Tolerate It Tuesday (Recorded LIVE on 9-3-24)

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Speaker 1 (00:12):
Y y.

Speaker 2 (01:13):
Yo. What's good? Big Cody on here, but this might
hear podcast coming to you live from wherever the funck
we get live from. You know how it is, bringing
in my co host Lady G and G and TG love.
What's good? How's everybody doing?

Speaker 3 (01:37):
Great?

Speaker 2 (01:38):
That's good? Tuesday, it's it's it's Tuesday. Yeah, too bad,
it's not well, it's taco Tuesday, but we ain't got
no tacos so and it's.

Speaker 3 (01:48):
A Tuesday after holiday.

Speaker 2 (01:51):
Yeah, Tuesday after holiday. Yeah, that's that's what's ups. So
how was how's everybody's holiday weekend?

Speaker 3 (02:02):
Uneventful?

Speaker 1 (02:04):
Stare literally nothing?

Speaker 3 (02:09):
And mine's just back to school stuff.

Speaker 2 (02:12):
Oh yeah, that's right.

Speaker 3 (02:15):
Yeah, I still have one young enough in school boy.

Speaker 2 (02:20):
Yeah that's tough. She's uh what what what? What grade?

Speaker 3 (02:27):
She's a senior. I can't handle it.

Speaker 2 (02:29):
Oh my god. The seniors tough, prom and everything.

Speaker 1 (02:33):
And yes, the last of it all.

Speaker 2 (02:36):
Yep, have any idea? Yeah, the court, the court of
senior years is undeniably experience.

Speaker 3 (02:45):
Let's not start a show tonight about horrible co parenting.

Speaker 2 (02:53):
We could, though, yeah, we definitely could. I mean co
parenting is is tough, man, very very tough very very tough.
I don't know if if Dove's in the row too,
he said he would, but we'll see what happens with him. Yeah, tough,
it is, and it's crazy because I've I've been I mean,

(03:13):
y'all know I I got I've been through it a
bunch of times. You know what I'm saying?

Speaker 3 (03:20):
Five million?

Speaker 4 (03:22):
Uh huh?

Speaker 3 (03:25):
So you got five million kids?

Speaker 2 (03:28):
Takes your far away from that number.

Speaker 1 (03:30):
And you're the first Nick Cannon.

Speaker 2 (03:36):
No, not me. I don't have any baby.

Speaker 3 (03:40):
Mama drama, don Don corleon, Yeah Cannon, right, yeah, that's dangerous.

Speaker 2 (03:49):
So so what's this Montclair State University you're repping tonight?

Speaker 1 (03:54):
I'd be and I wasn't trying to, but I guess
since it's back to school, that's my alma mater.

Speaker 2 (04:00):
So all right, all right, that's dope, that's dope.

Speaker 1 (04:04):
All right, lots of money wasted.

Speaker 2 (04:09):
You're you're an intelligent young woman. I don't know why
you say that.

Speaker 1 (04:12):
I mean, yeah, but like, if I can do it
over again, I would have just picked a completely different
career to follow. So all right, Now, shit happens, right,
it does, and things change. When I first went to school,

(04:35):
thought I wanted to be like a teacher in a school,
but that changed. Why a lot of it is politics.

Speaker 3 (04:50):
And definitely don't get paid with their worth.

Speaker 1 (04:54):
Right, there's that lot of hours being put in not
enough pay. First year is very sink or swim. And
my experience wasn't that great, Like the principal was a bitch,
so I didn't have like the best experience. I didn't

(05:17):
feel supported.

Speaker 4 (05:18):
So uh.

Speaker 1 (05:22):
Yeah, it was like half halfway through the year, I think,
not even then, I was like, I gotta get out
of here. I can't do this anymore. I literally was
like in a dark league. We'd go out drinking on Tuesdays.
I went to the same bar every Friday in Hoboken,
became a regular. So yeah, that was teaching. I also

(05:46):
started smoking weed then, so thanks thanks teaching. That's all.

Speaker 2 (05:53):
Teaching made me an alcoholic.

Speaker 1 (05:56):
Teaching made me an addict. Yeah, it's rather crazy. But
I was also spoiled because I did have opportunities to
work in like private schools, like special at schools, and
there it was like all about the students. So it

(06:17):
like that encouraged me and made me think I was
like going in the right direction. But then like once
I was working in public schools and started to work
in public school then I was just like, oh, yeah,
this is not this is not what it should be,
you know, and it was it was just I was

(06:44):
also just set up, I feel, because I had the
only monolingual class because I worked for Union City District
and they have like bilingual classes in kindergarten because you
have a lot of Spanish kids and Indian kids like
coming in. So their classes were kind of like set

(07:08):
up to be able to teach both. Mine was set
up to only talk in English and teach in English,
and my aid only spoke Spanish, so that really made
life difficult. Lunch was always a disaster, and it was like, well,
if you can't communicate with the kids and they don't

(07:31):
understand you, you're gonna have problems. But it was looked
at as though I was the problem or the aid,
and maybe she was.

Speaker 4 (07:41):
I don't know.

Speaker 1 (07:42):
I hated it though good people. I met good teachers
and other people there, and props shout out to them.
They've worked there for twenties and thirties of years, like
getting ready to retire and shit, but wow, there's a

(08:03):
lot of teachers that stuck through and there's a lot
of teachers that left. And even when I was working
with a tutoring company, I did a program where we
did like English and math for like the students who
test lower in those subjects, and we had a shootout

(08:32):
drill once and I was just like, first of all,
I didn't even know what to do because I didn't
work for the school. I worked for a company, and
I was not versed on all the things going on
at school. Where the hell's go to whatever. It's not
like somebody sat down with me. It was like these

(08:53):
are the safety things, you know, they send you stuff
to read, and I'm just like, okay. The kids told
what I had to do, and we were in a
room that had no windows. Oh wow, so it was weird.
We were all like trying to like squeeze into one
area and then like afterwards, like you're expected to like teach,

(09:17):
like go back like nothing happened. And I could tell
the kids were like feeling some kind of way. This
was middle school, so you know, I I was like,
what's going on? Like and then some of them just
started telling me like, you know, this is scary. What
if this really does happen in our school? Is it's
really going to help us and protect us? And oh

(09:40):
my god, just so many questions, so many fears, so
many like and it's unfortunate, but like this is the
world we live in now. Like when we went to school,
that wasn't even a thought, Like we did fire drills,
that was like the biggest thing. But it's just it.

(10:05):
It took it took the I don't even know what
the word is, not fun, but like it took the
life kind of out of it because it became very
like morbid, and it was just like, you know, how
can I say to them, like we're protecting you at
all costs, Like, but I don't know how true that is.

(10:29):
So like, yeah, you have an officer at your school,
and like that's what I told them, you know, like
you have officers here, they're usually close by and in
Jersey gun laws are a little tough, so I kind
of like told them that. But the truth is is
like you just never know, and can you truly be prepared.

(10:53):
I mean, yeah, we've taken I have to take courses
through my job now for shooter drills and what we
need to do. And the worst thing you can do
is stay still, so you got to make sure that
people don't just like shut down, because that's what could happen.
It's fight flight or freeze for some people. So they

(11:18):
just teach you like know your exits. You know, if
you're in a room, grab something that you can use
as a weapon, basically like protect yourself. And like if
the shooter is going to come into a room that
you're in, or they get through, like and there's a
group of you, you come up with a plan to
try to like ambush this person or whatever. So it's

(11:40):
just crazy because like, yeah, it's like, Okay, we think
about these drills, we talk about what to do and
stuff like that, but when the fucking moment hits or
some shing goes down, it's like what do you really do?
Like what is your body going to do? How are
you really going to react? Are you prepared? Like I
don't feel like I will freeze because I know what

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to do. So I'm just like let me, you know,
run the hell out of here if I can, or
hide in a safe place, locked or whatever. And the
good thing is that there are places like at my
job where I am at where I can like run
quickly and lock myself into a space. But yeah, it's

(12:25):
just crazy. But yes, I went from school to two shootings. Yes,
like it freaking sucked. It's just not I don't know.
There was fear there because of because of that too,
like that the whole drow kind of like made me

(12:47):
question wanting to go back because it was like fuck,
like I don't want to be in that position. I
don't want to be in that position, like just no,
like that's scary, absolutely, you know, I think it's it's
actually me given me and many other people in anxiety,

(13:09):
Like I know you love going to the movies, but
I can't go to the movies. Like I feel some
kind of way about going to the movies. I feel
some kind away about going places where there's a lot
of people, festivals and things like that, depending where it
is where I live about big parts of Trump Country,
and it's makes me nervous sometimes when I see people

(13:35):
and their Confederate flags and stuff like that, and I'm
just like when will it end? And it's just it's
like yeah, never, Yeah, it's it's just crazy, just everything,
and and I don't like talking about guns, but like

(13:56):
I just do, something has to be done, Like we
can't just continue on how we are because it's not working.

Speaker 2 (14:03):
So yeah, yeah, I get it, I get it. It's
a different world we live in these days.

Speaker 3 (14:15):
Yes, it is.

Speaker 4 (14:16):
It is.

Speaker 1 (14:19):
You know. I just saw this video a real that
Hobby sent me, and it's actually it was I guess
like one of the corner stores, Like definitely had to
be in some kind of projects or something, right, and
in some kind of project because there was a bulletproof

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glass in front of the guy, you know, like, come on, it.

Speaker 2 (14:43):
Could have been the hood, not the project.

Speaker 1 (14:45):
Yeah, it was definitely hood projects or whatever exactly. So
the guy focks with them and when they ask for
a lighter, he gives them a pink lighter. Let me
tell you something about the insecurities of some black man.
Holy shit, they got so upset, so mad that he

(15:06):
would give them a fucking pink lighter. Like what do
you think, I'm a butt a bitch? What the fuck
you want me to come show you that I'm a man?
And I'm just like, bro, it's a pink lighter. Comes
the fuck down.

Speaker 3 (15:18):
It's not that serious.

Speaker 1 (15:20):
It's not that serious, and they are flipping their shit
and I'm just like, this is not worth this? What what?
No one's questioning your manhood because of the color of
your lighter, Like how sad and pathetic are you really
the insecurity?

Speaker 3 (15:39):
You know, it's so ridiculous.

Speaker 1 (15:41):
Like the homophobia is beyond beyond because a pink lighter.

Speaker 2 (15:48):
You want to hear something funny speaking to that shit,
Like I was telling I was talking to Dubs about
this yesterday. I think it was. I was like, you
know how every time somebody says something that that sounds
a little bit you know, gay or whatever, they say no,
no homo or or no Diddy or whatever, it is,

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the thing is that What I said to him was,
why does the thought of something someone says has to is?
What is it about it that makes something in your
head say gay? You know what I'm saying, Like like
if he says, oh, that that that that that hot
dog is big no Diddy, or or that's that that's

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that that's there's too much water coming out of that
no Diddy, Like why does why does the thought have
to be gay?

Speaker 1 (16:39):
Right?

Speaker 2 (16:39):
What is it is going on in your head that
makes you think everything that's being said you have to
say that too? Because you people.

Speaker 3 (16:47):
Are so self conscious about what other people think of them.

Speaker 1 (16:51):
Yeah, but but two, but sexual sexualizing everything is a
little too much, too like like we're not talking, like
why are you thinking in such a sexual manner when
you're kind of not even talking about that.

Speaker 3 (17:09):
You know, well, that's the same thing with that. That's
what she said, Like there was a period where no
one could say anything, oh god without people, without people
saying that's what she said. Like I got so tired
of it. I just I was like, I'm not talking
to nobody.

Speaker 1 (17:30):
Yeah, because every.

Speaker 2 (17:31):
Time, every time somebody says something right away, it's like, oh,
it's no home or or no ditty or whatever the case,
like everything.

Speaker 3 (17:41):
Justify that to people. But I don't understand.

Speaker 2 (17:44):
Yeah, Like why do I have to like sit there
and say.

Speaker 1 (17:47):
You know what, because I'm looking at everything you're saying
and I'm like, oh, that's so gay. Why would you
say that?

Speaker 3 (17:54):
I like, what if it was? It's not nobody's business
but your own.

Speaker 2 (18:02):
It's crazy, Like why the fuck? Why doesn't thought right
away have to go to something gay or homophobic? You
know what I mean? Like, you can't say shit these
days is right away. You gotta be like it's.

Speaker 3 (18:13):
People's insecurity with themselves.

Speaker 1 (18:16):
It is all that is all right, and it's and
it is homophobia because they don't know enough, Like I
can't tell you how many I hate to say black men,
but yes, have like are homophobic in a way, Like
they don't realize it either. It's just like there's certain

(18:38):
things and they'll say, I'm not a fan of anybody
using the F word towards someone, and I hear that
a lot, and that really bothers me, Like I don't
think it's okay to say that to anyone. Like, yes,
in in the UK they do call cigarettes fags still

(18:59):
they do, but here we know the connotation, tone and
everything that goes into that word, so that I don't.

Speaker 2 (19:10):
Like, yeah, yeah, I get it. Man, it's it's it's
it's it's it's it's crazy. It's crazy.

Speaker 1 (19:20):
It's like accepted culture.

Speaker 2 (19:23):
Yeah, that's exactly, It's exactly it.

Speaker 1 (19:25):
And that's why it continues because if you don't say
no home a then like oh yeah, like oh why
is he saying that? Like why are you thinking in
that manner? Like I I don't understand. Again, it's a
pink lighter. Please make me understand a pink lighter, guys.

Speaker 2 (19:50):
Yeah, people take offense to a lot of different ship
these days.

Speaker 1 (19:53):
Man, But I mean when these guys were wilin out,
they were wilent at The one guy was like he
had like four drinks in front of him. He's like,
I ain't paying for you for this shit then, and
like less and I'm just like he's like, bro, no,
what are you doing? Like the other guy like flipped,
like started throwing things and everything. I'm like, it is

(20:14):
not that serious. Be like, I don't want a pink lighter?
Can I have another color? Use your words? You know?
Like I felt like kindergarten all over again, Like use
your words? What is it that you want? Like why
get mad? Like he's not calling you anything, he's not
saying anything. He just knows that you're going to react.
That's why he's doing it. But it's sad that that's

(20:38):
the reaction that you're giving for a color of a lighter.
I'd rock the pink lighter. I'd be like, yeah, and what.

Speaker 3 (20:48):
My brother, let me tell you something. I one of
my brothers and I have four or five of them. Boys.

Speaker 4 (20:54):
Uh.

Speaker 3 (20:55):
He is so like they say that secure guys have
no part. I'm rocking whatever. He literally will walk out
of the house in a whole pink suit with pink shirt,
pink hat, pink shoes, like purple. He loves that stuff.

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And he definitely is not a you know, homosexual or anything.
But he's like, I'm secure and I love those colors.

Speaker 1 (21:29):
Pink is a nice color. But he goes crazy. I
was gonna say he goes all out. Apparently that man
likes wearing like his outfit down to the to the.

Speaker 2 (21:42):
Coordination, coordination.

Speaker 3 (21:45):
And yo, he wear and he would wear the mushroom outfit.
He would. He is just, but he would. He wears
those I don't know if you guys have seen them,
and I've only seen them on mech sicking guys. They
are the boots that have the toe that like curls up.

Speaker 1 (22:07):
Yes, I know what you're talking about.

Speaker 3 (22:09):
Ugly shoes, and he's actually got a paradom stupid things.

Speaker 1 (22:12):
Oh god, yeah, no, I know what you're talking about.
Those those are very ugly, like alligator.

Speaker 3 (22:18):
I'm like, oh.

Speaker 2 (22:19):
No, I don't even think alligators want to be seen
on them boots, Absolutely not.

Speaker 1 (22:27):
I think they are like snake or like, you know, like.

Speaker 2 (22:30):
The very associated with those shoes.

Speaker 1 (22:34):
Hilarious.

Speaker 2 (22:36):
Oh my goodness, that's that's some Yeah, that's especially if
they're pink too.

Speaker 3 (22:44):
On top of that, Oh yeah, he man, he has
shown up and I mean he can really dress nicely
when he wants to. But he has shown up to
some events and I'm just looking at him like what
in the world. You know, the hats with the the stetsons,
with the feathers in a oh my god.

Speaker 1 (23:03):
He's pimping like this.

Speaker 2 (23:08):
Color dream coat.

Speaker 1 (23:09):
I'm pretty sure if you're people from Jersey City, or
have hung out on Jersey to pass through Jersey City, whatever,
there is definitely a chance that you have seen that
big pimp that walks around. That man. It would be
the summer. It wouldn't matter. He was dead with everything.

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And of course you notice this person because you're just like,
what in the it feels like it's from a movie.
You know, You're just like, this ain't real. This is
like from Friday or some shit. This ain't like the
real fake. But yeah, no doubt that man, he would
just be hanging around. I would just be like, damn,
and color scheme had to toe always same way, whether

(23:59):
it was like baby blue yellow, like just insane and
hilarious because it's you know, you give props to that guy.
I have mad respect for that man.

Speaker 2 (24:09):
Yes, if you can rock it all year round, he
didn't care. He most likely still doesn't.

Speaker 1 (24:18):
Please don't do it, That's all I'm saying. I mean,
I hope he's really not pimping.

Speaker 3 (24:24):
But that's like I sit here, like on the buses
and things like that in Camden. Who they're older ladies
and of course you know they're they're all dressed up,
everything matches, but it's like, it's so I don't even
want to call it, like they have makeup one that
makes him look like clowns and like.

Speaker 1 (24:48):
Verry street walker ish as they used to say. I
don't even know.

Speaker 3 (24:54):
But they're usually the older ladies.

Speaker 1 (24:59):
Literally, yeah, they're like they I'm not changing my way
at all.

Speaker 2 (25:04):
Yeah, that's that's that's a little crazy, all that pounded
on makeup and stuff, and I don't I don't want to.
I don't want to get on the heathos. But a
lot of them smell the same, like with their perfumes
and ship.

Speaker 3 (25:19):
Yeah, I don't even know what that smell is, but
I think it's.

Speaker 1 (25:22):
An Avon perfume. I'm telling you right now that ship
was born from Avon. Whatever it smells like, it's an
Avon perfume. I wouldn't doubt it.

Speaker 2 (25:33):
It's something because they all smell the same way, man,
and some loudery, some of them.

Speaker 1 (25:40):
Musky like.

Speaker 2 (25:42):
Some of them smell like those purple candies. Yes, oh
my goodness, I'm like, yo, that smells like candy, and
some of them smell like Yeah. It's just weird sense
that these Avon products tend to have.

Speaker 1 (25:58):
I don't know, it's weird.

Speaker 2 (26:02):
Yeah, all for that though, That's why I'm I'm glad
the kids always buy me cologons and ship I always
smell different. I got all types of colognes there that
they get me. Every year, I get like three or
four different ones. I gotta I gotta uh a little
tub full of them. Ship's all different ones. So every

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day I smell a little different. I don't I don't
like to to go crazy. And I hope when.

Speaker 3 (26:34):
I hope that savage.

Speaker 1 (26:38):
Savage Yeah sounds like a fancy way to say savage.

Speaker 2 (26:44):
Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, that sounds like a fancy way
to say savage.

Speaker 4 (26:49):
Right.

Speaker 3 (26:50):
Yeah, But that's what I mean, that's how it's spelled.
But Johnny Depp and whoever think it's a Saint Laurent.

Speaker 2 (27:00):
Mm hmm. Now I don't have that one. I have
the ones I have I have. I have doch Gabana.
Of course, I have John.

Speaker 3 (27:09):
Paul, I love that one.

Speaker 2 (27:12):
I have. I have a couple of old school ones.
I got your car. Oh gosh, I got curved K
one K one I have I have. I have cool water,
cool water, Yeah, I got. I got a whole bunch
of them. And I got Johnny Chaw. I think it's
called Jimmy Jimmy Chow, Jimmy cho Jimmy Yeah, yeh.

Speaker 1 (27:37):
John Johnny Chow. There's so many songs about Jimmy choos as.
And you're like.

Speaker 4 (27:47):
Johnny Johnny Chow.

Speaker 1 (27:51):
You definitely sound like your grandpa, Like that was your
grandpa moment. You're like Johnny Chow, like Grandpa, try again.
Oh gosh, oh try Grandpa.

Speaker 3 (28:06):
I'm gonna have to call your kids on that one.

Speaker 4 (28:08):
Wow.

Speaker 2 (28:11):
Yeah, I gotta I gotta bottle of that one too.
I call it that one, that one, that one. Yeah,
but oh ship, yeah, whatever it is, it's there.

Speaker 1 (28:32):
I don't know. Some men's colonnes smell like alcohol to me,
like rubbing alcohol. It's weird.

Speaker 3 (28:39):
I don't like those by.

Speaker 1 (28:40):
One Cuba, nobody, what's going on? Oh I see now,
so enjoy the conversation. One. I don't remember which one
it was that I like the most, but.

Speaker 2 (29:02):
Red Polo Red is good too. Polo ones are pretty good.
Some of them are dope. But yeah, so those are
the ones I have. And and the thing is too,
is that I see sometimes I try to like get
because I have body sprays and ship like. I have

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this thing with if I feel like if I if
I feel like if it's hot out and you know,
I know I'm on the sweat, I gotta I gotta
put body spray on two on top, you know, because
I don't. I don't like to feel like I smell.
If I feel like I smell, I showered, then I showered,
then I shower. It's like, yo, I gotta oh wow.

Speaker 3 (29:42):
The next time I see you, i'd be like, yo,
you better check yourself.

Speaker 2 (29:45):
You smell to be in the fucking shower, like yo.
I can't.

Speaker 1 (29:54):
I be like big c I can hear you from
all the way over here. I mean I could smell
you from all the way over here.

Speaker 2 (30:02):
Yeah, yeah, man, I gotta I gotta smell good.

Speaker 1 (30:08):
I get that. I'm not like that though I used
to be big. I'm wearing stuff. I don't really ever
wear anything. Sometimes I wear body spray. If I wear anything,
I still have my my royale, the Spanish one, the violet,
the royal violet, but the but not the purple one,

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the champagne looking one. Sometimes I'll dab some of that on.
Make me feel Cuban real quick.

Speaker 3 (30:37):
Cuban like, hold hold on, like the wing makes you
feel put a ricking goes around and says, Mommy, I
feel put a ricket, put a brick I'm like, but
you're not your Peruvian.

Speaker 2 (30:56):
I thought I saw I thought I saw a video
with a dog with a wig on that since something
like that. Yeah, I saw that. It's fucking hilarious, y'all.
That's fucking hilarious. I don't know what that happened to, Dubs.
I guess he fell asleep.

Speaker 1 (31:17):
Whatever.

Speaker 2 (31:18):
Yeah, So anyway, so what's so talk about? TG? I
want I want TG talk about something that you're passionate
about this week.

Speaker 1 (31:30):
No, no, what got you? I'm very passionate right now
about people registering to vote. I think it's very important
to make sure that you are registered to vote. Each
state has certain dates and by which you need to
do that in order to be able to vote for

(31:51):
this election in November. This is not just for the
presidential election. We are also many places voting for your Congress, Senate,
and governors. Make sure that you know what is going
on where you are and you're making sure that your
voice is heard in the poll. I don't want to

(32:12):
hear shit about anybody saying that their vote doesn't count,
because it does. Every vote counts. That's how people lose
when people don't show up to vote. And yes, I
am totally supporting Kamala and I'm also very passionate lately
about trying to squash the rumors or the falsehoods that

(32:38):
have been spread about her and what she has done
when she was DA in California. So I think it's
very important for people to do their own Google searches
and search for things and stop reading shit off of
social media as information and fact because there's a lot

(32:59):
of bullshit out there and memes are not a way
to get your information. You should be involved watching local news,
watching world news, you know, don't limit yourself to one channel.
You know, I do not watch Fox News, but sometimes
I'm forced to just because it is good to hear

(33:20):
what the other side is saying for the same things.

Speaker 2 (33:23):
So just remind me that I should never ask you
once again.

Speaker 1 (33:31):
Yeah, give me. You're gonna get whatever's on my brain
next week. It could be food for all I know
that I'm obsessing about. But you caught the political moment
for me because I definite moment because I just shared.
You know, October fifteenth is for PA. I actually have
my mailing thing over there that I have to shove

(33:54):
into the box out there. But yeah, it's important. Uh,
this is an important an election for a lot of
states here too. We're voting PA's voting for other people
versus just president. So it's important to have your voice heard.

(34:14):
And to the idiots that talk about third party or whatever,
if you really want a third party, then you need
to start getting involved in your local government and make
sure that you are represented. And stop talking shit during
the presidential election like all of a sudden shit's going
to change, because it doesn't change overnight.

Speaker 2 (34:35):
What do I gotta do to get my name on
the ballot?

Speaker 1 (34:38):
Start showing up, And if you want to run for
something you totally can you can see what's available and open.
There's things at the local level that people can get involved.
You just got to start meeting people, networking all that stuff.

(34:59):
You gotta schmooth oo, you know, show up to local
events that congressman and send people in government, even in
the local level are showing up at I learned about
like some places do uh shredding, Like they'll shred your papers.
There's there's events that towns do where you could shred

(35:21):
your stuff everybody. And it's free because some places you
have to pay for that. But yeah, there's a lot
of events and stuff that they do over there, especially
where you're at. I'm sure.

Speaker 2 (35:35):
Yeah, I've been wearing met for a long time. Maybe
I could run for office or something.

Speaker 1 (35:41):
You gotta you can get involved, but you gotta get
involved in and care and have, like I guess, a
goal in mind of what it is that like, what's
the one thing you're trying to accomplish for your people?

Speaker 2 (35:57):
Make everybody eat Puerto Rican food on Sunday. Part Rican Sunday.
Everybody gets to be in Jersey, everybody gets to be
part Rican. So one day, also, what I would what
I would do what I would do is I would

(36:20):
make Super Bowl Sunday and national holiday.

Speaker 1 (36:23):
Why not?

Speaker 2 (36:24):
I would give I would I would now on I
would make Valentine's Day a holiday for women only. Men
have to all get women. Women have to get gifts
on Valentine's Day. So Super Bowl Sunday we get, you know,
because it's it's in February and it comes it's around

(36:45):
the same time. So subow Sunday and Valentine's Day. Now
we split.

Speaker 1 (36:52):
So what about the people who are in same sex
couples and or women who love football and there.

Speaker 2 (37:02):
Or man say the same ship you guys have.

Speaker 1 (37:08):
Men have a holiday. It's more March fourteenth. It's bj
and Steak Day. Okay, it's one month after Valentine's Day.
So if if you're getting gifts for her on Valentine,
then you can wait till the fourteenth to get your gift.

Speaker 2 (37:24):
I didn't know anything about that.

Speaker 1 (37:26):
It's been around for a long time. I'm surprised that
March fourteenth put it on your calendar.

Speaker 2 (37:33):
Now you know, no I know, and no one is
half the battle right.

Speaker 1 (37:36):
Exactly by the date for that.

Speaker 2 (37:43):
Jeez, I know I'll get the steak.

Speaker 1 (37:46):
He's taking applications. Lady big c.

Speaker 2 (37:50):
I know I'll get the steak.

Speaker 1 (37:52):
You'll get the steak, get theak steak yourself.

Speaker 4 (37:55):
You'll be like, I'll make my own steak.

Speaker 2 (37:58):
Give me a couple of New York stip stakes and
I'll be.

Speaker 1 (38:01):
All right there you go. Yeah, that's one way to
do it for sure. As but but yeah, I mean
if they did that, then wouldn't they have to Well,
I guess the super Bowl is probably like the biggest,
bigger than the World Series.

Speaker 2 (38:20):
Yeah, super Bowl is way bigger than that.

Speaker 1 (38:22):
Then I could see I could see that.

Speaker 2 (38:24):
The thing is the World Series is the best of
seven games.

Speaker 1 (38:28):
You're right, it's not just one, just.

Speaker 2 (38:31):
One game, so everybody celebrates.

Speaker 1 (38:34):
That one do or die. That's why I like football.
This is why I can never get down with baseball.
It's too much. It was too much, like, come on, bro,
this is too many games, too many games.

Speaker 2 (38:47):
Yeah, super Bowl is just one fucking game that said yeah, yeah,
you know you're done.

Speaker 1 (38:53):
And they're usually pretty good.

Speaker 2 (38:54):
They're actually trying to add another week to the season
so they can have the Super Bowl the day before
President's Days when nobody has to go to work the
next day.

Speaker 1 (39:05):
Ah double like kill two birds with the one stone.

Speaker 2 (39:09):
Super Bowl Sunday. Then everybody has a day off the
next day.

Speaker 1 (39:12):
That would be nice.

Speaker 2 (39:13):
She can get shift faced and fucking just have the
day off the next day, because.

Speaker 1 (39:18):
That's what we all need. Yeah, absolutely, after a whole
month of January, because that's really what it's about January, Like,
what are the longest months of the year. Isn't it
crazy that we're already going to be prepping for Halloween
and then right after Halloween has.

Speaker 2 (39:39):
Been prepping for Halloween since fucking a month ago. I know,
I've been prepping for Halloween.

Speaker 1 (39:47):
They have everything out, like as soon as October hits,
there's going to be stuff for Christmas. So it's like
they don't even give us a chance. But it is
just crazy to me, Like where in September already like
the year is coming to.

Speaker 2 (40:06):
An end for me?

Speaker 1 (40:09):
Yes, I do enjoy I'm enjoying this cooler weather. It's
still hot during the day, but I'll take the evening coolness.
I'm down with that. Yeah, but I can't wait for
the sweater weather. I don't want to. Yeah, the best.

Speaker 2 (40:30):
What the fuck is this? I know what this is?

Speaker 1 (40:34):
You have a question, what if they're gonna stopped fronting
for once they wear high heels. This ain't their height,
b bet else and breast implants, it ain't naturally theirs.
What's so what if women wear heels? I mean you
could see she's wearing heels. Du Like, try to find

(41:01):
yourself someone that doesn't need all that. I don't know
what to tell you.

Speaker 3 (41:06):
We're darned if we do, darned if we don't, because
you know what the guys out they're talking about, they
want all that. And then you know, other people are.

Speaker 2 (41:16):
Like, oh, somebody, actually, somebody actually has a question for
TG love.

Speaker 1 (41:21):
Oh lord, all right.

Speaker 2 (41:22):
It's it's not that you. We don't normally talk this ship.
But I'm just gonna let this slide for the night.
But okay, here's the question.

Speaker 1 (41:31):
Okay, how does feel about term limits? If a person
is doing bad, I see that can work, but totally
allowed two terms then what? Yeah? So I totally agree
with term limits. I think that we should have term
limits on Congress as well as the Supreme Court. I

(41:53):
don't think it makes any sense for someone to have
a job for the rest of their life, like a
Gary Teed position like that. I think the times change
and with it so do people and people's minds and
thought processes and perspectives. And I feel like we don't

(42:16):
get to move forward if we keep all the old
farts just sitting in there making decisions for people and
they're not representing their constituents. That's why it's important to
vote at a lower level and making sure that the
people that are in there are voicing your concerns, and
then when it comes time for them to be re elected,
make sure they don't get reelected. Like that's what it

(42:38):
comes down to. But the thing is, people don't want
to pay attention, be aware. Like I feel like people
just like to bitch, but they don't want to do
the work. So you gotta want to. If you care,
then you got to get involved somehow. Like if you

(42:59):
have a kid in school, you should be going to
the school meetings, like or the board meetings because they're
making decisions about what's going on in that school, and
that's your money, that's your tax dollars. Those people are
making decisions and people should be at those meetings because

(43:21):
they're important.

Speaker 2 (43:24):
Yeah, I think this is the first question we've ever
gotten from from somebody off the twitch.

Speaker 1 (43:32):
Oh.

Speaker 2 (43:33):
Interesting, it is interesting, but we don't we don't normally
talk to us ever since Tji I brought up the
fucking question, I had opened my mother's fucking mouth and
it was bad.

Speaker 1 (43:46):
I didn't go off in like crazy tangent. You know,
nobody's gonna come in here and be like this crazy
literal check. I mean they could, but uh, you shut
your mouth. I'm sure my team is better than yours,
that's for sure, especially if it's the Jets. But we're

(44:12):
not going to get into that hurts people's feelings.

Speaker 2 (44:16):
I don't want to do that absolutely, all right, lady
G what are you passionate about this week?

Speaker 1 (44:25):
This week?

Speaker 3 (44:30):
I honestly, I'm one of the crazy people that doesn't
watch the news and I don't know what's going on
in politics. Very sad. You need to care. Oh, I
didn't say I didn't care. I just don't know what's
going on.

Speaker 1 (44:45):
Yeah, because there's a lot of bad things going on
right now, and I think it's just important to know
because people think like the US is untouchable, but they
are countries right now that could put as a button,
and Nucleari is US. So I think it's imborriginal. What

(45:08):
the fuck is going on? Sometimes, because there's wars happening
right now, and I wouldn't doubt it if somehow we
get involved next year. So I think it's important to
know what's going on. A lot of bad shit is
happening across the world. That shit here too. But that's

(45:30):
why this election matters. You know. I'm all about body
autonomy and the fact that they are trying to take
that away from women really upsets me because it's just like,
I don't think it's fair that men care so much

(45:53):
about what goes on and vrginias and instead they should
just all get the actomies that would fix a lot
of things. But nobody wants to talk about that. Nope.
Do you just want to talk about how our abortions
are uses birth control, which is not true. And then
when it is, the percentage is very small, So don't

(46:16):
go there. Hold on, we have a bring it the
things does isn't here? Because oh no, son of a bitch.
Now I'm just gonna hear a lot of ship.

Speaker 2 (46:34):
Here we go.

Speaker 1 (46:38):
To sign from God. No, he's oh he's got to
come back. Oh I'm nervous. I'm nervous. Shouldn't have said anything.

Speaker 3 (46:52):
To answer to answer your question, Uh.

Speaker 2 (46:55):
Yeah, what are you passionate about this week?

Speaker 3 (46:59):
I think this week, I'm just passionate about self care, right,
you know, like how important it is to prioritize yourself
before you know job and you know stuff like that,

(47:19):
because the thing is, if we don't take care of us,
the people that we take care of aren't going to
have us. The jobs that we work at would replace
us in a heartbeat, you know. Like I've always told
my jobs that, you know, my children come first, my
family comes first. And I remember one time, I guess

(47:42):
been about four years now, something had happened at my
daughter's school and I told my job, you know, I
gotta go, and they're like, well, if you leave, you know,
there's no guarantee that you could come back. And I
was like, then fire me. I said, uh I could
get another job. I can't get another kid, you know. So,

(48:05):
And and I'm not putting I'm not putting no crazy
job before you know my priorities and uh so. But
I think as as a parent, as a woman, as
somebody who who loves their job and lives with integrity,

(48:25):
I think me personally, I think I fail to really
do things for me, you know, take the time to
just not worry about things. Just sit on my couch
and crochet like a crazy mad woman. Uh, you know,

(48:47):
soak my feet, you know, do do things like that,
like make myself a priority. Yeah, because I've always been hungry. Yes, yes,
Or have.

Speaker 1 (49:00):
The knack if you want, you know, like if you're cravy,
sometimes having like a treat. You know, emotional eating is
a bad thing. Sometimes, you know, you just want some
ice cream, and girl, should you should have?

Speaker 3 (49:15):
Now what you just said that I'm about to go
give me so much.

Speaker 1 (49:19):
If I wasn't on camera right now, I'd be eating
ice cream all right before we get into that question,
because she she brought up something this is why I
need to write things down. And then I saw dubs
and then it like threw me off completely.

Speaker 4 (49:35):
Oh yeah, what's up guys not so long ago?

Speaker 1 (49:38):
Well, thank you for joining.

Speaker 4 (49:41):
I'm like, I have to come outside, like to really
wake up. Oh you know reason that you know what
I'm saying that that polue the Hudson County.

Speaker 1 (49:49):
Air that's for sure.

Speaker 4 (49:52):
Hell yeah, you already know.

Speaker 1 (49:55):
I got my asking questions about all the things you
if you found out your significant other had an only fans,
would that be a cause to break up or would
you see that as an opportunity for the household to
get that bag?

Speaker 4 (50:10):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (50:12):
Why didn't my significant other tell me that they have
an only fans?

Speaker 4 (50:16):
Yo? Own money ain't good money?

Speaker 1 (50:19):
No, but why was that hidden? If you my boom
that you'd be making money that way? I ain't judging.
I just want to know how I could get it
on the phone so we can make more money, absolutely right.

Speaker 4 (50:35):
Yeah, like yeah, yeah, you know what pressure I'll have.
I'll have a problem with that man, because like because
like you know what I'm saying, But mind's is minds,
you know what I'm saying, Like what's supposed to be
supposed to be mind? Like I don't even care, like
you know yours? Yeah, but yo, but yo for everyone
else to see, nah, yo, Like you know what I'm saying,
Like me, I got a certain standards.

Speaker 3 (50:56):
We'll see the only way fans doesn't just have to
be about that though, mm hmm. Like I've seen people
with only fans about crazy stupid stuff, not just sex
and all that.

Speaker 1 (51:09):
What if it's just feet, What if you're boothing has
an only fan. It's just a damn feet if he's
doing cute things, stands different.

Speaker 4 (51:20):
Bro, Like like like, yo, you know what, don't even
generate that that much money?

Speaker 1 (51:25):
Are what?

Speaker 4 (51:27):
I don't think? Don't generate that much money?

Speaker 1 (51:29):
You try that as but you don't know what the
foot fetish people.

Speaker 4 (51:36):
You're as opposed to, Like you know what I'm saying,
like like you know, I bet you.

Speaker 1 (51:39):
I don't think probably make more money than other body parts,
which is weird, but yeah, there's a huge foot fetish
could out there. I've heard of people not only making
money off of that, making money off of used underwear
or starting in a jar. Oh okay, So don't tell

(52:01):
me people can't make money off of some stupid ship,
because they do.

Speaker 4 (52:06):
R Yeah it's real.

Speaker 1 (52:08):
It's a real time.

Speaker 2 (52:10):
Yo.

Speaker 4 (52:11):
But that you know what I'm saying. Just so you
know what I'm saying, just farting and jarring to sell
that ship too, then they probably make money for that.

Speaker 1 (52:16):
I mean, you gotta capture that fart. There's definitely a technique,
I'm sure. Yeah, but yeah, I mean people like.

Speaker 4 (52:34):
Ah, man, you know what now that I came outside
like lum fully awake, like I'm gonna love this month.
It's not hot, not cold. I'm gonna be outside.

Speaker 1 (52:46):
Is that what you're passionate about this week? The weather.

Speaker 2 (52:52):
Dubs? What are you passionate about this week?

Speaker 4 (52:56):
Oh so there's like a written a green I'm all
show you guys next week that I have my girl signed.
Right that estates it's a contract basically state stacked Thursdays
from a thirty to eleven, Saturday all day, but well
twelve to ten Sundays all day until eleven, and Mondays

(53:24):
from a thirty to eleven until February. I'll be emotionally
unavailable for her, right right. You know she wants anything done,
but highlight me early in the morning for it. So
I don't want to be bothered after a certain time.
You're not gonna have You're not gonna you know what?
All right, you know what halftime is exceptional, but it

(53:46):
depends how far I'm going.

Speaker 1 (53:48):
But it'surgency or something or your attention is all before
you call me, yeah for real, like when you call that,
like any medical place, and if this is a real emergency,
please hang up and down nine one one, I'm like,
oh my.

Speaker 4 (54:05):
God, like like you know, football seasons amongst us and
then like my breather is at the end of the month. Yeah,
hopefully you know another you know, sixty five around desert,
around the sun. I mean hopefully. But other than that,
I mean like, yeah, we're good man, all right, you know,

(54:32):
but football season is definitely it because you know what,
I want to have that feeling of like, you know,
one of the US, like fentanyl whatever whatever. I watched
the Jets play. I want to see some Jets ship
this year besides the Butve fumble. You know, I want
to be like, damn, that is the most Jets ship

(54:53):
I've ever seen. I thought last year was bad. Four
plays popped in Achilles. Nah, you know what I'm saying.
But but like a lot of people, like you know,
they're actually saying that, you know whatever, I mean, you know,
predictions and ship. But I'll tell you this much, just
do make a Super Bowl. You're gonna hear by my

(55:13):
arrest because I'm gonna be I'm gonna be streaking down
some streaking down the main strip of Hoboken naked. Imagine
Imagine Will Farrow in that in that college movie I
forgot the name of it, and he was streaking. Yeah,
that would be me. Hell yeah, I'll be looking at

(55:38):
my balls because it's January and it's cold. A ship
you're my balls blue?

Speaker 1 (55:47):
Yeah?

Speaker 4 (55:47):
Like but no, seriously though, like like you know football,
you know, like the weather is changing. I don't want
to kick. Yeah, I'm out of the hoodie right now
because because like it's warm out here, but it's warm,
but it's not you see what I mean. Like it's
like it's like you know, like like like you know

(56:13):
what my like, like my lid had the ac and
I'm like, yo, turn that ship off. Open the window.
She's like, oh, this feels good. I'm like, yeah, I know.
That's why I told you to open the windows. To
leave the fan al a little bit, you know.

Speaker 1 (56:25):
Like.

Speaker 4 (56:26):
The leads. The leads are gonna change. I think that that,
you know, a drop to Upstate New York would be
you know, good for the day or something like that.
Just to watch these teams like the Bear Mountain, you know,
like nature ship my time of the year and yeah,

(56:49):
I mean like halloweens next month, people, you know what
I'm saying, But halloweens every day because people wear their
mask on everywhere anyway.

Speaker 2 (56:57):
So I mean, how dealing with their representatives exactly.

Speaker 4 (57:03):
You know what I'm saying, Like, oh man, just respectful
ash truck November Thanksgiving, thanks will be thanksful for just
for the next day to go. We purchased some ship
that I thought I was thankful for just because it's cheaper,

(57:26):
you know what I mean. Like it's so true. Yeah,
I'm thankful. I'm thankful for my sixty five minutes screen TV,
but that eighty five minutes is on sale for four
ninety nine. You know what I'm saying. Like everybody thinks
they're getting a real deal when they're actually getting this
shit on real retail price. Like they just dropped the
store deal off. You know what I'm saying, the store
price off. You know what I'm saying, You're getting what

(57:47):
you actually paid for on Black Friday.

Speaker 1 (57:49):
Oh, they used to have really good deals, So I
don't know if it's still the same. I haven't done
it in so long, but I.

Speaker 2 (57:55):
Never got involved with fucking Oh I totally did. That's why.

Speaker 4 (57:59):
That's why it' said Monday.

Speaker 3 (58:01):
But yeah, Cyber Monday that I had to get up
at four o'clock in the morning go get oh man, no, no.

Speaker 4 (58:08):
No, man, man, Look, you know what you know what,
let me tell you something, man, I got like I
did Black Friday one time, and that was the first
of the last time because I was like, yo, you
know what, Like like I got there, we got to
store my I was on my ex. We got there
like around three thirty in the morning, and we must

(58:30):
have been like the seventy fifth person on line. Like
people literally camped out. So I was like, yo, you
know what.

Speaker 1 (58:35):
Like I got too serious after a while.

Speaker 4 (58:38):
Yeah, you know what I'm saying. It's like, Yo, the irony.

Speaker 2 (58:45):
That a bi.

Speaker 4 (58:46):
Yeah yeah, yeah, I'm right off the y. I'm literally
right next to Kennedy. You know what I'm saying, Like
right there, you know what I'm saying, Like that's when
I realized, like, yo, you know what, thanksgiving us a
bust of that holiday because you know what, just a
couple of hours ago, thanks for some ship. Now we're overheard.
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (59:06):
You know Black Friday is the bullshit holiday.

Speaker 4 (59:09):
Yeah, but you know what though, But but you know what, though,
like like Black Friday, you know what I'm saying, Like
actually kept you know what I'm saying, companies, you know
what I'm saying in the black. What I'm saying, there
was in the red that day, they made it to
the black. You know what I'm saying, see it, they're
fucking yeah because we stupid understand what's going on. I'm
about to go sit in my car. Man fucking back

(59:30):
is killing me.

Speaker 1 (59:32):
But yeah, I agree, I I get that. It's like
when they try to get rid of ship that they
need to before the new year. Yeah big See what
is your thing that you were passionate about? What you said?

Speaker 2 (59:53):
Yeah? So all right, so it's this gonnas gonna start
off some ship, some new some new topic or whatever.

Speaker 4 (01:00:01):
But wait, hold on, hold on, hold on, and then
Christmas and then Christmas. Right. You know what though, like
like you know, like like I love and I have
a love hate. You know what I'm saying, relationship with Christmas.
It's because it's like buying presents for people, right, Like

(01:00:27):
I don't care about presence, like personally, you know what
I'm saying. I don't want no one to give me ship.
You know what I'm saying. If you're going to do it,
do it, do it from the bottom of your heart.
See that's the that's the that's that's the problem. You
know that's what that's the problem.

Speaker 2 (01:00:41):
Though.

Speaker 4 (01:00:42):
It was like everybody expect presents.

Speaker 1 (01:00:44):
That's right, right about saying.

Speaker 4 (01:00:49):
Every no, no, I'm serious stuff like everybody expects presence, right,
but like but like, yo, you know what though, like
the whole thing is like you know, like you're missing
the point, you know what I'm saying, Like, like, well,
not you, but you know the majority of people missed
at the point. They just you know what I'm saying,
They just bond presents because they feel like they need to.
It's like an obligation, you know what I'm saying, Like
when I do you know what I'm saying, why I

(01:01:09):
do something? I do something from the heart, you know
what I'm saying, Like I don't want no no oh
yeah you did this for me and not gota do
no No, I don't want that ship, you know what
I'm saying, Like.

Speaker 1 (01:01:21):
You'll never be that about that, never give things with
expectation to receive something that doesn't. That's right, good to
do in life.

Speaker 4 (01:01:34):
But but you know what, that's what Christmas turned out
to be.

Speaker 1 (01:01:39):
Christmas is just the consumer holiday and it's and I've
noticed that, like, but it's not like that for everybody though, no,
but it's still like I've seen a lot of parents
go super crazy buying a good jillion gifts for their kids.
Their trees are like you could hardly see the tree
because there's so many presents, and it's kind of gotten

(01:02:01):
just a little crazy because I remember Christmas for me,
you know, we would ask for a few things. Mama
didn't have no money. We couldn't bring a whole list
to her or anything, and if we did, I knew
I wasn't getting everything on that list. But you know,
it was the element of surprise. I guess to see

(01:02:23):
what I got, What did Santa bring me? Until I
found out he wasn't real? But then you.

Speaker 2 (01:02:30):
Just fucked it up for half the viewers right now.

Speaker 1 (01:02:32):
I mean, I swear to God, if you're an adult
over eighteen watching this and still believing in Santa, you
need to go to Finland because that's where he is.
That's what I learned recently. So it was a beautiful time,
like Christmas is like the only time that I feel
like just universally people are nice. And you know it's

(01:02:56):
sad though, because it should always be like that, but
it's own during that time where people were like saying
happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, you know, like everyone is nice.
Then after that it's like, go fuck yourself. That's what
I feel like. I feel like that's what it turns too.

Speaker 4 (01:03:14):
Yeah, you want to do what you know, you know,
what will make Christmas so much nice up here? Snow Yeah, yeah,
I wanted.

Speaker 1 (01:03:24):
To snow here too. I still have not experienced real
Pa snow, like it has no not where I've been,
Like it snowed a little bit, but like they've been saying, like, oh,
we're supposed to get all of the snow I've I've heard.
The first time I ever heard of snow squalls was
here and thankfully I was not driving during that. But

(01:03:46):
I did drive during a horrible thunderstorm where I literally
couldn't see anything in front of me while I was driving.
So that was fun. You know, I went really slow
and has on. I am a sieve driver, you.

Speaker 4 (01:04:04):
Know what, though, like like you know what, like I'll
appreciate if it snows, you know, like that that right
there with like you know, well like probably bring out
the kid to me with Christmas or whatever, you know,
like you know, like yeah, you know like or like
you know what, like and speaking of snow, I hope

(01:04:26):
you know what I'm saying, Like I hope, I hope
like mother Nature does not like you know, the size
of like throw a bunch of like you know, winter
cocaine on us this summer, I mean this winter, you know,
because right now because like look, you know what, I
can't shovel ship. I ain't gonna suck in my back,
give me a take a phone by me.

Speaker 1 (01:04:46):
Those kids don't go around shoveling ship anymore.

Speaker 4 (01:04:49):
For these kids are fucking lazy man like like you
know what, you know what, you know what these kids,
you know what I'm saying, Like they rather stay in
doors and play GT online or something like that, Red
the Redemption or like Madden Online and stuff, you know,
like like you know what, like they don't they don't
have that drive like you know, like like we did,
like like you know, like we like we would like

(01:05:11):
we would literally go around. But then again, I mean.

Speaker 2 (01:05:13):
I have a car port. I'm not worried about it.

Speaker 4 (01:05:17):
But then again, you know what though, like like you
know what, like when they used to like we used
to get storms, like you know, we got blizzards, you know,
like it's like ninety three ninety six.

Speaker 2 (01:05:30):
Ninety six. I remember the storm in ninety Oh.

Speaker 4 (01:05:33):
Man, I remember ninety six, man, like like you know what,
Like I like, like I came up here because I
came up here with my brother because we had to
go to court, Like like I flew from Miami. We
have to we have to go to court because the
legal guardianship ship, like it kind of got messed up
a little bit. I don't know what happened, so like
we have to fly up here, you know, through the
court of person or whatever, right, and like you know,

(01:05:56):
like we stood over my mom's house and we're supposed
to leave the day that it snowed, so we end
up staying like three extra days after the snowstorm. And
I remember like like they had the bulldozers on Washington
Street and they were literally like you know, like you know,

(01:06:20):
like putting the snow into the dump truck and dumping
in the river. That's before you know, the EPA found
out that that shit was like you know, contaminating whatever
because of the salt. But yeah, I remember that storm.
That was like the first time I ever said I
ever heard the path shut down. Pat trains shut down.
The pat trains shut down like like you know what,
Like that was like my first like you know, like

(01:06:41):
real glimpse to what a state of emergency really was,
because because what you call it p GTA speaking of
Grand theft Aul who I'm just playing like you know,
like that was like my first glimpse to like a
state of emergency. Man, you have people like with their

(01:07:04):
ski like skiing down you know, skiing up and down
the main strip, right you have people skiing what to
call it, like people out there with their ski suits
or whatever. Like Yo, it was Yo, what a time
to be alive. But like holy shit. The next day
after like like you know, I was like, yo, you
know what, I'm gonna go outside to make some money.

(01:07:25):
So me and Jay the following day, like you know,
like He's like, yo, I thought you would leave it.
I was like, nah, man, I can't. You know what
I'm saying. The flights are canceled. So me and him,
you know I'm saying, we went around shovel the snow
like and we did it for like three hours and
we made like then like one hundred dollars. It was
like twenty dollars that we were charging. And we and
we got it done quick so we had drive. You

(01:07:49):
know what I'm saying. It's just that now like these kids, man,
like the whole world is online.

Speaker 1 (01:07:54):
So it's like, yeah, let's see it.

Speaker 2 (01:07:58):
Yeah it is. Everything is is your phone and you know,
put in your face and your phone, your iPad.

Speaker 3 (01:08:09):
And you know they're not They're not gonna do real
good when apocalypse comes. Not gonna know how to cook,
how to grow, nothing, how to sew.

Speaker 2 (01:08:24):
I could do all that ship.

Speaker 3 (01:08:25):
They're not even gonna get to the walking day because
they're just gonna be dead.

Speaker 1 (01:08:29):
Yep, that's crazy. But yeah, big see what you're saying.

Speaker 2 (01:08:38):
Hold, I think for a second.

Speaker 1 (01:08:40):
Passionate about this week.

Speaker 2 (01:08:43):
So I was I've been thinking, right, I got a
couple of thinking about football. But I was scrolling through
the internet, the vast world of the internet, and I
came across a couple of things and go off together
because it has to do with what I'm passionate about, right,

(01:09:04):
all right, So it has to do with with with love.
So love. Love is to me personally, and I don't
know how you guys feel about it, but to me,
just because you have sex with somebody doesn't mean you
love them. We know this just because you're dating somebody

(01:09:25):
doesn't mean you love them. Talking to somebody twenty four
hours a day, seven days a week does not mean
you love them. All right, staying awake all day, all night,
whatever did you do with this person doesn't mean you
love them.

Speaker 3 (01:09:42):
Why you're crazy?

Speaker 2 (01:09:45):
All right? Because you're here now we get.

Speaker 3 (01:09:47):
I'm not saying I'm not staying up for nobody if I.

Speaker 4 (01:09:49):
Don't love them, yo.

Speaker 2 (01:09:52):
But you know what I'm saying. But behold up, hold up,
hold up to me. Like I had to write this
stuff down because I was you know, I was taking
a lot about it. Yeah, because I'm old and I
would have forgotten about it if I didn't write it down.

Speaker 4 (01:10:08):
And I.

Speaker 2 (01:10:10):
Just got I just got a whole bunch of new
pens from Amazon, so I was writing with them and ship.

Speaker 4 (01:10:16):
So they're.

Speaker 2 (01:10:22):
Black pens.

Speaker 4 (01:10:24):
I mean what type of ink?

Speaker 2 (01:10:26):
Black ink?

Speaker 4 (01:10:28):
No ship.

Speaker 1 (01:10:34):
Medium.

Speaker 4 (01:10:34):
I'm fine details, yo, yo, you know what I mean.
I'm not gonna lie like like you know what like
like like with me, like I always got to write
with Joel pens. I'm sorry, this is good choice, good choice.
You know what, if you got one of those like
big pens, would have like party foul loser.

Speaker 2 (01:10:58):
It's a jo it's a joke, all right, Yeah yeah,
so grow man ship exactly. So for me, for me,
it's love is kind of like someone can look at

(01:11:20):
you and accept your tough side, your rough side, and
still accept you for who you are. Right. It's someone
who does things for you when you can't, Like if
you can't do certain types of things, and this person
is there to do these things with you or for you.

(01:11:40):
That's that's that's a show of love. Someone who can
hold you and calm you down when you're in one
of your moments. You know what I'm saying, love is
love is someone who expresses all the good things in you,
even though you think all those things are bad. So
someone who who can actually come into your life and

(01:12:08):
accept you for who you are and show you that
there are good things within you. Because some people they
feel like damn, you know what I'm saying, who's gonna
love motherfucker like me? You know what I'm saying, Like,
who's gonna come into my life and show me that
they could deal with my bullshit? Because let me tell
you something, some of my some of my some some

(01:12:31):
of my bullshit is some serious ship. You know what
I'm saying, And for it to come into my life,
to be a part of my life means you gotta
you gotta hand. Yeah, yeah, you know what I'm saying.
Like it's it's it's just hard. You know, someone and
someone someone who makes sure you're okay from time to

(01:12:53):
time hit you up. Hey, you don't even know how
you're doing, how you've been, you know, everything good with
you and ship, you know what I'm saying. And someone
who just doesn't take you for granted. Somebody who appreciates
who you are, someone who appreciates the kind of person
you are. You know, because you know I've I've come.

(01:13:14):
I've come a long way. You know what I mean?
Anybody who know me, No, I come a long way.
I come from I come from some ship, you know
what I'm saying. And and I think anybody who who
decides to ultimately deal with me, you know, I come.
I come with a lot of ship. You know what

(01:13:34):
I'm saying, Like I come. I know we all do,
But what I'm saying, I come. I come. I come
with a lot of ship. And you know, I think
if you know you're gonna what was that another bike?

Speaker 1 (01:13:50):
No?

Speaker 4 (01:13:50):
That was me. Fargn no, my bad earlier.

Speaker 2 (01:13:55):
Into a jar. He's fartened into a jar. He's got
to tell.

Speaker 1 (01:13:59):
Only and that money.

Speaker 4 (01:14:02):
I've beturn it from only fast only parts.

Speaker 2 (01:14:07):
So I mean, you know, sometimes when when when I
look back and ship, like, I think about, you know,
some of the ship that that I've done, some of
the ship I've been through and ship, I think to myself,
I'm like, I'm not dead for a reason, you know
what I'm saying. Like, there were times when I thought

(01:14:30):
this was it, you know, and I'm not. I'm here, bro,
and I'm I'm telling you, man, I'm not. I'm not.
I'm not really a big religious dude. But you know,
I've done some ship. I've been in the middle of
some ship. You know what I'm saying. And I'm like, Yo,

(01:14:53):
what the fuck? Man, I'm like, YO, call on you.
You You here for a reason, man, somebody they're keeping
you here for something.

Speaker 4 (01:15:00):
I don't know.

Speaker 2 (01:15:01):
If it's to run for office eventually, you know what
I'm saying, or to fucking do this, or to help
someone or do whatever it is. But I'm here for
a reason, you know what I'm saying. And I know
and I'm gonna be honest with you, man. Sometimes sometimes
I sit back and I'm like, yo, you remember the
day this happened, and that happened, and this happened and

(01:15:24):
that happened. Like, I'm gonna tell you a story. This
is story time, real quick. It's gonna freaky motherfuckers out.
Huh what was that?

Speaker 1 (01:15:33):
My lord?

Speaker 2 (01:15:34):
Oh my lord, Oh my gosh. This is story time.
This is gonna probably fuck some people's heads up when
I say this. All right, So I was at when
I was at. I was at a point in my
life when I was real low. Everybody's had them low
points and shit right. I was living with my grandmother

(01:15:57):
at the time, and I washed Inton Street. I had
I'll never forget this and Dub's doveson can tell you this.
I had a green Nissan Pathfinder. Yeah. Yeah. And one
day I was sitting down and I was saying to myself,

(01:16:22):
I don't and this is this is this is the
unmedicated me, you know what I mean. And I was
sitting there and I was like, I don't. I don't
want to do this no more. Like I'm like, I
don't I want to be here? Like what the fuck
am I what am I doing here? Like, what's my purpose?
I felt like I had no purpose. So what I

(01:16:46):
did was I I went to CVS, which was right
across the street, and I bought a bottle of no Doze,
not no dose, no no no night. All it was night.

(01:17:07):
All it was colled. No dose is to stay awake.
Night all is to go to sleep. So that bottle
had like twenty some pills. And then, man, let me
tell you, somebody drank the whole fucking bottle. I drank
the whole fucking bottle, and I jumped in the car
and I went for a ride. Okay, my intention was

(01:17:27):
not to make it that night. Okay, would you believe
now if that night did not kill me? All right?
I got all. I remember. It was in the middle
of winter. The temperature must have been like ten to

(01:17:48):
fifteen below with the wind shill. I was like, I've
had it with everything, right. I think I found out
at that time my lady was fucking around or something
and my job. I lost my job, and I was like, Yo,
what the fuck and this and that all this other shit.
I don't want to fucking deal with it. And so

(01:18:12):
I went and I did that, went for a ride.
I get home. I and all I remember was parking
the car, right, and then I wake up in the hospital.

(01:18:33):
I remember nothing between parking the car and I wake
up in the hospital. Right. So I'm hearing things and
I'm seeing shit because I guess they had they had
to pump my stomach. So the nurse comes in and
she was like, oh my god, you're awake. She was like,

(01:18:54):
it was touch and go. I was like, what do
you What the fuck are you talking about. She was like,
you have no idea what happened? I was like, no,
She said, you walked in here in a T shirt,
walked up to the nurse and said, I just took
twenty sound pills. I wanted to die and fell out

(01:19:19):
on the floor. They thrush me in, pumped my stomach,
and they they, you know, pretty much did what they
had to do to keep me alive. Right. So, I
my aunt was an RN in an emergency room at
the time. She comes in to talk to me and she'said,

(01:19:41):
but what happened? And I was like, I don't even know, man,
I was so I they told me they were going
to keep me and they were gonna lock they were
going to put me in the psych ward observation. Yeah,
make sure you know. I was good. But I started
to feel better, like my senses started coming back and

(01:20:01):
ship after all this shit that went on. And I
said to the nurse, I was like, because they had
me on a IV. I said, look, I need something
to drink, something to eat or whatever. They were like, oh,
you know, the the vending machines are right outside the door,
so go ahead and get something or whatever and come back.

(01:20:23):
So when I went to the vending machine, I've so
freaked the fuck out about what they had told me,
what had happened, and what I remembered. I took the
fucking I snatched the IV out of my hand and
I ran home. So I run the fuck home. I
got blood squirting from my fucking fist because of the IV.

(01:20:45):
I get home and I wrapped my hand, my hand,
my fist, I banged it up, and my grandmother was like,
you know what happened where you've been? And I was like,
I was like, nah, you know, I'm right, everything's cool.
So my mother comes upstairs and she says, listen, what
the fuck happened to you last night? I said, what

(01:21:07):
do you mean? She said, the cops came to the
house and said they found the car door open with
the keys on the floor to the car and nobody
in sight. And they were one, they know, what's your car?
They were wondering where the fuck you are? What the
fuck happened? I was like, I don't know. I just

(01:21:28):
I don't know. I must have fallen asleep halfway or whatever.
I don't know what the fuck. And she was like,
all right, just get some rest. You look a little tired.
Cops come to the house and it was it was
it was Sammy the cop and it was George, and
they were like, listen, man, we just got a call
from from the hospital saying that you left and you

(01:21:51):
needed to stay there. So either you're gonna come back
with us willingly or we're gonna have to take you
by force, but you have to go to the hospital.
So I was like, all right, I go to the hospital.
I spend some time in the unit, and that whole
time I was thinking to myself, I was like, what
the fuck was I thinking? I could have not only

(01:22:14):
end in my life, I could have ended somebody else's, right,
you know what I mean? And I just it was
it was just one of those moments in my life
that that helped. That helped me realize that, Yo, I'm
I'm here for a reason, man, it's I'm here to

(01:22:36):
do something for somebody or or too something, you know
what I'm saying. I thought I started thinking more about
my kids, I started thinking more about a lot of shit,
you know. And I mean, I've been down a couple
of times after that, but it's never gotten to that point,

(01:22:58):
you know what I'm saying, Because not that you don't
you don't. You don't grow if you don't experience you
know what I'm saying, Like, if you don't experience certain
things in your life, you know, you don't grow. And
I grew from that situation, like I learned that that no,

(01:23:22):
no matter what the fuck, man, if you're here for
a reason, man, you're gonna stay here till your purpose
is fulfilled. You know what I'm saying. And that that's
how I feel about that.

Speaker 1 (01:23:31):
Man.

Speaker 2 (01:23:31):
That's that's that's just that was just a little storytime.
I just had to say something about that because I've
I've been like, I've been thinking a lot about my
my mortality and ship. I used to go. I used
to when I was when when everybody's a kid when
you're young and you're growing up and you think you're
invincible and ship what I'm saying. And and the older,

(01:23:55):
the older I get the moment realized that you know,
it's you're living on borrow time, man. You know, and
if and if your time isn't your time, it's not
your time. It'll happen when when it happens. And it
wasn't meant for me to go at those times. And

(01:24:16):
you know, I I've been. I've been, damn man. I've
been in and out of places when I was a
kid too. Like there was this place called fair Oaks

(01:24:36):
that's in Summit. I don't know if it's there anymore.
It might be under a different name, but it was
called fair Oaks. It was in Summit, New Jersey. And
they did they did some ill ship to me there
in the hospital, bro. Like I used to get ect treatments.

(01:24:57):
You know what that ship is. That's not a shot treatments,
that's not I got twelve of those treatments when I
was in at the hospital, bro, And and they all
I would wake up was a fucking headache and some
memory loss. They said that that was supposed to be
like the best way to shock the depression out of
somebody or some shit, to shock it out of you.

(01:25:18):
But that shit's in humane, bro, they should not have
been doing that shit. But I I experienced a lot
of that ship, and I'm just glad that I'm here
with y'all. I'm here now with my kids, and I
got my grandkids, and I got you know what I'm saying,
I got, I got it, I got an okay life
like I'm not. I'm not, you know, I'm grateful, you

(01:25:38):
know what I mean. And you know if I think,
and I also think that's one of the reasons why
I like I like to I don't have any any
kind of like issue or or any kind of like like.

(01:25:59):
There's no I have no no like, I have no
stigma like I don't. I'm not afraid to talk about
my ship, you know what I'm saying, because if whatever
I talk about can open up somebody else's eyes or
help somebody, you know what I mean, then then so
be it. But I just I just feel like, you know,

(01:26:20):
I can teach somebody to help somebody with some and
even even with fantasy football, if anybody wants to learn
how to play fantasy football and ship. You know what
I'm saying, I'm really good at that ship too. You know,
I got a couple of championships. Look, I got a
championship ring right here, you know what.

Speaker 4 (01:26:35):
You know what?

Speaker 2 (01:26:36):
Like but but not hold up real quick, but all reallessness.
You know, if if anybody wants to hit up anybody
from the show, the email addresses are coming across the bottom.
If you want to speak to a specific you know, host,
co host, whatever it is. You know what I'm saying.
Email addresses are on the bottom. They'll be glad to

(01:26:56):
get back to you and holler at you about whatever
it is you want talk about.

Speaker 4 (01:27:01):
Any you know what, real quick, thanks, real quick, real quick. Right,
you've been around for the times where like you've been
around for the times where like I was like by
my self destructive shit. And that's and that was the
span of twenty years, you know what I'm saying, Like,

(01:27:21):
for instance, the Wildwood incident, were overdosed mm hmm. I
woke up yo, I woke up wild Wood. I woke
up one morning drinking a hundred proof liquor at five
in the morning, and then like I had like two
ecstasy pills right, I popped one, drank more liquor before
they even got up. I was already drunk on the
boardwalk and highest shit. And the last thing I remembered

(01:27:44):
was popping another pill on the boardwalk because I forgot
to pop the first pill right, and the second was
a lot stronger. I was starting with some girl from
Philly and she was sitting on my lap and we're
playing the drinking game. Then all of a sudden, shit
hit and then like I remember, just stumbling to the
to the bathroom. I was trying to like throw up.

Speaker 2 (01:28:06):
Couldn't prove up, but.

Speaker 4 (01:28:07):
I could have, but I couldn't throw up with nothing.
But like, yo, you know what, Yeah, you know what
I'm saying. It was all fun and jokes at the time,
but like, yo, I was dying, you know what I'm saying,
Like like I literally passed out, and you know what
I'm about to say. I don't know if it's drugs
or nothing, but I saw these I saw these dudes,
like I saw Colee on and Jay kick you know
what I'm saying, kick the door and move my body.

(01:28:29):
And I'm floating and I'm watching this ship and they're
slapping the ship out of me. They're like, Yo, this
nigga's not breathing. You know what I'm saying, Like, Yo,
he's not breathing. He's not breathing, and like they just
threw me into the bathtub and threw water on me, right,
like threw water on my face and whatever. Yeah, and
like that's the last thing that's I've seen it. But

(01:28:49):
that's the last thing I remember, you know what I'm saying.
But I was like like, like I said, I don't
know if it was the drugs, but I was like
floating over and seeing this ship happen. Then all of
a sudden, like my face is all whin. I'm like, yo,
what's going on? And I couldn't even get up, Like
I had to crawl to the bed and I slept
for like.

Speaker 2 (01:29:09):
Probably one told him we would have to call his mom.
He soaped up a little bit before he went yeah
yeah you know, like yeah, you were like call your
mom and she was he was.

Speaker 4 (01:29:20):
Like, h bro, like that first off, you know what
I'm saying, what like like I remember that part. I
was like yo, like I was struggling to like stay alive,
Like I was scared, Like see that that's not like
you know what, I was like fucked up, but I
was scared, you know what I'm saying, like like like
you know what, Like I try to like move my
hand a little bit, try to try to fill a post,

(01:29:40):
and every time I didn't feel nothing, I was like, yo, fuck,
I'm dying, bro. Like I was like literally scared, bro,
like like you know, like it's a joke now, you know,
But that's one, you know what I'm saying. The times,
like you know, I would drink like a gallon of
Tito's in front of this dude. You'll try to take
my key. I'm like, nah, I'll wing it and drive home.

(01:30:04):
I don't remember how I got home, right. There was
one time I was like all the way up in
the lake a pack on, drunk as hell, drunk and
coked up, driving home at three in the morning, almost
hitting in there. And that's the last thing I remembered,
like like you know what, Like I was on eighty
going down, you know what I'm saying. The last thing
I remember was like passing Morristown and I don't remember

(01:30:27):
nothing after that. I woke up in my car at
seven in the morning, right behind City Hall, right my
car was winning and it's winter time. You know, like
I put my you know what I'm saying, I put
my life out. You know what I'm saying that risk
because I did not care. I just didn't care, Like
you know, I had no care about nothing, you know,

(01:30:52):
like nothing didn't matter to me. Life itself didn't matter
to me, you know. And like the day I got
my D why like once again, liquor and drug like
see see, liquor will always be my demon, you know
what I'm saying, because like it opens me to other things.

(01:31:17):
So it's liquor. Like I was at my barber's house
getting a haircut. I woke up. I had a dream
about my brother who recently passed away. And I remember
the dream so vividly because like it was me and
him talking. I was telling him I missed him, and
we're talking like you know, we gave each other a
hug whatever. I'm like, bro, man, like I'm so happy

(01:31:40):
to see you, and this that and the third. So
then like you know, like we're talking to the dream
and he was like, hey, I gotta go. So I
was like, yeah, I walk with you. He was like,
now you can't come. And like when he walked away.
I was like trying to walk, but I couldn't. I
was trying to follow him, but then like I felt
like I was I was like stuck, still trying to walk,
like my feet was moving, but I was like stationed
every like like on a I'm one of those like

(01:32:04):
walking things in the gym, the stationary. Yeah, my bag
came and pronounced I'm a little tired, and I like
when I woke up, I woke up crying. So that
set the tone for that day. I went and got
a gallon of titos, was drinking what my you know
what I'm saying. I was drinking the titos or whatever, and

(01:32:24):
my father's cut in my hair. Right. Yeah, more people
come the one I knew that, you know, they had
like a little powder, so I copped it from him
without you know, knowing knowing. Went to the bathroom, you know,
doing bumps, and I was like, you know what I'm
gonna I'm gonna do a whole lot. I'm gonna rail
this whole bag, you know, Like I felt like Scarface

(01:32:47):
for a minute. I'm like, okay, I reloaded. It's like
you know, like once like you know, like certain drugs
getting into you like liquor tastes like water. So then
I went to go get Then I went to go
get another bottle, and then like somebody else came down
and I knew they had pills, so I capt three

(01:33:08):
pills from them purpose sizes. I popped when I was drinking,
Like you know what. That day, I just had a
death wish, you know. But at the same time, I
just didn't want to feel nothing, you know, like I
wasn't trying to feel nothing. So my brother was telling me.
He's like, Yo, you're a grown man, but I think

(01:33:30):
you should stay here. I remember the conversation. He's like, Yo,
just keep yi. I'm gonna take your keys. I'm like, nah, bro,
you know what I'm saying. And I got pissed off
at him, like I'm like, nigga, give my fucking keys, bro,
you know what I'm saying. He was like a bro, Yo,
He's like, you're sober, right. I'm like, yeah, man, I'm sober.
I haven't. I haven't drank nothing, you know what I'm saying.
Since nine o'clock it was midnight. I thought I was sober.

(01:33:50):
When I got into the car and I started driving,
That's when everything came back up. That's when everything like,
that's when everything, like all the liquor that I was drinking,
it showed itself. The car, fuck, I said, well, I'm
halfway here, so I'm driving, and I don't remember anything else.

(01:34:13):
I do remember getting to the Wholeboken though. Don't ask
me how I got there, because I can't tell you that.
My guardian Angel was working overtime that day. Right, I
parked the car, and I'm like, yes, I made it right.
And I parked the car pretty good too. I was like,
you know what I'm saying, open the door. I said, Yo,

(01:34:34):
not bad for a drunk ey ha ha, you know,
making a little joke. I turned the car off, and
I'm here trying to move, but I'm like, yo, I'm
just too fucking tired, and I just passed out. I
wake up like three and a half hours later, like
it's three thirty to like like eight to ten cops

(01:34:55):
around my car, and I'm like, what the fuck, Like
they were talking all this Gibberius shit and whatever, right,
and I really couldn't understand what the fuck they were saying.
So they give me a sobriety tests. I remember passing
the sobriety test. I passed that part because the police
reports I passed it, but I failed to breathalyze it

(01:35:16):
big time, so they took me in this stuff right,
And that was the first time I was ever embarrassed
about gannon arrested. And I've been arrested plenty of times,
but this was like the first time I was ever embarrassed,
like a shamed, Like I'm saying to myself, like, you know,
like that's what's like in the cop card, Like it

(01:35:37):
hit me. I'm like, what the fuck are you doing?
You know what I'm saying, Like, what is well? Yo?
What is your mouth functioned?

Speaker 1 (01:35:45):
Now?

Speaker 4 (01:35:46):
Bro? You know like you can't yo. You know what
they're like like, you know, like you out here putting
other people's lives at risk, out here putting your life
at risk, you know, like and then like you know,
like when I was handcuffed, I'm here thinking about the ship.
I'm like, Yo, what HAPs if I if I would
have collide a head on with a family and a

(01:36:07):
baby and you wiped out. You know what I'm saying,
you wept that you kill that baby. He's like, because
not ten times, you know the person who's drunk, they
survived an accident. Then this got free at that too,
free of in injury. I'm like, yo, I'm like, yo,
can you live with that? Can you do seventeen years?
You know what I'm saying? With blood on your hands

(01:36:28):
in a cell? Don't damn will you that you did
something like that? You know, Like I'm here thinking of
everything and everything. I'm like, Yo, something's got changed, bro,
you know, like I gotta get my shit together, you know,
like really I really got to get my shit together.
And but you know, so like I'm here checking, like

(01:36:51):
you know what I'm saying, like, you know, putting my
hands in like my side pockets because I had swept.
I was wearing sweatpants that they slide pockets, like cargo sweatpants, right,
and these cops in the fristbe right because I still
had two more pills. I was like, oh shit. I
was like, yo, you know what this puts me? This
puts me in a jam because like why does every

(01:37:12):
frisk me again? See what I mean? They frisk me
again because they could do that and they find that shit,
that's an extra charge. So so I was like, so's
the cop that we know that we used to go
to the bar with. And I ain't gonna mention his name.
He was working that night. He sees me. He's like, Yo,

(01:37:33):
what the fuck? Bro? Like I just read to report.
I'm like, I'm a little fucked up in the game
right now, Bro, you know what I'm saying. Like, he's like, damn, Bro.
I was like, Yo, I gotta use the bathroom. I
gotta go use the bathroom, like I was a guy back.
You know what I'm saying. I use the bathroom. He's like, yo,
I gotta watch it. I'm like, I don't care. So
I just got to pee. So I go pee right

(01:37:53):
and like and like, you know, like I had the
pills in my hands. I said, oh, you might gonna
wash my face a little bit. Suck stay up. He's
like yeah, yeah, yeah, So like I may wash my
face and me And while washing my face, I threw
the two pills in my mouth, right, and then I
threw like extra water, like little like drops of waters
at least. So I swallowed the ship pause and I

(01:38:15):
swallowed it pause right. Thirty minutes later, right, I got
so fucked up on these two pills. But I was like,
oh shit. I'm like, oh man, you know what, at
least I'm relaxed, you know, like, like I had no
other choice though, because I'm not trying to get hit

(01:38:38):
with the drug charge, you know. So I was like,
I gotta sacrifice something. You could have.

Speaker 1 (01:38:43):
Flushed them or something instead of I.

Speaker 2 (01:38:45):
Paid for them.

Speaker 4 (01:38:46):
I paid for them. It was my last hurrah. You
know what I'm saying. That was not the time, yo.
You know what you fucked up? Yo? I paid for it.
It was my last hurrah, So like you know what
I'm saying. And I knew it was gonna be my
last hurrah, you know what I mean.

Speaker 1 (01:39:00):
So it's like damn.

Speaker 4 (01:39:03):
Like you know, like my parents came at like five
thirty in the morning to pick me up. They just
looked at me, right, and I couldn't even That was
the first time I couldn't even look at my parents.
So yo, I could, Yo, I could not look at
my parents. So you know what I'm saying, Like I
just had my head down right, and they were like

(01:39:24):
you want to talk about what happens? No, Like I
was just like so depressed, Like I went to my room, right,
you know what I'm saying. I went to my room
because like I was staying with them at the time.
I laid down and I just started like just like staring.
You know what I'm saying. I'm like, yo, Like like yo,
you know what, before I start getting more depressed, I

(01:39:44):
got to figure out what it is, you know. And
and I knew that, you know what I'm saying, Like
I was going through some you know what I'm saying
through some ship. But like that that ship with my brother,
I knew that it was unfinished, you know what I'm saying,
Like I wasn't finished morning m hm.

Speaker 2 (01:40:02):
So it was like.

Speaker 4 (01:40:05):
That's what it was, you know what I'm saying. Like
I was just holding back and like it just came out,
and you know, I was like yo, after that, man,
I'm like, I'm like, bro, something's got to give. Man,
Like like you know, like either either you know, like
either something changed or I might not even be here

(01:40:30):
the next week, you know, like and and yo, but
like like yo, you know what, Like like Corleone has
been you know what I'm saying, he's been present because
he even tried to snatch my keys before, right like funny,
like the funniest incident. I left his house drunk as hell.
I end up turning back around going up the wrong

(01:40:51):
street because I got lost. I'm like, yo, I don't
know where I'm at. Yoh, the cops here. I remember.
I remember that, Like I did not know, like like
I left this house, like I knew where to go
to cast the highway and stuff. But for some reason,
like my my whole like equal liver room was shot.
Like I got confused to where I was going. I

(01:41:12):
was like, oh shit, I don't know where I'm at,
you know. So like I ended up like driving back
to his house and just spending the night over there
because like I couldn't go nowhere, you know. But like
I understand the whole thing about being self destructive man,
because like if there was one, if there was one
person was self destructive, it was me, Like I self

(01:41:34):
destructing anything. I couldn't have nothing good, you know, whether
it be relationships, whether it be a standard relationship with
my parents, I couldn't have nothing good. I always have
to fuck it up somehow, you know, Like like you know,
what if something was too easy, I'm like, nah, let
me put my touch on it, because I'm used to it.

(01:41:56):
Because you know what I'm used to that organized chaos.
You know what I'm saying. I'm used to organized confusion
and organized chaos. Like that was the world I lived in,
you know, Like if something was going too good in
the relationship, I just wanted to spice things up because
I'm used to it. You know. It was like it
was like, you know what, like I didn't know that

(01:42:16):
I was like being a massive manipulator on some shit,
you know, but you know that's what happened. Like I
was manipulating a lot of things, and that's what they
caused me to be, like very and I was narcissistic
about it. So that's what got me that that's what
caused me to be very self destructive with it. And

(01:42:39):
you know, thank God, like I know, you know, like
being supposed to you know, touch on religion whatever, but
you know, I have my little beliefs here and God
has kept me alive for a reason, you know, Like
I'm always going to be an alcoholic, I'm always going
to be an addict. I'm always gonna be an opiate
opio and addict, an opiate addict, you know, I'm always
gonna be that, you know, Like, and I accept that

(01:43:03):
for what it is. That's the reason why, like you know,
you know, like like I'm like, I'm thankful I have
enough strength to be around people that drink because I
don't drink. You know, I could be around people that drink.
I could go in the barn just all the water
and pine up with just some cranberry juice and orange
juice all egg you know, like I could do that.

(01:43:25):
You know, like I have not want to taste no
liquor since done. And I'm going through a lot of
shit right now and this mind you this liquor at
my house right now, I haven't touched no liquor, no nothing.
I don't even want to smeile. I don't even drink
wine the minute, you know, because like my thing is

(01:43:47):
that the minute, the minute I get it taste for
liquor is the minute. You know, it's like a vampire
with blood, you know, like the men. You know what
I'm saying, Like the minute you get that taste, that
first taste of blood's gonna want it all. I found
that that's gonna be me all over again.

Speaker 2 (01:44:03):
Yeah, you want to stay away from that ship, bro,
You gotta. Yeah, what about any anybody else with something
they've done that was self destructive that they want to
story time and be good with that.

Speaker 4 (01:44:22):
TG is gonna be like I once went the Target
and called the Walmart. That's so constructive.

Speaker 1 (01:44:30):
Some Karen like ship on my end.

Speaker 4 (01:44:32):
No, t was getting exported by it, but teachers getting
exported about the security guard. She was like, I'm handy,
you ruffians.

Speaker 1 (01:44:42):
I'm a crowd baby. Oh my god. No. I mean,
I feel like we all self sabotage. It's sort of
it's a destructive behavior that we have when we have

(01:45:03):
been let down, when we do put expectations on people
and they don't meet those expectations. It's sort of like
you just set yourself up every time, and that's what
it is. And the person might might be a good person,
they might be trustworthy and they didn't do anything, but

(01:45:25):
you're feeling like they're hiding something, Like you can't trust
people because your view is jaded on people because you've
given trust and it's been broken. So I think that's
a common thing for people to self sabotage. I mean

(01:45:45):
women especially talk very badly to themselves. A lot of
women do that, Like we say things and I don't know,
I can't speak for men, so but many women I
know have spoken very badly to themselves in ways that
you would never say that to someone you love. And

(01:46:06):
that's that's that self criticizing component in our brain that's
constantly like you're not good enough, or you know you
you did mess up. This is what you do? Uh?
You know, like there is a word you said, I
don't know who's gonna deal with me? And when you

(01:46:28):
said that, I was like, wow, why would you say that?
Why why deal with you? You're not someone who like
someone needs to deal with. You're someone that someone needs
to love and support. So it's not dealing with you,
it's accepting you is what you want, you know. So

(01:46:54):
we all have our insecurities, we all have our little
you know parts that been hurt are experiences that have
jaded us or have put us in a position to
not trust people easily. But I don't think that's a

(01:47:16):
bad thing, the whole not trusting people easily, because you
just never know.

Speaker 4 (01:47:19):
There are a lot of assholes out there that there are, absolutely.

Speaker 1 (01:47:25):
And there are a lot of people who are manipulative
and will try to use you, you know. But one
thing I've learned is that you really got to listen
to your gut because your gut really does tell you
when something is off, and you need to listen to
that ship.

Speaker 4 (01:47:42):
Exactly like you tackles at three am.

Speaker 1 (01:47:45):
Who doesn't definitely not white Castle white after drinking and
then going to white Castle. That was a smart idea,
like your ass.

Speaker 4 (01:47:55):
No no, no, I got to the top that Checkers.

Speaker 2 (01:48:00):
I don't.

Speaker 1 (01:48:01):
We didn't really have to where was Checkers.

Speaker 4 (01:48:04):
Right down communit, Paul. We used to go over there
like like like you know what, like we need to
be over there at all? What's the name that spot?

Speaker 2 (01:48:10):
Man?

Speaker 4 (01:48:11):
Yo? Caven point right drinking gain just drinking smoked out right,
and then like you know, we would roll over the
Checkers or.

Speaker 2 (01:48:20):
Whatever Checkers on community bro.

Speaker 4 (01:48:23):
My god, yo, you know what in order like math,
food and stuff?

Speaker 2 (01:48:27):
Right, Chicken sandwiches were a dollar back then?

Speaker 4 (01:48:30):
Oh my lord, the check yoa yo, the checker burgers,
you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (01:48:36):
And the chicken sandwiches are valiant though, oh man yo,
and the checker the checker fries and three chicken sandwiches
and the order of fries you good, yo, my.

Speaker 1 (01:48:49):
God, it's like twelve dollars for a fucking big.

Speaker 4 (01:48:53):
Mac or whatever yo, yo for that. You know what
I'm saying, Yo, You know what, if I want to
spend twelve, you know what I'm saying, I just go
to the fake right.

Speaker 1 (01:49:03):
Like nowadays it's like, well, I could go to McDonald's.
It's been almost fifteen dollars for something, or for that,
I could get a whole fucking pizza I could get.
You know, there's other things you can get. Now you
can like make a choice. Before it was a no brainer.
It's like I'll do a file, a biggie bag whatever,

(01:49:23):
you know, Like it was like I got five bucks.
I remember. We always used to go to McDonald's and
get the two cheeseburgers. It was two ninety nine, two cheeseburgers, fries,
and a drink.

Speaker 4 (01:49:34):
Three plus tax.

Speaker 1 (01:49:36):
That's right, that's what the tax three seventeen yep. And
you know, make sure you have three seventeen for that ship.

Speaker 4 (01:49:45):
Do you remember when they had the chicken fi heat
of the.

Speaker 1 (01:49:49):
McDonald's Oh my god, oh man, I don't even know.
I remember. I even remember when they had salads. Didn't
they have like didn't they have like shaker salads or
something like that too or something.

Speaker 4 (01:50:05):
They did?

Speaker 1 (01:50:06):
They? Yeah, they used to have like a bunch of
different ship ribs, the big crib. Oh god yeah.

Speaker 4 (01:50:15):
Yo yo yeah McDonald's right, and like it was some
Mexican dude I was getting that was getting my order
messed up. And I remember you were staying. He was
standing like right behind me and ship. I'm like, bro,
you're acting like a big asshole right now. You're sucking
up our order. Bro, get it right, big asshole. People laughing,

(01:50:38):
They're like, Yo, this call big asshole and I'm just playing.
I'm come on, it's a poppy man number one, Yo.
It ain't that hard, bro, number one.

Speaker 1 (01:50:49):
I know you always wanted like knowing your number that
you were ordering, knew how much it was gonna be.

Speaker 4 (01:50:58):
Or like sometimes you just one of them. But y
let me get a whopper yo, fam you McDonald's bro.
Oh yeah, my bad, sorry big back, Like yeah, you
know what I'm saying. They all right, my bad. Don't
let me get a big bag with Jesus.

Speaker 2 (01:51:13):
So, so we're gonna go. We're gonna go around the
room real quick for the last time of the night,
Lady g your final thought for this.

Speaker 3 (01:51:20):
Evening, final thought, hmm. Everybody is going through something. It's
not what happens, but what we do about it that matters.

Speaker 2 (01:51:36):
I was short and sweet, Yes, true and true lady
g fashion.

Speaker 3 (01:51:43):
Mm hmmm.

Speaker 2 (01:51:47):
Dogs, what about you? Bro? What's your final thought for
the evening? Bro?

Speaker 4 (01:51:52):
I was wondering, does that part in the draw really work?
M canna make money? How to generate income?

Speaker 1 (01:52:02):
Well?

Speaker 3 (01:52:02):
I don't know. I mean people fart on the covers
and put it over their head.

Speaker 1 (01:52:06):
I mean it.

Speaker 4 (01:52:07):
Lasts that long, right, go, you know what, you know
what I think I'm gonna do that to my girl
today just because you know, come on.

Speaker 1 (01:52:14):
Don't you dare? Don't you dare? She doesn't deserve that,
that's wrong.

Speaker 4 (01:52:20):
But I'm gonna do it anyways, because I'm a chirkhole.

Speaker 2 (01:52:28):
Hello.

Speaker 4 (01:52:29):
I mean you know, like no, not not not not
you know what and all honestly, you know what I'm saying.
My final thought is like, before you go love somebody
man like love, love yourself like even your flaws, love
your love your flaws too as well, because you know
what your flaws may be. This may be the thing
that that other person you're looking for, that other person

(01:52:50):
looking at love was about you. So whatever the flaws
was not a flaw to them right, absolutely, so just
like so it's like just love yourself, man, Like you
know what I'm saying a lot. You know what, even
if you know, even if you have to look in
the mirror, you know what I'm saying in the bathroom
mirroring and lot to yourself, keep lying until this sounds true.

(01:53:12):
And once it sounds true, then you start to believe it.
And then like you know what I'm saying, Once you
start to believe it, then it's the truth. Mm hm words, yeah,
you know what I'm saying. Like sometimes you know, sometimes
you have to like lot to yourself, you know what
I'm saying in a positive way, so everything could gel together,
you know, Like, so just keep you know what I'm saying,

(01:53:33):
Just keep saying this, Just keep telling you what I'm saying.
Just keep looking at that person in the mirror, because
that's the only competition. Nobody out here is your competition.
But the person is seeing the murror every morning, the
person is seeing the murder every night.

Speaker 2 (01:53:45):
Absolutely TG love your final thought of the evening, M.

Speaker 1 (01:53:52):
I have to go to the bathroom and I've been
holding it for quite some time. That's my thoughts. And
I'm like, oh my God, when are we get to
shut up?

Speaker 2 (01:54:03):
No?

Speaker 1 (01:54:04):
Uh, I just go back to what I said earlier.
If you're gonna talk shit and not like things, then vote.

Speaker 2 (01:54:13):
Sorry, all right. My final thought for the evening is
actually a shout out. I'm going to give a shout
out to my dudes at Fort Bricks Productions. They're doing
big things over there, Fort Bricks Studios. All right, you
can check them out on TikTok. You know what I'm saying.

(01:54:35):
Right now. They got a bunch of hot shits flowing
over there. They're on a bunch of platforms. Go check
them out. For Bricks Productions, Fort Bricks Studios. They're doing
big things. Check them out. And as far as I'm concerned,
that is it for the evening. Good Night everybody, and
always remember that at some point.

Speaker 1 (01:54:58):
This might hurt.

Speaker 4 (01:55:01):
Good night people by, and my bad for being a
little late. Why is the time is still going on?
H yo?

Speaker 2 (01:55:16):
What yo?

Speaker 4 (01:55:18):
What? What's up the time?

Speaker 1 (01:55:19):
What are we still alive?

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