FearLess eps 1 vol 2 _The Next Chapter - The StarShip FearLess_ - FearLess with Frank Castle

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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Check one too, check one too. How do I look?

Speaker 2 (00:09):
You look good?

Speaker 1 (00:11):
My name is Frank Castle. You're a sorcerer supreme right
here on Fearless every Saturday night, nine to ten and
whatever decide wherever other time we decide to just jump
on in and I'm joined by my etherical translator, Paula Milo.

Speaker 2 (00:26):
Hey, hey everyone.

Speaker 1 (00:28):
I hope everyone's feeling good. This is our first stream.
I hope everything is going good. Look at this super check.

Speaker 2 (00:39):
Oh that's beautiful.

Speaker 1 (00:42):
I want to say thank you to everyone that's tuning in.
I just want to do a quick sound check and
make sure it's groovy. YouTube's a little yeah, that's groovy.
What's up everyone. I'm not used to doing this live
on video this way. I'm used to working with certain systems.
So thank you everyone for putting up with us. Thank

(01:03):
you everybody for being here. Thank you to everyone who's
been with us the whole time, since the very beginning,
and those who are just picking up right about now.
This show is going to cover some adult matters, so
I would suggest maybe not watching it with children, and
it's for mature audiences and stuff. But then you could

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take that information back and you could help teach the kids.
Paula and I for a long time have been on
this journey we labeled Fearless, and we have a whole
fearless family with us. There's a whole bunch of us
in the chat right now. And I love you guys
so much. Thank you for being here. And it's been

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an interesting road and interesting path.

Speaker 2 (01:48):
Yes, it does.

Speaker 1 (01:49):
And one of the things that has happened with us
is that change swept upon us quickly.

Speaker 2 (01:57):
Yeah. I would say that.

Speaker 1 (01:58):
Choices had to be made, discussion had to be really
important and get down to the wire. But on the
base structure, the information just has to get out there. Period.
The story is just that, it's our story, and we're
continuing the journey. We call it Fearless Volume two, and

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we take you down this path right alongside of us
as we're having our journey, on our path where things
presented themselves that we never thought there would be, right right,
I mean, did you ever expect anything like this? And
we'll discuss that in a minute.

Speaker 2 (02:42):
No, I didn't expect anything like Oh my guys, I
didn't expect anything like this. When we first started maybe
three years ago, we were just telling a story. Actually,
you were telling a story and I was just helping
you feel in the gaps, and we didn't really think

(03:03):
much of it at all.

Speaker 1 (03:04):
For those of you that don't know, I went on
a little adventure after getting injured at work in twenty thirteen,
and I wound up at a friend, Chris's, and he
introduced me to ayahuasca. He introduced me to DMT, and

(03:25):
I knew about some of the other planet medicines prior
to that, but I'll be honest, up to that point,
nothing has ever worked the way it worked before. So
it was this checkpoint moment in life where I was injured,
I was asked to go on tour. It was an
interesting time. I couldn't move too much, it was very

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I was very insecure with myself. And just as I
couldn't get a hotel room in the area, boom Chris
called me said, you're staying with me. You're actually playing
a quarter mile from my house, and I'm going to
introduce you to ayahuasca.

Speaker 2 (03:59):
And this is christ Gio from tfour.

Speaker 1 (04:01):
Yes, right, So we smoked some DMT and immediately it
kicked off everything you could imagine from your third eye
opening to the beings being there. The portals opening right
in the room with us, shared experiences with people in
the room at time periods I didn't even know existed.

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We saw ourselves as different cultures and different beings of
people in those I guess time periods. I met a
bunch of a theorical beings source Lucifer Satan. I had

(04:42):
a guide with me, a giant head floating with me,
which was really odd. I saw the soul machine that
was stealing souls and sending them back into this matrix.
It looked like they were just being sucked out of
Earth via this giant machine on the moon. And I
approached the ets that were there, and I've never seen
an et before natural or I didn't remember at least,

(05:04):
And I approached them and said, you know, I could stop.
I can end this right now, because I had this
instant knowledge of what was going on. And I went
to hit the button and I was pulled pulled out,
and they said, you can't do that. You'll ruin it
for everyone. You have to kind of go in there
and fix it and then from the inside and bring
it out. If it was just a button push, it
would have been done already. So I understood that.

Speaker 2 (05:23):
So you actually had to fix things in yourself. You
actually had to go within yes and do the.

Speaker 1 (05:29):
Work inside work. And when people say don't get astonished,
don't freak out, you know that that's an understatement. Like
you hear that and you're like, yeah, I got this,
you know you know just as well?

Speaker 2 (05:43):
Oh yeah, definitely you don't got it. No, not at all.

Speaker 1 (05:47):
Who handles it that well? I mean, you go, your
reality gets ripped and torn away from you. You're a
theorical framework disappears, you, soul, the light being, whichever way
you want to call it, gets torn out of you.

Speaker 2 (06:05):
Well, it's not even that, it's it's everything that you
knew to believe to be true you find out isn't.
And you learn about all the programming that's been happening
your whole life. Ah, the programming, and because you drank
probably what was it a year before we met, I

(06:27):
don't even maybe almost a year before we I don't
know how long agoun that long?

Speaker 1 (06:32):
But yeah, it was like August the year before I
met you. This was almost a year there was no
one to talk to. Ayahuasca has this thing where when
you're on this path, sometimes you feel yourself losing everything
Before you get to her, like you're on a weird
moment where you're riding towards her. But as as you're

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riding up towards that event or ceremony, you things start
to go weird and wrong. People start judging you immediately.

Speaker 2 (07:04):
And absolutely they don't want to hear it.

Speaker 1 (07:06):
They don't want to hear about upbreading and uplifting and
clearing out your heart and purging. They think that's ridiculous, right,
I mean, when you first heard it, what did you think?
Not from me from it? Like the first time, when.

Speaker 2 (07:17):
I first heard about ayahuasca in general, I heard very
little about it. There was very little talk about it.
But I had gone through shrinking my ego. I did
a couple of q I did one QHHT healing, I
did a couple of past life regressions. So I did
a lot of work leading up to UH, leading up

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to Aya to ayahuasca. And we were just talking about
this before when we were watching something on Facebook which
one of the Pheelis family were on Facebook today she
was she was telling her story. She's a newer member.
I don't remember her name.

Speaker 1 (07:55):
Oh yeah, I wrote it down somewhere.

Speaker 2 (07:58):
I feel terrible I don't. I just don't. Tiffany. You
were just on and you were saying, we were watching
a not the newer video. We were watching the older
video that you had posted I think, yeah, from a
few days ago, and I was cleaning. Frank had it
on and I was cleaning. So it was like listening
when I could and half paying attention. And then anytime
you said anything that rang true with me, what did

(08:20):
I do? I paused and I said, that's exactly that's
exactly where I was. Yes, and you were.

Speaker 1 (08:25):
This was her first video I believe in the group.

Speaker 2 (08:27):
Oh yeah, which was amazing because you know, since we
started this Fearless Family, and we'll go into that how
that all happened. We really do have a group of
wonderful people who are contributing, who are going out and
having these talks on Facebook or YouTube or you know,
a five minute video, a three minute video, a twenty
minute video just on what's going on in your life.

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And this is wonderful for the rest of us who
don't have someone to talk to about these things or a.

Speaker 1 (08:55):
Reference point other than Terence.

Speaker 2 (08:56):
Mckennair anything, you know, And it's scary because you know,
even me, I mean, when I first heard about ayahuasca,
it had to have been right before I met you,
and I was a little intrigued, but I didn't know
anything about it, and I really wasn't at the point
where I wanted to do any research, and very few
people were talking about it. And then I had I

(09:20):
was listening to her video and I think she's at
the point, and I hope you don't mind me saying this,
because it's coming from a place of love, because I've
been there. I think you need to try psychedelics to
get through the blockaget step the next step. So I

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was cleaning and Frank had the video on and I
heard this and I said, oh my god, she sounds
just like I did. I was in a Qahht healing
session and I was telling the therapist the same thing
you were. I'm standing right at the door. I'm on
the other side. I can't get to the other side
of the door. Were right here, and it seems that

(10:02):
your frustration and and everything that you're going through is
where I've already been. You were taken out of the game.
Now you have no choice but to start from where
you are. And it sounded exactly like where I where
I was when I knew I needed something, something more.
The the the healings, the therapies weren't going to be enough.

(10:25):
And then I met Frank, and then we had a
discussion about ayahuasca, and I was in. I knew I
was in. I didn't know you, I didn't know your story.
I didn't know anything that happened to you yet, because
we didn't get that far into it. We had just met.
But I knew it was something that I was going
to need to do. Oh yeah, before it came up

(10:47):
in conversation, but I knew it was something that I
needed to do just because of the all of the
things that I had already gone through. And and and
I was, I was like I was, I was stopped
dead in my tracks. Solid couldn't go any more, couldn't
do any more, wasn't going to see any more. And
you know, for me, I didn't care about the beings
or the entities. I just really wanted to fix the

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things that were preventing me from being happy in my life.
I knew changes needed to be made, I started to
make them. I knew more changes needed to be made,
you know. But the funny thing is the more you
the more you allow yourself to awaken, the smaller your
world really gets because you don't need all of that

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outside influence. You really don't need it. And you start
stripping away all the things in your life that you
don't need. And you know, now we're down to the
bare bones. It's like, what what else can we take away?
You know? And but it's the best feeling in the world.
So it you know, it's a.

Speaker 1 (11:49):
Very Yeah, it's it's it exactly, scream and dragon out
the doors and putting it out for someone for the
trash or whatever.

Speaker 2 (11:59):
Or donating it is. It's a very it's a very
strange feeling.

Speaker 1 (12:02):
I can't live without that. I spent time, effort, energy,
and this desire that need to have will make it
from here to California and back, and will have gone
through experience. It's like, no, dude, it's a coffee.

Speaker 2 (12:17):
It's a coffee cup. Let it go, Let it go.

Speaker 1 (12:20):
Two dollars for a cheap one, get a new one.

Speaker 2 (12:22):
Yeah. So you know, I had gone through that, and
I know that a lot of our feelers family, I'm
trying to bring it back. A lot of our families,
family members are feeling that as well, like they're they're
they're stopped now they need to do something different, they
need to do something else. And I really think that
the next step is some sort of psychedelic Well this

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is wild.

Speaker 1 (12:44):
What what drives you to that point? Right? So all right,
we have ayahuasca. You get driven with the thought behind it,
and then all of a sudden, it's like she's got
you before, or she's greeting you before. When your thought
is solid, like I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna go
drink ayahuasca, I'm gonna smoke DMT, I'm gonna try a plant.

Speaker 2 (13:04):
Uh, plant medicine, Yeah.

Speaker 1 (13:06):
Eat mushrooms. And then it's almost like they greet you
when that thought occurs.

Speaker 2 (13:10):
Oh.

Speaker 1 (13:11):
Absolutely, I thought it could be a year before you
ever do it.

Speaker 2 (13:14):
Absolutely. And once you once you agree to allow the
idea of the plant medicine in, it starts to work immediately.
I like, you feel you feel it working. You feel
all of the arrows are pointing in the right direction.

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You see all of the synchronicities lining up.

Speaker 1 (13:38):
Well, the synchronicities go from what to what, they go
to synchronicities from thinking.

Speaker 2 (13:42):
You know, yeah, you're missing it. You know, like a
day a day late and a dollar short, and now
everything is just lining up. The time, the time, Yeah,
the time becomes available. People fall away that you don't
need in your life, Dramas become revealed, and then let go.

Speaker 1 (13:58):
There's these giant explos dramas.

Speaker 2 (14:01):
Absolutely, yeah, you're gonna do what. Yeah, you're gonna do
this horrible thing.

Speaker 1 (14:05):
You're going to drink a root and a seed.

Speaker 2 (14:08):
Yeah, and it's gonna yes, and it's gonna change my
life forever. And you know, you're just afraid because there
might not be room in my life for you. So
you're afraid.

Speaker 1 (14:17):
It's almost like, and I don't want to say this
the wrong way, but it's like the demon reaches out
at that point, oh yeah, to put up.

Speaker 2 (14:24):
We saw it happened. We saw it happened with other
people that have come, you know, people that clearly their
demon didn't want them to drink. I mean everything, car trouble,
locked in the house, locked out of the house.

Speaker 1 (14:38):
Lad that you see, you're just this.

Speaker 2 (14:41):
If the dog ate my homework, every everything, When your
demon does not want you to drink, or the entity
that's feeding off of you does not want you to
have that experience. They will put every obstacle in your way,
and that's how you know you're doing the right thing,
when your higher self is peeking through and trying to
get your attention long enough to tell you that you're

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doing the right thing.

Speaker 1 (15:05):
It's so weird, the demon It is like force fields, like, hey, look,
I know I don't think it's a good idea for
you to be going doing these drugs. All right, man,
all right, exactly.

Speaker 2 (15:16):
People are going to think you're a drug ad. People
are going to think you're crazy.

Speaker 1 (15:19):
This stuff is untested, unsure, people don't know what they're doing.
We're else going to go to some guy, was he?

Speaker 2 (15:25):
Guy was, Yes, he's probably gonna touch you when you're sleeping.
You know, we've heard every every crazy, every crazy.

Speaker 1 (15:33):
Excuse ever ends. Now we we we okay, we've chosen
a path or we prior to being here in this
lifetime for sure, because it almost seems like once the
door opened, not only did we want to rush in
and kick the door in because I kicked the door
and I didn't go, but it like exploded like some

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Rambo movie and I came running through it just to
realize I was in the dbad to the pool.

Speaker 2 (16:00):
See for me, it was pretty subtle though. See, I
think you needed it that way because that fits your personality.
So I think the experience matched the personality. It was
dealing with the ego. It was trying to shrink where
I think for me it was a more subtle experience.
It was a more it was more of a sit
back and look around, and I really need to make

(16:23):
some changes here if I want to be happy. I
have things. I have material things that I can tell
the I have places I can go and people I
can go with and do these wonderful things and spend
a lot of money. And none of that was making
me happy. And you know my situation. I was single
for a very long time before I met you, and
I was resigned. I was resigned with my life. If

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I was going to stay single and be single for
the rest of my life, I would have been okay
with that. But then I'm going to focus on my career.

Speaker 1 (16:52):
I'm going to just say this right now for those
who that do not know me, and this is the
first time you're meeting us, I was in a hip
hop r if I still for now it's twenty two
years and you're describing the feelings I have when I'm
on stage and it's almost over, right, like the performance

(17:12):
is kicking into overdrive. But once that forty five minute
set is over, the unhappiness seemed to seep in and
I'm like, what is that? What is driving me? And
then you realize the misery. You're surrounded by the corruption, yeah,
the bs and the trauma.

Speaker 2 (17:29):
But that's what it is. It's all drama, and it's
all it's all. It's always somebody else's drama. It's never
quite your drama because I don't create a lot of
drama in my life. I never really did. I was
always the subject of drama, like drama around me. And
I lived a good life, you know. I mean I
had girlfriends.

Speaker 1 (17:46):
Like it was implemented before you were there and they
were waiting for you to get there.

Speaker 2 (17:49):
But I think that's what it was. I had, I traveled,
I had very good friends, I had a career, I had,
I had almost everything, and I tried to be as
true to myself as I could.

Speaker 1 (18:04):
When I met you, I have to let them know,
let everyone know, when I met you, you had a
great job at PEPSI right, and you had your own
town home.

Speaker 2 (18:14):
Yeah, I just bought it.

Speaker 1 (18:15):
Was just bought it. And it was awesome. It wasn't cool,
it was awesome. I did some broadcasts out of there,
in a.

Speaker 2 (18:22):
Lot of interviews there, Yeah.

Speaker 1 (18:24):
Some interviews and stuff and it was out of this world.
So you were at a peak performing.

Speaker 2 (18:31):
I thought I had arrived. You know, everyone in my
family got married and had children.

Speaker 1 (18:37):
I don't need to laugh at you, but I have arrived.
There's two different things in all world now.

Speaker 2 (18:41):
But it is, but it is two different things because
I knew I didn't want the conventional marriage and children,
and for me, the buying the house was a milestone
moving on with my career. There was there was a
lot and you know, I didn't think going the way

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of a relationship was going to be for me because
they never worked out. I wasn't really good at it.
And people always wanted to change what they saw, you know,
they they wanted to They want to lock you down,
they want to make sure you're they.

Speaker 1 (19:16):
Want to wifey you up and throw a kid in you.

Speaker 2 (19:18):
Quick exactly and they can exactly exactly, And and I
had friends like that. I never wanted any of that,
and I was good. You can ask you can ask, well,
you know, from my friends, because that's how I met you.
I mean, I was fine with being single and then
I meet you.

Speaker 1 (19:39):
Well, we got into a position I had been slightly
a step ahead of you in terms of losing it all.

Speaker 2 (19:45):
Oh yeah, that's right.

Speaker 1 (19:46):
So I hurt myself at work, get cold to go
on tour, can't walk really, and my job decides to
let me go. So that's a whole, you know, thing
that's going on with that. And then the girl I'm
living with she's like, you're out, and I'm like, wow,

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I'm out for what? And the stories you're gonna hear
them all. We there were weird things happening, and it
was like when Aya was introduced into the world and
I was broken open. Things were being seen around the house.
Experiences where I met you as a cat woman.

Speaker 2 (20:27):
Experience, yeah, segment, but it was Paula.

Speaker 1 (20:32):
Yeah, it was a lions being that had commanded great
and ultimate respect. I just have to explain it like this,
because I was laying on the living room floor and
there were two beings, one on either side of me,
and I was laying on the floor like why is
this happening? Why is this whoa, And I'm like, you

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see you guys see that? And then I went, who
are you guys? Oh shit, what's going on here? And
they're like, we're just watching out for you. We're looking
out for you, you know, be careful and you know, trying
not to hurt yourself. And then you said all you
had to do was watch them.

Speaker 2 (21:13):
Well I wasn't me, it was.

Speaker 1 (21:15):
No, it was you, all right. So it was supposedly
being was built exactly like her, exactly.

Speaker 2 (21:21):
Like her to come to give Frank a message during
a ceremony that I'm gonna come and get.

Speaker 1 (21:27):
It was during I'm pretty sure it was the mushroom
ceremony because I open with the ayah and then came
home and then these weird things kept happening. I told
you the other night. These uh my ex thought some
of this was demonic.

Speaker 2 (21:43):
At first, I can understand that, yeah, and I could
totally understand.

Speaker 1 (21:46):
Now I didn't. I didn't know all this stuff. But
you know how, if we're making I become your own shaman,
you're making aya. If you make all the ingredients at
the same time or on two separate pots at the
same time, it wafts up into the house oh yeah,
begins to work. Yes, so you'll be feeling the purge.
You'll start to hallucinate a little bit, or it's not

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even a hallucination. You start to transform inside the experience
because your whole house is that and it's got to cook.

Speaker 2 (22:14):
For hours and hours and days sixteen so it's like
it's like basically making soup for six days, and it's
like aya soup, and just the smell that comes from it,
it starts to work on you. You're not even drinking it,
just smelling it. So now Frank had these experiences way

(22:35):
before he ever met me and didn't understand basically what
they were trying to tell him. Like this cat lady
basically came to him in an experience and said, hold on,
I'm coming for you. You'll know me by the crazy
cat lady.

Speaker 1 (22:50):
Well, you just said you'll know me by the cat.

Speaker 2 (22:52):
One, by the cat one.

Speaker 1 (22:53):
I said, Hey, that's pretty obvious.

Speaker 2 (22:55):
Right by the cat one.

Speaker 1 (22:56):
I'm expecting her to show up right, like, oh, she's
going to like catch me as I'm walking into my
house or I'm in the backyard having a cigarette or something.

Speaker 2 (23:03):
And I don't know, well kind of it.

Speaker 1 (23:07):
Did happen like that in a weird way. Our two
best friends were dating. We know all the same people,
never met each other for.

Speaker 2 (23:15):
Over twenty years, so for over twenty years we all
know the same people.

Speaker 1 (23:18):
I get in the car and we go and Paul
jumps in the car. We go pick her up, and
we have this little moment, this experience, and somewhere down
the line, it was before we got in we went
to go see my singer perform in her rock group,
and we were going to this bar up state, and
I said, can I do you know about Ayahuascar or DMT?

(23:39):
And you were like so interested, and I went, I
could talk to you about this, and bling the lights
went on.

Speaker 2 (23:44):
I said, of course you can talk to me about this.

Speaker 1 (23:46):
Well, let's talk the eye experiences and whatever else that
goes along with it. But in between the experiences like
I'm upgrading and veils are lifting and I'm seeing things
in the room.

Speaker 2 (23:58):
With me and the world is changing.

Speaker 1 (24:00):
Yeah, my ex threw me out for a combination of
all that. It was the beings. We saw. These beings
they looked like starfish, laughing and jumping across the ceiling
and jumping into the mirror and I wasn't aware that
she could see it, so I was just like, well,
Frank's going crazy, let's just chalk that one up. And
then a third one came bouncing. It was almost like
we were inverted the wrong way because they were like

(24:22):
Spider Man, just bouncing on the ceiling. But they were
laughing and I could see their faces. Yeah, it was
so weird. And it lagged behind the other ones were
in the mirror, and the mirror was out of her view.
She was down the long hallway, and then I paid
attention to it because it was slower and it was laughing,
and I'm like, oh, no, what's happening, Like what did
I do in this house? Did I unlease something? And

(24:43):
she came running out screaming, pointed, Whynny, how breaking it
tomorrow house? I mean, it was a terror show. And
then I drank the ayah that I had made, and
then I had told me you're out, that you're out,
She's gonna tell you, and then I said.

Speaker 2 (24:57):
No way, no way.

Speaker 1 (24:59):
She made me breakfast and said get out. I want
you out by Saturday.

Speaker 2 (25:03):
But you can understand that, No I do, but you
can you can totally understand.

Speaker 1 (25:07):
That crushing blows across the board.

Speaker 2 (25:10):
That's the idea. But it breaks everything down, yes, and
then it shows you, the universe shows you you don't
need anything because you're the only thing standing that's left.

Speaker 1 (25:25):
And you'll feel like Swiss cheese.

Speaker 2 (25:27):
Oh yeah, broken, broken.

Speaker 1 (25:30):
And then all of a sudden it starts repairing. Yeah yeah, right,
when all hope is lost and you can't take it anymore. Repairing.
It's like your higher self just kicks in one day
and there's this drive because the whatever was blocking your
ability to do this, naturally, Iya just smashes that wall.

Speaker 2 (25:50):
But that's what I needed because I was stuck, stuck
like in cement, stuck, could not go any further, could
not meditate any more, could not think another kind thought,
could not do another kind deed. Stuck.

Speaker 1 (26:05):
Did you like? I got a question because I know
people are thinking this. Were you the type of person
that yelled up at God? And it was like, come on,
like I did all the right things? No?

Speaker 2 (26:13):
Never, never never did that. Never never did that. By
the way, I never did that, you know, no, it never.
I accepted it all gracefully, all of it, the big
ship life that was. I accepted it, all those terrible
things that tragedies and traumis. I just accepted it. I

(26:38):
just accepted it, and I got through it gracefully. I
always got through the other side. But I said to myself,
there has to be an easier way. Why does why
do these things keep happening to me?

Speaker 1 (26:49):
That's the other one.

Speaker 2 (26:50):
I was going to ask you, why do they? Why
do they keep happening to me? And then I realized
I had to fix me right.

Speaker 1 (26:58):
So it wasn't the no.

Speaker 2 (27:01):
No, I never no. I never blamed anyone else.

Speaker 1 (27:04):
Well, I'm just showing because I blamed the extra No.

Speaker 2 (27:06):
I know you are.

Speaker 1 (27:06):
You're a blamer.

Speaker 2 (27:07):
You're like you did that. You are, You're a blamer.

Speaker 1 (27:09):
Though left you move.

Speaker 2 (27:12):
The area rug, and it's my fall that it's it's
your fault that I tripped. It's like, no, it's not.
I moved the area rug three weeks ago. What are
you talking about? But you you do that, You're a blamer.
But I never did that. I always took it. You were,
and I always anything that happened, I took it in
stride and I always got through it. But then I
got tired of it. I got tired of it. I

(27:33):
lived a beautiful life in the end. Growing up the
first half of my life, no, it was just not good.
I had very great moments, I had a good family,
but in general, no, I could not say it was good.
But later on in life, when I took control of

(27:54):
what I needed to take control of in my life,
I lived a very good life. But relation ships were
one area that I knew I was not good in
and I just didn't want to be didn't want to
be any part of it anymore. Didn't want to didn't
want to be said, didn't want to cry, didn't want
to be disappointed or let down anymore. Didn't want to
go through.

Speaker 1 (28:15):
It all right, So did did? I got a question?
So did one boyfriend? Going to the.

Speaker 2 (28:21):
Next same story, different face.

Speaker 1 (28:25):
It's just a different avatar.

Speaker 2 (28:26):
With the same exact same problems.

Speaker 1 (28:29):
Different little, less mommy problems. We've got so little more
daddy issues. He's got some money, but he's really annoying. No,
it was just brush teeth. You find yourself in the
same category of person over and over and then you're
just miserable.

Speaker 2 (28:42):
Same same same story, different face. I mean, really nice people.
I'm not going to say I can't I can't say that.

Speaker 1 (28:48):
You know, I was the son of a bitch. You know,
we all were, or are or have been. It's right,
we're human. We make mistakes, but we're being active.

Speaker 2 (28:57):
But I wasn't. I never was. I never was mean,
and I never lied and I never cheated and I
never did a lot of things that other people did.

Speaker 1 (29:05):
Yeah, is like insanely nice.

Speaker 2 (29:08):
And people are scared of that. People are scared of
people that are nice or people that are kind. Oh yeah,
he did you did? You were like, come on, this
isn't really you.

Speaker 1 (29:17):
Nobody's this good.

Speaker 2 (29:18):
No one's this nice. No one is this nice.

Speaker 1 (29:21):
Are you mocking me? Are you mocking?

Speaker 2 (29:23):
You're an idiot?

Speaker 1 (29:26):
Because I couldn't believe what I was seeing. But then
I was so nice. I'm nice to people in a
different way as well. And someone said to me they
made a nasty reference. And I'm like, so you're telling
me I'm a little soft on my sides because I'm
being nice to you. I can pick you up and
just throw you out of here, but I prefer just

(29:48):
to be a nice person. Well, people aren't nice like that, right,
I'm like, well, we need to build a relationship. If
you're going to drink that and meet Aya and then
trust me enough to be alone with me.

Speaker 2 (30:00):
Exactly.

Speaker 1 (30:00):
We can't. We have to have an open lane of communication, exactly.

Speaker 2 (30:05):
And then we did have that conversation, and we weren't
even sure if we were going to be a couple
when that happened. We weren't really sure yet then if
this thing was going.

Speaker 1 (30:13):
To work, because there was a lot going on, There
was a lot going on past issues. Had she another
one of those the same ones? Or was he one
of those? Okay, so we didn't know.

Speaker 2 (30:26):
No, no, but I knew I needed to drink, and
I did drink, and I drank with you, and it
was one of the best experiences of my life. It
definitely pushed me over that hump and it definitely got
me to the other side of the door. And if
I didn't do that, they changed my life.

Speaker 1 (30:44):
It's not even the other side of the door. They like,
kick you down the hallway.

Speaker 2 (30:47):
Oh no, no, without question, did you fall all the
way to the basement? And then with a question, you
realize when these things happened to you, you think your
world is going to get bigger, but it actually gets
much smaller because you need and require so much less
you really do. You don't need all those things that

(31:09):
you thought you need. And I can't see I'm sorry,
I can't see that the chat room folks or none.

Speaker 1 (31:14):
Of you are alone in this. Okay, yeah I can't.

Speaker 2 (31:17):
I can't read the comments because I can't see them.

Speaker 1 (31:19):
But so everything prior to us being fearless, like coming
out and saying we're becoming fearless, we went through a
year of NonStop melee battles with every etherical entity OSCA
and mushrooms. Yeah, we took a year and then then

(31:40):
we came out and told the stories. While then that
next year with so all this stuff going on, yep,
and it just it grew into this. It's beautiful, but.

Speaker 2 (31:51):
That's how but that is how it started. We met.
We didn't know what was quite gonna happen with this
relationship because Frank put me through so every kind of
torture that you could imagine, because he.

Speaker 1 (32:03):
I had some issues. I had some PTSD.

Speaker 2 (32:05):
I know you did.

Speaker 1 (32:06):
I couldn't get hit any more times. I had multiple
concussions over six or seven on just on this side
of my head. And I was getting to that point
of and then I got kicked in the head by
my nephew. He landed on my head and crushed it
in just another concussion, and I was like, my worlds
were blending in this beard way. But one thing that

(32:28):
kept me going was rebuilding, all right. So when I
drank I the first time, these beings pulled me out
and I was standing with her, so she was just
looking at me, explaining what's going on, and these beings
were jumping into my body, pulling things out, saying what
is this? What is this? They were pulling out like
the dollar sign, the heist clicked symbol, like what is this?

(32:52):
What is this? Do you know what this is? Do
you even know what that means?

Speaker 2 (32:55):
Right?

Speaker 1 (32:56):
And then the symbol was like the mask as a
an American Indian we we that was our symbol. Our
war paint was the heiht click symbol, which was so
weird stuff like.

Speaker 2 (33:09):
That because it's all stuff that you tie it to, right,
So it's everything that's tied to that symbol.

Speaker 1 (33:13):
Well, let's tie something to something else. They were healing
my neck and my back. They It didn't fix it permanently,
but it stress. I never had to take another paint
pill again, even though you know, I'm still hurting a lot,
but nothing like being not able to walk and then
being here with you guys. Yeay, two different things, right, So,

(33:37):
and then I went days more into the eye experiences.
We'll talk about that another time. But then I met
Paula and we drank and it ties together us. I
told you you were like, when did you know you
were in love with me? And I said that's what
you wanted, not oh yeah, I love you. You wanted to
know when I was like, oh, like, it's me and you.

(33:57):
All right. We drank ayah, and I was still putting
you through hell during this time. I remember even though
after this experience, I still had to purge out the
jerk in me.

Speaker 2 (34:08):
Yeah. Weird, years and years and years of fear and frustration.

Speaker 1 (34:12):
Yeah, pretty much. Yeah, that's pretty much what it is.
I saw Paula. We had an experience together where being
walked me out. He says, all right, are you ready
for this? And then I became the man that I
was looking at. It was in Egypt. There was this
big guy. It was like a big version of me.
And then these girls came out to bring me into

(34:33):
the into my home. I was being I was like,
I must have been at war or something. Because I
was dirty and I had blood on me and dirt.
It was really awkward. And but I was just standing
there like all proud, and these girls went to start
cleaning me, and then you walked out and said, no
one cleans my husband but me.

Speaker 2 (34:51):
And this is in your eye and this is in
my eye experience la.

Speaker 1 (34:56):
Yeah, it looked over I'm like, yo, that's Paula. But
the man I was watching through his eyes, he couldn't talk.
I couldn't talk for him, like through him, I can
only experience what he went through. And I'm like dancing,
And it looked like a movie theater where I could
watch out of the two eyes that's where the movie's happening.
And me and the being were just on the other side,
in a very comfortable space, watching And he was like, ahh,

(35:20):
So I saw a squeak, our first cat that we
didn't even have. It was just I'm like, what's going on?

Speaker 2 (35:27):
We didn't Yeah, we didn't even have him yet because
I didn't move yet. That was six or seven months later.
We didn't even have him.

Speaker 1 (35:32):
I didn't know any cats really in my life. I've
met people that had cats. And I said hello to them.
But I didn't care or anything that I saw this
cat and I was like, oh, that's my boobis right there.
Like I was bugging. I started freaking out. And then
you were almost as tall as me. Gorgeous. It was you.
It's the same exact version of you. It was like

(35:52):
someone took me and you and just pulled us this
way and said, here you go. You're a little taller
now you know, he's six four and you'll be five
to ten. Because I was like, whaa, pretty interesting experiences.
And as we went down this road, the experiences became
deeper and deeper and deeper, and new gnosis was unlocked,

(36:16):
new things, driving us up the path, through the path,
around the path to stay on the path, learning things
like because I was afraid of everything, right, I was afraid.
I'm not going to get into all the story. I
was afraid of everything, literally every monster. Right. I have
no problem with biting someone, throwing them a beat, and

(36:37):
if I have to, I have no problem with that.
But then put a nail in the wall.

Speaker 2 (36:41):
Forget about it. Yeah, hang a picture, I forget about
hang this.

Speaker 1 (36:45):
Show me how to do it. Go outside and change
the tire. You're not all out the curse four hundred
times either, right, go put when she will wipe a
fluid and stupid stuff, fill up this paperwork, D D D.
And I realized it was me everywhere.

Speaker 2 (37:00):
Yep.

Speaker 1 (37:01):
So anything external to me was always just trying to
get me. If I was viewing it externally, was only
trying to get me to look back at myself. Yeah,
as I like, I could see you, and it's like, yeah,
you can, but look here's a mirror. Yep, look at you.
It's about you. Yep.

Speaker 2 (37:18):
You didn't like You didn't like it.

Speaker 1 (37:19):
Who likes to hear that?

Speaker 2 (37:21):
Yep?

Speaker 1 (37:21):
Did you like to hear that? Does anyone in the
Fearless family in the group right now like to hear that?

Speaker 2 (37:27):
I didn't have a lot of that.

Speaker 1 (37:28):
Oh you're gonna have to fix this. Well, it goes
into everything like temper mm hmm, foods that go in
and out of your body, the poisons in the environment,
on and on and on into it just echoes into
that chamber of everything because everything's poisonous distraction.

Speaker 2 (37:43):
But we were good you when you first came to
my house, you said you don't have a microwave. Thank god,
I said, Oh, there's my roommate has a microwave, this
microp but I don't use it.

Speaker 1 (37:53):
It was up and out of the way.

Speaker 2 (37:54):
Yeah, touch me for that, I said. I said, I
don't use a microwave. I said, I'm sorry. I hope
you understand.

Speaker 1 (37:59):
I use an icepan, but I knew microwaves are bad.

Speaker 2 (38:03):
Ye, I don't use a microwave.

Speaker 1 (38:06):
I got a butcher block at my family's house, right,
and instead of using it to butcher anything or cut
you it's a big wood block. They put a giant
microwave from like nineteen seventy nine, you know, or whenever
they came out, and you're just like, dude, that will
cause every kind of cancer. You'll get a tan that'll

(38:29):
be glowing red standing next to it. And when they
put it in the house, I was this high with
the butcher block, and then the vent was right there.
So they were like, you're not allowed to stand around
to stand in front of the So I go how
many feet and they're like at least five? I go,
there's nowhere to go in this house. You literally can't
go five feet unless you're in the other room. So

(38:53):
everyone that's working in the kitchen right now is just
soaking that shit up.

Speaker 2 (38:56):
Huh right, So I didn't use one, and.

Speaker 1 (38:59):
It's just one of throw that out there for people.

Speaker 2 (39:01):
And when you met me, because you I lived far away.
I lived an hour away from you, and you were injured,
so you only came on came Yeah, yeah, that's right.
You only came up on the weekends. And I remember
you saying, why is it everything you have to cook?
You have to cook? Doesn't anything come out of a package?
And I said, no, nothing here comes out of a package.

Speaker 1 (39:23):
Tell me about it, the dummy and me was like,
there's this version of me that's just a meathead, right,
So no matter how smart I was getting over here,
this meathead was still just launching missiles. And yeah, I
don't miss him.

Speaker 2 (39:38):
I don't miss either.

Speaker 1 (39:39):
Don't miss that version of me at all.

Speaker 2 (39:41):
It was like being with it, with it like a
ten year old child that just questions everything you do,
why do you do that, Why do you do that?
Why are you doing this? Why are you doing that?
And for the first month that I knew Frank, I
never answered so many questions in my entire life and
and was not believed You'd didn't believe me until I

(40:02):
proved it to be.

Speaker 1 (40:03):
So there has been this weird part of the journey
where Paula would say something just randomly at times about
whatever it is that's going to go on, and she
would call it first shot, first time, and then you'd be,
like six months later into it, like what the hell

(40:23):
is going on here? And then you look over and
paul I was just looking at you and you're like,
wait a second. You told me this like six months ago.

Speaker 2 (40:28):
Yes, I did. You told me you just don't trust me,
You just don't trust me, and Frank didn't trust me
for a very long time.

Speaker 1 (40:35):
Well I trust you.

Speaker 2 (40:37):
I trust me. Yes, so, Mode, Yes, you couldn't get there,
but that's okay because we got there together. We just
got there at different times. And I told you when
we started this journey you have to try. He wouldn't
friend me on Facebook because he went through so much
trauma with ex girlfriends, and I said, you know what,

(40:59):
that's fine me And while my friends were like, what
do you mean he's not friending you on Facebook? What's wrong?
What's wrong with him? But I understood. I understood the.

Speaker 1 (41:07):
Truck, everyone on the tour, everyone from the whole tour
from start to finish. Who was in this photograph? I'm
in the dead center. There's people all around me, and
my ex was like, are you having sex with that
girl on the left. She looks like she's touching you.
I'm like, both her hands are up in the air
and she's giving everyone the peace sign double next to me. Well,

(41:29):
you can see both of my hands up. It looks
like you're kind of crouching behind her. Well, there's sixty
eight people in the photo. This is this visions to me,
So I'm sure a lot of people go through that.

Speaker 2 (41:42):
I'm sure a lot of people go through that too, from.

Speaker 1 (41:45):
That kind of I was out on tour, so at
least I had a real excuse. I was just sick
of it from that end, and you were sick in
it from the other.

Speaker 2 (41:55):
Oh yeah, but I I look, you know, I mean,
I'm easy. Just be respectful and clean up after yourself.
That's all. We can hang out, we can you can
stay as long as you want. We can talk about
anything you want. Just be respectful and be mindful and kind.
And I told you I had animals, and if anything

(42:16):
happened on your watch to my animals, it was your fault.

Speaker 1 (42:19):
And that was another thing. Animals.

Speaker 2 (42:21):
Oh yeah, you weren't used to animals. Yeah, I'd cats
all over the place, a fish days, Yeah we had
a bird. Yeah, and you know, yeah, but it but it,
but it did. It took a long, It was very hard.
It was very difficult in the beginning. But then once

(42:41):
you once you trusted me, once you trusted I don't
know if it's that you didn't trust me or if
you didn't trust the situation. So I'm not really sure
about that still, whether or not it was me or
the situation, because I knew you trusted me, because I
knew you knew I trusted me. But everything was everything

(43:05):
was a struggle everything, you know, like it was.

Speaker 1 (43:09):
The return of the fantasy mind in the middle.

Speaker 2 (43:12):
Yeah, I think so, well, you know my.

Speaker 1 (43:15):
Ex throws me out but cheats on me first, right,
So it was these weird series of your serious right,
Like when it's it gets that out of control, and
then you have an ethereal woman that is just as close,
if not closer to you than your own mother trying
to help you along. You kind of feel like.

Speaker 2 (43:37):
What does she want or what does she want?

Speaker 1 (43:40):
In one direction? One of those lines is definitely nah,
and then you go, well, maybe over here it'll work.
Maybe over here it'll work. And then eventually you just
drop those, you get rid of those because it's working
everywhere else. Yeah, it was just like all the red
flags that had went up, someone came along and just

(44:01):
went pushed it down and it was like a natural occurrence.

Speaker 2 (44:06):
And then you had to realize then you I think
when I met your family, you kind of you kind
of got it.

Speaker 1 (44:11):
A lot of weird synchronicities dating people my whole life.
I never sat anyone down in my house where anyone liked.
Always one person liked someone. Oh that's a nice perison.
I used to get that all the time. She's nice. Yeah,
she's a little bit soft in the head, but you
know whatever. You sat down, everyone lit up and started talking,

(44:33):
and I saw that that seat was next to me
was always empty. It was always a drifter.

Speaker 2 (44:37):
Yeah, that was the first time I met everybody too.
They were very nice to me.

Speaker 1 (44:40):
Yeah, everyone was like, oh my god, she's amazing. My
mother if you mess u up, it's not the words
that she use, but she was like, that's it's on you,
that's all you ruin it this time. Then you messed
up son, But then she also added the caveat, I'll
be coming for you if you do so stupid like that. Right,

(45:02):
Oh thanks, I didn't know you were clintd'swood at the
same time, but that's how much people enjoyed your energy.

Speaker 2 (45:10):
Oh yeah, oh no, I could tell. I could tell
right away. I knew I had been part of so
many families before. You know, you have to split the
holidays and share the holidays with your with your with
your significant other, and and make adjustments with your own family.
I know I've been through all that. You you've been
through all of it too, And it was always a torture,

(45:31):
you know now, you know. And then we met, and
then our families met, we met each other's family, and
that was that.

Speaker 1 (45:39):
And it's not a cake walk by any means.

Speaker 2 (45:41):
No, No, it wasn't a cakewalk for a long time.

Speaker 1 (45:44):
Like w w ian here for a little bit. Yeah,
it was right, even mentally if you were holding it back,
because we were learning new ways to deal with each other,
to deal with people in general, not to deal.

Speaker 2 (45:54):
With you, new ways for everyone to deal with Frank,
it's all about me.

Speaker 1 (46:05):
Well, you know what it was that time.

Speaker 2 (46:07):
It was it was worth it.

Speaker 1 (46:09):
I'm like, all right. So I had been under Ayah
many times at this point, and she's like, your gift,
you know how to you are you seeing how to
use it? So I'm like, my gift, what are you
talking about? Like I had no clue what she was saying.
She's like, well, you see when you're not on aya,

(46:30):
you can still see? You still see right, And I'm like, yeah,
kind of had you know. She's like, well, you're just
gonna not answer the question, okay, so you can see
up and down? Yes, And I go, oh, up and
down the densities. I could see low into the pitch
blackness and everything. I could just pick the layer and
go or just view it from here or whatever. I

(46:54):
didn't know she knew I could see like that, so
then I could look up too. I don't know that happened.
And when I was with Chris, like I broke open
when I smoked DMT and then never did I have
I not been able to do that after that.

Speaker 2 (47:07):
Right, And it's just gotten better stronger.

Speaker 1 (47:10):
If a shaman have talked and they were like, what
are you talking about? Like ten percent? And I'm like, now,
like sixty five, dude, like it activates and I go,
like my eyes will roll when I close my head,
and it's right there in front of me. It's never
out there because it's right here. There's nothing out there.
It's like I just checked myself and then burnt. It

(47:32):
activates out in front of me. And as long as
I go from within, I'm safe, right, no matter what happens.
And I've had some stuff happen. We've had some stuff happen.
We have that are beyond any reasonable expectations that you
can have both on and off ayah, which I then
explains as we go, because I'm taking four years and

(47:53):
condensing them into the story, and.

Speaker 2 (47:55):
It just of course, yeah, because we're just we're just
we're trying to catch everyone up. Doesn't know we've been
We have how many episodes? Did we have?

Speaker 1 (48:03):
One hundred and forty five?

Speaker 2 (48:04):
One hundred and forty five episodes on TFR Yeah, once
a week every Saturday. And now we're switching venues and
we're going to we've come to YouTube and we're going
to continue the story. It's under volume two.

Speaker 1 (48:18):
The story has to be told. It's just the story.
What you decide to.

Speaker 2 (48:22):
Do with it is Yeah, that's up to you.

Speaker 1 (48:24):
This is just a conversations about what goes on in
the story, and it's just to show perspectives from the
level that we're perceiving things at how everyone's just regular.

Speaker 2 (48:34):
People just trying to get through life, trying to get
through your everyday life, you know, and the friends that
you make along the way, you know. So when Frank
and I decided that we were going to talk about
these experiences, it took a while. It took almost it
was like almost a year.

Speaker 1 (48:49):
I told True Frequency Radio Chris no.

Speaker 2 (48:53):
For a year, I remember, because he was asking you
to do a show.

Speaker 1 (48:56):
Me every month, and he would just slip it right
at the end of the phone call conversation, Hey you
sure he still want to do that show? And I'm like,
I don't feel comfortable talking to you. Only you, Chris,
I'll talk to or you Paula. Right, those were my
two go to people. Two. There's no other persons to
go to. I'm listening to stuff online going I ain't

(49:18):
nobody having experiences like I'm having, no, but I have
a reference point. Terrence McKenna. I started laughing because I
blew through that because I'm True Frequency Dennis and Dennis
was going to me and Chris Brother. Yeah, yeah, you
guys are nuts.

Speaker 2 (49:32):
But even my experiences were not anything like your experiences.
I didn't see the beings. I didn't see all the
stuff that you saw. They didn't work on me and
fix me the way they did you. But but I
had wonderful experiences. I mean I had experiences that I
still cannot completely explain because I don't think there are

(49:52):
words in our vocabulary yet to even explain them.

Speaker 1 (49:56):
Yeah, Paul did something, and she'll say a lot of times,
I don't really witness it or see it the way
Frank does. But there's this really funny time when we
smoke d MT and I like roll to the side
on the bed and I see fractals just like diamonds
floating and as they're spinning, I could look into the

(50:16):
fractal and I saw there was something in the back room,
like on the other side of the mirror of the fractle.
But they were all connected, and this panther was running
like I could. I was like, is that a cat?
Is that that's a big cat? Is that a giant
black cat? Wait? Wait, a giant black cat? Is that

(50:37):
a panther? Is that the black panther. No, it's not.
It's a black panther. And it looked at me through
the fractal like it was wearing glasses, like you know
how a cat will just come up to you and
look at you, yep, and its eyes it was like
head was massive, and I go, oh, no, Paula, this
is a giant panther cat here, it's gonna I think
it's gonna attack me. And now my eyes were closed

(51:01):
and rolling in my head, and then they were opening
and I could still see it. I could see the
fractals there. So I was like, what's happening to you?
And you're like, no, he's with me, with me, And
then he runs over to you, but from the fractal side,
so he disappears. But I turn around. There's a tiger
on the bed getting up onto the bed. A tiger.

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I don't know if you guys know how big a
tiger is, but I don't know how big a tiger is.

Speaker 2 (51:27):
And I couldn't see it, but I could feel it.
I could feel him. I couldn't see it, and.

Speaker 1 (51:34):
You were he was mushing your face the way a
house cat like rumps up on you, like kind of
like that, and you're like, stop, you're too big, and
I'm looking at it and it's looking at me and
then licking you and then doing that, and you're reacting
to it, and I'm going, what's going on here, because
I'm going to run out of this room in a second,

(51:55):
screaming from my dear life. Because and then that that's
that's like an nothing, that's that's not nothing experience. That's
a small.

Speaker 2 (52:03):
Experience, but that's huge.

Speaker 1 (52:04):
If you've never seen a tiger. I was afraid of deer.
I know, deer walk up, I run like a crying girl.
Not not anymore. None of this happens anymore. Now I
don't have any.

Speaker 2 (52:19):
That's why we call the show feels Now.

Speaker 1 (52:20):
It's your path, the journey, the story of becoming fearless, right,
And it's the wanting and the desire to become fearless without.

Speaker 2 (52:32):
Without someone pushing you or taunting you, or what it
is telling you what you have to do. It's discovering
these things on your own at the time you're supposed
to discover them, and then acting on them when you
feel comfortable. That's basically what.

Speaker 1 (52:45):
The soul is has. Like that thing, it's the hero.
You need not to hear you you want right, so
it sends you what you need when you need it.
And you'll think, oh, I need capes, a cape and
a and a mask and the batmobile right now. She's like, no,
you need you need to face.

Speaker 2 (53:02):
And say I love you yourself.

Speaker 1 (53:05):
I don't want to do that. I want to swing
from the Viarnes and cars. And she's like, now, oh,
you want to see some of that stuff. Take a
look at this boom and she'll show you and you'll go,
I'm going to fix myself right now? Does that have
to do with me? Is that me? Did I do that? Ye?
Did I? And she will not let you go, and
there's no covering your eyes.

Speaker 2 (53:24):
No. But I have to say she's very she's very
easy on you. Like she she never she never shows
you anything about you and points a finger. She always
shows you another version of the story, maybe another side
that you didn't consider, perspective that you didn't consider, and
you're forced to look at it, and you're forced to a.

Speaker 1 (53:47):
Lot of times the situation. You only have the perspective
of being in that situation.

Speaker 2 (53:53):
Right, so you're not looking at it the way other
people are looking at it.

Speaker 1 (53:56):
You know, the dog and cat are running around on
the floor acting the way dogs and cats do, with
the bird is watching them going. You know, if you
guys kind of work together and go over there, you'll
miss all this, all the pitfalls and traps, right, you know,
And then it just escalates up from there.

Speaker 2 (54:11):
But that's it. And if you can get a little
bit of information from there and then use it in
your day to day life and then change something, then
you'll notice one small change and then another small change,
and then you'll have a succession of happy changes. And
that's how it happens. One tiny thing leads to another

(54:33):
tiny thing leads to a little bigger thing, you know,
and it's just cheating. Yeah, that's all it is, back,
That's all it is, right, A lot.

Speaker 1 (54:40):
Like if you achieved a lot of small things, you've
achieved a big giant mound of awesome achievements because there
are a bunch of little ones and you you accept
them and go, yeah, this is good. You know. Like
I made good coffee today, Well, what's the big deal. Well,
I usually make coffee that tastes like shit, and I'm
tired of it tasting that way, So I'm going to

(55:02):
be mindful, right, how I'd make my coffee and it's
going to start my day off correct.

Speaker 2 (55:07):
Because I put a little love into it.

Speaker 1 (55:08):
Yes, I'm going to brush my teeth and wash my
face before rolling up and just slobbering, pull on the
cheek like just to be I'm just just little thing.

Speaker 2 (55:18):
No, I know, no, but they are little things. It's like,
you know, having a bad day. You know, you allow
yourself to have a bad day if something doesn't go
right in the morning, like you know what Frank used
to wake up, you know, I mean my.

Speaker 1 (55:30):
First ten minutes. If I was in a garbage mood,
it would ruin the rest of the day for everyone.

Speaker 2 (55:35):
I mean every cat would want to leave. I would
just be like, I just want to leave the house,
like I just want to go sit in the car.

Speaker 1 (55:40):
You know.

Speaker 2 (55:41):
And and he's not. He shouldn't have that effect on me.
If he's having a bad day and I'm in a
good mood, I should be allowed to stay in a
good mood. And that was something that we had to
work on, you know, like he would yell at me,
why don't you give the cats throw up? And you
don't even get upset? I said, the cats are going
to throw up. They're going to continue to throw up.
Every time they throw up. I'm going to get upset.

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It's going to happen again.

Speaker 1 (56:05):
This is something I totally understand now. My energy could
be causing them at weirdness because they're they're helping me.

Speaker 2 (56:10):
Absolutely absolutely, they're helping you on the etheric level all
the time. That's going to cause a little chaos and
confusion in their lives. Do you know what I mean?
Helping you on the other side is going to cause
a little uh you know.

Speaker 1 (56:23):
And I gotta tell you, I'm a button pusher on
the other side, just like I was one here and
I went through the beatings of my life.

Speaker 2 (56:30):
Frankie was that kid that if you were in an elevator,
he pushed every button on every floor. I already know it.
You don't even have to tell me. I know it.
I am.

Speaker 1 (56:39):
I guess what we're gonna do for the next twenty minutes. Oh,
I know.

Speaker 2 (56:43):
I didn't even know you and I knew that, and
you said it. When I'm on the other side and
there's a big red button, I have to push it.

Speaker 1 (56:49):
It's anything I have gotten myself in more trouble for
a guy that thinks he's afraid of things is as
fast as I've run up to other beings and been like,
what are you? What are you doing here? What are
you looking at me like that for? And they're like,
I'm you, I love you, and I'm just watching the show.

(57:10):
But I think and I'm like, there's no way you're me,
and they're like, well, you can look for yourself. And
when you look from the higher perspective, we're all connected,
so we're all sharing in this weird experience. And I'm like,
you know, this place is psychotic. I'll say something like
that and they'll go, it looks like you're doing a
pretty good job. I've seen way worse.

Speaker 2 (57:30):
Keep your mouth shut and won't be so psychotic. The
other way, it won't be so psychotic.

Speaker 1 (57:35):
You're One of the things is when dealing with entities
or beings, right, it's what they it's my discernment over them,
and what what are you here for? What are you doing?

Speaker 2 (57:44):
It?

Speaker 1 (57:44):
It was very root at first, what are you doing?
Don't you touch right? Technicals? Everywhere? You know, robots and
AI and am I the only real thing? That was
another thing? Am I? The only real thing. Here is
this some place where we're playing a game and I'm
literally the only real one. Like you have to walk
through these weird doors as you're breaking open, and then

(58:05):
you realize, no, it's not just me, it's us, but
it's everything.

Speaker 2 (58:08):
It's everything you've been disconnects. You were a kid, yes,
and everything connected.

Speaker 1 (58:13):
So they lied about that. Why would you lie about
something like that, Oh, it's an external god, Well, why
would there be an internal one? Well, that would mean
it's me. But I'm no god. I'm the creator, a creator,
co creator, prime creator, source right, I'm all that and
more right. Yeah, nobody wants.

Speaker 2 (58:36):
You to No one wants you to know who you are,
so you're.

Speaker 1 (58:38):
Always hustling and shuffling. I was telling Paul, I spent
a giant amount of time in my past up to
the maybe like thirty seven years old, living in the forward.

Speaker 2 (58:50):
Thought, never living in the now, never never never never.

Speaker 1 (58:55):
That moment didn't exist to me.

Speaker 2 (58:57):
Yeah, And we used to talk about it a lot,
and you wouldn't get there, and and and I would
have to separate from you and I would go plant,
do my planting or whatever I was doing in the yard.

Speaker 1 (59:07):
By the way, for all that.

Speaker 2 (59:08):
No, you don't have to be sorry.

Speaker 1 (59:09):
Yeah, well you got to apologize.

Speaker 2 (59:11):
But now you understand. Okay, your life is going. Look,
life is just slipping by slipping through our fingers. We
have to enjoy what we can, when we can, how
we can. Period. That's it.

Speaker 1 (59:24):
Well, that's how you do it. You live the good life.
That the life that activates you and the way you
your blissful intention and uh you know the direction you
want to head. I used blissful because this place was
originally built for bliss. Uh that might be people use

(59:45):
that word wrong, right. We talked about that as well,
but I think that sounds like, oh, you guys are
juicing out or something. No, it's not like that, but yes,
like that.

Speaker 2 (59:55):
The best of the best, the best of the best,
the best cup of coffe, the best nap, the best dinner,
the best walk, the best uh errand running day. Everything
should be the best, you know. Like we talk about the.

Speaker 1 (01:00:11):
Store to get groceries and I've had a great time.

Speaker 2 (01:00:13):
And everything was on sale. That's the best. That's the
best scenario for everything that you have to go through. Look,
we all have to do these mundane things every day, okay,
and a lot of us don't have enough time, Like
when I was working. When I was working, my weekends
were so limited because I had two days to get
everything I had to get done for the week. And
other people didn't understand why can't you do this and

(01:00:34):
why can't you do that? Because I have two days
and then I go on a sixty hour work week. Again,
it's crazy. So you were like I was were I
was all work all the time. I started so many
relationships that never even got off the ground because I
was told I wasn't serious, serious enough about being in
a relationship. But I needed to work. It's only me

(01:00:56):
taking care of me. I didn't have another salary to
come home too. I had to do what I had
to do. You know. I was also taking care of people,
so there were things that needed to be done.

Speaker 1 (01:01:06):
Holy shit, list I want I want everyone at home
listening or wherever you're at to hear her. You could
hear the stress.

Speaker 2 (01:01:14):
Yeah I can. I'm getting itchy because I remember it
was on a hamster wheel.

Speaker 1 (01:01:19):
I dated wheel.

Speaker 2 (01:01:20):
I dated some Look, anyone who knows me knows I
love cats. I dated a man that didn't even know
I had a pet. That's how much I did not
have time to be in that relationship. He didn't even
know I had a pet. Meanwhile, I first met Frankie,
I said, if anything happens to my animals, I blame you,
because my animals in my life. But there was no

(01:01:42):
time for anything. You knew you came up on the weekends.
I had everything done from the moment, Yeah, from the
moment you got there, so we could we could enjoy
the time together till the moment you left.

Speaker 1 (01:01:53):
That's what happened when I got there, no matter what
I was doing to throw a wrench in my own
put my foot in my mouth daily the drive up
to you, there was this halfway point when it hit me,
like that stuff falls.

Speaker 2 (01:02:11):
It all comes out of your head.

Speaker 1 (01:02:13):
Get together and just want to hang out, hang out.
And we weren't just like hanging out having sex.

Speaker 2 (01:02:18):
And no, no, it was like running errands. And if
frank needed everything, I mean you also, you just moved
back home. You went to get stuff. If we did
a lot, we did a lot of shopping for you,
because you just moved home.

Speaker 1 (01:02:29):
I have clothes and things, and I remember, and then
this happened, and that happened, and I'm like, oh, it's
not going to be like this ever. I just came
out of a federal job. I worked at USDA for
thirteen years, and then I get hurt and they get
rid of me, and I'm like, you know, like, and
then everyone now forward that I can get with or
be around is like, oh, there's the fool that don't work,

(01:02:50):
he has no money exactly, And I'm like, I'm the
I'm the guy that that.

Speaker 2 (01:02:54):
Glaid your food exactly, sitting over here in the bronx exactly.
And but I said to you it didn't matter because
I worked and I had money so I could take
care of it. But now look there we go okay,
and you didn't believe it. You were like, there's the
girl again.

Speaker 1 (01:03:09):
She's gonna take me to yeah for some ice cream
and she's gonna pay for it. Again. I don't have
money for this, and I'm money that hold on. But
it didn't go that way.

Speaker 2 (01:03:18):
Did it, Because it didn't. I didn't care, it didn't matter.
Didn't Actually, no, it didn't go that way.

Speaker 1 (01:03:24):
It kind of went like this weird balance thing occurred, but.

Speaker 2 (01:03:28):
It was okay. But you didn't think. You didn't think
it was gonna be okay.

Speaker 1 (01:03:36):
I'm asking you what you always asked me, or tell
me you didn't think it was. I firstthing's gonna work out.

Speaker 2 (01:03:42):
Everything's gonna work out, Frank. Just trust me. And I
don't even know who you are.

Speaker 1 (01:03:47):
I don't even know you.

Speaker 2 (01:03:48):
Just trust me, Frank, It's gonna work out.

Speaker 1 (01:03:50):
My wife one time in Egypt, but me tell you.
And then there was aye a situation whatever, and you
start screaming, we were fish. You think it's ten thousand years.
It's way longer.

Speaker 2 (01:04:04):
They're not even recording time. I don't even know when
it was. We were fish, Frank. So that was my
wake up moment because we were fit. We were like
like an albaquorte tuna, or like a dolphin fish or
like like a myr people. But we were fish, and
we had a little fish baby swimming between us, and
they took our baby. And that's when I figured out

(01:04:27):
that every time you and I got together, they took
our baby.

Speaker 1 (01:04:33):
Yeah. We witnessed this on many levels.

Speaker 2 (01:04:35):
Yeah, And and you know it was funny because that
prompted the Yeah, because it prompted the conversations because you
made it very clear to me, and I made it
very clear to you that I did not want to
have a child, because I had told this several times
over in previous relationships, and it did not fly well.
When I said I did not want to have a child,

(01:04:57):
everyone was like, you're crazy.

Speaker 1 (01:04:58):
Want one either literally didn't want one.

Speaker 2 (01:05:01):
I was like, right, and and then now and then
and then I had this experience and I understood why
we didn't have and and and I thought I didn't
want to have children in this lifetime for a very
different reason. But I think I was wrong. I think
now I understand why I don't want I have this
idea that I don't want to have.

Speaker 1 (01:05:21):
Children different times. First, yes, I drank one day you
came home. I was being I was being pulled up
the wall by insectoid beings that were tagging me and
and planting me over lifetimes. And I'm seeing that they're like,
you know, we we were And I've heard people say, oh,
well we were all this, and that you and I

(01:05:42):
were animals. Specific were we were two cobras at one point,
not cobra people.

Speaker 2 (01:05:47):
No, no, you know, the actual snakes on the ground.

Speaker 1 (01:05:51):
And then we were butterflies, and then we were ants,
and then we were the drop of rain and the
bacteria inside that gets together to cause Then we we
had to like understand and at this weird level, the
weird level of the planet itself, so we understood what
we were getting into as we were increasing and going
off higher into places. Right, And then you have an

(01:06:13):
experience during the twenty seventeen we were in South Carolina.

Speaker 2 (01:06:18):
For oh, for the eclipse.

Speaker 1 (01:06:20):
Yeah, and they showed your abduction scenarios.

Speaker 2 (01:06:24):
Oh that was awful. Yeah, that was awful.

Speaker 1 (01:06:27):
Well it made me feel great.

Speaker 2 (01:06:28):
Well because you were to help.

Speaker 1 (01:06:30):
No, no, because I was like, okay, well here's someone
else getting abducted. It's not just me saying hey, I'm
being abducted. Right, So once those doors are open, the
knowledge starts to put itself back together again.

Speaker 2 (01:06:42):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:06:43):
Between those two experiences was a nice chunky amount of time,
so we had a lot of time to for me
to get my act together. And then boom it occurs
with you and you're like, oh, they're doing it to
both of us. Yeah, oh this is terrible. And then
it's like, let's take a look at who's doing this,

(01:07:04):
why it's happening, Let's try to get the best interpretation
of this because it could be anything. And then when
I ask like that, I get to see it from perspectives.
It's just me seeing it from the different places in
the room. Absolutely, I can't believe this shit's real, but
it's right there. It's right there in the wall. The
different beings.

Speaker 2 (01:07:23):
Now, whether it's this life or a past life or
a fractal or you know that you can never be
sure of. But when you're experiencing it, you definitely it
definitely feels like a memory. It doesn't feel like you're
viewing it from someone else's eyes. It definitely feels like
a memory. It's like you're peeking in on your own memory.

Speaker 1 (01:07:45):
Well, the one time it hit home with me because
I was on a date in between girlfriends.

Speaker 2 (01:07:51):
Oh yeah, your abduction.

Speaker 1 (01:07:53):
Well that's when that's why I freaked out. I'm like, oh,
that's this girl drugged me and I sent her on
a way. Afterwards, I woke up naked and I was like,
I don't know, I don't know what's happening. She was naked,
but we weren't nowhere near each other, and I was
left like on the side of the catch dangling, which
was really awkward, Like I'm a manley dude like, but like,
I don't know. I would never do that, even playing around,

(01:08:14):
I wouldn't get naked and hang off the side of
the couch and go look at my ass, right, that's
not me right, So to wake up like that. It
was five in the afternoon when it happened, which is
a weird thing. There was a flash of light and
then I just woke up naked dangling on the thing
and she was naked and we didn't touch each other,
and I was like, what did you do to me?
What did you put my butt? Very nice that I

(01:08:36):
said to her? Did we have sex? I checked myself
and I knew I didn't have sex with her. I
just I was like, this is weird. When did you
take your clothes off? And how did you get that
what you're wearing on that's in my closet in a
box in the back because it has a hole in it, right,
And I was like, just get get the fuck out
of my house. Just get get your clothes on and
get the you okay, get the fuck out. So I

(01:08:57):
was weirded out because I had a frock star incidents
with girl was stealing underwear and socks and so.

Speaker 2 (01:09:02):
You basically blamed her for that.

Speaker 1 (01:09:03):
I blamed her for the whole thing. I was like,
get the fuck out. We were drinking tequila. She poured
me a shot. I drank it, and then poured her
a shot. She had one. Then I opened a beer
and poured another shot, and I took the shot and
then never finished the beer. I don't remember it. And Okay,
so now years later, I'm with you drank an ayahuascar

(01:09:25):
right there, and I see the light go.

Speaker 2 (01:09:29):
Off in your eye experience.

Speaker 1 (01:09:31):
They showed it, showed it to me, Yeah, and then
the flash goes off, and I'm like, wow, I can't move.
I really can't move, Like my mouth wasn't moving. This
is all in my head. And the girl was standing
like off to the side, and these things.

Speaker 2 (01:09:42):
Just come in so you're viewing that scenario.

Speaker 1 (01:09:47):
Yeah, but I can't move. So I was stuck in
my body like just the way I was in that moment,
except visually cute. Like I was like, oh my god,
this is activated Well, what's happening to me?

Speaker 2 (01:09:57):
I hope you called her to apologize.

Speaker 1 (01:09:59):
No. I became friends were though on Facebook, and then
immediately she tried to make friends with me and I
was like someone, So.

Speaker 2 (01:10:05):
You didn't apologize to her, like, I'm sorry.

Speaker 1 (01:10:07):
I'm not getting into that with her. Could you imagine
me going from heist click? Like she was? She all right?
So she met me at the parade in the city.
It was a Pride parade, but there's like twelve thousand people.
I have pictures of it. And we were performing for
the whole crowd of New York City and we did
like a forty minute set and they were up in
the front row and the whole crowd was just jumping

(01:10:28):
and I I was a different person completely. How do
I say, Well, listen, remember that night that I did
that to you? Well, it was all right, so let
me finish telling them. So they wanted her, not me.
So they ran in and they.

Speaker 2 (01:10:44):
Were like, oh, so they were looking for her.

Speaker 1 (01:10:46):
We see the dust. Okay. They were like this big kay,
and they were like grayish little beings and they looked
like insects when they moved, but they all moved in
rhythm with each other. Was really weird. They just kind
of came in at once and I said, oh. They
stood up, grabbed her, moved her over to the couch.
They did some stuff. When it took her clothes off.

(01:11:07):
They put something next to her neck and did like
some and I was like, oh, what's that. They were like,
look who this is. They knew me, and I was like,
I don't know who these guys are. And they just came,
crolled up me, hit me.

Speaker 2 (01:11:22):
It was right here in the ear is in your end.

Speaker 1 (01:11:24):
And I said to myself, Oh, you get over the fear.
You're so in fear, so in fear that when they're
touching you for a minute, you're like, uh okay, I could.
I could choke you guys to death, like I'll kill
everyone of youse. Because they weren't like Spider like. They
were like the little grays. But when they moved they

(01:11:45):
were little. They moved fast, like they were up my
arm and they were doing stuff and they were just
talking like, hey, we got you now tagged. And I'm like,
they tagged me. They put something in my skin, you
said that up. It does all kinds of crazy things
and it'll just go. I'm like, ah, I want to
pull out this section of my ear. It's not this

(01:12:07):
fat for I'm on camera. It's not this fat part.
It's like in between that part and the top part.
There's like a space you can fit your finger in
and if you push up on the angle you can Yeah,
and you could go behind this piece. It's right there.

Speaker 2 (01:12:24):
I remember this whole thing all right, So okay, so.

Speaker 1 (01:12:26):
I'm I'm going, like, what the Then I was able
to view it from all perspectives once I went through
that terrible thing. But then they were showing me in
history in different points, like them just taking me the
same exact thing, tagging me, telling me, oh, we got you,
we know who you are, you belong to us. They

(01:12:49):
saying all stupid things. During the abduction, they took my
clothes off, right, They held on to them and they
pulled off, And I went, well, that's a neat little
power you got there. You could just pull someone's clothes
off like that. So when I woke up, I found
my clothes in a pile, neatly stacked on top of
each other, but as if I just poofed them off

(01:13:10):
and they just landed in a pile, and I never
knew what happened. I'm like, did ih? I'm like, that's
not nice. How you want It's never me. I've never
done that, Like, I never acted that way because I
always had to be on the watch out. Me acting

(01:13:31):
like a slob would have got back to me in
professional channels, and we can't have that. I just I
just couldn't have that kind of thing going off in
my world anyway. So multiple other experiences where I was
actually on ships and they held me down and removed
parts of me and they were looking into me, and
then beings came and pulled me out so they couldn't
get my consciousness. I'm like, I don't know what's happening

(01:13:52):
here to me. You're just showing me the stuff and
I'm living through it, and it's the most terrible thing
I've ever witnessed. And then they're like, well, now do
you feel well? Come to think of it, it was
the most scariest thing I've ever witnessed. But I'm good.

Speaker 2 (01:14:06):
Yeah, you feel better because they took out all the
stuff you didn't need.

Speaker 1 (01:14:09):
I feel really really.

Speaker 2 (01:14:10):
Good because remember we talk about it when we raise
our vibration. You can't take all of It's like a
funnel that's upside down. You can't take all of that
shit with you. You can't take grief and fear and
rejection and loneliness and jealousy there's no room for that.
You can't take it. So that thing that happened to
you in the seventh grade, no room for it. That

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thing that happened to you with your next door neighbor,
that thing that happened to you with the kid down
the street, all of that has to stay.

Speaker 1 (01:14:39):
So it's a pyramid, and then you flip the pyramid, right,
so then it becomes the thing like the sands of time. Yeah, right,
Only one grain of sand gets through that at a time, exactly, right,
one bit of light exactly You're not going to be
able to take there's no room backpack filled with fifty pounds.

Speaker 2 (01:14:58):
Of bullshit with it, because there's no room. You can't
take it. It's like, uh, you know, you don't need
the utility belt and the water weights and the heavy jacket,
and yeah, you don't need you don't need it. You
don't need any of it. You're gonna you're never gonna
need it ever again because you just don't need it.

(01:15:18):
And you know, I think that's hard for us because
that's all the earthly stuff. That's the stuff that makes
us feel and think and and and love and hate
and and and and we think because of all of
this we identify with who we are, but that's not
really true. These are things that are happening to us,
and the way that we're handling these experiences, that's the

(01:15:42):
way that defines us, not what happens. How we get
but it does. It's like Batman, Yeah, but it's it is.
It's how you get through those things. That's why for me,
I always say I just take it and strive. Like
you said, I don't. I don't know how. You just
you just do it. You get up and you do it.
You get through one thing, and then you get through
another thing, and then another thing, and then you say today,

(01:16:04):
maybe today that's enough or maybe it's not enough, and
you have to get through a little bit more. But
you can only get through one thing at a time,
no matter how much anyone throws at you. You only do
thing one thing at a time.

Speaker 1 (01:16:15):
This place is built to pile shit on top of shit.
That's the idea, and that's an overlay program inside the
earthly matrix that took over and kind of the more
they throw at the creators, the more they're going to.

Speaker 2 (01:16:30):
Try to fix that, because then they bog you down.
It's like putting tape scotch tape on top is something
that's broken. It's like if you don't remove all those
layers of tape, you know, you can't get to the
original thing that was broken. Now you put two years
of scotch tape on it. Now we can't even get
we can't even get to the switch or the dial
or the thing that we're trying to fix because it's
layers of junk, layers of junk that's not needed anymore.

Speaker 1 (01:16:54):
So highways inside of your yeah.

Speaker 2 (01:16:56):
Neural pathways, they're all blocked or day in.

Speaker 1 (01:17:00):
One car through at a time, and it's like, yo,
this is like a thirty lane highway? Is this one
at a time? Business?

Speaker 2 (01:17:06):
Let it go. Stop looking at it so long, stop
reviewing it, stop trying to figure it out. Some things
are not meant to be fixed exactly. Some things are
just meant to be put in your lap for a
small period of time and then they go someplace else,
do you know what I mean? Sometimes things just need
a place.

Speaker 1 (01:17:21):
To land and someone else's emotions and feelings and you're
not gonna wake knowing up if they don't want to.

Speaker 2 (01:17:26):
Be woken all And you know what, And that's the
funny thing, because when you do ay, you want to
tell the world like I got this thing. It tastes
like dirt or you're drinking a cup of dirt. But
if you drink this dirt and then you have a purge,
your life is going to be different forever. And people
are like, I don't care, I don't know, I don't care,

(01:17:47):
and it's like, no, no, but this is the answer
to all your questions right here. And it's like, I
still don't care, So I still don't care.

Speaker 1 (01:17:53):
My singer Danielle, so she drank with us and then
all right, so where she Paul is telling you like
we got the silver bullet, right, and it's really not
the silver bowl for everyone or everything, but it kind
of is as long as you want it, like and
you you want to work with her and within yourself
and everything. So Daniel's like she's the full experience. She

(01:18:15):
sees the beings, she's talking to them, and I'm like,
all right, well it's not just me, Like she sees
it too. She's like, oh yeah. So as soon as
it was over, she runs outside. I'm like, yeah, it's
for in the morning. Here you're going. She's like, we
gotta start telling me, what do you want to go
door to door? She's like, wouldn't you if you knew
that was real, and like, yeah, trying to throw a
brick at you. So yeah, we had this joke, right,

(01:18:36):
We got I have the cure to save the world
and someone comes out with a brick, shut the fuck
up and just hit it there with a brick because
people don't want to bottle breaks and they go, you
have chocolate milk, people are coffee.

Speaker 2 (01:18:47):
People don't know people don't know her her her purge
was so toxic that it was moving around, right.

Speaker 1 (01:18:55):
It was so toxic. It was screaming back at the.

Speaker 2 (01:18:58):
Like Slimmer from goes Buss horrible.

Speaker 1 (01:19:01):
Yeah. I kept tying it up and putting.

Speaker 2 (01:19:04):
Bags, and.

Speaker 1 (01:19:08):
Then Aya was telling me, you know you need to
get that out of the house immediately. So I go, well,
she won't stop throwing up. They're like, well, uh, well,
we'll make her finish. But she was thrown up for
four hours. Every fifteen minutes she would throw up, so
she was Danielle is like me right. So we had

(01:19:28):
some craziness that went on, and then it was so
crazy that the kid in my group, Petro I we
the group he left the group like four years prior,
maybe five years or something, and I never saw him
since that day. I go outside with the with the
demon garbage bag, like what am I going to do
with all this throw up and just nasty, And he

(01:19:50):
pulls up on the sanitation truck. He's hanging this. This
is a guy from my original Heist the Heist group dude,
one of the original members. He's leaning off the back
and he goes, hey, fright Castle, come over here, and
he just takes the bag as he drives by walk
out into the street. He takes it, throws it into
the truck, shakes my hand and keeps going. And I
was like, what just happened?

Speaker 2 (01:20:12):
But that's how it was meant to be. That's how
it was.

Speaker 1 (01:20:15):
Petro, Petro. I haven't seen him in five years, right,
and I'm like, I got nothing.

Speaker 2 (01:20:20):
We feed a stray cat that reminds us of her,
like she's just just as kids. She's a beautiful Now.
I love this. I love this girl. She just wants love.
But she's tough. She'll kill you. She's tough.

Speaker 1 (01:20:31):
She's the Baba Yaga. So we have it.

Speaker 2 (01:20:34):
We have a cat that that we feed a stray
cat and she comes in and we feed her, and
then she'll come in again and we'll feed her again,
and then she'll come in a third time and she'll
want to sit down and play with a toy or
watch TV and then walk around and then she'll just leave.
And it was like D because then when D drank
with us. The second time I had made her dinner,

(01:20:55):
I made her food, and then after she's like, can
you make me soup? And I'm like sure, it's like
two in the morning, but I'll make you soup. Now.

Speaker 1 (01:21:02):
That's the rock star thing, man, And then it's yeah,
and then it's like make me soup.

Speaker 2 (01:21:08):
Hey, I like that thing in your house. If you
don't want it anymore, can I have it? And it's
like no, Well, if you really need it, no, go
to sleep because tomorrow you're going home. Yeah, stop touching
everything and go to bed. It's like, but we have
a cat like that, yell there and go.

Speaker 1 (01:21:24):
Stop touching everything. She was why because cigarette smoke and
then you pick your nose and flicker, so you rub
your face and I go and you're you're pretty, but
you're really you're killing me. And then you're playing with
my action figures. I can't have that, and she's like,
rock Star, give me those action figures. Just start wrecking them,
and I'm like, what are you doing anyway? So that
was fun times, but holy wild Ship, it broke her open.

Speaker 2 (01:21:48):
It did.

Speaker 1 (01:21:49):
She started helping people immediately.

Speaker 2 (01:21:51):
Oh yeah, and helping herself and helping herself, she changed
her whole life.

Speaker 1 (01:21:55):
It's almost like the figure eight right, like the infint
it turns into the Infinity sign. It's like, I'm going
to help myself today. Can I help you? How can
I help you? Then it goes back to you, I'm
gonna help myself right now with what I need to
do with this, and then it flips back out, Oh
look it's Paul, Paul, how are you doing?

Speaker 2 (01:22:11):
How you doing?

Speaker 1 (01:22:12):
It just cycles out instead of just because of a
lot a lot of us are. We wear a heart
on our sleeve and we'll just keep helping you and
you keep cutting our arm off, and I'm like, I
keep trying to help get my arm cut off. It's like, well,
you're always trying to help. Do you ever help yourself?
And I'm like, what would I help myself do? I mean,
I just smoke pot and I get laid and I

(01:22:32):
do all these goofy things. They're like, yeah, you're a mess.
Go go run down the street. If you run out
of breath, go give me ten more laps, right, and
I'd go outside. I'd run to the feet and go,
oh no, yeah, I'm mess. None of this matters.

Speaker 2 (01:22:47):
What do they say when you're going down on the plane,
put the mask on yourself.

Speaker 1 (01:22:51):
First, before you put it on your kids.

Speaker 2 (01:22:53):
Before you put it on someone else. You can't help
anyone if you can't breathe.

Speaker 1 (01:22:57):
Yeah, you have to help yourself first, and then you'll
be able to help now with.

Speaker 2 (01:23:00):
The situation exactly exactly.

Speaker 1 (01:23:02):
Well, I had to learn this. I mean jokes sometimes
about whose idea was it to come head first through dimensions?
Was it your idea to come face first smiling? You're
not gonna like warn yourself of anything. You're not gonna
go back. You're gonna literally just come from out of space.
You're gonna fly down and instead of trying to like

(01:23:23):
land like a stuntman or something, you're gonna open your
mouth and you're gonna just dig as you hit the flock.
You're gonna eat all the fucking dirt you can imagine
just to get up and go No, that was nasty.
Next time, I'll just float down. And then you start
learning how to float and you're like, what.

Speaker 2 (01:23:41):
But that's it, right, you're learning another way that crazy.
You're learning another way to deal with conflict, right with everything.
And then when you learn, you have less conflict. Now
we basically have.

Speaker 1 (01:23:52):
No con so there's no victimization, no, none of us.
Another thing, me, nobody respects me knowing this, me knowing that, well,
you're spell casting when you're using your words.

Speaker 2 (01:24:02):
Yeah, you that was the first. That was the first
big thing we worked on with you. I don't get respect.
That's what you kept telling me. And I kept saying
to you. The more you say you don't get respect,
the more the universe is telling you, Okay, I'm going
to put you in situations where you will not be
respected because you're telling the universe I don't get respect.
So the universe says, okay, I'm going to give you

(01:24:24):
situations where you will not be respected.

Speaker 1 (01:24:27):
And songs about this stuff.

Speaker 2 (01:24:29):
But it's that, but it's that.

Speaker 1 (01:24:34):
Or another.

Speaker 2 (01:24:35):
And once you trusted me enough and you said, okay,
maybe she's got something here. Because you didn't you didn't
want You wanted weird success. You wanted me to be
here for the ride, but you didn't want me to
explain anything in the beginning, because you didn't think it

(01:24:56):
could be that simple. If you remember, you were like,
I don't believe that. I don't see how that's about.

Speaker 1 (01:25:01):
It coming through is so complex. But then the more as.

Speaker 2 (01:25:03):
I grew, the solution was simple.

Speaker 1 (01:25:07):
It started getting easier. So in the beginning when she said, well,
you got to love yourself, I was like, blows raspberries,
give me a fucking break, all this for you to
tell me to love myself. More So, the further you
get in this, the statements start coming.

Speaker 2 (01:25:21):
Like, it's all about you. It is all about you.
Respect yourself, love yourself together.

Speaker 1 (01:25:27):
You should hug your look in the mirror, tell yourself
you love yourself. And I'm like, you're fucking serious. That's
the easiest thing to do in the world. I love you.

Speaker 2 (01:25:33):
I mean it. I caught him talking about me. He
was talking out loud in my house. He was in
my basement and he's talking about me, and I'm at
the steps and I hear him. He's I don't know
who he's talking to. He's talking out loud, and he's saying,
this bitch is crazy. She's making this shut up as
she goes. She don't know what she's talking about. I
do like a cooking though, and she is kind of

(01:25:55):
right about some things. But and he's having this whole
internal thing that he's working out out loud, and I'm
at the steps and I'm like, do I let him know?
Do I let him know that? Like now, I know
basically you're telling me you think I'm full of shit basically?
Or do I just just pretend like this isn't happening.

Speaker 1 (01:26:15):
Yeah, you mock me. Nobody's that nice kidding trying to
pull one over on me.

Speaker 2 (01:26:19):
But it was like this, and it's over and over
and over, and I said to myself, this is how
sick I am. I said to myself, I don't need
this ship. I don't need to be doing this. I'm good.
I I don't need this and and the voice was like,
oh no, you got to get through it. And I
and I remember going, no, I don't who is that

(01:26:40):
writ out who's talking? I don't have to do this?
And they're like, yeah, yeah, you do. You have to
stick with this, And I said I don't have to
be treating because he treated me so bad.

Speaker 1 (01:26:49):
He was so many.

Speaker 2 (01:26:50):
You mean to me a few times? So what a
few times?

Speaker 1 (01:26:59):
Right, It'll give a little get balance in the end
though of that was definitely a weirdo for sure.

Speaker 2 (01:27:09):
But when you started to trust me and you built
and then what happened.

Speaker 1 (01:27:14):
I had to be built up so then I could
hold you as you came no at flying out a
left field. So it's absolutely.

Speaker 2 (01:27:21):
But you didn't believe it until you saw And I said,
if you're waiting to see it to believe it, it
will never happen.

Speaker 1 (01:27:26):
Oh, this is okay. If you're wish this is only
in the first four to six months of our relationship.

Speaker 2 (01:27:31):
Yes, if you're waiting to see it, it'll never happen.
You have to believe it to be so before you
can see it.

Speaker 1 (01:27:36):
I can't tell the universe.

Speaker 2 (01:27:37):
Hey, yeah, I believe I see it.

Speaker 1 (01:27:39):
I believe I see it. I believe I might never
see a miracle. How can I never see? And then
it goes back to what you said. The miracle is
having a bathroom or a drink of water when you
need one.

Speaker 2 (01:27:48):
Exactly, it's a miracle. Someone understands me. That's a miracle. Yeah, okay,
someone believes me, someone loves me, that's a miracle.

Speaker 1 (01:27:56):
We have to appreciate those small little things because I think,
or I know for a fact, our language has been
manhandled to the point where if you just use the
word it kind of doesn't fit what you really mean.

Speaker 2 (01:28:10):
Stop. We had to start demystifying things. This is not
this is not the fantastic. This is logic. Let's think
about this logically. I love me, I love you, but
I can't love you if I don't love me.

Speaker 1 (01:28:26):
Yeah, I was just gonna say, and I can't love
you if I don't love myself.

Speaker 2 (01:28:29):
Right, because it doesn't work that well. Something you don't know, you.

Speaker 1 (01:28:33):
Think you do, you'll be like, oh, but it's more
like a drug addiction.

Speaker 2 (01:28:37):
Yeah, exactly.

Speaker 1 (01:28:38):
I can do for you all these things, But what
about you? What are you gonna do?

Speaker 2 (01:28:40):
Yeah, what are you gonna do for you?

Speaker 1 (01:28:41):
Do what you're gonna do for you? Because I'm gonna
be along for that ride.

Speaker 2 (01:28:43):
So yeah, what are you gonna do for you?

Speaker 1 (01:28:45):
To be sitting in the corner picking your nose all
the time and then doing stuff for me? Because I
don't really want to know is pick and do it
for me person.

Speaker 2 (01:28:51):
So anyway, then when we got past all this this
stuff that was difficult, I mean it was then we
started saying maybe we should talk to people. And then
that kind of formed the idea. Well, and you had
already told me that Chris had been asking you for
the show because you used to do the interviews in
my basement.

Speaker 1 (01:29:09):
Yes, interviews were different.

Speaker 2 (01:29:10):
Right, but he wanted you for a show. And then
you were on an interview with him, and I was
in the background and I was helping Frank word some
stuff or explain some stuff the way it happened, and
Chris heard this and he goes, uh, who is that.
Frank's like, oh, that's no one. That's my assistant. That's
not one.

Speaker 1 (01:29:30):
Oh you didn't want to be heard.

Speaker 2 (01:29:32):
No, I didn't want to be heard. Yeah, and uh, the.

Speaker 1 (01:29:35):
Jobs and everything, this whole world is set up for
you to just put your foot in your mouth and
any random thay.

Speaker 2 (01:29:41):
Yeah, and I didn't want to jeopardize yeah what I had.

Speaker 1 (01:29:43):
You know, it just worked for the twelve thirteen years.

Speaker 2 (01:29:46):
Yes, same thing.

Speaker 1 (01:29:46):
Yeah, I'm going to pull it out for me because
I said, oh, you know, my boyfriend drinks ayahuasca.

Speaker 2 (01:29:50):
Exactly, but then helping. But through that we realized we
had something with the breakdowns, the explanations how things are happening,
And then I think we realized that it really didn't
work unless we were together.

Speaker 1 (01:30:06):
Well, it didn't work the way. It was just easier.

Speaker 2 (01:30:11):
It was. It was a lot easier, a.

Speaker 1 (01:30:13):
Lot easier, but not because oh I have someone, so
now it's easier. It's like that someone.

Speaker 2 (01:30:19):
Is adding value to the situation.

Speaker 1 (01:30:22):
We're bringing literally our one hundred percent to the table
and going what's going on. So as we discuss these things,
you'll notice from Paula to me and from what we teach,
learn and learn teach here, and what we're going to
talk about is everything from Tony Robbins and the good
stuff and just waking up in the morning saying I
love you man, what a beautiful day, all the way

(01:30:45):
to the aliens, then all the way into waking up
out of the matrix.

Speaker 2 (01:30:49):
Oh yeah, I mean it's this has been a fantastic ride.
It has I get again. I can't even I can't
even imagine some of this stuff has actually happened to me,
Like like I've been a not only I've been a
part of it. Not only have I been a part
of it, but it's actually happened to you.

Speaker 1 (01:31:08):
So what's weirder the stuff that we're learning and growing
and understanding that's coming back in in this bizarre world,
or the way the bizarre world is acting around us
that we were unwise to up until that moment.

Speaker 2 (01:31:18):
You know, I really it's weirder.

Speaker 1 (01:31:19):
I don't know up or they're down. I don't know,
because bizarre world sucks when you don't know it. Fucking
you know what it is.

Speaker 2 (01:31:29):
It was so hard in the beginning. It was It
was hard in the beginning because everyone judges you. People
judged before you even finished talking. People are our friends,
yeah yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:31:41):
And we weren't just hugging onto each other like I'll
just bet my girlfriend.

Speaker 2 (01:31:44):
Like we were no, we we we we didn't even know.
That wasn't even.

Speaker 1 (01:31:47):
It kind of communicated human beings exactly. And our best
friends were like it.

Speaker 2 (01:31:52):
But that's what I mean, Like everyone thought we were
so strange. And then we're together and people and people
see us together and they're like, oh, there's such a
nice couple, and.

Speaker 1 (01:32:00):
So everyone is arguing. So everyone pretends they have a
groovy life, right, and then you go around them and
it's all crazy.

Speaker 2 (01:32:09):
And yell and stam find out the truth.

Speaker 1 (01:32:10):
Then we're out and you meet us and we're like, yeah,
what's up, we're cool people. Then you meet us, you
come home, you come over for dinner or something, and
you're like, oh, this is really going on.

Speaker 2 (01:32:20):
Yeah, your mom used to call it when I had to.
When I had to move back to the Bronx, Frank
helped me pack up the house and everything, and I
wasn't gonna put half the stuff I owned in storage
because I didn't want to pay for stuff in storage
that I probably wasn't going to make.

Speaker 1 (01:32:36):
You can you use it? You're just paying for the product.

Speaker 2 (01:32:38):
Twice Yeah, so three time I ended up having this
entire living room looked like a warehouse. It looked like
I was fencing goods. It just was boxes.

Speaker 1 (01:32:46):
Amazon.

Speaker 2 (01:32:47):
Yeah, it looked like an Amazon warehouse. And uh, I
said to Frank, I said, I can't do this anymore.
I think this is where we're going to stay. I
promised Frank when I met him that I wouldn't take
him for from his grandparents, because you like to see
his grandparents and his mother every day. So I promised
that I would kind of stay in the Bronx. And

(01:33:07):
I said, this has to go. So I called a
carding company and they came with a dumpster and they said,
this is the dumpster. You fill it up. Whatever, you
fill it up. The guy gave me a really sweet deal.
He said, whatever you want, just get rid of in
this dumpster. So Frank and I threw half my life
into a dumpster. And was difficult, and it was difficult,

(01:33:32):
but I was like, come on, but it was all okay.
Like I didn't die, I didn't want, I didn't fall apart,
I didn't cry. You had it.

Speaker 1 (01:33:41):
I did what. You know, this is a.

Speaker 2 (01:33:42):
Lot half my life into.

Speaker 1 (01:33:44):
A dumpster, you know, watching that kind of purge, you know.
I had it down to one room and a storage room.

Speaker 2 (01:33:52):
Yeah, and then what did I say? Shortly after that
we did that, I said, yeah, I said, let's go
to your storage room. Let's clean it out. And we
brought as much as we could bring here. We talked
to your mother into letting you keep some stuff in
the garage. Yeah, and that was it. That's it. We
don't need this anymore. That's it. We'll combine what we have.

Speaker 1 (01:34:12):
Yeah, and well that's exactly what we did in combined elements.
We brought things together. Yeah, we became.

Speaker 2 (01:34:19):
And then we said, okay, let's try this, and we started.
We tried to have a lot, we started, we tried
to have like a life together.

Speaker 1 (01:34:26):
When we took the push forward, when we were like
one hundred percent in and going without looking back, it
was scary. Yeah, but things started to change on a
different level because all these little thing changed in the background,
like the paperwork got done and then this happened, and
that happened. I'm like, well, this is this isn't coincidence, right,

(01:34:47):
It's like the power of confidence and really feeling like
you can do stuff with help from your friends.

Speaker 2 (01:34:54):
Because we were talking in that because we were talking
about it, if you have one one person that believes
in you, one you can do anything. If you have
one person that believes you, that's all you need, because
that's more than most people get, is one person that

(01:35:15):
believes in them. You have one person that believes in you,
you can do anything. Yes, and then slowly we started
to knock your list down the things that you had.

Speaker 1 (01:35:22):
To do believing in yourself.

Speaker 2 (01:35:24):
At first, yeah, and we did.

Speaker 1 (01:35:26):
You hit ceilings with everything. Everyone hits them with everything.
You hit it working out, you hit it theorically, you
hit it with your consciousness, you hit it in your
own I'm building a business or a website and this,
and you're just hitting ceilings.

Speaker 2 (01:35:39):
Well, then we started with all of those ideas we
wanted to when we decided we wanted to do the show,
we had ideas for the show, and then we also
had ideas of the website that we wanted to keep
get going with the show, and then that came into
fruition and it was an amazing thing to see because
for the first time a plan was executed and it worked.

Speaker 1 (01:36:03):
Yeah, that's what that was another thing.

Speaker 2 (01:36:05):
We were successful. Yeah, we were executed. Yes, it was
an execute a well executed plan, and I will.

Speaker 1 (01:36:11):
Make jokes about it, but it is the truth. It
was the ten percent a week thing.

Speaker 2 (01:36:16):
Yeah, and then it making small changes changes.

Speaker 1 (01:36:20):
And then so you're not overwhelming yourself. I say ten
percent per week, and then before you know it, you know,
things are flying. But we never go one hundred percent.

Speaker 2 (01:36:27):
No, but sometimes you can't even make it. You know,
you can make a one percent. It doesn't matter as
long as you're as long as you're moving forward.

Speaker 1 (01:36:35):
Forward, then you find yourself in these different positions. It's
the same thing that you're that you'd be in naturally,
because it's the same stuff, but it's now you're reacting
in your your awareness to the situation and your perspective.
It's completely changed. Yeah, so you can walk right through
and things that were obstacles are no longer obstacles. You're

(01:36:56):
just like, oh, okay, move, move, or I'll just not
be there for those because I could see them coming.

Speaker 2 (01:37:01):
You don't need to get out of the way. That's
the boulder. If you're pushing a boulder uphill, stop, get
out of the way and let it go go stop, okay,
stop it? Yeah yeah, stop carrying those rocks. You don't
need them anymore. Stop it. And then Frank and I
really started to put we really started to practice what
we preached. We had to because we said, if we're

(01:37:24):
going to do the show, I can't I can't talk
about something that I'm not doing on a regular basis.

Speaker 1 (01:37:31):
It was it was something so deep, were we have
water filtration here, the best we can take the floor
ride out and then the actual filter over there and
we're running things. Really, it was like, look, if you
don't fix the water, you're drinking.

Speaker 2 (01:37:48):
Right right, you're drinking the flooride, you're clogging up your pineal.

Speaker 1 (01:37:52):
Land failing right, no matter what you do here. So
we started started fixing.

Speaker 2 (01:37:56):
We started small, the water filters and the showers again,
food a different way of eating, like, you know, I
think Frank package. Yeah, we did nothing package, you know.
And it's funny too, because the first time I had
gone shopping with Frank's mom, we went to Costco, and
she kept staring at what I was putting in my
shopping cart because now she was worried. She's, you know,

(01:38:19):
she her son got thrown out of the last relationship.
She didn't know what he was eating or what was happening.
So now she's in Costco with me, and she's watching
everything that I'm putting in the cart, and she's telling me,
you know, my son likes this, and my son likes that.
And I say, I know, Diana got it already in
the cart. And then I think that that that day
out set her mind at ease. She knew, she knew

(01:38:41):
that Frank was going to be in a good situation
because we had that in common, like I cooked, she cooked.
We cooked pretty much like very similar things.

Speaker 1 (01:38:50):
I'm going to tell you right now, if you ever
saw a soul family, this is what they mean. Two
people that don't know each other, come from different I
never met, never met, completely kind of act like each other.

Speaker 2 (01:39:01):
Oh yeah, yeah, I mean so many similarities. It was scary.
It was really scary. You know. When I met your
mother was.

Speaker 1 (01:39:08):
Like my father and my brother act alike, but my
brother didn't know my father.

Speaker 2 (01:39:13):
Yeah, act like, yeah, it's so weird, DNA.

Speaker 1 (01:39:16):
I go, well, then explain pull it in my mother. Yeah,
it's got to be sold, DNA.

Speaker 2 (01:39:20):
It has to be because it's so strange, like just
just the things we would do, Like even in the
first time we were in the kitchen together, like just
knowing what to do, and I was like, there's got
to be something more to this. And then I can't
remember coming home and I'm going, oh my god, Frank,
your mother it's scary. Like, you know, she's got a
she's got a thing of shopping bigs in her car

(01:39:41):
for when she goes food shopping. I got to think
of shopping bigs in my car. I collect pine cones,
I gotta I got, I got jars and jars of
pine cones. She's got pine cones in her trunk, like
like just stupid similarities. And then the first time she
came here to the house.

Speaker 1 (01:39:55):
And this is awareness, by the way, this.

Speaker 2 (01:39:57):
Is it is awareness. It's weird and two women and
that never knew each other. It's just very stray. Yeah.
And then the first time she came to the house
and she had coffee and she hung out and she said,
I remember she automatically said, oh, this is the fun house.
Now I know what's going on. This is where people

(01:40:17):
go to have fun. And then she would sneak out
of her house and come here and hang out. I'd
make dinner, she'd watch a movie, or I'd make a
late lunch and she'd watch a movie, or on her
day off she'd come. And then about a year after that,
she retired, just around the time that I had to
stop working because of my medical condition. And then I

(01:40:38):
took care of my aunt before she got sick. So
I ended up leaving my job at the perfect time
because I was available to take care of my aunt
until she passed. And then Diane and I had time
to spend together and that helped our relationship a lot too,
because then Frank got to see his mom all the time,
which was a big deal, you know, because he was
very close to his family, you know, and when you're

(01:41:01):
you know, you don't want to I didn't. I always
wanted him to have that a place where he could
feel comfortable.

Speaker 1 (01:41:06):
You know. It's funny. We dealt with a lot of
stuff like yeah very soon, Yeah, weird things we and
I know you guys out there must feel it too
if you're in this category, Like what's the deal with
because we don't have kids, we don't understand.

Speaker 2 (01:41:21):
Yeah, yeah, I cook every night. I don't have kids,
but I cook every night, so I don't understand. And
every yeah, clean my house. I I don't understand.

Speaker 1 (01:41:30):
Care of the cats. I wouldn't say quite like their children.
They're more like funny family.

Speaker 2 (01:41:35):
Yeah, but they're messy, you know, constantly, so you have.

Speaker 1 (01:41:38):
To constantly clean and do it. So I'm kind of curious,
Like when we came out and started talking. We were
doing the show for over a year, and then we
would discuss things in front of people because they would
bring it up. And then as you start to discuss it,
it's like, well, you don't have kids, what would you know,
Or you don't understand this because you don't have children,

(01:41:59):
or I have to be at work every day. It's
like I didn't just come out of a closet or
a spaceship.

Speaker 2 (01:42:04):
Yeah. I worked my whole life. Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:42:06):
I didn't say to myself, you know, if they just
stopped working and then taught their kids this way, everything
would work out perfectly.

Speaker 2 (01:42:11):
No, No, that's not it. I worked in the beginning.
I worked for the first two years.

Speaker 1 (01:42:16):
Take a breath and not just rush into that. Yeah,
you wouldn't have to worry. It's like, well, I don't
have time not to rush into that.

Speaker 2 (01:42:21):
Man, Well that's your brother you're talking about.

Speaker 1 (01:42:24):
Well no, because you don't have to. But you don't know.

Speaker 2 (01:42:26):
But they do that.

Speaker 1 (01:42:27):
You don't. You don't, you don't you don't.

Speaker 2 (01:42:28):
Have children, You don't understand it. It's like, no, I
don't understand Frank and I we had a beautiful emotionroom
RESORTO and girl chicken less than I don't understand what
did you mean? Yeah? Yeah, what do you mean?

Speaker 1 (01:42:38):
What what?

Speaker 2 (01:42:38):
What what do you mean?

Speaker 1 (01:42:39):
Well?

Speaker 2 (01:42:39):
I cook every night, Rob, I cook every night. We
don't have kids, but I cook.

Speaker 1 (01:42:43):
Fighting like traditional like we're the.

Speaker 2 (01:42:45):
Same, yeah, same as everybody else.

Speaker 1 (01:42:47):
We just don't have kids time. And it's worked for
us just as much as it's worked for everyone else.
We got to start tearing down some of those walls
because the ones that are product give in some of
those areas. I don't want to say, well, it's the
ones that don't have shit to do that are figuring
this stuff out, guys, right, So but at the same

(01:43:10):
time we're doing. Success is how you value yourself within
you or whatever. But I I started really valuing myself.

Speaker 2 (01:43:19):
But you do value yourself to actually become successful because
you're held at a standard. So maybe before you weren't,
so there was nothing to be held.

Speaker 1 (01:43:28):
If you're saying nobody will respect you, then there's goal somewhere.

Speaker 2 (01:43:31):
Yeah, right, So there you go. That's as far as
your head, as far as you're going.

Speaker 1 (01:43:37):
To hit that every time. So you.

Speaker 2 (01:43:41):
Respect yourself exactly. You gained twenty pounds when we met, right,
you gained You gained twenty pounds when we met. I
gained weight because we we were you know, I was
cooking every night, he was eating at his he was
eating at his mother's house. I would work and then
I'd come home and cook, and then he eat with
me again when I cooked, and he didn't want to

(01:44:02):
tell his mother no because she cooked for him, and
he didn't want to tell me no because I had
to cook for myself anyway. And then we're like this,
this the craziness has to stop, Like we have to stop.
But yeah, it's the fun house. It's no kids here, okay.
We's the difference is you want to have a cup
of coffee, Have a cup of coffee. Yeah, still have

(01:44:24):
the responsibilities, you know, and the action sing.

Speaker 1 (01:44:30):
Right. We got to stop. We got to like remove
some of those uh, those layers we put up on
people like oh, you don't understand and you don't know
I'm connected to you. I get it, but we do.
It's not what we did. But I'm no victim. I
was a victim. Look, but I'm not no victim no more.

Speaker 2 (01:44:48):
We're sharing space. Okay. That means Frank shit has to
be here too, because it's his space to also. So
it was very important to me to make sure that
he had space, so moving around, juggling things so that
that that he could feel comfortable here. Because if he's
just here, but his stuff isn't allowed here. Then he's
not living with me. He's just living in my house

(01:45:10):
and it's my rules. And that's not fun because I've
been in that situation.

Speaker 1 (01:45:14):
So you know, we we know, we treat we don't
even call them animals the.

Speaker 2 (01:45:24):
Way it is.

Speaker 1 (01:45:26):
You ask anyone without a pet, they'll tell you it's
just a cat, or it's just a dog, or it's
just a parrot, or it's just they're just ai or
whatever nonsense you hear, and you're like, whoa, No, they're family.
It becomes family. So yet there's not actually much difference

(01:45:50):
than raising adult the responsibilities of a dog and a
cat and a bird and the bees.

Speaker 2 (01:45:56):
Yeah, whatever, it's the same thing. We still have. Yeah,
you still have a response.

Speaker 1 (01:46:01):
Of the same thing. It's responsive.

Speaker 2 (01:46:03):
It is.

Speaker 1 (01:46:03):
It's life. I'm a creator, I'm a helper. Okay, I
don't have kids, but we got we help animals.

Speaker 2 (01:46:10):
Yes we do. And you know, I mean sharing space.

Speaker 1 (01:46:13):
You know, he's got to do something.

Speaker 2 (01:46:15):
Yeah, but it's also important to really share the space
your stuff, my stuff, you know. And then that's just
the way it is. You know, your mom again, in
the beginning, she came here. She was like always said,
I noticed franky stuff is here. I said, tell you,
and I have a cup of coffee. I greet for
the god of thunder when I pour my coffee in
the morning, and she goes, okay, there's nothing else to

(01:46:37):
be said. Yeah, you know, and then there's there's no
arguments about anything.

Speaker 1 (01:46:41):
And throughout the stories and the family members and this
and that that, what we're really doing is creating a
space and environment that you wake up.

Speaker 2 (01:46:50):
To, yeah, that you want to be.

Speaker 1 (01:46:52):
I love this, I'm really grateful for this, and I'm
hyper thankful. I'm glad I'm here, you know. And then
this weird thing occurs. You build this foundation based on
all these values, and then it becomes this. Uh. And
this is if you're truthful and you're open transparent. But

(01:47:16):
you don't have to be kind of a wash out
by doing something like this. You just love and trust
each other. You got questions, you want answers. Here we go.
But then if the answers are going to hurt your feelings,
then we're gonna have to work on your feelings being
hurt after they're hurt. Because you want the answer to
the question. So it's just like an eye experience. Like
you want to know what's behind door number one, two,
or three.

Speaker 2 (01:47:37):
I'm gonna tell you it's like.

Speaker 1 (01:47:38):
But listen, whatever comes out shows itself.

Speaker 2 (01:47:40):
You have to accept it.

Speaker 1 (01:47:41):
You're gonna have to accept it. On behind door number
one is a reptilian, Door number two is yourself, Door
number three a gray alien? Right, Like, what are you
ready to accept? Because any one of those comes out here,
your whole paradigm is gonna shift. Is that what you want?

Speaker 2 (01:47:58):
And then it's up to you to say yes or no.

Speaker 1 (01:48:01):
And if you say yes, you're ready your mind and
everything the universe. When you're like, yeah, I believe in magic.
Now ready show me, show me the magic. I believe. Boom,
it starts to appear.

Speaker 2 (01:48:14):
One synchronicity is it can't be the other way.

Speaker 1 (01:48:17):
It can't be matrix is made to bend to you will.

Speaker 2 (01:48:19):
And it can't be the other way. When I see it,
I'll believe it can't be that way. You have to
believe the magic is already there.

Speaker 1 (01:48:26):
Yes, that's the magic belief. It's the leap of faith.
And it's not the blind that dumb blind stuff that
people do. You know, you get caught up in paradigms
and functions, by programs and distractions. So you know there's
extremes of all sides of these things. That's why balance
is key.

Speaker 2 (01:48:45):
But there is balance. There's sometimes when everything is going
on here, sometimes when very little is going on, or
where we're pulled in one direction. Maybe family is more
of a priority, maybe the show where work is more
of a priority. Depending on what's going on.

Speaker 1 (01:49:01):
You can say show me the magic a million times,
be shown a million times. You don't get to wake
up today. This is a responsibility by the way of
the creator, speaking for yourself and say, well, I'll believe
it when I see it today. Like that, you'll hear
the tires and they'll go, oh, did somebody just jump

(01:49:22):
from a letter E on the alphabet to Z?

Speaker 2 (01:49:26):
Doesn't work?

Speaker 1 (01:49:27):
Like finish the rest of the Okay, we're going to
start back at a Wyonn't you go back and side
and restart. Come back out here and say that again
with your intent.

Speaker 2 (01:49:37):
But that's that's But we talked about this the other
night too. We were having a good conversation. Remember we
were on the couch and you were saying, I'm living
in the now, It's almost like the universe forced us
to start from the beginning, the two of us and
stripped down. Basically, we met and then everything was stripped away.

(01:49:59):
We lost friends from I mean yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:50:01):
Like meeting for the first time again again and then
having nothing.

Speaker 2 (01:50:06):
Like yeah, having nothing, losing everything.

Speaker 1 (01:50:09):
When we're When you're little and you have a friend
that comes over, right, you just come outside and there's
that person and you meet. Yeah, it don't matter what
they do.

Speaker 2 (01:50:21):
No, because we want to play. It doesn't matter.

Speaker 1 (01:50:23):
I'm there.

Speaker 2 (01:50:23):
Yeah, yeah, you bring the ball. Yeah, do you like
to talk?

Speaker 1 (01:50:29):
I don't know my name is, you know, Frank and
then re assert with no attachment, no distraction, no, and
then none of your projections. Yeah. Yeah, it's pretty intense. Okay,
So Paul and I have witnessed the fact that we're
aware that we've had so many first times together, which

(01:50:51):
you would think, I'm going to be forty five this year.
I've done it all.

Speaker 2 (01:50:54):
Yeah, yeah, me too, first time, first time, first, the
first time this ever happened. Because you've done all your
first and all your previous relationship, You've hit the first.

Speaker 1 (01:51:05):
Movies all of a sudden, it's like the best first
movie date, the best verse, This the best verse that
did you ever see that together? No, that was the
first time we did that. And what we're really noticing,
this is what I not this at least, is that
for every bad choice I've ever made, I'm getting to
have to make.

Speaker 2 (01:51:21):
The choice to do over. Yeah, me too.

Speaker 1 (01:51:23):
I always knew the right choice, but I don't think
it was ever the right person.

Speaker 2 (01:51:27):
So I can make the choice. Yeah, the choice.

Speaker 1 (01:51:30):
So it's almost like I just picked something else because
it never already felt correct. No matter how correct it was,
it was still off because until I met you, I
mean we were kind of yeah, boy and I are
getting tight.

Speaker 2 (01:51:44):
With each other, yeah, like it's become Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:51:47):
But we've been through stuff to the point where I
reflect back and tell her I think there might have
been a moment in a past life where you actually
I was like shot in a few field or something,
and I went down and I was her friend, and
she picked me up and put me on her shoulders
and literally carried me. Because of the stuff that goes

(01:52:09):
on today that we it's like we went through it
then and now it's revealing itself. We're going through it
now and just a new perspective and that new layer
on my shoulders and what I'm saying that you still
pick me up and put me And it's always when
I'm injured and hurt, I know, and it's like, wait,
where does this come from? And as we reflect internally
on it and go oh, and this innerstanding starts to

(01:52:31):
shine outward that we've been here since the beginning. We
all right, where's from? So far back? And I'm going
to guarantee that most of you are too. Okay, this
is a little creator to creator guarantee that this whole
thing is a heist on a heist. Okay, so we're here,
but it is we meet other beings because we're here
as creative beings on the planet. The light beings are

(01:52:52):
running around and they're creating and it's beautiful, and all
of a sudden, a new set of beings arrive. However
that happens, I'm not going to get into to personal shit,
and then they go. You know, you could have that
same experience that you're having there, the way you're having it,
but new because you're a creator. If if you wear
this sleeve the body, you could go into the same space,

(01:53:15):
so literally the same place you were just standing. But
it's like this digital transfer of consciousness into a body,
and then all of a sudden we get We're like,
we agree to this for some reason. It's like a
whole story. We sign in the contract and then we
jump in and then you have amnesia and only about
three percent awareness. And we've been talking about this for

(01:53:35):
four years straight. You have three percent awareness when you
come into this place and amnesia. Okay, so you're not
ninety seven percent of what's going on around you. You can't.
You're not even aware of right, ninety seven percent?

Speaker 2 (01:53:47):
And you're given amnesia. And we're allowed free will, yes,
But because we're allowed free will.

Speaker 1 (01:53:54):
They're allowed to target the.

Speaker 2 (01:53:55):
Caveat the caveat is you're not allowed to remember anything
from your previous life.

Speaker 1 (01:54:00):
But we don't know if that's a blessing or the.

Speaker 2 (01:54:02):
Cur But I think we leave ourselves clues, and I
think these clues are like breadcrumbs that we leave. And
but what do you do. What's the best thing to do?
You hide things in plain sight? Yes, so here is
this man that I should have known over twenty years

(01:54:23):
ago because we had all of the same friends.

Speaker 1 (01:54:25):
We literally lived in the same area. We live.

Speaker 2 (01:54:28):
We lived one and a half miles away from each other,
like we do now. Okay, we all had the same
friends and we never met because if we would have
met twenty years ago, there's no way, no way, no way,
no way, no, you would you wouldn't have. You would
have been terrified of me. Frank was afraid of Asian

(01:54:50):
people growing up, and who even knew that was a fear,
but you were. You were afraid of Asian people growing up.
I'm half Asian.

Speaker 1 (01:54:57):
Well, you know the whole music thing, you know.

Speaker 2 (01:55:01):
No, no, no, I get that.

Speaker 1 (01:55:02):
I had the past life where I was killed as
a woman.

Speaker 2 (01:55:04):
No, I totally get that. And I don't like that
type of music. Like I mean, I do like your music,
but that's not my favorite type of music. So absolutely
they you were playing in venues that And the funny
thing is you did play in venues I've been in.
I've been in all the places in the city you've played.

Speaker 1 (01:55:24):
It. Watched this was so funny. We watched that movie
about CBGB's oh yeah in New York City, and I'm like, oh,
I performed there a bunch of times, but one time
was really crazy. They thought we were the punk rock
band The Heist, but we were the Heist and the
punk rock band was ripping us off. So when we
got there, we were supposed to play it like late

(01:55:44):
at night, and we were like the first hip hop
group to ever play there, right, But they were like, oh,
you guys aren't going to cause any problems. So I
was in there on stage hanging out getting things ready
and it was like when it first, like people weren't
even there yet and they were starting to arrive. And
I did a sound check up there and it was
the place was shit, but it was so awesome. So

(01:56:06):
the energy was so high. So I started shaking on
stage and the guy's like, I told you. I tipped
the sound guy twenty and thirty bucks and he was like,
oh my god, thanks bro, and he's like I got you.
So I was shaking a little and he's like, what's
wrong with you? I'm like, uh, look down on the floor.
He's like, oh yeah. There were tags everywhere, right, So
Axel Rose carved his name into the stage and he

(01:56:29):
was I was like, yo, Axel Rose's name is there.
He's like oh yeah. He goes, you're standing right where
all of them stare. He goes everyone is played here. Yeah,
and guess what and I go what he goes after tonight,
you'll have to And I was like, oh shit, like
this is the craziest thing. You were watching the movie
and I knew all the stuff that whatever.

Speaker 2 (01:56:50):
We got four minutes, we're going to take it in
four minutes.

Speaker 1 (01:56:53):
So we've been talking for two hours.

Speaker 2 (01:56:54):
Yeah, it's almost two hours, so we're gonna take it
in four minutes.

Speaker 1 (01:56:58):
I really appreciate everybody that's.

Speaker 2 (01:57:01):
Yeah, everyone, Yes, that's stuck with us, and that's you know,
come to YouTube to listen. You know, if there's things
we need to work on, if you're not hearing us,
or just let us know, just let us know.

Speaker 1 (01:57:11):
And we'll take care of business. We're still working on
the camera thing. I'm trying to get it too.

Speaker 2 (01:57:15):
Yeah, we're having trouble with the two the two cameras.

Speaker 1 (01:57:19):
She's not on another computer. I don't know how to
make it work. So as far as I know, everything
everybody else is doing is magic. But I'm going to
get there. This is about the story continuing and the
journeying together. We told you the story again. We updated
you now on everything, Like we're pretty much up to
up to speed.

Speaker 2 (01:57:38):
Yeah, you know, and again you know you can. You can,
you know, discuss them openly when you talk about you
can ask as many questions as you want to. I
just the way it's set up now, I can't see
the I can't see the comments like I could see
them the last time. So we have to figure something
else out.

Speaker 1 (01:57:55):
Maybe turn your computer.

Speaker 2 (01:57:57):
I could do that too. This way I can read
the comments. Yeah, I could do that, because I can't
see the comments, and I feel bad. People have written
nice things and I can't even read them.

Speaker 1 (01:58:06):
I feel engaging this first show at full conversation, staring
into your beautiful eyes.

Speaker 2 (01:58:10):
Problem, Thank you, baby, No, it was a good it
was a good way to do it.

Speaker 1 (01:58:13):
I felt pretty good to catch you up because now
we're gonna go. We're not going to stay in the
realm that we were playing in. We always talk about
deep end of the pools. That's us deep end of
the pool. It's like, we'll catch you up to where
you need to be with all the theories and ideas

(01:58:34):
and the explanations we have. Anything I've been taught, anything
you've taught.

Speaker 2 (01:58:38):
Yeah, and again we can we can address We'll have
time to address questions. So we can do that now,
you know, we can. We have a little more time
to get in.

Speaker 1 (01:58:47):
Oh yeah, there's no more commercials. We're not doing an
hour show. We're just doing whatever we want now. See,
this is the beautiful thing. So tonight's kind of it's
actually we talked about nothing on this really.

Speaker 2 (01:58:59):
Oh that's so fun. All right, we have to keep
that for next time then.

Speaker 1 (01:59:02):
Yeah, absolutely, but maybe we'll do something during the week.

Speaker 2 (01:59:05):
Yeah, we could do that too.

Speaker 1 (01:59:06):
We can want to say, look, thank you to Tiffany
is on there.

Speaker 2 (01:59:10):
Yeah, well uh yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:59:13):
So listen. Purging is important. I'm just going to say this.
Purging is important. The build ups to purging could be
violent emotional outbursts like violent internal speaking and sounds and
your your little mind going crazy and everything. Let it
all go, purge it out, throw it up, whatever, let

(01:59:33):
it out anyway it needs to go. We can hold
on to these things and a lot of people toxic.

Speaker 2 (01:59:39):
You'll get sick to let it go.

Speaker 1 (01:59:41):
Uh. You know, language and definitions are separating us. Where
the two people are thinking about, yeah, exact thing, we're
saying the same thing. It's just we're all meant to
have the piece of the puzzle, so we're coming from
a slightly different direction. Understand that and try to give
it a chance. You'll know, use your discernment to resonate

(02:00:02):
with that. Don't be a dick, right, Like, that's just
something I need to let people know, and I want
I want to ask y'all. Has anyone else noticed the
getting lighter feeling like feeling lighter and then at the
same time things.

Speaker 2 (02:00:20):
Like air being yeah, thick or thin, thicker, thicker.

Speaker 1 (02:00:25):
Than what you become lighter, so then it becomes almost
a heavier thing.

Speaker 2 (02:00:28):
Yeah. Yeah.

Speaker 1 (02:00:29):
The other day I was walking and I had this
amazing walk, but I turned into this like locomotive type
situation and the sun was shining. It was like ninety
degrees and I just kept trucking, and when I stopped,
I felt differently again. I go, no, no, I want
to go back, like I want to go back out
and do the walk because I felt the air was

(02:00:50):
doing something that it never did before or I was
never aware of. So I was never breathing like that,
So I've been purposely breathing, right, But the other day
in the sun, it felt different, and I opted to
go for that walk. Take it, take a mile walk
a mile back, and I was pouring sweat and I

(02:01:10):
was saying to myself, I feel the machine more today,
but I'm in full control without a distraction, right, like
more of the divine breath, reacting with the consciousness, reacting
with the environment, rather than going, hey, watch where you're going.
Like there was none of that kind of shit going
on distraction. It was like love all the way, send it.

Speaker 2 (02:01:31):
Ahead, and yeah, I don't tell them about the Fearless
group on Facebook, so people know where to find you
if they want to.

Speaker 1 (02:01:40):
So if you guys want to join us for things
like the meditations and the side private conversations, we have
a private group on Facebook. We thought it was the
best place for as many people as we have to
have a safe, sacred space, so you can pretty much
go and.

Speaker 2 (02:01:56):
Ask questions and have discussions and say what you want
without judgment, no judgment.

Speaker 1 (02:02:02):
And then we have members going live all the time
and they're expressing themselves in ways and having ideas that
we didn't even see coming.

Speaker 2 (02:02:12):
Yeah, it's beautiful. It's just beautiful people just talking.

Speaker 1 (02:02:16):
It's like one person hits a key in the note
of the.

Speaker 2 (02:02:18):
Song and then they range for everyone.

Speaker 1 (02:02:22):
Thing and they hit the note and they come out
and they say something relevant to that, and then as
they pull away from the first thought, we're in this
conversation and people keep just jumping in adding themselves. It's
like the pieces of the puzzle. We're throwing them down
now on the table, going well, this is what I have,
and from every angle we look at it, it's all
like this. And this is all metaphorically now, but it's

(02:02:45):
really starting to shine. So it's Facebook groups, the Fearless Family,
the Fearless Family. You have to answer the question to
get in, and you will be bounced if you're a troll.
That's all I'm gonna say. It's the most wonderful place
on social media because social media has become an arm pit, yeah,

(02:03:05):
of just distortions and crazy distractions and lies upon lies
upon lies. So we have to really watch what we're
doing with that, and if you could, definitely, if you're
enjoying what you're being a part of with us, please
share us because it's the only way to get the
information out there. We're not rolling with the big leagues anymore.

(02:03:29):
We are just what we are. When we are I am,
we are us. So it's the starship feel us is
something that we like to say, we built a light
ship that we bring in our family members and we
just go to where we're needed and then we descend
into the area and do whatever it is we have
to do, and we do it together. Why. Well, one,

(02:03:50):
we're all connected to the strengthen numbers three because it's
fucking awesome and that's how we roll, right And if
you want to roll with us like that, we would
love to have you aboard. God, I sounded like the
love boat right there.

Speaker 2 (02:04:03):
No, that sounded great. And you know what, this is
where we're going.

Speaker 1 (02:04:05):
To be Fearless family. Yeah, and this will be the
main headquarters.

Speaker 2 (02:04:09):
Yeah, this is where you'll find us. Now. Next week
I won't be here, but Frank will be doing the
show live.

Speaker 1 (02:04:14):
Oh, I'm gonna be going live all the time.

Speaker 2 (02:04:15):
And yeah, I know.

Speaker 1 (02:04:20):
I'm gonna be interviewing the cats and all different people
of beings from all over on. Wait. So for those
of you that don't know me, I have family everywhere,
So it'll it'll be infamous shows across the board consistently
and constantly because all I'm doing is sharing what's going
on as even if it's a negative thing like oh,
tlip fell, knock myself unconscious again? Bang?

Speaker 2 (02:04:43):
Every day can't be a hero.

Speaker 1 (02:04:45):
Right some days you just stepping dog, that's right.

Speaker 2 (02:04:48):
Cat, look, but yeah, it can't be a hero's journey
every day, all right.

Speaker 1 (02:04:51):
So and then also a lot of us at the
Fearless Family. There's a lot of artists.

Speaker 2 (02:04:58):
Yeah, there are a lot of artists.

Speaker 1 (02:05:00):
We decided, you know, everyone's different ages from different groups,
and how could you come together to make things happen.
So if you want to see their artwork and the
stuff that they the Fearless Family of Artists.

Speaker 2 (02:05:13):
Has interpreted from what we've been talking about.

Speaker 1 (02:05:15):
Yes, and there's and there's a whole bunch of different
stuff there on the website. I am we are Fearless
dot com. It's I am we are Fearless dot com.
The links are everywhere with everything we do. Just I
don't know, blink in there and check it out.

Speaker 2 (02:05:28):
You know, you might find something your life.

Speaker 1 (02:05:30):
Stop for you, maybe share it to someone that it is.
If it is for you, share it to someone with
someone else it is, you know, and and definitely let
us know what you think of everything. And the artists
get fifty percent of everything. That goes through the store,
just so we can all have like some kind of
income because it's hard for everyone right now.

Speaker 2 (02:05:47):
Yeah, and this is good because it's it'll be a
little more inter We're going to try to make it
a little more interactive.

Speaker 1 (02:05:53):
Yeah. Well, first episode, I just want to bring everyone
back on board.

Speaker 2 (02:05:56):
Yeah, just yeah.

Speaker 1 (02:05:58):
Volume two leaves Volume one behind. Everything we learned in
that book. We we're gonna have to put into full play,
which we already had to start doing the minute we
learn these things, right, but now it's we have an
entire volume that we have to reference daily in volume
two as the new things are happening, right, Because this

(02:06:18):
is how you do it. It's it's even. It's like
dungeons and Dragons and fantasy football. You get stats and
you start building them up and different things start occurring,
and you get look at your stuff with a clear
mind internally and say, you know what, activate this, turn
this on, shields up, ground me to earth. You know today,
we're gonna go visit this with my consciousness, protect me
when I'm sleeping. We're gonna go through all of it.

(02:06:40):
So I really appreciate each and every one of you,
and I'm very thankful and I'm very grateful to be
here with all of you and you're all my fearless family.

Speaker 2 (02:06:49):
Yeah, that's how I feel.

Speaker 1 (02:06:50):
And thank you, Paul, Yeah, thank you.

Speaker 2 (02:06:52):
Frank. I like this. I think this is gonna be
good for us. I really do, do you really? Yeah?

Speaker 1 (02:06:57):
I do. I really do therapy. No, no, no like therapy.

Speaker 2 (02:07:00):
I know. I just feel like this is the right thing.

Speaker 1 (02:07:04):
Yeah, it does feels warm, it.

Speaker 2 (02:07:05):
Feels it does. Yeah, you know it is good for us.

Speaker 1 (02:07:08):
Twenty years in music and when the camera's on me
and the mid light's going, there's always the character that
was remembering, remember who you are? In play. They don't
really care about does Frank go grocery stop? And they
want to hear rock star? I drink whatever, you know,
A smoke, bluntst all day. There is none of that.

(02:07:31):
There hasn't been in years. I know there's no mask anymore.
I know there's nothing there. I know it's just me
all day.

Speaker 2 (02:07:39):
This is it.

Speaker 1 (02:07:40):
It's really wonderful to be able to share that with everyone.
And one beautiful thing is now when I have something
to say about uh, it's easier to show you guys
because we have the screen.

Speaker 2 (02:07:53):
Yeah, that makes actually show you on the.

Speaker 1 (02:07:56):
Screen exactly what I'm talking about. Half the time I'm
screaming with my hands in the air, like doing all
kinds of weird Italian stuff, and you guys never get
to see that. Now it don't just make sense, it'll
make total sense, Paula, Paula, It'll make totally saying. All right,
so love one another, be a little extra compassionate. I

(02:08:17):
can't wait to join you guys again and we all
get back together to do this, and like I said,
join the Fearless group if you're interested. We have things
going all the.

Speaker 2 (02:08:25):
Time there and again next Saturday, nine o'clock Eastern YouTube,
we'll be.

Speaker 1 (02:08:30):
Bringing Fearless Family on the show. We don't really do
interviews per se. We're gonna have conversations and stuff so
we could present from all these different areas all the
things that we're learning. So thank you, and uh, you know,
remember the universe rewards bravery, you know, and stay fearless
and we'll catch you guys next time. We love you
so much. Pisa

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