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Speaker 1 (00:09):
Hello, friends, So happy to have you here with me
today at Radical Joy. If you've been here before, welcome back.
If this is your first time with me, well I'm
glad you're here. Each week, i'm here with you talking
to myself about things that weigh on my mind and heart,
hoping if you're dealing with something similar, we can adjust
our perspectives as you listen. Hey, if you're struggling with
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Just dial nine eight eight nationwide in the US to
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us here at COLW Studios believe that mental health is
a vital part of our well being. The more people
I meet and the more places I go, the more
I realize how important it is to make people aware
of the fact that there is no shame in enjoying
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the parts of our lives that are incredible. It's time
for some radical joy, and this week, the three fingers
pointing back at me are for messing it up. This
started as a conversation with a very good buddy of
mine here in town. We're chatting about things, and he's
been pushing me to get more involved on LinkedIn. Now,
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if you know me at all, you know that I'm
very active on so many social media platforms. I've got
TikTok and YouTube and Facebook and Instagram and all these
other kind of things. And I'll be honest, of all
the platforms that I want to be on, that one
seems the least exciting or interesting. I don't mean to
hurt anybody's feelings by saying that, that is just literally
the one that I find the least stimulating. Whenever I
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go on there, you know, great, that you are making
progress in your life, and that whatever whoever is getting
this kind of promotion or they were invited to this
conference or consortium or whatever it is, I'm like, great,
that is wonderful. It just doesn't feel like my flavor. However,
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in the current community where I reside, that is a
big deal. A lot of things come through connections, and
the best way to make them, the quickest way and
probably the easiest way, I would say, is to go
on LinkedIn. Well, today I just finally gathered up the
courage and did the thing. To be fair, someone posted
something and tagged me in it, so I just kind
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of piggyback on that and I reposted it with my
own little thoughts on the whole situation, and there it
was my first real post on LinkedIn, because up to
this point, I just, you know, it just felt like
Facebook stuff, your cousin that had a better job. Once
I did it, it started getting a little traction. It
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got some impressions, It got some you know, likes and
loves and whatever the heck else they put on that thing.
I still haven't really figured it out. But the thing
that came to my mind, the thing that really made
an impression on me, is the fact that I sat
there dreading it for at least a couple of weeks
before someone else actually took the reins and kind of
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pushed me into the middle of it. They smacked me
on the rear with those rains, and here we go,
Giddy up, Bullard, it's time to get on with the business.
I think the reason why I was so hesitant to
do that was I was afraid I was gonna mess
it up when it gets right down to the nitty gritty.
There's some kind of perfectionism in me, or I had
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some sort of impression that there was a way that
I could mess this up, and if I did, it
was gonna be a certain death for my career and
my new life over here, and so deep down it
was just like, I don't want to do it, because
if you don't do anything, you can't mess it up. However,
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if you don't do anything, you can't get started, you
can't begin. And I just I was talking about this
with Walter and it just came to my attention and
I told him this, and it just sort of rang
in my ears and heart, and I just want to
share this with you.
Speaker 2 (04:02):
It is really, really, really difficult to mess something up
so badly that you are beyond repair or redemption.
Speaker 1 (04:14):
I'm not saying it's not possible. Please understand me. I've
got folks in my life that have pulled some really
stupid stunt, some bone headed bullshit. Are they beyond redemption?
Many of them are not. And this was one of
those things. After several thick headed, ridiculous they just kept
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on and kept on and kept on, and eventually it
came to a point where it did whear through and
it sort of broke the bonds that held us together.
That was not the first interaction. Very few people have
I ever met where our first interaction is also the
last that being said, had I gotten off my dead
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rear and done the LinkedIn stuff, I could have gotten
a little bit more in the pot for myself. It
people don't understand that this is an accumulation situation. Okay,
because you build an audience, you build these connections. You
continue to give people media that intrigues, invites, engages them,
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and then people will return to look at it. People
will return to find out what you're doing next. When
people do that, the algorithm built into the platform is
going to push more of your business out to see
other people, which is exactly what we want to happen. Okay,
so what I want to do now is copy and
paste that entire idea onto literally everything in our lives
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that we may hold back in doing just because we're
a little bit afraid of taking those first steps. Luckily,
I had someone behind me to shove me into the pool,
not even the deep end. Really, it wasn't the shallow,
so I didn't have to worry about, you know, bumping
my head or any of that. It was somewhere in
the middle. I could still touch, but my shoulders are
under and I love the thought of that. I was like,
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oh wow, this was really so easy. I'm making a
humongous deal out of absolutely nothing, And that was a
little frustrating, honestly, whenever I thought about it, whenever I
really got to look at it and spend a little
time with it in the quiet thinking about these kind
of things, Anticipation is a killer. Wow, the build up
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to something can be so daunting, right, I know it
is for me, And that's why I say it anything
and everything I say on this nine nine times out
of one hundreds, because I have felt it or lived
through it. And so I'm just kind of like sharing
my story all this anecdote stuff. This is how I
learned best. This is how I glean information and expertise
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and experience from people in my life whose experience I
value and respect. And so since that's the easiest way
for me to learn, I figure that's probably the most
interesting way that I can share it with any and
all of you. Starting the thing is the thing. You're
no longer a beginner, you're no longer a novice, you're
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no longer a purgeon. Go do the thing whatever that is.
If it's learning an instrument, if it's learning a language,
if it is running the errand that you've been putting
off or transferring from to do list to to do
list for weeks upon weeks and perhaps even longer. Take
a moment, take a breath, put on your big boy
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or girl or whomever panties, and go do the thing.
Starting is honestly seventy two percent of finishing. It's crazy
to me and all these things. None of these ideas
are new or revolutionary or breakthroughs of any flavor. What
they are is just someone out there who just dawned
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on him today, sharing it into a microphone and say, hey,
you know what, Starting the thing is so important? Please
just start the thing. No one cares if you mess
it up. So few people care, and if they do,
they're being assholes. So we don't care what they're thinking
about it anyway. So start the thing. Whatever it is,
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is it a lesson? Start it? Is it starting a
new book? Start it? Is it writing a book? Start it?
Throw it against the wall, let it splatter, let it stick.
Whatever slides off wasn't meant to go against the wall.
What sticks was always meant to be. And once you
see it hanging there. The sense of pride I get
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from watching my bs hit the wall and the things
that stick. I'm like, uh, did not expect that? Love that?
How fantastic is this? Look? Look? Look look yeah, utterly unexpected.
That was not the thing I expected to stick. Delicious?
Now what are we gonna do with it? What do
you mean? Well, well you can't just like stand there
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there's something on the wall. So what are we gonna do?
Are we gonna add more things to it? Are we
gonna clean the wall? Or are we gonna frame whatever stuck? Like?
We got so many options, and I only knew like
one or two. So let's explore that for a hot second.
What are we gonna do? Now that the thing has begun? Great, wonderful?
We have begun. The momentum is starting to build. It
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is not just rolling down the hill. It is gathering
force as it goes, and all we have to do
is just sort of finesse it in one direction or another.
And we got to just look at it, and we
got to turn it over, and we got to continue
to give it a little nudge every once in a while,
A to continue that momentum. B to make sure it
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doesn't get out of control, to make sure that it's
rolling in a way that we can slow it down
or change its direction. We are maintaining, we are nurturing
as it rolls, and we continue to add or withhold
to make sure that the momentum is consistent and it
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continues rolling in the direction of our goals and dreams
and hopes of accomplishment and achievement right start the thing.
And it's tough, Like I know a lot of us
out there. I was talking with a friend of mine
today another We were talking about ADHD and the very
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different ways that people can be constructed and how they think,
and you know what they're dealing with. There are words,
there are terms for this, and for whatever reason, a
neurodivergent there it is. I'm like it was on the
tip of my tongue. I just needed a hot second
to bring it up. And it's wonderful to think about
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some of these things as to who is actually diagnosed
and suffers from the condition and who has just I
think this is me put too much attention and time
and effort into social media and with what's on the
phone and what's on the screen, so that now I
feel as though I have been conditioned for a shorter
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attention span. Now I could be wrong. I don't know,
because I have not taken tests or any of that
sort of thing. That's just the way I feel about it.
Because now that I am in a slower paced life,
still very full, make no mistake, But now that I
have started new friendships and I'm trying to learn more
about new people in my current community, I find I
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can put that phone aside for much longer stretches at
a time. Granted, when somebody gets up from the table
to go to the bathroom, you can bet your botom
I'm going to be checking for text messages or WhatsApps
or whatever. However, there is no like crawling out of
my skin hoping to check that telephone or another bleep,
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blue notification, red number, red circle, white number, any of
that kind of stuff. I can just sit there and
I can be fully present. It is delicious, oh my goodness.
And so to sort of come back to where we
were start the thing, I think that neurodivergence, several flavors
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of those kind of ways of thinking and brain wiring,
can make it really difficult to get started. And so
whenever I say these kinds of things, please know that
I'm not judging or giving you any kind of hassle
for it. What I am saying is I put it off.
I've got so much of my plan. I'm already doing
so much already. No, no, no, no, no, yes you are.
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I acknowledge that. I'm not trying to belittle it or
to mean it. What I am saying is yes, and
there's something else that needs your attention, and I mean
it needs it right the heck now. So what I
want us to do is figure out way that we
can do that, because starting is honestly the most difficult part.
Once you figure out that you're not gonna die, that
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someone out there is not going to hurt you or
think less of you or completely just you know, fire you,
or stop dating you or leave you for something like that,
it's really difficult to mess up that badly. And I
mean at anything, Okay, at anything. It's not impossible. Please
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don't take this that has challenge. That's not what I'm saying.
What I'm saying is starting the thing. It's really difficult
as a beginner to screw the boot so hard that
there are life changing repercussions connected to it. Okay, so
just find a way of starting. You're a good friend,
of mine. She was my real estate agent whenever I
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left North Carolina. Delicious, She says. You know what, whenever
I find out hard to get out of bed, what
I do is I give myself a countdown and I
say it out loud. She says. It's usually from five.
She says five four three two one up out of bed,
and then I make the bed, so the invitation is
no longer wide open, engraved, et cetera. So I can't
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just crawl back into a messy bed, because Lord knows,
there's a rule in this. There's a rule. If the
bed is still unmade, there is still the opportunity to
return to it, especially on a cold morning, especially when
you got nothing else terribly pressing, a few things, pressing,
just nothing, just life or death. You know what I'm
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saying exactly, I've been there, and again I'm not harshing it.
What I'm saying is we need a hack. We need
a life hack on how to avoid going back to it.
Super count back from five, five four three two one
perpendicular to the bed, Turn feet on the floor, stand up,
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make the bed. It is no longer an inviting cushion cover. Calm.
What it is is something lovely and tightly made, to
make sure that you admire it from afar until the
sun goes down and it is time once again to
slumber snacking a nap, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.
Don't go back, do the thing. Start, whether it's a
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project or just your day, get going pit feet down.
And I'm here to tell you, I know it can
be tough. Okay. We are dealing with a lot right
now no matter where we are, okay, And I get it.
Every day it's a whole new thing on the news
about whatever's going on and what new this is happening,
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and who's getting kicked out of the country, and who's
showing up to people's house with no warrant, no authority,
but for whatever reason, because they've got scary looking clothes
and a big old hammer to knock down the door,
and worse, we treat them as authority. Whenever that is
not the case. There's a lot keeping us still, there's
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a lot weighing us down. And in these very specific cases,
what I want to say is we gotta keep moving.
We gotta find a way so that whatever it is
that we're starting today, we get a start on it.
We strategize, we look at it, we get ourselves under it,
and we pick it up and we fling it. Okay, yes,
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because that's what we do. And starting can be incredibly intimidating. Okay,
I know this. I do the reason I know this.
I was reminded very clearly today and I did the thing,
and I started the thing, and whenever I did it
was like, oh wow, Okay, that was not life threatening.
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That's the thing. I'm so terrified that whatever it is
that I start, I'm gonna be so bad at it.
That's it's what's it like. Let's compare it to something
that we can literally just like feel in our guts.
It's like your grandma's white carpet and she's made spaghetti
and meatballs, okay, and it's your first time that you
really want to try it with the fork in the spoon, right.
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You want to twirl it on the spoon, and you're
so careful. Oh my god, you're so careful, and you're
eating on the nice china, right, and she's brought out
the good silver. I mean, it's a big deal. Like
today is the day, and you twirl that spaghetti and
you get just enough meatball on it to make the
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perfect bite, just enough sauce. The sauce of nudes ratio
is so good. It is sublime. And you're moving towards
the mouth, okay, and you've got a tight spin on
that spaghetti too, the no way those noodles are moving.
Oh my god, this is so good. Feels great, doesn't it?
Am I describing it enough for you? Exactly? And it's
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getting closer and closer and closer to your mouth and
you're like, oh yeah. And then all of a sudden,
that little morsel of meatball starts to teeter. Oh my god, no, no, no,
wait wait wait wait. So then I start to move
that fork a little closer to my mouth a little faster,
because I gotta get that thing to my mouth before
it falls off. Because I know that if I can
get in my mouth, we're home free. All I gotta
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do is move it. That's all I gotta do. And
so I pick up the pace a little bit. I
start moving it towards my mouth just a little bit faster.
I'm I'm moving my chin forward so maybe I can
like hold over the plate and I can meet it halfway.
So no matter what happens. It doesn't get on Gramma's carpet.
Oh my god, and that oh that meatball, Oh my god,
there it is. It just keeps going, oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no,
no no. And you try to like do everything you can.
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You move your face even closer, and you try to
like turn up your hands so maybe it'll roll back
onto the tablecloth, which isn't great, but it's better than
the carpet. And there it goes, and it falls into
the carpet. Not only does it fall into the carpet,
it hits your shirt in two places on the way down.
And then it hits your right there on the clean
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jeans that you just took out of the dryer, so
you got two spots on your shirt. You've got a
spot on your left inner thigh. And then it hits
that white carpet and your grandma. You can hear a
pin drop in there well, which is really impressive because
this this room has white carpet, and you can just
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see the thing. You don't know what's coming, but you
know it's not gonna be quiet. The emotion rises from
her navel, the song of her ancestors who have passed
down the recipe of that source from generation to generation
is it is as perfect as it has ever been,
and she continues to work on it to make it
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even better. And now you, the next generation in line
to learn the secrets of the ancestors, have dropped that
morsel of meatball not only on your shirt twice and
you're left in her thigh, but now it's in the
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white carpet. This is the worst that could possibly happen.
This is absolutely the worst thing that could possibly happen
in this scenario. And nobody, and I mean nobody died.
You know why. Grandma's got resolved. She's got a homemade
remedy for this. If that doesn't work, she's got seventeen
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other chemicals under the sink in the kitchen that could
help her fix it. Also, who and the hell has
white carpet in the year of our Lord twenty twenty five?
And if they do, what on God's screen were they thinking?
Feeding you a meat ball? Upon it? Silly asking for it?
Speaker 2 (20:49):
It was a.
Speaker 1 (20:49):
Test and you failed. And that is oh okay. Why
because nobody died. Now Grandma might come near it, because
she's gonna be app plectic once you get that in
her white carpet, and she's gonna spend the next twenty
seven minutes with a toothbrush and whatever remedy she's got
getting it out of that deep pile. That's oh okay.
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Why because we knew this was a potential eventuality, didn't
we We just knew it. We absolutely knew this could
have been a thing. And chances are real good we
probably manifested it just a little bit, right, just a
little bit, because you're looking at it and you just know,
you're like, I'm not that good with this. We're on
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the fine china, We're with the nice silver like we've
already set ourselves up for the maximum amount of anxiety
and fear and trembling as is humanly possible. And Grandma
and God love her, those eyebrows are plucked three shades.
To Jesus, all she has left is what she has
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penciled in before coming to supper. Right, but you can
bet your bottom that that one is just arched up
to her hairline. Good miss, I'm feeling anxious about it.
It's making me nervous just thinking about it. And there
has to be a million folks with a million stories
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exactly every one. I'm just telling you yep, and then
maybe your mom pulls you aside or your dad said,
I did the exact same thing you did it when
you were even younger. I did that whenever I was
probably in college. Da da da da da. And then
you get this wonderful story about the same thing happened.
And shockingly they didn't pass either. They didn't pass the
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test and they didn't pass away. It came to pass
and we all knew it was. And chances are there's
probably like a little throw rug or something like that
that's over any in all stains they could not get out.
This be a lesson. White carpet is not for people
who love pasta and sauce. You gonna do something like that,
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get yourself a mingled something. It's got a whole lot
of different colors and they're just kind of mixed together
because nobody can see when you drop pasta sauce on
a dark speckled carpet, promise you, and if they can't,
because they're looking too hard, assholes. I have been so
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sweary this episode. Geez, I don't mind. Here's another thing too.
You can drop a four letter word and it ain't
gonna do nothing to you. If it spices up your conversation.
If it's something like delicious and elegant punctuation that you
can put into a letter or prose or whatever semi colon,
How beautiful is that? Pretentious as hell and delicious when
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used properly. Good spelling? Oh my gosh, Yes, good vocabulary,
Sign me up every day of the week. Oh if
it's like sat words, be still my beating heart and
cover my rock solid nipples. I love good vocabulary. I
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make no excuses for it. Just so we're clear. There
are so many things just like that in our lives
that give it something, and it takes practice. Those kind
of things one does not get good at immediately. You
gotta screw it up. And when you do, there are
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people in your life who will care about you to
fix it. And there are people in your life who
care enough about your error to bring it to your attention, assholes,
and they're both helpful. And nobody died, okay, Because each
of these things that we want to do to make
ourselves better, to add to the person that we are,
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we got to start somewhere. And even more than that,
you have to start. It's so important, Oh my god,
because the sooner you start, the sooner you can get
better at it, the sooner you can get those errors
out of the way, those mistakes that, yes, they're gonna
be so awful in the beginning, and then they just
continue to diminish. They just get less frequent and they
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get less severe. And that is fine. As a matter
of fact, it's better than fine, you know what it is.
It's the best learning you're gonna do. Getting it almost right.
You might make that mistake a few more times, really,
really go and cerplop. That's a lesson you won't soon forget. Mama,
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I that is something you will hold dear because you
will never want to repeat it. Diddy, friends, neighbors, people, admirals, generals, corporals, captains.
Everyone listening to the sound of my voice. Most of
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these mistakes are not gonna put you six feet under
in a pine box, okay. And it's so funny because
I continue to think that the consequences of doing something
wrong are just astronomically enormous. And I'm here to tell
you that ain't the case. That ain't nothing but me
making stuff up. And when I do that, I write
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it down so that I can say oh, oh, oh. I
want to tell anybody listening out there, hey, I would
much prefer to mess up, because the lesson in the
learning in that is so much more valuable. It's strong,
it is indelible on your brain and on your heart,
and sometimes it's so embarrassing, it's on your soul, and
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nobody died embarrassment, shame, all those kind of things. They're
useful in small doses. I get. I don't want to
let them run my life, and I see a lot
of people who do. I'm not judging it. I'm just saying, hey,
I promise you get a lot more out of your
life if you run it off things like abundance and
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connection than you do instead of shame and anxious. Trust me,
because I've lived in both of them. Okay, trust me.
And the best part about getting older is learning just
how little everyone gives a hoot about anything you're doing.
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My gosh, what you're doing with your life, So few
people even care, So few people like your nearest and
dearest will great because those people who are going to
stand in your corner and holler at you in the
best way possible and push and pull for you. And
that's delicious and wonderful, and all those other people ain't
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nothing but assholes. And then there's there's value in that
as well, because here's the thing. Those people who look
for you to do something wrong so they can poke, fun, jeer,
whatever it is you want to call it great, You
know why, because there is few, not nothing, There are
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few things more delicious than showing your haters just how
much bigger you are than that mistake gigantic, colossal, monolithic,
eenormity unbound. Okay, And the best part is, whenever you
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reach that size, you can put those mothers in your shadow.
And he is chilly in there, friends who they gon't
need to bring a cardigan or light sweater. I love y'all.
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we will see you next week for another dose of
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radical joy love.
Speaker 3 (31:58):
Y'all, dont doctor