August 5, 2025 • 15 mins
It's hard not knowing, especially when you are someone who feels like you need to know, or if what you're in is really hard and you long to know when your breakthrough is coming. At least we can always know that God is with us through whatever we're going through. He sees our pain and tears, and He will get us through it. I pray this helps others feel comfort, reassurance, and most importantly, feel closer to Jesus. Amen. 🫂❤️
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Hey guys, this is Jess. I'm just in the mess.
It's been a few months since my last episode that
I put out, and a lot's happened from that time
until now, good and bad things. But I feel the
(00:30):
need to get on here and say that I feel
like this will be relatable to a lot of people.
It's frustrating to not know what to do or have
the answers that you need, and I'm feeling that way
(00:51):
right now. There's things that I'm struggling with that I
don't know the answers to, and I'd like to know
already or know what to do regarding these different things.
(01:14):
But I'm learning to accept the things that I can't
change and just being okay with not knowing, because if
God wanted me to know, I would know, But since
I don't, all I can do is trust in him,
(01:38):
Trust that he is good, Trust that he loves me,
that he has a plan for my life, that he's
working all things together for my good, and just learning
how to accept, just accepting the not knowing. And for
(02:01):
someone who is you know, who likes to like I'm
a planner and I like to have control over whatever
I can have control over, I guess whenever I don't
know the answers or know what's coming next. You know,
(02:25):
it's really a blessing in disguise because I'm forced to
trust in God, and there's a certain ease that comes
with that. There's a piece, his supernatural piece that comes
with that, and I'll take that over forcingly trying to
(02:53):
get to the answers. I'll take his peace. I'll take
being able to trust in Him and rely on the
fact that He already knows what's going to happen next.
I'm okay with not knowing. It's cool, you know what
I mean. But to be honest with you, I was
(03:17):
experiencing some attacks whenever it came to the podcast Jess
in the Mess, and I'm not going to believe the
enemy's lies. But what I will believe is that even
though whenever I created this podcast, I wasn't the most knowledgeable,
(03:44):
I wasn't the most you know, sound according to scripture,
or the most obedient, or have all these degrees or
have all this experience. I came into this, you know,
very unprepared, very unknowledgeable, very inexperienced. But God can use anybody,
(04:14):
and he can use anything He does use everything and
everyone for whatever his purposes are, for whoever or whatever.
So with that being said, I have faith that each
and everything that I've said on every one of these
(04:36):
episodes has helped someone, even if it's just one person,
in some shape or form. And if anything, I can
go back and listen to certain episodes from maybe the
first episode I've ever made on here and then listening
(05:00):
to the most recent one that I've put out, and
at least I can see how much I've grown, and
I can look back at all the wonderful things that
God has done for me and has taught me along
the way. And something that I find very important that
(05:21):
He has taught me is that nothing is more important
than my relationship with Him. Doesn't matter who sees me,
who doesn't see me, who approves of me, who's applauding me,
who's you know, helping me or not helping me, None
(05:47):
of that matters. All that matters is that my existence
has some type of connection with the one who made me.
In this time, like since I had posted my last episode,
I think it was like in March or something. In
(06:10):
that time, I purposely hadn't posted any more episodes because
I just wanted time with God, and I honestly couldn't
handle putting any more out there because I knew to
myself that God has been working on me and working
in me. And I'm not going to get on here
(06:34):
and try to teach anybody anything. If I myself need
to be taught first, we all do. So I don't
want to come on here and just talk and act
like I know it all, like I've felt like I've
probably done, and I felt feel like you know a
(06:56):
lot of us unknowingly do. And so with that being said,
something that I can use as a teachable thing is
the time that I have had with God and what
he has shown me, and what he's shown me is
(07:21):
his love for me and how he'll never leave me.
And no matter who does leave or doesn't, no matter
what anybody thinks of me, the only thing that matters
(07:42):
is that I'm with God, and God is with me,
and he knows me. He sees what I do, he
sees what I don't do, and he sees my heart.
And that's the most important thing. That's probably the best
(08:04):
thing that I could ever pass on to someone on
this podcast. Just know, if you're doing the best that
you can, and you're doing the next right thing every day.
That's the best thing that you can do, really, and
(08:25):
I've been doing that myself, and God's been helping me
to know what the next right thing is to do
and to just keep on pressing through even when times
are really hard, which they have been. Whenever I first
(08:51):
moved into the home that I'm in, I think about
four years ago, and then up until literally yesterday, I
had carpets in a portion of my home, and my
oldest son, who's autistic, he has had a lot of
(09:14):
accidents and has peed on those carpets, like pretty much
every day for however many years that we had been here,
and I had gotten a carpet cleaner to remedy the carpets,
and literally, as I would be pushing that carpet cleaner
(09:39):
trying to undo what had been done, he was in
another spot, making another piece spot. And it was just
literally a living hell. And it's really hard, and I
really bent over backwards and really pushed myself to impossible
(10:03):
limits to try to keep up with trying to make
and keep their home healthy and safe to live in.
And not until you know, recently, I had finally gotten
the funds to be able to change out my floors
(10:27):
and have that nasty carpet ripped out, and now I
have beautiful floors for my kids to play on. My
son is being in the potty full time now, And
God did that for me. God made it to where
(10:48):
that could happen because He's seen my seriously every day.
It was daily, just really putting a lot of stress
on my body to keep up with all the peace
spots and trying to make it safe and suitable for
(11:08):
the kids to live in. He's seen my efforts and
he busted me with the means to be able to
change my circumstances as I just pressed on and still
did the next right thing and try to be a
good ma and keep up with it. And now I
(11:31):
can look around and I have these nice floors now,
and I just feel like, you know, all of that
it wasn't for nothing, because God was with me the
whole time. Every time I would have to lay something
(11:53):
down on a pea spot to absorb the pea and
then go over it with the carpet cleaner, like it
was just an everyday thing. But He was with me
every time as I pushed through through tears and prayers
and begging God to help me like change this, begging
(12:15):
God to help my son just hit the pody every
time like he saw me in a meant a lot
for him to deliver us out of that really tormenting situation.
(12:40):
My kids are happier and I'm happier with these floors,
and I'm just very blessed, and I want to say
thank you God for half of my back and for
seeing me in giving me better. I apologize for like
(13:03):
raspiness in my voice, but I just got over being
sick with a strap. But I went to the er
and I got some antibiotics and starting to feel a
lot better, thank God, because it was it was really bad.
(13:25):
My mom and my brother had to help me with
my kids because it was just it was really bad.
But I'm glad to be feeling better now, and I'm
glad I could get on here and really testify about
the carpet and the you know, the flooring situation. And
(13:51):
I pray that anybody else, you know, just going through
hard things, because I know we're all going through hard
things and we may not know the answers or when
the thing is going to change or not. I want
to pray for you that God will give you strength
(14:12):
and faith and trust in Him, and he will give
you endurance to persevere in whatever you're in and just
trust Him that He will get you through it. You
will come out on the other side of it stronger
and wiser and closer to God because we get closer
(14:34):
to Him through experience, even though it don't feel good
at least he we know that He's with us, and
he loves us, he sees us, he cares for us,
and he will help us. But I love you whoever's listening,
and I hope this blessed you in some way, and
(14:54):
thank you for listening. Bye bye,
Hey guys, this is Jess. I'm just in the mess.
It's been a few months since my last episode that
I put out, and a lot's happened from that time
until now, good and bad things. But I feel the
(00:30):
need to get on here and say that I feel
like this will be relatable to a lot of people.
It's frustrating to not know what to do or have
the answers that you need, and I'm feeling that way
(00:51):
right now. There's things that I'm struggling with that I
don't know the answers to, and I'd like to know
already or know what to do regarding these different things.
(01:14):
But I'm learning to accept the things that I can't
change and just being okay with not knowing, because if
God wanted me to know, I would know, But since
I don't, all I can do is trust in him,
(01:38):
Trust that he is good, Trust that he loves me,
that he has a plan for my life, that he's
working all things together for my good, and just learning
how to accept, just accepting the not knowing. And for
(02:01):
someone who is you know, who likes to like I'm
a planner and I like to have control over whatever
I can have control over, I guess whenever I don't
know the answers or know what's coming next. You know,
(02:25):
it's really a blessing in disguise because I'm forced to
trust in God, and there's a certain ease that comes
with that. There's a piece, his supernatural piece that comes
with that, and I'll take that over forcingly trying to
(02:53):
get to the answers. I'll take his peace. I'll take
being able to trust in Him and rely on the
fact that He already knows what's going to happen next.
I'm okay with not knowing. It's cool, you know what
I mean. But to be honest with you, I was
(03:17):
experiencing some attacks whenever it came to the podcast Jess
in the Mess, and I'm not going to believe the
enemy's lies. But what I will believe is that even
though whenever I created this podcast, I wasn't the most knowledgeable,
(03:44):
I wasn't the most you know, sound according to scripture,
or the most obedient, or have all these degrees or
have all this experience. I came into this, you know,
very unprepared, very unknowledgeable, very inexperienced. But God can use anybody,
(04:14):
and he can use anything He does use everything and
everyone for whatever his purposes are, for whoever or whatever.
So with that being said, I have faith that each
and everything that I've said on every one of these
(04:36):
episodes has helped someone, even if it's just one person,
in some shape or form. And if anything, I can
go back and listen to certain episodes from maybe the
first episode I've ever made on here and then listening
(05:00):
to the most recent one that I've put out, and
at least I can see how much I've grown, and
I can look back at all the wonderful things that
God has done for me and has taught me along
the way. And something that I find very important that
(05:21):
He has taught me is that nothing is more important
than my relationship with Him. Doesn't matter who sees me,
who doesn't see me, who approves of me, who's applauding me,
who's you know, helping me or not helping me, None
(05:47):
of that matters. All that matters is that my existence
has some type of connection with the one who made me.
In this time, like since I had posted my last episode,
I think it was like in March or something. In
(06:10):
that time, I purposely hadn't posted any more episodes because
I just wanted time with God, and I honestly couldn't
handle putting any more out there because I knew to
myself that God has been working on me and working
in me. And I'm not going to get on here
(06:34):
and try to teach anybody anything. If I myself need
to be taught first, we all do. So I don't
want to come on here and just talk and act
like I know it all, like I've felt like I've
probably done, and I felt feel like you know a
(06:56):
lot of us unknowingly do. And so with that being said,
something that I can use as a teachable thing is
the time that I have had with God and what
he has shown me, and what he's shown me is
(07:21):
his love for me and how he'll never leave me.
And no matter who does leave or doesn't, no matter
what anybody thinks of me, the only thing that matters
(07:42):
is that I'm with God, and God is with me,
and he knows me. He sees what I do, he
sees what I don't do, and he sees my heart.
And that's the most important thing. That's probably the best
(08:04):
thing that I could ever pass on to someone on
this podcast. Just know, if you're doing the best that
you can, and you're doing the next right thing every day.
That's the best thing that you can do, really, and
(08:25):
I've been doing that myself, and God's been helping me
to know what the next right thing is to do
and to just keep on pressing through even when times
are really hard, which they have been. Whenever I first
(08:51):
moved into the home that I'm in, I think about
four years ago, and then up until literally yesterday, I
had carpets in a portion of my home, and my
oldest son, who's autistic, he has had a lot of
(09:14):
accidents and has peed on those carpets, like pretty much
every day for however many years that we had been here,
and I had gotten a carpet cleaner to remedy the carpets,
and literally, as I would be pushing that carpet cleaner
(09:39):
trying to undo what had been done, he was in
another spot, making another piece spot. And it was just
literally a living hell. And it's really hard, and I
really bent over backwards and really pushed myself to impossible
(10:03):
limits to try to keep up with trying to make
and keep their home healthy and safe to live in.
And not until you know, recently, I had finally gotten
the funds to be able to change out my floors
(10:27):
and have that nasty carpet ripped out, and now I
have beautiful floors for my kids to play on. My
son is being in the potty full time now, And
God did that for me. God made it to where
(10:48):
that could happen because He's seen my seriously every day.
It was daily, just really putting a lot of stress
on my body to keep up with all the peace
spots and trying to make it safe and suitable for
(11:08):
the kids to live in. He's seen my efforts and
he busted me with the means to be able to
change my circumstances as I just pressed on and still
did the next right thing and try to be a
good ma and keep up with it. And now I
(11:31):
can look around and I have these nice floors now,
and I just feel like, you know, all of that
it wasn't for nothing, because God was with me the
whole time. Every time I would have to lay something
(11:53):
down on a pea spot to absorb the pea and
then go over it with the carpet cleaner, like it
was just an everyday thing. But He was with me
every time as I pushed through through tears and prayers
and begging God to help me like change this, begging
(12:15):
God to help my son just hit the pody every
time like he saw me in a meant a lot
for him to deliver us out of that really tormenting situation.
(12:40):
My kids are happier and I'm happier with these floors,
and I'm just very blessed, and I want to say
thank you God for half of my back and for
seeing me in giving me better. I apologize for like
(13:03):
raspiness in my voice, but I just got over being
sick with a strap. But I went to the er
and I got some antibiotics and starting to feel a
lot better, thank God, because it was it was really bad.
(13:25):
My mom and my brother had to help me with
my kids because it was just it was really bad.
But I'm glad to be feeling better now, and I'm
glad I could get on here and really testify about
the carpet and the you know, the flooring situation. And
(13:51):
I pray that anybody else, you know, just going through
hard things, because I know we're all going through hard
things and we may not know the answers or when
the thing is going to change or not. I want
to pray for you that God will give you strength
(14:12):
and faith and trust in Him, and he will give
you endurance to persevere in whatever you're in and just
trust Him that He will get you through it. You
will come out on the other side of it stronger
and wiser and closer to God because we get closer
(14:34):
to Him through experience, even though it don't feel good
at least he we know that He's with us, and
he loves us, he sees us, he cares for us,
and he will help us. But I love you whoever's listening,
and I hope this blessed you in some way, and
(14:54):
thank you for listening. Bye bye,
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