Do you know when your inner beings are on the move?

Welcome to week thirty-nine. This week, David reflects on how resistance shows up in his life when he is moving in the direction of his life's mission.
Excerpt:
I had something real to do, and though some part of me wanted to rebel, that something was always there. Real to me outside that emergency room and with Kairos, that something the heart of hearts knows and calls to, that transcends who I think I am, what I think I know and especially what I fear. Longing and a sense of calling had tugged at me, and because I could never definitively describe to myself what that meant, I had applied myself to the goal of never doing a job I hated. I hadn’t known what I would do, but I’d promised myself that what I did would always be creative and that I wouldn’t sell my freedom. Art and music seemed to fit, and something more called. Talking to Kairos now, several years later, as a student in Caravan, what had been important after my visit to the emergency room was still important to me.
Then, without glancing back, Kairos asked me, “Do you know when your inner beings are on the move? Who is it that rebels when you are inspired and say yes to something? When you commit and believe, do you watch for the part of you that says no? In the horizontal world, there is a force within you that tests you to be sure you mean it. There is another force within that tests if it can stop you. One of these forces wants you to push past its resistance. The other only wants to stop you. It is important to notice where and when these two forces show themselves in your life.
The Caravan of Remembering, Chapter 4, Committing to the Process of Life Mission, p.71.