FearLess Full Moon Meditation - Omm Kreem Kalikaye Namah 108 - FearLess with Frank Castle

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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey, Hey, what's going on everyone? It's a main man,
Frank Castle, your sorcerer Supreme, right here for each and
every Fearless meditation every night straight on through the winter Solstice.
I'm I'm in a weird place today, so I'm gonna

(00:22):
just take a minute look at the cameras, just totally still.
That's a lot better, all right, So what's going on? Feelers, family,

(00:49):
what's up everyone? And give everybody a little time to
come in. I've been very tense today. I didn't sleep
good last night. Anyone watching on Facebook. By the way, I.

Speaker 2 (01:02):
Can't see your name when you post.

Speaker 1 (01:03):
I'm just letting you know. I just it's allowing me
once in a while to share in the Fearless group.

Speaker 2 (01:09):
So if I can, I just do it.

Speaker 1 (01:12):
Anyway.

Speaker 2 (01:13):
I love you guys so much. It feels good to
be here with you.

Speaker 1 (01:20):
Kev's here, Sons of the Sun, He's always here with us,
Milk and the Sun, Baby, Michael, I'm thankful for you too.

Speaker 2 (01:33):
I'm thankful for all of you. I was showing I
was on fire last night, so was Paul.

Speaker 1 (01:41):
In a good way. And ain't garty? How's it going?
After the show. During the show, there's a lot of love.
And I was showing Paul up all day today, just
little things, trying to cheer up a little bit. It's

(02:01):
hard to keep the vibration high and then do anything.
I couldn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned until
eleven o'clock was today, and I got up like twice
and just stood there for like ten minutes. I was like, oh,
I'm tired, now, laid down and I would just I
don't know what was going on.

Speaker 2 (02:19):
I couldn't tell if it was me all amped up.

Speaker 1 (02:25):
Sometimes when I lay on my back when I'm sleeping
in bed, it only happens there. It feels like someone
as soon as I boop, hits me in the throat
and I start choking and I wake right up, and
I'm like, what the fuck was that? It only happens
when I lay in that bed right there. It's the
weirdest thing. And then I annoyed the hell out of

(02:48):
everyone tossing and turning. That gets crazy anyway. So today
was like, I'm like Kevin's space today. I was gonna
say I was gonna say his full name, and then
I realized he's a piece of shit. So I shouldn't
do it, and I've been just spacey today, man, Like really,

(03:12):
you can see it in my face. I'm like a weirdo,
all right, Like I don't know what the fuck's going
on and I can't kick it, but I do have
the thought in my head from yesterday still and the
day before I get to run like a big boy. Finally, right,
so I'm allowed to use the energy. So I have

(03:37):
weird things happening. I planted four plants to first, and
then a week later, excuse me, a week later two others.

Speaker 2 (03:51):
The laws of physics, for some reason does not work
in this bedroom.

Speaker 1 (03:56):
First two look like they're gonna die, but they were
doing good, and then just stop growing, just like the
fifth batcher. They just stopped growing.

Speaker 2 (04:03):
And then the two in the smaller pots they look great.

Speaker 1 (04:08):
Interesting.

Speaker 2 (04:08):
It's like the first little breakthrough.

Speaker 1 (04:11):
And I was having a fit before because I'm getting
really tired of going through the same shit in the loop.
And then I'm checking off the checklist, checking it twice,
and I just said, you know what, the two little
ones grow, I'm gonna be like you all this bullshit,

(04:34):
I'm gonna be green and I'm just gonna grow these
two don't want to grow. I love you, but fuck off.
Like maybe it's the cycle because and it's funny that
I'm using this as an example because now I'm actually
seeing it. The pots are like a big one and

(04:54):
then a medium and then a little and he's all failed.
Oh no, no, no, no, no no. The ones I
played for the these two just started beautiful. It looks
like exactly what it should look like. And that's what
the meditations are doing. It's like going back to the basics.

(05:19):
You know, maybe all this failure is just learning how
to succeed by knowing, not what to do and what
exactly to do. I don't I'm at the point where
I'm blaming frequency, but who knows. It is a learning experience.
Everything has a learning curve these days, and I'm willing

(05:42):
to go the distance. Yeah, I'm just willing to try.
You can hear my voice. Try it's like cracking. We're
about to go college style on everything. So so it

(06:04):
took me a minute, almost like like I was in
a I want to call it a hole because I
didn't feel like I was in anything, but I was stuck.
I still am.

Speaker 2 (06:17):
It's not quite depressing and depression but it's.

Speaker 1 (06:23):
More like anxious waiting, like come on already, man, I'm
fucking sick of this, like you just and my whole
mental is shifted and it'll start with sometimes like oh
what the and I stopped myself. Roxy has been proving

(06:45):
a very difficult cat. She's been just taking on the floor.
She's just been leaving whenever she wants, like I'm just
gonna shop over here. I'm gonna go over here, just
out of nowhere. Cat Reggie won't stop with the string
every ten seconds. So in the last few days I

(07:06):
must have clocked in ten hours of string time. Now
it's fun to play with your cat. However, you can't
go for a run with the cat, you know, you know,
can't really wrestle around with the cat. You can't a
little bit. There's like little things you can do, but
the repetitive ridiculousness. I've become Indiana Jones with this fucking string. Okay,

(07:28):
this string right here has a little flax, a little band.
I put a little couple knots at the end. I
really get into this because I do my meditation while
doing this dance with Reggie.

Speaker 2 (07:40):
So I was taken.

Speaker 1 (07:44):
To see Reggie my cat, the Great codd while under mushrooms,
and it was like I was a plan, but Frank
was able to walk in. I walked in and I
was like, whoa. It was like a giant room with
this giant plant elemental creature that looked like me, which

(08:09):
was really weird, giant leaves and everything. But we always
say tentacles and stuff, but these were like branches. Yeah,
they were like tentacles. They were like plant tentacles. No
matter how I put it, it was just what it is.

(08:29):
And they were like branched out, so they were like
strings that were like thick like tubes coming out of
the main plant creature, which was me. It was definitely
an elemental. I was like, whoa, this is crazy. And
at the end of them were like little pods just

(08:53):
like you would see in the matrix, except organic and
biological and nature foresure. I was like looking for it
everything like nope, there being walked me over to the
pod and opened the top and it was like a
like a leaf, and then another how'd it go? Yeah,
because this one was last. It was like a leaf
and leaf and a leaf, and then he pulled these

(09:15):
big leaves back and they just slipped. It was almost
like the plant elemental was allowing it, like go ahead,
I'll just open. And then the last one came over
and then there was this like white but cleary, gooey liquid,
and then there was a baby in it that looked

(09:36):
like like a little e te creature. White, fully white
black eyes like you would see on a gray but
absolutely cute, but kind of looked, uh it was it

(09:56):
was Reggie for sure. She went she looked at me
and it was a shap and she went, just like
Reggie does. She screams at me all day, all night.
She just runs off. I'm like, yo, you're gonna stop
doing that. That's like it's really cute a hundred times,
and then a thousand times it's like yo. So we
have these weird conversations. I'll grabber and go what are

(10:18):
you saying to me? And I don't go no, and
I'm not gonna agree with that. So I try to
have the best moments, but man, you will lose your
shit sometimes. But I saw her as the baby and
I said, wait a second, is that How did you
have that baby in there? Reggie? How is she in there?

(10:40):
God do in the plant pod? And how are you
a plant elemental and I'm here, who's this fucking guy?
I don't even This is how I am when I'm
on mushrooms. Now I'm like, thank you very much. I
love you. I have great respect for all of you.
What the fuck is this? And they'll go, oh, hey,
all right, he's good. It's almost like they know when
I'm interacting with them on that level, that thing like

(11:05):
I'm getting into the mode when I'm like, what the
fuck is this? Hey, homie, come over here, hug me
for a second, let me look into your face. And
they're like, oh, okay, or he's ready. So I asked
and they were like, oh, well, that's you creating. It's
a fractal of you. So you give life to a

(11:26):
piece of you and it grows and it teaches you
all these crazy things. Love, how to take there, You're
gonna have to wait a minute. So it teaches you
like compassion and how to you know, how to interact
with a little creature that loves you. You know, everyone's

(11:50):
always afraid of a cat, like they'll scratch you. I'm
pretty rough with my cats in a good way. Mama
cat never let me touch her. It was like five
years and then I one day she because she's been
in the house and she has like a neurological problem,
so she goes just giant claws, so you can't put
your face near her. Will she scratch you? If she's

(12:11):
if you don't do that to her, no, because she's
probably a legendeer. But at the same time, something in
my voice it was so soft. I was like, you're
so beautiful that I want you to stay for years
and years and be with me. And she went and
I go, look, my arm's long enough to keep my
face away from you. Now you'd be gentle with me,

(12:32):
and you cut that out, And she was like making
it one hundred percent manageable. After three days, I'm almost
holding her, like just full, and she's like she got
hit by a car outside and there was another Frank
down the block taking care of her. And it was funny.

(12:54):
I was a gentleman, was a jet fan. He was
a Giant fan. I was wearing Batman one day and
he was wearing Superman. Like it was obvious that we
were like reverse franks with each other. He was a
little bit older, I was a little bit younger. We
both liked cats, but he preferred his little dog. But
he took care of mama apparently kept going to his
house is she isn't there in the back. And then

(13:17):
when she got hit by the car, you could tell
she was like cut down the back wide. Oh. It
was pretty disgusting, and she was like neurologically damaged. So
she was running like weird and doing all this weird shit.
And I was like, whoa. He didn't want to fucking help.
I'm like, yo, give me her paperwork, homie, I've officially

(13:37):
just elected myself mayor and then president.

Speaker 2 (13:41):
Shall we change it more? Give me the cat?

Speaker 1 (13:45):
And he was like, well, he like let her go
because they weren't really taking care of her. And then
she waddled to my house, which is up the block
this way. It was like a full block, and she
came into the yard and then we got her into
the house. We saw what was happened. We couldn't we
couldn't get her. She came in, she laid down. Then
after time we started to help more. We got cream

(14:10):
on her and we rubbed her up, and she only
let Paul in the era and then she lived under
there for six months, under the bed. She would just
put put food by the bed, and she'd used the
cat litter, which was weird. I put one right next
to the bed so she could she couldn't step over
it yet, so I built her a little staircase and
did all this cool little ship. So now back to

(14:31):
the plant being in the creature. They're like, that's what
they're there to teach you. A hold on. One second,
I'm being overrun by cats. I have to open the swimm.

(15:03):
All right, we have eleven, so it's manic. Everyone's their
own personal thing. Now we're gonna go back to this
hold on. Just this is all relevant. I'm shaking right now.
I'm like because I'm thinking of all the crazy things,
but I'm not mad.

Speaker 2 (15:20):
There's this weird thing that's happening to me.

Speaker 1 (15:22):
There's this separation of my emotion and how I physically feel.
So I'm mad and it's like over here in my shoulders.
I'm angry right here, but then it's I'm not there anymore,
so it doesn't stay here. It kind of comes out
over here, and I'm like looking at it, like and

(15:43):
you could see that you would harbor and hold that
if you were like frustrated. This is unreal, motherfucker, Like
you just stuff it in. I can't do that anymore.
It doesn't stuff in. I can't stuff it. It just
jumps out. This is new. So I'm like, this is
really weird. It happened to you times where I was
so angry and couldn't stay angry. I tried to stay angry.

(16:05):
It was like ten minutes and I was I must
have yelled mother. I opened the front door, and I
was like, fucked the world, like just hours, Like I'm lost, man,
but it's over here all right.

Speaker 2 (16:24):
So now I'm mad at Roxy.

Speaker 1 (16:25):
Because right after the show last night, she shit in
the kitchen right on the floor. So we were like,
is there something wrong that she's going in different places?

Speaker 2 (16:36):
Maybe we got to clean out and fix.

Speaker 1 (16:39):
Like now everything's fresh, new, everything's good.

Speaker 2 (16:42):
So tonight she just does it.

Speaker 1 (16:45):
In the bathroom right on the right, on the floor,
next to the cat litter. And then we have a
separate thing out in front of the bathroom just for her.
No one touches it. They let her just go to
the bathroom. She's the old lady. Now, I'm I haven't
been eating. I don't know what's wrong with me. I
feel like my body is making ultimate adjustments. So last

(17:08):
night I had a piece of pound cake or a
butterloaf or some shit like that. It was like this thick,
and Paul put some ice cream on it. It was really delicious.
That's all I ate All day. I had coffee and
water and whatever. And then I started it started to
play out. I didn't want it. My lips are drying now,

(17:29):
It's like, so I take it one day off from
drinking a gallon and a half of water, and I'm
fucking dried out already. You guys crazy, This is crazy.
I never felt like this in my life. So now
I'm not eating. And then I go inside the kitchen
and tell me if this has happened to you, because

(17:50):
it happened to me.

Speaker 2 (17:50):
I'm fucking shaking about it right now.

Speaker 1 (17:53):
I looked around. I saw there was I don't drink milk,
so but I'll use it for stuff like I'll put
a drop in when I scramble eggs, or people like
it for their coffee or their tea or some shit
I don't, So we get a small one. There's some
sitting there and I look up. This has got to
be the first time in a long time there's fucking

(18:16):
cereal on the top of there's fruity pebbles, non gmo.
So I was like, oh, I'm fucking eating this right now.
So I take the fruity pebbles down, I put them
on the counter, and I pick up the milk. Milk
still got a week before it goes bad or anything. Right,
I'm not the guy that smells the milk. I'm already

(18:38):
disgusted talking about it because I know what milk is
and how it works so with humans. But it's fucking
great cereal once in a blue moon, and I smell it,
and I'm like, now, that's not a smell I've ever
smelled before. Have I if I had to smell that now,

(19:01):
I never go twice the milk. So I'm like, I
know what that smell is. I start crying and I
put it back and I go, it's dead.

Speaker 2 (19:19):
I can smell it that it's dead. It's still got
a weak to go.

Speaker 1 (19:25):
It's dead. Put it back. I can't do it. It
turned me. Then I came in here and sat down,
and I'm just I took the cereal, the whole bag.
I sat down. I took two handfuls and I have
grilla hands, so I was like, and then I see

(19:45):
her run through the room and I go half a handful.
She only runs like that when she poops. She wasn't
in the pair like you hear everything when anyone does anything.
And then the whole house just reeks instantly after that,
and I'm like, oh my god, what's happening to my life?

(20:06):
What the fuck's I'm having a nervous breakdown because I
know what I'm about to see, but you have no idea.
So she just went one and two on the floor,
not just two. She just went and I looked at
her and she was like sitting up there like, and
I'm like, oh, so you're doing that shit on purpose.
Now I wanted to kill her. The house is only

(20:30):
eight hundred square feet with a little wall in the door,
and she never lets me close correct it.

Speaker 2 (20:39):
The whole house reeks.

Speaker 1 (20:41):
I was just had finally gotten hungry and was like,
I'm gonna do so now I'm losing my shit.

Speaker 2 (20:47):
How am I gonna claim meditation?

Speaker 1 (20:51):
Fearless? This that this is what's going on in my
mind because it's I'm a pretty clear minded guy.

Speaker 2 (20:56):
It was beating me like you should fucking I don't know.

Speaker 1 (21:02):
Somehow someone should grow small and punch her in the
face or something, because I can't do anything. Like I
was yelling at her last night for like a minute,
and then I'm like looking at her and she's like,
fuck you, She's just looking at me, like, I fucking
don't care that you're mad. Right, she's a little scared.
I don't like when they flinch. I don't like to
make anyone flinch. So she's like, so I back up

(21:23):
and I go it's not like she fucking she knows
what she did. Me. Yelling at her doesn't work. This
doesn't work. I don't know what works. Give me a
spray bottle. I'll squirt it with a little bit of
water and that'll just make me feel better. Now I'm
doing a sacred feminine God is colleague for the show

(21:50):
on the end of the show last night, and then
this happens right after the show. Then this happens right
as I said to eat. This was just two hours ago.
And both times I was mentally I didn't want to
do anything. I didn't want to like Gray ring Ah,
but I wanted to be like, you know what, fuck
you get me the bucket of wa I'm gonna do

(22:11):
Ozzy Osbourne to this little thing, and I'm gonna be like,
fucking disrespectful. You bid her the other day, you scratched,
are really bad. All she does is take care of
you and these thoughts, and I'm like, like as if
she was a person. And then she was gonna understand
my full disappointment and I was gonna let her know
because I had to stand there and go with a
finger like a fucking old man. And I really thought

(22:33):
to myself, dude, shut up, this isn't working. But I
was inside. So when I checked on the anger, it's
here now, it jumped out to me and I'm like
that was fast. I want to still just run, mother fuck.
And they were like, damn, well, how do you feel.
I'm like bad, I don't know. I'm just mad, but
I'm not mad. It's not mad angry, it's in you.

(22:55):
Hate is like you. I hope this fucking makes sense.
It was like I couldn't breathe to pull anger in,
like fuck these motherfucker I couldn't do anything like that,
these disrespectful cats.

Speaker 2 (23:15):
I couldn't get the air in me to do that.

Speaker 1 (23:17):
Almost like my body was going nope, reject, nope, reject
and that was driving me up a wall like a
crazy man, because now I don't know what I'm feeling.

Speaker 2 (23:29):
I don't know how to feel. I don't know.

Speaker 1 (23:31):
I'm listening to me, I'm judging myself, and I'm looking
at her and I'm like, I fucking love this cat.

Speaker 2 (23:37):
And she's the best smelling one in the whole house,
even though she drops the worst deuce you'll ever imagine.
All Right, So I go in the bathroom. I just
think it's so I'm like, oh my god, this is
fucked up. And I clean it up and I'm like, oh,
that was pretty quick. Open up a window. Oh, and
I had put the heat on, so the heat was hissing.

(23:58):
And then I'm like, I can't fucking eat now.

Speaker 1 (24:00):
Gosh, Oh my gosh, what the fuck am I going
to do now? Like I can't do music because I
can't be loud. But it's early, but monounce late. But
I don't want to wake anyone, Like I don't want
to do anything and shape the place and make it.

Speaker 2 (24:15):
My energy is just all over the place.

Speaker 1 (24:17):
And I thought about Colleigue again and I was like,
you know, how am I supposed to be you and
do all this, and then she's like, just one one
thing at a time, just one thing at a time.
Hold on there, hold on. You have to clean your space,
just like I have to come through and clean the
negativity and clean.

Speaker 2 (24:36):
I have to destroy evil. Right, She's like, you smell that, I.

Speaker 1 (24:40):
Go agains the worst thing I've ever smelled ever, and
I smelled dead bodies. This is like destruction to my nostrils.
And she's like, right, So the only way to get
anywhere with it is too clean it. So I was like,
all right, So I get this little rhythm going, and
I'm like all right, okay. Now Reggie's screaming it, and

(25:01):
she keeps running up to me arm and then jumping
on the string. And then now she's biting everything that
looks like a string, thinking she could pull it away.
So there's microphone cords and oh my god, I don't
know what the hell's been happening.

Speaker 2 (25:14):
And I'm like, okay, full moon, this is all happening.

Speaker 1 (25:16):
Now.

Speaker 2 (25:16):
The heat we have the old house, so it's hissing.

Speaker 1 (25:19):
I'm giving you guys a play by play, and then
we're gonna do a meditation to take the shit all away.
And the heat hisses out of that thing, like, so
you can't do shit. You have to turn the volume
up on the TV loud. Thank how we got a soundbar.
We're in a small room. I had to get a
soundbar because we couldn't hear the TV with the fan
in the window and that the heat just blowing out

(25:39):
of the fucking wall.

Speaker 2 (25:41):
So all this is happening at once, and I'm like.

Speaker 1 (25:44):
I'm almost done. I'm almost done. We almost got so
I go, I get siege and I come into the bathroom.

Speaker 2 (25:50):
I like the whole house of stage. I'm like, this
will work.

Speaker 1 (25:52):
And then I look down and I noticed that she
number one and it went under everything and soaked under
the basket, and I fucking completely lose my shit for
a second. I have to take plants off the thing.
The cats go to the use for the bathroom because
his plants on top of it looks really pretty, by
the way. And then I take the top off and

(26:13):
I'm like, dude, motherfuck it, Well this is pretty clean.
I cleaned this before, and I wanted to smash it.
He said, I went, yeah, it's pretty clean. I put
it into the tub. I was shocking myself. I was
like yo, what the fuck? I was hoping that some
character would come out and confront me and go Tonight
the night I found Frank and I'm gonna fuck him up.

(26:34):
And I turn around and I just crack him, suck
a bunch of right in his face bag and I
turned the camera on and I drag him out and
I go, look what the fuck I found everyone? But no,
nothing like that. I pick it up so good fucking
number one. I put it in the tub. I walk
out of the room. I start crying. I'm like, what
am I supposed to do? She's like clean one thing

(26:55):
at a time. You're urging relax. I go, why am
I feeling like this? And why am I vibrating? Why
am I like? It feels weird? It doesn't feel like
my injury, my injury it causes me. It used to
more and now way less. Like a shaking. This is different.
This is like body, my hope. My knees are doing it.

(27:17):
They're going like, but my legs, my tendons, my chubby,
whatever the fuck that is? My feet, my little fet
nugget toes. My teeth they were my fucking teeth are fake.
These are all fake. They're dead. I feel them. I
feel them vibrating in my face. All right, it's okay, okay, Gary,

(27:45):
So I clean check this shit out. So I clean everything.
I get everything mad clean, and I'm like happy now.
I danced. I squirt chlorox on the floor, and then
I put rolls of paper town and I put him
on my feet and I danced around. I cleaned everything everything.

(28:05):
I was just like, you know what, I'm going to
clean everything while I mat, which I just did the
other day. So I feel really good. And I come
out and I start to realize we're literally transforming. I'm
shaking the way a spider would shake off. I think

(28:28):
they call it molting. It's the word I'm looking for.
Shakes its skin off or its old shell. And it's
just this little pink fucker, but it's bigger and then
he grows another one. I feel like I'm doing that.
I feel like the energy naturally does it, but what

(28:49):
we're doing is causing it to go.

Speaker 2 (28:52):
To the extreme. I was telling you guys yesterday. It
was yesterday.

Speaker 1 (28:57):
It was I didn't know how to connect to the
guy I was with because I like him and I
haven't seen him, and I sold he was watching and
I says, you watch Fast and Furious because we were
about to do DMT. And he's like, he's like, oh
fuck yeah, and I'm like, yeah, family, And then I
gave him the little story about how they look at
each other when they pull up at the light and
they're waiting right, and they all, you know, Paul Walker

(29:20):
and Vin Diesel, they're boys, but they race NonStop.

Speaker 2 (29:24):
I'm on the beach today and today they got you whatever.

Speaker 1 (29:26):
So they have that look on their face like I
love you, but I got you, or you're just a
punk and I got you, whichever one. And then they wait,
they take off. These are all moments we're logging in
in life. I'm like, like, you were at work today.
Obviously you're wearing work clothes and just get comfortable or whatever.
So you went through the you know, you're looking over
at people. You're like, bro, I'm gonna about to get

(29:48):
out of traffick. You take off and your day starts.
You're going in and out, You're racing down. You're looking
over at the other guy. The competition, whatever the fuck
you want to call it, I said, and both of
you start going with your finger because you know the
nitrous has to be clipped. You have to do it.
You can't be here and in the Fast and Furious

(30:08):
saga and not have like dual nitrous shit that'll get
you into space. But in the in the in the car,
ready to rock, and then you know that he don't
know what you got and you don't know what he got,
but this is gonna go down and this is nothing.
This is just the day going man. And then it
hits boom nitrous. We hit the d MT. He flies back,

(30:34):
just like hitting the ramp kid right, Yo, sudden, we
hit that fucking raf and weird weird thing. In the
Fast and Furious movies, they have like rockets on the
car sometimes so when they're like then they hit the
rocket and then it's like yeah, right, it is just
crazy shit. So this is this is what you're doing
right now. So now we're doing the meditations and the

(30:58):
energy is coming in. It's like a giant weave and
we're we're on surfboards or we're on we're in cars.
It's an energy weave and we're kind of riding it
and you can obviously see some people are unaware of
this giant monstrosity coming in and here we are up
on it, like trying to just trying to hold on.
And then the nitrous blast is the portal activations, the

(31:20):
twelve twelve activations that this activity source just goes and
more nitrous and you're like, fuck, right, you got to
still stick a landing somewhere, and you remember how they
land Sometimes they just crumple a fucking car around them
and then just rolling around like dungies. And then they

(31:41):
get out and they're like, bro, that was crazy, which
would never obviously happen. Sometimes they have to eject from
the vehicle and just let shit go down and then
kind of come back and be like everybody, okay. So
these are all metaphors for what we're doing right now.
So we're in full moon activation after doing the meditations

(32:05):
with Collie, like, I'm literally going back to basics. Back
to basics would be yeo, man, Let's show people again
the avatars running the energy during the actual cycle where
it's actually fucking relevant, during a time where it's necessary
and if you can get with it, you won't get
crushed by it. Ha. Right, here's a good thing. We
won't charge anyone and we'll just tell them the truth.

(32:27):
There you go. We'll just come out fucking swing in
and show them how it's done. Ha okay. And then
you walk around five minutes ungrounded with that energy, and
the cat takes a shit on the floor and you
smell the milk, and this occurs that and it just now,
this happens every day to everyone. How do you handle it?

(32:49):
Do you lose it? Do you lose it? Do you
kick the cat? Do you throw the cat out of
the house? Do you make your wife clean it up?
Or do I make Pola clean it up? Or do
I walk around the house bitching and moaning and like
continuously berating the cat? Do I throw shit at her?

(33:12):
Do I yell at Reggie get the fuck out of here?
Because I sound great when I curse, So I should
be in movies when I'm like, motherfucker. You guys got
to hear me. I know the neighbor is like you okay,
I heard a noise. Now I'm fine. It's like, okay, thanks,
If you need anything, let me know. Okay. Do I

(33:32):
throw the string at her? You fucking? Or do I
do this and whip it? I don't ever do that
to them, By the way, I never do any of
the stuff I'm saying right now. I'm just asking you
what you do because I've had some bad habits in
the past with life. I had a dog. I never
want to talk about this, but I'm just gonna let
you know this is way. This was like twenty five

(33:52):
years ago. I was in Florida and I had a dog.
And the dog it was a little dog. It was
a bit The girl I was dating and living with
she had a little daughter, she was like six years old,
and it bit her face and told her fucking lip
and I punted that dog across the room to get
her off her. I just walked over my boof and

(34:13):
the dog let her go immediately and was like, over there.
I never touch anyone ever again. But then that poor
girl had to get fucking stitches all up in her face,
had to have a lip reattached and stuff. So I
was like, there's kind of that healthy balance with that
kind of stuff. But I never wanted to ever be
part of something like that again. So that's like a

(34:35):
bad thing that happened to me that I can relate to. Like,
so now Roxy is shitting and and rah h. I
mean it's not biting the girl, obviously, but some people
take it that next step.

Speaker 2 (34:45):
I don't take it that next step, you know, I don't.

Speaker 1 (34:48):
I'm not from the I'm from the street originally, but
I'm not dealing with that shit no more. However, you
throw it in my face, I will punch you in
the face. I don't want to believe me. I don't
want to. That's why I don't get involved with nothing.
I just do me right, and then I'll say things like, oh,
you didn't notice that, or you didn't see that right there?
What does that say right there? Did you notice that?

(35:10):
Oh you didn't? Literally tells you what poison it're putting
in you? All right? Bye? I turned into that instead.
I've just dealt with too much stuff, so anger is
was is no longer gosh I'm doing. It's happening to
me while I'm talking to you guys. It's like no
longer my friend. And I'm not sad to see you

(35:32):
leave either. That's the crazy thing. I used to like
live on, that fucking adrenaline of that where who knows, man,
I could have been because of COVID lockdowns and all
kinds of bullshit, the crazy guy that you lock in here,
And then I fucking you know, I'm wearing a cat
on my head when you find me and you're like,
what happenss like, well to catch it on the floor,
and he decided to make a hat. Like I didn't

(35:54):
want to ever be that guy. That's not even funny,
but it's funny. So none of that happened. I was
asking Collie how do you do it? And she's like,
you're transforming. Just let it change, Just let it go again,
let the energy fill. You realize what you're doing, what
you're saying, how you're saying it, because you can like

(36:18):
be like, oh, falk everything and then it doesn't travel,
or you could be like and it goes. So it's
your choice, you know. Sometimes you gotta let it out.
It's okay, it's okay, you're human. It's what we do
with it now while we're in it. So I'm like, oh,
so we're learning how to play. When the kid just

(36:41):
takes the deck of cards and just kind of flicks
them and right in your face goes go pick them
up or whatever they get, that stupid game is called
and then we have to stay neutral in that situation
and do our job because that always goes on. So

(37:03):
how would you have acted? I don't know. A year ago,
I've been.

Speaker 2 (37:07):
Like, oh, she should on the floor.

Speaker 1 (37:09):
Oh my god, woke everyone up? Why? I don't know.
I'm just an animated fool. Maybe I don't know. I
used to get whacked out and weirded out over crazy things,
but then again, you know, I also do what I do.
So I've never had a psychotic break that I know of.

(37:30):
I see what like we were talking about it last night,
where the psychotic break can go and I go to
it and I don't break, but I go there and
I go, oh, I get this shit. My my lever's
up here. So it's like really difficult to reach that.
I've been torn apart. I've had things do things to
me that are just so crazy. So it's how you

(37:53):
how do you act now?

Speaker 2 (37:54):
How you can you?

Speaker 1 (37:55):
Are you gonna have a heart attack if an ete
walks in the room. Okay, so if the the teapot
goes off and you're on the phone and the cat
takes a shit and misses everything, and you're like, oh,
but you're on the phone, mom, do you fuck off?
Macle you late hang up, turn off the finger, or
you just go turn it off, let me go. You're right, back,

(38:16):
lip lip lip, lip blip blip, make the call back,
tell the funny story. What character are you in there?
Because if it's still happening, you're being tested on that level.
I'm like, but this is fucking crazy. You realize we're live, right,
this isn't a test. And they're like, well, why do
you think Colley gave you the energy? Then said be me,

(38:37):
go forth and be me. And I was like, oh,
that's like Santa Claus saying Okay, it's your turn. And
you know, I mean, it's amazing powers. If you think
about it, he's technically a mutant from Marvel Comics. If
you think about he reaches in the bag, he pulls
it out from the other dimension. He could do all
kind of magic shit. You know, he could probably take

(38:57):
it up with Doctor Strange. For sure. You probably throw
down and beat his ast and you'd be like, and
then put you on the naughty list and dro Cole
in your dip it and be like, get out of
you and take that mask off your face. You look stupid.
So Kylee doing that to me it was great. And
then I was like, Okay, now what And then we
talked last night about what we did now today, did

(39:18):
you think you're gonna get through a day without being
tested on the highest level during the full moon while
everything's erupting and going, Oh, did you think your meditation
last night was enough? You know you? So you tell me?
I was like, no, definitely not enough. And it's like, well,
you don't have to spend your time in meditation, but
obviously you're shaking and freaking out and you can't get

(39:39):
it together. So what do we usually do during those time?
So are we going to freak out and go nuts?
Or are we gonna take take a minute? Clean everything,
do everything you gotta do, play some string, gave everybody
some time.

Speaker 2 (39:53):
Fetch waby, I gotta give her some pets. Woke mama up.

Speaker 1 (39:56):
I could give her kisses on her head, but you
gotta be careful because she but I could do it.

Speaker 2 (40:01):
I got her.

Speaker 1 (40:02):
I go everything goes better with a kiss, isn't that right?
And I go, what the fuck is this? Who says this?
And I was like, apparently I do. I'm turning into
that guy, huh. And it's like, well, these are all
technically your children. She's a grandmama. She's roxy's technically the
way older than everyone here. She's twelve years old. Mom

(40:23):
is like five years old, but she's been through the
craziest and all the litters come from her except for
the rescue bear. Little bear was rescued and then we
had Oscar. Everyone else is a genetic trait directly from
that lady right there, the whole area, all the backyards
and everything. No, I wasn't calling you for string and

(40:47):
I love their faces. I just you know, but how
do you act? So this could be like anything. It
could be like you and your spouse, you and your child.
Your kid comes to you and goes dad, you know
why is trees leaves green?

Speaker 2 (41:01):
And You're like, bro, we talked about this before.

Speaker 1 (41:03):
He's like yeah, but I like when you tell it
to me and you go, all right, fuck out of here, kid?
Do you do that?

Speaker 2 (41:09):
That's a no bueno. But I shouldn't have to tell
you that.

Speaker 1 (41:11):
But we get frustrated in life, right Like Dad's been
working all day, maybe Mom's been working all day. Fuck,
everyone's working all the time doing something and you get
one second to yourself and then what is it? Okay,
we have to stop with the wow that part, But
where does that come from? I noticed mine moved over here.

(41:33):
It's like moved out. Do you want to sit with
me up here? I'm talking to everyone? You want to
come sleep? Tell him? Why? Why aren't you mc reggie
on the mic? No, I love you though, okay, yeah,

(41:54):
no strength, But this goes on NonStop. She'll run away
and then come back and then come sit right next
to me and then just turn her back and look
back at me like Barbers streisand in some crazy movie,
because she has the ball by eyes streisand eyes that
and mixed it. If if you drew her like Stuart Little,

(42:17):
then you get Reggie's face. See, So how do you act?
I'm already starting to feel better, which was amazing because
I almost couldn't get I couldn't get the will to
do it, but I had it. It was inside, but
I was too busy with looking at shit. O. That's

(42:38):
not contained in me. It's like over here. I'm like,
I can't be angry. I can't be frustrated. I said
to Paul the other day, Oh, I'm so mad, and
she was like, yeah, me too, And I go that
was weak, like that was internally weak, Like I sounded
like like I didn't mean it. And I was thought

(42:59):
I was pretty pretty fittss at something. You know. Now,
I'm like it was I even met a. It's being
held over here. All the commers resolved. Man, if you're
doing your work honestly coming from the guy who stabbed
Space Jesus, if you don't know this story and you
don't know me. When I met him the second time,

(43:21):
we did this thing like I can't can you do
it on camera? Like we shake I shake his hand
like that, right, So that was the first time I
was going to do it with him. The first time
I shook his hand like I touched him and I
grabbed his robe and I'm gonna start talking about his
robe and.

Speaker 2 (43:39):
Just the stain and whatever. And the second time.

Speaker 1 (43:44):
He was just right there and I go, hey, man,
you're back, and I reached out and I grabbed him.
I said, you know, it would be so fun man,
with all the crazy Space Jesus talking all the stupid
shit I do, It wouldn't be funny if I was
one of your bossles. And he looked at me and
he wouldn't let go. And I talked about this on
the show. He like, I'm like, yo, man, let me go,
Like I literally it was more than a grip. It

(44:07):
was like I was being held by a force. And
he pulls me into him and he goes, that would
be interesting, right, all right, but you're the guy that
stabbed me. And I was like, what wouldn't I would
never stab you, and he was like, but you did,
check it out right, And I'm like, I saw me

(44:30):
in a crowd of people. I saw him carrying and
this is like he had told me, I don't want
you to believe any stories about me. I was alive.
All this crazy shit happened, but they're not telling you
the right way, right. So I was like, okay, he
was just believing you can do what I can do
and more. But then I see him and he's all
skinny and shit, and he's like walking and he's a

(44:52):
lot darker than people think he is, Like he's like
not dark but not white. He's like shaded beautiful, call
what it is. He was walking by me, and I
realized because he looked super tan, little, this little goblin
looking motherfucker jumps out and he has this little helmet

(45:13):
on with the little flaps on the side. He's not
wearing a shirt. He's got like the little underpant thing
on going and like a leather thing. And he was
just if I saw this guy, I would have kicked
I would just kick him just because I saw him.
He'd come out and he had a fucking knife in
his hand, and it was like a little shit, but
he was a little guy. He jumps out and just

(45:34):
fucking stamps him, just and walks away, right back into
the crowd. He's like, and I go, oh, he looks
just like me. I knew. I saw his face when
he started screaming and chanting ah, and they were like,
that's you right there. And I started crying and crying
and crying and crying and being apologetic. He's like, man,

(45:56):
don't worry about it. We kill each other, things happen,
we relive, learn lessons. And I'm like, you gotta let me,
you gotta let go in my arm brom not having
it no more. He fucking let me go. And I
was like, I can't believe I was this guy I
walked away from like, all right, thanks man, I didn't
need that. And he was like, well, didn't need to
be stamped as well. But we forgive, you know, we

(46:18):
forget right. I'm like, oh, man, well, we all have
the things that we've done one of the beings that
we are. You think I want to talk about that
shit and be like, oh, yeah, I'm the guy that
did that. You know, that would get me fucking jumped
in a Joel Steam fucking party. They'd be like, Batman

(46:40):
is Satan? You stabbed Jesus. I'd be like, no, you
guys don't realize how the incarnation works. And shit, guys
are still stumped with that one anyway. So how do
you handle these situations? Now? How do you handle you?
What's important for you? And how are you gonna act

(47:01):
when the whole thing's crashing down and you got some
shit to do? Are you? Like the last time the
power went out here and there was like this crazy
shit going on the second time. The first time it
was great, we had everything ready to go whatever. Second time,
things weren't charged and I couldn't find them. I couldn't
find the candles, I couldn't get to things. There was
water sporting out of the fucking wall at one point

(47:23):
and it was ice cold. Oh it was terrible. And
all the electronics were right there, so I didn't want
to just rip them off the wall. That's just like
crazy gorilla style. So I'm like, I have to like
touch stuff, and then the power goes out and I'm like, okay,
I guess now I could do it. It did? It
was how are you handling it?

Speaker 2 (47:41):
And then the next day Paul and I we were
like mad at each other and you were like, fuck
that up, Frank, I'm like, I feel like I did
fuck it up. I feel like my nerves and it's like,
all right, now, let's expand it out a little bit
on this and not make it about me right now,
think about you and how you act with your own shit.

(48:05):
Because I seen a friend recently do some She talked
to me in a way no one ever talked to me.

Speaker 1 (48:11):
If she was a dude, I would have definitely thrown
down with her. And that's it. It's a wrap. I've
never heard that shit before. How would you act though?
With that happening? I was just like, don't say anything
you can't come back from. And actually she took it
ten steps further. For what happens if we land a

(48:32):
UFO and you got the guy next door that's not
good with himself, well, not even the land. It's just
floating around, right the people gonna throw rocks at it,
scream at it, faint, throw themselves out of windows, do
all kinds of shit. So the mess and the frequency

(48:52):
and the shaking and the the situation just continuously grows.
When we had the riots, right, I was like, hey,
nobody can fucking ride over here. They'll kill them. And
they came at like two in the fucking morning and
rioted up Morris Park and destroyed everything from one hundred
and eightieth. So you're looking at like a mile and
a half of stores on either side of the road

(49:16):
being damaged. At two in the morning. I was I
stayed at my grandmother's with my mother. I was with
my mother and then I'm in the house. It's like,
there's nothing to do. I had nothing to do. Is
like eight a hand four of mushrooms, and I went
out in the backyard and I'm smoking a blunt and

(49:37):
I'm thinking like, I'm glad the riots didn't come here
and whatever, and then boom, boom, gunshots start going off.
I'm like, what's that. I start hearing. It just starts
getting louder and louder, and right over the roof is
Mars Park, so I can look right over on the
angle and it's like three houses away from like an
Albanian cafe, which is huge. You totally don't want to

(49:59):
go there fuck around. But at two in the morning,
mow the fuck is over there, right. If you're in
a mob, you don't give a shit. So they came
up Marris Park and they were breaking windows and setting
shit on fire. People were shooting, and I saw fire things.
At one point helicopters, and I'm like, I'm going inside.
When I saw the helicopter, it came right down and
went boo boo booooooo, and I was like, okay, because

(50:21):
I was tripping so hard. I was like, oh my gosh,
what's happening? Go inside, you know, you know, I gotta
be part of this. So I'm eighteen houses from the
corner and I'm like, oh, they're here, They're right, they're
right there. How much close are you gonna get? How
are you gonna act? We don't know what everybody would do.

(50:41):
Oh you grabbed the gun and you stand outside. All
my neighbors weren't doing that shit that night. It was
two in the morning. I was tripping. All this was happening,
and there were hundreds of people just fucking running through
the streets, right, I was wearing a fucking onesie with
a fucking cape, okay, tripping. I was like, I'm I
hope my mother makes it through the night with me

(51:01):
and nobody gets in the fucking house and breaks any
windows or nothing. I can't tell you any more than
that because it would be incriminating any further I go
with details of what I would be able to do
to protect myself. However, the next night, because people came out,
they were like, yoh, what the fuck is going on?

Speaker 2 (51:18):
But it was already over. Everything was destroyed.

Speaker 1 (51:24):
They came out, and then it was on the news.
They were like, yo, you should go down on Mars Park.
Check it out. Everyone's out. I walked to the corner
and everyone was out and it was full destruction and
they were patching things up already, they were putting up boards.
This was the next Uh. It was maybe ten to

(51:44):
eleven in the morning, and I'm like, holy shit, this
is crazy. But everyone was out with baseball bats and stuff.
So they're like, yeah, we're meeting tonight. This was the
news through the grapevine. Tonight.

Speaker 2 (51:57):
We'll be on the streets all night.

Speaker 1 (51:59):
So we're just gonna stay out and then there's not
enough cops, so we're gonna handle it.

Speaker 2 (52:04):
And I'm like, I haven't heard people talk like this
if I'm a kid.

Speaker 1 (52:07):
I'm like, I have to come back later.

Speaker 2 (52:09):
I'm coming back because I didn't bring anything.

Speaker 1 (52:11):
I just walked down there. There were dudes everywhere. You
couldn't you couldn't drive a car in the street to
doubles double, so there's four lanes. You couldn't cross the street.
I couldn't drive through. There's just people everywhere. Everyone had
fucking weapons and everyone was so nice. There was hockey steaks,

(52:31):
kids were in full hot. That was my favorite, the
full hockey year, just like, yeah, what's up? What's up?
And cops? And I said to the cop. They had
cop cars lined up like one here and then like
staggered back in the road like you see in a
zombie movie where they're just staggering the car. So I go,

(52:52):
where the fuck are the other cops? And I was
standing at dunkin Dona to the cop goes there's seven
of us, and I look up and there's a fucking
sharpshooter right on the roof of the building. That's on
my corner and I was like, I never thought i'd
see this shit. And he was like, Yo, thank you
guys so much for coming out. He was thanking everyone,
and they all had, you know, craziness.

Speaker 2 (53:13):
But for supporting the community supporting them.

Speaker 1 (53:17):
There was construction going on in the main park and
they just shut it down and took away their funding
because Mars Park funded or took the side of the
police station. Okay, so if you follow Twitter from that night,
they were like, do not go up there. Now. We're
in a main section. So if you choose to come

(53:38):
up here, you're up here with us. There's no going back.
It's just like that one lane and you could scatter
into different but you're only going into like people's home areas.
And we know the area too well. So they made
an attempt at Giant Riots and they made the turn
right down on Mars Park and like one hundred and

(53:59):
eight and were met by everyone from down that part
of Mars Park up by mean, they never got up there.
They never came back. If they would have gotten up
by us. There was the hospitals and the schools, like
they're staggered, the schools and the hospitals.

Speaker 2 (54:14):
In my neighborhood like right with us.

Speaker 1 (54:16):
So they just ran through like they did the night before,
which they were looking to do again, and it just
didn't happen. So how much you're gonna take what's going
on internal? External? How are you gonna hold up? Now?
There was not one fight outside of that incident that
happened at all the way at the bottom of Mars Park.
So you're telling me all the people from Mars Park
that were capable of just being part of that came

(54:39):
out and didn't hurt anyone else, including themselves, and completely
stoped ryots. How do you act in those situations? Back
in the day, we would have just chased the rioters down.
We wouldn't have did it that way. We would have
all just said come on, we're going together and walked
with a crew and just met them head on. Yeah,

(54:59):
crazy shit, right, That's how it used to be in
like the fucking eighties. I was still too young to
beef in the seventies. I got beat up a few times,
but I was a little too young for that early
eighties though bullying anyway, So how do you handle it now?

(55:19):
How do you handle yourself? So Kylee was explaining with
the energy and all the intensity. It's gonna fucking lift
you in the same exact situation you were just in.
Okay go and they're all watching. And I remember last night,
I said, I closed my eyes during the meditation. I
went in the other room. I had I had to,

(55:40):
I had to go to the bathroom. And I went
in there and I closed my eyes and I saw
this blue lady. She was like a young girl, not
a little girl, but a young young girl, like a
teen girl, blue with a red thing on her head,
and she'd blue hair short. And then she went like
that and looked that way. So I just followed her

(56:01):
with my eyes closed, and it was all of these
beings were looking at us, and everyone meditating. Because I
made like a full rotation, it was like everyone was
with us. It was like one of those Avengers assemble
moments that but you didn't realize that was happening, and
everyone was there and then they were looking and it

(56:21):
was like, did we do it? Because I shouldn't be
able to stand eye to eye with you. It was
almost like they were behind a transparent glass window, like
little different guys were looking, different women, different beings, They're
all different stuff. Where they were staring at us and
they were like, and I'm like, holy shit, I think
we're doing it. I think we're doing it. This is

(56:43):
what it's all about. So naturally you do that and
you're like, yo, I'm doing it and doing it. What's
this all about?

Speaker 3 (56:48):
Okay, give it to them in action go and you're like,
fuck by the world's falling apart. I'm gonna fucking stomp
on the cat, kick the shit, throw someone out the window.
I'm not playing with the fucking string. God damn, I
fucked the blunt. Like, you just go into that mode
or you're going to recognize what's going on.

Speaker 1 (57:05):
I completely was able to pull myself out of each
individual modes. Tonight, recognize it, have this conversation with you,
which I couldn't even talk before I started this. And
then that camera shit started again. As soon as I
came on and I started typing meditation boop. I was like,
and I didn't even get in there yet. You're not
even playing fair, Like I didn't click into the camera yet.

(57:27):
You'd be shutting everything down. And then I just pushed through.
I said fuck it, and I felt it. I started
feeling it that you can I've been depressed before. I
understand that I can't just can't get up and take
the shower. You got to get up and do it,
though no one else can do it for you, and

(57:48):
you have to eventually do it. And you're in a
living organism, so it has to move where you get
things like bed sores and all kinds of smells and
weird shit girling and going on. You gotta get up
and you gotta get moving. That's what it's built for.
I understand there's depression. I understand. I've been there, but
we all have to.

Speaker 2 (58:09):
Start moving in this direction.

Speaker 1 (58:11):
Now. You have to. I mean, you relied on the
medical system for so many things that were outside of
the realm of like broken bones and shit, and then
we realized that they were just pumping us full of
oxycontins and just like throwing people's lives away, keeping them

(58:31):
contained with cancerous materials. Is still doing it. It's in
everything everything. They don't give a ship. This is how
I bring it back to base. So I'm here, but
I'm with my family and I'm ready to snap. But
they don't give a shit about me. They never did.

(58:53):
They pretend all the time. Then the TV talks a
good game and every body live and the policy tics
talks a good ship, lawyers talk good ship. None never
really gets done, does it. How much more of this
are we going to take? Well? What do I gotta do?
It's like, what are you gonna remove yourself? How the
fuck am I gonna remove myself? Well, it's like removing

(59:18):
toxic chemicals from your system. You can't bargain with them,
you can't. You know, they'll just lie to your face. No, no,
we're good, We'll leave us here, We'll just cancer. It's like, no, man,
there's a tumor right there. You gotta getta get rid
of that. You gotta purge out your system or do

(59:38):
it whatever it is you gotta do.

Speaker 4 (59:41):
Uh.

Speaker 1 (59:42):
You know, the jab shots have been fucking One of
the things these shots do is take any pre pre
pre existing conditions that you have. Sorry, I'm still a
little slow on the drawer, pre preconditions you have, and
then amplify it and they attack that. So people having

(01:00:05):
all kinds of problems and everything. And I know people
that have taken the shots, and every one of them
has had some kind of medical condition where they have
to go to the hospital. And I'm like, well, how
do you tell someone that's the shot that amplified it
now on top of this, well, that doesn't really make

(01:00:28):
it a bad thing because now they know there's a
problem where they didn't know before. So how are you
going to have a true purge without knowledge that you
have a sickness to begin with? Oh, so this thing
could be.

Speaker 2 (01:00:42):
I see where this is going, So I have to
back out.

Speaker 1 (01:00:44):
Of the argument. If then it's not an argument, I
have to just back out of the conversation and say, Okay,
you know what you guys can do if you're interested
in heavy metal, purging, detoxifications and all kinds of stuff
for whatever reason, for anything, and just leave it up
there and then slowly goo mm hmm.

Speaker 2 (01:01:10):
Whatever makes you feel better. Baby, you got to roll
in this life.

Speaker 1 (01:01:15):
See your choice, But see then that choice leads to that,
and then they find out there's a problem. So we
can't hang them and be like oh boxers verse anti vaxers,
no no more, no more separation, no more junk, no
more fighting.

Speaker 2 (01:01:34):
Either it's black or white or you know, uh, what
sex are you?

Speaker 1 (01:01:41):
And what do you have there? And then what's this?
And I don't like that? And you shouldn't say that
my god, this and your God that you gotta let
that all of it go, get filled with that energy
and still maintain through the household crazy, because that's not
gonna change. Even if you talk to your cats with telepathy,

(01:02:04):
they're still gonna shit on the floor if they want to. Okay,
so how are you gonna handle it? Ets show up?
Are you gonna just die of a heart attack. I'm
trying to show you the connections that I'm making to
how ramped up the emotional output's gonna be. And then
when you do the work, I guess emotions even though

(01:02:27):
generated from you jump out to here and it allows
you to do the same situation kind of could it
just made this a two minute conversation. It's like I'm
just waking up to it, and now how do you
handle the exact same thing? Go? And it's like, wow,
I'm gonna do well. It's not really like I'm gonna

(01:02:47):
It's like, okay, now you're doing that. Okay, now we're
gonna amplify it. The banks are crashing because this is
what's gonna have. You want the system to crash, right, Okay,
So people lose their jobs, people start going fucking crazy.
They freeze bank accounts. People can't pull money out because
the buddy the bank don't have it. And then this happens,
and that happens, and then this person and then that crew,

(01:03:08):
and then BLM shows up, and then it goes on
and on and on and on and on. Okay, how
you doing? Oh, by the way, there's a UFO here.
It comes. It looks like it's gonna park itself right
on your lawn.

Speaker 2 (01:03:19):
You got a thirty by thirty right there? How you
holding up?

Speaker 1 (01:03:22):
And you're like, I can't take it no more? And
it's like, well, what's wrong? What's wrong? You wanted the
system to collapse. You wanted the whole thing to change.
You wanted the bitcoin to go up. So if I
go up, you gotta go down and the like come on.
Then there's what you want to and then there's your
star family. Okay, go how you doing? And I'm like

(01:03:42):
I get it. They're masters of the energy. We got
to master this shit or we're gonna These are just teachers,
colle Shiva. They're great teachers, the energy teachers. And then
you master them and move into the next thing. But
you'll always have that now when you're It's like when
you earn a belt in karate, right, you keep that

(01:04:09):
forever and you know that stuff. It's the same thing
working with the energies, and then you just continuously grow
inside of that so you can reach a certain point.
And then I guess this was weird to me. There's
no feeling in here. This is why I'm kind of

(01:04:29):
rambling about it. I'm not even really that like it's
discharging from me, but landing over here. So it's there's
a little anger. It really goes away to get out
of here. Here's a thought I have, yeah, like that one,
and then here's the action figure I was thinking of, Oh,

(01:04:52):
look there it is that makes me feel groovy, all right,
this is Paul all that makes me feel like, oh oh,
there's that emotion. It's over here. And then it's just accessible.
But I can't keep in any of this stuff anger, rage, frustration.
But it also turns me into a droning zombie now
because what the fuck am I doing? And they're like, ah,

(01:05:16):
so that's the next part. And now you're down and
you're like, oh, I got all this stuff happening all
around me. I'm able to access and pull it in.
I feel empty inside. I feel empty. I'm like, are
you really depressed?

Speaker 5 (01:05:30):
No?

Speaker 2 (01:05:32):
Are you unhappy? Well, the world's kind of sucky, but
am I unhappy person?

Speaker 1 (01:05:37):
Not really?

Speaker 2 (01:05:37):
Momfu, No, what's wrong with you? Look at your face?

Speaker 1 (01:05:42):
I'm right, it's kind of doing my thing. So now
what is that? Frank just went emo on you. They're like, ah,
now you have to learn how to fill yourself with
the energy, and now conduct what you're going to conduct.
Do what it is your going to do, because the
energies are all frequencies, like like book pages just stacked

(01:06:06):
on top of each other, and you're just accessing them
and moving and doing stuff throughout your day, and then
this stuff happens. It's almost like there's an alchemical thing
happening at every point of every moment of every day
with everything inside, the entire everything.

Speaker 2 (01:06:27):
And then we come in and where the masters of
alchemy bang?

Speaker 1 (01:06:30):
You like that, right, keV, I snuck that one in there,
all right, tired of sneak and looks at my cats.
It's time to do this. So we talked enough. I've
been talking for I've been talking for an hour. Holy shit,
we're supposed to be meditating I do this every time. Okay,

(01:06:51):
So I want to kind of talk about something real quick.
So tonight's mantra. It's a colleague mantra. We're gonna do
it one hundred and ny times. The music set to
twelve minutes and nine seconds, so it's gonna excuse me,
it's gonna do it. And what they're saying, they're saying,

(01:07:13):
We've talked about this last night. There's words like ohm right,
cream kring aim. Those are seed. They're called seed mantras
that are like a single word that you turn into
a tone, repeated a certain amount of times, one hundred

(01:07:34):
eight times. It starts to you start to develop something
more like more of an ability. So tonight I'm gonna
explain the ability part. Hold up, so get your stages
and get your waters and your candles lit now while
you go through the explanations. So it's ome cream kla

(01:07:56):
que namaha. Right, you're like, well, what is that. I'm
from the Bronx. I heard that the first time. I
was like, I don't even know what you're talking about,
seam and Jimmy said it. He used to teach me
this stuff, and.

Speaker 2 (01:08:08):
I'm like, man, I don't even fucking know what you're saying.

Speaker 1 (01:08:11):
Then he played this for me and I sang along
with it, and I was like, oh, this is pretty simple.
This one's pretty simple because some of them are really
difficult and I don't get into all that. I could
still pull to that energy, calling it phil If I'm
that hard up having a very difficult mantra, like I

(01:08:32):
don't need the Ganesha mantras that are like eight pages long.
I just got to be like, hey, happy Ganessha, I
love you, I love me. I want to do you know,
so you can make it easier for yourself, but I
need to learn. This was my point. I was a
Bronx kid as a meathead. So ohm cream kyla ka
na maha, okay. So the meaning held to the goddess

(01:08:55):
Kalie bless us with who has consciousness, insightful mind, make
us intelligent and wise. The benefits of chanting this mantra
blesses one with immense wisdom and knowledge.

Speaker 2 (01:09:08):
And so I was like, Wow, that's pretty cool. Actually, man,
you're telling me.

Speaker 1 (01:09:13):
If I say I can't think and I'm not wise
to something and I don't have the power to make
it through it and just just say this is fun
hard man, and I don't understand I can do this
and kind of enjoy it while I use ones that
are kind of enjoyable. They're on the ears and to

(01:09:35):
say along with them. Man, when you start chanting this
stuff and you get into a rhythm with it, because
you're not chanting some old stuff. This is played on
music that's kind of like bumpy, and it's got a
good vibe to it. So you could kind of like
move your butt kind of and sing along. You don't
have to sit in your chair and breathe. Then take

(01:09:56):
ground must be complete. No, you could start clean in
your house to this. Because Colleie likes movement. Energy likes movement,
so this is an excellent time to do that. And
I'm like, wow, that's pretty crazy. But if you do
sit there and concentrate and just say along or do
it yourself, what happens, Well, it's almost trance like and

(01:10:20):
then you transaut to the energy and then you start
to feel the change within you and around you. You
begin to feel the wisdom growing in the connection to
what in you would make you because it's really working
with you. Wise, you're not collecting really with an outside source.
You're all it's coming here to you. The energy of

(01:10:41):
this is coming and I must understand it to Oh
that's what it does. Now, let me use it. And
it works with other thoughts that you're having. So like
with me, I have trouble with carpentry. I was cut
troubles with angles and the opposite side. I'll do one
side real good. The other side, I'm like so confused,
and I have to call football. And she's a left

(01:11:02):
and she comes out and she goes, oh, it's like this,
this and this, and I go, you just see it,
but I see it on the other side, but I'm stuck.

Speaker 2 (01:11:08):
She'll go, yeah, I can't look at you looking at
this for another hour.

Speaker 1 (01:11:11):
You have to just do it right so you can
come back to yourself and take that breath, can light
your sage, and that's what we're doing right now, right,
and you can you can ground yourself, grow those roots
to deep into the earth. You tell me we can
grow roots deep into the earth. Yes, energetically, you've grow
your roots deep into the earth, sir, Yes, ma'am. You

(01:11:34):
do that, and then what's going to happen. I don't know.
You gotta down far enough. Well, how do I know
if I'm far enough, you feel nice and a woman
connected to the great all of the planet, Why, yes,
I do.

Speaker 2 (01:11:44):
Well, then I guess we're in Oh oh this is good.

Speaker 1 (01:11:48):
Now what Well? Now you can take any energy that
comes at you, and you can control it because you're
a creator energy master. Really yeah, Well, if you weren't grounded,
you'd explode like a lightning rod, not stuck in the ground.

Speaker 2 (01:12:03):
And that's what makes you shake and freak out. And
I don't know, and.

Speaker 1 (01:12:08):
I'm so afraid, and what do I do and what's
going on? Well, one thing at a time. Let's work back.
There's that deep breath and let it out. Oh, I
kind of I'm starting to feel a little bit better.
Everyone that second breath, I'm really starting to enjoy. This

(01:12:35):
feeling is so much better than that shaky stuff was
going on before. Man, that stage smells delicious, and I'm
already feeling clean and clear.

Speaker 2 (01:12:52):
Well that's how this works. Excellent, Now we already.

Speaker 1 (01:13:00):
So if you choose to do a lung, say along,
you'll notice the trans like state that your mind and
body will get into. And then these energies that promote
wisdom and knowledge, and.

Speaker 2 (01:13:16):
I don't want to call them blessings, but.

Speaker 1 (01:13:18):
Like uber good energy from the beyond, it's all there
for you to take into you. And the energy because
it's colleague is feminine and this is the rising of
the sacred feminine. And here we are. Okay, so this
is twelve minutes and nine seconds. We're going to just

(01:13:40):
rock out on this, come back for a few minutes,
see how you feel, and then we'll call it a night.

Speaker 2 (01:13:45):
But try to get into it. It's not always about
sitting around.

Speaker 1 (01:13:49):
I'm really shaking it up a little bit with the
new mantras, so you're not just sitting there kind of
hoping and praying away. I want to give you something
to live for, something to move to. All Right, so
let's start about.

Speaker 6 (01:14:24):
Oh Cleen College again, Concree College, Green Colic, a Yank
con clean calls, m oh Cleen College a yank come

(01:14:49):
clean college, clean College, a yank clean collars again clean College,
and the clean color a.

Speaker 7 (01:15:13):
Clean called again, clean called again Colic again.

Speaker 5 (01:15:42):
This side, I am a powerfully.

Speaker 7 (01:15:53):
Called again gli algon cal oh coll ang.

Speaker 1 (01:16:44):
In col.

Speaker 7 (01:16:49):
Colic a clean cold my side, I've all allegan oh

(01:18:25):
Cola and mom breed in cols called a color again,
oh creen coless mo, creed, cols.

Speaker 1 (01:18:54):
Cal.

Speaker 7 (01:18:58):
Cals again called calsa calic clean cal. Call it's side.

(01:19:45):
I am awfully call the gall.

Speaker 6 (01:20:01):
Oh call the animal causing called an calls it's on

(01:21:16):
my side, A powerful.

Speaker 7 (01:21:26):
Galli gall balls like.

Speaker 6 (01:22:24):
Oh creen colss mom, creed cols, creed cal you concreed cals.

Speaker 7 (01:22:43):
O cals con clean colson cals a young creep gal

(01:23:23):
on the side. Im afull.

Speaker 1 (01:23:38):
A h.

Speaker 7 (01:24:18):
Oh waen call a clean cala called.

Speaker 6 (01:24:34):
Clean glass. He calls on.

Speaker 5 (01:24:59):
Side as could being up all de gal.

Speaker 4 (01:25:18):
Am All right, hold on, I want to just come

(01:26:22):
back here for a second, take a moment, and.

Speaker 1 (01:26:28):
Welcome back. There are so many ways to do this everyone.
I was just being shown some crazy stuff that's beautiful,
beyond beautiful. Like I'm tight, I need to stretch all
this weird stuff. They like, get up out of your chair,
like your sage. You don't at your sage, do your

(01:26:49):
sage like they laugh about it. Almost, come on, do
your ritual. Okay, now are you ready? Now? Are you ready?
And I'm like yes, I'm ready, Yes, I'm ready, And
they're like, okay, stretch to the left. That you're like,
come on, not straategy. I'm like, oh, this feels good.
This feels good. And then I do like this sweeping
moment movement, and then it looked like one side of
me that I was sweeping to had multiple arms. And

(01:27:11):
then like butterfly wings. I know this sounds weird, but
it was like energetic butterfly wings. So they were like purple,
like light purple, and they were like they were really pretty,
and they were they were moving. Everything was moving, and
I was like, whoa, what is that? And then in
between the old cream calicating Namaha, the in between parts

(01:27:38):
with the ladies not saying it on the song, I
was saying it. So it's almost like you do I do?
You do? I do? I do?

Speaker 5 (01:27:48):
You do? You do?

Speaker 4 (01:27:49):
I do?

Speaker 1 (01:27:49):
Right? So I was just playing with it and they're like,
do you see how easy this is? I'm like, oh wait, wait, wait,
my leg my leg Oh yeah, that feels great. I
almost search my back right now. It's like it's like
the central sun is in me, if that makes sense,
like in my forehead blazing and that. They're like, this

(01:28:09):
should be easy, Frank, Frank, it should be easy. Tell
them it should be easy. At first, you might, Am
I saying it right? Am I doing it right?

Speaker 4 (01:28:20):
Just do it?

Speaker 1 (01:28:22):
You hear how it sounds, you hear how it goes.
Just do it now.

Speaker 2 (01:28:25):
Not every meditation we do is going to be like
this is just under the full moon.

Speaker 1 (01:28:28):
Something I'm trying to teach, And there's gonna be something
I'm gonna try to teach right now. Michael, I was
doing the same thing. I'm like, fulla walks out here,
She's gonna think I'm a weirdo because I was.

Speaker 2 (01:28:40):
Really getting hit moment movements going.

Speaker 1 (01:28:43):
But I was kind of playing with it, like sciencing
myself because now I'm seeing all this other stuff that
I've never seen before.

Speaker 2 (01:28:51):
And They're like, no, what are you thinking of? And
I'm like, once again, my thoughts are now over here.

Speaker 1 (01:28:59):
I detached and somebody people in the room were saying,
it's like an attachment. I guess that's a good thing
because it allows for the one thing to occur at
a time. And I said, all that craziness that I
was feeling, all that anger, rage, frustration, crazy, but that
we're out here, so there's attach to it. I'm still

(01:29:19):
shaking and feeling weird, but now I feel really good.
All of a sudden, they're like, well, you're you're focused. Also,
like so you're like singing along, you're saying the words.
The words are creating a vibration and a frequency, and
the girls saying it's creating the vibration and frequency. It's
on music, so it's playing in a vibration of frequency
and the sound surround you. And then you're saying it,
so your sound is coming up out of you, creating

(01:29:42):
the sound. How do you feel.

Speaker 2 (01:29:46):
I'm like, I feel really good, man. And I looked
up and it was over.

Speaker 1 (01:29:52):
I was like, no, that's not the end. And then
I'm like, no, that's the end. The eyes came up,
and then I had to come over real quick because
you kind of start having fun in it, and I forgot.

Speaker 2 (01:30:01):
I'm like, yeah, we're doing We're live right now. I'm
just sitting.

Speaker 1 (01:30:05):
The flag. I pushed the chair here, push the chair
out over here, so I could like just do a
half squat and kind of I don't want to just
sit on the wooden floor it's cold. But then I
gotta stretch my leg, oh my hips out, and I'm
doing all these weird things and having these thoughts like
I don't even know where to start. I'm still not
feeling the groovy. A all of a sudden, this feels

(01:30:27):
good and I'm visually seeing what I can do, and
the energy has trails, and I start moving my arms
differently and then stretching my arms all the way to
one side all the way to the other side, reaching
for the sky, just to take a deep breath and
see where it's at. Oh, it looks like I have wings.
This is great. What if I just kind of moved

(01:30:48):
my arms in and then did this movement. Oh, that
feels really good on my muscles. Doing that ten times
is like just pretty much what my doctor told me
to do for my shoulder every day. So I'm just
gonna do it like I'm flying like a bird. Look
what's happening. Looks like I'm emanating energy from every direction. Okay, Frank,
how do you feel? I'm like, I feel great. I'm

(01:31:08):
in the middle of this. This is amazing. What about
all that other stuff? I'm like, what other stuff? Oh shit,
We're in the middle of doing something, aren't we. And
they're like, no, no, no, you're they're doing You're live, yes,
but there they are doing theirs. You're doing yours, And
I'm like, oh, okay, that's how lost I got right
into something great. So is that twelve minutes and nine

(01:31:33):
seconds worth it? It only takes that because of the
lady in the song and how it's pasde out and everything.
People get all frustrated and they're like, oh, I do
it really fast. I get through one hundred eighty times,
now one hundred eight times. Is so you break the
outer thoughts. The repetition keeps the singular sentence in your

(01:31:55):
mind nothing else can penetrate, thus allowing you more more
access to more. That's what that's for. You're not calling
in demons and monsters. They're doing something great for yourself.
This thing is like multi level great. And there's all
kinds I've talked on the show about doing the seed
mantras like dome dome, just like doing oh oh.

Speaker 2 (01:32:24):
Right, people do that all day one of their versions
of it.

Speaker 1 (01:32:28):
Okay, So the picture I have up on the screen
a picture of a carpet with like all kinds of
images on it, like this image, and we've both seen
them before, like a Persian rug or something. And I

(01:32:49):
talked to you about magic carpets and how they really work.
So if we were to look at this, it has
symbols apparently some kind of flower thing in a box,
and so it could be a room. I don't know that.
As four entry ways. It's got the upside down pyramid

(01:33:15):
with the triangles within the triangles within the triangles inside
the circle, like there's a lot happening here inside you know,
the flowers and inside another circle. So is it a
room of some kind? What is that?

Speaker 2 (01:33:26):
Is it just an image? Is this all somebody thought
that was cool?

Speaker 1 (01:33:28):
Our law? No, So we hear from people all the
time and say, I see these symbols, I don't know
what they mean, And I tell you, the symbols spin
and reveal things. Okay, Now if that started spinning in
different directions, one goes one way, one goes the other,
the other goes the other way. What winds up happening
is as this look into the image and these images

(01:33:52):
are seen. This is why I said on the rug
and the flying carpets. This is why they have those
images on there. They come to they pull out of
that into three D. So everything starts to form around you,
which is why when you go to like India and
you or if you just look at pictures and you
see some of their temples are built like that. If

(01:34:12):
you look up from the sky, it looks like this
image when you look down on it, is what I'm saying.
And then somebody is actually inside that temple praying, oh,
so what are you saying. I'm saying that they represent
these other worldly things. But I think when I look
at this, I see a conductor unit of some kind

(01:34:33):
of energy, conduction unit, an area on a conductor that
conducts energy or some kind Now I could be wrong,
but when I see them spin, it generates energy. So
I'm guessing this thing runs on some form of electricity.
That's all I'm saying. So now I'm looking at it, going,
uh so, like a little computer nod nodule on a

(01:34:56):
capacitor or something. And then this one's like this and
it generates this color, So we're gonna put that one
over here. They generate with this color, okay, And then
you realize that not only this is as big as above,
so below it's a circuit board with all the information

(01:35:16):
on it, but it's an organic circuit board with consciousness
on it, allowing you access to the holographic reality that
is you. You can access your cash from your rooms,
from your symbols that spin in that reveal different things
around you. These are like rooms within you, but you're
in a hologram, so it's stored within these images and

(01:35:39):
signs and symbols, which is like light language that people
keep seeing. See if I dissected this and then put
it in a beam of light and like like in
Star Wars, like the intro where it says chapter eleven,
you started that, it's like moving back out of the
screen so you could read it, and then it goes
off back into the galaxy. If I could pull this
apart like that, you would see what I'm talking about. See,

(01:36:00):
I'm just stretching the whole thing out. You go, holy shit,
look at that. And then it snaps all back together, boop,
and it's in you now. Guys would sit on these
Persian rugs and they would talk about flying carpets. They
would trip balls, they would eat mushrooms or do whatever
it's psychedelic they're doing, and they'd sit on these with
the desired symbols on it, and then they would The

(01:36:26):
carpet doesn't go anywhere, but the symbols grow up out
of the carpet and form the intricate grid or the
city or the rooms that you're about to enter, because
you can enter them in their rooms, but looking at
them from here, it's a capacitor of some kind of energy. Obviously,
we're we're activating with colleague, and we're using the cream

(01:36:49):
and the the ome, so these are the symbols that
reside in this to access that. So we're going to
access that. But then we're looking at it, and then
you kind of dive into it. It kind of becomes
a three D holographic thing. If you spin it, it
comes to life right in front of you. But you
could go into it as well and then wind up
inside of some beautiful room, probably the home of the

(01:37:09):
energy of the Kyle, the energy how it develops or
how it.

Speaker 2 (01:37:12):
Comes out, or how it's accessed through certain ways.

Speaker 1 (01:37:15):
Right. So, now you're sitting on your Persian carpet, the
flying carpet, and the symbols come up and form the
rooms around you, and it's like you're traveling into these
new areas accessible. But they were very specific images that
they would have on the carpet. See we look at
them today and we're like, oh, it's just a beautiful picture,

(01:37:36):
but they'm telling you some of the designs are spiritual
in nature. Is that the best way to put it? So?
And it's funny. I watched Spider Man last night and
I'm no spoilers or nothing. I wound up finding a
copy online. Go figure.

Speaker 2 (01:37:55):
It was pretty good too. The copy was the best movie.

Speaker 1 (01:37:58):
But they had the arc reactor from Iron Man in it.
And this is this is going to be my point.
So the arc reactor kind of looks like that. I'm
looking at it now, going you know, that kind of
looks like the Ark reactor from Iron Man. Now, naturally
it's slightly different, but if you blow it up and
look at it, you oh yeah, I can see this.

(01:38:19):
And I'm sure there's a hundred other images for other
Shiva mantras or whatever mantra that you can find where
the symbols and signs look like a certain way that
would make you go, oh shit, yeah, look it's an
ARC reactor. How do we know that the guy designing
it didn't even be like he might have based it
on that and we're not even realizing it. So he

(01:38:40):
might be a guy who does like yoga and shit,
and when he's trying to design the ARC Reactor for
the movies. Designs it and the technical detailed aspects make
it look like one of these things. So when we're
looking at it, you're like, yeah, it's Iron Man. Yeah,
you feel this connection to it and everything, and you're like,
holy shit, yeah, you know, And whenever they show you

(01:39:01):
his you know, a Cap has the shield, Hulk has
like a green fist, I don't know. Iron Man has
the symbol from his chest, which is the ARC reactor,
and that always changes in all the different movies, so
it's almost like it's changing, just like the different mantras.
So you'd be looking at that and you're down with it.
You're like, oh, I like this guy. But if you

(01:39:22):
pulled back everything, all the details and the chrome and
this plating and that plating, it really you could sit
that image in there and you wouldn't fucking know the
difference if they just came out and said, yeah, this
is ARC Reactor. Oh yeah, looks great. But then you're
drawn to it as well because you spiritually know what
it is, subconsciously know what the fuck that symbol is.

(01:39:44):
You're like, oh god, this is great, But that's why
you're bugging out on the character. They kind of loop
you in with stuff like that. It's like, that's showing
it to you right in your fucking face. Now. I
didn't even make that connection till just now, only because
I just I saw it. There's like a scene where
the guy has and then the other guy takes it
from him and he's like aha, and they show it
right up close, and I'm like, oh, look, look it's that.

(01:40:08):
So these are great things to learn. I hope I'm
helping in one way or another. I hope this this
is you find some kind of balance and meaning in this,
and then it brings you to look at the next thing.
Because I'm going to move on Tomorrow's Ganesh as we
bow out of the full moon and we finish off

(01:40:30):
the the Sacred Trilogy tear. I call it Shiva, Kali
and Ganesh, and then that's the the father and the
Mother and the Son together. So they asked me to
do that with a Ganesh going out tomorrow and the
next rest of the day is going through is whatever

(01:40:51):
I want so well, I want this too, So that's
not I don't want to sound like that. I want
this as well. And I do this stuff on the
regular my own versions of this. I pump this in
the shower sometimes and I just shave my head. It
takes me at least fifteen minutes sometimes, and I just
take it slow and I'll just say it. I'll breathe in,
breathe out, do what I gotta do, and I start

(01:41:14):
to just feel better, even if it's from the way
I was feeling earlier to the way I feel now,
Even if it's just this momentarily short period of time
from now to like let's say two in the morning,
where it works, isn't that worth it? If something works
ten percent in your favor, isn't that ten percent better
than zero? Like you got nothing? So we know how

(01:41:36):
it turns out. If you do nothing, nothing happens. But
if you do this, it's ten percent better. But over
time it's a thousand percent better.

Speaker 4 (01:41:46):
Right, So.

Speaker 1 (01:41:49):
It turns into one of those things. Bet you like that.
See Kevin sending me stuff, So I'm sure he found
some kind of something and he sended it over to
me to check. So when you see these signs and
symbols and these beautiful tapestries with your chakras on it,

(01:42:11):
the yellow chakra, and you are in chakra. They all
have these symbols too. That's entry way into those areas, right,
So we're designed like that inside the hologram and this
freaks people out. It's like I said it to the
kid yesterday. He goes, I was on a control board.
I know it. I go, because we're in a fucking hologram.
I'm telling you guys. And then I don't even know

(01:42:31):
why I said it like that. And then he goes,
what do you mean we're in a hologram? I go, well,
why else would he be standing at a control board
if we weren't inside something? And he goes, yeah, go
are you spirit or are you flesh? Well? Flesh for
the moment, but I'm always spirit. Okay, so you're from
over there and you're controlling shit? Right? Yeah, I go,
But we're in a matrix of sorts, right, it's like
a digital component to it. It's oh yeah, yeah, for sure. Okay,

(01:42:54):
so we're in the hole ground shit changes frequency all
of a sudden. The tree was there, now the tree
is not there. What is that? Why would that happen
in real life? Think about this. It's like, well, I'm like, right,
because we're in frequency matrix training we're inside the fucking
hole agram learning how to use our power. So when

(01:43:15):
we come back out of this shit, we're humble and
we have these experiences. We learn how to use it
by losing it and not having it. And then you
know in time is not an issue to the beings
on the other side, because they all look like they're laughing,
having a good old fucking time. Isn't that right, fellas right?

(01:43:38):
So you get there, they're like, yeah, you made it, bro,
what's up? I'm like you guys always hanging out and
having dinner or just chilling like doing your thing, running
around in fields and shit, like what are you doing?
What do you do? And it's there playing the game?
What are you playing the game for? Guys are obviously
jacked out of your mind, like built muscular and the feminine.

(01:43:58):
There's really feminine here full like, so what are you doing?
Like we're building up right. I always had this thought, Okay,
check it out. If you were born with superpowers and
no one taught you how to use them, and you
just started using them and you could use telekinesis, telepathy,
things that we that we are looking forward to, you know,

(01:44:20):
and then all the weirder stuff. So what if you
just started using it? What if you just thought, you know,
this teacher sucks, kill yourself and the teacher throws herself
out the window. Now, I know that sounds unrealistic. However,
on the other end of things, if you were that powerful,
wouldn't that happen? Well obviously, but I wouldn't do that.
How do you have Look, we go through this school,

(01:44:42):
so we don't create dudes like that, right, even though
there's shit going on in here like that. It's a
learning training program because you die in here, you just
bop out and you go into another experience. What does
what is that? Tea? What does that mean? Think about this?
Really fucking deep? Are we inside of program? A giant

(01:45:04):
holographic simulation training program for your heart? So you learn
what it's like to lose everything over lifetimes and then
gain it back. It's one of the programs called Earth right,
This is the experience experience Earth and come out and graduate. Well,
what the fuck is graduating? What are we graduating from?

Speaker 2 (01:45:26):
And where are we going?

Speaker 1 (01:45:27):
And what is this adding to our rasta? Do we
go someplace else? What the fuck is going on here?
It seems to me like people are entering an experience
and they get some kind of physical flesh avatar that
when you look under a microscopic microscope, the fucking super microscope,
nothing's touching, so you're pixelated. It's just circular and spinning.

(01:45:52):
But it's got really good details. But what do they
always tell you? What do the masters always tell you?
Nothing is real? Nothing's real. You're inside a fucking hologram.
Let's use the verbiage we have now that they did
not have. Then you're in a holographic reality. Well it
makes total sense now that when you're like, well, I
don't fear death, so once you don't get that upper

(01:46:14):
hand on me, I can fucking go as I must. Right,
And then you're like, holy shit, you have these intense
experiences and then if you do die like of I
don't want to say it like this, but it's obviously
like this. Like a video game, you fucking put your
two cents back into it and you're back in. Now,

(01:46:37):
did we have deception and bullshit go on? That would
soul sucking machines that send you back in without your permission? Yes,
we did. That would be like bullies just putting twenty
five cents back into the game and shoving you back
in and then playing your character. You're like, what are
you doing? It's my turn? So yeah, we did have that,
but we've been here for a long time, a real
long time, like forever forever. Doing all these different experience

(01:47:00):
is over and over and over and over. And what
the fuck does infinite mean? I asked what infinite was
and they showed me a sphere and I said okay,
and they were like, okay, you finished that one, so
you would infinite, and you finish that infinite. But now
you're at this infinite. I'm like what And I saw
this blue sphere and I said, no, it wasn't Earth.

(01:47:21):
It was like the whole thing. It was like the
whole thing that's going to happen from the very beginning
to the very end for me inside that. But I'm infinite.
I'm like, I could reaccess that anytime you want. But
you cleared it, so you're infinite. You cleared it, though,

(01:47:43):
oh my god, thought infinite just goes on forever. He's like, okay,
well here's the one you're at living it. Oh that
one's red. I like that color. Oh there, I am
right there, and then I'm infinite. Into the next one.
But I'm sitting in a bay. Liservos could tell you
about being in space with me and looking out the

(01:48:05):
window and going are we in space? And I'm like,
I guess, so just like that. Oh gosh, I hope
I don't take it too far sometimes because my mind
will just start becoming showing me the way to try
to teach it, but on the craziest scale, because I
work on a weirder scale than most. Like I get

(01:48:27):
into it, I get involved with the detail. They're like,
how do you remember this?

Speaker 2 (01:48:30):
I'm like, I don't know.

Speaker 1 (01:48:30):
It's kind of my gift.

Speaker 2 (01:48:31):
It's like I see it, and how do you see
something and not remember it?

Speaker 1 (01:48:35):
You know, further down the line, if you ask me
what shade of green or reptilian is the further along,
I haven't seen one. I'll just say it's green, right.
And then when as I start seeing how oh yeah,
there's the shade that that's the one that I saw
over there, there's the shade of that one over there,
you start to grow away from that shit. All right,

(01:48:56):
I'm checking out. I know. I can feel it in
my in my heart that we got the up and
we got the end. I look at it, it's twelve
forty four and Kevin, for some reason, they're not even
gonna let me access my Facebook messenger while I'm on

(01:49:17):
the stream yard right now.

Speaker 2 (01:49:20):
Oh, there's serve us right there. I love you, brother,
I'll be seeing you soon.

Speaker 1 (01:49:26):
So yeah. Archetypes, angels, demons, they are inside your chapras,
and you do your hard work and you clear them out.
That's what you're doing. You're clearing everything out. You're going internal.

(01:49:49):
I think you guys all been there. I think my
psychedelic crew knows exactly what I'm talking about. We ride
the computer chip lines that look like wormholes to us
as we're tripping, and we're like, oh, it's a portal,
where's it going and why does it have all these
groovy signs and symbols? And then you pop out in
this other destination. If you just take a motherboard chip apart,
and you'd be like, yo, you traveled from here to here.

(01:50:12):
But inside you, it's like, damn, that's what we're doing. Yes,
nothing is real outside of you. What see? It just
goes into these weird fucking things. We're definitely projecting our

(01:50:32):
consciousness inside of some kind of technology that launches it
into something that's like wi fied universally by the way,
it's not like something we have and they don't like
Wherever that side is and that frequency where they're we're
projecting in and doing Everyone can do it, so there's
all just different beings doing it, which is why we're
all sourced. But there's all different beings doing it. Oh yeah,

(01:50:54):
So as a baby, if I was to just get
up and start, you know, I had hulks strength and
was just smashing things, you would have to teach me
how to use my strength so I could scramble eggs
without breaking the kitchen. Right, So you need that training.
Where would you put me to train me for that?
You would take me. You'd put my body down in

(01:51:15):
a chair and you'd be like, okay, relax, this isn't
gonna hurt. And you would send me into the matrix
and go, okay, now give him his strength in there,
show him what he can fucking do. Now, look what
it does. If you crush someone's head, if you kick
someone's butt, if you go take over the town, Okay,
well here it goes. You're treated like a god. No,

(01:51:36):
da dah, it's a guy. You could kill the world,
and then all of a sudden he loses his power
a little bit at a time, and then you start
losing and losing and losing, and then you're like, I
don't know it's happening to me. It's the must be
the density of the new planet Earth that I'm on. Aha.
While you're on the inside and the outside they're going
ahs time, he's gonna lad and you lose your fucking ability.
But everyone's still saying your source. You're a source, but

(01:51:58):
you're only a two strand source. You're not a twelve
strand source that used to be a twelve strand hulk source.
But you're not that anymore. And then you start working
your way back and realizing you're the magic, and you
gain wisdom, experience, respect for yourself, love for one another.
You learn how to treat women, you learn how to
treat men, you learn how to treat animals, you learn

(01:52:19):
how to grow symbiotically with your fucking environment, all of
these amazing things. And then you wake up out of
the tank and you're like, oh shit, and you have
hull strength for real. And now you go out into
the world and you're like, oh, let me help you
with that, imagine having telepathy and you're just telling people

(01:52:41):
you fill in their minds. You've all seen the villain
right telling the person don't kill yourself, or the guy
collecting everyone for himself and then taking all their shit,
like showing fucked up things in people's minds or lifting
them up and throwing them out a window good old
Darth vaded force choke fashion style. What if that's option

(01:53:02):
A and we don't realize it. The force joke like
option A is you lash out and you kill your
best friend. Yeah, you choke them and they fucking dead.
How does that make you feel? Now? It's like, ah,
so you live and you learn, You learn and you live,

(01:53:25):
You gain experience through through you go through the experience,
and you gain wisdom and you repower up with an
understanding of who you are and what you're capable of doing.
Man if I did this, bro, if I yell shut
up at the baby screaming, its head explodes, it dies
because I'm like, fuck you, nobody loves you and you're

(01:53:47):
just joking, but you're so powerful. It just you're dead.
It's like, Wow, what if you had ibeams that came
out and could just to them other, you know, and
they're done. Would you just do it? Okay, now you're
on the outside. You're born with this stuff ready to go,

(01:54:11):
and it activates when you're fourteen or something. I'm just
making it up right, right, And they put you in
the pod at the right time, because everyone as they
go through puberty starts to activate or something. They go okay,
So by twelve we put them in the pod and
they start learning, they go through the experience, and then
you come out and you're like fourteen, and you're done

(01:54:31):
because time isn't relevant there. You're just in there for
a little bit. You could be there for ten minutes
for all I fucking know. Go in, plug in. Oh
that was a great experience. Unplugged. You're done. Would you
do I did Earth? I did Earth. I send it
from source to nothing to full separation, well what I
thought was full separation, and then realize I wasn't separated

(01:54:54):
and made my way all the way back up to
source and cleared the entire place. And now I'm done,
and then you come out. You use your ability. I've
asked them those weird questions. I've asked the wing makers.
I call them that. Why you're the wing maker. He's like, yep,
I go. You guys are just programmers opening the program
in any weirdo moment, sticking your head in and going, hey,

(01:55:14):
let me tell you something like message from the outside
without it coming through an animal or a whisper in
my ear. You literally, hey, guys, what's up. I'm like, oh, there,
you could do that. It's like, well, yeah, you're in
the hologram. It's all a hologram. What the whole thing?

(01:55:38):
So you wake up from the matrix inside the matrix, holom,
So there's the evil dark matrix or trying to get
rid of and then you wake up from that and
it's just the real hologram. But it's a hologram. Nonetheless, Well,
what about five D hologram twelvety haul a ram one

(01:56:04):
hundred and forty six twenty two D Polleran No such thing,
but can be now as we create as we go, Holo.
But what about out here real life? Well we're what
do you mean in real life? Well out here is
real over there space? Well, wouldn't that be perspective and
perception and awareness? Bingo.

Speaker 2 (01:56:29):
I'm like, you know what, hands up, don't shoot, and
then go you get it?

Speaker 1 (01:56:35):
You'll get it, you'll see it, you'll witness it, you'll
be part of it, you'll grow through it, you'll expand,
you'll evolve, and it'll happen.

Speaker 2 (01:56:46):
And all this blissfully takes us with the nitrous as if.

Speaker 1 (01:56:51):
We were in fast and furious eleven Ah, and sends
us right up the road and off the cliff. But
don't worry. We're good because the cliff is God. You're God.
The nitrous is God. You know what I'm saying. The
landing is God like it's all. It's all gonna be good.
But you got to do a little bit of your stuff.

(01:57:19):
Clones it for another time. We'll talk about them later. Now,
sign to smoke some pot. And you shouldn't be praying
to anyone. Let me tell you right now how I
feel about praying. If you're praying to a being, Okay,
I have.

Speaker 2 (01:57:39):
Many beings right here?

Speaker 1 (01:57:48):
Do I pray to her? Should I? Oh? Mother, I
love you, That's what I tell her. So I don't know.
That might be a form of prayer, right, but it doesn't.
Oh my come save me, Oh Jesus, space, Jesus, come
find us. And I don't do that. I do this

(01:58:12):
whole respectful other thing. You're my family or friend, you're
an associate. I'm source. See, I don't know how you
all see yourselves. I'm source. So I'm just kind across
the board and respectful. That's it. Shouldn't technically you be

(01:58:34):
praying to me, and I don't mean it like that.
I meant the other things out there technically, well, I'm sourced.
Well we're all sourced. No, but I'm literally going to
change into a light being. See now we're getting into
these so then okay, we don't pray to Frank on
this level, but we pray to them on this level
or that or okay, wait if the access is the
door to this level, so prayer has a weird thing.
I think Saint Clair's did this to me, but I'll

(01:58:57):
just call to them. I need to speak to you.
I've had my entire ayahuasca trips and mushrooms trips stopped
because I go, okay, that's it enough. I have a
question and they'll go yo, yeah, yo yo, time out

(01:59:18):
and everything stops. I'll go, you are you telling me
to use discernment to not let people touch me, but
here you are fucking pumping different colors into me. I
don't know the fuck this guy is. Who fuck is
this guy? Who the fuck are you? And why are
you telling me one thing and doing another? Do as
I say, not as I do.

Speaker 2 (01:59:35):
And they're like, oh, you need to learn dissernment bit
and I'm like, well then I need to learn it.

Speaker 1 (01:59:40):
Let's go, right.

Speaker 2 (01:59:43):
I thank you for teaching me the discernment, but I
had no time.

Speaker 1 (01:59:45):
I got to pray to you. I'll call to Shiva.
I'm not gonna pray to him. Want glory, I'll give
you glory. We're in the fucking pits together right now,
all of us. How about I become Sheiva? How about
you become Siva and let's get the fuck out of here.
How about you space Jesus, let's do this. You can transform.
I'm not picking on you. This is just how I
feel about prayer. But prayer, I think has many meanings,

(02:00:08):
Like singing could be a form of prayer, So then
my answer would be opposite, and yes, it would be both.
I guess pray way. I'm not judging none of you, motherfuckers.
I'm done. I'm done. I love everyone. I want you
to succeed. I want you. I just want you to

(02:00:30):
be you and be happy. And I'm not telling you
to be happy. Some people like, don't tell me to
be happy. Oh I'll be a miserable prick. Then just
be happy about it. Be a happy, miserable prick. This
fucking weed is so good too. It makes me want
to jump up, slap my mother. Then milk the sun

(02:00:50):
and get some coconut oil. Only Kevin will understand that one,
but y'all get it eventually. All Right, everyone, two hours
I'm tapping out. You have a great night tonight. You
have questions of comments. I'm doing this every night straight
through the Solstice into the New Year. I think I'm
gonna try to do the new like straight through. It's

(02:01:13):
weird at night.

Speaker 2 (02:01:14):
I can't I can't really record my music, but I
can do little speeches like this.

Speaker 1 (02:01:18):
It's all right. When I when I do music, I'm loud.
I put headphones on. I'm like, I have to. I
have to turn the mic down sometimes just because you
can hear me. You can hear the words coming here.
Go poor Kevin when he has the lizard to me.

(02:01:39):
When I said the lyrics, He's probably like, damn this kid.
All Right, I have a great night. You have any questions,
excuse me. Ghost Train hayes is the name. I look

(02:02:01):
my eyes of water already. Have a great night, and
tomorrow we do ganesh and then we dance with Ganesha,
so that'll be uh. It's completely different energy. It's like
a happy, abundant energy that wants to just get up
and move style.

Speaker 2 (02:02:21):
So have a great night everyone. Make sure to breathe,
drink some water, flush out your system. Have a great
night and we'll see you tomorrow. Stay fearless and remember
the universe rewards bravery

Speaker 1 (02:02:38):
And I love peace.

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