Stevie B. Step 2: Step Series at Life Is Good Group - 12/18/2025

Stevie B. Step 2: Step Series at Life Is Good Group, Boca Raton, FL. 12/18/2025

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
My name is Steve B.

Speaker 2 (00:00):
I'm a greatful believer, recovered alcoholic. And remember the Golden
Text group of Hollywoo, Florida.

Speaker 1 (00:04):
God bless you guys. That was powerful. Can I see
those guys? Yes you can, tennessee you. You you lit
it up? Why have you a good eye? He lit
it up? He told the truth. Miss Jackie Fast.

Speaker 2 (00:23):
Then visit him, Jau.

Speaker 1 (00:28):
We are listen, we're gonna have some meeting in here.

Speaker 2 (00:33):
I was about to say, have his church in here,
but I want to a to have a nervous breakdown.
But you know, uh, the Big Book reminds us that
it's incredible to see where religious people got it right.

Speaker 1 (00:45):
And and and.

Speaker 2 (00:46):
When I first came in, I need you know, people
say all the time, well if we heard that when
we were in the beginning, we leave.

Speaker 1 (00:52):
I needed that in the beginning. And I didn't leave.

Speaker 2 (00:56):
Well, my sponsor, Russell came in and and he wasn't
my sponsor at the time. And and remember this, the
guy that you see now, Russell's not the Russell that
that we met, you know, thirty years ago.

Speaker 1 (01:06):
He's different. Russels still great, still great Russell. He's on tonight.
But but uh.

Speaker 2 (01:10):
You know, I saw him at a time where I
needed him to say the exact things he said that night,
and he put out a He brought out a Bible,
and he said and he talked about Luke ten, the
good Samaritan. I had never all the years, I had
never knew what the good Samaritan was. I've been in
AA for seven years. They keep coming to the good Samaritan.
We have to act a good Samaritan. Twelve step, we
have to act good smar. I'm like, yeah, good Samaritan.

(01:31):
Of course, people like you have to.

Speaker 1 (01:35):
I'm like, of course, you gotta act a good Samarian.
Don't you act the good Samaritan. I had no idea
what anybody was talking about.

Speaker 2 (01:41):
I was just playing, you know, like the same thing
I always did in AA, pretend I knew what I
was talking about, and I didn't know anything. I had
a God of my misunderstanding. And Russell brought out the
Bible in an AA meeting. You know, when it turned
out that that kid that night on January third, which
is my sobriety day, that kid that day, when he
was thirty four years old, needed to hear what Russell said.

Speaker 1 (02:03):
That night. God's not going to scare you out of
the program.

Speaker 2 (02:05):
God's the answer to our problems today. There is one
that has all power. That one is God. And you
know what, I hope you find them now. Don't get
afraid when someone comes up and talks about their God
would and they specifically say that their God's name, and
that that's the that's what happened for them, because this
is amazing thing. Came to believe that a power greater

(02:26):
than ourselves can restore it to sanity. I've been insane
my entire life, doing insane things, acting insane. I'm not
even talking about using. I want to talk about the
previous seven years.

Speaker 1 (02:36):
My mom's still there.

Speaker 2 (02:37):
Yep, but I don't want I want to, I don't
want to give too much information. But my previous seven
years before I relapsed and I was seven years in
alcoholics anonymous, was pure insanity. And let me explain to
you why sober is not the answer to my insanity.

(03:00):
I want to say to you again, sober is not
the answer to my insanity. I was sober for twelve
years when I was twelve, and I was doing.

Speaker 1 (03:16):
Some insane things. Those of you that weren't here last
week and I'm not going to continue to bringing up.

Speaker 2 (03:22):
Every week because people say you always talk about your
eye too much, and I'm not going to. But I
do want to tell you that I did give a
kid a gun at twelve and told them to shoot
at me, and I thought I would just move.

Speaker 1 (03:32):
Fast and I lost. And I was twelve years sober
at the time.

Speaker 2 (03:40):
So sober is not the answer to my insanity. God
is the answer to my insanity. That's the only thing
that has ever worked for me, and it's the only
thing that is ever going to work for.

Speaker 1 (03:54):
Me, because I have been wickedly wicked sober.

Speaker 2 (03:59):
I had those twelve years when I was twelve, Okay,
then I had another seven years where I was arrested
three times sober. I had not even started being arrested
till I got sober. That's crazy talk right there. And
by all different agencies. The Department of Alcohol, Tobaio going

(04:19):
firearm that was one agency, and Hollywood Police was another agency.
The Broward Service Department was another agency. These are sober
unsober behaviors with physically sober body.

Speaker 1 (04:32):
So that's not the answer to my problem. Today.

Speaker 2 (04:34):
Came to believe that a power greater than myself could
restore this to sanity.

Speaker 1 (04:40):
Some of us, like me and Gina, we come in
here wacko.

Speaker 2 (04:44):
Okay, some of you guys just drank too much and
you weren't even wacko, like three of you. But a
lot of us come in completely wacko, and alcohol was
the thing that we used to make us less wacko.

Speaker 1 (05:00):
I would take one drink.

Speaker 2 (05:01):
I was much better person than I was before the
one drink. I remember after having seven years of surbride.
I'm gonna tell you a quick story about in Sandy,
real quick story, and it happened exactly like I'm saying.
I'm not gonna embellish or or by the way, Congratulations
to the celebrants, congratulate eighteen years today.

Speaker 1 (05:20):
Congratulations to Tennessee.

Speaker 2 (05:22):
Congratulations to Melanie.

Speaker 1 (05:25):
Melanie. You are awesome. Awesome, Melanie.

Speaker 2 (05:32):
I knew it was gonna be awesome last week the
way when you said something about being a superhero something,
some of you cheered, and I said, it canna be awesome, Rocky, Yeah, but.

Speaker 1 (05:44):
This is not.

Speaker 2 (05:44):
And I'm not gonna say butt Mellanie, but I want
to say end Melanie.

Speaker 1 (05:47):
Please keep that enthusiasm.

Speaker 2 (05:49):
One day at a time, because the enemy is gonna
try to steal it.

Speaker 1 (05:52):
Tennessee, I'm gonna tell you something. The enemy's got a
big bulls eye on your back.

Speaker 2 (05:57):
Those that have been created to be able to tell
the message in a gifted way have a huge bull's
eye on the back.

Speaker 1 (06:03):
And there's pitfalls all around. And alcoholism wants to take.

Speaker 2 (06:07):
You back because it's the rapacious creditor that does not
want you to tell your testimony. And you know what,
the knowledge of my last drink and the knowledge of
how hard that debaucher was, and the knowledge of that
will never keep me sober. At two o'clock in the morning,
people say, play that I was in the car with

(06:27):
the great Guy.

Speaker 1 (06:27):
To Bobby, He's like, just play the tape through backwards.

Speaker 2 (06:30):
If I could play the tape through backwards, I would
only need one meeting.

Speaker 1 (06:36):
She said, just play the tape backwards. Sure, Bobby, they
may work for you.

Speaker 2 (06:39):
But my tape changes and different languages at two o'clock
in the morning, different speeds and stuff. I'm like, you know,
you know the Beatles. When you play that thing backwards,
it says kill somebody. My tape goes crazy.

Speaker 1 (06:53):
My dam said, are you drink it that.

Speaker 2 (06:58):
I've been trying to to play the tape back my
entire life.

Speaker 1 (07:01):
It has never worked.

Speaker 2 (07:03):
I need to have a power greater than myself that
restores me to sanity because I have insane behaviors and
insane thinking. When I was seven years sober, I decided
to take a drink again because I did not think
that alcohol. I don't even know where I got this,
but I thought that alcohol was not my drug of choice.
And I really did not consider alcohol a drug, even

(07:26):
though I'm an alcoholic synonymous and now I know better
what to tell you.

Speaker 1 (07:29):
I did not think it was going to be a
big deal. I knew cocaine was a big deal.

Speaker 2 (07:36):
Because I would wind up in foreign places with foreign
people in foreign bases at different times, and it was
always cocaine related. And so after I had a length
of time and I got married to a beautiful wife
and had a house and cars and a business and
all that kind of stuff, I thought that I would
be able to drink like a gentleman. And I want

(07:57):
you to know something in my defense, I had never
had a lot of bad.

Speaker 1 (08:00):
Drinking in the past.

Speaker 2 (08:02):
So now I got a first step that said I
had a duy or. And I did drive drunk several
times in high school, and I did have some drinking things,
but nothing really nothing crazy. So I didn't have a
great first step with alcohol. And so I took a
drink and it was no and it was not a
big deal. I did do it with some narcotics and

(08:23):
I did pass out, but it was not, you know,
not the thing and uh, and I went and I
wasn't able to get loaded in Hollywood, where I'm from
because my wife said, if you ever get drunk, you
have to go back to AA and I said, that's
a deal. That's a good deal. Okay, I'm not going
to get drunk, but once in a while I have it,
like a pianti or something. I'm Italian and also Jewish.

(08:44):
I have some mena chevity, you know, one of those.
So I didn't get drunk, but I had this plan.
I had this other friend, Eddie, and he also had
previously seven years and we said, why don't we meet
up in Minneapolis where we got sober, and everybody will
think we're going on a big sober vacation, will meet there.

Speaker 1 (09:04):
This is an alcoholic thinking. It's kind of wackle thinking.

Speaker 2 (09:08):
So we planned an out of town sober event with
that was gonna go around drinking. And so we both
arrived in Minnesota and we go to the bar. Now
my wife's here in Florida, She's not gonna know that
I'm gonna get very drunk. This is gonna be my
first very drunk situation, because I promised her if I
ever got very drunk, i'd go back to AA.

Speaker 1 (09:27):
But I didn't. I didn't want her to know that.

Speaker 2 (09:31):
So I go to the bar. I have never been
in a bar. So I was in college. Now I'm
thirty two years old, thirty three years old. I'd then't
been to a bar. And I said to the barta
comes over. Jerry knows the story. This is a definition
of insanity. You never know what you're gonna get with
me when I drink. And I know some of you
understand the same thing. Matter of fact, In the Big Book,
it says, but the X problem drinker who has found

(09:57):
this solution, who is properly armed with the fact about himself,
can generally win the entire confidence of another alcoholic in
a few hours. Until such an understanding is reached, little
or nothing could be accomplished. They're talking about when we
finally have the information and we've been set free, like
Bob Davis is said free, when you've been set free,
you now have the inside information on how to win

(10:19):
people over you because you could talk to them like
no other. But I didn't believe I was one of
you for seven years. I was kind of like incognito.
I would say my name is TVV. I'm a recovering
alcohol I would't even say recovering.

Speaker 1 (10:32):
I say my name is TeV.

Speaker 2 (10:33):
I'm an alcoholic. But in the back of my mind,
I was thinking, I'm not really an alcoholic, but I
like alcoholics anonymous, So in order to be with you people,
I'm going to just use the word alcoholic. But I
really knew I was a cocaine at it and didn't
want to go to cocaine anonymous, so I came and
hang out with you. But I never really fully admitted
to my innermo self that I was an alcoholic, and

(10:53):
I didn't think there was going to be any consequences
when I flew to Minneapolis, because why I didn't think
I was powerless over alcohol. I knew I was parallels
over my wife. She's from Columbia. She carries a machete,
so I knew I had to leave out.

Speaker 1 (11:07):
And so I get to the.

Speaker 2 (11:07):
Bar and we order our first drinks and the bartendant
comes over. And I only had experience ordering drinks from college,
so I started ordering college drinks. I wasn't up in
the current drink status. And so they comes up, Hey,
what would you like? I say, I'd like to get
a fuzzy Nabel. That's what I remembered, fuzzy Navy. I'm
not even sure what that is to this day, but
it sounded like a cool drink from the bar. And

(11:31):
then that bartender came over, and then the guys in
Minneapolis from the bar from this area. They heard my
accent and they're like, you got an amazing accent.

Speaker 1 (11:42):
Where are you from? I go from New York And
they go, what do you do? I'm an actor?

Speaker 2 (11:48):
And they go, do we know any stuff that you've been?
And I go, have you ever seen Good Fellows? They're like,
you know Joe PESHI said, of course I know.

Speaker 1 (11:58):
Joe Peshick to say, wait a minute, you know you know?
Of course? I Do you ever met Slices Stone? Of
course I know Slices Thelone.

Speaker 2 (12:08):
And I start talking and everybody loves me. They're like
coming over, Oh my god, I recognize you from the movie.

Speaker 1 (12:16):
Big Fan, Big Fan.

Speaker 2 (12:18):
I go, thank you, Buy that bartender, Buy that guy
a drink, Buy that guy. As a matter of fact,
you want some chicken fingers, Get some chicken fingers, and
I'm the life of the party. Next guy, come sex
on the beach. Let's get some sex on the beaches.

Speaker 1 (12:36):
And uh.

Speaker 2 (12:36):
And we're drinking and having a great time. I'm telling
them some movies I've been in, some of the actors
I know, and it's going over great.

Speaker 1 (12:44):
They love my accent. Oh my god. I always wanted
to meet an actor.

Speaker 2 (12:47):
I'm like, hey, And then I remember that we used
to order pictures of Kama Cozi's when we were in college.
And and and I said to the game of let's
get a picture of coma cos and uh and then
and then and that's when it happened. I forgot why

(13:07):
I stopped drinking. It's not important that I use the
word alcoholic. I'm powerless over alcohol, and my life becomes
unmanageable when I drink.

Speaker 1 (13:16):
I just don't know when it's gonna happen.

Speaker 2 (13:19):
Three drinks in and a picture of Kamakazi's. Everybody that's
around me. They want autographs. Now I'm saying to them,
are you talking to me? The other guy came out.
You know, I became hostile. The guy goes, yeah, I'm
talking to you.

Speaker 1 (13:33):
You just bought his chicken for me. I go, I go,
you must play me your fool. You know. I started getting.

Speaker 2 (13:37):
Crazy because because because it turns out, even though I
didn't want to agree to it, it turns out I'm
an alcoholic.

Speaker 1 (13:48):
I didn't want to agree to it. I didn't come
sweetly reasonable. I never used that word. It never felt
like I was.

Speaker 2 (13:55):
But it turns out that when I use any substance
that affects me from the neck up, any substance that
affects me from the neck up. I want to say
that because because you're they're inventing new substances, and people say, well, can.

Speaker 1 (14:06):
I do this? It's legal.

Speaker 2 (14:07):
Anything that affects me from the neck up that makes
me unphysically sober is going to be a problem for
a person.

Speaker 1 (14:14):
With my disorder.

Speaker 2 (14:18):
They had to call the authorities to ask me to leave,
and I threatened them on the way out. I was
just talking to the guy buying them drinks. Everything was fine.
Drink three came on. I thought they were talking about me.
I was ready to go with the whole bot. If

(14:40):
you have that, you may have a problem and so.
But so that's the page fifty two we spoke about
last week to be devilments. You know, all the things
that happened when we're drinking. But the next step is
that we didn't go over. You don't know what the
outcome is once you take drink. You know, sometimes you're

(15:02):
gonna be happy, Sometimes you're going to be the life
of the party. Sometimes you're going to wind up in
other states. I went out to Public's one time during
a dinner date with my wife and my friend Nikki
and his wife.

Speaker 1 (15:15):
We were at dinner. I went out and there was
a guy that.

Speaker 2 (15:18):
I met at the Publics and he told me there
was good stuff in Orlando. The whole family's waiting for
me to come back. An hour later, my wife says,
where are you. I say, I'm on ninety five going
to Orlando. And it seemed like a great.

Speaker 1 (15:36):
Idea at the time.

Speaker 2 (15:40):
The word insanity in this specific case talks about the
insanity of drinking. But let's talk about the insanity of
not working the steps when you're in a program of
alcoholics anonymous and you're not getting better, and you're getting drier,
and like I was in my third year, my fourth year,
my fifth year of my previous sobriety, I was getting drier,
dryer and dryer. That's the insanity that can come back

(16:02):
at any time.

Speaker 1 (16:03):
Has nothing to do with drinking. It has to do
with stinking thinking.

Speaker 2 (16:07):
That can return at any time if the stinking thinking
is between you and yourself. I need a power greater
than myself to restore me to sanity. I heard this
great speaker last week, this great pastor.

Speaker 1 (16:20):
And he he came in. He's not even an alcoholic.

Speaker 2 (16:22):
It was it was a it was a it was
a recovery event, and he wasn't even an alcoholic, but
he totally got us. He totally got us, because every
single person that's a faith person in the planet.

Speaker 1 (16:34):
Knows that they're in recovery from something.

Speaker 2 (16:37):
And he came in and he said that he, uh,
we are prone to wander.

Speaker 1 (16:41):
Listen, listen.

Speaker 2 (16:42):
We said it was so awesome. I don't want to
take credit for it. He said, we are prone to wander.
I'm prone to wander, he said, when you look at
a compass, and if you know anything about a compass,
even though have you've been in the army or the
boy Scouts or anything, or you know how to use
a compass. As you travel along, you continue to look
at the compass to make sure you're going in the
right direction. And if you continue to look at the compass,

(17:04):
you stay on course. Alcoholics anonymous in God is our course.
That's our compass. You know, I know where I'm gonna
be on Thursday night. I know I'm gonna be on
a Sunday morning. I know where I'm gonna be on
a Wednesday night. I know where I'm gonna be on
a Monday night, and I know I'm gonna be on
Tuesday night. I go to seven meetings a week church
in a Bible study. And you might say, wow, that's extreme.
I am extreme. I'm an extreme person. I need some

(17:26):
extreme program. Okay, this is what works for me. Everybody
is going to find their their sweet spot. This is
what works for me.

Speaker 1 (17:33):
I used to use for.

Speaker 2 (17:34):
Days on end, drink for days on end. You know,
someone say I'm gonna come over in the morning. We're
gonna get a little bit lit and then we'd be
still Indian style three days later. You know, my knees
are still having a situations from twenty five years. I'm
still welcome like this what happened when one time I

(17:56):
stayed Indian style for three days. So for me to
put fourteen hours a week into alcoholics church in God,
to put fourteen hours is not a big deal. I
was a full time, dedicated addict alcoholic full time. I
didn't do partial time. I didn't drink on a Sunday,

(18:18):
drink on a Friday. I drank to get loaded all
the time. And I want you to know, even when
I use the word drink, I do it out of
respect for alcoholics anonymous. But I'm an end or, which
means I did everything all the time. But alcohol was
always involved somehow. And so that's the problem. We were
living life in a bitter to We were going to

(18:40):
go to a bitter end. But we can go to
a bitter end sober physically sober, if.

Speaker 1 (18:44):
We're not spiritually sober.

Speaker 2 (18:47):
I hate to keep, you know, bringing up Tennessee, but
that kid, to me, reminds me of someone that's spiritually sober.
I mean, it seems like he's on the right path.
It seems like sanity has returned. You know, when I
first met Sheldon, he's not the same person that he
is today. And if you don't know him, and I'm

(19:08):
not saying he was bad, then I'm not saying he was.
I'm saying he was different. And people still want to
try to hold him in the same person he was
five years ago. He's not the same person five years
Neither is Robert, neither of mine. Robert reminds me all
the time. I didn't like it when I met you,
he tells me all the time. And I can understand why,

(19:30):
because there's pieces of the pagels that each of us have,
and one of if those pagels get out of order,
mine is always going to start with pride. If the
pagels get out of order, or not get out of order,
if the padgels get out of control, You're not gonna
like one of those padgels, especially if you have the
same pagel. And what I didn't like and Sheldon was

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his pride. Why because I could certainly identify with pride.
So as soon as I saw him, like, this guy's
prideful coming in.

Speaker 1 (19:58):
Here with his muscle share and bit bit Meanwhile, I
was wearing the same muscle shirt. I just didn't like it.

Speaker 2 (20:08):
And when I say the word pagels and the reason
I wasn't fond of Sheldon when I first met him
because I saw pride all over the place, because I
had pride all over the place.

Speaker 1 (20:14):
And that's why Robert said I didn't like it.

Speaker 2 (20:15):
When I mentioned, I'm like, what do you mean, I've
been a pastor minister for years.

Speaker 1 (20:19):
He goes, yeah, with an ego. I'm like, okay, and
he's right.

Speaker 2 (20:26):
He's right because you never let the gift things that
God has given you outshine who gave it to you.
That's pride. And let me share what the padgles are.
But Gina knows, you guys know. The pageles is a
nice acronym to remember how to remember the seven deadly sins,
which are the big ones padgels p A g g

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e ls so pride, which is always number one because
it's the quickest way to fall.

Speaker 1 (20:52):
By the way, most.

Speaker 2 (20:53):
Every person that you see that goes back to drinking
after a long term sobriety, most of the time it's
because of pride. People say, well, I was acting out sexually.
That's because of pride. I went back to gambling. That's
because of pride. I was having fights with my family,
that's because of pride. It's usually pride the one that
brings us back to the other the other six deadly sins,
and those are not all the sins.

Speaker 1 (21:13):
Those, you are just the main categories.

Speaker 2 (21:16):
So pride, anger, greed, gut mey, envy, lust, and sloth.

Speaker 1 (21:23):
We call those the pagets. Okay, those those are the
seven big ones.

Speaker 2 (21:28):
And sloth is another is a fancy way for laziness,
you know, not doing the steps, being on your fourth
step for like, you know, three years, you're in total sloth.

Speaker 1 (21:39):
Okay, you have or you did your fourth.

Speaker 2 (21:41):
And fifth step, but you haven't done any You didn't
go on to the other steps. So that's slothful, okay,
because you're really not doing everything that you can, right,
So we have to be very very careful of those.
So what happened to me in my first sobriety is
that my defects and character took over the program and
dictate it to me what I was going to be

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doing or what I was not going to be doing.
And if someone would give me feedback in my previous sobriety,
that feedback was totally discounted because this defective character had
taken over.

Speaker 1 (22:14):
My belief system. So I would immediately discount what you
had to say. So you say, listen, hey, you know,
I think it would be good if you took a
look at this. I would immediately discount you with the
other defective character immediately.

Speaker 2 (22:27):
And so I was not being able to be returned
to sanity because insanity won. Now I hear this a
lot from a lot of different people in the program.
People get to a place in their program where they
either grow or they go. But go doesn't always mean
gets loaded. Go sometimes means gets crazy, gets suicidal, leaves AA,

(22:51):
become self obsessed, become working out, becomes more important than
their program. They're not sponsoring anybody, they're not giving back,
they don't have a home group. The defective character of
self returns, and what happens. If that happens, you're either
gonna grow or you're gonna go. And that doesn't always.

Speaker 1 (23:12):
Mean get loaded. You see, for me, it was easy
to see when the defects of character won because I
got loaded.

Speaker 2 (23:19):
But it may be harder in your life because you're
not getting loaded. But maybe apathy, maybe laziness, has creeped
into your program. Maybe you're here tonight, it's a Thursday,
it's the first.

Speaker 1 (23:29):
Meeting you went to this week.

Speaker 2 (23:31):
That's the beginning of a creeping apathy program. It means,
it's the beginning of having something where that's not the
fullest of what you can be. And I have to
be very, very carefully because I'm basically lazy. My aunt
given my own self without God running and without me
being repositioned back to God with the compass, with the

(23:53):
God compass. I don't know if I ever finished that
story for the pastor. He said, we're easily distractable, we're
prone to we're prone to wander, and that's why we
need a God compass. I don't know if I finished that,
but that's what he said.

Speaker 1 (24:06):
That's what he said. It was very simple. I loved it.

Speaker 2 (24:09):
I stayed awake for it. It was awesome because I'm
prone to wander. And here's the crazy thing about it.
There was a value Jet. Originally, if you remember, Value
value Jet was a plane right Covey that landed in
the Fort loader deell Everglades and everyone died and the
reason that a lot of you heard about it because
the company's done over. When they played back the black Box,

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nobody on the plane knew that they were going to die.
Everything sounded fine, you know why, because they thought they
were going in the right direction, and they thought their
instrument panel was working, and they thought everything was fine.
You constantly meet people that relapsed, their life went down
the toilet. They have or they didn't relapse, but they
have been divorced like another time, and you say, well,

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what happened, Well, she was a jerk, you know, she
talked about the wife, he thought about that were controlling,
you know what. A lot of times the compass is
off and we don't know because we're prone to wander.

Speaker 1 (25:10):
We're prone to wander. We don't have it.

Speaker 2 (25:12):
We don't have the good God, the GPS, the God
Positioning Situations Service, God Positioning Signal, God Positioning Service, God
position whatever. We're not being positioned by God. We're being
positioned by our own earthly character defects. Watch TV for

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any length of time. Watch you guys live in Boca.
You totally get it. I mean, I love Boca, but
it's a defect of character city that.

Speaker 1 (25:45):
I mean no disrespect.

Speaker 2 (25:46):
I love coming here, but I feel inadequate every time
I do.

Speaker 1 (25:52):
And we have to be careful.

Speaker 2 (25:53):
We have to be careful because God wants to have
an intervention like he did in Tennessee's life, like he
did in Sheldon's life. God wants to do an intervention
in our lives being restored to sanity. If he was
the same person that he was five years ago, I
would say to yourself, I feel sorry for you. If
you're the same person ten years from your last I
feel sorry. We have to be constantly growing. Gets it, listen,

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We get to be constantly grown. I know this is
not a super funny talk, and he came here for
the show and all that kind of stuff, but this
is important. This is not a show tonight. I want
you to hear something. People are dying for lack of knowledge,
or people are perishing. They're dying because no one's telling
them the truth. The truth is the reason they're dying

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is because some of the meetings have got watered down
and some of the program has got wartered down.

Speaker 1 (26:42):
And if it wasn't for.

Speaker 2 (26:43):
These men and these women in here telling us the truth,
we wouldn't even know the truth, we would think alcoholics
anonymous is about not drinking, and alcoholics anonymous is not
about not drinking. Not drinking is the byproduct of a
relationship with God.

Speaker 1 (27:01):
I don't even know.

Speaker 2 (27:02):
The last time I thought about drinking. I'm not saying, hey,
it could happen tonight. But I have a whole program
in place, something that is rock solid, not impenetrable, but
rock solid. I have a support system of people that
I call immediately, that's on my first call. I have
people that are in my immediate group, iron sharpening, iron

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that let me know when I'm off. If I don't
have that, then I could be listening to self. Myself
told me that it was okay to drink something from
a bathtub from a guy named Julio that made products
from Video's place home depot, and I thought it was
fine in an unmarked job.

Speaker 1 (27:37):
That's myself. So I need to have a God positioning system.
That's what the word was.

Speaker 2 (27:43):
System GPS, God positioning system, because I'm prone to wander.

Speaker 1 (27:49):
I'm prone to I don't know if you ever seen
the National.

Speaker 2 (27:52):
Geographic the little videos where there's the a little like
a like a like an.

Speaker 1 (28:00):
Antelope or like and it's just and he's prone to wander.

Speaker 2 (28:06):
That little animal and he's eating the little grass, and
the whole herd is going this way, and the little.

Speaker 1 (28:10):
One goes.

Speaker 2 (28:12):
And I was like, God, here you get the whole hindquart.
It gets eaten in one second because he was prone
to wander. He's like, let me just go.

Speaker 1 (28:24):
Let a little leaf over here.

Speaker 2 (28:25):
I see the whole tribe is going this way, but
I'm gonna get a little leaf.

Speaker 1 (28:28):
It should be fine.

Speaker 2 (28:30):
And then everyone feels bad when a crocodile has its
whole hind quarter in his mouth because he was prone
to wander. There was a guy in our car tonight,
and I'm not gonna say what it was. He was
telling me about. Don't don't say it, don't shout it out.

Speaker 1 (28:43):
He was telling me.

Speaker 2 (28:43):
About an app. You know, one of these apps for
not dating, but it's like for quick dating. They're like
at one hour dating. I had never heard of it. Okay,
God's on the two of them. Twenty five years married,
twenty six years married. I never heard about the app,
but I was thinking myself, Man, thank god I am married.

Speaker 1 (29:05):
Thank God I don't remember the name of the app.
Thank god I.

Speaker 2 (29:09):
Did not know there was an app for this type
of behavior. And then the other side of me said,
what was.

Speaker 1 (29:16):
The name of that app? I got that going on
all the time.

Speaker 2 (29:26):
I got I'm offended and excited going on at all time.

Speaker 1 (29:31):
And I didn't say that when he said it in
the car, I acted. I was like, that's terrible, that's terrible.
What's the name of that? Because I always want to
condemn that.

Speaker 2 (29:44):
Only God can reposition me, because myself, I'm not a
repositioning tool for myself.

Speaker 1 (29:52):
I'm prone to wander.

Speaker 2 (29:54):
A simple suggestion had me in the car for twenty
seconds to wander a simple looking the wrong way at
the wrong time.

Speaker 1 (30:04):
I'm prone to wander. In the gym, I don't know
if you.

Speaker 2 (30:07):
Go to the gym, that is a prone to wander situation.
It's everything in the gym is designed for us to wander.

Speaker 1 (30:15):
A machine that goes.

Speaker 2 (30:16):
In and out like this, in and out, always in
the front of the gym when you walk in. It's
never in the back in a private room. It's the
first machine you see. To me, that's a design for
a distraction, the yes, no machine. I have to keep

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my eyes focused on God.

Speaker 1 (30:43):
God will restore me. To sanity. He's the only one
that can.

Speaker 2 (30:46):
And two weeks from now in the New Year, or
three weeks from now in the new Year, we'll talk
about step three on how to do that. God bless
you guys, Happy New Year.