July 16, 2025 • 52 mins
🎙️ Healing Beyond the Surface with Leanna Lapidus
In this episode, faith-led Hypnotherapist and Trauma Recovery Specialist Leanna Lapidus shares how true healing begins beneath the surface. With over a decade of experience helping clients heal anxiety, addiction, and emotional pain, Leanna reveals how addressing the subconscious leads to freedom, clarity, and lasting transformation.
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In this episode, faith-led Hypnotherapist and Trauma Recovery Specialist Leanna Lapidus shares how true healing begins beneath the surface. With over a decade of experience helping clients heal anxiety, addiction, and emotional pain, Leanna reveals how addressing the subconscious leads to freedom, clarity, and lasting transformation.
Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/emerge-empower-podcast-tv--6068978/support.
🎙 Emerge & Empower Podcast TV – Hosted by Dr. Linda Joseph
📺 Watch on YouTube: youtube.com/@EmergeandEmpowerTV
🌐 Website: www.emergeandempowertv.com
📘 Facebook: facebook.com/dr.lindajoseph
💼 LinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/drlindajoseph
📧 Guest inquiries & speaking requests: shemergenceinfo@gmail.com
⚠️Disclaimer: Viewer and listener discretion is advised. Content may include sensitive topics. Guest views are their own and do not necessarily reflect those of Dr. Linda Joseph, Shemergence, or Emerge & Empower Media.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
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Speaker 2 (00:29):
Hello, everyone on, Welcome, Welcome again for another segment, Off
and Emerge and empower with your host, doctor Lynjay. Of course,
all right, and as you know, we're here every week
for healing because we want you to heal for real.
You might hear me say this. A lot of my
episodes on Healing for Real is because it's one thing
to say I want to be healed, but we don't
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take the necessary steps. It's one thing to talk about
it but not take the steps to get help to
go beyond what you've unlocked. Because once to unlock certain
things is not a pretty place to be. It's rather
uncomfortable even when it is time to share it with others.
So this platform continues to have you, to allow you
to a voice, all right, without judgment. And individuals come
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So you might say, I don't have that, but you
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So it actually allows you to be open with yourself.
But the first thing I want you to do is
to forgive yourself and all of this because if the
guilt is in the shame and all of that is there,
then healing get what happened, all right. It's like opening
a wone that you did not stitch up and you
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did not care and now it becomes in affected. Okay,
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we will also bring a Conadian of that book, which
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often also talk about the restoration of it all. So
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back for our guests that we'll be sharing here on today.
Speaker 3 (04:45):
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Speaker 2 (05:47):
So on today we will be bringing our guess that
it's not other than Leanna and Leanna is a fate
led hypotherapist and trauma recovery specialist with over a decad
of experience helping clients heal anxiety, addiction, and emotional pain
at the root. She blends subconsciousness reprogramming with spiritual insight
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to guide lasting transformation and inner peace. In this episode,
Leanna shares how true healing begins we need to surface
by addressing the beliefs WANs and partns store deep within within.
Her approach offers a compassionate path to freedom, clarity, and
emotional wellness for everyone ready to break the cycle and
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reconnect with their true self. Everyone, let's welcome Leanna to
the said, Leanna, welcome to Emerge and empower on today.
Speaker 4 (06:46):
Thank you so much, doctor Lenn. I'm so happy to
be here. I'm excited to share and just let the
conversation go and in hopes to for someone that needs it,
we'll hear it and start their healing journey.
Speaker 2 (07:00):
Yes, yes, so as everyone know, and this platform is
about healing and to heal for real, because it's one
thing to talk about it and that takes a lot
to be able to come on and just talk, because
sometimes people take years before they can share their story
to the point that people say, well why are you
just telling this now? They carry it that long and
(07:21):
they finally feel comfortable enough to release the pain and
share it. So whenever that happened, we would like for
you to be patient with individuals as they share their
story because once they start sharing their story, it's a
wone that is open. Your reaction, all right, can really
make an impact on their lives. So Leanna, we're going
(07:43):
to dive right in, introduce yourself to that audience and
tell them a little bit about yourself.
Speaker 4 (07:48):
Yeah, thank you. My name is Leana Lapides and I'm
a hypnotherapist. I heal the rooted, underlying emotional heart from childhood.
I believe that most of our trauma stems from childhood
and how we interpret it that situation that we were experiencing,
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and we plant the seed in our subconscious mind, in
our being, and then that seed basically grows throughout our
lifetime and becomes our identity. Our traumatic experience had creates
these limiting beliefs ideas about what we deserve, who we are,
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and it becomes our truth and we live in that
for a very very long time until we face it.
And I'll share about why I chose to do this
work really is because I healed, and I believe that
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healing is possible for everyone and anybody can overcome whatever
they're going through. And so I am, you know, just
a vessel to help people get to their truth and
heal and recover, you know, from all the wounds, from
all the emotional pain they've been storing and acting living from.
(09:19):
So for as long as I remember growing up. I
always felt a sense of not belonging. I always felt different.
I always felt like I'm just like, what am I
doing here? And I grew up feeling a lot of
a lot of anxiety, with a lot of anxiety around me,
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a lot of fear, rage there was, you know, and
and all of this impacted me as a child. I
understood this later, but the way the way it impacted
me was full of fear and terror. And that became
a very big emotion that I was carrying throughout my
(10:08):
entire you know, years up until I was thirty years old.
It made me feel less than I felt so different
from the rest. I felt like nobody understands me. You know,
I had very low self esteem because of that, because
of living in that environment. And you know, that created
(10:31):
a very a very dark place inside of me where
I just lived and isolated a lot. And you know,
I had I struggled because I was in an environment
where there was a lot of arguing and you know,
throwing stuff around, and you never know, you have to
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walk on eggshells. And I became very sensitive and that
what looked like on the outside, I appeared very shy,
but in reality, it wasn't because I was shy. I
was just so scared of any energy that came around me,
any person, So it shut me down. And then on
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top of it, you know, parents just say things that
impact us. They don't really say it to in that moment,
you hurt us. But the way my mother said, you're shy,
like you're awkward, what is wrong with you? Stop being
like that? Because I would hide behind her when when
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we were around people, or you know, I would just
get scared. I had so much fear, and you know,
that shut me down even more. It made me feel
even more different. And as I was growing and you know, developing,
there was all of those things continue to linger. And
(11:59):
in fact, because even bigger the energy or the spirit
of anger, the spirit of rage, the spirit of fear,
just became bigger, and I started to attract things and
people and places in my life that would were would
would you know, would be similar to what I was feeling.
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You know, because when we know, when we think we
deserve nothing or not good enough, or we're not you know,
good looking enough, were enough, smart enough, we attract that
which will confirm that to us other people or through circumstances,
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and so that was that continued and continued, and there
was always this fear. And then, you know, so I
was born in Ukraine and we came to the United
States States, to Los Angeles when I was eight years old,
and my parents immediately went to work. So I basically
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grew up by myself on my own. I went to
my elementary school walking. I walked there and back eight
years old, and cooked dinner and prepared so I didn't
really have any kind of you know, compassion or communication
or acknowledgment of anything. I didn't know what homework. I
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did kind of busy, you know, figuring out how to
live life in a new place. And my father struggled
with alcoholism, and that's where, you know, he became someone
who he's not. You know, the spirit of addiction and
alcoholism kind of takes took over and it made him
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be the way he was right for age. And then
my mother was full of fear. So I took in
both of those, and I both of those very opposite.
But you take on what you're around, and you know,
I became that I became.
Speaker 2 (14:11):
You become the product of your environment.
Speaker 4 (14:13):
That's right, that's right, and until until much later, you know,
is when I started working on myself. You know, I
had a lot of just negative things happen over and over.
It was just like a domino effect. And I understand
why now, and I'll get into that later, but it
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was just it was just attracting the same thing over
and over in different people in different circum situations. But
the feeling felt similar, like nothing good can ever happen
to me. I am, I am different, Like I just
wrote myself off, like I don't even belong here. And
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it was it was devastating, truly, and you know, the
worst of the world just happened. When I was about
nineteen years old, my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
And that was just so I was numb. I felt
like I was paralyzed. You know. It's not that we
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were so cool, but it was the only thing I
had right right, and the only thing I knew, and
that was and you know something that I remember feeling
and knowing that I just knew that my mother was
going to die soon all my life. And then it
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was almost afraid of myself because I thought, if I
know these things, then I'm like predicting these negative all
these negative things. Energy negative, energy, you know, and and
so that was like a realization. But that helped me
turn everything around. And I'll speak on that. And you know,
(16:02):
so my mother went through her sickness and I was
by her side at nineteen years old. You know, I
didn't really know what to feel and how to feel
and what was going to happen, and just like numb
going through the process of you know, taking her to
the doctors and and and going through that with her.
(16:24):
And you know, during that time, I met my husband
at the time. Now he's my ex husband, but he
came into my life and he was he basically like
like that was my way out. Okay, you know, that
was my way escape. That was my escape out of
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fear because it just happened so fast, and you know,
I didn't know, but he had a heroin addiction that
I didn't even I didn't even understand. Like I knew alcohol,
but I didn't understand heroin was And so I just
went into the arms of that. And I was pregnant
(17:08):
four months at the time when my mother passed. Wow,
So that was devastating and traumatic.
Speaker 2 (17:16):
And Colin says to you and that as well, oh
my goodness, thank you.
Speaker 4 (17:20):
This was years ago. This was already thirty two years
My son is thirty two. So it was just I
always just felt like like I'm just here to struggle
to suffer. I'm just like a nobody, Like I just
had all these terrible ideas and beliefs about myself because
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this is like that was reality, because that was the
real life that I was living. And you know, then
the journey kind of began and a lot of things
started to change and shift, and you know, the waking
moment was when after I already had my daughter at
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twenty at twenty seven, so I had my son at
twenty one, I had my daughter twenty seven. Still the
struggle was real, and I had nobody to turn to.
My husband wasn't like someone that I could really lean
on and feel safe with, even though you know, he
was there, but there was a lot of things that
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happened with him, and he wasn't around. He was taken
away to prison for doing, you know, doing stuff that
was illegal. And I was left by myself. So my
father already passed away as well, and I was, you know,
(18:46):
left by myself to run to businesses, have small two
small children. So I was around twenty nine years old
at the time, and I still carried this fear and
terror like how I like, are you kidding me? Like this,
like the worst can't happen. You know. Now I have
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to figure how to raise my children by myself, how
to pay the mortgage around these businesses. And you know,
I wasn't a believer of God, and because so many
different dark things kept happening in my life. But somehow
(19:28):
I said, God, either take me away from here or
show me the way. And you know, something miraculous started
to happen. People started entering my life that were so
helpful that I was just amazed, Like it was it
couldn't be real, you know, it didn't feel real. But
(19:52):
then I thought, well, I asked God, you know, maybe
there is a God, right And so I started this
journey me of seeking, like I needed to figure it out.
I had small kids. I you know, the idea that
I would just leave them alone. What would they do?
(20:13):
They don't have they don't have my parents, like nobody
to take care of them. And so you know, I somehow,
you know, I was led. Well, I know that God
was leading me the whole time, now I know that.
Speaker 2 (20:30):
But.
Speaker 4 (20:32):
The way he led me was so patiently and compassionately
and had so much grace on me, and and Brod
showed me that, you know, he's doing the work. And
first I was led to learning about law of attraction
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right and understanding like what you think about you, you
receive and you know then the vibrational energy like you
have to feel it. And so I was it felt
nice to think that way because I had some sort
of piece. I was experiencing some sort of piece when
I when I thought positively, so that was nice, but
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it was very short lived, you know, the piece and
you know. And then I came across this meditation meditation
practice called TM transcendental meditation. It was pretty popular years ago,
and so I said, you know, I'm I can't I'm
(21:40):
not like a meditator, but I feel like I feel
drawn to it because at the time I was doing yoga.
And then the teacher who let the meditation practice, he
was inviting everybody to his home to learn learn about it,
to learn how it works and why it works. So
(22:01):
I decided I took a leap of faith and said, Okay,
I'm going to go try this, and that led me
to practicing meditation quieting the mind, and it led me
to having visions of a different, a totally different type
of life than I was living, you know, some peace, great,
(22:25):
some happiness, some joy, success, and I was like, how
am I ever going to get there? That's not real, right,
And so that was my I don't know when you
want me to.
Speaker 2 (22:38):
No, no, you're flowing in your story.
Speaker 4 (22:40):
Yes, yeah. So yeah, from then it was it was
that practice. Of course, it wasn't just like this. Nothing
was easy. You know, I had to face the anger
outburst that I was already experiencing through myself. I had
had to work on changing that to work on my
(23:01):
character because you know, I was raising my kids and
I didn't want them to you know, be affected like
I was affected with my parents' behavior. And so I
understood that, Thank god, I understood that. And at the
time also I was as I was practicing law of attraction,
like I saw this vision of me helping people, Like
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I'm like, how am I going to help people?
Speaker 2 (23:25):
Right? It's going to help yourself first?
Speaker 4 (23:27):
Well, yeah, because I was still like like trying, like
you know, blind, like I couldn't see. I had no
I couldn't see, and you know, but I had those visions.
And then I was led to hypnotherapy school, something that
I didn't even that I didn't even think was a thing,
(23:48):
you know. It just I filled out some questionnaire online.
I was okay, what career would I be good at?
You know, and it gave me different schools like psychology school.
I guess it's whatever my answers were. It felt like
I can be helpful to people, you know, social working school,
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all kinds of schools in that realm, and then hypnotherapy
school as well. And I'm like, I don't believe in
that stuff. That's weird. And they called me from the
school and they said, hey, you're a great candidate for
a school and I started laughing and they're like well,
And then I thought to myself, but law of attraction
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practice says that you know, you'll be led to things
and places that you least expect, But that's like the
stepping stone for where you're supposed to go, right.
Speaker 2 (24:45):
Because in reality you needed all the things that you
were searching to help others, you actually need it yourself.
And in so doing, because some people, Here's what happened
is I would like to help others in this. Then
there's something yet why Yeah, why, Like, why do you
feel you need to help people? And this? Do you
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see yourself? Do you see your problem? What is it
that you are dealing with? Because to help someone you
have to understand, okay, what they're going through. And when
we push to our why, it's because of the why
not because I need it, I will learn to, I
will grow do all right, So some people heal by
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doing let's put it that way. You actually have to start. Okay,
I'll do this because this will help people. Why because
in truth you're saying that to yourself, I need this help.
Speaker 4 (25:43):
Yes, yes, that is very that is very true. That's true.
And I was I wanted to help people, and I
have this like grounding energy about me and I wanted
to do that, but I didn't know how am I
gonna do that if I can't even like control myself?
You know? So yeah, so I was led to that.
(26:04):
And as as funny as I thought hypnosis or hypnotherapy
was something like for you know, different type of people,
I kind of laughed at it. But then he's like, oh,
you know what, well, I'm going to offer you a
month free and if you don't like it, no obligation
I'm like, okay, I gotta try this, right I got
at least, you know, take it off my list. It's
(26:26):
not something real. And then I walked into the school
and I saw people that, you know, I hate to
say it at the time, I felt like they're kind
of awkward, but I felt at home. But I felt
at home there. I'm like, Okay, I belong here, you know.
(26:46):
And from the first class I was I was hooked
because they started talking about the programming, the subconscious programming,
how you know, our mind forms believe systems and ideas
about who we are and how we create these narratives
and stories. And I'm like like what, this is exactly
(27:09):
where I need to be. And so my healing journey began.
And it was I forgot that I was studying to
be helpful to someone else. I was because you need this, yes, yes,
So it was. It was amazing. I worked with all
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the all the instructors that were leading the different types
of classes and types of NLP, you know, in our
child healing classes, so I got to experience each and
every one of them every week for the entire year
that I was in school. So I was really healing
and through my healing process. I you know, I practiced
(27:56):
a lot of compassion and forgiveness for my parents because,
as wild as it sounds, but I had a lot
of disappointment and I was I was upset with my
mom for leaving me so early. I had resentment around
for that. Yeah, So I had to heal myself from
(28:17):
the core. And I love my parents and I'm so
grateful that I was led and put on the journey
to be with them because I know God was preparing
me the entire time to do the work that I
do now for people with people. So I had to
(28:37):
face my demons, right. I had to face the fact
that I don't like my care some of my characteristics, right,
I don't like that I react in anger. I don't
like this. I don't like that I don't like this.
But I had to embrace it, and I had to
take responsibility that now it's not their fault that I'm
(28:58):
like this. I'm like this because that's who I am now.
And I have to deal with myself because blaming them
is not going to help me change and teach my
kids different patterns. So it took a lot. It's not
easy to face it and admit something that you don't
like about yourself. But that is the first step to change, yes,
(29:22):
you know, and so I did that and the year
wasn't it was just the beginning. I mean, I've been
in practice. We're working with people for over like close
to fifteen years. So this, you know, this is every day.
I'm still feeling.
Speaker 2 (29:41):
Oh, feeling is continuous. Yeah, and you discovered new things
and you get the Aha, now I understand and wow,
So you keep having these happening. It is beautiful because
it's unfolding, and every time it's unfold you become better,
a better version of yourself, not only to yourself but
to your family, into everyone around you. It's like night
(30:02):
and day to the point peoples, like you know, you're
like a whole different person. Did you did you change
your hair color? Did rap? And what change about you?
But what it's you?
Speaker 4 (30:12):
The inner, that's the inner. The inner is what we
need to heal and go to and nurture and love
and you know, understand, but also discipline, you know, disciplining
because if we don't have the discipline where we're not
going to be able to change, right, you know, But
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these are all things we it's it's really hard to
accept because for me, what was hard in that moment
was when I didn't know how to do it, how
to heal. That's where the frustration, That's where the frustration
is for a lot of people. But then when I'm like, here,
this is what we're going to do, and you know
(30:55):
we'll he this is how you're actually going to heal,
they don't. We don't know this steps and we don't
see a way out. And so that's where people get
stuck because they feel like if I don't know how
to get out of it, then I might as well
just stay there. Because the fear of getting it, going
into the unknown and not knowing is is where really
(31:19):
holds people from moving forward and trying to feel So so, yeah,
so these are the steps I've taken, and you know,
the addiction recovery piece and why I'm passionate about it.
I mentioned my father struggled with alcoholism than my husband
with addiction, and I've just been around it all my life.
(31:43):
And then you know, when my son was struggling, you know,
I looked at addiction very differently until it was my child. Right,
I was angry at it. I was like, what's wrong
with you, why are you doing this?
Speaker 3 (32:00):
You know?
Speaker 4 (32:02):
But my God changed that for me when I had
to get my son out of it, and God showed
me that I have to be compassionate and loving and understanding,
and he showed me that that is not my son.
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It's the spirit that's it, that enters the person. So
I'm not judging the behavior anymore. I'm just looking at
the true person. And that's how I work with my
clients and healing in the healing process now and so,
(32:46):
but God revealed that to me through my own child.
And so through that experience, I volunteered where my son
was healing, and I've started volunteering hypnotherapy groups, which I
never thought that I was going to become a hypnotherapist
and do this work. But I loved it, and that's
(33:09):
where I felt the most at peace. That's where I
started to feel so connected and understood. I found my purpose. Yes,
I found like where I really understand people and where
I feel understood as well, because I struggled with that
(33:31):
all my life. And so from there, I said, you know, okay, hypnotherapy.
You know, practice is not something that people hire for
very rarely. Now it's coming around a lot more because
people are realizing how powerful it is. But at the time,
(33:52):
you know, I had to search. So if I searched,
and I said, you know, I'm going to try to
look for a hypnotherapy job. And I looked and I
looked on Craigslist at the time, and there was a
post for a job opening as I have, for a
hypnotherapy position in Passages Malibu Treatment Center. It's a renowned
(34:15):
treatment center for you know, people struggling with addiction and recovery.
And I never heard of it because I just, you know,
didn't know much about Melibu at the time. But I
went for an interview and I connected with the the
(34:36):
owner because he started this rehab because of his son's recovery,
and so we bonded on that, you know, with through
our children. And I didn't have any experience really, but
he said, what are you in recovery from? I said
negative thinking. It just came out, you know, and he said,
(35:01):
you are hired. When can you start? Can you work
full time? And I'm like, what really? And so I
worked there for ten years and eventually I became a
spiritual counselor there as well, helping people just wherever they
are in their spiritual journey, right, connect with their truth.
(35:24):
And so yeah, here I am, you know, in practice,
and I help people and people come to me with
all kinds of things you know, that they're struggling with,
from addiction to depression, to anxiety to you know, relationship issues,
and I just go to the core, to the deep
(35:46):
roots and work in a new way of thinking and
feeling about yourself and healing. I do a lot of
inner child healing work through that process. So yeah, so
here I am.
Speaker 2 (36:01):
So I'm glad you said in a child because what
people don't realize is most of the things we are
reacting from in adulthood and all the things that we're doing,
they started from your childhood, right, And you can see
that something triggered in your childhood. A doorway opened, you know,
(36:23):
something happened that brought this in. Because nobody's just born.
Oh yeah, you're just your spirit is just some kind
of way your environment. We become products of our environment. Okay.
It's just like if you get up every day and
you eat ice creams. I mean that's your life, you know,
do you You become what you eat, And so we're
(36:45):
not physically eating what's an environment. But we are internalizing, right,
we are holding on to a lot of it. And
sometimes you might think that you're disassociating because you put
it away, and then later on you're triggered because you
might have a mind that you want to do better,
(37:06):
might have a mind that, you know what, I do
not want to be like you know, my family members.
I don't want to be like my environment, my neighborhood,
and I'm better than that. That's your mind saying that.
But you first have to free yourself from that in
order to get because many times they say you could,
you could take someone out of the out of the country, right,
(37:29):
but when they get to the city, they have to
reread program their mind for the city lifestyle. Okay. If not,
they're going to continue doing the same thing that they
did in the city in uh, in the in the
country in the city. So it's the same way if
someone was in an abusive relationship or it started from
whom the father, the mother, because it goes both ways, right,
(37:52):
that child ends up, like you said, getting attracted to
what they were used to that was normal, right, And
so you find it's a continuation of what stemmed again
from the childhood and now you're like, why do I
keep people say this and I hear it all the time.
Why do I always attract the same women? Or why
(38:13):
do I always attract the same men? But you have
to go back and see where that's stemming from. What
was it like in your childhood? What was the relationship?
Was there an absentee parent, children who had to learn
on their own because the parent is out of the house,
Like you said, doing your homework, cooking for yourself an
(38:34):
eight year old. Those are things an eight year old
should not have had to deal with. To be nurtured,
to be loved, Okay, that became lacking. And then now
you're feeling insufficient, not good, like you han' all of
these things going on, and it's going on now nineteen.
Then your mom is diagnosed and then she passed. So
(38:54):
you're still dealing like, you know, the two people that
at least was stable, I know, was gonna come home
at night, you know, that was a normal in my life.
Now it's shifted, and so it's like, what do I do?
What do I do in my life? What do I
do now? Okay, so you have all these questions, your loss,
still trying to find yourself and what we start to
(39:15):
do is continue existing, not living, continue existing. And so
now you're attracted to your husband who had a whole
different addictions. It didn't matter what.
Speaker 4 (39:27):
The addiction was. It's the spirit.
Speaker 2 (39:30):
Yeah, okay, it didn't matter because it again, it's that
same spirit, it's in that person. So you're attracted the
same thing. Unbeknownst to you that that addiction was a
whole different ball game and you had to deal. But
you know, you're already coping as a child, okay, with parents,
(39:51):
So now you're an adult again, you're kind of take Okay,
I'm gonna deal with I'm gonna cope. I'm gonna do
what I have to do. So you continued existing, Okay,
I have the kids my foo because it's that I'm
gonna focus my energy. I'm gonna go to work again.
But you're still not heal. You still go in through
the motions, right, and now, of course the opposite is
gonna attract you. As far as I want to heal,
(40:12):
I want people to get better. Why because you want
to get better?
Speaker 4 (40:15):
That's right?
Speaker 2 (40:18):
You know? Why do you do this? People say, but
what's your why? Why? I really don't know. Yes, it's
stemmed from your childhood. It's stem from the things that
was in your life whereever was lacking. We gravitate to
try to get something better, to see if you know what,
if I do this and I help people, maybe I'll
feel better about myself one, right, And if I feel
(40:41):
better about myself because I help someone, then wow, that's great.
I did something good. But then the truth is when
you start peeling those layers, you need it.
Speaker 4 (40:50):
It yeah, yeah, mm hmm.
Speaker 2 (40:54):
And you're still healing as your clients are healing. There
are things that you probably journeyed through with them. Because
what people don't understand is when you journey through with
your client or an individual, you two are going through
that healing process. Yes, at the same time, so it's
not one way, you know, and no two experiences the
(41:16):
same am I saying similar? But each individual is different,
how they react, the environment that they come from. There's
so much that's involved, more than just the trauma itself.
You know, the environment, the family makeup, is this in
your bloodline? Right? All of this are factors that you
have to deal with. So you're not just helping the
(41:38):
individual heal themselves. You actually going back generations. You know,
so that they can move forward and be better for
the next and their children to be better. So it's
all generational because people look at everything physical and I'm
telling you, don't take it so literal. It's actually spiritual.
We're all spiritual beings.
Speaker 4 (41:58):
Spiritual. It's absolutely spiritual. It's all spiritual. Yes, absolutely, I
see that. I know that, and I definitely live by that.
You know, I didn't understand it, but I do for
for a very very long time. It's all spiritual, you know,
And and that's that's a big part of my work
(42:21):
is teaching and training my clients to understand what is
happening with them and so that they can step in
and battle it, you know, because the things that are
happening in our mind nobody really knows about. Only you
(42:41):
we do. So that's the and listen until you get
the tools and you really learn how to step in,
you know, and and fight the battle. It's a spiritual warfare, constantly, constant.
It's constant, and it's going to happen because we're alive.
Until we're alive, it's and continue to learn that. We
(43:03):
have to learn how to battle, and it's the battle
of the mind is what you know, we need to
equip and learn the tools how to do how to
manage it. It's you know, it's not something that we
can just breathe away. You know, it's something that we
need to you know, understand that there's you know, a
(43:24):
spiritual warfare, and but we you know that there's there's
ways to to fight it, to stand against it, to
to go against it right right, and to put but
people got to understand and so I love you know,
faith led hypnotherrapy is something recent for me. Actually I've
(43:45):
been doing it for a long time, but I've just
kind of stepped into I just got the name for it. Yeah,
because I've been doing it for a long time. You know,
my goal was always to lead my client, my page,
the client to their truth right, and what is the
truth is the way right. So when we are in
(44:05):
our truth, we see the way. And so when what
I do with my hypnotherapy, and every hypnotherapist has their
own approach and their own way of doing it, you know, quiet,
I help them quiet the mind so that they can
enter their own spirit right and feel that profound in
(44:26):
our peace and feel safe. And when you're in there,
when they're in there they see things completely different on
the outside of their in their life, so they're able
to really understand the war and the battle that they're
going through internally, because you know, once they're in that
place of truth, I help them see their fear, like
(44:52):
literally through an image. I mean, they have an image
of it. They have the energy, the size, the and
they're able to see it. So they're feeling more empowered
because you can see something than you who are you
the seer, right, You're the one who can empower that,
(45:13):
overpower that. So then there's the you know, energy, the
spirit of addiction, the spirit of anger, the spirit and
these are all things that you know, they can see
when they're living, when they're deep in their truth, when
their mind is quiet, right. So that's the meat of
(45:34):
my work, you know, and that's why the people come
come out living from their you know, peace and feel equipped,
right because they know that it's there because they've seen it,
they've entered it. And you know, teaching how to and
everybody's on a different spiritual journey and different levels, you know,
(45:59):
and so wherever someone is, I guide them to where
it's appropriate for that individual. Because it's something that develops
over time. I know that because I wasn't there either myself.
I got there through healing, through learning, through having my
own spiritual counsel, but guided me, you know.
Speaker 2 (46:21):
So everybody needs that. Everybody need to have a spiritual counsel.
Everybody needs someone to go to, a mentor a leader.
You need someone. You can't go through the journey alone.
Speaker 4 (46:32):
Definitely, no, no, But you know that was something that I
had to battle and fight with because growing up the
way I did, I didn't trust anybody. Because when we're wounded,
we don't trust people. How can we trust people when
we're hurt by the people that are supposed to love us.
(46:53):
So for me, reaching out to someone was really difficult
at first because I just didn't have the trust. I
would rather read a book and study it myself and
understand it, then go and get and sit with somebody
and tell them my feelings. So that's something also, you know,
(47:16):
I understand, and I want people to know that they're
not alone in that right. I always say, like, if
you're seeking and you come across someone that just feels
like like they understand, you, just stick to them and
continue working with them, you know, because we can't walk
(47:37):
this life alone and agat because now we don't know everything.
Speaker 2 (47:43):
No, no, well we are about to close now. So Leanna,
what or any closing remarks you will say to someone
who are not sure on how to move forward in
that journey of healing, what would be your advice to them?
Speaker 4 (48:00):
I would just say, first of all, know that healing
is possible for you one hundred percent, one hundred percent,
and take the first step. The first step is what
can I do to start healing? And let that answer
just come to you. And that's the first step that
you're supposed to take. Don't worry about the next step.
(48:21):
The next step will show up once you've taken the
first step. And again I just want to encourage everybody
that you know. You might think that there's no hope
for you and you're just different. Well, yes you can
feel like that, but it's you can heal and you
(48:42):
can overcome whatever you're struggling with. You can overcome it.
Speaker 2 (48:49):
All right. So you heard it here with Leanna here
on emergent and power. And if that person is you,
whether you're watching today, whether you're watching it, whether it's
a year later, maybe it's three years later, you've seen this.
Whatever time you're watching this. This is a message directly
to you, and it is time for healing and to
(49:11):
embrace that because healing is beautiful. Okay, healing is beautiful
and is very liberating. The weight wt I tell you,
the weight comes off. You can hear better, see better.
Everything is so much better when you're on the other
side from that herd. So I'm going to close off
now with a prayer and so that this can actually
seal the deal for you to know that there is
(49:34):
help for you. All right, Father Nanivich is as we
thank you for you came to set the captives free,
and those who you set free are free. Indeed, there
are many on today, Father God who is seeking ill
and not sure. They're afraid, they're scared. They don't want
to deal with the ugliness of it all. They would
rather leave it alone. But at the same time it
(49:55):
is hurting them. It is really detrimental to their life.
On today. We ask that this same piece that surpast
us all understanding come to this individual right now as
they're watching, made that wave of healing, that wave of
peace come over them that they can say, now I
finally feel that I can talk about it and begin
(50:16):
this journey to healing, not only today but until christ return. Amen.
Thank you so much Leanna for being on the set,
and we look forward. We will stay in touch. I
would have all her links in the bio ware to
find out how you can connect. And if you final
Leanna relatable, you can just reach out to her anytime.
(50:38):
It's social media, anytime, if that's a matter, what time
you can reach out?
Speaker 5 (50:43):
Yes, yeah, right, thank you so much, thank you so much,
thank you, Okay, okay, all right everyone, So we just
want to thank you as we had another successful episode
here on Emergent Empower and we want to thank you
once again for watching.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
Don't forget to share, subscribe and just you know, heal.
It's time to heal. Let's do this for real. Do
not end twenty twenty five, which should have could have
would a just get it done. Let's start now. There
are people available to help you if they are on
any your community. There are people online, there are groups,
(51:22):
there are there's help. All right, there's help out there
and you are not in this alone. So bye bye
for now until next week.
Speaker 3 (51:33):
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Speaker 2 (00:29):
Hello, everyone on, Welcome, Welcome again for another segment, Off
and Emerge and empower with your host, doctor Lynjay. Of course,
all right, and as you know, we're here every week
for healing because we want you to heal for real.
You might hear me say this. A lot of my
episodes on Healing for Real is because it's one thing
to say I want to be healed, but we don't
(00:50):
take the necessary steps. It's one thing to talk about
it but not take the steps to get help to
go beyond what you've unlocked. Because once to unlock certain
things is not a pretty place to be. It's rather
uncomfortable even when it is time to share it with others.
So this platform continues to have you, to allow you
to a voice, all right, without judgment. And individuals come
(01:14):
on every week with different things that they've emerged from.
So you might say, I don't have that, but you
do have a story. So emerging powways that platform for
you to be able to come on and share your
story with our viewing audience, share it with the world,
all right. And also it opens up for you to
talk to your family members about it. I'm going to
(01:36):
go on a set and here is what I'm going
to share if you had not already shared it with them.
So it actually allows you to be open with yourself.
But the first thing I want you to do is
to forgive yourself and all of this because if the
guilt is in the shame and all of that is there,
then healing get what happened, all right. It's like opening
a wone that you did not stitch up and you
(01:57):
did not care and now it becomes in affected. Okay,
so you need to heal for real. So that's what
Emerging ePower is about. Simply, but come on here, share
your story, and let's emerge stronger each and every day.
So you know what I'm gonna tell you to do.
Go ahead and subscribe if you have a subscribe already,
(02:19):
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you have share it, and if you don't have anything
on social media, you can still share the link. Because
you're watching me today, obviously you're watching from something, so
you can go ahead and share it. And if someone
doesn't have said device, YouTube is shareable. You can share
(02:40):
any of the episodes from YouTube with individuals even if
they don't have Facebook, TikTok, Instagram. But YouTube link is
shaable on any platform or via text message. So let's
continue healing together. Pull that person up out of the
rock and say it's time to heal. There's something I
(03:01):
want you to watch. Come and see what is being
done on Emerge and Empower. Well, the next thing I
want to remind everyone else is we have a six week,
six week conference that is coming up from August ninth,
sorry correction August fifth to September night. Correction August fifth
(03:24):
to September ninth, where we're having a panelist of people.
If you have a story to tell, it would not
be a one on one interview. Some people like more
panel setting so they don't feel like they're the only one.
So you have that opportunity to come in. Because I
will be releasing my third book in the series. She merging.
This one is called Unholy at the Table. Yes, yes, yes,
(03:49):
you heard it, Unholy at the Table. So I'm going
to share a little bit more of my life as
you know. That is what I bring in. But also
we will also bring a Conadian of that book, which
is a workbook that you can use on many platforms, seminaries,
teaching with your church. That is called the Table Restored
(04:10):
because if we have honruly at the table now, we
often also talk about the restoration of it all. So
come on in, go ahead and email us at Emerge
and empower at gmail dot com and let us know
that you saw it here and you would like to
be a part of the sheet mergins. Con friends, it's
a virtual conference, so you can tap in wherever you
(04:33):
are and connect with us all around the world. So
we've got to take a break. We will be right
back for our guests that we'll be sharing here on today.
Speaker 3 (04:45):
Remember when coffee was just coffee, a routine sip, part
of the two billion cups consumed daily, enough to fill
an Olympic swimming pool every three minutes, same old flavor,
same old routine. For centuries, seventy of coffee drinkers have
settled for mediocrity, masking the taste with sugar syrups and
(05:05):
overpriced add ons. But what if coffee didn't just promise
to be amazing? What if it actually was Introducing a
live coffee the first coffee that tastes as good as
it makes you feel. Meet the coffee that thinks beyond
the cup. Bold, smooth, alive, made from expertly roasted, top
(05:26):
quality beans. A live coffee is smooth, rich, and shockingly delicious.
Stop drinking, may start drinking alive, the coffee that delivers,
just like the ninety percent who won't start their day
without it, a live coffee wake up, take over, feel alive.
Speaker 2 (05:47):
So on today we will be bringing our guess that
it's not other than Leanna and Leanna is a fate
led hypotherapist and trauma recovery specialist with over a decad
of experience helping clients heal anxiety, addiction, and emotional pain
at the root. She blends subconsciousness reprogramming with spiritual insight
(06:10):
to guide lasting transformation and inner peace. In this episode,
Leanna shares how true healing begins we need to surface
by addressing the beliefs WANs and partns store deep within within.
Her approach offers a compassionate path to freedom, clarity, and
emotional wellness for everyone ready to break the cycle and
(06:34):
reconnect with their true self. Everyone, let's welcome Leanna to
the said, Leanna, welcome to Emerge and empower on today.
Speaker 4 (06:46):
Thank you so much, doctor Lenn. I'm so happy to
be here. I'm excited to share and just let the
conversation go and in hopes to for someone that needs it,
we'll hear it and start their healing journey.
Speaker 2 (07:00):
Yes, yes, so as everyone know, and this platform is
about healing and to heal for real, because it's one
thing to talk about it and that takes a lot
to be able to come on and just talk, because
sometimes people take years before they can share their story
to the point that people say, well why are you
just telling this now? They carry it that long and
(07:21):
they finally feel comfortable enough to release the pain and
share it. So whenever that happened, we would like for
you to be patient with individuals as they share their
story because once they start sharing their story, it's a
wone that is open. Your reaction, all right, can really
make an impact on their lives. So Leanna, we're going
(07:43):
to dive right in, introduce yourself to that audience and
tell them a little bit about yourself.
Speaker 4 (07:48):
Yeah, thank you. My name is Leana Lapides and I'm
a hypnotherapist. I heal the rooted, underlying emotional heart from childhood.
I believe that most of our trauma stems from childhood
and how we interpret it that situation that we were experiencing,
(08:11):
and we plant the seed in our subconscious mind, in
our being, and then that seed basically grows throughout our
lifetime and becomes our identity. Our traumatic experience had creates
these limiting beliefs ideas about what we deserve, who we are,
(08:34):
and it becomes our truth and we live in that
for a very very long time until we face it.
And I'll share about why I chose to do this
work really is because I healed, and I believe that
(08:55):
healing is possible for everyone and anybody can overcome whatever
they're going through. And so I am, you know, just
a vessel to help people get to their truth and
heal and recover, you know, from all the wounds, from
all the emotional pain they've been storing and acting living from.
(09:19):
So for as long as I remember growing up. I
always felt a sense of not belonging. I always felt different.
I always felt like I'm just like, what am I
doing here? And I grew up feeling a lot of
a lot of anxiety, with a lot of anxiety around me,
(09:43):
a lot of fear, rage there was, you know, and
and all of this impacted me as a child. I
understood this later, but the way the way it impacted
me was full of fear and terror. And that became
a very big emotion that I was carrying throughout my
(10:08):
entire you know, years up until I was thirty years old.
It made me feel less than I felt so different
from the rest. I felt like nobody understands me. You know,
I had very low self esteem because of that, because
of living in that environment. And you know, that created
(10:31):
a very a very dark place inside of me where
I just lived and isolated a lot. And you know,
I had I struggled because I was in an environment
where there was a lot of arguing and you know,
throwing stuff around, and you never know, you have to
(10:52):
walk on eggshells. And I became very sensitive and that
what looked like on the outside, I appeared very shy,
but in reality, it wasn't because I was shy. I
was just so scared of any energy that came around me,
any person, So it shut me down. And then on
(11:16):
top of it, you know, parents just say things that
impact us. They don't really say it to in that moment,
you hurt us. But the way my mother said, you're shy,
like you're awkward, what is wrong with you? Stop being
like that? Because I would hide behind her when when
(11:38):
we were around people, or you know, I would just
get scared. I had so much fear, and you know,
that shut me down even more. It made me feel
even more different. And as I was growing and you know, developing,
there was all of those things continue to linger. And
(11:59):
in fact, because even bigger the energy or the spirit
of anger, the spirit of rage, the spirit of fear,
just became bigger, and I started to attract things and
people and places in my life that would were would
would you know, would be similar to what I was feeling.
(12:24):
You know, because when we know, when we think we
deserve nothing or not good enough, or we're not you know,
good looking enough, were enough, smart enough, we attract that
which will confirm that to us other people or through circumstances,
(12:45):
and so that was that continued and continued, and there
was always this fear. And then, you know, so I
was born in Ukraine and we came to the United
States States, to Los Angeles when I was eight years old,
and my parents immediately went to work. So I basically
(13:07):
grew up by myself on my own. I went to
my elementary school walking. I walked there and back eight
years old, and cooked dinner and prepared so I didn't
really have any kind of you know, compassion or communication
or acknowledgment of anything. I didn't know what homework. I
(13:28):
did kind of busy, you know, figuring out how to
live life in a new place. And my father struggled
with alcoholism, and that's where, you know, he became someone
who he's not. You know, the spirit of addiction and
alcoholism kind of takes took over and it made him
(13:51):
be the way he was right for age. And then
my mother was full of fear. So I took in
both of those, and I both of those very opposite.
But you take on what you're around, and you know,
I became that I became.
Speaker 2 (14:11):
You become the product of your environment.
Speaker 4 (14:13):
That's right, that's right, and until until much later, you know,
is when I started working on myself. You know, I
had a lot of just negative things happen over and over.
It was just like a domino effect. And I understand
why now, and I'll get into that later, but it
(14:34):
was just it was just attracting the same thing over
and over in different people in different circum situations. But
the feeling felt similar, like nothing good can ever happen
to me. I am, I am different, Like I just
wrote myself off, like I don't even belong here. And
(14:54):
it was it was devastating, truly, and you know, the
worst of the world just happened. When I was about
nineteen years old, my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
And that was just so I was numb. I felt
like I was paralyzed. You know. It's not that we
(15:15):
were so cool, but it was the only thing I
had right right, and the only thing I knew, and
that was and you know something that I remember feeling
and knowing that I just knew that my mother was
going to die soon all my life. And then it
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was almost afraid of myself because I thought, if I
know these things, then I'm like predicting these negative all
these negative things. Energy negative, energy, you know, and and
so that was like a realization. But that helped me
turn everything around. And I'll speak on that. And you know,
(16:02):
so my mother went through her sickness and I was
by her side at nineteen years old. You know, I
didn't really know what to feel and how to feel
and what was going to happen, and just like numb
going through the process of you know, taking her to
the doctors and and and going through that with her.
(16:24):
And you know, during that time, I met my husband
at the time. Now he's my ex husband, but he
came into my life and he was he basically like
like that was my way out. Okay, you know, that
was my way escape. That was my escape out of
(16:44):
fear because it just happened so fast, and you know,
I didn't know, but he had a heroin addiction that
I didn't even I didn't even understand. Like I knew alcohol,
but I didn't understand heroin was And so I just
went into the arms of that. And I was pregnant
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four months at the time when my mother passed. Wow,
So that was devastating and traumatic.
Speaker 2 (17:16):
And Colin says to you and that as well, oh
my goodness, thank you.
Speaker 4 (17:20):
This was years ago. This was already thirty two years
My son is thirty two. So it was just I
always just felt like like I'm just here to struggle
to suffer. I'm just like a nobody, Like I just
had all these terrible ideas and beliefs about myself because
(17:43):
this is like that was reality, because that was the
real life that I was living. And you know, then
the journey kind of began and a lot of things
started to change and shift, and you know, the waking
moment was when after I already had my daughter at
(18:06):
twenty at twenty seven, so I had my son at
twenty one, I had my daughter twenty seven. Still the
struggle was real, and I had nobody to turn to.
My husband wasn't like someone that I could really lean
on and feel safe with, even though you know, he
was there, but there was a lot of things that
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happened with him, and he wasn't around. He was taken
away to prison for doing, you know, doing stuff that
was illegal. And I was left by myself. So my
father already passed away as well, and I was, you know,
(18:46):
left by myself to run to businesses, have small two
small children. So I was around twenty nine years old
at the time, and I still carried this fear and
terror like how I like, are you kidding me? Like this,
like the worst can't happen. You know. Now I have
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to figure how to raise my children by myself, how
to pay the mortgage around these businesses. And you know,
I wasn't a believer of God, and because so many
different dark things kept happening in my life. But somehow
(19:28):
I said, God, either take me away from here or
show me the way. And you know, something miraculous started
to happen. People started entering my life that were so
helpful that I was just amazed, Like it was it
couldn't be real, you know, it didn't feel real. But
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then I thought, well, I asked God, you know, maybe
there is a God, right And so I started this
journey me of seeking, like I needed to figure it out.
I had small kids. I you know, the idea that
I would just leave them alone. What would they do?
(20:13):
They don't have they don't have my parents, like nobody
to take care of them. And so you know, I somehow,
you know, I was led. Well, I know that God
was leading me the whole time, now I know that.
Speaker 2 (20:30):
But.
Speaker 4 (20:32):
The way he led me was so patiently and compassionately
and had so much grace on me, and and Brod
showed me that, you know, he's doing the work. And
first I was led to learning about law of attraction
(20:55):
right and understanding like what you think about you, you
receive and you know then the vibrational energy like you
have to feel it. And so I was it felt
nice to think that way because I had some sort
of piece. I was experiencing some sort of piece when
I when I thought positively, so that was nice, but
(21:19):
it was very short lived, you know, the piece and
you know. And then I came across this meditation meditation
practice called TM transcendental meditation. It was pretty popular years ago,
and so I said, you know, I'm I can't I'm
(21:40):
not like a meditator, but I feel like I feel
drawn to it because at the time I was doing yoga.
And then the teacher who let the meditation practice, he
was inviting everybody to his home to learn learn about it,
to learn how it works and why it works. So
(22:01):
I decided I took a leap of faith and said, Okay,
I'm going to go try this, and that led me
to practicing meditation quieting the mind, and it led me
to having visions of a different, a totally different type
of life than I was living, you know, some peace, great,
(22:25):
some happiness, some joy, success, and I was like, how
am I ever going to get there? That's not real, right,
And so that was my I don't know when you
want me to.
Speaker 2 (22:38):
No, no, you're flowing in your story.
Speaker 4 (22:40):
Yes, yeah. So yeah, from then it was it was
that practice. Of course, it wasn't just like this. Nothing
was easy. You know, I had to face the anger
outburst that I was already experiencing through myself. I had
had to work on changing that to work on my
(23:01):
character because you know, I was raising my kids and
I didn't want them to you know, be affected like
I was affected with my parents' behavior. And so I
understood that, Thank god, I understood that. And at the
time also I was as I was practicing law of attraction,
like I saw this vision of me helping people, Like
(23:23):
I'm like, how am I going to help people?
Speaker 2 (23:25):
Right? It's going to help yourself first?
Speaker 4 (23:27):
Well, yeah, because I was still like like trying, like
you know, blind, like I couldn't see. I had no
I couldn't see, and you know, but I had those visions.
And then I was led to hypnotherapy school, something that
I didn't even that I didn't even think was a thing,
(23:48):
you know. It just I filled out some questionnaire online.
I was okay, what career would I be good at?
You know, and it gave me different schools like psychology school.
I guess it's whatever my answers were. It felt like
I can be helpful to people, you know, social working school,
(24:10):
all kinds of schools in that realm, and then hypnotherapy
school as well. And I'm like, I don't believe in
that stuff. That's weird. And they called me from the
school and they said, hey, you're a great candidate for
a school and I started laughing and they're like well,
And then I thought to myself, but law of attraction
(24:33):
practice says that you know, you'll be led to things
and places that you least expect, But that's like the
stepping stone for where you're supposed to go, right.
Speaker 2 (24:45):
Because in reality you needed all the things that you
were searching to help others, you actually need it yourself.
And in so doing, because some people, Here's what happened
is I would like to help others in this. Then
there's something yet why Yeah, why, Like, why do you
feel you need to help people? And this? Do you
(25:08):
see yourself? Do you see your problem? What is it
that you are dealing with? Because to help someone you
have to understand, okay, what they're going through. And when
we push to our why, it's because of the why
not because I need it, I will learn to, I
will grow do all right, So some people heal by
(25:30):
doing let's put it that way. You actually have to start. Okay,
I'll do this because this will help people. Why because
in truth you're saying that to yourself, I need this help.
Speaker 4 (25:43):
Yes, yes, that is very that is very true. That's true.
And I was I wanted to help people, and I
have this like grounding energy about me and I wanted
to do that, but I didn't know how am I
gonna do that if I can't even like control myself?
You know? So yeah, so I was led to that.
(26:04):
And as as funny as I thought hypnosis or hypnotherapy
was something like for you know, different type of people,
I kind of laughed at it. But then he's like, oh,
you know what, well, I'm going to offer you a
month free and if you don't like it, no obligation
I'm like, okay, I gotta try this, right I got
at least, you know, take it off my list. It's
(26:26):
not something real. And then I walked into the school
and I saw people that, you know, I hate to
say it at the time, I felt like they're kind
of awkward, but I felt at home. But I felt
at home there. I'm like, Okay, I belong here, you know.
(26:46):
And from the first class I was I was hooked
because they started talking about the programming, the subconscious programming,
how you know, our mind forms believe systems and ideas
about who we are and how we create these narratives
and stories. And I'm like like what, this is exactly
(27:09):
where I need to be. And so my healing journey began.
And it was I forgot that I was studying to
be helpful to someone else. I was because you need this, yes, yes,
So it was. It was amazing. I worked with all
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the all the instructors that were leading the different types
of classes and types of NLP, you know, in our
child healing classes, so I got to experience each and
every one of them every week for the entire year
that I was in school. So I was really healing
and through my healing process. I you know, I practiced
(27:56):
a lot of compassion and forgiveness for my parents because,
as wild as it sounds, but I had a lot
of disappointment and I was I was upset with my
mom for leaving me so early. I had resentment around
for that. Yeah, So I had to heal myself from
(28:17):
the core. And I love my parents and I'm so
grateful that I was led and put on the journey
to be with them because I know God was preparing
me the entire time to do the work that I
do now for people with people. So I had to
(28:37):
face my demons, right. I had to face the fact
that I don't like my care some of my characteristics, right,
I don't like that I react in anger. I don't
like this. I don't like that I don't like this.
But I had to embrace it, and I had to
take responsibility that now it's not their fault that I'm
(28:58):
like this. I'm like this because that's who I am now.
And I have to deal with myself because blaming them
is not going to help me change and teach my
kids different patterns. So it took a lot. It's not
easy to face it and admit something that you don't
like about yourself. But that is the first step to change, yes,
(29:22):
you know, and so I did that and the year
wasn't it was just the beginning. I mean, I've been
in practice. We're working with people for over like close
to fifteen years. So this, you know, this is every day.
I'm still feeling.
Speaker 2 (29:41):
Oh, feeling is continuous. Yeah, and you discovered new things
and you get the Aha, now I understand and wow,
So you keep having these happening. It is beautiful because
it's unfolding, and every time it's unfold you become better,
a better version of yourself, not only to yourself but
to your family, into everyone around you. It's like night
(30:02):
and day to the point peoples, like you know, you're
like a whole different person. Did you did you change
your hair color? Did rap? And what change about you?
But what it's you?
Speaker 4 (30:12):
The inner, that's the inner. The inner is what we
need to heal and go to and nurture and love
and you know, understand, but also discipline, you know, disciplining
because if we don't have the discipline where we're not
going to be able to change, right, you know, But
(30:34):
these are all things we it's it's really hard to
accept because for me, what was hard in that moment
was when I didn't know how to do it, how
to heal. That's where the frustration, That's where the frustration
is for a lot of people. But then when I'm like, here,
this is what we're going to do, and you know
(30:55):
we'll he this is how you're actually going to heal,
they don't. We don't know this steps and we don't
see a way out. And so that's where people get
stuck because they feel like if I don't know how
to get out of it, then I might as well
just stay there. Because the fear of getting it, going
into the unknown and not knowing is is where really
(31:19):
holds people from moving forward and trying to feel So so, yeah,
so these are the steps I've taken, and you know,
the addiction recovery piece and why I'm passionate about it.
I mentioned my father struggled with alcoholism than my husband
with addiction, and I've just been around it all my life.
(31:43):
And then you know, when my son was struggling, you know,
I looked at addiction very differently until it was my child. Right,
I was angry at it. I was like, what's wrong
with you, why are you doing this?
Speaker 3 (32:00):
You know?
Speaker 4 (32:02):
But my God changed that for me when I had
to get my son out of it, and God showed
me that I have to be compassionate and loving and understanding,
and he showed me that that is not my son.
(32:26):
It's the spirit that's it, that enters the person. So
I'm not judging the behavior anymore. I'm just looking at
the true person. And that's how I work with my
clients and healing in the healing process now and so,
(32:46):
but God revealed that to me through my own child.
And so through that experience, I volunteered where my son
was healing, and I've started volunteering hypnotherapy groups, which I
never thought that I was going to become a hypnotherapist
and do this work. But I loved it, and that's
(33:09):
where I felt the most at peace. That's where I
started to feel so connected and understood. I found my purpose. Yes,
I found like where I really understand people and where
I feel understood as well, because I struggled with that
(33:31):
all my life. And so from there, I said, you know, okay, hypnotherapy.
You know, practice is not something that people hire for
very rarely. Now it's coming around a lot more because
people are realizing how powerful it is. But at the time,
(33:52):
you know, I had to search. So if I searched,
and I said, you know, I'm going to try to
look for a hypnotherapy job. And I looked and I
looked on Craigslist at the time, and there was a
post for a job opening as I have, for a
hypnotherapy position in Passages Malibu Treatment Center. It's a renowned
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treatment center for you know, people struggling with addiction and recovery.
And I never heard of it because I just, you know,
didn't know much about Melibu at the time. But I
went for an interview and I connected with the the
(34:36):
owner because he started this rehab because of his son's recovery,
and so we bonded on that, you know, with through
our children. And I didn't have any experience really, but
he said, what are you in recovery from? I said
negative thinking. It just came out, you know, and he said,
(35:01):
you are hired. When can you start? Can you work
full time? And I'm like, what really? And so I
worked there for ten years and eventually I became a
spiritual counselor there as well, helping people just wherever they
are in their spiritual journey, right, connect with their truth.
(35:24):
And so yeah, here I am, you know, in practice,
and I help people and people come to me with
all kinds of things you know, that they're struggling with,
from addiction to depression, to anxiety to you know, relationship issues,
and I just go to the core, to the deep
(35:46):
roots and work in a new way of thinking and
feeling about yourself and healing. I do a lot of
inner child healing work through that process. So yeah, so
here I am.
Speaker 2 (36:01):
So I'm glad you said in a child because what
people don't realize is most of the things we are
reacting from in adulthood and all the things that we're doing,
they started from your childhood, right, And you can see
that something triggered in your childhood. A doorway opened, you know,
(36:23):
something happened that brought this in. Because nobody's just born.
Oh yeah, you're just your spirit is just some kind
of way your environment. We become products of our environment. Okay.
It's just like if you get up every day and
you eat ice creams. I mean that's your life, you know,
do you You become what you eat, And so we're
(36:45):
not physically eating what's an environment. But we are internalizing, right,
we are holding on to a lot of it. And
sometimes you might think that you're disassociating because you put
it away, and then later on you're triggered because you
might have a mind that you want to do better,
(37:06):
might have a mind that, you know what, I do
not want to be like you know, my family members.
I don't want to be like my environment, my neighborhood,
and I'm better than that. That's your mind saying that.
But you first have to free yourself from that in
order to get because many times they say you could,
you could take someone out of the out of the country, right,
(37:29):
but when they get to the city, they have to
reread program their mind for the city lifestyle. Okay. If not,
they're going to continue doing the same thing that they
did in the city in uh, in the in the
country in the city. So it's the same way if
someone was in an abusive relationship or it started from
whom the father, the mother, because it goes both ways, right,
(37:52):
that child ends up, like you said, getting attracted to
what they were used to that was normal, right, And
so you find it's a continuation of what stemmed again
from the childhood and now you're like, why do I
keep people say this and I hear it all the time.
Why do I always attract the same women? Or why
(38:13):
do I always attract the same men? But you have
to go back and see where that's stemming from. What
was it like in your childhood? What was the relationship?
Was there an absentee parent, children who had to learn
on their own because the parent is out of the house,
Like you said, doing your homework, cooking for yourself an
(38:34):
eight year old. Those are things an eight year old
should not have had to deal with. To be nurtured,
to be loved, Okay, that became lacking. And then now
you're feeling insufficient, not good, like you han' all of
these things going on, and it's going on now nineteen.
Then your mom is diagnosed and then she passed. So
(38:54):
you're still dealing like, you know, the two people that
at least was stable, I know, was gonna come home
at night, you know, that was a normal in my life.
Now it's shifted, and so it's like, what do I do?
What do I do in my life? What do I
do now? Okay, so you have all these questions, your loss,
still trying to find yourself and what we start to
(39:15):
do is continue existing, not living, continue existing. And so
now you're attracted to your husband who had a whole
different addictions. It didn't matter what.
Speaker 4 (39:27):
The addiction was. It's the spirit.
Speaker 2 (39:30):
Yeah, okay, it didn't matter because it again, it's that
same spirit, it's in that person. So you're attracted the
same thing. Unbeknownst to you that that addiction was a
whole different ball game and you had to deal. But
you know, you're already coping as a child, okay, with parents,
(39:51):
So now you're an adult again, you're kind of take Okay,
I'm gonna deal with I'm gonna cope. I'm gonna do
what I have to do. So you continued existing, Okay,
I have the kids my foo because it's that I'm
gonna focus my energy. I'm gonna go to work again.
But you're still not heal. You still go in through
the motions, right, and now, of course the opposite is
gonna attract you. As far as I want to heal,
(40:12):
I want people to get better. Why because you want
to get better?
Speaker 4 (40:15):
That's right?
Speaker 2 (40:18):
You know? Why do you do this? People say, but
what's your why? Why? I really don't know. Yes, it's
stemmed from your childhood. It's stem from the things that
was in your life whereever was lacking. We gravitate to
try to get something better, to see if you know what,
if I do this and I help people, maybe I'll
feel better about myself one, right, And if I feel
(40:41):
better about myself because I help someone, then wow, that's great.
I did something good. But then the truth is when
you start peeling those layers, you need it.
Speaker 4 (40:50):
It yeah, yeah, mm hmm.
Speaker 2 (40:54):
And you're still healing as your clients are healing. There
are things that you probably journeyed through with them. Because
what people don't understand is when you journey through with
your client or an individual, you two are going through
that healing process. Yes, at the same time, so it's
not one way, you know, and no two experiences the
(41:16):
same am I saying similar? But each individual is different,
how they react, the environment that they come from. There's
so much that's involved, more than just the trauma itself.
You know, the environment, the family makeup, is this in
your bloodline? Right? All of this are factors that you
have to deal with. So you're not just helping the
(41:38):
individual heal themselves. You actually going back generations. You know,
so that they can move forward and be better for
the next and their children to be better. So it's
all generational because people look at everything physical and I'm
telling you, don't take it so literal. It's actually spiritual.
We're all spiritual beings.
Speaker 4 (41:58):
Spiritual. It's absolutely spiritual. It's all spiritual. Yes, absolutely, I
see that. I know that, and I definitely live by that.
You know, I didn't understand it, but I do for
for a very very long time. It's all spiritual, you know,
And and that's that's a big part of my work
(42:21):
is teaching and training my clients to understand what is
happening with them and so that they can step in
and battle it, you know, because the things that are
happening in our mind nobody really knows about. Only you
(42:41):
we do. So that's the and listen until you get
the tools and you really learn how to step in,
you know, and and fight the battle. It's a spiritual warfare, constantly, constant.
It's constant, and it's going to happen because we're alive.
Until we're alive, it's and continue to learn that. We
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have to learn how to battle, and it's the battle
of the mind is what you know, we need to
equip and learn the tools how to do how to
manage it. It's you know, it's not something that we
can just breathe away. You know, it's something that we
need to you know, understand that there's you know, a
(43:24):
spiritual warfare, and but we you know that there's there's
ways to to fight it, to stand against it, to
to go against it right right, and to put but
people got to understand and so I love you know,
faith led hypnotherrapy is something recent for me. Actually I've
(43:45):
been doing it for a long time, but I've just
kind of stepped into I just got the name for it. Yeah,
because I've been doing it for a long time. You know,
my goal was always to lead my client, my page,
the client to their truth right, and what is the
truth is the way right. So when we are in
(44:05):
our truth, we see the way. And so when what
I do with my hypnotherapy, and every hypnotherapist has their
own approach and their own way of doing it, you know, quiet,
I help them quiet the mind so that they can
enter their own spirit right and feel that profound in
(44:26):
our peace and feel safe. And when you're in there,
when they're in there they see things completely different on
the outside of their in their life, so they're able
to really understand the war and the battle that they're
going through internally, because you know, once they're in that
place of truth, I help them see their fear, like
(44:52):
literally through an image. I mean, they have an image
of it. They have the energy, the size, the and
they're able to see it. So they're feeling more empowered
because you can see something than you who are you
the seer, right, You're the one who can empower that,
(45:13):
overpower that. So then there's the you know, energy, the
spirit of addiction, the spirit of anger, the spirit and
these are all things that you know, they can see
when they're living, when they're deep in their truth, when
their mind is quiet, right. So that's the meat of
(45:34):
my work, you know, and that's why the people come
come out living from their you know, peace and feel equipped,
right because they know that it's there because they've seen it,
they've entered it. And you know, teaching how to and
everybody's on a different spiritual journey and different levels, you know,
(45:59):
and so wherever someone is, I guide them to where
it's appropriate for that individual. Because it's something that develops
over time. I know that because I wasn't there either myself.
I got there through healing, through learning, through having my
own spiritual counsel, but guided me, you know.
Speaker 2 (46:21):
So everybody needs that. Everybody need to have a spiritual counsel.
Everybody needs someone to go to, a mentor a leader.
You need someone. You can't go through the journey alone.
Speaker 4 (46:32):
Definitely, no, no, But you know that was something that I
had to battle and fight with because growing up the
way I did, I didn't trust anybody. Because when we're wounded,
we don't trust people. How can we trust people when
we're hurt by the people that are supposed to love us.
(46:53):
So for me, reaching out to someone was really difficult
at first because I just didn't have the trust. I
would rather read a book and study it myself and
understand it, then go and get and sit with somebody
and tell them my feelings. So that's something also, you know,
(47:16):
I understand, and I want people to know that they're
not alone in that right. I always say, like, if
you're seeking and you come across someone that just feels
like like they understand, you, just stick to them and
continue working with them, you know, because we can't walk
(47:37):
this life alone and agat because now we don't know everything.
Speaker 2 (47:43):
No, no, well we are about to close now. So Leanna,
what or any closing remarks you will say to someone
who are not sure on how to move forward in
that journey of healing, what would be your advice to them?
Speaker 4 (48:00):
I would just say, first of all, know that healing
is possible for you one hundred percent, one hundred percent,
and take the first step. The first step is what
can I do to start healing? And let that answer
just come to you. And that's the first step that
you're supposed to take. Don't worry about the next step.
(48:21):
The next step will show up once you've taken the
first step. And again I just want to encourage everybody
that you know. You might think that there's no hope
for you and you're just different. Well, yes you can
feel like that, but it's you can heal and you
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can overcome whatever you're struggling with. You can overcome it.
Speaker 2 (48:49):
All right. So you heard it here with Leanna here
on emergent and power. And if that person is you,
whether you're watching today, whether you're watching it, whether it's
a year later, maybe it's three years later, you've seen this.
Whatever time you're watching this. This is a message directly
to you, and it is time for healing and to
(49:11):
embrace that because healing is beautiful. Okay, healing is beautiful
and is very liberating. The weight wt I tell you,
the weight comes off. You can hear better, see better.
Everything is so much better when you're on the other
side from that herd. So I'm going to close off
now with a prayer and so that this can actually
seal the deal for you to know that there is
(49:34):
help for you. All right, Father Nanivich is as we
thank you for you came to set the captives free,
and those who you set free are free. Indeed, there
are many on today, Father God who is seeking ill
and not sure. They're afraid, they're scared. They don't want
to deal with the ugliness of it all. They would
rather leave it alone. But at the same time it
(49:55):
is hurting them. It is really detrimental to their life.
On today. We ask that this same piece that surpast
us all understanding come to this individual right now as
they're watching, made that wave of healing, that wave of
peace come over them that they can say, now I
finally feel that I can talk about it and begin
(50:16):
this journey to healing, not only today but until christ return. Amen.
Thank you so much Leanna for being on the set,
and we look forward. We will stay in touch. I
would have all her links in the bio ware to
find out how you can connect. And if you final
Leanna relatable, you can just reach out to her anytime.
(50:38):
It's social media, anytime, if that's a matter, what time
you can reach out?
Speaker 5 (50:43):
Yes, yeah, right, thank you so much, thank you so much,
thank you, Okay, okay, all right everyone, So we just
want to thank you as we had another successful episode
here on Emergent Empower and we want to thank you
once again for watching.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
Don't forget to share, subscribe and just you know, heal.
It's time to heal. Let's do this for real. Do
not end twenty twenty five, which should have could have
would a just get it done. Let's start now. There
are people available to help you if they are on
any your community. There are people online, there are groups,
(51:22):
there are there's help. All right, there's help out there
and you are not in this alone. So bye bye
for now until next week.
Speaker 3 (51:33):
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an Olympic swimming pool. Every three minutes, same old flavor,
same old routine. For centuries, seventy five percent of coffee
drinkers have settled for mediocrity, masking the taste with sugar
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