July 9, 2025 • 41 mins
When the masks grow heavy and the mirror no longer lies, a reckoning stirs. Perhaps this is the hour you choose to live—truly, irrevocably, and without illusion.
This is no ordinary meditation. It is a descent, a ritual, a reweaving of the frayed nerves that bind spirit to flesh.
You are not broken. You are becoming. Breathe deep. The time is now. Step into your authentic self.
This is no ordinary meditation. It is a descent, a ritual, a reweaving of the frayed nerves that bind spirit to flesh.
You are not broken. You are becoming. Breathe deep. The time is now. Step into your authentic self.
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Speaker 1 (00:06):
Is anyone else wrong? Or can you're here? You?
Speaker 2 (00:13):
Are you there?
Speaker 3 (00:13):
Yet?
Speaker 2 (00:17):
This space is for those who are in silence and casticide,
for those seekings, who reclaiming what has been lost, for
anyone suffering from the flames of spiritual persecution, bearing the
scars and theglect and holding the weight of abuse.
Speaker 1 (00:38):
This is a saying where for those say, a place
to rise in.
Speaker 3 (00:43):
The ashes, a vidual welcome home, don.
Speaker 4 (01:13):
Hello, chosen ones, Welcome back to another episode, another meditation,
if you will. I really probably could ramble for quite
some time if that's what I was doing on the
podcast these days. However, I'm not, so we'll try to
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keep it short, even though I feel like it's been
a minute and I have a whole lot to say
about things that have been transpiring lately. I know lots
of people are actually feeling the energy shifts and are
feeling the timeline jumps and feeling the movement. Finally, I know,
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so people have been saying for quite some time that
we're jumping timelines, We're doing a whole lot of shifts
that just were not actually happening. They were saying it
because they felt as if planetary alignments equal shifts, but
fake planets don't equal timeline shifts in any sort of
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quantum way, So it's just a indoctrinated belief that the
planets correlate to things happening here and so, but we
are actually finally getting into some pretty major timeline shifts,
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some quantum.
Speaker 5 (02:41):
Leaps, if you will.
Speaker 4 (02:42):
So things are feeling quite different for a lot of
people here, uh, and it's there's starting to be a
lot of buzz about it. And so, as you can imagine,
with those shifts, it means that I have been incredibly,
incredibly busy. So I have been spending a lot of
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time with like some downtime energetically trying to integrate a
lot of the upgrades I have been going through and
a lot of the downloads I have been getting. I
have been taking a little bit more integration time than
normal because the energy is so much. It's like a
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bigger packet of knowledge, a bigger packet of information. So
it takes a little bit more for my physical body
to adjust to the jumps that I have been going
through lately. But nevertheless, we made it through. So today's
meditation will be a deconstruction of the vagus.
Speaker 5 (03:51):
Nerve it will be.
Speaker 4 (03:55):
A visualization meditation where we're going to physically reach our
hand behind our neck, grab our vegas nerve and everything
that every nerve that's connected to it, and throw it
up against a wall, and then we will look for
the corruption in our vegus nerve, the things that are
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sending signals to our body that we don't want to,
and then we're going to remove those. There will be
the opportunity for a few people to be able to
actually go take your vegus nerve out, completely burn it,
and find source and allow Source to rebuild you a
completely new nervous system. But for those who won't be
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able to do that, you will just simply ignite your
vegas nerve in a really brilliant silver flame and it
will burn off any matrix codes that are not supposed
to be operating within your nervous system. So I know
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that the highest form of source that I have found.
There are only two other people that I know of
that know where it is. One she watched me interact
with it and was like, gave me the play by
play after I got done. And then the other person
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is someone who tried to save me from it because
they did not know what it was that I was
actually doing and that energy, and they were trying to
pull it off of me, thinking that they were helping me.
It's actually their shield that they placed around me that
actually kept me from dying. During that interaction, Kauzaika, I
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had asked her if anybody else had ever found that
level of source before, and she said, yeah, they died.
So kind of crazy story to be told that the
only thing that kept me a lot was the shield
that got placed a few weeks ago, So that was
a very.
Speaker 5 (06:07):
Important step.
Speaker 4 (06:08):
I guess I didn't find that level of source until
I did have the shield. So I guess all things
do happen in divine timing, and that just so happened
to be one of those things. But as far as
focusing our energy on our vagus nerve has a lot
to do with the fact that I feel as if
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there are not a whole lot of people truly standing
in authentic energy. And I know that there are going
to be people listening to this and they're going to
say that they're standing in authentic energy and they you're
fucking not. Part of standing in authentic energy is being
honest with yourself and there's no way that you are
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living any sort of double life and standing in authentic energy.
So if you are saying one thing but behind closed
doors behaving in a different manner, then you are not
living in authentic energy. And that could just be from
the food that you preach, or the meditations that you
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say that someone else should do, if you're making suggestions
to other people and you're not actually living it, or
if you're pretending to be friends with somebody but you're
really casting spells behind their back, or simply if you
know that someone is in your future and that's supposed
to be the way your life is supposed to unfold,
and you are avoiding walking that path, then you are
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not living in authentic energy. So there are lots of
ways that we can sabotage ourselves and not live in
authentic energy. And I just feel that I feel the
ick on most people around me, and so part of
me really kind of sitting in this analysis of authentic
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energy was this moment where I had this realization that
I keep playing in my head that the people that
were following me on Facebook are people I couldn't care
less about if I tried. They're basically people who had
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a role in my life at one point. In the
way society has us trapped today, it makes us feel
as if people from all parts of our life still
deserve to have eyes on everything that we do. And
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I'm just so against it that I deactivated my Facebook altogether.
It's not a platform that I feel supports any of
my goals in any way. It just it's not in
alignment with what it is that I'm trying to do.
And also it's just constant negativity from very closed minded people.
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And there is a certain type of energy that exists
in a lot of people that live in South Louisiana,
and I don't match their energy really at all. I
know that there are people down here who I do
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align with and I do match their energy, but I
know that those people can completely relate to what it
is that I am saying without really having a spell
it all out. But I was just sitting in this
I kept having like this negative feeling about being on Facebook,
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and I guess I really used it as just you know,
all my people are there and share stuff about my kids,
because you know, I am somebody that I'm not very
active within my.
Speaker 5 (10:26):
Even intermediate family.
Speaker 4 (10:29):
We all just kind of do our own thing because
we're all like incredibly busy with our own lives and
we don't really get but hurt over not particularly seeing
each other. So it's fun to get updates on Facebook
and such, but it was costing me my peace. But
I also felt that the version of me that existed
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five years ago, that existed one year ago, that existed
twenty fucking years ago, no longer applies to my life
at all.
Speaker 5 (11:01):
So why am I still sitting attached to that energy.
Speaker 4 (11:08):
I don't want people to be able to go back
and search and figure out who I was.
Speaker 5 (11:13):
That's completely irrelevant.
Speaker 4 (11:15):
There needs to be no one that meets me today
that needs to understand I don't. I'm not looking for
validation from anyone. I'm not looking for anyone to go
back and analyze my story and give me approval on
who I'm allowed to be today. I don't give a fuck.
I've actually been turning off. So I completely went on
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my Instagram and archived all of my shit that I
could possibly archive on there. I did the same thing
on TikTok. I actually deleted my Snapchat because I don't
really use it except to talk to my kids. And
I don't want people messaging me on there, so I
actually deleted my Snapchat created another one, and I'm only
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friends with the kids and so, and there's like one
other person I'm friends with on there because they're like
the only human being that I actually use that to
talk to.
Speaker 5 (12:08):
And that's literally it.
Speaker 4 (12:10):
And it feels as strange at first, and then like
it feels really good for a while, and then kind
of start having like I think about something I could
post and I'm like, oh wait, I don't have Facebook,
and then you like immediately kind of get over it.
But I've gotten to where, like even on my Instagram,
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like I have disabled comments on my posts because I
don't give any amounts of fucks what anyone's thoughts are
on who I'm becoming, the way I'm living my life
in though the little diary that I'm allowed to have publicly,
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I don't fucking care if anyone approves of it. I
don't give a shit what anybody else's opinion is. And
that truly is authentically who I am. But if I'm
not showing up in an energy that matches that, then
I'm not being authentic. So I was kind of like
looking at it from like being authentic from different perspectives
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and am I honoring who I truly am at my
core in all facts of my life? And the answer
was actually fucking no, because I kept having these thoughts
about negative thoughts about social media and the stuff that
was still up there and the stuff that people could
find and all that kind of stuff, and I'm just like,
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I just I'm not.
Speaker 5 (13:40):
I'm not that anymore.
Speaker 4 (13:43):
And maybe I was never really that at the time,
but that's who I thought I needed to project myself as,
and so that's what I did. So I just am
really in this space where I'm not here to be
approved or validated. I know exactly what I'm supposed to
be doing, what my goal is, and I literally I'm
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not going to stop until the things that I'm supposed
to accomplish in this life are accomplished. And so in
oorder to be able to do that, I need to
sit in as much authentic energy as possible. Anything less
is just a hindrance on my journey and on my path.
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So I had to do a quick alignment of that.
And it's kind of funny whenever we actually talk about
being authentic and all this shit and I watch people's
tiktoks and I see their post and the way they're
just being like this false positive, fucking light worker. But
yet I could go sit in their brains and listen
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to their fucking thoughts and it's it's a complete fucking
lie and they're a complete fucking sham, and it's just
really unfortunate that so many people are showing up that way.
So really, I started kind of evaluating what it would
look like if I started to deconstruct that entire process
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and break it down in a manner that would be
beneficial for humanity, And then how could that translate into
something that would be useful to the people who listen
to this podcast. So that's kind of how we got
to this episode today. And so I just thought that, well,
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what's causing people to not actually stand in authentic energy?
Like what's that final level of manipulation? Because I know
that a lot of it is just like this self
sabotage that's happening, But where is it actually coming from?
Where's it stemming from? And so I've been sitting with
that for a bit, and it basically has to do
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I had this experience where I was sitting in because
I've been working a lot in the Adam and Eve
energy and so, but I was like sitting in the
Lilith energy, and I was trying to figure out exactly
how that fucking plugged into everything. And essentially the Lilith
energy was this artificial Eve energy that was created by
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I guess you would say, like the Anonaki and so
basically it was to corrupt and manipulate the divine masculine
energy and to becoming over sexualized beings with a a
dominant energy, because that is literally what Lilith's energy is
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is a deception energy. So I know a lot of
people like talk about want to be like Lilith and
all that type of shit. Basically it means that you
want to be deceptive, and you want to be domineering,
and you want to be overly sexualized. Is that energy?
Well that eventually, because there were so many divine masculines.
Speaker 5 (17:10):
Trapped by it, it.
Speaker 4 (17:12):
Became the frequency of the divine masculine over time. So
I think the final divine masculine, which would be the
divine masculine that would have held the key for all
divine masculines, was finally captured not long before we went
to common era or eighty time, so it would have
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been a few years before that, and so that's around
the time that really everything on the planet shifted and
then we eventually went into the dark ages over it.
So I was just kind of like looking at that
energy and analyzing its corruption and also analyzing the corruption
that was placed in this like eve or divine feminine energy.
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And so essentially whenever I trace it all back, it
basically goes back to the way our vagus nerve has
been reprogrammed to send signals to our brain to let
us have cravings or desires or self sabotaging tendencies that
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we don't actually want to experience. But because these signals
are being sent through our vegus nerve and being rerouted,
so we could be thinking that we want to you know,
be on like eat healthy, be on this really like
clean eating diet or path, and all of a sudden,
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we start having these thoughts about you know, fast food
or fringe fries or whatever it might be, our little
our little thing that gets us off course, and it
feels like overwhelming, as if you don't actually think about
those things that often, but because they're being restricted to
you it's like all of a sudden, you crave them more.
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And so everybody, there's a million different psychologists that try
to say where this comes from. But ultimately I was
watching it being triggered in my brain through I was
trying to sit and figure out sexual impulses, because that's
the thing that I've been like really trying to figure
out the self sabotage on lately. And so I was
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sitting and I was watching it fire in the brain
and how there's like this resistance of no, I'm not
going to comes up first, and where the overpowering energy goes.
And basically it's like a red light green light. So
if you're putting up a red light for a particular
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impulse that they are trying to manipulate you into executing,
and you keep throwing up that red light, they're gonna
find a different avenue that you're not throwing a red
light up, and it's gonna give it a green light,
and it's gonna push it through anyways. And that basically
has to do with the way that our vagus nerve
is programmed in the codes that exist within our vagus nerve.
Speaker 5 (20:13):
So that works for.
Speaker 4 (20:16):
Food impulses like I was saying that works for like
sexual impulses, any sort of self sabotaging behavior, that works
for triggers as well. So if you're trying not to
argue with someone, or you're trying to just you know,
keep the peace, and all of a sudden you find
yourself saying something, it often.
Speaker 5 (20:36):
Is because that.
Speaker 4 (20:40):
Pathway is being rerouted to something that is having like
a green light. And we do have certain pathways in
our vagus nerve that are always a green light. That's
kind of what the lilith energy is is like green light,
green light, green light to all of like this sexual
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deviation and this just like complete lack of morality at times,
and this complete like self sabotaging energy to where you
can't resist things that you know are not for you
or or would like lead you away from your divinity
or lead you away from your connection with God or source.
Speaker 5 (21:24):
And so that literally is.
Speaker 4 (21:27):
Where the corruption, especially of the divine masculine comes from.
It is Lilith herself that is a false eve energy.
So it's like it would lure you in with you know,
this like peaceful feeling at first, and then it quickly
would turn into something that was the complete opposite of peace.
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And that's the point because in the beginning, the energy
shows up as Eve as you know this, you know,
kind sympathetic person, and then as time goes by, is
like the energy morphs into the Lilith energy, which is
just complete home wrecking type energy. So that is how
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it penetrated the divine masculine is basically, it's like being
bit by a spider. So once you're bit by the spider,
is like you're infected by it and you can't get
rid of it. So it's like getting a virus, and
so you carry that.
Speaker 5 (22:25):
Virus for all of your lives.
Speaker 4 (22:28):
Until you recognize that you've been bitten by the spider,
and then you try to detox yourself from the spider
bite itself. And so most people don't actually fully comprehend
that they've been bitten by that Lilith energy, and so
it sets them up for tons of betrayal to their
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actual Eve. So I thought that it would be fun
for all of us to go throw your vegus nerve
up against a wall and to analyze it. And some
people may just decide to burn the entire thing down
and try to find source energy and have source completely
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rebuild your pathways for you. If anybody meditates an Astro
and ever call me in and I know like there
will be some people listening, and like you do find
me in meditation quite a bit.
Speaker 5 (23:23):
If you would like to.
Speaker 4 (23:24):
Call me in and ask me to bring you to
one of the source beings that could rebuild your Vegas nerve,
you are more than welcome to you. Literally can just
say call me Christy and I will come everything. And
Astro kind of knows me at this point. I'm becoming
a little infamous out there and Astro, I spend so
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much time up there, there is not a whole lot
that has not met me that exists as far as
consciousness or beings go, so everyone knows who I am
up there, So it's really easy to find me if
you just simply say Christy. So if you would like
me to guide you, I am more than happy for
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you guys to call me in.
Speaker 5 (24:09):
I'll bring you wherever.
Speaker 4 (24:09):
It is that you need to go, especially like based
on your level of understanding of source, everybody has different
access to different levels of source based off of your frequency. Obviously,
if you haven't really become all that sovereign, I'm not
going to take you to the one where she would
literally cause your entire body to shut down and collapse
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upon being in her energy field. I would probably bring you,
like to the cosmic tree or something where you would
have a level of source that would match your level
of ascendance at this time. So I guess, without any
any further, I know I'm not really backstorying in a
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whole lot these days. Oh this is worth mentioned before
I do get into the meditation. It's not going to
be a super long meditation because it's not going to
take us long to get where we need to go.
But I my Patreon is just ready to be launched
at this point. So I just had my son move
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with his dad because he is starting college. It's crazy
to even say that out loud. That's what happens when
you start having babies young. Before you know it, they're
out the house. And so I turned I'm turning his
bedroom into a little bit of like a recording studio.
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So I'm just waiting till I feel really settled with that.
But it literally probably will be. My next podcast will
be me announcing it being opened. There will be three
different tiers within my Patreon.
Speaker 5 (25:56):
One will be for like normal.
Speaker 4 (25:58):
Podcast that I I will probably record a good portion
of them live, so everybody will be able to ask questions.
I just feel like it would be easier for me
than me having to constantly think of things to talk
to you guys about if you guys are just there
asking questions. So there will be live podcast as part
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of the basic membership, and then there will be a
tier above that which will be to where I will
be doing extended meditations as part of that tier, and
then there will be a third tier where I will
be doing group coaching calls and you would have access
obviously to the other two tiers as well. So that's
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the way the tiers will be set up for right now.
I probably will have a private group within my Patreon
as well.
Speaker 5 (26:54):
That's the thing I'm trying to figure out.
Speaker 4 (26:56):
So as far as the people who have been working
with me for a year and a half, for over
a year and have done like multiple multiple sessions, I
will have a private forum on there, probably for our
group to be able to get together because there are
some of us who do work collectively, just so we
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can kind of everybody can keep their hand on the pulse,
and that will be a group that will be you know,
hand selected by me, and so it's going to be
a lot of fun. I know that everyone has been
waiting for this for quite some time, but everything is
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a timing thing, and especially in astral.
Speaker 5 (27:42):
And so I have.
Speaker 4 (27:44):
Just at first, I would get really upset whenever I
would want to do something and I would talk about
it and it wouldn't pan out.
Speaker 5 (27:50):
And then I really.
Speaker 4 (27:51):
Realized how protected I was being by it not working out,
and so then I really just surrendered to trusting the
process and the timing of everything. But I've gotten all
green lights by my highest self or source or whoever.
It's been just nothing but green light. So that will
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most likely be starting on I will talk about it
on the next podcast, which will also be my new
format of podcasts, will be kicking off next week, so
really excited about that. It will be shorter podcast. It
will be an am podcast and a PM podcast Monday
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through Friday, and I'm really really excited. So it's going
to be a brief podcast for you to listen to
to get your day started, and then another shorter podcast,
and they will both be posted within a few.
Speaker 5 (28:45):
Hours of each other.
Speaker 4 (28:46):
So just that way everyone has it throughout the day,
but it will be a podcast to the evening podcast
will be a very brief meditation to get you ready,
for you to be able to do have of RESTful
sleep and for you to be able to focus on
what you need while you are at rest. And the
am one will be one that will get you your
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mind and the right frequency to really be unconditional love
throughout the day, and just some more philosophical things to
think about throughout the day, so that way your mind
is being productive instead of stuck in the rat race
that our society likes to keep us in. So that
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is starting next week, and I am most excited about
releasing that.
Speaker 5 (29:36):
And so at that time, when all.
Speaker 4 (29:39):
Of it's released, the old podcast will completely be gone.
Speaker 5 (29:43):
They will no longer be up. That part of the
chapter will be closed.
Speaker 4 (29:49):
Not to say that I won't re release certain episodes
onto my Patreon in the future, but they will be
vanishing from the air indefinitely. It will never come back.
I will never repost them publicly ever again. And so
we're just phasing into something just a little bit lighter
and a little bit easier, and then anybody who wants
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the deeper content.
Speaker 5 (30:13):
It will be private.
Speaker 4 (30:14):
So that is going to be the way things will
be going forward starting next week.
Speaker 5 (30:19):
So really excited about that.
Speaker 4 (30:20):
And without any further ado, guys, enjoy the meditation and
begin to breathe.
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Breathe. Begin to close your eyes, focus on the expansion
of your lungs as you leave the words of your
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day behind. Breathe as you begin to feel present in
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this moment. Begin to feel the back of your neck
tangle and light up with your energy. Place yourself in
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a solid white box. When we're only you can enter. Breathe.
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Trust in your ability to control your body, your mind,
your spirit, and your soul. Breathe. As your white box
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begins to fill in around you. Your spine begins to tinge,
starting out as the feeling of your energy movement on
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your brow. Don't your body. You wicker your toes and
you feel the energy flow up through your spine and
register in your brain. Breed with your eyes closed and
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your body still. I want you to visualize yourself. Grab
your final core, your vagus, nerve sits matting the base
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of your skull to your neck, in your shoulders and
your nervous system. Want you to visualize yourself as if
you can detach it from your physical body. Once you
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have your hand around it, you are ready. You may
take it and projected onto the white vol and corumpy
toss it it's it is a ball you're throwing up
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to someone to catch. Breathe on this fall now lass
the entire system of your body that registers every impulse
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you have. What we're going to do now is visualize
ourselves becoming brighter and brighter and brighter. This is a
white one begins to vibrate in a higher frequency. It
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will be called apparent. The parts of your nervous system
that are vibrating in a low frequency that will begin
to appear in darker color, such as lower the brighter
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the room gets more contracts that will exist between your
low vibration codes in the light body you were meant
to exist in. Great a healthy part of your nervous
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system will vibrate the same frequency as the room. In
the light you're pouring in. This part of your nervous
system does not need to be put to shift our
focus for the parts of your nervous system that appear
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darker and color. What should have visualize yourself walking up
to the wall, placing your right hand on the spots
of your nervous system that need to be rewritten, and
you're born. Three. Visualize your right hand beginning to admit
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a silver flame. Because your hand is glowing in a
silver flame, you get to touch all of the places
of your vegas nerve that need to be update a
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silver flame. Replace new codes where the lower vibrating codes exist.
This is a permanent change and cannot be unwritten or Undone.
Trust in your ability to be the alchemist of your
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life and the creator of your human experience. Great trust.
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When you have finished alter the lower vibrating parts of
your nervous system and step back. Call forth your nervous system,
your us from the wall. Command it to reattach to
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your skind of power to the various parts are bu
to your brain. You can feel it reattached. You may
feel a cooling sensation or a chill throughout your body. Breathe, trust,
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breathe you found three m h Your new codes will
be updated. Running in your physical body. You would no
longer possess the ability to self sabotage or to be manipulated.
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Three two what welcome back and welcome to your new reality,
Is anyone else wrong? Or can you're here? You?
Speaker 2 (00:13):
Are you there?
Speaker 3 (00:13):
Yet?
Speaker 2 (00:17):
This space is for those who are in silence and casticide,
for those seekings, who reclaiming what has been lost, for
anyone suffering from the flames of spiritual persecution, bearing the
scars and theglect and holding the weight of abuse.
Speaker 1 (00:38):
This is a saying where for those say, a place
to rise in.
Speaker 3 (00:43):
The ashes, a vidual welcome home, don.
Speaker 4 (01:13):
Hello, chosen ones, Welcome back to another episode, another meditation,
if you will. I really probably could ramble for quite
some time if that's what I was doing on the
podcast these days. However, I'm not, so we'll try to
(01:36):
keep it short, even though I feel like it's been
a minute and I have a whole lot to say
about things that have been transpiring lately. I know lots
of people are actually feeling the energy shifts and are
feeling the timeline jumps and feeling the movement. Finally, I know,
(02:00):
so people have been saying for quite some time that
we're jumping timelines, We're doing a whole lot of shifts
that just were not actually happening. They were saying it
because they felt as if planetary alignments equal shifts, but
fake planets don't equal timeline shifts in any sort of
(02:20):
quantum way, So it's just a indoctrinated belief that the
planets correlate to things happening here and so, but we
are actually finally getting into some pretty major timeline shifts,
(02:40):
some quantum.
Speaker 5 (02:41):
Leaps, if you will.
Speaker 4 (02:42):
So things are feeling quite different for a lot of
people here, uh, and it's there's starting to be a
lot of buzz about it. And so, as you can imagine,
with those shifts, it means that I have been incredibly,
incredibly busy. So I have been spending a lot of
(03:03):
time with like some downtime energetically trying to integrate a
lot of the upgrades I have been going through and
a lot of the downloads I have been getting. I
have been taking a little bit more integration time than
normal because the energy is so much. It's like a
(03:27):
bigger packet of knowledge, a bigger packet of information. So
it takes a little bit more for my physical body
to adjust to the jumps that I have been going
through lately. But nevertheless, we made it through. So today's
meditation will be a deconstruction of the vagus.
Speaker 5 (03:51):
Nerve it will be.
Speaker 4 (03:55):
A visualization meditation where we're going to physically reach our
hand behind our neck, grab our vegas nerve and everything
that every nerve that's connected to it, and throw it
up against a wall, and then we will look for
the corruption in our vegus nerve, the things that are
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sending signals to our body that we don't want to,
and then we're going to remove those. There will be
the opportunity for a few people to be able to
actually go take your vegus nerve out, completely burn it,
and find source and allow Source to rebuild you a
completely new nervous system. But for those who won't be
(04:40):
able to do that, you will just simply ignite your
vegas nerve in a really brilliant silver flame and it
will burn off any matrix codes that are not supposed
to be operating within your nervous system. So I know
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that the highest form of source that I have found.
There are only two other people that I know of
that know where it is. One she watched me interact
with it and was like, gave me the play by
play after I got done. And then the other person
(05:22):
is someone who tried to save me from it because
they did not know what it was that I was
actually doing and that energy, and they were trying to
pull it off of me, thinking that they were helping me.
It's actually their shield that they placed around me that
actually kept me from dying. During that interaction, Kauzaika, I
(05:45):
had asked her if anybody else had ever found that
level of source before, and she said, yeah, they died.
So kind of crazy story to be told that the
only thing that kept me a lot was the shield
that got placed a few weeks ago, So that was
a very.
Speaker 5 (06:07):
Important step.
Speaker 4 (06:08):
I guess I didn't find that level of source until
I did have the shield. So I guess all things
do happen in divine timing, and that just so happened
to be one of those things. But as far as
focusing our energy on our vagus nerve has a lot
to do with the fact that I feel as if
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there are not a whole lot of people truly standing
in authentic energy. And I know that there are going
to be people listening to this and they're going to
say that they're standing in authentic energy and they you're
fucking not. Part of standing in authentic energy is being
honest with yourself and there's no way that you are
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living any sort of double life and standing in authentic energy.
So if you are saying one thing but behind closed
doors behaving in a different manner, then you are not
living in authentic energy. And that could just be from
the food that you preach, or the meditations that you
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say that someone else should do, if you're making suggestions
to other people and you're not actually living it, or
if you're pretending to be friends with somebody but you're
really casting spells behind their back, or simply if you
know that someone is in your future and that's supposed
to be the way your life is supposed to unfold,
and you are avoiding walking that path, then you are
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not living in authentic energy. So there are lots of
ways that we can sabotage ourselves and not live in
authentic energy. And I just feel that I feel the
ick on most people around me, and so part of
me really kind of sitting in this analysis of authentic
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energy was this moment where I had this realization that
I keep playing in my head that the people that
were following me on Facebook are people I couldn't care
less about if I tried. They're basically people who had
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a role in my life at one point. In the
way society has us trapped today, it makes us feel
as if people from all parts of our life still
deserve to have eyes on everything that we do. And
(08:57):
I'm just so against it that I deactivated my Facebook altogether.
It's not a platform that I feel supports any of
my goals in any way. It just it's not in
alignment with what it is that I'm trying to do.
And also it's just constant negativity from very closed minded people.
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And there is a certain type of energy that exists
in a lot of people that live in South Louisiana,
and I don't match their energy really at all. I
know that there are people down here who I do
(09:43):
align with and I do match their energy, but I
know that those people can completely relate to what it
is that I am saying without really having a spell
it all out. But I was just sitting in this
I kept having like this negative feeling about being on Facebook,
(10:05):
and I guess I really used it as just you know,
all my people are there and share stuff about my kids,
because you know, I am somebody that I'm not very
active within my.
Speaker 5 (10:26):
Even intermediate family.
Speaker 4 (10:29):
We all just kind of do our own thing because
we're all like incredibly busy with our own lives and
we don't really get but hurt over not particularly seeing
each other. So it's fun to get updates on Facebook
and such, but it was costing me my peace. But
I also felt that the version of me that existed
(10:52):
five years ago, that existed one year ago, that existed
twenty fucking years ago, no longer applies to my life
at all.
Speaker 5 (11:01):
So why am I still sitting attached to that energy.
Speaker 4 (11:08):
I don't want people to be able to go back
and search and figure out who I was.
Speaker 5 (11:13):
That's completely irrelevant.
Speaker 4 (11:15):
There needs to be no one that meets me today
that needs to understand I don't. I'm not looking for
validation from anyone. I'm not looking for anyone to go
back and analyze my story and give me approval on
who I'm allowed to be today. I don't give a fuck.
I've actually been turning off. So I completely went on
(11:36):
my Instagram and archived all of my shit that I
could possibly archive on there. I did the same thing
on TikTok. I actually deleted my Snapchat because I don't
really use it except to talk to my kids. And
I don't want people messaging me on there, so I
actually deleted my Snapchat created another one, and I'm only
(11:56):
friends with the kids and so, and there's like one
other person I'm friends with on there because they're like
the only human being that I actually use that to
talk to.
Speaker 5 (12:08):
And that's literally it.
Speaker 4 (12:10):
And it feels as strange at first, and then like
it feels really good for a while, and then kind
of start having like I think about something I could
post and I'm like, oh wait, I don't have Facebook,
and then you like immediately kind of get over it.
But I've gotten to where, like even on my Instagram,
(12:32):
like I have disabled comments on my posts because I
don't give any amounts of fucks what anyone's thoughts are
on who I'm becoming, the way I'm living my life
in though the little diary that I'm allowed to have publicly,
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I don't fucking care if anyone approves of it. I
don't give a shit what anybody else's opinion is. And
that truly is authentically who I am. But if I'm
not showing up in an energy that matches that, then
I'm not being authentic. So I was kind of like
looking at it from like being authentic from different perspectives
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and am I honoring who I truly am at my
core in all facts of my life? And the answer
was actually fucking no, because I kept having these thoughts
about negative thoughts about social media and the stuff that
was still up there and the stuff that people could
find and all that kind of stuff, and I'm just like,
(13:38):
I just I'm not.
Speaker 5 (13:40):
I'm not that anymore.
Speaker 4 (13:43):
And maybe I was never really that at the time,
but that's who I thought I needed to project myself as,
and so that's what I did. So I just am
really in this space where I'm not here to be
approved or validated. I know exactly what I'm supposed to
be doing, what my goal is, and I literally I'm
(14:05):
not going to stop until the things that I'm supposed
to accomplish in this life are accomplished. And so in
oorder to be able to do that, I need to
sit in as much authentic energy as possible. Anything less
is just a hindrance on my journey and on my path.
(14:26):
So I had to do a quick alignment of that.
And it's kind of funny whenever we actually talk about
being authentic and all this shit and I watch people's
tiktoks and I see their post and the way they're
just being like this false positive, fucking light worker. But
yet I could go sit in their brains and listen
(14:47):
to their fucking thoughts and it's it's a complete fucking
lie and they're a complete fucking sham, and it's just
really unfortunate that so many people are showing up that way.
So really, I started kind of evaluating what it would
look like if I started to deconstruct that entire process
(15:10):
and break it down in a manner that would be
beneficial for humanity, And then how could that translate into
something that would be useful to the people who listen
to this podcast. So that's kind of how we got
to this episode today. And so I just thought that, well,
(15:36):
what's causing people to not actually stand in authentic energy?
Like what's that final level of manipulation? Because I know
that a lot of it is just like this self
sabotage that's happening, But where is it actually coming from?
Where's it stemming from? And so I've been sitting with
that for a bit, and it basically has to do
(16:00):
I had this experience where I was sitting in because
I've been working a lot in the Adam and Eve
energy and so, but I was like sitting in the
Lilith energy, and I was trying to figure out exactly
how that fucking plugged into everything. And essentially the Lilith
energy was this artificial Eve energy that was created by
(16:24):
I guess you would say, like the Anonaki and so
basically it was to corrupt and manipulate the divine masculine
energy and to becoming over sexualized beings with a a
dominant energy, because that is literally what Lilith's energy is
(16:48):
is a deception energy. So I know a lot of
people like talk about want to be like Lilith and
all that type of shit. Basically it means that you
want to be deceptive, and you want to be domineering,
and you want to be overly sexualized. Is that energy?
Well that eventually, because there were so many divine masculines.
Speaker 5 (17:10):
Trapped by it, it.
Speaker 4 (17:12):
Became the frequency of the divine masculine over time. So
I think the final divine masculine, which would be the
divine masculine that would have held the key for all
divine masculines, was finally captured not long before we went
to common era or eighty time, so it would have
(17:33):
been a few years before that, and so that's around
the time that really everything on the planet shifted and
then we eventually went into the dark ages over it.
So I was just kind of like looking at that
energy and analyzing its corruption and also analyzing the corruption
that was placed in this like eve or divine feminine energy.
(17:58):
And so essentially whenever I trace it all back, it
basically goes back to the way our vagus nerve has
been reprogrammed to send signals to our brain to let
us have cravings or desires or self sabotaging tendencies that
(18:20):
we don't actually want to experience. But because these signals
are being sent through our vegus nerve and being rerouted,
so we could be thinking that we want to you know,
be on like eat healthy, be on this really like
clean eating diet or path, and all of a sudden,
(18:43):
we start having these thoughts about you know, fast food
or fringe fries or whatever it might be, our little
our little thing that gets us off course, and it
feels like overwhelming, as if you don't actually think about
those things that often, but because they're being restricted to
you it's like all of a sudden, you crave them more.
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And so everybody, there's a million different psychologists that try
to say where this comes from. But ultimately I was
watching it being triggered in my brain through I was
trying to sit and figure out sexual impulses, because that's
the thing that I've been like really trying to figure
out the self sabotage on lately. And so I was
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sitting and I was watching it fire in the brain
and how there's like this resistance of no, I'm not
going to comes up first, and where the overpowering energy goes.
And basically it's like a red light green light. So
if you're putting up a red light for a particular
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impulse that they are trying to manipulate you into executing,
and you keep throwing up that red light, they're gonna
find a different avenue that you're not throwing a red
light up, and it's gonna give it a green light,
and it's gonna push it through anyways. And that basically
has to do with the way that our vagus nerve
is programmed in the codes that exist within our vagus nerve.
Speaker 5 (20:13):
So that works for.
Speaker 4 (20:16):
Food impulses like I was saying that works for like
sexual impulses, any sort of self sabotaging behavior, that works
for triggers as well. So if you're trying not to
argue with someone, or you're trying to just you know,
keep the peace, and all of a sudden you find
yourself saying something, it often.
Speaker 5 (20:36):
Is because that.
Speaker 4 (20:40):
Pathway is being rerouted to something that is having like
a green light. And we do have certain pathways in
our vagus nerve that are always a green light. That's
kind of what the lilith energy is is like green light,
green light, green light to all of like this sexual
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deviation and this just like complete lack of morality at times,
and this complete like self sabotaging energy to where you
can't resist things that you know are not for you
or or would like lead you away from your divinity
or lead you away from your connection with God or source.
Speaker 5 (21:24):
And so that literally is.
Speaker 4 (21:27):
Where the corruption, especially of the divine masculine comes from.
It is Lilith herself that is a false eve energy.
So it's like it would lure you in with you know,
this like peaceful feeling at first, and then it quickly
would turn into something that was the complete opposite of peace.
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And that's the point because in the beginning, the energy
shows up as Eve as you know this, you know,
kind sympathetic person, and then as time goes by, is
like the energy morphs into the Lilith energy, which is
just complete home wrecking type energy. So that is how
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it penetrated the divine masculine is basically, it's like being
bit by a spider. So once you're bit by the spider,
is like you're infected by it and you can't get
rid of it. So it's like getting a virus, and
so you carry that.
Speaker 5 (22:25):
Virus for all of your lives.
Speaker 4 (22:28):
Until you recognize that you've been bitten by the spider,
and then you try to detox yourself from the spider
bite itself. And so most people don't actually fully comprehend
that they've been bitten by that Lilith energy, and so
it sets them up for tons of betrayal to their
(22:49):
actual Eve. So I thought that it would be fun
for all of us to go throw your vegus nerve
up against a wall and to analyze it. And some
people may just decide to burn the entire thing down
and try to find source energy and have source completely
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rebuild your pathways for you. If anybody meditates an Astro
and ever call me in and I know like there
will be some people listening, and like you do find
me in meditation quite a bit.
Speaker 5 (23:23):
If you would like to.
Speaker 4 (23:24):
Call me in and ask me to bring you to
one of the source beings that could rebuild your Vegas nerve,
you are more than welcome to you. Literally can just
say call me Christy and I will come everything. And
Astro kind of knows me at this point. I'm becoming
a little infamous out there and Astro, I spend so
(23:47):
much time up there, there is not a whole lot
that has not met me that exists as far as
consciousness or beings go, so everyone knows who I am
up there, So it's really easy to find me if
you just simply say Christy. So if you would like
me to guide you, I am more than happy for
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you guys to call me in.
Speaker 5 (24:09):
I'll bring you wherever.
Speaker 4 (24:09):
It is that you need to go, especially like based
on your level of understanding of source, everybody has different
access to different levels of source based off of your frequency. Obviously,
if you haven't really become all that sovereign, I'm not
going to take you to the one where she would
literally cause your entire body to shut down and collapse
(24:31):
upon being in her energy field. I would probably bring you,
like to the cosmic tree or something where you would
have a level of source that would match your level
of ascendance at this time. So I guess, without any
any further, I know I'm not really backstorying in a
(24:54):
whole lot these days. Oh this is worth mentioned before
I do get into the meditation. It's not going to
be a super long meditation because it's not going to
take us long to get where we need to go.
But I my Patreon is just ready to be launched
at this point. So I just had my son move
(25:20):
with his dad because he is starting college. It's crazy
to even say that out loud. That's what happens when
you start having babies young. Before you know it, they're
out the house. And so I turned I'm turning his
bedroom into a little bit of like a recording studio.
(25:41):
So I'm just waiting till I feel really settled with that.
But it literally probably will be. My next podcast will
be me announcing it being opened. There will be three
different tiers within my Patreon.
Speaker 5 (25:56):
One will be for like normal.
Speaker 4 (25:58):
Podcast that I I will probably record a good portion
of them live, so everybody will be able to ask questions.
I just feel like it would be easier for me
than me having to constantly think of things to talk
to you guys about if you guys are just there
asking questions. So there will be live podcast as part
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of the basic membership, and then there will be a
tier above that which will be to where I will
be doing extended meditations as part of that tier, and
then there will be a third tier where I will
be doing group coaching calls and you would have access
obviously to the other two tiers as well. So that's
(26:45):
the way the tiers will be set up for right now.
I probably will have a private group within my Patreon
as well.
Speaker 5 (26:54):
That's the thing I'm trying to figure out.
Speaker 4 (26:56):
So as far as the people who have been working
with me for a year and a half, for over
a year and have done like multiple multiple sessions, I
will have a private forum on there, probably for our
group to be able to get together because there are
some of us who do work collectively, just so we
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can kind of everybody can keep their hand on the pulse,
and that will be a group that will be you know,
hand selected by me, and so it's going to be
a lot of fun. I know that everyone has been
waiting for this for quite some time, but everything is
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a timing thing, and especially in astral.
Speaker 5 (27:42):
And so I have.
Speaker 4 (27:44):
Just at first, I would get really upset whenever I
would want to do something and I would talk about
it and it wouldn't pan out.
Speaker 5 (27:50):
And then I really.
Speaker 4 (27:51):
Realized how protected I was being by it not working out,
and so then I really just surrendered to trusting the
process and the timing of everything. But I've gotten all
green lights by my highest self or source or whoever.
It's been just nothing but green light. So that will
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most likely be starting on I will talk about it
on the next podcast, which will also be my new
format of podcasts, will be kicking off next week, so
really excited about that. It will be shorter podcast. It
will be an am podcast and a PM podcast Monday
(28:32):
through Friday, and I'm really really excited. So it's going
to be a brief podcast for you to listen to
to get your day started, and then another shorter podcast,
and they will both be posted within a few.
Speaker 5 (28:45):
Hours of each other.
Speaker 4 (28:46):
So just that way everyone has it throughout the day,
but it will be a podcast to the evening podcast
will be a very brief meditation to get you ready,
for you to be able to do have of RESTful
sleep and for you to be able to focus on
what you need while you are at rest. And the
am one will be one that will get you your
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mind and the right frequency to really be unconditional love
throughout the day, and just some more philosophical things to
think about throughout the day, so that way your mind
is being productive instead of stuck in the rat race
that our society likes to keep us in. So that
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is starting next week, and I am most excited about
releasing that.
Speaker 5 (29:36):
And so at that time, when all.
Speaker 4 (29:39):
Of it's released, the old podcast will completely be gone.
Speaker 5 (29:43):
They will no longer be up. That part of the
chapter will be closed.
Speaker 4 (29:49):
Not to say that I won't re release certain episodes
onto my Patreon in the future, but they will be
vanishing from the air indefinitely. It will never come back.
I will never repost them publicly ever again. And so
we're just phasing into something just a little bit lighter
and a little bit easier, and then anybody who wants
(30:12):
the deeper content.
Speaker 5 (30:13):
It will be private.
Speaker 4 (30:14):
So that is going to be the way things will
be going forward starting next week.
Speaker 5 (30:19):
So really excited about that.
Speaker 4 (30:20):
And without any further ado, guys, enjoy the meditation and
begin to breathe.
Speaker 1 (30:38):
Breathe. Begin to close your eyes, focus on the expansion
of your lungs as you leave the words of your
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day behind. Breathe as you begin to feel present in
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this moment. Begin to feel the back of your neck
tangle and light up with your energy. Place yourself in
(31:49):
a solid white box. When we're only you can enter. Breathe.
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Trust in your ability to control your body, your mind,
your spirit, and your soul. Breathe. As your white box
(32:36):
begins to fill in around you. Your spine begins to tinge,
starting out as the feeling of your energy movement on
(32:58):
your brow. Don't your body. You wicker your toes and
you feel the energy flow up through your spine and
register in your brain. Breed with your eyes closed and
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your body still. I want you to visualize yourself. Grab
your final core, your vagus, nerve sits matting the base
(33:55):
of your skull to your neck, in your shoulders and
your nervous system. Want you to visualize yourself as if
you can detach it from your physical body. Once you
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have your hand around it, you are ready. You may
take it and projected onto the white vol and corumpy
toss it it's it is a ball you're throwing up
(34:41):
to someone to catch. Breathe on this fall now lass
the entire system of your body that registers every impulse
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you have. What we're going to do now is visualize
ourselves becoming brighter and brighter and brighter. This is a
white one begins to vibrate in a higher frequency. It
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will be called apparent. The parts of your nervous system
that are vibrating in a low frequency that will begin
to appear in darker color, such as lower the brighter
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the room gets more contracts that will exist between your
low vibration codes in the light body you were meant
to exist in. Great a healthy part of your nervous
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system will vibrate the same frequency as the room. In
the light you're pouring in. This part of your nervous
system does not need to be put to shift our
focus for the parts of your nervous system that appear
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darker and color. What should have visualize yourself walking up
to the wall, placing your right hand on the spots
of your nervous system that need to be rewritten, and
you're born. Three. Visualize your right hand beginning to admit
(37:29):
a silver flame. Because your hand is glowing in a
silver flame, you get to touch all of the places
of your vegas nerve that need to be update a
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silver flame. Replace new codes where the lower vibrating codes exist.
This is a permanent change and cannot be unwritten or Undone.
Trust in your ability to be the alchemist of your
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life and the creator of your human experience. Great trust.
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When you have finished alter the lower vibrating parts of
your nervous system and step back. Call forth your nervous system,
your us from the wall. Command it to reattach to
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your skind of power to the various parts are bu
to your brain. You can feel it reattached. You may
feel a cooling sensation or a chill throughout your body. Breathe, trust,
(39:50):
breathe you found three m h Your new codes will
be updated. Running in your physical body. You would no
longer possess the ability to self sabotage or to be manipulated.
(40:18):
Three two what welcome back and welcome to your new reality,
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