August 13, 2025 • 40 mins
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Coming at your life once more again. Also what I
need for you to do? Sit back, relax, put on
your head, giar, oh my worthless two since it's about
to put something.
Speaker 2 (00:13):
In your ah.
Speaker 1 (00:18):
And here we go, Here we go, Here we go.
Oh yeah, the boy is here. The boy is here.
The boy is here. Oh man, look at here. Welcome one,
Welcome all, Welcome, Welcome to the table. Welcome to the table.
Speaker 3 (00:34):
Man.
Speaker 2 (00:35):
Man, I'm excited. I'm excited. And I don't know if
y'all know. When I come in here and I hit
this gold button, I just get excited. I'm telling you,
I really do. I just get excited.
Speaker 3 (00:50):
Man. This is this is thank God.
Speaker 2 (00:54):
It has been a wonderful, wonderful month of July for myself,
but this is it. It's the last show of the month.
This is the last show of the month of July.
And man, I could not I cannot say thank you
enough to each and every one of y'all who have supported,
not just in the month of July, but to each
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and every one of y'all who have supported and have
been there. I thank you for tuning in. I thank
you for the shares, I thank you for the likes.
I thank you for the comments. I will say this
moving in too before I get into anything else, moving
into the month of August.
Speaker 3 (01:34):
Man, look, if y'all want to or.
Speaker 2 (01:35):
Have an idea, or you have a comment, or you
have something that you want to say about this wonderful show.
Speaker 3 (01:43):
I got it wonderful.
Speaker 2 (01:44):
But if there's something you want to say about it, man,
you can drop me a message. You can go to
my pod page and do a review. Also, I just
want to say this, I do have a pod page,
and the pod page is basically the landing page for
every show that has ever been done, every single show,
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anytime y'all see me live, anytime y'all see me anywhere.
You can go back and you can watch watch the show.
You can go back and see some of the wonderful
guests that have been on the show. You can pull
up their information and see who they are or how
if there was somebody that cult your interests, or an
author or a musician, whoever it may be, or a
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speaker that caught your attention that was on this show,
you can go back. All their information is there where
you can get in touch with them. You can get
in contact with them. You can also go on there,
and you can leave a comment whatever your comment is.
That's your comments, ain't my comments, and your comment whatever
you may want to leave on there. If you have
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an idea, you say, hey, country boy, man, I would
like to see a show about this, or I would
like to here's somebody that I know that may want
to come on and share their journey, or hey, I
want to come on and share my journey. Leave a comment,
leave a message, drop me an email, whatever you want
to do. But I appreciate y'all understand I say that.
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I say that because this I have to explain this,
and I will. I love to explain this. This is
not my platform, this is not mine. This is God.
He gave me this to just watch over. He gave
me this just to watch over. This don't belong to
the country boy, and I don't sit up here and
act like his mind and this is his. I'm just
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I'm just a doorkeep I'm just a button pusher. So
if there's anyone that feels like I want a place
to be able to come and talk and share without judgment,
because anybody right here I want to I've been on
this journey or I'm going through this right here, right here.
Speaker 3 (03:54):
This is what this is about.
Speaker 2 (03:57):
And I tell people all the time that none of
this is pre recorded, none of this is scripted.
Speaker 3 (04:07):
None of it.
Speaker 2 (04:07):
For the first time last night I wrote down some notes.
I wrote down some things because I wanted to deliver something.
But none of this is. It comes straight, it's authentic.
What you see is what you get. What you see
is what you get.
Speaker 3 (04:21):
This is it. This is it.
Speaker 2 (04:23):
Ain't nothing made up about it, it ain't nothing phony about it.
It's it right here. I'm not here to down anybody.
I'm not here to discourage anybody. I'm not here to
do anything other than what this platform is far to encourage,
to uplift and to support others. So before I get
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into that, I got to get into this before I
get into that, because I ain't gonna be up on
here along. I'm telling you, I ain't gonna be up
on here along. I'm gonna pop this old thing back.
I'm gonna pop this off right here. I'm gonna rub
this old shiny head, and I'm gonna say this the Father,
thank you for this day, Father God. I want to
thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you Father God.
Speaker 3 (05:09):
Here we are the thirtieth day of the seventh month.
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Some that started out with us are no longer with us,
Father God. Some of us have lost, some of us
have gained. Some of us have been through some hurt,
and some of us have been through some pain. Some
of us have seen some joy, and some of us
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have seen some rain. But through it all, Father God,
you have been here with us, through it all, and
I just want to say thank you. I just want
to say thank you. Some of us are struggling with addictions.
Some of us are struggling with mental problems. Some of
us are struggling with physical problems, Father God, but I
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still just want to say thank you. Some of us
have tears in our eyes, some of us have smiles
on our face. Father God, I just want to say
thank you, Father God. Some of us don't know where
our next meal is coming from. Some of us don't
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know how we're gonna make it one more day, Father God,
but I just wanna say thank you. Some of us
have lost parents, some of us have lost siblings. Some
of us have lost uncles, cousins and best friends. But
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Father God, I just won't to say thank you, because
Father God, you are the same good, same God, in
the good and in the bad. No matter what we
may face, Father God, your grace, your mercy, Father God,
it is sufficient. And I just want to say thank you,
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Father God. Thank you for the ones that you've allowed
in and Father God, thank you for the ones you've
closed the door on.
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Father God. I just want to say thank you, Father God.
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Thank you for the ones who've cheered, and thank you
for the ones who booed. Father God. I just want
to say thank you, Father God. Thank you in the
have and thank you in the have not, Father God,
thank you in the rain, and thank you in the sun.
Father God. I just want to say thank you. I
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thank you, thank you, thank you for your grace, thank
you for your mercy.
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Thank you, Father God. I pray for a pray for
each and everyone.
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I pray for strength, I pray for wisdom, and I
pray for understanding.
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Father God.
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I just want to say thank you, Father God. I
just want to say as I sit here, as I'm
saying this prayer, and I think, I think, I think,
I think about the children that prayed because they wanted
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a king, because everyone around them had a king. Your
children they prayed because they saw what everybody else had,
and they wanted what everybody else had, Father God. I pray,
Father God, I say to you this day, Father God,
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don't give me. Don't give me what I want. Father God,
protect me from me, see because sometimes I want some
things that you know are not good for me. But
you love me so much as you say, go ahead,
Father God. Thank you, Thank you, thank you, thank you,
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thank you for your protection.
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Thank you for your guidance. Father God.
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I pray for each and everyone that can hear my voice,
each and every one of them.
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Father God. I pray for them.
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Father God, I pray keep the heads of protection around us.
Sometimes we get in our own way. Father God, I
thank you, I thank you. I may not have everything
I want, but God, you give me every single.
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Thing, and I thank you that.
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I thank you, and I pray for each and every
person that you continue to provide for them every thing
that they need.
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Not just this day, but every day. I ask these
prayers in your son Jesus name. Amen. Amen, Amen, All right,
look at him who.
Speaker 2 (10:29):
Well again? Old comfortable. I told you I ain't gonna
be on here long. I just I want to just
really really really just say thank you. I want to
say thank you. Thank you having the Father. I thank
you for allowing these wonderful people, some of the people
I've never met, I never talked to, don't even know.
But I thank you, Father God for touching their hearts
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that they open up and come here to listen to support.
I'm grateful. I'm grateful, and I'm humble. Like I said,
I'm not gonna be on here long. This is this
is the last show of the month. And y'all know
it's Wednesday. And if y'all don't know anything about me,
know anything about this journey, I know anything about this story.
Speaker 3 (11:14):
Yes.
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Sometimes now I say, man, I'm stretching myself. I'm over
here and I'm doing over this, and I'm doing that.
But the one thing, the two things that I said
and I made a promise to my heavenly Father that
I would do, is every Monday and every.
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Wednesday, every Monday and every Wednesday, I would be right here.
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Sometimes a little bit late, I ain't gonna get I
don't get me wrong.
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Sometimes I'll be running to be lately, to be bad.
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But every Monday and every Wednesday, I will be here.
I'll be coming on here. I've been here for the
last four years four years by God's grace, through sickness, here,
through heartache, here, through disappointment.
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I've been here, not because I'm coming.
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To shine and the gloss and flaws. I'm coming for
God's God. It's been so good. Let me tell y'all,
this started with me sitting in front of a camera.
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That's just like I am now.
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But this started with me sitting in front of a
camera going through a separation at the time, going through
a separation from my family, going through a separation from
my children. And I came on and I started pouring out.
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And I wasn't pouring out no different than I am now,
not about anybody else, but he was. Here's if y'all
don't know this, let me tell you something. When I
look at these cameras, see y'all don't see y'all. When
I look at these cameras, I see me. When I
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look at these cameras, if y'all don't know, what I
see is a reflection of me. So when I'm talking,
I'm looking at me. I'm looking at me, and I'm
talking to me, and I'm saying, God, I thank.
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You for where you brought me from.
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God, I thank you from sitting in front of that camera,
broken but having a conversation with you.
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Yeah, I've been here, and when.
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I've gotten up, I sometimes couldn't do nothing but just
go lay down because I had just poured it all out.
I poured out my life, not because it's so glorious.
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I don't come on here and share because I have
this fantastic, amazing life and everything is perfect. No, I
pour out because I have a perfect God. I pour
out because I have a perfect God. I have a
perfect God.
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I have a God who has.
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Seen me through some of the in my mind because
because some of y'all have gone through some things. So
this ain't a comparison to say, well, what you what
I went through more than you know. I'm just saying
some of the things in my mind, well, the worst
things I could face.
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I've come here. I've come here.
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I've come here to share because I want to those
that don't think. I want to encourage those that don't
think that they can make it, that you can make it.
I want to encourage those who people have walked away from,
who people have talked about. I want those to say
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I can still make it. I've seen an old country
boy old, comfortable, old gray, old man up there, steady talking.
And every every time I turn around, I see him
and he's smiling and he dancing and he's talking like
he ain't got nothing going on.
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No, it ain't that I ain't got nothing going on.
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It's that I got somebody who's handling what I got
going on. Oh, it ain't that I don't want to
break down and cry.
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But he says, why cry? Just give it to me
and you keep on going, You keep on pushing, you
keep on going. See. I come here.
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Share my life, just like my life. I do this
live because my life is live. My mess ups have
been live, My forgiveness has been live, my unforgiveness was live.
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My hurt has been live. So I don't have time.
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I can't edit nothing, so I'm not gonna edit when
I come here, I'm not.
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Gonna edit it. This is real.
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Yes, let me tell you this joy that I have.
The world didn't give it, and the world can't take
it away.
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This joy I have. I come here live. I come
here live, not because.
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I'm coming here and I'm trying to work out and
I'm trying to show something. I don't dance because I
want somebody to be impressed by my dancer. Let me
tell y'all something. When you may see me out that dancing,
and you may see me doing this because let me
tell you, I did it in the streets.
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For a long time.
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I used to dance, and I was in the club
every night.
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But now.
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I still dance. I just dance to a different DJ.
I don't knock anybody for where they are because I
may not have been. I've said this before and I'm
gonna say it again. I don't knock anybody for where
they are or for where they've been. I may not
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have been exactly in the house that you've been in,
but baby, it is old wretched country boy been down
that street. I have been a lot of things in
my life life, and I come here open honest and
transparent about it. I've hurt people in my life, open
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honest and transparent. It's not that I'm bragging about it,
but that's the truth about it. Folks hide behind a
whole bunch of stuff. Let me tell y'all, I did
this a while back. One of the first things I
talked about it was take me to the spot. This
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is when I had to do some I had to
do some soul searching. It was take me to the spot,
and you you say, coutry boy, what are you talking about?
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Take me to the spot, Take me to the spot
when you first will hurt.
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Take me to the spot of your first disappointment. Take
me to the spot of your first loss. See, let
me tell you what lies in that spot. See for me,
for me, for me, all these years, and I can
end the month like this. Let me end the month
like this. Let me give y'all some background. Let me
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end the month like this. For years, for years, in
this life of mine, everybody's got a spot first and foremost.
But for years, in this life of mine, I had
covered that spot.
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I had covered that.
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Stuff with stuff. This is biblical, so you may get
it or you may not see. If you remember, there's
a story, And I didn't come here to preach. I'm
just telling you about my life. There was a story
in the Bible about a fellow named Lazards who had
died and was in a tune. See my life, I
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had done not physically, but I had died because something
internally was dead. For years, for years, for years, I
had covered that deadness up with stuff. I don't know
if anybody else covers stuff up with stuff, See I
had covered Some people cover that stuff up the spot.
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See you run around and you won't degree after degree
after degree after degree. You stay in school and you
go to school, and you just keep going to school,
and you want disagree and that degree and disagree and
that degree, because what you're trying to do is you're
trying to have those degrees to take your mind off
of it. Some people cover the spot up with addiction,
whether it's alcohol, whether it's drugs, whether it's pornography, whatever
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it may be.
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They cover that spot up with those.
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Things because they don't want to deal with that spot,
so they're hoping that that thing will eliminate the pain.
Don't you know I had that. I covered my up
with relationships. I covered my spot up. I was in
relationship after relationship after relationship because I was going through because.
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I didn't want to deal with me.
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I didn't want to deal with me. I didn't want
to deal with my issues. I didn't want to deal
with my thing. I talked about it last night. Some people,
some people so quick to call people broken. I wasn't broken.
I was just holding baggage. It was for me. This
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is how this started, all of this. God allowed this
me to come out and share these things about my life,
about what I have gone through because what I know,
what I know, what I know, be under the shadow
of a doubt. Wherever I have come from, somebody is
going there or somebody is there wherever I've come from,
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whether the hurt, whether the pain, wherever I've come from,
somebody's there.
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And see, God.
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Says you, you, you, you unperfect you, you feilthy you.
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You dirty you.
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What you can do is you can be able to
show others what I can do.
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That was my spot.
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My spot was relationships. I covered it up. I covered
it up. I covered up in and out manages relationships,
manages relationships, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.
Because I never took the time to go back to
the spot.
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I never took time to go back to the spot.
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See what will happened And what happened to me is
that came a point in my life where I could
no longer move forward until I went back, until I
went back, until I was able to finally, as I'm
looking here, see I can look at me now. See
for the longest time, I couldn't look at me in
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a camera. I couldn't look at me in a mirror
because I didn't even recognize who I was looking at.
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See, I can look at me now.
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I'm not saying I can look at me because I'm
so handsome and I'm so perfect. I can look at
me because I know who I am. I know whose
I am. I can look at me. I can look
at me and say, you know what. You went back.
You went back, You went back in, even though the
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going back was painful, even though the going back cause
did to cry, But you went back. See, let me
tell you that was Take me to the spot of
that first hurt. Take me to the spot of that
first disappointment. Take me to the spot of that first loss.
Take me to the spot, see my spot on all
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these years. It took me fifty some years to discover
my spot, my spots. My spots started when I was
four and a half. That was my spot, that was
the thing. My pain started at four and a half. See,
it hurts so bad that I had to cover it up,
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not deal with it, say it again, not deal with it,
but cover it up. It hurts so bad. All those
years ago, I just covered it up. See, and let
me tell you something. When you try to cover some
up and it don't heal it, never ever, ever, have
you ever had a cut and you put a band
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aid over it to think it was gonna heal with
that band aid over. Let me tell you something. All
you doing is cover it, don't heal. What makes it
heal is the air got to hit that thing, and
the air had.
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To hit me.
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I had to be hit to go back in. I
couldn't fix everything that I had broken. I couldn't repair
every life that.
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I had destroyed. I couldn't write every wrong.
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But I could dang show and make a try by
starting to heal and fix me, I started working on me.
I went back in and discovered why I went through
so many things. What happened way back when? What happened
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it was this little old, now beheaded boy who lost
his daddy. But he didn't know how. He didn't know
how to say how much it hurt. He didn't know
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how to express his feelings.
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He didn't know how.
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So for years, for years, for years, that same thing
that I didn't know how kept resurfacing in relationships. I
didn't know how to express my feelings. I didn't know
how to talk about it. What I didn't know how
to do then cause damage over and over to others.
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Here I was here, I was, as they say, bleeding
on people, bleeding on people who didn't even cut me. Here,
I was bleeding on folks who didn't even cut me.
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But here was the thing.
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I didn't even realize that I was bleeding on them.
I was actually mad at them because they up there
trying to make me be accountable for me, and I'm
going like, I don't know what you're talking about. I
had to go back. See, I had to go back
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because I finally.
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Realized. See, God had given me.
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Chance after chance after chance, but I didn't realize that's
what he was doing. It wasn't until it wasn't until
the birth of my last child. And I say last,
because I even bled on my oldest child. I didn't
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even know how to connect with my oldest I didn't
know how to connect with my wife. I didn't know
how to connect, truly connect with anybody I was with
because I wasn't even connected with me.
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I had to go back.
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And when I went back, and I removed all of
the stuff out of the way, and I got to
moving things, and I got to spending time with myself,
and I got to reflecting myself, and I got to
dealing with myself and my stuff. I moved everybody else's
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stuff that I had been dealing with, so now it
was time for me to deal with my stuff off.
And when I finally finally dealt with my stuff and
I got to the issue, or as they say in
the country, I got to the core of that thing,
and I realized what it had been was I had
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an inability to express myself because everything in my life
had been suppressed. Why do I why I got a
big old mouth right now, Because for years I didn't
have no mouth because I didn't know how to express myself.
So now, boy, when y'all hear my big country mouth,
it's because I'm truly expressing who I am. This is
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years of me wanting to talk but didn't know how
to talk. Just felt like, you know what, I want
to say something, just it's not working.
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I want to say how I feel.
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See, I'm that fella when I tell you I've been
I may not have been in your house, but I've
been down that street. See, I was that fella that
went through relationships. I was that fella who went through
the loss of a child. I was that fella who's
gone through abortions. I was that fella who did some cheating.
I was that fella who got cheated on. I was
that fella that did some live I was that fellaw
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who got lied to.
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That was me?
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How was that fella.
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Who was so much wanted want it to be in
relationships because guess what, the relationship would have kept me
from the relationship.
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See.
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I wanted to be in relationships because the relationship kept
me from the relationship. Because when you in a relationship,
first and foremost, you share the most intimate things. When
you're in a relationship, everything is transparent. When you in
a relationship, you deal with the hard, ugly stuff.
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See.
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I wanted to be in relationships over here, but I
was never in a relationship with me. See, I couldn't
even express to me how I felt about being so
how in the world could I ever express to anybody
else about anything that's me been down those roads. And
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that's what God allowed this platform for. That's why when
anybody that comes there is no judgment. I can't judge nobody.
Why would I I can't down nobody. Why would I.
I can't look my nose down at anybody. Why would I.
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I've been in the slums, I've been in the mud.
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Some people say, oh, I got it out of the mud.
God got me out of the mud, got me out.
When God allowed my daughter's mother and I to be
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her parents, when he chose us to be her parents,
that was something that shifted inside of me. What shifted
was this. I knew God, I can't continue being.
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When I've been.
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I can't continue see because even though I'm not what
I used to be. Then I got to really really
get this thing together, and I can't do it by myself.
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I can't.
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Oh, Lord, and see, here's the thing that I had
spent time even before I spent time by myself. I
spend time searching. But still there were things I needed
to see. You know how you get so close to
something and you think that you got it in your
walk away.
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I got close. I got close. I got close, but.
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Then I walked away because I thought now I got
it over, I got this, I can handle it.
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I couldn't.
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But I knew at that moment, at that stage of life,
when God says, guess what.
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I choose you. And here's what.
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Let me tell y'all, this is me my testimony.
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At the moment.
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That my youngest child was born, and at the moment
that I held her and I sang to her, I
also prayed. I prayed, and I said, thank you, thank
you for allowing us this gift. I didn't say she's mine,
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she's ours. I said she's yours, but thank you for
allowing us to watch over, to guide and protect.
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See, at that moment, I knew that it was much bigger.
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There was so much work I still needed to do.
There were so many things I still needed to I
got to learn how to truly.
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Truly communicate.
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I got to learn how to truly truly have a voice.
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I have to learn.
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Because I'm eventually, if I don't, I'm gonna bled on
this child.
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That didn't even cut me.
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Since that moment, since that time, I have prayed, and
I consistently prayed. I have asked for forgiveness from those
that I've wrong, and I've forgiven everyone who's wrong. I've
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gone back into the spot, and God allowed me to
go back into that spot, and he said, guess what, now,
you can step out of brand new And when I
stepped out, he said, shake off them death clothes. See
what I had to go back in and I had
to move all the stuff out the way, and I
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had to pull out the deadness, that thing that was dead,
the love that was dead inside of me, the unconditional
love that was dead inside of me, the ability to
connect with someone that was dead inside of me. I
don't know about anybody else. My truth, My truth is this.
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See that was a point in my life. That was
a point in my life where I could get close
to you, but you could never get close to me.
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I don't know if anybody know that thing.
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I could get close, but you could never ever ever
get close to me. See, folks pretend in see, but
here's that thing that was. That was that thing I
had because that part of me was dead. It died
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when my father died. But God brought it back. He
brought it back. So when I come and I'm here
and I say the words to you as I'm saying
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right now, that's I'm getting ready to go. When I
tell you that I love you, let me tell you
that ain't coming from the deadness.
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That's coming from the life.
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That ain't coming because it's something cute to say, it's coming,
because it's real. Because I I love you and I
want the best for each and everyone. I pray, I
pray that each and every one of you finds the courage,
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finds the strength and gains the wisdom to go back
to your spot, to whatever is dead in your life,
and you allow God to resurrect that thing, whatever is
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dead in your life. You allow God to resurrect that thing.
Whatever that spot is, wherever you left it, wherever you
left that peace, at, wherever you left that joy, at,
wherever you left that love, at, wherever you left that forgiveness.
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And I pray.
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This day, July thirtieth, I pray that each and every
one of you has the strength, has the wisdom, has
the understanding to ask God, take me back to that spot.
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And resurrect.
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That that is dead inside of me, my joy, my peace,
my love, and my forgiveness resurrected, resurrected, resurrected.
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I love y'all, I love y'all. I love you. I
love you.
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I hope y'all have a fantastic weekend. And I your
favorite country boy, We'll see you next month. If it's
the Lord's Will good night, good night,
Coming at your life once more again. Also what I
need for you to do? Sit back, relax, put on
your head, giar, oh my worthless two since it's about
to put something.
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In your ah.
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And here we go, Here we go, Here we go.
Oh yeah, the boy is here. The boy is here.
The boy is here. Oh man, look at here. Welcome one,
Welcome all, Welcome, Welcome to the table. Welcome to the table.
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Man.
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Man, I'm excited. I'm excited. And I don't know if
y'all know. When I come in here and I hit
this gold button, I just get excited. I'm telling you,
I really do. I just get excited.
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Man. This is this is thank God.
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It has been a wonderful, wonderful month of July for myself,
but this is it. It's the last show of the month.
This is the last show of the month of July.
And man, I could not I cannot say thank you
enough to each and every one of y'all who have supported,
not just in the month of July, but to each
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and every one of y'all who have supported and have
been there. I thank you for tuning in. I thank
you for the shares, I thank you for the likes.
I thank you for the comments. I will say this
moving in too before I get into anything else, moving
into the month of August.
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Man, look, if y'all want to or.
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Have an idea, or you have a comment, or you
have something that you want to say about this wonderful show.
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I got it wonderful.
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But if there's something you want to say about it, man,
you can drop me a message. You can go to
my pod page and do a review. Also, I just
want to say this, I do have a pod page,
and the pod page is basically the landing page for
every show that has ever been done, every single show,
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anytime y'all see me live, anytime y'all see me anywhere.
You can go back and you can watch watch the show.
You can go back and see some of the wonderful
guests that have been on the show. You can pull
up their information and see who they are or how
if there was somebody that cult your interests, or an
author or a musician, whoever it may be, or a
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speaker that caught your attention that was on this show,
you can go back. All their information is there where
you can get in touch with them. You can get
in contact with them. You can also go on there,
and you can leave a comment whatever your comment is.
That's your comments, ain't my comments, and your comment whatever
you may want to leave on there. If you have
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an idea, you say, hey, country boy, man, I would
like to see a show about this, or I would
like to here's somebody that I know that may want
to come on and share their journey, or hey, I
want to come on and share my journey. Leave a comment,
leave a message, drop me an email, whatever you want
to do. But I appreciate y'all understand I say that.
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I say that because this I have to explain this,
and I will. I love to explain this. This is
not my platform, this is not mine. This is God.
He gave me this to just watch over. He gave
me this just to watch over. This don't belong to
the country boy, and I don't sit up here and
act like his mind and this is his. I'm just
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I'm just a doorkeep I'm just a button pusher. So
if there's anyone that feels like I want a place
to be able to come and talk and share without judgment,
because anybody right here I want to I've been on
this journey or I'm going through this right here, right here.
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This is what this is about.
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And I tell people all the time that none of
this is pre recorded, none of this is scripted.
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None of it.
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For the first time last night I wrote down some notes.
I wrote down some things because I wanted to deliver something.
But none of this is. It comes straight, it's authentic.
What you see is what you get. What you see
is what you get.
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This is it. This is it.
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Ain't nothing made up about it, it ain't nothing phony about it.
It's it right here. I'm not here to down anybody.
I'm not here to discourage anybody. I'm not here to
do anything other than what this platform is far to encourage,
to uplift and to support others. So before I get
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into that, I got to get into this before I
get into that, because I ain't gonna be up on
here along. I'm telling you, I ain't gonna be up
on here along. I'm gonna pop this old thing back.
I'm gonna pop this off right here. I'm gonna rub
this old shiny head, and I'm gonna say this the Father,
thank you for this day, Father God. I want to
thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you Father God.
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Here we are the thirtieth day of the seventh month.
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Some that started out with us are no longer with us,
Father God. Some of us have lost, some of us
have gained. Some of us have been through some hurt,
and some of us have been through some pain. Some
of us have seen some joy, and some of us
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have seen some rain. But through it all, Father God,
you have been here with us, through it all, and
I just want to say thank you. I just want
to say thank you. Some of us are struggling with addictions.
Some of us are struggling with mental problems. Some of
us are struggling with physical problems, Father God, but I
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still just want to say thank you. Some of us
have tears in our eyes, some of us have smiles
on our face. Father God, I just want to say
thank you, Father God. Some of us don't know where
our next meal is coming from. Some of us don't
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know how we're gonna make it one more day, Father God,
but I just wanna say thank you. Some of us
have lost parents, some of us have lost siblings. Some
of us have lost uncles, cousins and best friends. But
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Father God, I just won't to say thank you, because
Father God, you are the same good, same God, in
the good and in the bad. No matter what we
may face, Father God, your grace, your mercy, Father God,
it is sufficient. And I just want to say thank you,
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Father God. Thank you for the ones that you've allowed
in and Father God, thank you for the ones you've
closed the door on.
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Father God. I just want to say thank you, Father God.
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Thank you for the ones who've cheered, and thank you
for the ones who booed. Father God. I just want
to say thank you, Father God. Thank you in the
have and thank you in the have not, Father God,
thank you in the rain, and thank you in the sun.
Father God. I just want to say thank you. I
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thank you, thank you, thank you for your grace, thank
you for your mercy.
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Thank you, Father God. I pray for a pray for
each and everyone.
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I pray for strength, I pray for wisdom, and I
pray for understanding.
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Father God.
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I just want to say thank you, Father God. I
just want to say as I sit here, as I'm
saying this prayer, and I think, I think, I think,
I think about the children that prayed because they wanted
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a king, because everyone around them had a king. Your
children they prayed because they saw what everybody else had,
and they wanted what everybody else had, Father God. I pray,
Father God, I say to you this day, Father God,
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don't give me. Don't give me what I want. Father God,
protect me from me, see because sometimes I want some
things that you know are not good for me. But
you love me so much as you say, go ahead,
Father God. Thank you, Thank you, thank you, thank you,
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thank you for your protection.
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Thank you for your guidance. Father God.
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I pray for each and everyone that can hear my voice,
each and every one of them.
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Father God. I pray for them.
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Father God, I pray keep the heads of protection around us.
Sometimes we get in our own way. Father God, I
thank you, I thank you. I may not have everything
I want, but God, you give me every single.
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Thing, and I thank you that.
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I thank you, and I pray for each and every
person that you continue to provide for them every thing
that they need.
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Not just this day, but every day. I ask these
prayers in your son Jesus name. Amen. Amen, Amen, All right,
look at him who.
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Well again? Old comfortable. I told you I ain't gonna
be on here long. I just I want to just
really really really just say thank you. I want to
say thank you. Thank you having the Father. I thank
you for allowing these wonderful people, some of the people
I've never met, I never talked to, don't even know.
But I thank you, Father God for touching their hearts
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that they open up and come here to listen to support.
I'm grateful. I'm grateful, and I'm humble. Like I said,
I'm not gonna be on here long. This is this
is the last show of the month. And y'all know
it's Wednesday. And if y'all don't know anything about me,
know anything about this journey, I know anything about this story.
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Yes.
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Sometimes now I say, man, I'm stretching myself. I'm over
here and I'm doing over this, and I'm doing that.
But the one thing, the two things that I said
and I made a promise to my heavenly Father that
I would do, is every Monday and every.
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Wednesday, every Monday and every Wednesday, I would be right here.
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Sometimes a little bit late, I ain't gonna get I
don't get me wrong.
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Sometimes I'll be running to be lately, to be bad.
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But every Monday and every Wednesday, I will be here.
I'll be coming on here. I've been here for the
last four years four years by God's grace, through sickness, here,
through heartache, here, through disappointment.
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I've been here, not because I'm coming.
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To shine and the gloss and flaws. I'm coming for
God's God. It's been so good. Let me tell y'all,
this started with me sitting in front of a camera.
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That's just like I am now.
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But this started with me sitting in front of a
camera going through a separation at the time, going through
a separation from my family, going through a separation from
my children. And I came on and I started pouring out.
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And I wasn't pouring out no different than I am now,
not about anybody else, but he was. Here's if y'all
don't know this, let me tell you something. When I
look at these cameras, see y'all don't see y'all. When
I look at these cameras, I see me. When I
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look at these cameras, if y'all don't know, what I
see is a reflection of me. So when I'm talking,
I'm looking at me. I'm looking at me, and I'm
talking to me, and I'm saying, God, I thank.
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You for where you brought me from.
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God, I thank you from sitting in front of that camera,
broken but having a conversation with you.
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Yeah, I've been here, and when.
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I've gotten up, I sometimes couldn't do nothing but just
go lay down because I had just poured it all out.
I poured out my life, not because it's so glorious.
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I don't come on here and share because I have
this fantastic, amazing life and everything is perfect. No, I
pour out because I have a perfect God. I pour
out because I have a perfect God. I have a
perfect God.
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I have a God who has.
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Seen me through some of the in my mind because
because some of y'all have gone through some things. So
this ain't a comparison to say, well, what you what
I went through more than you know. I'm just saying
some of the things in my mind, well, the worst
things I could face.
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I've come here. I've come here.
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I've come here to share because I want to those
that don't think. I want to encourage those that don't
think that they can make it, that you can make it.
I want to encourage those who people have walked away from,
who people have talked about. I want those to say
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I can still make it. I've seen an old country
boy old, comfortable, old gray, old man up there, steady talking.
And every every time I turn around, I see him
and he's smiling and he dancing and he's talking like
he ain't got nothing going on.
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No, it ain't that I ain't got nothing going on.
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It's that I got somebody who's handling what I got
going on. Oh, it ain't that I don't want to
break down and cry.
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But he says, why cry? Just give it to me
and you keep on going, You keep on pushing, you
keep on going. See. I come here.
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Share my life, just like my life. I do this
live because my life is live. My mess ups have
been live, My forgiveness has been live, my unforgiveness was live.
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My hurt has been live. So I don't have time.
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I can't edit nothing, so I'm not gonna edit when
I come here, I'm not.
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Gonna edit it. This is real.
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Yes, let me tell you this joy that I have.
The world didn't give it, and the world can't take
it away.
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This joy I have. I come here live. I come
here live, not because.
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I'm coming here and I'm trying to work out and
I'm trying to show something. I don't dance because I
want somebody to be impressed by my dancer. Let me
tell y'all something. When you may see me out that dancing,
and you may see me doing this because let me
tell you, I did it in the streets.
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For a long time.
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I used to dance, and I was in the club
every night.
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But now.
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I still dance. I just dance to a different DJ.
I don't knock anybody for where they are because I
may not have been. I've said this before and I'm
gonna say it again. I don't knock anybody for where
they are or for where they've been. I may not
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have been exactly in the house that you've been in,
but baby, it is old wretched country boy been down
that street. I have been a lot of things in
my life life, and I come here open honest and
transparent about it. I've hurt people in my life, open
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honest and transparent. It's not that I'm bragging about it,
but that's the truth about it. Folks hide behind a
whole bunch of stuff. Let me tell y'all, I did
this a while back. One of the first things I
talked about it was take me to the spot. This
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is when I had to do some I had to
do some soul searching. It was take me to the spot,
and you you say, coutry boy, what are you talking about?
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Take me to the spot, Take me to the spot
when you first will hurt.
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Take me to the spot of your first disappointment. Take
me to the spot of your first loss. See, let
me tell you what lies in that spot. See for me,
for me, for me, all these years, and I can
end the month like this. Let me end the month
like this. Let me give y'all some background. Let me
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end the month like this. For years, for years, in
this life of mine, everybody's got a spot first and foremost.
But for years, in this life of mine, I had
covered that spot.
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I had covered that.
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Stuff with stuff. This is biblical, so you may get
it or you may not see. If you remember, there's
a story, And I didn't come here to preach. I'm
just telling you about my life. There was a story
in the Bible about a fellow named Lazards who had
died and was in a tune. See my life, I
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had done not physically, but I had died because something
internally was dead. For years, for years, for years, I
had covered that deadness up with stuff. I don't know
if anybody else covers stuff up with stuff, See I
had covered Some people cover that stuff up the spot.
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See you run around and you won't degree after degree
after degree after degree. You stay in school and you
go to school, and you just keep going to school,
and you want disagree and that degree and disagree and
that degree, because what you're trying to do is you're
trying to have those degrees to take your mind off
of it. Some people cover the spot up with addiction,
whether it's alcohol, whether it's drugs, whether it's pornography, whatever
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it may be.
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They cover that spot up with those.
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Things because they don't want to deal with that spot,
so they're hoping that that thing will eliminate the pain.
Don't you know I had that. I covered my up
with relationships. I covered my spot up. I was in
relationship after relationship after relationship because I was going through because.
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I didn't want to deal with me.
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I didn't want to deal with me. I didn't want
to deal with my issues. I didn't want to deal
with my thing. I talked about it last night. Some people,
some people so quick to call people broken. I wasn't broken.
I was just holding baggage. It was for me. This
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is how this started, all of this. God allowed this
me to come out and share these things about my life,
about what I have gone through because what I know,
what I know, what I know, be under the shadow
of a doubt. Wherever I have come from, somebody is
going there or somebody is there wherever I've come from,
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whether the hurt, whether the pain, wherever I've come from,
somebody's there.
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And see, God.
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Says you, you, you, you unperfect you, you feilthy you.
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You dirty you.
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What you can do is you can be able to
show others what I can do.
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That was my spot.
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My spot was relationships. I covered it up. I covered
it up. I covered up in and out manages relationships,
manages relationships, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.
Because I never took the time to go back to
the spot.
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I never took time to go back to the spot.
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See what will happened And what happened to me is
that came a point in my life where I could
no longer move forward until I went back, until I
went back, until I was able to finally, as I'm
looking here, see I can look at me now. See
for the longest time, I couldn't look at me in
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a camera. I couldn't look at me in a mirror
because I didn't even recognize who I was looking at.
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See, I can look at me now.
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I'm not saying I can look at me because I'm
so handsome and I'm so perfect. I can look at
me because I know who I am. I know whose
I am. I can look at me. I can look
at me and say, you know what. You went back.
You went back, You went back in, even though the
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going back was painful, even though the going back cause
did to cry, But you went back. See, let me
tell you that was Take me to the spot of
that first hurt. Take me to the spot of that
first disappointment. Take me to the spot of that first loss.
Take me to the spot, see my spot on all
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these years. It took me fifty some years to discover
my spot, my spots. My spots started when I was
four and a half. That was my spot, that was
the thing. My pain started at four and a half. See,
it hurts so bad that I had to cover it up,
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not deal with it, say it again, not deal with it,
but cover it up. It hurts so bad. All those
years ago, I just covered it up. See, and let
me tell you something. When you try to cover some
up and it don't heal it, never ever, ever, have
you ever had a cut and you put a band
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aid over it to think it was gonna heal with
that band aid over. Let me tell you something. All
you doing is cover it, don't heal. What makes it
heal is the air got to hit that thing, and
the air had.
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To hit me.
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I had to be hit to go back in. I
couldn't fix everything that I had broken. I couldn't repair
every life that.
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I had destroyed. I couldn't write every wrong.
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But I could dang show and make a try by
starting to heal and fix me, I started working on me.
I went back in and discovered why I went through
so many things. What happened way back when? What happened
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it was this little old, now beheaded boy who lost
his daddy. But he didn't know how. He didn't know
how to say how much it hurt. He didn't know
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how to express his feelings.
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He didn't know how.
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So for years, for years, for years, that same thing
that I didn't know how kept resurfacing in relationships. I
didn't know how to express my feelings. I didn't know
how to talk about it. What I didn't know how
to do then cause damage over and over to others.
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Here I was here, I was, as they say, bleeding
on people, bleeding on people who didn't even cut me. Here,
I was bleeding on folks who didn't even cut me.
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But here was the thing.
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I didn't even realize that I was bleeding on them.
I was actually mad at them because they up there
trying to make me be accountable for me, and I'm
going like, I don't know what you're talking about. I
had to go back. See, I had to go back
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because I finally.
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Realized. See, God had given me.
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Chance after chance after chance, but I didn't realize that's
what he was doing. It wasn't until it wasn't until
the birth of my last child. And I say last,
because I even bled on my oldest child. I didn't
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even know how to connect with my oldest I didn't
know how to connect with my wife. I didn't know
how to connect, truly connect with anybody I was with
because I wasn't even connected with me.
Speaker 3 (28:29):
I had to go back.
Speaker 2 (28:33):
And when I went back, and I removed all of
the stuff out of the way, and I got to
moving things, and I got to spending time with myself,
and I got to reflecting myself, and I got to
dealing with myself and my stuff. I moved everybody else's
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stuff that I had been dealing with, so now it
was time for me to deal with my stuff off.
And when I finally finally dealt with my stuff and
I got to the issue, or as they say in
the country, I got to the core of that thing,
and I realized what it had been was I had
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an inability to express myself because everything in my life
had been suppressed. Why do I why I got a
big old mouth right now, Because for years I didn't
have no mouth because I didn't know how to express myself.
So now, boy, when y'all hear my big country mouth,
it's because I'm truly expressing who I am. This is
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years of me wanting to talk but didn't know how
to talk. Just felt like, you know what, I want
to say something, just it's not working.
Speaker 3 (29:56):
I want to say how I feel.
Speaker 2 (30:00):
See, I'm that fella when I tell you I've been
I may not have been in your house, but I've
been down that street. See, I was that fella that
went through relationships. I was that fella who went through
the loss of a child. I was that fella who's
gone through abortions. I was that fella who did some cheating.
I was that fella who got cheated on. I was
that fella that did some live I was that fellaw
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who got lied to.
Speaker 1 (30:24):
That was me?
Speaker 3 (30:31):
How was that fella.
Speaker 2 (30:36):
Who was so much wanted want it to be in
relationships because guess what, the relationship would have kept me
from the relationship.
Speaker 3 (30:48):
See.
Speaker 2 (30:48):
I wanted to be in relationships because the relationship kept
me from the relationship. Because when you in a relationship,
first and foremost, you share the most intimate things. When
you're in a relationship, everything is transparent. When you in
a relationship, you deal with the hard, ugly stuff.
Speaker 3 (31:09):
See.
Speaker 2 (31:09):
I wanted to be in relationships over here, but I
was never in a relationship with me. See, I couldn't
even express to me how I felt about being so
how in the world could I ever express to anybody
else about anything that's me been down those roads. And
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that's what God allowed this platform for. That's why when
anybody that comes there is no judgment. I can't judge nobody.
Why would I I can't down nobody. Why would I.
I can't look my nose down at anybody. Why would I.
Speaker 3 (32:08):
I've been in the slums, I've been in the mud.
Speaker 2 (32:18):
Some people say, oh, I got it out of the mud.
God got me out of the mud, got me out.
When God allowed my daughter's mother and I to be
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her parents, when he chose us to be her parents,
that was something that shifted inside of me. What shifted
was this. I knew God, I can't continue being.
Speaker 3 (33:02):
When I've been.
Speaker 2 (33:03):
I can't continue see because even though I'm not what
I used to be. Then I got to really really
get this thing together, and I can't do it by myself.
Speaker 3 (33:18):
I can't.
Speaker 2 (33:19):
Oh, Lord, and see, here's the thing that I had
spent time even before I spent time by myself. I
spend time searching. But still there were things I needed
to see. You know how you get so close to
something and you think that you got it in your
walk away.
Speaker 3 (33:36):
I got close. I got close. I got close, but.
Speaker 2 (33:46):
Then I walked away because I thought now I got
it over, I got this, I can handle it.
Speaker 3 (33:50):
I couldn't.
Speaker 2 (33:53):
But I knew at that moment, at that stage of life,
when God says, guess what.
Speaker 3 (34:02):
I choose you. And here's what.
Speaker 2 (34:06):
Let me tell y'all, this is me my testimony.
Speaker 3 (34:15):
At the moment.
Speaker 2 (34:18):
That my youngest child was born, and at the moment
that I held her and I sang to her, I
also prayed. I prayed, and I said, thank you, thank
you for allowing us this gift. I didn't say she's mine,
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she's ours. I said she's yours, but thank you for
allowing us to watch over, to guide and protect.
Speaker 3 (34:56):
See, at that moment, I knew that it was much bigger.
Speaker 2 (35:01):
There was so much work I still needed to do.
There were so many things I still needed to I
got to learn how to truly.
Speaker 3 (35:10):
Truly communicate.
Speaker 2 (35:12):
I got to learn how to truly truly have a voice.
Speaker 3 (35:18):
I have to learn.
Speaker 2 (35:22):
Because I'm eventually, if I don't, I'm gonna bled on
this child.
Speaker 3 (35:32):
That didn't even cut me.
Speaker 2 (35:36):
Since that moment, since that time, I have prayed, and
I consistently prayed. I have asked for forgiveness from those
that I've wrong, and I've forgiven everyone who's wrong. I've
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gone back into the spot, and God allowed me to
go back into that spot, and he said, guess what, now,
you can step out of brand new And when I
stepped out, he said, shake off them death clothes. See
what I had to go back in and I had
to move all the stuff out the way, and I
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had to pull out the deadness, that thing that was dead,
the love that was dead inside of me, the unconditional
love that was dead inside of me, the ability to
connect with someone that was dead inside of me. I
don't know about anybody else. My truth, My truth is this.
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See that was a point in my life. That was
a point in my life where I could get close
to you, but you could never get close to me.
Speaker 3 (36:52):
I don't know if anybody know that thing.
Speaker 2 (36:54):
I could get close, but you could never ever ever
get close to me. See, folks pretend in see, but
here's that thing that was. That was that thing I
had because that part of me was dead. It died
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when my father died. But God brought it back. He
brought it back. So when I come and I'm here
and I say the words to you as I'm saying
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right now, that's I'm getting ready to go. When I
tell you that I love you, let me tell you
that ain't coming from the deadness.
Speaker 3 (37:48):
That's coming from the life.
Speaker 2 (37:52):
That ain't coming because it's something cute to say, it's coming,
because it's real. Because I I love you and I
want the best for each and everyone. I pray, I
pray that each and every one of you finds the courage,
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finds the strength and gains the wisdom to go back
to your spot, to whatever is dead in your life,
and you allow God to resurrect that thing, whatever is
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dead in your life. You allow God to resurrect that thing.
Whatever that spot is, wherever you left it, wherever you
left that peace, at, wherever you left that joy, at,
wherever you left that love, at, wherever you left that forgiveness.
Speaker 3 (39:00):
And I pray.
Speaker 2 (39:03):
This day, July thirtieth, I pray that each and every
one of you has the strength, has the wisdom, has
the understanding to ask God, take me back to that spot.
Speaker 3 (39:30):
And resurrect.
Speaker 2 (39:33):
That that is dead inside of me, my joy, my peace,
my love, and my forgiveness resurrected, resurrected, resurrected.
Speaker 3 (39:55):
I love y'all, I love y'all. I love you. I
love you.
Speaker 2 (39:59):
I hope y'all have a fantastic weekend. And I your
favorite country boy, We'll see you next month. If it's
the Lord's Will good night, good night,
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