June 9, 2025 • 11 mins
College Life With Kyra: The Search is Over
I’m going to be so real with you right now (I always try to be), I think this episode will be a lot more engaging/interesting if you listen to it sped up. When I recorded this, I was kind of lethargic and slow, and as I was listening back to edit the episode, it drove me crazy. So for your sake, play this at a faster speed than 1x. There should be an option on your podcasting app to speed it up, and once again, I recommend you use it for this episode!
The second honest point is that I had a whole section in here about going down to one episode a week (I’ve already been doing that for the last 3-4 weeks haha whoops), but upon editing it, I took it out. Why? Well because THE MOTIVATION, EXCITEMENT, and DESIRE to podcast is BACK BABY! Heavenly Father has graciously answered my prayers, and I’ve decided to continue to post/go back to two episodes a week. Yayyyyyy!
Although I didn’t talk about it in the episode, “the search” for motivation is over as well as my search for housing up north. So the title has double meaning, and I didn’t even realize it. I am so grateful!
I’m excited to announce that I’ll have an episode out on Wednesday of this week too. Crazy, right?! OHHHH, it’s good to be back! 👏🏻🔥😁
Here is a link to my table of contents: https://docs.google.com/docume...
Make sure to turn on notifications so you never miss a new episode!
I’m going to be so real with you right now (I always try to be), I think this episode will be a lot more engaging/interesting if you listen to it sped up. When I recorded this, I was kind of lethargic and slow, and as I was listening back to edit the episode, it drove me crazy. So for your sake, play this at a faster speed than 1x. There should be an option on your podcasting app to speed it up, and once again, I recommend you use it for this episode!
The second honest point is that I had a whole section in here about going down to one episode a week (I’ve already been doing that for the last 3-4 weeks haha whoops), but upon editing it, I took it out. Why? Well because THE MOTIVATION, EXCITEMENT, and DESIRE to podcast is BACK BABY! Heavenly Father has graciously answered my prayers, and I’ve decided to continue to post/go back to two episodes a week. Yayyyyyy!
Although I didn’t talk about it in the episode, “the search” for motivation is over as well as my search for housing up north. So the title has double meaning, and I didn’t even realize it. I am so grateful!
I’m excited to announce that I’ll have an episode out on Wednesday of this week too. Crazy, right?! OHHHH, it’s good to be back! 👏🏻🔥😁
Here is a link to my table of contents: https://docs.google.com/docume...
Make sure to turn on notifications so you never miss a new episode!
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Dude, Hello, and welcome back to my podcast. So I
have lots of things to tell you, and I am
(00:24):
hoping that all my words come across and that you're
able to kind of pick up where I've been lately
and that everything will go smooth. So first, I want
to start off being a little bit vulnerable, and perhaps
it's not that vulnerable. I don't know, but I have
really really struggled to find motivation and desire to sit
(00:48):
down and record podcast episodes. And so for the last
several weeks it's been three or four now, I've only
posted once a week on Wednesday, and every time Monday
came around, I kind of, I don't know, not rolled
my eyes, but like scoffed at myself for not getting
(01:09):
an episode out, for not making it a priority, for
not recording something, and then I put something together by Wednesday.
That's how that happened, basically every week, and so I've
kept it going, but it's been kind of hard and
it hasn't been very enjoyable for me, and I'm not
really sure what happened or why it happened. I'm thinking
(01:32):
that there might be a purpose now as i've kind
of received an answer on how to rejuvenate this desire,
to bring it back to life. And stay tuned because
I'll tell you all about it. First, I'm going to
talk a little bit about just the update of my life.
Two weeks ago, I found housing up in Utah, up
(01:53):
in Provo. I guess I already live in Utah, but
you know what I mean. Found housing up in Provo,
so the search is over. I was looking on Facebook
every other day, sometimes every day. A couple of times
I took a week fast from social media and then
came back and looked again, and I was really just
(02:13):
looking on Facebook Marketplace. That was it. I didn't want
to fill out a stupid application form online and go
through a management company. I ended up signing up with
a management company after finding someplace on Facebook. But that's
beside the point. I'm excited about it. I have my
own room and my own bathroom. They're technically on different floors.
(02:37):
My bathroom is on the main floor and my room
is in the basement, but I don't really care. I'm
just grateful that I found a house and it's actually
in a little townhouse, which I'm excited about because I
really wasn't looking forward the idea of living in an
apartment living in an apartment. So I'm happy with how
it all turned out. That's the first update. The second
(02:59):
update is that I put in my three weeks for
my job at Canyon Creek, so the domestic violence shelter
that I work at, and I'm really excited about being
done with that job, specifically because right now my weekends
are gone. They're entirely gone. They vanished into thin air,
and it's really hard and I feel really exhausted, and
(03:22):
then all week I feel like I have to catch up,
and then the weekend comes again, and it's really hard.
For those of you who don't know my work schedule.
On Saturdays, I work from midnight to eight am, so
Friday night and then Saturday again, so nine hours later,
I work from five pm to eight am the next day.
And lately I've been picking up Monday because we have
(03:44):
a staff shortage and working midnight to eight am. And
then last week I worked midnight to four am log
story and Tuesday morning, so Monday night from midnight to
eight so that's four grave shifts in a row, and
it's been kind of taking me apart. I feel like
I'm burning the candle at both ends, and it hasn't
(04:06):
been sustainable. It's been pretty hard, and so I decided
to quit my job and give myself about a month
to pack. Continue to work as a research assistant for BYU,
which I'll continue the entirety of my time in the
Master's program, and kind of just focus on pack, spending
(04:29):
time with friends and family that live in town, and
actually getting some rest on the weekends. That'll be nice.
I'm hoping I can fix my sleep schedule, because right
now I just don't sleep until like three or four am,
and it's not fun. I don't like it. And then
I decided, in order to actually make it to church
and make it to church on time at my ward
instead of my grandma's ward or a family ward that's
(04:52):
later in the day, I decided that after work, I
need to stay up because I get off at eight
am and my church is at ten. But if I
go home and sleep for an hour, I can't get up.
I mean, I try, my alarm goes off and I'm like,
uhh no, And that's when the body wins over the spirit,
and my cardinal desire to get some sleep overtakes any
(05:13):
desire to spiritually feed myself and take the sacrament. So
this is why right now I'm recording an episode because
I want to go to my ward at ten am,
and this felt like a meaningful way to spend my
time before I need to get ready to go. Because
the other side of that is that recently I have
(05:35):
been listening to the Unshaken podcast by Jared Halverson and
he talks about come follow Me in depth and in detail.
And one thing that he talked about recently I think
it was his episode for last week or this week,
I don't remember, anyway, he talked about the Sabbath day
and rather than worrying about keeping the Sabbath day holy
(05:57):
and a list of don't instead question and instead ask ourselves,
are the things that I'm doing on Sundays making me holy?
Is the Sabbath making me holy? Not? Am I keeping
the Sabbath Day holy? And of course that's something to
keep in mind as well, but I really liked that
reframe of thinking, Okay, are the activities and the things
(06:22):
I decide and choose to do on Sundays making me holy?
Are they turning me towards God? And by turning towards God,
my choosing God, and I feel like, instead of watching
a movie for an hour, or turning on a show
or reading a book to stay awake, instead, I'm going
(06:43):
to try to spend this time turning my mind, my
and soul, heart all of the things towards Christ instead.
So that's why I'm recording an episode right now. Now,
let's go back to what I first talked about. At
the very beginning. I talked about how I've had a
lot of obstacles in the way of recording, specifically my motivation.
(07:06):
I've just had absolutely no motivation to record at all. None,
And I tell I've told a couple of people, Oh,
I just it seems like so much work to set
up my podcast. Literally, all I have to do is
plug it in to my computer. That's it. My microphone
doesn't have to be set up. It literally has to
be plugged in. That's it. That's genuinely it. So I
(07:27):
think that was more of a symbolization of how I
feel like to set it up, as in to get
my mind ready, to get my notes ready, rather than
just a little one of plugging it in. You know.
I talked to my sister about it, and she recommended
that I pray for motivation and for help. And so
although I didn't officially pray for help until this morning,
(07:52):
Haven' the Father answered my prayer anyway, He answered the
silent pleadings of my heart. A friend sent me a
podcast last night or yesterday, and I listened to it
tonight when I was sweeping and mopping at work, and
she talked about teaching with the Holy Ghost and involving
the Godhead, involving Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy
(08:12):
Ghost and each lesson and each time she records a
podcast episode in each and every creative effort of verse.
And that really stock out to me and felt like
it was a personal answer to my question because I
think I've made this podcast at least right now, and
(08:34):
I'm sure it's been different here and there, but right
now it feels like a solo effort. I'm doing it
by myself. It's frustrating to take the time to record
and then take the time to edit. It just seems
like a lot of work. And she encouraged us as listeners,
as the audience to involve the Lord and involve the
(08:55):
Godhead in our creative endeavors. And when we give talk
and when we teach Sunday school lessons and young women
lessons and release society lessons, fill in the blank et, cetera,
et cetera. And it was interesting how often she said,
and then I take this idea to the Lord, and
then I kneel down and pray, and then I say,
(09:17):
Heavenly Father, please help me remember those experiences that others
would benefit from, because I know that you know my
audience and you know what they need. And I don't
know what they need, but you do, so please help
me share the things that they would have me share,
so that my message reaches their hearts through the Holy
(09:40):
Ghost and through inspiration. And she said to do that
continually throughout the whole process. And I'm like, shoot, I
don't know how many times I've ever done that. I mean,
of course, I think a lot of my episodes come
from inspiration and divine sources, divinely appointed sources. But but
I don't think I've ever consciously said, please help me,
(10:04):
Please help me record, Please help me share the things
that they would have me share. Please help it reach
the people it needs to reach. Please help me to
make this meaningful for thee for the purpose of being
an instrument in thy hands, and so I'm really excited
to employ this method to genuinely pray before recording each episode,
(10:30):
asking for help and inspiration that the words can come
out the way that I want them to, that the
message will reach those who need to hear it. I
just wanted to share all of that with you and
just be honest, open and vulnerable about how I'm feeling
and keep it short and sweet. So thank you so
much for listening. I encourage you and invite you to
(10:53):
involve the Godhead, Involve the Lord, Involve Heavenly Father and
the Holy Ghost in each of your decisions, specifically the
big ones, but also the small ones add up too.
And I know that when we do this, and I'm
planning on doing this, we are making Matthew eleven twenty
eight through thirty come to life. And that scripture talks
(11:14):
about coming onto Christ and taking his burden upon us
because his burden is light and we can pull and
be yoked to the Savior and be able to have
his help. And I am looking forward to that. So
thank you so much for listening. Don't forget to embrace
and perfection, find meaning, satisfaction and joy from the Journey.
(11:37):
I'm Kyra and this is imperfectly broken. The podcast
Dude, Hello, and welcome back to my podcast. So I
have lots of things to tell you, and I am
(00:24):
hoping that all my words come across and that you're
able to kind of pick up where I've been lately
and that everything will go smooth. So first, I want
to start off being a little bit vulnerable, and perhaps
it's not that vulnerable. I don't know, but I have
really really struggled to find motivation and desire to sit
(00:48):
down and record podcast episodes. And so for the last
several weeks it's been three or four now, I've only
posted once a week on Wednesday, and every time Monday
came around, I kind of, I don't know, not rolled
my eyes, but like scoffed at myself for not getting
(01:09):
an episode out, for not making it a priority, for
not recording something, and then I put something together by Wednesday.
That's how that happened, basically every week, and so I've
kept it going, but it's been kind of hard and
it hasn't been very enjoyable for me, and I'm not
really sure what happened or why it happened. I'm thinking
(01:32):
that there might be a purpose now as i've kind
of received an answer on how to rejuvenate this desire,
to bring it back to life. And stay tuned because
I'll tell you all about it. First, I'm going to
talk a little bit about just the update of my life.
Two weeks ago, I found housing up in Utah, up
(01:53):
in Provo. I guess I already live in Utah, but
you know what I mean. Found housing up in Provo,
so the search is over. I was looking on Facebook
every other day, sometimes every day. A couple of times
I took a week fast from social media and then
came back and looked again, and I was really just
(02:13):
looking on Facebook Marketplace. That was it. I didn't want
to fill out a stupid application form online and go
through a management company. I ended up signing up with
a management company after finding someplace on Facebook. But that's
beside the point. I'm excited about it. I have my
own room and my own bathroom. They're technically on different floors.
(02:37):
My bathroom is on the main floor and my room
is in the basement, but I don't really care. I'm
just grateful that I found a house and it's actually
in a little townhouse, which I'm excited about because I
really wasn't looking forward the idea of living in an
apartment living in an apartment. So I'm happy with how
it all turned out. That's the first update. The second
(02:59):
update is that I put in my three weeks for
my job at Canyon Creek, so the domestic violence shelter
that I work at, and I'm really excited about being
done with that job, specifically because right now my weekends
are gone. They're entirely gone. They vanished into thin air,
and it's really hard and I feel really exhausted, and
(03:22):
then all week I feel like I have to catch up,
and then the weekend comes again, and it's really hard.
For those of you who don't know my work schedule.
On Saturdays, I work from midnight to eight am, so
Friday night and then Saturday again, so nine hours later,
I work from five pm to eight am the next day.
And lately I've been picking up Monday because we have
(03:44):
a staff shortage and working midnight to eight am. And
then last week I worked midnight to four am log
story and Tuesday morning, so Monday night from midnight to
eight so that's four grave shifts in a row, and
it's been kind of taking me apart. I feel like
I'm burning the candle at both ends, and it hasn't
(04:06):
been sustainable. It's been pretty hard, and so I decided
to quit my job and give myself about a month
to pack. Continue to work as a research assistant for BYU,
which I'll continue the entirety of my time in the
Master's program, and kind of just focus on pack, spending
(04:29):
time with friends and family that live in town, and
actually getting some rest on the weekends. That'll be nice.
I'm hoping I can fix my sleep schedule, because right
now I just don't sleep until like three or four am,
and it's not fun. I don't like it. And then
I decided, in order to actually make it to church
and make it to church on time at my ward
instead of my grandma's ward or a family ward that's
(04:52):
later in the day, I decided that after work, I
need to stay up because I get off at eight
am and my church is at ten. But if I
go home and sleep for an hour, I can't get up.
I mean, I try, my alarm goes off and I'm like,
uhh no, And that's when the body wins over the spirit,
and my cardinal desire to get some sleep overtakes any
(05:13):
desire to spiritually feed myself and take the sacrament. So
this is why right now I'm recording an episode because
I want to go to my ward at ten am,
and this felt like a meaningful way to spend my
time before I need to get ready to go. Because
the other side of that is that recently I have
(05:35):
been listening to the Unshaken podcast by Jared Halverson and
he talks about come follow Me in depth and in detail.
And one thing that he talked about recently I think
it was his episode for last week or this week,
I don't remember, anyway, he talked about the Sabbath day
and rather than worrying about keeping the Sabbath day holy
(05:57):
and a list of don't instead question and instead ask ourselves,
are the things that I'm doing on Sundays making me holy?
Is the Sabbath making me holy? Not? Am I keeping
the Sabbath Day holy? And of course that's something to
keep in mind as well, but I really liked that
reframe of thinking, Okay, are the activities and the things
(06:22):
I decide and choose to do on Sundays making me holy?
Are they turning me towards God? And by turning towards God,
my choosing God, and I feel like, instead of watching
a movie for an hour, or turning on a show
or reading a book to stay awake, instead, I'm going
(06:43):
to try to spend this time turning my mind, my
and soul, heart all of the things towards Christ instead.
So that's why I'm recording an episode right now. Now,
let's go back to what I first talked about. At
the very beginning. I talked about how I've had a
lot of obstacles in the way of recording, specifically my motivation.
(07:06):
I've just had absolutely no motivation to record at all. None,
And I tell I've told a couple of people, Oh,
I just it seems like so much work to set
up my podcast. Literally, all I have to do is
plug it in to my computer. That's it. My microphone
doesn't have to be set up. It literally has to
be plugged in. That's it. That's genuinely it. So I
(07:27):
think that was more of a symbolization of how I
feel like to set it up, as in to get
my mind ready, to get my notes ready, rather than
just a little one of plugging it in. You know.
I talked to my sister about it, and she recommended
that I pray for motivation and for help. And so
although I didn't officially pray for help until this morning,
(07:52):
Haven' the Father answered my prayer anyway, He answered the
silent pleadings of my heart. A friend sent me a
podcast last night or yesterday, and I listened to it
tonight when I was sweeping and mopping at work, and
she talked about teaching with the Holy Ghost and involving
the Godhead, involving Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy
(08:12):
Ghost and each lesson and each time she records a
podcast episode in each and every creative effort of verse.
And that really stock out to me and felt like
it was a personal answer to my question because I
think I've made this podcast at least right now, and
(08:34):
I'm sure it's been different here and there, but right
now it feels like a solo effort. I'm doing it
by myself. It's frustrating to take the time to record
and then take the time to edit. It just seems
like a lot of work. And she encouraged us as listeners,
as the audience to involve the Lord and involve the
(08:55):
Godhead in our creative endeavors. And when we give talk
and when we teach Sunday school lessons and young women
lessons and release society lessons, fill in the blank et, cetera,
et cetera. And it was interesting how often she said,
and then I take this idea to the Lord, and
then I kneel down and pray, and then I say,
(09:17):
Heavenly Father, please help me remember those experiences that others
would benefit from, because I know that you know my
audience and you know what they need. And I don't
know what they need, but you do, so please help
me share the things that they would have me share,
so that my message reaches their hearts through the Holy
(09:40):
Ghost and through inspiration. And she said to do that
continually throughout the whole process. And I'm like, shoot, I
don't know how many times I've ever done that. I mean,
of course, I think a lot of my episodes come
from inspiration and divine sources, divinely appointed sources. But but
I don't think I've ever consciously said, please help me,
(10:04):
Please help me record, Please help me share the things
that they would have me share. Please help it reach
the people it needs to reach. Please help me to
make this meaningful for thee for the purpose of being
an instrument in thy hands, and so I'm really excited
to employ this method to genuinely pray before recording each episode,
(10:30):
asking for help and inspiration that the words can come
out the way that I want them to, that the
message will reach those who need to hear it. I
just wanted to share all of that with you and
just be honest, open and vulnerable about how I'm feeling
and keep it short and sweet. So thank you so
much for listening. I encourage you and invite you to
(10:53):
involve the Godhead, Involve the Lord, Involve Heavenly Father and
the Holy Ghost in each of your decisions, specifically the
big ones, but also the small ones add up too.
And I know that when we do this, and I'm
planning on doing this, we are making Matthew eleven twenty
eight through thirty come to life. And that scripture talks
(11:14):
about coming onto Christ and taking his burden upon us
because his burden is light and we can pull and
be yoked to the Savior and be able to have
his help. And I am looking forward to that. So
thank you so much for listening. Don't forget to embrace
and perfection, find meaning, satisfaction and joy from the Journey.
(11:37):
I'm Kyra and this is imperfectly broken. The podcast
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