October 7, 2025 • 42 mins
WHAT IS YOUR HEAVEN? Rediscover Your Joy! Let's learn how to reconnect with the joy that lives within us. Whether you’re feeling burned out, stuck, or simply ready to live more joyfully this episode is your invitation to begin again. Your heaven isn’t a place—it’s a feeling. Let’s find it together. The Soul Space with Georgia Rose Psychic Astrologer is aired live from Paradise Studios NY via the STRONGISLAND.COM Entertainment Network.
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Welcome to the Soul Space, the podcast that inspires you
to discover your truth, ignite your passion, and align your
lives with the power of who you really are.
Speaker 2 (00:11):
I'm Georgia Rose, psychic astrologer.
Speaker 1 (00:14):
I share the cosmic roadmap that guided me through evolutionary astrology,
TARO and inner knowing into authentic living. I'm here to
help you decode your soul's cosmic story, reconnect with your passion,
and create the life you were meant to live. It
all starts within, and it all starts now in the
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soul Space.
Speaker 2 (00:39):
Hey, everybody, Welcome to the Soul Space. I am back.
This is the second episode of our new season. Welcome everybody.
I hope you're all finding me on YouTube. We're no
longer streaming live on social media Facebook or Instagram or
any of those, but if you missed the live show,
you know you can always find me on all podcast platforms, Spotify,
and we actually are on Roku. You just got to
(01:01):
set up the channel and you can watch me everywhere.
I'm everywhere, so welcome. I'm going to give her one
a few minutes to get into the soul Space. Hey everybody,
and tonight we are going to be talking about heaven
and what heaven is to us and how to rediscover
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our joy. And the reason why I chose that program
tonight is because I feel like everything got very heavy
in the world. We've been undergoing a lot of transits
and a lot of things that have been really challenging us,
and I think sometimes we start to grieve a lot.
A lot of the last few shows that I've done
have been about releasing and grieving, and we really want
to make sure that we are still staying in some
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kind of joy and we need that good positive energy
to help us manifest. So Rogue is on. Hey, Rogue,
how are you doing. First thing I'm going to do
today tonight before we get to our cosmic comedy, which
we like to do, is something I usually don't do
on the show show, but I'm going to do tonight.
I want you, guys, everyone out there watching, and everyone,
no matter if you're watching live or if you're going
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to watch the replay of the show, send some beautiful,
loving vibes to a very special group of friends of
my friends of mine in my astrology group. Rogue is
one of them. She's on tonight, and my other very
very good friend Delia, who you know we've had on
the show, is out there. If you could just send
her some really beautiful vibes and also send some to me.
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My birthday is this Sunday, and so I'm going to
have another trip around the sun. Let's make sure that's
a good one. So I'm sending all my love out
to everyone tonight, and I hope you will send us
some of your really great sparkly you know, pixie dust.
So if you see my hair blowing around the studios,
who we have fans, because that's just what we do here.
So I'm going to go right into our cosmic comedy
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because we need a good laugh after the last few
days of this full moon in areas. So take it away,
Bobby with our cosmic comedy. It's time for cosmic where
mercury retrograde is the main character, the lunations are a
looney and the stars are a punchline.
Speaker 3 (03:08):
Matt, I'm dating an Arias, which means he's a natural
born leader.
Speaker 2 (03:11):
That can also be hot headed. Let me see your phone.
Speaker 3 (03:13):
Let me see your phone. Okay, dating astrology girls, now
that's not annoying at all.
Speaker 2 (03:16):
Matt.
Speaker 3 (03:17):
I'm dating a Taurus now, which means she enjoys luxury.
I'm also quite stubborn. Can you take her for shoes
in your apartment? Now? I refuse. This is getting weird, Matt.
I'm dating a Gemini now, which reads you a quick look.
Speaker 2 (03:26):
I'm also defaced by the way I'm thinking.
Speaker 3 (03:28):
You need even stop dating girls based on their zodiac signs. Matt.
I'm dating a cancer now, which means he's empathetic, but
I can also be emotional. Matt. I'm dating a Leo now,
which means he's charismatic. I'm also self centered and you
better go like and comment my new Instagram post. I
want to zi, Matt. I'm dating a Virgo now, which
means he's detO oriented, but I'm also a perfectionist. Your
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hair looks awful, Matt. I'm done dating girls based on
zodiac signs and none off. It's real. Oh my god,
you sound like such a Gemini.
Speaker 2 (04:00):
There you go, hope you wait for it. So we
have a lot of Gemini energy, and right now too,
we've got a lot of Gemini energy. We've got Uranus
and Gemini, but not for long. It's headed back to Taurus,
and when it goes back to Taurus, expect a little
bit of replay in your life from the last six years,
but it'll be good because this time you're much older
and much wiser. So let's jump right in to where's
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your heaven? What's your heaven? What do you do for joy?
How do we rediscover our joy? So I thought a
lot about this show, as I usually do, but becoming
a little more pensive in this full moon and arias
it's actually a lot of Scorpio energy as well, Mars
and Mercury and Scorpio Mercury just went there today. So
today is a day of the things that we've been
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thinking about. All of a sudden, we woke up and
we realized, I've been thinking about that, and Ari's energy
is making us move it all forward. So I thought
a little more about the show, which I always think about,
and I woke up and I said, Wow, I'm really
thinking about this show tonight. And what I've thought about
was rediscovering our joy. And even with myself, I know
lately i've lost some of my joy. I started to
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watch media a lot. I started to listen to people
who maybe are a little more negative than I am.
I started to really get lost a little bit in
what's going on in the external world, and it started
to drag me down. So I had to ask myself,
is this all my energy or does it belong to
someone else? And I think that's the first thing. When
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we start to become a little bit heavy, or we
start to feel sad, or we start to really get
into this negativity where we're joining those negative conversations. I
think what happens is we forget to listen to our
solo voice, our inner voice, our soul space. And unless
we take those natural pauses and we reflect on that.
We talked a lot about that in the last show
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about just contemplation and how important it is to take
that pause and the power of the pause. We're going
to be talking about that next time too. But unless
we do that, we get really caught up in those
external voices. And so it's really important for us to
be the one that we feel that determines how we live,
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because when we get disconnected to that, we get disconnected
to our joy. When we're on the path sarving ourselves
and finding our soul space, our authenticity, it's really important
to always be asking ourselves, how does this feel? You know?
Is this right for me and discovering what that feels
like in our body. And I remember when I was
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first seeing someone who was a grief therapist and she
was also a psychic medium, and she was really amazing woman,
Adrian DeSalvo. Her name is, And I remember one of
the first things she told me was, you have to
every day when you wake up, just do a body
scam and start like with your toes, and go all
the way up your body and think of the sensation
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how you feel everywhere, and you'll start to feel your
body and really understand how your body responds to things.
And it's really important to do that and know those
responses because that's when we know we have joy. Joy
is an emotion we feel right. It's almost sometimes hard
to describe.
Speaker 3 (07:11):
You know.
Speaker 2 (07:11):
You may take externals like Christmas morning, or the birth
of a baby, or you wont an award, or you
had a success or something that really made you feel good, right,
what did feeling good feel like? But when you really
think about it, sometimes our greatest joys are the simple things,
like when was the last time you had a vanilla
ice cream cone and let it drip down your chin?
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Or you just went out and gardened and didn't care
about your clothes and got really down in the dirt,
or just you know, felt life because that's where our
joy is. You know. I remember when I had a
really stressful position at the company I worked for before
this one, and I would come home every day and
get on the floor and play with my dog because
that's where I felt joy. And I needed that ten
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minutes with Sparky, fifteen minutes with Sparky just to renew
my body, my mind, my spirit. So I think when
we're trying to rediscover our joy, sometimes we don't have
to change our whole life, throughout a whole wardrobe, lose
fifty pounds. Sometimes we just need to breathe fresh air.
We just need to go out in the sun. So
there's a lot of really small things we can do.
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I remember when I was in great loss in my life,
and you know, at times was really struggling with wanting
to go on, and I remember one of my favorite
things to do was just lay in the sun. And
where I live here in the Northeast, there's a big
lighthouse and beautiful ocean beach, and I remember I used
to always jog or run or walk the path to
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the lighthouse, and when I got there, this beautiful lighthouse
was surrounded by this foundation and pavement that was all
done with granite, and I used to lay on the
granite and just let the sun bake me. And I
did that all throughout the year. I didn't care if
it was winter, if it was spring, if it was summer.
And I remember just lying there and letting light come
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into my body and feeling joy that way, And that
was one of the slow ways I rediscovered joy. I
remember another time when I was really in a very
very bad place in my life as far as grief,
really into deep, deep compound grief, had suffered tremendous losses,
and I remember eating breakfast one day at the kitchen
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table and just feeling like, you know, somebody had just
turned out the lights in the world, like there was
just everything went dark, you know. And I remember my dog,
who I had just gotten came in, Sparky, and he
brushed against my leg. I felt his fur on my leg,
and it brought me back to life. And so that
helped me rediscover what it felt like to feel that
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little bit of joy bubble up in me. And I
think because of all the things that have been happening
into the world, and even the last five years, like
beginning with COVID, I think a lot of us have heaviness,
and we've had some really heavy transits astrologically too, and
we've had clensings and karmic things happen, and I think
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we need to get back to that joy. So think
about what is joyful to me, to you? Where have
you found joy in the past, Because sometimes when we're stuck,
or we're bored, or we're disconnected, it's almost like we
can't quite reach joy anymore. And that's because now we've
conditioned elves in the negative. We've conditioned ourselves in an
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area where we forgot what joy's like. And it's easier
to do that than we think. So I'm going to
welcome a few people from tonight. You guys all bring
me joy. So welcome Rogue and Sarah and Nancy. I
see Trisha's on here and everybody else at home that
maybe has not said hi, but I can't see you.
I'm glad you're watching. So let's start to rediscover our joy.
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Let's do this together a little bit tonight and see
if we can't awaken something in us to feel lighter,
because I'm just going to send beautiful violet light and
positive energy out to all of you. So let's all
just close our eyes for a moment, because even if
there's not a lot of people watching live tonight, which
there probably is more than I know, if we can
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just mester up some energy, the energy will attach itself
to this time period and when someone watches the video
on replay, they'll feel this, I promise you. So let's
just close our eyes for a moment, and everyone just
think of a time when you felt completely alive, like
you just felt like your body was electrified. There was
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joy just bubbling up from that root chakra all the
way up to your heart and throat, bubbling up joy.
Just smile on your face and just think about that
beautiful feeling of joy, just like just grace. You let
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it run through your blood and your bones and your cells.
You may find yourself touched or crying or emotional, but
just let it come through you. Maybe smile at your
heart a little bit, and just be grateful for that moment,
the moment that you're feeling right now, and just you know,
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before you tuck it away in your heart, that it's
there always to draw on. Just sprinkle a little bit
out into the universe for all of us and just
like send a little that pixie dust out and then
bring it back in and let it be in your
heart like a little light that you can just pull
out anytime that is indestructible. That joy, it is your mojo,
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your motivation, your love, your life course, and just allow
yourself to have that. And I'd be interesting in the
comments if anybody wants to put what they conjured up,
because for me, it was just kind of walking on
one of my favorite paths and the look call arboretum. Yeah,
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So why do we lose our joy? Well, like I
just said, we get really caught up in the external world.
We get really caught up in the things that we
hear and we listen to and we take in. I
recently have a friend who their demeanor has completely changed
and they seem almost like a different person because they're
really happy and more calm. And I said to them
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the other day, what's really the change in you? Like
what happened? And they said, well, you know, Georgia, I
stopped watching a lot of media and I said, wow,
that's how much effect it had on you. They were angrier,
you know, and once they stopped watching, they got a
lot happier. So now that you know what that feeling
feels like, I'm going to ask you to, maybe during
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the show or afterwards, just think about this in your
free moments, maybe before you fall asleep or when you
wake up in the morning, ask yourself why that feel
was buried? What's it buried under? Where did you lose it?
Because what happens is sometimes, like I said, life just
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comes in. Like my friend who stopped listening to media
and found his joy again. I remember a few years ago,
back twenty like fourteen, fifteen sixteen, I had done a
life group. I used to have a life group that
met in my home and it was a group of
women and we were all like facing challenges of one
one kind of or another. And we used to meet
once a month and it was a beautiful group. And
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I remember one day one of the girls came in
and she was very, very sad and struggling. And after
the group, she stayed after and she confided in me
and she said, you know, I'm really not in a
good place. I'm having really bad thoughts. And I said
to her, well, what's something that you used to like
to do, like when you were a child. What brought
you joy? What was your favorite thing to do as
a child. Roke said sexist afternoon. I love you, rogue.
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Now I have a visual in the comments, so it's funny.
I love you. So I said to her, like, what
did you do when you were a kid that you
know that feeling of abandoned lightheartedness? And she said, I
used to ride a bike. I said, well, tomorrow, instead
of you know, thinking about being unlive, tomorrow, go buy
a bike. So the next month she came in. There's
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a true story, I swear to god it's the next
month she came in, and for a while after that
day I was calling her like every afternoon. I'm like, okay,
you okay, And finally left like the fifth day, said George,
you don't need to call me every day, and I
was like all right. So months later she comes into
the life group and she was like smiling and lighter,
and I could tell her and she was happy and
said what happened? What did you do? You're so different?
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She goes, I took your advice and I bought a bike,
and I've been bike riding every day and it's the
best feeling in the world. So sometimes it just can
be a little thing right, be joyful. So her joy was,
you know, underneath what was happening in her life in
the current moment. She was so entrenched in that it
was a breakup that it was just stealing her life force.
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But once she reminded herself and her soul what joy
felt like, she started to slowly come back. So my
question for all of you is what is burying your joy?
Has it been a relationship, Has it been an experience
you had as a child. Has it been something that
you've gone through that recently or a long time ago,
But whatever it is, maybe it's not yours. When we
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are empathic and I know a lot of you that
watch have empathic ability, or you feel like you can
feel energy around you, which is the truth. You react
to energy. Energy you know, makes itsself known to you,
even not consciously. When we are those type of souls
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and we're open that way, sometimes we take on other
people's things, and it doesn't mean that we have to
take on like things from our parents and all that stuff.
It could even be you have a child who's struggling
in school and now your take on that karma and
that energy. Or maybe you are just you know, reliving
something from childhood, or maybe you have a good friend
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and every time they call you is just complain, complain, complain,
And now your joy is getting buried in that. So
it's really important to understand why we lose joy so
that we're on the alert for it not happening again.
So Rogue says, and how close deep? I can't read
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that way. Yeah, So what Rogue is saying is sometimes
when you have that connection and you have that joy,
sometimes you can feel when it's going to ebb away
if you miss someone or I think I know what
you're talking about, Like sometimes I have separation anxiety with
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certain people. You know, in our group, Rogue, I always
get a little pang of separation anxiety whenever we're ready
to end a zooms. But you know, I'm just being lighthearted,
but it can be really deep. You know, once you've
had a connection with someone, if you're used to being
by yourself a lot and you're lonely, and then you
have a deep connection and then that person goes away,
you can really feel that, you know. So it's important
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in those moments to take care of yourself and bring
yourself joy in some way. You know, play a music,
music that you love, dance, you know, get energy moving.
We have to move that heavy energy. So our joy
gets buried under pain, under responsibility, and also under the
emotional assignments that we didn't sign up for. Like, of
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course we're going to feel badly if we have a
child who's not doing good in school, or they're getting
bullied or something's bothering the child. Of course we're going
to feel pain. We're going to feel empathy for that.
But that soul contract is not ours, it's the child's.
So we have to stay in our own joy when
we can, and in our own strength so that we
are full potential to help that person without getting entangled.
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And I know that's hard. Mother child relationship, child mother relationship,
all those things, but it doesn't mean that we are
going to allow their assignments to completely steal our joy.
Being empathic and giving empathy to someone is one thing,
but closing down our capacity for life and joy and
to be able to feel, you know, those good emotions,
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that's really not what our soul came here to do
at all. Sometimes we carry grief that isn't ours. I
did that as a child. My mother was a very
sad person. Looking back now, with the knowledge and the
wisdom that I have, I suspect strongly that she was
clinically depressed for many, many years. There was a history
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there that was very deep. And when I was a
small child, my mom was in bed a lot. She
would be sleeping or in bed a lot, just sad.
She would always use the expression I feel blue. It's
just blue. I'm blue. And in order to bond with
a parent who really wasn't emotionally there, I used to
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climb into bed with my mom and pretend I was sad.
I would do this very very young. I mean I
can remember it being one of my first memories at
four or five years old. And so, you know, children
are supposed to be having fun and playing and being lighthearted,
and I buried my childhood joy in my mother's sadness
just to connect with her. So and for someone like
me who's an EmPATH, that's huge. That is, you know,
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my brain was wired on sadness. So in my life
I've really had to come very far to be able
to experience joy and to trust joy and the only
way I can trust joy without thinking it's fleeting and
the other shoe is going to drop and something's going
to happen. The only way that I have found to
be able to trust joy, and it's still a work
in progress many times, is that I take control of
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it myself, and I always remind myself what being joyful is.
And sometimes it's going to sound funny, but you know,
I just had a heartbreak with a very good friend
of mine who I thought was going to be moving
closer to me and they can't. And it was a
real heartbreak. But the way I coped with it was
I went to the bookstore, which where I hadn't been
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for years, and I brought myself a new box of
tarot cards, and I bought a book that I didn't
read about certain things and with psychic stuff, and I
haven't done that in probably i'd say eight years, seven years,
and for some reason it just popped into my head, Oh,
you used to feel joy in the bookstore. Go there,
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so somewhere under all that buried sadness and greet buried
somewhere underneath all that, but I have buried, the joy
was there still and reminded me where to go and
what to do. So that's, you know, taking control over
your joy. It's really important we do that. Otherwise we
lose ourselves. We lose ourselves so deeply and slowly we
forget what joy feels like. So when we do that,
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we start living in survival mode. You know, something happy
will happen, will be in a place where there's a
lot of joy, and we can't feel it, we can't
experience it. It's buried. One of the things that used
to give me so much pleasure was walking by the ocean,
and last year, especially towards the end of the year
and into the beginning of twenty twenty five, I would
sometimes do that and go to some of my favorite places,
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like the lighthouse I just described, and I couldn't feel them.
I couldn't feel it. I couldn't I would like stare
at the ocean and look at this beautiful sky and
I'd be like, well, I know it's beautiful and I'm
seeing it, and yes, it's beautiful, but it doesn't resonate
with me. I'm not feeling it. And it was because
I had allowed my joy to slip away. So think
about where you lost your joy and go found it,
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find it there. It's buried under something. It's just like
that high heel that you haven't worn a few months
and you want to wear it to work today, and
it's buried under the closet stuff. Like your joy is
in the closet, buried somewhere. You got to find it.
So that's why we lose joy. The joy is buried
somewhere in there. We all have assignments, all right, And assignments.
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When I say that, I mean like our soul contracts,
the things our soul came here to do. And sometimes
those are sign imments, are things that you know, we
have to relive in order to release. But remember, healing
is not reliving, healing is releasing. There's a big difference.
So if those memories come up or things come up,
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especially now with the energy that we're having. I have
a great video on my YouTube channel Mars and Scorpio,
and I also just did a video about the aries
full moon. They're both on Zenkhudah on YouTube. Give those
a watch. Neither one of them are too too long.
Give those a watch because it will explain to you
how a lot of things from the past are coming
back now. We just had a South not to clips
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not too long ago, a couple weeks ago. That brought
in a lot of you know, things up from the past.
But the universe doesn't do that to traumatize us or
make us relive them for no reason. The universe brings
that up so that we release. We have to acknowledge
something in order to release it. If this yellow buzzer
thing was not on the table and I ignored it
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and I never saw it, I can't release it. I
can't throw it into the other room and get rid
of it. I have to realize it's making itself known.
I have to realize it's here in order to release it.
That's the energy of our trauma, our bad experiences, our grief.
So one of the things that you could do when
you want to do that emotional release is talking about
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it to someone. I suggested on the show a while back,
you know, just like finding someone you really trust and
talking about you know, your experience and what happened to you,
not so that they can fix it or do anything
other than just hug you for a while and say
I'm sorry that happened to you. You can also give
yourself a mantra saying I don't need to carry this anymore.
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I don't need to carry this anymore. This isn't mine.
One of the most transformative parts of my healing happened
probably about ten years ago. I woke up one morning
and I realized I was completely reliving my mom's life,
and I was completely reliving her karma, her assignments, and
had taken them on and bear read my own path
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under that. And I had to do a lot of
really deep healing work to get out from under because
my joy was really buried. So hey, Liz, how are
you doing. I hope you're doing good. I am sorry.
I didn't call you back last week. I was traveling
and then I was on a special project from work.
Joanne is on all So Hey, Joanne, she says. She
finally turned on her computer so she can say hello.
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Her joy is seeing friends from the past she'd not
seen a long time, and lessons for me. She's unable
to leave a comment, so welcome, Joanne. I'm glad to
see you on. So we've all got those things right,
We've all got those things that we bury our grief under.
The other thing you can do, also is remember when
you say to yourself you know I'm done with this.
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I don't need to carry this anymore. Your soul knows
what I came here to do. I do a lot
of readings, a lot of this, a lot of that,
and everyone always says, I don't don't really know my path.
I don't know what my soul came here for. The
answers in the silence, the answers in sitting with yourself
does know. It may not have come up to the
surface of your consciousness, but everyone has a soul space,
and everyone's soul knows what it came here to do.
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And if you listen really, really closely, and you really
really go deep, it's right there. So I ask yourself,
am I done with this? Do I have a need
to carry this? Because sometimes we're keeping it as a
defense mechanism. We don't really want to know the truth,
so we bury it in grief. Write down the emotional
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patterns you inherited. You know, if you're suspecting that something
isn't really your grief for your assignment, write down the patterns.
One of my patterns, strangely enough, looking back now, was
so obvious, but couldn't see it for like forty some
five years of my life. Whenever anything bad happened, or
I had shocking news, or I had like, you know,
a bad day in general, my automatic is to go home,
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put my pajamas on, and just get in bed and
be sad. That not anymore, but that's what it used
to be. And like laying in bed and wallowing in
stuff like was always my pattern. Like I didn'tdn't care
if it was two o'clock in the afternoon, I was
coming home, those pjs were going on, and I was
bed and would go into like this place that was
no good, you know, wallowing it. Like all the scorpio
planets were coming out to me. And I realized when
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I woke up and understood that I was taking on
my mother's assignment with my mom's karma, I was like,
oh my god. I used to do this when I
was a little can of so I'm five years old.
I'd been getting in bed whenever something happens, you know,
I get a splinter in my finger, I gotta go
to bed. So think about you know, where is your
grief buried and what are your emotional patterns because you
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inherited the most likely and then when you kind of
figure out what those are, then ask yourself do these
serve me? Now? It really didn't serve me to just
go home and go to bed. A lot of things
I could have been doing, you know. And when I
started not to do that, and I started to take
walks on the beach, I started jogging to the lighthouse.
I started to walk around the lake by my house.
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I started to ride my bike, or listen to beautiful music,
or write in my journal or all things I like
to do. You know, you guys probably have a million things.
Maybe you want to go play pickle ball or water
ski or you know, climb a mountain. I don't know,
but whatever it is, it gives you joy, that would
probably be a better emotional pattern to get into. And
then a lot of times people will say, you know,
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regarding if it's your pain or someone else's, what your
joy's hidden under? You know, the old adage you can
ask yourself, is this mine? Another personal story, I remember
when I was going through my divorce. It was hillatious
and two years finally got my decree and I had
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to go to a meeting of a large social club
that my husband was very ex husband was very prominent
in because I was asking them for funding. I was
doing a hospital project that my club was doing, and
his club was like a sister club to my club,
and so I had to go and do a little
speech and get money for this project I was doing
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in a local children's ward and I had to speak.
And you know, when I walked in, I knew everyone there,
and they were all really nice to me and welcomed
me with open arms. And I went up and I
gave my speech, and then I sat down because it
was like a dinner and I could see him from
across the room. He kept looking over at me and
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looking over at me, and we really hadn't spoken at
this point. The divorce was very fresh, and I just
felt for the first time nothing, and I was like, wow,
I'm in neutral. This is like the best thing that
ever kind of happened. You know. I don't have hatred,
I don't have love. I'm just neutral. And at the
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end of the evening, he came over and he hugged
me because he's a bit of a covert narcissist and
my opinion, which I'm entitled to, and he hugged me
and pretended like to be so loving and generous, and
even though he wasn't for two years. And I'm not bitter.
I'm just saying the truth. And so he mentioned something
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and it was very because I know him. It was
very sarcastic, and it was meant to try and diminish me.
And I literally felt this wall of energy well up
inside me and when it hit my heart, it popped
out of my chest and just like went back to him,
almost like I threw the energy back on him. And
I turned around, I walked away, and I got in
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my car and I drove home, and I realized that
I had given him back everything that was no longer mine,
every guilt, every punishment, every you know, nastiness, every abandonment.
I had thrown the energy all back on him. And
that was the day that I really started to heal
from that particular experience and that marriage. And it was
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a beautiful feeling because I literally wasn't neutral because the
energy just came off me. And so that's a great visualization.
If you have a situation like that where the energy
really is weighing you down and masking your grief, visualize
yourself taking it like a big ball of energy. You know,
we have the Zenkudah ball behind me, which I always
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say is the Z ball, z ball of light, right,
put it in a big ball and just throw it
to them and it's theirs now, not to harm them,
not to wish them negative, just to give them back
their own assignment, because it's not your assignment. It's their homework.
It's their Earth school work. And so now let's get
back into more exercises about getting that joy back, because
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I gave you all where to find where it's buried
and all that stuff, so you're going to take your
joy back. The way I did it, anyway, was not
in like big grand micro like big gestures, but in
micro moments like the dogs for touching my leg, laying
by the lighthouse and feeling the sun on me. I
went out and bought a sketch book. And I am
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by no means an artist. I'm like the stick person people,
you know. And I went out and put a sketchbook
and I started sketching with colored pencil, and I just,
you know, no one'll ever see it. Really, probably maybe
they will, I don't know. May I'll put him in
a book one day. But that brought me joy because
it was a way to express so not in giant leaves,
but just in micro movements. Because joy is a muscle,
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it really is. It's a muscle that we have to flex,
and if we haven't flexed it in a while, we
forget how to be joyful. I know my producer Bobby
likes to go to church once a week, and I
love that he is so faithful and I know that
he finds his joy there. God is joyful if we
allow him into our hearts. So you know, start some
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kind of a ritual for joy, something that you do
weekly that is your joy, something that you give yourself,
and you're teaching yourself how to receive and allow joy
and trust joy because you're creating it on a regular
basis and you're flexing that muscle. It's like going to
the gym, only you're going to the joy gym. And
you know, step outside and just feel the sun. You know,
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dance around the house for three minutes. If you have
an Alexa, set her and say lexa place I dance
music for five minutes or three minutes and just dance.
You know, when we move energy, we cannot be sad.
Start a joy jar. I have a jar in my home,
which was actually my mom's cookie jar. She loved it.
It's hand blown clear cookijar umber colored cookie jar with
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a cork top. And every time I go someplace special,
I have a special dinner at a restaurant, or I
have people over to my home for a dinner, I
take the wine corks and I write who, the names
of who, the night and the date was with them.
And I have a big jar filled with corks of beautiful,
wonderful connections and times together. And sometimes when I'm sad,
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I spill it on the table and I look at
all the corks and I remember all those times, you know,
and there's energy of joy in that. I even have
a cork in there from the champagne bottle that was
opened in the back of the limousine on my wedding day,
and I leave it in there because that was a
joyful moment. I can still feel that moment bubble up,
that beautif full expansion of love and the people around
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me that day. It doesn't matter what happened after that,
it's just I remember that day. There's quirks in there
from beautiful dinners that I had at my house, birthdays
and celebrations and housewarmings and Christmases and you know, and
just Saturday afternoons that were rainy, you know, and it's
just beautiful, beautiful times. So start that joy jar, you know,
put little messages in it or little notes, or maybe
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it's just a joy journal. That's a really cool thing
to do every day, Like think about what made you smile.
You may need those memories someday. And when we do that,
you're going to watch how heaven begins to build. For me,
just talking about those things is making the energy in
the studio feel lighter, you know, So it's really cool.
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So I want to get back to like me, the
story of me as the little girl who used to
get in bed sad with her mom and that kind
of thing. Those things are conditioning, and that's why I
asked you guys to think about, you know how, what
your emotional patterns are. When you feel sadness, or you
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feel neglect, or you feel negative emotions, what are your
emotional patterns because those are your parental controls or whoever.
I hate to say it, but our brains are formed
as children, right, We're wired by the people who are
are parental units. Not to blame anyone's parents, you know,
We're all got our soul contracts, we have our assignments,
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but the way we emotionally process things oftentimes is the
parental programming. So ask yourself those emotional patterns that you have.
You know a lot of times we default to them,
and we'll say things like, oh, this is just who
I am. When I get upset, I do blankly blank, Well,
is that really authentic to you? Is that really what
you need? Is that serving you? Or is that just
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your default defense complex thing that you're running. So ask
yourself in regards to those emotional patterns. Is this my
authentic script or is this script written by somebody else?
And I'm just in the story now Because we're at
a time now up until the end of this year
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and into the first half of twenty twenty six where
the stories are all getting rewritten. Guys, we are It's
like that old song. We're not going to take it.
The stories are all getting rewritten. So we got to
find our joy and we have to write the way
we find our joy based on our authentic soul space,
not someone else's. And we also have to rewrite those
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emotional responses that we have to grief too, sadness, to loss,
and make sure those scripts are our authentic emotional responses
because we've been so surrounded by media and patriarchal society
and parental ways that we grow up and conditioning, cultural, religious,
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every way that we're taught how to handle emotional patterns,
and they may not be authentic. So ask yourself, is
this my script? Your soul's assignment should feel light, it
should feel expensive. The things that we do to emotionally
process or handle loss should lead us to joy. It's
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the process of releasing things, processing them. Just like we
process our food and we take the nutrients out of
it and then we let it go. We get rid
of the waste, right, we eliminate, we release. That's the
same thing with processing emotions. So make sure the way
you're processing is yours and right for you, not something
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that someone else told you how to process something. Because
if you're using someone else's script to process your emotions,
that's probably why you feel stuck. You feel like you
can't get out of you know, depression, sadness, neglect, hunger, detriment,
deprivation because you're not processing your emotional distresses, your grief,
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all those things. You're not processing the way that your
soul came here to do it, so it stuck. But
when you listen to your soul in those moments of
joy and you find that joy, then when you go
to process those things, the soul is seeking joy. The
soul is seeking the expansion of love. So through the
process of those negative emotions, it will find that. Like
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a heat seeking missile, it will find that. But if
it's laying under layers and layers of conditioning, including how
to process your emotions, it can't find it because your
brain and your ego is battling that. So you'll know
if you're in the right process if you find yourself
feeling nurtured and healed during your sadness, during your grief,
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if you're starting to feel like, Okay, I'm feeling this,
but I know it's not forever. I'm feeling this, but
it's not overwhelming, then you know that your parental programming
or the programs that you've been using to process your
grief is better. You're getting better. But if you're feeling
heavy and it feels overwhelming and you feel like this
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will never end, it's never going to get better. I
don't know what to do. I'm really in a crisis
situation here, I don't know what's wrong with me. If
that's your inner dialogue, then you're processing based on someone
else's script and you're stuck. So here are your questions
to ask yourself? Is this mine? Is this assignment, this sadness,
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this grief? Is this mine? Or is this somebody else's
I've taken on? How can I stay in my joy
so that I'm fully powerful to overcome this? What lights
me up? What drains me? What lights me up? The
walk on the beach, an ice cream cone, a certain
TV show, seeing a certain person. You know, I have
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a friend of mine eight thousand miles away. As soon
as I hear your voice, I light up. I have
another friend who lives maybe a half hour away, that
we have the best conversations about spiritual stuff. That she
lights me up. What drains me people who are aggressive,
people who are aggressive for no reason, the constant droning
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of social media. Choose joy instead of going on social media.
I have to call my friend, right. So it seems simple,
but those are the little ways we flex the joy
muscle and then affirm I'm allowed to choose joy over duty,
over what someone else told me I had to be
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over what someone else told me was the correct way
to process things. You know, there's this old cliche that
everyone talks about that says everyone processes grief differently. Do
they even know what they're talking about? Do they know
what that means? Yes, that's true. But this is why,
because we're all processing differently, because we're looking for the
way our soul wants to process, and we're not getting
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there because we're trying to process to everything that we
were taught instead of what we're really feeling. I was
taught to go to bed, pull the covers up over
your head, pretend it didn't really happen. You ain't never
releasing anything that way. You're not ever getting over anything
that way. So in closing, ask yourself, what's your heaven?
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What is it? Write it down, tell me about it.
You can DM me, you can email me and direct
what's your heaven? You know, where's your peace? Remember I
said peace is intentional, said that on the last show.
But whatever it is, I guarantee you your heaven is
waiting for you. Your joy is waiting for you. We
have just buried it under a lot of stuff, and
it's time for us to know that it's waiting for us.
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We don't have to earn it. We just have to
remember what it feels like. We just have to remember.
Do that little exercise tomorrow morning when you wake up,
close your eyes. When was the last time you felt joy?
Or or when was the most joy you felt? You
just have to remit. So thank you for listening, Thank
you for getting this far and tuning in. Please share
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I will be back here in the soul space very soon.
And remember joy is your birthright. Let's feel it together.
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Bye bye, guys,
Welcome to the Soul Space, the podcast that inspires you
to discover your truth, ignite your passion, and align your
lives with the power of who you really are.
Speaker 2 (00:11):
I'm Georgia Rose, psychic astrologer.
Speaker 1 (00:14):
I share the cosmic roadmap that guided me through evolutionary astrology,
TARO and inner knowing into authentic living. I'm here to
help you decode your soul's cosmic story, reconnect with your passion,
and create the life you were meant to live. It
all starts within, and it all starts now in the
(00:35):
soul Space.
Speaker 2 (00:39):
Hey, everybody, Welcome to the Soul Space. I am back.
This is the second episode of our new season. Welcome everybody.
I hope you're all finding me on YouTube. We're no
longer streaming live on social media Facebook or Instagram or
any of those, but if you missed the live show,
you know you can always find me on all podcast platforms, Spotify,
and we actually are on Roku. You just got to
(01:01):
set up the channel and you can watch me everywhere.
I'm everywhere, so welcome. I'm going to give her one
a few minutes to get into the soul Space. Hey everybody,
and tonight we are going to be talking about heaven
and what heaven is to us and how to rediscover
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our joy. And the reason why I chose that program
tonight is because I feel like everything got very heavy
in the world. We've been undergoing a lot of transits
and a lot of things that have been really challenging us,
and I think sometimes we start to grieve a lot.
A lot of the last few shows that I've done
have been about releasing and grieving, and we really want
to make sure that we are still staying in some
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kind of joy and we need that good positive energy
to help us manifest. So Rogue is on. Hey, Rogue,
how are you doing. First thing I'm going to do
today tonight before we get to our cosmic comedy, which
we like to do, is something I usually don't do
on the show show, but I'm going to do tonight.
I want you, guys, everyone out there watching, and everyone,
no matter if you're watching live or if you're going
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to watch the replay of the show, send some beautiful,
loving vibes to a very special group of friends of
my friends of mine in my astrology group. Rogue is
one of them. She's on tonight, and my other very
very good friend Delia, who you know we've had on
the show, is out there. If you could just send
her some really beautiful vibes and also send some to me.
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My birthday is this Sunday, and so I'm going to
have another trip around the sun. Let's make sure that's
a good one. So I'm sending all my love out
to everyone tonight, and I hope you will send us
some of your really great sparkly you know, pixie dust.
So if you see my hair blowing around the studios,
who we have fans, because that's just what we do here.
So I'm going to go right into our cosmic comedy
(02:49):
because we need a good laugh after the last few
days of this full moon in areas. So take it away,
Bobby with our cosmic comedy. It's time for cosmic where
mercury retrograde is the main character, the lunations are a
looney and the stars are a punchline.
Speaker 3 (03:08):
Matt, I'm dating an Arias, which means he's a natural
born leader.
Speaker 2 (03:11):
That can also be hot headed. Let me see your phone.
Speaker 3 (03:13):
Let me see your phone. Okay, dating astrology girls, now
that's not annoying at all.
Speaker 2 (03:16):
Matt.
Speaker 3 (03:17):
I'm dating a Taurus now, which means she enjoys luxury.
I'm also quite stubborn. Can you take her for shoes
in your apartment? Now? I refuse. This is getting weird, Matt.
I'm dating a Gemini now, which reads you a quick look.
Speaker 2 (03:26):
I'm also defaced by the way I'm thinking.
Speaker 3 (03:28):
You need even stop dating girls based on their zodiac signs. Matt.
I'm dating a cancer now, which means he's empathetic, but
I can also be emotional. Matt. I'm dating a Leo now,
which means he's charismatic. I'm also self centered and you
better go like and comment my new Instagram post. I
want to zi, Matt. I'm dating a Virgo now, which
means he's detO oriented, but I'm also a perfectionist. Your
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hair looks awful, Matt. I'm done dating girls based on
zodiac signs and none off. It's real. Oh my god,
you sound like such a Gemini.
Speaker 2 (04:00):
There you go, hope you wait for it. So we
have a lot of Gemini energy, and right now too,
we've got a lot of Gemini energy. We've got Uranus
and Gemini, but not for long. It's headed back to Taurus,
and when it goes back to Taurus, expect a little
bit of replay in your life from the last six years,
but it'll be good because this time you're much older
and much wiser. So let's jump right in to where's
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your heaven? What's your heaven? What do you do for joy?
How do we rediscover our joy? So I thought a
lot about this show, as I usually do, but becoming
a little more pensive in this full moon and arias
it's actually a lot of Scorpio energy as well, Mars
and Mercury and Scorpio Mercury just went there today. So
today is a day of the things that we've been
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thinking about. All of a sudden, we woke up and
we realized, I've been thinking about that, and Ari's energy
is making us move it all forward. So I thought
a little more about the show, which I always think about,
and I woke up and I said, Wow, I'm really
thinking about this show tonight. And what I've thought about
was rediscovering our joy. And even with myself, I know
lately i've lost some of my joy. I started to
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watch media a lot. I started to listen to people
who maybe are a little more negative than I am.
I started to really get lost a little bit in
what's going on in the external world, and it started
to drag me down. So I had to ask myself,
is this all my energy or does it belong to
someone else? And I think that's the first thing. When
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we start to become a little bit heavy, or we
start to feel sad, or we start to really get
into this negativity where we're joining those negative conversations. I
think what happens is we forget to listen to our
solo voice, our inner voice, our soul space. And unless
we take those natural pauses and we reflect on that.
We talked a lot about that in the last show
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about just contemplation and how important it is to take
that pause and the power of the pause. We're going
to be talking about that next time too. But unless
we do that, we get really caught up in those
external voices. And so it's really important for us to
be the one that we feel that determines how we live,
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because when we get disconnected to that, we get disconnected
to our joy. When we're on the path sarving ourselves
and finding our soul space, our authenticity, it's really important
to always be asking ourselves, how does this feel? You know?
Is this right for me and discovering what that feels
like in our body. And I remember when I was
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first seeing someone who was a grief therapist and she
was also a psychic medium, and she was really amazing woman,
Adrian DeSalvo. Her name is, And I remember one of
the first things she told me was, you have to
every day when you wake up, just do a body
scam and start like with your toes, and go all
the way up your body and think of the sensation
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how you feel everywhere, and you'll start to feel your
body and really understand how your body responds to things.
And it's really important to do that and know those
responses because that's when we know we have joy. Joy
is an emotion we feel right. It's almost sometimes hard
to describe.
Speaker 3 (07:11):
You know.
Speaker 2 (07:11):
You may take externals like Christmas morning, or the birth
of a baby, or you wont an award, or you
had a success or something that really made you feel good, right,
what did feeling good feel like? But when you really
think about it, sometimes our greatest joys are the simple things,
like when was the last time you had a vanilla
ice cream cone and let it drip down your chin?
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Or you just went out and gardened and didn't care
about your clothes and got really down in the dirt,
or just you know, felt life because that's where our
joy is. You know. I remember when I had a
really stressful position at the company I worked for before
this one, and I would come home every day and
get on the floor and play with my dog because
that's where I felt joy. And I needed that ten
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minutes with Sparky, fifteen minutes with Sparky just to renew
my body, my mind, my spirit. So I think when
we're trying to rediscover our joy, sometimes we don't have
to change our whole life, throughout a whole wardrobe, lose
fifty pounds. Sometimes we just need to breathe fresh air.
We just need to go out in the sun. So
there's a lot of really small things we can do.
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I remember when I was in great loss in my life,
and you know, at times was really struggling with wanting
to go on, and I remember one of my favorite
things to do was just lay in the sun. And
where I live here in the Northeast, there's a big
lighthouse and beautiful ocean beach, and I remember I used
to always jog or run or walk the path to
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the lighthouse, and when I got there, this beautiful lighthouse
was surrounded by this foundation and pavement that was all
done with granite, and I used to lay on the
granite and just let the sun bake me. And I
did that all throughout the year. I didn't care if
it was winter, if it was spring, if it was summer.
And I remember just lying there and letting light come
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into my body and feeling joy that way, And that
was one of the slow ways I rediscovered joy. I
remember another time when I was really in a very
very bad place in my life as far as grief,
really into deep, deep compound grief, had suffered tremendous losses,
and I remember eating breakfast one day at the kitchen
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table and just feeling like, you know, somebody had just
turned out the lights in the world, like there was
just everything went dark, you know. And I remember my dog,
who I had just gotten came in, Sparky, and he
brushed against my leg. I felt his fur on my leg,
and it brought me back to life. And so that
helped me rediscover what it felt like to feel that
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little bit of joy bubble up in me. And I
think because of all the things that have been happening
into the world, and even the last five years, like
beginning with COVID, I think a lot of us have heaviness,
and we've had some really heavy transits astrologically too, and
we've had clensings and karmic things happen, and I think
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we need to get back to that joy. So think
about what is joyful to me, to you? Where have
you found joy in the past, Because sometimes when we're stuck,
or we're bored, or we're disconnected, it's almost like we
can't quite reach joy anymore. And that's because now we've
conditioned elves in the negative. We've conditioned ourselves in an
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area where we forgot what joy's like. And it's easier
to do that than we think. So I'm going to
welcome a few people from tonight. You guys all bring
me joy. So welcome Rogue and Sarah and Nancy. I
see Trisha's on here and everybody else at home that
maybe has not said hi, but I can't see you.
I'm glad you're watching. So let's start to rediscover our joy.
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Let's do this together a little bit tonight and see
if we can't awaken something in us to feel lighter,
because I'm just going to send beautiful violet light and
positive energy out to all of you. So let's all
just close our eyes for a moment, because even if
there's not a lot of people watching live tonight, which
there probably is more than I know, if we can
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just mester up some energy, the energy will attach itself
to this time period and when someone watches the video
on replay, they'll feel this, I promise you. So let's
just close our eyes for a moment, and everyone just
think of a time when you felt completely alive, like
you just felt like your body was electrified. There was
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joy just bubbling up from that root chakra all the
way up to your heart and throat, bubbling up joy.
Just smile on your face and just think about that
beautiful feeling of joy, just like just grace. You let
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it run through your blood and your bones and your cells.
You may find yourself touched or crying or emotional, but
just let it come through you. Maybe smile at your
heart a little bit, and just be grateful for that moment,
the moment that you're feeling right now, and just you know,
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before you tuck it away in your heart, that it's
there always to draw on. Just sprinkle a little bit
out into the universe for all of us and just
like send a little that pixie dust out and then
bring it back in and let it be in your
heart like a little light that you can just pull
out anytime that is indestructible. That joy, it is your mojo,
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your motivation, your love, your life course, and just allow
yourself to have that. And I'd be interesting in the
comments if anybody wants to put what they conjured up,
because for me, it was just kind of walking on
one of my favorite paths and the look call arboretum. Yeah,
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So why do we lose our joy? Well, like I
just said, we get really caught up in the external world.
We get really caught up in the things that we
hear and we listen to and we take in. I
recently have a friend who their demeanor has completely changed
and they seem almost like a different person because they're
really happy and more calm. And I said to them
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the other day, what's really the change in you? Like
what happened? And they said, well, you know, Georgia, I
stopped watching a lot of media and I said, wow,
that's how much effect it had on you. They were angrier,
you know, and once they stopped watching, they got a
lot happier. So now that you know what that feeling
feels like, I'm going to ask you to, maybe during
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the show or afterwards, just think about this in your
free moments, maybe before you fall asleep or when you
wake up in the morning, ask yourself why that feel
was buried? What's it buried under? Where did you lose it?
Because what happens is sometimes, like I said, life just
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comes in. Like my friend who stopped listening to media
and found his joy again. I remember a few years ago,
back twenty like fourteen, fifteen sixteen, I had done a
life group. I used to have a life group that
met in my home and it was a group of
women and we were all like facing challenges of one
one kind of or another. And we used to meet
once a month and it was a beautiful group. And
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I remember one day one of the girls came in
and she was very, very sad and struggling. And after
the group, she stayed after and she confided in me
and she said, you know, I'm really not in a
good place. I'm having really bad thoughts. And I said
to her, well, what's something that you used to like
to do, like when you were a child. What brought
you joy? What was your favorite thing to do as
a child. Roke said sexist afternoon. I love you, rogue.
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Now I have a visual in the comments, so it's funny.
I love you. So I said to her, like, what
did you do when you were a kid that you
know that feeling of abandoned lightheartedness? And she said, I
used to ride a bike. I said, well, tomorrow, instead
of you know, thinking about being unlive, tomorrow, go buy
a bike. So the next month she came in. There's
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a true story, I swear to god it's the next
month she came in, and for a while after that
day I was calling her like every afternoon. I'm like, okay,
you okay, And finally left like the fifth day, said George,
you don't need to call me every day, and I
was like all right. So months later she comes into
the life group and she was like smiling and lighter,
and I could tell her and she was happy and
said what happened? What did you do? You're so different?
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She goes, I took your advice and I bought a bike,
and I've been bike riding every day and it's the
best feeling in the world. So sometimes it just can
be a little thing right, be joyful. So her joy was,
you know, underneath what was happening in her life in
the current moment. She was so entrenched in that it
was a breakup that it was just stealing her life force.
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But once she reminded herself and her soul what joy
felt like, she started to slowly come back. So my
question for all of you is what is burying your joy?
Has it been a relationship, Has it been an experience
you had as a child. Has it been something that
you've gone through that recently or a long time ago,
But whatever it is, maybe it's not yours. When we
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are empathic and I know a lot of you that
watch have empathic ability, or you feel like you can
feel energy around you, which is the truth. You react
to energy. Energy you know, makes itsself known to you,
even not consciously. When we are those type of souls
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and we're open that way, sometimes we take on other
people's things, and it doesn't mean that we have to
take on like things from our parents and all that stuff.
It could even be you have a child who's struggling
in school and now your take on that karma and
that energy. Or maybe you are just you know, reliving
something from childhood, or maybe you have a good friend
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and every time they call you is just complain, complain, complain,
And now your joy is getting buried in that. So
it's really important to understand why we lose joy so
that we're on the alert for it not happening again.
So Rogue says, and how close deep? I can't read
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that way. Yeah, So what Rogue is saying is sometimes
when you have that connection and you have that joy,
sometimes you can feel when it's going to ebb away
if you miss someone or I think I know what
you're talking about, Like sometimes I have separation anxiety with
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certain people. You know, in our group, Rogue, I always
get a little pang of separation anxiety whenever we're ready
to end a zooms. But you know, I'm just being lighthearted,
but it can be really deep. You know, once you've
had a connection with someone, if you're used to being
by yourself a lot and you're lonely, and then you
have a deep connection and then that person goes away,
you can really feel that, you know. So it's important
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in those moments to take care of yourself and bring
yourself joy in some way. You know, play a music,
music that you love, dance, you know, get energy moving.
We have to move that heavy energy. So our joy
gets buried under pain, under responsibility, and also under the
emotional assignments that we didn't sign up for. Like, of
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course we're going to feel badly if we have a
child who's not doing good in school, or they're getting
bullied or something's bothering the child. Of course we're going
to feel pain. We're going to feel empathy for that.
But that soul contract is not ours, it's the child's.
So we have to stay in our own joy when
we can, and in our own strength so that we
are full potential to help that person without getting entangled.
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And I know that's hard. Mother child relationship, child mother relationship,
all those things, but it doesn't mean that we are
going to allow their assignments to completely steal our joy.
Being empathic and giving empathy to someone is one thing,
but closing down our capacity for life and joy and
to be able to feel, you know, those good emotions,
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that's really not what our soul came here to do
at all. Sometimes we carry grief that isn't ours. I
did that as a child. My mother was a very
sad person. Looking back now, with the knowledge and the
wisdom that I have, I suspect strongly that she was
clinically depressed for many, many years. There was a history
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there that was very deep. And when I was a
small child, my mom was in bed a lot. She
would be sleeping or in bed a lot, just sad.
She would always use the expression I feel blue. It's
just blue. I'm blue. And in order to bond with
a parent who really wasn't emotionally there, I used to
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climb into bed with my mom and pretend I was sad.
I would do this very very young. I mean I
can remember it being one of my first memories at
four or five years old. And so, you know, children
are supposed to be having fun and playing and being lighthearted,
and I buried my childhood joy in my mother's sadness
just to connect with her. So and for someone like
me who's an EmPATH, that's huge. That is, you know,
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my brain was wired on sadness. So in my life
I've really had to come very far to be able
to experience joy and to trust joy and the only
way I can trust joy without thinking it's fleeting and
the other shoe is going to drop and something's going
to happen. The only way that I have found to
be able to trust joy, and it's still a work
in progress many times, is that I take control of
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it myself, and I always remind myself what being joyful is.
And sometimes it's going to sound funny, but you know,
I just had a heartbreak with a very good friend
of mine who I thought was going to be moving
closer to me and they can't. And it was a
real heartbreak. But the way I coped with it was
I went to the bookstore, which where I hadn't been
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for years, and I brought myself a new box of
tarot cards, and I bought a book that I didn't
read about certain things and with psychic stuff, and I
haven't done that in probably i'd say eight years, seven years,
and for some reason it just popped into my head, Oh,
you used to feel joy in the bookstore. Go there,
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so somewhere under all that buried sadness and greet buried
somewhere underneath all that, but I have buried, the joy
was there still and reminded me where to go and
what to do. So that's, you know, taking control over
your joy. It's really important we do that. Otherwise we
lose ourselves. We lose ourselves so deeply and slowly we
forget what joy feels like. So when we do that,
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we start living in survival mode. You know, something happy
will happen, will be in a place where there's a
lot of joy, and we can't feel it, we can't
experience it. It's buried. One of the things that used
to give me so much pleasure was walking by the ocean,
and last year, especially towards the end of the year
and into the beginning of twenty twenty five, I would
sometimes do that and go to some of my favorite places,
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like the lighthouse I just described, and I couldn't feel them.
I couldn't feel it. I couldn't I would like stare
at the ocean and look at this beautiful sky and
I'd be like, well, I know it's beautiful and I'm
seeing it, and yes, it's beautiful, but it doesn't resonate
with me. I'm not feeling it. And it was because
I had allowed my joy to slip away. So think
about where you lost your joy and go found it,
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find it there. It's buried under something. It's just like
that high heel that you haven't worn a few months
and you want to wear it to work today, and
it's buried under the closet stuff. Like your joy is
in the closet, buried somewhere. You got to find it.
So that's why we lose joy. The joy is buried
somewhere in there. We all have assignments, all right, And assignments.
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When I say that, I mean like our soul contracts,
the things our soul came here to do. And sometimes
those are sign imments, are things that you know, we
have to relive in order to release. But remember, healing
is not reliving, healing is releasing. There's a big difference.
So if those memories come up or things come up,
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especially now with the energy that we're having. I have
a great video on my YouTube channel Mars and Scorpio,
and I also just did a video about the aries
full moon. They're both on Zenkhudah on YouTube. Give those
a watch. Neither one of them are too too long.
Give those a watch because it will explain to you
how a lot of things from the past are coming
back now. We just had a South not to clips
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not too long ago, a couple weeks ago. That brought
in a lot of you know, things up from the past.
But the universe doesn't do that to traumatize us or
make us relive them for no reason. The universe brings
that up so that we release. We have to acknowledge
something in order to release it. If this yellow buzzer
thing was not on the table and I ignored it
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and I never saw it, I can't release it. I
can't throw it into the other room and get rid
of it. I have to realize it's making itself known.
I have to realize it's here in order to release it.
That's the energy of our trauma, our bad experiences, our grief.
So one of the things that you could do when
you want to do that emotional release is talking about
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it to someone. I suggested on the show a while back,
you know, just like finding someone you really trust and
talking about you know, your experience and what happened to you,
not so that they can fix it or do anything
other than just hug you for a while and say
I'm sorry that happened to you. You can also give
yourself a mantra saying I don't need to carry this anymore.
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I don't need to carry this anymore. This isn't mine.
One of the most transformative parts of my healing happened
probably about ten years ago. I woke up one morning
and I realized I was completely reliving my mom's life,
and I was completely reliving her karma, her assignments, and
had taken them on and bear read my own path
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under that. And I had to do a lot of
really deep healing work to get out from under because
my joy was really buried. So hey, Liz, how are
you doing. I hope you're doing good. I am sorry.
I didn't call you back last week. I was traveling
and then I was on a special project from work.
Joanne is on all So Hey, Joanne, she says. She
finally turned on her computer so she can say hello.
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Her joy is seeing friends from the past she'd not
seen a long time, and lessons for me. She's unable
to leave a comment, so welcome, Joanne. I'm glad to
see you on. So we've all got those things right,
We've all got those things that we bury our grief under.
The other thing you can do, also is remember when
you say to yourself you know I'm done with this.
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I don't need to carry this anymore. Your soul knows
what I came here to do. I do a lot
of readings, a lot of this, a lot of that,
and everyone always says, I don't don't really know my path.
I don't know what my soul came here for. The
answers in the silence, the answers in sitting with yourself
does know. It may not have come up to the
surface of your consciousness, but everyone has a soul space,
and everyone's soul knows what it came here to do.
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And if you listen really, really closely, and you really
really go deep, it's right there. So I ask yourself,
am I done with this? Do I have a need
to carry this? Because sometimes we're keeping it as a
defense mechanism. We don't really want to know the truth,
so we bury it in grief. Write down the emotional
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patterns you inherited. You know, if you're suspecting that something
isn't really your grief for your assignment, write down the patterns.
One of my patterns, strangely enough, looking back now, was
so obvious, but couldn't see it for like forty some
five years of my life. Whenever anything bad happened, or
I had shocking news, or I had like, you know,
a bad day in general, my automatic is to go home,
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put my pajamas on, and just get in bed and
be sad. That not anymore, but that's what it used
to be. And like laying in bed and wallowing in
stuff like was always my pattern. Like I didn'tdn't care
if it was two o'clock in the afternoon, I was
coming home, those pjs were going on, and I was
bed and would go into like this place that was
no good, you know, wallowing it. Like all the scorpio
planets were coming out to me. And I realized when
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I woke up and understood that I was taking on
my mother's assignment with my mom's karma, I was like,
oh my god. I used to do this when I
was a little can of so I'm five years old.
I'd been getting in bed whenever something happens, you know,
I get a splinter in my finger, I gotta go
to bed. So think about you know, where is your
grief buried and what are your emotional patterns because you
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inherited the most likely and then when you kind of
figure out what those are, then ask yourself do these
serve me? Now? It really didn't serve me to just
go home and go to bed. A lot of things
I could have been doing, you know. And when I
started not to do that, and I started to take
walks on the beach, I started jogging to the lighthouse.
I started to walk around the lake by my house.
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I started to ride my bike, or listen to beautiful music,
or write in my journal or all things I like
to do. You know, you guys probably have a million things.
Maybe you want to go play pickle ball or water
ski or you know, climb a mountain. I don't know,
but whatever it is, it gives you joy, that would
probably be a better emotional pattern to get into. And
then a lot of times people will say, you know,
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regarding if it's your pain or someone else's, what your
joy's hidden under? You know, the old adage you can
ask yourself, is this mine? Another personal story, I remember
when I was going through my divorce. It was hillatious
and two years finally got my decree and I had
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to go to a meeting of a large social club
that my husband was very ex husband was very prominent
in because I was asking them for funding. I was
doing a hospital project that my club was doing, and
his club was like a sister club to my club,
and so I had to go and do a little
speech and get money for this project I was doing
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in a local children's ward and I had to speak.
And you know, when I walked in, I knew everyone there,
and they were all really nice to me and welcomed
me with open arms. And I went up and I
gave my speech, and then I sat down because it
was like a dinner and I could see him from
across the room. He kept looking over at me and
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looking over at me, and we really hadn't spoken at
this point. The divorce was very fresh, and I just
felt for the first time nothing, and I was like, wow,
I'm in neutral. This is like the best thing that
ever kind of happened. You know. I don't have hatred,
I don't have love. I'm just neutral. And at the
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end of the evening, he came over and he hugged
me because he's a bit of a covert narcissist and
my opinion, which I'm entitled to, and he hugged me
and pretended like to be so loving and generous, and
even though he wasn't for two years. And I'm not bitter.
I'm just saying the truth. And so he mentioned something
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and it was very because I know him. It was
very sarcastic, and it was meant to try and diminish me.
And I literally felt this wall of energy well up
inside me and when it hit my heart, it popped
out of my chest and just like went back to him,
almost like I threw the energy back on him. And
I turned around, I walked away, and I got in
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my car and I drove home, and I realized that
I had given him back everything that was no longer mine,
every guilt, every punishment, every you know, nastiness, every abandonment.
I had thrown the energy all back on him. And
that was the day that I really started to heal
from that particular experience and that marriage. And it was
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a beautiful feeling because I literally wasn't neutral because the
energy just came off me. And so that's a great visualization.
If you have a situation like that where the energy
really is weighing you down and masking your grief, visualize
yourself taking it like a big ball of energy. You know,
we have the Zenkudah ball behind me, which I always
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say is the Z ball, z ball of light, right,
put it in a big ball and just throw it
to them and it's theirs now, not to harm them,
not to wish them negative, just to give them back
their own assignment, because it's not your assignment. It's their homework.
It's their Earth school work. And so now let's get
back into more exercises about getting that joy back, because
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I gave you all where to find where it's buried
and all that stuff, so you're going to take your
joy back. The way I did it, anyway, was not
in like big grand micro like big gestures, but in
micro moments like the dogs for touching my leg, laying
by the lighthouse and feeling the sun on me. I
went out and bought a sketch book. And I am
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by no means an artist. I'm like the stick person people,
you know. And I went out and put a sketchbook
and I started sketching with colored pencil, and I just,
you know, no one'll ever see it. Really, probably maybe
they will, I don't know. May I'll put him in
a book one day. But that brought me joy because
it was a way to express so not in giant leaves,
but just in micro movements. Because joy is a muscle,
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it really is. It's a muscle that we have to flex,
and if we haven't flexed it in a while, we
forget how to be joyful. I know my producer Bobby
likes to go to church once a week, and I
love that he is so faithful and I know that
he finds his joy there. God is joyful if we
allow him into our hearts. So you know, start some
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kind of a ritual for joy, something that you do
weekly that is your joy, something that you give yourself,
and you're teaching yourself how to receive and allow joy
and trust joy because you're creating it on a regular
basis and you're flexing that muscle. It's like going to
the gym, only you're going to the joy gym. And
you know, step outside and just feel the sun. You know,
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dance around the house for three minutes. If you have
an Alexa, set her and say lexa place I dance
music for five minutes or three minutes and just dance.
You know, when we move energy, we cannot be sad.
Start a joy jar. I have a jar in my home,
which was actually my mom's cookie jar. She loved it.
It's hand blown clear cookijar umber colored cookie jar with
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a cork top. And every time I go someplace special,
I have a special dinner at a restaurant, or I
have people over to my home for a dinner, I
take the wine corks and I write who, the names
of who, the night and the date was with them.
And I have a big jar filled with corks of beautiful,
wonderful connections and times together. And sometimes when I'm sad,
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I spill it on the table and I look at
all the corks and I remember all those times, you know,
and there's energy of joy in that. I even have
a cork in there from the champagne bottle that was
opened in the back of the limousine on my wedding day,
and I leave it in there because that was a
joyful moment. I can still feel that moment bubble up,
that beautif full expansion of love and the people around
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me that day. It doesn't matter what happened after that,
it's just I remember that day. There's quirks in there
from beautiful dinners that I had at my house, birthdays
and celebrations and housewarmings and Christmases and you know, and
just Saturday afternoons that were rainy, you know, and it's
just beautiful, beautiful times. So start that joy jar, you know,
put little messages in it or little notes, or maybe
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it's just a joy journal. That's a really cool thing
to do every day, Like think about what made you smile.
You may need those memories someday. And when we do that,
you're going to watch how heaven begins to build. For me,
just talking about those things is making the energy in
the studio feel lighter, you know, So it's really cool.
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So I want to get back to like me, the
story of me as the little girl who used to
get in bed sad with her mom and that kind
of thing. Those things are conditioning, and that's why I
asked you guys to think about, you know how, what
your emotional patterns are. When you feel sadness, or you
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feel neglect, or you feel negative emotions, what are your
emotional patterns because those are your parental controls or whoever.
I hate to say it, but our brains are formed
as children, right, We're wired by the people who are
are parental units. Not to blame anyone's parents, you know,
We're all got our soul contracts, we have our assignments,
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but the way we emotionally process things oftentimes is the
parental programming. So ask yourself those emotional patterns that you have.
You know a lot of times we default to them,
and we'll say things like, oh, this is just who
I am. When I get upset, I do blankly blank, Well,
is that really authentic to you? Is that really what
you need? Is that serving you? Or is that just
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your default defense complex thing that you're running. So ask
yourself in regards to those emotional patterns. Is this my
authentic script or is this script written by somebody else?
And I'm just in the story now Because we're at
a time now up until the end of this year
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and into the first half of twenty twenty six where
the stories are all getting rewritten. Guys, we are It's
like that old song. We're not going to take it.
The stories are all getting rewritten. So we got to
find our joy and we have to write the way
we find our joy based on our authentic soul space,
not someone else's. And we also have to rewrite those
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emotional responses that we have to grief too, sadness, to loss,
and make sure those scripts are our authentic emotional responses
because we've been so surrounded by media and patriarchal society
and parental ways that we grow up and conditioning, cultural, religious,
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every way that we're taught how to handle emotional patterns,
and they may not be authentic. So ask yourself, is
this my script? Your soul's assignment should feel light, it
should feel expensive. The things that we do to emotionally
process or handle loss should lead us to joy. It's
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the process of releasing things, processing them. Just like we
process our food and we take the nutrients out of
it and then we let it go. We get rid
of the waste, right, we eliminate, we release. That's the
same thing with processing emotions. So make sure the way
you're processing is yours and right for you, not something
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that someone else told you how to process something. Because
if you're using someone else's script to process your emotions,
that's probably why you feel stuck. You feel like you
can't get out of you know, depression, sadness, neglect, hunger, detriment,
deprivation because you're not processing your emotional distresses, your grief,
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all those things. You're not processing the way that your
soul came here to do it, so it stuck. But
when you listen to your soul in those moments of
joy and you find that joy, then when you go
to process those things, the soul is seeking joy. The
soul is seeking the expansion of love. So through the
process of those negative emotions, it will find that. Like
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a heat seeking missile, it will find that. But if
it's laying under layers and layers of conditioning, including how
to process your emotions, it can't find it because your
brain and your ego is battling that. So you'll know
if you're in the right process if you find yourself
feeling nurtured and healed during your sadness, during your grief,
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if you're starting to feel like, Okay, I'm feeling this,
but I know it's not forever. I'm feeling this, but
it's not overwhelming, then you know that your parental programming
or the programs that you've been using to process your
grief is better. You're getting better. But if you're feeling
heavy and it feels overwhelming and you feel like this
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will never end, it's never going to get better. I
don't know what to do. I'm really in a crisis
situation here, I don't know what's wrong with me. If
that's your inner dialogue, then you're processing based on someone
else's script and you're stuck. So here are your questions
to ask yourself? Is this mine? Is this assignment, this sadness,
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this grief? Is this mine? Or is this somebody else's
I've taken on? How can I stay in my joy
so that I'm fully powerful to overcome this? What lights
me up? What drains me? What lights me up? The
walk on the beach, an ice cream cone, a certain
TV show, seeing a certain person. You know, I have
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a friend of mine eight thousand miles away. As soon
as I hear your voice, I light up. I have
another friend who lives maybe a half hour away, that
we have the best conversations about spiritual stuff. That she
lights me up. What drains me people who are aggressive,
people who are aggressive for no reason, the constant droning
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of social media. Choose joy instead of going on social media.
I have to call my friend, right. So it seems simple,
but those are the little ways we flex the joy
muscle and then affirm I'm allowed to choose joy over duty,
over what someone else told me I had to be
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over what someone else told me was the correct way
to process things. You know, there's this old cliche that
everyone talks about that says everyone processes grief differently. Do
they even know what they're talking about? Do they know
what that means? Yes, that's true. But this is why,
because we're all processing differently, because we're looking for the
way our soul wants to process, and we're not getting
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there because we're trying to process to everything that we
were taught instead of what we're really feeling. I was
taught to go to bed, pull the covers up over
your head, pretend it didn't really happen. You ain't never
releasing anything that way. You're not ever getting over anything
that way. So in closing, ask yourself, what's your heaven?
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What is it? Write it down, tell me about it.
You can DM me, you can email me and direct
what's your heaven? You know, where's your peace? Remember I
said peace is intentional, said that on the last show.
But whatever it is, I guarantee you your heaven is
waiting for you. Your joy is waiting for you. We
have just buried it under a lot of stuff, and
it's time for us to know that it's waiting for us.
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We don't have to earn it. We just have to
remember what it feels like. We just have to remember.
Do that little exercise tomorrow morning when you wake up,
close your eyes. When was the last time you felt joy?
Or or when was the most joy you felt? You
just have to remit. So thank you for listening, Thank
you for getting this far and tuning in. Please share
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And remember joy is your birthright. Let's feel it together.
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Bye bye, guys,
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