Moral Injury: the Invisible Epidemic Affecting American Veterans

On this episode of Our American Stories, Major General "Mook" Mukoyama volunteered and served in Korea and Vietnam. In 1986, he became the youngest General in the Army at that time. Soon after he was promoted to Major General, commanding the 70th Training Division during Desert Storm. Retired now, he spends his time serving our Veterans.

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:10):
This is Lee Habib and this is our American Stories,
the show where America is the star and the American people.
Major General James Mukayama rose from his blue collar Chicago
neighborhood to become the first Asian American to command a
US Army division. General Mook, as he is well known,

(00:31):
is the author of Faith, Family, and Flag Memoirs of
an Unlikely American Samurai Crusader. Mukayama volunteered and served in
Korea and Vietnam. In nineteen eighty six, he became the
youngest general in the Army. Soon after, he was promoted
to major general, commanding the seventieth Training Division during Desert Storm. Retired,

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now he spends his time serving our veterans.

Speaker 2 (00:58):
When I was in the Kong Delta with the Hardcore Battalion,
an incident occurred where we had just overrun an enemy
position and we had killed numerous enemies, and in fact,
there were three dead bodies at my feet. Now, the
time of unit is most vulnerable is right after a victory.

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It's just human nature to kind of let your guard
down and breathe a sigh of relief. Well, I'm the
guy in charge, so I'm on my radio, barking out
orders to my platoon leaders. And then suddenly I stopped
and I looked at the three dead bodies at my feet.

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I realized that something had happened to me, something had
hardened my heart. Only moments earlier. These were alive, human beings,
children of God. They had families and loved ones, and
they were fighting for something as a important to them
as I was fighting for. And yet I was just

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treating them like they were bumps on a log. And
then I remembered Jesus' Sermon on the Mount where he
told us to pray for our enemies. And so in
the midst of all this stuff going on, I set
a prayer for the three viet column and myself, I
knew I was praying for myself as well. Now, this

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all took about thirty seconds in my mind, but it's
something that stuck with me ever since. So the VA
was not in good shape when we came back from Vietnam,
and so I founded a five oh one c three
faith based nonprofit called Military Outreach USA. And we have

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two major programs. One is to help homeless veterans and
the other is to reduce the high rate of suicide
because we addressed as such object that is not really
that much known. Everybody knows about PTSD and everybody knows
about the effects of traumatic brain injury. Very few people

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know of the concept of moral injury. Now. In twenty
and fifteen, we published a book about this and the
title of the book is they Don't Receive Purple Hearts,
and it's about the invisible wound of war moral injury.

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What is moral injury. From the time you're born until
you're eighteen years old, you develop a personal moral code,
a sense of right or wrong that could come from
your family, your religion, your community, whatever. And then you
join the military and you learn a warrior code that
is superimposed on your personal moral code and in fact

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transforms it somewhat. And then you might have to participate
in activities or operations that violate your personal moral code,
such as killing. You don't have to be the person
that pulls the trigger. You could feel you should have
prevented it, or you could follow another unit and you

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see that innocent civilians have been killed, or you handle
body parts. At that time, you sustain the so called
invisible wound of war called moral injury. It's not physical,
you can't see it. But in military operations, you're constantly
moving from point A to point B to point C.

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You don't have time to stop and reflect on this stuff.
So what do you do? You bury it and it
becomes unmes all guilt and chain. Then you leave the military,
or you come back to the States and something triggers it.
And this could be decades later, you know, because when

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you first come back, you kind of get on with life,
you know, if you're single, you get married and you know,
you have a family, you get a job, but then
later something triggers it and it bubbles up to the surface.
PTSD is a situation caused by external forces. With moral injury,

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it's an internal situation where you basically feel that you
have participated in such bad things you're no longer worthy
of love, that God doesn't love you. In fact, you
get mad at God. That's okay, he can take it,
and you totally lose your sense of self worth. And

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unless you have a strong coping mechanism for that, anger, depression, suicide.
And it's the position of Military Outreach USA that the
main approach for moral injury is not a medical doctor
with prescription drugs. It's the forgiveness and grace of a

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moral authority, a loving God, the counseling of clergy and
or sensitive therapists, and the support of a community offering
hope and help. I've often asked myself why haven't I
had the flashbacks, the nightmares, and I always attributed it

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to two things. Number one was my faith and number
two was my wonderful wife who has really forgiven me
and put up with me for fifty three years. But
after I started working with veterans and getting involved into
the invisible wounds of war, I realized that that incident

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with the three Viet column I realized that I was
one in a million who is able to address my
moral injury at the time it happened.

Speaker 1 (07:06):
And what a story. Major General James Mukayama just told.
Moral injury is what he was talking about. Prescription drugs
won't take care of it. Medicine and doctors won't. It's forgiveness,
grace and mercy that will a beautiful story, Major General
James Mukayama. General Mook here on our American Stories. This

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