February 14, 2024 • 9 mins
Dr icecream is now on Youtube!
Link here.
This is the audio version of the video. You can now WATCH OR LISTEN to the podcast :)
Turning 40 is actually terrifying and so is uploading videos. But I'm going to have to just deal with the embarrassment. In this first episode I talk about why a midlife crisis is NOT a myth and how I am getting over my fear of being seen (or not seen).
Link here.
This is the audio version of the video. You can now WATCH OR LISTEN to the podcast :)
Turning 40 is actually terrifying and so is uploading videos. But I'm going to have to just deal with the embarrassment. In this first episode I talk about why a midlife crisis is NOT a myth and how I am getting over my fear of being seen (or not seen).
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Plugged in.
Speaker 2 (00:01):
I have been reincarnating myself into the matrix of life
and in the universe and the planet we call Earth.
I've been plugged in a matrixing myself absolutely to death,
to the point where I'm like, who am I?
Speaker 1 (00:15):
Guys?
Speaker 2 (00:16):
It is full on midlife crisis time for this doctor.
And can I also say that if I had known
it was this easy to make a video podcast, Doctor
ice Cream would have been on the video airwaves all along.
Get your scoops, get your sprinkles, get your spoons, and
(00:36):
get ready for Doctor ice Cream to diagnose you.
Speaker 1 (00:42):
This is the Doctor ice Cream podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
So yeah, i am turning forty in a month and
I'm having a full blown midlife crisis. So apparently I've
been listening to this audiobook. I'm gonna have to put
the name of it on the SPA because I cannot
remember it.
Speaker 1 (01:02):
But I've been listening to this audiobook.
Speaker 2 (01:03):
About entering midlife and the only reason I even downloaded
it was because I'm going through a midlife crisis. But
in the first three chapters, this author of the book
actually dedicates most of her time to debunking the so
called myth of a midlife crisis, saying that it's actually
rare for people to have them because, get this, because
(01:27):
most people are actually quite happy and settled by the time.
Speaker 1 (01:30):
They reach forty dun, dun, dun not I.
Speaker 2 (01:35):
So apparently only about ten percent of people actually have
the cliched midlife crisis, and that's usually because they have
not achieved what they wanted to achieve in life, such
as more doctor ice cream. Yes, I do have a
PhD In eating ice cream, but I am definitely not
where I want to be in life, Guys, I'm just not.
(01:58):
And thus ice cream is melting down and reforming into
a different kind of ice cream. I've used this metaform
many times, reincarnation, refreezing. I don't reincarnate, I refreeze. But yes,
I'm about to hit forty and it has occurred to me.
Not occurred, obviously. I always knew I was going to die,
(02:19):
but it's really suddenly hit me like I.
Speaker 1 (02:22):
Am going to die.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
I am at the halfway mark and I have not
been all the different flavors of ice cream that I
need to be.
Speaker 1 (02:30):
So basically now I'm.
Speaker 2 (02:31):
Just like who gives who gives an F Whether I
put up a YouTube video and it completely flops. If
I put up a post and that flops, if I
put up a podcast and it flops. Because at this
stage I'm turning forty, I don't care anymore.
Speaker 1 (02:45):
I don't care if I.
Speaker 2 (02:46):
Get one viewer, just me and God and maybe my dog.
My dog has been really, really into this documentary I
was watching the other day called Blood Brothers. It's a
documentary about these six lions that formed a coalition and
basically just took over the world. That was so amazing.
So I was watching that, and it's one of the
(03:06):
rare times I've noticed my dog watching YouTube. But you know,
hopefully Clifford wants to watch this as well. I actually
really get a script because I've completely forgotten when I
was talking about, Oh yeah, I need to be unafraid
now of flopping, and I really need to just put
myself out there and just see how badly it goes.
So this morning I put a real on Instagram, which
(03:28):
I have not done in about two or three years,
and I was just like, who cares if no one
sees it, if no one likes it, sailor Vie.
Speaker 1 (03:38):
I put it up about.
Speaker 2 (03:40):
It's four o'clock now, I put it up at about
eleven am this morning, guess how many.
Speaker 1 (03:44):
Likes it has. Guys, it has one. It has one like,
and that's my mum.
Speaker 2 (03:49):
So if this YouTube video video podcast gets absolutely zero traction,
zero reviews, who cares.
Speaker 1 (03:59):
I'm gonna die, all going to die.
Speaker 2 (04:01):
I'm going to turn forty and I need to do
all I want to do with my life. And yeah,
it's really embarrassing to want something. It's really embarrassing to
want anything. I remember as a kid, even like wanting
a toy was embarrassing for something. It was like it
was for some reason. It was like it's it was
(04:22):
just fundamentally wrong to even want something like embarrassing, I
mean like shameful. So as an adult, as a forty
year old, I still have that like shame and embarrassment
that wanting anything is really deeply embarrassing. And I think
(04:42):
wanting to be like successful and to be like a
YouTuber or a podcaster or a content creator, it's so cringey,
it's so embarrassing.
Speaker 1 (04:54):
I've always put out the little feelers.
Speaker 2 (04:56):
I've always done a bit of this, done a bit
of that.
Speaker 1 (04:59):
I've tried to.
Speaker 2 (04:59):
Do a YouTube channel like two or three times already,
and my original Crystal Vations channel I'm pretty sure is
deleteds so the world will never see that. I need
to stop playing with my hair. I hate that I
can see myself on the screen. I might have to
fix that for next time. But I've tried a few
times to do a YouTube channel. If you followed my podcast,
(05:21):
you know, I've actually stuck with Doctor ice Cream for
about five or six years, very on and off, but
I have stuck to it so and obviously, like I'm
a writer, I've stuck to that. I've tried to start
Instagram pages a few times.
Speaker 1 (05:40):
I've tried TikTok.
Speaker 2 (05:42):
I've been like very very moderately successful on there, not
even by Chalgan standards. I have a Anyways, what I
was saying is I've always tried. I've always like stuck
my toes in the water very tentatively to try.
Speaker 1 (05:59):
And never really committed to it.
Speaker 2 (06:01):
And you know, this time, as I say, I'm having
the full blown midlife crisis, I'm there, I'm like, oh
my god, I actually am going to die. I'm at
the halfway mark of my life. And maybe it's not
too late. Maybe maybe halfway is only halfway is the
life hang on? Is the life half full or half gone?
(06:24):
I can see it both ways. I can definitely see
all the years that have gone and all the opportunities
I feel have already gone. But then I can try
to reframe it a bit and think, well, I've still
got half of it to go.
Speaker 1 (06:38):
And I'm going to do what I.
Speaker 2 (06:39):
Want from this point forwards. And yeah, it's extremely embarrassing,
and I just have to. I think I am at
the point where I don't care. I'll just be embarrassed.
I'll just get my one view. I'll get my ten views. Gosh,
ten views would be amazing. One view I'll be happy with.
I always say, even if just one person is watching, listening, reading,
(07:02):
that is that has always been enough for me.
Speaker 1 (07:04):
That's why I.
Speaker 2 (07:05):
Caught myself a quantum influence. A quantum means very very
very very very very very small.
Speaker 1 (07:10):
I don't mind.
Speaker 2 (07:11):
It was just me, God, Mam Clifford, the Four, the
Fab Four, Me, Mom, the God, and my dog, the
Fab four. I don't care if those are the only
people watching and consuming in this In this day and
this these times we live in, there is so much
to consume. There is so much media, There is so
(07:33):
much coming as well. With AI and holograms, you know,
you'll be able to just hologram yourself into anywhere in
the metaverse, in the in the matrix. And I honestly
feel like audiences are shrinking to the quantum level, so
I'll be in the forefront of that. Give me a
quantum audience, and I will quantum perform to them. So
(07:57):
I am going to keep it quite short and sweet
for this first podcast video episode. I just wanted to
Oh my gosh, I didn't even introduce myself. I'm Doctor
ice Cream. This is a podcast all about ice cream
and life. It's mostly about breaking out of the matrix
(08:20):
and eating ice cream. Those are my two specialties. But
basically I'll just talk about anything. It's just Crystal style.
It's my show. I can do what I want. So
this is episode one of the Doctor ice Cream Podcast
video and it is my goal. We'll see to upload
(08:42):
a video a day, maybe a video a week.
Speaker 1 (08:45):
We'll see.
Speaker 2 (08:46):
But thank you for if you're here, thank you so much,
and I'll see you next time on The Doctor ice
Cream Podcast.
Plugged in.
Speaker 2 (00:01):
I have been reincarnating myself into the matrix of life
and in the universe and the planet we call Earth.
I've been plugged in a matrixing myself absolutely to death,
to the point where I'm like, who am I?
Speaker 1 (00:15):
Guys?
Speaker 2 (00:16):
It is full on midlife crisis time for this doctor.
And can I also say that if I had known
it was this easy to make a video podcast, Doctor
ice Cream would have been on the video airwaves all along.
Get your scoops, get your sprinkles, get your spoons, and
(00:36):
get ready for Doctor ice Cream to diagnose you.
Speaker 1 (00:42):
This is the Doctor ice Cream podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:48):
So yeah, i am turning forty in a month and
I'm having a full blown midlife crisis. So apparently I've
been listening to this audiobook. I'm gonna have to put
the name of it on the SPA because I cannot
remember it.
Speaker 1 (01:02):
But I've been listening to this audiobook.
Speaker 2 (01:03):
About entering midlife and the only reason I even downloaded
it was because I'm going through a midlife crisis. But
in the first three chapters, this author of the book
actually dedicates most of her time to debunking the so
called myth of a midlife crisis, saying that it's actually
rare for people to have them because, get this, because
(01:27):
most people are actually quite happy and settled by the time.
Speaker 1 (01:30):
They reach forty dun, dun, dun not I.
Speaker 2 (01:35):
So apparently only about ten percent of people actually have
the cliched midlife crisis, and that's usually because they have
not achieved what they wanted to achieve in life, such
as more doctor ice cream. Yes, I do have a
PhD In eating ice cream, but I am definitely not
where I want to be in life, Guys, I'm just not.
(01:58):
And thus ice cream is melting down and reforming into
a different kind of ice cream. I've used this metaform
many times, reincarnation, refreezing. I don't reincarnate, I refreeze. But yes,
I'm about to hit forty and it has occurred to me.
Not occurred, obviously. I always knew I was going to die,
(02:19):
but it's really suddenly hit me like I.
Speaker 1 (02:22):
Am going to die.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
I am at the halfway mark and I have not
been all the different flavors of ice cream that I
need to be.
Speaker 1 (02:30):
So basically now I'm.
Speaker 2 (02:31):
Just like who gives who gives an F Whether I
put up a YouTube video and it completely flops. If
I put up a post and that flops, if I
put up a podcast and it flops. Because at this
stage I'm turning forty, I don't care anymore.
Speaker 1 (02:45):
I don't care if I.
Speaker 2 (02:46):
Get one viewer, just me and God and maybe my dog.
My dog has been really, really into this documentary I
was watching the other day called Blood Brothers. It's a
documentary about these six lions that formed a coalition and
basically just took over the world. That was so amazing.
So I was watching that, and it's one of the
(03:06):
rare times I've noticed my dog watching YouTube. But you know,
hopefully Clifford wants to watch this as well. I actually
really get a script because I've completely forgotten when I
was talking about, Oh yeah, I need to be unafraid
now of flopping, and I really need to just put
myself out there and just see how badly it goes.
So this morning I put a real on Instagram, which
(03:28):
I have not done in about two or three years,
and I was just like, who cares if no one
sees it, if no one likes it, sailor Vie.
Speaker 1 (03:38):
I put it up about.
Speaker 2 (03:40):
It's four o'clock now, I put it up at about
eleven am this morning, guess how many.
Speaker 1 (03:44):
Likes it has. Guys, it has one. It has one like,
and that's my mum.
Speaker 2 (03:49):
So if this YouTube video video podcast gets absolutely zero traction,
zero reviews, who cares.
Speaker 1 (03:59):
I'm gonna die, all going to die.
Speaker 2 (04:01):
I'm going to turn forty and I need to do
all I want to do with my life. And yeah,
it's really embarrassing to want something. It's really embarrassing to
want anything. I remember as a kid, even like wanting
a toy was embarrassing for something. It was like it
was for some reason. It was like it's it was
(04:22):
just fundamentally wrong to even want something like embarrassing, I
mean like shameful. So as an adult, as a forty
year old, I still have that like shame and embarrassment
that wanting anything is really deeply embarrassing. And I think
(04:42):
wanting to be like successful and to be like a
YouTuber or a podcaster or a content creator, it's so cringey,
it's so embarrassing.
Speaker 1 (04:54):
I've always put out the little feelers.
Speaker 2 (04:56):
I've always done a bit of this, done a bit
of that.
Speaker 1 (04:59):
I've tried to.
Speaker 2 (04:59):
Do a YouTube channel like two or three times already,
and my original Crystal Vations channel I'm pretty sure is
deleteds so the world will never see that. I need
to stop playing with my hair. I hate that I
can see myself on the screen. I might have to
fix that for next time. But I've tried a few
times to do a YouTube channel. If you followed my podcast,
(05:21):
you know, I've actually stuck with Doctor ice Cream for
about five or six years, very on and off, but
I have stuck to it so and obviously, like I'm
a writer, I've stuck to that. I've tried to start
Instagram pages a few times.
Speaker 1 (05:40):
I've tried TikTok.
Speaker 2 (05:42):
I've been like very very moderately successful on there, not
even by Chalgan standards. I have a Anyways, what I
was saying is I've always tried. I've always like stuck
my toes in the water very tentatively to try.
Speaker 1 (05:59):
And never really committed to it.
Speaker 2 (06:01):
And you know, this time, as I say, I'm having
the full blown midlife crisis, I'm there, I'm like, oh
my god, I actually am going to die. I'm at
the halfway mark of my life. And maybe it's not
too late. Maybe maybe halfway is only halfway is the
life hang on? Is the life half full or half gone?
(06:24):
I can see it both ways. I can definitely see
all the years that have gone and all the opportunities
I feel have already gone. But then I can try
to reframe it a bit and think, well, I've still
got half of it to go.
Speaker 1 (06:38):
And I'm going to do what I.
Speaker 2 (06:39):
Want from this point forwards. And yeah, it's extremely embarrassing,
and I just have to. I think I am at
the point where I don't care. I'll just be embarrassed.
I'll just get my one view. I'll get my ten views. Gosh,
ten views would be amazing. One view I'll be happy with.
I always say, even if just one person is watching, listening, reading,
(07:02):
that is that has always been enough for me.
Speaker 1 (07:04):
That's why I.
Speaker 2 (07:05):
Caught myself a quantum influence. A quantum means very very
very very very very very small.
Speaker 1 (07:10):
I don't mind.
Speaker 2 (07:11):
It was just me, God, Mam Clifford, the Four, the
Fab Four, Me, Mom, the God, and my dog, the
Fab four. I don't care if those are the only
people watching and consuming in this In this day and
this these times we live in, there is so much
to consume. There is so much media, There is so
(07:33):
much coming as well. With AI and holograms, you know,
you'll be able to just hologram yourself into anywhere in
the metaverse, in the in the matrix. And I honestly
feel like audiences are shrinking to the quantum level, so
I'll be in the forefront of that. Give me a
quantum audience, and I will quantum perform to them. So
(07:57):
I am going to keep it quite short and sweet
for this first podcast video episode. I just wanted to
Oh my gosh, I didn't even introduce myself. I'm Doctor
ice Cream. This is a podcast all about ice cream
and life. It's mostly about breaking out of the matrix
(08:20):
and eating ice cream. Those are my two specialties. But
basically I'll just talk about anything. It's just Crystal style.
It's my show. I can do what I want. So
this is episode one of the Doctor ice Cream Podcast
video and it is my goal. We'll see to upload
(08:42):
a video a day, maybe a video a week.
Speaker 1 (08:45):
We'll see.
Speaker 2 (08:46):
But thank you for if you're here, thank you so much,
and I'll see you next time on The Doctor ice
Cream Podcast.
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