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(00:13):
Boom, Hey y'all, Hey y'all, Hey y'all. How y'all doing,
y'all good, y'all ate today Ihad a cup of confidence hit. But
it's ntil morning time, so we'regood. Anyhow, Welcome back to the
life of Flex and yours your girlpick flex again? How you doing?
Like it's been a minute, Butlet me tell y'all something. And i'm'a
(00:34):
be real honest with y'all. Ithink I lied to y'all. And I'm
gonna say that because I went togo listen to another episode the other day
to try to make, you know, a little short video to upload on
social media, and I was listeningto what I said, and what I
said was that I was dealing withschool. Y'all know, I'm registered for
summer classes and fall classes for thisyear. Since then, like, I
(00:56):
don't know what happened, but Ithink I came to real that it is
twenty twenty four. You can't gettoo far with an associate's degree. Like
you can weary the gas station,the plant, right, a store.
That's about it. Like, unlessyou can swindle your way into something else,
nobody's checking for it. Okay,even simple jobs don't even care if
(01:18):
you have an associate's degree. Ineed a bachelor's. I need. I
want to get my bachelor's right,because for one, I didn't go to
school for fifty eleven years to notget my bachelor's. And for two,
like I said, it's twenty twentyfour, every job is asking for five
years of experience, a bachelor's degree, and three recommendations, and I need
(01:41):
those on on my belt. Sohere we are. I actually went through
the school I'm going to, whichis Georgia State, and looked at the
majors that they have and found onethat fit perfectly, or at least I
thought. So. It's called socialentrepreneurship, which is basically having a business
that does something good for the greatergood of other people. That's how I
(02:05):
say, to my words. ButI was like, well, that you
know, puts my sociology degree andmy business administration degree together, which makes
it worth getting both. Because Ididn't really want the business administration degree.
I just had to change my majorand get financial way to pay for that
one class, and then I justforgot to pay that one like I forgot
(02:27):
to take the one class until Iwas about to graduate. Like it was
my last class, that one classthat I needed for my sociology degree.
So that's neither here nor there Anyhow, I finished, still don't have my
degree, but we're gonna talk aboutit. We just gonna let that go
because, like I said, ain'tnobody checking for it. Nobody cares.
In my opinion, I haven't seenanybody cared. Iut once. So I
(02:51):
do what I need to do andget somewhere because I can't get aware off
good looks, even though I meannot title just not gonna get too far.
Any just had a clear air.U Let y'all know that I might
have was talking out of the sideof my neck that day. But any
do what you need to do foryou, right. You want to get
(03:13):
somewhere far, you gotta do yourpart, and you gotta understand that it's
a new time. Like I don'tthink people are understanding that it is twenty
twenty four. Okay, you can'tdo the same things you was doing in
the nineteen hundreds in twenty twenty four. It ain't gonna side. You can't
have the same thought process that youhad in twenty twenty three and twenty twenty
(03:36):
four, cause it's a different animal. Like it was much easier last year
to get a work from home jobthan it is this year because y'all had
a home like work from home jobslast year messed it up for the people
this year, so I got tohave more qualifications and this, that,
(03:58):
and the third. It's a simplecall center job because y'all had all these
you know jobs. Excuse my stomach. It just wanted to be a start
to show today y'all had all thesecost center jobs and whatever work from home
jobs and was not doing what youwere supposed to do. And now they're
trying to triple check me. Theyshould have chin checked you, okay.
(04:19):
AnyWho, life is just life,Like it's twenty twenty four. Me and
my homegirl. We've been realizing thatwe've been out of school, Like we
graduated high school in twenty sixteen,so we've been out of school for eight
years. Like in four days,it'll be eight five days. Actually,
(04:39):
let me get my master eight.But yeah, it'll be eight years since
we graduated. And that kind ofmakes me feel old, not gonna die,
But I mean it also puts inthe perspective like what am I doing
with my life? Because I don'twant to show up at the you know,
class reunion, not having done anythingon my life. I don't plan
(05:00):
on going anyways. But if I'mgonna go, I'm pulling up like Martin.
Okay, I'm pulling up with braggingrights. So if I do when
I am, I need my braggingrights. And if even if I don't
want to go, I still wantto have my bragging rights. Like I
ain't got time to go to that, got bigger things to do. So
(05:20):
I mean's like I kind of dosomething in my life, which is,
you know, the inevitable. Becausethere's two promises about life that it's not
fair and that it's going in andthose are the two biggest wildest things I've
ever heard. What do you meanthere's a promise that life ain't gonna be
(05:42):
fair, Like there is a promisethat you just gonna have to shed a
couple of tears, you just gonnahave to be like you know what,
I'm tired of this, Grandpa,and then it's just gonna end like correctly
if I'm wrong. But what where'sthe good part? You ain't say nothing
about the good part. You meanI can go my whole life without having
a good part? Is that whatyou're telling me, because that's what I
heard, and that's when I'm notI can't wrap my head around that.
(06:05):
Where's the good part? And thenyou look at other people and like look
on social media and you're like,oh my gosh, it looks like they
have their whole lives together. Andthen you're on Twitter and everybody's like,
well, don't believe everything people puton social media because they're going through it,
just not on social media. AndI'm like, well, what them?
What am I supposed to do?Right? Because they look like they
(06:29):
got it all together? They looklike they having the good life, okay,
living their best life, and youmean to tell me that they going
through stuff too, And you know, I can be going through it and
not have any good parts at all. I don't look like I'm living my
best life. I help me,Harpaul, like, help me understand what's
going on here? Who made theserules? Right? It is just crazy?
(06:54):
And you know, I'm a Christian, I'm a well I believe in
Jesus, right, I believe inGod, right, that's my homie him,
Jesus, in the Holy Spirit.We are cool with the whole Holy
you know, quadruple I guess right, as long as I got them,
I'm in the mix of doing somethingwith my life. Without them, I
can't do much just sitting around twiningmy thumbs. But with them on my
(07:19):
side, right, I know thatthere's purpose behind the pain. Right,
Because let me tell y'a, SoI have been in the studio. I
guess you could call it that,like, I've been in the studio because
I went to the studio laid downlike a track on a verse, and
(07:41):
I didn't like it. It wasnew to me, and it was also
like a dream come true. Right, But one thing I didn't understand was
you know some singers, when theysinging, they sing okay, they feel
every emotion in this song. AndI'm gonna tell ya, I I never
seen somebody feel the music more thanwhen I was watching like because you know,
(08:07):
I've told the story before about howI became a junior River fan.
So when I actually just decided tolook at her old concerts and she'd just
be on stage crying and I'm like, why are you crying? But then
I actually learned the words to thesongs and I'm like, oh, write
the coincides with what I saw onthe show. Which I cried, did
too. I cried now too,right, So that feeling I guess that
(08:33):
expression of emotion through music I neverquite understood. And writing my own song,
I tried to write it with mein mind, in my life and
what I was going through with mine, but it's like I wasn't getting into
it, like you gotta get intoit, and I wasn't doing that,
(08:54):
So it just didn't feel natural tome. Like I it's something I've always
wanted to do, like I alwayswanted the experience of going to the studio,
singing on stage, writing my songthe whole nine. But if I'm
gonna do it, I'm gonna doit, like I need to get in
touch with what's holding my emotions backbecause I am someone I don't know how
(09:16):
to explain how I express emotions,like I can be hard rock like Stone
Coller Ain't got no feelings. Yousay one little thing, you could say
my nose ring crooked, like callme a crooked nose ring im effort,
and I'm shedding tears like I likeI have no care in the world.
(09:37):
You could say one little thing andI'm gonna shed some tears. I don't
show much anger I don't. Idon't know, like I don't. I'm
not sad, I'm MOPy, likeit's either one extreme of the other or
I'm just there smiling and having agood time. But I'm not that good
with my emotions because I don't knowwhat to do with anger. I have
(10:00):
feel angry in a while, andI'm just saying, we don't want to
see me angry because like I said, I ain't seeing that in a while,
and I had to learn to bottlethat up and throw that anger somewhere
else because I know I haven't seenmyself angry and a while, like I
just said. But comparing how Ihandle situations now to how I used to
(10:24):
handle them, like growing up,obviously it's gonna be different. I had
to grow like I'm grown woman now. I can't go around flipping tables over.
I'm throwing stuff. It's not havinga temper tantrum at my big age,
ain't it. But also back thenI was probably a little bit more
confrontational, and now I'll just bechilling. If I had a problem with
(10:46):
you, you probably just wouldn't hearfrom me anymore. I would go so
quick. You ain't gotta worry aboutme. But that's also one of my
problems because you can't just ghost everybodywhen you have a problem with them.
You have to actual communicate. Becauseyou're not communicating, then what are you
doing? Okay, you're not You'renot making anything any better because, like
(11:09):
I think I said in my laststepisode, we all need each other ripput
on this earth to deal with eachother, deal with the things that God
put around us. Right show,it doesn't benefit me to bottle up my
emotions to not be able to expressthem. So once I figure that part
out way in the game, butit just feels like there's no passion behind
(11:33):
my singing. Really, It's beensomething I've always wanted to do, but
I don't feel any passion behind it. I don't feel any desire to express
myself because I'm someone that I cando a cover song and it's probably gonna
sound how the original artist did it. And growing up I had to realize
(11:54):
that, you know, every singerhas their own voice, their own thing.
When you do your own thing,it sounds a whole lot better than
you're trying to sing like somebody else. And I have an assimilating voice you
put on an Alia's Hong. I'mgonna try to sound exactly. I'm gonna
hit all the notes a Leia ahead, Okay, I'm gonna hit all the
(12:16):
notes Beyonce hit and if not,I'm gonna try to harmonize. But that's
not you know, helping me.So anyhow, we're gonna figure that part
out. And when I do,you hear it from me first, and
if not, then you know thatI just wasn't feeling it. But anyways,
I'm gonna get our y'alls hair.I just wanted to talk to you
(12:37):
all today because I hadn't talked toy'all in a while. But love piece
and Chicken Grease, and if youdo anything today, don't let it be
fucking up somebody else's day because theygonna get you drop kicked. And I
that's one of them things I ain'tnever I've never done, but if you
try me, I might just kickyour dead in your chest. So yeah,
don't don't go fucking up my daybodyelse's for that matter. Okay, Bye,
Boom, Hey y'all, Hey y'all, Hey y'all. How y'all doing,
y'all good, y'all ate today Ihad a cup of confidence hit. But
it's ntil morning time, so we'regood. Anyhow, Welcome back to the
life of Flex and yours your girlpick flex again? How you doing?
Like it's been a minute, Butlet me tell y'all something. And i'm'a
(00:34):
be real honest with y'all. Ithink I lied to y'all. And I'm
gonna say that because I went togo listen to another episode the other day
to try to make, you know, a little short video to upload on
social media, and I was listeningto what I said, and what I
said was that I was dealing withschool. Y'all know, I'm registered for
summer classes and fall classes for thisyear. Since then, like, I
(00:56):
don't know what happened, but Ithink I came to real that it is
twenty twenty four. You can't gettoo far with an associate's degree. Like
you can weary the gas station,the plant, right, a store.
That's about it. Like, unlessyou can swindle your way into something else,
nobody's checking for it. Okay,even simple jobs don't even care if
(01:18):
you have an associate's degree. Ineed a bachelor's. I need. I
want to get my bachelor's right,because for one, I didn't go to
school for fifty eleven years to notget my bachelor's. And for two,
like I said, it's twenty twentyfour, every job is asking for five
years of experience, a bachelor's degree, and three recommendations, and I need
(01:41):
those on on my belt. Sohere we are. I actually went through
the school I'm going to, whichis Georgia State, and looked at the
majors that they have and found onethat fit perfectly, or at least I
thought. So. It's called socialentrepreneurship, which is basically having a business
that does something good for the greatergood of other people. That's how I
(02:05):
say, to my words. ButI was like, well, that you
know, puts my sociology degree andmy business administration degree together, which makes
it worth getting both. Because Ididn't really want the business administration degree.
I just had to change my majorand get financial way to pay for that
one class, and then I justforgot to pay that one like I forgot
(02:27):
to take the one class until Iwas about to graduate. Like it was
my last class, that one classthat I needed for my sociology degree.
So that's neither here nor there Anyhow, I finished, still don't have my
degree, but we're gonna talk aboutit. We just gonna let that go
because, like I said, ain'tnobody checking for it. Nobody cares.
In my opinion, I haven't seenanybody cared. Iut once. So I
(02:51):
do what I need to do andget somewhere because I can't get aware off
good looks, even though I meannot title just not gonna get too far.
Any just had a clear air.U Let y'all know that I might
have was talking out of the sideof my neck that day. But any
do what you need to do foryou, right. You want to get
(03:13):
somewhere far, you gotta do yourpart, and you gotta understand that it's
a new time. Like I don'tthink people are understanding that it is twenty
twenty four. Okay, you can'tdo the same things you was doing in
the nineteen hundreds in twenty twenty four. It ain't gonna side. You can't
have the same thought process that youhad in twenty twenty three and twenty twenty
(03:36):
four, cause it's a different animal. Like it was much easier last year
to get a work from home jobthan it is this year because y'all had
a home like work from home jobslast year messed it up for the people
this year, so I got tohave more qualifications and this, that,
(03:58):
and the third. It's a simplecall center job because y'all had all these
you know jobs. Excuse my stomach. It just wanted to be a start
to show today y'all had all thesecost center jobs and whatever work from home
jobs and was not doing what youwere supposed to do. And now they're
trying to triple check me. Theyshould have chin checked you, okay.
(04:19):
AnyWho, life is just life,Like it's twenty twenty four. Me and
my homegirl. We've been realizing thatwe've been out of school, Like we
graduated high school in twenty sixteen,so we've been out of school for eight
years. Like in four days,it'll be eight five days. Actually,
(04:39):
let me get my master eight.But yeah, it'll be eight years since
we graduated. And that kind ofmakes me feel old, not gonna die,
But I mean it also puts inthe perspective like what am I doing
with my life? Because I don'twant to show up at the you know,
class reunion, not having done anythingon my life. I don't plan
(05:00):
on going anyways. But if I'mgonna go, I'm pulling up like Martin.
Okay, I'm pulling up with braggingrights. So if I do when
I am, I need my braggingrights. And if even if I don't
want to go, I still wantto have my bragging rights. Like I
ain't got time to go to that, got bigger things to do. So
(05:20):
I mean's like I kind of dosomething in my life, which is,
you know, the inevitable. Becausethere's two promises about life that it's not
fair and that it's going in andthose are the two biggest wildest things I've
ever heard. What do you meanthere's a promise that life ain't gonna be
(05:42):
fair, Like there is a promisethat you just gonna have to shed a
couple of tears, you just gonnahave to be like you know what,
I'm tired of this, Grandpa,and then it's just gonna end like correctly
if I'm wrong. But what where'sthe good part? You ain't say nothing
about the good part. You meanI can go my whole life without having
a good part? Is that whatyou're telling me, because that's what I
heard, and that's when I'm notI can't wrap my head around that.
(06:05):
Where's the good part? And thenyou look at other people and like look
on social media and you're like,oh my gosh, it looks like they
have their whole lives together. Andthen you're on Twitter and everybody's like,
well, don't believe everything people puton social media because they're going through it,
just not on social media. AndI'm like, well, what them?
What am I supposed to do?Right? Because they look like they
(06:29):
got it all together? They looklike they having the good life, okay,
living their best life, and youmean to tell me that they going
through stuff too, And you know, I can be going through it and
not have any good parts at all. I don't look like I'm living my
best life. I help me,Harpaul, like, help me understand what's
going on here? Who made theserules? Right? It is just crazy?
(06:54):
And you know, I'm a Christian, I'm a well I believe in
Jesus, right, I believe inGod, right, that's my homie him,
Jesus, in the Holy Spirit.We are cool with the whole Holy
you know, quadruple I guess right, as long as I got them,
I'm in the mix of doing somethingwith my life. Without them, I
can't do much just sitting around twiningmy thumbs. But with them on my
(07:19):
side, right, I know thatthere's purpose behind the pain. Right,
Because let me tell y'a, SoI have been in the studio. I
guess you could call it that,like, I've been in the studio because
I went to the studio laid downlike a track on a verse, and
(07:41):
I didn't like it. It wasnew to me, and it was also
like a dream come true. Right, But one thing I didn't understand was
you know some singers, when theysinging, they sing okay, they feel
every emotion in this song. AndI'm gonna tell ya, I I never
seen somebody feel the music more thanwhen I was watching like because you know,
(08:07):
I've told the story before about howI became a junior River fan.
So when I actually just decided tolook at her old concerts and she'd just
be on stage crying and I'm like, why are you crying? But then
I actually learned the words to thesongs and I'm like, oh, write
the coincides with what I saw onthe show. Which I cried, did
too. I cried now too,right, So that feeling I guess that
(08:33):
expression of emotion through music I neverquite understood. And writing my own song,
I tried to write it with mein mind, in my life and
what I was going through with mine, but it's like I wasn't getting into
it, like you gotta get intoit, and I wasn't doing that,
(08:54):
So it just didn't feel natural tome. Like I it's something I've always
wanted to do, like I alwayswanted the experience of going to the studio,
singing on stage, writing my songthe whole nine. But if I'm
gonna do it, I'm gonna doit, like I need to get in
touch with what's holding my emotions backbecause I am someone I don't know how
(09:16):
to explain how I express emotions,like I can be hard rock like Stone
Coller Ain't got no feelings. Yousay one little thing, you could say
my nose ring crooked, like callme a crooked nose ring im effort,
and I'm shedding tears like I likeI have no care in the world.
(09:37):
You could say one little thing andI'm gonna shed some tears. I don't
show much anger I don't. Idon't know, like I don't. I'm
not sad, I'm MOPy, likeit's either one extreme of the other or
I'm just there smiling and having agood time. But I'm not that good
with my emotions because I don't knowwhat to do with anger. I have
(10:00):
feel angry in a while, andI'm just saying, we don't want to
see me angry because like I said, I ain't seeing that in a while,
and I had to learn to bottlethat up and throw that anger somewhere
else because I know I haven't seenmyself angry and a while, like I
just said. But comparing how Ihandle situations now to how I used to
(10:24):
handle them, like growing up,obviously it's gonna be different. I had
to grow like I'm grown woman now. I can't go around flipping tables over.
I'm throwing stuff. It's not havinga temper tantrum at my big age,
ain't it. But also back thenI was probably a little bit more
confrontational, and now I'll just bechilling. If I had a problem with
(10:46):
you, you probably just wouldn't hearfrom me anymore. I would go so
quick. You ain't gotta worry aboutme. But that's also one of my
problems because you can't just ghost everybodywhen you have a problem with them.
You have to actual communicate. Becauseyou're not communicating, then what are you
doing? Okay, you're not You'renot making anything any better because, like
(11:09):
I think I said in my laststepisode, we all need each other ripput
on this earth to deal with eachother, deal with the things that God
put around us. Right show,it doesn't benefit me to bottle up my
emotions to not be able to expressthem. So once I figure that part
out way in the game, butit just feels like there's no passion behind
(11:33):
my singing. Really, It's beensomething I've always wanted to do, but
I don't feel any passion behind it. I don't feel any desire to express
myself because I'm someone that I cando a cover song and it's probably gonna
sound how the original artist did it. And growing up I had to realize
(11:54):
that, you know, every singerhas their own voice, their own thing.
When you do your own thing,it sounds a whole lot better than
you're trying to sing like somebody else. And I have an assimilating voice you
put on an Alia's Hong. I'mgonna try to sound exactly. I'm gonna
hit all the notes a Leia ahead, Okay, I'm gonna hit all the
(12:16):
notes Beyonce hit and if not,I'm gonna try to harmonize. But that's
not you know, helping me.So anyhow, we're gonna figure that part
out. And when I do,you hear it from me first, and
if not, then you know thatI just wasn't feeling it. But anyways,
I'm gonna get our y'alls hair.I just wanted to talk to you
(12:37):
all today because I hadn't talked toy'all in a while. But love piece
and Chicken Grease, and if youdo anything today, don't let it be
fucking up somebody else's day because theygonna get you drop kicked. And I
that's one of them things I ain'tnever I've never done, but if you
try me, I might just kickyour dead in your chest. So yeah,
don't don't go fucking up my daybodyelse's for that matter. Okay, Bye,
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