August 20, 2024 • 36 mins
Wow! It has been a second! On this week's episode, we've got some big changes coming and a little end-of-summer wrap-up! So sit down with us and come be completely clueless!
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Speaker 4 (01:09):
Wow, this feels so weird.
Speaker 5 (01:10):
It's been a hot second, has been a hot second
that's really hot.
Speaker 4 (01:14):
So this episode almost didn't happen.
Speaker 6 (01:16):
I really, I was so confident they weren't here clueless.
Speaker 4 (01:21):
Moment of the week was where is our equipment?
Speaker 6 (01:24):
I lost our equipment in my apartment and I looked
literally everywhere except for the one place that it was, as.
Speaker 4 (01:32):
Is the way Olivia told me.
Speaker 5 (01:34):
Olivia was like, why don't you go over, have a
fresh set of eyes, and like see if you can
find it.
Speaker 4 (01:39):
I was like, okay, Like I don't know, but I'm
glad I did come. I'm glad you did too.
Speaker 6 (01:44):
I think I've been so focused on the places where
I was like, oh, maybe it could have generally gotten
misplaced there.
Speaker 4 (01:52):
Yeah, I don't know. I don't work here today to
tell and that's good. In the moment I saw it,
I was like, this is really am brazing. No, it's okay.
Speaker 6 (02:02):
I did look like four separate times where I looked
everywhere in my apartment.
Speaker 4 (02:05):
I know, I felt so bad. I was like I
kept texting Audre, I was like, have you found it?
Speaker 7 (02:09):
Have you found it?
Speaker 4 (02:10):
Because I was like stressed. I was like, oh my gosh,
like you're quite bad.
Speaker 6 (02:13):
And I kept being like, no, I'm gonna look in
that basket one more time and it's gonna be there,
and I'm right, you've just missed it the first three times.
Speaker 5 (02:19):
Well, I thought we had missed it when we opened
like my green thing and there was still a blanket
on the bottom. So there was this part of my
brain that was like, oh my god, did we miss
it under there? But then it wasn't there, and I
was like, fuck.
Speaker 7 (02:30):
What's lyrics?
Speaker 6 (02:31):
Is the bag that was on top of the bin
that ended up being in I went through that whole
bag to make sure do you just didn't do this stuff?
Speaker 4 (02:37):
I guess I didn't look in the bin. It's okay.
Speaker 5 (02:40):
I feel like, does anybody else happen where it's like
where's my phone? And you're literally talking on your phone.
I feel like it's that situation.
Speaker 6 (02:47):
I also know like I can be sometimes prone to
not remember where things are bids WHI so like some
of the bins we were going through.
Speaker 7 (02:54):
I literally have written now in my notes app exactly.
Speaker 6 (02:56):
What's in the shore, because otherwise it's like, well they
were all organized and well throught through, but like if
I can't maintain what's in what beIN, then you end
up having to go through every ben anyway to But
now I just write it down.
Speaker 4 (03:10):
Period. We're here to tell the tape.
Speaker 7 (03:12):
Here, we're back.
Speaker 5 (03:13):
Hello, everyone, Welcome back to the Completely fucking Coolest Podcast.
Speaker 4 (03:16):
My name is Sarah Alice Liddy and my name is
Audregene Flowers.
Speaker 7 (03:20):
How's it been, folks.
Speaker 4 (03:22):
It's almost like summer is basically over.
Speaker 7 (03:24):
Summer is.
Speaker 5 (03:27):
Clock out of work, you guys, I will forget to
clock out of or like my ADP was so fucked
up because I even though I'm salary, they make us
clock in and out and I would just like not
give a fuck about it. And then I realized it
was affecting the amount of money I was making, like
(03:47):
the amount of like overtime, like if overtime was being clocked.
And I realize that like the person who's supposed to
like change make changes when we apply basically like you'll
put in a time change if you incorrectly cock in,
And the person who was supposed to be like checking
those off wasn't doing that.
Speaker 4 (04:06):
Oh cute, right, So I was I was making the effort.
Speaker 5 (04:08):
I was like making up for my mistakes, but then
they just weren't being recognized.
Speaker 4 (04:12):
Yeah, And I.
Speaker 5 (04:12):
Had this whole thing, and I was like, I am
so frustrated by the situation. And then I realized, all right, sir,
you need to take a little bit of accountability. And
so now I just have alarms that go off every
single day, and I just clock in at the same time.
I have lunch at the same time, and then I
like at the same time, so don't fuck it up.
I would breaks at work.
Speaker 6 (04:27):
What would always happen with me is I would set
timers to make sure that I don't like lose track
of time and don't go. But then I would see
that the timer is about to be up, and I
would like get ready to like end my break, like
put my water away, like go to clock back in,
and I would beat my timers, so I'd go back
out onto the floor and then like forty five seconds
my timer would go off, and someone else from the
(04:49):
back room would have to come out and be like
someone's phone timer is.
Speaker 4 (04:52):
Going off, and I'd have to be like, that's me
I tre's me.
Speaker 8 (04:57):
I was being too proactive, just trying to be proactive
in the workplace, because people get crazy in the workplace.
Let me tell you, people get crazy. Oh my gosh,
I swear I think being a young.
Speaker 4 (05:10):
Song with crazy crazy is underrated crazy.
Speaker 6 (05:13):
That's a joke that's not going to make sense to
you nor any of our listeners.
Speaker 4 (05:18):
It's a reference to a side I did for the
other So tell the.
Speaker 5 (05:22):
People, Tell the people. So we have an announcement to me,
we have an announcement to make.
Speaker 7 (05:27):
It feels dramatic.
Speaker 5 (05:28):
Announcement feels dramatic. But I'm going to say it for
click bait. We have a very dramatic announcement to make.
It's devastating, just kidding. You tell the people what you're doing.
Speaker 6 (05:41):
So I'm taking a little bit of an extended break
from the podcast. I love this podcast so much. It
has meant the world to me. It has truly beouen
an anchor through some really hard times. But I've been
back auditioning and that like takes up a lot of
time and focus, and I just it felt like the
path that I sort of need to pursue for now.
So I'm just gonna be taking a bit longer of
(06:01):
an extended break from the podcast. I don't exactly know
what that'll mean for the future, and I like don't
plan on.
Speaker 7 (06:08):
Never coming on this podcast ever again.
Speaker 6 (06:11):
And it is something I still very much love and
I'm so proud of, like the the little place that
we have created in the world.
Speaker 4 (06:19):
But I just feel like it's the right move for
me to take a little bit of a pause. Yeah,
I agree. I feel like I sensed it a couple
months you did, and you brought it up to me,
and at the moment, I just know.
Speaker 6 (06:30):
It's so funny though, because I felt so bad bringing
it up, because Sarah, genuinely, if you want to come
on it, I'm sing being like, hey, no, you're back auditioning.
Speaker 4 (06:36):
I just want to check in if you're still feeling
the same way.
Speaker 6 (06:38):
And I so confidently and at that moment very generally,
was like, yeah, no, I'm exactly.
Speaker 7 (06:42):
Feeling the same way.
Speaker 6 (06:43):
After four we toil like two and a half months later,
and I'm like, okay, well.
Speaker 5 (06:48):
Yeah, but I also think kind of like when you
came to me about it, and I agree, I think
taking a step back sometimes and having like a moment
to reflect can help you like figure out like where
you're priorities are lying and like what you want because honestly,
taking this time up from the podcast while it's like
hard because I think the like perfection is in my
(07:08):
brain and like all the people who I don't necessarily
agree with are like, you know, you gotta like grind, grind,
grind work, work, work, consistent, consistent, consistent. I do think
it like one refuels you and it makes you like
appreciate it too, makes you realize some things that maybe
you weren't realizing in the moment when it was just
like a part of your day to day life and
(07:29):
you were just going through the motions. So I'm happy
that you know, you came to that place by yourself.
Whether you came to that place or not, I didn't care,
but yeah, I always wanted to make sure that, like,
you know, you wanted to do what you wanted to do.
And I know theater auditioning is a lot.
Speaker 4 (07:46):
How is it going? You want to tell the peeps?
Speaker 7 (07:49):
It's good? I mean, we'll see.
Speaker 6 (07:51):
There's a chance that nothing happens on it, and there's
a chance that like six seven months from now, I'm like, okay, uh,
I don't want to keep doing this anymore. It's just
something of like I started back just doing like a
couple auditions randomly, and then I kind of didn't think
that I could do this anymore. Theater's really intense, the
(08:11):
hustles a lot, and I just I really truly didn't
think I could do it anymore, nor was.
Speaker 7 (08:16):
I really sure that I wanted to.
Speaker 6 (08:18):
And then I started doing it, and I think I
mentioned on the podcast in a previous episode, my first
time I ship went horribly, like I had to start over.
I messed up the lyrics. I didn't act at all.
I literally stood there and I like sick.
Speaker 4 (08:30):
My song and nothing hap on my face.
Speaker 6 (08:36):
That's not what I sound. I didn't sound better than that,
but like not by that much. I didn't sound great,
but I was like, wait, I kind of love this,
and I kept doing them and I just realized, like
I still love it and I still think I can
do it, and not that like theater won't ever go
be there and that like I couldn't return to it
later in life, but I just felt like I needed
(08:57):
to give it around like now that like I I've
spoken a lot about this in the podcast that like,
over the last like eight to like ish months, I've
been feeling a lot better and a lot more sort
of like re engaged with the world and connected. And
I've realized that like the thing that I always wanted
(09:19):
to do, I still kind of want to do, and
that I just need to give that a shot and
maybe in six months I'm going to change my mind
and be like, guys, that was hilarious, what a funny experience.
Speaker 7 (09:30):
Let's move on. But I just feels like the right
move for now.
Speaker 4 (09:37):
Period. I'm proud of you. It's like hard because I think,
especially in your.
Speaker 5 (09:42):
Twenties, like we're crazily enough like nearing like some like
later twenties ages.
Speaker 6 (09:50):
Right, I am about to be twenty six, so therefore
off my parents health insurance, and I am also stressed
about that.
Speaker 7 (09:56):
You're stressed.
Speaker 4 (09:57):
Yeah, I'm like not even like the fact Eli, he's.
Speaker 5 (09:59):
Turning twenty se I'm just like no, no, no, no, no, anyways,
forget that. Push that to back my brain avoid but like.
Speaker 7 (10:06):
I just think that's healthy.
Speaker 5 (10:07):
Yeah, it's so healthy. I'll talk about a therapy journey soon.
You can see it's going so well. But I feel
like in your twenties, it's like the time to do
all of this. I feel like my dad has always
been like take the risk, Like now is the time
to do it before you decide to if you want
a life partner, if you want children, even if you
want to like do like, I just think it's the
(10:29):
time now, and so I totally support you.
Speaker 4 (10:31):
I'm happy for you. I like am like I could
never the grind. That's I think the hardest part of.
Speaker 5 (10:38):
Theater for me, because I agree that there's times where
I miss it or want to involve myself in some
way the grind.
Speaker 4 (10:45):
I don't think Sarah could do the grind.
Speaker 7 (10:47):
Yeah, it's a lot.
Speaker 4 (10:47):
Yeah. Have you had some early auditions like early mornings.
Speaker 6 (10:51):
Yes, I have been really lucky that, like I've done
some of them. I definitely don't have to go as
early in the day for because I'm c which basically Okay,
there's actors Equity, and then there's a program that is
now retired and is being essentially phased out, but continues
through way later than I thought, like twenty twenty six,
(11:12):
Like there's still a bit longer while they're still doing
the program where you basically EMC was one of the
there's like kind of two paths to becoming equity. Historically,
there is either you would get offered it essentially by
like a theater or a show or something, or EMC,
which was through earning points. And so I did a
production of the Sound of Music at Regal Theater one
(11:33):
summer at college. I didn't get paid, but I did
get EMC points and EMC points.
Speaker 7 (11:38):
Basically there's a separate list.
Speaker 6 (11:40):
It gives you like some minor advantages of like you
don't go directly to the non equity list. You're like
in between equity and non equity. Say, in case anyone
was curious, that's a not very speedy explanation of it.
Speaker 7 (11:53):
So I don't have to go quite as early.
Speaker 6 (11:55):
But there's definitely been quite a few times where I've
waited for an agian and not been seen.
Speaker 7 (12:00):
And that's how it is.
Speaker 6 (12:00):
But it's been nice to like reconnect to like people
in the community, and it's like remember that, like, hey.
Speaker 7 (12:08):
I'm good at this.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
Yeah, no, I feel you.
Speaker 5 (12:10):
Sometimes I'll be singing and I'll be like, wait, I'm
good at It's hilarious.
Speaker 6 (12:15):
Though I didn't think I was good while we were
at Elon interesting. Animally, I think I'm better than I
was when we were in college. But like something that
I really had to come to terms with in these
past few years is like, oh, I had cripplingly low
self esteem, like yeah, no, horribly loud.
Speaker 4 (12:31):
Yeah.
Speaker 5 (12:31):
Well, I think, especially in that type of environment, it's
just so hard to like think about yourself outside of
everybody else because you're so close together, you're like doing
all of these things so tightly.
Speaker 7 (12:46):
And I've also gone to a high school like that exactly.
Speaker 4 (12:48):
My class, my freshman theater class, there's ten of us.
Speaker 1 (12:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 6 (12:52):
Also, like whatever favoriteism Elon had, boy, did my high
school have more?
Speaker 5 (12:57):
Yeah, exactly. And there's all those poly ticks things that
like go into it. So it's just like it's it's complicated.
I feel like at school, I thought I was good.
I think I or I think I was more just
like frustrated because I wanted to go in one direction
with like my voice in my acting, which was more
like not the comedic like roles and stuff like that,
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especially because my voice was changing, Like at the beginning
of college, I had my vocal folds were a little inflamed,
so I got really into like soprano world and like mixing.
I don't have like a very currently at least a
very chesty belt that goes like very very high, and
so for plus size women, like.
Speaker 4 (13:37):
That is what they're looking for. And so I sort
of felt.
Speaker 5 (13:39):
Like I was just like trapped in this trope and
I couldn't get out of it, and I was just
like I am so tired of like feeling like I'm
never gonna get anywhere because of it. So yeah, I've
always said the same thing, sort of like I never know,
like I always keep the door a little like peaky
open and we'll see.
Speaker 4 (14:00):
But yeah, I'm.
Speaker 5 (14:01):
Excited to hear about all the auditioning and everything like
that and watch from afar.
Speaker 4 (14:07):
I'm like a far very fair and very fair.
Speaker 5 (14:10):
Yeah, but I also watch because maybe one day I'll
like try and get back into it. And like I
feel like I barely gave the audition auditioning world to
try well, Like.
Speaker 7 (14:20):
We also graduated in the pandemic. It was a weird time.
It still is a weird time.
Speaker 4 (14:26):
Like a lot of people have gone COVID recently.
Speaker 7 (14:28):
I got COVID recently.
Speaker 6 (14:29):
I was really fucking out of it for a while
so I in the last month in spare change, I
got sick twice. I also have another friend who got
COVID and they had a very similar thing where they
got COVID, got better, and then got sick again. Yeah,
either vers are sure if like that is some new
variation of COVID, or if just both of us from
having COVID our immune systems were weaker so we caught
(14:50):
something else.
Speaker 4 (14:51):
Yeah, but like it's bad.
Speaker 7 (14:54):
It is still a very bad thing.
Speaker 6 (14:55):
That is, you know, I feel like I've seen a
lot more conversation about it again, and like I'm not
gonna lie. I'm someone who, like I had been really
good about masking and I've definitely fallen off. But even
like stuff that you're seeing out of the Olympics, of
like Olympicans like doing these competitions with COVID, and like
(15:15):
some of them are being fine, but some of them aren't.
And that like there is instances of like COVID leaving
lasting bad effects on y It's not over as much
as we all, not all, but the vast majority of.
Speaker 7 (15:29):
Us kind of like to pretend that it is.
Speaker 4 (15:31):
Yeah, I've heard a lot about don't.
Speaker 6 (15:33):
Recommend getting it. It was really bad. I felt horrible.
Make sure to get your vaccines and be careful. If
someone is sick, maybe ask them to wear a mask.
Speaker 5 (15:41):
Yeah, I had gotten it back in January, and I've
had it like before, and I had one time when
I had like the omicron variant. I had the same
thing where I had COVID and then I got sick again.
And then I know, like a lot of people have
came out and talked about like hair loss isn't effected,
like it can be an overlasting even.
Speaker 6 (15:58):
Just like energy of Like, oh, my friends had it
a few weeks before me, and when we saw each other,
he was like, no, I just feel like I'm starting
to come out of Like I feel like I just
had this brain fog that I just couldn't shake.
Speaker 5 (16:08):
Yeah, I hate brain fog because it feels like they're
like it feels hard to make an excuse for it,
but like it is real, yes, and it's weird.
Speaker 7 (16:16):
There's nothing tangible you can point to it, sure, but anyway,
if you're feeling sick.
Speaker 6 (16:20):
I've also heard a lot that this most current variant
is not tending to always test positive even when you
are positive.
Speaker 7 (16:27):
So if you're feeling sick.
Speaker 6 (16:28):
Please consider masking up, especially when you go out in
front of people. I know it's annoying, and especially in
summer it's really hot and it's uncomfortable, but.
Speaker 7 (16:36):
You know, try not to get other people sick.
Speaker 4 (16:39):
Period. Well that was our big crazy update.
Speaker 7 (16:42):
That was the big update.
Speaker 4 (16:43):
That was a big update. Otherwise we've been chilling.
Speaker 7 (16:46):
We've been chilling. I'm settled into my new APOC.
Speaker 5 (16:49):
Yes, and that's why I wanted to ask you. How
is it feeling in the new space.
Speaker 6 (16:53):
I'm really liking it. It's different, but I really like
the area, and like I always knew that long term
I wanted to end up Upper West.
Speaker 4 (17:00):
Yeah, but I really love it.
Speaker 6 (17:02):
My sister is actually going to be kind of living
with me for three months this fall, which I'm really
excited for.
Speaker 7 (17:06):
Yes, I think there is.
Speaker 6 (17:08):
Going to be some negotiation of like, hey, I haven't
lived with someone in three years.
Speaker 7 (17:11):
Yeah, that's gonna be a little bit weird.
Speaker 6 (17:13):
And also like I think it's different living with someone
with their own bedroom versus when they are just sleeping
on your couch. But I'm really excited about that and
spending some time with her. Yeah, I had a meeting
with my psychiatrist today.
Speaker 4 (17:25):
Okay, good, Well it was lovely catching up with him
and we have a lovely shot. I know.
Speaker 5 (17:31):
Speaking of therapy, I've been in with my new therapist
for like six to eight weeks now, and all I
have to say is I cry, like multiple times a day,
and like they said it was normal. Like my mom said,
who's a therapist, said it was normal. Olivia, who is
in the therapy world, said it was normal, and then
therapist said it was normal, and then my old therapist
said it was normal. Because I was like, I cannot say,
(17:53):
like I get emotional over everything, and basically it's because, yeah,
you're talking about these things that you don't like talk
about all the time.
Speaker 4 (18:01):
And I'm learning a lot about myself. But it's not
like the.
Speaker 5 (18:04):
Easiest journey and it's not one that like instantly feels good.
So that can be like hard sometimes, but it's happening,
and I'm crying all the time.
Speaker 7 (18:14):
I'm proud of you.
Speaker 6 (18:16):
I mean, since I went off SSRIs, I cry someone,
Oh my god, it's distressing.
Speaker 7 (18:20):
It's really embarrassing.
Speaker 6 (18:22):
I like a few weeks back at a meeting with like.
Speaker 7 (18:24):
A career counselor that like a friend went to and.
Speaker 6 (18:27):
Like, I I am like trying to be like obviously,
when I like go into a job, this is someone
I would lead with. But like with people that I'm
like working with or close with, I'm like trying to
be open.
Speaker 4 (18:37):
I'm like, hey, I had a few hard years.
Speaker 7 (18:39):
And then explained him.
Speaker 6 (18:40):
I just like kept crying and I was like, I'm
so sorry. I didn't expect to get emotional like this.
You can tell them it's not prepared. I felt really
bad because I just couldn't stop crying, and he seemed worried,
and I was like, I swear that, like.
Speaker 5 (18:58):
I'm okay, I'm mentally I'm just emotional right now.
Speaker 4 (19:01):
No, literally the emotional day. My dude, literally crying all
of the time.
Speaker 5 (19:09):
But hopefully, like by the time next year, it'll feel
like better because I've cried all of it out, like
I'm just letting it happen. But I feel like similarly
to you, I felt like for so long, like I
wasn't really crying or stuff, and maybe I just like
wasn't processing anything.
Speaker 4 (19:23):
So now we're processing. We're processing.
Speaker 6 (19:26):
I'm trying a new thing. Well I started trying it,
but then I was sick, so then I had to
cancel that one. But of like, do hosting just like
a low key thing in my apartment every other week, okay,
either like Friday, Saturday, Thursday, depending on my schedule. This
one I pulled people of, like, does Friday or Saturday
work for you? I can do either nights and whichever
night more people pick which one?
Speaker 4 (19:47):
I think. I think it's Friday.
Speaker 6 (19:50):
But so this time it's going to be a Clue
movie night because one of my friends was doing a
callback for events and Clue and it reminded me, like, hey,
that movie is great, So I'm having friends over and
whoever wants to come and watch Clue. The other one
was meant to be a game night, but then I
was sick, so I canceled it.
Speaker 7 (20:06):
But I just feel like it's a good thing.
Speaker 6 (20:07):
Of like, I like hosting, but I have found the
like dinner parties for like my age and my apartment,
they're intense. I probably still want to do them some,
but like less intensely than I've done in the past.
Like previously I've had like I don't know, like probably
like ten to fifteen people over.
Speaker 4 (20:23):
Yeah it's hard, and.
Speaker 6 (20:24):
It's yeah, it's especially a lot, especially because like people
would offer to help clean to my old place and
even then I would say no, and in my current
place they wouldn't be able to help at all. But
I'm like, I feel like this is a good compromise,
Like maybe I'll make some little snacks, maybe I'll just
get chips from the store.
Speaker 7 (20:40):
I still like hosting and having people over.
Speaker 6 (20:42):
It's like I also just think, like I tend to
do most of us, I think we end up doing
one on one hangs with people all the time, and
it's like a fun little place like my.
Speaker 7 (20:51):
Friends getting each other.
Speaker 6 (20:52):
Yeah, like a group thing of Like we don't really
have parties anymore, and even if we did, I don't
feel like that's mostly one of most of my friends
would want to do anyway, But to like have something
where it's like it's a group of us and it's
not a bar and you can drink if you would like,
and it's just I think it's a tradition that I
would like to astounish.
Speaker 5 (21:10):
Yeah, And I feel it's like a nice way to
keep accountable. I feel like I have trouble getting out
there these days, especially because I like barely drink, Like
you guys Olivia and I went to our what's it
called anniversary dinner this weekend.
Speaker 4 (21:25):
I had one aperol Sprits and I was like, I'm drunk.
Speaker 5 (21:27):
I was like, why, I've never felt drunk or tipsy
after one apperall spirts in my life. I was like,
literally unwell from this one sprits. And I don't dislike
this lifestyle, Like I actually really like this like really
not drinking like heavily going out lifestyle. It's really great
for my bank account, it's really good for my mental
Like I don't mind it, and I think I and
(21:49):
I also know because of my mental health, sometimes I
can be very overly cautious about my energy. I can
get overwhelmed easily, and I feel like in therapy right now,
I'm trying and working on finding that boundary line between
like okay, like I need to stay in and rest
and restore and like all right, Sarah, like you can
like push yourself like even if cause like sometimes.
Speaker 7 (22:10):
You go out and your round people and that does
end up energizing.
Speaker 6 (22:12):
Yeah, exactly, it does end up like sort of fulfilling
something in you. And it's like, oh, well, I'm glad
that I pushed and did this right exactly.
Speaker 5 (22:19):
I think Olivia Trice to remind me that sometimes like
you're mostly like not gonna want to do everything all
the time, and so like, yeah, even if you can
say to yourself, like all right, I don't want to
do this right now, but I know like I'm gonna
feel better like once I'm there. So I feel like
I need to I need to get into more of
that because I feel like I haven't been like as
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social as I usually am, but also like work has
been like really crazy too, and that can be.
Speaker 4 (22:46):
Really hard to manage or some wild work stuff. Oh
my god.
Speaker 5 (22:49):
Yeah, for legal reasons, I won't No, I'm just kidding.
Speaker 4 (22:54):
I'm not gonna get into it.
Speaker 5 (22:56):
I wish I could, you guys and be like fully
transparent and honest, but I have I have four.
Speaker 4 (23:03):
Words.
Speaker 5 (23:05):
I will be figuring out over the next couple of
weeks what the podcast is going to look like. I
plan to come back the first weekend of October, just
because update number one. Olivia and I are moving in
together or looking for places right now, and hopefully we'll
be moving in some.
Speaker 4 (23:20):
Time supply we did. It's such a journey, it's such
a ride.
Speaker 5 (23:26):
I'll give you the d's off camera because I have
a secret, but I can't put it on the internet.
Speaker 7 (23:33):
I'm not at secret all.
Speaker 5 (23:36):
Sorry, I mean, but eventually you guys, like, well, I'll
be filming in the apartment that Oliviy and I end
up in, so you will see it eventually and I
will spill the tea about everything, just not yet, so
like that's happening in September. I have a lot of
work stuff going on. Olivia and I are going on
vacation for like six days, so I was like, I
feel like the best time to come back is in October,
when I feel like I can be consistent.
Speaker 4 (23:55):
Yes, I'm really busy with already of September. But one
of the literally one.
Speaker 5 (24:05):
Of the ideas i'd written about to like get into
and like is like my year of being in corporate
America and like some of the things I learned, which
like feeds into all the work stuff that's been going on,
just in a like more package place. Right now, I'm
in an emotional place about it, so I will just
get angry and say things that I shouldn't so I
won't fair. But otherwise, I mean, I have gotten a
(24:27):
new project at work, which has been great, and it's
been making me creative in a different way, which is
nice because I feel like for a long time I
was stuck in this really like bad rut of just
feeling like so unfulfilled. I think it's hard. Corporate America
is hard. Yeah, any type of job is hard. Which
is what I'm learning is that nothing makes you feel
amazing one hundred percent of the time, which is sucky.
Speaker 4 (24:48):
I guess no, Yeah, I don't know, but yeah, I don't.
Speaker 5 (24:52):
I don't know where I started that, but yeah, work, life,
the pursuit of happiness.
Speaker 4 (24:57):
Yeah, we keep mentioning the pursuit of happiness to each other. Yeah.
Speaker 5 (25:00):
I just have been like if I'm like, we're like,
if you know, like three words like live, laugh, love,
I'm always like, live laugh in the pursuit of happiness
because that is always on my mind, is pursuing happiness
in some way, shape or form.
Speaker 7 (25:13):
So I had a date plan for this week.
Speaker 6 (25:15):
It got or no for last week, literally a full
week from today.
Speaker 7 (25:20):
I was going to reschedule it anyway because I was sick.
Speaker 6 (25:22):
We had set a time and date and they I
was like, what area are do you to live in?
And they were like upper East and I was like,
I'm upper West and they were like, oh, I'll figure
out somewhere in the middle.
Speaker 7 (25:32):
And I think maybe.
Speaker 6 (25:33):
It's I just do quite know texting etiquette, and part
of it is like, I don't really like talking to
someone before going on a date that much.
Speaker 7 (25:40):
But then I didn't really reply, and I just figured
that I don't know.
Speaker 6 (25:44):
When it got closer to the date of our date,
she would shoot me wheeah, and I was going to
have to send a message anyway, being like, hey, I'm
pretty sick and I'm working on this audition and I
need my voice to come back, so I need to reschedule.
Speaker 7 (25:57):
But then she just never reached out, And.
Speaker 6 (25:59):
Part of me is like, oh, was I supposed to
continue the conversation for the rest of the week until
we actually reached the date, because like, no, And I
know that this is maybe a bad take and makes
me bad at dating, and I'm kind of really okay
with that. I like, I don't even like texting people
I know very well that much like.
Speaker 4 (26:21):
I don't want to be there.
Speaker 6 (26:22):
And the one person I kind of dated from a
dating app we had met once previously in person. We
voke for very spoke for very little time on the
actual dating app, and we ended up actually having like
these calls every night leading up to our date of
like I remember the moment, so romantic.
Speaker 4 (26:36):
We talked on the phone for like four hours tonight.
Speaker 9 (26:42):
But it's because, like you know, text is so difficult,
especially with someone you don't know, like you don't get
a tone of voice, like I don't want to talk
to a person I don't know for a week about
like how is your day?
Speaker 6 (26:53):
Like I just I don't want to. I'd rather set
the date. Sure, but pardon me? Is like, oh does
she think that I'm rried? Because I didn't reply? And
it literally didn't cross my mind until she ended up
not reaching out about the date And maybe she is
her own shit happening in her life, but this is
what went through my mind, Like all right, I never
heard back from her. I never had to reschedule the
(27:13):
date because I never heard back about where it was.
And part of me was like, well, technically I think
I might have left her on red, So I think
that might have.
Speaker 4 (27:19):
Been on me, got it?
Speaker 5 (27:20):
I see, Okay, I was putting it together in my head. Yes, yeah,
oh god, I'm like the worst of dating advice. But yeah,
I guess like she said she was going to figure
out the location, so yeah, like why would you need
to respond and why would you keep the conversation going,
like you guys don't know each other.
Speaker 7 (27:35):
That's the thing. I don't know people on dating app.
I don't.
Speaker 4 (27:38):
But maybe I'm wrong. I don't care about you, but
I don't.
Speaker 7 (27:41):
You're a stranger.
Speaker 4 (27:43):
Maybe I'm wrong.
Speaker 5 (27:44):
I don't know, but yeah, I feel like the date
is for you to get to know each other right exactly.
Speaker 6 (27:49):
But I feel like so like so many of my
friends will talk to me about that where they'll be
like talking to someone on weeks on a dating app
before like actually meaning out, and I'm like, weeks that
sounds terrible.
Speaker 4 (28:00):
Weeks, Oh my gosh, that's what do you even talk about?
Speaker 5 (28:05):
I get like face timing because I remember Steph said
she would FaceTime somebody before like and I get that
that's totally cool, similar to i'd call, Yeah, but like text.
Speaker 7 (28:15):
Tone of voice.
Speaker 4 (28:16):
Yeah, there's certain people that I know well enough that
I can hear their.
Speaker 7 (28:19):
Tone of work.
Speaker 4 (28:20):
Yeah, sure, a complete stranger, No I can't, right, Yeah, no,
I'm yeah, I agree.
Speaker 5 (28:26):
I feel like that's the type of dater I would be,
is like like, why are we continuing this conversation, Like
we don't even know each other, Like let's just like
go go on the date.
Speaker 6 (28:33):
Yes, yes, but I feel like I might be the
only person who feels that way.
Speaker 4 (28:37):
Okay, so maybe there's like somewhere to me in the middle.
Speaker 6 (28:40):
Maybe Regardless, I don't think I'm gonna have to going
on a date with that go it's fine. I don't
remember her name. I also don't Maybe this makes me toxic.
I don't remember people's names until right before we're about
to go on the date.
Speaker 7 (28:53):
Essentially keep it low sting.
Speaker 6 (28:56):
They're not real to me. So right before the date,
I go and double check their profile on my write.
Their name's Paxton.
Speaker 7 (29:02):
I don't know. I picked to that name.
Speaker 4 (29:05):
And then I remember it.
Speaker 6 (29:06):
And I always do this because there's one time where
I was talking to a friend being like, oh, I'm
going on a date tonight, and they're like, what's the
name And I was like, I think Tom maybe, And
I went and checked my phone right before the date
and it was like Ryan. It was like nothing like Tom,
and I was like, oh, good thing. I double check
that because that would have called him the wrong name.
But I just learned people's names right before the date.
(29:28):
But yeah, you're not a real person to me yet,
so why do.
Speaker 7 (29:30):
I need to learn your name? I wouldn't expect you
to know my name.
Speaker 5 (29:34):
Yeah, it's so crazy. I've been out of the dating
world for so fucking long. I'm like, I could never
do this, Like.
Speaker 7 (29:41):
In the dating world, I like go and lounge by
the pool.
Speaker 6 (29:43):
I don't go in sure, I'll like maybe like put
a toe in the water, and then I walk away and.
Speaker 4 (29:49):
Right because that was you putting the toe in the
water and then you didn't his body and you're like, oh,
gay bye.
Speaker 6 (29:53):
That was so impressive for me that I even like
made it to that point of scheduling the date with someone.
I started being like, you know what, I'm just gonna
actually be with people and like pretty early on in
the conversation be like want to grab coffee or a drink?
That way, I'm not waiting for them. Partially because I
think with dating women, there is less of like a
like it is very much still a thing within heterosexual dating,
(30:13):
like it's more typical for the guy to ask you
out something with the.
Speaker 4 (30:16):
Girl it's like, Hey, I can wait for her to ask,
or I can end.
Speaker 7 (30:20):
This now and I can just ask.
Speaker 4 (30:22):
That's so true.
Speaker 6 (30:23):
I've also begun doing it with guys because, like I
do feel like in person, yeah, I would be less
likely to do this, but yeah, app when you're not
a real person and I'm sending this into the void, yeah, sure,
want to grab a drink.
Speaker 4 (30:34):
Yeah, that's so true.
Speaker 5 (30:35):
I feel like I never thought about that aspect of
queer dating is like, really, it's up to any Like
it's not maybe as certain or there aren't like gender
roles or traditional roles around it. That's so weird. I'm
at a weird phase of not I'm in a weird
phase in my relationship. No, I'm not in a weird phase.
I'm like moving in with my partner. And it's crazy
(30:55):
because I'm like, I'm an adult but I'm not.
Speaker 4 (31:00):
But I'm not.
Speaker 5 (31:01):
Literally, I think I right, like this is a very
adult thing to do, but it's freaking me the fuck out,
Like worryfair, I am so excited. I am so excited.
I'm really excited for like moving to a different part
of the city. I'm not going to tell you where yet.
I like I know where. Yeah, you'll find out. But
(31:24):
it's like so cool, Like you know, we've already had
like a lot of like great discussions and like obviously
I had moments where we were like, all right, we
need to figure out, like we need to communicate, like
that's not it, this is not it. But the thing
that gets me the most I was laying in my
bed the other day and I was like I looked
around my room. I was like, holy shit, like I'm
not gonna have my own bedroom.
Speaker 4 (31:44):
No. And then I was like I texted Olivia. I
was like, what if I want to sleep in my
bed alone?
Speaker 5 (31:50):
Like what like what if I were to see alone?
It was like I could like go on the couch
or like you can like go home for the weekend
if you want, like you're not like what's it called
like in jail or anything?
Speaker 4 (32:02):
And it was it was hard because I felt like
this was weird thinking. I was like, this is.
Speaker 5 (32:06):
Weird, Like I'm excited about this, but like I'm also
having these weird thoughts of like yeah, not having a
bedroom anymore, like your own bedroom anymore in your own space,
like we're living together, Like that's so crazy. I was like,
what the fuck and then I sent it in my
Snapchat group and one of my friends from high school
lives with her partner and has for like a year,
and she was like, no, Sarah, like those are completely
normal thoughts. And She's like, Honestly, whenever I've had like
(32:28):
enough of my boyfriend, like I just text my mom
up and I'm like, hey, do you want a girl's night?
Speaker 4 (32:32):
And then I go sleep in my own bed.
Speaker 5 (32:34):
So I was like, Okay, I'm I'm glad that, like
I'm not crazy, because for a second I was like,
oh my god, does this mean like this is my
anxiety and how it works. It's like, oh my god,
try do not do this then, because I'm like freaking
out about not having my own room, Like.
Speaker 6 (32:47):
Please, I don't even think I could share a room
right now with how Sarah has seen how messy the
laundry is in my room right now, Like I don't.
I don't think I could subject someone to living in
my bedroom right now.
Speaker 5 (32:59):
Yeah, I don't be an adjustment. I'm becoming a bunny mom,
a bunny step mom. Olivia has a bunny named Radish.
Speaker 6 (33:05):
Oh god, you gotta get whatever doesn't rapple. I was
about to say. I tried to say Chapel Roane and
Renee Rap at the same time.
Speaker 7 (33:12):
Renee Wrap.
Speaker 4 (33:13):
Doesn't she have some hot step mom shirt? I a liar?
Maybe she does.
Speaker 5 (33:18):
I have like the having good tits in a big heart,
that's the one I have.
Speaker 6 (33:22):
Someone's got a shirt about being a hot step mom.
Speaker 4 (33:25):
I shouldn't.
Speaker 5 (33:26):
I should like take a picture with Radish and like
digital camera, but I love it. I'm gonna do that
being held. But I'll figure it out. I'll figure it out.
Speaker 6 (33:36):
Time I did the Grinch makeup and I tried to
make him pose on me, and he's very bad at posing.
And also I was covered in green body makeup.
Speaker 4 (33:44):
Go, oh my god.
Speaker 7 (33:46):
That he's like a white dog.
Speaker 4 (33:50):
It's just like green all over him.
Speaker 7 (33:53):
That's crazy.
Speaker 5 (33:54):
I'm excited to have a pet though, because Stephen, my
brother Stephen brought his dog home this summer. He actually
just left yesterday and I literally was hysterically crying in
the Uber home because of so so leaving.
Speaker 4 (34:05):
Not my brother, that's fair, love you, Steven, but no,
I literally the dog. So he's a rescue like I'm
obsessed with him.
Speaker 5 (34:12):
But yeah, so that'll be nice hopefully to have, well,
I'm so little good for you. Yeah, it's crazy. So
that's like another big life thing. But otherwise the summer
has summered and now we are heading into fall Fella.
Speaker 4 (34:24):
Loujah very soon. And yeah, we just wanted to like
check in with you guys.
Speaker 6 (34:30):
Because there's been a second I have someone I don't
know how. But also this is again talking about dating up.
Someone messaged me being like, we gotta send me the
link to your podcast because I have a photo of
me holding a mic in one of the photos.
Speaker 4 (34:42):
Oh my god. And I was like, I don't know
if I should.
Speaker 6 (34:45):
I don't know that the best first impression of it,
Oh my god, I love that. Well, he hasn't replied
again yet, so you know what I really thought about it.
Speaker 7 (34:54):
I was like, what's a good episode to send him?
And I was like, I couldn't tell you.
Speaker 6 (34:59):
No, I literally I don't know which one I picked,
but I sent him on that. I don't feel like
he has replied again, And honestly, I wouldn't have expected
anything else, Like I wouldn't.
Speaker 4 (35:09):
I don't think that's a good first introduction for me. Look,
I think like and it just like the moment where
I went is for this thought.
Speaker 5 (35:17):
It's just like you know, it dawned on me recently
brand our like senior year of postgrad, Like this is
our fourth year and it's just so crazy to think about. Yeah,
like from where we started the podcast to like where
we're at in this like current moment, and how much
like yeah, we've talked about and like have gone through
like through all of this, And.
Speaker 4 (35:34):
I was like, God, where do I talk about my
mental health the least? What episode do I sound the
most stable?
Speaker 6 (35:43):
Like I was like, this is like I think I'm
wonderful and can be very funny, but I don't know.
Speaker 4 (35:52):
Me talking about the things that I am doing the
worst on in life maybe not the best introduction for me.
Speaker 5 (35:58):
Sure, I think it's hard to be open and vulnerable
and whatnot. And as a first impression, I get it
like Olivia like a breakdown five hundred tis a day.
I swear I call them like three times today crying,
so like it's different, but yeah, this is the pod.
Speaker 7 (36:14):
This is the pod.
Speaker 6 (36:16):
Yeah, I really I do love it, and I like
truly do hope to come back to it someday, and
like I'm so excited to see what Sarah does like
in the future.
Speaker 7 (36:24):
But I just.
Speaker 4 (36:27):
I feel like this call I gotta make right now. Yeah,
and we support you, but.
Speaker 6 (36:31):
I'll miss you all and like truly this podcast is
so much to me.
Speaker 7 (36:38):
And thanks all for listening.
Speaker 4 (36:40):
Yeah, so that is the end of this episode.
Speaker 5 (36:44):
We will be coming well, I will be coming back
hopefully the first weekend of October, which I think is
like October second. I'm gonna try and post on the
Instagram a bit more until then, giving you guys some
life to dates hopefully, like moving and all that eventually.
Fingers crossed, please Lord Jesus, I fucking hate moving to
New York City. It is the most stressful process for
no fucking reason. That's awful, the anger. But we love
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this comes out on Tuesday, Wednesday. If this comes out
on Wednesday, who knows, just because it's already six point
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Speaker 4 (01:09):
Wow, this feels so weird.
Speaker 5 (01:10):
It's been a hot second, has been a hot second
that's really hot.
Speaker 4 (01:14):
So this episode almost didn't happen.
Speaker 6 (01:16):
I really, I was so confident they weren't here clueless.
Speaker 4 (01:21):
Moment of the week was where is our equipment?
Speaker 6 (01:24):
I lost our equipment in my apartment and I looked
literally everywhere except for the one place that it was, as.
Speaker 4 (01:32):
Is the way Olivia told me.
Speaker 5 (01:34):
Olivia was like, why don't you go over, have a
fresh set of eyes, and like see if you can
find it.
Speaker 4 (01:39):
I was like, okay, Like I don't know, but I'm
glad I did come. I'm glad you did too.
Speaker 6 (01:44):
I think I've been so focused on the places where
I was like, oh, maybe it could have generally gotten
misplaced there.
Speaker 4 (01:52):
Yeah, I don't know. I don't work here today to
tell and that's good. In the moment I saw it,
I was like, this is really am brazing. No, it's okay.
Speaker 6 (02:02):
I did look like four separate times where I looked
everywhere in my apartment.
Speaker 4 (02:05):
I know, I felt so bad. I was like I
kept texting Audre, I was like, have you found it?
Speaker 7 (02:09):
Have you found it?
Speaker 4 (02:10):
Because I was like stressed. I was like, oh my gosh,
like you're quite bad.
Speaker 6 (02:13):
And I kept being like, no, I'm gonna look in
that basket one more time and it's gonna be there,
and I'm right, you've just missed it the first three times.
Speaker 5 (02:19):
Well, I thought we had missed it when we opened
like my green thing and there was still a blanket
on the bottom. So there was this part of my
brain that was like, oh my god, did we miss
it under there? But then it wasn't there, and I
was like, fuck.
Speaker 7 (02:30):
What's lyrics?
Speaker 6 (02:31):
Is the bag that was on top of the bin
that ended up being in I went through that whole
bag to make sure do you just didn't do this stuff?
Speaker 4 (02:37):
I guess I didn't look in the bin. It's okay.
Speaker 5 (02:40):
I feel like, does anybody else happen where it's like
where's my phone? And you're literally talking on your phone.
I feel like it's that situation.
Speaker 6 (02:47):
I also know like I can be sometimes prone to
not remember where things are bids WHI so like some
of the bins we were going through.
Speaker 7 (02:54):
I literally have written now in my notes app exactly.
Speaker 6 (02:56):
What's in the shore, because otherwise it's like, well they
were all organized and well throught through, but like if
I can't maintain what's in what beIN, then you end
up having to go through every ben anyway to But
now I just write it down.
Speaker 4 (03:10):
Period. We're here to tell the tape.
Speaker 7 (03:12):
Here, we're back.
Speaker 5 (03:13):
Hello, everyone, Welcome back to the Completely fucking Coolest Podcast.
Speaker 4 (03:16):
My name is Sarah Alice Liddy and my name is
Audregene Flowers.
Speaker 7 (03:20):
How's it been, folks.
Speaker 4 (03:22):
It's almost like summer is basically over.
Speaker 7 (03:24):
Summer is.
Speaker 5 (03:27):
Clock out of work, you guys, I will forget to
clock out of or like my ADP was so fucked
up because I even though I'm salary, they make us
clock in and out and I would just like not
give a fuck about it. And then I realized it
was affecting the amount of money I was making, like
(03:47):
the amount of like overtime, like if overtime was being clocked.
And I realize that like the person who's supposed to
like change make changes when we apply basically like you'll
put in a time change if you incorrectly cock in,
And the person who was supposed to be like checking
those off wasn't doing that.
Speaker 4 (04:06):
Oh cute, right, So I was I was making the effort.
Speaker 5 (04:08):
I was like making up for my mistakes, but then
they just weren't being recognized.
Speaker 4 (04:12):
Yeah, And I.
Speaker 5 (04:12):
Had this whole thing, and I was like, I am
so frustrated by the situation. And then I realized, all right, sir,
you need to take a little bit of accountability. And
so now I just have alarms that go off every
single day, and I just clock in at the same time.
I have lunch at the same time, and then I
like at the same time, so don't fuck it up.
I would breaks at work.
Speaker 6 (04:27):
What would always happen with me is I would set
timers to make sure that I don't like lose track
of time and don't go. But then I would see
that the timer is about to be up, and I
would like get ready to like end my break, like
put my water away, like go to clock back in,
and I would beat my timers, so I'd go back
out onto the floor and then like forty five seconds
my timer would go off, and someone else from the
(04:49):
back room would have to come out and be like
someone's phone timer is.
Speaker 4 (04:52):
Going off, and I'd have to be like, that's me
I tre's me.
Speaker 8 (04:57):
I was being too proactive, just trying to be proactive
in the workplace, because people get crazy in the workplace.
Let me tell you, people get crazy. Oh my gosh,
I swear I think being a young.
Speaker 4 (05:10):
Song with crazy crazy is underrated crazy.
Speaker 6 (05:13):
That's a joke that's not going to make sense to
you nor any of our listeners.
Speaker 4 (05:18):
It's a reference to a side I did for the
other So tell the.
Speaker 5 (05:22):
People, Tell the people. So we have an announcement to me,
we have an announcement to make.
Speaker 7 (05:27):
It feels dramatic.
Speaker 5 (05:28):
Announcement feels dramatic. But I'm going to say it for
click bait. We have a very dramatic announcement to make.
It's devastating, just kidding. You tell the people what you're doing.
Speaker 6 (05:41):
So I'm taking a little bit of an extended break
from the podcast. I love this podcast so much. It
has meant the world to me. It has truly beouen
an anchor through some really hard times. But I've been
back auditioning and that like takes up a lot of
time and focus, and I just it felt like the
path that I sort of need to pursue for now.
So I'm just gonna be taking a bit longer of
(06:01):
an extended break from the podcast. I don't exactly know
what that'll mean for the future, and I like don't
plan on.
Speaker 7 (06:08):
Never coming on this podcast ever again.
Speaker 6 (06:11):
And it is something I still very much love and
I'm so proud of, like the the little place that
we have created in the world.
Speaker 4 (06:19):
But I just feel like it's the right move for
me to take a little bit of a pause. Yeah,
I agree. I feel like I sensed it a couple
months you did, and you brought it up to me,
and at the moment, I just know.
Speaker 6 (06:30):
It's so funny though, because I felt so bad bringing
it up, because Sarah, genuinely, if you want to come
on it, I'm sing being like, hey, no, you're back auditioning.
Speaker 4 (06:36):
I just want to check in if you're still feeling
the same way.
Speaker 6 (06:38):
And I so confidently and at that moment very generally,
was like, yeah, no, I'm exactly.
Speaker 7 (06:42):
Feeling the same way.
Speaker 6 (06:43):
After four we toil like two and a half months later,
and I'm like, okay, well.
Speaker 5 (06:48):
Yeah, but I also think kind of like when you
came to me about it, and I agree, I think
taking a step back sometimes and having like a moment
to reflect can help you like figure out like where
you're priorities are lying and like what you want because honestly,
taking this time up from the podcast while it's like
hard because I think the like perfection is in my
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brain and like all the people who I don't necessarily
agree with are like, you know, you gotta like grind, grind,
grind work, work, work, consistent, consistent, consistent. I do think
it like one refuels you and it makes you like
appreciate it too, makes you realize some things that maybe
you weren't realizing in the moment when it was just
like a part of your day to day life and
(07:29):
you were just going through the motions. So I'm happy
that you know, you came to that place by yourself.
Whether you came to that place or not, I didn't care,
but yeah, I always wanted to make sure that, like,
you know, you wanted to do what you wanted to do.
And I know theater auditioning is a lot.
Speaker 4 (07:46):
How is it going? You want to tell the peeps?
Speaker 7 (07:49):
It's good? I mean, we'll see.
Speaker 6 (07:51):
There's a chance that nothing happens on it, and there's
a chance that like six seven months from now, I'm like, okay, uh,
I don't want to keep doing this anymore. It's just
something of like I started back just doing like a
couple auditions randomly, and then I kind of didn't think
that I could do this anymore. Theater's really intense, the
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hustles a lot, and I just I really truly didn't
think I could do it anymore, nor was.
Speaker 7 (08:16):
I really sure that I wanted to.
Speaker 6 (08:18):
And then I started doing it, and I think I
mentioned on the podcast in a previous episode, my first
time I ship went horribly, like I had to start over.
I messed up the lyrics. I didn't act at all.
I literally stood there and I like sick.
Speaker 4 (08:30):
My song and nothing hap on my face.
Speaker 6 (08:36):
That's not what I sound. I didn't sound better than that,
but like not by that much. I didn't sound great,
but I was like, wait, I kind of love this,
and I kept doing them and I just realized, like
I still love it and I still think I can
do it, and not that like theater won't ever go
be there and that like I couldn't return to it
later in life, but I just felt like I needed
(08:57):
to give it around like now that like I I've
spoken a lot about this in the podcast that like,
over the last like eight to like ish months, I've
been feeling a lot better and a lot more sort
of like re engaged with the world and connected. And
I've realized that like the thing that I always wanted
(09:19):
to do, I still kind of want to do, and
that I just need to give that a shot and
maybe in six months I'm going to change my mind
and be like, guys, that was hilarious, what a funny experience.
Speaker 7 (09:30):
Let's move on. But I just feels like the right
move for now.
Speaker 4 (09:37):
Period. I'm proud of you. It's like hard because I think,
especially in your.
Speaker 5 (09:42):
Twenties, like we're crazily enough like nearing like some like
later twenties ages.
Speaker 6 (09:50):
Right, I am about to be twenty six, so therefore
off my parents health insurance, and I am also stressed
about that.
Speaker 7 (09:56):
You're stressed.
Speaker 4 (09:57):
Yeah, I'm like not even like the fact Eli, he's.
Speaker 5 (09:59):
Turning twenty se I'm just like no, no, no, no, no, anyways,
forget that. Push that to back my brain avoid but like.
Speaker 7 (10:06):
I just think that's healthy.
Speaker 5 (10:07):
Yeah, it's so healthy. I'll talk about a therapy journey soon.
You can see it's going so well. But I feel
like in your twenties, it's like the time to do
all of this. I feel like my dad has always
been like take the risk, Like now is the time
to do it before you decide to if you want
a life partner, if you want children, even if you
want to like do like, I just think it's the
(10:29):
time now, and so I totally support you.
Speaker 4 (10:31):
I'm happy for you. I like am like I could
never the grind. That's I think the hardest part of.
Speaker 5 (10:38):
Theater for me, because I agree that there's times where
I miss it or want to involve myself in some
way the grind.
Speaker 4 (10:45):
I don't think Sarah could do the grind.
Speaker 7 (10:47):
Yeah, it's a lot.
Speaker 4 (10:47):
Yeah. Have you had some early auditions like early mornings.
Speaker 6 (10:51):
Yes, I have been really lucky that, like I've done
some of them. I definitely don't have to go as
early in the day for because I'm c which basically Okay,
there's actors Equity, and then there's a program that is
now retired and is being essentially phased out, but continues
through way later than I thought, like twenty twenty six,
(11:12):
Like there's still a bit longer while they're still doing
the program where you basically EMC was one of the
there's like kind of two paths to becoming equity. Historically,
there is either you would get offered it essentially by
like a theater or a show or something, or EMC,
which was through earning points. And so I did a
production of the Sound of Music at Regal Theater one
(11:33):
summer at college. I didn't get paid, but I did
get EMC points and EMC points.
Speaker 7 (11:38):
Basically there's a separate list.
Speaker 6 (11:40):
It gives you like some minor advantages of like you
don't go directly to the non equity list. You're like
in between equity and non equity. Say, in case anyone
was curious, that's a not very speedy explanation of it.
Speaker 7 (11:53):
So I don't have to go quite as early.
Speaker 6 (11:55):
But there's definitely been quite a few times where I've
waited for an agian and not been seen.
Speaker 7 (12:00):
And that's how it is.
Speaker 6 (12:00):
But it's been nice to like reconnect to like people
in the community, and it's like remember that, like, hey.
Speaker 7 (12:08):
I'm good at this.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
Yeah, no, I feel you.
Speaker 5 (12:10):
Sometimes I'll be singing and I'll be like, wait, I'm
good at It's hilarious.
Speaker 6 (12:15):
Though I didn't think I was good while we were
at Elon interesting. Animally, I think I'm better than I
was when we were in college. But like something that
I really had to come to terms with in these
past few years is like, oh, I had cripplingly low
self esteem, like yeah, no, horribly loud.
Speaker 4 (12:31):
Yeah.
Speaker 5 (12:31):
Well, I think, especially in that type of environment, it's
just so hard to like think about yourself outside of
everybody else because you're so close together, you're like doing
all of these things so tightly.
Speaker 7 (12:46):
And I've also gone to a high school like that exactly.
Speaker 4 (12:48):
My class, my freshman theater class, there's ten of us.
Speaker 1 (12:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 6 (12:52):
Also, like whatever favoriteism Elon had, boy, did my high
school have more?
Speaker 5 (12:57):
Yeah, exactly. And there's all those poly ticks things that
like go into it. So it's just like it's it's complicated.
I feel like at school, I thought I was good.
I think I or I think I was more just
like frustrated because I wanted to go in one direction
with like my voice in my acting, which was more
like not the comedic like roles and stuff like that,
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especially because my voice was changing, Like at the beginning
of college, I had my vocal folds were a little inflamed,
so I got really into like soprano world and like mixing.
I don't have like a very currently at least a
very chesty belt that goes like very very high, and
so for plus size women, like.
Speaker 4 (13:37):
That is what they're looking for. And so I sort
of felt.
Speaker 5 (13:39):
Like I was just like trapped in this trope and
I couldn't get out of it, and I was just
like I am so tired of like feeling like I'm
never gonna get anywhere because of it. So yeah, I've
always said the same thing, sort of like I never know,
like I always keep the door a little like peaky
open and we'll see.
Speaker 4 (14:00):
But yeah, I'm.
Speaker 5 (14:01):
Excited to hear about all the auditioning and everything like
that and watch from afar.
Speaker 4 (14:07):
I'm like a far very fair and very fair.
Speaker 5 (14:10):
Yeah, but I also watch because maybe one day I'll
like try and get back into it. And like I
feel like I barely gave the audition auditioning world to
try well, Like.
Speaker 7 (14:20):
We also graduated in the pandemic. It was a weird time.
It still is a weird time.
Speaker 4 (14:26):
Like a lot of people have gone COVID recently.
Speaker 7 (14:28):
I got COVID recently.
Speaker 6 (14:29):
I was really fucking out of it for a while
so I in the last month in spare change, I
got sick twice. I also have another friend who got
COVID and they had a very similar thing where they
got COVID, got better, and then got sick again. Yeah,
either vers are sure if like that is some new
variation of COVID, or if just both of us from
having COVID our immune systems were weaker so we caught
(14:50):
something else.
Speaker 4 (14:51):
Yeah, but like it's bad.
Speaker 7 (14:54):
It is still a very bad thing.
Speaker 6 (14:55):
That is, you know, I feel like I've seen a
lot more conversation about it again, and like I'm not
gonna lie. I'm someone who, like I had been really
good about masking and I've definitely fallen off. But even
like stuff that you're seeing out of the Olympics, of
like Olympicans like doing these competitions with COVID, and like
(15:15):
some of them are being fine, but some of them aren't.
And that like there is instances of like COVID leaving
lasting bad effects on y It's not over as much
as we all, not all, but the vast majority of.
Speaker 7 (15:29):
Us kind of like to pretend that it is.
Speaker 4 (15:31):
Yeah, I've heard a lot about don't.
Speaker 6 (15:33):
Recommend getting it. It was really bad. I felt horrible.
Make sure to get your vaccines and be careful. If
someone is sick, maybe ask them to wear a mask.
Speaker 5 (15:41):
Yeah, I had gotten it back in January, and I've
had it like before, and I had one time when
I had like the omicron variant. I had the same
thing where I had COVID and then I got sick again.
And then I know, like a lot of people have
came out and talked about like hair loss isn't effected,
like it can be an overlasting even.
Speaker 6 (15:58):
Just like energy of Like, oh, my friends had it
a few weeks before me, and when we saw each other,
he was like, no, I just feel like I'm starting
to come out of Like I feel like I just
had this brain fog that I just couldn't shake.
Speaker 5 (16:08):
Yeah, I hate brain fog because it feels like they're
like it feels hard to make an excuse for it,
but like it is real, yes, and it's weird.
Speaker 7 (16:16):
There's nothing tangible you can point to it, sure, but anyway,
if you're feeling sick.
Speaker 6 (16:20):
I've also heard a lot that this most current variant
is not tending to always test positive even when you
are positive.
Speaker 7 (16:27):
So if you're feeling sick.
Speaker 6 (16:28):
Please consider masking up, especially when you go out in
front of people. I know it's annoying, and especially in
summer it's really hot and it's uncomfortable, but.
Speaker 7 (16:36):
You know, try not to get other people sick.
Speaker 4 (16:39):
Period. Well that was our big crazy update.
Speaker 7 (16:42):
That was the big update.
Speaker 4 (16:43):
That was a big update. Otherwise we've been chilling.
Speaker 7 (16:46):
We've been chilling. I'm settled into my new APOC.
Speaker 5 (16:49):
Yes, and that's why I wanted to ask you. How
is it feeling in the new space.
Speaker 6 (16:53):
I'm really liking it. It's different, but I really like
the area, and like I always knew that long term
I wanted to end up Upper West.
Speaker 4 (17:00):
Yeah, but I really love it.
Speaker 6 (17:02):
My sister is actually going to be kind of living
with me for three months this fall, which I'm really
excited for.
Speaker 7 (17:06):
Yes, I think there is.
Speaker 6 (17:08):
Going to be some negotiation of like, hey, I haven't
lived with someone in three years.
Speaker 7 (17:11):
Yeah, that's gonna be a little bit weird.
Speaker 6 (17:13):
And also like I think it's different living with someone
with their own bedroom versus when they are just sleeping
on your couch. But I'm really excited about that and
spending some time with her. Yeah, I had a meeting
with my psychiatrist today.
Speaker 4 (17:25):
Okay, good, Well it was lovely catching up with him
and we have a lovely shot. I know.
Speaker 5 (17:31):
Speaking of therapy, I've been in with my new therapist
for like six to eight weeks now, and all I
have to say is I cry, like multiple times a day,
and like they said it was normal. Like my mom said,
who's a therapist, said it was normal. Olivia, who is
in the therapy world, said it was normal, and then
therapist said it was normal, and then my old therapist
said it was normal. Because I was like, I cannot say,
(17:53):
like I get emotional over everything, and basically it's because, yeah,
you're talking about these things that you don't like talk
about all the time.
Speaker 4 (18:01):
And I'm learning a lot about myself. But it's not
like the.
Speaker 5 (18:04):
Easiest journey and it's not one that like instantly feels good.
So that can be like hard sometimes, but it's happening,
and I'm crying all the time.
Speaker 7 (18:14):
I'm proud of you.
Speaker 6 (18:16):
I mean, since I went off SSRIs, I cry someone,
Oh my god, it's distressing.
Speaker 7 (18:20):
It's really embarrassing.
Speaker 6 (18:22):
I like a few weeks back at a meeting with like.
Speaker 7 (18:24):
A career counselor that like a friend went to and.
Speaker 6 (18:27):
Like, I I am like trying to be like obviously,
when I like go into a job, this is someone
I would lead with. But like with people that I'm
like working with or close with, I'm like trying to
be open.
Speaker 4 (18:37):
I'm like, hey, I had a few hard years.
Speaker 7 (18:39):
And then explained him.
Speaker 6 (18:40):
I just like kept crying and I was like, I'm
so sorry. I didn't expect to get emotional like this.
You can tell them it's not prepared. I felt really
bad because I just couldn't stop crying, and he seemed worried,
and I was like, I swear that, like.
Speaker 5 (18:58):
I'm okay, I'm mentally I'm just emotional right now.
Speaker 4 (19:01):
No, literally the emotional day. My dude, literally crying all
of the time.
Speaker 5 (19:09):
But hopefully, like by the time next year, it'll feel
like better because I've cried all of it out, like
I'm just letting it happen. But I feel like similarly
to you, I felt like for so long, like I
wasn't really crying or stuff, and maybe I just like
wasn't processing anything.
Speaker 4 (19:23):
So now we're processing. We're processing.
Speaker 6 (19:26):
I'm trying a new thing. Well I started trying it,
but then I was sick, so then I had to
cancel that one. But of like, do hosting just like
a low key thing in my apartment every other week, okay,
either like Friday, Saturday, Thursday, depending on my schedule. This
one I pulled people of, like, does Friday or Saturday
work for you? I can do either nights and whichever
night more people pick which one?
Speaker 4 (19:47):
I think. I think it's Friday.
Speaker 6 (19:50):
But so this time it's going to be a Clue
movie night because one of my friends was doing a
callback for events and Clue and it reminded me, like, hey,
that movie is great, So I'm having friends over and
whoever wants to come and watch Clue. The other one
was meant to be a game night, but then I
was sick, so I canceled it.
Speaker 7 (20:06):
But I just feel like it's a good thing.
Speaker 6 (20:07):
Of like, I like hosting, but I have found the
like dinner parties for like my age and my apartment,
they're intense. I probably still want to do them some,
but like less intensely than I've done in the past.
Like previously I've had like I don't know, like probably
like ten to fifteen people over.
Speaker 4 (20:23):
Yeah it's hard, and.
Speaker 6 (20:24):
It's yeah, it's especially a lot, especially because like people
would offer to help clean to my old place and
even then I would say no, and in my current
place they wouldn't be able to help at all. But
I'm like, I feel like this is a good compromise,
Like maybe I'll make some little snacks, maybe I'll just
get chips from the store.
Speaker 7 (20:40):
I still like hosting and having people over.
Speaker 6 (20:42):
It's like I also just think, like I tend to
do most of us, I think we end up doing
one on one hangs with people all the time, and
it's like a fun little place like my.
Speaker 7 (20:51):
Friends getting each other.
Speaker 6 (20:52):
Yeah, like a group thing of Like we don't really
have parties anymore, and even if we did, I don't
feel like that's mostly one of most of my friends
would want to do anyway, But to like have something
where it's like it's a group of us and it's
not a bar and you can drink if you would like,
and it's just I think it's a tradition that I
would like to astounish.
Speaker 5 (21:10):
Yeah, And I feel it's like a nice way to
keep accountable. I feel like I have trouble getting out
there these days, especially because I like barely drink, Like
you guys Olivia and I went to our what's it
called anniversary dinner this weekend.
Speaker 4 (21:25):
I had one aperol Sprits and I was like, I'm drunk.
Speaker 5 (21:27):
I was like, why, I've never felt drunk or tipsy
after one apperall spirts in my life. I was like,
literally unwell from this one sprits. And I don't dislike
this lifestyle, Like I actually really like this like really
not drinking like heavily going out lifestyle. It's really great
for my bank account, it's really good for my mental
Like I don't mind it, and I think I and
(21:49):
I also know because of my mental health, sometimes I
can be very overly cautious about my energy. I can
get overwhelmed easily, and I feel like in therapy right now,
I'm trying and working on finding that boundary line between
like okay, like I need to stay in and rest
and restore and like all right, Sarah, like you can
like push yourself like even if cause like sometimes.
Speaker 7 (22:10):
You go out and your round people and that does
end up energizing.
Speaker 6 (22:12):
Yeah, exactly, it does end up like sort of fulfilling
something in you. And it's like, oh, well, I'm glad
that I pushed and did this right exactly.
Speaker 5 (22:19):
I think Olivia Trice to remind me that sometimes like
you're mostly like not gonna want to do everything all
the time, and so like, yeah, even if you can
say to yourself, like all right, I don't want to
do this right now, but I know like I'm gonna
feel better like once I'm there. So I feel like
I need to I need to get into more of
that because I feel like I haven't been like as
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social as I usually am, but also like work has
been like really crazy too, and that can be.
Speaker 4 (22:46):
Really hard to manage or some wild work stuff. Oh
my god.
Speaker 5 (22:49):
Yeah, for legal reasons, I won't No, I'm just kidding.
Speaker 4 (22:54):
I'm not gonna get into it.
Speaker 5 (22:56):
I wish I could, you guys and be like fully
transparent and honest, but I have I have four.
Speaker 4 (23:03):
Words.
Speaker 5 (23:05):
I will be figuring out over the next couple of
weeks what the podcast is going to look like. I
plan to come back the first weekend of October, just
because update number one. Olivia and I are moving in
together or looking for places right now, and hopefully we'll
be moving in some.
Speaker 4 (23:20):
Time supply we did. It's such a journey, it's such
a ride.
Speaker 5 (23:26):
I'll give you the d's off camera because I have
a secret, but I can't put it on the internet.
Speaker 7 (23:33):
I'm not at secret all.
Speaker 5 (23:36):
Sorry, I mean, but eventually you guys, like, well, I'll
be filming in the apartment that Oliviy and I end
up in, so you will see it eventually and I
will spill the tea about everything, just not yet, so
like that's happening in September. I have a lot of
work stuff going on. Olivia and I are going on
vacation for like six days, so I was like, I
feel like the best time to come back is in October,
when I feel like I can be consistent.
Speaker 4 (23:55):
Yes, I'm really busy with already of September. But one
of the literally one.
Speaker 5 (24:05):
Of the ideas i'd written about to like get into
and like is like my year of being in corporate
America and like some of the things I learned, which
like feeds into all the work stuff that's been going on,
just in a like more package place. Right now, I'm
in an emotional place about it, so I will just
get angry and say things that I shouldn't so I
won't fair. But otherwise, I mean, I have gotten a
(24:27):
new project at work, which has been great, and it's
been making me creative in a different way, which is
nice because I feel like for a long time I
was stuck in this really like bad rut of just
feeling like so unfulfilled. I think it's hard. Corporate America
is hard. Yeah, any type of job is hard. Which
is what I'm learning is that nothing makes you feel
amazing one hundred percent of the time, which is sucky.
Speaker 4 (24:48):
I guess no, Yeah, I don't know, but yeah, I don't.
Speaker 5 (24:52):
I don't know where I started that, but yeah, work, life,
the pursuit of happiness.
Speaker 4 (24:57):
Yeah, we keep mentioning the pursuit of happiness to each other. Yeah.
Speaker 5 (25:00):
I just have been like if I'm like, we're like,
if you know, like three words like live, laugh, love,
I'm always like, live laugh in the pursuit of happiness
because that is always on my mind, is pursuing happiness
in some way, shape or form.
Speaker 7 (25:13):
So I had a date plan for this week.
Speaker 6 (25:15):
It got or no for last week, literally a full
week from today.
Speaker 7 (25:20):
I was going to reschedule it anyway because I was sick.
Speaker 6 (25:22):
We had set a time and date and they I
was like, what area are do you to live in?
And they were like upper East and I was like,
I'm upper West and they were like, oh, I'll figure
out somewhere in the middle.
Speaker 7 (25:32):
And I think maybe.
Speaker 6 (25:33):
It's I just do quite know texting etiquette, and part
of it is like, I don't really like talking to
someone before going on a date that much.
Speaker 7 (25:40):
But then I didn't really reply, and I just figured
that I don't know.
Speaker 6 (25:44):
When it got closer to the date of our date,
she would shoot me wheeah, and I was going to
have to send a message anyway, being like, hey, I'm
pretty sick and I'm working on this audition and I
need my voice to come back, so I need to reschedule.
Speaker 7 (25:57):
But then she just never reached out, And.
Speaker 6 (25:59):
Part of me is like, oh, was I supposed to
continue the conversation for the rest of the week until
we actually reached the date, because like, no, And I
know that this is maybe a bad take and makes
me bad at dating, and I'm kind of really okay
with that. I like, I don't even like texting people
I know very well that much like.
Speaker 4 (26:21):
I don't want to be there.
Speaker 6 (26:22):
And the one person I kind of dated from a
dating app we had met once previously in person. We
voke for very spoke for very little time on the
actual dating app, and we ended up actually having like
these calls every night leading up to our date of
like I remember the moment, so romantic.
Speaker 4 (26:36):
We talked on the phone for like four hours tonight.
Speaker 9 (26:42):
But it's because, like you know, text is so difficult,
especially with someone you don't know, like you don't get
a tone of voice, like I don't want to talk
to a person I don't know for a week about
like how is your day?
Speaker 6 (26:53):
Like I just I don't want to. I'd rather set
the date. Sure, but pardon me? Is like, oh does
she think that I'm rried? Because I didn't reply? And
it literally didn't cross my mind until she ended up
not reaching out about the date And maybe she is
her own shit happening in her life, but this is
what went through my mind, Like all right, I never
heard back from her. I never had to reschedule the
(27:13):
date because I never heard back about where it was.
And part of me was like, well, technically I think
I might have left her on red, So I think
that might have.
Speaker 4 (27:19):
Been on me, got it?
Speaker 5 (27:20):
I see, Okay, I was putting it together in my head. Yes, yeah,
oh god, I'm like the worst of dating advice. But yeah,
I guess like she said she was going to figure
out the location, so yeah, like why would you need
to respond and why would you keep the conversation going,
like you guys don't know each other.
Speaker 7 (27:35):
That's the thing. I don't know people on dating app.
I don't.
Speaker 4 (27:38):
But maybe I'm wrong. I don't care about you, but
I don't.
Speaker 7 (27:41):
You're a stranger.
Speaker 4 (27:43):
Maybe I'm wrong.
Speaker 5 (27:44):
I don't know, but yeah, I feel like the date
is for you to get to know each other right exactly.
Speaker 6 (27:49):
But I feel like so like so many of my
friends will talk to me about that where they'll be
like talking to someone on weeks on a dating app
before like actually meaning out, and I'm like, weeks that
sounds terrible.
Speaker 4 (28:00):
Weeks, Oh my gosh, that's what do you even talk about?
Speaker 5 (28:05):
I get like face timing because I remember Steph said
she would FaceTime somebody before like and I get that
that's totally cool, similar to i'd call, Yeah, but like text.
Speaker 7 (28:15):
Tone of voice.
Speaker 4 (28:16):
Yeah, there's certain people that I know well enough that
I can hear their.
Speaker 7 (28:19):
Tone of work.
Speaker 4 (28:20):
Yeah, sure, a complete stranger, No I can't, right, Yeah, no,
I'm yeah, I agree.
Speaker 5 (28:26):
I feel like that's the type of dater I would be,
is like like, why are we continuing this conversation, Like
we don't even know each other, Like let's just like
go go on the date.
Speaker 6 (28:33):
Yes, yes, but I feel like I might be the
only person who feels that way.
Speaker 4 (28:37):
Okay, so maybe there's like somewhere to me in the middle.
Speaker 6 (28:40):
Maybe Regardless, I don't think I'm gonna have to going
on a date with that go it's fine. I don't
remember her name. I also don't Maybe this makes me toxic.
I don't remember people's names until right before we're about
to go on the date.
Speaker 7 (28:53):
Essentially keep it low sting.
Speaker 6 (28:56):
They're not real to me. So right before the date,
I go and double check their profile on my write.
Their name's Paxton.
Speaker 7 (29:02):
I don't know. I picked to that name.
Speaker 4 (29:05):
And then I remember it.
Speaker 6 (29:06):
And I always do this because there's one time where
I was talking to a friend being like, oh, I'm
going on a date tonight, and they're like, what's the
name And I was like, I think Tom maybe, And
I went and checked my phone right before the date
and it was like Ryan. It was like nothing like Tom,
and I was like, oh, good thing. I double check
that because that would have called him the wrong name.
But I just learned people's names right before the date.
(29:28):
But yeah, you're not a real person to me yet,
so why do.
Speaker 7 (29:30):
I need to learn your name? I wouldn't expect you
to know my name.
Speaker 5 (29:34):
Yeah, it's so crazy. I've been out of the dating
world for so fucking long. I'm like, I could never
do this, Like.
Speaker 7 (29:41):
In the dating world, I like go and lounge by
the pool.
Speaker 6 (29:43):
I don't go in sure, I'll like maybe like put
a toe in the water, and then I walk away and.
Speaker 4 (29:49):
Right because that was you putting the toe in the
water and then you didn't his body and you're like, oh,
gay bye.
Speaker 6 (29:53):
That was so impressive for me that I even like
made it to that point of scheduling the date with someone.
I started being like, you know what, I'm just gonna
actually be with people and like pretty early on in
the conversation be like want to grab coffee or a drink?
That way, I'm not waiting for them. Partially because I
think with dating women, there is less of like a
like it is very much still a thing within heterosexual dating,
(30:13):
like it's more typical for the guy to ask you
out something with the.
Speaker 4 (30:16):
Girl it's like, Hey, I can wait for her to ask,
or I can end.
Speaker 7 (30:20):
This now and I can just ask.
Speaker 4 (30:22):
That's so true.
Speaker 6 (30:23):
I've also begun doing it with guys because, like I
do feel like in person, yeah, I would be less
likely to do this, but yeah, app when you're not
a real person and I'm sending this into the void, yeah, sure,
want to grab a drink.
Speaker 4 (30:34):
Yeah, that's so true.
Speaker 5 (30:35):
I feel like I never thought about that aspect of
queer dating is like, really, it's up to any Like
it's not maybe as certain or there aren't like gender
roles or traditional roles around it. That's so weird. I'm
at a weird phase of not I'm in a weird
phase in my relationship. No, I'm not in a weird phase.
I'm like moving in with my partner. And it's crazy
(30:55):
because I'm like, I'm an adult but I'm not.
Speaker 4 (31:00):
But I'm not.
Speaker 5 (31:01):
Literally, I think I right, like this is a very
adult thing to do, but it's freaking me the fuck out,
Like worryfair, I am so excited. I am so excited.
I'm really excited for like moving to a different part
of the city. I'm not going to tell you where yet.
I like I know where. Yeah, you'll find out. But
(31:24):
it's like so cool, Like you know, we've already had
like a lot of like great discussions and like obviously
I had moments where we were like, all right, we
need to figure out, like we need to communicate, like
that's not it, this is not it. But the thing
that gets me the most I was laying in my
bed the other day and I was like I looked
around my room. I was like, holy shit, like I'm
not gonna have my own bedroom.
Speaker 4 (31:44):
No. And then I was like I texted Olivia. I
was like, what if I want to sleep in my
bed alone?
Speaker 5 (31:50):
Like what like what if I were to see alone?
It was like I could like go on the couch
or like you can like go home for the weekend
if you want, like you're not like what's it called
like in jail or anything?
Speaker 4 (32:02):
And it was it was hard because I felt like
this was weird thinking. I was like, this is.
Speaker 5 (32:06):
Weird, Like I'm excited about this, but like I'm also
having these weird thoughts of like yeah, not having a
bedroom anymore, like your own bedroom anymore in your own space,
like we're living together, Like that's so crazy. I was like,
what the fuck and then I sent it in my
Snapchat group and one of my friends from high school
lives with her partner and has for like a year,
and she was like, no, Sarah, like those are completely
normal thoughts. And She's like, Honestly, whenever I've had like
(32:28):
enough of my boyfriend, like I just text my mom
up and I'm like, hey, do you want a girl's night?
Speaker 4 (32:32):
And then I go sleep in my own bed.
Speaker 5 (32:34):
So I was like, Okay, I'm I'm glad that, like
I'm not crazy, because for a second I was like,
oh my god, does this mean like this is my
anxiety and how it works. It's like, oh my god,
try do not do this then, because I'm like freaking
out about not having my own room, Like.
Speaker 6 (32:47):
Please, I don't even think I could share a room
right now with how Sarah has seen how messy the
laundry is in my room right now, Like I don't.
I don't think I could subject someone to living in
my bedroom right now.
Speaker 5 (32:59):
Yeah, I don't be an adjustment. I'm becoming a bunny mom,
a bunny step mom. Olivia has a bunny named Radish.
Speaker 6 (33:05):
Oh god, you gotta get whatever doesn't rapple. I was
about to say. I tried to say Chapel Roane and
Renee Rap at the same time.
Speaker 7 (33:12):
Renee Wrap.
Speaker 4 (33:13):
Doesn't she have some hot step mom shirt? I a liar?
Maybe she does.
Speaker 5 (33:18):
I have like the having good tits in a big heart,
that's the one I have.
Speaker 6 (33:22):
Someone's got a shirt about being a hot step mom.
Speaker 4 (33:25):
I shouldn't.
Speaker 5 (33:26):
I should like take a picture with Radish and like
digital camera, but I love it. I'm gonna do that
being held. But I'll figure it out. I'll figure it out.
Speaker 6 (33:36):
Time I did the Grinch makeup and I tried to
make him pose on me, and he's very bad at posing.
And also I was covered in green body makeup.
Speaker 4 (33:44):
Go, oh my god.
Speaker 7 (33:46):
That he's like a white dog.
Speaker 4 (33:50):
It's just like green all over him.
Speaker 7 (33:53):
That's crazy.
Speaker 5 (33:54):
I'm excited to have a pet though, because Stephen, my
brother Stephen brought his dog home this summer. He actually
just left yesterday and I literally was hysterically crying in
the Uber home because of so so leaving.
Speaker 4 (34:05):
Not my brother, that's fair, love you, Steven, but no,
I literally the dog. So he's a rescue like I'm
obsessed with him.
Speaker 5 (34:12):
But yeah, so that'll be nice hopefully to have, well,
I'm so little good for you. Yeah, it's crazy. So
that's like another big life thing. But otherwise the summer
has summered and now we are heading into fall Fella.
Speaker 4 (34:24):
Loujah very soon. And yeah, we just wanted to like
check in with you guys.
Speaker 6 (34:30):
Because there's been a second I have someone I don't
know how. But also this is again talking about dating up.
Someone messaged me being like, we gotta send me the
link to your podcast because I have a photo of
me holding a mic in one of the photos.
Speaker 4 (34:42):
Oh my god. And I was like, I don't know
if I should.
Speaker 6 (34:45):
I don't know that the best first impression of it,
Oh my god, I love that. Well, he hasn't replied
again yet, so you know what I really thought about it.
Speaker 7 (34:54):
I was like, what's a good episode to send him?
And I was like, I couldn't tell you.
Speaker 6 (34:59):
No, I literally I don't know which one I picked,
but I sent him on that. I don't feel like
he has replied again, And honestly, I wouldn't have expected
anything else, Like I wouldn't.
Speaker 4 (35:09):
I don't think that's a good first introduction for me. Look,
I think like and it just like the moment where
I went is for this thought.
Speaker 5 (35:17):
It's just like you know, it dawned on me recently
brand our like senior year of postgrad, Like this is
our fourth year and it's just so crazy to think about. Yeah,
like from where we started the podcast to like where
we're at in this like current moment, and how much
like yeah, we've talked about and like have gone through
like through all of this, And.
Speaker 4 (35:34):
I was like, God, where do I talk about my
mental health the least? What episode do I sound the
most stable?
Speaker 6 (35:43):
Like I was like, this is like I think I'm
wonderful and can be very funny, but I don't know.
Speaker 4 (35:52):
Me talking about the things that I am doing the
worst on in life maybe not the best introduction for me.
Speaker 5 (35:58):
Sure, I think it's hard to be open and vulnerable
and whatnot. And as a first impression, I get it
like Olivia like a breakdown five hundred tis a day.
I swear I call them like three times today crying,
so like it's different, but yeah, this is the pod.
Speaker 7 (36:14):
This is the pod.
Speaker 6 (36:16):
Yeah, I really I do love it, and I like
truly do hope to come back to it someday, and
like I'm so excited to see what Sarah does like
in the future.
Speaker 7 (36:24):
But I just.
Speaker 4 (36:27):
I feel like this call I gotta make right now. Yeah,
and we support you, but.
Speaker 6 (36:31):
I'll miss you all and like truly this podcast is
so much to me.
Speaker 7 (36:38):
And thanks all for listening.
Speaker 4 (36:40):
Yeah, so that is the end of this episode.
Speaker 5 (36:44):
We will be coming well, I will be coming back
hopefully the first weekend of October, which I think is
like October second. I'm gonna try and post on the
Instagram a bit more until then, giving you guys some
life to dates hopefully, like moving and all that eventually.
Fingers crossed, please Lord Jesus, I fucking hate moving to
New York City. It is the most stressful process for
no fucking reason. That's awful, the anger. But we love
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this comes out on Tuesday, Wednesday. If this comes out
on Wednesday, who knows, just because it's already six point
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