May 21, 2025 • 35 mins
After a brief hiatus, the Spotlight series returns with an engaging episode featuring Anne Alexander Sieder— a talented actress and a coach who guides fellow creatives and purpose-driven individuals. In this special session, Anne receives profound insights directly from me during a personalized Tarot reading session. Throughout the episode, Anne opens up about entering a significant transitional phase in her life. The reading centers on embracing clarity, honoring self-care, and discovering the most authentic direction forward.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to Spotlight, where each week a guest takes center
stage for an intuitive Tarot reading. You'll get a front
row seat to a real recorded session as we explore
the magic of tarot together. My goal is to create
a space where we navigate challenges, uncover fresh perspectives, and
reconnect with inner wisdom, giving you a glimpse into what
it's like to receive a reading with me. Interested in
(00:22):
being a Spotlight guest, just fill out the application below
and I'll be in touch about getting you on. Now,
without further ado, let's meet this week's guest.
Speaker 2 (00:34):
Thank you so much for joining me for another episode
of Spotlight. This is a series where I bring guests
on to receive an intuitive Tara reading. And I have
a really great guest today. Her name is Anne Alexander Seedar.
She was actually a guest a couple of episodes where
we talked about her passion to pro projects. Thank you
so much for being here today, Anne.
Speaker 3 (00:51):
Ah, Thank you so much for having me.
Speaker 2 (00:53):
Sarah.
Speaker 3 (00:53):
I'm super excited about my Tarot reading. I love love this.
I had as a teenager. I used to do readings
for myself and my friends and all that. I was
never great at it. It's not like I didn't. I
wasn't getting you know, I was just sort of trying
and to interpret the cards by myself. But but I
really was into it, and I love kind of the thing.
(01:15):
So I'm really excited about it.
Speaker 2 (01:17):
That's awesome. That was actually how I started. It was
with a deck of my own cards. So, and I
was about fourteen fifteen when I started. It's like it's
like the taboo, like, let's check this out kind of
a thing. Yes, yes, Oh that's so exciting. Well, I'd
love to see what your experiences are with this compared
to like, wait, when you played with it when you
were younger. But yeah, so I'm so excited to have
you on have a reading. I know that when we
(01:39):
talked pre recording, you were wanting to do more like
a career base. So it'll be a higher self high,
your self spread, and we'll focus on what you need
to know around your career. So while I go ahead
in and shuffle, why don't you share a litup about
you and then if you have you had any other
professional readings for the past, or was it just when
you were younger and kind of played with the cards.
Speaker 3 (02:00):
A friend of mine has actually become a professional tarot reader.
So she, while she was still an apprenticeship, gave me
a reading and it, you know, it was it was good.
But I think it's still so recent, so it's hard
to say.
Speaker 2 (02:24):
So.
Speaker 3 (02:24):
I have had a professional reading before, but only one really,
I guess as far as taro goes, I've had. You know,
I've sat with mediums before as well, and other types
of spiritual readings. I guess you could call it not
necessarily a medium, but someone who reads energy or reiki. Yeah,
(02:49):
I've always been super interested and really open to all
of that. So yeah, and yeah, you asked me to
say a little bit about myself. My name is Anna.
I'm an actor who lives in Germany. I've been here
for thirty years. I came for love, not my career,
(03:09):
but I have managed to make both work. I still
have my same guy that I came here for thirty
years ago, and I still have my career, so that's
all good. And I'm curious about my acting career. But
I'm actually because I've also become a coach in the
past couple of years, and I'm really expanding my business
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going off in a couple of different directions with it,
so I serve actors or I help actors who are
trained and who've been in the business for a couple
of years but aren't still getting the roles that they
know they deserve. So I'm a career coach for that
kind of a person. And I'm also starting a brand
(03:53):
new thing in June which is called Passion Project to Purpose,
which is all about helping people, regardless of what their
passion is, to figure that out monetize their passion without
having to be the expert by curating experts, coaches, whatever
(04:15):
it is that their thing is and bringing them peep
these people in creating events around that and basically creating
a curriculum around their passions and then they'll find the people.
You can think of these like a museum curator curates
an exhibit or a gallery, so it's very similar to that,
(04:36):
and people resonate with one gallery as opposed to another
because of the curator. So it's teaching people how to
curate their passions in a way that it can resonate
with other people and in a way that they can
actually earn money from it without having to be the expert.
So that's where I'm at with that.
Speaker 2 (04:56):
Yeah, that's super exciting. And yeah, I'm curious what your
reading is going to folk us on, if it's going
to be more acting based or more I have a
feeling it will probably be more geared towards your coaching
and your other programs. But you'll have to tell me
that once we're you know, once wekend.
Speaker 3 (05:09):
Okay, yeah, yeah, I mean, you know, when Netflix calls,
I'll go.
Speaker 2 (05:12):
But a Netflix makes some amazing movies, so they do,
they absolutely do. Yeah, that's awesome. So I went ahead
and did my my Higher Self spread. It's a spread
that I created kind of accidentally or more organically. It
created itself really because there's gonna be seven cards. I'm
gonna go over your theme, your past, present, future energies,
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and then Higher Self messages as a whole. And I
know I said this pre recording, but just a reminder,
feel free to interrupt me at any point in time
if you have questions or comments, because I will always
start talking and not stop unless I need to. I
always I've been working on remembering to stop and check
in so I don't just keep going. But don't pray
to interrupt me. So it's up to you if you
(05:56):
want to comment as we go or wait till the end,
totally fine. So I want to start with your theme,
which is the Eight of Pentacles reversed. And I actually
really love this one of my favorite cards. Well I
can't say that I have too many favorite cards, but
I love this card for you. We're just the reading
in general that's coming up. So the Eight of Pentacles,
(06:17):
it speaks to a feeling of impatience, but because actually
it's kind of ironic based on what you were just
sharing about, how you can you know, do what you
need to do without being an expert, because this card
in and of itself speaks to having to be the
student when you actually feel like you want to already
be the expert. That's the energy that's coming up around
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your theme is when it comes to your programming. So
there's a part of you that wants to almost feels
like you should be almost farther along, or you have
a hard time with starting over. It's this idea of
like you have to be you have to be the
apprentice again. And there's a part of it it's like
what I've done the apprentice, I kind of want to
be past the apprentice. And with this one, it's I
(07:00):
love it because it specifically speaks to you when you
lean into student, you know, being the student and apprenticeship,
especially when it comes to you know, like your own programs,
which I think when we put out a program, it's
like an actual official program, we feel like, well, we
should be an expert when we put the program out.
But the thing is we're always learning too, kind of
like to your point, when you're when you're you know,
becoming a curator of events, you're learning as you go
(07:23):
in that situation. So your theme is actually learning how
to still be the student, even though there might be a.
Speaker 3 (07:29):
Part of Yeah, well, I got to say, like entrepreneurialism,
I've been an artist my whole life, so like this
whole thing of becoming an entrepreneur, there is so much
to learn. I mean, so so, so so much to learn.
So yeah, that totally resonates because I feel like every
day it's like when I look back how far we've come,
(07:52):
what we've done, what I've learned, what I now take
for granted, it gives me a lot of pride, but
I also look at the mountain ahead and know that
there's still so much to learn. And do and accomplish
and to get where I want to go. So yeah,
that totally resonates.
Speaker 2 (08:09):
It's just that reminder of yes, you're going to be
teaching this, but also also you're still going to be
learning and to not fight that feeling.
Speaker 3 (08:18):
Well, I don't know about that, to be honest, no seriously,
because I mean I've had twelve years of doing what
I'm going to be teaching for a pastion project, and
I've had forty years of being an actor.
Speaker 2 (08:28):
So I don't know.
Speaker 3 (08:29):
I don't feel that way about what I teach, but
I do feel that way definitely about being a student
as far as what I have to learn for my
own my own path.
Speaker 2 (08:42):
Right, I'm wondering if this too maybe it's speaking to
like the not necessarily this teaching part of it, but
like the the running of it of the program maybe.
But yeah, but yeah, so that's just that's the starting
point is It's just like there's a little resistance around that,
but leaning more into being a student. Looking at your
(09:02):
recent past, we had the hair a font reversed, the
what what is that? The hararifont I know it's a
fun one to say, so this is what the what
the picture looks like for you it came up reverse though,
so this is actually a cool car. Like the lineup
on the top of the past Present future energies is
actually very cool. The hairrifont isn't from your your past
(09:27):
kind of the energy you're coming from, and it's just
speaking to you. You've had to really relearn how you
look at things, how you erase, how you saw how
you should be living your life. You really had to
go back and peel back the layers of programming, of
conditioning of what people told you you should be doing,
and figuring out, well, what what actually feels good to me,
(09:48):
not what everyone else is saying. So learning how to
self govern, learning how that self sovereignty, and so I
feel like like and it is reversed. There's like a
lot of awareness around it. I think that just it's
just speaking to your past, leaning into leading into your
care Now. You really had to figure out, well, who
am I, What is it that I'm wanting to do
versus what other people are expecting of me or society
(10:08):
expecting of me? Who what is it that I bring
to the table, what are my values? Who? You know?
Just really peeling back again, like programming from probably child
usually goes back to childhood, but just you know what
society tells us, here's your box, this is where you
stay in and you're learning I'm going to go outside
the box, thank you. But that takes a lot of work.
(10:29):
It's not easy to do that so that it's just
speaking to In order to be where you're at now,
you've had to do a lot of that on programming
and let go of beliefs and values and things that
you were raised with or had for very long and
then realize, no, that's not helping me now, that's not
serving me right now, and releasing it. Yeah maybe.
Speaker 3 (10:51):
I mean I've always been a rebel, so I'm not sure,
you know, but I know that when I decided to
become relaunch my acting career, oooh, that was a tough
time between my husband and I and even with our
son because he saw how upset my husband was his dad.
(11:12):
And there was just a lot of pull around what
was expected of me as a mother and a wife
and my own desires to self actualize. And these are
also themes that really interest me in my writing as well,
like especially women who are whether you know you want
(11:35):
to call it selfish or not. I think some people
would say that I was selfish to pursue an acting
career when it was causing my husband so much pain.
But I think, you know, it's my life and I
have to live it the way I see it, and
it is what it is, right, But it doesn't mean
I'm happy to hurt him. Definitely, and it was difficult.
(11:59):
I mean we we almost divorced over it a couple
of times over like a ten year period, and I
think he finally kind of accepted it. And you know,
I think anyway relationships, a thirty year relationship will die
and be reborn many times, you know, and either they
are reborn like a phoenix from the flame, or they're not,
(12:24):
but the relationship will not stay the same. And so
but this was our hardest one. Was was because everything
for him, I think felt like it was really changing,
and in a lot of ways it was. So it
is a theme that definitely resonates with me, like women
who are pulled because I'm also very very maternal so
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and really, you know, really want to be there for
my son and all of that, and yet had this
huge pull to yeah, self actualization and guilt around that
as well, so, yeah, that makes sense too.
Speaker 2 (13:03):
That Yeah, and I'm glad you mentioned the you know,
I'm so sorry you went through that with your husband.
But that actually comes a lot with the harafont Is.
Push back from family, push back from close you know,
like like yeah, the marital partners, because again there's this
societal expectation and especially you saying that you're so maternal,
there's probably a part of you that was dealing with
some internal guilt of like, am I doing making the
(13:25):
worst decision right now and yet my selfish?
Speaker 3 (13:28):
Yeah, exactly now.
Speaker 2 (13:30):
But it's more about learning how to listen, No, this
is what I need to do, like regardless, I feel
like this is in alignment with me, even though no
one else understands. And that's part of the like unlike
unraveling of the harafont Is learning how to release expectations
and things that were put on you in order to
get more aligned with yourself. And that's not easy, especially
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when you get the pushback. So I love that that's
in your past because it does show that you know
that that's where you're coming from, and that's how you've
gotten where you are presently. I have the sun reverse
reverse card. Yeah, loves reversed. Yeah, so the Sun I
love this. So the sign I like to call the
(14:11):
Sun the butterfly card. So when you think of the
caterpillar becoming the butterfly, it has to go through a
gilly mess, which is probably what the hairfon is speaking to. Rights.
To get where you are now, you had to, you know,
fight to become who you are essentially, and once you
get to the sun, it's time to really just show
off who you are, like, these are my beautiful wings
I curated in my journey, and you're showing the mop
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and you're standing in your authenticity with it being reversed.
That usually speaks to like it's like, you're on this
interesting how do you explain it? It's like you're you're kind
of teetering, like like on a seesaw. We're like, on
one hand, there's a part of you that still kind
of has some like I don't know if it's guilt
or like fears of really showing up as the butterfly,
(14:56):
because you know, when we become a newer version of ourselves,
there are still people who know this as the caterpillar,
and it's like, oh my gosh, will they like me?
As a butterfly. Maybe I shouldn't show off my wings
too proudly because what will they think of me with
my mind?
Speaker 3 (15:11):
I don't think that's my problems there, But you know
what it could be, which is I mean, this is
what I kind of alluded to in the email, was
I feel like I'm standing like at this crossroads and
I could fully lean into being a coach. I could
fully lean you know, into my acting career and like
(15:34):
put so much of this energy that I'm putting into
the coaching into the acting, I can kind of split,
and which is kind of what I'm doing right now.
It's like I'm you know, like I tape two auditions today,
I had, you know, so I feel like I'm sort
of being torn in all these different directions. And it's
(15:58):
and I am very interested. Coaching, I'm finding is very
fulfilling on many levels. Naturally, you know, I have like
I never am like, yeah, I just want to coach
little groups. No, I want like, you know, to be
on big stages and all of that that that part
of me still comes out right, Yeah, But I wonder
(16:18):
if that's what it is, is like trying to decide
which wings to put on.
Speaker 2 (16:23):
And it could even be if you've evolved and you're
in you're finding yourself leaning more towards coaching. But the
caterpillar was more the acting for you because we you know,
we've evolved as a caterpillar butterfly several times in our lives, right,
so like and so I'm wondering if maybe it's it's
more like which wings to put on and for yourself,
which one is more authentic? Because the sun is all
(16:45):
about putting on the most authentic wings, you know, the
ones that really feel, that really feel a mind. And
so it does it does speak to that, you know, yeah,
because with it being well, so when the sun's reversed,
it is it's all about like how do I show
up as my best self? And usually there's there's a
feeling of being torn and so and it could even
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be you've built this career as an actress and now
you're building this career as a coach. There could even
be this part of it. It's like, well, people taking
as seriously as a coach as they did as an actress.
So there could be that aspect as well.
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Speaker 3 (18:10):
I think so it's for me, it's always internal struggles
like what you know what? But I feel like I'm
also very in tune just as an actor, like always
checking and all of that. And I also feel like,
no matter what anyone ends up doing in life, whatever
they have done is important and has led into.
Speaker 2 (18:33):
That Oh yeah, absolutely. I think it's just like it's
more about that transitional like where what's happening where you know,
like how do I be my most authentic self is
kind of what's the question? And you know what you'll
have to work through and kind of lean more into
moving into the near future. I love this is the
ton of Pentacles also reversed. Okay, and then the higher
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self message to the near future is the wheel and
someone to go over Both of these like together, but
like one card at a time. So the Ton of
Pentacles reversed. So this one, this one is a great card,
especially for what you're trying to put out on the
blue world. And I would say even both with acting
and your programs either way, but it's face to say
that you naturally you stand out. You what you do
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makes a difference. In fact, if you look at the
picture sales people standing around in a circle holding hands,
like yeah, you are the tree basically like you bring
people together your energies and and I love it because
it also speaks to like the ripple effect, like you
help one person and then think about all the other
people they help as well, and so so again with
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the reversal, there's there's just kind of this like like
not fully seeing what you can, like your potential, like
wanting maybe it's almost like, well, it's just me. Can
I really make that big of a difference? You want
to make the difference, but it's the like can I
really do it? And this card's like yeah, yes. It's
more like coming back to that sun and like really
(20:03):
like owning it, because I think that's part of the
sun too. Is also owning like your own alignment and
owning your own power and owning what you bring to
the world. And this is just like saying you have
in your words, your story, it has impact and it's
going to bring people together. And so it's it's just
this one is just all about owning it. Yes, that's
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my power, that's my that that's like what I'm here for.
I'm here to bring people together and make an impact.
And the higher self message is the wheel. And so
this one is interesting. It talks about learning how to
see any kind of setbacks as you know, like twisting
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it into a positive instead of like feeling like, oh no,
it's a setback, now what am I going to do?
Or feeling like it's falling apart. So it's interesting that
that's coming up in the near future. It doesn't it's
not always setbacks, but it's just learning to have that balance,
whether it's something really good or something that's not so good,
it's learning how to have that balance and that idea
of it's all happening for me, there's no you know,
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it's not there's no bad or good. It's just it's
all happening for me.
Speaker 3 (21:10):
I believe that, Yeah, I really do. It may not
feel like that all the time, but I do believe
that it has its purpose, whatever that it may be.
You know, there's a reason for it. There's a reason
you have to learn that lesson or yeah, whatever may
happen to be.
Speaker 2 (21:27):
But I do believe that, yeah, yeah, it's very much
that it's happening for me, not to me energy, which
is like the you know, the opposite of victim mentality,
which is, oh my god, my world's you know, it's
crumbling and now. And so I find that interesting being
in the near future with the tone of Pentacles. I
think it's just I'm wondering if there's a part of
you that's like it's saying that, you know, you make
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this big impact, and so if something doesn't quite go
the way you want it to or hoping it will,
or there's a step back, like feeling like your impact
will be less. Maybe that's what it's speaking to, but
knowing that no, it doesn't matter what is or isn't happening,
your impact is going to be the same. Your your
impact is still going to make a difference, even if
something happens to not necessarily go the way that you
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want it or you know, coming back to that mentality
of it's still I'm still putting amazing content out there,
and it's all happening for me, not to mean it's
all happening for the greater good. So also coming back
to that impact, anyone that's that you're going to be
touching and having that impact on is going to be positive.
It's going to be helping people, because that one's all
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about just kind of trusting the process, trusting what unfolds.
So the two cards in the middle, the first one
is the ton of wands. So this one is just
this one is just saying, watch what you're putting on
your plate and how much you're carrying, because when you
tell when the totals comes up, it's basically like you
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got a lot. You got a lot of spitting plates
that you're trying to hold at the same time, and
so what happens with a ton of wands is to
one of two things. Either you can actually stop and
be like, Okay, I really need to take inventory and
figure out what I want to continue to carry and
what I can delegate, or what I can completely set
down and really take in the inventory, and that will
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help you make space for what you're trying to create
and put out there and who you want to become
versus The flip side of that is continuing to take
things on, take things on, taking things on until now
you're overwhelmed, and then you don't have extra energy to
do other things, and then it's just like too much weight.
And so right now it's just kind of letting you
know you're at the place in your life where you
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need to take inventory. And that could even be speaking
to that sun card too, is figuring out what are
you putting energy into that really aligns with you, and
what are you putting energy into that doesn't align with you.
That can either, like I said, be delegated so someone
else can help you carry it, or you can set
it down entirely. So it hasn't gotten to the overwhelmed
state yet. It's just letting you know that you're kind
of teetering on this place where you've got so much
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going on, you really needed to see what you can lighten,
how you can lighten the load.
Speaker 3 (24:03):
Yeah, that definitely resonates I have, yeah, too much going on.
Speaker 2 (24:10):
True. And then the card next to it is just
kind of a yeah, I'll just say what the card is.
It's the Ace of Cups And this one is just
a huge imitation to emotional self care, which kind of
ties a lot into that ton of ones. If you
have so much going on, you don't really have the
space to like stop and breathe and like really take
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care of you, and so the Ace of Cups, the
biggest invitation with this is to just get in touch
with your emotional capacity on a daily basis, because we're
either operating from a full cup, half cup, empty cup,
right like emotionally, but if you don't know where you're
standing with your emotions, you're not going to be able
to get that under control where you can feel nourish
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and you can feel like you're emotionally you're not overwhelmed,
you're doing okay. And not only that, but the ideal
is to have your cup overflowing, so that way you
can get to others without taking from your own reserves.
And so this is just letting you know that, like
your emotional especially with being right next and of lands,
I feel like it's like, hey, your emotional self care
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and taking care of you is getting out the back burner,
and we need to make more space to have to
add how can I take care of me in a
daily basis, whether it's taking five minutes to meditate, or
taking thirty minutes to read a book keep and meaning
to read, or you know something that like really just
makes you feel like you can just take that big,
like deep breath or that big glass of water.
Speaker 3 (25:32):
And just be like, yeah, I wonder it's because you know,
my son is my partner, okay, and so I'm basically
working for him even though it's my business. I own
seventy's thirty, but like a majority of like all of
(25:53):
the expense or the uh prof well, everything is going
to him because he lives in La He's got to
pay his life and da da da da dah. And
I'm okay, I have other streams of income with my
commercials and acting and my husband and you know all
these things, right, but I'm definitely feeling the strain of
(26:14):
that at this point, and it's like, I feel like
we need to either it's got to be justified, you know,
this exorminant amount every month, or I can't go on
with it. You know, I'm not willing to go into
my savings or anything, which I did for a year
because I was getting my coaching business off the ground.
(26:36):
He was helping, you know, I was. I was compensating him,
and he deserves all that and more. I'm not saying
he doesn't deserve it. But the well is running dry,
right because that's how it goes, right until you get
new new things. And so I'm definitely feeling a lot
of pressure in all of that. And I've told him, like,
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you need to think about some other things to subsidize
or something. I am not going to be dipping into
my savings anymore.
Speaker 2 (27:07):
And that's that's it.
Speaker 3 (27:10):
Yeah, So I wonder if that's it as well, because
it's definitely that's definitely a stress and a strain at
the moment. Yeah.
Speaker 2 (27:19):
I mean, well, that also sounds like definitely ten of
Wand's energy of like looking at everything you've got going
on and figuring out what needs to be put down
it's like that's something that needs to be put down,
and then the emotional capacity is Yeah, it's creating circumstances
where you're more at peace, which that would be a
form of that, right, is kind of taking away that stress.
(27:40):
But usually it's more like a daily practice the ace
of cup specifically, because it's more like, how can you
check in with yourself daily and see how full your
cup is? You know, is my cup empty? Oh it's empty?
What can I do to refill that? What do I
need to nourish my emotional capacity to refill that? You know,
if it's full, great, I maybe you just need to
check in and see him good and move on with
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my day. Or oh my god, maybe this thing coming up,
I just need to either you know, reschedule or you know,
before I do this thing, I need to really prioritize
time for me just to kind of reconnect and recenter myself.
So that's more about like a daily checking in with
your emotional capacity. Yeah, if that makes sense.
Speaker 3 (28:19):
Yeah, yeah, totally. I was doing it for a long time.
I go jogging every day with my dog. Even today,
I know, we had beautiful weather here, so I hadn't
done this with her in so long. I took two
breaks during the day to play frisbee with her, which
I hadn't. She was thrilled and yeah it felt good.
Speaker 2 (28:39):
I have to say, yeah, that's exactly what. And I know,
I'm glad that you mentioned that because I think what
people think self care, they think of like, oh, meditating
or you know, walking through nature or you know, it's
always things really like vague or yeah, yeah, things, but
like that's a perfect example. When you go and play
frisbee with your dog, it refreshes you. You enjoy the
time with your dog, and then it's easier to come
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back to the real world, like, Okay, my top's been
refilled while I played with my dog and too, yeah exactly, exactly.
So I love that example. That's so yeah exactly. Doing
things like that that is like, okay, cool, Now I'm
good to go to my next interview, and i feel refreshed.
I don't feel like I'm giving from the bottom of
the barrel kind of energy.
Speaker 3 (29:22):
Yeah, that makes really good sense, and I think I
do need to get back into a practice of meditating.
I was doing it, not huge, but you know, like
five minutes a day, and I just because I like
to do it outside. I had stopped because we had winter,
but now it's spring us here, so I can start again.
Speaker 2 (29:41):
So yeah, yeah, so that was everything that came through.
I do feel like with the sun reverse and the Pentacles,
I feel like a lot of what you're doing is
you're learning, and you're you're in the middle of this
like transitional period where you're trying to figure out really
who you are and what really aligns with you and
what it is that you're like the next step that
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feels the most to you. And it doesn't mean that
you have to necessarily pick one or the other, because
I know they're both really important to you, But I
think leaning more picking an energy that feels that you
could put more into one or the other.
Speaker 3 (30:14):
Yeah, I don't know, And I can feel all this
resistance even just thinking about it, so I don't know.
Speaker 2 (30:19):
Yeah, yeah, I just I feel like with the sun here,
it's there's definitely, like I think you said it perfectly,
which wings do I need to put on? And I
think that that's kind of where you're at, is learning
which one is more fulfilling and which one can you,
you know, put more energy into and the other one
you can put less, not like, and it doesn't mean
that acting or or that one will become a hobby.
I think it's just more like which one is really
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filling my soul more than the other one, do you know?
Speaker 3 (30:46):
I also feel like the so the acting takes me
away a lot, which is hard for my husband. And
he's now getting to a point where he's you know,
getting close or retiring and wants to more. And it's
that's hard as an actor because generally, like the rule is,
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we book a trip, I get cast in something, and
that's that's you know, Murphy's law. It always almost always happens,
and that sucks. So, you know, it's also been something
that's been on my mind. He's he deserves to have
a nice retirement, he deserves to travel, he deserves to
have his wife with him, you know. The coaching I
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can also do more on my own, like control it more.
I don't know. There are so many things swirling in
here right now, you know. But then I think that,
you know, and then that comes the other the Devil's advocate.
It's like, yeah, but if you were doing your own
stuff right, creating your own projects, your own films, and
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you could be doing that as well, So I don't know,
we I guess we'll see it will play out.
Speaker 2 (31:56):
One way or another. But I would say the biggest
thing here or like that, like the biggest invitations because
of like where you're at, it's like, make sure you
continue to be that student, you know, taking in what
both sides, like what are you learning, what's you know,
what's meant yeah in sense, and then really making sure
you're not overwhelming yourself and taking with that because I
feel like, especially with the making the space for self care,
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you'll likely find more clarity around this situation because right now,
with a ton of wanes here, it's like you've got
so much going on, where's the space for you to
connect with yourself to see what you really want and
what's what's you know, what really calls to you? Because
maybe you can find a way to do both and
and and still have that you know, and still have
your husband be a part of it, you know what
(32:39):
I mean. So he doesn't feel so I mean, there
may be more options that you're not necessarily seeing, and
I feel like it just like makes space for you
to really connect with yourself, to really find that center
and clarity.
Speaker 3 (32:49):
And it's interesting because my friends reading it was very
similar in that Yeah even then, well it was a
few months ago, but I see, not much has changed.
She was like, you're you're juggling so many plates, and
you're you're doing so much and you need to take
time and you're standing at a crossroads. So I guess
everything is still kind of the same.
Speaker 2 (33:10):
It's still where I was. Yeah, you know, it's funny
you say that because that will happen a lot of
times you get even if you get rings from different people,
it'll usually there's a similar theme that will follow you
until it's been until changes exactly. And I mean, I
do you feel like, you know, with the aid of
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pentacles here it speaks to being that student, it speaks
to learning, it speaks to like, you know, you're on
the journey. So I would say that that's actually a
good sign that you're you have most likely made progress
since then. It's just you know, it's you're learning as
you go, and as you learn, you'll find you know,
you'll find more of what you're what you're needing. But this,
but yeah, a lot of invitation is making space for
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you self care, working through like what is it like,
what's the most authentic thing for you right now, buring
out what that means to you, you know, and so yeah,
that's really cool to coincide it though.
Speaker 3 (34:08):
Yeah, yeah, definitely. Well I really appreciate this.
Speaker 2 (34:11):
It was fun. Yeah, absolutely, Well, thank you for joining
me and letting me have you on as a guest
for my new series. I super appreciate it.
Speaker 3 (34:21):
Yeah, me too. I appreciate you doing this. It was
definitely gave me a lot to think about. And yeah,
my biggest takeaway from this is slow down, don't put
so much on my plate, and definitely take time. Yeah,
I don't want to wear myself then, you know, And
I know that has also been at the back of.
Speaker 2 (34:42):
My mind, like just careful.
Speaker 3 (34:43):
You know, you're running yourself ragged, so slow down.
Speaker 1 (34:48):
Yeah, thank you for joining me on another inspiring episode.
I hope these conversations have ignited a spark within you.
Until next time, keep exploring, growing, and embracing the beautiful
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Welcome to Spotlight, where each week a guest takes center
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row seat to a real recorded session as we explore
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without further ado, let's meet this week's guest.
Speaker 2 (00:34):
Thank you so much for joining me for another episode
of Spotlight. This is a series where I bring guests
on to receive an intuitive Tara reading. And I have
a really great guest today. Her name is Anne Alexander Seedar.
She was actually a guest a couple of episodes where
we talked about her passion to pro projects. Thank you
so much for being here today, Anne.
Speaker 3 (00:51):
Ah, Thank you so much for having me.
Speaker 2 (00:53):
Sarah.
Speaker 3 (00:53):
I'm super excited about my Tarot reading. I love love this.
I had as a teenager. I used to do readings
for myself and my friends and all that. I was
never great at it. It's not like I didn't. I
wasn't getting you know, I was just sort of trying
and to interpret the cards by myself. But but I
really was into it, and I love kind of the thing.
(01:15):
So I'm really excited about it.
Speaker 2 (01:17):
That's awesome. That was actually how I started. It was
with a deck of my own cards. So, and I
was about fourteen fifteen when I started. It's like it's
like the taboo, like, let's check this out kind of
a thing. Yes, yes, Oh that's so exciting. Well, I'd
love to see what your experiences are with this compared
to like, wait, when you played with it when you
were younger. But yeah, so I'm so excited to have
you on have a reading. I know that when we
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talked pre recording, you were wanting to do more like
a career base. So it'll be a higher self high,
your self spread, and we'll focus on what you need
to know around your career. So while I go ahead
in and shuffle, why don't you share a litup about
you and then if you have you had any other
professional readings for the past, or was it just when
you were younger and kind of played with the cards.
Speaker 3 (02:00):
A friend of mine has actually become a professional tarot reader.
So she, while she was still an apprenticeship, gave me
a reading and it, you know, it was it was good.
But I think it's still so recent, so it's hard
to say.
Speaker 2 (02:24):
So.
Speaker 3 (02:24):
I have had a professional reading before, but only one really,
I guess as far as taro goes, I've had. You know,
I've sat with mediums before as well, and other types
of spiritual readings. I guess you could call it not
necessarily a medium, but someone who reads energy or reiki. Yeah,
(02:49):
I've always been super interested and really open to all
of that. So yeah, and yeah, you asked me to
say a little bit about myself. My name is Anna.
I'm an actor who lives in Germany. I've been here
for thirty years. I came for love, not my career,
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but I have managed to make both work. I still
have my same guy that I came here for thirty
years ago, and I still have my career, so that's
all good. And I'm curious about my acting career. But
I'm actually because I've also become a coach in the
past couple of years, and I'm really expanding my business
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going off in a couple of different directions with it,
so I serve actors or I help actors who are
trained and who've been in the business for a couple
of years but aren't still getting the roles that they
know they deserve. So I'm a career coach for that
kind of a person. And I'm also starting a brand
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new thing in June which is called Passion Project to Purpose,
which is all about helping people, regardless of what their
passion is, to figure that out monetize their passion without
having to be the expert by curating experts, coaches, whatever
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it is that their thing is and bringing them peep
these people in creating events around that and basically creating
a curriculum around their passions and then they'll find the people.
You can think of these like a museum curator curates
an exhibit or a gallery, so it's very similar to that,
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and people resonate with one gallery as opposed to another
because of the curator. So it's teaching people how to
curate their passions in a way that it can resonate
with other people and in a way that they can
actually earn money from it without having to be the expert.
So that's where I'm at with that.
Speaker 2 (04:56):
Yeah, that's super exciting. And yeah, I'm curious what your
reading is going to folk us on, if it's going
to be more acting based or more I have a
feeling it will probably be more geared towards your coaching
and your other programs. But you'll have to tell me
that once we're you know, once wekend.
Speaker 3 (05:09):
Okay, yeah, yeah, I mean, you know, when Netflix calls,
I'll go.
Speaker 2 (05:12):
But a Netflix makes some amazing movies, so they do,
they absolutely do. Yeah, that's awesome. So I went ahead
and did my my Higher Self spread. It's a spread
that I created kind of accidentally or more organically. It
created itself really because there's gonna be seven cards. I'm
gonna go over your theme, your past, present, future energies,
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and then Higher Self messages as a whole. And I
know I said this pre recording, but just a reminder,
feel free to interrupt me at any point in time
if you have questions or comments, because I will always
start talking and not stop unless I need to. I
always I've been working on remembering to stop and check
in so I don't just keep going. But don't pray
to interrupt me. So it's up to you if you
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want to comment as we go or wait till the end,
totally fine. So I want to start with your theme,
which is the Eight of Pentacles reversed. And I actually
really love this one of my favorite cards. Well I
can't say that I have too many favorite cards, but
I love this card for you. We're just the reading
in general that's coming up. So the Eight of Pentacles,
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it speaks to a feeling of impatience, but because actually
it's kind of ironic based on what you were just
sharing about, how you can you know, do what you
need to do without being an expert, because this card
in and of itself speaks to having to be the
student when you actually feel like you want to already
be the expert. That's the energy that's coming up around
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your theme is when it comes to your programming. So
there's a part of you that wants to almost feels
like you should be almost farther along, or you have
a hard time with starting over. It's this idea of
like you have to be you have to be the
apprentice again. And there's a part of it it's like
what I've done the apprentice, I kind of want to
be past the apprentice. And with this one, it's I
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love it because it specifically speaks to you when you
lean into student, you know, being the student and apprenticeship,
especially when it comes to you know, like your own programs,
which I think when we put out a program, it's
like an actual official program, we feel like, well, we
should be an expert when we put the program out.
But the thing is we're always learning too, kind of
like to your point, when you're when you're you know,
becoming a curator of events, you're learning as you go
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in that situation. So your theme is actually learning how
to still be the student, even though there might be a.
Speaker 3 (07:29):
Part of Yeah, well, I got to say, like entrepreneurialism,
I've been an artist my whole life, so like this
whole thing of becoming an entrepreneur, there is so much
to learn. I mean, so so, so so much to learn.
So yeah, that totally resonates because I feel like every
day it's like when I look back how far we've come,
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what we've done, what I've learned, what I now take
for granted, it gives me a lot of pride, but
I also look at the mountain ahead and know that
there's still so much to learn. And do and accomplish
and to get where I want to go. So yeah,
that totally resonates.
Speaker 2 (08:09):
It's just that reminder of yes, you're going to be
teaching this, but also also you're still going to be
learning and to not fight that feeling.
Speaker 3 (08:18):
Well, I don't know about that, to be honest, no seriously,
because I mean I've had twelve years of doing what
I'm going to be teaching for a pastion project, and
I've had forty years of being an actor.
Speaker 2 (08:28):
So I don't know.
Speaker 3 (08:29):
I don't feel that way about what I teach, but
I do feel that way definitely about being a student
as far as what I have to learn for my
own my own path.
Speaker 2 (08:42):
Right, I'm wondering if this too maybe it's speaking to
like the not necessarily this teaching part of it, but
like the the running of it of the program maybe.
But yeah, but yeah, so that's just that's the starting
point is It's just like there's a little resistance around that,
but leaning more into being a student. Looking at your
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recent past, we had the hair a font reversed, the
what what is that? The hararifont I know it's a
fun one to say, so this is what the what
the picture looks like for you it came up reverse though,
so this is actually a cool car. Like the lineup
on the top of the past Present future energies is
actually very cool. The hairrifont isn't from your your past
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kind of the energy you're coming from, and it's just
speaking to you. You've had to really relearn how you
look at things, how you erase, how you saw how
you should be living your life. You really had to
go back and peel back the layers of programming, of
conditioning of what people told you you should be doing,
and figuring out, well, what what actually feels good to me,
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not what everyone else is saying. So learning how to
self govern, learning how that self sovereignty, and so I
feel like like and it is reversed. There's like a
lot of awareness around it. I think that just it's
just speaking to your past, leaning into leading into your
care Now. You really had to figure out, well, who
am I, What is it that I'm wanting to do
versus what other people are expecting of me or society
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expecting of me? Who what is it that I bring
to the table, what are my values? Who? You know?
Just really peeling back again, like programming from probably child
usually goes back to childhood, but just you know what
society tells us, here's your box, this is where you
stay in and you're learning I'm going to go outside
the box, thank you. But that takes a lot of work.
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It's not easy to do that so that it's just
speaking to In order to be where you're at now,
you've had to do a lot of that on programming
and let go of beliefs and values and things that
you were raised with or had for very long and
then realize, no, that's not helping me now, that's not
serving me right now, and releasing it. Yeah maybe.
Speaker 3 (10:51):
I mean I've always been a rebel, so I'm not sure,
you know, but I know that when I decided to
become relaunch my acting career, oooh, that was a tough
time between my husband and I and even with our
son because he saw how upset my husband was his dad.
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And there was just a lot of pull around what
was expected of me as a mother and a wife
and my own desires to self actualize. And these are
also themes that really interest me in my writing as well,
like especially women who are whether you know you want
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to call it selfish or not. I think some people
would say that I was selfish to pursue an acting
career when it was causing my husband so much pain.
But I think, you know, it's my life and I
have to live it the way I see it, and
it is what it is, right, But it doesn't mean
I'm happy to hurt him. Definitely, and it was difficult.
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I mean we we almost divorced over it a couple
of times over like a ten year period, and I
think he finally kind of accepted it. And you know,
I think anyway relationships, a thirty year relationship will die
and be reborn many times, you know, and either they
are reborn like a phoenix from the flame, or they're not,
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but the relationship will not stay the same. And so
but this was our hardest one. Was was because everything
for him, I think felt like it was really changing,
and in a lot of ways it was. So it
is a theme that definitely resonates with me, like women
who are pulled because I'm also very very maternal so
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and really, you know, really want to be there for
my son and all of that, and yet had this
huge pull to yeah, self actualization and guilt around that
as well, so, yeah, that makes sense too.
Speaker 2 (13:03):
That Yeah, and I'm glad you mentioned the you know,
I'm so sorry you went through that with your husband.
But that actually comes a lot with the harafont Is.
Push back from family, push back from close you know,
like like yeah, the marital partners, because again there's this
societal expectation and especially you saying that you're so maternal,
there's probably a part of you that was dealing with
some internal guilt of like, am I doing making the
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worst decision right now and yet my selfish?
Speaker 3 (13:28):
Yeah, exactly now.
Speaker 2 (13:30):
But it's more about learning how to listen, No, this
is what I need to do, like regardless, I feel
like this is in alignment with me, even though no
one else understands. And that's part of the like unlike
unraveling of the harafont Is learning how to release expectations
and things that were put on you in order to
get more aligned with yourself. And that's not easy, especially
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when you get the pushback. So I love that that's
in your past because it does show that you know
that that's where you're coming from, and that's how you've
gotten where you are presently. I have the sun reverse
reverse card. Yeah, loves reversed. Yeah, so the Sun I
love this. So the sign I like to call the
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Sun the butterfly card. So when you think of the
caterpillar becoming the butterfly, it has to go through a
gilly mess, which is probably what the hairfon is speaking to. Rights.
To get where you are now, you had to, you know,
fight to become who you are essentially, and once you
get to the sun, it's time to really just show
off who you are, like, these are my beautiful wings
I curated in my journey, and you're showing the mop
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and you're standing in your authenticity with it being reversed.
That usually speaks to like it's like, you're on this
interesting how do you explain it? It's like you're you're kind
of teetering, like like on a seesaw. We're like, on
one hand, there's a part of you that still kind
of has some like I don't know if it's guilt
or like fears of really showing up as the butterfly,
(14:56):
because you know, when we become a newer version of ourselves,
there are still people who know this as the caterpillar,
and it's like, oh my gosh, will they like me?
As a butterfly. Maybe I shouldn't show off my wings
too proudly because what will they think of me with
my mind?
Speaker 3 (15:11):
I don't think that's my problems there, But you know
what it could be, which is I mean, this is
what I kind of alluded to in the email, was
I feel like I'm standing like at this crossroads and
I could fully lean into being a coach. I could
fully lean you know, into my acting career and like
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put so much of this energy that I'm putting into
the coaching into the acting, I can kind of split,
and which is kind of what I'm doing right now.
It's like I'm you know, like I tape two auditions today,
I had, you know, so I feel like I'm sort
of being torn in all these different directions. And it's
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and I am very interested. Coaching, I'm finding is very
fulfilling on many levels. Naturally, you know, I have like
I never am like, yeah, I just want to coach
little groups. No, I want like, you know, to be
on big stages and all of that that that part
of me still comes out right, Yeah, But I wonder
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if that's what it is, is like trying to decide
which wings to put on.
Speaker 2 (16:23):
And it could even be if you've evolved and you're
in you're finding yourself leaning more towards coaching. But the
caterpillar was more the acting for you because we you know,
we've evolved as a caterpillar butterfly several times in our lives, right,
so like and so I'm wondering if maybe it's it's
more like which wings to put on and for yourself,
which one is more authentic? Because the sun is all
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about putting on the most authentic wings, you know, the
ones that really feel, that really feel a mind. And
so it does it does speak to that, you know, yeah,
because with it being well, so when the sun's reversed,
it is it's all about like how do I show
up as my best self? And usually there's there's a
feeling of being torn and so and it could even
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be you've built this career as an actress and now
you're building this career as a coach. There could even
be this part of it. It's like, well, people taking
as seriously as a coach as they did as an actress.
So there could be that aspect as well.
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Speaker 3 (18:10):
I think so it's for me, it's always internal struggles
like what you know what? But I feel like I'm
also very in tune just as an actor, like always
checking and all of that. And I also feel like,
no matter what anyone ends up doing in life, whatever
they have done is important and has led into.
Speaker 2 (18:33):
That Oh yeah, absolutely. I think it's just like it's
more about that transitional like where what's happening where you know,
like how do I be my most authentic self is
kind of what's the question? And you know what you'll
have to work through and kind of lean more into
moving into the near future. I love this is the
ton of Pentacles also reversed. Okay, and then the higher
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self message to the near future is the wheel and
someone to go over Both of these like together, but
like one card at a time. So the Ton of
Pentacles reversed. So this one, this one is a great card,
especially for what you're trying to put out on the
blue world. And I would say even both with acting
and your programs either way, but it's face to say
that you naturally you stand out. You what you do
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makes a difference. In fact, if you look at the
picture sales people standing around in a circle holding hands,
like yeah, you are the tree basically like you bring
people together your energies and and I love it because
it also speaks to like the ripple effect, like you
help one person and then think about all the other
people they help as well, and so so again with
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the reversal, there's there's just kind of this like like
not fully seeing what you can, like your potential, like
wanting maybe it's almost like, well, it's just me. Can
I really make that big of a difference? You want
to make the difference, but it's the like can I
really do it? And this card's like yeah, yes. It's
more like coming back to that sun and like really
(20:03):
like owning it, because I think that's part of the
sun too. Is also owning like your own alignment and
owning your own power and owning what you bring to
the world. And this is just like saying you have
in your words, your story, it has impact and it's
going to bring people together. And so it's it's just
this one is just all about owning it. Yes, that's
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my power, that's my that that's like what I'm here for.
I'm here to bring people together and make an impact.
And the higher self message is the wheel. And so
this one is interesting. It talks about learning how to
see any kind of setbacks as you know, like twisting
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it into a positive instead of like feeling like, oh no,
it's a setback, now what am I going to do?
Or feeling like it's falling apart. So it's interesting that
that's coming up in the near future. It doesn't it's
not always setbacks, but it's just learning to have that balance,
whether it's something really good or something that's not so good,
it's learning how to have that balance and that idea
of it's all happening for me, there's no you know,
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it's not there's no bad or good. It's just it's
all happening for me.
Speaker 3 (21:10):
I believe that, Yeah, I really do. It may not
feel like that all the time, but I do believe
that it has its purpose, whatever that it may be.
You know, there's a reason for it. There's a reason
you have to learn that lesson or yeah, whatever may
happen to be.
Speaker 2 (21:27):
But I do believe that, yeah, yeah, it's very much
that it's happening for me, not to me energy, which
is like the you know, the opposite of victim mentality,
which is, oh my god, my world's you know, it's
crumbling and now. And so I find that interesting being
in the near future with the tone of Pentacles. I
think it's just I'm wondering if there's a part of
you that's like it's saying that, you know, you make
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this big impact, and so if something doesn't quite go
the way you want it to or hoping it will,
or there's a step back, like feeling like your impact
will be less. Maybe that's what it's speaking to, but
knowing that no, it doesn't matter what is or isn't happening,
your impact is going to be the same. Your your
impact is still going to make a difference, even if
something happens to not necessarily go the way that you
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want it or you know, coming back to that mentality
of it's still I'm still putting amazing content out there,
and it's all happening for me, not to mean it's
all happening for the greater good. So also coming back
to that impact, anyone that's that you're going to be
touching and having that impact on is going to be positive.
It's going to be helping people, because that one's all
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about just kind of trusting the process, trusting what unfolds.
So the two cards in the middle, the first one
is the ton of wands. So this one is just
this one is just saying, watch what you're putting on
your plate and how much you're carrying, because when you
tell when the totals comes up, it's basically like you
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got a lot. You got a lot of spitting plates
that you're trying to hold at the same time, and
so what happens with a ton of wands is to
one of two things. Either you can actually stop and
be like, Okay, I really need to take inventory and
figure out what I want to continue to carry and
what I can delegate, or what I can completely set
down and really take in the inventory, and that will
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help you make space for what you're trying to create
and put out there and who you want to become
versus The flip side of that is continuing to take
things on, take things on, taking things on until now
you're overwhelmed, and then you don't have extra energy to
do other things, and then it's just like too much weight.
And so right now it's just kind of letting you
know you're at the place in your life where you
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need to take inventory. And that could even be speaking
to that sun card too, is figuring out what are
you putting energy into that really aligns with you, and
what are you putting energy into that doesn't align with you.
That can either, like I said, be delegated so someone
else can help you carry it, or you can set
it down entirely. So it hasn't gotten to the overwhelmed
state yet. It's just letting you know that you're kind
of teetering on this place where you've got so much
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going on, you really needed to see what you can lighten,
how you can lighten the load.
Speaker 3 (24:03):
Yeah, that definitely resonates I have, yeah, too much going on.
Speaker 2 (24:10):
True. And then the card next to it is just
kind of a yeah, I'll just say what the card is.
It's the Ace of Cups And this one is just
a huge imitation to emotional self care, which kind of
ties a lot into that ton of ones. If you
have so much going on, you don't really have the
space to like stop and breathe and like really take
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care of you, and so the Ace of Cups, the
biggest invitation with this is to just get in touch
with your emotional capacity on a daily basis, because we're
either operating from a full cup, half cup, empty cup,
right like emotionally, but if you don't know where you're
standing with your emotions, you're not going to be able
to get that under control where you can feel nourish
(24:51):
and you can feel like you're emotionally you're not overwhelmed,
you're doing okay. And not only that, but the ideal
is to have your cup overflowing, so that way you
can get to others without taking from your own reserves.
And so this is just letting you know that, like
your emotional especially with being right next and of lands,
I feel like it's like, hey, your emotional self care
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and taking care of you is getting out the back burner,
and we need to make more space to have to
add how can I take care of me in a
daily basis, whether it's taking five minutes to meditate, or
taking thirty minutes to read a book keep and meaning
to read, or you know something that like really just
makes you feel like you can just take that big,
like deep breath or that big glass of water.
Speaker 3 (25:32):
And just be like, yeah, I wonder it's because you know,
my son is my partner, okay, and so I'm basically
working for him even though it's my business. I own
seventy's thirty, but like a majority of like all of
(25:53):
the expense or the uh prof well, everything is going
to him because he lives in La He's got to
pay his life and da da da da dah. And
I'm okay, I have other streams of income with my
commercials and acting and my husband and you know all
these things, right, but I'm definitely feeling the strain of
(26:14):
that at this point, and it's like, I feel like
we need to either it's got to be justified, you know,
this exorminant amount every month, or I can't go on
with it. You know, I'm not willing to go into
my savings or anything, which I did for a year
because I was getting my coaching business off the ground.
(26:36):
He was helping, you know, I was. I was compensating him,
and he deserves all that and more. I'm not saying
he doesn't deserve it. But the well is running dry,
right because that's how it goes, right until you get
new new things. And so I'm definitely feeling a lot
of pressure in all of that. And I've told him, like,
(26:59):
you need to think about some other things to subsidize
or something. I am not going to be dipping into
my savings anymore.
Speaker 2 (27:07):
And that's that's it.
Speaker 3 (27:10):
Yeah, So I wonder if that's it as well, because
it's definitely that's definitely a stress and a strain at
the moment. Yeah.
Speaker 2 (27:19):
I mean, well, that also sounds like definitely ten of
Wand's energy of like looking at everything you've got going
on and figuring out what needs to be put down
it's like that's something that needs to be put down,
and then the emotional capacity is Yeah, it's creating circumstances
where you're more at peace, which that would be a
form of that, right, is kind of taking away that stress.
(27:40):
But usually it's more like a daily practice the ace
of cup specifically, because it's more like, how can you
check in with yourself daily and see how full your
cup is? You know, is my cup empty? Oh it's empty?
What can I do to refill that? What do I
need to nourish my emotional capacity to refill that? You know,
if it's full, great, I maybe you just need to
check in and see him good and move on with
(28:01):
my day. Or oh my god, maybe this thing coming up,
I just need to either you know, reschedule or you know,
before I do this thing, I need to really prioritize
time for me just to kind of reconnect and recenter myself.
So that's more about like a daily checking in with
your emotional capacity. Yeah, if that makes sense.
Speaker 3 (28:19):
Yeah, yeah, totally. I was doing it for a long time.
I go jogging every day with my dog. Even today,
I know, we had beautiful weather here, so I hadn't
done this with her in so long. I took two
breaks during the day to play frisbee with her, which
I hadn't. She was thrilled and yeah it felt good.
Speaker 2 (28:39):
I have to say, yeah, that's exactly what. And I know,
I'm glad that you mentioned that because I think what
people think self care, they think of like, oh, meditating
or you know, walking through nature or you know, it's
always things really like vague or yeah, yeah, things, but
like that's a perfect example. When you go and play
frisbee with your dog, it refreshes you. You enjoy the
time with your dog, and then it's easier to come
(29:01):
back to the real world, like, Okay, my top's been
refilled while I played with my dog and too, yeah exactly, exactly.
So I love that example. That's so yeah exactly. Doing
things like that that is like, okay, cool, Now I'm
good to go to my next interview, and i feel refreshed.
I don't feel like I'm giving from the bottom of
the barrel kind of energy.
Speaker 3 (29:22):
Yeah, that makes really good sense, and I think I
do need to get back into a practice of meditating.
I was doing it, not huge, but you know, like
five minutes a day, and I just because I like
to do it outside. I had stopped because we had winter,
but now it's spring us here, so I can start again.
Speaker 2 (29:41):
So yeah, yeah, so that was everything that came through.
I do feel like with the sun reverse and the Pentacles,
I feel like a lot of what you're doing is
you're learning, and you're you're in the middle of this
like transitional period where you're trying to figure out really
who you are and what really aligns with you and
what it is that you're like the next step that
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feels the most to you. And it doesn't mean that
you have to necessarily pick one or the other, because
I know they're both really important to you, But I
think leaning more picking an energy that feels that you
could put more into one or the other.
Speaker 3 (30:14):
Yeah, I don't know, And I can feel all this
resistance even just thinking about it, so I don't know.
Speaker 2 (30:19):
Yeah, yeah, I just I feel like with the sun here,
it's there's definitely, like I think you said it perfectly,
which wings do I need to put on? And I
think that that's kind of where you're at, is learning
which one is more fulfilling and which one can you,
you know, put more energy into and the other one
you can put less, not like, and it doesn't mean
that acting or or that one will become a hobby.
I think it's just more like which one is really
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filling my soul more than the other one, do you know?
Speaker 3 (30:46):
I also feel like the so the acting takes me
away a lot, which is hard for my husband. And
he's now getting to a point where he's you know,
getting close or retiring and wants to more. And it's
that's hard as an actor because generally, like the rule is,
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we book a trip, I get cast in something, and
that's that's you know, Murphy's law. It always almost always happens,
and that sucks. So, you know, it's also been something
that's been on my mind. He's he deserves to have
a nice retirement, he deserves to travel, he deserves to
have his wife with him, you know. The coaching I
(31:31):
can also do more on my own, like control it more.
I don't know. There are so many things swirling in
here right now, you know. But then I think that,
you know, and then that comes the other the Devil's advocate.
It's like, yeah, but if you were doing your own
stuff right, creating your own projects, your own films, and
(31:52):
you could be doing that as well, So I don't know,
we I guess we'll see it will play out.
Speaker 2 (31:56):
One way or another. But I would say the biggest
thing here or like that, like the biggest invitations because
of like where you're at, it's like, make sure you
continue to be that student, you know, taking in what
both sides, like what are you learning, what's you know,
what's meant yeah in sense, and then really making sure
you're not overwhelming yourself and taking with that because I
feel like, especially with the making the space for self care,
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you'll likely find more clarity around this situation because right now,
with a ton of wanes here, it's like you've got
so much going on, where's the space for you to
connect with yourself to see what you really want and
what's what's you know, what really calls to you? Because
maybe you can find a way to do both and
and and still have that you know, and still have
your husband be a part of it, you know what
(32:39):
I mean. So he doesn't feel so I mean, there
may be more options that you're not necessarily seeing, and
I feel like it just like makes space for you
to really connect with yourself, to really find that center
and clarity.
Speaker 3 (32:49):
And it's interesting because my friends reading it was very
similar in that Yeah even then, well it was a
few months ago, but I see, not much has changed.
She was like, you're you're juggling so many plates, and
you're you're doing so much and you need to take
time and you're standing at a crossroads. So I guess
everything is still kind of the same.
Speaker 2 (33:10):
It's still where I was. Yeah, you know, it's funny
you say that because that will happen a lot of
times you get even if you get rings from different people,
it'll usually there's a similar theme that will follow you
until it's been until changes exactly. And I mean, I
do you feel like, you know, with the aid of
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pentacles here it speaks to being that student, it speaks
to learning, it speaks to like, you know, you're on
the journey. So I would say that that's actually a
good sign that you're you have most likely made progress
since then. It's just you know, it's you're learning as
you go, and as you learn, you'll find you know,
you'll find more of what you're what you're needing. But this,
but yeah, a lot of invitation is making space for
(33:54):
you self care, working through like what is it like,
what's the most authentic thing for you right now, buring
out what that means to you, you know, and so yeah,
that's really cool to coincide it though.
Speaker 3 (34:08):
Yeah, yeah, definitely. Well I really appreciate this.
Speaker 2 (34:11):
It was fun. Yeah, absolutely, Well, thank you for joining
me and letting me have you on as a guest
for my new series. I super appreciate it.
Speaker 3 (34:21):
Yeah, me too. I appreciate you doing this. It was
definitely gave me a lot to think about. And yeah,
my biggest takeaway from this is slow down, don't put
so much on my plate, and definitely take time. Yeah,
I don't want to wear myself then, you know, And
I know that has also been at the back of.
Speaker 2 (34:42):
My mind, like just careful.
Speaker 3 (34:43):
You know, you're running yourself ragged, so slow down.
Speaker 1 (34:48):
Yeah, thank you for joining me on another inspiring episode.
I hope these conversations have ignited a spark within you.
Until next time, keep exploring, growing, and embracing the beautiful
adventure of connecting with your purpose. Stay tuned for more
meaningful conversations. If you enjoyed the episode today, don't forget
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to like, share and subscribe, and thank you for joining
me on this journey.
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