open upand love him. And I'm like,
you know what, I totally lovethis guy. It's been a year of
us dating. I really want tocelebrate him for his birthday and him and
I just kind of want to likeshower him with all the love I think

(34:28):
he deserves. So I have forthe past few weeks have been working on
his birthday basket, which did alot. I mean, this birthday basket
was so traumatic for me. Ittook a lot of time. So here's
what I did. I went onAmazon. He is such a little sappy,
lovey dovey simpi boy, and hehates when I say that, but
he knows he is. He lovesthe lovey dovey stuff. He loves a

(34:50):
little cute memories and sentimental things.And so I'm like, let me get
him stuff that does that. SoI got him this book on Amazon and
and it's like, it's like Iwrote a book about you, and it
gives you prompts and then you fillit out right, and some of the
prompts are like there are so manyamazing things, but I really love that,
you blink. It is so awesome. How the one time we blah

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blah blah, if I can thinkof, if I can pick our dream
place for us to go tomorrow,we would go here and we would do
this and we would late and havefun here all day. So it's it's
like you fill in the blank kindof vibes. Is what was that like
thing? What was that little bookwhen we were a little mad Libs?

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Is that what it was called?Oh my god, I'm throwing his back
right now. If she don't knowwhat mad Libs are, she is too
young for you. Bro. Remembermad Libs. It's like a book where
you like fill in the blank forthings, and so it's kind of like
that, but you get more space. So I was like, he's gonna
love this because it's so sappy andit's all about him, and it's just
throwing him about how amazing he is. Like he really deserves and like needs

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and deserves that from me. Sowhen I started writing and filling out this
book like two weeks ago, Iwas like, this is hard. Like
some things, I couldn't really thinkof just one thing, So I'm like,
I really have to dig deep andtake time with this, because if
I wanted to, I could fillit out really quickly, but it wouldn't

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be like that heartfelt, like Ireally want him to know that I took
time and thought into this. SoI'm just like sitting and I'm like,
oh my god, Cause it's likeif you were a color, you would
be if you were a sandwich,you would be like someone pages like,
that's like if you were a superhero. I'm like superhero like it's giving,
like Body of Captain America is giving, like get anything done like Superman,

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it's giving troll like Deadpool like.So I just couldn't really think of one
for certain things. But that tookme the longest. That took me the
longest. Okay, So I hadthat book for him that was one part
of his birthday basket. And thenyou know, it was our first year

(37:07):
together that we're celebrating. We metThanksgiving weekend of last year. So I
was like, why don't I puttogether like a little kind of scrap book,
a ghetto scrap book of our firstthings that we share together, our
first times doing things. So Iwent through all our camera role we share
like an album together on our phoneswhere whenever we take pictures, we just

(37:30):
share them in that album. Sowe always have pictures of each other that
if he took them on his phoneor I took them on my phone.
So I I'm so happy that Iget to see him when I get off
work today. I was like gettingsad I was missing him, but I
forget that. I'm gonna throw up, bro, I'm gonna thorow up like
I hate love Dove simpy stuff.When people post like lovew stuff, I'm

(37:52):
like, shut up, shut up, But this is my reality. I
don't know what to do about it. I'm getting hot and bothered. So
I went through our camera roll andI just picked out like our favorite photos.
I know he loves that I loveand first things we shared together,
so I obviously love to troll thisman. So the first thing that I
put is our first time watching theNiners lose together, which was in Philly,

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and it was a photo of ame and my cousins when he came
to visit. And you know,that's so funny that the first time he
came to visit me on the EastCoast, he ended up meeting my family
and I already liked him so muchat that point, so it didn't really
matter to me, but he waskind of like, is this weird?
Is it not? I'm like,nah, my cousins are hella cool and

(38:35):
it's going to be vibe And thatwas like such a fun trip looking back,
like that was so fun. Andyou know, the Niners lost,
so he was in such a badfood but the tables have turned as of
them because this past weekend if yousaw the Niner game, oh, he
was I We'll get to that.So that was the first when he first

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opens the book of our first hehe's first like like, oh my god,
okay, yeah, so the firstpage is that. And then our
first gelato together, our first moviewhen we saw Oppenheimer, like the first
time we went to Disneyland together,which is just so sweet and special because
like the most important person to himand his life is in that photo.
And just different firsts of things,our first time at China Town, our

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first jet ski trip in Miami,our first time like different things, even
though some of them were a littlelike recently, but other things were different.
And it was our first time atchurch. I didn't even realize I
took a photo of us with ourone of our hospitality friends at church.
The first time I brought him andput that in there, just a whole
bunch of them made our first timeto go watch a baseball game together,

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and so that was really cute.So that was another part of his gift.
He also, like I said,he's very sentimental. He likes deep
conversations. And I've explained to youthat we have these friendship cards that I
bought when we first met on Amazon, and it just kind of of is
deep questions about each other. Andthere's a relationship deck. Like there's different
decks, Like the deck that Igot for us was friendship, but there's

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like relationship deck, barely dating deck, relationship engage deck, married deck,
five year anniversary deck. Right,So when we were when we were together,
or maybe we had like broken upfor a second, he was like,
when are we getting the relationship deck, and I was like, not

(40:29):
yet, not yet, like youknow, you broke up with me or
something like that. I don't know. So we didn't get the relationship deck,
but I got it for his birthdayand and oh my god, Okay,
so I got that for his birthday. That was also part of the
birthday basket and I've been wanting todo this tour here in New York City.
It's called Mobsters and Ghosts and it'sdowntown, and I know he would

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love something like that. He's Italianand you know mobster the mafia thing was
huge down here with the Italians,so I knew he would like that.
So I got his dikest to goto that tour, and then I got
his tickets for the Christmas bar herein New York City, Frosty's, and
then was that it. Oh,I got him a Niner's Santa hat because
he loves the Niners and he needsa Santa hat over here, so I

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got one of those, and thenI put like, I've just gotten whatever
he wanted when we went shopping,and I dropped a bag on him when
we did that. So so Ialready had the birthday basket all put together
and I hit it in my apartment, and then I had Party City deliver
balloons, so that when I gothome from my red eye, I grabbed

(41:37):
the balloons from my front desk andthen I went up and then I ran
in real quick to grab the birthdaybasket, and then I tied the balloons
around the birthday basket and then Iran in and I was just like happy
Birthday two. And he was shook. He was like, oh my gosh.
I was like I know, Iknow. He's like, what is

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I've never gotten anything like this?What's going on. I'm like, happy
birthdays, your birthday basket, andhe's just like a little kid. He's
just so excited. He is alittle child right now, so excited.
And he's opening He first opens theNiner Santa hat, and then he opens
the Christmas bar tickets, and thenhe opens like the monsters and ghost thing.

(42:21):
He's like, this is so cool. And then he opens the card
deck and he's like, you saidwe weren't gonna use this until we finish
the other deck. Oh that's whyyou were gonna get it for me,
and like yeah, and then heopens up the Black Book and he's like,
oh my gosh. I'm like,yeah, that's a lot, so
you can't ready. Now he's like, oh my gosh, and he's just
so happy. And then he opensup the Book of the First and he's
like he looks at me like oh, and I'm like I know, and

(42:45):
he starts looking through it. Heopens the first page. He sees the
Niner troll and he's like I'm done. I'm done, and I'm like,
no, I know, we haveto keep going. And then he goes
through and then he sees the photoof us at Disneyland with his special little
bestie and he's like, oh mygod. He's like this is so special,
and he's just like I can't believeyou did this, Like this is
just so great, and I'm like, I know, happy birthday, like

(43:05):
I love you, like I hopeyou enjoyed it, and we're gonna have
so much fun this weekend, andit was just a great way to start
off his birthday weekend. So weneeded to sleep in because we both took
red eyes. We were both madtired. We slept until three thirty in
the afternoon, which was amazing.And then I got all ready. Now
you got all cute, and Igot on glam because we were gonna do
since we were gonna do the Mobstersand Ghost Tour that night, we wanted

(43:30):
to come correct and we wanted todress up like mobsters and mobster wife.
So I had like my faux fur, my big old lashes, I did
my hair all big, old,big old pumped up lipliner on fleak.
We're going bona vibes. I havemy heel boots on. I don't careful

(43:50):
and be struggling on this night tourwalk. I have my heel booths.
I'm gonna be looking all cute.So we get ready and then we go
to the first place, Medusa Mediterranean, which was so good, and I
was supposed to be obviously taking careof his birthday dinners, but they didn't
have Apple pay and you don't melike, I don't carry around a credit

(44:12):
card like ever or my idea ever. So unfortunately he had to pay for
that one. I was like,I'll get you back, I'll get you
back. He's like, nah,don't worry about it. I was like,
okay, thanks. So then afterthat great restaurant, by the way,
very hard to get a reservation.The only reservation I was able to
get was at five forty five.But it did work out because after that
we went to the Mobster Tour,which is at seven. So we took
a taxi down and it was reallyfun because I was like, we have

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to drink, like, we haveto get twisted right now. So he
runs away gets a bottle. We'relike sipping and on the tour, and
our tour guide is great, andwe're like a group of like twenty of
us and we're just kind of liketaking shots a while we're hearing these ghosts
and mafia stories all around. Westarted in Chinatown, behind Chinatown, then
we go up to like little Italy, and then he takes us around there,

(44:57):
and then we go up more andthese crazy stories too of the fires,
the fires that prompted the Women's Union. If you learned about that,
that was really great. And thenwe learned about Washington Square Park on Fourth
Street what that used to be,which was crazy. So I don't want
to give it up to you ifyou ever want to do that tour.
But the tour was amazing. Ourtour guide was Peer ten out of ten.

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And it was fun because we're gettinglike twisty and turned on the way
too, So it was a reallycute, really fab really fun. Then
I booked us a reservation at thisKorean barbecue that is like it's a shame
Korean barbecue, but like a luxuryKorean barbecue. Super hard to get a
reservation, especially for two. Wehad a ten thirty reservation. We pulled

(45:43):
up, they weren't ready with ourtable, so we're like, fine,
we're just gonna go to the barand get drinks and drinks and drinks.
So I was just drinking and drinkingand going and going, and then finally
get to our table. Oh mygod, everything was so good. Everything
was so good. I mean,we got the prefixed where it's kind of
like, you know, you paythat price per person and they're just gonna
go off on you. Oh wedid that. We got like the short

(46:05):
ribs, the wag you like,all of it, and oh my god,
it was so good. I wantto go back so bad. My
next paycheck. Well, actually againthey didn't have Apple pay. Actually I
was a little browned out, soI don't remember how we paid, but
uh yeah, he ended up paying, which which was fine, so his

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next paycheck will go back. Sofun get back late. I mean,
we didn't get to my house likeuntil like two am and just knocked and
then we woke up the next day. We weren't really that hungover because he's
so good. He always makes surethat I chug water and he chugs water
if we're gonna drink, so Ididn't feel hung over because he was just
chugging water down my throat the entirenight. So like adulting, growing up,

(46:52):
maturing, Maybe I shouldn't be browningout. That's something that I'm still
working out with my therapist. ButI am happy that Alice said't have a
hangover. But we slept in socrazy that we missed church kind of said
about that, but I was like, do you still want to go hospitality?
He's like you do right, I'mlike yeah, He's like okay,

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let's go. So we pull upto Hospitality just like five minutes late and
they all start like clapping when weget there. They're like, Oh,
we didn't think we're gonna see youtoday, and is Oh my god.
I was about to say his nameis your boyfriend here too? And then
he comes in later because he wasin the bathroom. They're like, oh
hi. So we spent that partwith my hospitality fam, which was great,
and we're just praying for him andhis family and me and my family.

(47:38):
We're praying for our cousin Jessica,who is still dealing with her leukemia
that came back, but she's doingbetter and she's getting through her chemo and
I just have to say thank youso much for all those prayers, because
oh, we really need them somuch. And I know that all of
our families have things that we're dealingwith when it comes to our health,

(47:58):
and it's just so hard when youfeel like you can't really do much.
But prayers do work. Good energy, good light, just sending love and
good vibes with whatever you believe in. If you, I always say like,
I really, I don't want topush what I believe in in my
spirituality and religion on you, butlove and positivity and light to anyone in

(48:22):
your family that is struggling, forall of us collectively, because everyone could
use it. So thank you soso much that you've been keeping my cousin
Jessica and your prayers because it hasbeen helping. And yeah, so what
we were praying for. And thenafter that we wanted to get food,
and then he was trying to finda bar to watch the forty nine er

(48:44):
game. Now I'm always trolling himand saying how bad the Niners are.
I'm a Raider fan, but Ialso I'm a flippy floppy fan. When
he went to see the Niners inPhilly, I was rocking Niner colors in
a writer a Niner. So yeah, I'm a flippy, floppy fan.
I don't do I care, notreally at all, but I do like

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trolling him, and I do liketriggering him about the Niners because I think
that's one of the only things thathe really cares about is the Niners and
the Giants. So I'm talking smack, I'm talking smack, I'm talking smack,
and he's wearing his Niners Santa hat. We're at the bar, and
the bar is playing pop music veryloud, and he's triggered because I'm singing

(49:25):
along and I'm having a karaoke partyby myself while he's watching the Niners.
He's like, what kind of baris this? Why? I don't want
to hear Lady Goga. I can'teven hear what they're saying. We're gonna
leave at halftime. We're gonna leaveat halftime. And I'm like, why
can't I also have a good time. He's like, it can't always be
about you. Your whole everything isalways about you. Can't this just be

(49:46):
about me? For once? Iwas like, this whole weekend has been
about you. It's your birthday weekend. He's like, but I just want
to watch the Niners. It's allI cared about. We're leaving at halftime.
We're leaving at halftime, so luckyfor him, the Niners were doing
well by the time we left forhalftime, which all honestly is also lucky
for me too, because if it'sif he's in a good mood about the
Niners, then that means that I'mgonna be in a good mood because he's

(50:09):
in a good mood. So we'rewalking back home and then he's watching the
rest of the game while I'm cleaning, and I just hear him screaming and
getting up and being like yeah,like going crazy, and I guess like
the Niners just went absolutely off,like it was not even cute or funny,
Like the eagles were not flapping,the birds were not flying. They

(50:31):
were very sad about it. Somy man's was very happy about that.
And then afterwards we put on ourI've got him an elf costume, like
an elf onesie, like a funsie, and I got myself like a missus
clause one, and we were makinga gingerbread house together, which was so
cute and so fun, and we'rejust watching movies and then and then we

(50:52):
knocked out and that was an amazingSunday night. And then yesterday we got
to sleep, and we went tothe we went to work, I went
to where he did his thing,and then we're going to meet at Frosty's,
which is that Christmas bar in thecity. So I pull up.
It's right in midtown. We're goingto meet each other. We're going to

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wear our onesies there, and there'sa long line. He's like, there's
two hundred people in this line.I'm like, yeah, that sounds about
right. So I'm going through thisline. I can't find him. I
go to the front and we meetup, and then the security guard is
like, the line is back there. So I'm like, there's no way

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this is the line for Frosty's,because I asked a guy and he said
that it's a corporate event. SoI'm very confused. And I see that
there's like a shorter line towards thewall, and then the girls are like,
oh, are you in line forFrosty's. And I'm like yeah,
and they're like, oh, it'sright there, like this is the line
a little bit further back. Isaid, okay, cool, not even

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close to how long the actual thatcorporate event line. That line went a
block and a half and the Frostie'sline was like barely twenty people. So
then we get to the front ofthe Frosty's line and I look at the
security guard. I'm like, bro, you said that long line. That
is something totally else. And he'slike, my bad. I'm like you're

(52:19):
bad. Yeah, Like, don'tbe wasting people's time. And he's like
yeah, sorry, and I'm justlike, okay, whatever I should have
over my mouth because the problem is, I don't care if my idre out
of me. Remember I don't careif my ID. I don't care my
wallet. Like I just literally rawdog life. I don't know how you
do it, but I managed.And then the security guard. The first

(52:40):
thing the second guy goes is like, where's your ID? And I'm like,
dang. So I'm like, hereit is. I quickly pull it
up on my phone. He's like, oh, we usually don't accept phones,
and I was like, but you'rescanning, right. It scans,
and so he tries to scan itand it totally works. I'm like,
thank you. And so we getin. We get into this bar exactly
what we imagine. I mean,it's a complete tourist trap, which is

(53:01):
fine, but let's be honest.It is decorated nice and we were dressed
for the okay, jehann I'm talkingmy missus clause Onesie, his elf onesie,
his niner hat has been getting madcompliments. I look like a baddie.
Everyone is loving our fits, likethey tell us, y'all came correct,
Yes, we love your fit guys. You guys are killing it.

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And so we go downstairs, weget a drink like they're not bad.
We go upstairs to get some foodbecause we're starving because we have any inn,
and we're just kind of like peoplewatching. It's still really early,
it's like six thirty and we justare people watching and there's like a whole
bunch of photo op places. Ihave to do a social post for Tom's
like it's very chaotic, and he'slike, I like, how you bring

(53:45):
me to the events that you haveto work for, And I'm like no,
I was like I was gonna Ibought tickets for this first of all.
Number two. It just so happensthat I do have to do a
Toms social post. But it's becausewe're dressed up for Christmas like this is
the perfect place to do it.He's like, fine, fine, find
you right. So he's being myInstagram boyfriend taking my cute little photos for
me with tombs, and then I'mlike, come on, babe, Like

(54:07):
there's all these fun photo things,like let's do photos, and like at
first he's kind of being a partypooper about it, but then he's like,
okay, fine, let's do it. We get the funniest, funniest,
like couple Christmas pics, like welook like we were employees of Frosty's.
And it was so he was embarrassed. He hated it. He says

(54:28):
that he hates being like in people'sway. But I'm like, this is
what this is for, babe,Like this place is for the content.
He again, he doesn't have socialmedia. He doesn't care about that stuff.
And he doesn't mind, Like hedoesn't mind that I post him.
He doesn't care if I hard launchhim. Did we talk about that?
Did we talk about the ig hardlaunch yet? Okay, we're gonna get
to that in a second. Hedoesn't care about that stuff, but he

(54:53):
just he thinks it's like cringey.But when we were doing them and then
afterwards and I showed him. Hewas really happy that we took and they're
actually really really funny and iconic,and I'm really thankful that he was down
with that. If he want tohave been down if the Niners lost,
I'll tell you that that was socute, that was so fun, that
was so fresh. And then wewere starving like that weird chicken sandwich from
Frosty's did not do it for us, so we hopped into a taxi and

(55:15):
went to the Upper east Side toget Thai food. And on the way
up there, we were just sendingto Christmas carols and singing and just like
a dueting and playing karaoke car karaokein the taxi, and our taxi driver
hated us, but we were inthe vibe. We were in the Christmas
mood and spirit. And he hasbeen singing what is the song Michael bou
Blaze rendition of White Christmas. He'sbeen playing that to himself NonStop, and

(55:42):
he has been throwing down with thevocals like he it could be bou Blaze
like one hundred percent. And he'sreally into the John Legend and Kelly Clarkson
duet of Baby. It's cold outside, so we really, we're gonna we're
going to prepare that all year andfor Christmas next year, we're gonna have
a talent show in him and Iare gonna do that one. We're gonna

(56:02):
perform that one. So I'm reallyexcited for that. He hasn't fully gone
on board with it, but it'snot about him. He has no saying
this, but yeah, it's reallyfun hearing him open up and like he
used to be really really shy aboutsinging around me, but he's been he's
been opening up, crack it outin the show, which we stand.
So it was really fun. Ourtie our tie dinner was great. We

(56:25):
just are chat and chat and chatand we just like never stopped talking.
I don't understand how that can happen, but it was really amazing. And
then we went home and I've neverseen a Home Alone, so he's like,
I want to watch Home Alone withyou for the first time. Then
we watched Home Alone together on myend for the first time, which is
an amazing movie, like such afunny, funny, funny movie. Loved

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it. And then today we wokeup. He has been all about trying
to figure out how to use andmake cappuccinos with my espresso machine at home.
So he's on YouTube and trying tofind different like hacks on how to
make me the most. It's reallyfor himself, but I'm saying it's for
me to make me the perfect cappuccinowith like the feather, like you know,
the little mark, all that stuff. So he's been working on that.

(57:10):
He needs a little more practice.But yeah, our morning consisted of
that, and then we took thebus together. He dropped me off at
the NQWR, and then he wentto his job for work. And then
today when we get off, we'redressed super Christmas vibes again because we're going
to see Danny DeVito on Broadway.I'm gonna cry. I'm going to cry.

(57:38):
What is this? The show calledDanny DeVito? Broadway's called this is
Up? Or I Need That?It's called I Need That, And I'm
just so excited. Dan DeVito ismy number one. Danny Davito, we
have talked about it and agreed ismy hall pass. I'm going to try

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so hard tonight when the actors fromBroadway come out, you know and get
into their cars, I'm going toreally try to like just lay it on
DeVito hard. Him and I havehad one interaction before at Duan Day in
Oakland. We sang the troll Tollsong together from It's Always Sunday in Philadelphia.
He was drunk and smacked my ass. It was the best night of
my entire life. This was backin twenty thirteen. It was literally like

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the best night of my life wasmeeting Danny DeVito. And this is going
to be hopefully the second time thatI get to meet him, and I
am he's single now, he gotdivorced, so I can actually put the
moves for real, for real onhim, and yeah, I mean ZADDI
agreed that he will do whatever hecan to be my wingman because Dan DeVito

(58:44):
is my one hall pass and hishall pass is he doesn't get one.
That's his hall pass. He doesn'tget one. It is what it is.
Sorry, I don't make the rules. That's just how it goes.
But so excited about that. Whatwas I going to talk to you about
that? I said, if weneed to get to that, but let's
all give around to applause because Igot approved my Christmas vacation. Yes I

(59:05):
did, Yes, I did.I know you might think that I took
a lot of vacations this year,but what it really was is that I
was sent to a lot of placesfor work, so I kind of tagged
on some days for that. Iwas actually allocating my vacation really effectively because
I want to make sure that Ihad enough time off to have two weeks
off for Christmas in New Year's andwe did that. Congratulations, we did

(59:28):
that. And I'm going back homefor Christmas week. I'm so excited.
I get to go back home andwe're going to have my family huge holiday
Christmas party right when I touched down, which is really fun. And Zaddy
gets to come, so he's alreadymet a lot of that side of the
family anyways, so there's no problems. And then Christmas Eve, we're going

(59:50):
to be with his side of thefamily, which is so exciting. I
have been on FaceTime with them,but I've never them yet because the time
just didn't allow and whenever we're tryingto meet, someone would be sick,
so it just it wouldn't work outthat way. But we'really excited to spend
Christmas Eve together, and then ChristmasDay he's gonna be with my side of

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the family, which is so fun. And then after that we're going to
spend a few more days in thebay and then we're this is the plan.
This is the plan, and itis It is actually barbaric, but
gonna be so fun. It's gonnabe me, my brother Junior, the

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duck, his son Alex who isten, the little ducky if they have
on, my little brother, andmy boyfriend Zaddie, and we're all gonna
squish in my apartment for New Years. Not only that, not only that,
ladies and gentlemen, we are goingto put on our diapers and pank

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went over two times Square to watchthe ball drop on New Year's Eve.
Yes we are, yes, weare. Now listen, Zaddy, ten
out of ten, does not wantto do this, like he is like
no, like I don't want todo this, and I'm like, you
don't have a choice, because wedon't know for how many more years I'm
gonna live in New York City.I cannot say that I lived in New

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York City and did not watch theball drop. That's absolutely not happening.
And the fact that I for Christmasand flying out my nephew, my brothers
to New York City. You guysare gonna do what I want for New
Year's and like we're gonna have mynephew, so we can't go out,
We're not going to the bars,we can't drink because we have my nephew.
So we are going to have agood old, grand old time wearing

(01:01:42):
our diapers and being penguins to watchthe ball drop for five hours at Times
Square, and it's gonna be iconic. And we're gonna have our handwarmers and
we're gonna have our beanies and we'regonna have our be bundled up and it's
gonna be great. I cannot wait. And my brother said absolutely. The
duck said yes, I'm in.And when the whole crew says yes,
Zaddy kind of will get fomo ifhe doesn't come along. So obviously he's

(01:02:05):
going to come along too, Andit's just going to be the best,
best time of our lives. Icannot wait. I cannot wait. So
that's the plan for now. Hopefullythat happens, because like it will just
be everything to be able to watchthe ball drop, especially with the people
that I love the most, mybrothers, my nephew, my boyfriend.

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Like it is just ten out often going to be iconic. So I'm
really happy that we're going to spendsome time in New York City and I
get to spend some time home forthe holidays, and actually I'm going to
spend like the entire two weeks withZaddi. So that makes me so so
so so so it's so happy.And I didn't catch up with you about
Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving was amazing because Iworked as Z one hundred so I can

(01:02:49):
save those two days for Christmas break. So I worked and it was great.
You know. I woke up,I was like, if I'm not
gonna be with my family for Thanksgiving, the other best place to be honest
is at my job with our listeners, because I'm just so happy and thankful
that I have my job, likeZ one hundred is iconic. I don't
know how I can't really go upfrom Z. You cannot go up from

(01:03:12):
Z one hundred, especially with whatI do in radio, Like Z one
hundred is the tip tip top.It is the apex for me and my
role and my job as a radiohost. So to be on Z one
hundred for Thanksgiving, I just wasreflecting on how awesome it could be because
like I said, if I waswith my family, were the second best

(01:03:32):
place on air on Z one hundred. So afterwards, I had some wingstop
leftover, so me and Frappy wehad some wingstop. We decorated my entire
house for Christmas. It was reallyrelaxing. The next day I worked as
well, and it's just easy andreally fun when I get to just work
by myself and just with the listenersand take calls and chill and what are
we thankful for? And then thatnext weekend I worked too, and we

(01:03:53):
had a really fun hospitality party atchurch and they had it all that's so
much food, and we had performers. We had people singing and playing the
violin and doing the piano. Wasa big Ol'd shindig, really really great
Thanksgiving. I've had a really greatpast few weeks. And yeah, I've
been working a lot with that newhit list that I'm on every night,

(01:04:15):
which is so fun. Again,that's Monday through Friday, eleven pm to
twelve midnight on every single iHeart Topforty station. And I mean I'm talking
about cities I didn't even know howto pronounce, which is amazing. I
don't even think I have a list. They were just sending me liners and
liners and liners of like thing liketo plug in in between my talk breaks,

(01:04:38):
which was cool, and yeah,that's what we have going on.
Oh, this is what I wasgoing to talk about. We were going
to talk about the Instagram hard launchor not. Because Zaddy was in town
right before. We were celebrating ourone year of dating anniversary, and like,

(01:04:58):
I wanted to celebrate us and sometimeaway on the Gram. But we
took some cute pictures, but Iwas like, it's kind of boring.
I was looking through the videos ofus and every time that we are at
a restaurant and have a drink,we cheers, and I was like,
oh, those are so cute,Like why don't I do like a video
compilation of different places that we've cheersedat, and so I put together it's

(01:05:19):
like really really cute video and Isent it to him and he was like
he called me right away, hewas like, oh my god. I
replayed it like twenty times. It'sso freaking cute. Happy one year.
I am just so happy that we'vespent this year together. And then he
sent me a really long sweet textabout our one year and then about like
his birthday too, because it's allaround the same time. And I was

(01:05:43):
he was like, are you goingto post on Instagram? And I was
like yeah, but I'm gonna obviouslycover you up. And he's like what
is that about? Like why doyou cover me up? And I'm just
like, well, I have reallynever posted a guy that I date,
like other than guys that I brieflydated in high school, which you don't
really count. I mean they docount, right, but like an adult
boyfriend, I've never posted on Instagram. I posted like my first boyfriend who

(01:06:09):
were still cool at homies. Iposted like back back back in high school
and we're friends. And I postedlike my prom date who I ended up
dating afterwards. But as an adult, as a grown woman, I've never
posted a guy that I actually datedwith because, first of all, like
I don't both my job, LikeI don't really want people knowing who they

(01:06:30):
are, and I've spoken about thatbefore, like I sign up for this,
like they didn't. I don't reallyif I want to freely talk about
things, I don't want them toto get any type of energy from my
homies and supporters. And also Ireally just kind of want to post like

(01:06:51):
the person that I'm going to endup with like forever, Like I want
to post on Instagram like the personthat is going to be my forever hubby
hubby, and I want to givethem that, like I want. I
think that's how I kind of wantto roll. And he's like, oh,
okay, and I'm like, doyou want me to post to?
And he's like, I mean,I just really don't understand, like not
that I He's like, I notthat I don't want you or do want

(01:07:14):
you to post me. I justdidn't understand why you like didn't And I
just I support you a minute's yourstuff and I completely understand about your job.
And I mean, yeah, let'sthink about it. Last last year,
I was dating a new guy likeevery week. So if I posted
every little guy I dated last weeklast year, like there would have been

(01:07:35):
so many guys to post. Andmost of the guys, yeah, all
the guys that I dated last year, I mean I didn't like them enough
to actually post or be in arelationship with. I mean I hadn't been
in a relationship since the boyfriend thatI had when I was like twenty one
or whatever, since stepping Stone.That was like my last boyfriend, and

(01:07:57):
but I was really happy to postour one year annivers and yeah, I
just still want to keep him tomyself. You've heard over and over why,
but yeah, it's for my privacy. It's to keep us private for
each other. He has a wholeside of the family that did not sign

(01:08:19):
up for things like this. Idon't want any interesting ruckus going on.
He is a father. I don'twant people on that end of the spectrum
to feel any type of way aboutanything. So that's why I'd rather keep
him as a little cat emoji andthen the mate poachers. Obviously. I

(01:08:43):
explained on Instagram that even when I'mwith him in public, people have hit
on him in front of me,men and women. He got hit on
when he took me to church backhome. When I went to go visit
him, I went to the bathroomfor four seconds and I come back and
there's like, there's two guys thereand I'm like, what's going on?
And they completely ignored me, andZaddi was like let's go. And I

(01:09:03):
was like, did they just hiton you? And He's like yes,
and I'm like okay, so yeah, I just I don't need that energy.
I don't need and he doesn't needto have socials, so it's not
even that serious. But yeah,we're gonna we're gonna keep it to the
soft launch. We're gonna keep tothe soft launch. And he completely is
fine with either way. He's like, if you feel like posting me,
I don't care, like I loveyou and I want to I'm here for

(01:09:26):
anything. I don't feel like youare hiding me. So if you do
want to post me, cool,And if you don't, then it's fine,
Like you do you queen, andI'm like, I will thank you,
love you. So that's the situationon that. What is cute little
bald cat emoji. Love him forthat. So hope that you enjoyed this
episode of Crystal's Nightcap. We aregoing to be going a little in and

(01:09:49):
out there is the end of theyear is heavy and there's been a lot
of stuff going on with the newposition that I have with the new hit
list and try a lot and justtrying to stay present and just trying to
do what I could do here atwork and manage everything. So I really
appreciate you for being okay with mebeing inconsistent with the pod. I try

(01:10:13):
to when I can. I knowit's been a long time, but I
hope you enjoyed this episode. Wehave our soultell Z one Hundre Drink a
Ball coming up this Friday, sothere's going to be really really great stuff
to share the next time I dropan episode. But as you can see,
everything over here has been really goodand I'm just so thankful and I
I've just been really in a goodplace. You know, I started therapy.

(01:10:35):
It's going to be my fifth episodecoming up now. I remember I
told you that with therapy, Icalled them episodes. We've been doing it
weekly and I'm telling you a lotis being unpacked, and yeah, I've
just been learning so much more aboutmyself and a lot of things have been

(01:10:58):
getting put into perspectives. So maybeto have a line I could share some
of those details with you. Butit's just been really helpful and I've been
really happy and it's been really helpingbecause I explained to you that my boyfriend's
the one that was like, yo, you should look into therapy because I
feel like my spirituality has grown somuch over the past year. I've been

(01:11:19):
getting into fitness more and more.I'm hitting that mile on the treadmill and
doing those stretches and doing those arms. I'm trying to keep it writing tight
snatched for myself, and I've beeneating really well, and i feel like
i just haven't really been giving mybrain and my mental the love that it
needs. So I'm really thankful thathe's been pushing me to go and that

(01:11:41):
I've been going because it's just beensuper, super helpful. So I've been
feeling really good lately. I hopethat you have two whatever you have going
on. I know the holidays they'retough. Sometimes there's so much going on,
and maybe you are going to hangout with family that's just like not
your favorite, or there's just youwish that you had a better family,
or you just feel a little extralonely on the holidays. Maybe you're going

(01:12:02):
through a breakup, Maybe you're justnot in the happiest relationship, maybe you
are whatever the case may be,we all can use extra love, extra
prayers, extra good intentions. SoI'm giving that all to you and more.
And with that, let's go intoour daily Motivator. We'd like to
close out every episode giving us justkind of little motivation for the week.

(01:12:24):
This one is called truth of whoyou are. Your mind is too precious.
Your thoughts and values, too arehard one to let them be stolen
by trivialities. Dang the way Isaid, trivialities so effortlessly look at us.
Your mind is too precious, yourthoughts and values too hard one to
let them be stolen by trivialities.Yet that danger lurks every time you settle

(01:12:46):
for mere pleasure or convenience. Whenserious contemplation and effort are called for,
take care that you not lay towaste everything your discipline and focus have earned.
It's tragically easy to do when youselect the easiest options in lieu of
the best ones. Fortunately, yourdiligence can keep your indolence. There's like

(01:13:08):
big words in this one today.Fortunately your diligence can keep your indolence at
bay. With humility, you're ableto avoid the gravitational pool of arrogance.
With humility, you're able to avoidthe gravitational pool of arrogance. I love
that you have the tools with whichto fill each day with positive purpose,

(01:13:29):
with meaning, solid substance, achievement, and value. Those tools are yours.
When you choose the challenge of truthover the convenience of lies. Those
tools are yours. When you choosethe challenge of truth over the convenience of
lies, you can quickly learn againto love the rare field air of authenticity
you can allow yourself to experience.There's an ad in the way. You

(01:13:54):
can allow yourself to experience and expressthe truth that has always existed at your
deepest level of Insist on living aswho you are, not who it's easiest
to pretend to be. Live thepurpose that is always a challenge to articulate
yet ultimately impossible to deny. Insiston living as who you are, not

(01:14:15):
who it's easiest to pretend to be. Ooh, snap, sizzle, Live
that purpose. Live the purpose thatis always a challenge to articulate, yet
ultimately impossible to deny. Oh sogood, so good. I love this
this part where it says, fortunately, your diligence can keep your indolence at

(01:14:36):
bay. With humility, you're ableto avoid the gravitational pull of arrogance.
Wait, that's so true. Ohmy gosh. The other day I got
some pretty bad, annoying news thatI'll share eventually, but it kind of

(01:14:57):
made me irritable in the moment andit kind of made me really angry at
the people around me, and soI was getting triggered by them, and
I swear I was going to gooff, Like I was going to go
off. I was going to gooff, but I was like, let
me take some deep breaths. Igot up. I ran to my boss
and I was just I kind ofjust like told my boss how I was
feeling, and he was just sosweet. He's always supporting me, and

(01:15:17):
he's like, listen, like Ican see how you're feeling that way.
Like I'm so sorry that you're feelingthat way. I'm here for you.
Like do you want me to talkto them? Like what do you want
me to do? Like would youwant me to do? And I was
just like I don't know. AndHe's like do you need to go take
a breath? Do you need togo take a walk? And I'm like
yeah, yeah, I'm like breakingdown. I'm literally breaking down at work.

(01:15:39):
I'm like yes, So I gooutside, I get some fresh air,
I take a walk, I takelike five minutes to myself and I
take a deep breath and I collectmyself and I go back in and it's
it's I feel a lot better.I feel so much better. And later
on my boss is like, hey, like, how are you feeling now,
Like do you want to chat aboutit? How are you doing?
And I was just like, yeah, let's chat tomorrow, like I need

(01:16:01):
a day. So then we chatthe next day and he's just like,
listen, it was it was reallymature and good of you to like not
say anything and not lash out,because yeah, it looked like you were
just really emotional at that time.And even though your points are valid,
like, I'm happy that you decidedto be professional and mature and just take

(01:16:23):
a deep breath and take a momentinstead of like raging, right, because
with humility you're able to avoid thegravitational pull of arrogance. Yeah, because
if I would have went off like, I would have looked Craig Cray like,
and I really just needed a moment. There was just a lot more
going on than that exact instance.Like sometimes we'll blow up about things,
but like the things that we're blowingup exactly at isn't even really what we're

(01:16:47):
annoyed or angry at. It's justlike the build up of overtime or the
build up of other things. Soif you can just take a step back,
and just like with humility, youreally can't avoid the gravitation pool of
arrogance. Like if you feel yourselfgetting arould up, Like if you feel
yourself you're about to just go off, you're just about to scream and you're
just about to flip the finger andbe like, ef you, why did

(01:17:08):
you do that? Like just takea deep breath and like that conversation of
like whatever trigger do you can?You could always go back to that,
but when you're so enraged in themoment, like you're just gonna turn into
this like mad, evil, angrything that you like really aren't and really
shouldn't be. I'm really proud ofthat I had that moment and was able

(01:17:30):
to just go to my boss andbe like I need help, I need
to vent to you, and hewas able to tell me, like,
go take a breath, right,because I really did not know what to
do, like I was breaking down. It's tough. Sometimes life is tough.
Life is tough with work, Lifeis tough with family, with co

(01:17:53):
parenting, with x's, Like lifeis just so with people that trigger you,
you know, your parents, Likelife is really tough sometimes and just
take a deep breath. Just justgive yourself love and grace, and we're

(01:18:15):
all going through it together, andwe will continue to go through together.
Thank you so much for hanging outwith me for another episode of Crystal's Nightcap.
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