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On this week's episode of the GodBoat Life podcast. I can't honor the
season that I'm in if I'm lookingat the next season because I'm not there.
I'm here, So that would showup in so many things to where
I wouldn't have been able to healthe way that I'm here today at all
had it not been for me beingpresent. I didn't even realize what that
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was doing for me with our children, So like not being able to have
that with my oldest daughter because Iwas nineteen and me and her mom lived
in separate places and that was justa whole thing. Then I would move
from New York to Texas, Texas, Oregon, organiztic So it's like I
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never had that time to fully bepresent. Even when I was with her,
I always felt like I'm still tryingto establish myself and see what's next
in school and working through there wasalways something where I'm gonna stay, how
I'm gonna deal with the abuse.There was always something that was distracting me,
both good and bad, from beingpresent with her that I didn't get
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to establish and instill the things Iget to do and the other children because
of not being present. I wastrying to bring just the world period into
what God was asking me to do. And that was why I was always
thinking that nothing that I was doingwas enough because of what I was measuring
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it up against that was not God'smeasurement. Yeah, that's so, that's
so true, because we literally willmeasure God things against world things. They
don't compare. They cannot compete.Yes, and people in the world won't
understand if you're looking to them.That's why it's so important you have righteous
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community, because if you're looking atpeople that are in the world that are
only going to have to give toyou what they're experiencing. And it hit
me, Ralph. We talked thereason why I was feeling that frustration and
that friction was because I was tryingto do my will and His will at
the same child, and you can't. So the only way that you get
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tension if you have like possessed hisbands, is because two things are going
in the opposite direction, which createstension. So to release the tension,
that means you have to let goof something. He's given us the choice
too. He loves us so muchthat he gave us the choice to let
him go. No one knows tome that I was at Nike better than
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me, and I know that ifI was still there, I wouldn't have
been able to have that lesson becauseeverything I was doing, everything that I
thought I was doing, even inthe selfishness, was for everybody else.
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Like I really thought that, becauseyou're busting your butt at work and you
are trying to do all the things, trying to get all the new iPhones
that come out, and do allthe trips every year, and go to
everybody's thing and do all the thingsthat the idea of getting married to somebody
feels like, Eh, that's abit much. It's like you know,
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and you under somehow we innately understandthe weight of those types of decisions.
So we see the weight and we'relike, yeah, I'm not ready.
How many times do people say I'mnot ready for that yet, I'm not
when that's actually the very thing thatwill unlock. Yeah, that gives that,
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Like marriage was created and eating,kids were created and eating. So
we're talking about marriage or companionship andeverything that comes with that, and then
parenthood. But those are the twothings that we say, owt if I'm
ready for that. Watch the fullepisode now at YouTube dot Com, slash
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Jade, Godbolt,