It Would Seem As Though The Struggle Is Real

This week we talk about family ties, cutting off toxic people, living your truth and getting through these crazy times.

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
M hm.

Speaker 2 (00:08):
M hmm.

Speaker 1 (00:16):
It was he Hilaire, how are you girl?

Speaker 2 (00:25):
It's almost my bedtime?

Speaker 1 (00:28):
No kidding, I mean we're doing this. So we've been
doing it in the morning, but yeah for all this time.

Speaker 3 (00:34):
Yeah, but due to circumstances beyond my control, meaning taking
care of my mother. Yeah, we've had to now move
to doing this when there are people there to watch her.

Speaker 2 (00:44):
Yep, so we.

Speaker 3 (00:46):
Also so Annak and I have kind of a routine.
We go to Starbucks, we get our drink, we come back, we.

Speaker 1 (00:53):
Do the pod right. Yeah, well, having just said what
I said.

Speaker 3 (00:58):
About leaving her in the carabs one yeah, right now
she's in the care of my two children, who are
fourteen and sixteen almost fifteen, seventeen.

Speaker 1 (01:05):
Yeah, any minute now.

Speaker 2 (01:06):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:07):
I get home just now and.

Speaker 3 (01:12):
Parker is holding her up and the chair is tipped over,
the dining room chair. Yeah, it is tipped over, and
the dogs are just like craze, don't know what to do.

Speaker 1 (01:24):
I'm like, what on earth? What in the fuck?

Speaker 3 (01:27):
Yeah, well she fell again the time she tripped over
the chair, so Parker's helping her up, and Grace is
I hate to.

Speaker 1 (01:34):
Say this about my daughter, but useless.

Speaker 2 (01:36):
Oh full stop here, you know, just stand the chair
back up. She literally stands it up right in her way, honestly,
come on. So it was just a tiny bit yeah,
you know. And before I left, I was like, all right, y'all.

Speaker 1 (01:49):
Are on your own for dinner?

Speaker 2 (01:51):
Yeah, sorry about it.

Speaker 3 (01:52):
And they said, I want you to fix your grandmother's dinner,
which literally is putting this little curtain in the microwave
from meals on. We yeah, microw it for five minutes.
That's a stir it.

Speaker 1 (02:04):
Take the plastic. Yeah, that's it.

Speaker 2 (02:06):
That's it. I might need your help, is that, Grace said,
or Parker Grace, because little girl, Yeah, you're almost seventeen
years old, and if you can microwave a package and
stir the food, there.

Speaker 1 (02:19):
We have a problem.

Speaker 2 (02:20):
It's so funny to me how helpless she pretends to
be about everything.

Speaker 1 (02:23):
It is pretense.

Speaker 2 (02:24):
Yeah, and I told you. I mean every time she
sleeps over, I hand her like a fuzzy blanket, a large,
like king size blanket, yeah, folded, and she's like, I
might need help unfolding a blanket. That's like the easiest
thing in the world to do. You just hold one side,
you know, and then she just does it, and I like,
it's like her instinct to be like, I need help.

Speaker 1 (02:44):
Crazy, I can't do it.

Speaker 2 (02:46):
Yeah, yah, you can, you absolutely can.

Speaker 1 (02:48):
You can't. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (02:49):
I know, and you know, I adore my children, but
I also understand exactly what who they are is real people.

Speaker 2 (02:55):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (02:55):
I'm never going to be and I never have been one.

Speaker 3 (02:57):
Of those people who's like, well, my children are perfect
and whatever.

Speaker 1 (03:01):
No they're not.

Speaker 3 (03:02):
They're flogging individuals like everybody else. And you know, I
think part of that was my own upbringing, because all
growing up, when people would call my mother and say,
you know what, to know what your children were up to,
she would just be like okay, and then they would
tell her whatever it was, and it was usually my
older brother and she would go okay, thank you for

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telling me.

Speaker 1 (03:24):
She would never be like, well, my children wouldn't do.

Speaker 3 (03:27):
Such a thing, was like and then she was on
the phone and be like, okay, dude, so you did
I did what?

Speaker 1 (03:32):
She would never come at it with, so I heard
you did this? Did you do it? It was always
like why did you do this thing?

Speaker 3 (03:39):
Because it's much harder to beause and boys in particular
will usually not argue.

Speaker 1 (03:44):
That they'll be like, well, because.

Speaker 3 (03:46):
Whereas a girl if he said to most girls, and
I know this is generalizing, I apologize, but it's mostly
true if you say it to most girls and be.

Speaker 1 (03:53):
Like, I didn't do that.

Speaker 2 (03:54):
I saw you.

Speaker 1 (03:55):
No, I didn't know you didn't. I had a video
of you doing it. You know that's not me. That
doesn't even look like me.

Speaker 2 (04:02):
You know, it was three minutes ago.

Speaker 1 (04:05):
I don't know what you're what do you mean?

Speaker 2 (04:07):
Yeah, that's crazy top your cousin Brianna. Yeah, specifically, you
guys are at the house and I even shre told
this story, but we were sitting in the living room
and y'all had balloons and markers and you were marking
up the balloons and I said, that's fine.

Speaker 3 (04:27):
Please do not bring the balloons up onto the couch.
Count Yeah, just got it, my first brand new couch
ever my whole life.

Speaker 1 (04:32):
Yeah, please don't bring balloons with marker, especially a permanent marker.

Speaker 3 (04:37):
Up onto my couch. Yeah, you sage green couch with
your red marker. Left the room long enough, literally two.

Speaker 1 (04:43):
To the bathroom.

Speaker 3 (04:43):
I come back, red marker on my couch and Brianna
is sitting there with a balloon with red marker huh.

Speaker 1 (04:50):
And I was like, god him, Brianna, I said, I
didn't do it.

Speaker 2 (04:53):
I know the red markers in your hands, the balloon
is and you're an inch from devil.

Speaker 1 (05:02):
It wasn't it wasn't me.

Speaker 2 (05:03):
I know. Well, that little bit when she was younger
was pathological girl, like she quitted. I think that she
was allergic to the truth. She was like you know know,
I well, I mean going to school with her most
of my life. I remember defending her a lot when
we were younger. Why I have no idea, because she lied.
I remember her lying about her dad got Britney Spears

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concerts in a limbo or concerts, tickets to a concert
and was going to pick the kids who are going
to go with her. And people never thought it was
weird that I wasn't on her list, as if she
really you know what I mean, that's an why don't
you want to go girl? Because it's she's the lulu
luscious bitch, Like what do you mean it's not real?

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But that was everything she lied about everything we're kids.
Yeah yeah, but then look for her mother was I know,
and now and now she does that thing where I
think she is like being honest, but it's really just
disrespect and being a bitch, and she like win the
opposite way. She doesn't like lie as much maybe, but
she's now like, oh, I'm just brutally honest. No, dog,

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you just act like a cunt all the time.

Speaker 1 (06:10):
You know.

Speaker 3 (06:10):
There's a difference between telling someone the truth and gabbage.
I know because I know because I've done both.

Speaker 1 (06:15):
I actually can do both very well.

Speaker 3 (06:17):
Yeah, you know, but it's like I would never say,
you know, not to be a bitch, but because you
know whatever follows that is going to be bitchy. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
not to be offensive, but well, I mean saying next
is offense.

Speaker 2 (06:29):
It depends because I have you know, I have said
to people that I'm really close with, like what about
to say is not a fucking read, you know what
I mean? But this is what I have to say
to you. Yeah, I just never.

Speaker 1 (06:40):
Because sometimes truths are not not no no, no, it's
not easy to swallow.

Speaker 3 (06:44):
But it's not like you're going, okay, so this can't
offend you because it's not meant to offense because I
said But it's like, if you're like I have to
tell you this thing, you're not gonna want to hear it.

Speaker 1 (06:54):
You know, it's not easy for me to say it
to you. But here's the thing.

Speaker 2 (06:57):
Yeah, here's the you already know. Are all kind of
you know, up to hear whatever it is. Yeah, but
hopefully you're.

Speaker 1 (07:04):
Also not doing it with a crowd.

Speaker 2 (07:05):
Sure, sure, I hate.

Speaker 3 (07:07):
Like the last time I hate that you all were
in the same room.

Speaker 1 (07:12):
Was when she decided to say really nasty things to you.

Speaker 2 (07:15):
Yeah, but with a full crowd. Yeah, at a dinner table, bitch.
Yeah yeah, yeah, that's I mean. And I haven't really
talked to her since.

Speaker 1 (07:22):
But if you say it and laugh and it's I.

Speaker 2 (07:25):
Know, she just told me how it was so stuck
up and it was such a snub and whatever, and
I was like, okay, I mean, okay, but like, why
do you think you're too good for the rest of
us that I am, bitch, because certifiably, objectively, I fucking am,
Like what do you mean? But also, don't come at
me like that. What is your ploy to like build
a relationship with me? But your tactic is to disrespect

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me in front of everybody because you.

Speaker 1 (07:50):
Have to then cut down the person to your level first.

Speaker 2 (07:54):
Yeah, you know, it's crazy as if I if I,
you know, like you are whatever, you're.

Speaker 1 (08:02):
Gonna be like, Oh I guess, I guess.

Speaker 3 (08:05):
No, no, girl, no, And you know what the funny
thing is, we're so far beyond that.

Speaker 2 (08:10):
It's like, Nope, I'm sorry if you don't like me
for exactly who I am. Yeah, that's fine. I know
it's absolutely because I probably don't like you well. And
that's the thing is, don't you don't have to test me, bitch?
You know what I mean? I cut off most of
my family as a teenager. Baby girl, you think I
have any qualms out being like, stay the funk out

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like I don't. I genuinely don't. You know. That's always funny.
That's always when people are like you would cut someone
off or I have cut people off for less? What
do you mean? Yeah, bitch?

Speaker 3 (08:43):
Before we get too deep into that, I want to say,
welcome to another episode.

Speaker 1 (08:47):
Though the podcast where we talk about anything, everything and.

Speaker 2 (08:49):
Nothing mostly nothing.

Speaker 1 (08:51):
I'm best and I'm zapooky.

Speaker 2 (08:56):
I'm gonna but it's Halloween time.

Speaker 1 (08:59):
And I see you're in your sweatshirt with your parents.

Speaker 2 (09:01):
I know my true parents who had to give me
up for adoption. Elliott Stabler and Olivia Benson, you know,
who aren't in a relationship. But I've always kind of
love Yeah, I have always kind of been in a relation.

Speaker 1 (09:15):
Yeah, so I want to jump back to the whole
Cundy people off.

Speaker 2 (09:20):
Okay, fine, Well, because it's our Slasher episode, I do a.

Speaker 3 (09:23):
Lot of I watch a lot of the little stories
on YouTube where it's like, you know, my mother did
this to me and I stopped talking to her and
here's why.

Speaker 2 (09:34):
But yeah, and you know, it's all a lot of
the times, it's you know, toxic people who have, after
years of toxic behavior, been cut out and then are.

Speaker 1 (09:46):
Like, well, we're family, how can you do that? Bla
blah blah blah, And it's like why, why I know
why I have two wives?

Speaker 3 (09:55):
Why do people only remember their family after they have
been cut off or after they've been in some way
you know well and affected by this negatively?

Speaker 2 (10:05):
Memories are holy girl, we never not as in divine,
but like we don't ever remember anything on hundred percent
correctly never never true.

Speaker 3 (10:14):
Yeah, but if you've been an asshole to someone their
entire life, I would think you might know that totally.
You know, you've you've like cast them aside, for someone else,
or you have overlooked them all the time and then
suddenly you need something.

Speaker 1 (10:27):
So it's like, but we're family.

Speaker 2 (10:29):
I know, no. Never.

Speaker 3 (10:31):
That's one thing that really bothers me. But the other
thing is when people talk about because I follow a
couple of different people who have cut off their it's
gone no contact with their narcissistic parents, sure, or sibling
or ex or whatever, but it's the one where it's like,

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and it's always the mother.

Speaker 1 (10:54):
If they say, well, I.

Speaker 3 (10:57):
Went no contact with my narcissistic mother, there's always somebody
who's like, well, that's your mother.

Speaker 1 (11:03):
You only get one mother, ye, the blurberty blurberty bird
that shit.

Speaker 2 (11:07):
But the relationship is toxic. It's damaging if it's toxic,
and it's not going to change. And the other person,
if they are truly narcissistic, will never change, you know,
and will never even admit that they had any part
in the downfall of this relationship because you're too sensitive

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or you're not understanding who I.

Speaker 3 (11:31):
Really am, or you know, it's all you, You're the problem.

Speaker 2 (11:35):
Yeah, And.

Speaker 3 (11:37):
After years and years of taking that kind of abuse,
when people finally go, yea.

Speaker 2 (11:41):
I'm done, all done. Yeah, someone always comes in with that,
well that's your family. I have to you don't have to,
I know, and that shit is so frustrating. I mean,
I I don't know. I feel like I have two
biological parents that are the epitome of, you know, the
people of that kind of horrible behavior. I mean I

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was fifteen whatever, fifteen or sixteen when my biological father
kicked me out on Christmas in the middle of nowhere,
right and it was like freezing, it's snowing in the country,
and Grandma had to come get me. Remember I was
like upset when she finally got me because I'm walking
down the road in the middle of nowhere right, like
obviously it's somewhere, but it was dark.

Speaker 1 (12:20):
I remember why you were kicked out?

Speaker 2 (12:22):
Oh so you know, we had the whole family Christmas there.
So yeah, for context, Grandma had six kids. All of
those kids had kids, so there was a large family,
and all those kids have spouses, like, so it's a
ton of people.

Speaker 1 (12:35):
I believe I was the only one who wasn't there.

Speaker 2 (12:36):
Yeah, because fuck those people. Anyway, So I got a
movie for Christmas called Camp which is a very campy
movie about a theater camp. Anyway, it's great and we're
gonna watch it. And it was Anna Kendra little baby.
So it was myself, my two sisters and my cousin

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and we're all just like, we're all staying at biological
father's house that met, and so we gear up the
DVD to play it. Be boo poo poo poop and uh,
mind you, we're rednecks, country people and on holidays, what
do you do you watch football? Right? So the TV
was on all day and it was like, I don't know,
a seventy five thousand inch or something, because that's they

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had that pissing contest like my TV's bigger, who we
can watch sports in his giants or something, right, And
so it was loud. The volume was up so everyone
can hear who was winning. And so as the TV starts,
you know, the previews or like the Dolby whatever, and
it makes really loud noise, and my biological father like
fucking glares at us and he's like, turn the fucking

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TV down, and I'm like, we're actively doing it, right,
Like we're in the act of turning the TV down,
and I'm like we are. And that was it. It's
the fact that I said we are, and he was like,
don't you fucking talk back to me? And I said,
you asked us to do something we were already doing,
and you decided to get mad at us for it,
Like it's stupid, right, it was just a stupid thing.

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And then he it just went out from there, right,
And then he's like, I'm gonna call your grandmother and
I was like, okay, do it.

Speaker 1 (14:06):
Where's the threat?

Speaker 2 (14:07):
I know? So he did, and he's pacing the house
in front of all, you know, his wife and me,
my sisters and my cousin, and I'm just like, how embarrassing?
And at that point, I'm enraged, you know what I mean.
So I'm like yelling at my stepmom because I'm like,
how fucking dare you? Like let him treat us this way?
Like it's Christmas? You know what I mean? Who cares
the TV was too loud? There's millions of ways to

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handle that, upposed to cussing us out. Yeah, And he
told me to get my shit and leave, and I said,
He's like, you can wait for your grandmother and I
said no, no, So I just grabbed my stuff and
I had, like, you know, a duffel bag, my backpack
or whatever, put my jacket and shoes and just left.
And again they lived out on like a ranch. So
I had walked down their long ass driveway and started
walking down the gravel road and Grandma met me. Grandted

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like it could have been anybody, but it was Grandma
praised God. And so my point is when I got
in the car, I was like fuming and I cried
when I'm mad, some crying, and I was like infuriating
that and I was like, he's a prick, that's like
what I said. And I remember Grandma saying, like, don't
talk about your father that way. And I'm like, are
you freaking kidding me? Right now? What is happening? I'm

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like Mary, Jesus and Joseph right now trying to find
an in How what do you mean he kicked me
out on Christmas? But yeah, yeah, that I am not
a Christmas But it was just so shocking to me
because I was not like a disruptive kid, you know
what I mean. I wasn't a bad kid, and so
to be like talked to so disrespectfully over something so

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benign was like, bitch. I wasn't like throwing knives. You
know what I mean, what are you talking about?

Speaker 1 (15:40):
It probably would have been better.

Speaker 2 (15:42):
They were good one, you know, yeah.

Speaker 1 (15:44):
You probably you know, finally broke out those throwing knives.

Speaker 2 (15:48):
I know, I wish I could in my.

Speaker 3 (15:50):
Brain, so there wasn't there. I have two separate and
very different versions of how.

Speaker 2 (15:57):
That looks okay.

Speaker 1 (16:00):
The one, the one that I of course know couldn't
possibly be true.

Speaker 2 (16:04):
You are barefoot, yeah, pregnant, Yeah, handkerchief on his stick.
It was like a hobo and yeah.

Speaker 1 (16:14):
But the one that I think is probably more.

Speaker 3 (16:16):
Accurate, even though it also I know it didn't happen.
Is you're wearing like full full beat a for a
short yes, huge platform.

Speaker 1 (16:29):
That's your glasses. They have tears rolling out.

Speaker 2 (16:33):
For Dynasty Realness at night time. I'm wearing sunglasses down
in platforms, big platform yes, girl. Well you know I
can tell you that I took my Queer Little DVD
right out of that DVD player and I put it
in my Esta latter duppel bag that Grandma got for
a gift with purchase, and it was removed. That's not

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a color maroon, and it was like I had like
a sheen to it. So it was beautiful, but I
was walking down in the middle.

Speaker 1 (17:02):
What did you pack? I packed my movie?

Speaker 2 (17:05):
Yeah, I packed my movie and whatever else was in there.
I mean, I didn't take a ton of time, right,
I was like, this is mine I'm leaving. Yeah it was.
It was crazy, and it was.

Speaker 1 (17:15):
Very tooth brush, perfume and movie.

Speaker 2 (17:18):
Yeah I don't need you people. Yeah it was. I
really wish that it had been. I mean, it was
very dramatic, but I just kind of wish it was
very like.

Speaker 4 (17:27):
Hollywood, you know that, kind of a little more dynasty. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
But at that point I liked my siblings and my cousin,
so I would have been like jump, you know, get
out whatever. And then but yeah, I remember that in
that instance because I'm fuming and I'm yelling at my
step mom and her face and pointing because I'm like,

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how dare you whatever? And she's like I didn't do anything,
and she's all panicked because this fucking grown teenager is
like it was cross yeah yeah.

Speaker 2 (17:57):
And I didn't do anything, and it was yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1 (18:02):
Let that asshole you're married to, like, yeah, I know,
and I just stood there.

Speaker 2 (18:07):
It was. It was not I think that was the
last time that I started stopped. I stopped going there,
you know, because Grandma had any files for custody, so
I wasn't bound to go to his house. I said,
all done, Fuck that fool, see you never Yeah, and
that's you know, that's kind of my whole point. Yes, toxic, Yeah, toxic.

Speaker 3 (18:28):
And there are those who would say, well, that's still
your father. You need to because I and I've heard
people say it specifically to you. Yes, and it was like,
but that's your who cares? I'm sorry.

Speaker 2 (18:39):
But if that was someone who had been sexually abusing you, nobody.

Speaker 3 (18:45):
Would say nobody but that. But they were physically and abusive.

Speaker 1 (18:50):
Yeah, yeah, that's okay, you get over that.

Speaker 2 (18:55):
You'll be fine. Being dramatic, I know, I'm you know,
one thing I'm grateful for is for whatever reason I
had this thanks ancestors, I had this like strong constitution,
you know what I mean. The fact that I didn't
un alive myself for many reasons, but the fact that
I had horrible parents, you know what I mean, And
it's sometimes I'm all, damn dude, the fact that you

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even survive, that you're here, you've done enough, you know
what I mean, Like I made it lay down. Honestly,
sometimes it feels that way because it was just like God,
what did I do to deserve like dumb and dumber
as my parents? You know?

Speaker 3 (19:33):
But I until the point where I met my husband, Yea,
I used to frequently say, could I ever just take
the downstreamway where I just float along?

Speaker 1 (19:43):
Girls?

Speaker 3 (19:46):
It seems like I always have had the more difficult
path for whatever, and so much as ask by myself,
not even trying to say.

Speaker 1 (19:54):
This is what life did to me.

Speaker 3 (19:55):
No, this is what I did to myself a lot
as I picked all the wrong people, I dated all
the wrong people, and then I married wrong people and
slept with wrong people, and so.

Speaker 2 (20:08):
The whole nation of wrong people. Right.

Speaker 1 (20:12):
But it wasn't even just that.

Speaker 3 (20:14):
I mean there's other things too, you know, being fat,
being queer, whatever, being all the things, and then trying
to just make it in a world where people hate
fat people.

Speaker 2 (20:26):
Yeah, where people hate people, people hate grip people.

Speaker 3 (20:30):
Yeah, people don't and people don't and as we've talked
about many many times in here, people really don't like it.
If you're any of those things together and you're happy,
oh yeah, brown and.

Speaker 2 (20:41):
Free and just living your life that's crazy to me.
Why people care so much? Like, oh my god, that
fat bitch wearing Daisy Dukes and a crap top. It
affects me so much. You know what? That says? You
need to be introspective, bitch, You need to look and
why what that bitch is doing with her body offends
you so much? Like it is bananas? White people care?

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It is so weird.

Speaker 3 (21:03):
Yeah, if you were doing something that I deemed literally
like disgusting.

Speaker 2 (21:07):
Yeah you were different sitting in the streets exactly, Okay,
why is Yeah you totally but I don't care. Like again, right,
and if you're also wearing a shirt that says like Nazi,
I love Nazis, I'm not going to be like a
fan of that, right. But like, if you're just a
fat person or a black person, or a queer person

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or disabled person just living your life wearing clothing that
makes you feel good, I don't give a fuck, you
know what I mean? I don't know.

Speaker 1 (21:37):
No, I couldn't possibly care.

Speaker 2 (21:38):
I've never been like weirded out by people's dress because
I felt like growing up in small town, USA, I
was the weird dress person, you know, right, you get it.
Moving to Portland. That a little different. But I mean
I've never been uncomfortable in like a woman wearing a job.
I'm like, do your thing, babe. You know. Never haven't
been comfortable with anything. I mean men in general, but

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with people how they dress. No, girl, I don't give
a fuck. Why would I.

Speaker 3 (22:02):
Remember one day when I was going to work, Yeah,
and I was going to be putting something on over
my shirt. When I got to work, I wore because
I wore like a little smock.

Speaker 1 (22:15):
Kind of thing at work.

Speaker 2 (22:17):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (22:17):
At the salon that I worked at, I was wearing
a shirt that said shut up, stupid bitch.

Speaker 2 (22:23):
Oh my god, I have that shirt.

Speaker 3 (22:25):
But I'm walking through the parking lot and this woman
stops me. She goes, that's really offensive, and I was like, what.

Speaker 2 (22:32):
Is Yeah, I'm my face yeah today, Yeah.

Speaker 1 (22:38):
Your shirt is very offensive. I go, then don't read it.

Speaker 2 (22:41):
Yeah girl. Then I cursed listen. I curse your house
with blindness, Like, what do you want from me? If?

Speaker 3 (22:48):
If you're still offended, stop looking at it. Yeah, you know,
if you're offended by a video on YouTube, don't watch it.

Speaker 1 (22:54):
Girls offended by music on the radio, don't listen.

Speaker 2 (22:57):
I think there are things that are universally offensive, like
if there's videos on YouTube of like public beheadings and
shit or like, you know, murder, I don't want that.
That's kind of a line, right, But I mean I
used to walk around in a Richard Ramirez shirt and
it's him sitting on a pile of skulls with like,

(23:18):
you know, the pentagram in his hand and it says
the devil like it's a tarot card. I got from
the Museum of Death and I used to wear it
around in La where Richard Amire is terrorized and people
some people would be very upset, and I was like, Mama,
I'm sorry. I'm also from the P and W where
like Ted Bundy was hanging out. So you wait, shut up,
you know what I mean. He's in prison, not these two. No, no, yeah,

(23:42):
I know. I just I feel like there are things
that are more important to focus on than like, I know,
you're wearing a shirt that says a swear word like
who cares girl? Like even just people who get so
riled up a square word. Yeah, It's like it's just
a word, I know.

Speaker 1 (24:03):
And it's like.

Speaker 2 (24:04):
If I'm calling you that word in anger and ugly,
then sure, yeah, you know, but because you hear a
word or you.

Speaker 3 (24:12):
See, I guess I just don't understand people getting in other.

Speaker 2 (24:17):
People's business the policing.

Speaker 3 (24:19):
If it was if you were my child, you know,
and you were wearing something that I deemed wholly inappropriate
to wear in a school or whatever, yeah, absolutely.

Speaker 1 (24:27):
That is still my business, right.

Speaker 2 (24:29):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (24:30):
But if you're some stranger on the street and I
hear you cursing, you know, you're wearing crazy.

Speaker 2 (24:36):
Mama, I care. Five years ago that was me, like
what are we doing? Like, I don't know. I mean,
now I'm old and boring, so I wear like comfy
clothes all the time, because what's the point of being uncomfortable?
Life is Sure?

Speaker 3 (24:51):
The shirt they we're talking about that she's wearing Withson
and Elia from Law and Order SVU is just a
plain black sweatshirt with their picture in the middle.

Speaker 1 (25:03):
So she's very comfy.

Speaker 2 (25:05):
Yeah, cash, Well they're also flipping off the camera. I,
on the other hand, am here in a full ball
gown ball gown with yeah. Yeah, yeah, you know, I
can't be bothered.

Speaker 3 (25:20):
You know, And that's just it really is for me,
specifically since COVID hit Yeah, because.

Speaker 1 (25:26):
Since COVID hit. I can barely be bothered to even
get myself together.

Speaker 3 (25:29):
I software a makeup in COVID because I wasn't going anywhere,
so why put on makeup?

Speaker 1 (25:34):
Yeah, And I just kind of got out of the habit.

Speaker 3 (25:36):
And then it was all, you know what, I like
my face without makeup, sure, And so you know someone
has to I still do my hair every day.

Speaker 2 (25:45):
I know one of us has to do something. I know,
I don't know what I mean. COVID was a huge
part of it, because I used to be the person
who was like, we have to go do something. We
need to go do something right now. If I don't
do something, I feel like life is passing me by.
You remember we have many conversation where I was crying
when I was younger, being like, I'm not doing anything.
I'm a loser, I'm never gonna do anything. Life is

(26:06):
going too quickly whatever. I feel like I crammed a
lot of living in a few years, and I'm tired,
and I want you to know that, Like, I don't
know at this point if it's burnout I was, I'm
just over it. Like everything just seems too tiring, and
I don't know if it's like just existing or like

(26:28):
half the time, being public enemy number one is a
lot to deal with, you know what I mean. It's
like I can't imagine being a black or brown person
or someone who doesn't speak English while walking around right now,
but being a queer person currently, yeah, it's a lot,
you know. And just like Republican rhetoric about we're gonna
take Portland down, We're gonna wipe them out, we're gonna whatever,

(26:49):
it's all just like too much. But yeah, I used
to be super wanderless. I used to be super like,
let's go do a thing, Let's be part of a thing.
You know. I worked like two jobs and went to
school when I lived in La you know, while drinking
full time and partying and whatever, Like.

Speaker 1 (27:07):
What were your full time job? Drinking?

Speaker 2 (27:09):
Drinking? But yeah, sometimes there are some days that I
feel like wow, aakay, you should go do something, and
then I think, no, like go do what?

Speaker 1 (27:19):
Right?

Speaker 2 (27:20):
You know when I it sounds stupid. I know, people
like my good Judy Astro, She was over here the
other day and she was saying she's going out more
and meeting people, and like, making friends as an adult
is hard, and I'm like not stupid and ugly. It's
a vicious monster. But you know, she's doing stuff and
I'm like I already did enough, you know what I mean.
Like Oca, We're going to Rocky Horror this month. It's

(27:42):
very exciting, right, and we're gonna go to dinner and
we're gonna go see the movie and all that jazz.
I'm gonna get, you know, dulled up. And not only
my activity, you know, for Halloween, Gaviner are planning a
night in with like top Us and watching hocus Pocus
one in two. Like, I'm not trying to get crazy, right, Yeah,
I just don't. Like I said this last time on

(28:02):
the podcast, but like we thought, you thought. I thought
lots of people fight who have been marginalized or oppressed
or whatever really hard to be, you know, to just survive.
And sometimes some days it just feels like the point
was what you know what I mean? When you fought
so hard and then like the government fucking hates you
and tells everyone that you're a monster like and a pariah,

(28:26):
you know, and that's scary because more and more people
are emboldened to kill you. Yeah, and that's a scary
thing to be in public. With you know, so anymore,
I don't even know what I'm feeling. You know, I
have like all the diagnoses, lol, but the one that
I've had since I was like an infinite is like
major depressive disorder, which makes sense because look at my life.

(28:48):
But I think I'm there currently. It's not like, oh,
I'm crying and sad every day. It's more just like
meh about everything. And I learned a new word. I'm
gonna teach you. It's called anaedonia. Okay, It's the beautiful word.
It means when you have lost partial or complete joy

(29:08):
in things that used to bring you joy. Everything. Yeah,
it could be anything, right, and it happens when you
just have been like it often happens when you've been
depressed for a long time, or there's crises. People in
war feel it, people who the world feels like it's ending,
you know. And sometimes because I ed Mike, what do
I do? I don't feel And when I was just
sick a couple of weeks ago, month ago, whatever, I

(29:31):
I don't know, I took it out of me. But
I haven't only recovered since then. I still feel so
blab about everything, and so just like, yeah, it's all
an uphill battle, you know, And it's not every day
I feel that way, but girl, it's it's just tiring,
you know. Yeah, So I just want to go into
a little bit of a coma if I could.

Speaker 1 (29:50):
All right, well, don't go to tuckom Oh.

Speaker 2 (29:52):
God, I've been there, never again.

Speaker 1 (29:55):
Thank you.

Speaker 3 (29:57):
I wanted to bring up something that I have heard
almost nothing about in the news, and it's kind of
a big deal. Okay there, do you know about the
typhoon that hit Alaska?

Speaker 1 (30:11):
So literally I have heard only one report on this.

Speaker 3 (30:15):
So the typhoon that hit was it a type Ay,
it was, and I'll get to that in a second,
but it's typhoon.

Speaker 1 (30:24):
Along after hitting where it initially.

Speaker 2 (30:29):
Hit, which again in Southeast Asia.

Speaker 3 (30:31):
Yeah, it's it hit Alaska, and it hit so hard
that the water levels rose six feet higher than normal,
swept homes away, and it was like took people. People
went missing, and because FEMA has been cut, there was
no aid. There was just the state government people who

(30:54):
were like, you know, we need to get in there
and we need to rescue folk. And the fact that
water levels in this town were six feet six feet
is a lot. Yeah, especially when you're talking about live
being at sea level. Yeah, you know that means that
your house half of your first floor is full of water.

Speaker 1 (31:17):
It's terrifying if your house is still there. Yeah, So
I'm just gonna read a little bit of this. First
responders in Alaska.

Speaker 3 (31:24):
Have conducted dozens of rescues after the remnants of Typhoon
Halong fueled a powerful storm that battered the region and
washed away several homes. The remnants of Halong, which originated
in the Northern Philippine Sea October five, intensified the widespread
significant weather impacts and massive flooding to the western regions
of Alaska Saturday into Sunday. Powerful wind gusts and significant

(31:48):
coastal flooding were the main impacts from the storm as
it swept up across Alaska's west coast into early Monday morning.
Numerous locations across the western lasta to report a wing
gus of forty up to seventy miles per hour. So
imagine you're in this little in these houses that they're
showing look to be from this photograph, like probably manufactured

(32:14):
homes which already are not sitting on the most unless
you have them built like this one that we're in
now onto an actual foundation. They don't usually sit on
the most stronger foundations. Multiple homes were swept away and
multiple people.

Speaker 1 (32:34):
Were went missing.

Speaker 2 (32:35):
Horrifying.

Speaker 3 (32:36):
Yeah, at least eight homes in the town of kip
Nook were pushed off their foundations. At least four homes
in a town that I am not even gonna try
to pronounce because I will massacre it.

Speaker 1 (32:48):
We're inundated by the flooding.

Speaker 3 (32:50):
And one hundred it's like, over one hundred people sheltered
overnight in one of the.

Speaker 1 (32:56):
Buildings that was higher up in the city.

Speaker 2 (32:58):
Yeah, you know, horror file.

Speaker 1 (33:01):
Place is devastated.

Speaker 3 (33:03):
But because we have an idiot in charge of our government,
the funds for FEMA haven't got because well, no, only
the people who are getting FEMA funds are the people
who are kissing his ass, because when things are happening
in places where they're not Trump lovers, it's like, sorry
about it, I'm sorry that your whole town burnt down,

(33:25):
but you don't kiss the Cheetos.

Speaker 2 (33:27):
Ass so well, and it's like, not only Donald Trump
is the worst ever, but it's like he has emboldened
these awful, fucking little douchey minions to do his dirty work,
you know, like Christy Nome and Pete Hegseth and whatever.
They're all so stupid christ.

Speaker 1 (33:44):
You know who came here and said, oh my gosh,
it is such a war.

Speaker 2 (33:48):
Zone, I know, and they and they all keep talking
about it. They're like, what people are telling you in
Portland is a lie. There's fires everywhere, there's you know,
several injured, more killed. Like, what are you talking about, bitch,
what are you talking about? And but luckily the Portland
Police whoever big top guy, was like, we're literally talking

(34:10):
about one square block downtown, Like that is what we're
talking about. What are you freaking out about? You know?
Exactly literally nothing?

Speaker 1 (34:19):
And it did on a completely different note.

Speaker 2 (34:22):
Yeah, there there's a couple of things that were that
crossed my you know, field division this week that I
found to be things I wanted to talk about.

Speaker 3 (34:30):
The other one is did you hear that miss Major died?
This Major who is a legendary transgender aptivist. Oh yes, yeah,
h what is seventy nine?

Speaker 1 (34:41):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (34:42):
And she seventy eight passed away this week. She is
one of the people who really led the whole transgender
kind of movement started that she was there at the
beginning of the.

Speaker 2 (34:55):
Pride movement Stonewall, wasn't she.

Speaker 1 (34:57):
Yeah, yeah, so she's a veteran of So she was
also a queer elder who who worked with the trans community,
but specifically.

Speaker 2 (35:13):
The homeless community. Oh yeah, you know.

Speaker 1 (35:15):
And so she was involved up into her death.

Speaker 3 (35:19):
So she was, you know, a pretty impressive lady who
worked her entire life well to make queer lives better.

Speaker 2 (35:27):
Well, let's talk about how she lived to almost be
eighty years old. Oh my god, eighties, My god, eighty
years old as a trans woman of color. That's crazy.
Good for her, I know, but sad days, you.

Speaker 3 (35:42):
Know, indeed, But you know, she's definitely someone to be celebrated.
And so I am not going to read this. The
article is very long, sure, but what you.

Speaker 1 (35:52):
Need to know is that she is a queer pioneer. Yeah,
and that she's no longer with us. However, look her up.

Speaker 3 (35:59):
It's Missmay Major and her full name, but everyone just
called her Miss Major was Miss Major Griffin Gracie love.

Speaker 2 (36:07):
Yeah, she sounds like a show dog, Miss Major Griffin Gracey.

Speaker 3 (36:12):
Yeah, yeah, I watched the whole documentary about her and
watched how she ran this organization where specifically trans women
and mostly trans women of color.

Speaker 1 (36:25):
Yeah, when they were.

Speaker 3 (36:26):
Having struggles, whether that be with homelessness, sometimes.

Speaker 1 (36:30):
Drugs and alcohol, whatever, would.

Speaker 2 (36:32):
Come to this place where she that she ran, Yeah,
and she would help them get back on their feet.

Speaker 1 (36:37):
I love that get their acts together. And I thought
that was pretty great.

Speaker 3 (36:40):
The fact that again that she did this her whole
idle life basically.

Speaker 2 (36:44):
That's so great. I know, Yeah, E stept for her.
Let's also talk about how Diane Keaton passed away. I know,
isn't that so sad?

Speaker 1 (36:54):
Thank Heaton seventy nine.

Speaker 2 (36:56):
I think so. I think she was idle legend, so
never married.

Speaker 3 (37:02):
I've seen her in like a million things, right, I
think the first thing that I think everyone kind of
knew her from when she started was like Annie Hall
because she was with Woody.

Speaker 1 (37:12):
Allen and Woody Allen movies whatever. But she went on
to do like a bajillion movie. Yeah, you know, and
I think the oh, I don't know what. The last
thing I've seeing her.

Speaker 3 (37:25):
In a lot of things and stuff that she did
older because she literally worked right up to the end
of her life. She was making movies right to the end,
and so there have been a lot of people kind
of giving her a little shout out about how she
touched their lives.

Speaker 2 (37:41):
I know.

Speaker 3 (37:41):
One of the feelis that was super cute today was
Reese Witherspoon talking about her. One of her very first
auditions was for a Diane Keaton movie and she came
in with her very thick Nashville and Diane Keaton's like,
is this a character voice that you're doing. She's like, no,
my am, I'm from Nashville, Tennessee.

Speaker 2 (38:01):
My name is Reese with so this is this is
your real real accents.

Speaker 1 (38:07):
Yes, ma'am. She goes, well, am I am, I gonna read.
She goes, You've got the job.

Speaker 2 (38:12):
That's so funny, You've got the job.

Speaker 1 (38:15):
Because she said she loved how she spoke and she
loved that she was so natural.

Speaker 2 (38:19):
I'm so cute. Yeah.

Speaker 1 (38:21):
First Nowe has trained most of that accent.

Speaker 2 (38:23):
Yeah, you can barely hear it.

Speaker 1 (38:25):
But I thought that was really cute.

Speaker 2 (38:27):
That is so funny.

Speaker 1 (38:28):
Her first big break was with danke.

Speaker 2 (38:31):
No.

Speaker 1 (38:32):
I love that legend.

Speaker 2 (38:33):
Well, one of my favorite holiday movies, which I know
a lot of people don't like because it's upsetting and whatever.
It is the family Stone where she plays with my
mom who has cancer. It's so good. Now it's gonna
hit so different, you know.

Speaker 3 (38:46):
But that is one that I the first time I
watched I was like, I don't like any of.

Speaker 1 (38:50):
Any of the movie.

Speaker 2 (38:51):
They're all kind of awful. Yeah, you know, because they
isn't it? S Yeah, she's the only one who's not awful. Well,
I mean in the movie, she's just like no, no, no, no,
She's just annoying is a thing. And she keeps clearing
a throw and she's just very annoying and that's it, right,
And they just are mean to her because she's annoying.

Speaker 1 (39:10):
Yeah, well, I think there just means because they're mean.

Speaker 2 (39:13):
But then you know, and then there's a whole sister
swapping brothers you know I'm talking about. Yeah, listen, I
love that movie. It is a multicultural movie because there's
an racial couples and there's a deaf man and they
speak sign language. Okuys how I'm like a win to win,
you know what I mean?

Speaker 1 (39:30):
Right?

Speaker 3 (39:30):
Well, And it's also like I said the first time
I watched it, Boo, after you talked about it.

Speaker 2 (39:37):
I'm a world changing I have.

Speaker 1 (39:39):
To watch it.

Speaker 2 (39:40):
You're stupid, bitch, Yeah, what's wrong with you?

Speaker 3 (39:44):
I did watch it again, and watching it sometimes for me,
watching something kind of through someone else's lens, we'll change it,
whether that's good or bad, because I know that I've
watched movies and then someone has said, oh I.

Speaker 1 (39:58):
Hated that movie and here's why. Yeah, and then I
might go back and go, oh.

Speaker 2 (40:03):
Okay, yeah, I can see how that is deeply flawed
or that is offensive for whatever. And like just this week,
I was recommending the movie Drop Dead Gorgeous, yeah, oh yeah,
and it was all now it is problematic there. I
wouldn't say the whole thing.

Speaker 1 (40:18):
And we talked about this. I think last week we did.
You know it's one of those movies that I love.

Speaker 2 (40:23):
The movie yeah, same, but there are parties but didn't
age well listen. I think that things that are dated
that are have problematic things in it. I mean you
have to then put on your nineteen nineties goggles or
whatever it is and be able to some things. I
can't do it right. Some things it's harder for me
to remove myself. Other things.

Speaker 5 (40:45):
For me, the movie Pretty in Pink m I haven't
watched it as no, not pretty pink, wrong Molly Room,
sixteen candles, because sixteen candles.

Speaker 1 (40:55):
Is what, you know. I mean John.

Speaker 3 (41:00):
Hughes's biggest gudes or whatever. And it's so fucking offensive. Yeah,
I mean it's like I'm going to, you know, let
you do whatever you want to my past out drunk girls.
So you know, there's rape and there's all kinds of
and it's like it's all a big joke.

Speaker 1 (41:19):
So much racism, I know.

Speaker 2 (41:20):
I was thinking of the movie that is a newer
movie that I watched twenty minutes of and said I
can't finish it was Poor Things with Emma Stone. I
hated every minute of it. And that is one of
those movies that critically was acclaimed and she won an
Oscar for it, did she not?

Speaker 4 (41:38):
Yeah?

Speaker 2 (41:39):
I think so.

Speaker 3 (41:39):
And I hated it every minute of it.

Speaker 2 (41:43):
Yeah, I agree.

Speaker 1 (41:43):
And it's stupid and offensive, huh. But I found most
offensive about it is And.

Speaker 3 (41:49):
If you haven't seen it, sorry spoiler, but it's a
couple years old now.

Speaker 2 (41:54):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (41:55):
It's this woman who is discovered who basically has the
brain of a an infant.

Speaker 1 (42:00):
Yeah, and then we find out later she literally does.

Speaker 2 (42:04):
You know, but she's has it's like a doctor Frankenstein
kind of thing, like yeah right, but she is very
childlike yes, and it's casted around by these men.

Speaker 1 (42:15):
Yeah, and I'm all gross.

Speaker 2 (42:16):
It is so gross and like the behavior is like
if a child did it, you would either correct it
or be like oh right, depending on what it is.
But when you're an adult and people are letting you
behave that way and be like uncomfortably sexual and special needs,
and it's just so much. It was so uncomfortable. I
was like, I why do people like this?

Speaker 1 (42:37):
Yeah, I didn't understand it. I will tell you.

Speaker 3 (42:39):
There was one thing in the entire movie that made
me laugh out loud was they were in a restaurant
and again, she's just learning to be kind of an
adult in a human and whatever, and there's this baby
that just keeps crying and she gets up and starts
to walk away in her person.

Speaker 1 (42:56):
She's having dinner. It's like where you go, she goes, I'm.

Speaker 2 (42:57):
Gonna go punch that thing, Yeah, because I feel that way. Sure.

Speaker 1 (43:03):
That was literally the liking in the movie that I enjoyed.

Speaker 2 (43:06):
Yeah. Yeah, a girl most of my life, but I.

Speaker 1 (43:12):
Would do it. But who hasn't felt that way?

Speaker 2 (43:15):
I have openly sworn at children that weren't related to
me and I didn't know.

Speaker 1 (43:20):
So no, you know, I like physically harmful.

Speaker 2 (43:24):
No, but they're emotionally scarred for the rest of their lives.
I've said word to them. Their parents didn't know. No,
I'm just kidding, but I have. Yeah, I've sworn it
kids that I don't know.

Speaker 3 (43:33):
And I don't remember if we talked about it, because
I know, if you've listened to us more than you
know a minute, you know that I don't watch scary movies.
Even the last week we talked about Halloween and horror films. Yeah,
did I talk about them here that I watched the
movie Sinners. No, so Sinners is a newer movie.

Speaker 2 (43:53):
Oh, everyone knows about you know, I'm just kidding.

Speaker 1 (43:56):
Sinners is a newer movie.

Speaker 3 (43:58):
Yeah, with Michael Jordan, Uh huh and Haley Seinfeld Steinfeld.

Speaker 2 (44:06):
Yeah, I know.

Speaker 3 (44:07):
I was Haley Steinfeld, who, by the way, I didn't
recognize right away, Okay, because it was part of it
was I'm used to seeing her as this sweet, innocent
little girl, and she has quite a mouthfuler.

Speaker 1 (44:21):
She uses all the.

Speaker 2 (44:22):
Like oh, big girlanguage, big girl.

Speaker 3 (44:24):
Yeah, but it's a movie about these brothers who are
starting at speakeasy, these black brothers who are starting to
speakeasy in the South in the twenties.

Speaker 2 (44:37):
Thirties, twenties thirties, I would say around then. Yeah, And
so of course.

Speaker 3 (44:41):
Everything socially it is pretty much against them because they're
you know, white people in the clan and the whatever.

Speaker 1 (44:50):
But then we throw in vampires.

Speaker 2 (44:52):
Vampires, and god, it's such a good movie.

Speaker 1 (44:55):
It is a good movie, and it's not your typical
vampire movie.

Speaker 2 (44:59):
No, no, no.

Speaker 3 (45:00):
In fact, I was able to watch the whole thing,
and yes, there were some moments where I got a
little squeamish.

Speaker 2 (45:04):
Yeah, because because there's biting in blood and sex stuff
and lingis you heard me, I use the appropriate term.

Speaker 1 (45:15):
Well that is one of the.

Speaker 3 (45:16):
Sentences that Miss Haley said about you you know, but
you're telling it.

Speaker 2 (45:21):
I was like, oh, and my coach and fucked me
so good.

Speaker 1 (45:25):
It was like, damn, I know.

Speaker 3 (45:27):
But it's a really really good movie, and it's for
those who want to watch a really good kind of
bad pry movie who can't deal with like the really
really scary s. Yeah, it's storytelling. Here's my mom with
a lot of scary movies. This is storytelling, is what's like
it lacks?

Speaker 2 (45:44):
Yeah, this one not lacking it anyway, there's no lacking.
And plus here's one of the things. And I this
is probably just me, but one of the lead characters again,
Michael B.

Speaker 1 (45:57):
Jordan's who everybody.

Speaker 2 (45:59):
Knows of the lead characters, thank you very much. He
and his brother the same person. They're both played by
Michael B.

Speaker 4 (46:05):
Jordan.

Speaker 2 (46:06):
What, I don't know, if you know, it's very Lindsay
Lohan of Parent Trap Girl.

Speaker 1 (46:09):
Oh my god, yeah, I'm.

Speaker 2 (46:11):
So blown my mind, I know. But his love interest
is a large black woman. I love her. She's been
in several things.

Speaker 3 (46:21):
But I love that this gorgeous, muscular man is with
a woman that Hollywood certainly wouldn't consider leading No, no, no,
leading lady.

Speaker 1 (46:33):
And she, you know, the whole thing between them was
really hot.

Speaker 3 (46:37):
She was not one typical, especially white people would consider
for the leading man.

Speaker 1 (46:44):
So I love that, Like all.

Speaker 2 (46:47):
That movie is so good and there's like it because
it's there's inspiration from there was a black man who
was a blue singer who quote unquote sort of sold
his salt to the devil at the crossroads Okay, it's
talked about. I've looked at before, but I can't remember
who it is. It doesn't matter, but it's based off
of that, right, because the main character, Sammy, that's like

(47:11):
the impression is that he was fought on vampire, but
he was able, like sold his soul. That's why he
played music so beautifully. And that's what. There's a whole
you know, religious aspect to it because it's like part
of it starts in a church. There's an indigenous aspect
because they're chasing the vampire. But then like the vampire
is Irish, and that's a really interesting play, especially in

(47:32):
the South, especially during that time period where like Irish
folks then you know, had a rise in status in
society because you know, it's Irish. Back in the day,
we're treated poorly. No I mean, I'm not saying exactly

(47:53):
like black people, but like they were treated poorly. They
were other and a lot of time black people and
Irish people banned together and like made community that way.
But yeah, so they made the Vampire Irish. It's so interesting.
It's just really good and it's beautiful.

Speaker 3 (48:05):
Character Sammy is as you said, loosely inspired by real
blizz legend Robert Johnson, who was said to have sold
his soul to the devil at a crossroads for musical talent.
But it's really the most the rest of the movie
is just based on stories that the director's uncle used
to tell about being in the South.

Speaker 2 (48:26):
And the director is Ryan Coogler. He is amazing. Well,
I don't know, he's amazing. I love him. I mean,
I don't know anything else. But he did Centers and
that shit slaps, So I'm about it. So if you
want to see a good spooky Halloween movie and there's
an interesting, like psychedelicy kind of scene where all the
music kind of merges at one point in the barn,
it's it's a really good movie. It's very interesting, So

(48:49):
I go watch it. It is.

Speaker 1 (48:51):
Indeed, I was.

Speaker 3 (48:54):
I was very very please because I went into a thinking, who,
let's see if I can get through it, because.

Speaker 1 (49:01):
I don't do well with scary movies.

Speaker 3 (49:03):
Yeah, and then as we watched it, I was just like, Okay,
I can do this because a lot of it is
more kind of just human, you know, even as it's
like dealing with the vampires. It's not like your typical
horror no stuff so anyway, yeah.

Speaker 2 (49:20):
It's good. Yeah, what are what am I even watching?
Who even know? I talked about Ed Gaine, we watched that.
I watched the newest, the latest, oh my god, the
Conjuring films, the newest one, which was very good, and
it wraps it up pretty nicely, unless they're gonna have
like the Conjuring Next Generation where it's like the Warren's

(49:42):
daughter becomes you know, I don't know, finds her partner
in crime and fights ghosts or whatever. But that was
really good. And then my man bought twenty five creature
Features and some of them are cool. A lot of
them are stupid, like Piranha three D and then Piranha

(50:03):
double D. Yeah that's hilarious. But yeah, so I.

Speaker 3 (50:11):
Have seen the original movie Piranha, yeah, which is fucking hilarious.

Speaker 2 (50:16):
No, and I love listen. There's one thing I love.
It is be horror movies. I love cheesy horror movies.
I think they're fucking amazing, and so I want more
of that. So there's twenty five. I just watched one
called Feast, which was chaotic and weird and grimy and
gross and stupid as all fuck, but it was cute

(50:37):
you know, as horror movies do. Pretty much. You give
me any horror movie. It can be actually scary, it
can be campy, it can be funny, it can be whatever.

Speaker 1 (50:44):
As long as it's not.

Speaker 2 (50:45):
Boring, I'm gonna love it, you know, right, Yeah, I
love it.

Speaker 3 (50:49):
I think about a lot of the movies I watched
growing up, and I remember a lot of them like
feeling very scary to me, sure, and then watching them
now I'm all.

Speaker 2 (51:00):
Hmmm, what was I afraid? Yeah?

Speaker 1 (51:03):
This is scary at all?

Speaker 2 (51:04):
Or it's really stupid, or it's so cheesy or horny
or whatever. You know.

Speaker 3 (51:09):
You know, but there are men, there are the ones
that really hold up you know that you watched years later.

Speaker 2 (51:14):
Okay, absolutely good, fox me up. Yeah. But yeah, I
love horror movies. And now I don't feel like I
get too scared anymore, which sucks because I love being
like I love horror movie scared.

Speaker 1 (51:26):
You know that feeling question for you is are you.

Speaker 3 (51:31):
Easily do you easily jump at the jump scares? I
would say I am the person who those movies are
geared to. I will jump practically out in my chair.

Speaker 2 (51:40):
Oh see, every jump scare, I a jump scared can't
get me. It's pretty fifty to fifty. But I don't ever.
I'm never like, you know, I'm always just like, oh
like it's more like a flinch. But yeah, no, I
has a rule scream yes, but I will absolutely jump.
Yeah okay, okay, okay, yeah no, I jump for sure.
But I love this.

Speaker 3 (52:00):
So, by the way, jump at loud noises and like,
if you're watching a regular.

Speaker 1 (52:04):
Movie that's not scary and there's a sudden loud noise.

Speaker 2 (52:07):
Still it makes me jump. Girl, I know I am jumping,
but I like it. I like the being scared part.
But I'm also a psychopath because I'm the person who's
watching a horror movie and then looking in my dark
hallway being like something's gonna appear there.

Speaker 1 (52:19):
I keep watching this horror movie by myself.

Speaker 2 (52:22):
Honestly. Yeah, it's mental illness. Hi. Yeah, you know. Whatever
I I'm trying to think is oh I know what
I was gonna watch what and I haven't, And here's
this gonna be? This is my unpopular opinion. Oh you ready,

(52:44):
I'm ready the show Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Speaker 1 (52:48):
Now I've watched the movie multiple times.

Speaker 2 (52:50):
What are you about to say? You're about to get
us canceled.

Speaker 3 (52:53):
I might, I might because I haven't been able to
slog my way through episode watch.

Speaker 2 (52:59):
Okay, yeah, it's so so corny, you know.

Speaker 1 (53:04):
And yes, and it's also many years old, a lot,
you know.

Speaker 3 (53:09):
Because some of the folks in it are now, you know,
their forties, yeah, teenagers?

Speaker 2 (53:14):
Yeah, yeah, so you.

Speaker 1 (53:15):
Know it's at least twenty plus years old.

Speaker 2 (53:17):
How any seasons are there?

Speaker 1 (53:19):
I don't know, one hundred and fifty.

Speaker 2 (53:20):
No, that's a lot.

Speaker 1 (53:21):
But you know, it's a little Sarah Michelle.

Speaker 3 (53:25):
Yeah, and I'm blanking her name, who went on to
be in How I Met Your Mother The Red Ahead.

Speaker 2 (53:32):
Oh, oh, I do know her. Her name is Alison Hannigan.

Speaker 1 (53:35):
Alison Hannigan, and she's like a baby.

Speaker 2 (53:38):
I love her. Well.

Speaker 1 (53:40):
The makeup for the characters are.

Speaker 2 (53:42):
The bad, you know, and the writing is I know.
But Spike when he comes into it, he's hot as shit.

Speaker 1 (53:50):
He's like, like I said, they haven't even moved through
episode one.

Speaker 3 (53:53):
I keep trying to watch episode one and I'll watch
like five or ten minutes of and go, oh, this
is terrible.

Speaker 2 (53:58):
Yeah, you know, how long isn't it episode?

Speaker 1 (54:01):
A week?

Speaker 2 (54:02):
It is that you're a liar or I haven't watched
all of Buffy, but during the pandemic when I lived
in Milwaukee, Sherry and Astra had both seen it were like,
I am and everyone I know loves it, everyone I
know everyone, And so I said, okay, I watch it,
And so I watched probably half of the series, and
then I moved on to something else, and it's fine.

(54:22):
I think maybe had I been jumped on the Buffy
train when it was on, maybe like maybe, yeah, there's
better things to watch. But I don't think it's horrible.

Speaker 1 (54:34):
Mary, Well, again, I'm still on the pilot episode.

Speaker 3 (54:37):
Yeah, notoriously, pilot episodes are not great.

Speaker 2 (54:41):
Why don't you just skip to episode two.

Speaker 1 (54:44):
Because I'm afraid I'll miss something important? Really episode I
just don't know. But what's funny to me is the
guy who is uh what is he called the trainer?

Speaker 3 (54:57):
Mm hmmm, because in the movie but like Donald Suther,
who is wonderful and brilliant and a little spooky and
creepy and all those things, but it has an amazing presence, right.

Speaker 2 (55:13):
Giles, the one who does it in the TV series
is this like kind of nerd, nerdy little professor guy.

Speaker 1 (55:22):
It's like really after the other one and really this.

Speaker 2 (55:26):
Guy listen their apples and oranges. Buffy the Vampires, the
movie and the show are not the same, tink. I know,
I know, And I love the movie because it's hilarious
and candily and it's so and Paul Rubens is in it,
and who doesn't love Paul Rubens?

Speaker 1 (55:42):
I know, stupid people.

Speaker 2 (55:44):
Yeah, and.

Speaker 3 (55:46):
My only, my only the you know, looking back all
these years later, Christy Swanson.

Speaker 1 (55:51):
Yeah, grow to be an idiot.

Speaker 2 (55:53):
Yeah, but Hilary Swanks in it and we love her.

Speaker 1 (55:55):
Little baby Hillary Swank is in it.

Speaker 2 (55:57):
What's your sitch, Buffy, David or isn't it?

Speaker 1 (56:03):
And Berry, Yes, that's what it is.

Speaker 2 (56:08):
So there's like there's a lot of people in good
people and whatever, and it's silly, silly fun.

Speaker 4 (56:13):
Well.

Speaker 2 (56:14):
I also think though that like the movie Buffy was there,
you know, set in La, like as if whatever Valley Girl, right, Oh,
Buffy the show is not. They're set in sunny Dale
or whatever, which is like from LA and.

Speaker 1 (56:29):
The vampires apparently followed her. Yeah, sunny Dale.

Speaker 2 (56:32):
Is just a hell mouth. That's what it's considered, you know.

Speaker 1 (56:37):
So sorry if I've offended any Buffy lovers.

Speaker 2 (56:40):
Probably all the lesbians not listen to us. They're all
pissed now, all of that of them. Maybe I don't know.
I don't want to assume people's sexuality.

Speaker 1 (56:52):
I just assumed nobody has any.

Speaker 2 (56:54):
Nobody has any sexuality.

Speaker 3 (56:56):
Because if they did, it would probably offend me because you.

Speaker 1 (56:59):
Know, it wouldn't align with my values.

Speaker 2 (57:02):
Which is a gross get away from me, which is
I could have sex, but i'd rather have I would
rather have a nap for all. Be so fucky for real.

Speaker 1 (57:13):
At this point in my life, it's like, hmm, but
a nap sounds good.

Speaker 2 (57:17):
Do I want to put in the effort?

Speaker 1 (57:19):
Right?

Speaker 4 (57:20):
No?

Speaker 2 (57:21):
Or do I want to eat? Check mission? Betty watching movies?
That's me. I just turned into a goblin. Ye, no
catch for you. I gotta watch movies. Yeah, that's Govin
is a very lucky man. Yes, wrap this bitch up,
wrap this shut up. I'm over it.

Speaker 1 (57:41):
Wow.

Speaker 2 (57:42):
Right, Well, I guess I'm calling the shots a few
minutes early because said, oh my god, I like people care.
We go over all the time. People aren't going to
care that a minute or s sorry was take out
my anger on the microphone.

Speaker 3 (57:58):
Oh so listen, uh, We're still waiting to hear from y'all,
like your favorite, your favorite Halloween movies, are your favorite
scary whatever?

Speaker 2 (58:09):
You know?

Speaker 1 (58:09):
Yeah, we want to inquiry minds one.

Speaker 2 (58:13):
I know, and I'm inquiring for once, so fucking tell
me or I'll never inquire again.

Speaker 1 (58:19):
I know, right, So you know you can send that
information to.

Speaker 2 (58:24):
Oh it would seem as though at gmail dot com.

Speaker 1 (58:28):
Yeah, so do that?

Speaker 2 (58:29):
Tell us what your favorite, yeah, scary movie, or tell
us that you hate scary movies. I don't care, you know, yeah,
do it. But I'm sure everybody has at least one
or your favorite Halloween movie. I'll go even with Halloween,
and scary can mean anything suspenseful or like psychological horror.
Those are all scary.

Speaker 1 (58:46):
So I don't remember if we've talked about this. We
probably have. Is uh my sister Linda, Yes, Halloween Town.

Speaker 3 (58:55):
Oh yeah, a thing that she watched with her mother
and she watches it with her grand with her ran babies.

Speaker 2 (59:00):
I love that.

Speaker 3 (59:02):
Yeah, I love that, and I actually had never seen
it until just a few years ago.

Speaker 1 (59:06):
That even though it stars the amazing Debbie Round.

Speaker 2 (59:09):
Yeah, there's multiple of them too.

Speaker 1 (59:11):
There's film here I know in.

Speaker 2 (59:13):
St Helens, right, Yeah, and every year they opened Halloween
Town and Saint Helens you can actually go.

Speaker 1 (59:18):
Last year, Catheina Jimmy was there.

Speaker 2 (59:20):
I know there's always people there, but like it's far away, inexpensive. Yeah,
and I don't want to, you know what I mean.
And back to that old thing of like I'm only
going to be around people if I'm in Disneyland. Like,
so I got a thing the other day and email
remember the place where we went to do to Snell Cows. Yeah,
of course sent me a thing for their pumpkin patch.

Speaker 3 (59:41):
Okay, but it's all the way Forest Grove, which from
here it's like about forty five minutes to traffic.

Speaker 1 (59:47):
But I was all, oh, I really maybe no, I
don't really want to go.

Speaker 3 (59:53):
But it's like in their pumpkin patch there are two
of their miniature Highland cattle, so they're the ones with
the long hair that you can snuggle and pet and
love one and baby goats.

Speaker 2 (01:00:06):
Don't. I can't go back to that place, but she
might actually steal a goat, Okay, So before I leave,
there was a little baby goat and when we went
to go pet cows and it, you know, could walk
o do whatever it wanted, and it fell in love
with being Gavin, and I fell in love with it
because it was a baby goat. And so we're leaving Gavin.
I left it before these two and the baby goat
chase after is go mah man. And I'm like, if

(01:00:26):
it comes closer to me, I'm gonna put it in
the car. Like and if no one was looking, I
would have come home with a goat.

Speaker 3 (01:00:33):
Yeah, except I was telling something the other day. The
problem would be that you be You would have said, well,
I can't I just have one go because then it'll
be lonely.

Speaker 1 (01:00:40):
No, I have to steal two goats.

Speaker 2 (01:00:42):
That's not true because I have other dogs. Yeah, And
you know, the say isn't gonna get much bigger. She's
the perfect I used to play with a go.

Speaker 1 (01:00:54):
We better go before she starts planning on Halloween.

Speaker 2 (01:00:58):
I gotta got no great all right, So we do
this every week and we do our show comes in
everyone it does.

Speaker 1 (01:01:05):
Hope you enjoy it and if you don't.

Speaker 2 (01:01:07):
Funk off, okay honestly, but and then tell a friend
to listen to it, that you're not really a friend
that yeah, yeah, yeah, anyway, we'll talk to you later. Guys,
maybe excuse me, and we gotta go, not we definitely
gotta go. Okay ready Bye,