Disciples First Submit | Chandreshan

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
You're listening to a message to go from at church.
We hope this message will light up your day.

Speaker 2 (00:08):
Submission. Submission is the hardest mission of all. You know,
no one laughed here as it's fine so fake guys
don't do it. Okay, it's not it's the truth of it. Yeah.
So they were texting asking were you where? You say,

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I say it's okay. If I'm not here, then chip
years or were they can preach that, you know, so
okay coming back? So yes, missions, Submission is the hardest
place to be at to submit to someone, and it's.

Speaker 3 (00:49):
A tough word to swallow.

Speaker 2 (00:51):
We will never want to do it as much as
we you know, we will try to avoid it as
much as we want to to submit under someone. Know,
the Bible's meaning of submission is.

Speaker 3 (01:04):
Yes.

Speaker 2 (01:05):
The word is hippo or hypo, I don't know what
you call it hypotasso, which means to place yourself orange
yourself under someone voluntarily, voluntarily, you know, you surrender your
will to the authority or to the will of another person.

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You know means you you don't do it out of fear,
you don't do it out of force domination, but you
do it voluntarily. You yield to this person's authority. But
truly ask yourself, if I ask you to completely surrender
yourself to someone and live under another person's control authority,

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where only that whatever that person that your master says
matters or whatever he says, only will work.

Speaker 3 (01:59):
Would you be okay with that? Basically, if the.

Speaker 2 (02:01):
Person tells you when to eat, then only you can eat.
Or the person tell you you cannot go here, you
sit here the whole day, would you be okay with that?
Or if you if the person tells you know, you
cannot leave your house, you must just stay in the house. Oh,
and a person say no phone for you, no phones, no,

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no iPad, no tablet for you? You know, would you
be okay with that? Wow, that's a very loud no.
You know, it's a very very loud no. You know.
It's when someone tells you would you be okay to
do that?

Speaker 3 (02:39):
Would you be?

Speaker 2 (02:40):
Would you agree to such terms where when the person
say eat, then only you can eat, And the person
say go out down, only you can go out. When
the person say do these down, only you can do.
It's just you're just bounded by that person's authority.

Speaker 3 (02:54):
Would you be? Would you agree to such terms. No right.
If I ask yourself, if someone asks you to give up.

Speaker 2 (03:03):
Your will, your own desire, your own personal ambitions, and
live under his control, and you only do his desire,
you only do his ambitions, you only follow his plans.

Speaker 3 (03:15):
Would you be okay with that? There?

Speaker 2 (03:18):
You have no independence at all. You are below the
control and direction of this person. Would you're willing to
do so? I'm sure many of us would definitely say no,
straight up, no, no way.

Speaker 3 (03:32):
Man. It's my life. I have control over it.

Speaker 2 (03:37):
It's my life. I want to do what I want
to do. We won't willingly give our control to someone.
We want our autonomy, we want our independence. We want
to do what we want to do. We want to
do what you want to do. You want to eat wherever,
whenever you want to eat? Right, So, all the young
working adults just why they move out of their parents'

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place and they stay so they can eat whenever they want.
They can go out wherever they want. You know, there's
no curfew, no one's going anywhere you are. Well, you're
not back home yet. We think it's a hotel or
what you only come to sleep. I see all they're walking,
all can relate to this. So again, I have been
there already, you know, you know, but that's what the
Bible tells us to do. Submit to Jesus, surrender everything

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to him. But many people struggle to really understand the
concept of true submission because we don't really know understand
we think we probably think. You know, Christianity is just
about you know, following a bunch of rules.

Speaker 3 (04:42):
Just follow rules. You think the leaders are here in
the church.

Speaker 2 (04:45):
Everyone just wants you to come to church, you know,
every time, and you're not here and a niggle call you, hey,
where you are or you're not here? Or then be like,
you know, read your Bible if you're read your Bible
or not. Do you follow a plan or not? Do
you read your Bible or not? Or you follow things
like oh we must ray all, come for praise service
or pray or fast during you turn or serf in church?

Speaker 3 (05:04):
You're not doing anything? Is it okay? Yourself in church?

Speaker 2 (05:07):
Every time you think it's about just following a bunch
of rules, you know, keep your tithes, go to homes.
It's like rules after rules, and you feel like it's
all is this what is it about? And sometimes you
feel like you're being oppressed. Wow, my leaders, the church
is oppressing me. I cannot do what I want to do.

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You don't want to live my life my way?

Speaker 3 (05:31):
You know.

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Just I come whenever I want to, you know, I
do I serve or so whenever I want to. You know,
it's my way. You don't tell me what to do.
You know, I live in my own terms. Is that
what most of us think? And we find submission such
an oppressive word. You know, it's an oppressive word. But

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if you think that is what Jesus is truly about,
then you have misunderstood what submission truly means. You know,
because let me tell you something. And all these things
that I told you, do this, do that?

Speaker 3 (06:09):
Come church? Was this? These are not fruit of your faith.

Speaker 2 (06:15):
These are just watering, you know, because Jesus when he
sees you, or when he sees someone, you know, he
says in Matthew in Matthew seven was twenty.

Speaker 3 (06:25):
Therefore by their fruits you will know them.

Speaker 2 (06:28):
He does not speak about, you know, whether you're coming
to church, whether you're serving, whether you are going to homes,
whether you're honoring all these things. But he sees you
because that is suggest watering The fruit of your faith
is submission. That's what it sees you in It's not
by all the things that you do, but it's how

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you submit. Because when you're someone that is submitted to Jesus,
then your fruit will be seen, you know. That's the
that's why you see in the Bible, the Pharisees did
all those things. They read the Law, the Torah, the
Bible as many as much as everything. You can ask
them a question and they will be able to just
you know, throw out every word of it without any problem,

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you know. You know, they were serving the temple. They
were doing so much great things in the temple. But
when Jesus saw them, he didn't see them as people
in faith. He probably despised them because they were just
doing the watering part.

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There was no fruit in your faith.

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Because the fruit of your faith is the submission. How
much are you willing to submit to God? How much
are you willing to submit to Jesus?

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And this is the seed, you.

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Know, so that whatever that is being done is just
seed sowed into your heart so that one day it
would take to become fruit, you know. And that's why
that's what we want to see today. You know, that's
what we want to I want to share it all today,
you know. So if you're saying to me, oh, I
want to sum it to Jesus. I want to live
like Jesus, but I don't know how to. I try,

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but I struggle today. I want to help you understand
what submission to Jesus looks like and the conditions of
our heart in the journey. So that will enable us
to reflect and consider our current situation. So we're gonna
look at Matthew thirteen vers. One to twenty three. It's
very famous. Famous one is the parable of Soler. Right right,

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Thank you guys, you get the cue. All done, good job, Okay.
So I'm gonna read it very quickly. I'm gonna read
from the NLT version, okay. Matthew thirteen ver. Was one
to twenty three.

Speaker 3 (08:57):
Okay.

Speaker 2 (08:58):
Later the same day, Jesus left the heart and set
beside the lake. A large crowd soon gathered around him,
so he got into a boat. Then he sat there
and taught as many people as he stood on the shore.
As they student on the shore, he told many stories
in the form of parables, such as this one.

Speaker 3 (09:14):
Listen.

Speaker 2 (09:14):
A farmer went out to plant some seed as he
scattered them across his field. Some seeds fell on the footpath,
and the birds came and ate them. Other seeds fell
on the shallow soil with underlying rock. These seeds sprouted
quickly because the soil was shallow, where the plants soon
wilted under the hot sun.

Speaker 3 (09:36):
Since they have no deep roots, they died.

Speaker 2 (09:39):
Other seeds fell among the thorn that grew up and
choked out the tender plants. Still, other seeds fell on
fertile soil, and they produced a crop that was thirty
sixty and e one hundred times of march as had
been planted. Anyone with years two years should listen and understand.
So disciples came and asked him, why do you use

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these parables when you talk to people, And replied, you
are permitted to understand the secrets of the Kingdom of heaven,
but others are not. Those who listen to my teaching,
more understanding will be given they have been they will
have an abundance of knowledge. For those who are not listening,
even what little understanding they have will be taken away
from them.

Speaker 3 (10:19):
That is why I use parables, you know.

Speaker 2 (10:21):
So then it goes on I'm just going to skip
and go to verse eighteen, where it says, now listen
to the explanation of the parables about farmer planting seeds.
The seed that fell on the footpath represents those who
hear the message about the kingdom and won't understand it.
Then the evil ones will come and snatches away the

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seed that was planted in their hearts. The seed on
the rocky soil represents those who hear the message and
immediately receives it with joy, But since they don't have
deep roots, they don't last long. They fall away as
soon as they have problems or persecuted for believing God.

Speaker 3 (11:00):
The seed fell among the tons represent.

Speaker 2 (11:03):
Those who year God's word, but all too quickly the
message is crowded out by the worries of this life
and the lower of wealth, so new fruit is produced.
The seed that fell and good soil represents those who
truly hear and understand God's word and produce a harvest
of thirty, sixty or even one hundred times as much

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as he did he planted a man. All right, Okay,
so over here you can see, you know, Jesus explains
a few things. There is a three three characters here okay?
Or three object how always say it the sower, the seed,
and the soil, okay. So Jesus represents himself as the sower,

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and he uses the seed as his word, you know,
and the word that brings truth and life, which is
equivalent to us receiving salvation. And thirdly, the ail represents
our hearts. You see, Jesus wants to give us life
and life abundantly through the salvation that we can receive
from his work on the cross that saves us. Salvation

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will bring us new life, a change life anyone us
to live is a new creation. But for this work
to happen in our life, we must receive the seed
and allow the seed, which is salvation, to completely take
root and do and perform what it intends to do
in us. You know, alter us may be moldest and

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ultimately make us live fully for Jesus. But this process
can only start with number one repentance and number two submission.
For submission and repentance to take place in our hearts,
it depends on the condition of our hearts.

Speaker 3 (12:55):
So that's why Jesus.

Speaker 2 (12:56):
Explains the full condition of human's hearts to be whether
when we can fully submit, whether can we can fully repent?

Speaker 3 (13:07):
True?

Speaker 2 (13:08):
The seed that is sow, so we will see you'll
see the fall withd Okay, you can see it.

Speaker 3 (13:13):
Okay.

Speaker 2 (13:14):
The first one the wayside, which is on the path.
So you know this is this soil is basically you know,
when the when the soil is sowing the seeds. You know,
if you've ever seen someone working at the you know,
at the farm or something, you will see them. You know,
they will sow seeds. And while it's sowing these seeds,
fells falls in the path walk path, you know that

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people are walking in the side. Then it just falls there.
So what happened? You know, this soil is just very
you know hard, it's hard because it's a walkway. So
the soil is hard, so the seed cannot penetrate through it.
So you will let the birds. The birds will come
and see, oh food, and then they'll just eat and
eat and eat all the seeds that around. And maybe

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people will be walking on the walk away and then
they see they don't see you what's on the ground, right,
I think most of us don't see what on the ground.
What Maybe we are walking so you just walk and
you just trample over these seas and it just dies off,
you know, it's just taken away. So this soil represents
a hot is hardened by resistance and indifference or even
sometimes pride.

Speaker 3 (14:21):
You know.

Speaker 2 (14:22):
So Jesus is sowing into your heart. So you think
that this is maybe maybe your condition of your heart.

Speaker 3 (14:28):
And Jesus is sowing.

Speaker 2 (14:29):
He uses people to sew into your heart, you know,
and uses people to remind you come back to Jesus.
Where have you been? You need to come back to Jesus.
Use people to keep reminding you. Read your Bible. That's
the only way you can grow.

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Pray. Ask you to whether you can make it to
church or not.

Speaker 2 (14:45):
You know, Nick Tong calls you in the morning and say, hey,
can you come to church or not?

Speaker 3 (14:50):
And O can you come to church or not?

Speaker 2 (14:51):
You know, Nicktong is a faithful man. You know, it's
been doing that for many years. I know him since
I was like emper student, you know, and it's been
and it's been doing that face since since then. I remember,
you know, you know, cuddly, you know, you ask, you know,
whether whether you come to church or and and they
try to keep pulling you, you know, from being taken

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by the word, falling into other traps. But you just
ignore it because you think this isn't relevant anymore, or
you think that you're very busy with other things that
are even more.

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Important than Jesus. You know, then this is what Jesus saying.

Speaker 2 (15:30):
This is that this is a heart where all convictions
are gone. The truth will just bounce out and submission
will never take place. Yet because there's no conviction. The
heart is just so hardened, not allowing conviction to take place,
not allowing repentance to take place, submission to be even

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Sometimes it's not only that, even sometimes it's a feeling
where you think that I'm all right, you know, I've
been a Christian for many years, fifty years, what are you?

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What do you know?

Speaker 2 (16:03):
I know more about Jesus than you you know, and
you feel like everything's thrown you know, and you feel
like I know already, I've done it already, everything is perfect,
Everything's all right. And then you know that's pride that
doesn't allow conviction, submission, repentance to take place in your heart.

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So it becomes so hard that birds can take it away,
you know, just come and take you know, and let
you fall into other Trapsah, the second soil, this is
a stony one. Okay, So this soil represents a very
impulsive and emotionally driven respond to the gospel. You know,
the individual years the word and her response immediately with

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full of enthusiasm, yet with no depth or commitment. The
joy is real, but it is superficial. How many of
you have been to camps, you cam cam and all
these things. Right when we do all the calls in
the camp for it's stilled all the time, come out crying.

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People come out crying, oh yes Jesus, I need you,
you know. And then they come and they'll be like, yes,
I'm changed, I'm a change person. One week down the
road and the leader call say, hey, you gotta come
to church. Sorry I got exams. I can't come to church. Hey,
I thought just last week you were crying. I thought
last week you were just you know, all on the

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all for the lot. Even you say I'm going to
go through the missions field. You just wanted now exam. Ah,
what is this?

Speaker 3 (17:36):
I'm speaking of experience?

Speaker 2 (17:39):
You know, you know, you know, you know really, so
it's it's because the joy is real. You are so happy,
but it's just so superficial. There was no deep route
of conviction taking place. You know, there's no anchor to
your faith to trials. It's same like the stony soil

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or the you know, the rocky soil where you know
when you see soil and when you I mean, if
you're gardener here, if anyone of you, you know, when
you see a soil is full of rocks and there's
a lot of stones there, you know, the seed will
be thrown in and then it will take grood because
they are soil, so it'll take good.

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But it can't grow deep because there are so many rocks.

Speaker 2 (18:22):
You know, it's just so many rocks, you know, so
it can't absorb the nutrients from the soil. What happened
will just die off. So it's similar to our hearts.
You know, when someone is not rooted, you know, inconsistent,
always favoring and confused, will never be able to fully

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submit to Jesus. You know when when when you know when,
and you react out of emotion. Everything is made out
of emotion. Every decision make out of emotion. So when
lives get busier or you're full of challenge in your life,
you just immediately go back to your old ways because

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there was no deep route, and you'll be like, oh,
maybe next year. You know, it's like every time. It's
something I always laugh about every time. Easter Forward, Easter Service,
Christmas Service, the church is filled with people for extra chairs,
for extra chairs. We prepare because we know lords and

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lots of people will come for Easter Service, for Christmas Service,
But the real test is the following week. A lot
of people will rest onond on Easter Service. The real
test is the following week, after one week of Jesus rising?
Do you still trust in Jesus? Do you still are

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willing to come?

Speaker 3 (19:51):
You know? Are you still willing to come? Are you
still willing to test? Submit?

Speaker 2 (19:55):
Oh, then you let just life drift you away, because
that's what happens.

Speaker 3 (20:02):
You're not routed. That's when it happens. When all the.

Speaker 2 (20:05):
Rocks are there, not allowing you, and then what happens.

Speaker 3 (20:08):
You just die off.

Speaker 2 (20:10):
This just dies off, you know, or maybe you know
your life gets challenging, full of challenges. Maybe you're persecuted,
someone is against you going to the church. You know,
you you you and you and you immediately just let go.
First thing you let go is Jesus first thing you

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let go is church because life is full of challenges,
because you could.

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Never accept the fact that following Jesus is full of trials.

Speaker 2 (20:44):
Because the route is not deep, you know, so whatever
you believe so far is just shallow.

Speaker 3 (20:52):
It's true.

Speaker 2 (20:52):
Submission requires more than emotional response. You cannot just want
the blessing and the benefit of the kingdom but not
willing to follow and bear the cross that comes with
following the Kingdom's way.

Speaker 3 (21:09):
I repeat it again.

Speaker 2 (21:10):
They cannot want just the blessings and the benefit of
the kingdom but not willing to bear the cross that
comes with following Jesus. We all want blessings, we all
want benefits that comes all Jesus gives life abundantly. Yes,
but Jesus said carry the cross. No, you know, you

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just say, oh, you know, I'm the father. My father
is the you know, the owner of the ten thousand
kettles on the hill.

Speaker 3 (21:37):
I wanted ten thousand kettles where don't want to walk
the walk up the hill. So you want blessings, but
we're not willing to bear the cross.

Speaker 2 (21:47):
So the question is can you commit to Jesus despite
all the challenges and struggles that you face.

Speaker 3 (21:56):
Third one, the thorny soil. This one is very tragic.

Speaker 2 (22:01):
The soil the most stragic of all tragic because the
seed will start to grow, it will grow, but ultimately
it fails. You to competing priorities. There's partial submission, but
no complete surrender.

Speaker 3 (22:19):
You know.

Speaker 2 (22:19):
The heart is always double minded to serve God and
to serve Mement. Serve God, serve Mement because there's an
initial response and acceptance and evidence. You know, you accept
Jesus and you you want to submit to him, you
want to follow him, and then you want to grow
deeper in him. But when you're when you're growing, you know,

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when you're growing, then there's a lot of thorns, and
there's other plants. Weeds are fighting over for for the
same nutrient, you know, and that's why they cut off
the weeds. When plants are growing, weeds and thorns around
it because they are also competing for the same nutrient,
same things. It's the same right now, you're trying to grow,

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you know, But what happens all these torns, all these
plants reads around it absorbs the nutrient. Eventually you're not
enough nutrient and you die of The plant dies off
and or you get stuck entangled among the torn and
you cannot grow and then you die off. That's true

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in our lives because many thing competes for our attention
in our lives on a daily basis. But right now,
as I'm talking here, there's something else competing for your attention.

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You know, maybe your phone is competing for attention.

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There's notification coming one by one and you're like, oh,
can I see it? Or someone like my picture, so
I see it. You know, it's competing for your attention.
It's competing for your attention. But and it prevents us
from dedicating our life to follow.

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Geez Is fully. We'll be like, oh, I need to
earn money, you know, how can I survive? Then you
got that.

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Then there's worries or this that, and there's so many
other worries in your life, and all those things just
compete for your attention and it prevents you from fully
living for Jesus and dedicate yourself to Jesus.

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You'll be like, maybe not today. Let me say to
all these things, then I'll follow Jesus. Maybe not today.

Speaker 2 (24:24):
Tomorrow when everything is fine and I'll say yes to Jesus.
Maybe not this week maybe next week, I think I'll
be more clearer in my mind, then I'll follow Jesus is.

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It's not going to happen. It will never happen.

Speaker 2 (24:43):
It's never happened because you know, some maybe want to
live comfortably, Some maybe one fame, Some maybe want to
enjoy doing things together with your friends. The desire for
social acceptance competes.

Speaker 3 (24:56):
With devotion to Jesus for more.

Speaker 2 (25:01):
That's the word, right. Fear of missing out. What if
when I'm here on Sunday in church, then my friends
out there having fun, I'm gonna miss out. Oh that's
a concert going on on Sunday.

Speaker 3 (25:18):
My friends are all going for it. Well done through.

Speaker 2 (25:26):
You know, all your friends are like, hey, Sunday morning,
best time to go for hiking? Can you go all
go hiking? Can we all go? Can we all go hiking?
And they be like no, I have to serve in church.
I have to be there seven am. And then you'll
be like you're fighting, you know, competing some day is

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competing for the place your.

Speaker 3 (25:55):
It's always like that. Nine am.

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I have to be in church for Saturday night. And
that's a good football match I want to watch three am.
Should I watch it or not competing, it's competing with you.

Speaker 3 (26:11):
You know.

Speaker 2 (26:14):
You cannot fully submit your life to Jesus. You know
this person, this soil, will not allow you to fully
submit your life to Jesus because there's always an anxiety
in your heart that says, if I live my life
entirely for Jesus, maybe I won't get to enjoy this.
Maybe I won't get to enjoy that. Maybe you think

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that even following Jesus is not worth it at all.
Would it be worth it if I just let everything
go and just follow Jesus. But I'm going to miss
out so much. Maybe I'll need to pay cut. Maybe
I can't take that promotion. Maybe you know I can't

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be in Australia, or maybe you know I can't go
to the UK because the Lord is calling me, and
you feel like I'll miss out, I'll miss out. There's
always that fear in us. What if I said yes

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to Jesus to be here, then I'll miss out something
more better. But I can tell you there's nothing better
than Jesus, and something that you will never regret is
following Jesus. So don't let your this, you know, don't
be the soil but you won't let your heart reach

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its fullest potential because this submission process is constantly hijacked
by the worldly priorities. But there's one type of heart
that allows us to fully submit to Jesus.

Speaker 3 (28:00):
This is the good soil.

Speaker 2 (28:02):
It's receptive, it's honest, responsive to the submission process. It
not just represents the heart that years. Because we all
can hear. All of you here are listening to me,
I hope. So you know you're all hearing. You know
you're all hearing. Maybe you even understand. But to obey.

Speaker 3 (28:26):
That is the challenge. We all can year, we all
can understand.

Speaker 2 (28:34):
But to obey that that's the that is true submission.
That is when really your heart is in a good place.
This is the heart that is in the good soil,
where you allow the word of God to go deep
inside of you. You read, you understand, you hear, allow
you to convict you and allow you to change you.

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You allow it to change yourself, ready to sub me
fully live for the sake of Jesus. You will then
only be able to experience what Jesus has in store
for you. You know you always yeah, you all like
I just say this now now Jesus wants to give
your life life abundantly, but the life only comes when

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you submit fully. If not, you will not be able
to see what He truly has in store for you.
You're just only looking at the surface and you're thinking, Oh,
this is great already, this is good already. No, it's
just the surface. You haven't gone deeper yet. Try going deeper.
Of course it's going to be harder. But the moment

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you go deeper, then you will fully understand and see
what He has in store for you. So now, how
do we become good soils?

Speaker 3 (29:53):
How do we do that? We have to be broken first.
They have to be broken first to become good soil.

Speaker 2 (30:06):
You have to let God use different situation and circumstances
in your life to be broken first. God needs to
break you first before.

Speaker 3 (30:18):
It can use you. The greater the brokenness, the greater
the use.

Speaker 2 (30:25):
The best that we can offer to God comes from
our brokenness, not from our beauty. The whole world tells
you that you have to be perfect, wants you to
be perfect, and the thing that and you also think
that being a Christian is all about being perfect. That's
why I told you there. You think that being a
Christian or some eyting to Jesus is all about following

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a bunch of rules. But it's not that. It's about
being broken for the Lord, you know. So for me,
I've experienced a lot of brokenness in my life life
in order to come to a place where where I
can even stand.

Speaker 3 (31:05):
Here before you.

Speaker 2 (31:07):
You know, when I was younger, if you all know
that I used to be.

Speaker 3 (31:12):
An national athlete.

Speaker 2 (31:14):
If some of you might know, I didn't, right, I
was just saying the story, right, you know. And I
once one time I had this very bad injury in
my bag my training, during my training, because you know,
my life when I was an athlete, it was very different,
you know, as a sports persons right now, even I

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coach and I'm in this still in this community, right.
That's something that I see every athlete, no matter what
they say, very selfish people because they only need to
care about themselves because they want to be the best,
and they want to give the best that they can,
you know, perform the best, do the best. So they're
very selfish. The only thing about themselves. Think about what

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they can do, what they can eat, what they can do.
They don't care about the surrounding they only care about themselves.
And also that there's a dark side because when you
have big through you and you have money, you also
will be involved in so many other things because now
you want to enjoy the hard work. It works so hard.
Now you want to enjoy whatever that you have. So me,

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I was like that, you know, I enjoy it. I
did everything possibly that's wrong in this world, because I
had the access to it, the money to it, and
all of it.

Speaker 3 (32:32):
One day, you know, and this injury and I broke
my back.

Speaker 2 (32:36):
It disconnected few nerves that was running to my spine,
so my one, my right leg became completely numb. Couldn't
feel it, couldn't you know if you touch it, no feeling.
So my friends even put hot water to test whether
it's working, is through or not. And really I don't
feel anything. I don't feel anything. I'm so afraid. Went
to the doctor. The doctor said, your nerves are damage.

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Probably this is lifelong for you, so you can forget
about being an athlete anymore. Forget about it. It wondn't
be an athlete anymore. But all that while I was
thinking that that's what I was made for, This is
what my purpose is. This is my identity. But today
now everything is gone, broken, taken away from me. I
was so angry at gone, and I said, and I

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asked God at time, you know, why do you do this?
Why he is so cruel to your child? Why do
you do this? And at that time I really had
a voice asked me back, who are you? I don't
know you. You're not my child. My child lives with me.

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Tell me one time you have lived your life me.
And at that time I told the Lord to do
that voice because I didn't really know that was not
or not told no, matter what happens after this, whether
i'm hell, do not heal, I will live my life
for you. And then after that, this doctor came to me.

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They said they called. They said that there's another doctor.
My doctor came to me and said there's another doctor
wants to see me because you're in my case and
he's so unique. They want to do some experiments on me.
I say, okay, let's do it. Nothing to lose, right,
So they did some experiments on me. They took out
my platelet from my blood, they mixed it up with
some steroids and then they reinjected back. I went back

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and then they said every month, we'll do one injection,
you know, and then we'll see whether let's progress or not.

Speaker 3 (34:45):
I took the first injection.

Speaker 2 (34:48):
And then the doc said you just rest until the
next month before your second one. Right after that, three
days later, everything was fine. I started feeling my legs.
Everything was normal. I was like, so surprise, Oh doctor,
your experiment worked. You know, everything is fine look at me.
And then the doctor was like, no, it's not I
was supposed to be. How is this even possible? Said okay,

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let's go and do some tests and scans and see.
So when they did the scans and the test, they
saw my bone, my back, my nerve, everything was looked
like it was normal, like there was no sign of
an injury, no history of an injury at all. And
then this doctor was like, this is your extra right.
It was skinned right. I said yeah, this is my

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m right, this is my scared and then he was like,
I can't believe that he was healed.

Speaker 3 (35:39):
It's fully healed.

Speaker 2 (35:40):
There's no sign of injury at all, Like I know
nothing happened, which I will got your praying to. Is
that Godlin who did this? And then I know that
was this God that did this?

Speaker 3 (35:54):
To my life.

Speaker 2 (35:57):
You know, then I after that moment, I want to
let go of everything, let go of the old life,
the past life, all the nonsense I was doing is
let go. I want to live my life for Jesus
and Jesus alone, because I know it healed me. I
want to do that. But it was not gonna be
easy because my family none of them are believers, you know,
none of them are believers.

Speaker 3 (36:19):
It was so hard. They were like, stop lying, this
is b s and stuff like that.

Speaker 2 (36:25):
You know, really they were so angry at me, and
and that that, you know, when I said that I
want to serve the low full time, when I want
to work for the Lord. And I was studying. I
was doing my degree first year. I just enrolled for
a year degree at that time. And my father told
me clearly, if you choose this path and if you go,

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I will not pay a single cent for your studies.
I will not pay for you anything, no money for you.
Survive on your own. Let's see whether this is Jesus
you can really have you not? And that time I
had two decisions. I could still be a Christian, a
silent one, go to church whenever I can, and just

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live with them, you know, or I could have just
lived my life outrightly serving the Lord. I had two choices.
Of course, I chose the hardest one, So I left home,
stayed my union hostyle all my life, degree life. When
I left home, I'm only had twenty and get in
my wallet, and I was asking, all how am I

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going to survive?

Speaker 3 (37:32):
Just then, I was so.

Speaker 2 (37:36):
Disappointed. I was so sad, you know of this. And
then everybody, even some of my friends, said like, you
just work, what time you can earn money enough for
you to, you know, survive, sport yourself. But what I
choose to do. I chose to enter in church. Everybody

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that I used to bid, this is what everybody told me.
You're wasting your time. You're not gonna get paid enough
in turning in church, serving full time while studying. You're
gonna get peanuts. We're gonna survive. At that time, I
only got four hundred per month. How do I survive
as a unique student with just four hundred per month?

Speaker 3 (38:24):
No money?

Speaker 2 (38:25):
Just that.

Speaker 3 (38:27):
To pay for UNI?

Speaker 2 (38:28):
I need to pay for my UNI and then also
study and then also eat also survive. How do I
do that? I just just fully trust in the lot,
and he did. He did provide it.

Speaker 3 (38:39):
All. My uni feels taken care of. You know.

Speaker 2 (38:43):
I got a scholarship that covered everything, and I don't
know how I could survive with.

Speaker 3 (38:50):
Four hundred per month. Every month got provided.

Speaker 2 (38:59):
Heavy in good day, never a day I went without
a meal because he provided.

Speaker 3 (39:07):
You know, really you're most you know. It was really
tough at the time.

Speaker 2 (39:14):
So yeah, he gave me a car so that I
can go because I want to serve more. I want
to do, you know, challenge myself so that not only
I can go to church, I can bring people to church.

Speaker 3 (39:27):
And I said, God, give me a car.

Speaker 2 (39:28):
And then he gave me an old, dodgy looking waja,
you know, and I used it and died so many
time it almost killed me. So because my hand has
a third degreement because of that, because the radiator exploded
one time in my hand.

Speaker 3 (39:43):
But it was a bad car. So it's fine. He
served me, served me well, you know, sell me well,
you know, it served me well, you know, but.

Speaker 2 (39:52):
Yes, he provided. Then he provided again for this car
that I have. Now, would you ever believe if you
go to a car place like whatever, bro to our
car show room or whatever, and then you tell them
that when they ask you, oh, you went by a car, Okay,
give me your three month salary, give me your EPF,
give me your SOX so you know that's approved for income.

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And I was like, I don't know if anyway I
don't have any of it, would you still give me
a car? There wasn't thing. And I explained to him, Oh,
I work for the church, you know, and God, and
he's not the person who's not a believer. It's like okay, okay, okay,

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and we work out something.

Speaker 3 (40:38):
To you.

Speaker 2 (40:41):
Wow, it's because I choose to submit to him. I
could see what he does in my life every step
at the time. But it was not worse because my
father and my Mimi and we had a bad relationship
from young me before I became a believer. And then

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it became worse during this period the pandemic happened. I
had to go back home. I had to stay at home,
no choice, right, Uni're still close to say you must
get out there, you need let's go back home. I said, okay, fine,
I'll go and stay. I'll go back and stayed with them.
I was, you know, really struggling. It was a struggling season.

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You know, and my father is an alcoholic, so it's
a very you know, chronic. I was alcoholic that time.
So the one time with my in my home at night,
my mom gets a phone call saying that someone in
the neighborhood saw my father fell in the street. It's
an alcoholic. He was so drunk that he was on
the street and someone had to pick him up and

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my dad. My mom tells me, can you go and
bring your dad home? I was like, why why do
I need to do it? After all these things that
he has put me through? Why do I need to
do it? Why do I deserve this? You know? That
was what was going in my mind. And at the time,

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I asked the Lord, like what do I do? Why
do I do it? He said, you have to you
submit to me. You have to do it. See, okay,
fine for you, I will.

Speaker 3 (42:30):
So I went. I carried him. Oh, it was like
eight hundred meters walk.

Speaker 2 (42:34):
It was the most uh, I tell you, it was
the most hardest hit undermeaters all.

Speaker 3 (42:39):
It's not because he was heavy or what, but it
was most because.

Speaker 2 (42:43):
Everyone was looking at me on the street, every neighbor
in the road looking at me. You can I can
smell the judgment that was coming from them as I
was carrying him. And I even had people come to
me and say, you know, tell your father don't drink
so much.

Speaker 3 (43:03):
I'm like, I know, we have to come and tell me.

Speaker 2 (43:06):
You know, everyone suddenly were advising me what to do,
telling me what to do. I made it even hard
and I brought him back home and my mom told
me this, you know, a long time ago, his father,
my father's father, my grandfather, was also drunk. I was
also on the street when my father did not want

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to go and carry him because he felt like it's
a very shameful thing to do. When I said that,
you went and did it. I realized that God used
me to break the generational curse my family true me,
just because I submitted to him so hardest time for

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me to forgive my father, not only for that incident
but everything that he has done my life.

Speaker 3 (43:55):
At that time, I was.

Speaker 2 (43:57):
Struggling to forgive him so hard, you know, but Jesus
telling me, know, you have to.

Speaker 3 (44:07):
You have to forgive him.

Speaker 2 (44:10):
I forgive you for your sins, So who are you
to not forgive him? I have forgiven him already, So
who are you to now deny it? Who are you
now to deny it? You have to forgive him, so
one day he will know the one that carried him

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that day was not you, but it was to me
bearing him.

Speaker 3 (44:37):
Just as how I read across.

Speaker 2 (44:41):
Say say, okay, okay, Lauren, I will I will forgive
him for you forgive him. Start praying from every day
from that day onwards. The hardest thing I ever to do.
But I realized that, well that's what submission looks like.
It's not about what I feel, how it hurts me,

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how it makes me feel, But it's about doing what
he tells me to do, because I live under.

Speaker 3 (45:12):
Him, you know.

Speaker 2 (45:15):
So I did it so when I forgive him, when
I forgave him, when I stopped praying for him, after
many many years, you know, this year, in my whole life, right,
I've never celebrated my birthday, Never twenty eight this year,
twenty seven years maybe when I was first year old,
I don't remember, but you know I never celebrated my

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birthday this year. My father during my birthday, I think
like a few days before my birthday, he called me
and it was like, you must come back home. I
was come back home, come back home. Are you coming back?
Are you coming up? Like yeah, I am this come down,
he was calling me. So when I went back home
that night, you know he had went and bought.

Speaker 3 (45:56):
A cake for me.

Speaker 2 (45:58):
He and the initiative to cebarate my birthday. So I
realized that time everything was broken whatever there was there,
because one day I chose to sub me to him,
sud me to Jesus changed my life. You know we
were waiting, well, we took very long to I took

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very long to propose to my fancy right now, it's
because I really wanted his blessing. We waited, I waited
and waited so long. But but yes, said yes. It's
the only reason when we went forward. And you know,

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I proposed to her because I wanted his blessing. Maybe
it's not it was an accepted Christ yet, but I
know that all these things are leading towards him.

Speaker 3 (46:52):
But it's because I chose.

Speaker 2 (46:55):
To submit one time to the Lord to do the
hard think of all things.

Speaker 3 (47:02):
You know, really God needs to break you sometimes.

Speaker 2 (47:09):
We need to do honest thing he asked us to do.
That is two submissions. We're not ready to be broken
most of the time. Whenever we go through various trials,
we ask God, why me?

Speaker 3 (47:24):
Why me? Why me? God?

Speaker 2 (47:25):
Why not other person? Why not a person next to me?
It looks fine? Why you choose him and break him
and not mean? You know?

Speaker 3 (47:36):
You know?

Speaker 2 (47:36):
Why am I facing this? Why do I need to
hear this? You know this is not fair God, I
don't deserve this. It's possible that, you know, we even
think that maybe God doesn't exist. It's possible for us
to think because we perceive this, God is so cruel

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and because he's putting us all through this and we
are us all these wise right, because it comes from entitlement.
We believe in the Satan's lie that we are entitled
to a better and better life, that it can be

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achieved in our own way. That's why we're not willing
to submit say the lies and says that there's a
better way out there than you facing this struggle.

Speaker 3 (48:30):
It lies to you.

Speaker 2 (48:34):
So we have to know what's the truth, what is lie?
Maybe instead of all the entitlement, it'said the thing that
we deserve better. We think that why am I being
cheated like this? Maybe through this brokenness we can ask God,
can you teach me through this? Can you teach me.

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You don't know why yet, but can you teach me?
What are you trying to do in my life? That's
what Jesus says in Matthew eleven was twenty eight to
thirty And we all know this was come to me.
All you are wearying burden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke.

Speaker 3 (49:17):
Upon you learn from me, for I am gentle and
humble and hart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke. It's easy my burden.

Speaker 2 (49:25):
It's like, you know, instead of asking why, why, God, why,
we can ask that question.

Speaker 3 (49:33):
Lord, teach me from this.

Speaker 2 (49:35):
I want to learn from you because he's inviting us
to take this yoke with him. He's teaching us to
carry brokenness just how he carried brokenness. He's teaching us
to to you know, carry the cross, face brokenness, but

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yet still remain obedient to the Father, because that's what
he did on the cross. He was obedient despite the brokenness,
despite the pain. So once we allow him to teach us,
we can face the world just as he did. You know,

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so I ask God what we can learn from because
that's what the yok means. Most of us maybe don't
know this. No, this is how the yolk look like.
This is the yolk. Can you see on top of
the of the thing that's above the two cows. There's
this yolk and this yoke the farmers use it to

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put the cow so that the cow can plow the
land or even pull heavy loads. But the interesting fact, yeah,
is that how the farmers actually train younger cows because
they know the younger cows are not experienced yet to
carry the load or plow the lad Maybe one cow

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will not be able to do it. Maybe even when
they put two young cows, it will mess it up.
And guess you don't know anything. It's still an experience.
So what they will do is they will pair with
an old cow with a young cow, an inexperienced young
cow with an old cow that's already been doing it
very long, and then this cow will teach. Come here,

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come here, I'll show you an example of how it
looks like. Because because i'm the so imagine i'm the
old cow and he's a young cow. Okay, so if
we are on a yoke together, okay, we're in the
yoke together, and as me as the old cow, this
is what aga Okay to me as the old cow,

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and this is the young cow.

Speaker 3 (51:46):
He doesn't know how to do it. Will be on this.

Speaker 2 (51:48):
Lad to plow, and I'll be like, okay, cow, follow me,
follow me, follow me, okay, all right, And then I'll
be on the way asking are you okay?

Speaker 3 (51:57):
Are you still okay? Can you still pull the flower? Come?
Keep going? Keep going?

Speaker 2 (52:01):
And then you, maybe the cow or young girl, asks me,
where are we going?

Speaker 3 (52:05):
It's okay. You follow me.

Speaker 2 (52:06):
I know where I'm going, you know, just follow me. Well,
maybe the cow the young cow will be like, but
is this my purpose?

Speaker 3 (52:14):
List it?

Speaker 2 (52:15):
Calm down, just follow me. I know where I'm going.
I know I'll bring you. Why it's so heavy? Okay,
let's take a break. We'll take a break and we
go slowly, and you'd be like, why why is it
so heavy? It's okay, I'll be carrying out the burden.
You just follow me, bye, follow You are in with me,
You're on the same yoke. You know, why is this
all struggling? It's okay. I'll teach you how to do

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it the right way.

Speaker 3 (52:38):
You know I'll teach you. I'll do it the right way.
We'd be like.

Speaker 2 (52:41):
Thinking, oh my goodness, Is this what I'm really called for? Yes,
you are this, but it's okay. I'm still teaching you.
You know, I'm carrying out the burden more than you.
What you can you know? And he does that, and
he looks at you and asked, are you all right?
You know?

Speaker 3 (52:58):
All right? So okay, we'll take a break. Okay, thank you, yrol.
So that is what that what that is what means
to be in the York with Jesus.

Speaker 2 (53:11):
That is what it says here that I'm the bigger cow.
You're the younger one. I will teach you how to
pull it. I'll teach you. Is it hard? Is it heavy?
It's okay. I'm carrying it with you. Are you tired?
It's okay, we'll stop.

Speaker 3 (53:31):
Lord. Is this my purpose? Why am I doing this?
It's okay. Yes, we better burden together, we better cross together.

Speaker 2 (53:42):
Am I supposed to do this my life? Yes, it's okay.
I'm with you, pulling this together.

Speaker 3 (53:50):
Is it so hard? This is so hard? Yeah, I understand.
I'm pulling it together with you. Why is it so heavy?
It's okay. I'm carrying off the burden for you. Don't worry.
We'll do it together. That's what this worse means.

Speaker 2 (54:09):
Actually, when he says, take my yoke upon you and
learn from me, and he is the same yoke with
you and my friends, that is true submission. He to
be under his yoke, it's true submission, and he will

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teach you the whole life. His yok is light and easy.
It's not just gonna throw it to you and say
you pull it. I'm gonna watch you pull it. No,
I'm gonna be with you. You don't know where to go.

Speaker 3 (54:45):
Where are we going? Are you going left? Are you
going right? It's okay, follow me, follow me.

Speaker 2 (54:51):
We pull this together. That's true submission. That's what Jesus
wants you to do. Be under his yoke, to be
under care. You know, his desire is for us to
embrace this easy yoke and you know, lighten our burdens

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as we learn from him. He wants us to learn
how we can face the world, how we can overcome
every temptation, just as he did. He's not here to
control you, oppress you, to take you, but easier to
walk with you so that you can learn from his humility,

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take a whole different perspective of life, the life of
this world. Always teaches you about self preservation and self interest,
but he will teach you to break.

Speaker 3 (55:50):
Yourself, lose yourself for the cause of love. So that's
what you've got to.

Speaker 2 (56:01):
Be a good soil, the bare fruit. You need to
bear the cross first. Now, the Hudson Taylor, if you
ever know Adson Taylor, who's one of the biggest missionaries
back then, went to China to do missions work, lost
his family as he was doing this, suffered a lot,
and he said this.

Speaker 3 (56:21):
You know, fruit bearing involves cross bearing.

Speaker 2 (56:24):
There are no two Christs, one for an easy going
one for the easygoing Christians, and suffering and toiling one
for the exceptional believers. There's only one Christ. Are you
willing to abide in him? Does bear much fruit? You know,
even in the process of germination, whether the seed would grow,
the seed must die first in order to bear fruit.

Speaker 3 (56:47):
So we must die to our self.

Speaker 2 (56:51):
Let Jesus guide us live a fully submitted life. We
can't attempt to carry this burden on our own. We
have to stop doing it on our own. We can't
attempt to show the entire burden of this world alone.
We can't also desire the whole world also, because then

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we will be left without anything. Without we're just misery.
So we have to die to our self independence. Get
on the York with Jesus, let him teach and guide.
That is true submission church. But we're willing to break,

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just like Mark fourteen, Verse three says, yeah, the woman
who was willing to break.

Speaker 3 (57:38):
You know, she broke the flask.

Speaker 2 (57:40):
There was a flowers that carried a costly oil or
spike night or the alabasty jar that contained of perfume
that was worth a one year wage. She was willing
to break it and pour on Jesus, are you willing
to let go of one year of your wage? It's
probably she worked very hard for it, one year of
your wage. Imagine that she broke it for Jesus because

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she know there was nothing at all more worth than
following this Jesus, and she broke it for him. Comes
with a cost kind of white that cost same thing
when Jesus or so he had to face and the
garden of get some money. You know, everybody thinks that

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he wanted all for us on the cross. No, he
want it all for us first in the garden when
the father asked, when he asked, Father, Lord, if it's
not your will, let this cup pass by. If this
is not your will, let this cup pass by. If
this is not your will, let this cup pass by.
But then he said, nevertheless, let your will be done.

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That was true submission. Can we truly submit Jesus because
that was the submission that won us all? Can we
truly submit? We are living this life today because he
chose to submit to the Father to everything.

Speaker 1 (59:13):
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