Mind Over Matter

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hey, guys, Before we get started, I just want to
warn you. This episode contains talk of fatness, okay, fat phobia,
diet culture, weigh ins, body checks, eating disorders. It's kind
of the nature of the show. So if any of
those things would make this a hard listen for you
and don't listen to this, and I will see you
on the next one later. Hi, guys, protesting here and

(00:31):
welcome to another episode of by Fucking Og Edition. I'm
recording this on Sunday. Normally, I've moved on Sunday. I've
moved my recordings to Sundays, even though they come out
on Sundays. Although last week I had to record on
Monday because of like electricity issues and shit, and it
didn't come out so Monday. Apologize for that, but that's
just how that went. I can't really record on Saturdays anymore.
I'm really busy on Saturdays. I have two soccer games,

(00:51):
two volleyball games, and a swim meet every Saturday until
the end of the summer. And if you're wondering how
I'm doing, not good? Not good? Why am I the
one taking them to all these things? One if I
make mister Curtis come, he would come, but that would

(01:12):
mean they have to bring all the children to all
the events, and that would mean that instead of being
able to watch my kid, whichever kid it is, do
their thing, I would also be corralling other children. And
I'm gonna be honest, my kids are generally don't well
behaving those sorts of things. They usually sit in their
seat and watch their sibling and don't give me a
lot of trouble at usually, But I just don't want to.

(01:35):
I'd rather be able to focus on what I need
to focus on. And so that leaves mister Kurs at
home wrangling other children as I moved in and out
of the house, dropping and moving and da da uh
am I good at this? No, not really, this is
a lot this year. And by the swimming is always
at the end, and by then I'm just like disassociating

(01:56):
next to the pool with my Apple watch giving me
a little alarm to let me know when my son
is his race is coming up so I can cheer
him on. But also the children prefer me there, They
prefer me at the at the games and stuff because
of the way I approach things, because I don't care
about sports. I do not care I don't care about
them winning. I'll get runne of that. I care about
them trying. We've talked all so often about growth mindset

(02:21):
and what that means, and and I expect you to
be trying your best and to be competing with yourself
and what did you do better today than last week?
That's what I care about. And I'm really good at
like I don't know if I'm really good, and I'll
say I'm really good at it because kid's on me.
And I'm really good at seeing their wins and commiserating

(02:42):
with their challenges and not making it a big deal. Missus.
Curtis is a sports dad, and so I don't like
it when he goes to the sports and you can
do the kids. So we leave him where he needs
to be corralling other kids as we do other things. Uh,
this will be ending by the end of the month.
And also mister Curtis has started Mister curs has been
offered a number of jobs in the last week and

(03:05):
so he will be starting something on my birthday. And
I think Saturdays are out of the game for him.
So I don't know what I'm gonna do in the fall,
but we'll figure it. Out. One of the things that
I really care about is that or that that I
really care about. One of the things that I can
easily acknowledge I don't think everybody can do, is that

(03:26):
I have five children, and therefore I have to say
no to some things. And there are things that one
child or two children would have gotten that five can't
get because of the sheer number of them. And so
I try my hardest to do what I can. If
I can do it, then I do it because I
know I have to say no to many other things.

(03:47):
The more children you have, the more you have to
say no to. And does that lesson when you have money.
I don't have any money, so no, I'm not talking
about me. I'm talking about like wealthy people. Yeah, well,
lesson is a little bit. But there are just certain
things that you just cannot do when you have thirteen
or twenty kids. There's just certain things you'll never be
able to do. You are one person. So I stretch

(04:10):
when I can to make for the not to make
up for, but to because I know there will be
times that I can't stretch, so then I don't. So
I make it work on Saturdays and usually on Sunday
something to myself. But right now I'm recording, So mister
Curtis has smoked a turkey. I don't I don't know.
Mister Curtis's obsession with turkeys are like he made me

(04:33):
buy a turkey, like in February, and I was like,
I can't be seen behind a turkey because then people
will be like, wonderfuck is she going with that turkey?
And then I'll be embarrassed and my body. Anyway, I
wore a mask and some sunglasses and I bought the turkey.
And now he got another turkey. His uncle went to
the commissary. Commissary is this is how to explain this.

(05:00):
I don't know about other military installments. I know in
the Navy that when you're in a military installment and
there is a grocery store, it's the commissary. Okay. It
really can depend how big it is depends on where
you are and what that installment is. Like Like I've
lived on bases, not on I didn't live on this space,
but the NB, the big base in Norfolk, Virginia is

(05:25):
the Exchange, which is a department store. But it depends
on your installment where like where you are the exchange
is like a mall right, and the commissary is a
large grocery store, okay, but like I've lived on smaller
bases where the commissary was like I don't know, like

(05:51):
a slightly expanded seven to eleven and the exchange was like,
I don't know, a JC penny where everything have been
like shut down, Like have I've been shut down like
a Roses or something like that? Like like are big
lots like it just depends on where this is at,

(06:13):
So the commissary, But the reason you want to go
to the commissary is because there are no taxes there.
Things are already cheap, they're cheaper than they would be
anywhere else, but you do not pay sales tax on
a base, right, So like mister Curtis has left with
my father and gone to the commissary to grocery shop,

(06:37):
and it's been like come back with like big eyes
about like what he could get there. When mister Curtis
used to smoke, my father would go and buy cigarettes
for him because he would not have to pay sales tax.
I think you still have to pay federal tax, but
not sales tax, not state sales tax. So the cards
are cheaper like to go into the exchange where you

(06:59):
buy like jewelry sometimes or like a computer. This one,
the one that's near us like a camera, like it's
a department. It's like coals. It's like it's well, the
exchange is like a mall here, but like another place
is like a coal's like going into a coals or
something like that, a small coals the one and dog

(07:21):
Gren But anyway, so mister Curtis's uncle is a retired military.
Mister Curtis's uncle and my father looked exactly like. They're
both retired military. They both have a kne they're both
ball headed black male glasses. When I saw them in
the same room, I was like, oh shit. But mister

(07:43):
Curtsey's uncle was in the commissary and was like, hey,
they got these turkeys and mister Curtis and he took
a picture and mister Curtis was like, yeah, give me that.
I guess the turkey was free. I don't was it
free at the fucking commissary. I don't fucking know. I don't.
I don't understand the Turk, the underground Turkey railroad. I
don't understand what the underground Turkey economy is like, I'm
not sure, but mister Curtis had smoked a turkey. Today

(08:06):
he made ghetto macaroni and cheese. Ghetto macaroni and cheese
is where he shouldn't be used in gheto I don't
know what else to call it. Something nothing macari and cheese.
It's stovetopped macaroni cheese in which mister Curtis seasons the
fuck out of it as cheese and bacon and then
bakes it. And it's it's not as great as a

(08:31):
frum scratch baked macaroni and cheese, like like the way
Black people like the eat macaroni cheese like custard like,
but it's pretty fucking close. It's real good. So he
made that he had made colet greens and corn bread,
and he found the cherry cheesecake because that's my favorite.
And he also bought me a new Lego set today.

(08:52):
I had to tell him I already owned this Lego
set and he was like a I like point it
to like write a book my hands, Like I already
owned this. It was a get Lego set, and like,
not to be an asshole, but I own all the
wicked Lego says there or none that I don't own.
There's another one coming out in either August or September
that I will own that, but I own all the
rest of them, so we got to deal with that.

(09:14):
And he doesn't know what the receipt is because he
lost the receipt in between leaving the store, getting in
the car, and driving home. He does not know to
receive this, so we'll have to figure that out. But
it was the thought that counts. It's been on a
very nice day and I'm like, I slept in, I
had a very good breakfast that put me back to sleep,
and now it's time for me to record this fucking podcast.

(09:36):
Before we get started, I want to do some show
business here, guys. I have responded to all my messages,
my dms, and my emails. If you have not received
the response to me by July twentieth, fuck, it's my
nephew's birthday. Tomorrow's Turtle's birthday. I need to text my brother.

(10:00):
Not received a response from me, it is because it
got lost somewhere. It's either in spam or something, or
filtered out or something. So if you sent me a
message and you wish to have a response, you got
to resend it because I've got I'm caught the fuck
up on my correspondence. The other thing I want to
remind you guys is I'm still doing sponsored episodes. A

(10:21):
sponsored episode is where you send me a message at
hello at Bipumpkin podcast dot com and you pitch me
something something you want to hear on this podcast that
you're not hearing, and uh, I charge your twenty bucks
and then I do an episode in which I call
you out for sponsoring. That's it. There are very few

(10:42):
things that say no to. I'm not doing any Megan
and Harry content. I'm not doing any Justin and Blake content.
I'm not doing I think of very much I won't do.
But it's just stuff that I was like, I don't
know if the fuck's going on. I feel like I
know what's going on with Harry and Meghan, I just
don't like talking about them and I don't know. I

(11:02):
don't know what's going on. I just feel like a
lot of people would justice and I don't. I don't
want that back on my FIP and I feel like
talking about it on this fucking episode. Text is gonna
hear what you want to hear more about that. I
don't I don't, please stop. It's white nonsense. I don't
know what's happening over there, but stuff there. There are

(11:25):
a few things I'll say no too, but this is fine. Uh,
they're not this. There are lots of things that are fine.
So if you want to sponsor an episode, let me know.
I want to remind you that next week is my
birthday weekend. I am turning forty five. I don't care

(11:46):
about that. I don't know. I don't care about what
age I am. I just feel like I'm getting stronger
and stronger and more bolder and more and like like
these hopes tried to get me. Okay, these these bitches
tried to kill me all my life. I don't I'm
still fucking here. I love it. I love it, but
I'm not working that weekend, so you're not getting a
podcast that week. And my birthday should be a national holiday.

(12:08):
So next Sunday is going to be a rerun episode.
Sorry for you, but that's what's gonna have to happen
because I am gonna take the time off. My birthday
is actually Monday. I'm celebrated on Sunday because mister Curtis
starts his jobs. Then I don't know. I don't know
which one of these fucking jobs is gonna take. Well,
who offered him all these fucking jobs. I'm happy about

(12:28):
it because mister Curtis has been technically unemployed for seven months.
He has been making money. He's been doing things. He
has been working, not the way he wants to work,
not the level which he wants to work. There's been income,
So I'm grateful for it. Okay, don't get me don't
get me wrong, Okay, But getting him back in a

(12:50):
position that is better than the position that he lost
is it. It feels like I'm at the end of
a very long walk through the desert. I talk about
this with my therapist all the time, about how like
they might I talk about being codependent. I've talked about

(13:13):
it on this podcast too. I've actually done sponsored episodes
about codependency. When I realized I was codependent was Whitney
Cummings of all motherfucking people. I saw a TikTok where
she explained what fucking codependent meant, and I was like, Oh,
that's not what I thought it meant. And I like
went on a deep dive because if what she was

(13:34):
saying that's what it meant. I was like, oh shit,
I got a problem because I thought codependency meant like
you couldn't do things without this other person, like you
guys were stuck at each other's hips. That's actually there's
nothing to fucking that's just something people say, like they
call everybody a narcissist. Codependency is about feeling irresponsibility for
other people's feelings and actions and outcomes. And there are
different versions. And like if I say codependent to you,

(13:57):
you might be like, that doesn't resonate with me. But
if I tell you, are you a fixer? Do you
fix problems? Do you fix all the problems around you?
That's probably codependency. If I tell you that you manage
everybody around you, right, you manage upsideways down like everybody,
you are a people manager, that might residence resonate with you.

(14:19):
And that's fuck fucking codependency. Why is everybody's problem is yours?
And identify more of being a fixer or a people manager.
And like it took me on this this like journey
of realizing like I have codependent tendencies at the very least,

(14:40):
like learning about it and realizing that the person had
the most codependent shit with is my husband, which makes sense.
He's he's my romantic partner. And it's been a fine line.
Like I started changing the way that I interact in
this relationship, and one of them is like I stopped
doing his laundry and stop being responsible. Before that, I

(15:01):
stopped being responsible for his relationship with his own family members.
I stopped doing that. Like I really fucked up. I mean,
I don't plan to speak very much on this, but
I really fucked up a lot of things between him
and his mother because I did things that he should
have been doing. And if I had let it be

(15:22):
and let his be his responsibility and state the fuck
out of it, then he wouldn't have done those things,
and they she would have had a better understanding of
the relationship a lot sooner. Right, But here I was
making it seem like everything was okay, and that did
the service to him, stuff like being responded, like filling

(15:43):
out job applications and checking his email for him and
things like that. I used to do stuff like that,
and it was hard not to go back to it
when he wasn't working, right, because I mean that affects me,
Like I need to be involved in that, but I
needed to help, but I need him to ask for help,

(16:04):
and I need not to be in charge of the process.
And so I've been struggling with it. I'm I'm telling I,
like every day it has been hard because I want
to I want to be everything, to be okay. And
who someone who's attachment style is trust no bitch like minus,
I don't trust anybody else to do it like I

(16:24):
just don't. So so like I, I've definitely beginning to
work out with his with with his job search and everything,
but I'm happy for that to come to an end
so I don't have to resist things that feel natural
to me. That's another thing when I talk about having
codependent urges, being a fearful void, not feeling trust, not

(16:50):
I finally so hard to trust anybody about anything. Those
are urges I have, right, those are things That's how
I do things. Give in my first instincts all the time.
But I don't live on first instincts. I'm not a raccoon.
I don't just I don't just feel things in my
gut and like just run off and do that. I

(17:14):
make decisions and I examine why I want to make
a decision why I want to do stuff, And then
I say to myself, oh, is that your childhood talking
to you? Telling you like working with my therapist. Like
part of it is that, like she's like, you know,

(17:36):
you've got to understand that all humans are worthy, and
because as the type of avoidant, I am, like I
want to prove myself worthy in people's eyes, especially myself,
and I'm worried I'm not worthy. And she's like, well,
everyone's worthy, and I'm like, okay, well you can't just

(17:58):
say that, because if everyone's worthy, then nobody's worthy. Maybe
we shouldn't be using a word worthy then, like like
I want to be down with you, I want to
be therapeutized, but these words have meanings, so like like
it would make more sense if you were telling me
to stop asking people worthy because everyone's worthy, isn't it.
Like that's not true. The worthy only exists so that

(18:19):
somebody can be unworthy. That's the only reason it's a measurement.
It's to measure yourself against. She also said that I
have a really unique point of view and that like, uh,
it's like refreshing, Like I have a unique point of
view and perspective and personality, and that I probably was

(18:40):
like like a firecracker as a kid and so, which
is true. I was, but it didn't do anything for me.
And I told her that. I was like, well, this
shit is not doing anything for me. And I'm glad
that you find it refreshing, but I'm not refreshed. How
do I get refreshed? What direction do I go in
for the refreshing part? Because I don't feel it. It

(19:00):
feels very hot and stuffy around here. It feels like
I'm being buried alive. Well, how are you refreshed? And
she's like she thinks I'm funny, which is great because
I am trying to win therapy because I'm fucked up,
But also I'm like, no, seriously, what's the answer? Write
it down right here? Just if you just tell me
what there If you just give me a set of

(19:21):
instructions like an ikea couch put give me the instructions.
I promise you. I'll follow them. I promise you, I'll
do them. Just give it to me, give me the booklet,
whatever it is, step one, two, three, four five. I
will do all the steps, I promise. And she'll be like,
well you have to look aside yourself. I'm like, there's
nothing in there. There's nothing in there. That's what I'm
trying to tell you. That's why I'm here. There's nothing

(19:42):
in there. I'ma drite out husk of a person. Ches.
I don't want to leave my copid today anyway. Why
was I talking about that? Oh God, I'm really off topic.
I my birthday is Monday. I'm celebrating on sat on

(20:05):
Sunday because Mster Curtis is starting one of his many
mini jobs on Monday, and I will have to tap
in usual on my birthday do nothing, but I'm gonna
have to tap in. I need to get kids to
camp and all that other shit, and then I have
a therapy session, and I don't I don't plan to
do anything but get kids home and then he'll do
the cooking and the rest of the day. But I

(20:26):
do have to do a few things, and so I'm
gonna take Sunday to myself. And that means that it
will be like if Sunday was Mother's Day. Sunday is
Princess's Day, and so they will not be an episode.
Now you feel like, what person did you could record
it on Friday I could do a lot of shit.
Monkeys can fly on my ass. I'm not going to
I don't know what to tell you. You'll get a new
episode to you, to you because it'll come from it'll

(20:48):
be a rerun from the Patreon. Anything else, I'm gonna
talk about show Business one. I think that's it. I
do want to talk about the guilden Age. Last week,
I record Monday Start, already seen the Go with Age,
so I don't have anything to talk about with the episode.
The new episode that's gonna come out is gonna come
out right after I gave you guys this one, And

(21:10):
do you want to talk about something because I've been
on TikTok all week and people are like, the end
of the episode, we're Gladys and her new husband have
to or like talking about having sex? Is uh, Bertha
basically raping her own daughter through this marriage. And I
just want to tell you, guys, sometimes y'all don't read

(21:34):
historical romance and it fucking shows. I'm not saying the
romance genre is like very ethical. Some of the shit
I've been reading, I'm been like I had to do
not finish a few Uh, I just had to do
not have to finish one today because it was about like, uh,
it was basically Harleyquinn and Joker. It was a woman
who was like a psychiatrist or psychologist. She was a psychotogy.

(21:59):
I don't she was supposed to be therapyz some people
at a prison and she falls in love with a
prisoner who has been murdering people, like ten twelve people
and he still wants to murder people, like he's not
been framed, right, He's like a murderer and he likes
to cut people open and torture them. And she falls

(22:20):
in love with him on their first session and they
start fucking in her office and he gets a phone
starts texting her. They start sexting. Her mom, who she lives,
was just like, I hope you doing okay up at
the jail and she's like, yeah, everything's fine. Meanwhile she's
got a butt plug in and shit's happening, and like

(22:42):
then he gets framed for some murder and she has
to like escape with it. I don't know what happens
because I stopped reading it because I was like, what
is this? Because a lot of times romance novels will
force you, they'll write their characters, so they're blameless, right.
So that's why I was really shocked with the some
of the things I've read where I was like, oh,

(23:03):
this person they've worked in disability here, because remember, disability
only exists in romance and novels usually to be cured
quote unquote cured by the love, like as if the
person is ready for the love once or disabilities like,
it's real fucked up. A lot of the themes are
fucked up, guys. A lot of the things are fucking
fucked up. But like I was like, I don't know
what this is. I had to do not I had

(23:23):
to like dnf it roman. I'm not saying romance is
the most ethical genre of fiction. It's not. Okay. You
gotta watch yourself sometimes, and especially the dark ones where
you're just like what's going on? And I will not
read dark academia romance, which is usually college or maybe
like the last bit of high school, because I don't

(23:45):
want to. I don't want to read about euphoria. High
it's always some like syndicate mob syndicate that infiltrates a
a high school or prep school of some sort. Everybody's
a virgin, all the women are all the men are
not version. They're all tattooed up at twelve, and like, I,
this doesn't do it for me, and I don't wanna.

(24:07):
I don't want to read about that, So I don't
stay away from them. If you, if you're a person
that has I had ethical standards, romance is not for
you in the in the first place. I mean, it's
all about people's problems just being solved by somebody super
rich showing up and like loving them. Like what the
fuck does that tell you? But that said the end

(24:28):
of when Gladys and the Duke are trying to navigate
their their wedding night together, I'm like, this is the
beginning of every romance novel, every historical romance novel with
a with a forced an arranged marriage, and they this
would be a good scene with him being like, you know,
people come to love it. Do you know what's gonna happen?

(24:50):
You know, after time you and I will you know
what I'm saying, Like that that is like that would
be like like Julian Fellows thought he was writing a
romance scene for you. And the TikTok girls are I
called nine one one and okay, fine, fine, But that
video I saw where the person was like, Bertha is
raping Gladys through the Duke. Yo, come on, man, that

(25:11):
is not what's happening there. And I want to be
really clear that, like I love watching shit like this,
you know it, And I love being mad at characters
about shit. I love bringing my twenty twenty five perspective
in and being mad at people. Right, but that's not it. Like,
what's going on with Gladys is what would have gone

(25:33):
on with Gladys anymore than the fact that, like, like
when miss Scott, Peggy's dad and mom are trying to
figure out where they go in the servants quarters or not,
and you and a lot of times people want to
be like, oh, well, that's it wouldn't have been unfair.
Then it wouldn't have been unfair. Then. In fact, the

(25:54):
storyline you got going on now with Felicia Rashad sometimes
I look at her a skins, but okay, Uh, not
wanting her family mixed up with anybody who was that
close to slavery, that's that's that would be perfectly acceptable
back then, perfectly fucking acceptable. Uh, not being in the son,

(26:16):
perfectly fucking acceptable because proximity to whiteness is power, And
why would you want your kid to marry into a
family of dark skinned people who used to be slaves
like the father used to be slaves, not like three
more generations back like she and and there in New York.

(26:36):
Oh yeah, they think that the girl. They think they
are so much better than those negroes down south. They
think there are so much better because you know, like
I can't get into it, but but like that shit
that's still going on at twenty twenty five, like what
the fuck? And so like like I don't know what

(26:58):
it does. I talked about this with Rachel when we're
talking about truth or dare right with Madonna, right, I
don't know what it does to add the lens of
politics and socio economics today and gender politics today onto

(27:23):
a story that happened back then. I don't know what
you're gonna do with that. I mean, you're gonna be mad. Okay,
it makes sense, of course, because you're like, this is unacceptable.
Of course it's unacceptable. But that's not what this is.
That's not this. This isn't happening yesterday. This story happened
a long time ago, and there's a lot of seducing.

(27:43):
The scheme in happening, and you're either gonna deal with
that or not, or I don't know, you can't watch it.
And I know that people listening this with like, Princess,
you just don't care about Gladys. You're right, I do
not care about Gladys in the least. I hope I
never see Gladys again. I hope I never see those
wide blue eyes where she's like who. I hope I

(28:04):
never see her again. Get out of the fucking story, Gladys.
If you not willing to run away, if you're not
really the closest scene, leave me alone. Lattice. But I
felt the same way about Doubton Abbey. There's plenty of
things that happened. I was like, girl, I don't care.
I don't fucking care about this. You know what I
didn't care about. What's the middle sister who had a baby,

(28:25):
and the baby she gave the baby to somebody in
the village and then like half raised her, and then
bro did she eventually bring that baby back and was
like this is my ward or whatever. I didn't care
about that. And I didn't care about Sybil dying fair
I said it. I didn't hear about. I was like,

(28:46):
thank god, Sibyls dying. I cannot have another story about
her wanting about her marrying the driver and about class politics.
I cannot watch another fucking story about this. She's right,
I don't care. Go ahead and let her die. And
then they had a baby, and then and then the
driver did the driver come? No girl? I can't remember.
I need to go back and rewatch down Nabby. You
know what else I didn't care about. The seventhe time

(29:08):
mister Bates passed came the f I was like, mister Bates,
do you have any more secrets? Do you have any
more secrets? Mister Bates? How can a man would a
whole closet fill of silicans have every season have a
secret show up? And then you're like, whoof, thank god
we handled that. We can all be happy. Now. You

(29:29):
you're the one that knows you have all the fucking secrets,
mister Bates. Mister Bates, aren't you married? Mister Bates? Didn't
you run away for the army or did he? I
don't I'm gonna rewatch down Navy. I don't remember shit.
I was watching so that Mary could be bitchy That's
what I was watching. I was watching Mary be bitchy
around town and lose her virginity too. Was it a
turkish Man that was visiting. I'm not quite sure. Again,

(29:50):
I need to rewatch down Navy. But I was watching
Mary walk around and be cunty. That's what I was watching. Okay.
I not care about civil inner Sybil in her politics.
I'm gonna be a nurse in the world. Nobody cares Sybil.
Nobody cares God, Jesus, go marry the driver or whatever.

(30:10):
Just leave. And that's how I feel about Gladys. I
don't care what happens to the glass. Gladys could have died
in the street, and I'm been like, woof one less
character for me to worry about. Anyway, let me stop
talking about that. But I just wanted to bring that
up that, like I've seen a lot of tiktoks about that,
being like, this is Gladys having her being like sexually assaulted,

(30:32):
And I'm not saying it's good. I'm saying Gladys would
have been experiencing that with whoever she married. Billy would
have been the same way whomever, and she does not
have she does not have the right to make that
the Chesses during her own I know her father said
he let her marry for love. I personally don't think

(30:53):
he should have raised all that money for the duke
because I'm again, like I said, Richie Beardy be seducing
and scheming at work and Bertha Beys keeping it at
home and people. And when he do it it's cool,
but when she do it, it's a problem, you know. Like,
But personally I would not have to have been lying. Yo,
I don't negotiate with terrorists, dukie, okay, dookie, just like hey, dookie,

(31:16):
I don't negotiate with terrorists, like this is what I got,
this is what you're gonna get. You can take your
you can take your poor ass back home. I don't
know to tell you. Glass don't never have to get married.
We're rich enough for that. I know Bertha would have
a problem with it, but I won't. I don't like
negotiating with terrorists anyway. Like glad that wedding night scene
was supposed to be romantic, then the fact that he

(31:37):
was considerate and it was like you're going to come,
you might come, some people come to enjoy it. We
will have children like that would. Julian Fellows thought he
was giving you romance, and people were like, call Lilivia
Benson right now. Well, guess what, Olivia Benson doesn't exist
to the fucking nineties in New York City. This is

(31:58):
what the nineteen nineties, this way before that. Bitch, Olivia
Bitza can't come, okay, and Stabler can't come because he
needs to be in jail for police brutality. I said,
I said it. I said it. Anyway, that's enough about
the Gilded Age. I wanna talk about And just like that,
I've seen a lot of people talk about why this

(32:21):
show is hated and people hate on it so much,
and the truth is that we're watching a train wreck. Okay.
I'd be devastated if this was canceled, like even just
like that got canceled, Like us hate watching it is
what's keeping it on the air. Let's keep it on
the air. Let's keep making tiktoks about it. I would
be devastated if it didn't come back. I want to
watch it. I just wanted to be better, and if

(32:43):
it's not better, I want to talk about why it's
so bad, right, I have a right to that. That's
mostly me and Rachel texting about that. I want to
say this, Uh, can I just tell you that I
don't think Miranda's an alcoholic. I don't think Morena's an alcoholic.
And Liken, that's just a gut feeling. Again, I'm not

(33:04):
a raccoon. I don't live on guts alone. But I
just have a feeling that Miranda's not an alcoholic. I
feel like Miranda wasn't unhappy in her marriage. They're just
post pandemic and she was drinking entirely too much. She
should have stopped drinking, recalibrated and examined her relationship to alcohol.
But I do not think she was an alcohol It

(33:26):
just just in my gut. Like when I was watching it,
I wasn't like, oh wow, Marena's an alcoholic. That's not
what I was thinking. I was just like, and I
think that. Like I've talked about this before, that addiction
is not straightforward, addiction is not a one size fit all.
Addiction recovery isn't one size fit all. There are some
people that stop drinking for two years that are really sloppy,

(33:49):
really nasty, experiencing all these negative effects of their drinking
and stop drinking for two years and then can have
a glass of wine once and once in an evening
and it's all good. And some people that stop drinking
for twenty years and get a whiff of some fucking
bourbon and like go on three venders. Like it's not
one size fits all. And I know that we want

(34:11):
it to be right. We want it to be like
if you do X, Y and Z, then you don't
have to deal with the like devastating effects of addiction
in your family. This is what you do when you're
like I'm thinking about bammar Jero and people just want
People just want to be fixed, and they just want
to hear what do we have to do to fix it?
Like me with the with the therapy, like just give

(34:33):
me the ikea instructions, like give me a Lego booklet
and I will click all the bricks together and make
a thing. But that's not how it works. It's so individual,
and I can't I maybe I'll have to go back
and rewatch, but I don't remember why we went immediately
from Marian do you drunk a lot? Like I understand

(34:56):
that you're not happy right now, and I do understand
that what else are people doing it in the Pande
because I just getting drunk all the time. But like you, okay,
how is you cold? Like do you know what I mean? Like, like,
how do we get from there to Miranda? Nie? Miranda
is an alcoholic alcohol is poisoned. She's allergic to alcohol
and she needs to I don't so like I just

(35:19):
maybe I'll rewatch it and maybe I'll be like, oh shit,
forgot she she al was killed Brady and then she
was drinking like fucking she was drinking like rubbing alcohol,
And I'm like, oh, okay, I can see why she
would say no more of that for me. But I
don't know, Like that's a gut feeling. I have another

(35:42):
gut feeling I have. Sema doesn't come like that, Like
Seema does to come like that, not our Sema. Seema
is a sexually liberated woman. Sema is very much like
Samanth th except the difference is that Sema wants to
be in a relationship, which I think a little bit
more interesting than Samantha. To be really honest, I miss

(36:02):
Samantha's character. That said, like, I really I think it's
far more interesting to be a sexually liber grated woman
who does what she does and still smoke cigarettes and
is very like will and try anything once, but wants

(36:25):
a relationship because Samantha's the archetype for the other way.
But I don't believe that's how Sema comes. I don't believe.
I don't believe that. I don't believe that she also
comes by somebody yelling go and poking at her a
bunch of I just I just think she's a little
more nuanced than that. And so I was like, ugh, whatever,

(36:48):
And then the fact he does no more deodorant, and
she He's like, you can't tell, can you? No? We
can tell Simia Seemila want to get fucked, people can tell, okay,
And I don't want to don't. I don't. Don't. Don't
email me. I just say, email me, don't email me,
don't email me, Princess. I use the crystal all the time,
and I smell amazing. I don't wanna hear from you.
I wanna hear from people around you. I wanna hear

(37:08):
people around you, like, maybe aluminum's killing us, but at
least will die not smelling bad. I don't. I don't
want that. I don't. I don't like that. I used
to work next to somebody who used to use quote
unquote the rock, and they they in fact, I even
accused him of not using the rock. They smell like onions.
They smell like onions all the time. I wouldn't even

(37:29):
notice that if they got there. I just I just
be working. And then suddenly my eyes wild start water.
I was like, oh, fuck, so and so got here.
And the thing is, I felt like they were taking
a shower on Sundays and then letting it rock to
the weekend, because on Sunday they come in just a
little bit oniony, but by Wednesday they be mad ONIONI
And by Friday I'd be crying. I'd be I gotta
go home early, like this is too much, and and

(37:52):
and and and I don't know how that story correlates. So,
like I said, I don't believe he was even using
the rock. I think he just stopped all together. I
don't think he had anything on deck. But like this matters.
And if you are gonna do stuff like that, if
you're how I said this, if you're gonna use alternative deodorant,
you need to pay for cabs. You need to pay

(38:13):
for ubers. Neither walk where you're going, do not get on,
not get on public transit like that. That's not fair
to nobody. Don't do that. You shouldn't like, you should
wait from afar. You should never get up close to
somebody if that's how you're gonna live your life, because
body older. This is not France in the eighteen hundreds. Okay,
we have got to do we've got to do better.

(38:34):
We can smell each other now, okay, no no, no, no, no, no, no,
all right. And and that's just how I feel. To
keep your shoes on in the fucking airport. I was
actually at the soccer game on Saturday and a man
not too far down from me took off his shoes
to watch his son play soccer. And was I offended. Yeah, like,
we don't need to see your dogs out here. But

(38:55):
I felt I was like, this is better. Though we're
in an open space. There's lots of open here. He's
not right next to me. He was wearing flip flops. Anyway,
I was gonna see his toes anyway. And he so
he's over there by himself with his feet in the grass.
Do I think that's a good idea? No, those aren't
my feet. Also in thunderstorm, like if you live in
Virginia in the in the summers, like every day six pm,

(39:17):
there's like crazy fucking lender storms. So it was like
thunderstorms all fucking night off of at night, and so
the field was kind of wet. So not only was
his feet in the grass, it was in wet muddy grass.
And like, I don't know where we go from here?
Are you gonna go and wash your feet? You're gonna
put those feet in your car and drive away? How

(39:38):
are you ever going to wear those sandals again if
you get your your muddy, nasty feet in them. I
don't know none of my business either. I had to, like, princess,
stop thinking about that and focus on your son. But
at least we were outside, and we're not in an
airport on some plastic seats that probably have so much germs. Anyway,
and then you got your feet in my face. Okay,
why am I talking about this? Y'all? Use the odorant? Okay,

(40:00):
use the ordrant or stay home. It's one or the other,
all right. And if every time you walk past people
start thinking about having a patty milk, you need to
read think your life. Okay, why are we thinking about
sizzling fucking onions. Come on, why am I talking about this? Oh?

(40:21):
See me dropped that man? Drop that man. And when
she said, you should have told me this beforehand, I said,
you should have asked beforehand. But before he you let
him put that dick, and you should have said, do
you use the odorant? Who did you vote for? You
should be asking questions. I don't know. Are you a
regular mayonnaise usual? By the way, three out of five
my kids recently confessed me that they hate mayonnaise and

(40:43):
they don't want they they should be called male NAIs
but whatever mannais, and that they don't like it near them,
and they don't understand how it's everywhere. And I'm saying,
they're listening. They're listening. They're listening to me, They're listening
to me. I will say this this week LTW got

(41:03):
a slightly better wig. A slightly better wig. It's going
in the right direction. Because the thing about that wig
is it kind of looked like D. D. Pickles a
hair and the rug rats. Okay, it just was like
it was too short and too long at the same time.
It was in an awkward length where it's like you
either have to get shorter. I want to see you

(41:24):
in a pixie cut, or you have to get a
bob that weird. Almost a bob is not doing it
for us, and so I see that I'm trying to
make it into a bob. I got you. We're going
in the right direction. This is what we need to see.
I don't care about LTW. But that's just because I
don't care about any of that. Her trying to fuck
her husband. Okay, it wasn't I in Hamilton? Is that?

(41:49):
Is that what's going on. I know a lot of
people don't like him. I do. It's not that I
don't like him. I don't think he fits in this story.
And you know, somebody mentioned to me that a gay
man writist. I'm just like, I thought he got a
writer's room. I thought he had a fucking writer's room
and they had all the I mean, he had a
writer's room for the first one, and they had all

(42:10):
these young, different type of people in the writer's room
helping flesh out stories. Or is it one of those
writer rooms where they hire a bunch of people and
then and then the showrunner's just like, no, we're gonna
do what we're gonna do. Like, what is that? I
don't know. I don't hate LTW and I don't hate
her husband like a lot of people do. I just
don't care about that. I want, like maybe if she

(42:34):
starts fucking him. I don't know Aiden being around a lot.
I thought that would help me feel better about Aiden.
It doesn't. It doesn't Whyatt wants to live with his mama, okay,
let him kill her in his sleep. I shouldn't be
saying that. Why y'all need to get one of the
evaluated for some stuff, and y'all need to let Wyatt

(42:55):
have his medication whatever it is, let him have it shit,
try it shit. But Aiden being up there is not
exactly super like exciting for me. I do think it's
interesting that, you know, Carrie's still having sex with a
brawl on okay having sex, and then it's like, oh,
I gotta go see the neighbor downstairs, and Aiden's like, well,

(43:17):
how long are you gonna be? And she's like ours, sorry,
Like what's hours? Bit j ash, you Wei just coming back?
I hate a person. Don't answer a fucking question. How
long have you and the neighbors downstairs set aside to
do some running today? Is it eight hours, is it
thirteen hours? Is it two hours? What is it? Like?

(43:37):
You must know or until we're done? Okay, So if
you're there till next Thursday, I'm just supposed to be
okay with it. I hate people don't answer questions I anyway,
But Aiden, I actually like Aiden should be concerned about.
Was her name Duncan? Okay? Aiden, don't be don't be
concerned about nobody named fucking Duncan? Okay, But actually you

(44:00):
should be. You should be like, hmm, what's that about?
But also it's weird that you could be asking everybody
about it. That's weird. That's weird. Person who asked Carrie
or you just walk down the fucking stairs is not
gonna look a door anything else. I was thinking about
this episode. I can't really think to what's going on?
Is Harry feeling better? But now Charlotte's about to die?

(44:25):
Y'all think Charlotte Charlotte has vertico? Y'all think Charlotte got cancer?
What y'all think Charlotte got We're gonna find this like
peri of mento? Pause? Is she going to menopauseia, perio menopause?
Dried up? Daris cancer, leukemia something like that. That's what
they're gonna tell us that it is. I don't fucking know.

(44:45):
I don't care. I really if I, if I were
to rewrite this, I would have killed Samantha. I would
have killed Samantha so that we know she's not gonna.
I would have killed her. I would have had her die.
I had no phone calls on nothing. I would have
killed her. I would have had Carrie divorce Big and

(45:06):
so that she could be a little angry, because you
can't be mad when people will die. So it would
have put her in a different position like the first
season where we're hearing about oh Samantha. It would have
made her up like canon ee Samantha, make her a saint,
which is what she needs, and we get to hear
bad stuff about Big. Okay, that's what we wanted to Uh.

(45:30):
Steve and Miranda would have stayed together, but they would
they would have been our married couple dealing with married
couple things. We've been married for so fucking long. Nobody
has a sex drive anymore. Uh. He cheated on you
a long time ago, and you never fucking you never
really forgive him. We just forgave him because Carrie was
being a bitch and was like forgive them, and y'all

(45:51):
decided to bring on a third y'all should have started
Polly Amory, and then you would be hiding it from Brady,
right because you guys are like, Brady can't know that
we be fucking this girl together. Okay. But then Brady
finds out because he doesn't care and guess what, he
fucked that girl three years ago because he met her
at the park or some shit, So you gotta break
up with her, right, your threat will gotta break up,

(46:11):
so you gotta find another person. And then we're not
watching Miranda in these gay bars looking like a creep
because she don't have a fucking community. We were watching
Miranda and Steve being in these bars looking like fucking
creeps trying to get girls to come home with them. Okay, right,
then we get an empantasy empantitsy a rick to how

(46:34):
dysfunction storyline from Steve, so they do find another girl
to be a throuble with Miranda's getting on. Miranda's realizing, hey,
I like this more than that, Okay, I like, you know,
I like the Indies more than the altis okay, and
then Steve can't even get it up anymore. So what's happening.

(46:54):
She's just having sex with this person, and we're gonna
talk about the dynamics of this throuffle, all right, that
would have been very cool to see, okay mmm, And
then Charlotte. Charlotte's whole storyline should have been like her
realizing she's a bad mother, her realizing she's a bad
mother she's raised children with terrible personalities, and her being like,

(47:16):
I don't want to do this shit no more. I
want to go back to work. And she goes back
to work, and she shouldn't have gotten like a really
good job. She should have gotten like a lower level job.
Like she's starting over, and she's spending all these time
with her We got a little bit of it. She
spending all this time with her younger coworkers, but she's
not their ball. She's she's like not there. They're they're like,

(47:38):
she's not like exactly their level, but she's like too,
like a smidge up. But she's spending a lot more
time with the younger coworkers. They're backstabbing her. She's like
trying to deal with backstepping back. Harry is just there
is a loyal golden retriever husband to back her up.
She Big Carrie won some some art in the divorce

(48:05):
that like go into the museum from Big and like
she Carrie has to help her, like Land, Like she's
trying to get carried to put this in the museum
so she can get it from things like that. That's
what we should have been watching. Okay, well we're watching.
I don't know what, but I do know this. We're
forty eight minutes into this fucking podcast and I ain't
talked about Celebrity Fit Club yet, and that's a problem.

(48:27):
Let's let's let's get to it. This episode is called
Mind over Matter. It's season seven, episode seven of Celebrity
Fit Club. We only have two episodes after this. This week,
Bobby Brown is like, you know, apparently he did go
to London and Amsterdam and all that, and now he's
back and he's like, he took his his shirt off

(48:47):
on stage and it felt good and he said he's
been losing late. His body looks different. How much way
have you lost, Bobby three towns. Aren't you the one
that was smoking and drinking? How much weight have you lost?
So much weight that we can take off her shirt.
I thought Bobby Brown's well known for taking off his
shirt and throwing peblic thrust into somebody's daughter. But that's wonderful.

(49:10):
I'm glad you feel happy. But but m I don't
know if it's basing any facts. Harvey calls out Tunisia
and the fact that she hasn't brought the number to
the scale, and she goes and he's like, what are
you gonna do this week? She's like, bring a number
to the scale. I don't know. We're already here. It's
not you're gonna lose. Do they lose weight in the
last two days, then this and this two days that
they're there or something they don't lose. I don't. I

(49:32):
don't think that's true. I think I think whatever you whatever,
you come to camp with that that weekend or three
or four days, that's what you brought the camp. Uh.
Shar Jackson this week has had dehydration and exhaustion. She's
been sick all week, Shar, Why are you always sick?
What's going on there? Okay? So she asked to sit
out this week and I was like, okay, well, dehydration,

(49:55):
she must be skinny now and plot twist no, they
addressed Jay, Bobby and Nicole. That's whole situation where Jay
had to turn around last week. They were like, what
do you want to say to your group? And he's like,
chars in the group too, but they don't include sharing this.
I guess he wasn't talking a shar He was like,

(50:15):
stop eating chips and it's not drinking wine and just
do it, get it done, get it done, get it done.
But they're fine. They talked it over that weekend. Bobby
even gave him a hug. So or that week and
Bobby even gave him a hug. So there's no drama
there all right, at least according to Jay, and I
guess the others back them up on it. Harvey says

(50:35):
that the Marines go through harsh trainings, cold rain, and
a dog on bait of fire ants and that they
gonna have something like that too. I find out to
be very interesting when then when they come out they
just go on a race. I don't where the fire ants.
But also Harvey and his catch freight of dog on

(50:57):
home is a lot and every time he he says,
I imagine him as a cartoon dog and see that would
make sense, right, he's a cartoon dog who's who's a
drill instructor, who's in the military, right, But he's a dog,
but everybody else is a human and they don't And
although we can all tell he's a dog with they
interact with him like he's a fucking human. And his

(51:18):
catchphrase is dog own and people find it hilarious. But
they never put two and two the together that he's
a dog. Like they know he's a dog, but when
he says dog gone, they don't go, oh, he's saying
that because he's a dog. They say that. They're like, oh,
he's just got a great sense of humor. It's people.
People are real uptuse in this in this cartoon. That's
what I imagine him to be, like, like, I'm dog

(51:41):
On Harvey the Dog and and I'm here to get
you all in shape. This dog one aren't the dog
on Marines and told me how to do this, And
that's what I'm imagining. It makes it very hard for
me to keep to to to be serious when I'm
looking at thinking about Harvey's very hard. Today's challenge is

(52:03):
a race. It goes they're going in a circuit. They
they're going up a big heel. They go as high
as three hundred feet in elevation. I don't know what
that means, y'all know, I can't do like measurements. It's
three hundred feet a lot. It's a lot, right, because
this is like one foot, like about the average size
of a male foot, Like, so three hundred feet is

(52:24):
I gues it seems like a lot. But okay, everyone
hates it. But Sebastian, he's like running is his secret weapon,
and he feels very confident. It's super hot outside. They
have an hour and this race is kind of weird,
and that this surprised me towards the end the race

(52:45):
is that they're gonna put an hour timer. They're gonna
run this circuit that goes up a big heel and
I guess down a big hill because otherwise how gonna
be a circuit? Uh, They're gonna run this and whoever,
and then they're gonna figure out how long people how
far people ran, right, and then they're gonna take the

(53:07):
average of the team and whoever has the longest, like
who ran the farthest average wins? All right, But here's
the thing. There's only three people on the Red team
for shar is out, Sebastian takes off okay, and Jay
Jay has a plan. Jay's like Sebastian runs, He's gonna
take off like a little shot. Tanisha don't run. She's
gonna be way far behind. So those two she can't

(53:29):
see each other out. So if he and Nicole can
get ahead, can stay ahead of Casey and Kevin, then
they're gonna win. He and once you think about Bobby,
he ain't think about Bobby at all. Baby, He ain't
think about Bobby all except for one time when Jay
yells bybye, just as Bobby was lacking behind. I was like, oh, all,

(53:50):
Whitney is turning over in her grave that white boys,
and my catchraes bye. So that's Whitney is. I don't
know if that's a catchphraise. It's not like the way
a dog drill sergeant saying dog gone could be catchphrased. Whitney.
Everybody's yelled Bobby at some point in their life, So

(54:12):
just calm down. The heel is the hardest part. K
Fat is getting ate up by it. Tanisha is standing
at the bottom of the heel crying, and I just
want to be honest. I want to make fun of her, right,
I want to make fun of her. Stay at the
end of this hill, watching people run up the heel
and her going. But I'm not because I too would

(54:36):
be crying at to be saying, hell, I'm not doing
I'm not running. I don't even know how y'all do it.
How do y'all make y'all legs keep going? Don't your
legs say stop? Like right after you start, mind you.
I I would have been standing at the bottom of that,
He'll crying and wondering to myself, was a check good

(54:57):
enough for this fucking show? What did I even fucking
say spend it on? Did I go to Long john
Silver's a lot? What did I do with the fucking money?
What did I do with the money? Why am I?
Why me? Why are me? Why am I here? This
is what I've been doing, so like I want to
have like some some sassy words for Tanisha. Standing at

(55:18):
the bottom of that, He'll crying like my son when
his bloom pops, because there's nothing like having a balloon
when you're an elementary school child and you try and
try and hold onto it, but it always pops. Yeah,
I want to I want to make fun of her,
but I too be crying. I'd be right next to her,
crying together. We'd be holding hands, crying because what the

(55:38):
fuck am I doing here for. At this point, Harvey,
who's sitting in the shade of like a golf cart
or something with a bullhorn sorry, yelling at Tunisia Dad
Sebasti's about to lap her. And she's like, I'm not arguing,

(55:59):
you know, I'm gonna save my energy. I'm not arguing
with you. And he's like, yeah, cause you don't need
your energy. You need to run. She runs a little
bit and he's like, ooh, I'm like you should have
done that, Tanish, because now he don't think he needs
to talk to you crazy to get a rise out
of you, to get you to do what you gotta do.
At some point, Kevin, we see Kevin smoking a fucking
cigarette on the race. Is that the end of the
race and they just fucking with the editing? I don't know,

(56:20):
but guess what he's smoking. He stopping at smoking cigarette.
He's still faster than Tannisia, So there we go. Casey's
very proud of herself. She says she came in second
behind Sebastian. I was like, second, what did you come
in second? And then she goes, yes, the second behind
Sebastian on the blue team, and I was like, oh, okay, okay, okay, okay. Basically,
you're like, everybody's gonna beat Tania. Of course, I just

(56:44):
hope to beat Kevin. That's what you should say. I'm
just proud of myself for beating Kevin. And then we
can all tell you, well, it's not that big of
a deal. He does smoke cigarettes, and he's literally smoking
a cigarette on the race as we speak. That would
be like you beating somebody who was I don't know,
giving on like literally giving birth, like on the trail,
and you'd been like I passed her, Well, she's busy,

(57:06):
you know. I don't. I don't know if we count
this as a win, but okay, a win's a win, baby, Okay.
So this is a weird race, like I said, and
when it comes down to it, there's not much difference.
They had us believing that Sebastian was like, so far
I wanted to say streets ahead. I heard someone say,

(57:29):
not streets ahead. They said something similar to it, like
leagues ahead or something, and immediately community Chevy Chase and
Pierced and his Streets Ahead like here's my head, and
I was like, wow, that's so interesting that that, like,
like I obviously know exactly why I want to say that,

(57:50):
but there's like the majority of people in this world
when I would be like Streets Ahead would be like,
what the fuck are you talking about? It's and it's
so grained in my head from just a show that
I really enjoyed, and I have a million of those.
I was talking to my therapist and I told her

(58:11):
how hard it is. We were talking about trust stuff, and
I was like, because people always prove me right, and
then I have to be like, I know you're that girl.
They always said you were that. I always knew you were.
And I was pointing and she's just looking at me,
and I'm like, oh, she doesn't know I'm doing a
list of edwards. She doesn't know that, and what is
this doing to me? I'm pointing right now. I'm like
literally pointing as we go, that girl, I always knew

(58:33):
you were. Okay, she's talking to Roxy Andrews because you
know people, she talking to Roxy. It's like the second
All Stars that she's doing this but she's you know,
being ridiculous, but she's also I mean, people have been
talking about her, so you know, oh, it's it's the
All Star. I think it's the second All Stars where
they would let where she's not talking to roxy she's

(58:57):
talking to doesn't use it your anymore, Fife. Uh feels
like doesn't use the drag name anymore. It feels like
what'sh used by the production everything. Okay, I believe, I
believe her. I also don't think that they can show
you doing stuff that you didn't do. You did do
those things. There's just more context to them, and I

(59:18):
can I can absolutely believe that. Like, like I said,
most people are like medium bad people or like low
grade bad people. We have very few hitlers in here.
Over the lady that was I know she was on
the airport. There's very few people high up on the
chain like that. And most people were just selfish, not
necessarily evil anyway. Yeah, So I was just thinking about how,

(59:42):
like I have all these catch raises and stuff that
like people don't know what the fuck I'm talking about
through this niche like drag Race has a huge fandom,
but it's in terms of the people in the world.
That's a minute amount of people, you know, anyway streets ahead.
So they had us thinking that Sebastian was just so

(01:00:02):
far ahead of everybody, But there's only like a point
two difference between him and and Casey and Nicole who
I mean, excuse me, Jaye and Cole stick together. There's
only a point three mile difference between how much Kevin
ran and how much Casey ran. Right, So, like, I
don't know it. I think y'all dicking his soup. I

(01:00:26):
think y'all messing with the fucking editing. No, I know
you're messing with the editing, because that's what you do.
But like this was a super obvious part of that.
The Red team wins, you know why because two of
them ran together and did just as well as Sebastian,
just a couple of miles behind him, and one was lagging,

(01:00:50):
and they took the average with with Sebastian on the
Blue team doing really well, but he's only he's only
like zero point two miles ahead of the two best
people on the Red team. And then you've got k
Fed lagging and Tanisia lagging, and well again, Ksey and

(01:01:12):
k Fed are not that far apart. From each other.
So it just Jay's like Ja's strategy to stay when
the cole actually really helped them. So they went and
what did they get? They get a we Fit plus
because this show is brought to you by we Fit
remember Weise Embruiz. I was just watching a TikTok because

(01:01:34):
I think about Weeze, which I'm which actually thinks me
to the Switch because it's the successor of the Wei
and uh, the Wii two just came out helped okay,
which I will not be buying. I don't have any
neat for that. I don't have any fucking need for that. Uh.
But I'm not saying I'll never get it. It's just
there's literally no reason for we spend that type of

(01:01:56):
money on on a on a new week. And I
actually own I owned seven wheeze. I own two of
the the big wheeze, right, and then I owe I
own five switch lights because all my kids have switch lights.
They mostly bought themselves or bought half of them, and
I bought the other half. But but like that's when

(01:02:18):
a Wheeze are in this fucking house. I mean, uh,
switches are in this house. But I saw a TikToker.
So he was like, I have a box. I have
a wee O lead, which I'm assuming she's a switch
O lead, which I think she's stuck in the second
version of switch switch to maybe I'm wrong about that,
but anyway, I have a brand new one on the

(01:02:41):
box in my children's desk, and all they have to
do to clean their desks is to do is to
clean their room. And they would find it, and I'm like,
and they just haven't done it, and they just haven't
done it. And there are a lot of comments being
like millennial moms. Millennial moms keep boxes, so they probably
just think it's an old box. I'm like, that's just
you dunk in a millennials, Like these generational wars are

(01:03:02):
a lot, but whatever, that's a that's a very Internet
thing to do. By the way, it's a very Internet thing.
But she said they just won't clean it up, and
I'm like, are they supposed to just randomly clean up
stuff to find gifts? Is that how it works there?
And how rich you must be? Immediately blocked her because

(01:03:24):
I was like, this is a woman's so far out
of my fucking tax bracket that she's just like out
here buying these overpriced fucking systems and just leaving them
places for our kids to find. That's like you buying
that wasn't an event in your house because yeah, I
don't need to be watching his tax bracket. It's giving
me bad ideas about my own tax bracket. Let me,
let me, let you, let me, let you go into

(01:03:44):
the night. But yeah, I was just like, why are
you playing these fucking games with your kids? Like what's
the purpose of this? And we we parents play all
kinds of games with children because we think that it's
better if they earn some or we think that it's
better if they come up with it on our own
or whatever. When you could literally just say, hey, you know,

(01:04:06):
I won't be wanting I even wanted to switch to
I'm gonna get it for you. I really like to
have your room clean before we go get it, so
could you work on that? And then like, why are
like people play games with each other, especially children? It's
so fucking annoying. What was it talking about? Oh? Do
we fit? This? This episode is sponsorbley that we fit?
Not this podcast episode? This? Uh, this show episode? They

(01:04:29):
actually have them playing everybody gets a we fit? Right?
They talk about the we Fit and then they have
them playing it at the end of the episode. Well
if you have the end, but they have to go
back to the to the to the to the bunks
and play it, and the people who want to get
to see what they want and people who lost get
to see what they lost out on. Or that we

(01:04:51):
fit has to be in this episode. So many minutes
for y'all to get paid. Mmm, how ridiculous. As for
the dead weight on the Blue Team, Tanisha nominates herself
and it was her idea for everybody else to dominating her,
and Harvey's super proud of her for nominating herself and

(01:05:12):
taking responsibility. I'm like, I don't know how proud you
should be of someone who's like, oh, I was last.
I don't she was gonna get voted dead weight no
matter what. What the fuck? But she has to move
like horse manure and I guess that's what she does,
all right. The next thing is the Life Coach. The

(01:05:34):
Life Coach wants to talk about mind over matter, and
when she's talking about what she did, she's gone on
the Internet, so she says and found mean comments about
them and wants to show it to them stick and
work it through. The first comment is for about Sebastian Bach,
and he reads that he used to be hot and
he looks like a fat faced, nose picking little boy
hanging out in the back of a bakery waiting for
a cookie. And then I was like, okay, production brothies, like,

(01:05:56):
when would you even find a comment like that about
Sebastian Bach, Even in twenty ten, where would you have
found or twenty or two thousand and nine, whatever, Where
would you have found a comment like that about Sebastian
Bach in the comments of the dirty on Reddit? Where
would you found it? Someone tweeted that I as we
had said more of them. Some of these I think

(01:06:18):
are real. I think k Fed's is real, and they
found it in the comments of Perez Hilton. But I
do not believe that all of these are real. I
think a lot of these they production just made up.
We'll get there. Nicole Eggerts says that she swallowed she

(01:06:39):
like she swallowed a dolphin. On our way to save
a dying child. We're stopping seven eleven to get twinkies.
Somebody wrote that at the production uh Tanisha said that
she is ugly on the inside Now sign. That's probably true.
But also somebody wrote that in the production Jays said
that they love his clothes, but he's a bitch. Where

(01:07:00):
would you have found that at In two thousand and nine,
this would have been like, oh no, they didn't off
a project off a project runway? What did they just
google their names? I I can't decide whether or not
they found that I or not. Casey says that she
is the fatty from high school musical and someone needs
to tell her to get in the gym or stop eating.

(01:07:20):
I think they made that up. Bobby Brown says he
it says he is a hot mess and he's fat
now he finally put down the drugs and picked up
some cheeseburgers. Bossip, Where did you get that? Where was
you have gotten that? Bob? Bobby Brown says, it's funny
and he's in that. He's not eating cheeseburgers. He's eating

(01:07:41):
a bucket of chicken. He did put down the drugs
and that's what we But he says something else he
keeps going on. He says, this is people are talking
about me as long as people are talking about and
this is what we get in the business for to
we talked about. As long as they get my name right,
they spell my name right, I'm fine. And I don't
know how much of that's bravado from Bobby, but I

(01:08:02):
under this is the attitude to have because when people
are like, why didn't you leave such celebrities won't know
because they don't want me to because if I let
them alone that I wouldn't talk about them. They couldn't
get marketing deals, and they couldn't sell their albums or
their order shitty fucking TV shows or whatever. They don't
want me to stop talking about them. They want me to. Now,

(01:08:23):
should we be talking about everyone as if they're a
fucking human being and have basic human like and have
basic human decency about people? Yes we should. Okay, But
this idea that celebrities need privacy, No, they don't. I
don't think they are a commodity to be bought and
soul and that they are allowed to stop being a
celebrity whenever they fucking want to. I believe that. But
nobody gets into being a celebrity for privacy. That's not true.

(01:08:49):
And the cost of celebrity, the cost of fame is privacy, right,
That's just how it goes so no, I won't stop
talking about them, not at all. And Bobby's right, like,
this is why you do what you do. So people
talk about you just because they're not saying what you
want today doesn't mean you can control the narrative. Kevin

(01:09:12):
says that Kevin Federline is a term described to describe
a lazy bone with no job, sits around the house
all day doing nothing, and moves you off his rich
ex wife. I think that was on Pop pres Celting.
I think that is what people think about Kevin Federline.
He said that, like he's not taking too personally. At
least part of it is true. He has been lazy,

(01:09:33):
and he does wish he could spend all of his
ex wife's money, and he laughs and stuff, and I
was like, Kevin, I don't know. I don't like his
laugh sometimes like a demon to me. I don't know.
Shar Jackson should have says she should have some dignity,
stop giving interviews, saying Kafed is your best friend, has
some decency. He left you high and dry for a

(01:09:55):
certain pop princess. Hello, did you have a lobotomy or something?
Production wrote that what does decency have to do with
the fact that you that you that you dumb. What
does that have to do with anything? I don't know
if Kevin's her best friend. I I have a feeling
she said that when Kevin when when they first broke up,

(01:10:16):
because he was her best friend. A lot of people
make their romantic partner their best friend, which is whatever.
Some people don't have best friends. I mean, I personally
don't like the title. I have lots of friends, but
they all got their own thing. I wouldn't rank them
or anything. But like, she probably did say that, but
I don't know. I did she say it recently? Does

(01:10:38):
she think they're best friends now? Cause I hope that's
not true. She says that it's no one's business. She
says she's been on TV since she was three years
old and everything she's ever done is equitding to this.
She gets called in audition just so people can be
nosy and ask her about Kevin. I was like, that's tough.

(01:10:59):
Like you're trying to fucking do it. You're trying to
get money, you're trying to get a role and shit,
and you in the find that they just called you
there to be funny to be like, hey, so do
you ever see Britney Spearits like, come on, man, come on.
Keva says he deals with the two but they're but
he and Shar are still cool, and he laughs and
Sharn kind of sneers at him. Here's the thing. I

(01:11:23):
think Shar and Kevin are cool because Shar and Kevin
have to be cool to deal with the two children
they have. Okay, And it's something that a lot of
people like people talk about child support like like like
they know what they're talking about. But it varies by state,

(01:11:44):
and you do not have to. Child support is not
consider your income, Like you don't pay taxes on child
support because and again there might be some states where
you do, but for the most part, you don't pay
taxes on child support. You pay taxes on alimony because
that's income for you. Child support is a reimbursement, like

(01:12:07):
you're supposed to be spending money, and there's and the
child's other parent is reimbursing in spenses based on the
on what they make and how much time that they
spend with the child to spend money on them. Right,
That's how child support is supposed to work. It's why
when people were like, oh, you got the child support check.
Did you take it? Did you take it in hands
of the kid? That's not what that's for. It's a

(01:12:29):
reimbursement of what you spend. Child support doesn't end like
I wouldn't even be surprised if it doesn't end like
on the eighteenth birthday, but the month after that, because
it's a reimbursement. I wouldn't be surprised if that's not works.
But child support is not including Kevin's income. In fact,
I don't know at this point. He's just girlfriends with

(01:12:50):
that girl. They're not married yet. I don't even know
if in California her income when they got married would
be included in calculating his child support. So what does
Shar get from Kevin? Nothing? Probably Shar's child support from
Kevin is probably nothing or so small, like the bare
minimum of the Steak can give her. There. Shar probably

(01:13:15):
handles the most of the finances for those kids, and
she has to work directly with Kevin to get things
like more time or less time, or I need you
to spend this, like she has to work directly with
them like so, I like, I don't want you guys
to think that it's probably that because Kevin gets a
lot of child support from Britney Spears that Shar benefits

(01:13:37):
from that. She probably doesn't. She probably doesn't except that
her house is that Kevin's house is way nicer than hers,
So her kids do want to go over there and
swim and hang out with their siblings who do have
really nice things because they're Britney Spears kids. You know
what I'm trying to say. I bet Kevin and and

(01:14:01):
Shar they have it. Like when I was envisioning this
this show, I guess I'd forgotten that, Like this isn't
the first time Kevin and Sharn have seen each other
in years. It's not. It's not like we're a regular
breakup with it Ben Shar and Kevin speak to each
other regularly. They text together regularly, They see each other regularly.

(01:14:23):
When Kevin was at her birthday party, that was her
trying to like, I mean, you don't have to be
like this, but her trying to be like a blended family,
like just come on over, your dad. Yeah, you're dacking
up to my birthday party, Like nobody needs you to
be that cool. It's just it's unnecessary, but okay, because
they do spend a lot of time together. They are
together all the time, you know, yeah, like it's interesting,

(01:14:48):
uh they And I'm gonna talk about this a little
bit later. But Kevin is charismatic. Kevin is cool. Kevin
is the type of person that superficially you would probably

(01:15:08):
get along with as long as you don't depend on
shit from him. Like if you just knew Kevin as
another parent at the soccer game, like you'd be like, Oh,
Kevin's cool. He jokes, He's got a little smirk to him,
his face, his whole face smirks. I don't think. I
think Kevin's quite likable, not in a likable dumb, dumb

(01:15:33):
kind of way, but he's just a likable person as
long as you don't need anything from him. And I
know a million people like this, And so I bet
Shar seeing the narrative of her being a woman scorned,
a woman left, a woman despised, all these things that

(01:15:53):
have been going on since what two thousand and four,
two thousand and five, and Kevin being as like likable
as he is, I know, I bet money that Shar
really tries hard to be cool with Kevin. And it's
easy to be cool with Kevin on a regular basis
with just being like, oh, what time are you getting
the kids? Oh, you know she got a swim meet,

(01:16:14):
blah blah blah. I know, I know you got her.
You've taken her right, Oh, I'll take her cool. I'm
gonna go to the swim meet, so I'll see you there,
like like that is probably very easy between them. They
and Kevin is funny and I can and so shar
I can see them making jokes at the door, at
the pickup or whatever. That doesn't change the fact that

(01:16:39):
the reason people know shar Jackson is because of what
Kevin did. I'll talk more about that in the bit,
But I do believe they're cool. I just don't think
it didn't come without sacrifices from Shar. So now they
have like a Microsoft Publisher mock up of like some

(01:16:59):
head They put some pictures of the of the of
the Celebrity Fit Club team on there, and then pictures
of Harvey's screaming and doctor Ian and whatever the life
coaches lady is, and they have a headline. They have
to go up there and write a headline, and most
of them write likes, uh kfed still cool or still
awesome or Casey Stalvey is still a star or something
like that. Sebastian walks up there and watch and writes

(01:17:22):
going on tour Guns n' Roses in twenty ten, and
I'm like, oh, he must have just found it on
like break or something like when they all got their
phones out for like lunch, like real lunch from Crafty
or whatever, like, he probably just found that out. And
it's like, yeah, okay, guns and Roses, just Axel right,

(01:17:45):
guns and Roses. At this point, it's just Axel Rose right.
So now it's peachea time the next morning and Sebastian says,
there's this cool looking chicken from these cool looking bikes,
and her name is she's an Ironman triathlete, which is
when you swim for two miles, bike for one hundred

(01:18:05):
and twelve one hundred and twelve miles did not mean
twelve miles one hundred and twelve miles. How was it
taking you back one hundred and twelve miles one hundred
and twelve? How far is that? I don't fucking know.
And then you run twenty six miles twenty six point
whatever miles. It's a marathon. I happen to know what

(01:18:26):
this is because somebody at my job like competed in Ironman,
Like they went to New Zealand or some shit, and
like we were watching them on the feet. Well I
wasn't watching them. I'm not gonna watch that. Like first
of all, that woman who did it, like she got

(01:18:47):
a lot of gumption, is what I gotta say about that.
That said sometimes I'd be like, you could have turned
this in on time. You ran twenty six miles, bitch, Like,
never know, somebody, never never let people find out you're
that strong. Because when you're like, oh I can't tend
to meet, I'm like, mmm, but you could. But you
could buy one hundred and twelve miles in New Zealand,
but you can't come to the meeting. Hmm, Like come on,

(01:19:10):
you can make it work. You made a lot of
things work. Then you swim two miles or some shit
and swim it two miles a lot. What's that? I
don't know the fact that she just went to New Zealand.
I was like, she do a lot. Like she's very strong.
I know she can. I know she can update her
slide on this power point within twenty four hours. Just
get it done, baby. But here's the thing about Sarah.

(01:19:33):
She did all that with what one leg cause and
everyone gassed disability. And this is the second time, or
maybe even the third time. Maybe the boxer had ADHD
I don't know, but this is like the second time.
Didn't they have that drummer with one arm where they'd
be like, if they can do it, you can do it.
Like fuck out of here anyway. So they're gonna do

(01:19:59):
a weight circuit, a bike a bike ride and then
the uphill run like and everyone's like, why are we
doing this? We just running yesterday? And so they go
and Sebastian tell like as they're running, Sebastian is next
to Sarah and her prosthesis and Sebastian's like, yeah, I'm
going on tour guns and Roses. I'm like, Sebastian, you're

(01:20:19):
going on tour with Axel, but just say that. But
the most surprising thing is that Tanisha beat Bobby running
up that fucking hill. Everyone cheers her on as Bobby
looks like he's about to die. Fact, he doesn't make
it up the hill. They have to driver him up
there in the truck. He shows old his arm out
look at all thuggish and like yeah, like he ride

(01:20:40):
like he riding the strip, like I'm sure if you
have a quote unquote strip anywhere you are, the people
ride up and down it, like here in Virginia Beach
there the strip is by the ocean front and Pete.
When I was a kid, people would just like, on
like a Friday night, you just get in your car
and you be riding up and down the strip, just
waste a fucking get guts used to be cheaper back then,

(01:21:01):
just wasting fucking gas, meeting up with people, stopping at places,
maybe getting the shitty hotel room down there to do
whatever you're gonna fucking do, and just riding up and
down the strip at night. It was before we could
go to clubs down there, and then we would go
to clubs. There are eighteen up clubs down there, and

(01:21:22):
then they'll be twenty one and up and then you
by then I was too old to be in the
fucking club. It felt like I was too old to
be the club. I'm not a club person anymore. I'm
a dive bar person, but I still Casey reminds us
of Tanisha. On the first day, threw up running from
the mess hall to the line where they line up

(01:21:45):
and now shes beat Bobby Brown. I'm like Bobby Brown
when he gets out, he's like, he's like, I got
a Charlie horse in my knee, which I thought Charlie
Horst was like a muscle spasm and your knees in
a muscle. Yeah, like your knee is a bl So
maybe he been around his knee or a hernia in
his knee, a hernia. I don't know. I don't even
know what ernia is. Is it something when it like sticks.

(01:22:08):
I thought hernia was like in your intestines when it
sticks out or whatever. Like I thought you could only
get like a hernia in your back or in your stomach.
I don't listen, I don't I don't know. I don't know.
I know, I don't run, and I don't either hernia
or Charlie worse to tell you that. Uh, they're making
fun of him. So that's just like a one leg
legged lady just beat you up the hill. And I'm like, okay,

(01:22:30):
but I mean she's like super buffed, super fat and
she runs tracklons, Okay, So like what is her one
leg have to do with anything? All? Right? Disability? So
like Jesus the life coach comes to get k Fed
to guilt him about Shar Jackson. They have a private meeting,

(01:22:54):
I mean not so private. We're there and here's the thing,
like the coaches like, you've done this to Shar and everything.
I have a very nuanced take on Kfed, which is
why I will not be doing chaotic next because I
think that if I keep looking at Kfed, I'm gonna
get some empathy for him, and I don't want it.

(01:23:15):
Like he's a piece of shit. I think he is.
He's a piece of shit and he's probably like fucked
over a million fucking people in his life. He's doing
that because he's non confrontational, he's avoidant, he doesn't deal
with his feelings, and he's the type of person that
will like like, instead of leaving you, will just like

(01:23:36):
keep living with you until they start dating someone else
and then they'll leave you then and you'll be like
I thought everything was fine. I'm literally pregnant with your
baby and he's like, actually, I haven't loved you in
two years, like that sort of shit, like doesn't communicate feelings,
doesn't talk about this stuff, which is like, like, I know,
my attachment style is trust no, bitch, I've known that
all my life. I know that I run from things, right,

(01:23:58):
But that's why When and the therapist was like, oh,
you're very avoidant, I was like, you think that and
she basically showed off with her little test and was like,
I can answer all these for you, blah blah blah.
But the thing is is that I'm not. I'm very
confrontational about my feelings, and I'm very communicative, sometimes overly communicative,

(01:24:18):
communicative like I need to shut up. Sometimes there's no
way you won't know how I feel. I'll tell you
how I feel. Now. I might still run, but well
before I run, you knew what the fuck was going on.
I'm never gonna like let you guess unless you like
fucked me over to the point where I'm just like
I don't need the energy, like having the conversations beneath me.
I at one point, me and mister Curtis will argue,

(01:24:40):
and this was like a couple of months ago, and
he said something and he went to finish talking about it, and
I was like, I can't because if I continue, this
conversation is beneath me. Like I have, We've talked about it,
I've done my best here, but if you still don't
understand what's happening, like me participating in this with you

(01:25:02):
is me lowering myself. And I know it sounds like
like fucked up, but that's how I felt. I was like,
I can't, I can't do this anymore. You know what
it is. I think we should stop talking now, And
that's weird coming from me who wants to overtalk everything.
But like, sometimes talking more doesn't make it better. We

(01:25:24):
both know where each other stands. I'm not gonna sit
here and beg I won't do that, so you think
about how you feel about it. It takes them longer
to think about things than me, like he does not.
It's very hard for him to express what he's thinking
right and for me, I'm like that, but pup up up,
I can tell you everything. So sometimes I have to
stop the because because he's actually gotten to the point

(01:25:45):
where he'll just let me talk. But that's not good
for either one of us. I think that sometimes I
just have to be like, Okay, you've made your point already,
stop repeating yourself. He said, he understood. You're not gonna
get the back and forth of him that you want
You've got to give him space to process it. And

(01:26:05):
he will and he will come back to me and say, hey,
I was thinking about what you say. He will do that,
but we can't get there if I'm still pounding on
him over and over again with words, we can't get there.
And again. Some of that shit afterwards is just me begging. Right,
I'm just I'm like, please, please, please, please understand me.
Connect with me, connected with me. Connect Like that's like,

(01:26:27):
shut up, you've already said it. Breathe step back, But
like that's why I was like, I don't know if
you avoid, it's like I'm not off. I'm directly on
and I am, but I also run and the so
I listen, I understand like Kevin, like he is somebody

(01:26:51):
who really thinks more about like Shar. What he did
the Shar would have been fucked up on the micro level,
on a personal level, just so on every day people
who live down the street level. But what he did
to her elevated to her a macro level. Made her
famous for being left. They made her a bitter baby mama.

(01:27:13):
I don't know if she was bitter, but maybe she
should have been. People were talking about how her kids
looked right, and how it was good because they because
they wanted Brittany to be happy. They'd be like, yeah,
Kevin left because the kids are like, people used to
talk mad shit about her, and she didn't do anything
to ask for that. She certainly her relationship ended and

(01:27:36):
she got to be famous in a bad way because
of it. Right, he does not care about that. He's
still like, yeah, you know, it didn't work out, blah
blah blah, which is true. Like, guys, just because you
want to be with somebody doesn't mean they have to
be with you. What they have to do is show
you dignity and care, and if they choose not to,

(01:27:58):
that makes it even more reason why you don't need
to be with him. But like in terms of like,
oh he should have stayed with her because she had
the kids or whatever, I don't know if that's true.
What he owed her was dignity and he took it
from her. And as his life continued to spiral out
of control with Brittany and all the shit that happened afterwards,

(01:28:18):
shar keeps getting dragged along with it. This is true,
This is his fault. This does gonna follow her forever.
This is her when she dies and TMZ writes that
she's dead, they're gonna mention kay fed leaving her for Brittany.
That's what they're gonna do. But that said, her public

(01:28:44):
humiliation and the redemption that she needs to have is
not his responsibility. And I want to be clear, like,
it's not saying that he he fucked up. He's a
piece of shit. I personally, I can see how he's
got a care. I see how he's a likable person.
But so many people I know that are just like likable.

(01:29:05):
They skate by on that fucking personality and they are
not accountable for their actions because people they just be
chilling and people will be like, oh, these are cool. Hang.
I'm glad that those that her redemption is not his responsibility,
because if it was, she never fucking diet it. Remember,

(01:29:25):
everything that happened to you in the past is not
your fault. I'm not gonna say that shit is your fault.
Your future is your responsibility. It is up to shar
to write the future. And she cannot wait for Kevin
to show the correct emotions because what if he never does.
What if he doesn't have access to the emotion. That's
another thing. That's like been plaguing me a lot, because

(01:29:49):
you know, it's been really like forgiving my parents to
the extent that I have and being able to still
be in a good relationship with them often often comes
from the fact that they are apologetogetic about things about life.
They will fully admit they didn't know what the fuck
they were doing. They they will listen, they don't roll

(01:30:09):
all the way over, but they will definitely be like,
I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. I
just thought that was the way you do it, like
I could do it now. No, that's not what you're
supposed to do with kids. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But what
has helped me immensely is realizing that the shit I
didn't get from my family of origin, my parents and
my family wasn't because they were keeping it from me.
Wasn't because they had and they were like, Nanna in

(01:30:30):
a booboo, you can't get it. It's because they didn't
have it. They didn't even know what it looked like.
Nobody gave it to them. They didn't even know it
was missing. They didn't know to look for it. How
could they have known they didn't have TikTok is playing
shit to them. Now, Yeah, if they have been a
little bit more emotionally intelligent and maybe adults when they
had me and maybe I don't know, not addicted to

(01:30:51):
shit and like all that other shit, and didn't have
like three other kids that they were also failing in
different ways. Yeah, yeah, maybe they could have figured it out.
But they didn't. And it was never that they knew
what to do. They just didn't do it. It was never
that they had what I needed. They just wouldn't give
it to me. They just didn't have it. And that's

(01:31:12):
not to say, okay, that's not to say it was okay. Yeah,
they were doing their very best, and their best just
wasn't good enough. Not all the time. It just wasn't.
But I cannot hold on to why didn't they give
it to me? Why didn't they give it to me?
Why didn't They didn't fucking have it? They didn't know
where to get it. They wouldn't have recognized it the

(01:31:35):
things that I need. If you would have slapped them
in the fucking face with it, they didn't know. And
sometimes I will recognize that and other people around me like, okay,
this person is still and you know the outcome is
this I don't get it. Whether they intentionally held it
from me or whether they didn't have it, the truth
is I didn't get it. So now what we're gonna do?

(01:31:55):
How do I get it? And I feel that way
sometimes about mister Curtise. There are certain things you know,
they have that eighty twenty year old right that a
good relationship, you get eighty percent of what you need
and want, and there's always gonna be something you don't get.
And what you have to figure out is that with
that twenty percent, how do you give it to yourself?
How do you teach them how to give it to Like?
What are you gonna do about that? You don't go

(01:32:17):
out and search for someone else, because then they'll have
They might have fifty of what you need, a forty
percent of what you need. You find the person that
gives you most of what you need, and you figure
out what to do with the other twenty percent. And
for mister Curtis, that mister Curtis does a lot of
good things. Right He be on my fucking nerves, Don't
get me wrong. He be on my motherfucking nerves right now.

(01:32:39):
He's sleeping on the wrong side of the bed. He
sleeping on my side of the bed because he wants
me to sleep on his side of bed. But he
doesn't wanna move our stuff. He just wants to switch
sleeping positions cause he believes that will face each other.
If we do that, we will not face each other.
Because you breathe hot, hard breath on me at night.
It's we can kiss, we can hold hands, we can
talk in the night, but then at some point I'm

(01:33:00):
always gonna flip away from you so I can go
to sleep because that's how I sleep. Okay, we don't
go to sleep together. Sleep is a place inside of me.
Only I can get there, and you're sleep only you
can get there. We can't go together. We go alone,
and eventually it's like being at the end of like
a forked road where we're just like chit chatting, and
then finally it's like, well, I gotta head on over

(01:33:20):
to my destination, my sleep. Goodbye. But yeah, you get
somebody fucking nerves, guys, really get somebody fucking nurves. Uh
he I cannot list the amount of things that'd be
like what the fuck tell me your thought process, But
the fact is is that like some of the stuff

(01:33:41):
I don't get for him, like real stuff, not when
I'm talking about litt annoying stuff like it's got a
it's got a tonel clipper on a string right, or
he's pronounced a panaro wrong. That's that's just me making
fun of him. That's not the real stuff. Some of
the real stuff that I've always needed that I cannot
get from him. It's not because he doesn't have. It's
not because he won't give it to me because he
doesn't know how. And I could teach him, but he

(01:34:03):
doesn't even have it to get but he doesn't even
know where to get it from. And so I have
to figure out, like one person isn't meant to be
her everything. I'm off topic. What I'm saying about with
Kevin is that if we look at him charitable, charitably,
he fucked her over. Maybe he didn't intend to. Maybe
he didn't mean the shit to follow her forever. Maybe

(01:34:23):
he didn't mean her for him, for her to be
like trying to get work and people want to know
about Brittany. Maybe he didn't mean for that. I'm sure
he didn't, but like he don't see the type of
think ahead. But he wasn't a good relationship partner, and
he didn't have what you needed, and so that relationship
was gonna end no matter what because it wasn't a

(01:34:46):
good relationship. And I know it wasn't a good relationship
because one of the partners in the relationship was just like,
I'm gonna go out to the club and meet Britney
Spears and like go on a work trip and you
don't find out that he dumped you and is like
with Britney Spears, the biggest fucking pop star in the

(01:35:07):
fucking world, until some random paps random probably called, but
random paps take pictures of her and him on the
beach with him carrying her, and you're like at home pregnant.
Like That's how I know the relationship wasn't good because
one of y'all thought that was gonna be Okay, that's
why that wasn't the right relationship. I know it isn't

(01:35:28):
I know it is in the right relationship because that
wouldn't happen in the right relationship. Okay, it's over. Shar
Jackson's healing, shar Jackson's redemption does not depend on whether
k Fed says sorry to her. It can't closures an
illusion and so like, well, I'm appreciative that the Life

(01:35:50):
Coaches like, hey, you know you never even apologize, huh.
But I'm like this is useless because, well, this is
about Kevin. This is about Kevin's healing journey and learning, right, Like,
you need to fucking apologize. Do you understand that when
you're getting beat up by the tabloids? So she and
she didn't even do anything. Do you understand that people

(01:36:12):
think she's an idiot? And she's been through so much
but because of your actions, not her own, Like, yeah,
that's for his heal. That's why I was like, Okay,
this is about him. This isn't about shar I just she.
He talks about how he has hard times accessing his

(01:36:34):
feelings with the Life Coach. I'm uninterested in that, right
because like a lot of people have a hard time
accessing their feelings, like, go to fucking therapy. Therapy is
not a magic bullet, but go work on it, go
figure something out. Like I don't care. I think it'd
be nice for him to apologize. The Life Coach encourages
him to apologize. I just don't think Shark can live

(01:36:56):
without it. I think what needs to happen next does
not require a from Kevin. Whatever requires is shy to
move forward, and I believe she's strong enough for that.
It's a way in time, j lost four pounds. He
says that you don't realize you're losing weight because you're
living in your body every da which is absolutely fucking true.
He's the first person to pass his goal for the

(01:37:17):
entire season. He's still got two episodes left, so he
gets to set his own goal and this week he
doesn't have anything to say about anyone else's progress, which
I think is a good idea. Jay k Fair had
lost two pounds, which is about half of what he
was supposed to. He says that he wish it was more,
but it's all good. He says that they ask about
how he feels about how he's been neck and neck
with Jay, and he says that him and j had
pushed each other because they've been neck and neck losing

(01:37:39):
weight this whole time. And he says that you know,
Jay's happy right now, but he will hope to come
in next week and with seven pounds lost so he
can give the finger to Jay, and he gives it
to him and everyone giggles and Jay laughs because again
I've already said it. I like, I don't need to
say it again, but I'm gonna say it again again.

(01:38:02):
He is one of those people that gets by on
having a charming personality. I bet you as much as
the world hates Kevin federal Line and Justin Dipperlake for
what happened to Britney Spears, I mean, we should be
hating a lot of people for what happened to Britney Spears.
We really should. And as much as the world hates
Kevin fer Line for that, I bet that if you

(01:38:25):
spent two days in Kevin's presence, like on a show
like this, like Daytime Hours, or like you just happen
to be in the space with Kevin, and you guys
hat dinner together for whatever reason, like a work conference
or some shit with Kevin. Kevin doesn't work, but still,
like any of those things, like, I bet you you
would come away with warm feelings about him because he

(01:38:46):
has traded on that his entire life. It's just who
he is as a person. Nicole lost five pounds and
everybody's super excited for her. She wrote in her journal
this week that she wants to tell doctor Ian to
show it up his ass and they love that too.
They're like, right, whatever you need to if you can
lose weight. Casey lost two pounds and she missed her

(01:39:08):
go by one pound. She feels like she couldn't give
any more than she's already given this week, and they
warn her about plateauing, which is a real thing. Sharl
Jackson lost one pound and I was like, I thought
she was gonna lose a lot of pounds. She said
she was in bed dehydrated. I was like, okay, so
she will she lost eleven pounds, but no, she lost

(01:39:31):
one pound. But still losing weight when you couldn't even
work out and you were in a sick and all
that shit is a big deal. I don't know. Maybe
she kept up with her diet even though she was
like down and out. She's got two weeks to go
and thirteen pounds, and she says that's easy and she
can do it. Sebastian Bach lost one pound. He's not
happy with the numbers. He stopped drinking and doubled up

(01:39:51):
on the workouts, and he feels like she'd have lost more. Again,
they explained that the fucking plateau. The plateau. To him,
he has two weeks ago and he's got a big
tour in gi Anuary. Why do y'all keep messing this tour?
Is this show brought to you by we fit and
guns and roses? What is his axles? Uh? He's upset
about his team losing because it was Kfet smoking, But

(01:40:14):
he says he lives in the glass house and he
wouldn't want to throw a brick at Kfet's house. Everyone laughs,
and I'm like, okay, but if it was Tanisia, you
throw the brick wa in You interesting? Why wouldn't you
throw a brick at Kevin but you throw on at Tanisha?
What is different about these two people? Okay, Bevy Brown

(01:40:36):
has lost two of the four pounds he was supposed
to lose. They think that's a good week for him.
He barely loses weight. And also he went to London,
Amsterdam and New York and that affects things. But you know,
like a lot of traveling and stuff, and you're not
home with irregular food. Usually when you're traveling, you're eating
how you best can You gotta like be a good sport,

(01:40:58):
eat things that you don't normally eat, Like I don't
want to be with somebody in Paris looking for a KFC.
I don't like, girl, Let's just see what they got.
I mean, you hear parents, baby, girl, let's just eat well,
let's let's maybe you won't like it. Okay, that's fine.
I don't you don't have I don't not want to

(01:41:19):
feel this, like, oh, Americas don't like anything because they
were so used. Like Americans love to talk shit about America.
They we think we're either the best country or the
worst thing that ever fucking happened. We'll be like America
is the worst. Like they'll be like a fucking uh
uh news story about a gang of fucking women kidnap
girls kidnapped from from school in in in some country

(01:41:43):
on the far East or some shit, and we'll be
common and everything like yeah, but in America it would
be even worse. Like bitches is about you, like so
fucking self centered? But like seriously though, like maybe you
don't have to like everything you tribe, but like, I'm
not gonna try to find KFC for you here. It's
also not gonna taste like fucking CAFC. It's not. It's

(01:42:05):
gonna take like French KFC, and that's gonna be fucking weird,
So like, would it be better to just find something
that's like go to a cafe or go to a
nice restaurant and order and look at the menu and
try something. Then it is to go eat an imitation
of something, an AI version of something. No, God, what
was I saying? Oh? They still think to losing two

(01:42:26):
pounds after all their traveling and stuff, Bobby Brown is
good for him. So they reminded me has to pay
a thousand dollars for every pound he doesn't lose. He
thinks it's like he lose two pounds that day. So
he's like, I can bring a check for two thousand dollars.
And I was like that, Bobby, the way you said
that sounded like you were in traffic court and you
and they were like, if you pay these fines right now,
you don't have to go to jail. And I know

(01:42:46):
you've had a lot of experience with that, but that's
what it felt like. But they're like, no, no, no. At
the end, he's got two weeks to go and ten
pounds to go, and it's possible, it's it's possible for
him to lose it. Tanisia lost five pounds. That's huge
numbers for Tuanisiha. Doctor Ian called her right and she
was going she she said, she was just in the
hood looking for hair. She mean she was going to

(01:43:07):
the hair store. Okay, she was going to the hair
people wherever in the hood. That's where they be at. Okay,
we don't go to Beverly Hills. I mean you can,
but it's gonna be really up charged. And they went
to the hood to get the fucking hair. What do
you want? So so she in the hood and she
said she just got there and there was a Popeye
is right there, and she was like oof, wings, wings, wings,

(01:43:30):
and she decided not to She just wanna got the hair.
She decided to get back on the bus. And I
was like, bus TONI she's in La right now. Right
because they were all gonna go hiking at Gringion Canyon
or whatever. Runyon Kenyon Grunions. I'm thinking about fucking don't
tell mom, babysitter's dead. It was fucking in the Grunion Run.

(01:43:51):
I've never heard it. That's the only reason I even
know what that fucking is. That fucking movie. Anyway, the
remember she was gonna go hiking on Ringing Canyon. So
like she said she had crishyaw she in La, Baby, Tasho,
what she doing on a bus in La? And this
is yr, guys, trugl. Public transportation is good. I miss

(01:44:14):
public transportation. I used to get a lot more reading done.
People really frown upon it when you read and driving
at the same time. Okay, so like I missed public
transportation a lot, a lot, A lot a lot. That said, baby,
what is Tanisha doing on a bus in La? That's

(01:44:35):
not mm. I mean, that's what the bus is for.
Don't even r It's what the bus is for. But Tanisha,
why are you on the bus? I don't get it.
I don't get it. Is this a made up store? Tenisiha?
This is made up? Right, this is made up. Everyone's

(01:44:55):
proud of her. Though she also went to the club
and she didn't have one drink. I was gonna say,
why would you go to club? And then I think
about it. Tanisha's probably doing like club appearances at this point,
being paid to be there and be on the mike,
and I don't know, but she had no not one drink.
Everyone's super proud of her. She's got two weeks to go,

(01:45:16):
all right, So let me get out my scientific calculator
so I can do this math. That's my scientific calculator.
My TI eighty nine that my mother made like I
needed it. I had to buy it for the classes
I was in, and she was like, your brother didn't
need it. My brother barely graduate high school. Do you
want for me? What do you want for me? Okay,
I don't even think he was going. I don't know

(01:45:37):
what to tell you, but my mother made us think
we could not eat because she I think it was
might have been one hundred dollars, maybe one hundred and
twenty dollars. This is like nineties dollars. I don't And

(01:45:58):
then I immediately got at and then I had to
like because I know, remember I was gonna flip her
fucking shit about it. So then I had to borrow
my friend Erica's t I eight nine cattle whatever TI
something takes his instruments whatever, And so I brought hers
home to like be like, oh, look I have it,

(01:46:20):
I have it, and my mom was like, you know,
she eagle eyed motherfucker was like, why does it say
Erica extromtid was because she's my friend, just lying for
no fucking reason. This is why, like when my kids
lie to me, and I hate it. I fucking hate it,
right because it feels so disrespectful. But I really try

(01:46:43):
to like dig deep down and be like, yo, you
used to lie all the fucking time about shit. Just
you be lying to the end. You keep it lying.
Just try to have some empathy. They fucking kids. They
don't know anyway. Yeah, my mom was like realipsack with me,
and she had to buy me another one, and she

(01:47:03):
didn't let me forget it, and like we'd be eating
chicken for like the third day in the room and
she'd be like, yeah, because somebody gotta have a scientific calculator.
Somebody is in the advanced class for blah blah blah
blah blah. Somebody think they're so smart. Like, okay, come on, now,
I try to better myself. Shit, let's try to reach
for the stars. Goddamn it. Academics alone. Uh, not too

(01:47:28):
long ago. So Biber is in the summer camp at
the YMC. I really like the summer camp. They're outside
most of the days. They start today outside running, running, running,
just doing shit outside. Then they swim for like two
fucking hours, then they go to lunch, then they back outside.
Unss it's over one hundred degrees. If not, they're in
the gymnasium playing or doing like little crafts like they like.
When I go get Bear Bear Berbera is sweaty down

(01:47:51):
to his socks like he has been like he's getting
he's getting shit done. But bar Bear lost his back
like one time. He was staying forever to come out,
and they're like, he's looking for his backpack. He has
this like slim little backpack that he uses for for camp.
It's pretty cheap. It's from like Amazon, was like twelve dollars,

(01:48:12):
and so he takes for every comes out. He doesn't
have a s alright, come on, I have an extra
like I know it had your swim suit and your
towel and what else? Did I have your lunch box?
I got more lunch boxes? Come on. So I I
was like, listen, we looked at the the Lost and
Found for the camp. I was like, go go in
the YMC. Go in the YMCA to the front desk

(01:48:33):
where they have lost and found, Go look for it there.
They said, they look no, no, okay, alright whatever. I
waited a week. I gave him on another little bag
and eventually I just replaced the bag. I replaced the bag.
I replaced the I got the same bag, the same
water bottle, the same lunch bag. Okay, It's like fuck it.
Why a week later he come back with that fuck
the original bag and where do they find it? In

(01:48:53):
the fucking lost and found inside the MCA behind the desk.
And this is why my therapist be like, Princess, you
got to trust people. I'm like, how everybody's in competent,
Like what did I say? What did I say? And
she's like, are you calling it eight year old incompetent? Yeah,
that's the definition of incompetence eight years old? Okay, I
mean I'm not. I don't know why. Like the people

(01:49:15):
who work at the YMCA camp are like eighteen twenty one,
Like they just they've been up all night doing whatever.
They're probably hi as fuck, and they just they gotta
be outside of these badass kids all day. I give
him a lot of grace. I remember when when Cheeks
threw something like the counselor asked him. Him and another
girl fighting over and the counselor asked for it, and

(01:49:37):
instead of handing it to him to her, he threw
it to her he said he threw it quote unquote
to her with somebody. If you throw something to somebody
and they didn't expect your throat, you're throwing it at him.
And like she when I got there to pick up,
she was like, I just wanna tell you. You know, I
gave him blah blah blah blah blah. And I'm like,
you don't have to explain this to me. Like and
even my mom was like, well she couldn't take She
what it hurt her or something that seems unfair. He's

(01:50:00):
you can't come back to camp for three days. I
was like, she didn't started to join the army. Okay,
she's fucking twenty years old. She probably went the three
She went to a CPR class and two orientations, and
then they was like, all right, let's pay her very
little to hang to be with these fucking badass kids
all day. I couldn't do it. I wouldn't do it.
I would live in the streets first. I would die

(01:50:21):
on the streets of starvation before I did some shit
like that. That's me, all right. So she didn't join
the army. She shouldn't. She shouldn't have people throwing shit
at her and I also don't hold those kids. Is
all I expect you to do is keep my kid
in one piece. I expected to be lifeguards at the pool.
I expect you guys to make sure the kids get lunchtime.
I expect if it goes over one hundred degrees, y'all,

(01:50:43):
do not leave them children out there. I expect you
to talk to them like you got some fucking sense right,
Like they may be being little motherfuckers, but don't call
them little motherfuckers. That's the bar is low, Okay, because
that's all I expect. Otherwise, I have them here at
home and so like, I'm not mad at them. I'm
just like my therapistcuse me, Like, you need to trust people,

(01:51:03):
need to give people a chance. I would love to,
but nobody knows what the fuck they're doing, and that
includes my eight year olds are talking. Oh I'm talking
about having to rebuy the whole fucking thing, and my
mom acting like, uh, buy it. Probably it probably did
change her budget to buy me that fucking calculator. Anyway,
let me get back to doing the math. Alright, Okay,

(01:51:31):
here's the fucking math. The red team has one hundred
and twenty three point eight fit Factor made up points. Okay,
the Blue team has one hundred and fourteen point six.
It's like a nine point difference, a little less than
nine point mmm, it's about nine points difference, all right,
that's a lot. Though. They was like neck and neck
two points one point and shit like that. So it
seems like and they're not giving out fit factor points both.

(01:51:54):
It seems like it seems like the red teams about
the wind is shit. Kfan is back in the lead
for individual. He is zero point eight points over j
I don't know how he's on the Blue team. Are
they giving him? I don't, girl, I don't know. I
don't know. I don't know. I don't I lost my

(01:52:14):
scratch paper. I don't know how this works. And that's
it for the episode. Next week, they make Kevin apply
apologize to Shar. Actually, what is shark Shar Jackson looking
like right now? U? Shar Jackson twenty twenty five. She

(01:52:37):
got a man, All her kids grew up, Her kids
are big. Oh. I think if she had a man,
we wouldn't even fucking know about it. I don't, I don't.
I don't know. If she gets foey home, I don't
know what to say about that. You know what I
want to look at Casey Staalvey tween twenty five because

(01:53:00):
must style is her name? St No, that's somebody else,
Casey high School musical Strauss Straw Straw, hold on what
she looks like? Now, No, that's Casey musk Graves. Guys,

(01:53:22):
that's not like why would you? Why would you? Why
would you tag that as Casey? That's Casey musk Graves
is Casey muster Graves still making a lot of like
music and stuff. Mhm, yeah, she she she's uh, she's

(01:53:44):
a bigger woman. She's a bigger woman. Okay, Okay, she's checking.
I didn't expect to see anything different, but you know,
it is what it is. Yeah, next week, Kevin's gonna
apologize to Shar for and I hope shar takes it
with a grain of salt and tells them she doesn't
need it, doesn't She's not waiting for a fucking apology
from him. I don't know that's it, guys. Uh It

(01:54:08):
this was a longer one. I haven't been like really
recording for so long, mostly because I've been talking mostly
about myself. And I did spend what was it forty
minutes forty five minutes, forty eight minutes talking about shit.
I don't have nothing to do with this. I don't
know anyway. I'll talk to you guys soon. If you
are signed up for a bonus episodes, either through Patreon

(01:54:30):
or Apple Podcasts plus Thingies, then you'll get a new
episode on Thursday, and everybody else we're gonna get a
rerun on Sunday. Yeah, that's it. I'll talk to you
guys soon

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