August 13, 2025 • 50 mins
Savannah Burks, host of Lupus Has No Face, is facing a new chapter in her life. For the first time, her only daughter, Nolaye, is moving away to start high school in Texas. Nolaye has been Savannah's rock, her primary caregiver and support system through her struggles with lupus. Now, as she prepares to navigate her day-to-day life without her daughter by her side, Savannah is confronting a different kind of challenge: separation anxiety, the fear of an empty house, and the reality of an empty nest. As she approaches a new decade in her life, turning 40, Savannah shares her journey with her listeners as she learns to live a new life alone and redefine her sense of self, all while managing her lupus.
Thank you for tuning in to "Lupus Has No Face," a podcast dedicated to sharing real stories and insights on living with Lupus and other invisible illnesses. Join your host, Savannah Burks, as she explores the struggles and triumphs of individuals navigating their health journeys, all while juggling life's many challenges. Don't miss an episode! Subscribe, listen, and share on all major podcast platforms. For more content and updates, follow us on social media and join the conversation.
Thank you for tuning in to "Lupus Has No Face," a podcast dedicated to sharing real stories and insights on living with Lupus and other invisible illnesses. Join your host, Savannah Burks, as she explores the struggles and triumphs of individuals navigating their health journeys, all while juggling life's many challenges. Don't miss an episode! Subscribe, listen, and share on all major podcast platforms. For more content and updates, follow us on social media and join the conversation.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
M m m m brain waited shirt her street up.
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M m m m m m mm hmm. Welcome back
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to another wonderful episode of Lupas Has No Face, the
podcast when we talk about real life, real struggles and
the power behind Lucas and beyond. I'm your host Savannah
Verse today and we will be discussing my next chapter,
The Empty Mess. Okay, listen before we hop all into that, right,
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I am in Ross, Texas, so let me just do
a little recap about Black Day Yesterday. Yesterday was oh chaotic.
When I say chaotics, I mean chaotic. So I woke
up to what's that yesterday? You guys know I'd be
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having brain fog. So I woke up to a kitchen
full of water because I had my windows open or whatever,
So kitchen full of water. I didn't get any sleep.
I had a meeting with my girl Michel doing a
master My boot camp at six fifteen in the morning,
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So I'm waking up cleaning the water out of my kitchen.
I'm on zoom, I'm taking notes, I'm recording, and I'm
also doing some last packing for my trip to Texas
because I wanted to be here for my daughter's first
day of school. Yes, I am that mother. I have
only one princess and this is her first year of
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high school, her first day of school, and I definitely
had to be here, so I made that trip. I
was talking to my prince. He was aggravating me. Anybody
that knows him and our relationship. He likes to aggravate me.
That's his way he showed his love. So I was
messed around with him before I actually left the house.
I am going to work, and I was just in
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kind of like out of space because the conversation that
I was having with somebody on the phone, it wasn't polite.
The conversation wasn't going the way that it needs to go.
People wasn't here, what was actually being sick and they
were actually really going off emotions. So yes, I decided
to be pitying and adding to that and this and
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be dismissive where I could have just explained the situation
been quiet for a second, use my frontal lobe, a
set of my middle bramd medulla to react to the
to the situation. So I was really aggravated about that.
So after all of that, the weather added on a
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whole hour driving to the airport, so it's raining, it's
prn down. I'm using my GPS because it's like, if
you want to go this way to say eleven minutes,
go this way, and it kept doing it to In reality,
I wasn't saving anything. Traffic was super slow in Illinois.
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It just added on the whole hour. So my flight
was supposed to leave at six to so two. The
doors was closing at five forty nine. The shadow got
I parked my car took the shadow. So the shadow
was like a mile away, right, So I'm like, oh
my god, I hope I'll make it. I hope I'll
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make it. Oh my god, God, please let me make it.
I cannot miss this day. So I get there. Now,
what do you see when I tell you nobody was
at the check in for your luggage counter piss wasn't
even a word like I could have screamed, yelled and
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did all of everything when I was so so irritated.
So I I paid for a check bag that did
not get checked. Okay, so I had to go through
security check. I went through security check. True, they threw away.
Now you know, when you're going through security check, you
have to have the traveler's eye lotion and perfume and
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all left. I didn't because I was checking a bag right.
Perfume that I paid over one hundred dollars got thrown
in the garbage. My lotions got thrown in the garbage.
My son's screen that I needed got thrown in the garbage.
My soap got thrown in the guards. My two page
got thrown in the guards. When I tell you, I'm
looking at that guard and I'm less like, are you
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fucking kidding me right now? Excusing my language, but I
was really really upset in my feelings because this is
not my fault. Like nobody was literally, this was like
a movie. Nobody was literally at the counter to take
my check in back. They didn't take my bath. So
the lady that was at another airline was like, well,
just go just go up there and have them check
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your bag, not thinking that they was gonna throw my
things away, so she instructed me to do this. It
was either that or next my fight. So I'm so annoyed.
I was so so annoyed. I'm like, just give me
my luggage, Just give me my luggage. I had no
more niceness than me, like, just give me my luggage.
So me and this other guy real like literally running
through the airport. We are literally running through the airport.
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I'm like, oh, I got and my suitcase did not
want to I even was doings, doing whatever you want
to do. The wheels was going this great, I have
my purse. I was just overly stimulated, Like I was
already stimulated. So when I got there, I'm like, I'm
looking around, I see all of these people. I'm like,
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did I miss my flight? I'm like, oh my god.
And so my anxiety was just it was just going
and going and going. So I'm like, excuse me, can
you help me. She's like, yes, give me a moment.
I'm like, did I miss my flight? She like, I'm like,
oh my gosh. Like now I'm just like emotionalless. I'm
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every I'm every feeling that you can probably imagine right now, okay,
because I'm keeping inside the things that I want to say. So,
she had no knowledge that the plane was the plane
was delayed, So my plan was delayed, which was actually
a good thing. But I wish that I would have
got a text message saying that my plan is delayed,
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because that could have it could have said so much
of everything but I didn't. I didn't get a text message,
so thank god I didn't miss the plane. So I'm
telling her what happened or whatever, and I'm like, there
was nobody at that front desk, and I'm just so irritated,
like I need to be compensated, like she they threw
all my things away. And so the supervisor crawled down
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to the front airline and she's speaking to the lady
that was supposed to be at the front desk. So
because the lady thought that the plane took off, she
was not there, not getting the memo that the plane
has been delayed. So everybody, including me that did not
was not able to check their bags had to go
through the same thing that I was going through. But
I wasn't letting that slide. Somebody needs to compensate me
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for the things that they threw away or whatever. And
they was like, well, we're not. And I'm gonna say,
I don't care Frontier. I'm never ever ever ever ever
flying Frontier ever, ever ever ever again. I made a complaint,
but she did in strug me that she did say
that I probably would not get compensated for my things.
She's sorry, and she was so nice. It wasn't her fault,
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but she took care of me at that moment. So
now I'm in a airport I can't bordered to eight fifteen.
So I did all of this rushing. All of my
anxiety was kicking in. Just all of these things was
happening to me, and now my flavor is delayed. So
I'm like, okay. So I was able to go to
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the bathroom and just getting myself together, washing my hands.
I'm regrouping. I'm regrouding myself. So I'm just eating a
whole bunch of us cheery sorrow cherries. I'm just eating
them right, and I'm like, I'm so hungry. So the
time that I decided to go get some and eat,
everything was closed. Nothing was open but the side stores
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like where you can buy jump through that and due
to the weather like things was closed out. So I
haven't ate anything. All I had was the celsius and
some sour cheerries and I ate the whole back of
sour cherries. So I like that kind of messed my
stomach up or whatever. So that aggravated me. So I'm
talking to my people and they're like, did you eat?
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You know, they checking in on me. They they being
a really good family, you're really good friends, Like they
was really checking in on me. And I just had
an attitude and they had so so so kind nice
words to say. So it was keeping me up lifting.
So I was like, you know, at the end of
the day, I didn't miss my flight. I'll get to
go see my princess. Right. So I get on a
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plane when I say, people was coughing, people was hacking.
No mask, no nothing, I didn't even have a mask.
I was so mad at myself that I didn't even
have a mask. So I had a blanket with me
and I covered my whole flo and I'm like and
I just I had it. I was like, oh my god.
All they is coughing and sneezing, like oh my gosh,
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and everybody like looked at me. I was just like,
I'm better. I get sick, like and there was a
lady that was next to me that's the myot like cat.
It was just horrible. And so I went to sleep,
but I wasn't sleep long enough. Like finally got the plane.
My whole body was and I'm talking about my back,
my ankle, like everything on my body was just hurting
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like I had it, like I literally had it. So
finally make it to Texas at eleven o'clock at night,
it was smooth, smooth talk to my daughter. My daughter
was asleep. My sister was outside. She was dere like
she didn't make me way kol shout out to my sister.
I got got my luggage, got in, she got my
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luggage from me, put in the car. It was just
having a good old time, laughter and everything. We want
to go get something to eat. Came back here and
we watched Smoothie. I haven't. I took a shower. I
took a shower, I watched the day off of me.
And then by the time I noticed like my phone
was dead, and I was like, oh my god, like
people that aren't responsible for people that are my prairies,
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they couldn't get in touch with me if they tried
to get in touch with me, and my phone's dead.
So I was like, I have no more room to
be to feel, no other type of way. So I
charged my phone up, me and my sister. So then
my sister got in a shower and I went to
watch movies like I loved movies. That's something that got
away from me. I love TV shows. That's something that
got away from me. And yesterday we or last time
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this morning it was we I was in the morning.
We watched Breathe, Breathe the one and Breathe Too, and
I was up and it really it was really calming,
like you know. It allowed me to calm down, to think,
to regroup. Me and my sister was having some dope conversations.
I haven't seen her in such a long time, so
it was really nice catching up with her. And I
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was literally up to like for for something in the morning.
And then my phone out again because I hadn't the charger,
so I charged my phone back and then of course
I had a meeting again at six fifteen in the morning.
It couldn't meet my meeting. Michael was not having that.
I was gonna wasn't gonna forgive myself if I missed
that meeting. So I had a zoom meeting at six
fifteen in the morning. I made that. We got up,
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everybody got up and it was getting ready for school.
And then we was go get my baby. And when
I tell you how, some of our princess was outside.
She came outside her the smile on her face just
did it for me, you know what I mean, It
just did it for me, Like Mom, you showed up.
Not that there was any ever doubt, but the fact
that I'm here for her first day of school for
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high school, in a whole other city in state, on time,
taking her to school like it would be if we're
back at home, it just glue. It's just glue for me.
And the pictures that we took, like she held my
face like it was things that she hasn't han't did
when it was back at home, so I can tell
like she missed me too very much, so like it
showed it on her actions or whatever. And I was
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so very grateful for that. I was so very thankful
for that. And we were just taking pictures in the car,
we not knowing what were doing, not know where we going.
My sister stay here. She don't even know what she's doing.
And when I say the schools are so so so big,
like they're so big. So I'm like, Nana, you know,
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make sure you talk to people, make sure you ask questions,
because you know this is new for your father out here,
this is new for me being long this is and
this is new for you. So it's new for all
of us or whatever. So I'm like, you got to
help us, help you. I'm like, so you got to communicate.
Communicating it's really really huge. She's like okay, Mom, okay, Mom,
okay Mom. So she got out and I was just like,
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oh my gosh, you know what I mean. And she
got out. So after that, me and my sister we
was talking. We went to go get something to eat.
I don't even know if you're on here telling the
name of that Mexican restaurant. I actually put it online.
But she took me to this Mexican restaurant this morning
because funny story, we ordered food from three sixty. It
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was called three Sister the Breakfast Club, and we were
not there. The restaurant that we were at was thirty Club.
So I go in there and get the food and
I'm like it was like, no, you gotta be at
the wrong So I'm like, no, it says, and my
whole time, I was like, where's the six out on here?
We was totally at the wrong spot. I was like,
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you know what, I'm just taldry. I just need to
get something to eat, like we're gonna be okay. So
she was like I want you to have something that
you didn't that you haven't ate. So we went to Starbucks.
First got some Starbucks and then went to this Mexican place.
When I tell you that food was so good, so authentic,
like it put me right down. So I took a
nap before the kids got out of school. So I
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took another nap, and that's not something I was able
I have been able to do either. So I was
able to take a nap and I was able to
watch some TV. So just thinking about like all of
those things. So I called my daughter or I was
texting her, like, you know, let me know when you
get out of school so we can come pick you up.
My sister's actually on her way to go pick her up.
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I had to come home and do want I do
dealers just with this podcast. Let you guys know this
new chapter in my life of being an empty nester.
And it so funny because it's so many like transitioning over.
So she told me her school that was really great.
She meant connections with people, which is really dope. I'm
so happy that she did that, and now I'm waiting
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on her. But the things that I were doing when
I was when she left. When she when she left
the house, I immediately I didn't think about it any nothing.
Normally I try to like get some sleep, but no,
when I say, y'all, was up to wee hours in
the morning, we came from It started Saturday. So Saturday,
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me and my crew, we shout out to Ken she
has mine in my own podcasts, and she's also a cruiser.
Shout out to and she's also my sister. Shout out
to Tone Death. He's also my friend, my manager, my producer.
So he went with me as well to the Lupis
Society of Illinois's walk doctor Lashawn Garola. We joined her
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and her team. We went there. We started our morning
off at five o'clock in the morning. Okay, this is Saturday,
this past Saturday. We started our morney off at five
o'clock in the morning. We went out there. We had
a good time. Of course, I was I'm always sleeping
the car when we traveling, I'm going to sleep. I
want to sleep. But when we got there, when I
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tell you just to recap on my weekend, we got there,
she had breakfast ready for us. I'm gonna call them
the three d's all the three D's was there because
it's doctor and Shawn Garola and her her two doctors Sam,
doctor Sam and doctor Alex, and they was all there
making sure it was well taken care of. They fed
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us real good hospitality, was great, fast morning. We want
you to walk. Now we get to the walk. You guys,
when I tell you my sister doctor Lyn Shawn Garola.
If you on here, hey, it's a little different setup
because I am not at the studio today, but you know,
I had to still do the podcast. I can't see
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the comments, but I'll see him afterwards. But if you
are on there today, I'm have tone like read off
the comments or whatever on here today when I tell
you this was such a beautiful walk, When I tell you,
everybody was so humbling, so respectful, all nationalities. They had
something called I don't know if the whole walk was
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five k or if it was like three k and one,
but if you wasn't able to do the full walk,
they gave you the option to go to the short way.
If you was able to do the whole thing, they
gave you the option to go the whole thing. And
I felt that that was so so so dope, And
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of course doctor Lashawan being her due diligence. Before I
even came down here, she introduced me to some amazing people.
And these people already knew who I were, who I
was before I actually got there, And it was just
so humbling when I was talking to all these different
you know, romatologists, doctors, therapists. It was it was some
amazing people that I met out there that was just
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so humbling and ready to take on, to take me on,
like to collaborate to do business. I dealt with some
organizations that they just wanted your help only for their business.
But these people out here that was willing to collaborate
to get that, to get the word out there because
we all on the same mission. We're just doing things differently,
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you know what I mean. And I understand it and
they understand it, and they match my mission, and I'm
sure that I matched theirs as to why we wanted
to link up. And as I was talking to these
people and taking pictures with these people, these amazing individuals,
it was people that came up to me like, oh
my god, I quote, oh my god, I knew I
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heard your boys never met me a day and ay
life they watched the podcast, And when I tell you,
that just made me feel away that I just cannot explain.
It just made me feel like and it verified that
I'm I'm supposed to be here, I'm supposed to be
doing this, Like to have strangers they were strangers because
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I haven't physically met them, but they know who I
who I am, and they knew my voice. And it
was just so amazing that they recognized my voice and
just so even more amazing that they that I'm doing
the work out here in the community and I'm having substance.
Things to talk about, things that make sense, opening a
beginning and opening a conclusion, things to do your research
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on things, the knowledge to give people that's living well
with lucas or any auto on learning diseases. Like I
appreciate you guys, because without you, guys, there will there
would have never been a Lupa's has on face. Lucas
has on Face thrives off the supporters and the donations
and everything else. We are community and we're unity, and
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I want to I want to make that bigger. I
want to be nation. Why so again, I appreciate all
the support of viewers. Anything that you ever had to
do with lupus has no face. I appreciate you in
a major way. So we did all of that. Now
I made all these dope connections, you know. So now
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we going to the backyard the block party. So I'll
go take a shower. I'm like, I need to get
in a shower. My sister was like, I told you
the downstairs bathroom, but she has an upstairs a middle
in the downstairs. She was not specific on with she
wanted where she wanted me to take a shower. But nevertheless,
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that's just us. That's literally just us, so not fresh
and dub when I tell you she put her whole
body in them baked beans and the green beans with
them turkey necks and potatoes. That was so so good.
Like we were not outsleep. Do you hear me, I'm
talking about knocked out sleep. I think I posted she
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caught us sleep, and I think I posted it on
the books. But shout out to you cooking and then
we had best kept secrets that was in the building.
If you are not familiar with them, or you have
not heard that music classified, I think that's the new record.
Correct me if I'm wrong with Sean and mister Laney.
If you own here, go follow them b k as.
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When I tell you that band is amazing. When I
tell you they were playing to my soul, honey, like
I could have stayed out there all night long, could
have got a blanket and sat on the grass and
listen to that music. That music was so fulfilling. Okay.
So after we did all of that, kicked it with
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the band, kicked it with the s of your sisters,
kick it at the block. Party had grown, the time
had fun. We traveled back. Once we traveled back, that's
when the storm happened in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Again I ask
saying my sincere apologies for everybody that lost any and everything.
I do have a lot of clothes, boy clothes at
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my home. So if anybody that is interested in any clothes,
please do inbox me. In box me on any platform
that you see and I will be able to get
back with you, and they are for free. I'll come
drop them off, or we can meet up at a
similar location and I can give you these clothes. So
we had such a major flood in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, and
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a lot of people lost a lot of things, going
without heat and hot water and things of that nature,
and it is definitely going to get better. I know
you may not see it, but keep the faith and
keep continue doing what you're doing, and it is is definitely.
Help out there and shout out to my girl Phoenix.
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Phoenix is one and Phoenix. I know life has been
hitting you, honey, but I am here. I am here,
so if you need me, please do reach out to me.
I am here. You are not a problem. I love you,
even going through so so much, and I just want
to let you know I am here if you need
me in any type of way, shape or fashion form.
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So moving on from there, it was like really lat
and I just started this is getting too the empty
nest and part right, I'm starting to clean out my refrigerator.
So when I tell you I'm deep cleaning that wee
hours in the morning. I'm deep cleaning, like I'm deep
cleaning refrigerator. I deep cleaned the bathroom. I was just cleaning,
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like really really really cleaning, and I was literally tired,
but it was just something that I was doing. Like
my daughter was there. I felt really really sad, like
I couldn't lay down, like I was tired, and I
started to lay down, but I'm like, dang, and my
heart started, you know, beating fast. My stunach start going
to NAT and I'm like, I cannot believe my is gone,
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Like she is gone. So I text her father like
I really miss her, and he was like, I know,
you know, but she's in Gray's hands. She got a
dope father, so it's his time now, you know. So
I know she He's gonna do amazing things with her.
But it just tore me down. And to let you
guys know, I am starting a grieving panel. So I'm
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looking for some people. But grieving doesn't mean losing somebody
by death, you know. It's more in your old life.
And for me, it's my daughter right now. So that's
my grieving process. My daughter has moved out the home
and it was a collective decision and she felt like
Texas can do more for her than what Milwaukee, Wisconsin can.
She's a dope flute player and she wants to be
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a veterinarian and Texas has that. Hear her, She travels
about four or five times out the year with her
father and he turns on to all the classes, any
type of music or anything. So she been coming to
Texas for a while now. Year after year after year,
and she made it a collective decision about her the
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offers here. And at first I'm like, that's being my
first and only daughter. I'm like, no, why would you
want to go there? And I'm like, you know what,
that's the selfishot in me. Tell me why you want
She and that's how she broke it down to me,
how did God get musical schools go Veninarian schools? And
I was like, you know, I'll do anything for my
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daughter's future, for either one of my kids s feature,
I'll do anything and to support that. And I tell
her like, I'm going to be sad. I haven't finished
raising you. You know, you're only fourteen, you know what
I mean. So I was very saddened by that, but
I respected the decision and I'm going to support her.
So I ag read you know, and her father has
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been very very supportive, letting me know I can come
in there. I want to. I have all access, Like
he's an amazing father. So shout out to shout out
to Noah. So yeah, and then I started doing research.
Me and my good friend Tone, my producer, my manager,
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we were I was telling him and we was doing
research and it's a lot of research behind empty nesters,
and it was like a list with like thirty two
things on there. And that list, I was doing that
like subconsciously, not knowing anything about it. I was literally
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doing that, and I'm like, oh my god. So that's
where this bonus episode came from, just being a mom
with Lupez and dealing with an empty nester. What that
looks like for my new chapter for really all of us,
and so for me, I think it really started last night.
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I worked so much on all of my businesses. Work
for a business is my healthcare field. I'm supporter to
all of my friends any chance that I get, I'm
always doing something. You know, I don't never want to
be in the same space that I was the year before,
So I'm always doing something, always trying to make sure
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to let people know I am here for you. Sometimes
you got to reach out to me because sometimes I forget.
It's gonna tire. Just reach out to me to let
them know that I am here for them, because I
do get busy. I am a busy person while trying
to have a love life of my own, whatever that's
looking like. And like I said yesterday, it was like
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a confirmation like I love watching movies. I love being
in a nice comfortable bed watching TV shows, and I
did that with my sister. So I'm like, this is
something that I'm might have to start doing to regroup
myself because it brought me back to a safe space
watching certain movies. So I'm gonna do that a declutter
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and I'm gonna do that. I can't say everything what
I'm gonna do, but this is beneficial to me now
that I look at it, because her father said to me, like,
now you can focus on yourself, and I took that
offense of like what you mean, I can focus on myself.
That's my baby. I got it no matter what. But
what he needs is that, like I get up now.
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I don't gotta worry about if she ate. I don't
got to go back to the house and check up
her after I've been gone from the house for sixteen hours,
eighteen hours, twenty two hours. I don't have to see
any help over here. I don't have to make sure
she's getting door dashed. I don't see her that, but
my people send her door dash. You know, I don't
have to, you know, look at certain things over the
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phone and make make it into my schedule like it's
literally all I have to worry about is just Savannah
and I have a dog. That's all I have to
worry about. It's just and it's just like it makes
me feel like I don't have the children. But I
know I have children. But I always told people when
we have conversations about fathers not treating the outside kids
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the same as they would for the ones inside, and
I said, it could never it would never be equal
like that because that's not their day to day and
the fact that I'm living that my daughter is not
my day to day no more. No matter how many
times I text her and call her, She's not in
my home. You know, she was not in my home.
I'm not gonna see her. She's not gonna ask me
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how I'm doing. I'm not gonna come home to a meal.
I can't depend on her anywhere to take out the dog,
and now I'm responsible for that. She was responsible for
Cody for a very long time, taking them out in
the morning at night and feeding them and things of
that nature. So I was really trying to prepare myself
before she actually left to take on that responsibility when
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I did, when I had a long day and I
want her to come rub my back and rub my
or rub me, rub my head. I don't have her
for that anymore, or to go in there and lay
on her, or to you know, get the love and
to recharge. I don't have that anymore because she's not here.
And just talking about that, it's very hurtful, it's very sad,
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but I know it's for the best. I can't say
it got any easier because when my prince left, I
felt the same way, sick to my stomach, you know,
and he left, and it's the same way with her,
So it was like opening the moons all over again.
But the only thing is she's my last I only
have two, so it's like, what do that look like,
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you know, being my age. I'm not married by choice
because when I get married, I'm staying Mary. That's just it.
There's no divorce to depth do us part. Okay, so
you're trying to marry, but I'm not married. I'm not
living with a significant other or anything like that, so
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I don't have I shouldn't say I don't have anybody
to take care of me or anybody to lean on.
But it's definitely different. It's definitely different not having someone
in my day to day and I'm a very spoiled individuals,
Like even though I spoil my children, my children spoiled
me and any men that I've ever been with spoiled me.
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So it's like that was just me, Like who do
I call on in the middle of the night? Who
do I you know, who do I reach out to? Like?
You know what I mean? Like, I know it's people
I can call and things of that nature, but it's
not here in my face. Like if I'm having cramps,
who do I get to deruct me? You know what
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I mean? Like, or my body is not feeling well,
who do I get for that? And that's not to
say I don't have anybody, It's just to say that
it's not it's not at my home. I'm by myself now,
so empty nesting for me is I'm not happy with it.
I try to be okay with that because I have
no choice that I don't want to stress myself out,
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so I'm dealing with my emotions and even now it's
just like, oh, like I'm holding back my keears. But
what kind of mother would I be if I would
have made her stay? You know what? I'm saying, so
you gotta look at things like that, and empty nesting
don't have to be so bad. It don't have to
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be so bad. It all depends. You gotta have your
mindset established for that and ready for that and to
endure and to take on the unknown, and you gotta
be okay with that. And the biggest thing for me
is that I know my daughter to say like, that's
his only daughter, and he, like I said, he's amazing,
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So I don't have to worry about her safety at all.
Like her dad has her tent toes down, So I'm
not worried about that at all. And I do believe
the things that I have installed in her, the moral values,
the character, all of that, I believe that's going to
show up in his worst way. Now what I mean
in is worst way, Like it's going to show up
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even more now because I have said to her, like,
remember I taught you, remember about your hair. And I
thank God for my sister that's in Texas. She's gonna
take care of her natural hair too. Because my daughter
got some beautiful, nice curly hair that I wanted to
continue to stay grown, but she also get break so
I thank god for my sister that's down here to
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to continue to take care of her hair. But I
also talk to my daughter some tools and things like that,
and I had reached out to some people that was
willing to do it, like Rachel to teach my daughter
about waxing, like the proper way and things of that
when she when she left. Cause it's like dad and daughter,
you know what I mean. So I just wanted to
make sure how daughter it was good. So I reached
out to a few I reached out to Ashley, I
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rest out to a few people about hygiene, not saying
that I don't know any think about it. But when
you get your kids in a teacher teaching setting, they
intend to listen better. And I don't have a problem
with my daughter hiding at all, so let's be very
clear about that. So I just wanted her to be
more sufficient and more equipped, just like here, like start
brushing your haird from the bottom all the way to
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the top, things of that nature. I don't know what
she's gonna be eating every day. I don't I'm not
gonna see her mood swings. I'm not gonna see things
that I will normally see. You know what, I'm saying
I'm not gonna be able to give her a hug
or my daughter knows when I'm sad. My daughter knows
when I'm mad. My Dona knows when I'm upset. She
attends to cater to any more. And I don't have that.
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I don't have that. So for me, I'm just gonna
continue pouring into Lucas's my face, building it up to
a point where I can leave Milwaukee. I do want
to leave Milwaukee. I've been wanting to leave Milwaukee, but
I was gonna leave one or two things that just
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happened when she wanted to college, but she actually moved
before then. And then once my business is able to
run on its own with the proper people in place.
So once my business get the proper people in place,
that needs to be running on its own, because I
don't get a twisted like having a nonprofit organization is
very very very hard, and I have changed people throughout
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the years. So once that get established, I will be
leaving myself, but I will be flying in and out
because that's going to be the headquarters. I'm going to
continue to focus on my podcasts, like you know, going
to the podcast conventions and things of that nature. I
am working on my hairline right now, so I'm going
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to pour all of my time into that as well.
And that's a couple of things. Working on another book
right now. The last thing I want to be working
on is a camp for kids with invisible illnesses where
I want to open that up. I do not know,
but but I'm I'm gonna pour my time into that
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while also uh taking care of myself, having self care days,
mental health days, just relaxing, whether that's for a whole
day where I'm just cutting my phone off or ain't
gonna cut my phone off, but like putting my phone down,
going going to the hotel, going for a spoty, gonna
go take myself out for dinner, lunch, or meeting up
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with my my friends, my people, my loved ones. I
gotta make sure that I allow them to love on me,
because I am guilty of shutting people out because sometimes
I feel not that people don't understand, but I'm a
person that feels like if you're not going through or
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have not been through the exact same thing that I
am going through, it may be hard for you to
understand where I'm coming from. Like yes, you can sympathize
with me, but sometimes I want to just lay on
your chest or lay on your lap and have you
rub in my head to give me that energy back.
Sometimes I don't want to talk, you know what I'm saying.
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Sometimes maybe maybe I want to go to a nice restaurant,
nice ambience, and I have a conversation just to enjoy
the sounds and abuse, you know what I mean. Like
I'm at a state like that right now, and how
many people can endure that? Maybe not, maybe some, And
that's probably where it's just going to be me, you know,
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just enjoying that and getting my mental my mental ready
and continue to stay ready. And I think it's going
to be a continuous thing. Like I think it will
get easier, but I think as long as I have
the support, which I have an adult support system, I
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know I'll be okay. Even if I don't have a
support Some God got me, like he haint brought me
so far. My faith is so mad, crazy, like it's
not God got me, you know what I mean. So
even know I'm saying I want to do all of
these things, I am gonna do those things for sure.
But the way that I envision them coming out in
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the way I'm envisioning them being worked on like that,
because I'm still growing as a person, like I have
four degrees and all of those things. But don't forget
like I went through some stuff too. That's another story
for another day. But I'm still growing and I'm still excelling,
and I'm still elevating. I'm still learning things, and I
feel like once you stop learning and stop elevating, that's
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a problem, you know what I mean, Like I still
got to check myself, you know. So this is just
going to be I know, Texas, La Cali like my home,
but Texas is gonna be my my second home. Like
I'm gonna be out here very frequently. Like my daughter
expects for me to be out here on her major days,
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you know. So I'm gonna make sure sure that happened.
There's no reason why I'm not gonna have that happen
and just God say otherwise. So I'm be flying out frequently.
I'll be out here again in September for a birthday.
So this is gonna but I know it's gonna be
a period of time that I'm probably gonna go months
without seeing her and I'm that's gonna be another another
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you know, opener. Right now, I'm just dealing with the
very beginning stages right now. So yeah, I can envision
what that could possibly look like, but I really don't
know what that looks like. And as I'm sitting here
talking to you guys about empty nesting, like just me
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having auto immune disease, I feel distressed on me as
I'm talking to you because when you hold it in
your feelings, even though I'm articulating and being very transparent
with you guys, me me holding back my tears right now,
it's causing stress throughout my body, you know what I mean.
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So that's, uh, that could be issue. So after my
after this show, I'm going to go do some things
maybe like I don't know what yet, but I might
go take a bath or apps and so, I you know,
I might go medicate, uh myself. I might go take
a walk. It's the pool out there, I might go
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take a swim. Something that's going to redirect my thoughts.
So this can get up off me because if I
keep going through this thing right now, which how I'm
feeling in my back, hurt, my arm, hurt, my whole
body hurts like and it didn't. It wasn't hurting when
I started talking to you guys. Just started hurting because
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I'm holding back my emotions and it's affected me right now.
And I don't want to have a flare up. I
really don't want to have a flare up. I don't
want that to happen because that can probably cause guilt
on her end if she finds out. So my priority
is to take care of myself, to take care of myself,
and because I learned my triggers, which is a class
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that I teach you guys, If you guys are ever
interested in learning your triggers, you can go on the
website www dot besides my face dot com and we
can set up a session for me to help you
through learning your triggers. But because I know my triggers,
I know what to do, you know what I mean.
So I'm not gonna sit in it because if I
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do sit in it, I could potentially have a flare up.
So I promised myself I wasn't gonna do that. My
sitting in it probably be at an hour or two,
but I'm not gonna take a whole day because this
is my new worm right now, you know what I mean.
So for the mothers out there that is experiencing empty
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nesting that don't know what to do, I might just
start a group. Who knows, I might just start a
supper grod just I don't. I don't know. I don't know.
It's to be continue, But I'm definitely gonna continue to research.
I'm definitely gonna continue to make myself a number one
priority because without me, nothing else can can go like
or without no engine. Right, I gotta I gotta continue
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making sure I'm good. So my refrigerator, what looks different
than my home? Uh, my refrigerator is definitely gonna be different.
Not that my daughter had a mess up palate, but
now I can it's only me. So my palate. I'm
a I love vegetables, I love fewts, I love uh smoothies, fish, chicken.
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It's gonna be very healthy in my in my fridge.
I don't buy junk food as it is. I do
eat junk food, but I get it from like the stores.
I don't have it sit in my home or anything
like that. It's nothing but water in my home. If
it's milk, it's walnut milk or coconut milk, so I don't.
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I don't really eat white things, you know what I mean,
like rice and cars and bread, so it would not
be none of that. So my my fridge is definitely
gonna look different. The sound of my home is definitely
gonna be different. The presence is definitely gonna be different
because my daughter brings up presents when she was in
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my home, so I don't have that anymore. Going to
bed is even gonna look different. I'm not gonna have
anybody to talk to me before I go to sleep,
or be like Layle, come watch the movie when me
yelling from the next room, Like I'm not gonna have that.
So that's gonna look different for me when I come home,
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like I'm not gonna have anybody asking me how my
day was, Like it's all just gonna be so different
for me. I'm not gonna be able to go in
there and mess with her and aggravate her, pull her
the covers off of her, and you know, say get
up now, and why you didn't do this It's been hours.
I'm not gonna be yelling anymore, like you know what
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I'm saying. I'm not gonna have a helpmate. I'm not
gonna have a helpmate, So I'm not gonna have nobody
while I'm getting ready putting my makeup on in the
shower at me. Can I buy this? Like, I'm not
gonna have the interruptions, which all that stuff you missed?
You know what I mean when you don't have it
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was like it was an instant. I instantly missed it,
Like all of the irritating things, I instantly missed it.
Or I'll get dressed to be like, how does look?
How does look? You? Thinking I look good on this?
M You know, I'm miss all of that. Having that
girally feeling in the house, I'm gonna miss that. But again,
what does this chapter look like for Savannah with this
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empty nesting? I don't know. And you know, this is
a bonus episode. I'm probably definitely gonna add to this.
So it's definitely gonna be a session. I just made
up my mind. It's definitely gonna be a session on
my YouTube channel, so wecause has no face podcast for
those that want to replay or look for the other episodes,
which I'm always gonna go live, it's gonna be on there.
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I might update you guys once a month, once every
three months. I don't know yet, but it's definitely gonna
be a session on their Yeah, you know, working out
is very good. Like I've been thinking about hitting a
jam and I think when I get back, I'm just
gonna make that a part of my life. Like I've
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been running from it, not wanna do it, just being lazy,
or I'll do it. I'm just not consistent with it,
you know what I mean. But working out is very
I love working out, I really actually do. But it's
just getting back into the groog of things, you know,
and I'll be like three four o'clock in the morning,
you know what I mean. So to be continued for
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that too, because I've been that's been on my mind
heavy and I know, Chrissy, they're trying to get me
back in there, and it's just like I'm not ready,
but just like anything, just like and I can just
do it, and I think that that'd be very good
for me. I think that, I know for sure that'd
be very good for me starting back up a regular
workout regiment. So yeah, because this can go very bad,
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but my mind is way stronger than that, and I'm
not gonna let this get bad. So for those that
are going through the emptynesting thing, I'm just starting it,
but I'm very strong and it come to will. So
if you guys are having any weaknesses, come talk. Let's
talk together. And the fact that I know that it
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can get bad is I can feel it, but I
know I'm not gonna let it happen. So I'll be
able to sympathize with you, to give you some pointers,
you know, on why it shouldn't. You shouldn't let it
get that bad or bad at all, but you definitely
you should allow yourself to feel because that's important. You
should acknowledge your feelings, which I have acknowledging my feelings.
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So that's that's what it's looking like for me. And
you know, anybody know when I travel, I'm wearing Adidas.
Every time I'm out of town, going through the airport,
on my relaxing days, I'm wearing Adidas. Like that's call
me Adidas girl. But so yeah, so that's what it is.
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So if it's any internasters, if you guys want a
different topic about int neesting next time, let me know.
Let me know how you liked this episode. I just
felt the need that I can come on here and
let you guys know. For the people that are going
through with the autoimmune disease, it will definitely play a
part on you in your body, and you need to
be aware of that and make sure you take care
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of that because if you don't, something bad could happen
and we don't want that, right you know better, which
I know better, You do better, So I'm gonna be there.
So I love you guys for free. Thank you guys
so much for tuning in. If you haven't checked out
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all the footage from the band and from the walk
on my page and look at it, there will be
one next year. Lashang Roll does have other things that's
coming up, so yeah, And if you guys have not
registered for the Sister strugg go register for the Sister Struggle.
Reach out to Phoenix, make sure you be in the
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building for that. I'm definitely gonna be in the building
for that. If you have not registered for I'm gonna
call it the mindset of man. Tr network Ton Death
is in charge of that. I believe that's coming up
on the fifteenth. If I got the dates wrong, please
put that in there. You guys, go love on each other.
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Man need to be a vulnerable and open up, and
they need to love on each other to let you guys,
He's gonna let you. You guys know. It's definitely a safe space.
So that's gonna be a dope event. I'm gonna try
to be there as well, even though I am the woman,
but I try to be there as well because I'm
very supportive when it comes to anything that he's doing
as well. So yeah, that's what it's looking like for
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Savannah Birds and her Princess no Ley. For being an
empty nester, you guys, there definitely will be more episodes
to look forward to. I am here. Everyone said, essex
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M m m m m m mm hmm. Welcome back
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to another wonderful episode of Lupas Has No Face, the
podcast when we talk about real life, real struggles and
the power behind Lucas and beyond. I'm your host Savannah
Verse today and we will be discussing my next chapter,
The Empty Mess. Okay, listen before we hop all into that, right,
(01:46):
I am in Ross, Texas, so let me just do
a little recap about Black Day Yesterday. Yesterday was oh chaotic.
When I say chaotics, I mean chaotic. So I woke
up to what's that yesterday? You guys know I'd be
(02:10):
having brain fog. So I woke up to a kitchen
full of water because I had my windows open or whatever,
So kitchen full of water. I didn't get any sleep.
I had a meeting with my girl Michel doing a
master My boot camp at six fifteen in the morning,
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So I'm waking up cleaning the water out of my kitchen.
I'm on zoom, I'm taking notes, I'm recording, and I'm
also doing some last packing for my trip to Texas
because I wanted to be here for my daughter's first
day of school. Yes, I am that mother. I have
only one princess and this is her first year of
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high school, her first day of school, and I definitely
had to be here, so I made that trip. I
was talking to my prince. He was aggravating me. Anybody
that knows him and our relationship. He likes to aggravate me.
That's his way he showed his love. So I was
messed around with him before I actually left the house.
I am going to work, and I was just in
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kind of like out of space because the conversation that
I was having with somebody on the phone, it wasn't polite.
The conversation wasn't going the way that it needs to go.
People wasn't here, what was actually being sick and they
were actually really going off emotions. So yes, I decided
to be pitying and adding to that and this and
(03:40):
be dismissive where I could have just explained the situation
been quiet for a second, use my frontal lobe, a
set of my middle bramd medulla to react to the
to the situation. So I was really aggravated about that.
So after all of that, the weather added on a
(04:02):
whole hour driving to the airport, so it's raining, it's
prn down. I'm using my GPS because it's like, if
you want to go this way to say eleven minutes,
go this way, and it kept doing it to In reality,
I wasn't saving anything. Traffic was super slow in Illinois.
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It just added on the whole hour. So my flight
was supposed to leave at six to so two. The
doors was closing at five forty nine. The shadow got
I parked my car took the shadow. So the shadow
was like a mile away, right, So I'm like, oh
my god, I hope I'll make it. I hope I'll
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make it. Oh my god, God, please let me make it.
I cannot miss this day. So I get there. Now,
what do you see when I tell you nobody was
at the check in for your luggage counter piss wasn't
even a word like I could have screamed, yelled and
(05:10):
did all of everything when I was so so irritated.
So I I paid for a check bag that did
not get checked. Okay, so I had to go through
security check. I went through security check. True, they threw away.
Now you know, when you're going through security check, you
have to have the traveler's eye lotion and perfume and
(05:34):
all left. I didn't because I was checking a bag right.
Perfume that I paid over one hundred dollars got thrown
in the garbage. My lotions got thrown in the garbage.
My son's screen that I needed got thrown in the garbage.
My soap got thrown in the guards. My two page
got thrown in the guards. When I tell you, I'm
looking at that guard and I'm less like, are you
(05:56):
fucking kidding me right now? Excusing my language, but I
was really really upset in my feelings because this is
not my fault. Like nobody was literally, this was like
a movie. Nobody was literally at the counter to take
my check in back. They didn't take my bath. So
the lady that was at another airline was like, well,
just go just go up there and have them check
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your bag, not thinking that they was gonna throw my
things away, so she instructed me to do this. It
was either that or next my fight. So I'm so annoyed.
I was so so annoyed. I'm like, just give me
my luggage, Just give me my luggage. I had no
more niceness than me, like, just give me my luggage.
So me and this other guy real like literally running
through the airport. We are literally running through the airport.
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I'm like, oh, I got and my suitcase did not
want to I even was doings, doing whatever you want
to do. The wheels was going this great, I have
my purse. I was just overly stimulated, Like I was
already stimulated. So when I got there, I'm like, I'm
looking around, I see all of these people. I'm like,
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did I miss my flight? I'm like, oh my god.
And so my anxiety was just it was just going
and going and going. So I'm like, excuse me, can
you help me. She's like, yes, give me a moment.
I'm like, did I miss my flight? She like, I'm like,
oh my gosh. Like now I'm just like emotionalless. I'm
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every I'm every feeling that you can probably imagine right now, okay,
because I'm keeping inside the things that I want to say. So,
she had no knowledge that the plane was the plane
was delayed, So my plan was delayed, which was actually
a good thing. But I wish that I would have
got a text message saying that my plan is delayed,
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because that could have it could have said so much
of everything but I didn't. I didn't get a text message,
so thank god I didn't miss the plane. So I'm
telling her what happened or whatever, and I'm like, there
was nobody at that front desk, and I'm just so irritated,
like I need to be compensated, like she they threw
all my things away. And so the supervisor crawled down
(08:10):
to the front airline and she's speaking to the lady
that was supposed to be at the front desk. So
because the lady thought that the plane took off, she
was not there, not getting the memo that the plane
has been delayed. So everybody, including me that did not
was not able to check their bags had to go
through the same thing that I was going through. But
I wasn't letting that slide. Somebody needs to compensate me
(08:31):
for the things that they threw away or whatever. And
they was like, well, we're not. And I'm gonna say,
I don't care Frontier. I'm never ever ever ever ever
flying Frontier ever, ever ever ever again. I made a complaint,
but she did in strug me that she did say
that I probably would not get compensated for my things.
She's sorry, and she was so nice. It wasn't her fault,
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but she took care of me at that moment. So
now I'm in a airport I can't bordered to eight fifteen.
So I did all of this rushing. All of my
anxiety was kicking in. Just all of these things was
happening to me, and now my flavor is delayed. So
I'm like, okay. So I was able to go to
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the bathroom and just getting myself together, washing my hands.
I'm regrouping. I'm regrouding myself. So I'm just eating a
whole bunch of us cheery sorrow cherries. I'm just eating
them right, and I'm like, I'm so hungry. So the
time that I decided to go get some and eat,
everything was closed. Nothing was open but the side stores
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like where you can buy jump through that and due
to the weather like things was closed out. So I
haven't ate anything. All I had was the celsius and
some sour cheerries and I ate the whole back of
sour cherries. So I like that kind of messed my
stomach up or whatever. So that aggravated me. So I'm
talking to my people and they're like, did you eat?
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You know, they checking in on me. They they being
a really good family, you're really good friends, Like they
was really checking in on me. And I just had
an attitude and they had so so so kind nice
words to say. So it was keeping me up lifting.
So I was like, you know, at the end of
the day, I didn't miss my flight. I'll get to
go see my princess. Right. So I get on a
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plane when I say, people was coughing, people was hacking.
No mask, no nothing, I didn't even have a mask.
I was so mad at myself that I didn't even
have a mask. So I had a blanket with me
and I covered my whole flo and I'm like and
I just I had it. I was like, oh my god.
All they is coughing and sneezing, like oh my gosh,
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and everybody like looked at me. I was just like,
I'm better. I get sick, like and there was a
lady that was next to me that's the myot like cat.
It was just horrible. And so I went to sleep,
but I wasn't sleep long enough. Like finally got the plane.
My whole body was and I'm talking about my back,
my ankle, like everything on my body was just hurting
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like I had it, like I literally had it. So
finally make it to Texas at eleven o'clock at night,
it was smooth, smooth talk to my daughter. My daughter
was asleep. My sister was outside. She was dere like
she didn't make me way kol shout out to my sister.
I got got my luggage, got in, she got my
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luggage from me, put in the car. It was just
having a good old time, laughter and everything. We want
to go get something to eat. Came back here and
we watched Smoothie. I haven't. I took a shower. I
took a shower, I watched the day off of me.
And then by the time I noticed like my phone
was dead, and I was like, oh my god, like
people that aren't responsible for people that are my prairies,
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they couldn't get in touch with me if they tried
to get in touch with me, and my phone's dead.
So I was like, I have no more room to
be to feel, no other type of way. So I
charged my phone up, me and my sister. So then
my sister got in a shower and I went to
watch movies like I loved movies. That's something that got
away from me. I love TV shows. That's something that
got away from me. And yesterday we or last time
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this morning it was we I was in the morning.
We watched Breathe, Breathe the one and Breathe Too, and
I was up and it really it was really calming,
like you know. It allowed me to calm down, to think,
to regroup. Me and my sister was having some dope conversations.
I haven't seen her in such a long time, so
it was really nice catching up with her. And I
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was literally up to like for for something in the morning.
And then my phone out again because I hadn't the charger,
so I charged my phone back and then of course
I had a meeting again at six fifteen in the morning.
It couldn't meet my meeting. Michael was not having that.
I was gonna wasn't gonna forgive myself if I missed
that meeting. So I had a zoom meeting at six
fifteen in the morning. I made that. We got up,
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everybody got up and it was getting ready for school.
And then we was go get my baby. And when
I tell you how, some of our princess was outside.
She came outside her the smile on her face just
did it for me, you know what I mean, It
just did it for me, Like Mom, you showed up.
Not that there was any ever doubt, but the fact
that I'm here for her first day of school for
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high school, in a whole other city in state, on time,
taking her to school like it would be if we're
back at home, it just glue. It's just glue for me.
And the pictures that we took, like she held my
face like it was things that she hasn't han't did
when it was back at home, so I can tell
like she missed me too very much, so like it
showed it on her actions or whatever. And I was
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so very grateful for that. I was so very thankful
for that. And we were just taking pictures in the car,
we not knowing what were doing, not know where we going.
My sister stay here. She don't even know what she's doing.
And when I say the schools are so so so big,
like they're so big. So I'm like, Nana, you know,
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make sure you talk to people, make sure you ask questions,
because you know this is new for your father out here,
this is new for me being long this is and
this is new for you. So it's new for all
of us or whatever. So I'm like, you got to
help us, help you. I'm like, so you got to communicate.
Communicating it's really really huge. She's like okay, Mom, okay, Mom,
okay Mom. So she got out and I was just like,
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oh my gosh, you know what I mean. And she
got out. So after that, me and my sister we
was talking. We went to go get something to eat.
I don't even know if you're on here telling the
name of that Mexican restaurant. I actually put it online.
But she took me to this Mexican restaurant this morning
because funny story, we ordered food from three sixty. It
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was called three Sister the Breakfast Club, and we were
not there. The restaurant that we were at was thirty Club.
So I go in there and get the food and
I'm like it was like, no, you gotta be at
the wrong So I'm like, no, it says, and my
whole time, I was like, where's the six out on here?
We was totally at the wrong spot. I was like,
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you know what, I'm just taldry. I just need to
get something to eat, like we're gonna be okay. So
she was like I want you to have something that
you didn't that you haven't ate. So we went to Starbucks.
First got some Starbucks and then went to this Mexican place.
When I tell you that food was so good, so authentic,
like it put me right down. So I took a
nap before the kids got out of school. So I
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took another nap, and that's not something I was able
I have been able to do either. So I was
able to take a nap and I was able to
watch some TV. So just thinking about like all of
those things. So I called my daughter or I was
texting her, like, you know, let me know when you
get out of school so we can come pick you up.
My sister's actually on her way to go pick her up.
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I had to come home and do want I do
dealers just with this podcast. Let you guys know this
new chapter in my life of being an empty nester.
And it so funny because it's so many like transitioning over.
So she told me her school that was really great.
She meant connections with people, which is really dope. I'm
so happy that she did that, and now I'm waiting
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on her. But the things that I were doing when
I was when she left. When she when she left
the house, I immediately I didn't think about it any nothing.
Normally I try to like get some sleep, but no,
when I say, y'all, was up to wee hours in
the morning, we came from It started Saturday. So Saturday,
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me and my crew, we shout out to Ken she
has mine in my own podcasts, and she's also a cruiser.
Shout out to and she's also my sister. Shout out
to Tone Death. He's also my friend, my manager, my producer.
So he went with me as well to the Lupis
Society of Illinois's walk doctor Lashawn Garola. We joined her
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and her team. We went there. We started our morning
off at five o'clock in the morning. Okay, this is Saturday,
this past Saturday. We started our morney off at five
o'clock in the morning. We went out there. We had
a good time. Of course, I was I'm always sleeping
the car when we traveling, I'm going to sleep. I
want to sleep. But when we got there, when I
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tell you just to recap on my weekend, we got there,
she had breakfast ready for us. I'm gonna call them
the three d's all the three D's was there because
it's doctor and Shawn Garola and her her two doctors Sam,
doctor Sam and doctor Alex, and they was all there
making sure it was well taken care of. They fed
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us real good hospitality, was great, fast morning. We want
you to walk. Now we get to the walk. You guys,
when I tell you my sister doctor Lyn Shawn Garola.
If you on here, hey, it's a little different setup
because I am not at the studio today, but you know,
I had to still do the podcast. I can't see
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the comments, but I'll see him afterwards. But if you
are on there today, I'm have tone like read off
the comments or whatever on here today when I tell
you this was such a beautiful walk, When I tell you,
everybody was so humbling, so respectful, all nationalities. They had
something called I don't know if the whole walk was
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five k or if it was like three k and one,
but if you wasn't able to do the full walk,
they gave you the option to go to the short way.
If you was able to do the whole thing, they
gave you the option to go the whole thing. And
I felt that that was so so so dope, And
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of course doctor Lashawan being her due diligence. Before I
even came down here, she introduced me to some amazing people.
And these people already knew who I were, who I
was before I actually got there, And it was just
so humbling when I was talking to all these different
you know, romatologists, doctors, therapists. It was it was some
amazing people that I met out there that was just
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so humbling and ready to take on, to take me on,
like to collaborate to do business. I dealt with some
organizations that they just wanted your help only for their business.
But these people out here that was willing to collaborate
to get that, to get the word out there because
we all on the same mission. We're just doing things differently,
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you know what I mean. And I understand it and
they understand it, and they match my mission, and I'm
sure that I matched theirs as to why we wanted
to link up. And as I was talking to these
people and taking pictures with these people, these amazing individuals,
it was people that came up to me like, oh
my god, I quote, oh my god, I knew I
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heard your boys never met me a day and ay
life they watched the podcast, And when I tell you,
that just made me feel away that I just cannot explain.
It just made me feel like and it verified that
I'm I'm supposed to be here, I'm supposed to be
doing this, Like to have strangers they were strangers because
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I haven't physically met them, but they know who I
who I am, and they knew my voice. And it
was just so amazing that they recognized my voice and
just so even more amazing that they that I'm doing
the work out here in the community and I'm having substance.
Things to talk about, things that make sense, opening a
beginning and opening a conclusion, things to do your research
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on things, the knowledge to give people that's living well
with lucas or any auto on learning diseases. Like I
appreciate you guys, because without you, guys, there will there
would have never been a Lupa's has on face. Lucas
has on Face thrives off the supporters and the donations
and everything else. We are community and we're unity, and
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I want to I want to make that bigger. I
want to be nation. Why so again, I appreciate all
the support of viewers. Anything that you ever had to
do with lupus has no face. I appreciate you in
a major way. So we did all of that. Now
I made all these dope connections, you know. So now
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we going to the backyard the block party. So I'll
go take a shower. I'm like, I need to get
in a shower. My sister was like, I told you
the downstairs bathroom, but she has an upstairs a middle
in the downstairs. She was not specific on with she
wanted where she wanted me to take a shower. But nevertheless,
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that's just us. That's literally just us, so not fresh
and dub when I tell you she put her whole
body in them baked beans and the green beans with
them turkey necks and potatoes. That was so so good.
Like we were not outsleep. Do you hear me, I'm
talking about knocked out sleep. I think I posted she
(22:01):
caught us sleep, and I think I posted it on
the books. But shout out to you cooking and then
we had best kept secrets that was in the building.
If you are not familiar with them, or you have
not heard that music classified, I think that's the new record.
Correct me if I'm wrong with Sean and mister Laney.
If you own here, go follow them b k as.
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When I tell you that band is amazing. When I
tell you they were playing to my soul, honey, like
I could have stayed out there all night long, could
have got a blanket and sat on the grass and
listen to that music. That music was so fulfilling. Okay.
So after we did all of that, kicked it with
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the band, kicked it with the s of your sisters,
kick it at the block. Party had grown, the time
had fun. We traveled back. Once we traveled back, that's
when the storm happened in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Again I ask
saying my sincere apologies for everybody that lost any and everything.
I do have a lot of clothes, boy clothes at
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my home. So if anybody that is interested in any clothes,
please do inbox me. In box me on any platform
that you see and I will be able to get
back with you, and they are for free. I'll come
drop them off, or we can meet up at a
similar location and I can give you these clothes. So
we had such a major flood in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, and
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a lot of people lost a lot of things, going
without heat and hot water and things of that nature,
and it is definitely going to get better. I know
you may not see it, but keep the faith and
keep continue doing what you're doing, and it is is definitely.
Help out there and shout out to my girl Phoenix.
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Phoenix is one and Phoenix. I know life has been
hitting you, honey, but I am here. I am here,
so if you need me, please do reach out to me.
I am here. You are not a problem. I love you,
even going through so so much, and I just want
to let you know I am here if you need
me in any type of way, shape or fashion form.
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So moving on from there, it was like really lat
and I just started this is getting too the empty
nest and part right, I'm starting to clean out my refrigerator.
So when I tell you I'm deep cleaning that wee
hours in the morning. I'm deep cleaning, like I'm deep
cleaning refrigerator. I deep cleaned the bathroom. I was just cleaning,
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like really really really cleaning, and I was literally tired,
but it was just something that I was doing. Like
my daughter was there. I felt really really sad, like
I couldn't lay down, like I was tired, and I
started to lay down, but I'm like, dang, and my
heart started, you know, beating fast. My stunach start going
to NAT and I'm like, I cannot believe my is gone,
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Like she is gone. So I text her father like
I really miss her, and he was like, I know,
you know, but she's in Gray's hands. She got a
dope father, so it's his time now, you know. So
I know she He's gonna do amazing things with her.
But it just tore me down. And to let you
guys know, I am starting a grieving panel. So I'm
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looking for some people. But grieving doesn't mean losing somebody
by death, you know. It's more in your old life.
And for me, it's my daughter right now. So that's
my grieving process. My daughter has moved out the home
and it was a collective decision and she felt like
Texas can do more for her than what Milwaukee, Wisconsin can.
She's a dope flute player and she wants to be
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a veterinarian and Texas has that. Hear her, She travels
about four or five times out the year with her
father and he turns on to all the classes, any
type of music or anything. So she been coming to
Texas for a while now. Year after year after year,
and she made it a collective decision about her the
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offers here. And at first I'm like, that's being my
first and only daughter. I'm like, no, why would you
want to go there? And I'm like, you know what,
that's the selfishot in me. Tell me why you want
She and that's how she broke it down to me,
how did God get musical schools go Veninarian schools? And
I was like, you know, I'll do anything for my
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daughter's future, for either one of my kids s feature,
I'll do anything and to support that. And I tell
her like, I'm going to be sad. I haven't finished
raising you. You know, you're only fourteen, you know what
I mean. So I was very saddened by that, but
I respected the decision and I'm going to support her.
So I ag read you know, and her father has
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been very very supportive, letting me know I can come
in there. I want to. I have all access, Like
he's an amazing father. So shout out to shout out
to Noah. So yeah, and then I started doing research.
Me and my good friend Tone, my producer, my manager,
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we were I was telling him and we was doing
research and it's a lot of research behind empty nesters,
and it was like a list with like thirty two
things on there. And that list, I was doing that
like subconsciously, not knowing anything about it. I was literally
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doing that, and I'm like, oh my god. So that's
where this bonus episode came from, just being a mom
with Lupez and dealing with an empty nester. What that
looks like for my new chapter for really all of us,
and so for me, I think it really started last night.
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I worked so much on all of my businesses. Work
for a business is my healthcare field. I'm supporter to
all of my friends any chance that I get, I'm
always doing something. You know, I don't never want to
be in the same space that I was the year before,
So I'm always doing something, always trying to make sure
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to let people know I am here for you. Sometimes
you got to reach out to me because sometimes I forget.
It's gonna tire. Just reach out to me to let
them know that I am here for them, because I
do get busy. I am a busy person while trying
to have a love life of my own, whatever that's
looking like. And like I said yesterday, it was like
(28:37):
a confirmation like I love watching movies. I love being
in a nice comfortable bed watching TV shows, and I
did that with my sister. So I'm like, this is
something that I'm might have to start doing to regroup
myself because it brought me back to a safe space
watching certain movies. So I'm gonna do that a declutter
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and I'm gonna do that. I can't say everything what
I'm gonna do, but this is beneficial to me now
that I look at it, because her father said to me, like,
now you can focus on yourself, and I took that
offense of like what you mean, I can focus on myself.
That's my baby. I got it no matter what. But
what he needs is that, like I get up now.
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I don't gotta worry about if she ate. I don't
got to go back to the house and check up
her after I've been gone from the house for sixteen hours,
eighteen hours, twenty two hours. I don't have to see
any help over here. I don't have to make sure
she's getting door dashed. I don't see her that, but
my people send her door dash. You know, I don't
have to, you know, look at certain things over the
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phone and make make it into my schedule like it's
literally all I have to worry about is just Savannah
and I have a dog. That's all I have to
worry about. It's just and it's just like it makes
me feel like I don't have the children. But I
know I have children. But I always told people when
we have conversations about fathers not treating the outside kids
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the same as they would for the ones inside, and
I said, it could never it would never be equal
like that because that's not their day to day and
the fact that I'm living that my daughter is not
my day to day no more. No matter how many
times I text her and call her, She's not in
my home. You know, she was not in my home.
I'm not gonna see her. She's not gonna ask me
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how I'm doing. I'm not gonna come home to a meal.
I can't depend on her anywhere to take out the dog,
and now I'm responsible for that. She was responsible for
Cody for a very long time, taking them out in
the morning at night and feeding them and things of
that nature. So I was really trying to prepare myself
before she actually left to take on that responsibility when
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I did, when I had a long day and I
want her to come rub my back and rub my
or rub me, rub my head. I don't have her
for that anymore, or to go in there and lay
on her, or to you know, get the love and
to recharge. I don't have that anymore because she's not here.
And just talking about that, it's very hurtful, it's very sad,
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but I know it's for the best. I can't say
it got any easier because when my prince left, I
felt the same way, sick to my stomach, you know,
and he left, and it's the same way with her,
So it was like opening the moons all over again.
But the only thing is she's my last I only
have two, so it's like, what do that look like,
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you know, being my age. I'm not married by choice
because when I get married, I'm staying Mary. That's just it.
There's no divorce to depth do us part. Okay, so
you're trying to marry, but I'm not married. I'm not
living with a significant other or anything like that, so
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I don't have I shouldn't say I don't have anybody
to take care of me or anybody to lean on.
But it's definitely different. It's definitely different not having someone
in my day to day and I'm a very spoiled individuals,
Like even though I spoil my children, my children spoiled
me and any men that I've ever been with spoiled me.
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So it's like that was just me, Like who do
I call on in the middle of the night? Who
do I you know, who do I reach out to? Like?
You know what I mean? Like, I know it's people
I can call and things of that nature, but it's
not here in my face. Like if I'm having cramps,
who do I get to deruct me? You know what
(32:44):
I mean? Like, or my body is not feeling well,
who do I get for that? And that's not to
say I don't have anybody, It's just to say that
it's not it's not at my home. I'm by myself now,
so empty nesting for me is I'm not happy with it.
I try to be okay with that because I have
no choice that I don't want to stress myself out,
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so I'm dealing with my emotions and even now it's
just like, oh, like I'm holding back my keears. But
what kind of mother would I be if I would
have made her stay? You know what? I'm saying, so
you gotta look at things like that, and empty nesting
don't have to be so bad. It don't have to
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be so bad. It all depends. You gotta have your
mindset established for that and ready for that and to
endure and to take on the unknown, and you gotta
be okay with that. And the biggest thing for me
is that I know my daughter to say like, that's
his only daughter, and he, like I said, he's amazing,
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So I don't have to worry about her safety at all.
Like her dad has her tent toes down, So I'm
not worried about that at all. And I do believe
the things that I have installed in her, the moral values,
the character, all of that, I believe that's going to
show up in his worst way. Now what I mean
in is worst way, Like it's going to show up
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even more now because I have said to her, like,
remember I taught you, remember about your hair. And I
thank God for my sister that's in Texas. She's gonna
take care of her natural hair too. Because my daughter
got some beautiful, nice curly hair that I wanted to
continue to stay grown, but she also get break so
I thank god for my sister that's down here to
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to continue to take care of her hair. But I
also talk to my daughter some tools and things like that,
and I had reached out to some people that was
willing to do it, like Rachel to teach my daughter
about waxing, like the proper way and things of that
when she when she left. Cause it's like dad and daughter,
you know what I mean. So I just wanted to
make sure how daughter it was good. So I reached
out to a few I reached out to Ashley, I
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rest out to a few people about hygiene, not saying
that I don't know any think about it. But when
you get your kids in a teacher teaching setting, they
intend to listen better. And I don't have a problem
with my daughter hiding at all, so let's be very
clear about that. So I just wanted her to be
more sufficient and more equipped, just like here, like start
brushing your haird from the bottom all the way to
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the top, things of that nature. I don't know what
she's gonna be eating every day. I don't I'm not
gonna see her mood swings. I'm not gonna see things
that I will normally see. You know what, I'm saying
I'm not gonna be able to give her a hug
or my daughter knows when I'm sad. My daughter knows
when I'm mad. My Dona knows when I'm upset. She
attends to cater to any more. And I don't have that.
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I don't have that. So for me, I'm just gonna
continue pouring into Lucas's my face, building it up to
a point where I can leave Milwaukee. I do want
to leave Milwaukee. I've been wanting to leave Milwaukee, but
I was gonna leave one or two things that just
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happened when she wanted to college, but she actually moved
before then. And then once my business is able to
run on its own with the proper people in place.
So once my business get the proper people in place,
that needs to be running on its own, because I
don't get a twisted like having a nonprofit organization is
very very very hard, and I have changed people throughout
(36:19):
the years. So once that get established, I will be
leaving myself, but I will be flying in and out
because that's going to be the headquarters. I'm going to
continue to focus on my podcasts, like you know, going
to the podcast conventions and things of that nature. I
am working on my hairline right now, so I'm going
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to pour all of my time into that as well.
And that's a couple of things. Working on another book
right now. The last thing I want to be working
on is a camp for kids with invisible illnesses where
I want to open that up. I do not know,
but but I'm I'm gonna pour my time into that
(37:04):
while also uh taking care of myself, having self care days,
mental health days, just relaxing, whether that's for a whole
day where I'm just cutting my phone off or ain't
gonna cut my phone off, but like putting my phone down,
going going to the hotel, going for a spoty, gonna
go take myself out for dinner, lunch, or meeting up
(37:27):
with my my friends, my people, my loved ones. I
gotta make sure that I allow them to love on me,
because I am guilty of shutting people out because sometimes
I feel not that people don't understand, but I'm a
person that feels like if you're not going through or
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have not been through the exact same thing that I
am going through, it may be hard for you to
understand where I'm coming from. Like yes, you can sympathize
with me, but sometimes I want to just lay on
your chest or lay on your lap and have you
rub in my head to give me that energy back.
Sometimes I don't want to talk, you know what I'm saying.
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Sometimes maybe maybe I want to go to a nice restaurant,
nice ambience, and I have a conversation just to enjoy
the sounds and abuse, you know what I mean. Like
I'm at a state like that right now, and how
many people can endure that? Maybe not, maybe some, And
that's probably where it's just going to be me, you know,
(38:31):
just enjoying that and getting my mental my mental ready
and continue to stay ready. And I think it's going
to be a continuous thing. Like I think it will
get easier, but I think as long as I have
the support, which I have an adult support system, I
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know I'll be okay. Even if I don't have a
support Some God got me, like he haint brought me
so far. My faith is so mad, crazy, like it's
not God got me, you know what I mean. So
even know I'm saying I want to do all of
these things, I am gonna do those things for sure.
But the way that I envision them coming out in
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the way I'm envisioning them being worked on like that,
because I'm still growing as a person, like I have
four degrees and all of those things. But don't forget
like I went through some stuff too. That's another story
for another day. But I'm still growing and I'm still excelling,
and I'm still elevating. I'm still learning things, and I
feel like once you stop learning and stop elevating, that's
(39:36):
a problem, you know what I mean, Like I still
got to check myself, you know. So this is just
going to be I know, Texas, La Cali like my home,
but Texas is gonna be my my second home. Like
I'm gonna be out here very frequently. Like my daughter
expects for me to be out here on her major days,
(39:58):
you know. So I'm gonna make sure sure that happened.
There's no reason why I'm not gonna have that happen
and just God say otherwise. So I'm be flying out frequently.
I'll be out here again in September for a birthday.
So this is gonna but I know it's gonna be
a period of time that I'm probably gonna go months
without seeing her and I'm that's gonna be another another
(40:21):
you know, opener. Right now, I'm just dealing with the
very beginning stages right now. So yeah, I can envision
what that could possibly look like, but I really don't
know what that looks like. And as I'm sitting here
talking to you guys about empty nesting, like just me
(40:44):
having auto immune disease, I feel distressed on me as
I'm talking to you because when you hold it in
your feelings, even though I'm articulating and being very transparent
with you guys, me me holding back my tears right now,
it's causing stress throughout my body, you know what I mean.
(41:08):
So that's, uh, that could be issue. So after my
after this show, I'm going to go do some things
maybe like I don't know what yet, but I might
go take a bath or apps and so, I you know,
I might go medicate, uh myself. I might go take
a walk. It's the pool out there, I might go
(41:31):
take a swim. Something that's going to redirect my thoughts.
So this can get up off me because if I
keep going through this thing right now, which how I'm
feeling in my back, hurt, my arm, hurt, my whole
body hurts like and it didn't. It wasn't hurting when
I started talking to you guys. Just started hurting because
(41:51):
I'm holding back my emotions and it's affected me right now.
And I don't want to have a flare up. I
really don't want to have a flare up. I don't
want that to happen because that can probably cause guilt
on her end if she finds out. So my priority
is to take care of myself, to take care of myself,
and because I learned my triggers, which is a class
(42:13):
that I teach you guys, If you guys are ever
interested in learning your triggers, you can go on the
website www dot besides my face dot com and we
can set up a session for me to help you
through learning your triggers. But because I know my triggers,
I know what to do, you know what I mean.
So I'm not gonna sit in it because if I
(42:34):
do sit in it, I could potentially have a flare up.
So I promised myself I wasn't gonna do that. My
sitting in it probably be at an hour or two,
but I'm not gonna take a whole day because this
is my new worm right now, you know what I mean.
So for the mothers out there that is experiencing empty
(42:55):
nesting that don't know what to do, I might just
start a group. Who knows, I might just start a
supper grod just I don't. I don't know. I don't know.
It's to be continue, But I'm definitely gonna continue to research.
I'm definitely gonna continue to make myself a number one
priority because without me, nothing else can can go like
or without no engine. Right, I gotta I gotta continue
(43:20):
making sure I'm good. So my refrigerator, what looks different
than my home? Uh, my refrigerator is definitely gonna be different.
Not that my daughter had a mess up palate, but
now I can it's only me. So my palate. I'm
a I love vegetables, I love fewts, I love uh smoothies, fish, chicken.
(43:46):
It's gonna be very healthy in my in my fridge.
I don't buy junk food as it is. I do
eat junk food, but I get it from like the stores.
I don't have it sit in my home or anything
like that. It's nothing but water in my home. If
it's milk, it's walnut milk or coconut milk, so I don't.
(44:07):
I don't really eat white things, you know what I mean,
like rice and cars and bread, so it would not
be none of that. So my my fridge is definitely
gonna look different. The sound of my home is definitely
gonna be different. The presence is definitely gonna be different
because my daughter brings up presents when she was in
(44:29):
my home, so I don't have that anymore. Going to
bed is even gonna look different. I'm not gonna have
anybody to talk to me before I go to sleep,
or be like Layle, come watch the movie when me
yelling from the next room, Like I'm not gonna have that.
So that's gonna look different for me when I come home,
(44:50):
like I'm not gonna have anybody asking me how my
day was, Like it's all just gonna be so different
for me. I'm not gonna be able to go in
there and mess with her and aggravate her, pull her
the covers off of her, and you know, say get
up now, and why you didn't do this It's been hours.
I'm not gonna be yelling anymore, like you know what
(45:10):
I'm saying. I'm not gonna have a helpmate. I'm not
gonna have a helpmate, So I'm not gonna have nobody
while I'm getting ready putting my makeup on in the
shower at me. Can I buy this? Like, I'm not
gonna have the interruptions, which all that stuff you missed?
You know what I mean when you don't have it
(45:32):
was like it was an instant. I instantly missed it,
Like all of the irritating things, I instantly missed it.
Or I'll get dressed to be like, how does look?
How does look? You? Thinking I look good on this?
M You know, I'm miss all of that. Having that
girally feeling in the house, I'm gonna miss that. But again,
what does this chapter look like for Savannah with this
(45:52):
empty nesting? I don't know. And you know, this is
a bonus episode. I'm probably definitely gonna add to this.
So it's definitely gonna be a session. I just made
up my mind. It's definitely gonna be a session on
my YouTube channel, so wecause has no face podcast for
those that want to replay or look for the other episodes,
which I'm always gonna go live, it's gonna be on there.
(46:16):
I might update you guys once a month, once every
three months. I don't know yet, but it's definitely gonna
be a session on their Yeah, you know, working out
is very good. Like I've been thinking about hitting a
jam and I think when I get back, I'm just
gonna make that a part of my life. Like I've
(46:37):
been running from it, not wanna do it, just being lazy,
or I'll do it. I'm just not consistent with it,
you know what I mean. But working out is very
I love working out, I really actually do. But it's
just getting back into the groog of things, you know,
and I'll be like three four o'clock in the morning,
you know what I mean. So to be continued for
(47:01):
that too, because I've been that's been on my mind
heavy and I know, Chrissy, they're trying to get me
back in there, and it's just like I'm not ready,
but just like anything, just like and I can just
do it, and I think that that'd be very good
for me. I think that, I know for sure that'd
be very good for me starting back up a regular
workout regiment. So yeah, because this can go very bad,
(47:24):
but my mind is way stronger than that, and I'm
not gonna let this get bad. So for those that
are going through the emptynesting thing, I'm just starting it,
but I'm very strong and it come to will. So
if you guys are having any weaknesses, come talk. Let's
talk together. And the fact that I know that it
(47:44):
can get bad is I can feel it, but I
know I'm not gonna let it happen. So I'll be
able to sympathize with you, to give you some pointers,
you know, on why it shouldn't. You shouldn't let it
get that bad or bad at all, but you definitely
you should allow yourself to feel because that's important. You
should acknowledge your feelings, which I have acknowledging my feelings.
(48:08):
So that's that's what it's looking like for me. And
you know, anybody know when I travel, I'm wearing Adidas.
Every time I'm out of town, going through the airport,
on my relaxing days, I'm wearing Adidas. Like that's call
me Adidas girl. But so yeah, so that's what it is.
(48:29):
So if it's any internasters, if you guys want a
different topic about int neesting next time, let me know.
Let me know how you liked this episode. I just
felt the need that I can come on here and
let you guys know. For the people that are going
through with the autoimmune disease, it will definitely play a
part on you in your body, and you need to
be aware of that and make sure you take care
(48:50):
of that because if you don't, something bad could happen
and we don't want that, right you know better, which
I know better, You do better, So I'm gonna be there.
So I love you guys for free. Thank you guys
so much for tuning in. If you haven't checked out
(49:11):
all the footage from the band and from the walk
on my page and look at it, there will be
one next year. Lashang Roll does have other things that's
coming up, so yeah, And if you guys have not
registered for the Sister strugg go register for the Sister Struggle.
Reach out to Phoenix, make sure you be in the
(49:34):
building for that. I'm definitely gonna be in the building
for that. If you have not registered for I'm gonna
call it the mindset of man. Tr network Ton Death
is in charge of that. I believe that's coming up
on the fifteenth. If I got the dates wrong, please
put that in there. You guys, go love on each other.
(49:54):
Man need to be a vulnerable and open up, and
they need to love on each other to let you guys,
He's gonna let you. You guys know. It's definitely a safe space.
So that's gonna be a dope event. I'm gonna try
to be there as well, even though I am the woman,
but I try to be there as well because I'm
very supportive when it comes to anything that he's doing
as well. So yeah, that's what it's looking like for
(50:14):
Savannah Birds and her Princess no Ley. For being an
empty nester, you guys, there definitely will be more episodes
to look forward to. I am here. Everyone said, essex
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