The Effects of Disappointment

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
There is nothing too hard for you and God, even
as we are seeking your face tonight, we're thank you
Lord that You're gonna touch us where we are God
in our relationships, O God, as wives, as mothers, as sisters,
as aunts, as grandmothers. Hallelujah in the name of Jesus,
whatever roles that we might feel. Oh God, we thank

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you tonight that you alone or God will be glorified
in our midst Hallelujah, that you will speak to us.
Hai Dabasorian Dabahayam in the name of Jesus. And we
just give you praise, We give you glory, We give
you on the God that we magnify you for doing it.
Even now, O God, in Jesus' name, Amen and Amen.
Can somebody just give God praise this evening? Can we

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thank Him for bringing us together in his presence? Can
we thank him hallelujah for his anointed, for the glory
of God already already, already, already, Hallelujah, Glory to God, Hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (00:57):
I know that the Lord is gonna speak to us
now now. Want to say.

Speaker 1 (01:03):
Right from the outset, heymen, this is not a sister.
I need you to get ready to bake a cake meeting.

Speaker 2 (01:11):
Praise God.

Speaker 1 (01:13):
I need you, amen, to get your cupcake pans ready. Nope, Nope, nope,
that ain't what this is.

Speaker 2 (01:21):
Glory to God.

Speaker 1 (01:22):
But amen, the Lord has been dealing with my heart
about our responsibility as women. And so this is a
man a ministry. I'm kicking this off, and somebody else
is gonna be taking over. This is ministry of oasis women. Hallelujah,
Glory to God. Who's gonna be taking it over? I
don't have no idea, but somebody else gonna be doing it.
They gonna be me doing it all the time.

Speaker 2 (01:42):
Praise the Lord. Hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (01:43):
We like to start, but we gonna get it to
somebody else to finish. Hallelujah. Amen, and so hallelujah. Tonight,
I want to open us up with some things on
tonight pertaining to our womanhood.

Speaker 3 (01:56):
Right.

Speaker 1 (01:57):
There are some things that are I'm just getting right
on in it. Eleven minutes after seven and it's Friday night.

Speaker 2 (02:05):
Hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (02:06):
I want to get into some things that are essential
aspects of our womanhood.

Speaker 2 (02:12):
Right.

Speaker 1 (02:13):
And some of us are raising children, some of us
are our sisters, We are wives, We are business owners
or whatever. Right, there are things that are pertaining to
us that in this busyness.

Speaker 2 (02:28):
Of life, we find ourselves.

Speaker 1 (02:31):
You know what I'm saying, just overwhelmed by things for
whatever reason. Hallelujah. So I want to refocus some things
on tonight. But before we do that, I want everybody
to just go around the room for a moment and
just introduce yourself.

Speaker 2 (02:45):
Tell us who you are. We know who you are,
but just tell us who you are.

Speaker 1 (02:49):
Amen, and where you are a man in the name
of Jesus here somewhere in the United States or otherwise.
But just take a moment to introduce yourself to everybody.
So please, don't made me call on you. We just
want you to just go ahead and be free. Let's
just go around and say who we are. Amen, go ahead, Amen,
I'm by.

Speaker 2 (03:13):
We like that. We like that. That's good response.

Speaker 4 (03:18):
I'm promidence.

Speaker 5 (03:18):
Felicia Sumter and I live in Sepn of Florida.

Speaker 4 (03:21):
Amen, praise that Prophetess.

Speaker 6 (03:24):
Melissa Lashawan and I live in Covington, Georgia.

Speaker 2 (03:28):
Glory.

Speaker 7 (03:30):
Yes, hey, man, I'm propt this Porsche Brown I was
invited by apostle Stuffs.

Speaker 4 (03:35):
I'm excited to be here.

Speaker 7 (03:37):
I'm driving in the cards while y'all don't see my face,
and I'm happy to be here.

Speaker 1 (03:41):
Masro bless blessings, blessings, Well, praise the Lord, everybody.

Speaker 8 (03:47):
Angie A. L. K.

Speaker 9 (03:49):
Wiggins here in the beautiful city of Tallahassee, Florida.

Speaker 7 (03:52):
So excited to be here with my family, Love you all.

Speaker 8 (03:54):
I'm driving, but i'll be home shortley.

Speaker 2 (03:56):
Hey, Maen, Amen, Glory to God.

Speaker 10 (03:59):
I am Stephanie Parker in North Carolina.

Speaker 2 (04:04):
North Carolina.

Speaker 3 (04:05):
No, Amen, Hey, everybody, I'm probably It's Andrea and I'm
here in.

Speaker 11 (04:11):
Riverview, Florida.

Speaker 2 (04:12):
Wo Verview.

Speaker 12 (04:16):
Bless us everybody, Sister Maria and cardinals, and I am
right here and stuff on.

Speaker 4 (04:20):
Here's Florida.

Speaker 2 (04:21):
Glory. All right, Well, everybody go ahead, I'm here.

Speaker 9 (04:35):
Get afternoon everyone. I'm Reverend doctor Barbara Thomas Reddick, and
I'm here in mante Cello, Florida. I was invited by
my sweet lovely sister prophetis Andie Wigans Amen.

Speaker 2 (04:49):
Welcome, welcome, welcome.

Speaker 8 (04:55):
Hello, I'm Propahet.

Speaker 7 (04:57):
It's Telicia Thomas here in Tallahassee, Florida.

Speaker 3 (05:00):
It's great to be.

Speaker 8 (05:00):
On tonight seeing so many beautiful faces.

Speaker 2 (05:03):
Yes, good evening, good evening, good evening, glory.

Speaker 1 (05:13):
I'm right, come on, I know we not. We got everybody,
come on, everybody who didn't go yet.

Speaker 13 (05:20):
Amen, just for clarity, because I think I jumped in
kind of first.

Speaker 3 (05:24):
We heard you, we heard you.

Speaker 7 (05:28):
Come again, we.

Speaker 4 (05:29):
Heard you, and I'm from everywhere. You want to be.

Speaker 13 (05:36):
A second round there soon to be everywhere.

Speaker 1 (05:41):
And for those of you don't that don't know, these
two sisters, daughters of mine are always bantering, behave yourself today,
and we love it like that.

Speaker 2 (05:54):
We love it like that. Amen. Amen.

Speaker 6 (05:57):
Amen, Prophet Chantel, I think you was speaking, but you was.

Speaker 4 (06:01):
On mute once we didn't get to hear you. I'm sorry.

Speaker 8 (06:07):
I sure was good evening everyone.

Speaker 3 (06:09):
I am Prophet is Chantelle Perry, and i am here.

Speaker 1 (06:12):
In Jacksonville, Florida, and I'm glad to be on for
the time that I'm able allowed to be on tonight.

Speaker 2 (06:19):
Hey man, welcome, welcome, welcome.

Speaker 1 (06:21):
We thank God for you a man glory for God,
all right, and so we want to thank God for
each of you that are on here on tonight and
welcome again. We praise God for all that He's gonna
say to us. And even be ready to be able
to share yourselves on tonight, because I know that we

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are many faceted as women of God, and there are
times that you know some of our experiences, you know,
because we go through different things that they all may
we might be able to speak to different things in
other people's lives.

Speaker 2 (06:59):
And so I want you to be ready to share
on tonight.

Speaker 1 (07:02):
And so I want to start first with our femininity
and I want to, you know, deal with a couple
of things with this. And there has to be a
confidence in us embracing our role that God.

Speaker 2 (07:17):
Has given to us. And I think that this is important,
especially in a time where we are living in where
we want to be labeled.

Speaker 1 (07:25):
And I'm saying we, I don't mean us personally, but
I'm just talking about in a familiar sense we in society.
Society is trying to cause us to label ourselves as
non binary. We don't want to say what we are.
We are exgender and all the rest of that. But
let me tell you something. There is a blessing and

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an anointing in your femininity. Hello, There's a blessing and
an anointing in your femininity. And so you can't fulfill
the assignment that God has given to you as a
woman of God, and to you really embrace the fullness
of your role and embrace your femininity. And so tonight
I really want to kind of jump around and hear
a couple of things and then also be able to

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deal with a spirit that I know, a man that
has shattered a lot of women and has prevented some
women from.

Speaker 2 (08:20):
Being able to walk into fullness of what God has
for them.

Speaker 1 (08:23):
And so I want to start right here with us
embracing our femininity.

Speaker 2 (08:28):
Because somebody please just get me. I need two verses.

Speaker 1 (08:31):
Somebody get me Genesis one and twenty seven, and then
I also.

Speaker 2 (08:35):
Need Esther four and fourteen Genesis one in twenty seven Hollylujah.

Speaker 1 (08:47):
And so, like I said, I got a couple of
things I want to deal with, and we're not gonna
be on here long on tonight. This is in lieu
of us meeting face to face in person.

Speaker 2 (08:55):
And I think that sometimes.

Speaker 1 (08:56):
When we are able to do some things virtually, we
have a little bit more flexibility to be able to
even have other people on with us, you know what
I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (09:05):
And so I want to share some things because.

Speaker 1 (09:11):
I know that many of us are dealing with a
lot of things, and I believe that this is the
hour that we have got to break free from all
of the nonsense, all of the foolishness, all of the
same old, same old cycles.

Speaker 2 (09:25):
Anybody get tired of cycles. We don't have time for cycles.

Speaker 1 (09:28):
And there are things that we have gone through cyclically, right,
And because sometimes we don't realize that we're in a cycle,
we find ourselves going around the same old thing. And
it's not until we have, you know, found ourselves crying
about the same thing, found ourselves dealing with issues in

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our thought life about the same old thing.

Speaker 2 (09:53):
And by that time, we don't, you know, dug a
hole for ourselves.

Speaker 1 (09:57):
And then we ready to start dealing with Oh my god,
I'm in this cycle again.

Speaker 2 (10:01):
How did I get here? And so we want to
address some of that, but I want to first do
it Genesis one of twenty seven. You have that prophets, Bradley,
could you go ahead and read that, please.

Speaker 4 (10:11):
Yes, ma'am.

Speaker 13 (10:12):
In the ESV, so God created man in his own image,
in the image of God. He created him male and female,
He created them.

Speaker 2 (10:24):
Amen.

Speaker 1 (10:24):
And so God created us, excuse.

Speaker 2 (10:32):
Me, in his image. Amen.

Speaker 1 (10:37):
And so you got to understand that your femininity is
God's design.

Speaker 2 (10:44):
Here we go, voice, it is God's design.

Speaker 1 (10:48):
God designed you the way he wanted to use you,
the way he wanted you to be. And so sometimes
we will look at ourselves and say, well, why am
I like this?

Speaker 2 (10:58):
And why do I look like this? And why do
I gotta have this?

Speaker 1 (11:01):
You gotta understand that you have been created just the
way that God designed you, excuse me. And so you
gotta begin to embrace all of your strengths, all of
your talents, all of your gifts, all of the things
that He has anointed you to do. And you might say, well,

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oh my God, that is just so basic, and you
know what it is.

Speaker 2 (11:28):
And the reason why we have to deal with that
is because you don't realize how.

Speaker 1 (11:35):
The enemy will start messing with how God designed you.
Until God start opening doors and bringing you before people.
Anybody know what I'm talking about. It's not until you
decide that you are gonna obey God that all of
these questions start swirling around you.

Speaker 2 (11:57):
It's not until a war of the Lord.

Speaker 1 (12:01):
Hits your life and God starts speaking to you about
I want you to do this and I want you
to do that. Then, now how he made you? You
start questioning, am I good enough? Am I annointed enough?
I don't sing like them, I don't preach like them,
I don't dress like them, I don't.

Speaker 2 (12:22):
Sound like them. And if we even sometimes.

Speaker 1 (12:24):
Go to lengths of trying to change ourselves to become
like somebody else, because we not comfortable in what God
designed alone, And so you gotta begin to be comfortable
with how and what God designed you to be, you know,

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and and.

Speaker 2 (12:46):
Especially in society that looks at all of this outward stuff.

Speaker 1 (12:49):
Oh I'm too dark, I'm too light, I'm too fat,
I'm too skinny.

Speaker 2 (12:54):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (12:54):
I got too many roles, I got too many of this,
I got too many of that. And we're always weighing
ourselves against all of these external things. And you myself,
but that ain't nothing. Stand on the platform and then
come back and talk to me. Because when you get
up in front of people, you get in platforms, and
then you go back, and you go back and look
at yourself when you stand in the mirror of what

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is the first thing that you say about you?

Speaker 2 (13:18):
When you look at you, are you critiquing you or are.

Speaker 1 (13:24):
You celebrating the femininity the beauty of God's design. We
say that I'm fearfully and I'm wonderfully made, But what
do you really feel is wonderful about you?

Speaker 2 (13:37):
Hello?

Speaker 1 (13:41):
And then you gotta understand that you are wonderful even
if you are standing next to whoever that looks like
a Coca Cola bottle, got hair down in the back
of the they back. Come on, even if they got
more money than you, if they can dress better than
you and your estimation, come on here, if they have all.

Speaker 2 (13:58):
The things that you know and whistles that you think.

Speaker 1 (14:01):
That they should have. We gotta understand that God is
not concerned with all this external stuff. You gotta start
looking at the inside of what He put on the inside.

Speaker 2 (14:11):
Of you, look at what He packaged in the package.

Speaker 1 (14:18):
As soon as holy spirits start dealing with you about
moving into what you look, you dreamt about it, you
prayed about it, you got a prophetic word about it.

Speaker 2 (14:29):
But then you start moving into that thing.

Speaker 1 (14:32):
And as soon as you start moving into it, that's
when you start looking at your strengths and thinking that
their weakness is well, I'm just not I don't know
if I could do that. I don't know if I should.
You know, let me just tone it down just a
little bit, because I don't want to offend anybody. Come on,

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I don't want about to be bothered. I don't want
nobody to worry about you know. You know that I'm
trying to do I'm trying to do that. Why is
that always the thing in the back of our mind?
I need to tell you, women of God, you got
to deal with your insecurities, because insecurities will rob you
of the promises of God. Insecurity will sit you in

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a corner and have you procrastinated. When God has spoken
to you and you know you got the word, you
know hallelujah, that you are full of the power of God.
And God has annointed you to be everything that He's
called you to be, and you know you got You
got the vision, you have the anointing, you have the talent,

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you have the vision, you have everything that has needed
you the package. But you don't see yourself as the package.
Do you think that the world made up this? You
know they say it like this, You all that in
the bag of chips? You think the world came up
with that? They just putting it in carnal vernacular, but
basically they just saying you fearfully he a wonderfully made.

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Come on their understanding that what God has created. When
he created you, he said you were good. How you
doing today?

Speaker 2 (16:10):
Says I'm good?

Speaker 14 (16:12):
No?

Speaker 2 (16:13):
Really are you good? Yes? Because when He made me
he said I'm good, I'm good.

Speaker 1 (16:18):
So you got to begin to reject all of these
worldly distortions, right, and you got to begin to understand
that what God has planned for you is not in
somebody else's theology. Because I'm here to tell you that
all of this stuff that we think we know about God,
we are finding out that we don't really know what

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we thought we knew because we wasn't as mature as
we thought we was. Hello, okay, And so you gotta learn,
excuse me, what that means for you to celebrate your
femininity as a woman of God in a biblical sense.

Speaker 2 (16:57):
Who has esther?

Speaker 10 (16:58):
Four?

Speaker 2 (16:58):
Fourteen? Did somebody get that? Yes? Do come on read
that as to four or fourteen.

Speaker 3 (17:07):
For if you and this is the ESB for if
you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will.

Speaker 11 (17:14):
Rise for the Jews.

Speaker 3 (17:15):
From another place but you and your father's house will perish.
And who knows whether you have you have not come
to the kingdom for such a time as this.

Speaker 2 (17:26):
Listen to me.

Speaker 1 (17:27):
Do you know why God put you in the kingdom,
not for just your future, but for now? You know
that God called you to something? But you are in
the midst of something now, woman of God. And you
gotta understand that if you don't get up from where
you are, God is gonna raise somebody else up to

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do the work.

Speaker 2 (17:49):
And so then you're gonna be, you know, feeling bad.

Speaker 1 (17:51):
And feeling some kind of way because somebody else is
walking out what you were supposed to be doing.

Speaker 2 (17:56):
Can I tell you we used to sing a.

Speaker 1 (17:57):
Song, Ain't no rock gonna cry in my place? As
long as I'm alive, I'm gonna glorify His Holy name.
We used to sing that song all the time. We
understand that that scripture Amen, Glory to God, that if
we don't praise God as we should, then the rocks
are gonna cry out in our place.

Speaker 2 (18:12):
Listen to me.

Speaker 1 (18:13):
If you don't get up from where you are, if
you don't stop making excuses, if you don't stop worrying
about what other people think if you don't get over
that depressed mindset, that every time you receive something from God,
you rejoice for the first five minutes and then we
know you back to your mental struggle.

Speaker 2 (18:32):
If you don't come out of that cycle. Come on here,
listen to me.

Speaker 1 (18:39):
One of the things I learned I remember as the
Lord began to elevate me in ministry and in the
spirit and man, I would have people they would sharing.

Speaker 2 (18:46):
Some special especially social media.

Speaker 1 (18:48):
Lord blessed the people on social media Jesus name Hallelujah.
And so they would be setting messages, well, who told
you you could preach? And at first I used to
engage them and get all into the sparring about who's
said I could do what I'm doing.

Speaker 2 (19:04):
And then I begin to think about it, and I said,
wait a second.

Speaker 1 (19:08):
Ain't nobody going up to the Walmart cashier asking her
who told her she could be there counting that money.
Nobody's going into the bank teller asking the bank teller
who told you that you could be in here catching
my checks? All you know is you just want me
to do what I'm here to do. Guess what if
you got a problem with me taking up with my boss.

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Take it up with my boss. And if you don't
believe me right, for the word sake, believe me for
my works sake.

Speaker 2 (19:36):
Don't watch me watch my moves.

Speaker 1 (19:39):
Come on here, somebody, and you gotta be so undacious,
especially in this time when people, especially if they false preachers.
You got false preachers. The diamond doesn't here. You are
the real real And you backing up?

Speaker 2 (19:54):
What here? You are going through? Hell and hoigh water.
God that snatched you out of the world put you
in the palace.

Speaker 1 (20:05):
You don't even belong there, esther, You're not even supposed
to be there. And here you are gonna try to
hide in the corner. Now, come on out that corner, sugar,
Come on out to hide in sugar, because there's a
work that God has called you to do.

Speaker 2 (20:24):
And ain't nobody got time for scared.

Speaker 1 (20:26):
Oh mighty God, nobody got time for scared. Nobody got time, Hallelujah,
to be worried about what somebody else is gonna say.
Can I tell you they gonna talk about you if
you sit in the corner and do nothing, and they
gonna talk about you if you get up and start moving,
might as well get them something good to talk about

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I almost sang the verses to a song, but it
ain't the gospel song. Something shut up, glory to God.

Speaker 2 (20:57):
Come on here. I have to stop worrying.

Speaker 1 (21:01):
If I worried, and I did have once upon a time,
Oh my God, I worried about what people said. I
worried about how they felt about me. Come on here, somebody.
I worried about whether or not I was good enough.
And then God kept throwing me out into the deep.
It was like he was out here fishing, and he
would always catch me on the line. And whatever line

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he would catch me on, he throw me back out
there deeper than where I was the first time. And
so after a while you just say, you know what,
I'm out here in the deeper. I might as well swim.
I might as well swim. So you got to start
celebrating your femininity. You got to start embracing the role
that God has given to you with joy and with confidence.

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You got to stop worried about and can I think
that really, even though we talk about even though we
talk about how people deal with us or feel about us,
that's really not even the real problem. The real problem
is your enemy in you, because you don't even believe

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that God want to use you like he say he
want to use you. Now while we all decked out,
got our head, dumb face, beat heels on, got our handkerchiefs,
We ready to go into our assignment, and we look
like we believe everything that God says, But deep down.

Speaker 2 (22:28):
Inside it's that old my God, Lord, please go up
in for me. God, please it today. But Jesus, oh no,
h blah blah blah blah blah, come on.

Speaker 1 (22:44):
And then we start doing the esther who I like
it here, it's nice, and we start forgetting the real
purpose that He brought us into the room in the
first place.

Speaker 2 (22:55):
It wasn't for you to get that good old massage.

Speaker 1 (22:57):
It wasn't for you to be able to smell good
and be able to walk in and out through the palace. Right,
those are benefits, But the purpose was for you to
be able to turn the world upside down with the
annoyance that's on your life. Do you believe that God
has called you and anointed you like he said he did,
come on here.

Speaker 2 (23:21):
And so thereas there.

Speaker 1 (23:24):
Is something that I was looking at, I don't even
know if I have the here and I was talking
about as I was looking at some things yesterday about
how God puts his word in us. In his word,
the seed of the word right, our.

Speaker 2 (23:41):
Spirit man becomes a womb for the word right, and
so we we nurture that word, and then we begin
to birth that word right. And then God begins to
bring us.

Speaker 1 (23:54):
To the place that we go before others with these gifts,
and He begins to use us. You got to understand
that even though your gift makes room for you, you
must also understand that the room that your gift is
in must be nurtured, must be cared for. The enemy

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does not want to see you fulfill your assignment. So
that's why you fighting with Mama and them and all
all the stuff that you've been through. You can't connect
with what God wants you to connect with because the
enemy got you still dealing with all the old stuff.

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Let me get to where I want to go. So
that's the first thing I want to deal with.

Speaker 2 (24:39):
I wanted you to.

Speaker 1 (24:40):
I want to deal with you celebrate your femininity right,
But I want to deal with something else real quick.
Let's look at Proverbs thirteen and twelve. Please somebody read
it for me. Proverbs thirteen and twelve, And I want
to break down a couple of things real quick.

Speaker 2 (25:03):
Who got that.

Speaker 4 (25:06):
Hoverbse thirteen and twelve is v version.

Speaker 8 (25:08):
Yes, hope hope deferred makes the heart sick.

Speaker 4 (25:11):
But a desire for filled is a tree of life.

Speaker 1 (25:14):
A desire, oh my God, a desire for filled right
is a tree of life.

Speaker 2 (25:22):
Okay, so what does that mean?

Speaker 1 (25:23):
That means that when you ever promised, when God has
spoken to you, when the Lord has he may released
a word over you, right, and that word.

Speaker 2 (25:34):
Seemed like it don't come to pass, you begin to
feel sick. Now I want to start.

Speaker 1 (25:40):
I want to deal with some of the emotional effects
of disappointment. I want to deal with the effects of
disappointment because many of us are not able to step
into what God wants for us, because we're still dealing
with the disappointment of what happened yesterday. You don't understand
that yesterday's sickness is still what's got you. You know.
It's like, you know, it's like you catch a coal

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and you got this lingering just don't seem like you
want to let you go that like the coal is gone,
the fever is gone, right, the fatigue from the flu
is gone, but.

Speaker 2 (26:17):
That's still lingering.

Speaker 1 (26:23):
Because that deferred, that that period of deferral, a deferment.

Speaker 2 (26:30):
That you experienced had an effect on you.

Speaker 1 (26:34):
Hawk deferred makes the heart sick, and so there are
effects of disappointment.

Speaker 2 (26:42):
You know what happens to you when you.

Speaker 1 (26:44):
Become disappointed, You end up disgruntled. Lord, ain't nothing like
a disgruntled saint. You walking around murmuring and complaining. On
one hand, and how you doing today? Says yea, I
am right.

Speaker 2 (27:00):
The joy of the Lord is my strength. Well where
your joy at?

Speaker 1 (27:04):
That shuck fads that you got into that joy because you.

Speaker 2 (27:12):
Still got that And everybody still can.

Speaker 1 (27:15):
Hear you hacking, you thinking that you heal, but we
still hear that hack still back there in the back
of your throat.

Speaker 2 (27:24):
You still suffering from residual effects.

Speaker 1 (27:28):
You smiling, but you disgruntled because the hope deferred made
you sick. And you you thought you got over your
your the deferrow, that period of deferment, that disappointment that
you dealt with.

Speaker 2 (27:44):
And let me tell you something.

Speaker 1 (27:45):
There are times that God that will allow us to
be in a holding pattern.

Speaker 2 (27:50):
And it seemed like we will be waiting and waiting.
Anybody ever been there waiting and waiting and waiting, and
what you're waiting for don't seem like it's coming to pass,
so you become disgruntled. What else do you get? Frustrated?
How you doing today?

Speaker 1 (28:09):
Said I I'm all right, Wait a second. You snapping
at everybody because you frustrated, You aggravated with everything around you,
because you frustrated about what didn't happen.

Speaker 2 (28:26):
Anybody ever had had something you was praying for and
it didn't come, it didn't show up.

Speaker 1 (28:33):
And then there is the sadness that comes because not
only are you experiencing your issue because of the deferment
that you experienced, but not everybody else saw that what
you was asking for didn't happen. So how do you handle?

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How do you have that? So then we start dealing
with the spirit of failure. I'm talking about.

Speaker 2 (29:05):
All of the effects of disappointment.

Speaker 1 (29:09):
This is all of this is laced in this verse
here in Proverbs the thirteenth chapter, hope deferred makes the
heart sick. What do you mean my heart becomes heavy
because I didn't get what I was expected, especially if
you waited a long time for it, especially been praying
for that ministry, praying for that son, praying for that daughter,

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praying for that family member. Believe in God for whatever
that miracle thing was. Come on here, somebody. Believe in
God that he was gonna work out whatever he was
gonna work out for you. Believe in God that you
was gonna get that house, get that car, get that job,
and whatever happened didn't happen. Believe in that this was
your position that He called you to. I just know
that God's gonna open this door and I'm gonna be

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able to do X, Y and Z. You got to
the door and the door didn't open for you.

Speaker 2 (29:54):
Halp the third and now you don't want to reach
for God God no more because what happens to you
you you are displeased with God. You're operating in displeasure.

Speaker 1 (30:13):
I'm trying to tell you this is this is what
if nobody else knew what this was like. David understood,
and Solomon understood. Okay, he understood that that that when
you ask God for something and you don't get it,
you don't get what you're looking for God to do.

Speaker 2 (30:36):
What do you do when everything around you looks like
this is it?

Speaker 1 (30:41):
This is what God said, this is what he spoke,
and then the bottom drops out. And God is so
funny sometimes I'm not even gonna say sometime. Most of
the time, when the bottom drops out, it's in front
of everybody else. It's in front of other people. So
you just you frustrated, you sad, you dis please come

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on here, hallelujah. And then comes the spirit of dissatisfaction.
Don't you know that chronic dissatisfaction is a warfare place.

Speaker 2 (31:15):
It's a place.

Speaker 1 (31:16):
It is a spirit that comes to make you unhappy
about everything.

Speaker 2 (31:25):
Listen to me, you're talking about you believe in God.

Speaker 1 (31:26):
He's gonna send you your boot, not till you stop complaining. Shook, No, no,
he not coming. He not coming because you got chronic dissatisfaction.
You dating and you complain.

Speaker 15 (31:43):
Light.

Speaker 1 (31:44):
He just brought me this old Oh you see this
candy I got that last year. Just dissatisfied. Nothing makes
you happy? Come on, we got to ask God to
deal with us about this chronic dissatis faction. Oh oh,
and because because hope has been deferred, because God didn't

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come through like you thought he would. Now you upset
and some of this stuff keeps us from reaching out
after God for more. Come on, identify this thing that
has kept you from reaching for more of God, reaching
for the place that He's called you to reaching.

Speaker 2 (32:26):
Now we understood all of these things.

Speaker 1 (32:28):
Were just talking about celebrating and embracing our femininity and
what God created us to be, and understanding that He
brought us into the room for such a time as this.
Come on here, somebody, hallelujah. And we know that we
have been annoyinged for this. It is lovely that we
are living on the mountain.

Speaker 2 (32:46):
During good times.

Speaker 1 (32:47):
But what do you do when you feel like you're
in that four hundred years between Matthew and Malachi and
God ain't said nothing. You can't get a word. You
sit in front of the prophety. He ain't got nothing
for you, nothing like Lord, I know you see me,
Jesus prophocia. Everybody in the room, got nothing for you.

Speaker 2 (33:12):
Nothing.

Speaker 1 (33:15):
You get up and say, well, I'm gonna go ahead
and get in the line. Lord, bless her Jesus name.
That's all you get.

Speaker 2 (33:25):
Come on, I'm want in the world. What is this?
What is this? And so so then now.

Speaker 1 (33:37):
This this chronic dissatisfaction we are we get into grief.
Now we are grieving for our promise, grieving for what
didn't happen. Come on here, somebody greed at time out,
so quoion behind you, grieving for what.

Speaker 2 (33:57):
Did not show up. Listen, that's what he's saying. He said, Hope,
deferrd makes the heart sick.

Speaker 1 (34:02):
Your heart gets sick, your heart stops responding like it's
supposed to the resilience that you once had.

Speaker 2 (34:16):
Not there no more, Mighty God, today, Lord help us. Hallelujah.

Speaker 1 (34:23):
We gotta get to the place where, Amen, we get
back in alignment with what God is speaking to us
and what God has ordained for us.

Speaker 2 (34:31):
Hallelujah. That we don't let anything. I don't care how
long it takes. Hallelujah. Amen. Listen.

Speaker 1 (34:36):
Job said it like this, he said, all the days
of my appointed time, will I wait until my change come?
Do you have that kind of mentality while you're waiting
on God to move for you all of my days
of my appointed time? That means that even if I'm
dealing with deferment today and some of us are, there's

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some things I'm waiting for God to do. And so
this is how come it took me into the scripture.
And I've been harping on this for a couple of
weeks now about our timeline in our prophetic moments, because
I'm understanding that God brings us through processes and sometimes
you feel like you're ready for something that you don't

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have the capacity to carry. Come on, I thought I
was ready to see God really just swoop through my house.

Speaker 2 (35:29):
But maybe not.

Speaker 1 (35:31):
There's a little bit more patience I need. Come on here, somebody,
a little bit more forgiveness. I need a little bit more,
a little bit more Amen, glory to God, learning how
to walk Amen, and understanding that I need. How about
just waiting and understanding that God's timing is not my time?
So whatever time he say he want to do what
he want to do, I need to be alright with that.

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Cannot be alright with that. I want to go back
to Proverbs thirteen to twelve.

Speaker 2 (35:59):
A man, I want to read this here.

Speaker 1 (36:05):
This word sick means to be ill, to be weak,
to be faint, to become diseased or wounded. Is your
heart wounded because you've been waiting? Oh Lord, please, you
find yourself in a place of weakness. And you know
I used to say to somebody, because somebody I had

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a conversation with some years ago, and they were, you know,
talking about people being in sin. All there in sin.
They and sin because they want to be in sin.
But what I found out is that when you are
in situations like this, you become you become pray for.

Speaker 2 (36:43):
The enemy p r e y.

Speaker 1 (36:46):
Because if you are wounded and weak, that means the
door opens for the enemy.

Speaker 2 (36:54):
So now you find yourself three steps backward.

Speaker 1 (36:58):
Because not only is your heart sick, but now you've
opened the door to the enemy. Now you ready to
go make a phone call for a booty call that
you would have never made if your heart wasn't wounded.

Speaker 2 (37:13):
Oh God, please come on here, Saints, come on.

Speaker 1 (37:19):
Joe Neckbone would have never got your phone number because
you said I would never. But your heart was sick.
And so because your heart was sick, you were weak.
And so when he said, ooh you cute, you was like,

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oh my god, oh my god, I'm cute. Thank you, honey.
You can't look at it in the mirror and see
you cute. What what did he say that you didn't
not ready? Now see, because we're not secure in this

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Genesis one twenty seven, I'm in God's image.

Speaker 2 (38:02):
What he said he made, he said it was good.
I just put a little ghetout on it. He said
it was God. So what did you say it?

Speaker 1 (38:15):
Come on here, somebody, what you talking about? So because
my heart is sick, the door was open.

Speaker 2 (38:23):
And so now, yeah, honey, Joe neck Bom.

Speaker 1 (38:29):
Come on, cause we know good and well what Joe
neck Bom want. And when you weak, you want him
to have. What Joe neck Bom want, what he want
to have?

Speaker 2 (38:39):
Come on?

Speaker 1 (38:44):
Facts or often tell the story about when I started
going through initially in the beginning with my husband, and
somebody said something to me. I mean like my head
flew around backwards, and I'm like, wait a minute, why
did that even affect me like that?

Speaker 10 (39:00):
How?

Speaker 2 (39:01):
Uh uh? Lose here a friend? Get your life together.

Speaker 1 (39:06):
And that's how I learned that when your heart grows sick,
it opens the door. And so you're gonna have to
recognize where you are. You got to be honest about you.
Don't be like I'm good, you good?

Speaker 2 (39:19):
We all right?

Speaker 1 (39:20):
You know if you dealing with all of these things,
and I'm telling you, all of these spiritus are connected
to each other all because of your heart going through
the sickness of deferment, because now what opens the door regret?
Why am I in regret because sickness made me weak,

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and weakness opened the door to something that I've said
I would never do. And what I said I would
never do, I ended up doing it. Now I live
in regret. You ain't damn, you ain't never been there.
Keep living because the enemy is not gonna back up
off of you until he get what he wants. And

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so this is why you got to You got to
preserve your heart. You got to watch over your heart.
You got to a man praise God, cover your heart
at all costs. You got to be able to pray
through whatever your circumstances and your situation. And this is
why this word Amen Glory to God has been written.
That's why it says desire fulfilled is a tree of life.

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That's where we gotta get to. When the thing that
you're longing for comes to pass, it's as if life
has hit your life.

Speaker 2 (40:44):
You hear what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (40:46):
But we got to come out of these effects about
disappoint disappointment right because now we'll find ourselves disenchanted with God,
disenchanted with the things of God.

Speaker 2 (40:57):
Disenchanted with church.

Speaker 1 (40:59):
You know, I heard this lady's talking the other day
and she's talking about she's called to Apostolic ministry, and
she talking about how she had she goes to church intermittently.
Listen to me, sug you disenchanted. You got to get
your life together because this world that made us think,
this society that we are in, has made us think

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that we could show up with God any way we
want to. When he said, forst sake, not the assembling
of yourself together.

Speaker 2 (41:27):
If He meant for.

Speaker 1 (41:28):
You to get what you was gonna get by yourself,
you would have been born on a planet by yourself.
But when I read Ephesians, for he said, every joint
supplies come on, knee bone connected to your leg bone.
Come on here, somebody, the whole thing is, it comes together.

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You're not gonna get this on your own. And the
enemy will trick us when we deal with disappointment. I
don't like the way they treated me at my last church,
so I will never serve like that and another mystery
ever again.

Speaker 2 (42:02):
I will never give them that again.

Speaker 1 (42:04):
You know why you are disenchanted, and you got to
deal with that disenchantment, because that thing is gonna keep
you from receiving what God asks for you.

Speaker 2 (42:17):
Come on, woman to God.

Speaker 1 (42:18):
And that means that there are sisters that are sitting
in the pews next to you that you would never
pour into because you are disenchanted.

Speaker 2 (42:30):
Oh, there are people that listen to me.

Speaker 1 (42:35):
You will get up and minister and pour out and
you feel like, my God, I'll let God have his way.

Speaker 2 (42:40):
But still, because of.

Speaker 1 (42:42):
These things, if you don't address these things, it is
gonna prevent you from really giving one hundred percent.

Speaker 2 (42:51):
Because there will always be a measure of you that
you hold back for fear of disappointment. Come on here, somebody,
come on here.

Speaker 1 (43:04):
Can't nobody tell me about church, hurt, work, hurt whatever.
I've been on both sides of the spectrum. I've been
on the side where I've been in church and being
a member and been hurt by leadership, and then here
being in leadership, I've been bit by the sheep. And

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let me tell you something, None of that, none of
that is gonna keep me from what God is saying.

Speaker 2 (43:34):
I gotta go and mend my heart. Let God deal
with the wolves.

Speaker 1 (43:40):
Because let me tell you something, if I was to
allow those bites and those hurts to affect me, I
would not be right here today at all. The enemy
wants you to close up shop and nab by give

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what God has put on the inside of you. He
wants you to get up there in the palace esther
and get comfortable and come on, bless the Lord because
I made and look what God did for me. Hey, shuck,
guess what you didn't get there for that. Don't forget

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why he called you to the table in the first place.
Don't get happy about the table. Ask God, what do
I say now that I'm at the table? Because they
called for me, I didn't call for them.

Speaker 2 (44:34):
So if they.

Speaker 1 (44:35):
Called for me, that means they checked my credentials, they
saw what I had, They figured that what I had
they needed. So I got to bring one thousand percent
of what you poured in me, God, so I don't
fail you in this place.

Speaker 2 (44:52):
So you gotta deal with this. You gotta deal with this.
You gotta deal with all of these these things.

Speaker 1 (45:01):
You gotta You gotta understand that as you face these
effects of disappointment, right, what what is your aptitude to
be able to overcome it? What's your aptitude to be
able to overcome it. What is your attitude about overcoming it?

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What are you saying to yourself? Because listen to me,
it's self talk that matters. What are you saying to
yourself when you're in the house by yourself? What are
you What are you saying to yourself when you get along?
What what is the conversation that you have when you're
riding in the car. You know, because I know some
of y'all do this, because I know I do it too.
Ride in the car, ain't nobody in the car with me?

Speaker 2 (45:49):
And I'm just talking away.

Speaker 1 (45:53):
Talking away and such and such and such. And I
know the people riding by me think I'm on the phone.
Ain't on no phone having a whole conversation. Don't play
y'all try to make it seem like that's just me
by myself.

Speaker 2 (46:07):
I know I ain't by myself. A glory to God.
I know I hate by myself.

Speaker 1 (46:16):
Having a whole conversation, questioning and answering yourself.

Speaker 2 (46:23):
Thank you, Thank you, protherness, Melissa, thank you.

Speaker 1 (46:28):
Come on, I wanna deal with this last thing about
being in this situation where your heart is sick. It's
called disaffection. And I don't know if you know what
disaffection is. Disaffection is when you don't let anything or
anybody close to you. I hug you, but I don't

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embrace you. Let me say that again. I hug you,
but I don't embrace you. There's a difference between wrapping
your arms around somebody and wrapping your heart around them.
Do you hear what I'm saying, wrapping your arms and

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wrapping your heart and wrapping your heart around somebody is
putting you in a place of vulnerability. Wrapping your heart
around somebody, Amen, Glory to God, is the place, Amen,
where you understand that it's an occupational hazard for me
to be wounded. I understand that there is the likelihood

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that I'm going to be hurt by me wrapping my
heart around you. But I also understand that this for
this cause. Was I born for this cause?

Speaker 2 (47:50):
Esther, have you come into the kingdom for such a
time as this?

Speaker 1 (47:57):
So you gotta deal with your disaffection when you can
sit in the room and everybody thinks that you just
love them, in the ground they walk on, and the
shoes that they wearing while.

Speaker 2 (48:05):
They walking, and you can't stand none of them. Oo
wee Jesus.

Speaker 1 (48:11):
That's a place of deep woundedness because your heart has
grown sick, and you won't let nobody in that place
because you are afraid they're gonna be able to see the
real you.

Speaker 2 (48:24):
And if they see the real you, are they gonna
really like the real you? Come on here? That right,
they're uncovers the impostor syndrome. Anybody ever does.

Speaker 1 (48:32):
I'm telling you it is like one thread connected to
another thread connected to another thread. Anybody ever had to
address impostor syndrome? Like why am I here? Why am
I doing this? Why they're asking me to do this?
Why do they want me to do this? Why don't
they want somebody else to do it? Somebody else can
probably do this better than me. That's impostor syndrome. Feeling

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guilty about being blessed, being feeling guilty about being chosen,
feeling guilty about amen glory to God. I'm the one
that God used. I had to deal with that because
I felt like I had not felt like but I
knew I had survivor's guilt. I had survivor's guilt because

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I watched some of my family members. I had to
bury them, and I felt like, how did I escape?
How did I get away? How come they died and
I didn't? So then when God started calling me into
doing no work for him, I started questioning why should
I be able to do.

Speaker 2 (49:43):
This because you remember where I was? God? But honey,
you not there no more. You not there no more.

Speaker 1 (49:53):
Yeah, you did that stuff in the past, but that's
not who you are today. So you got to start
dealing with the sickness that's in your heart. And you
let me tell you something. Listen, listen. I learned this
in the medical community. Talent all only deals with the
symptom of the headache, not the headache. You gotta get

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to the root cause. And so for many of us,
we don't want to deal with the root cause because.

Speaker 2 (50:20):
It's too painful. That means I got to remember things
that I don't want to remember.

Speaker 1 (50:23):
I got to address stuff that I would much rather
not address. But I'm telling you, if you don't start
dealing with these things, you're gonna always feel like.

Speaker 2 (50:31):
The impostor in the room. And I'm telling you, he
called you for this, he anointed you for this.

Speaker 1 (50:41):
So there are things as we are going through and
experiencing this disappointment. You gotta be able to look and
see how you see you. So let me say it
like this, I gotta see how I see me. There's
an exercise I gotta bring myself through. I gotta ask myself,
what is my aptitude to overcome this?

Speaker 2 (51:00):
What is my attitude about overcoming this?

Speaker 1 (51:03):
I got to ask myself, Am I do I possess
proficiency in this anointing that God has placed on my
life and the call that He's placed on my life,
so that I can walk.

Speaker 2 (51:14):
Through this and not let this thing have me. Anybody listening,
you're the science. Hallelujah, hallelujah. You gotta ask yourself. God.
I know that you have given me competency.

Speaker 1 (51:35):
Now I got to identify my competency because these are
things that the enemy starts asking you or in what
is the word I want to use, he is accusing
you about you don't have what it takes for this?

Speaker 2 (51:47):
Yes you do, Jesus, How do I see me?

Speaker 1 (51:55):
What's my attitude, my aptitude, my proficiency and my competency.
Not just that, but what is my ability? Come on
and identify it. We have spent time in church and
because we know that we want to walk in humility,
but we have taken humility to the third power, and
we think that being able to identify that we can

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do this in God makes us proud.

Speaker 2 (52:19):
Liar, liar, pars on fire. No, no, no.

Speaker 1 (52:27):
The Bible tells me, amen that the people Daniel said it,
that the people that do know their God shall be
strong and do exploits.

Speaker 2 (52:36):
Honey, that means that you know what you know when
you know the heck out of it. Ha. Ha, That's
what that means.

Speaker 1 (52:45):
So I'm looking at my attitude, aptitude, proficiency, competency, my
ability holding hold on, and then I'm looking at my capability.
I am capable to carry this thing. My womb has
been created to carry this.

Speaker 2 (53:09):
Glory to God, my.

Speaker 1 (53:11):
Woman's been created to carry this. And then you got
to start looking back at your achievement. Capability and achievement
go hand in hand, because this is how I look
at it. And I know some of you have heard
me say this over and over again, so I'm repeat
it for those who've never said who've never heard me
say it. Anytime I'm in the battle, anytime I'm facing warfare,

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first thing I do is I look at my trophies
on the wall.

Speaker 2 (53:38):
That's the first thing I do is look at my
trophies on the wall.

Speaker 1 (53:41):
And it may not even be for this battle, but honey,
if I made it through this, surely I'll make it
through that.

Speaker 2 (53:48):
Come on here, somebody, what is my achievement?

Speaker 1 (53:56):
And these are things that you're gonna have to identify
how I see me, so that you don't allow the
spirit of disappointment to hold you captive. Life has happened
to all of us. We have all suffered losses of
some shape form of fashion well a man, have had

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to endure some kind of something that made us feel
like we were let down, you know what I'm saying.
And our heart, amen, has our hope has been deferred
about something.

Speaker 2 (54:28):
But it's not the fact that it has happened to you.

Speaker 1 (54:31):
It is how you perceive what has happened to you,
how you handling it.

Speaker 2 (54:41):
So once I look at these.

Speaker 1 (54:42):
Things, amen, and I understand my capabilities, Amen, in my achievements,
guess what comes behind me attainment?

Speaker 2 (54:50):
Because if I did that, surely I got this.

Speaker 1 (54:55):
So I'm absolutely going to be able to come through this.
There is nothing that is gonna keep me from attaining this.
Paul said it like this, he said. This one thing
I do not as I have already obtained. Not that
I've already got the victory over here, he said, but
one thing I do. I'm forgetting those things that are behind,

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and I'm pressing forward.

Speaker 2 (55:20):
Come on, get your pressed back. Sis.

Speaker 1 (55:25):
Once upon a time there was nothing that kept you
from going into the things of God.

Speaker 2 (55:28):
Come on, get her back. Come on and.

Speaker 1 (55:32):
Find you again. Oo Wei loving to God. Stop worrying
about what other people gonna say. They're gonna say something anyway,
let them talk.

Speaker 2 (55:45):
Hey, here's the thing.

Speaker 1 (55:46):
How come the in the when we're watching Dad shows,
were watching football games, basketball games. We're looking for the
star players, We're looking for the star dancers. Only in
the church are we told that we got to we
got to, we got to scarcely make it by. Oh

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that's not how we do with the power of God.
Come on, that's not how we see the power of God.
So I need you to begin to look at these things.
What is it that has made your heart sick? What
is it that that you have been dealing with? And
tonight I want to pray for us that are on

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here on tonight, and I want us to really just
release Hallelujah, Glory to God.

Speaker 2 (56:32):
Amen, in the presence of the Lord.

Speaker 1 (56:34):
I want you to forget about whatever's going on around
you right now, because this moment is for you, this
moment right here, how they Louiah. Because there is work
that God has for you to do. There are people
that God has called you to reach. There is there
is there are doors that God has.

Speaker 2 (56:55):
Meant for you to walk through.

Speaker 1 (56:57):
And tonight you got to come to terms with who
you really are. You gotta see you, how you see
you matters. I didn't say what somebody else said about you.
Somebody's always gonna have a perception about something. I'm asking you,
how you see you? How do you see you? So, Father,

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we're praying tonight. We're praying tonight. God, We're crying out
to you tonight because Lord, we have allowed the deferment
of our past seasons to keep us, Father from pressing
in to the next thing that you have for us.

Speaker 2 (57:36):
So God, we're giving ourselves to you right here. Come on,
I need you to reach for this for you. You
in the house, by yourself, You in the room, by yourself.
If you got to turn your camera off for a minute,
go ahead, do what you got to do. Shove. This
is between you and God. God have time.

Speaker 1 (57:52):
I'm soul that can that man. Shay Lord, we gotta
be what you want us to be. Father, you made
us done and you said it was good. So what
you said and what you made that was good can't
be good and bad at the same time. It can't
be poor. It can't be, Oh God, lacking. And so God,

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we're coming to you. We're giving you all the sickness
that's in our hearts on tonight.

Speaker 2 (58:20):
Re ka tamamau so rian da maahaya.

Speaker 1 (58:24):
All the disappointment.

Speaker 2 (58:27):
From the past.

Speaker 1 (58:29):
Things that we thought we should have achieved that we
didn't achieve, Things that we thought you were gonna do
that you didn't do. Father, we give ourselves to you tonight.
K karabah sokreamandi bah bah say in the name of Jesus,

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Oh God, in Jesus' name, we thank you, Lord, Hallelujah.
We give up, Oh God, the spirit of discontentment. We
rebuke the spirit of disaffection. God give us natural affection again.
Cause our hearts to be sensing ever again. God, Raba
shandai reck caraman shando ryan Dabahaya. We want to be

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able to feel again in the realm of the Spirit
and in the natural of God.

Speaker 2 (59:18):
Hi rabasheh, yanda.

Speaker 1 (59:20):
Reaman soul, Hail Alujah Mighty God, in the name of
Jesus God. Every spirit that makes us disgruntled, we turn
it over God. We lay it at your feet. Mother, hallelujah.
We will not allow our hearts to be sick another day.
We yield ourselves a man soul releh bits keanda bahaya

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re hered ramani rama mans ran da da dah. Hey,
come on, I need you to reach for this for yourself.
Every past hurt, whatever happened in any other church, any
other ministry, any other relationships.

Speaker 2 (59:58):
Come on here.

Speaker 1 (59:59):
You got to give this to God because there's a
nation that's waiting for you.

Speaker 2 (01:00:05):
There are people that have been as signed to your hand.

Speaker 1 (01:00:08):
Hollelujah, and you cannot fulfill your assignment. Di squanto head
about shah yah blah blaha ya glory Father, holley Lujah, Glory, hallelujah.
We give up, Oh God, right now, every spirit of dissatisfaction,

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every spirit of frustration yanderlah blah blah, shame, red, care red, red, carender,
red soul, in the name of Jesus, we surrender to
you tonight.

Speaker 2 (01:00:44):
We give ourselves to you tonight.

Speaker 1 (01:00:46):
God re tell Mama about your ralah blah blah blah shame.
Whatever those wounds are, we release them tonight.

Speaker 2 (01:00:55):
Halleluj. We thank you Lork that we don't have.

Speaker 1 (01:00:57):
A high priest who cannot be touched with the feeling
about infirmity, every infirmity in.

Speaker 2 (01:01:04):
Our in the man. We give it to you to night.

Speaker 1 (01:01:06):
I'mi O, we give it to you, Jeezus, Mama soul,
Mama ya nai hoo, we give it to you jee Esus,

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Oh God, hallelujah. We want to fulfill our assignment. Who
am I shut said? We rebuke the spirit of the
imposta syndrome.

Speaker 2 (01:01:41):
Hallelujah. Help us to walk in the.

Speaker 1 (01:01:43):
Foolness, Oh God of our godly identity. Any of you
in the name of Jeez said him by shikia nia.
Oh yes LORDA, Yes Lord, Yes Lord, yes LORDA. I
can't tell ba ba baha ramaman ya rah na ya

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yah nay. Hallelujah. Come on, this is your moment to surrender.
This is your moment to give God everything. And this
is the place a man when you gotta say, I'm
not going another.

Speaker 2 (01:02:22):
Day the same way.

Speaker 1 (01:02:26):
Everything that trying to keep me from being free. I'm
gonna walk in freedom. I'm gonna walk in liberty. I'm
gonna walk in the fullness of what God has called
me to walk in, without hindrance, without bondage, red damad
sor ynaya. Oh, yes Lord, Yes Lord, Yes Lord, Yes Lord,

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Yes Lord. I pray o God for these women of God.
I pray Father right now God, in.

Speaker 2 (01:02:56):
The name of Jesus, Lord, that you would touch them.

Speaker 1 (01:02:58):
Lord, that how they knew your work, have heard on tonight,
God would spur them into their healing, would cause them
God to Oh, God, understand who you have called them
to be, that they would not continue another day struggling
in their identity.

Speaker 2 (01:03:13):
Yet tell may na na yeah na nay Hallelujah, why
bah bah shun their head. God, that every dog that.

Speaker 1 (01:03:22):
You calls them to walk in, every table that you
called them to sit at, halley Lujah, every place that
you've commanded them on, God, and allow them to walk in,
that they will walk them the fullness of the glory
of God, that the power of God would be with them.
They can't tell my sorry, yah, no man yeah, yeah,
yea God, we declare that it is soul God, Hallelujah Father,

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in the name of Jesus Rea shah Brabahaiah. In the
name of Jesus, we bless you, We honor you, we
exalt you.

Speaker 2 (01:03:57):
Lord, We give you glory, take breathing new life into us,
new life into us. God, they have my soul.

Speaker 1 (01:04:07):
Hey, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah. Yeah yeah, Hurrasha you care
that bah yeah God, Rah blah blah s hey. We
declare regd in the name of Jesus God in our

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prophesie over these women, Lord, that they were walking the
anointing that You were placed on their life. God, that
their pedigree would not haunt them where they come from,
where they Oh God, Oh God, have been the things
that they have done, the things that they have experienced.
But God, that they their testimonies will blessed the lives
of those that they come in contact with God.

Speaker 2 (01:04:49):
For the glory of God.

Speaker 1 (01:04:52):
Blah shikna na yay, Yes Lord, Yes Lord, Yes Lord,
Yes Lord, yes Lord.

Speaker 2 (01:05:02):
Yes Lord, yes Lord, Yes Lord, Yes Lord, yes Lord Nahaya.

Speaker 1 (01:05:11):
And so we're making these declarations tonight hallelujah, and we're
not accepting anything else. As you are going through the
rest of your weekend, going through the rest of your life,
you gotta be determined who God take you here, Taman
sod yaha. You gotta be determined. It doesn't matter if

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you're going by yourself, if who you thought was supposed
to be with you is not with you, doesn't matter
who left you, who forgot about you, who promised you
whatever and they didn't deliver on their promises.

Speaker 2 (01:05:49):
God is not a man that he should lie.

Speaker 1 (01:05:53):
Neither the son a man that he should repent. Let
me tell you something, telling you from experience. Hey time,
I saw the yeah nine nine yeah yeah. I'm telling
you from experience. Hallelujah, Glory to God. I'm telling you
from experience that I know for a fact.

Speaker 2 (01:06:16):
That what God said he gonna do it. I don't can't.
If it take ten years, I don't care. If it
take twenty years, I don't care if it take thirty years.

Speaker 1 (01:06:27):
Hallelujah. He has graced you for the weight. Hear me tonight,
He has graced you. Come out saw yeah time I
He has graced you for the weight.

Speaker 2 (01:06:42):
W A I T N W e I G H G.

Speaker 1 (01:06:47):
He has graced you for the waits. Hai, ma'm so
cordana in the name of Jesus. And so you gotta
be okay. You gotta be okay with the way. You
gotta be okay with whatever it takes and whatever he says.

Speaker 2 (01:07:10):
Ah, You've been grace for the wait.

Speaker 1 (01:07:16):
And it doesn't matter if everybody else thinks that you
have been forsaken by God and cannot tell you that
that's really the blessed place, cannot tell you that that's.

Speaker 2 (01:07:27):
How you know you in the right place.

Speaker 1 (01:07:29):
Is everybody thinks you've been forsaken. It's been those moments
that God reveals himself. It's been those moments hallelujah, where
God is timpering you in the fire, the fire of disappointment,
the fire of unanswer preyers, Oh God, Hallylujah, Glory, hallelujah,

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hoorda bay shore.

Speaker 2 (01:07:57):
I know that they been shad. It is in that moment.
And see, we think that the blessed place the blessed places,
and it is a blessed place where you're hearing the
word of the Lord. But when you are in that place, listen.
The Bible says that.

Speaker 1 (01:08:13):
When you are suffering persecution. The spirit of glory and
of God rests upon you. You want the glory to
rest on you, Come on, go through this, says, the spirit.

Speaker 2 (01:08:27):
Of glory and of God rests in the fire.

Speaker 1 (01:08:33):
Come on, I can book that too with Old Testament,
just as well as New Testament. Shatack me shaking the visigo,
didn't find God, didn't let see him toay God in
the fire. Come on here, somebody, glory to God. This
is the place where God reveals himself. And if you

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can just go through this time that God has called
you to, if you can just endure to this place
until you begin to see the you he called you
to be.

Speaker 2 (01:09:08):
Because just like get in, God has called us mighty warriors.
And because of your wounds, you see weakness. You see
a weakling.

Speaker 1 (01:09:18):
Come on here, come up out of that wounds in place.
That's not who you are no more. Says it happened
to you, But that ain't you. Let me say it again,
It happened to you, but that ain't you.

Speaker 2 (01:09:36):
That ain't you. Hallelujah, globing to God.

Speaker 1 (01:09:42):
So whatever places you've been having to traverse by yourself,
globing to God, whatever loneliness, whatever disappointment, whatever frustration, because
Hope deferred.

Speaker 2 (01:09:56):
Now, let's deal with that third.

Speaker 1 (01:10:01):
It didn't say Hope abandoned. It did say that God
wasn't gonna answer. It just meant you had to wait.
And we have taken deferments as No, it's just a
waiting season, that's all it is.

Speaker 2 (01:10:20):
Somebody put it in the comments, it's just a waiting season.
Going back to what Joe said, all of my days,
at my point in time, I'm gonna wait until my change. Come.
Listen to me.

Speaker 1 (01:10:33):
Change is coming. Yes it is, Yes, it is. I
don't care what nobody said. It's just a waiting season.
And here's the here's the prophetic word. Y'all wanted the prophecy.

Speaker 2 (01:10:47):
Here's a prophecy. Season's changed.

Speaker 1 (01:10:54):
You just gotta make sure that you don't die in
the winter, that's all. You just gotta make sure that
you don't die in your winter.

Speaker 2 (01:11:10):
That's it. Spring is coming.

Speaker 1 (01:11:14):
And the seeds that have been planted in your winter
season are gonna start cropping up.

Speaker 2 (01:11:20):
The seeds that God has planted. Cannot tell you. In
the winter they plant tulips, and in the spring they
break through the ground.

Speaker 1 (01:11:34):
And just because it's beneath the ground, blah shah. Just
because it's beneath the ground, don't mean it's not breaking through.
Come on, this is your break can't come in salt
ya higher. This is your breakthrough season.

Speaker 16 (01:11:53):
This is it.

Speaker 2 (01:11:56):
This is it, hall Alujah.

Speaker 1 (01:12:00):
And I'm not gonna die in the winter. I refuse
to die them. I'm so katy out the old sha yah.
I refuse to die. My winter spring is waiting for me.
I just gotta let the land throw out a little bit.
Come on, and when God get finished, everything that he

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planted is gonna flourish.

Speaker 2 (01:12:25):
Everything that he's planted is gonna flourish.

Speaker 1 (01:12:29):
Holly lujah, Everything that He has poured out on me,
halle lujah is gonna flourish.

Speaker 2 (01:12:36):
Glory to God.

Speaker 1 (01:12:38):
And so we thank him for this on tonight. We
thank him for dealing with where we are. We thank
him for calling us out. We thank him for giving
us grace for this season. How they Lujah that we
would be able to endure what we need to endure
so that He could get the glory out of our lives.
Because listen to me, God ain't through God ain't through

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God ain't through somebody say, God ain't through.

Speaker 2 (01:13:05):
He is not through.

Speaker 1 (01:13:07):
You might feel like he threw, but honey, he not through.
A God ain't through. And so we give God praise
on tonight. Hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (01:13:18):
We bless the Lord. And I just want to say, Amen,
I thank you ladies for sharing tonight with us. Amen.
Thank you for taking time Halley Lujah. I don't know
what my phone's doing.

Speaker 11 (01:13:30):
It's doing stuff.

Speaker 2 (01:13:32):
Glory to God. It's all this flashing and stuff happened.
I wish it would stop. Hallylujah.

Speaker 1 (01:13:38):
I thank God for you sharing tonight with us, Amen,
and for taking time out of your busy schedule, because
I know everybody's schedules are busy, but this poor is
for us, this poor.

Speaker 2 (01:13:52):
Amen, Glory to God is indeed for us.

Speaker 1 (01:13:56):
We gotta know that everything that we have endured and
our enduring is for God to get the glory.

Speaker 2 (01:14:06):
Out of our lives.

Speaker 1 (01:14:08):
I love you to prophet. This is definitely I appreciate
the Lord for you, Amen. And so I want to
tell you guys, Amen, next month, Amen, by the grace
of God, I really wanted to do a whole full
fledged conference, but we're not gonna be able to do
a whole, full fletched conference.

Speaker 2 (01:14:24):
But we're gonna have conference days, Amen. So some of
our Sunday mornings are gonna be girl get a grip Sundays. Hallelujah,
Glory to God, hallelujah. Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:14:35):
I love you, I love y'all, love y'all, love y'all.
Thank God for all of y'all, hallelujah. So so Sunday,
the ninth, Amen, here in our sanctuary, it's gonna be
a girl get a grip Sunday, Hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (01:14:48):
And then the twenty third will be.

Speaker 1 (01:14:51):
A girl get a grip Sunday. So we are gonna
be in here, Amen. We're gonna have Sunday morning conferences
right here. God, And I'm believing God that he's gonna
pour out and we are going to be strengthened.

Speaker 2 (01:15:04):
And God is going to a man allow us.

Speaker 1 (01:15:08):
And I got some speakers in mind for these two Sundays,
a man and prayerfully in May we'll be able to
do a full fledged conference.

Speaker 2 (01:15:17):
That's my heart's desire that we'll be able to do that.
So we just need to tell this calendar to calm
down for five minutes, because this calendar don't want to
calm down. Ain't lujah, Amen, But I want to open
up the floor amen for those of you a man
that are here. Glory to God.

Speaker 1 (01:15:34):
And I see we got like one hundred and something
comments up here Glory to God.

Speaker 2 (01:15:38):
And we thank God for all of you being here
on tonight.

Speaker 1 (01:15:43):
But we want to open the floor for you, Amen,
if you have something that you like to share a man,
Glory to God.

Speaker 2 (01:15:49):
We want to be able to hear from you. We
thank God for each of you. Amen. So you can
unmute your mic, Amen, and go ahead and come on
and share with us. Amen.

Speaker 3 (01:16:02):
Well, so I just want to thank you for pouring
out tonight and everything that you poured out, because it
was definitely it was so rich and it was needed,
you know because as women in ministry, you know, sometimes
we that femininity piece, you know, and being able to
walk and stand where God has called us to stand

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sometimes in a room full of men, you know, it's
challenging and it's difficult. And so everything that you just
everything you said and even dealing with deferrals and disappointments
and like the effects of disappointments, just everything was so
good and it was it.

Speaker 4 (01:16:39):
Was so needed.

Speaker 11 (01:16:40):
It was so needed.

Speaker 4 (01:16:42):
So I just want to thank you.

Speaker 2 (01:16:43):
Glory to God.

Speaker 1 (01:16:45):
We praised God, hallelujah, and we thank God for God
being on time.

Speaker 2 (01:16:51):
Hallelujah. Glory to God. Amen, Amen, Amen, anybody else want
to open your mic on tonight? Glory.

Speaker 1 (01:17:04):
I see some of y'all got a little little bit
of a look of y'all wrecked right about now. And
that's all right, that's all right, that's all right till
we give God glory.

Speaker 2 (01:17:15):
Hallelujah. Thank you Jesus.

Speaker 11 (01:17:18):
I wasn't gonna say anything, but I am.

Speaker 4 (01:17:21):
I thank God for you.

Speaker 6 (01:17:23):
I thank God for this word, like propatly is I
address say, it was so rich, Like even today.

Speaker 4 (01:17:31):
I felt myself drifting.

Speaker 6 (01:17:35):
In a place, but this right here.

Speaker 4 (01:17:42):
Has snatched me right back out, Like I mean, it's just.

Speaker 11 (01:17:48):
It's so it's so amazing. I tell you always come
with the on time.

Speaker 4 (01:17:54):
Word, like you know, and I thank God.

Speaker 6 (01:17:58):
For this word because we have to real those disappointments
like we have to really.

Speaker 4 (01:18:03):
Recognize and what's the word I'm looking for?

Speaker 6 (01:18:07):
We have to recognize them and make awareness to ourselves
that this is what's happening, so that we won't fall
and that we won't drift in that in that place
of disappointment and then not even knowing why we're acting
the way we're acting. Why why am I responding this way?
I have no idea why I'm responding this way. But

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now I know and I can recognize that disappointment, the
hope deferred, making the heart sick.

Speaker 17 (01:18:40):
Now I have.

Speaker 6 (01:18:41):
Wisdom and revelation and understanding that I will not allow
my heart to be sick because I.

Speaker 4 (01:18:49):
Can handle it right up front. I can handle it.

Speaker 6 (01:18:53):
I can respond well.

Speaker 11 (01:18:55):
I know what to do.

Speaker 4 (01:18:57):
Yes, And thank you so much for this word and
for everything that you have poured out on us tonight.
Thank you Jesus, I think not forgiving it to you
and put it in your spirit for.

Speaker 6 (01:19:12):
You to come and just more out on the women
of God tonight.

Speaker 4 (01:19:16):
God bless you. And may God.

Speaker 6 (01:19:18):
Restore and pour everything back into you a thousandfold.

Speaker 15 (01:19:23):
Man.

Speaker 2 (01:19:23):
He just blow you with revelation and everything else, whatever
it is. Open up the windows Jesus and pour.

Speaker 6 (01:19:30):
You out of blessing because your heart is truly for
the for the people of God.

Speaker 4 (01:19:36):
And so God bless you. Mama.

Speaker 2 (01:19:37):
I love you so much too.

Speaker 11 (01:19:41):
That I love you so much.

Speaker 2 (01:19:45):
Thank God, Thank God, Thank God. Heymen, and listen.

Speaker 1 (01:19:49):
I want to tell you so I had I got
four pages of notes and while I was praying. When
I sat here praying, Holy Spirit said, deal with disappointment.
So I had to come off of my notes and
say what he said. He said, come off for that,

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and he said, deal with this hope deferred. He said
that while we while I was praying, So just right here,
because I was ready, this is what we're gonna do,
This is what we're gonna Come right here, and the
Holy Spirit said, deal with hope deferred and the sickness
in the heart and that disappointment.

Speaker 2 (01:20:31):
Yes, ma'am.

Speaker 4 (01:20:32):
Can I say something, just have a full transparent moment here.

Speaker 2 (01:20:35):
Yes.

Speaker 11 (01:20:35):
And I'm trying to say this without crying, y'all. So today,
so that that's what I was saying. This word was
so rich because I've been.

Speaker 3 (01:20:44):
Battling with you know, tomorrow is a year anniversary of
Calvin's death, and so I've been I've been dealing with
today about.

Speaker 11 (01:20:54):
What I thought should have happened.

Speaker 3 (01:20:56):
The deferment and the disappointment, and it's like coming back.

Speaker 4 (01:21:01):
Everything is coming back, like.

Speaker 3 (01:21:02):
Okay, I shouldn't have been here, you know, because we
were believing God for something else. Yes, And so when
you said that about the hope deferred and all these
different things, I was just like, oh my God, you know,
it's answering what I've been talking through today, you know,
like what I've been talking through today and you know,
wrestling withself.

Speaker 11 (01:21:22):
I just I thank God because that it was really needed.

Speaker 1 (01:21:26):
Jesus, and we declare that the Lord will undergird your
heart as you face tomorrow, and that you face it
with grace and strength and the joy of the Lord.
That makes absolutely no sense in Jesus' name, and that

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the Lord would would just just fill your heart with
his peace.

Speaker 2 (01:21:51):
In Jesus' name. We are declaring that over you today
and we know that God is able. Thank you for
sharing that. Amen, Thank you Lord, Hallelujah.

Speaker 10 (01:22:05):
Want to say, I just want to say, glory, Hey.

Speaker 2 (01:22:19):
Maria, I say I'm I say.

Speaker 4 (01:22:23):
My say.

Speaker 14 (01:22:27):
My shea Jesus, Jesus, Hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (01:22:39):
Glory, glory, glory, glory, glory, glory, Thank you God, Glory.

Speaker 4 (01:22:45):
Lord, Hallelujah.

Speaker 10 (01:22:48):
Jesus am a slutchy glory, glory, glory, glory, glory, thank you.

Speaker 11 (01:22:55):
Gotta thank you thank you hush because thank you.

Speaker 1 (01:23:02):
Hallelujah, Glory, mighty, glory, mighty God.

Speaker 4 (01:23:07):
I can't talk.

Speaker 2 (01:23:07):
Glory Jesus. We thank you Lord. Hallelujah, Jesus, Oh.

Speaker 14 (01:23:18):
My, to God be the glory.

Speaker 2 (01:23:21):
To God be the glory. Hallelujah, Thank you Jesus. Hallelujah. Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:23:28):
Somebody else was trying to talk at the same time, hallelujah,
Thank you Lord.

Speaker 11 (01:23:34):
That was me.

Speaker 16 (01:23:35):
I just wanted to say that I hope that we
can now use this these tools to help us and
to not sit on this because for myself, I'm an
overthinker or over analyze.

Speaker 11 (01:23:49):
I'm overanalyzed, analyze everything. So just you know, allow just
to let this hair.

Speaker 16 (01:23:57):
Stuff works for me and when it is or and
don't back out or because of regard is is taking
me or trying to take me.

Speaker 2 (01:24:05):
He is taking you, He ain't trying to take you.
Nowhere you're going.

Speaker 11 (01:24:09):
Going, Lord, I'm just allowing him to continue to do it.

Speaker 16 (01:24:16):
I don't again what I don't think I'm worthy of
or bean or because of my wounds.

Speaker 11 (01:24:22):
Or my past or what I've been through.

Speaker 16 (01:24:26):
So just allowing this information to just you know, this
to feed me to you know to get me to
that expected it neither go somewhere.

Speaker 2 (01:24:40):
Not here recorded, Yes it is, Yes, and property is
Keisha acts. Is it going to be a replay? Yes,
there will be a replay. I will be uploading this
to the podcast so they can go on the podcast today. Amen,
I'm gonna try.

Speaker 4 (01:24:59):
To talk more time, try to talk one more time.

Speaker 10 (01:25:04):
Thank you Apostle Mom for the on time world, you know,
and the deferment.

Speaker 6 (01:25:10):
You know.

Speaker 15 (01:25:11):
I question God quite a bit and most of you
probably know, some of you, some of you probably know
my story to you know, to be in a to
be mad for thirty three years, you know, and end
up and divorced.

Speaker 4 (01:25:23):
That's that's a lot, you know.

Speaker 10 (01:25:26):
And so I'm like God, Okay, I trust you, but when.

Speaker 11 (01:25:31):
You think your heart is healed, you know.

Speaker 10 (01:25:33):
And I said, God, I don't want any residue, no
residue left, so the enemy can't have a foothold and nothing.
Because I've been dreaming a lot. I'm like God, wait
a minute, now, I thought I forget, I forgive it,
and da da da da da da da. I don't
want any residue left. So I thank God for you
for exposing, for revealing you know, every plan, every ploy,

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every scheme, every assignment of the enemy that would try
to come in and stop what me is actually trying
to do. I thank you for that because I don't
want any resid do. I don't want anything in my
heart that's gonna prevent me from being everything that God
has actually.

Speaker 6 (01:26:10):
Called me to be.

Speaker 2 (01:26:11):
So I thank you.

Speaker 4 (01:26:13):
I thank you for what God has.

Speaker 10 (01:26:14):
Actually done, what God is doing through you, and what
God has actually continued to do in your life. God
bless you, Mom.

Speaker 4 (01:26:22):
I love you so much. Thank you.

Speaker 2 (01:26:24):
Amen, hallelujah.

Speaker 8 (01:26:28):
So I want to say something to if I can, Yes.

Speaker 4 (01:26:31):
Please, God bless you for this.

Speaker 7 (01:26:34):
Also, Poor I wasn't gonna say anything.

Speaker 4 (01:26:36):
I've been sitting in the car.

Speaker 7 (01:26:38):
My husband when waiting on me forever for dinner, and
I said, I'm gonna get out and hang up. But
God told me I was supposed to say something first,
and I was quiet, and then I was supposed to
say something maybe the third time.

Speaker 8 (01:26:48):
And I was quiet again.

Speaker 7 (01:26:49):
But Prophet I kept speaking, and what I wanted to
do was I wanted to take a moment to just
empower her. What I was going to say before anybody
said anything, was just how her spirit embodies what it
is to be a girl's girl, a woman's woman. She
is so full of women empowerment. And my husband and

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I were in Puerto Rico for my birthday and on
Valentine's Day. I witnessed her stand in her power and
not be a disgruntled woman about love and about Valentine's Day,
and even in the loss of her husband, she was
able to celebrate herself and celebrate other women. So I
just wanted to and let her know that she embodies

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a lot of what you discussed on tonight. S. Sometimes
we don't know as women what each other are going through, right,
and we must be bit better and do better about
empowering each other and you know, encouraging each other and
loving each other and not just hugging each other, but
embracing each other because we are in this thing together.
We really need each other. We are better together.

Speaker 8 (01:27:56):
And I watch her, you know, in.

Speaker 7 (01:27:57):
These social media streets and in these this social media world,
you know, we don't celebrate each other, we don't encourage
each other, we don't promote each other. But we'll jump
on the celebrities posts who don't know us, can't respond back,
won't say anything, and we'll celebrate them and tell them
happy birthday and say all kinds of.

Speaker 8 (01:28:14):
Stuff and never get a comment. And she's not like that.

Speaker 7 (01:28:17):
She comments, she reshares, and she speaks back to you
on her post.

Speaker 8 (01:28:23):
She's just a woman's woman.

Speaker 7 (01:28:25):
She embodied, She's the epitome of what a godly woman
should be.

Speaker 8 (01:28:29):
So I just wanted to encourage her tonight.

Speaker 7 (01:28:31):
I wanted to speak over her and make the joy
of the Lord just continue to be her strength, and
may He fill her up even the more. And I
want her to just to stay the course because you
never know who's watching. You never know who you are encouraging,
You never know who you are blessing. But again, thank you.

Speaker 8 (01:28:46):
For this on tonight. It was much needed.

Speaker 7 (01:28:49):
If you do this again, I'll make sure that my
team is on as well, because us as women need
to hear this. We need to deal with the heart,
the conditions of our heart, you know, the spirit of offense,
all of that stuff that just rests in our heart
even while we are serving.

Speaker 4 (01:29:04):
This was very rich, it was very needed.

Speaker 8 (01:29:07):
I'm happy that I was able to join on tonight.
God bless you. I love you, Propheties Andrea, I love.

Speaker 7 (01:29:11):
You just keep going a stay of courses because you
are needed in the Kingdom of God.

Speaker 2 (01:29:16):
Amen. Thank you for saying that.

Speaker 1 (01:29:19):
Amen, And we celebrate that because we absolutely need to
be able to love on each other and embrace one another.

Speaker 2 (01:29:30):
And so thank you for sharing that.

Speaker 1 (01:29:32):
You know, it matters when we realize or hear that
we are seeing, right, it matters to know that we
are seen. And so thank you for letting her know
that she's seen. And there's a difference between being seen
and viewed.

Speaker 2 (01:29:52):
Come on, it's a difference, and so we thank God
for that. Thank you for sharing that.

Speaker 11 (01:29:59):
Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:30:01):
Amen to anybody else want to share anything on this evening.

Speaker 12 (01:30:07):
Mother, I thank God so much for tonight for open
heart surgery.

Speaker 4 (01:30:12):
It's big open heart surgery. The Lord has been doing this.

Speaker 12 (01:30:16):
And for me, what I took from this is, first
of all, a lot of new words that I never
heard before I was hearing you and trying to search Google,
search the minions and write it down the minutings, because
that word, this affection, it gives me the chance to
look inside myself, you know, like when you do things
but you don't know because you don't know the word,

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so you cannot pinpointed.

Speaker 4 (01:30:39):
Since then the revelation said, ah, that's what it is.
I put a finger against.

Speaker 12 (01:30:45):
So now that I got the information, like Melissa, I
could pinpoint it.

Speaker 4 (01:30:49):
I said, ah, you're up. That word is drunk.

Speaker 12 (01:30:53):
I never heard that word before, and I wrote it down.
But most importantly, another thing that I took from this
is that we are so busy and we're always looking
for the next thing to do, and we are going forward, forward, forward,
and attention is forward, and then the day that we
don't meet the expectation and the target, then we feel

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disappointed and we forget to look back at the trophies
on the walls and the achievements.

Speaker 4 (01:31:21):
And that I will downe because that be me all
the time. So now I know that when I feel
that way.

Speaker 12 (01:31:30):
And I don't meet the expectations and gottn't make the commitment,
I gotta look back, look at the wall, look what
I don't look look through.

Speaker 4 (01:31:40):
Me, and what am I standing now? And that I
don't look like I used to look, and I know
who I used to be.

Speaker 11 (01:31:46):
And then I have to use some Mother, thank thank.

Speaker 1 (01:31:50):
You, less shoot Maria, thank God, thank God, thank God,
My goodness to God be the glory. He's so wonderful. Ah,
he's so wonderful. I'm so thankful that he knows better
than any of us what we need.

Speaker 17 (01:32:11):
Yes, go ahead, I appreciate that. I really appreciate this impartation.

Speaker 4 (01:32:18):
I got so much out of it.

Speaker 17 (01:32:20):
I don't even know how to put it into words. Okay,
I don't know how to put it towards. But I'm
like pretty much everybody is. That was that was fresh
off the press and that she needed. Like you said, guys,
Holy Spirit said, put the notes to the side, just
open your mouth and did so.

Speaker 11 (01:32:38):
And I thank God for you for doing that. It's
so much I can say that. I don't really even
know how to put it into words. I don't know.

Speaker 17 (01:32:51):
I enjoyed myself. I really learned something and I got
to put it into action. And that's what's getting on
my nerves. I can't really say that, Yeah, they gotta
put it into action, and I don't know what it
is stop me. But I mean, I know I wake

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up in pain and all that, But I've never been
like this my whole life, child abuse, hurting, pro bones, anything,
never been like this, right that pain or hurt stop me,
and I don't know when they took that thyroid.

Speaker 11 (01:33:27):
What is just making me so sluggish and I feel
lazy and that's not me.

Speaker 4 (01:33:32):
I love the work, I like to go, I like
to minister, I like to do.

Speaker 11 (01:33:35):
It's just so much.

Speaker 4 (01:33:37):
But I enjoyed the service. I enjoyed.

Speaker 11 (01:33:39):
I'm glad I got them.

Speaker 17 (01:33:40):
God.

Speaker 11 (01:33:40):
Thatss you guys.

Speaker 2 (01:33:41):
Amen, We thank God for you.

Speaker 1 (01:33:44):
And so Father, we are declaring and decreeing over prophet
on tonight God, in Jesus' name, Lord, that everything that
stands in her way to bind her, to hinder her,
to obstruct her, that these things be moved out of
the way. By the name of Jesus the Lord, we
declare that this word take root, and that she begin

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to move and.

Speaker 2 (01:34:05):
Be actionable to do the things that are in her
heart to do. That her heart, her hands, and her
feet will all be in agreement. In the name of Jesus.

Speaker 1 (01:34:15):
We bind every spirit of procrastination and every spirit that
will come to try to discourage and try to snatch
this word out of her heart.

Speaker 2 (01:34:23):
We declare, Father, that she is not a failure.

Speaker 1 (01:34:26):
We declare Father, Hallylujah, that God, that she accomplishes the
will of God. We declare over her Father, in the
name of Jesus, that everything that you have declared over.

Speaker 2 (01:34:36):
Her, she shall walk in it. She shall see it,
she shall embrace it, she shall experience it. Her hands
shall handle it. In the name of Jesus. And Father,
we bless you and we honor you.

Speaker 1 (01:34:47):
Every spirit of the enemy, every spirit of arrested development
that will try to come and arrest her progress, we
curse it at the root in Jesus's name.

Speaker 2 (01:34:58):
And so, Father, we thank you that from this this
moment forward, she is free.

Speaker 1 (01:35:04):
She walks into peace of God. The joy of the
Lord is her strength. We thank you Father that she
can look back at her previous achievements. And Father, the
spirit of attainment is on her, the spirit of attainment.
You shall attain those things that are in your heart
to attain.

Speaker 2 (01:35:24):
In the name of Jesus.

Speaker 1 (01:35:26):
You shall accomplish and continue to accomplish in.

Speaker 2 (01:35:30):
Jesus' name, and Father, we bless you for it. In
the name of Jesus. Amen. Amen, we love you, Prophetess Shades,
and thank God for you, Honey, Thank God for you,
Thank God for you. Amen, Hallelujah, Glory to God, Thank
you Lord. Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:35:51):
Anybody else before we be ready to close out or
the want to hinder anybody. Hallelujah, Glory to God. Thank
you for all of you that are here and that
have not been able to share. We thank God for you.

Speaker 2 (01:36:02):
Thank you for being in the room tonight, Holly lujah,
because you could have been anywhere, but we appreciate you
being in the room with us tonight. Amen. All right,
last go around, anybody want to go before we close out.

Speaker 4 (01:36:20):
It's one to thank you for your poor tonight, mom.
It means a lot.

Speaker 18 (01:36:23):
I went through some disappointment today, but I thank God
for the strength, for the strength of the word.

Speaker 4 (01:36:29):
Thank you tonight.

Speaker 2 (01:36:30):
Amen. God bless you.

Speaker 1 (01:36:32):
We love you, prophetess, and we honor the Lord for you. Amen,
Thank you Jesus. I was trying to find this this
here fly you what I did with it?

Speaker 2 (01:36:42):
Let me see.

Speaker 4 (01:36:45):
I thank my Albor tonight for my ema.

Speaker 10 (01:36:52):
Yes, I knew you had to come on and say something.

Speaker 11 (01:36:57):
I knew that.

Speaker 14 (01:37:00):
That the jurch say.

Speaker 5 (01:37:01):
Yes, can we just go ahead and pass out the
off from pain? Because you to put the enemy to
choke hold tonight.

Speaker 4 (01:37:08):
And I appreciate it. I really do, I really do.
We ain't got no business leaving out this room the
same way we came in.

Speaker 5 (01:37:17):
And I mean you talked, Yeah, you talked to you.
Ain't even talk to me, no conversation with no demons.
You literally just came in and just like yep, exit
stage right.

Speaker 14 (01:37:29):
Jesus and I thank God.

Speaker 4 (01:37:32):
I thank my Aba tonight for my ema. And that's period.
I love y'all.

Speaker 11 (01:37:37):
I love we love you.

Speaker 2 (01:37:40):
I love you. Thank God for you. Thank you Jesus,
Glory to God. The Lord is good. Thank you Jesus. Amen. Amen,
I was trying to find this flyer. Amen, who's that?
Just open up?

Speaker 18 (01:37:56):
They might Oh, I was gonna tell you, it's too
ladies on that you met you at the event that
I hosted. They might not can say anything. Apostle Carolyn
Washington and Elva Tamika had Lee are armed. I think
Tamika said something in the.

Speaker 2 (01:38:15):
In the I think so, yes, ma'am, Yes, ma'ams, ma'am.

Speaker 4 (01:38:19):
Just thankful that they were able to jump on.

Speaker 1 (01:38:21):
Thank you so much, ladies for jumping on. We appreciate
the Lord for you spending time with us tonight. We
know that you didn't have to, but we're so glad
that you did. We are so glad that you did.
God bless you, and thank God for both of you
spending this this time with us this evening. Many blessings

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to you, many blessings. Amen, blessed.

Speaker 2 (01:38:45):
Oh, Sister Shamika is on, Hey, blessed, Hollylujah, Amen, We
praise God.

Speaker 1 (01:38:57):
I just want to put this up here real quick
to my come wrong. We are gonna be here in
the sanctuary and we will be streaming. I'm gonna put
this up here real quick. Tomorrow the Prophetic boot Camp
we're starting out. Our doors will open at nine a m.
Prayer will be at nine to thirty. Our first session
starts at ten AM and it's gonna be a praise

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in worship session, So anybody that is involved in worship.
My daughter Apostle Michelle Guests is gonna be facilitating and
her team is gonna be here. I'm excited because she's
gonna come here with like a wrecking ball like she
always do. And I'm looking forward to the ball reckon
right here in the house. Come on here, Holy goes
in the name of Jesus.

Speaker 2 (01:39:39):
I'm excited.

Speaker 1 (01:39:40):
The Prophet's gonna be here activating, teaching, training and in
parting and I'm looking for. I hope I get me
a little bit of floor fellowship in. I'm gonna find
me whatever river the prophets is getting in on lamarra.

Speaker 2 (01:39:53):
I'm dumping in at.

Speaker 1 (01:39:54):
How that Loujah, Glory to God, Hallelujah. I don't care
if they don't even call me out. I'm gonna find
myse up in the line.

Speaker 7 (01:40:02):
We're gonna sign you up for the four minutes.

Speaker 1 (01:40:05):
I want some Hallelujah and we say thank you Lord.
I'm looking forward to I'm so excited, Amen. I'm gonna
be cooking lunch tomorrow for us tomorrow. Amen, I ain't
making no mac and cheese, so it ain't happening.

Speaker 2 (01:40:17):
But just so you know, I'm hard. We're not doing
that praise the Lord Hallelujah. We just oh Lord Jesus.
But we are so excited about tomorrow. Tomorrow's theme is
training for raining.

Speaker 1 (01:40:37):
We are looking forward to the profits positioning themselves, getting
in place and position so that God can use them
like he wants to in this house, Amen, and you
a man, don't have to be a part of this
ministry to be here for this. We will place the
zoom links on our page and we may just stream
the whole thing onto onto the Facebook so that you

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guys can be able to see it. We will create
the zoom for it so that if you all have
questions and whatever whatever, that you'll be able to do that.
So meet us here tomorrow. It says ten am to two,
but prayer is at nine to thirty, So nine thirty
is gonna be prayer. Ten am is the first session, right,
and so it's gonna be amazing, amazing, and we hope

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to see you here on tomorrow. I'm just so excited
about it. It's gonna be amazing. It's gonna be amazing.
It's gonna be amazing, hallelujah.

Speaker 11 (01:41:29):
Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:41:29):
And I don't have a flyer for it yet, but
we will also be beginning the Profits Guild, which is
part of Open Global.

Speaker 2 (01:41:36):
Amen.

Speaker 1 (01:41:37):
And so profit is Andrea and Apostle Keisha, who is
on here, Amen, hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (01:41:42):
They're gonna be facilitating that.

Speaker 1 (01:41:44):
So that's gonna be We're looking at March for our
first class hallelujah.

Speaker 2 (01:41:50):
Amen. And so you want to get in that too,
so we'll make sure we get that fly together so
that you all be able to see that. Amen. If
all hearts and minds is clear. I'm gonna let us go.

Speaker 11 (01:42:00):
Amen.

Speaker 2 (01:42:00):
We praise God for each of you. Holley Lujah. We
bless the Lord for his goodness and his grace and
his long suffering everything that he has done. And God
pray for you. That was over there.

Speaker 1 (01:42:21):
We was baking bread today. Lord had mercy that bread
was good. That's a shame. It's turning into something on Fridays.
And I said, I wasn't making up. But anyway, to
God be the glory.

Speaker 2 (01:42:32):
Let's pray. Father. We bless you.

Speaker 1 (01:42:34):
Thank you Lord for these anointed women of God. Thank
you for this time and your presence. Thank you Lord
for just entrusting us on God with this moment in
eternity of God and even in the natural realm. Thank
you Father for this chirost moment to be able to
receive from You.

Speaker 4 (01:42:48):
Now.

Speaker 1 (01:42:49):
We thank you Lord that no matter what has been deferred,
our hearts are no longer sick. We thank you following
that every time a symptom of sickness tries to rear
its head, we will asked it down in the name
of Jesus, and we will walk in spiritual wellness and
wholeness in.

Speaker 2 (01:43:05):
The name of Jesus.

Speaker 1 (01:43:06):
We declare and decree that there will be no hold back,
There will be no procrastination, there will be no disaffection.

Speaker 2 (01:43:12):
Lord, we are gonna embrace and not just hug. In
the name of Jesus. We are going to pour out.

Speaker 1 (01:43:18):
We are not gonna, Oh God, put on fasides, but
we're gonna embrace the fullness of our mantles, our calls,
our anointings that you have placed upon us, Father, and
the grace that you have placed upon our lives. We
will walk in the fullness of it, the height, the depth,
the length, and the breath of it, for the glory
of God the Father.

Speaker 2 (01:43:38):
And we say thank you for it in Jesus name.

Speaker 1 (01:43:40):
And we declare that no foul of the air, no
demonic spirit, Halley Lujah, will come to try to snatch
this word out of our heart.

Speaker 2 (01:43:49):
We secure this word.

Speaker 1 (01:43:51):
We seal it hally Lujah, by the name of Jesus,
Glory to God and Father.

Speaker 2 (01:43:55):
We thank you now in Jesus' name, a man and
a God. Bless you all.

Speaker 1 (01:44:02):
I will post the replay on my page once I uploaded.
All right, blessings, have a great

Speaker 17 (01:44:16):
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