Bonus Supporters Club Preview Ep 1 -Mental Health Matters: Addressing Suicide in Law Enforcement

***This episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening***

Midlife Misery, the JOURNALS - Supporters Club Preview Episode 

These episodes are going to be a bit different than the regular season episodes 

They aren’t going to follow the timeline of the Crazy Train Bananas - cyber death - long term poisoning plot - Attempt on my life and complete life destruction when MY EX’S murder plot failed - THE ONE I’M currently PIECING TOGETHER IN THE SEASON 1 EPISODES

The supporters club episodes are going to focus on my actual Journals - many of the entries you can find in the blog posts on the website and the ones to come. 

Once January 2024 hits my Journal entries get much more intense because my Ex's diabolical plan goes full steam ahead and we get to the 5150 moment

The Journal Entries from 2024 are very raw, emotional, and extremely vulnerable because of the tremendous amount of trauma, turmoil, and chaos my Ex unleashed - and continues to unleash on my life

There is a lot more vulnerability within the entries and they aren't necessarily suitable for everyone and they don't always help the story move forward - if anywhere - it’s a lot of venting and trauma processing

I’ve decided to put those behind the paywall because I don't want them to muck up the waters of the actual story

In the Supporters Club Episodes - I'll be diving more into my personal backstory, my family's story and my dad't story

I want to keep that portion of my story as separate from my Ex's story as much as possible 

DESPITE THE FACT THAT IT IS INDEED MY STORY AND MY STORY TO TELL

It was written and delivered to me by a Narcissistic Abuser/My EX Husband and I'm telling that story to help others out there identify the signs of abuse and to let other victims of abuse know they are not alone  

My story and my family's story is worthy of more discernment - in my opinion and I'd like to keep the 2 stories as separate as possible

Not that I won't be making connections to ANCHOR FACE OF DEATH - because they just have to be made 

But my Ex won't be the lead character in the Supporters Club Episodes - HIS EGO DOESN’T NEED ANY MORE INFLATION 

Another slight difference in the Supporters Club Episodes from the regular season  episodes will be in the scripting and delivery 

I spend a lot of time writing the regular season episodes out, editing them over and over, because they have to be linear and stick to a timeline and sequence of events and be as concise as possible because 

A - I have to have it make sense - 

B - I have to make sure the information I’m putting out there in the story is information that I can back up with receipts 

Because unlike my EX - I’m not trying to get hit with slander or libel - I want to make sure that I can say XY&Z happened - and say here is where you can look for the information to corroborate what I’m saying to back it up 

In these Journal style supporters Club Episodes - they’ll be more free flow, free thought, and I might not be as poised - I might break down from time to time because the content and subject matter is much closer to my heart and much more emotional for me 

Which is also why I’ll try to keep the EX out of them as much as possible - this episodes will be less scripted and more off the cuff - so I might veer off, or go back and forth they wont necessarily be timeline specific and there may be some spoilers in these journal episodes  

I might discuss something that hasn’t happened yet in the timeline of the season - much like this preview episod