#57 Setting the Record Straight

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello, Hello, Hello, and welcome to another episode of Divinity
on Earth. I'm your podcast host, Christy Nicole, and I'm
tongue tied, and this is going to be the last
full episode of this podcast in this particular way, shape
form platform, whatever we want to call it.

Speaker 2 (00:21):
Is this podcast going to end? No, absolutely not.

Speaker 1 (00:25):
I love rambling for you guys, but it's going to
move over onto a different platform where this will be
a subscription based podcast and I am starting a completely
different free streaming podcast that will be called something Different
with a co host.

Speaker 2 (00:40):
And it will be a.

Speaker 1 (00:43):
Thirty minute podcast, but it will be posted Monday through Friday,
so there will be five thirty minute podcasts.

Speaker 2 (00:50):
Released a week.

Speaker 1 (00:51):
And we are just switching up the platform a bit
and changing things because the amount of time and energy
that I put into this type of podcast is just
not worth it, and it kind of like, uh, I
don't know, like kills my motivation. I guess whenever you're
putting so much effort and energy into something and it

(01:12):
actually costs you money every month to do it, and
then you know, life kind of gets in the way
and it's not like a scheduled thing where I have
to do it it's just not been energetically working out
or in alignment with me anymore. However, I do really
like doing this podcast, but I want to go like

(01:33):
deeper into things that I don't feel comfortable talking about publicly.

Speaker 2 (01:38):
So it's going to.

Speaker 1 (01:39):
Be a subscription based podcast, and I'm gonna really go
off into the weeds way more than I currently do,
so way more past life talks, way more government talks,
way more timeline prediction or timeline possibility conversations, way more

(02:00):
about the matrix and extraterrestrials and all of the things
that I do not feel comfortable mentioning publicly. So it's
gonna end up happening is this podcast will actually get
moved over onto that private platform at some point.

Speaker 2 (02:13):
It's not going to be right away.

Speaker 1 (02:14):
I'm going to leave it up for a bit, but
at the end of the year this podcast will transition over,
probably to be fully on my website because I do
have podcasts hosting capabilities on it, and then that will
be subscription based, so that way we can really, really,
really I can say all the things and we can

(02:37):
go deep diving into things that I'm kind of like,
do I want people to really know that I know that,
you know, Do I want the government to know that
I know that, do into Granted, are they still going
to know because they can snoop through my my you
know website? Of course, of course, of course I'm not
trying to say that they don't have the ability to

(02:58):
big brother the shit out of me and know that
that's what I'm putting on that website. But what I'm
saying is is less likely to fall into the hands
of people who I don't want it to fall in
the hands of if it goes just a little more
under the radar. So that's why we're switching, because I
really want to say all the weird things. And I
know that everybody's like Christy, you already do say the

(03:20):
weird things. I do not. I do not say all
of the weird things here, So I would like to
change that energy up. So yeah, I need a more
a safer, a safer environment to be able to say
all the things that I really really would like to say,

(03:40):
and this is just not offering me that. And then
also I will be able to restrict membership of anyone
who I feel is not in alignment or who is
doing harm or who is doing anything, I will be
able to just kick you off. And I'm a big
fan of that because this is going to be a
very very safe space. And yeah, so moving over is

(04:05):
going to give me a whole lot of benefit.

Speaker 2 (04:09):
But yeah, I'm definitely going to.

Speaker 1 (04:10):
Be starting a whole nother podcast which you're gonna be
able to listen to you just like this. That will
be free streaming on all of the podcast platforms. We're
pretty sure we're going to do video as well, and
then that'll be up on like YouTube and you know,
TikTok and all the places and all the things. Because
if I'm going to do this, if I'm going to

(04:31):
put this energy on it, then might as well start
kind of letting the world know that I exist. And
I guess that I'm finally in the place where I
really don't give a fuck. If people have mean things
to say, I will just hext the fucking shit out
of them. So kidding, not kidding, Well, I won't have

(04:52):
to do the hexing my podcast host, well hext the
shit out of anybody for me. So the person that
I'm going to be recording the next podcast with her
name is Zayka. She has been orbiting around me at
the shop. Not long after we opened, her partner came
into the shop and he came get her a few

(05:14):
things and told her, you absolutely have to go check
out the shop. You're gonna absolutely love it is right.

Speaker 2 (05:19):
By the house.

Speaker 1 (05:20):
And then so she came in, fell in love with
the shop, and kind of has been like in and
out based off of, you know, whatever has been going
on in her personal life. But it wasn't until recently
that we really connected on a deeper level. I opened
up some things for her in Astral, opened up some
of her abilities, have reconnected her to who she is,

(05:41):
her purpose, the fact that she stands alongside of me
in Astral at Valhalla as well, she sits next to
me in Asgard on the court, and so I really
connected her to a lot of that energy, and so
we really hit it. We are very similar in the

(06:03):
fact that I don't sit in my dark energy very often,
however it very much is there. I sit maybe a
little too much in light a lot of times. But
she is like the complete opposite of me, So we're
trying to we have like the opposite you know, energy
to balance, right, So she sits in really kind of

(06:26):
this really really beautiful, dark, divine feminine energy that is
a very healed, dark divine feminine energy, by the way,
but still nonetheless she has to balance her energy by
bringing in light. And I am so full of fucking
light that I have to balance my energy out by
bringing in dark. And so we have that beautiful balance.

(06:49):
And so we're going to do a bit of a
little switcher root and I asked her if she wants
to start podcasting with me so that way, you know,
it's a little bit.

Speaker 2 (06:58):
I don't know.

Speaker 1 (07:00):
All I do is I know everybody says is a
leveling you arounbo, and I get it, But I just
kind of want the energy of there to be like
back and forth different perspectives. And I feel like her
perspective is an incredibly, incredibly rich value and a really
beautiful resource for people, especially if you are trying to

(07:24):
work in that dark feminine energy and you're trying to
come out and you're trying to heal.

Speaker 2 (07:30):
Zeka is your girl for that. So she is really
like had lots of lots.

Speaker 1 (07:38):
Of abuse, okay, from her father, from her ex husband,
lots of different She's been through a lot, Baby girl's
been through just a whole lot of stuff.

Speaker 2 (07:49):
Health things as well.

Speaker 1 (07:50):
So she has a really really really strong strong, Like,
if there's a card that would represent her, literally strength
card would be her fucking card. She is just incredibly resilient,
carries an unbelievable beautiful amount of strength to her energy field,

(08:12):
and she is very much in the hexta patriarchy type
of energy, which I absolutely fucking adore. And I'm not
saying that as a fuck men, not all men, and
not just all you know, oh, I just mean, don't
fuck all divine feminine men. No, I mean like there

(08:32):
are some really amazing divine masculine men out there who
are trying to restore the balance, trying to heal their trauma,
trying to do all the work. I am not talking
about you, and you already know that I'm not talking
about you the same way like I am like a
full blown like feminist energy, but fuck feminist. You know
what I'm saying, Not all feminists, but the ones who

(08:53):
are in the extreme that are an embarrassment to my
opinion of uh, like where a vagina? You make me
fucking sick? Like those types fuck them? Okay, So I
feel like there are extremes on both sides, and I
believe that that type of energy is really just toxic
divine masculine energy that's hidden amongst women that needs to

(09:16):
be brought down as well. There's so much toxic femininity
happening right now that is creating such a divide between
masculine and feminines that you know, we're working to break
that down to And I feel, honestly that energy is
just the patriarchy working undercover, and so fuck all of
that energy. And so Zaeka has a really really strong

(09:42):
desire to create balance and harmony within the planet, and
so do I, and we approach things from a slightly
different perspective, and I let her do her thing, she
lets me do my thing, and we're gonna talk about
both spectrums. So we're gonna get a lot more into magic.
We're gonna get a lot more into spell casting from

(10:04):
a healed, healed place, a healed place with christ Light intentions,
because I haven't really dove into that much because being
sitting in my frequency, I don't particularly need it the
way that Zaika utilizes it. But I really like the
way she does what she does, so and I'm all

(10:26):
about giving perspective, giving people options and choices because if
you're not healed, if you don't sit in the frequency
that I sit in, then you know, you may need
some tools to help you get to a place where
you can let some shit fucking go. And so that's

(10:48):
where Zayka is going to come into play.

Speaker 2 (10:50):
And also.

Speaker 1 (10:52):
We have a same sick, twisted, dark, fucked ups into humor,
so it ought to make for a pretty entertain podcasts
if I do say so myself. So it'll be nice
to have another person. But anyways, I have really just
been feeling for a while that this particular platform for
this podcast was just expiring, Like I just felt it,

(11:15):
and then Zakea and I were working together. Ooh, I
started this podcast at eleven eleven AM and it's eleven
twenty two in Okay, So my phone just lit up
because somebody's texting me and uh oh, it's eleven twenty
two pm right now, and the amount of time I've
been on the podcast was eleven twenty two okay, So

(11:39):
my phone just lit up.

Speaker 2 (11:39):
So I guess it's just confirming the energy and the
you know, the lineup of me.

Speaker 1 (11:47):
And Zayka is definitely definitely the vine and on our
timeline so fuck, I don't know what I was saying now,
but it's cool. Yeah, So my other podcast, I have
just been sitting like deep, deep, deep, this was going
to expire. Now, I guess kind of the reason why
I thought that it was gonna expire is probably not
the same energy that I sit in now. I just

(12:09):
felt that energetically that it was pushing a particular human
being away from me, that this was the platform and
these were the types of conversations that I was having publicly.
So I was like, you know what, I already know
that the whole reason that like I'm here is you know,

(12:29):
to mend some things, to fix some things that happened
in past lives, and this is this is the energy
in space that I need to do it. And I
didn't fully have a good picture of why. It didn't
really make sense to me as to why he fucking
chased me here, why you know, he incarnated and then
completely like set out to fucking find me and then

(12:52):
found me and flipped the fucking switch. No, granted, I
had no idea upon meeting this human in that like,
there were no real romantic feelings for him. I just
felt like drawn to him, but I didn't really explain
it because I'm I'm as aries af. You know what

(13:14):
I'm saying. I will detach from you quicker than it
is like even possible to detach from somebody. I literally
just ordered a shirt because I am slipping and sliding
my way right back into this energy and I feel
it so wholeheartedly. Is because this was the energy I
was in whenever him and I first met. But I
got a friend of mine making the shirt. It literally

(13:35):
says slut era because that's how aries I am. I
can disconnect from a person place, you know, thing whatever,
super fast light switch, click it off, whatever, you mean
nothing to me now, Like why are you still talking
to me? So I definitely carried carried that energy really

(13:55):
really strong, even whenever I I first you know, whenever
we first met. For the first few years, I was
like on and off, Okay, this is what you're doing. Well,
this is what the fuck I'm doing. I don't care.

Speaker 2 (14:05):
Oh we circle him back.

Speaker 1 (14:07):
Cool, We could circle back for the weekend and I
cannot talk to you again for six eight months and it.

Speaker 2 (14:11):
Won't bother me at all. So I definitely like felt
that energy.

Speaker 1 (14:16):
But so I was kind of thinking that and then
you know, I didn't pop off to being this version
of me until him and I were no longer in
contact at all. I didn't realize I couldn't. I didn't
know that I could see past lives. I didn't know
that we were fucking twin flames. I didn't know any
of that shit. So there was no desire to be
in any sort of fucking romantic relationship with him. And uh,

(14:41):
but there seemed to have been like a confusion along
the way to where he really thought that by me
expressing unconditional love for him, that that meant that in
some way he was worthy of being in a relationship
with me, which the boy is not. And so it's
just it's really kind of comical to me. But I
also I know that this like podcast on this whole

(15:01):
platform and the way like I do things is like
and it is problematic, which I get it.

Speaker 2 (15:05):
For unhealed people, you can't.

Speaker 1 (15:08):
You can't accept that people can exist and express their
fucking truth and tell their fucking story if you're fucking involved.
That's how unhealed people sit, especially people who are still
in fucking therapists and have therapists pushing boundaries and boundaries
and boundaries and all this fucking trash bullshit down their
fucking throat. That's basically you're unhealed spiritually if you are

(15:28):
still needing to hold strong boundaries and your therapist needs
to tell you to okay. So it kind of is
like this energy of At first, I thought, Okay, while
I really need to repair whatever the fuck this is,
it might not be now, it might not be immediately
in the immediate future, but at some point, like he
literally is only here to find me, And so it

(15:51):
was kind of like the energy of, Okay, well, you know,
if I know that, and I am the one that
sits in unconditional love of how the fuck do I
foster like an environment that would feel safe enough for
him whenever the fuck he's ready for him to be
able to actually execute what it is he came here
to do. And I still was unsure of why he

(16:15):
fucking chased me here. But nevertheless, at first I thought
that that's the whole reason why I was going to,
you know, in this podcast and start something else, because
I just was feeling that in some sense, because I
am the healed party, I wanted to kind of protect him, uh,

(16:41):
and not cause additional unnecessary tension or friction between us
and whatever. So initially that's what I thought, and then
I have had like so much happened since that, you know,
that little revelation. I don't know, I've probably been feeling
that for a couple of months now that you know,
I'm like, okay, you know like this, really you're gonna

(17:02):
need to move this along. And this podcast wasn't to
be forever. You knew that when you started it. Everybody
has startup projects and their first attempt at doing something,
and then you know, you kind of know when that
expires and something else is supposed to start in this place,
because the first one was just the trial, right, It
was just having fun seeing if anybody would resonate with

(17:23):
what it is that you're doing. And then you go
make changes, you make adjustments, and you decide how you
want to leave a bigger mark on the world. And
this podcast just ain't it. This ain't how I touch everybody.
This is how I prepare a very very specific army,
but this is not how I.

Speaker 2 (17:40):
This is not how I reach.

Speaker 1 (17:41):
The masses is not going to be through this podcast, right,
I really would like to write a very like a
new book that combines like all of the spiritual teachings
that actually are legitimate and take all the ones that
are trashed out and then put all of the secret
Like I know, there's book Secret Teaches of Ages, but
they're literally just taking what's already there and putting it

(18:03):
together in a bigger fucking book. Like what's the point
You didn't even filter out whether or not Elaheim or
a demon was actually imparting that fucking knowledge on somebody,
Like there was there's no filter for what is actually
being combined whenever you read some of that shit, right,
So I really like to put everything in a perspective
of more of a cosmic truth, more of a the

(18:26):
Truth of Creation type book. So we'll see if that
ends up happening. I feel like financially, I am going
to end up being in a place where I will
be able to work on that full time, and you know,
that will kind of eventually be my legacy where I
literally just go through nothing but philosophical and religious text

(18:49):
and just you know, channel, channel, channel and pull out
the you know, the really beautiful parts of our human
history and then fill in the with the things that
happened before we were human. Put all that together in
a book, and that will be my life's work.

Speaker 2 (19:07):
That's my goal.

Speaker 1 (19:08):
But in order to be able to financially do that,
I have to make some switch, do some things, move
things around so that way I can get there. Now,
with all of that being said, I don't know if
everybody else is feeling this, and I guess this is
kind of this is probably a really not the most

(19:29):
idealistic time to record. You know, your last podcast that
is going to be aired publicly on the series is whenever,
Like we are, we have this pluto, you know, going
direct in Capricorn, which is about to move into Aquarius energy,
and the cardinal signs are just you're either wallowing in

(19:53):
your fucking sorrow because you have not handled You don't
even have to just be a cardinal sign. You could
have cardinal signs that hold major placements in your chart
and will still affects you. If your moon sign is
a cardinal sign, then it would affect you as well.
If you don't know what a cardinal sign is, look
it up, do some fucking research, because you know, if

(20:14):
you are a person that is letting astrology affect you
like you know, I had this whole conversation in the
previous podcast. Sometimes we want to and this is one
that I just want it to. I'm I'm showing up
for the villain era. I'm showing up for the you
fucked up and now it's a time where you're about
to fucking find out. I want to be in that energy.

(20:37):
I'm tired of being the fucking martyr. I'm tired of
showing up, handing you unconditional love, unconditional love, unconditional love,
and then you fucking burn me at the stake over it. Like,
I'm tired of showing up in that way because you
must have fucking forgot who the fuck I am. So
I want to stand in this strength energy, this dark

(21:02):
feminine energy, because that's the way that old systems fall.

Speaker 2 (21:08):
They're not gonna fall.

Speaker 1 (21:09):
I've been saying this from the beginning, and I say
this like almost every day in the shot to somebody
who comes in, I literally say, the world is asleep,
and they're not just regular asleep, they're drunk asleep.

Speaker 2 (21:20):
They are on some little.

Speaker 1 (21:22):
Merriment fucking ride where they just stay happily fucking drunk,
so that way they don't have to deal with reality.
And you cannot wake a drunk person up by a
gently tapping their shoulders and say, hey, look, look look
at the truth. Look look at this message in this
higher frequency. Don't you feel optimistic and unconditional love and

(21:42):
the sense of completion and wholeness and just like wonder
from this beautiful message of like hope that I have
for you?

Speaker 2 (21:50):
And they're not waking up to that shit.

Speaker 1 (21:53):
Okay, these drunk, pasted out motherfuckers need to be violently woken, Okay,
violently shaken. That's why everything, all of these conspiracy theories,
they're not even conspiracies anymore. Like as soon as everybody's
starting to say, oh I think this is happening, it
literally is.

Speaker 2 (22:14):
Like the the proof is coming a week behind.

Speaker 1 (22:18):
That they get some fucking uh grant money or whatever
the fuck they got so that way they could open
up the Lithium Minds or whatever. They literally were given
the allocation the amount of money that they needed to
have that project start back up. They already posted it.
The hurricane just happened a couple of weeks ago and
flooded out you know, North Carolina and Tennessee. They already

(22:40):
are posting publicly that they have the money that they
need to start with that project, and everybody's like, oh,
that's a fucking conspiracy bull fucking shit. They're not even
given it time for us to be conspiracy theory about it.
As soon as it is, just fucking as soon as
it's happening. Now they're throwing it in your face that yes,
all of this fucking shit has pretty much been true

(23:01):
all along. So the earth is changing so fucking rapidly
right now, and they're the patriarchy is being so sloppy
because they're still in their egos and they're grasping at straws.
They have not realized that we are figuring their shit
out and we're just we're on it. And they have
gotten away with so much shit under the covers for

(23:23):
so fucking long, and now there are no covers. We've
yanked the covers off the sleeping drunk Bear and now
all is being revealed, all the dirty shit that was
in bed with them. So it's really kind of fun.
But we are definitely in the shake things out energy now.
Granted I am doing tons and tons of tons of work. Hey,

(23:45):
I've figured out how to smother a hurricane. That was
super fun. How to energetically take all of the moving
force from a natural event. That was a that was
a really cool evening me and Zaca had where we
were tapping in because when I tell you Zayka and
my girl Bridget, it's like the we like the three

(24:06):
little three fucking Musketeers.

Speaker 2 (24:07):
Dude, they are like my squad.

Speaker 1 (24:10):
When I tell you that, these women have like profound,
profound gifts and.

Speaker 2 (24:15):
Abilities and are really like they're like the shit.

Speaker 1 (24:19):
In astral And I love that for them, and I
especially love that for me. Yeah, we literally, I mean
I work in the matrix, you know, every day, That's
that's where That's where I'm at.

Speaker 2 (24:31):
I be up in the matrix changing codes and shit.

Speaker 1 (24:34):
But yeah, we are really starting to We've removed so
many fucking veils and the energy is getting so so
clear all the things that were deceptive, and you know
that we're giving us the run around and like showing
us basic spiritual knowledge. Like in the very beginning, all

(24:54):
of those systems have been just completely shattered and broken
to where we're no longer running by the rules of
the matrix itself, but we're seeing how the matrix actually
works and we're able to go in and manipulate code
and manipulate energy and move things quantumly, and this shit
is actually like ridiculously it's working really well. So anyways,

(25:19):
we have been just NonStop pushing forward, pushing forward, pushing forward.
And the really cool thing about all of that is,
throughout all of this like journey, I have found my
dark balance, and I think that's probably like the most
beautiful part of all of this. So I had this deep,

(25:41):
deep realization. Actually I guess it was last night. I
have tried to start recording this like kind of like podcast.
I didn't know that this would necessarily be the last one,
but I literally tried to record a podcast multiple times.
I have a podcast that I've started and I would
stop and then somebody would come in and then started again,
and then I would stop, and then a few days

(26:02):
later I would come back and I would start it again.
And I tried so many times, and I was never
actually able to record that podcast. And I was like, okay,
because you know, something stopping me from recording this or whatever.
But I'm in such alignment that I find it like
it's not something that I felt would have been outside,

(26:24):
but maybe something internally that's like stopping me from doing it,
don't you know. I decided that, Okay, no, you're gonna
actually go record your final podcast for this little series,
and you're gonna do it today. And I have not
had a single disruption since I actually started, So yeah,
talk about alignment, right. So but anyways, I have really

(26:45):
been on this energy of where I have just been
sitting in the how divine everything has been so far.
And I was even saying that to Bridget last night.
I was telling her that, you know, her and her
twin split up as well, very similar kind of energy

(27:08):
as mine. Not the same circumstances at all, but the
energy still kind of felt very similar, and so it
was I told her that that was like the most
necessary thing of her journey. And it's just like we
often look at the things where you know, oh, we
think we fuck up, or we think we make this

(27:29):
mistake and we push somebody away, or you know, like
all of these things that we think we do, and
you know, they're really just aligning us to either humble us,
to put us in the right frequency. You know, there's
a multiple different things, or to put us searching. And
I find that most things that we do within this
life on earth put us searching.

Speaker 2 (27:51):
It puts a searching for our deeper truth. It puts
a searching.

Speaker 1 (27:54):
As into a why am I like the way I am?
It puts us having to even evaluate, Okay, well, this
person thinks that I am X Y and Z am
I that, So it puts us on this deeper like
soul quest like am I really crazy?

Speaker 2 (28:10):
Do I actually like need to go find help?

Speaker 1 (28:13):
Is my family being harmed by me doing what it
is that I'm doing.

Speaker 2 (28:18):
It puts us in this.

Speaker 1 (28:20):
This deeper evaluation, which is necessary, right, So it puts
us on this path of searching for truth. And when
you openly embrace that challenge of Okay, why did I
react the way I reacted?

Speaker 2 (28:34):
You know?

Speaker 1 (28:34):
Why did I you know, gaslight the shit out of.

Speaker 2 (28:38):
Her or him? Why did I?

Speaker 1 (28:40):
You know? What is it about me that's so unhealed
that I would treat somebody who is expressing love and
care towards me so negatively?

Speaker 2 (28:48):
Or why did I allow.

Speaker 1 (28:50):
This person to treat me this way when all I've
done was express love and care to them And here
I am being a doormat and keeping quiet and not
actually standing up for my So what is it about
me that is allowing me to do that. So we
fall on both ends of that spectrum throughout our lifetime. Right,
we are not always the innocent, you know, We're not

(29:11):
always a little you know, please help me. Everybody's always
mean to me like victim. We're not always the victim.

Speaker 2 (29:19):
Sometimes we are. We are the bad guy.

Speaker 1 (29:21):
I've been the bad guy in people's stories before because
you know, fuck you, and I'm gonna be that way,
you know in the future. I'm kind of standing in
that energy kind of right now to where maybe me
speaking my truth and setting the record straight is going
to be enough to get certain people that have been

(29:41):
revolving around me or who have really discarded me in
such a negative, unfavorable way. Maybe me speaking my truth
is the moment that they need to actually start asking
the questions that need to be asked and order for
their soul to actually do something positive.

Speaker 2 (30:01):
So, you know, we're not just always.

Speaker 1 (30:04):
Going to be the victim, and we're not always the
villain either. Sometimes we actually know, like for real, like
you were totally the victim in that situation because you
didn't stand up for yourself and they were really bullying
you and pushing you knowing that you didn't have the
appropriate coping mechanisms or the appropriate boundaries, and they took
advantage of you. That's happened to everybody listening to this

(30:26):
podcast at some point or another in their life. Okay,
maybe it hasn't happened lately. Maybe for the last ten
years of your adulthood, you really have been managing boundaries better.
You really have been, you know, doing all that kind
of stuff. And I say boundaries. That's such a therapy
fucking word. But people love to use whatever the cool
little therapy word is because it makes you feel like

(30:48):
you have control over your life by saying, oh, no,
I have boundaries. The real boundary is to vibrate in
such a frequency that you don't need a boundary. Okay, So,
if you're having to enact boundaries upon people, your circle
still has people that are not serving your fucking high
as good. You still have not stepped into your power.

(31:09):
You are not sovereign if you are carrying around boundaries.
Boundaries are not needed for people who are powerful. Boundaries
are not needed for people who are sovereign and in control.
You could act whatever kind of ass you want. It
doesn't bother me because I'm going to act in the
way that is in my best interest. Period. That's not

(31:32):
a boundary. The higher you vibrate, the less boundaries you need.
The more intuned and in a line you are, you
don't need boundaries. That's some therapy bullshit that keeps you
feeling as if you're not strong enough. So you have
to have this device, this little mechanism that keeps you safe,

(31:57):
and that thing is an illusionary boundary because you yourself
are not healed enough to actually stand on your shit.
So you have this false sense of security. You have
a little security blanket, and we call it a boundary.

Speaker 2 (32:13):
Okay.

Speaker 1 (32:14):
So it's really funny when people say I need you
to respect my boundaries. Yeah, because you aren't man or
woman enough to actually be in the frequency to where
it just happens naturally.

Speaker 2 (32:27):
You got that beta energy all over you.

Speaker 1 (32:31):
So I really have been in this place lately where
I have really, really, really been just really sitting in
the beautiful just like man, as much as I was doubting,
as much as I was doubting every decision I made,
Oh shit, well I shouldn't not, you know, maybe I

(32:52):
should have handled that situation different or I wish that,
you know, I would have never, you know, followed this
person's advice. I wish I would have never had that conversation.
You know, things wouldn't have got to where they are now.
When I tell you that every single moment of my
life up until this point has been so divine, so

(33:17):
beautifully crafted from a perspective and a consciousness that is
so much just higher and all knowing than my human consciousness.
When I tell you that, I have never had more
faith in that whenever it comes to my personal journey,
all of the oppression that I have allowed myself to
go through was so I can get to this immense

(33:41):
amount of power and strength that I have now. Without
every single moment, without every text message, without every conversation,
without every friend that abandoned me, without every single moment
of all of that, I literally would not be this
exact version of me right now. And when I tell
you that I am really feeling this bitch that I

(34:04):
am right now, I have never felt this in control
over my shit ever in my life as I do
right now.

Speaker 2 (34:14):
When I tell you that, I know.

Speaker 1 (34:17):
That if I wanted to destroy someone's life, I absolutely
fucking could. When I tell you that if I know
for a fact that if I wanted to bring somebody
into the absolute most beautiful alignment that they could ever
possibly imagine themselves to be in, that I absolutely fucking could.

(34:38):
When you understand that you have that sort of power
to completely wreck someone's fucking existence, but you choose not to,
or maybe you do choose to, there.

Speaker 2 (34:53):
Ain't shit that could touch you. And that really is.

Speaker 1 (34:57):
The energy that I am standing so fucking s strongly
in right now. It's kind of like just unbelievable, but
I know that in order to get to this place,
that every single thing had to happen exactly the way
it has. Even this past week had to happen exactly

(35:17):
the way it did. Because somebody was asking me about
when it was that I had like received a text
from someone last and I'm like, I don't know, it's
like in February or something, And I went to go
pull up just to see the dates because they were
trying to run some synchronicities in the timeline because we're
doing we're doing some shit around that event, We're causing

(35:43):
some dark Knight of the Soul energy to spiral around.
And so whenever I went to go look at it.
It's like the first time I had read the text,
I had completely disassociated from everything that they said because
I knew that their soul was not prep present in
their body when that text was being sent, and I
knew that it was a demon attached to them and

(36:05):
that they think that it's all sexy and shit and
they claim that I sold my so to the devil.
Ha ha ha. That's really funny. You didn't have your
soul to sell it, first of all, So that's really
cute that you actually think that you sold your soul.
But anyways, so I like disassociated from whatever was on it,
like I kind of skimmed it, and then I didn't
even fully read it, and I just tucked it away

(36:27):
and like told my friends that it had happened, and
like I never went back to it because I'm not
giving any sort of demon my energy. You're just not
gonna get my fucking energy. But you just made yourself
like blaringly aware that you are attached to somebody that
I just so happened to care very deeply about, even
if his feelings are being muddled by the fact that

(36:51):
his soul was not in his body at the time.
I've returned part of his soul to his body, but
he has to accept his soul back. So there's really
like nothing that I can do to facilitate that coming back.

Speaker 2 (37:03):
That's the thing.

Speaker 1 (37:04):
I can do so much work, but if your conscious
mind does not recognize that your soul is back into
your body, your subconscious mind can only hold it so
close to you. Your conscious mind is actually what physically
changes the energy that you sit in, which is why
like people come in here and they ask me if
I can do work and if I can clear, and

(37:25):
I can do whatever.

Speaker 2 (37:26):
Yes, I can clear. I can clear demons off.

Speaker 1 (37:28):
Of people all day I can do soul retrievals for
people all day long. I can do spirit retrievals. I
can open up your heart chakra.

Speaker 2 (37:39):
I can do.

Speaker 1 (37:39):
Tons of things, but none of that actually like snaps
to your physical body until you consciously physically know that
it's been done.

Speaker 2 (37:50):
And that's kind of been.

Speaker 1 (37:51):
The issue with a lot of people whenever they come
to me and I'm like trying to work on their
twin flames for them and I'm doing all this type
of work, is that they don't know, you know, you know,
but your twin doesn't know, so unless their physical human
ears hear it to where it resonates in.

Speaker 2 (38:06):
Their physical body.

Speaker 1 (38:08):
You know, their their higher self can know that shit
all day long. When I tell you that their higher
self is a completely different being creature, It has like
different goals and you know, feelings than their human physical
body does, I mean that wholeheartedly because our physical bodies
operate different than our subconscious mind in our higher selves. Okay,

(38:32):
our spiritual our spiritual self operates different. I can upgrade
somebody's spiritual self till I'm blue in the fucking face,
but that doesn't it's not going to change their human frequency.
It's not going to change the energy around their human body.
They're going to keep being around, you know, people that
aren't for their highest good. They're going to keep being
around other people with demons to where its easier for

(38:52):
that demon that attached back to them because their human
body is not snapping what their sub conscious mind or
their spiritual body has going on, and you need that
conscious mind to bring that energy to resonate in their body.
So I know a lot of people sometimes get frustrated.
You're like, what the fuck all I do is do
this work and YadA, YadA.

Speaker 2 (39:13):
Yes, that's all you can do.

Speaker 1 (39:14):
If you can't physically go say hey, look, you've been
without your soul, asshole, and I'm forgiving the way that
you have been treating me, talking to me, disregarding me,
pretending like you didn't fucking incarnate to find me. Okay,
if you can't go have that conversation and be like,
I put your soul back, so you're welcome, Okay, If

(39:39):
you can't go have that conversation with them because they're
not talking to you, or whatever the situation may be,
right because they don't believe in this shit, or you know,
they have just sworn you out of their life. If
you can't go physically fucking say this is what I'm
doing energetically to you. The thing about it is all
they have to do is hear it. They don't even

(40:01):
have to fucking believe it. That's how it works because
now what they have brought in consciously starts working in
the subconscious mind within the body. Their conscious mind starts
allowing that message to resonate even if they don't fucking
believe it. The frequency of the message is there their
subconscious mind, which is their spiritual their spiritual body right
their spiritual mind, their consciousness can now start to integrate

(40:25):
that because you did all that work on their consciousness,
on their spiritual body. The second their conscious mind hears
it links to two together, a spark is like lit
and the rest is fucking history. So that's why I
tell people work on it, work on it, work on it,
because the moment that their conscious mind knows when you've
done the work on their spiritual fucking body, the two

(40:49):
will ignite together and the flame will be lit and
there is absolutely nothing.

Speaker 2 (40:55):
That they will be able to do to reverse it. Nothing.

Speaker 1 (40:59):
The tower moment has fucking happened. That's the moment that
the lightning fucking strikes. You just need them to fucking know, okay,
And it might.

Speaker 2 (41:09):
Not be time.

Speaker 1 (41:10):
You might have to do a whole lot of fucking
work to their consciousness, to their higher self or their
self as I like to call it. You might have
to do a whole lot of work to get their
self into alignment before their conscious mind is ready.

Speaker 2 (41:24):
Because if you give.

Speaker 1 (41:25):
Their conscious mind that message and their their higher self
ain't fucking ready, if they're if spiritually they're not in
that vibration, then you just lit the spark for nothing.
Now they think you're fucking crazy. And now guess what,
nothing is gonna happen, and they're gonna keep being pushed
further and further and further away from you, Which is
why I.

Speaker 2 (41:44):
Tell everybody you have to do trust me.

Speaker 1 (41:47):
I know this firsthand fucking experience, first hand experience. I'm
telling you that I know this because this has been
my life. I said something to someone way too fucking soon,
was not ready to fucking hear it. Now I'm the
crazy fucking person that needs fucking help, okay, because they
don't understand the concept of unconditional love. They think that

(42:07):
unconditional love is the same thing as romantic fucking love,
and like all of this crazy shit, like you can't
we're someone well and we're someone there best in this
incarnation and have love for them throughout all of your
lifetimes together.

Speaker 2 (42:21):
I mean where I sit, where we sit in this life.

Speaker 1 (42:24):
We are exactly in the fucking middle, exactly in the middle.
There is equal amount of past lives that behind us,
as are our future lives in front of us. We're
dead ass in the fucking middle right now where we are,
and especially you know him and I we sit directly

(42:44):
in the fucking middle right now, and we have gone
all the way to the back and all the way
to the front, so we have had the full fucking spiral.
And where we sit right now is from that perspective.
So where I sit in knowing this in my mind,
my consciousness knows I can see it. I can see
us in the future, I can see us in the past.

(43:06):
I know the whole fucking spectrum. I know the amount
of fucking rejection, I know the amount of ego. I
know all the things that have happened between us, and
yet I still showed up in this life even though
I should not have fucking showed up in this life
with any sort of unconditional fucking love. I showed up
with that frequency anyways. And because the person was not
ready to accept that energy into their life, it has

(43:30):
caused like this massive, massive, like rejection of anything that
I would have to fucking say, and a complete fucking
dip into their ego because they were so unhealed that
there was no healed higher self to pull that message
in and to let it resonate.

Speaker 2 (43:50):
So when I'm.

Speaker 1 (43:50):
Telling you, when all of every I mean, I see
it every single day the amount of fucking desperation that
we exist in because we know and feel something in
our whole, entire fucking being. Our dreams fucking support it,
our spirit guides fucking supported our loved ones, supported their
loved ones on the other side, fucking support it.

Speaker 2 (44:14):
Our human friends, psychics.

Speaker 1 (44:16):
I'm friends with so many fucking psychic people, some of
the most talented people I have ever met, who can
see things and tell me things that nobody else should
be able to know about me, and things that I
know about my spiritual journey.

Speaker 2 (44:28):
I'm talking about, like deep dive shit.

Speaker 1 (44:30):
I know some spiritual ass, psychic medium ass motherfuckers, I
know some of the most intuitive people on this entire planet.
And so my knowing of what the fuck is up
with me, why I'm incarnated here, what I'm supposed to do,
it couldn't be more verified and validated if I fucking

(44:53):
were to try to do this any other way. I've
had it verified by so many people, validated by so
many people. So many people can see me, so many
people know what my path is. So many people have
like stepped up to me know that I'm supposed to
be doing this, or like oh yeah, whatever you need.
I got you, because like you're the truth around this motherfucker,
and because I'm I really do know what the what.

Speaker 2 (45:16):
The fuck I'm supposed to be doing.

Speaker 1 (45:18):
I know why I'm here, especially now, like all those
pieces are just really really coming together, and it's becoming
all the visions that I've had in the past, and
I couldn't quite figure out what the fuck.

Speaker 2 (45:28):
Why was I.

Speaker 1 (45:28):
Seeing this little piano thing with all the keys and
I can play it? I figured that out yesterday? Was
that yesterday I finally figured it out. All the pieces
are starting to connect to where I really am starting
to have this really really deep understanding of what I'm
trying to fix here, all the corruption that's happening from
the divine masculine perspective, trying to heal it, trying to

(45:51):
fix it so that way we can step, we literally
can step into a new age of spirituality, a new
age of just existing. And so because I am in
so much fucking alignment, you know, things that are really
clear to me. I want to you know, like I
want to tell people. I just want to be like, hey, look,

(46:12):
so yeah.

Speaker 2 (46:13):
This is what's up. But what does that do that
just pushes people away? Because they're not ready.

Speaker 1 (46:19):
So when I tell you that, I know this to
be true because I see people every single fucking day
they're so desperately grasping on to those straws, like trying
to bring their twin flame to them. I got people
that show up to my event all the time, and
they know that it's a twin flame, and they know
that they're not ready. They haven't done the healing, Like like,

(46:39):
what are you trying to do? Are you doing the meditations?
Are you working on them an astro? Are you actually
sitting being mindful, going up trying to envision seeing them
an astro and asking them, Hey, look, are we supposed
to be doing this together in this life or not?
Hey look, can you like help guide me, give me
some fucking direction because I'm feeling really low.

Speaker 2 (47:01):
They're not doing the work. They're not doing the work.

Speaker 1 (47:03):
So it's like, but they keep pushing this message onto them.

Speaker 2 (47:09):
They don't want to hear your message.

Speaker 1 (47:11):
You didn't do the work to get there, your higher
self and their higher self.

Speaker 2 (47:15):
You're not in fucking alignment. You have to start there.

Speaker 1 (47:19):
You have to start working on someone's soul, on their spirit,
on their heart, on their mind, you have to start
doing that deeper work with people to get them into alignment,
so that way, when you speak your truth, that should
resonate and their higher self will snap into their fucking

(47:40):
body and start working in their subconscious mind. But if
you're not doing the work beforehand, you're just gonna fucking
be rejected and it's gonna go really, really bad, because
that's the way the matrix is set up, is set
up to where when you speak spiritual higher truth to someone,
when you speak path and alignment, but they're desperately trying

(48:00):
to keep them in the matrix, that shit will cause
an absolute hurricane shit storm around both of you, and
then you will be left feeling like, what the fuck?

Speaker 2 (48:12):
Am I just that fucking wrong?

Speaker 1 (48:14):
Am I just that fucking off about what it is
that I know to be true?

Speaker 2 (48:18):
No, you're not. It's the matrix fighting against you. Okay. Now, granted,
was the matrix supposed to fight against me in this life? Fuck?
Yes it was.

Speaker 1 (48:27):
And I'm not just talking about twin flames. I don't
want everybody to think, oh, well, this is just for
twin flames. I mean this for every single fucking relationship.
This is with your parents, This is with your siblings.
These are with your kids. This is with every fucking body.
If you are having a relationship where you want you
know that, oh, me and you were supposed to be
doing this. My sister's supposed to be coming over to

(48:49):
the side.

Speaker 2 (48:49):
She's supposed to be waking up.

Speaker 1 (48:51):
I know that my sister's supposed to be waking up
if you're not doing the work on her. In astral
guess what, You're always just gonna push them away, push
them away, pushed him away, and chances are you probably
already have. And now you're freaking out because now the
two of you that used to get along fucking can't
stand each other. So go start repairing that energy in astro,

(49:14):
do the meditations, Go actually say, Okay, was this separation
part of the journey because there were things that we
both needed to learn and it was just we weren't ready,
But we needed the catalyst in order to ask the
right growth questions, right because I know for a fact

(49:34):
that was my I would not be here. I would
not be here if my journey, if everything didn't happen
exactly the way it was. Okay, I needed to come
out of my little slut era for a while, sit
with my fucking feelings and be like.

Speaker 2 (49:51):
Why am I why? Why do I give?

Speaker 1 (49:54):
Why do I give any amounts of fucks about him?
Why do I give any fucks about him? There's nothing
beneficial like to me personally for any sort of relationship
or anything like that. It just seems like it would
be like the worst possible scenario of a fucking human
being that my soul would pick.

Speaker 2 (50:16):
You mean, somebody that's gone all the time, somebody.

Speaker 1 (50:18):
That would never actually like fall into alignment, somebody that
would never actually be able to provide any sort of
stability or future. You mean to tell me like that's
the person that, like I would have chosen. No, that
shit is like ridiculous. So I needed to sit. I
needed to come out of my little let's not heal
this shit with some random guy's dick type of energy.

(50:40):
I actually needed to sit and unpack and unload and
actually dive deep and.

Speaker 2 (50:44):
Be like, Okay, well what the fuck is this?

Speaker 1 (50:48):
Because I was disassociating from this bitch for years, just
perfectly fucking fine for years, complete disassociation.

Speaker 2 (50:56):
Okay, you come in back around this month.

Speaker 1 (50:59):
Okay, cool? And like, okay, now that that is over.
We're gonna just pretend like we don't know each other again. Okay, cool, Like,
no problem with that whatsoever.

Speaker 2 (51:09):
Right.

Speaker 1 (51:09):
But if I would have stayed in that energy, if
that's where I would have stayed, I would not be
of any assistance to any of you at all because
I would not have such I wouldn't have had this
profound journey. I wouldn't feel so whole, I wouldn't feel

(51:30):
so powerful. I wouldn't have found my power. First of all,
I wouldn't have found my power in astral I would
have never have gone through all of the trouble that
I've gone through to just like figure shit out, right,
because I literally have been every single day trying to
figure out, you know, what the fuck is actually going on,

(51:54):
and not just in not just in any my relationships,
like with my mother and you know, my ex husband,
because what the fuck is up with that? And you
know my kids, my daughter was incarnated to come and
fucking kill me, you know what the fuck.

Speaker 2 (52:09):
Is up with that? And you know my son is like.

Speaker 1 (52:15):
This amazingly soft human being, but I know that I've
had him as a like a child multiple times.

Speaker 2 (52:21):
What is that energy?

Speaker 1 (52:22):
You know?

Speaker 2 (52:22):
Why is he my.

Speaker 1 (52:23):
Firstborn son in multiple lives? Why is he come first?
You know? Why have they you know, why did I
have a miscarriage? Why did they take that baby from me?
And yet now I get to see on social media
this kid with somebody else, Like what's like, where is
the pain and suffering from that? Like, what's the significance
to that? So there's just been like so much that

(52:44):
I've just been like sitting with every single day.

Speaker 2 (52:46):
And being why why why? Why?

Speaker 1 (52:48):
Why? And when you quiet your mind and allow the
answers to come, guess what the answers do come. But
a lot of times we like to go and we
like to distract ourselves with fucked up relationship. We like
to drink, We like to medicate ourselves because we can't sleep,
and we have anxiety. You have anxiety because you're not
dealing with your spiritual health. You have anxiety because you

(53:11):
know that your dreams mean something deeper, or the visions
that you see or the shadows that you see in
your fucking mind are something that you need to deal
with spiritually and you're avoiding it. Or you know that
there are people that you are allowing in your life,
and every time they're around. You don't feel good and
you feel anxious, and you're trying to pretend like it's
not them, because Heaven forbid you have to start off
with new friends. You're not doing the spiritual maintenance that

(53:36):
you need to sit in the energy where you can
properly heal your shit. But that's part of the journey's
Step one is admitting, Okay, I'm not My spiritual hydiene
is kind of trash. I'm getting all these hits like

(53:58):
my body is warning me. My body is warning me.
My body is warning me that I'm not doing the
things that I need to be doing. That's what anxiety is.
There's things, there's danger, there's frequencies that are causing harm
in your energetic body, and you're neglecting it. So I

(54:22):
was really really fortunate that things worked out so.

Speaker 2 (54:25):
Fucking painfully beautifully for.

Speaker 1 (54:28):
Me where I actually allowed myself to go sit with
the energy. I showed up when Spirit told me to
go somewhere, I went.

Speaker 2 (54:37):
I drove.

Speaker 1 (54:39):
So many fucking like thirteen hours once because Spirit was
telling me, no, you need to go. Don't ask no questions.
You're gonna see why later. It's gonna trigger some shit
that needs to be triggered. You need to go and
guess what. The shit that are triggered wasn't pleasant, it
didn't feel good, but it needed to happen for me
to look for a deeper truth. Sometimes we're pushed and

(55:01):
we do things and we feel really aligned to it,
and then the shit feels like it blows up in
our face, but it's really not blowing up in our face.
It's really aligning us to exactly what we need to
be experiencing. And sometimes you know, we kick and scream
and we want to be like oh then that it never
fucking works out for me. I'm just trying to do

(55:22):
the right. No, you're just you're not there yet. Sis
a bro a bro man. I ain't said bra in
a while. That used to be our thing when we
were younger. What a bruh. That was our little high
school junior high thing, like be our a bra, not
like bruh, like now we say bruh. So you're not

(55:47):
there yet. That's why things still feel like they're falling apart.
That's why, like, sometimes you feel like you're going really
good and you have a really good fucking handle on
spirit shit and your spiritual shit, and you're like, oh, yeah,
look I'm in alignment. And then you go, oh, and
something fucked up happens. You go listen, you go to
the place, you go to the you know wherever it is.

(56:08):
You go hang out with your friends, and you run
into somebody and you get in a big old fucking
fight and be like, why the fuck did spirit tell
me to go to dinner? I knew I should have
went to that dinner. I knew I should have canceled
that shit. Now look now, look at the shit that started.
That's it, and deal with it. Deal with it because
there's a growth moment in that. There's a growth moment

(56:31):
in the unfortunate and ugly things. There's growth moments and
people treating you like shit. There's growth in those fucking moments.
And sometimes it hurts, and sometimes we cry. Sometimes we
cry for weeks. Sometimes you cry for months. Sometimes we
hear songs and then we cry for days on end,
and then at some point we snapped the fuck out

(56:52):
of it and be.

Speaker 2 (56:53):
Like, what the fuck is wrong with you?

Speaker 1 (56:56):
It's almost like you needed to touch that wound one
last fucking time and you need to be like, you
know what if they actually were sorry, if they actually cared,
if they actually meant any of this shit, they would
tell me.

Speaker 2 (57:08):
But they're not.

Speaker 1 (57:09):
So I'm gonna quit romanticizing my fucking life in this
fucking relationship, and I'm gonna go heal the shit that
I need to heal so the way I can stand
up in the fullest, strongest version of myself and I
could actually start conquering shit for fucking humanity or just
for my fucking self. If you feel like fighting for
humanity is too much for you, the least you can

(57:32):
fucking do is get your shit together.

Speaker 2 (57:35):
At a minimum. The least you could do is get
your shit together. If you don't feel strong enough, or
if you.

Speaker 1 (57:41):
Don't feel called to help humanity at a bare minimum,
at least deal with your own fucking shit. So maybe
your kids or the people around you, they could actually
come in and help humanity because they're not having to
unpack the trauma from mom or dad being a complete
fucking wreck. Right, So, I really have been noticing, this

(58:07):
is where all this started, this rambo, where I really
have been noticing just how fucking beautifully divine my fucking
life has been it like, And so that fresh fucking
perspective really just has me kind like so excited. I
haven't been this excited about my spiritual journey in quite

(58:29):
a while. And I know part of it is, you know,
meeting uh like Bridget. Of course, she's been my client
for a while turned bff uh the girls like she's
never going anywhere. I don't, like, I know she's listening
to this shit right now. But if she ever decides
that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, I'm
literally gonna fly and go find her and I'm gonna

(58:53):
like kick her ass and tell her the fuck the
fuck you're not being my friend. Okay, So have Bridget,
Like it's just been so monumental to like the last
few months of my life, like literally like like the
hugest key that I needed. And then you know, obviously
I've had Jada, who's very much still helping, but she's

(59:16):
very much, very pregnant, and I've been very much given
Jada quite you know, a break because she has a
lot of other stuff going on. And you know, we
are building a human family as well as working on
our astral family too, right, so there are you know,
things within our journeys that allows us to sometimes have
to totally focus on ourselves. And so in the meantime,

(59:40):
I've had Bridget who is really like stepped up when
I tell you, this girl will not go to sleep
and she will do whatever the fuck needs to be
done in astral and just be sleep deprived for work
the next day because she's that dedicated.

Speaker 2 (59:54):
Like I've I've.

Speaker 1 (59:58):
Like, she's the only other person that it's just completely
like me to a t. So I have her and
she also, you know, has nieces and nephews that spend
a lot of time at her house. But because she
doesn't have kids of her own, she's like me, we
kind of have this time. And I have kids, but
fuck them, I have the time in space. They're adults now,

(01:00:18):
That's why I'm saying that they're fourteen and seventeen, they're
totally self sufficient. I don't need to do shit. They literally,
Brody can drive to the store and pick up anything.
He fucking nets like. I am like tapped out that
the buying my son a car was the best investment
I have that money that I put towards this car
was the best investment.

Speaker 2 (01:00:34):
Of my life.

Speaker 1 (01:00:35):
Okay, because it just real I don't have to I'm like,
we'll go to Walmart. And Walmart is literally two minutes
from my house and he doesn't mind. So anytime I
need anything, I'm like, yo, you could go to Walmart.
And he's always fucking going. It's so great. So yeah,
I get to be a little more like, yeah, yeah, Doude,
do your you're doing your own thing kind of thing

(01:00:56):
with my kids.

Speaker 2 (01:00:57):
But fuck them kids.

Speaker 1 (01:00:59):
But anyways, so and then so me and Bridgette like
we align that way. And then I have Zeka, who
is one of the bad as bitches in astral that
I've ever come across. She's so beautifully powerful and that
she will stay here with me as long as I

(01:01:21):
need her too. And my granted, you know, she has
a job too. Baby girl needs sleep. I need to
sleep too, and she is equally as fucking committed. But
she also does, like have a child, so she has
a little like a schedule to work around, but she
is totally like ready to work around her schedule. These
two fucking human beings have got me feeling like, you

(01:01:43):
know how sometimes you just need a fucking cheerleader, And
I literally have found the two best cheerleaders who literally
see me in astrol, like so fucking clearly, and they
know exactly what I'm here to do, Like there is
no there's no doubt to them that like I'm the

(01:02:04):
one doing the things that I'm doing, that I am
fully on my fucking path, because I'll even ask, Like
the other day, I was like, Zayka, I'm like, look,
am I really like dumb for chasing after this fucking rabbit?
Because you know, I'm kind of getting tired of this
shit and I'm tired of like working working working on

(01:02:24):
astro in this little like the human version is just
not falling into alignment, And am I foolish for knowing
that this is supposed to be my life path? She's like, no,
because I would never fucking waste my time helping you
if I felt in any way that everything that you've

(01:02:45):
been doing so far and the way you feel and
the things that you're trying to do is in an alignment,
I would never waste my time fucking helping you. You
are completely doing the shit that you're supposed to fucking
be here doing.

Speaker 2 (01:02:56):
I see it very very clearly.

Speaker 1 (01:02:58):
You are completely on and on point on.

Speaker 2 (01:03:01):
Purpose, and.

Speaker 1 (01:03:04):
So that energy has really allowed me to step into
this place where I really feel like they've given me
the confidence that I need to be able to take
the next steps that I'm.

Speaker 2 (01:03:16):
About to take, and to also pull me.

Speaker 1 (01:03:19):
Zaeka has been pulling me into this really, really darker
feminine energy that has allowed me to see things from
a perspective that I needed to be in because and
I said this last night, and I because you know,
really the combination of me finally doing this podcast has

(01:03:41):
been the conversations that I've had over the last week
or so. But last night, I was really like sitting
in this this full fucking understanding of you know, divine
masculines versus divine feminines, and we have been kind of
being a little bit set up and betrayed by our
divine massins and astro a bit, and a lot of

(01:04:02):
that has been being revealed lately because I literally found
the staircase that is the journey of my soul and
I went down it into the well and I really
was able to shed, like purge all of the all
of the shit that you know, I gathered coming up
that stairway to where I am now, right, And so

(01:04:23):
when I got to the base of the the well,
you know, I saw what the journey of my soul
is supposed to to look like, like the epitome of
my soul, and what I was supposed to be, what
I was supposed to be doing there, And upon doing that,
I got just a shit ton of clarity. All sorts
of things clicked.

Speaker 2 (01:04:41):
After that.

Speaker 1 (01:04:44):
I had quite a great time in Astro over the
next couple of days, like reclaiming some some things that
belonged to me, like putting this crown back on my
head that had been taking off for a really long time,
and uh, really just standing in a much more confident
energy and uh, you know, like the if anybody's watched Twilight,

(01:05:09):
I love Twilight.

Speaker 2 (01:05:11):
I'm such a vampire.

Speaker 1 (01:05:12):
I love vampires, but I like it, like the vaulture
and you'll see like the little gift that'll be like
on your phone and you can send it to people
and they're just standing there and Errow is just looking
down upon everybody like you fucking peasants. I like got
that energy like back again. It's like I was in
it for a little while and then I felt like

(01:05:33):
I'd kind of like lost it, and then I I
was staying I've been standing in it again, and it
feels really really nice to stand in that and not
like towards humanity and not like towards other people who
are like trying hard and doing their best and whatever.
I mean it towards like evil, you know what I'm saying,
like you motherfucker should have never let me get here

(01:05:55):
type of thing, because now you're fucked, because now like
your entire life is going to fucking fall apart type shit.
And so I'm kind of standing in that energy really hard,
being like, Nope, this balance is going to fucking be restored.
Humanity is going to win that little end date that
you put on humanity where we are all wiped away again,

(01:06:17):
that date's not gonna fly with me.

Speaker 2 (01:06:20):
That's not happening. Uh. And So I have really really.

Speaker 1 (01:06:24):
Been standing in this, this deeper truth and this deeper
power lately. And it's all because I had this realization
that to the divine masculine, to them, strength is fighting arguing,

(01:06:46):
it's chaos, it's war, it's gas lighting.

Speaker 2 (01:06:51):
It's narcissism.

Speaker 1 (01:06:52):
It's hurting someone's feelings, it's feeling like they need to
physically and verbally be more powerful than someone else and say, hey, look,
this is what the fuck is up and it's very
very petty trash. I know they don't have like Stankkouchi
energy is what we've been calling. They got stank cuchie

(01:07:16):
beta ass energy. That's strength to them to where they
need to fight. They need to tell you about yourself.
They need to call you out, they need to like.

Speaker 2 (01:07:25):
That is what.

Speaker 1 (01:07:26):
Strength looks like to the divine masculine, and strength to
divine feminines is love. It's unconditional love. I love you
no matter what. Okay, cool, I'm here to support you.

Speaker 2 (01:07:38):
On your journey.

Speaker 1 (01:07:39):
Let you let me know if you need anything. It's communication.
It's actual, like respectful communication, not that dominant I'm gonna
tell you and this is my final word type shit. No,
it's like, okay, look, can we actually honestly discuss this
because we're clearly in two different places and you know,

(01:07:59):
I would like to resolve this before you know this
this interaction between us ends like that is divine feminine
energy showing up with love, wanting someone else to be heard,
wanting there to be mutual respect, trying to see someone
else's perspective and see someone else's point of view, and

(01:08:19):
just unconditional love unconditional love. Unconditional love. That is strength
to us. That is our strength. Weakness to divine feminine
is what strength looks like to the divine masculine, and
weakness to the divine masculine is what strength looks like
to us. That's the polarity that we have been dealing with. Now,

(01:08:44):
is that true polarity?

Speaker 2 (01:08:45):
No? No, no, no no.

Speaker 1 (01:08:47):
That's the unhealed energy that a lot of divine masculines
have been sitting in. And I don't mean all of you,
all of you. Some of you have balanced out your
energy really really well. You're doing a really great job.
And rah rah rah, I'm your biggest cheerleader. I'm not
applying this to all divine masculines, but I am applying
this to most divine masculines and astrol So we have

(01:09:08):
an opposite perspective on what winning and losing looks like. Okay,
so divine masculines will fucking tell you off, tell you
about yourself, cut you out of their life, be toxic
as fuck, and they think they won. Meanwhile, divine feminines
will be still showing up with love, still sending it

(01:09:32):
to you, even if they're misunderstood, even if they're misheard.
Even if they feel that it's not being returned back
to them, they still show up, same box, same love inside,
unconditional throughout all timelines, even if it doesn't apply to
this human body in this life.

Speaker 2 (01:09:49):
That is winning for the divine feminine. Okay, but we're
at war.

Speaker 1 (01:10:01):
This ain't a peaceful time in history for our existence.
There is no peace. There's no piece here on earth.
And you know why there's not peace on earth because
there's not peace in the cosmos, and that shit is
rippling down to us. You know, whatever, you have something

(01:10:23):
and you drop a so in envision, you have a
bowl of water, and you drop a drop of water
in the center of that bowl, directly in the center.
It's going to start from the beginning. It's gonna ripple out. Well,

(01:10:43):
guess what. It's gonna hit the sides, it's gonna hit
the edges of the fucking container. It's gonna ripple throughout
all of existence, and that ripple is going to start
making its way back in towards the center.

Speaker 2 (01:10:56):
We're in the center.

Speaker 1 (01:10:58):
So not only have as the mom been dropped here
to where a lot of the disharmony has happened on
the level of existence we exist on. So that energy
has rippled throughout the cosmos and it has come back
and it's getting stronger, and it's hitting that center point.
So when the energy of that wave ripples back to

(01:11:20):
the center, it is going to push that energy upward
to where you'll have like a big spike, like the
waves come together and they hit and you have this
big clash of energy. And so we're caught up in
that turbulent energy of being at the center point of
that bowl. Okay, where at the center point of the cosmos.
Where at the center point of existence? So whereas you know,

(01:11:43):
the outer bands of existence feel the negative energy like
it comes and it'll ripple and waves and it'll settle
down and then it'll come back whenever it's coming back
in like they're feeling like a little turbulence. But we're
in the center where it is the choppiest of all
of that energy. So it just feels so chaotic and
so hectic where we are. You know, we are trying

(01:12:05):
to minimize, to mitigate, to relieve that stress and that tension,
and quite frankly, the divine masculines they're just.

Speaker 2 (01:12:16):
They ain't having it. They don't like it. They're thriving
in this chaos energy.

Speaker 1 (01:12:20):
Let me tell you a little Well we'll do a
little a little story time. So back in the beginning
of time, when all things were first created. No, but seriously,
so if I go back to the furthest memory I
can find for our level of existence. So I'm talking
about everything that exists around us currently now, the very

(01:12:42):
beginning of that, our little bubble of existence. Now there
are multiple bubbles of existence. We're not the only one.
So existence is limited to our perception of the way
we exist. So if we're going back on the way
our consciousness that is connected to God, connected to the tree,
if we're going back to where that perception of the

(01:13:03):
beginning of time exists. Okay, so this is what's written within.
I mean, I guess you would say the cosmic tree
are within, you know, the silver cord of.

Speaker 2 (01:13:13):
Of our God.

Speaker 1 (01:13:14):
Okay, So if I'm pitdling around in there, which I
do all the time, if I'm piddling around in the
silver cord for creation itself, if I go backside, you know,
I was always a okay, well what's outside of this?

Speaker 2 (01:13:29):
What's outside of this? What's outside of this?

Speaker 1 (01:13:30):
And then the very beginning, I spent a lot of
my time in astroll saying, okay, well what's outside of
our little universe?

Speaker 2 (01:13:36):
Okay, well what's outside of all those universes?

Speaker 1 (01:13:38):
Well? How this is break down? How did the densities
interact with each other? How did dimensions work? Where do
you go to the center of all the different dimensions?
Who sits at the center of all dimensions?

Speaker 2 (01:13:50):
You know? What beings? How many gods are there? What
are these gods over?

Speaker 1 (01:13:54):
I like, I spent so much time trying to figure
out existence a couple of years ago, when I first
started being led down this rabbit hole. Right, my abilities
are clicking on. I'm realizing that I can see shit.
People are telling me that know, the stuff you're seeing
is real, at least from their part of the simulation
of the matrix. Right, So who me and these people

(01:14:16):
were all in the same fucking simulation? Right? And I
will tell you that if you ever meet like certain
people in there, your soulmates, and they come into your existence,
they circle around you, they are in fact a part
of your same simulation. They might not want to be
in the same simulation as you. They might reject the
simulation that they're in because they don't like it. They

(01:14:38):
don't want to have to do the spiritual google shit
in this life. They don't want to have to interact
with that kind of stuff. But if it's somebody who
has had a significant impact on your life in this
in this lifetime, they are in fact a part of
your simulation. But remember how we talked about how we
try to vibe out of other people's simulations, right, So
you get to alter your simulation by your frequency vibrating

(01:15:02):
higher than other people around you, and you will find
that they will disappear. Now, some people will also feel
triggered by your high vibration and they will try to
vibe out of your simulation by vibing lower.

Speaker 2 (01:15:13):
So the actual.

Speaker 1 (01:15:14):
Interaction with you will cause them to be a lower
vibrational person than they normally like to be, simply so
they can cast you out of their simulation because they
don't like the changes and the introspection that having you
in their simulation is causing.

Speaker 2 (01:15:28):
So that's very ties.

Speaker 1 (01:15:30):
In very closely to what I was literally just talking
about with communicating certain spiritual things to people before they
are in alignment. So a lot of times, like they
will completely reject it. It's because they're rejecting the simulation
that you're trying to pull them into, and they see
the frequency and they're just not ready.

Speaker 2 (01:15:50):
But I could talk about that on.

Speaker 1 (01:15:52):
Like just a whole podcast, and I probably will, and
then that'll probably be on the next podcast, because I mean,
that's a pretty open ended topic. I mean, as theyca
could very easily talk about forever. Right now, our goal
is to do short podcasts that are only thirty minutes.

Speaker 2 (01:16:06):
But we'll see, who knows, who knows how much we'll ramble.

Speaker 1 (01:16:09):
We might do like part one, Part two, part three,
I don't know. We're just kind of throwing it up
in the air. We've actually like been talking about names
for the podcast and all that kind of stuff too,
so I don't know. We'll we'll start recording probably at
the end of this week because by Halloween, I really
want to have all of this shit nice and up
and going. So that's my that's my that's my My

(01:16:31):
due date is ten thirty one, because we just love
Halloween and I just feel like it's a perfect day
to launch a witchy, magical, spiritual, high vibrational, high priestess
style podcast.

Speaker 2 (01:16:48):
So but anyways, so enough of that.

Speaker 1 (01:16:52):
Ramble got to ramble a few more times before you know,
we shut this down and move it over, right, I
mean that is literally you know, Christy Rambles should be
Christy and Zaka Ramble might be the most appropriate name
for the next podcast, but this one definitely should have
been called Christy Rambles about spiritual shit. So anyway, so

(01:17:13):
we're going back to the very beginning of time. So
in the very beginning, I spent a whole lot of
time doing meditations, trying to physically go see how the
fuck this existence is made up. I wanted to see
the levels. I want to see how it interact. And
the more I did that, the more I meditated, the
more I went, the more I you know, did mushroom

(01:17:35):
trips from time to time or did DMT from time
to time, to where I'm really uncovering lots of different facets.
And you know, with me, I the good the crazy
thing about me is that I know that DMT will
also kind of provide you part of what your mind
is programmed to see within the matrix as well. So
just because you do DMT, don't mean you're fully breaking

(01:17:57):
out of the matrix. You're gonna have moments where you
do see outside of the matrix. But a lot of
your experience while you're on DMT and even while you're
on mushrooms is to enhance your simulation. You're able to
see your simulation a little bit clearer, right, And for me,
that's what I'm looking for. I want to look for
the simulation. I want to look to see what the
programming actually says. So in a lot of instances it

(01:18:18):
is really great. But with me, I always have the
intention of well, the ability to see beyond just what
I'm supposed to see within the matrix. If I see something,
I'd be like, oh, yeah, that's not supposed to be
like that, that's a broken code in the matrix, whereas
other people might not never see it that way. My
inner knowing is, you know, obviously ridiculous. That's why we're here.

(01:18:40):
And so I can see through a lot of that
stuff pretty clearly. So for me to do it, it
really does expand my mind to a what the simulation
looks like and be what it's supposed to look like,
or where the flaws and the codes actually are. Right.
So you know, in the beginning, I spent a whole
lot of time I'm trying to figure that out, and

(01:19:01):
then at some point I was just kind of like, ah,
that's enough understanding. I'm not really here to figure out
that per se. It'll come in piece by piece as
I need it. But I'm looking to I'm looking to
figure out what's the timeline, how did we get here?
What happened to this person's soul, what happened to their spirit?
What happened to this They're supposed to hold down the

(01:19:21):
frequency of all darkness? What are they doing now? Who's
supposed to be holding light? Is that the person holding light?
So there's just so many facets of our existence that
is happening that I'm monitoring and looking for and puzzle
pieces that I'm trying to put together all the time.

Speaker 2 (01:19:35):
That's so vast, and so.

Speaker 1 (01:19:40):
It's kind of hard to explain the number of things
that I know are happening, that are working all at
once for us to be here, and the levels and
the layers and the way the onion all folds up,
And there's so much happening in my mind that I
have to keep clear at all times that it would
overwhelm any other Most other people would be overwhelmed with

(01:20:04):
the amount of just sheer information that I have on
how we're here and how the matrix works.

Speaker 2 (01:20:10):
Right, So, and I love that for me, I really do.

Speaker 1 (01:20:18):
Uh. It's like, in the beginning it felt like a
super big burden and I was pushing people away, and
now these people think I'm fucking crazy and they're not
in my life anymore, and all of this stuff, and like,
why do I even want them in? Like it was
just a lot in the beginning to even process what
was actually happening. And now that I'm here, I'm like, dang,
I would never go back to that version of me.
I would never ever, on anything, trade anything that I

(01:20:42):
have to go back to who I was before all
of this unfolded. I absolutely adore having this much understanding,
this much knowledge for me to see so far beyond
what my human eyes can see that it's scary sometimes
and I would never trade that for anything in this world.

(01:21:02):
But because I have this abnormal human ability, it's not
a it's a human ability. I think most people would
have that ability. Although I do know that I am
like superhuman and not just you know, regular regular regular.
When it comes to what I can see, is I
went to, look, what is the moment, the very first moment, glimpse,

(01:21:25):
what's the first thing that is recorded on this silver cord?
Was like the first memory. No, obviously, I know that
outside of our cord existing, that energy had to come
from somewhere outside of that I have gone look at
that A little bit is a little bit fuzzy to
me because I haven't found the origin or the silver
cord where that information is necessarily being stored. I'm just

(01:21:46):
viewing events and I don't know necessarily where they fall
and where we come into place in the grand scale
of time, and then how much.

Speaker 2 (01:21:56):
Existed before that. I like had to give that up.

Speaker 1 (01:21:58):
At some point because at some point, you know, like
me doing what I'm doing here, I don't need to
keep going back at some point, at some point there
is a starting point where this is as far as
you need to understand to be able to do the
work that you're doing now. So I do fully believe that,
you know, at some point I'm probably going to pick
that back up and go back to look at that again.
But at the time, it was really just kind of

(01:22:20):
a little overwhelming to see how many cosmic trees there
actually are. There millions of fucking cosmic trees. We're we're
not the only one with that God energy that sits
at the center of our cosmic tree. But at the
same time, they are all reflections of one tree. So
it gets kind of crazy whenever you look at it
from that perspective. And then you're trying to figure out, Okay, well,

(01:22:40):
if we're all reflections of the same tree, but we're
existing in different frequencies and planes and different realities completely
all together, and our consciousness is here, but it's not there,
but it's still a reflection of us. But we're not there,
So where are we if we're not being reflected? And
why aren't we being reflected?

Speaker 2 (01:22:57):
And it's just.

Speaker 1 (01:23:00):
There's just my mind has so many questions all the time,
Like at some point you have to like put that
shit down, right, because it's not productive for me to
run my brain and circles all the time. I need
to be a little more productive and just know that
whenever I'm supposed to have that fully figured out, I will,
And it's just not today. But I did want to
see how existence originally started, and it is completely in

(01:23:22):
chaos energy.

Speaker 2 (01:23:23):
So the Big Bang theory is not all that off.

Speaker 1 (01:23:31):
Kind of except we are taking out we're only applying
that to the visible spectrum of existence, right, because I've
said before there is a visible spectrum, which is sound
like all the things that we experience are the visible things,
and there is also a non visible spectrum of things
existing as well, so things that we can't perceive, and

(01:23:54):
you know, most extraterrestrials, most beings can't perceive that either,
but those fources, this is definitely play out on a
lot of the stuff that we have going on. And
if you can figure out which visible spectrum particles are
energy you know, works to create X, Y, and Z,

(01:24:14):
then do you necessarily need to know how the non
visible part is working behind the scenes to actually make
that visible spectrum work properly.

Speaker 2 (01:24:24):
And the answer, I mean, honestly, at some point is no.

Speaker 1 (01:24:26):
But if you want to learn how to manipulate existence fully,
you would need to know how both sides work.

Speaker 2 (01:24:31):
So and I know seeing the non.

Speaker 1 (01:24:33):
Visible spectrum is not something I try to teach people
how to go see it whenever they're ready. I mean,
you have to be ready. You have to be fully
immersed in the visible spectrum of things to even be
able to try to go look at the non visible
spectrum of existence, because it's a completely different experience. It
is nothing like any meditation that you could possibly do

(01:24:54):
to go see any of the visible spectrum things. Dmt
don't cut it, mushrooms don't cut it. It doesn't get
you there because you're still using your visual senses, which
is still giving you sound waves, light waves, which is
all a part of the visible spectrum. So for you
to be able to tap into the non visible spectrums,
you have to completely surrender absolutely all light. And it's
a very uncomfortable feeling for people to run through that

(01:25:19):
exercise to get there, to get their minds in the
frequency of going into the non visible you know, densities,
the non visible spectrum of things. So it's not something
that is like that you should just go do if
you don't know what you're doing or what you're looking at,
because you can find yourself in a whole lot of

(01:25:40):
trouble real fast by not fully understanding the rules and
the laws of.

Speaker 2 (01:25:45):
The non visible densities.

Speaker 1 (01:25:47):
And they're absolutely different than the visible spectrum of things, right,
And this has nothing to do with non visible being
di by masculine because it's not that this is a
completely different spectrum that has absolutely nothing to do with
the way that we are currently existing. This is a
system that is like running in the background that we
don't even.

Speaker 2 (01:26:06):
Know is there.

Speaker 1 (01:26:07):
The being that know it's there are being set are
further ahead of us in time and space. You know,
we call them the elahem or like the seraphim. They
know how to manipulate the non visible densities. They know
how to write that code into the matrix. They know
how that code follows, and how to alter and bend
light and sound to alter the non visible spectrums.

Speaker 2 (01:26:31):
And that's why they're so powerful.

Speaker 1 (01:26:32):
That's why they seem to be like God to us,
because they literally can alter things that we don't know exist.
And so I mean in its own right, I mean,
I guess that is some godly ass energy right to
be able to go manipulate non visible, non visible densities. So,

(01:26:52):
but with that, so it is the very beginning of
the atom.

Speaker 2 (01:26:57):
Right.

Speaker 1 (01:26:57):
So basically, when I am standing in the energy, I'm
watching this event take place, and I am standing in
the center.

Speaker 2 (01:27:04):
Of this chaotic energy that is just.

Speaker 1 (01:27:07):
Swirling around and around and around and around, and so
it's kind of like a storm of balls of energy,
So it would kind of look like, you know, a
proton or a neutron or something like that, but not
quite as defined as far as like being come like
held to a like a sphere or you know, having

(01:27:31):
like walls. There are no walls, but the energy is
just kind of gathered, but in a variety of sizes
because there isn't any like it's chaos, there isn't.

Speaker 2 (01:27:42):
Some are bigger, some are smaller. They're just moving.

Speaker 1 (01:27:45):
It kind of looks like little balls of lightning, and
the visible densities. In the non visible densities, it just
looks like most things in the non visible densities are
different shades of like black.

Speaker 2 (01:27:59):
So it just looks like kind of like swirling.

Speaker 1 (01:28:02):
And so if you could see, like like the really
detailed pictures of Jupiter that they post all over, you
could see how like you look at the clouds and
they have like that swirl energy to it. It's like that,
but everything is like darkness, like complete fucking darkness, but
everything's like kind of moving and grooving in what would
look like the way we would visually see Jupiter, except

(01:28:23):
we're not seeing it that way. It's all in darkness,
and it's just movement, it's just potential energy that exists there, right,
I'm saying right as if everybody's like, oh yeah, Christy, yeah,
I saw that the other day. So I don't know,
I just said right because I was like, yeah, huh,
exactly like that. That's exactly how I fucking see the

(01:28:43):
non visible densities that I can't fucking see and I
don't know where they're so anyways, I'm just saying right
as I feel like you're following along, right, right, So
so that's how it looks on the non visible side.
And essentially what's happening is this energy is swirling and
by it moving and swirling, it is naturally creating kind

(01:29:05):
of like a vore tex energy. So it's moving around
very very similar to the way a hurricane would move
or tornado would move to where it's moving very very
clockwise energy motions, moving clockwise energy motion. So what's happening
is there is a void in the center. Okay, it's

(01:29:28):
really easy to see the void on either a spectrum
because there's a calmness and a stillness and when you
stand there, everything is just perfectly perfectly still and you're
witnessing as if you're looking through the like you're standing
in the center of a tornado, and you can see
the wall where all of the energy is moving, but
everything is calm. There's like no disturbance whatsoever where you are,

(01:29:52):
and it's essentially like this huge hurricane moving around you. Well,
what happens is, if you stand there long enough, you
will see that slowly, over a very very long period
of time, that energy slowly started being The more chaotic
it got, the closer it got, the more infringed upon
that calm energy at the very center. So it started

(01:30:14):
moving closer and closer and closer to the center, still
moving in a very circular motion. We're not straying from
that circular motion. Everything is moving like cattle moving. Okay,
it's still very much moving like clockwork. Nothing is bumping
into each other. Everything is just either colliding, absorbing each other,

(01:30:35):
breaking apart, whatever. But it's moving. All is chaos, but
it's harmonious chaos. And so at some point, if you
stand there long enough, you will see that at some
point that circle gets so tight that calm energy starts
to be dispersed, and it starts creating pockets amongst the chaos,
and what happens is that chaos energy collapses and he

(01:30:58):
starts to hit each other to where it creates this
huge energetic force that ripples throughout the rest of the
chaotic energy, and it fuses that those pockets of calm
with chaos, and then a bunch of other individual hurricanes
are formed. So now we have the chaos energy that

(01:31:18):
is around this pocket of calm that had already been
dispersed in this one and this one and this one
and lots of different energies and galaxies what we would
consider to be galaxies without planets, without stars, without anything.
We're still talking about pre energy here. They start to
be formed, okay, pre galaxies. But what starts to happen

(01:31:41):
is this cycle keeps repeating itself over like quadillions of years,
like such a long period of time. And what happens
is in that collision is when atoms start to form.
So that is the very beginning of that calm energy
creating pockets amongst the chaos. And now we're creating electrons

(01:32:04):
and protons and a neutral force in the middle that
holds it together. We are at the very very beginning
of that. So it's really cool to be able to
literally watch like the very beginning of what an atom
would possibly look like, and be able to go back
into our silver cord and actually be able to watch
the first atom actually be created.

Speaker 2 (01:32:25):
And so.

Speaker 1 (01:32:28):
It's a really neat experience to start there, but then
also knowing that that is not the beginning of existence,
because how did the chaos energy get there? And where
did that calm energy come from?

Speaker 2 (01:32:38):
Right?

Speaker 1 (01:32:39):
And so, and what are the non visible forces? Where
did all that come from? Because that energy starts in
acting on the outside of what we visually see, and
it starts to separate and keeps that calm in a pocket,
and it keeps the chaos in a pocket. So what
is that force that is an acting upon the visible
things that we can see? Where did that come from
before it was played there to have everything start to

(01:33:02):
separate and become divided and for it to really start
creating a variety and structured existence. Right, So, so I
know that from that moment that is the beginning of
what I can see as far as within our cosmic

(01:33:24):
origins start, that is, And I didn't see that at first,
don't think, Like when I first started seeing past lives,
that was like the thing that I saw first. No,
I saw that I was fucking Joan of Arc. That
was the first thing I saw. It took me quite
a while to get to building up enough understanding to
know where to go, where to look? What am I
even looking at? Like? That? Took years for me to

(01:33:47):
be able to go see, probably at least a good
year before I was ready to start really seeing existence
from that perspective. And then you know, finding you know,
where me and my twin originate from? Where's the energy
coming from? What am what the fuck am I supposed
to be doing with this like trashy ass energy? You know,
I'm just you know, I've been back to like the

(01:34:09):
beginnings of time to find our origins throughout energy to
figure out, Okay, is this really?

Speaker 2 (01:34:17):
Is this really what I'm supposed to be doing? Is
this really? We sure? Are we sure?

Speaker 1 (01:34:21):
So?

Speaker 2 (01:34:21):
I ask so.

Speaker 1 (01:34:23):
Many people to verify that my twin flame is my
twin and it's not really a twin flame energy because
our energy like predates twin flames existing. It's more like
divine counterpart type of energy. But I've asked, like so
many people because I want somebody to tell me.

Speaker 2 (01:34:38):
No, I've like begged people.

Speaker 1 (01:34:40):
I'm like, no, no, no, Like I'm serious, Like go
stand in his energy field and go see from his perspective,
or like, come stand in my energy field. Don't tell
me from the matrix perspective. Over there, I broke outside
the matrix. I'm going stand at the cosmic tree right now,
and I want you to confine me. And I want
you to stand in my fucking energy field and I
want you to look at it, and I want you
to tell me that it's not true. And I have

(01:35:02):
yet to find a single fucking human being that I
trust that isn't working directly with demons every day to
actually like, there hasn't been a single person tell me
that it's not him. So so then I've spent a
lot of time just trying to figure out, Okay, well,
where are the origins and why does this matter? Why
did I literally come here at this time right now,

(01:35:26):
because I'm not from this time, and neither is this
version of him that's here. We're not from this point
in time, and so I really had to try to
figure out what, well, what the fuck are we doing here?
Why am I here? And why did he follow me?
And what's with all this resistance. What's with all like
this negativity, what's with all this like this hate?

Speaker 2 (01:35:45):
Like where is this.

Speaker 1 (01:35:46):
Actually coming from? And am I just everything that is?

Speaker 2 (01:35:50):
You know?

Speaker 1 (01:35:51):
Said that, like, am I really just crazy? And am
I really like losing my mind? And I'm sure that
to some.

Speaker 2 (01:35:57):
Degree maybe that is true, But I I'd rather be
this form of crazy.

Speaker 1 (01:36:01):
Than just being a part of, you know, this little
clone army where everybody wakes up, does the same thing,
wants the same thing, looks for the same thing, doesn't
give two fucks about the way their actions affect anybody
else who doesn't care about anything above themselves. I don't
want to be that form of saying. If that's what
beingsane is is being a horrible fucking human being, you

(01:36:23):
could just like keep me out of that shit, because
I am not interested in signing up for that shit
at all. I'd rather be this form of crazy and
so so anyways, I use that as my beginning point
for our level of existence, literally the creation of Adams.
You know, I can see that very very clearly. At first,

(01:36:44):
when I first went had that experience, I didn't know
what the fuck I was seeing. It took me a
while to understand like, oh, that's Adam, and this is
why people say, oh, the story of like Adam and
Eve in the Bible is not actually talking about the
human form of Adam and Eve fil being here. No,
the Bible is actually talking about the human form of

(01:37:04):
Adam and Eve being here, which is just you know,
the same thing happens with fashion, everything cycles back, right,
So the same thing is happening in the universe where
the patterns repeat themselves every so many years. So we
are stuck in this ripple pattern to where Adam came
and electrons came and all that shit was formed and
that lasted for X amount of time, and then the

(01:37:25):
next version came where we actually started creating true consciousness
and that was the next pattern that it started. And
guests who started it Adam and Eve. And you know
guess who started the next cycle. Whenever we went to
God's that same energy, that same Adam and Eve, that Gaya.

Speaker 2 (01:37:42):
And Urinus energy.

Speaker 1 (01:37:44):
According to mythology, that shit repeated itself. And then so
we went along in that energy and when it was time,
guess what, shit repeated itself yet again. So here where
we are now is we are trying to help facilitate
that Adam and Eve energy coming together yet again, so
that way it can build whatever the start of the
next thing is. That's where we fucking are, Okay. So

(01:38:08):
that's why we're here trying so desperately to balance the
masculine and the feminine energy, because the only way that
things can move along and progress for existence is for
us to find balance. Well, guess what has to find
balance the most chaotic spot that exists within our universe.
When we can calm down where we physically are right now,
the ripples throughout the universe fucking stop. And when the

(01:38:29):
ripples stop, the seed can be planted and the next
thing can be birthed, and we would literally start the
next form, the next phase of our existence. And so
that's where we are. That's what all this fighting is about.
That's what all of this energy is about. Because there's
certain beings that don't want to start the next version

(01:38:52):
of existence. You know why, because they've unplugged themselves from
the cosmic tree, and instead of asking to come back,
asking for help, their egos won't apologize.

Speaker 2 (01:39:02):
Their egos won't say hey, look I fucked up.

Speaker 1 (01:39:06):
I disconnected from that divine feminine energy and I need it.
And I know that you're the person that's going to
show me that unconditional love, and I know that you're
the person that's gonna help me heal whatever the fuck
I'm being triggered by by being in your presence, by
being in your energy, something is triggering me. And instead
of me, you know, being sorry, you know, making amends,
the divine masculine is like trying to destroy with the

(01:39:28):
divine femininess building because they're jealous that the divine feminine
would have something that they don't have, which is the seed.
But we can't plant the seed without the darkness, without
the dirt, without the roots that the divine masculine offer.
So the seed is just sitting here waiting to fucking
be planted. And we need the divine masculine on this

(01:39:52):
planet to merge with the divine feminine and to become
one and not be so hateful, to not be so negative,
to just be to stand in their powerful divine masculine
energy from a hued perspective, and to provide the darkness,
to provide the dirt for the fucking seed to grow in.
And that's the mission right now, that's the mission on

(01:40:13):
the planet in a nutshell, there is absolutely I mean,
there are other smaller little projects that we're working on,
but essentially that is the core mission. And I finally
saw it crystal clear because I'm like, well, why am
I like?

Speaker 2 (01:40:25):
Why?

Speaker 1 (01:40:25):
Why are we doing this? Why do we care about
the divine masculine? Why can't we just say fuck all
of them? Why can't I just damn these motherfuckers to hell?
Because I can. I can drop anybody in Hell. I
have my very own little hell that I've created. Hell
is just a vortex. By the way, Hell is literally
a pocket of energy that is opened. And just because
you're in Hell and somebody else might be in Hell,

(01:40:46):
you might be in two different hells by two different
entities that have created their own hell, and your soul
belongs to them. So you're in this hell and the
other person might be in somebody else's hell.

Speaker 2 (01:40:55):
You don't have to The hell is not one place.
It's just a density that exists here.

Speaker 1 (01:41:00):
It's just like you know, America's a country and Canada
as a country and all of this shit. You know,
guess what, Hell's the same way. There's different territories, different
people own different parts of Hell. There's different there's different
rooms you can go into and how and different beings
have different ones. Well, guess who figured out how to
open up her own me? Your girl did so. I

(01:41:21):
have quite a few motherfuckers sitting in my little hell
pit right now as we speak, so as like an
actual legitimate holding cell for people so they can like
transform their energy, fine, redemption, redeem, do all the higher
vibrational stuff like the way it's actually supposed to work,
not this little like free for all sexy ass orgy

(01:41:43):
party that's going on down there in other people's health.
That's just creating more skewed, divine, masculine, unbalanced, unhealed energy,
like the actual like place of darkness where you're supposed
to go, so that way you can go into your
so figure out what it is that you did wrong,
which is supposed to be doing right. I created my

(01:42:04):
own and I have quite a few people down there
right now actually, and it's not like the scary hell
like everybody else. It literally is just running. You're just
running through all the things that you need to for
your soul to advance and get to the next place.
And there may be people listening to the shit who

(01:42:25):
are sitting in there. You're like in a little padded room.
And so it's like, I don't really like calling it
hell because that's not what it is. It's literally like
a dark down of the soul box. I guess if
it was, if it's time for you to evolve, because
if not, when the seed is planted, you won't be
a part of the next level of existence and your

(01:42:45):
soul will cease to exist.

Speaker 2 (01:42:47):
And that's literally how this works.

Speaker 1 (01:42:48):
If you're not plugged in, then whenever we migrate up
and go to the higher level, you get left behind.
That's the split on Earth that they're talking about. It's
not this ship where it's physically on Earth and all
this stuff, you literally won't move to the next level
of existence just period. It's far more It's way more
serious than what like the.

Speaker 2 (01:43:11):
Light worker community talks about, which.

Speaker 1 (01:43:13):
Is why I really want to move this podcast to
a different platform so that way, like we legitimately could
talk about all that stuff, and then I can go
like really on on some real shit and talk about more,
you know, about the different levels of creation and all
the things that happen in each one and everything I see,
like I will be able to openly talk about that

(01:43:34):
stuff more instead of it being I don't know, I
don't feel right, I get an it talking about that
shit right now, just out on this public platform. I
just I know in my heart that it's not what
I'm supposed to be doing, and I have to I
have to follow that obviously. So which is why you
know we're gonna switch. We're gonna do something that's a
lot more lighthearted, a lot more like a sexier type podcast,

(01:43:57):
I guess, because it's gonna be like funny, but it's
just gonna be like the sexier side of being like spiritual,
like sitting in that embodiment of your divine power, whether
your feminine or masculiness has nothing to do with either or,
but it's really going to be standing in your power,
making sure you're balanced in light and dark, and just

(01:44:20):
really like feeling confident enough to ride the wave that's
about to come. And that's what that podcast is going
to be about, just finding your confidence within your practice,
your beliefs, your abilities, all of that. And it's going
to be very inclusive. It's not going to just be
what my practices are. It's going to be inclusive to
more people's practices so more people might resonate with the
things that are being said in that one because we're

(01:44:41):
going to explore more things. And then I'm still going
to keep doing my thing with more higher level reaching
enlightenment in my personal podcast, and that'll be more on
a spiritual coaching platform, which I mean I already do now,
like I have clients all week, you know, I'm still
doing all the things, but we're gonna do a lot
more group calls, a lot more group meditation stuff that

(01:45:04):
I'm going to be doing one on one work for
the people that actually want to do the work, and
we'll have like lives and all like all sorts of
stuff on my platform. It's gonna be really great, and
it's also going to be energetically beneficial for me. Like
I'm putting my energy out and I feel like I'm
getting something back from it. Therefore, I'm gonna be more
motivated to keep doing it, because right now it's hard
to find motivation when I'm actually spending more money doing

(01:45:27):
this podcast that I'm actually getting back. Even if I
record multiple podcasts a week, I'm still like barely breaking even,
and I just like, in my mind, I can't justify
the expense anymore in the effort and the energy whenever
it's not energetically beneficial for me to keep doing it.
So switching shit up so that way I'm sitting in

(01:45:50):
a healthier space and my content gets to be better
because my cup is being filled and I don't feel
like I'm depleting myself to or into other people, and
I feel like, you know, I'm not having that energy
returned back to me. So just rewriting the way that
things are going. And I know it's time. I know

(01:46:10):
that everything I've done up to this point was supposed
to be done exactly and I mean exactly, down to
every text message that I have received, down to every
emotion that I felt, down to every connection, every person
that I've met that's betrayed me, that's turned on me,
that has like hated me, loved me. All the things
have been so fucking intentional and so on point that

(01:46:33):
it's gotten me to exactly this place right now. And
I'm not gonna lie. I'm powerful as fuck boy in
astral right now, and I have just this beautiful group
of women, and I have my girl Nora as well.

Speaker 2 (01:46:51):
I can't leave out Nora.

Speaker 1 (01:46:54):
She is she's very tied to us in Valhalla, and
she has been doing beautifulful, beautiful message channeling for me
as well. You know, those are the kind of people
like I really hope that because I know that they
see things from like a bigger perspective, right, and they
can really see souls and no like soulmates and twin

(01:47:15):
flames and all that kind of stuff, And I like
literally will ask them questions and I'm just waiting for
somebody to like burst my fucking bubble because it'd be
such a fucking relief for me. Like, you have no
idea how much it would be a relief for somebody
to actually be like, oh, no, you got that wrong.

Speaker 2 (01:47:30):
They put you know, they maybe put.

Speaker 1 (01:47:32):
His soul in his body for a while and then
they pulled it out and now you don't have to
worry about that anymore.

Speaker 2 (01:47:37):
Ugh, I don't know.

Speaker 1 (01:47:39):
I probably would go like on a like week long
just fucking bender, like celebrating and be.

Speaker 2 (01:47:44):
Like, Okay, yay, finally I can like.

Speaker 1 (01:47:48):
Work on something else or someone else who is like
gives fucks about me. But no, never happens, unfortunately, But
my girl Nora is there, but we are I have
had quite a few people who have reached out to
me my girl Abigail as well. Super excited about my
girl Abigail because she's definitely in like the order of Orchids.

(01:48:11):
She's like in my little inner circle. She does all
the fucking work, dude, and you're gonna be hearing about
all of these people, like just on my on my
website because she's getting ky certified. And she has a
friend who's a yoga teacher and they're out in the
Los Angeles area, and she has been a client with
me from like day one. This girl has completely bought

(01:48:32):
into all the bullshit that I've told her, and.

Speaker 2 (01:48:35):
She is.

Speaker 1 (01:48:38):
I love her to death, like I absolutely love her.
Her energy is so infectious and she's just she's so great.
She's just so great, and so she's definitely going to
be in the order. But she's about to open up
a little business around the Los Angeles area and I
We've were talking about it, and I'm like, Okay, you

(01:48:58):
know what, let's fucking do this. I'll totally help you
to do this, because I feel like I was been
thinking that I was going to be in Los Angeles
for a brief moment. Anyways, not, obviously, for the reasons
that I'm about to be. In the beginning, I thought
that it was something different, but turns out it wasn't.

(01:49:19):
It was just like the energy I had to be
in at the time to align me to everything that
had to happen. But I'm like, okay, yeah, no, I'll
come work out of your shop for one week a
month whenever you guys get ready, and I'll start building
clientele over there. And then I have a couple more
possibilities of a couple other cities that I will probably

(01:49:39):
pop into maybe every other month and do like week
long or two weeks stints in other places as well,
because I'm about to not just sit my energy here.
I'm about to start doing stuff in other cities and
really starting to build up like places where people can
come see me and meet with me personally. And that's

(01:50:02):
kind of where the energy of this is going. So
I will be like I'm kind of been, you know,
going back and forth with a few different shops and places,
and gonna try to make something happen, possibly in Sodona
as well, so that way I'll be doing retreats. I'm
also going to be doing some retreats in Belize. That
is for sure going to be happening. And we're still

(01:50:25):
doing the Thailand thing. We've actually been like actively planning it,
and we we are like have all the prices in
the hotels and we're pulling all that together, working with
a travel agent getting all that together. So that will
be in the spring next year. But yeah, I have
made some acquaintances with people who are going to be
doing quite a few retreats and Belize, and I will

(01:50:47):
be one of their practitioners that will be jumping on
a lot of their spiritual retreats in Belize. So I
am very very excited to start doing that kind of
work as well. We will actually be booking all of
those retreats through the shop here, well not through the

(01:51:08):
Awakening side of the shop, but through our Energy services shop.

Speaker 2 (01:51:12):
We will be starting to do lots of retreat work.

Speaker 1 (01:51:16):
But I'm also trying to find the right fit for
me in Sidona to become a practitioner at retreats in Sedona,
because I really just am kind of at that stage
where my abilities are really starting to be refined enough
to where I feel confident working with practically anybody because

(01:51:39):
I'm literally I'm just becoming that good at what it
is that I do that. Yeah, things are definitely starting
to align to where this little thing that started in
this little low vibrational place in Louisiana is about to
become international, like really quick. That's my twenty twenty five

(01:52:00):
is going to be where I will be away from
home more than I probably am home. And I'm pretty
excited about it actually, so which is why this platform
needs to evolve and move forward, and I really need
to start the coaching thing, start that platform so that
way I'm hosting group calls.

Speaker 2 (01:52:18):
I have all of that stuff streamlined, and so all
of my.

Speaker 1 (01:52:23):
Little Order of Orchid people we're going to start to
do lots of work. I've had a few people reach
out to me. I know my girl Katie is going
to be in my order, like I said Nora, I
have some of my girls in Australia that are going
to be in my order as well. So I just
have quite a few people, and I know that there
are other people who haven't necessarily reached out to me

(01:52:44):
about being in the order, but I because they probably
don't feel as if they're ready. But I probably will
be contacting those people. Upon you know that getting up
and started because I'm just so excited for the next chapter,
Like I haven't been this excited about my life and

(01:53:05):
it's been almost two and a half years now. I
think since like literally all of the like when was
kind of taken from my sales and I couldn't figure
out like what was even happening or processing how the
fuck did I even get here from being like in
this complete like fuck girl energy to this I can't

(01:53:28):
sleep with a single other soul to save my life
type of shit. And it took me, but it was
all supposed to happen. I had to go into that,
and I know, like the reason why I'm giving you
this testimony and I'm setting the fucking record straight, I
guess in ways today is because I want everybody, as
you've been listening to this podcast, if you've been following

(01:53:49):
along this journey with me, I really want everybody to
have like this deeper understanding of how the fuck Christy
got where she got. And it wasn't without me questioning.
It wasn't without me being like, oh my god, I
am fucking my whole life up, like I'm being judged
by people that like I'm trying to send love to.

(01:54:10):
They're completely rejecting me. They're sending me like the most
hateful things that I've ever gotten from anybody ever in
my entire life. And I can't even emotionally process that.
And now I have to just keep showing up, keep
recording podcasts, keep doing all this stuff where like am
I am an impostor am I lying? You know? If
they're equal to me, you know, an astral or like

(01:54:33):
they have abilities just the same way as I do.
And they're telling me like, no, you're wrong. Well maybe
you are wrong because like I'm not discrediting who they are.
I know who they are an astrol, So maybe I'm
being let you know, Like it was just a whole
fuck shit in my mind for like the last two
and a half years to where I have not been
able to stand really firmly on solid ground in a while.

(01:54:54):
It literally wasn't until I opened up this, like Christy,
you can't stay so and granted, April's gonna say, bitch'all
fucking told you my girl. April's gonna say, I've been
telling you you need to like and uh, not just April,
but her wife actually keeps telling me like I need darkness.

Speaker 2 (01:55:11):
You need a ground, you need a da da da
da da da.

Speaker 1 (01:55:13):
And I'm like yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I hear
what you're saying, but I couldn't do it until it
was time for me to fucking do it.

Speaker 2 (01:55:20):
And so here we are to.

Speaker 1 (01:55:21):
Where your girl is villain era like a motherfucker Okay,
I'm about to throw everybody in the darknwnd of the Soul.
I got this one fucking incarnation to get this fucking
shit right, to align the energy that's happening on this
fucking planet. And I failed the last two times I
tried to do this shit. This is the third attempt

(01:55:44):
that I have tried throughout different parts of time. The
last time I tried to do this shit was like
two thousand years ago, and baby, I fucking failed. And
then I tried to do this before that as well,
a few thousand years before that, and I failed fucking
then too. Not only did I fail in that life,
but your girl kind of lost access to her third
eye in that life as well.

Speaker 2 (01:56:06):
So and my pendulum just rope.

Speaker 1 (01:56:09):
I'm swinging into my hand channeling it, and yeah, they
motherfucker's God. It's like every time I'm just swinging it
just so my channel's open and I'm like open to
receiving whatever it is that I need to say, like
directly from my higher self and some energy in here
don't want me saying all of this shit, but guess
who don't care. I don't fucking care. So here we

(01:56:32):
are and here we sit. I like, I feel like
what it is like the beginning. I feel like everything
that has led me up to this exact point, this
exact moment in my life was just like this incarnation
really didn't even start for me yet. It was just
like I was still just that was like my programming, right,

(01:56:53):
because I get thrown into life after life after life
with no programming, and in this life I stepped into
here without programming, into this matrix. I'm not supposed to
be here right now like at all. I'm not supposed
to be incarnated in this body. I'm not supposed to
be here in this time.

Speaker 2 (01:57:15):
At all.

Speaker 1 (01:57:15):
Like I can't stress that enough. That's why I know
all the things that I know because this version of
me ain't I ain't from this time period. But I
think like a lot of people, whenever I say that,
they're gonna like, ah, yeah, that kind of makes like
a whole lot of sense that she knows as much
shit as she knows, because I'm I'm not only operating
from this level of existence, but I can see in

(01:57:37):
time scenarios not just for Earth, but for existence, and
I know like how this shit is supposed to wrap up,
and I know how long it's gonna take for the
seed to actually germinate and start to build the next thing.
We still have like a long time for that seed
to actually do what it's supposed to do. But once
the seed is planted, there is no unplanting this seed,
which is what we're trying to work on to facilitate

(01:58:00):
the right energy to germinate this damn seed so that
way it can start to grow. But what we've been
doing so far is collecting matter for the seed to
actually form. And now, from the three sixty perspective of
seeing like the end of like as many, like I said,
as many lies back as there is forward, we're sitting
in this energy where there's enough matter, there's enough consciousness,

(01:58:21):
there's enough knowledge, there's enough like all the things that
we need to build this next seed, and the seed
has to be planted so we can still experience the
rest of time from here and for the seed to
be fully grown and for us to be able to
step into the next thing, when this level of existence
completely goes away, right, and so, but we also need

(01:58:43):
to keep this level of existence going so that way
the energy is continuously feeding the seed, because it doesn't
do us any good for the seed to germinate and
it's going to keep growing, but there's not actually any
nutrients that are like pushing the seed to grow far
to the next to the next thing. And I will
talk a whole lot about this as it's uncovered to me,

(01:59:06):
unveiled to me, and as I know all the things
on my personal platform and my coaching platform, we're gonna
get into all of this kind of weird shit. This
is why I really want to go offline to more
of a private sector, so the people who care, the
people who want to know, the people who want to
help in this capacity and this level you will be
able to. But it doesn't have to be out for

(01:59:30):
just the general public and the general population, because these
motherfuckers don't know what I'm saying. They don't even know
how to decipher their fucking dreams, you know. And that's
gonna That was the podcast I really wanted to record,
and then I didn't. I didn't get to and then
I was like, Okay, well, I'm gonna save it for

(01:59:50):
when me and Zekah start her thing, because I really
wanted it to be this whole podcast on when you
dream about death and what that actually means, and the
way that they death and dreams for different purposes and
for different things, and I wanted to go into like
the layers of what happens when you dream about somebody dying,
especially if it's somebody that you know is supposed to

(02:00:12):
be on your path and now you like they're constantly
dying in your arms, and then it scares you from
walking your path that you're supposed to walk because now
you think, oh, well they're with me, then they're gonna
die because you keep seeing those visions. I really wanted
to do a whole podcast on that, but then I decided,
you know what, We'll just wait and I'll get Zeka's
take on it, and me and her can talk about

(02:00:33):
it from that perspective, and uh, yeah, that'll be a
good topic just for the general public to kind of understand,
and it doesn't have to be tied to the Divinity
on Earth podcast, So still gonna do it. But I
thought that that was gonna be the podcast I recorded
before I got to the end. But then that podcast
kept being delayed, kept being delayed, and then I'm like, okay,

(02:00:54):
well I'm not supposed to do it here, and now
I'm supposed to do it later. And that message, it's
clearly supposed to reach more people other than just even
know guys. I screenshot it and I posted it on
Instagram because when I go into Spotify, because that's you
know what, I use Spotify the most.

Speaker 2 (02:01:11):
And uh, whenever I looked up my.

Speaker 1 (02:01:12):
Podcast, I had like ninety five reviews and my podcast
was rated A four point nine. And I already know
some of the people who rated my podcasts like A one. Uh,
I know them, like they still listen to my fucking podcast.
That's the fucked up thing about it is that they
actually still listen to my podcast even though they have

(02:01:33):
the nerve to go.

Speaker 2 (02:01:36):
Put a one. You're still here listening. You're just a fucking.

Speaker 1 (02:01:40):
Hater and guess what, guess where your sole is is
in my fucking hell?

Speaker 2 (02:01:44):
So, like, who really won here? You?

Speaker 1 (02:01:48):
You pushed a button that gave me a star and
I literally dropped you into hell. So that was really
smart of you, Like, good job, high five take yet
staying Cucie Energy somewhere else. So but I like, I
literally can't even believe that there would even be of
you know, the hundreds of people, are you know, a thousand,

(02:02:11):
thousands of people? I don't even know how many people
really listen to my podcast. I don't keep up with
the metrics, but let's just say of the hundreds of people,
however many our thousand people or two I don't know.
I really don't know, because each episode is kind of different,
and I've had quite a lot of listens, but these
days I'm up in the thousands. I think the amount

(02:02:32):
of people that listen to like my podcast on different
platforms and whatever. A hundred of those fucking people just
on Spotify ninety five people like went to say, because
it takes one one star literally will fuck up a
bunch of five star ratings. It's like takes like twenty
something thirty five star ratings to like make that one

(02:02:53):
star not matter or whatever. So four point nine to
me is like having a fucking five star rating like that.
Many people have decided to go say that my podcast
was a five star enough for me to have a
four point nine rating on my podcast, like one hundred
whole ass people. This shit is wild to me, Like

(02:03:14):
I know that's like no big deal to a whole
lot of people. But for somebody who started this podcast
like in her bedroom with no intention, Like literally my
only intention was, whoever supposed to hear this is going
to hear it. Whoever this is supposed to resonate with,
it's going to resonate with. And I'm not trying to
reach the masses with this particular podcast. I knew that
this was going to be there's an expiration date on this.

(02:03:36):
I knew it when I started it, and I knew
that I would start a second podcast. I've talked about
starting the second podcast already, Like I already knew that
that was gonna be the path. I've been knowing it
for a very long time now. It just wasn't time.
Wasn't time, wasn't time. It wasn't aligning. It wasn't aligning,
and it wasn't aligning because I didn't have the right energy,

(02:03:57):
the right support system, the right team around me. I
didn't have my people fully in place. Yet now I
knew a lot of my people on you know, all
my people were there, but we weren't acting as a
group as a team. You know, Like we've really kind
of like prestored started this order business, you know, the
order of orchids, Like that energy is already prevalent. And

(02:04:21):
like everybody's shown up for me and like doing readings
and tapping in and doing all the things. And it
is like so beautiful to actually legitimately have support, to
have people who have listened to this fucking podcast who
have done every single thing that I have mentioned to
do every little assignment that I've given to everybody. Not

(02:04:42):
only have they done them, but they've conquered them. They've
slayed it. They have gone above and beyond. They've done
calls with me, they've done the deeper dive work. They've
done everything that they needed to do in order to
be able to literally be walking on side of me
as we transition to Earth, to be more balanced so

(02:05:03):
we calm the ripples of dis harmony throughout the universe.
Like there are literally people who because I put out podcasts,
are ready to fight this battle with me, and that
like that far exceeded any expectation that I could have had.
My expectation was to find your people. Maybe some people

(02:05:25):
want to book sessions with you, and you could look
at people's past lives. How cool would that be just
to like, you know, meet some more people, get outside
of the city that I live in, find some people
across the world. And like, I have exceeded every expectation
that I had for this little dream, like so tenfold

(02:05:47):
that it like makes me so sad that I'm like
actually here saying like this will be my last full episode.
Am I gonna have another little episode after this? Yes,
It'll probably be next week sometime with all the details
of all the future things. I'll probably let everybody meet
Zaika on the last episode here, We'll do a quick
little episode. So there will be another little episode on

(02:06:09):
this podcast. I don't think like this is the last time. Whatever, No,
I'm gonna be back. There will be another one, and
I will give you the link to the new podcasts
and all the things, and we'll do all the things.
So there will be another little episode after this. But
this was like my last like full full episode just
where I kind of wanted to say, like damn everything, throughout,
Like I feel like you guys have gone on this

(02:06:30):
journey with me, You've really seen me grow into a
different version of me, a stronger version of me throughout
this podcast, from the version of me that started.

Speaker 2 (02:06:38):
This shit to this crazy.

Speaker 1 (02:06:43):
Powerful divine feminine energy, this like I don't know, higher
than a high priestess energy, right, this just the sovereignty
that I've found throughout doing this podcast has just been so.

Speaker 2 (02:07:01):
So amazing, And.

Speaker 1 (02:07:05):
I just wanted to kind of wrap all this up
and if there was like any you know, missing information
or details as to kind of like how I got
here or how I really felt, or things that maybe
I didn't say before, or that I needed to like
clear the air on or set whatever record straight as
far as my actions and the things that I've done.
And anybody who's listening, who maybe is still listening and

(02:07:27):
we had a fallen out or we don't see eye
to eye, you know, this is kind of like the
last time I'm gonna be talking about this kind of stuff,
like publicly on a lot of this stuff, because this
part of my life is completely behind me. Now I'm
stepping into a completely different version, completely different energy to
tackle this this new this war that we're stepping into.

(02:07:50):
I just kind of wanted to give you guys, like
a little We'll give you some info on some things,
obviously talk through some things.

Speaker 2 (02:07:58):
But also just kind of like give you like a little.

Speaker 1 (02:08:02):
Wrap up of all the things that have been just
prevalent and uh, you know, the last year and a
half that I've been doing this podcast has just been
such a so fucking rewarding, so fucking beautiful, so fucking amazing,
throughout all the darkness, all the bad things, all like

(02:08:24):
the shit that I got in for recording podcasts saying
certain things. Even though like I was the most inconspicuous
that a person could possibly be, with no like real
details or information on anything, people still felt personally attacked
by the stuff that I said, felt you know, triggered
because they're very fucking unhealed, and their therapists isn't helping

(02:08:44):
them to work through the deep wounds that they're going through,
and so they're projecting that kind of shit onto me.
There's been a lot of really ugly size of this podcast,
but it was all intentional. I needed every single moment
of it. I think every single fucking person that's been
a part of this journey that stabbed me in the back,
that's fucking betrayed me, and the people who have lifted

(02:09:06):
me up, held my hand, let me ugly cry, Let
me talk about the same fucking situation and the same
person a million fucking times, all of the people that
humor me, all the people who I've had to reschedule appointments,
and I've had to do all these things because energetically
I was spent and I was done, and you guys
all just still stood beside me, rallied around me. You're

(02:09:29):
the reason, all of you, every single person listening to
this is the reason why I have made it through
the past year and a half, especially of my life
with a little bit of sanity. It's knowing that you
guys resonate with the things that I fucking say. It
lets me know that I'm not a one of one
type of crazy. I am one of thousands type of crazy.

(02:09:52):
We're all the same type of crazy. We're on this
crazy fucking space rock together, trying to figure out what
it means to be human, trying to figure out what
it means to be divine, trying to figure out what
it means to be spiritual and I could not be
more grateful for all of you guys. So I will

(02:10:16):
be back. There will be one more brief little episode,
but you guys, I love you all from the bottom
of my heart. I hope you stick around for the
next part of the journey. And until the next episode, guys,
think outside the matrix.

Speaker 2 (02:10:30):
I'll talk to you guys soon.

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