FearLess eps 142 _Im Not Finished - The Story Continues_ - FearLess with Frank Castle

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Evan hayning into the truth frequent so your protection from
this section. This is truth frequency radio you and you
finally land all down.

Speaker 2 (00:17):
Magic is imagination change.

Speaker 3 (00:19):
When we are moving into an age of manifestation, I
think the things become actually less material, morel.

Speaker 1 (00:26):
Looking at golden dawn is when we await into this new, new,
new station of light. When you think it becomes real quicker,
regain our imagination, regained our inner child, and let that
inner child out.

Speaker 4 (00:45):
My name is Frank Castle, founding member of the music
group Isislick and New York City neo Shaman. After a
serious injury sidelined my career at twenty thirteen, I decided
to set out on an adventure to search for myself
with the help of the plant medicine ayahwask. What I
discovered waiting for me was something I could never prepass.

(01:07):
It was time for me to become something more, somewhat more.
It was time I became fearless.

Speaker 2 (01:22):
It's all yesterday nights. You'll let my life shine as
the hans the mid space and time. When the light
starts shine.

Speaker 3 (01:28):
And designs a third eye, you will wait through the
knowledge that you never die.

Speaker 2 (01:38):
What is everyone my name is Frank Castle, your host
and sorcerer Supreme. Right here in each and every Saturday
night on True Frequency Radio, this is Fearless, and I'm
joined by my etherical translator Paul and Milo.

Speaker 5 (01:55):
Hey hey everyone, as.

Speaker 2 (01:57):
We quick shout out Christ and CHERI love you guys.
As we left off last week, yeah.

Speaker 5 (02:05):
I want to jump right into this because I don't
want you to lose it.

Speaker 2 (02:10):
We spoke about my ayahuasca session and how I was
being held down, watched my mother and Paula being abused, terrorized, tortured,
everything that goes along with that, and it made its

(02:31):
way over to me. I got so worked up. I
didn't know what to do. I was screaming and yelling
and saying the worst things you could possibly imagine, right
trying to get everyone's attention, and they would just peer
back at me and be like you're next, and I'm like,
you know what, you could just leave them alone, you
could just take me. I'm the one you want anyway,

(02:51):
come on, let's do it, because you're the ones doing that.
And then instead of breaking into fear mode, I kind
of recessed into a submission and they came over to
me and it started happening to me, And honestly, it
looks worse, so much worse than what it feels. Like
the fear leaves you, but you're not feeling your arm

(03:11):
being pulled off, Like if you felt that, that would
be insane, right if your foot came off and they
were chewing it. Yeah, You're like, ah, and they're drinking
blood out of your frigging leg and you go like
that hurts. I can feel that. Instead, it was the
fear that you felt. You're looking directly into the eyes
of these things and they're munching away. But I didn't
feel nothing. You know why, why don't we feel nothing

(03:35):
on that end? Because where the shit? That's why you
can't hurt me. You can't hurt me. I can only
hurt me anyway, Yeah, but it got really dark.

Speaker 5 (03:43):
Say that again. I can only hurt me.

Speaker 2 (03:46):
I can only hurt me. You can't hurt me. You
think you could hurt me, But I'm the one that
hurts me, right, especially in this situation. If I start
digging too deep, Oh, they're getting me up. And the
more I whine and rather, the more it ramps up
and crazy it gets, and the more I just go
you know what, let's go. If this is what it is,

(04:06):
and I have to resign to this, fine, you're not
getting me no matter what happened, you get nothing.

Speaker 5 (04:12):
I just have to get to the other side of
this experience.

Speaker 2 (04:14):
I have to just make it through this and that's it.
And knowing that we never die truly pushes me right
through that keyhole. I launched out, found myself in a womb,
my mother's womb. I began the healing process. After seeing

(04:34):
everything that I saw and going through what I did,
I felt safe and warm and I curled into a
fetal position and the whole time I was flopping around
like a fish. And you know, everybody, Aaron was there,
Paul was there. They're asking, you're right, is you're right?
They're checking on me and everything fantastic the way they

(04:56):
held space. And then Aaron I left out some tools
for the talent. He asked me if I had any instruments.
I said, I don't play instruments. My instrument is my voice,
although I'd love to play something. I realized I have
the tuning fork, I have the singing bowl. There's stuff
I have and I'm like, oh, this is awesome. So
I put the tuning fork out five point thirty two
frequency yes, and hit it and put it on my spine,

(05:22):
and I saw the colors blues and the reds, and
I started to feel like I was being birth again,
Being born again. I don't like using that word. It
gets mixed up with the space Jesus freaks, but being
truly born again, going back in time, going inside and

(05:43):
healing the damage you just witnessed. I healed myself because
I was inside of mother, and then Mother was healing
because I was healing, and I inside of her giving
off that energy, healing her in return like a figure eight.

Speaker 6 (05:57):
Infinite trauma in the womb and birth trauma is one
of the first traumas we experience. And you know, you
think you don't remember it or recall it, but it's there.
You just have to You just have to access it
wherever it is locked in your mind.

Speaker 2 (06:13):
What did you say today to me today about birth trauma?
Do you remember? Well?

Speaker 5 (06:17):
I said so many things today.

Speaker 2 (06:19):
Okay, you said something about certain type of people.

Speaker 6 (06:22):
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, Oh I did a I did
a uh. I went to this class and it was
a group session years ago where we were all clearing trauma,
and I'm terrified of the dentist. And there's a direct
correlation between being scared of the dentist and birth trauma.
And I basically was in like a light hypnotic state

(06:47):
and had to revisit the the trauma of my birth
and it was very difficult to deal with.

Speaker 5 (06:55):
And that was way before AYA.

Speaker 6 (06:57):
But I think all of those experience before AYA is
what helped me get through. But it was, but it
was it's I'm still terrified of the dentist, you know,
And that's right.

Speaker 2 (07:09):
It was the dentist.

Speaker 6 (07:10):
Yeah, the dentist. And then you told your dentist story.
We were talking about the stories about the dentist and
it's uh.

Speaker 5 (07:16):
Yeah, frightening.

Speaker 2 (07:17):
Some of the stuff I talked about, very.

Speaker 6 (07:19):
Very frightening, And it's all related in the middle, yeah,
to birth trauma. So you have to get through that,
you have to push through it.

Speaker 2 (07:27):
I had my teeth, my jaw broke, and my palate
was smashed in a fight and I had gotten jumped
and they put my head in a box and put
the screws in and then I had no clue they
did that. And then I woke up and the blocks
were in my mouth and I was wide awake. I
heard them talking and then crunching and all. Yeah. So
we all have like these crazy stories and it always

(07:49):
relates somewhere back to the fear of This goes to
the a problem with being born. Yes, through the birth process,
I mean to mention the guys a bunch of us are.
I mean, you're initially smacked, You're disconnected from your mother,
You're taken away and not giving directly to your mother.

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The cord is cut too early, and then the boys
are circumcised, and who knows what goes on with everything else.
Like all of that is enough already, so very little,
and that's the healing part. It's like, oh, I made
it into this world. Instead it's bang, like I'm in
the world, Like what's happening to me?

Speaker 5 (08:31):
Yeah, alone and scared. That's what happens, you know.

Speaker 2 (08:35):
It's just so weird. If I came out and try
the baby kit, if the kittens had a baby, and
then you go out to try to help the babies,
the babies run because they just want to be maternally
just up against the mother. They don't want Frank's help,
even though they don't understand that Frank could come over
and help, they'd eat nice and have a warm bed.
None of that matters. It's like they need mother before anything.

(08:55):
Before Frank could get involved, Mom needs to show up
and do some stuff. Then we can introduce you because
the bonding process is then complete, right, Okay, who most
intense with that being said? I go back to the
table I was laying on where I was having the experience.

(09:17):
I laid myself on the back on the on my
back facing up, and I saw what I thought it
was my higher self. It was a curtain and on
the other side of the curtain was a couple of
beings and I can see their shadows, but I heard
the voice and I think that's me. And I said
what are you doing? And I saw my body morphing
and changing, and they said, we're restructuring your DNA pretty much,

(09:39):
and I go, what do you mean And they're like,
we're fixing you. And I was like, well, what are
you fixing? And they were like, we're fixing everything this time,
like you're getting fixed. Things need to change, this needs
to blab. So I was like, give me my life
body and they were like, no, we're not giving it
to you. Don't ask like that. We don't want you
asking anything anyone here like that. It's going to happen.

(10:00):
But don't ask us like that. That's not really asking us,
that's like telling us. I said, may I please have
my life body? I don't know how to defeat these guys.
And they were like, oh, so this is the problem
you're having. I said, okay, let's get something straight. Let's
go over this for a second. There are reptilians, other

(10:21):
weird et aliens, stuff with blood and taking body parts
apart rape. They're in spaceships. They got helmets and laser guns,
I mean, technology that we don't have. They're bigger, faster, smarter.
And they were like, oh, that's what you're worried about.

(10:47):
I said, yeah, pretty much. It's a fifteen hundred pounds
animal raping me. Yeah, I get it. What can I
do to beat this thing? What are you guys doing?
How are they doing this? Like? I was freaking out?
And then this bull of energy. It looked like I
was sitting inside of earth and Earth was spinning, but
it was just like air with clouds or something, and
it was moving, moving, moving, I said, oh, this is

(11:08):
the sphere of time. So it was just sitting in
it like ugh, and a little portal open right off
to the side of me, and I saw this little
bean come out and drop something in, and I go, oh,
that's how you're doing it. You're portaling in. And then
I saw another portal open and the being that was
doing some damage to me stuck his hand in, pulled
out whatever it was, dropped off for me, whatever that

(11:29):
being was trying to leave for me to show me. Hey,
look at this. The other guy took it before I
could get to it. And then I was like, wait,
I wouldn't have been aware of that. I saw you
do that. They were like, this goes on all day,
the Chess game, the Grand Chess Game. We can only
help so much. There's only so much we could do
while they're directly interfering, and we're there for when they
step over the line. Then we can really react to this.

(11:51):
So I go, oh, so you're time traveling as well.
So you're fifteen hundred pounds giant reptilian. You got dudes
with telepidyine, telekinesis and spaceships and laser guns helmets. Oh,
and you're going through time. You're traveling through time and
you're doing this to us. Okay, what do we do?
How do I beat this? Because I'm ready to go
right now? And they said beat it? What are you

(12:13):
looking for a war? I says, no, it's not supposed
to be a war. But what do we do? And
the light body just activates. I look down at my chest.
I just see light, light, light, light, and came up.
It was like two feet off me. It was like
I was big, big, like little Frank was sitting inside
the light body and I went, oh, look at this

(12:35):
shit right like. I was looking over at the being
and the being was like sit down, and I'm like,
what'd you say to me? And I just kind of
moved and he was like, oh, look what happened? He
knows who he is? Boom, they back up. They all
just stop doing it. I'm like, where you guys go?
Don't you want to play now? And then I go,

(12:57):
what's happening? What's going on? Like it wasn't Frank's attitude
and ego trying to push that like oh where you're going?
It was the big guy like, come over here, we're
going to continue this. Come here, and they were like no, no, no,
he sees who he is, he sees who is and
they go, what's happening?

Speaker 5 (13:12):
Just to raise your awareness of the situation.

Speaker 2 (13:15):
They said, you are and that's really big and important
and intense and whatever. But you're all so you're everything,
encompassing everything. So what makes you think that they're actually faster? Right,
they're fast, but your thought perhaps faster, giving you all

(13:35):
this time before these things started thinking we're gonna do
and I already heard it. It was directed, I could
hear it, and then I was in place somewhere else.
When the portal opened, I just closed one, grabbed what
I needed from the other guy, shook his hand, and
everything was done before anyone knew what happened.

Speaker 6 (13:54):
Because they're traveling at this speed of thought. So what
happens that fast? I think that's fairer than the speed
of light.

Speaker 2 (14:01):
For sure, Oh for sure, thought would be considered one
of the fastest things. It's like, before you blink, your
thought has already been done for seconds.

Speaker 5 (14:09):
Right, and you've already gone and done it. That's how
quick it is.

Speaker 2 (14:15):
So there's this thing as fast as thought, and your
imagination of creation as your weapon. H So you're telling
me we can do anything and everything, literally literally and
they're like yes, I'm like, so they can't do nothing.
I'm like looking at them, going, that's just one that's
not even a slice of the pie. That's like a

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little tip bite off the tip of one of the
pieces where I'm the whole pie.

Speaker 5 (14:41):
Because we don't have to accept what we're shown. We
can choose to.

Speaker 6 (14:47):
We can choose to accept what's happening to us during
that experience, or we can we can change what's happening
by changing our thoughts and emotions. And then when you
do that, you raise your frequency and then it no
longer fits. So the fear there's no room for that fear.

Speaker 5 (15:08):
You push through it.

Speaker 2 (15:09):
Well said, Well said, that's exactly what it is. I
think from that moment on, yes, scary stuff. From that
moment on, I started losing fear more. I didn't even
know it was there because I'm the light being. Now
I'm like, hey, this is great, And they're like, just

(15:31):
lay back and let it like heal you and absorb
this now, because this is going to take a while
for you to mentally absorb. And I'm like, well, I
kind of told this story over the course of a
show and a quarter and it you know, it's really
just in three or four parts, but so much more
happened that I was unaware of, to my body and

(15:52):
to everything else and all the other things. It takes
a week or two weeks before it starts to filter
in and you go, oh, that's what was said, that's
that's what went on, that's how we went through this. Wait,
there was more to it. I wasn't just in the birth.
Canal Aya had me and she said, you have to
come through me, to come through your mother, and it's
all has to be chosen, and it's perfect. You're perfect.
You are perfect, and you're exactly where you need to be.

(16:16):
That was like, WHOA, So nothing needs to change. They're like,
just keep moving forward forward, that's all you got to do.
It took me a little while after that to come
out of the haze of it, and I was right
back into the game a little while later. Yeah, back

(16:36):
into the room me Aaron and Paula Aaron. I didn't
want you seeing me like that. I don't let anyone
see me like that, over fear you might be rejected
and mentally from you having your experience, like you still
what I look like. I might be the worst rolling
on the floor, face making fool noise making, body flipping

(16:57):
back and forth like a con weird thing, and then
I'm out and then I'm up. That would scare some people,
like the throw up in this and you know, and
the drooling and uh, you can't they're trying to eat me.
And like when you hear that stuff, you're like, what
the hell is he going through?

Speaker 6 (17:11):
Of course, because what you go through is completely different
from what other people go through, So your experience can't
be compared.

Speaker 5 (17:18):
It really can't.

Speaker 6 (17:19):
I mean, we've we've shared enough experiences with enough people
to realize that every experience is unique. You know, for me,
it's always internal, it's never really external.

Speaker 5 (17:32):
For you, it's a.

Speaker 6 (17:32):
Lot of uh, there are a lot of external visual
things that you go through. For me in particular, it's
working on myself. It's working on my body, it's working
on self love or doubt or whatever the issue is
that I'm trying to work through. We don't get to choose.
You can set your attentions and you can clear your

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mind and you can focus on what you think you
need to be fixed or you think need help with.
But it's whatever issue is more prevalent at the time,
whatever they feel you need.

Speaker 5 (18:07):
To clean up.

Speaker 2 (18:09):
It's the hero you need, not the.

Speaker 6 (18:11):
Hero you want.

Speaker 5 (18:13):
That's exactly how it is.

Speaker 2 (18:15):
And I try to keep that on top of the
page for everyone because everyone has these Everyone does this. Yeah, well, yes,
they's going to occur.

Speaker 6 (18:25):
Exactly, nothing exactly, or they they think they're you know,
they have an idea of what this experience should be like.
And if the experience doesn't match what you have in
your mind or in your head.

Speaker 5 (18:36):
And it can never it could never.

Speaker 6 (18:39):
So it could never because it depends on what state
you're in when you have this experience. So what you
think is going to happen and what actually happens could
be two completely different things.

Speaker 2 (18:51):
They usually are.

Speaker 6 (18:52):
And you know, if you're coming from a place of acceptance,
then you'll get through it. But if you're coming from
a place of doubt to begin with, then you're like, oh,
this didn't work, or this isn't what I wanted, this
isn't what I signed up for, But it's what you needed, and.

Speaker 5 (19:08):
You don't get a choice.

Speaker 6 (19:10):
You really don't get a choice on what gets fixed,
what gets healed.

Speaker 2 (19:13):
You know, it's funny that you're saying that because as
a child, I would be like, no, Ma, I know
what I'm doing. Blah. She's like, no, you need to
do this, this, you don't need to do this is nonsense,
and I'm like, no, I know what I'm doing. And
guess what, Mom was always right when I couldn't see
the bigger picture. I just couldn't because I'm in it right,

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and that he was able to teach me.

Speaker 6 (19:36):
And that's you as a child. Okay, so now you're
under children. This is the story of life. You don't
see the bigger picture. We're each given a little piece
of the picture. We all don't get to see the
bigger picture, or if we do, it's still only a
portion of the bigger picture. And this is going to

(19:58):
go perfectly into what happened to you like night, So
you know everyone, you know you think, okay, if you try,
it's one hundred percent, and you know you got one
hundred percent of the pie, or you got one hundred
percent of the picture. You got one hundred percent of
the idea.

Speaker 5 (20:12):
You don't. You only given a piece of the picture.

Speaker 6 (20:16):
So your idea of the big picture is a fraction
of what that.

Speaker 5 (20:22):
Picture truly is. Yeah, it's really and you may never know.
That's the whole idea.

Speaker 6 (20:28):
You don't get to know until the end what the
big picture is.

Speaker 2 (20:33):
They are not going to ruin this surprise whatever.

Speaker 5 (20:36):
That is human life. No, they're not going No.

Speaker 2 (20:39):
It's just surprise after surprise, exactly right. The more we know,
the more we know, we know nothing, right, So all right,
so then we kick it forward. I think my experience
grabbed Aaron a little bit and he wanted in to
try smoking. We tried, we were going to one. He

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said that that's him in there. He said, you could tell. Yeah,
I'll go through it quick though, because I want him
eventually to tell about his experience. But one thing we
locked into place, and I'm gonna talk about that real quick.
I said, well, I'll just do a hit, and I'm like,
you got to kind of do a little more than that.

(21:21):
I want to gradually go in. It's like, I know,
but what you want and what you need are two
different things. You tell it's like saying, give me a
Z pack, but I'm only going to take the first three.

Speaker 6 (21:31):
That's this is a terrible Yeah.

Speaker 2 (21:35):
It takes five to six of them, and you need
to take all of them or it doesn't work, It
could come back worse, right, So taking a little it
doesn't really help sometimes and I could actually make things worse.
You just take the medicine and let it work on you, period, right,
and you just go through the process anyway. That's just
my thoughts as a shaman. He took two monster hits,

(21:57):
monster bigger than I could take on three hit. It's
his second hit out. He was blowing it in my face.
And I took his third hit, but it was so much.
He had like the Richie Johnson lungs where he's he's
a big guy. He's over six foot, has the space
Jesus thing going on, right, beautiful man, he tells me

(22:19):
right before this, he sets up a camera and I'm like,
you sure you want to do that. He's got the
camera and the heat little camera, the heat signature camera.
So I'm watching him on that and I just put
everything down. And he took that second hit and he
went into the yoga pose like the I'm just sitting
with my legs crossed, and then he started falling over,

(22:41):
falling over. He was gone. I said, take the third hit,
come on. He's like he wasn't even available, like knowing home,
which is great. That means you went in.

Speaker 5 (22:49):
That means working.

Speaker 2 (22:50):
Yeah, I means he went in because when you're unresponsive,
but you're making facial movements like oh, you're like, yeah,
you're going to work.

Speaker 5 (22:59):
Yeah, well you're there here exactly.

Speaker 2 (23:01):
So he broke through and two hits. I can't explain
his breakthrough because I'm not him. But anyway, he told me,
I want you to stare into my eyes when I'm
under I want you to do it, and I want
to get that. I want to see the eyes. All right.
Remember we were doing all that stuff in the house
with the eyes and the Taurus turned on its side
and so much cool shit. So I tried to look

(23:24):
into his eyes and his eyes rolling in his head
and then I put him down. I laid him flat
on the floor. They started kicking out with his legs
and I jumped on his legs and then I was like,
all right, he needs I can't just let him smoke.
Like we became friendly, so it was very easy to
fall into, Hey, just smoke, We'll be fine. I got you.
But that's sometimes it's like the no bueno. I do

(23:45):
that with Nick Zervos. He's like, I want the full
service and I run up to him and I hit
him with the energy charge with my part. I put
it there and I lock into their energy and I
start towisting and twirling around. I put both one leg
over either side of him, and he was kicking his legs.
I'm like, please do not kick me in the nuts.
I leaned over him and I pushed my hand on

(24:05):
his chest. Now he has this on video. You kind
of see it from the angle. I'm smiling into the
camera because I see it's watching me. It's got me perfectly,
and I'm like, oh, check this out. And then I
start doing it and he just opens his eyes and
goes ah, and I go breathe and he goes, oh,
you're right. That works. Bome back out again, right right.

(24:25):
So I had to wait for this. Then he sits
back up five minutes later. A few minutes later, we
were like two songs into it, and he's like, how
long I've been gone. I'm like like two and a
half songs maybe, and he's like, what, just kind of smoke.
I want to do it again, like more, and I
was like, we can do it. I don't know if
it's going to push us, but let's do it. He
took another two hits and sat there and I took

(24:47):
a big hit and we just stared into each other's eyes.
I mean, we were holding each other's heads like, and
it was like cameras dilating into each other to where
it's like, look looking at the face. But you ever
see a movie where you like, do you see the
guy staring at the other guy's face, and then all
of a sudden, the background looks like something out of
an animation and then the head's just like, ey move in there,

(25:10):
and you're like, and Mike, do I look like that
on the other side. So it did that, and then
we came back and he started going there was a
whole conversation that went on there, Frank, there's layers and
layers and layers and layers going up and we're having
them there and there. So I said, well, it might
take some time for this to work out, and then boom,
I got like the first insight on what we were

(25:31):
talking about. Then the second one. Man, like a week later,
I'm remembering the whole conversations on how we agreed, whoever
finds each other first has to do this for the
other one. You can't let the other one go without it.
So I'm just gonna wrap that up there with that.
We have contracts with people. He's on the other side

(25:53):
of the US to me, right, I think he's in Seattle, Okay,
to find out we had this pre plan. Now, your
free choice allows you to fuck this up. I guess
I don't even know anymore. Rightly, just go off to
the left or right and never show up and frankn
pall and never meet. We never decide to make it

(26:14):
work and fuck you know, and then we just decide
to go out the direction. But no, we opted the
other way, and our higher cell brought us together through
all distractions were crazy and we unlocked to find out
we had this agreement beforehand, unlocked each other. And now
it's done. All right, when we come back, we'll pick

(26:36):
up what's happening right now. Just stick around. This is fearless.

Speaker 5 (26:45):
This is truth, frequency.

Speaker 1 (26:47):
Rate, no hate, no hiding, no fear, real be real radio.

Speaker 3 (27:00):
Man, This waiting from real.

Speaker 1 (27:22):
World from.

Speaker 2 (27:34):
What's up this your man, Frank Castle Sorceress streame right
here every Saturday night frequency radio. This is fearless, joined
by my theorical translator. So special shout outs and special mentions.
Uh Rihanna from Woodland Wand's Creations. Uh. She drank along

(27:55):
with Joshua Ryan separately, both of them a different place,
touring that exact ceremony that I had with myself, and
they we the idea was to find each other, but
I haven't drank it so long. And then a bunch
of the three of us actually haven't drank that. It's
been a while. But both showed up here while I

(28:16):
was flopping around like a fish and witnessed me going.
Josh was like, dude, ude, this is before we spoke,
so nobody knew anything. He was like, you were having
a very rough time. And I was like, man, I'm
gonna let him handle his business, you know. Rihanna was
kind of they were kind of like, he's right there,
he's doing his thing, just leaving alone. When it's like
when the first thing I said was is my grandmother? Okay?

(28:37):
I turned, I saw a viola was standing right next
to me, and she put a palm in my face
like mind your business, yes, mind your business, and I go,
what what? I just want to know you're okay, I'm fine,
mind your business yep. And when I thought how rude
the next thought was, no, she's all right, she's doing
her thing, so I'll yeah, so I'll just send love
in that direction and not peque because that's none of

(29:00):
my business. Right, That's just the way this works. Check
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Speaker 6 (29:17):
Aaron was wearing some cool stuff when he came from
this that bends design.

Speaker 2 (29:21):
The I love that. I don't know what to call.
It's just art. It's beautiful artwork. But see he calls
it the microbe world. So it's like where ant Man
goes to see the micro universe. He studies that all
his books and texts and everything. So when he painted that,
he said to me, these are my paintings from the microbes.

(29:42):
He has an accent. I can't do it well, not
Aaron Sven and I'm like, what do you mean microbes? Microbes? Bro?
And I go, you mean the microverse like ant Man?
He goes, yeah, something like that. I go there and
I paint what's there? And I go, this is this
is amazing He's like as above, so below you go
all the way to the smallest nothing pixel and then

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work your way back up and if you paint from there,
it's the same thing as if you painted the universe.
And I go, yeah, I get it, because our nervous
system looks like the trees.

Speaker 6 (30:11):
Yeah. Yeah, I have no talent like that.

Speaker 5 (30:15):
I really don't.

Speaker 2 (30:17):
I could just talk about their talent like that.

Speaker 5 (30:19):
No, it's beautiful. I just don't have I don't.

Speaker 2 (30:22):
Yeah, I can cook, you cook amazing.

Speaker 5 (30:25):
No, no, no, no, I'm just I'm just saying. No, I know.

Speaker 6 (30:28):
I'm not looking for a compliment. I'm just saying I
would love to, but I would love to be talented.

Speaker 2 (30:35):
Like you know. People see that and go, I can't
do that. Why doesn't my cat do that with me?
You have like a bunch of them. I do that
with you, and then we go. You still have no idea,
no idea what goes on. I had a shower incident
where I purged again midweek in the shower, and this

(30:56):
was last I was supposed to talk about this last week.
I never got to it. So it was actually the
week before midweek. The IA was still working hard on
me and in the shower portal opened. I started screaming
that you're gonna leave me again, You're gonna leave me again.
I can't, I can't go through this again. And I
was like purging in the shower and then they're like,

(31:17):
the hand reached down and I said, where are you going?
Come over here? And I kind of reached up. I
didn't know what I was doing, and they were like, no,
no one's going anywhere. And the hand pulled me up right,
and they said, this time we all stay like no more,
not connected. We're never doing that again. Like even the
beings there are like, never again. We did it. It's

(31:37):
the experiment. It's the grand great experiment. You soall never
suffer that fate again, as well as the im we are.
We're not doing that again because we know what it
entails now and we're still gonna be going through it
for many a year.

Speaker 6 (31:51):
You won't be alone, never be alone.

Speaker 2 (31:54):
Not that we were ever alone, but literally, you're gonna
know it now. I thought that was beautiful.

Speaker 6 (31:59):
It is beautiful because you could be in you could
be in a room full of people and feel lonely.
So the security of that feeling is a good feeling.

Speaker 2 (32:08):
Yes, that's wonderful actually right securely knowing that you're connected
as just.

Speaker 6 (32:14):
On a deeper level, you're connected on a deeper level,
and that's it.

Speaker 5 (32:17):
Just the nosis of that is enough.

Speaker 2 (32:19):
During that shower, this is where you're gonna find some jokes.
During that moment that I was going through, the you'll
never be alone, I was my eyes were closed, I
was looking at light beings. I was playing music in
the shower, and once again, Aaron's head comes bouncing into
the picture like the background yep, and he's smiling, and
I go, hey, it's Aaron. What's up space Jesus babyface right,

(32:42):
and he is. He looks like a greater It's it's
just uncanny. And I said it it jokingly and he
smiles and smiles and smiles. It's just his version of
my smile and it's big like e. And then the
phone starts going off like crazy, and I just opened
my eyes and turn around and my Facebook is going

(33:04):
off and I'm getting messages from him, and I said,
I wasn't even paying attention to that. I thought I
was about to talk to him, would be like, hey,
look buddy, you just showed up, so I know it's unlocking.
Our awareness is going up. Drip drip drip every day,
every day, every day forward momentum. Well, I'm not a
light being today, Frank, you said I would be. No,

(33:25):
I didn't. I said, drip drip, drip ten percent a week.
Who knows what you need? You know what you need?
You deal with that right, you know what you need inside.
All I do is hold the space for you. If
you ever came to me, all the great teachers send
you right back to yourself. Frank's not doing it. Frank
creates the safe, sacred.

Speaker 5 (33:42):
Space view yes, and then you do the work.

Speaker 2 (33:44):
And Ayah does it with you. And if you need me,
I'm there, Like I'm in the pocket. It's like, you know,
having a guy on the bench that could step up
and play. Yeah, but I'm also cheering for you. I'm
also watching the other team play against you. If there's
a foul, I could go yo foul. They'd be like,
don't get involved. Yell from the sideline, but you ain't
coming in here.

Speaker 6 (34:02):
That's kind of like what happened with Rihanna. She was
told not to interfere, and you were told not to.

Speaker 2 (34:07):
Interfere with her experience don't even ask.

Speaker 5 (34:09):
Yeah, just just make sure we're okay.

Speaker 2 (34:12):
Yeah, that's what everyone was fine, Everyone's fine. And then
I went through what I went through, and I was going, hey,
if they went through that, I mean, we got all
age rooms, age groups in here. That's a little vicious.
I hope the cycle was. And they're like, hero you need,
not the hero you want, So don't worry about it.
We got them, we got you. We were taking care
of you in the in the correct manner. Okay. So

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this week lots of stress, oh boy, frustration, scenarios and
situations that was just blow your mind over and over.
How can I say this without ever saying anything.

Speaker 6 (34:48):
It was a heavy hearted week with Grandma and uh yeah,
she's you know.

Speaker 2 (34:54):
She's in hospice in the house and she.

Speaker 5 (34:56):
Was in the hospital. We didn't know what was going
to happen.

Speaker 6 (34:59):
So it was a very very heavy hearted week and
we were trying to keep our you know, the vibration up,
the frequency up, but it's hard and uh, Frank got
attacked again.

Speaker 2 (35:09):
Okay. So I know a few of my shaman buddies
have had some issues, big issues, big, big issues, to
the point where you'd be like, hey, man or a woman.
This needs to be dealt with immediately because you don't
normally have stuff like this go on. You hear about it,
but you're like, come on, right, the greatest teacher lead

(35:30):
you back to yourself, right, and then connecting with the
different people that are having all these different issues. Everyone
has one, so it's we're cycling through. But I can
only do two or maybe maybe to a day. It's
like you talk to two people and that's it. You're done,
because then you got your own stuff. You got to meditate, right, and.

Speaker 5 (35:46):
Then you have to clear yourself too because you take
on their.

Speaker 2 (35:48):
Yeah, and you can't help it. I don't know how
you do this, but.

Speaker 5 (35:52):
I'm tired all the time.

Speaker 2 (35:54):
No, no, no, Like I've seen you drop the shields accidentally
and get hit with it a.

Speaker 5 (36:03):
Couple of times.

Speaker 2 (36:04):
Yeah, or be around too many at once and it's
like they must all be feeding off that, yep, because
it's a safe, sacred spot, so why not. At the
other side, it's just like, yeah, I guess you could
have some and then you're dreamed. All right, let's shit's
nothing to what happened right all that? Right? Then?

Speaker 5 (36:29):
Okay, so it's a Friday, it's just a Friday night.

Speaker 2 (36:33):
No, this wasn't just a Friday night.

Speaker 6 (36:35):
Franky and Pola were thinking, Hey, we're gonna have a
great Friday night.

Speaker 2 (36:39):
Oh yeah, that was already thought ahead. Yeah we're gon
be great.

Speaker 5 (36:42):
Sending love to Friday night.

Speaker 6 (36:43):
We're just gonna hang and watch movies and it's gonna
be a great Friday night.

Speaker 5 (36:47):
And no, that's not what happened.

Speaker 2 (36:49):
So everything worked in a weird and didn't fit anyone's
It didn't even really fit mine. No, it didn't matter
that I was just hanging out a buddy and this
that beyond that, it didn't something There was like a
timer going off that didn't feel correct, and it caused
a little problem. Paul and I had a few words together.

(37:10):
She was upset, I was upset, and then boom, yeah,
I go in the other room, I take my phone.
I'm angry, but I'm not. I was angry, sad, upset.
But the feelings go quicker because we've been working on this,
so everything that would take two weeks or a month
normally minutes. So I'm cycling through this and the energy

(37:32):
that comes up, let's say, wells up from your your
midsection when you're upset and someone hurts your feelings and
you're like, I can't believe that you said that and
that happened. Oh it hurt me. That usually extends outward
and shoots out or goes up or does something. It
went up in my body to my head. It like
bubbled out in my head and then shot back down

(37:53):
to my feet and then back up to my head,
back down to my feet, and I was going, what's happening?
So it goes sadness, I don't trust I'm so angry,
data mad. Now I'm not angry. What's happening to me?
This is weird. I don't know what's going on. Then
it has nothing to do with you at this point.

Speaker 6 (38:09):
Now, yeah, because all of those feelings are now manifesting physically.

Speaker 2 (38:13):
I'm on the floor shaking violently like I'm having a seizure,
except my heart is fine and my internal guy was fine.
Trying to figure out a way to stop it. But
I couldn't stop it, just couldn't. Nope, So I came
We had this little thing where she came in the room,

(38:35):
go in the other room. I came out here, she
came out here, and then I went back in the
other room, and then she came in to check on
me again, and I'm just laying on the floor. I'm like,
I can't do nothing. I thought I was having an
anxiety attack, a panic attack. At this attack, none of
that was a key factor. There was a very little panic.
There was very little anxiety. What there wasn't was a release, no.

Speaker 5 (38:58):
Release physical experience you were having.

Speaker 2 (39:02):
So Paula finds me on the floor shaking.

Speaker 5 (39:06):
So now shaking. So now I I.

Speaker 6 (39:11):
Don't know what happened because I'm in my mind, I'm thinking,
how could what happened escalate into what I'm seeing right now?
It was just a yeah and get away from me?
You know, it wasn't It wasn't the end of It
wasn't an.

Speaker 5 (39:26):
End of the world.

Speaker 6 (39:29):
So now I'm coming into the room and I'm seeing
him basically convulse.

Speaker 2 (39:34):
She thought I was crying and I hadn't cried yet.
I wasn't crying, I said. I pulled my hands out
from my eyes.

Speaker 6 (39:42):
I'm like, I'm not crying, and he says, I can't
get can't I can't speak, and I can't get off
the floor. So now I'm thinking he's having a seizure.
And I feel his body and he's incredibly hot and
he looks sunburned. So I say, we got to get
you off the floor. We have to get you to
the bathroom. We have to cool you down. You're gonna

(40:03):
have a seizure or a stroke. You're so you're so hot.
And that took that took about It took about ten
minutes to get them off the bedroom floor into the bathroom.

Speaker 5 (40:17):
You were having.

Speaker 2 (40:18):
You literally held me off the floor and got me
into the into the bathroom, sat me down. Okay, So
we have that towel that you wet and it stays cold.

Speaker 5 (40:29):
It's like the menopause towel.

Speaker 2 (40:30):
It was a towel.

Speaker 5 (40:32):
So I get the towel and fast. Oh yeah, this
is not working.

Speaker 2 (40:36):
I did not feel the heat coming off me. That
it was weird. I was words salad and you couldn't
even speak. Words were coming out backwards.

Speaker 5 (40:44):
Yeah, you were mumbling.

Speaker 2 (40:46):
I was I was talking to all. I was talking.
I was trying to say all kinds of stuff and
the big guy was putting it through and then it
came out crooked.

Speaker 5 (40:55):
Wasn't coming out of your mouth?

Speaker 6 (40:56):
Yes, So now I get towels and washclocks, and I'm
soaking them in cold water and throwing them on him
because now I don't understand what's happening. I know he's
being attacked in some way, but I'm also being realistic
and making sure this isn't a physical thing that's happening,
Like do we need to call an ambulance?

Speaker 5 (41:15):
Like, you know, we're not. We're not. We're not stupid either,
you know what I mean. Like, I realize he's being.

Speaker 6 (41:21):
Attacked, but I'm also worried about his physical body because
he's turning red. So I grabbed towels and washclots and
I'm soaking them in cold water, and I basically I
basically covered you in wet towels until your your body
temperature came down.

Speaker 2 (41:38):
It took a minute, too, it did.

Speaker 5 (41:40):
It took about it. That took another ten or fifteen.

Speaker 2 (41:42):
Minutes, and or sit in the bath. I was afraid
I was gonna drown.

Speaker 6 (41:46):
We were afraid I wasn't going to be able to
get you out of the tuba. So I sat down
and the bathroom was soaked, but I didn't care, and.

Speaker 5 (41:54):
He and Frank's going there earthly. I just cleaned the
bathroom today. I said, Frank, don't worry about it. It's
just don't worry about it.

Speaker 2 (42:01):
That's all I could muster up that, and apologies.

Speaker 5 (42:04):
Of not I'm sorry to scare you like this.

Speaker 2 (42:09):
This isn't me trying.

Speaker 5 (42:10):
To to scare you.

Speaker 6 (42:11):
This is really happening and we have to deal with it.
So I get his temperature down and I get him
to the point where he can speak, because he wasn't communicating.
And anyone who knows Frank knows that the words. Frank
has a certain amount of words. He's got a hues
every day or he'll blow up. So now I'm thinking,

(42:33):
oh my goodness, did he not use all his words?

Speaker 5 (42:35):
Is this what's gonna happen?

Speaker 6 (42:37):
And then he starts being able to communicate to me
what's happening. So now I feel a little better and
we get an understanding of what's going on.

Speaker 2 (42:45):
So we kind of hang out. We watched the end
of hell Boy, the first movie, right that was just on,
and you decided. I think I gave I had to
go outside and see someone, but I and I was
trying to.

Speaker 5 (42:58):
Like stay right focused here a calm.

Speaker 2 (43:01):
But I kind of I looked up and I saw
some movie on and I was like, you can watch
a movie. I need to get out of the half.
And so I was kind of snippy, but that was
because I couldn't get words out, so that's what just
popped out. It comes off like an ass and then
you're like, I'm going to bed right And I came in.
Everything was fine. I rolled a blunt. I was like,

(43:21):
I stopped smoking it. I said, I'm gonna save this
for Paul. It was it was this, this, like this.
I said, she's going to get up in a little
while I know it, or in the morning, we're gonna
have it together and we're gonna get over because it's
a really good one. I finally rolled a perfect blunt. Okay,
none of this matters because what happens next is going
to blow your mind because I'm still I'm an ore.

(43:43):
But there was a victory involved with it, so.

Speaker 5 (43:46):
Now you have to understand.

Speaker 6 (43:47):
Also, I am freaking out and I have to process
what happened, and we're not because we're trying to figure out, yeah,
this isn't even yeah, he wasn't on anything like. This
is just something that happened after an hour after an argument.
So now I'm trying to process how could the argument

(44:10):
that we have lead up to what happened? And I'm
trying to put it together in my head realistically, literally
put it together in my head to try to figure
out what went wrong in the course of fifteen minutes,
how did this happen? And then how did we get here?
But I was thinking to I was overthinking it, and

(44:33):
then I said, you know what, Frank, if you're okay,
I'm just going to go to sleep because now I
need to process what happened because I was shaking it.

Speaker 2 (44:41):
It was, you know, really, I.

Speaker 6 (44:43):
Really we were like we were literally three minutes from
calling an ambulance because I didn't know what to me.

Speaker 2 (44:48):
I almost feel like there's a past life with us
in it where I was a soldier that gets shot
in the field and it has.

Speaker 6 (44:54):
To be something like that on your back, Oh well
you were I did that?

Speaker 5 (44:58):
Yeah, I know.

Speaker 2 (44:59):
And I'm like, no, no, no, You're not going to
be able to hold me and you're walking with me,
and I'm going I don't know, okay. So Paula goes
to bed. Things are calming down. I shut everything off.
I'm looking at the computer screen and I start looking
at action figures at on one of these websites, right,
and I'm just looking at the new stuff coming out

(45:20):
and I don't know why. Okay, so this get this
gets this is really scary. Okay. There was a rap
at the window.

Speaker 5 (45:34):
Yeah, tap tap tap.

Speaker 2 (45:36):
It was like if you took three fingers and went
up to your window and was like but rap, one
after another after another. And I was like, wow, that
sounded weird. So I turn around. Roxy is on the
couch sitting looking up at the window. So I go, oh,
there must be on the window sill or behind there.

(45:58):
It's like a footstep thing. And I said that foot
thing thumps, so maybe it was them digging under the cat. Okay.
So I get up and I go no, but the
sound came from high up behind me, and I look.
Bear wasn't there, and it was just Roxy and she's
staring at the window. So I look at the window.
I look out the window. Nothing and I go, nah,

(46:20):
that sounded like it was How could you we have
the screen there?

Speaker 5 (46:23):
Yeah, you can't tap on the glass.

Speaker 2 (46:25):
And you can't tap on the glass you have to
come through the screen to do that. So and there's
there's plenty of there's no give, so you're not doing it.
It had to be done from the inside. So now
I'm thinking this, and I feel someone standing right behind me,
so I take a deep breath. I turn around. I
don't see anything, and then I look and Nicholas Zervo's

(46:46):
and multiple people here have known the kitchen window things
peek in.

Speaker 5 (46:50):
Oh yes, I used to see it all the time.

Speaker 2 (46:52):
There was always looking sticking in. Yeah, everyone that come
here for an experience, It's like, yo, dude, who's the
guy looking in the frigging window? Like there's an et there.
I'm like, he just looks.

Speaker 5 (47:02):
We don't know what he's doing.

Speaker 2 (47:03):
I don't know. But this was different. There was someone
standing in the room, but I couldn't see them, but
I could see their outline kind of. It was almost
like it wasn't like the predator thing. It was better.
They were better concealed than that predator. When he moves,
you could see him moving even though it's reflecting this
there was. It was really tight. So I close my

(47:26):
eyes and I take a deep breath and I go, Okay,
we're gonna whim haff this And I take a deep
nose breath and I looking at the computer screen. I'm
about to turn around, and I see right in front
of me, out of the corner of my eye, being
the color of whoever saw the original Star Wars movie,
the first one when they go into the Contina and

(47:46):
they're playing music, and you see those those beige headed ets.
They're really tall and they're playing like this flute thing.
It was the color of that. The shape, the head
shape was that, but it was shorter, but it was
kind of my height and maybe a little bit smaller.
It wasn't like a big, bulbous head guy. It wasn't
like I saw him run fast, and I said, I

(48:08):
saw that. Then I turn around and beings are piling in.
I close my eyes. It's all black, and I see
like a portal tube instead of my window, and I
see beings that look just like this thing, just piling in,
and I go, oh, there's an awful lot of you guys.
Now I'm not freaking out yet. And I turned back

(48:28):
around to look, and that other being that just ran
was nose to nose with me, and I can see
my desk wasn't there. My eyes closed, the walls weren't there.
The walls weren't there, I could see my neighbors. There
was a dome over me. It was pretty big. It
was like the property line. Nothing was real, nothing except me.

(48:51):
And I can see the architectural design as if you
were standing in the blueprint of where the table would
be in, the computer would be, and the speakers would be.
My wall into the bathroom wasn't there. The bathroom wasn't there.
Nothing was there. But this being was standing nose to
nose with me, and I jumped back. I was like,
holy shit, you're right on top of me. Bro. And
the first thing I thought of is when I saw

(49:11):
you with the frog being right up against your face.
So I said, oh shit, you're really here, right So
I put my head down for a second, one second,
and I said, breathe, you got this. You're gonna handle
your business right now. I was gonna. I was like, yo,
I'm in the room with them, I'm in on the
other side with them. But it's not the other side.
It's right here. There is no other side. I know

(49:34):
better than this. And as I took a deep breath,
I mean a big, massive breath, because I thought I
was gonna have a friggin carnary. These things were all
around me. I look down and then everything starts echoing down.
I can't explain. It was like I was dying. I
don't know how to explain this. The DMT trip when

(49:54):
you first jump out of your body, minus the colors
and the tunnel. There's no tunnel. It was just what
was there in that domed room. And the walls looked
like the Hala deck that Dolores Kennon talks about, like
you can see the tiled walls, or like they weren't.

(50:14):
It was reverse what was here. So the tiles there
were black and the lines were white. It was like
a negative reversion version of where we are.

Speaker 6 (50:23):
And again, I just want to be clear, this is
this is happening with no psychedelic This is just Frank,
this is me.

Speaker 5 (50:33):
This is just yeah.

Speaker 6 (50:34):
This was just after the experience we already had. I
thought he was completely.

Speaker 5 (50:40):
Better, and I'm in the other room.

Speaker 6 (50:43):
And he's having this horrific experience basically in the living room.

Speaker 2 (50:48):
Okay, exactly. So now I tilt my head forward and
I keep It's almost like my soul was coming out
of me, and I was like, wh What's happening? And
then I had pee really bad I stood up and
I went, you back up. I was talking out loud.
I walk into the bathroom. I'm like, I me throw
water on my face and pee. I feel better for

(51:09):
a second, and then it feels like right before a
panic attack starts, that gets really intense. Or if you
have asthma in your throat closes, you know you only
got like a few seconds to get your asthma pump
before you go out, Like I'm gonna go out. It's okay,
get the asthma pump and I'll wake back up. I
could feel my throat restricting, but I was taking these
giant breaths, and I'm like, why is my throat doing that?

(51:30):
I could still take the giant breath. Usually you can't.
You're dead.

Speaker 5 (51:32):
It's on the other side you couldn't breathe.

Speaker 2 (51:34):
And I'm going shit, And then I start to pee
and then I stop. I just dead stop, and I'm like, okay,
I think that's enough. I think I could and then
I wake all right. First of all, I was still
standing in the room and I looked. I saw my
body on the floor, and I was looking at my hands,

(51:55):
like how did that happen? And I looked and my
body was in the hallway and half in the bathroom,
half out of the bathroom, dead dead, dead, tongue out
of the mouth, everything. And then I was like, what
just happened to me? And then I started fighting my
way back and I couldn't do it. I was like,
what's happening to me? Get in there? And I got
in there and I was on the floor. I took

(52:17):
a deep breath and I said, I'm having a panic attack.
And I could see them in the room with me,
and I saw a being standing beat in the bathroom
where I was. There was no bathroom though, and he
was pointing something at me, and it was shooting from
a very small diameter, concentric ring into a very big
one and it was enveloping me. And it was like

(52:37):
a sound that I couldn't hear, but I can feel
it resonate through me. And I'm going and I screamed Paula,
and that's all that comes out, so it wasn't a scream.
My higher self is like, YO, take a deep breath.
Don't try to do it three in a row, Do
one big, Paula, because you're not going to be able

(52:57):
to do it. And I'm like, what's happening, and it's
like both guys are talking at this to me at
the same time, while these beings are around me while
that's going on, and I finally squeeze out or they
think it was my fourth time trying. Paula like and
you were like, what is it. I'm like, well, you
came in here, I know.

Speaker 5 (53:16):
I can't believe it.

Speaker 2 (53:17):
She comes in and starts to get me off the floor.
We're gonna have to pick up with the rest of
the story next week. I'm sorry, but that's the fliphanger
and that's how we're gonna roll right now. My name's
Frank Glass is full of my own a. Theirical translation,
this is fearless. That makes us your protection deception stick around.
Paranormal Portal is up next and

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