#55 Alternate Reality Override

Went on a trip and discovered the most startling detail of the matrix to date. But first I ramble about avoiding mastery and somehow, pizza!! 🍕 

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:22):
And then Hello and welcome to another episode of Divinity
on Earth. I'm your podcast host, Christin Nicole, and here
we are. Okay, so it's gonna kind of be a
let's say, see how long it is it takes me
to talk through the topic that I have to talk
about first. If I have enough time on this podcast,

(00:46):
I will do the meditation. If not, it will be
posted tomorrow. Just kind of the way things have gone
this week. It's like I always in my mind feel
I have more time, and the universe conspires against me.
It's almost like as soon as I say something like
I'm going to do something by this date because I
have nothing going on, a million things show up. And

(01:07):
I really feel like it's intentional, as if almost like
I'm self sabotaging myself by communicating that shit out loud.
I don't know if it's monitoring spirits or I don't
know if they can feel my intention because you know
your intentions, your thoughts turn to your reality, right, there's

(01:29):
a programming to your thoughts. So I think it might
just be that they're monitoring my energy so fucking closely
these days that they know when I plan on doing anything,
so then they try to create diversions for everything that
I have going on. So I really do think that

(01:51):
it's a little hard to be all that spontaneous. But
I really feel like I may need some more spontaneity
in my life because every time I have something planned,
I don't get I don't get to it. But such
as my life, at least for now. Anyways, we have

(02:12):
worked through a couple more things within the matrix this week,
but I did a last night. I did a Cult
of Conspiracy podcast. I went on there live, so that
was fun and interesting. A little bit different going on
a live than being on a regular podcast, because just

(02:36):
the dynamic is different with there being multiple panel people
talking or having something to say, and we all know
that I don't really sit in the energy of feeling
as if I need to really explain the shit that
I see. I either it's either that way or it's

(03:04):
not gonna be that way at some point. But there's
certainly not gonna be a muggle who's gonna talk Bible
to me, who is going to make me feel Otherwise,
I can actually read the Bible and see the event's
actually taking place in my mind, so I can travel
back in time to when that event happened, and then
also forward in time to when the event was recorded,

(03:27):
and I can look at all the frequencies, all the energy,
and all the entities involved in said story. So I'm
very much not against the Bible. I use it as
a tool. But the Bible argument doesn't alter the fact
that we live in a matrix. So in I mean,

(03:50):
the Bible speaks quite openly about a lot of the
things that I talk about. We just use different verbiage
to describe the same exact shit. So you know, when
I do actually get to start my cult, maybe I
need to like just do whatever it takes to start it,
and then like assign my like leaders and then give

(04:14):
everybody like a task to do to where you handle this,
and you handle this, and you help me with enrollment,
and you work on the website and you do whatever.
That way, we could actually like get things going and
it doesn't have to be so reliant on me. Because
I was hoping that I would have some help with
my website and things like that, and it just didn't

(04:35):
pan out the way that in my mind, I thought
that I was going to, you know, really have people
who were you know, kind of dedicated to helping me
because they felt the importance of what I was doing.
But it just it every time it seems that I
have that and I'm like, oh, yes, we're gonna do it,

(04:55):
and I'm gonna it'll be go by this time and
that'll be plenty enough time, and then it comes to
actually time for people to do the assisting part, and
it's just like my end of the commitment part where
you know, i'll coach you for free or I'll do
whatever is is always there and it's always being executed,

(05:16):
but it's like their part that falls short, and so
I don't know. And then I also don't want to
burden the people who do help me in astro because
they already like that's such an important part that I
can't overwhelm the people who can do astral really well

(05:36):
and help me with like that basic shit on top
of the energy that they're using to you know, try
to help me not die. So but anyways, so maybe
a little more spontaneity will kind of help me get
through things a little bit better. So we shall see.

(05:57):
But I definitely definitely am going to you. I think
just have to get to the point to where it's
just multiple people working on things so that way it's
not just me being diverted all the time, and they're
just it's just gonna have to be all of these
people who show up and claim to have, you know,
this love for the mission and this love for what

(06:17):
I'm doing. Uh, just kind of like show up every
now and then and be like, Hey, look, Christy, I
have a free day on next Sunday. Can I show
up If there's some things that you know I can
work on for you, I I would love to come
and help you. So so I don't know, maybe we'll
see how that goes, maybe in the next few weeks

(06:38):
or something like that. And I know that there are
going to be people who are going to reach out.
But at the same time, you're gonna say I would
love to help whatever, but you it's unrealistic that you
don't actually have the time to help me. And that's
kind of where the problem is. It's not that it's
not people's lack of desire. It's more or less like
people's lack of commitment. And we live in you know,

(07:00):
like the spiritual space where we kind of get to
the point where we're brainwashed so much to believe that, oh,
I need to rest, I need to recuperate, I need
self love, I need I'm feeling over. Like we're brainwashed
to believe that we don't take enough breaks, we neglect
ourselves so much. But yet I look at the energy

(07:23):
of mastery and I don't really know any single fucking
person in my life that's actually trying to master really anything.
There's no one that I know personally that is trying
to master anything. And that's kind of like the energy
is just like you can't take emotional and mental breaks

(07:48):
all the fucking time and think that at the end
of your life you're gonna have mastered something. It's just
I mean, maybe being a fucking loser. I don't know,
Like that's about the only thing that you would master
by giving into like the societal pressure to you know,

(08:08):
to a participate in things that are killing your soul
to need a break from in the first place, and
then second that the only thing that you do with
your free time is to rest and recover when really
nothing in your life is tedious besides the fact that
you're stressed and you're involved in relationships with people who
you know fucking damn well, you don't need to be

(08:29):
involved with. Oh, but they're my twin flame. But I
love them so much anyway, So what what the fuck
does that mean? I love chocolate cake. No, I really
don't love chocolate cake, but it's just an example. I
love pizza doesn't mean that I can eat pizza every
fucking day, like I really love pizza, Like I love
pizza so much, like I could eat pizza every day

(08:50):
kind of love. I can't have it all the time, Okay,
And there are certain types of pizza. Just because I
love pizza doesn't mean that the best fucking pizza on
the planet that some chef created that has all of
these fucking ingredients, that has meat and all of this
fucking shit, I can't have it. It literally might be

(09:11):
the greatest pizza on earth could be the twin flame
of fucking pizzas does not mean that my body can
handle that pizza in this fucking life. Okay, A gluten
in me don't really. We ain't best friends because it's
a low vibration protein whatever it is, and my body
doesn't like it because my body's vibrating too high for

(09:33):
that shit meat. Nope, ain't doing a blood sacrifice why
because I have morals and because I know that I
am committing myself to something that is not of the
fucking message that I'm trying to carry here on earth.
So that's out too. So just because we have this
ideal in our mind and I don't do jerry as well,

(09:57):
because ever since I've become this level of spiritual well,
me and dairy do not mix at all. It's just
so there are some really beautiful non dairy options that
taste just as good as regular cheese these days. So
it's just like, I love pizza, but it doesn't mean

(10:17):
that I'm gonna punish my body every single time I
want pizza. There are better options of pizza, healthier options
of pizza that are available for me. So that way
I can still enjoy something I love, which is intimacy,
which is relationships, which is friendships, without having to have
the toxic poison that I know is making my body

(10:40):
feel bad. So I want everybody to think about that
and like, really think about your life and how often
are you inviting things that are not the best fucking
option for you because you claim that you love it
and that's why it has to stay. I really want
you guys to kind of think about it. Maybe if
I say it from that angle, it might click a

(11:00):
little bit more with some people, because just saying that
you don't need to be with your twin flame in
this life, or you know, you can love them from
a distance, but you don't need to, you know, accept
their toxic behavior. I literally had this conversation with someone
who claims she ain't my fucking friend. It's a joke.

(11:22):
She I really am one of her only friends, but
she sit in my shop and she's like, I don't
have friends, and I looked at her like she was
fucking stupid. So it's really kind of an inside joke.
But so but it's like, you know, she's upset about
her twin flame, and like it's coming up so much
because a lot of us are so hyper aware that

(11:44):
we know who our twin flames are. We very well
know who they are. But sometimes they're just not ready.
They're not ready, they're not on our level. They can't
handle a fucking deep conversation with us. They are not
ready to work through their trauma so that way they

(12:04):
don't project it on you, so that way you can
have a healthy, respectful relationship. And they're certainly not ready
to look in the mirror that you hold in front
of them by being in their life. And so they
reject you, and they reject you, and they reject you.
They're not rejecting you. They're not rejecting the amazingly healed, gorgeous, goddess,

(12:25):
beautiful version of you, okay, our god, you know, king
version of you. They're rejecting what they're seeing in the
mirror that they see within your eyes. They're rejecting the
version of them that exists within you. It has nothing
to do with you, because, believe me, I like I

(12:47):
very well do know my worth. I know how like
incredible my abilities are. I know how beautiful my fucking
heart is. I know how how much I like like
what that unconditional love means, What that does to people's
lives is life changing for people to be in my

(13:08):
presence and in my life. I know that. And I
don't just know that because I'm assuming it. I know
it because the people around me are constantly coming back confirming.
You know, I was able to get through this divorce.
I was able to get through this dark part of
my life because of you. You help save my marriage.
You know all of these things. You know I got

(13:30):
that job because of you. You are right. I waited
for the third opportunity and it came. It's just non
stop validation of how much me looking at people for
the wonderful, christ like beautiful beings that they are and
just loving them in the moment that they need love
really does positively impact them. So the fact that like

(13:53):
that is who I am at my core is that
being for me to be rejected by some one can't
possibly be because of me. And so you know, you
kind of have to evaluate whether you want to keep
poisoning yourself because the other person doesn't like who they

(14:18):
see when they look into the mirror that is your eyes. Okay,
So I want everybody to kind of sit with that
energy and you know, really like take it in and
decide if you are sabotaging your mastery in this life
by giving too much of your time and energy to

(14:39):
people who do not deserve your time and fucking energy.
Sometimes you just have to cut that shit off and
let them fucking suffer. Let them suffer, and they don't
even know that they're suffering because you pull your energy back.
They don't even know that things get difficult for them

(15:00):
because you're no longer clearing entities or saving them. What
you're doing is you're working on nastery we if you
have made it this far, if you are still listening
to me ramble on this fucking podcast out there, all
of these episodes. I believe this episode is number fifty five,
which fives are change right, So it's a really good

(15:23):
number for today's podcast because that's exactly what we're talking
about within the matrix is like this epiphany that I
had that whenever I was doing psychedelics the other night.
And so I really want you to kind of sit
with a what am I? What do I need? A change? Okay,

(15:45):
if you've made it this far, you know that past
lives are a real thing. If you're still listening to
this fucking podcast and you don't believe in reincarnation and
past lives, you what the fuck are you doing? Like?
What are like? Seriously, like, what the fuck are you
doing here? This is? This ain't the space for you,

(16:08):
cause I don't know like what you would be possibly
getting out of my podcast. And I'm not saying that
as in, you know, you can't sit here as far
as gump energy, I mean, find something to invest your
time in that lights your fucking soul up. Don't sit
here listening to me ramble and be like, I don't
even believe in that. Go find something that you believe in.

(16:31):
Go master that thing, like, please, don't waste your time
being miserable listening to my podcast. This might not be
what you're supposed to do in this incarnation, So please
go find that thing. I really want you to connect
with that person. I want you to feel validated. I
want your life experience to feel validated. I want you
to feel whole. I want those synchronicities to line up

(16:53):
for you. I want you to find joy in your day.
I don't want you to sit here and listen to
me talk about things that are not in alignment with
your soul whatsoever. So if you have made it this far,
chances are you probably would believe in incarnation, or at
least you're really fucking open to it. You might not
have experienced one firsthand, but you've heard enough, you've learned

(17:17):
enough to say, oh, yeah, this is probably a real thing,
and you're just like, you're not there yet confirming it
within yourself, but you definitely definitely are leaning more on
the side of this is real. So if you do
believe that there ain't a whole lot of us that
have to be with our twin in this life to

(17:40):
fucking help humanity. There are very very few people that
actually that it's essential for their soul path in this
life in order to be able to do what they
incarnated to do. Very few people. Chances are you ain't
one of them. So if you're not one of those people,

(18:04):
there are people who are here who very much are
supposed to be with their twins and as frustrating as fuck.
But if you're not one of those people, why are
you going through that struggle? Why are you allowing that
energy to steal your Michelangelo energy, to steal your Da

(18:27):
Vinci energy, to steal your Plato energy, are your Mozart energy?
Why are you not surrounding yourself by other people who
have the same drive to master something really amazing in

(18:48):
this incarnation? And I get that all the time. They're like, Christy,
I don't I don't know how you do. I don't
know how you do it. Now, I already know that
I am an art master. I've had that incarnation already.
I have been in architectural wonder like I have built
some seriously amazing, beautiful things. So I did that in

(19:10):
this life. Actually started off college in architecture school and
got bored as fuck. I'm like, what the fuck is this?
And I guess now in hindsight, I'm like, what is
modern architecture? Because my architecture is like BC days, right,
and so looking at modern architecture, I'm just it didn't
do it for me, right, It wasn't you know. You

(19:32):
just use nails and glue and you put some shit up,
and I'm just like, well, that's how is that? How
is that any sort of wonder? This is like incredibly boring.
So I actually dropped out of architecture school because I
was bored out of my mind. Because I mastered that
skill already. I don't need to be here to master
that shit again, right, But I can tell you that

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the thing that I have yet to master being human.
Mastered this outside of being human. Obviously, it's really easy
to master the matrix and master existence being outside being
a multidimensional being. It's way harder once you become dimensional
on Earth, right, especially in the last four thousand years.

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But the thing that I am here to master is existence.
It is understanding existence. You know, it was funny because
we were on the Cult podcast and they were talking
about some quantum physics theories and that kind of stuff, which,
you know, I really like that. I really like physics.

(20:37):
I really like quantum physics because I like to go
see it, and you know, I don't really care so
much for like the earthly part of it, but I
do like that these people are intelligent enough or connected
to spirit enough to channel the answers to these problems,
because these motherfuckers think that they're actually thinking of the

(20:57):
answer to this type of shit, being given something that's
going to pacify them and give them enough knowledge so
that way, as a society we feel like we're advancing. Okay,
a lot of the stuff that they're given isn't even real,
but you know, it's real in the context of you know,
the Truman show that we live in here. But it's

(21:20):
really cool to me to go read physics and for
me to go quantum physics especially, and for me to
go see how it works. In Astro's kind of how
I see a lot of these things that I see,
it's because it starts with someone explaining something the Bible,
the Book of Enoch, or any type of ancient text,
the Emerald tablets, or any science or any history story

(21:44):
that exists, and I said, okay, well let me go
see it. And that's what I go and do. So
I'm always trying to get my hands on different bits
of information, different books, different things, and I'm trying to
put that into my deep understanding, my mastery of existence

(22:07):
in the cosmos. That's what I'm doing in this life.
So some of you are here and you're like, oh wow,
you know, you feel called to master something else. You
might feel called to master art, or you might feel
called to master music, but chances are it's just something

(22:27):
you do for work or something that you do for
a hobby, and there's like a certain amount of time
that you feel that you should give to it. You're not.
You know, you could tell the people who are trying
to master art. Those are like the hyper realistic artists
on Instagram and on TikTok, and they spent eight hundred

(22:48):
hours on one piece of art, and you're how the
fuck is that even possible? Is those people? Those people
are the ones who are trying to master art in
this life. If you're not one of those people, either,
you're missing your calling you're missing your mastery in this
life or it's probably not for you to master. Now.

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The thing about trying to master spirituality trying to reach enlightenment,
which is mastery. Right, we're trying to hit enlightenment. If
you're trying to hit that for in this lifetime, is
that what you're trying to you know, have your mastery
at Guess what? Guess what's on the spiritual path. Distraction

(23:32):
is part of the mastery program, is part of the
classes to see if you're gonna let your cell phone,
if you're gonna let your technology, if you're gonna let
your relationships, if you're gonna let that twin flame, if
you're gonna let your parents, if you're gonna let that
toxic work environment, if you're gonna let that house or

(23:53):
that place that you live distract you from your mastery.
That's what the spiritual you know, journey is about you
not being fucking distracted. How are you gonna hit enlightenment
If you're still consumed with distraction, You're not fucking going
to So it's really hard, you know, to kind of

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find people who are really honestly willing to sit with that,
to sit with that notion of am I mastering any
fucking thing in this life? Every single life, you should
be trying your fucking hardest to master something. So if
you're somebody who's been in a whole lot of toxic relationships, okay,

(24:38):
that's your thing. You just go from relationship to relationship.
All of that shit is toxic. Okay, get all these
baby mamas or baby daddies, and you know, you just
every time it feels really good and you think you
got it right, and then it falls apart on you
and falls short. Maybe maybe in this you're supposed to

(25:01):
master relationships. Okay, but guess what, You're not mastering relationships
by constantly failing at them. You're gonna master relationships by
going into relationship counseling or reading books on relationships, are
becoming an emotional awareness coach, or just deep diving into psychology. Like,

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there's so many things that you can do to master
what it is that you're trying to tackle in this incarnation.
But what do we do? We just fail at relationships,
and woe is me, and we fail at a relationship,
and then we woe is me, and we fail at
a relationship, and as woe is me, but we will
do a little dark night work. We'll go release some

(25:46):
stuff on a full moon, and you know, we'll go
crowdo a therapist, but we don't become the therapist. We
don't become the master. We still feel as if we
need to go to one. I know people who have
literally been going to a therapist for years now, Like,

(26:09):
maybe you're still in therapy because you haven't gotten a
message that you're supposed to master whatever the fuck it
is that you're in therapy for. But instead of surrendering
to your calling, you're fighting against it. And you've been
wasting all of this time by not actually learning what
it is you're paying someone else to help you with.

(26:32):
You're missing your mastery moment in this incarnation. Some of
you just go to therapy because you need a friend,
and therapy is not actually helping you, because if a
therapist was helping you, you would only need to go
until you got the coping mechanisms to not be able

(26:52):
to go anymore. But you don't want to master what
it is that you have going on because being the
victim is way more fun. To master something, you have
to come out of the victim hood mentality. You have
to be prepared for long hours for you know, digesting

(27:17):
nothing but information, by sitting with your inner demons, by
facing them, and then coming out on the other side
with a complete understanding of all the facets that go
into say relationships, or that go into I don't know.

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You could want to be a chef. You could be
you could want to speaking a pizza You could want
to be the greatest, the greatest pizza maker. I don't
know what that's called. Of all times, it literally could
be your passion figuring out like the absolute perfect dough.
You tried everybody's dough, but there's You're just this little scientific,

(28:05):
little you know, nerd. I love nerds, By the way,
I'm not saying that as an insult. You could be
like the biggest little nerd that exists when it comes
to the chemical process that goes into yeast and flower
and all of that. And you, every single day of

(28:26):
your life or multiple times a week, you are coming
home from work and you are working on that craft.
You are mastering the art of cooking. It's like in everybody,
every one of us has to somewhat master cooking in
some life is one of those skills because cooking is
what sustains our life here, so therefore it would have

(28:50):
to be something that you would master in order to
be able to keep incarnating. With that information in your
back pocket, you could tell the people who have not
mastered cooking and hasn't come up for you yet, or
you just have turned away from it because you get
takeout all the time, you eat nothing but fast food.
Your body is really fucking unhealthy and your health is trash.

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You can tell that you haven't mastered cooking yet because
you despise it because you don't know the joy and
the peace and the serenity and the energy and vibration
that goes into the food that you're eating. So if
you're constantly eating food that's prepared by other people, and
the energy of the food that comes to us they're
piss because they hate their job because they're being underpaid,

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or their boss is yelling at them and they're mad,
and that's the energy that's going into the food that
you're eating. And you're constantly eating other people's shit. Not
me venting about people who constantly eat other people's food,
but it's really important to the way your body vibrates.
It's just like it's kind of hard for people to

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really really grasp how much of other people's energy we
consciously choose to enter our bodies. Right, So you can
tell whenever you go to a restaurant. And I know
I'm kind of getting off topic here, but this is

(30:16):
this is significant. I want people to pay attention. We're
in them. I mean, like I said, I'm like switching
this podcast to where they're like, enlightenment is the mastery
of everybody. If you're listening, like this is what we're
talking about, We're talking about enlightenment. I'm not trying to
hold your hand trying to wake you up. You better

(30:37):
already fucking be awake if you find yourself here. But
I need everybody to pay attention to the subtle ways
we allow energy to throw us off of our mastery.
So you go into a restaurant and is super busy
and a super crowded and the hostess comes up to
you and she's stressed leaf, because I can tell tell

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you that the hostess is the face of what is
happening inside of that restaurant if they have her stressed out,
and the system is being stressed to such a degree
that the person that's supposed to greet you with a
smile is struggling to smile. Chances are the back of
the house is even more of a wreck than the
front of the house, and you should find somewhere else

(31:20):
to eat because the energy of that environment is bleeding
into the food you are consuming. Now, I know what
you're saying, Christy. I can just transmute all of that energy,
and I can just vibrate above it. And that's my mastery.
My mastery is the fact that I know energy so well,

(31:43):
and I can just wave my hand and my activated
chakras in my hand over that food and put it
in whatever frequency I want it to be in. And
then now I'm not eating that person's sadness. True, Oh true. However,

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the frequencies, the sounds of the hustle, the bustle, the
customers complaining, are all recalibrating the cells in your body
to vibrate to the frequency of stress, anxiety, anger, complaints. So,

(32:24):
while you're sitting there, and you may very well be
able to transmute the energy of your food by waving
your little pranic, healing, magical, fucking hand, that thinks that
that's the solution, not actually making humanity better but just
waving your hand over your food, and now I don't
have to make better decisions because I have a magic
hand and it could transmute the energy of everything that

(32:47):
I fucking want to bring into my body. So aside
from your little magic hand, your cells are going to
start vibrating in the frequency of the energy of that restaurant.
And if that restaurant does not feel good, it doesn't
matter how close you bring your oric field in, how

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much Christ light you try to bring in, how much
of a miserable experience. Is it that the entire hour
and a half or two hours that you're at that restaurant,
that the only thing you can focus on while you're
sitting there is sending Christ's light out. Chances are you're
gonna forget, You're gonna start having conversations, and you're gonna
start talking to the people you're eating with, and after

(33:32):
a little while, you're gonna realize, oh shit, I'm not
altern the frequencies of my cels, and you'll try to
send out a little blast of Christ light, but you
can't fully focus on it because the restaurant is so loud,
and it's harder for you to connect with your energy
feel because you can't focus, and you do a half
assed job, and then you go back to talking, and
then you know a while later happens and then you're like,

(33:56):
oh shit, yeah, I got I gotta clear my energy again.
And then you go try to do it but loud,
and now you've done had a couple of drinks, and
now you're really not able to do it properly, and
it just progressively gets worse till the end of the night.
Your experience is to where your body has been altered
by that experience period. It just has. Now it's that saying,

(34:19):
oh my god, it's so permanent, I could never get
it back. No, I'm not saying that. I'm not saying
that you'll never go into a crowded restaurant, But I'm
saying that if all of your decisions are putting you
when there are multiple fucking options people, There's multiple different
types of fucking pizza, there's multiple different types of restaurants
for you to choose, you don't have to always be

(34:42):
in energy that is not serving your mastery. And I
know I sit from this place of the Buddhist monk syndrome.
It's like my main little theory that I have going
on is that the Buddhist monks believe that they are
can reach enlightenment nirvana by being isolated in a way

(35:06):
and in this deep meditative state to where you know,
they go off and they meditate and you know, all
of this shit. But they don't have to be around people,
or they're only around people who are identical to them, right,
who are on the same journey. They don't have to
be around a variety of people. They don't have to
deal with community. Their community is literally a copy paste

(35:30):
of themselves, and they sit in this very egoic state
and they try to reach enlightenment. They're not reaching enlightenment,
by the way, Okay that it's they're not reaching enlightenment.
They might go into a deeper understanding of their soul,

(35:50):
of their self, of their spirit. But just because you
have a deeper understanding of who you are and what
the cosmos are does not mean that you have reached
a lightment. There's more than one box that needs to
be checked in that department. It's kind of crazy that
we have all these ascended masters and stuff like that.
There's only a couple, but we really like to think

(36:12):
that there are a whole lot more. Not all of
them have checked all of the boxes. Have they checked
quite a few boxes? Yes, very much. So are they
like master teachers, Yes? But are they ascended masters? Not
all of them, but anyways, So, so I know it's
like you're like Chrissy, But the whole thing of being
in community, being around people is to be able to

(36:34):
master shit whenever you are around a group of people. Right, So,
if you're in the most toxic environment possible, but you
can keep your cool and you can keep your vibration high, right,
then that is the mastery, is it not? Yes, it

(36:58):
absolutely is, except I don't know anybody. And if you
are one of the people that are listening to my
podcast and you are on this level of mastery and
you literally have not reached out and talked to me
yet to talk about things that you see, to talk
about like your experiences within the matrix, for you to
like tell me what it is that you're doing. If

(37:21):
you're like gatekeeping the fact that you are this master already,
I'm kind of sort of like, I don't know, maybe
my feelings are hurt a little bit that you would
be on that level of mastery, because the thing about
it is is as you grow, your lessons get harder. Okay.

(37:42):
So if you're not able to get to the point
where you can be in a crowded restaurant okay and
keep your vibration rock solid the entire time to be
conscious of the energy and the breath of yourselves, start
at a restaurant that has less fucking people that you

(38:04):
don't need to transmit the frequency of your food as well,
and you literally can just go and focus on the
energy of the table right next to you, and you
don't have to focus on the energy of the entire
restaurant all at one time. Start slower. So this is
going to be a total sidetrack of what I am

(38:28):
talking about right now, but I feel it necessary to
say this. I have broken a pendulum a day, probably
now or every other day for I don't know really,
since I got back from Europe, I have been breaking
pendulums left and right, okay, And I know it's because
I'm communicating a deeper truth. The things that I am

(38:51):
saying are so essential for everyone to understand, everyone to
really work through and over home, like for the sense
of the timeline shifting, for the sense of humanity. Right now,
like I understand that. So I decided that I'm like, okay,
I'm gonna just give up the whole pendulum thing and

(39:12):
i am going to just grab a necklace and I'm
going to swing a necklace and then that way, I
don't have to worry about the pendulum part. Like the
either my chain snaps or the little hook that's in
top on top of my my stone comes out, and

(39:33):
it's no longer I can't connect my chain anymore to
the stone itself. I have one, two, three, four broken
pendulums right in front of me on my desk right
now at this at this very moment, and those are
just you know, random ones that are broken recently. So anyway,
so this morning, because you know, we all know that

(39:54):
I swing a pendulum in my field to open my field.
So that way, I'm channeling exactly what needs to be
said to you from a perspective of helping the you know,
human collective. Okay, that's always the intention that I set.
Whatever needs to be said today is what comes out
of my mouth. However straightforward, however passionate, however you know,

(40:19):
honest or just straight up bitchy that it may sound
whatever anybody needs to hear to really make an impact
on their life and to put the excuses down and
to step up into living their life and fullness and
in purpose is what I always set my intention to

(40:41):
be whenever I start to record. So I'm swinging my
pendulum so that way my field is open and I'm
really really connected essentially with the cosmic tree energy is
who I'm kind of normally talking to. That version is
know my little my guiding, my little guiding voice inside

(41:03):
of my head when it comes to trying to repair
the matrix for humanity, because that's where humanity sits. We
sits within the matrix of the cosmic tree. So our God, okay,
But I don't like necessarily saying God because there is
a feminine God energy there and then there is the

(41:25):
male God energy that sits there as well. Most people
like to say God is the male version. And when
it comes to creation and where we are, that's not
masculine energy that creates that. That's feminine energy that creates that.
And so I just like to avoid the whole concept
because I know it's off putting to some people to

(41:46):
hear me say that God as a divine, feminine energy
because everybody's been programmed to believe because it's said it
in a book that it was a heat back whenever
she the pronoun, she did not exist at all, whatsoever,
it did not exist. Back then, you actually could not
use a feminine pronoun. There was none. He was an

(42:09):
androgynous pronoun that applied to both male and female or
whatever gender or energy. It was just for both. And
so because of that, everybody still thinks that he is
a guy, even though he was just a neutral, a

(42:30):
neutral pronoun back then. So in order to avoid that
whole conversation all the time, I just say the cosmic
tree because that's where they both sit. The divine feminine,
you'll find her in the branches of the tree where
all the pods are, where consciousness is being created or

(42:52):
consciousness is being renewed. That's where your consciousness comes from.
That's also where all of the creation clouds sit with
in her branches, within her, you know, sacred geometry up there.
So that's the creation energy and the masculine. If you
go to the root, to the trees, where everybody like
their energy dies and it's broken apart and it's sped

(43:14):
back up to the feminine to be able to create
with the energy that is broken down. That's kind of
the cycle that happens there. So in order to avoid
all that, even though that's where I am in the
in both energies, but a lot of times mostly with
the creation energy, because I'm trying to fix fucking creation.

(43:34):
Is that that's my intention is whenever I'm talking to her.
But I am holding a gold chain with a black
pendulum pendant hanging a black tormaline pendent as my pendulum,
and it's in my field. Don't you know that this

(43:55):
motherfucker just shattered. The black tormaline in the us pendant
just shattered and fell apart as I'm swinging it. So
and I literally grabbed this thing earlier today, I'm like, oh, look,
I'm gonna just grab this necklace and I'm not gonna
it's not gonna break. I don't have to worry about
it breaking. Uh. It's been sitting next to my desk forever.

(44:19):
No one's touched it but me, And I'm like, okay, yeah,
this would be good to swing in my field today.
I don't have to worry about it breaking. The bitch
just fucking shattered, okay. Joy, Like it's just it's kind
of crazy how much they're really trying to interact with
me and trying to stop me. It's like a warning,

(44:41):
which is what it is like every time I pendulum breaks,
it's a warning, Like with dish shattering black tormaline, it's
a warning. So they keep trying to send me warnings,
trying to tell me that I better shut up and
I better quit saying the things that I'm saying. It's
basically like they're trying to they're trying to threaten me,
but it hasn't worked yet. I haven't you know, I

(45:04):
haven't taken heed to any of their threats yet. So
but yeah, I just thought that was really interesting that
I grabbed something this morning that I thought would be
you know, that it would not be possible for the
bitch to break, and its shattered as I'm swinging it.
So anyways, back to the back to the topic at hand.

(45:24):
So be mindful of where you are on your journey,
where you are in your mastery journey, and be honest
with yourself because a lot of times we're just in
the nile and we just want to yolo the fuck
out of this incarnation. But yet you don't believe in
fucking yolo, So how can you apply Because you want

(45:47):
to you want to live the yolo life, you want
to incarnate, and you want to be like, oh no,
this is my one life, you know, live your one life,
your best life. Ah. But then at the same time,
you're exuis and you're tired of fucking coming back here.
You're tired of living the same fucking oppressive, fucking state.
You're like, I don't want to come back here no more.

(46:08):
I'm tired. Well, quit yolo ing, master something. Check some
shit off your fucking list so you could have a
different experience. You could have a better experience. Start checking
shit off. You're either gonna take this serious and do
the things that you need to do so you could
quit having this exact incarnation repeated, or you're gonna keep

(46:31):
living this yolo mentality pretending like you fucking have time
to figure it out when you don't have fucking time.
I mean you do have time. You can come back
and do this whole fucking thing all over again. Same partners,
same people, same situations, same deadbeat you know co parent,

(46:53):
same emotionally neglectful parents. All the things you can come
back and do this exactly how it is now. It'll
probably be harder because honestly, lessons are getting harder the
more technology advances, the moral press of the matrix becomes,
and the harder it is for us to learn these lessons.
So it's kind of like you have like this golden

(47:14):
little sweet spot opportunity where it's just enough fucking knowledge
for you to know that you're supposed to be doing
something else without it being completely overridden and you being
completely fucking programmed to where it's not even an option
for you to learn your lesson. Imagine that, imagine not
learning your lesson having the comeback, and the government along

(47:35):
with the Ananaki, have built such a fucking powerful device
that not a single soul that incarnates here on Earth
is able to escape their programming because we didn't get
our shit together, because we didn't figure out how to
reclaim humanity back to us, and we are just playing
victim to this fucking matrix that we never learned how

(47:56):
to fix because we never felt like mastering it because
we had to yolo. So either you this whole long
story is basically to say that either you fucking believe
in reincarnation and you believe that every life you come
here to master something and you're gonna start to actually

(48:19):
participate in the mastery of something in your life. Or
you could just give this fucking shit up and go
live the rest of your life pretending like the spiritual
journey doesn't matter whatsoever, and you can go buy burke
and bags, and you can go, you know, eat at
the finest restaurants and sell your soul and starting only

(48:41):
fans and really just like live this really posh little
life where you get everything that you want and everything
just comes to you, and you use people and you
just take advantage of the system and the government and
all the things. You could go live that life and say,
I'll worry about it in the next incarnation, but you

(49:02):
kind of gotta like decide to pick a side at
some point because either go have fun and not care
or decide to master something, because this living in anxiety,
this whole incarnation is like is dumb. Pick a side

(49:22):
and like go all in on that side. Like I'm
not even mad if you go choose the side where
you're just gonna say, you know what, She's right, I'm
gonna just go yolo because I'm just this is just
too much for me. Okay, cool, sweet, go do that,
because I would much rather you do that and be happy,
and at least at the end of the day, like
the frequency you're reincarnating in in your next life isn't

(49:45):
one of pure just anxious like disgust, where you're just
a nervous, fucking wreck the whole time and you're just
attracting that energy. I would at least rather you live
your incarnation being happy. I don't want you to have
to be miserable and then come back and now you're
miserable again. At least try to go find some joy

(50:07):
in this incarnation, so at least maybe in your next
incarnation you'll be in a more joyful state, and then
maybe you could try to do the mastery thing next
time if the rest of us try to succeed at
fixing the matrix. But it's kind of like putting a
whole lot of faith in other people to make sure
that your soul is good when it comes back, And

(50:28):
that shit is crazy to me because I don't trust
any of you motherfuckers to be responsible for what happens
to my soul when it comes back. I'm gonna need
to be sovereign I'm gonna need to have control, and
I'm gonna need to make sure that all the trauma
is cleared from me and that I know what's happened
to me and I'm aligning what's happened to me in

(50:50):
my next incarnation before I leave this one. And I'm
going to need to have mastery in order to be
able to do that, because the level of understanding I
have now has no control over how I fucking return
back in my next life. None, and that just doesn't
sit good with me. I want to have the fucking
control over my next incarnation. I want that now. That's

(51:16):
probably like the areas in me that feels like I
can control everything, and I got to surrender to the universe.
I am the universe. I am the fucking universe. I
am I am, and so because I am, I am
in control. So I'm going to want to be able

(51:40):
to and you know, the only way I'll get to
the point where I can control my next incarnation is
for me to understand my past incarnations and for me
to understand what I need to do in my next incarnation,
and for me to follow the path that is already
set before me. But instead of it being like, oh, yeah,

(52:00):
I know I'm supposed to do this, and that's what
I'm gonna come try to do. Instead of there being
possibilities where they pull me off of my path, I
want to be in control and be like, no, you
know what, this is exactly what I'm going to do,
and I removed every ounce of control you have to
try to pull me from my path. That's ultimately what
the control is. It's not that I'm trying to control

(52:21):
what I incarnate as. Is that I'm trying to control
what I know I need to incarnate as and not
give that power to any fucking body else to change it.
Because that's what's been happening in all of my past incarnations.
My incarnations are changed, and they're changed, and then I
have to show up in a different body and try
to do the same fucking shit that I was supposed

(52:42):
to do in that other body, living in that other country,
doing that other thing. And now I'm here, and now
I have to try to figure that out. So instead
of having to have all that confusion, so I have
to waste the first quarter of my life trying to
figure out and fight and figure you know who the
fuck I am and get settled into the new body.

(53:04):
I'll just incarnate with where I'm supposed to incarnate, with
the programming and all the things that I need to
know whenever I get there, and then I can just
hit the ground running and I could be like the
most like profound, little prophetic little child that ever existed
in the history of mankind. I'm gonna just be shouting
fucking prophecies and everybody's gonna be like, oh my God,

(53:26):
listen to this, like this this beautiful message that this
angel child has, and I'm gonna be like, yeah, that's right,
that's probably not at all what I'm gonna be doing.
I'm just joking. But anyways, I want control. I want
to be able to say whether I want to be
the prophetic kid or I want to come back, and
you know, I want to be placed in a place

(53:47):
that it's just immense darkness and I just I just
so happen to bring the light to that area or
that really difficult time that is on, you know, on
the timeline for humanity, and I want to be in
the epicenter of it. I don't want to incarnate somewhere
else when the war is over here. I want to
be in the middle of it. I want to be
the light. That's where I want to incarnate. And if
that's what I just you know, if that's where my

(54:07):
soul is supposed to be, well, I need to figure
out how to ensure that they quit fucking with our incarnations,
that we're not going through this purgatory loop anymore. And
I get to say, you know what, this is what's
best for me, and that's where I want to go.
But right now we don't have any say. I don't
give a fuck what you believe. I don't care what
some fucking extraterrestrial told you. I don't care about what

(54:31):
this fucking fake as spiritual guru do unfucking told you.
I don't care. You do not have control over your
fucking incarnations at all. You don't right now, you do
not have control. You're thrown in this motherfucker and you're
left to deal with whatever it is that they say
that you're supposed to be doing. And I can tell
you that most of my soul pod is incarnated in

(54:53):
Louisiana because this place fucking sucks. It fucking sucks here.
The vibration is so fucking here, and because the vibration
is so low here. It's so hard to build a tribe,
to build a community, to convince anybody else around you
that you're speaking any sort of fucking truth, because they're
all fucking just beyond programmed, beyond overtaken with dark entities

(55:22):
and spirits, dark spirits and just just foolishness that like,
we're here like this big bright flame that's being smothered
and smothered and smothered and smothered, and they keep trying
to put us out and trying to put us out
and trying to put us out. And the only fucking
reason I know any of my tribe is because we

(55:43):
open the shop and because I went on the Boys podcast.
Now Here we Are. That's how I found my tribe
by happenstance. It's not happenstance. Obviously, it's part of the
divine plan, but it's not because I was walking around
and I had all these like really cool spiritual experiences.

(56:05):
Those people don't fucking exist in my stupid ass hometown.
Those are the most judgmenttal, low vibration fucking people ever.
It's such a like it gives me the creeps to
drive back through that place and The cool thing is
that I'm sure at some point those people are probably

(56:25):
gonna listen to this and they're gonna be like, how
dare you say that about us? It took me being
famous as fuck for you to come listen to this podcast.
So that's exactly what I'm talking about. You're only here
because I'm famous now, and it's probably gonna be years
from now before they ever hear this shit. Because there's
a couple of people from my hometown who listen to

(56:46):
this podcast, maybe like two, seriously, three at the most.
That's it. The other people from my hometown who listen
to it don't live in my hometown anymore, so they
had to escape the oppression too, So that literally is it, dude.
So being in a place where you're being forced to

(57:12):
incarnate in places that don't support what you're here to do,
that don't support the lessons you're supposed to learn, that
shit just ain't it for me anymore. I'm tired of
this shit. I'm tired of this shit to such a
degree that the exhaustion is forcing me to master this

(57:35):
shit that I call the astro realm or the fucking
matrix or existence understanding existence itself the best that I
can with my little fucking human understanding, trying to connect
it to my cosmic knowing so that way I can
control what happens when I incarnate again. But right now,

(58:01):
we're so fucking submissive to the system that they're gonna
put you wherever the fuck they want. They're gonna put
you far away from the people that you need to
be with. They're gonna put you in the wrong fucking
la and they're gonna surround you by people that convince
you that you don't need to be with the people

(58:24):
that you need to fucking be around. They're gonna fill
your inner circle with people who can't see the light,
who can't see the synchronicity, who can't see the way

(58:45):
your souls fucking interact, who can't see your life path,
who can't see any of that shit, And they're gonna
convince you that people who are different than you, that
people who have a different belief system than you are

(59:07):
less than Oh yeah, you don't want to believe that.
They're They're gonna hell, that's so weird, and nobody's gonna
like that. How could you be with that person? How
could you be friends with them? People are gonna judge you,
people are gonna think less of you. They're gonna see
how happy you are, and they're gonna hate it. Because
people like having people around who are fucking miserable because

(59:29):
it makes them feel better about themselves. Heaven forbid you
go and go off and be happy, because now they
have to look at their life and how they're not
happy with the people around them. That's causing a little
bit of introspection. The happier you are around other people,

(59:50):
the more they have to evaluate the how miserable they
are in their lives. And so you'll be surrounded with
people who do not want you to be happy, who
do not I want you to feel like your soul
has some significant meaning, or don't want you to be
with other people who feel that. So you may feel
like your soul like you're on task, like you're doing

(01:00:12):
exactly what you're supposed to be doing, but they don't
want you being two people like that. If you had
two of you who literally were just so driven and
just so like to this place where you have like
this big heart for humanity and everything you did was

(01:00:32):
like for the betterment of humanity, even if it's from
opposite spectrums, right that passion that both of you would
have in that situation. This could be your best friend,
This could be a partner. This could be, you know,
just a parent of yours that you both have like
the same mission, the same goal. This could be your child,

(01:00:53):
This could be a variety of people. But if you
both get together, and when you are together, it's just
like this magic happens and the rest of the world
doesn't matter, and your mission matters and the peace that
you feel matters. The matrix does not want you to

(01:01:13):
have those people around you, so they put people who
will fuck around and find out around you, and you're
constantly dealing with the same type of trash all the time.
All the time. It's the same shit. Because you don't

(01:01:35):
have control. You've lost control, you've lost control of your incarnations.
We've all lost control. We don't get to go repack
our suitcase and decide where we're going next. So in
order to avoid that, guess what, mastery, Master, whatever the
fuck it is that you have going on that you

(01:01:56):
keep striking out and failing at that, you keep needing
to be therapy for master it, quit allowing the universe
to keep you distracted. Master it, so in your next incarnation,
we're not losing loved ones. We're not struggling to be

(01:02:18):
in a relationship because we feel self worth. We're not
struggling to have kids by different parents because we can't
be in a single relationship and we can't provide the
home that we dream to have, the home that we
didn't have. Now we're giving it to our kids because
we're not mastering choosing partners for the sake of how

(01:02:40):
much joy and peace they can bring into our lives.
We're trying to pick people who our friends are gonna
think look fucking cool next to us. Oh my god,
yeah he's really fucking hot. Oh yeah, everybody's gonna be
jealous if that's who I date. Meanwhile, it's the most toxic,
ast fucking person you ever met in your life. But
it's gonna make your friends jealous that you're with some
hot guy. He's psycho, that's what he's single. Quit giving

(01:03:04):
your energy to these types of people. Master what you
have going on so you can elevate, so A you
can live the rest of your life incredibly fucking peaceful
or in the pursuit of peace, and then b you
can incarnate and be in a little more fucking control

(01:03:27):
and maybe hopefully in your next incarnation and not feel
so fucking oppressive. Or maybe you might get to take
a break. You don't get to tap out from being
on earth. I'm sorry, I say that shit all the
fucking time, but you might be allowed very well to
take a fucking five hundred year break, seven hundred year break.

(01:03:50):
That's a really nice little staycation up in heaven for
you to be able to take a break, because most
of us, my breaks are two minutes, six days. Sometimes
I get a couple of years that have been that
has been my break, and I'm exhausted. I'm fucking exhausted

(01:04:14):
from being here. So at least if I want to
come back, I want to be in fucking control. So
I know some of you want to be in control too.
So you really really really really really need to sit
with your emotions. You really need to sit well, what
pisses you off? Would really you know, has you in
this state of feeling dissatisfied with your incarnation? Decide if

(01:04:37):
any of those dissatisfactions are something that you need to
be mastering in this life and fucking get to it.
And you know, The crazy thing is is that I
this was not even the podcast fucking topic today, and
I've already been talking for over an hour and I
wanted to tell you motherfuckers about my psychedelic trip. So okay,

(01:05:01):
let's talk about that, because I have to say this
shit in this fucking podcast. I just have to. It's
been eating me alive. Like I just wish that my
website was fucking up and I literally could just have
all these like little vlogs where like crazy shit happens
to me and I tell you guys. I tell you
guys like, oh my god, look at this fucking caterpillar

(01:05:22):
at my fucking sink, and like what the fuck? And
like I would like to be able to vlog my
fucking day, but right now, I don't really have a
place for that. I don't really feel like my Instagram
is the place for that because I do talk so
so off like off mainstream that you know, I I

(01:05:43):
don't need that. I don't need that energy in my life.
To be honest, I really just don't fucking need that
energy in my life. I don't have time for the negative,
the negativity, because I'm I'm in mastery. I'm not going
pick fights to distract myself from what it is I'm
trying to fucking master. I'm like went out to look
to put myself in the most uncomfortable situations. I've done

(01:06:04):
that already, that's the fuel. I've already done that. I've
already said the things. You know, I've already pissed off
people that like I care about. I've already had the heartbreak.
I've already had people walk away from me and have
no idea why I was sad. I've already been through
the darkest moments that I need to go through in
this life. Okay, there's nothing there's nothing darker for me

(01:06:29):
that'll happen in this incarnation. I mean, obviously, if something
happened to my kids, that would be pretty dark. However,
I do very much believe in reincarnation in the afterlife.
I see me and my kids together in multiple fucking lives.
They're not going anywhere, They're just transitioning. Will it be
hard for me to be without the human version of

(01:06:51):
my kids? Fucking right, it's gonna kill me. But like
where I sit now, like I sit in optimism, so
it won't even be as detrimental as some of the
shit that I fucking went through whenever I was like
a fuck, like when I was pathetic because I thought

(01:07:11):
the dumbest shit was the most serious shit of my
fucking life, and it was like it was over, Like
a guy, what the fuck that would? You would never
catch me slipping like that ever? Ever? Why? Because I
became an emotional awareness coach, I became a relationship coach.
I dove into narcissism. I learned everything I fucking could.

(01:07:35):
I learned about Type A fucking personalities, I learned about
all gaslighting, all these things. I like really educated myself,
like truly, truly truly educated myself on it so I
couldn't aster that shit so I could be done. Now
I get to master something else. And now, granted, am
I like a master to the degree where I have

(01:07:56):
to to where I have a degree or anything like that. No,
because I didn't need to. I knew that I mastered
it when I could completely fucking set it down and
walk away from it and live through similar experiences and
not be bothered by it at all. That's how I
know I mastered it. When I can alter my response

(01:08:20):
to the stimuli, that's when I know I mastered it okay, Now,
this matrix shit, I'm gonna be trying to master this
until the day I die. It's never gonna be something
where I'm gonna just be like, oh yeah, I think
I know everything now, that will never happen. Never happen.
There's always a deeper experience to be had within the matrix.

(01:08:41):
There's always other dimensions to uh try to attach to
our human experience. There's always going to be things for
me to do. I could live another eighty years and
I will still have something to do every single day
of my life, and I still will not have mass
at all. There's that much consciousness, There's that many different

(01:09:04):
types of entities and frequencies and just so much to
experience that all of those fucking every day doing this
all day every day without ever having to do anything else,
and I still even wouldn't even put it in in it.
I'm trying to master the table of context right now.

(01:09:24):
That's not even like me reading the fucking book. I'm
trying to get through the table of context to even
understand what the fuck is even in the book. That's like,
I'm what I'm trying to master in this life. It's
a table of context, and I can spend every day
and I'm still not going to get through the table
of contents. So, okay, I decided the other day that

(01:09:50):
I was so fucking fed up with astral Okay, I'm
just like, I'm tired of this mature I'm tired of
like my reality not shifting, Like something is still fucking
not right. Something's not not adding up one plus one
ain't two, and I need to figure out what it

(01:10:12):
is that's still the resistance energy. And so I said,
you know what, it's been a really long time since
I did some psilocybin, and it is time. It is
I think it's time for me to surrender a little bit,
because it's very obvious that my conscious mind isn't finding
what it is that I need for it to find.
But I know that my subconscious mind already has the answers, okay,

(01:10:33):
because we're experiencing it and we're running off of that program.
We're like running off of that simulation. So my subconscious
mind is fully aware whatever the fuck it is that
my conscious mind has not been able to comprehend yet.
So I did some psilocybin and I was exhausted. So
I'm like I'm probably not gonna get a whole lot

(01:10:54):
from this, because I'm probably gonna like fall asleep through
a lot throughout a lot of it. But nevertheless, we're
still gonna do it and get whatever the fuck we can.
So did it took a bath starting to kick in,
I'm like, oh, yeah, it's time. So I went lay
in my bed. I have a weighted little sleep mask
that I put on my eyes. I sleep with it too,

(01:11:14):
but it really helps me to get into complete darkness,
which is where I like to be whenever I am
trying to figure shit out. So put on my little
weighted sleep mask. I'm all up in my little warm
covers and almost as soon as I like got all

(01:11:34):
snuggled up and I kind of turned on my side,
I saw it instantly. Instantly, it didn't even take me
in but a minute. I'm like, Okay, look, I want
to understand what's happening within the matrix on Earth that's
causing you know, our timelines to not be you know,
fully engaged with our bodies, or what energy is stopping

(01:11:58):
whatever the fuck it is. I'm like, I don't even
know what the fuck I need to be looking for,
but whatever that energy is I. That's what I want
to know when I tell you that the second, the
second I like went to close my eyes, I saw
myself doing some like little mundane ass fucking activity. And honestly,

(01:12:20):
I don't even remember fully what it was because I
was so shocked by what happened. My understanding after that,
I didn't really pay that much attention. But I think
I was like having a conversation or something with somebody
or I like truly don't even remember. And so, but
so the conversation is like a normal conversation, right me

(01:12:44):
just having this normal everyday christy experience where I am happy,
go fucking lucky, I'm being ridiculous and uh like just
goofy and funny and you know, my little dark humor,
sarcastic type of self. And there was like this version

(01:13:06):
that was connected to me that was like I could
see it acting on side of me, connected to my brain, Okay,
connected to my whole physical form. All right, there's like
this energy that connects us between ourselves, our human physical
body in this virtual alternate reality body version of me.

(01:13:31):
And they were arguing they were having a not a
good time, not the same experience that I was fucking
having They were having a completely different fucking experience. And
I knew that whenever I saw that, I knew that
all the entities that kind of monitor my thoughts, which

(01:13:52):
is you know what happens, right, there's like shit monitoring
me at all times, And like I said in the
beginning the podcast, like I really really do feel like
they're like, you know, decoding the frequency of my thoughts
and they know how to disrupt my day. And so

(01:14:12):
I know that there's shit that's like, was not expecting
my Claire cognizant to click in the way it always
fucking does. It's like, I don't know, like how many
times we have to get to this part where my
Claire cognizance is going to override whatever frequency it is
that they try to put me in or whatever like
energy they try to hold down my understanding. It just

(01:14:34):
doesn't fucking work. And so I knew in the exact
moment that I fucking saw what was happening that which
really happening behind the scenes. Because Okay, we have other multiple,
you know, virtual reality versions of us that exist. Okay, cool,
that's fucking cool. It doesn't matter. I'm still having this

(01:14:56):
experience doing what it is my little human body is doing.
So what's the big deal, right, Well, the big fucking
deal is that our brains are being coded with the
energy of these virtual reality versions of us. Our brains

(01:15:21):
are being coded with the virtual reality versions of us
over what our physical human body is experiencing. So instead
of them recording what our physical bodies are saying, okay,
what's happening is it's being overridden on top of what

(01:15:42):
our bodies are programming. So if I, you know, go
throughout my day and my body's like looking at textures
of walls and dust in places, and my mind's not
really picking it up, I'm not making a full mental note,
but it's being recorded. All that data is being recorded,
and so all of that is actually being recorded while

(01:16:03):
you sleep. Is too much data for your brain to
put it where it needs to go while you're awake,
so all of that information happens when you're asleep. And
so while that that download is happening, that programming is
that that coding is happening in your in your matrix.
The program of your experience is being written, which alters

(01:16:23):
your simulation. What's happening is on top of it, which
overwriting it is your little virtual reality version of you.
And how is that possible, Well, because they're extracting parts
of our consciousness. That's what Google Earth has been trying
to fucking do. And all of these like five G
towers and all of this fucking technology in your cell

(01:16:44):
phone and all of this is like the government using
extraterrestrial technology because none of this technology is human, by
the way, to extract parts of our consciousness, so that
the way they can create a simular on Earth of
everybody on Earth and it be run by the fucking elites.

(01:17:08):
And since they have part of your fucking consciousness running
in this virtual reality, that information is overriding what your
human brain is recording. So now the frequency you sit
in is based off of the argument that you had
in that virtual reality version of you, or you feel

(01:17:29):
unworthy as shit of being with your twin flame, and
that virtual reality version of you is being recorded in
your fucking mind. So guess what's being expressed by your
human body is feelings of fucking unworthiness or in your
twin Flames fucking uh virtual reality version of him, this

(01:17:49):
alternate reality. It's to where he doesn't give any fucks
about you. Or she doesn't give any fucks about you.
You're you're not even on their fucking radar in their
virtual reality version of you. And guess what that's being
recorded in their brain? So guess what translates into their
human experience. After some time of that virtual reality overriding

(01:18:12):
the fact that they don't care about you, They don't
care about you, they don't care about you, their humans
starts to not give a fuck about you, same way
your human starts to feel unworthy of love of that soulmate,
that partner, that mom, that dad, that that child, that
sibling of yours. And I'm pausing for a second so

(01:18:34):
that way everybody could take in what the fuck I
just said. That's the game that's fucking being played on
us within the matrix right now. And Elon Must talked
about something kind of similar on the Joe Rogan podcast,

(01:18:58):
but basically it was saying that we now out of
our human bodies and fully into a virtual reality version
of us, and that we don't know the difference. And
I'm like, Nah, that ain't right, bro, I'm telling you
right now that that shit is not right. We're still
in our physical form. They can't take us out of
our physical form. They can't do it like you're like,

(01:19:18):
this physical form is what allows us to be manipulated. Ourselves.
Vibrating this slowly is what allows their energy to manipulate us.
If we were to go into some alternate, fucking higher
vibration version of us and only exists there, then we
would become multi dimensional again, and the matrix would no
longer apply to us like it does with us being
a physical fucking body. So there's so many flaws in

(01:19:41):
that fucking argument that is unbelievable. But they're already talking
about the government. They're saying it, they're saying it incorrectly,
so that way you don't fully know the truth of
how it's actually working. It's more or less to create fear, right,
it's fear propaganda that you're not living in your physical body.
And if this isn't real, and if we are all
in a reality, then yolo, right. They want people to

(01:20:04):
live in that energy. And so what's really happening is
that they found a way to override the way our
brain stores data and the way that creates our simulation.
So my simulation is full of shit that isn't in

(01:20:24):
alignment with what my human body is fucking trying to experience.
So everybody that comes into the shop, they have a
really lovely experience. Like we rarely have anybody that comes
into the shop who doesn't like it, And if they
don't like it here, it's because they literally are evil
souls walking on this fucking planet, and our shop really

(01:20:44):
just gets under their fucking skin. If there is ever
anybody that says anything negative about the shop, I can
promise you that they're evil as fuck, because I mean,
the shop is amazing. It literally is the best is
so it feels so great over here, and so but

(01:21:05):
what's really happening. Instead of these people coming into the
shop and having a great experience, their alternate reality is
they're having a negative experience, and in that negative experience,
it's saying we're never going back to that shop ever again.
And people have not been coming to the shop, and
I'm like, how the fuck is this even possible, to
the point to where like we're like trying to consider
how much longer we can actually stay open because so

(01:21:27):
many people are being pulled away from the shop who've
had really great experiences here, and we're like, what the
fuck is this even about? Like how is this even possible?
I know the economy's bad, but there's just no way
that Like I've done so much good for all of
these people and nobody's showing up to support us. It
doesn't even make sense. And that's whenever I like this.

(01:21:49):
I saw this and it just clicks. It's not even
just within business or if you're running a business or whatever,
it's within our friends. You know, all these people fucking
betray me. So many people have betrayed me, dude, so
many and it's I was like kind of thinking, like damn,
Like what the fuck is wrong with me? Like I've
been able to keep friends, like my whole life. I

(01:22:10):
don't have like a lot of friends or whatever, but
like I've been able to have like decently long relationships
with people. It's not like I'm one of these people
that have like high turnover rates when it comes to friends,
because I just I don't engage with that many people,
and so normally, like when I have friends, they you know,
they kind of stick around for a while. But even
those friends are kind of like abandoned to me. And

(01:22:32):
I'm like, am I like a different person? Am I
like being a different version of myself? And I don't realize.
I mean, obviously, that's the point is to fucking evolve.
I want to be a different, better person. But I'm like,
am I more of a bitch? Am I more of
a fucking asshole? And I'm like no, I'm like less,

(01:22:52):
I'm like actually nice to people these days. I'm like,
I actually like give people so much grace when I
use to not too. I hold my tongue so much
these days. And it's just like, no, I've actually become
a better person. But it's like the act of me
becoming a better person in everybody else's virtual reality version

(01:23:12):
of me, I've become a worse person to where their
version of me and their mind isn't even real. And
so it's just been mind blowing to sit with this
and actually look at how many different versions of me
actually existed. I had nine hundred and eleven, which, if
everybody knows, that's my little number. Man, It's like, it

(01:23:36):
means such your cursed nine to eleven means the cursed one,
if that's literally what it translates to. And that's how
many fucking alternate reality versions of me existed, which means
little flex of my consciousness were in all of these
fucking realities, and they weren't even just like my realities.

(01:23:58):
Is like people who know me well, they they are
carrying a reality version of me, so they have like
a piece of my consciousness. So like my daughter has
like versions of me that exist in her mind, and
those each have consciousness in it. So those alternate reality
versions are running in her simulations but involve me, So
they're not just yours. They could be other people's. But

(01:24:21):
the way that they view you and their alternate reality
is still affecting you because since you've been incarnated in
this life and you had that consciousness attached to you
by them separating it from you, it still is connected
to you because of string theory or quantum entanglement or
whichever little theory you want to look at, because they're

(01:24:42):
still connected to it. So whatever change has happened to
that consciousness over there, are still being written into the
consciousness that we have within our physical fucking bodies. And
I know that this conversation is going to fuck a
lot of people up. So what I need you to

(01:25:04):
do is I need everybody to go into meditation. I mean,
I've talked about meditation multiple fucking times, bring your energy
into your heart space breathe, envision. Your energy is glitter.
Bring it into your body, into your heart. And while
it's sitting there, okay, you're gonna inhale up, bring it

(01:25:27):
into your throat. Keep going, and I want you to
bring it into your third eye. I want you to
bring it into your conscious mind. I want you to
bring it into your subconscious mind. Okay, especially the subconscious part.
Let it run in your conscious mind. Now, let it
run in your subconscious mind. Okay. Now, once it's connected

(01:25:50):
to your consciousness, conscious mind and subconscious mind. Okay, you're
gonna ask it. You're gonna ask that little ball of
energy to go retrieve every piece that is no longer
connected that you were born with when you incarnated. You're
gonna ask it to go find it. You're gonna let

(01:26:15):
it go out of your crown shock or let it
come out of the top of your head. You're gonna
give it the command pull back all energy that belongs
to you, and you're gonna tell it to go, and
you're gonna sit there and you're gonna wait for it
to come back, and then you're gonna let that energy

(01:26:37):
go back into your conscious mind, go back into your
subconscious mind and replant itself wherever it belongs. Now that's
just step one, because what do we do with all
of the programming that has been overriding the information we
want to store the good karma, the good deeds, like

(01:26:58):
the good interaction with people that don't seem to fucking matter.
It's like, you have all of these like nice conversations
with people and then they still fucking treat you like shit?
Are they still betray you? Are they still fuck around
and find out? It's like, where does this even come from?
I thought that me and this person, I thought she
was my friend. I thought that I could trust her.

(01:27:20):
Where the fuck does the sense of she needs to
betray me come in? What did I do to betray them?
Or what did I do to hurt their feelings so
much that they felt that this was the answer? And
the answer is, nine times out of ten, you probably
didn't fucking do anything. It probably has to do with
their lack of sovereignty. Okay, they're not sovereign. They're dealing

(01:27:43):
with really low vibration. They probably have several people around
them that have demons or dark ns teas attached to
them or they even may have one attached to them themselves, okay,
And because they're sitting in that energy lacking their fucking sovereignty,
it was really easy for them. The convinced that those
lower vibration thoughts were their own. They wanted to believe

(01:28:04):
the negative in you because they feel so insecure with
themselves that replacing their thought process with how fucked up
you are was simple. It was simple because they were
a low vibration human right now at least, and because
most people exist in those lower vibrations, it's really easy

(01:28:25):
to override their consciousness with that energy. I had a dream,
a lucid dream. I think it was the very next
day in the morning as I'm waking up, because that's
normally when I get my good little lucid dreams in.
And uh, I was still in So in my alternate realities,

(01:28:47):
I'm still married to my ex husband and we're so
miserable as shit. And it's not like, oh, I'm married
to him and we're happy. No, we're still arguing. I
very much despised him in this like little lucid dream
where they were showing me versions of my consciousness that
we're still out there and We're at some event and

(01:29:07):
he's arguing with me, and I'm telling him where the
fuck he could go, and he's trying to like convince
me to do something I didn't want to fucking do,
and I'm like arguing back with him, and I'm like,
I'm fucking not, like I don't know who the fuck
you think you're talking to, but like I'm not about
to do that, and so but if it felt so

(01:29:28):
fucking real, like that shit felt so real, and so
then it was like later on and I am walking,
I'm at some concert and for some reason, like I
didn't have my makeup or like I went to the
concert and I was supposed to do my makeup in
the car or on the way or some type of shit,
or I was in I was on some bus or something,
and I like didn't have any of my makeup. I

(01:29:52):
looked like shit, and I was like walking in a crowd.
I was literally leaving to go see if I could
find a drug store or something to where I could
like buy some sort of makeup for my fucking face
so I could like feel like I could be out
in public, and which, granted, my skin is like perfectly

(01:30:14):
fucking fine. I get breakouts every now and then when
it's my period. Very minimally, though, I have like discoloration
in my skin from being in a very abusive and
toxic relationship because my skin used to be really bad,
and so I have like scars on my face, which
is actually why I got tattoos on my neck. It's
actually to cover scars from that relationship. But so my

(01:30:38):
skin is still like they're lightening, they're lightning over time,
but my skin is still battling scars from being in
such a traumatic relationship. And that's the part that I
was worried about covering. It's not like I had like
big zits or anything. It's like literally just the normal
discoloration of my skin from trauma. And I'm like walking

(01:30:59):
and then I turn around and this guy who's not
my twin was behind me, and like I freaked the
fuck out and I started running because I'm like, oh
my god, there's like no way he could fucking see
me like this. He didn't even know that I was
even fucking there, because in his simulation, I don't exist,

(01:31:19):
and in my simulation, I like feel so fucking unworthy
in this particular situation that like in the simulation the
two of us. It's like, would never cross paths ever
ever again in the history of the rest of our
fucking lives. That's the simulation that we're fucking running on.
They I saw that so fucking clear in that vision,

(01:31:42):
I said, lucid dream because I was like kind of
in and out of like sleep state to go into that.
But I knew that they were showing me because now
I'm aware that I have these other versions of my
consciousness out there right, So now they're like popping me
and I've seen some other one as well now, but
now they've been popping me into all of these alternate

(01:32:04):
versions of me where a lot of my consciousness sits,
the ones that influence me the most so and the
one that is influencing my life the most he I
don't exist to him. I'm not his twin flame. I
don't like I need to leave him alone, never talk
to him ever again. And that's what's transpiring into our
human life. And I don't feel worthy of him, and

(01:32:28):
that's transpiring into our human fucking life. And then I
mean not really, but subconsciously it is. And then I
have like energetically I'm still contracted or tied to my
ex husband, So I couldn't be free to be in
another relationship even if I wanted to, because energetically, I'm

(01:32:48):
still in that marriage, within my energy field, with my
within my subconscious mind, I'm still tied to somebody that
I'm trying, Like I've been divorced from we've been separated.
It's been so long now that it's like hard to
even imagine that we've been apart for that long. It's
just like a crazy, ridiculous amount of time that that
much time has passed since that relationship has been over.

(01:33:11):
Like I don't know what the fuck is happening to
life and where time is going. But energetically I'm still married.
I'm still unworthy, and this boyd thinks that I don't
fucking exist to him, And that is what is overriding
any human intention, any positive human thought, any positive human

(01:33:35):
intention that I may have, or anything like that. That
is the program that my brain is being coded with
every single fucking night, when I sleep, when he sleeps,
when my ex husband sleeps. That is the simulation that
the three of us are fucking in and granted other
people are in it too. These are just the three
main characters that I, you know, that were significant in

(01:33:57):
this one vision. That's the simul that we're running on,
and it looks a whole lot like my physical fucking life.
So I wanted to talk about this topic today. It's
like I had to talk about this because I need
people to start figuring out where their consciousness is, what

(01:34:22):
other simulations and realities they've taken. They've extracted your consciousness
and has it running somewhere else. And if you want
to go, look for the Elon Musk little podcast with
Joe Rogan where Elon Musk talks about this alternate reality

(01:34:42):
in US snapping over in like twenty twenty or something
like that. He says a lot of things that are
not a lie. He's literally telling you about the things
that technology are building around us, like that the scientific
community is using Google Earth to build these fucking simulations,
that that's what our cell phones and all of this

(01:35:04):
fucking shit are. He literally spells out what the projects
are that these elites are fucking working on. Now we
say it's the government, we all know that's not the
fucking government. The government is just protecting them from having
their fucking secret laboratories and all of this fucking shit.
The government's not funding a lot of that fucking shit.

(01:35:25):
Private investors are, okay, And so he talks about it,
but part what he's saying isn't fully correct. A lot
of it's misinformation, and that's on purpose. That's to mislead you.
That's to give you just enough so you know what
they're doing behind your back, but also for you to
not fully figure it out so that way you can't

(01:35:45):
fix it. You feel helpless when you listen to him,
You feel like, oh, there's nothing I can do. I'm
just a victim to whatever it is that they're doing.
Go find that fucking podcast if I can find it again.
I couldn't link it in the show notes. It won't
be the second that I post it. But I can
try to go back and link it if I can

(01:36:07):
find it, if I have time to fucking find it,
because like I have to work today and stuff. But anyway,
so there are people talking about what I just have
been talking about. This isn't something. Oh my god, Christy's
so fucking disconnected from everything. She has no fucking idea
what she's talking about. No, this is Christy taking what

(01:36:29):
people are saying, but actually being able to see it
for myself and tell you know, like, this is actually
what's really fucking happening. So take what I'm saying and
go fucking find it, and then go prove me right, essentially,
because you're you're not about to go prove me fucking wrong,

(01:36:50):
because I know what the fuck I saw. I knew
it the second that I fucking saw. Now. Granted, are
there facets of this that I have not explored, Yes,
fuck yeah, dude, this should just happen a few days ago.
I know that there are gonna be other things that
I need to uncover within this fucking system if anybody
sees anything else. Now, there are a few other things

(01:37:11):
that I have seen about, like where a lot of
these realities, like the program is based off of, like
these other little star systems that exist and stuff like that.
So there are other things that I've seen that I
don't fully understand yet how they interact with our part
of the matrix. But I haven't really had a whole

(01:37:31):
lot of time to go back and sit with that
a little bit deeper. But if you see any fucking
thing else that is involved with this that you may
think would be of a benefit for me, in my
team of people that I have working on this, then
fucking let me know, dude, But there is more beyond
what the fuck I just saw. I'm just giving you
a high level overview, and let's start to see if

(01:37:54):
we can't pull back some of that consciousness take control
of our sovereignty from a true matrix fucking perspective, a
true reality perspective, to where our consciousness only needs to
run in this one reality on Earth at a time.
We can be off doing other things galactically, but we
only need to be in one body while we're on

(01:38:15):
Earth out of time. Let's just be honest, and so
let's see if you can't start pulling back some of
those pieces and shifting the energy of the matrix around you.
And so I still have that other meditation that I
owe you, guys, and because this ship went so long,
I'm gonna have to do it in the next podcast,
which will be this week. I'm gonna post a second

(01:38:35):
podcast this week. So until the next time, guys, think
outside the matrix. Talk to you next time. Glease's and
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