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Hey, guys, welcome back.My name is Warren and today I'm
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here with I'm Eva and I'm asurvivor of you in Circola. So when
were you first diagnosed? I wasdiagnosed in the end of seventh grade on
January twelfth, twenty twenty one.And what was life like before the diagnosis.
I was a competitive cheerleader. Ispent fifteen hours a day a week
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in the gym, and I hada lot of friends, and I went
out a lot and I was justreally happy. Yeah, right, is
that? How much did like lifechange after? Well? When I was
diagnosed. He was during the COVIDyears, so everything was everyone was wearing
masks. It was really closed off. So when I was diagnosed in the
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hospital, I didn't really get thetreatment that other people got for it was
kind of doors were open, youcould interact with all the patients. There
was like a playroom where all thekids could play and have fun. But
when we went in basically for thehospital, everyone had to stay in the
rooms. No one could really leavethe hospital at all. So it was
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my thing made it ten times harder, right, Yeah, scary. So
how'd you know you're going to beokay? Like, did you? I
didn't at the time. It wasactually really scary. I kind of put
a smile on my face said itwould be okay, kind of Yeah.
I wouldn't say put on an act. But I was really friendly, loved
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all my nurses. They were sohelpful. But it was really terrifying to
go through. Yeah, I bet, I bet. Thoughts were just racing
your head all the time. Yeah, I can't even imagine. Is there
a significant person that really helped youalong the way. My mom, She
was always in the hospital room withme because through the I had fourteen rounds
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of chemo and for at all,because there was like you to go through
five days of chemo, then youhad like a week of rest, and
then you'd go for two days andthen one day rest two days, and
then you go for a week.So through all that time it was literally
in and out of the hospital.You didn't really get a break at all.
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And my mom was always there throughlike everything. If I was like,
can you go get chick fil Afor me, she would go get
chick fil A. If I waslike, I'm really feeling Starbucks right now,
she would. But I was alsonot very nice to her too,
because I was just so tired,it was sick. I wanted to sleep
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all the time, Like I reallydid not feel well, and so I
was really moody all the time.And so my mom was the closest person
to me, and so I kindof took it out on her at the
time. But because of that wegrew closer. Right, Yeah, how
did your emotional well being like reallychange through chemo? I was kind of
a more of a care free person. I didn't really care about what happened.
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When I got the diagnosis, Ikind of became more aware of the
consequences like something would because you neverthink you would get diagnosed with cancer until
it basically happens. And in myfamily, there's no like prior history to
it, so it was completely justrandom thing, a genetic thing that happened.
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So it kind of almost was realitydrop on me. And it scared
me because I was only thirteen atthe time. It was. It was
really scary to happen, but Ithink it just almost made me stronger,
right, yeah, And how howdid you stay strong through all the all
the stuff that you're going through.I would say I did stay strong through
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it all, but that would bea lie. I had nights where I
didn't want anyone to see me likecry, so I'd wait until my mom
was asleep, and I remember justlying in bed and crying, trying not
to wake her up because I wasjust I was so sick and I was
so scared, but I wanted toput on a smile for my mom to
just tell her that I was okay. And when the nurses came in at
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night to get my pools, Iwould wipe in my tears and put on
a smile and be like, oh, I'm just I'm just awake. Can't
go to sleep. But then thereare some days where I do. I
did felt really happy because the nurseswould come in and kind of just like
play with you, talk with you, even helped you with homework. They
were really big help when it cameto science and biology. But there are
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really hard days and on those days, I think my mom really pulled through
and kind of helped me. Right, yeah, yeah, I'm sorry about
that. So what was the biggestchange through your life? They're like,
what the biggest change before and after? I think the hardest thing that I
had to go through physically was Icouldn't walk for about a year and a
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half before I was even diagnosed.I because I was a professional cheerleader,
I got hurt a lot and soI thought I pulled a muscle, but
it wouldn't heal, and it justkept getting worse to where I was limping
every time I walked, and mycoach advised me to go get an MRI,
and when I did, and theythought it was assist so they were
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like, get on clutches for sixmonths and then we'll see. But we
were like, we can't go crutchesfor six months. See if maybe surgery
in between then, so we wentto many, many doctors and then finally
we got a surgery and that's whenthey were like, oh, this is
cancer. They got me into MedicalCity right away. Because of the biopsy
that I had, I was oncrutches for a long time, and then
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I had another surgery in between,which was even harder, and then I
was on crutches for even more andthen I switched to a cane. But
when I started walking on the cane, it hurt to walk, which wasn't
supposed to happen, and they foundthat the metal that they put into my
hip was failing and my hip wasdying, so they had to basically go
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back in and do a total hiptransplant. So then I wasn't able to
walk for another two three months,and then I was finally able to walk
without any like assistance my freshman year. Like halfway through my freshman year,
How did you get through the longhospitals? I don't remember a lot of
it because I was sleeping through itall because the chemo just makes you really
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tired, so I just remember sleeping. But when I was awake, I
my mom would basically distract me byhaving me watch movies and when my dad
would stay for like the two daysI remember, we watched just like a
whole bunch of different TV shows topass the time. I also am striving
to be an artist, so whenI was in the hospital, I would
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do a lot of drawing painting,So that's what I did to pass the
time. Right, what's your favoritestyle? I do graphite, so like
pencil drawings. Yeah, that's prettycool. Has your perspective of life at
all change big time? I wouldsay for me, I matured more because
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during the time it was COVID,so everything was closed off. I did
lose a majority of my friend groupbecause of that, because I couldn't really
see them because of COVID. Iliterally couldn't go around anyone in fear of
catching it because it would be reallydangerous to my health because my immune system
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was down, and so I couldonly be in your family, which was
kind of hard being thirteen years old. Right. But then once I got
back to school, I made alot of friends, which was really nice.
But just I think that loneliness thatI went through kind of made me
see the importance of just like havingfriends and being there for everyone. Right,
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And how was it going back toschool. It was really hard because
I was bald, and it's themiddle of summer in Texas, so wearing
a wig is really hard because it'shot, sweaty, it's itchy. So
I went to school fully bald withmy crutches, so pressingly, everyone was
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really nice to me. No onelike commented about it, no one pointed
out, which was really nice becausethat was one of my insecurities was would
everyone make fun of me because Iwas bald going back to school. Everyone
was really supportive if I was stoppingin the hallway to like take a break
because I was on crutches. Soit wasn't as bad as I thought it
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would be. But it was kindof weird because of everyone kind of knew
each other from just the absence thatI was gone, and everyone has like
all the friend groups and so itwas kind of weird coming back and trying
to fit into a friend group orlike a certain group again. But I
eventually found one. So, yeah, did you do you still have the
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same friends that you had before?How do you? I actually do I
have the friends that I had duringtreatment. I kind of lost touch with
them, but then I'm our friendshiprekindled again and so now we're really great
fens. Really, Yeah, wheredid you turn to when it was like
stuff was at its hardest? Butsay, I turned to my friends and
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family because I was really close tocheer at the time, so I would
turn to basically my cheer family.I would call them and they would send
videos all the time of them atpractice, but also during the hospital.
Was just like the Bible and justkind of like rekindling with God. But
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it was also kind of challenging tobasically like, why would this happen to
me? Why would God put thisonto me? But He always has a
reason and a plan for everything,So you just got to remember that.
And God would never intentionally put youin harm's way, so you got to
know that you will push through andyou will get out of it just fine.
Right looking back at it, wouldyou change anything you did? And
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do you think it was? Godwas intending it for good? And can
you see that now? I thinkat the time I didn't that, and
I questioned it because why would anyonebestow cancer upon someone? But then from
it I was able to meet someof my best friends who has also had
cancer, And without that, Idon't think I would have ever met them
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before, and it was just ablessing and a curse at the same time.
So I don't think I would changeanything. The one thing I would
say is get to know the staffat the hospital too, because they are
the ones that like, are therefor you and treat you and get you
through the hard time that you aregoing through. And they basically always have
a big smile on. And it'salways hard for them too because they have
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to be in this atmosphere all dayof like sick kids, the kids that
are basically on the brink of death, and so basically just showing them kindness
instead of like anger is the bestthing that you can do because if you're
nice to them, they're really reallynice to you. And it really helps
because they would if I was down, they would basically bring me up.
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They would come in, they wouldlaugh, they would basically stay and talk
with me, joke with me,and so it was they made my week
when I was there. How longwere you in the hospital? I had
fourteen year olds of chemo, soI was there for around nine months?
Wow, And how was what'd youdo for school? And that was that
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hard? It actually probably wasn't ashard as it would be if someone now
were to get diagnosed because it wasin COVID, so everything was online anyway,
so but it wasn't the time wherethe Google meets were happening, so
it was all the assignments were online, right, but I wasn't turning it
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everything, so it was a littlebit hard. But I was diagnosed almost
I wouldn't say at the perfect time, but it was as seventh grade was
closing, so it was that summerperiod, and then it was as eighth
grade was starting, so I missedthe first semester of eighth grade, and
that's when everything started to be likethe Google meets, like the Google chats,
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and that was weird and I haveto have to do so school during
that period was a little complicated becauseyou didn't really have any of the like
the resources, but no one did. So So what advice would you give
family members that were in your familysituation just having a loved one and the
person you're so close with cancer.I would say to be lenient because it's
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not only the patient that is goingthrough this hard time, but it's also
the family. So they have tokeep in mind that they are also probably
really sad and confused about what's happening, and so when they see a parent
that's sad all the time, they'llget even sadder. And so I think
for me, my parents were kindof really I wouldn't say happy about what
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I was going through, but theytry to have a smile on their face
too, and we're just like laughing, and so that helped bring up my
mood. But I think if Isaw them really sad and just kind of
almost depressed all the time, itwould make me feel even worse about what
happened to me. So that's whatI would think. But also for family
just to be there, because thatis the most important thing, that's what
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kept me through. I would alsosay it just I would be almost careful
because sometimes as you're going through chemo, everything changes your sense of smell,
your taste. And I remember whenI came home, my mom made me
my favorite meal of hers that sheever cooked, and I took one bite
of it and I had to spitit out because the rice tasted like cardboard.
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And I didn't have the heart totell her that it was bad because
it used to be my favorite thingof all time. But she saw the
look on my face, and shewas like, I will make you something
else. Well, do you thinkyou would like and I would I didn't
know because I didn't know what itelse would have changed, and so she
was like, it's fine, I'llmake you something until it's right. She
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made mer Girl cheese and that wasperfect. But she would have kept going
even if I said I can't eatthis. Either she would have made me
mac and cheese or she would havebought me pizza something until it was right.
So I think that's something that familiesneed to keep in mind, is
that everything is changing for them,so you just kind of have to go
along with it, right, Andit's it's definitely important to keep in mind
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that you're the person your family membersees most and it's hard. Sometimes it's
hard to keep a keep a niceface and stay right. My mom was
diagnosed with cancer around the same time, and it was really hard trying to
be all jolly and keep a smileon my face because all I wanted to
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do all day was go lay downin my room. But I knew I
actually talked to my mom about this. She's she's the paniker of the family.
She's the one who always freaks outin situations, So I know if
I freaked out then that would bea really bad look. And I knew
that I just had to keep asmile on my face. But it's definitely
not easy, especially because I mean, you're going through a lot too with
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the diagnosis and not knowing what's goingto happen and all that. But just
try to be there for your familyand try to always be happy and be
the light in their life. Thankyou for listening on this week's episode of
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