What's Most Important To You? (Recorded LIVE on 12-4-24)

What's most important to you at this point of our life? We'll discuss some of what's important to us, Just keep in mind that at some point This Might Hurt!!

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:10):
Sa Sa Sa Sa, Say.

Speaker 2 (01:54):
He what's up everybody? He's been cold to you after
this My Heart podcast coming to you live. Hold on,
I'm out of focus. Gotta get in focused. Gotta get
in focus, all right and focus then bringing my co
host Lady G. How are you, Lady G? Hello? Okay,

(02:23):
maybe she's away right now, but that's okay, that's okay.
So how's everybody's week been? How's everybody doing? Let me
see hold on one second, yeah, maybe she stepped away

(02:48):
or something. So as far as everything goes, everybody's doing good,
everybody's feeling okay. It's is the post Thanksgiving Shenanigan's episode,

(03:08):
you know what I'm saying. Hold on, let me all right,
So they gotta meet a mic real quick, so I
don't know what's going on over there. So with that
being said, and you guys, hey guys, we've been busy

(03:38):
Christmas shopping. It's been crazy. We're doing good. We're doing good. Amanda.
I'm I'm you know what it. I'm so I'm so
glad that you still take the time to hit us
up because I know, I know you have a busy, busy,

(04:01):
busy life and everything, and you know can you can
you hear me? By the way, just real quick, do
a sound check, make sure. All right? That was funny,
that was funny. Yeah, because I didn't. I didn't. I

(04:23):
didn't hear I introduced you and everything, and.

Speaker 3 (04:26):
Oh really I didn't. I didn't hear nothing.

Speaker 2 (04:29):
You didn't hear nothing at all. No, Wow, I introduced you.
I was like, Lady G blah blah blah blah blah,
and you didn't say a word.

Speaker 3 (04:37):
Oh, because I didn't hear you. I didn't hear nothing.
I'm sitting here looking at you. I'm like, what's going on?

Speaker 2 (04:43):
Oh all right, my bad. Maybe maybe my my mich
was acting stupid. I don't know. But anyway, yeah, amn,
I can hear it. But Amanda, now I'm gonna I'm gonna,
I'm gonna tell you this. Lady G was one of
the very very very first fans of the show. Amanda

(05:04):
was one of the very very very first fans of
the show. Mm hmm, she's she's. She was actually the
first fan of the show that got some banging merch
from us when we had we had that we have
the hats and the lanyards and all the other stuff
and everything. We sent her a care package with merch

(05:25):
from the show, and to this day she hits us
up and I'm amazed at And you know.

Speaker 3 (05:30):
What's so funny. I'm on the show. I never got any.

Speaker 2 (05:36):
Merch I'm gonna I'm gonna right, got me, you got me?
All right, I'm gonna. I'm gonna get you. I'm gonna
get you. I'm gonna get you a T shirt. I
gotta I got a couple of T shirts day I got.
I gotta get you one. I gotta, I gotta, I
gotta get one. I gotta get one to you. I
gotta get one to you.

Speaker 3 (05:57):
I was a fan. Now I'm a co host and
I never gotten no merchandise.

Speaker 2 (06:06):
M I apologize. We'll definitely get you a bunch of
We got a bunch of I got a bunch of ship.
I got a bunch of ship. I just I'll get
you some ship. Don't worry about it. Don't worry about it.

Speaker 3 (06:23):
All right? Could you send me hugs and boxes?

Speaker 2 (06:26):
Yes, yes, definitely, definitely. Let's see thank you. We we
we appreciate it. We appreciate it, no doubt about it,
no doubt about it. Yeah. So, so, lady, g how

(06:49):
was how was How was your week? How was you know?
You know what?

Speaker 3 (06:54):
I can't complain. Let me tell you. I'm blessed my Thanksgiving.
Unfortunately I was alone. It was my my kids year
with father, so uh I was a little sad. But
I gotta get used to it because she's getting off
the college, so I'm gonna be alone anyway. But it

(07:18):
was good. I mean, I said, I took some time
for myself, started, you know, cleaning some things up to
decorate for Christmas, had me a wa wa Turkey Bowl nice,
and just watched some movies. Yeah, watch some Christmas movies.

Speaker 2 (07:38):
You watch anything interesting like what?

Speaker 3 (07:40):
Well, before my daughter left, we watched some of the
Old uh I think we were talking about it last show,
the Old Claymation. Oh, Rudolph and Frosty and and Santa
coming to town and yeah, all right, stuff like that.

Speaker 2 (08:02):
Yeah. March the Wooden Soldiers is always a good one.

Speaker 3 (08:07):
What's that?

Speaker 2 (08:09):
You've never seen babes in Toyland? March? It wouldn't?

Speaker 3 (08:11):
Yes, and Toyland I did.

Speaker 2 (08:14):
Yeah, Yeah, that's always a good one, you know. They
I was I was thinking too. I was sitting here
and I was saying to myself damn, you know did
and and Thanksgiving was was good. I had I had
a nice time. You know, I spent it. I spent
it with the kids and stuff and everything, so it

(08:35):
was cool. You know, did you know that men will
arrive in heaven thirty minutes before women do? Did you
know that?

Speaker 3 (08:48):
I had no clue?

Speaker 2 (08:50):
Yeah?

Speaker 3 (08:51):
When did you hear that?

Speaker 2 (08:52):
I read it in Revelations eight one, when the game
of Heaven, when he opened up the seventh seal, the
gates of Heaven opened and there was silence for the
first thirty minutes.

Speaker 4 (09:11):
Wow, you're funny.

Speaker 2 (09:23):
I I had, I had to it was it was hey,
you know, sometimes you gotta try and be at least.

Speaker 5 (09:38):
You know.

Speaker 2 (09:38):
So anyway, what I would also, besides the stupid joke
that probably went over a lot of stupid the stupid
joke that went over a couple of heads, we was
we was usually we we broadcast on Twitch, which is
another platform that we we really don't get a lot
of a lot of a lot of play on. But
I had the option to put it on on Twitter

(10:03):
instead of Twitch, so I twitched it to x which
is Twitter. But it's a there's an exclamation point next
to it, and I don't know why. I don't think
it's being broadcast. Watch the Arc and the Darkness?

Speaker 5 (10:26):
Is that about?

Speaker 2 (10:27):
Yeah? What is it about? Let us know the Arc
and the Darkness.

Speaker 3 (10:36):
It doesn't sound christmasy to.

Speaker 2 (10:37):
Me, It really doesn't. Yeah, so yeah, we're not we're not.
I don't think we're broadcast. I think we're just on
on on Facebook and YouTube right now. I don't think
it's working on that that that Twitter ship or whatever.

(10:58):
We we don't. I can give three ships about you know,
you got your mic off right, yep, all right, my bad,
all right, so in your ears that's right now. We
can do without that. We can do without that. So

(11:18):
so now, yep, how do you How do you like
do you pay attention to zodiac signs like astrology and
shit like that?

Speaker 3 (11:28):
Somewhat? Yeah, Like, I, because I am a Christian, I
don't put a lot of like I don't want to
say belief, Like I don't follow it real close, Like
I don't do the stars and all that, but I
do see how you know, signs and personality characteristics things

(11:54):
like that, Like I do feel like a lot of
those things hold truth for most people in the the
zodiac signs. So I do enjoy it, you know, more
like entertainment type stuff. But it's not something I subscribe
to or you know.

Speaker 2 (12:11):
So so here here is some entertainment besides, I mean,
let me bring them bring dubs in. That was good. Okay,
you're good.

Speaker 3 (12:24):
I can't hear him, yeah I can't.

Speaker 2 (12:27):
All right. So for some entertainment, for entertainment purposes only,
I have.

Speaker 3 (12:33):
Uh, each one of our signs.

Speaker 2 (12:38):
No, no, no, actually I should, I should, I should
actually I should actually look I should actually look that up.
Yeah I hear you now, all right, but all right,
So for entertainment purposes only, I have the top three
most handsome zodiac signs and the top three ugliest less

(12:59):
attractive zodie signs.

Speaker 3 (13:01):
Is this just for men?

Speaker 2 (13:02):
For men? Okay, yeah, for men. So the number the
number three most handsome zodiac sign is Leo.

Speaker 3 (13:18):
And the house.

Speaker 2 (13:20):
Yeah, but you're not a dude.

Speaker 3 (13:21):
I don't have to be a dude. I'm still sexy.

Speaker 5 (13:26):
She's a handsome female.

Speaker 2 (13:29):
And number the number three less attractive is Virgo.

Speaker 3 (13:37):
That's right right there. That's a hundred right there.

Speaker 2 (13:40):
Word so.

Speaker 3 (13:45):
My brother and my ex husband, Oh shit.

Speaker 6 (13:52):
All right.

Speaker 2 (13:53):
And then number two for the most handsome is Scorpio.

Speaker 5 (14:01):
My brother rest in peace. Mm.

Speaker 2 (14:04):
And then for the.

Speaker 5 (14:06):
And and and the funny thing is that you know
I'm saying. You mentioned Leo, and that's my other brother,
the one in Texas, all right. And then.

Speaker 2 (14:17):
And then for the less attractive, Number two is Capricorn.

Speaker 5 (14:23):
Damn, my dad.

Speaker 3 (14:25):
As said, she disagrees, okay.

Speaker 2 (14:30):
And and and that's and and that's okay, and to
disagree is okay. And then the number one most handsome
zodiac sign is Libra.

Speaker 5 (14:42):
Shout out to me already, know you know, you know what, bro?
First off, you know what I'm saying, Like you know
what I mean, Like I mean what they're not to like,
I mean, just look at us and anybody born under
the lib bremon, you know what I mean, Like, come on, man,
And no, no, And.

Speaker 2 (15:04):
The least attractive zodiac sign is Aquarius.

Speaker 3 (15:11):
Tell me that's not you.

Speaker 2 (15:13):
No, that's not that's not me. That's not me at all.
That's not me at all. My name is even on
any of these any of these lists, any of these
top three lists. So so it's Leo, Scorpio, Libra, and
then Virgo Capricorn Aquarius.

Speaker 5 (15:32):
Yeah, yo, that that that right there just said like
my like my whole my whole sibling lineage. Is I'm
saying attracted, you know what I mean? And of course
you know I'm saying I'm leading the way, But why
wouldn't I what's there not to like? You know what
I mean?

Speaker 3 (15:47):
You don't even want me to go down the list?

Speaker 5 (15:50):
Bro, you know what, I'm every woman's word dreaming squirt away.

Speaker 3 (15:55):
We had them, you know what I mean?

Speaker 5 (15:59):
This guy an yo, you know like like like yo,
you know what turn you out to pokemon squirrel anyway,
So now, yes, sir, yes, I'm big headed like babies
with down syndrome right now, why not you know, squirdling.

Speaker 2 (16:21):
So the Also what I did with I looked up
some some best dad worst dad zodiac signs. It's about today.
This is about the dudes, because why no, because you're
your your your your other thought. You gotta be here.

Speaker 5 (16:45):
You're the media.

Speaker 2 (16:46):
You're the one that's gonna break it down for us.

Speaker 3 (16:48):
I'm in a central employee.

Speaker 5 (16:51):
You had a buffer, yeah, absolutely, you had a buffet
to the madness.

Speaker 2 (16:57):
So so Aris is one of the worst fathers out there.
Taurus is one of the best fathers out there. Gemini
is one is one of the worst fathers out there,

(17:20):
Answer is one of the best ones. Cancer, Leo, Virgo,
and Libra are the best, some of the best fathers.

Speaker 5 (17:30):
Oh damn right we are, you know what I mean?

Speaker 2 (17:32):
Like, and then Scorpio and Sargitarius are some of the
worst fathers. And then Capricorn is a good father, Aquarius
is one of the worst fathers, and Pisces is one
of the best fathers.

Speaker 5 (17:51):
Pat yourself on the shoulder, big though, what is December sixteenth?

Speaker 3 (17:56):
What china is that?

Speaker 4 (18:00):
I think?

Speaker 3 (18:01):
And then one of the worst ones, right, one.

Speaker 2 (18:03):
Of the worst ones. Yeah, yeah, yep, Sitary is one
of the worst.

Speaker 3 (18:13):
So my worst father.

Speaker 2 (18:16):
Oh wow, all right, yeah, so that that was some
of that. But I mean sometimes people what they do
is they they look up compatibility, and sometimes.

Speaker 5 (18:34):
It's like like, like, yo, that's just crazy.

Speaker 3 (18:38):
I do look up compatibility because I mean, like I said,
I do, I do believe a lot of the traits
that I've seen so far seem pretty true to form.
So I mean again, I don't put much stock, but
you know, it is entertaining and I like to, you know,

(19:01):
to read it and see you know what it says, but.

Speaker 5 (19:04):
Well I don't, but I don't like it's like how
like how like women you know what I'm saying, they
really take it like over boards like Yo, you know what,
I'm a whore because I'm a Scorpio. No, but it's
your horror because you're a whore. You know what I'm saying.
You know what I mean? Like same thing with dudes.
You know what I'm saying. They try to do. Oh yeah,
you know what, I have cheating ways. I'm a male
horror because you know what I'm saying, I'm a you

(19:25):
know I do this that. No, you're just n asshole.
Just admit it. You know what I'm saying. Your zodiac
son has nothing to do that. You being a freaking
horror asshole pivot. You know what I'm saying. That's on you. You
know what I'm saying, Work on that, you know, Like,
don't use your Zoda son as a cop out.

Speaker 3 (19:44):
No, the zodiac tendencies, but we as human beings and
adults are responsible for our choices.

Speaker 2 (19:52):
Oh, absolutely, absolutely, You're right, Absolutely right. I wanted I
wanted to get on the topic that is gonna that
might you know, rub a little bit of feathers here,
but I want to talk about it, and we're going
to talk about it. I want to talk about masculine

(20:17):
tendencies in some women.

Speaker 3 (20:21):
Oh you know what, I was just having this conversation today,
were you really? Yes?

Speaker 2 (20:27):
I was, all right, So check this out. So I
was doing some some some reading, some research, and some
some looking up stuff. And a lot of women. I'm
not saying all women, so please don't come into the
comments section and start your ship, but a lot of women,

(20:51):
some women, I agree, they want the authority of a man. Okay,
they want they want to be able to have some,
not all, responsibility. And then what the perks of being

(21:12):
a woman, all in one shot?

Speaker 5 (21:17):
And what are the perks of being a woman, the
the the person a woman. Let's the perks of being
a woman.

Speaker 3 (21:26):
You know? Okay, So why you say that? Okay, let
me put it this way, right, So, how can I
not be in my masculine energy when I pay my
own bills, cut my own grass, pay for my own car,

(21:49):
take care of my own kids, have my own job.
So mascular energy comes from the idea that a man
is supposed to be the protector, the provider, you know,
hunter and gatherer and things like that. So how can

(22:10):
a woman be in her feminine energy, which is supposed
to be about nurturing, love, you know all those things.
How can we not be in our masculine energy when
we are now being required to do all the things
a man is supposed to And I use that with

(22:30):
quotes air quotes supposed to be doing, because let me
tell you something, as a woman who is single.

Speaker 2 (22:43):
See now that's the thing, that's the thing. Single. When
I was.

Speaker 3 (22:49):
Married, No I shouldn't have been, but I was. When
I was. Even when I was, I was, I was
still the one putting together play sets by myself. I
was the one cutting grass, I was the one taking

(23:10):
care of the home. I was the one working two
three jobs you know.

Speaker 5 (23:15):
Like so he was in a lesbian relationship. You didn't
know you know what? Stop stop not because like yo,
you know what, like I'm dead as serious yo, like
like look you know what, like look I'm you know
what I'm saying. You know what I'm saying, Like I
can't I can't do that, yo, yo, yo, you know what?
Like me, you know what I'm saying, like like me,

(23:37):
you know what I'm saying, Like like Yo, you know what?
Like like yo, you know what? To me? That's to me,
that's cringe that you know what I'm saying, Like, Yo,
you know what? All right? You know what I'm saying.
If you're building a playhouse, I'm gonna be helping. You
know what I'm saying. I ain't gonna be laying on
my ass. You know what I'm saying. Oh, you're doing a
good job. Honey. You know what I'm saying, keep up
the good work and be a fuck out of it.
You know what I'm saying. What kind of man? Is
that what I'm saying? Like like see, like yo, you

(23:59):
know what? And know you know what? And it be
those type of dudes that want to be called alpha males.
You know what I'm saying. But yet, you know what
I'm saying, you don't want to you know what I'm saying,
Like you don't want to like get your hands dirty.
You know what I'm saying. Nah, bro, See that's cringe
to me. You know what I'm saying. I'm that as serious.
That is cringe to me.

Speaker 2 (24:16):
You know what I'm saying, God, God, God, God.

Speaker 3 (24:22):
In my almost fifty years of life, I have never
you know, I'm not gonna say never, because I'm sure
this is one or two times. But I have hardly
ever been able to live in feminine energy because nobody's
ever taken care of me but me. My mother died

(24:43):
twenty three years ago, and that was the last person
that ever did a darn thing for me, and I
was married for sixteen years.

Speaker 5 (24:59):
I like to s say something real quick, like look,
you know what, I grew up with the two You
know what I'm saying, two family household, And I seen
my dad.

Speaker 2 (25:07):
I'm sayhold, yeah.

Speaker 5 (25:09):
Two, yeah, I had two parent household. Whoopsies, right, and
I see my dad like, you know, shoulder. You know
what I'm saying, shoulder, You know what I'm saying, The brunner.
We're seeing the brunner of the bills and everything.

Speaker 2 (25:19):
Right.

Speaker 5 (25:20):
When we got old enough, my mom decided that she
was going to go to school and she became a
teacher for head Start. So that was her decision. Like
my dad was like, yo, you know what, you could
do what you want, but my mom decided to you
know what I'm saying, work towards a dream that I

(25:41):
kind of you know what I'm saying, I kind of
messed up like early. You know what I'm saying, Like
whatever dreams they had, I kind of like, you know,
you know, put it down to their little dream that.
You know. However, my dad, right, he basically you know
what I'm saying with shoulder and everything, and that's what
I look that So you know what I'm saying, Like

(26:03):
that's the reason why I said, Yo, that shit is
cringe to me, you.

Speaker 2 (26:07):
Know, like.

Speaker 5 (26:09):
Not you know, like you know what I'm saying, like
having a woman show the most of the work. However
we're talking like you know what I'm saying, This was
like in the eighties when things were still affordable. Now,
but then you know what I'm saying, Like with the
way the economy is now, you know, like you need
at least like two or three jobs to like you

(26:29):
know what I'm saying, just for rent, especially around here.
You know, like let's be realistic. You know what I'm saying,
Like Jersey, you know what I'm saying, Like where we're at,
you know what I'm saying in the state. You know
what I'm saying, Like the property taxes crazy, rent is crazy.
The closes the closer you live to a metro area,
you know what I'm saying, to a major city, the
more you're going to pay, you know what I'm saying.

(26:51):
The closer you live the transportation, the more you're gonna
public transportation, like if it's accessible, the more you're going
to pay. You know, Like this is the area that
we're at. So like you know what I'm saying, Like
I'm talking about like you know what I'm saying today,
You know.

Speaker 6 (27:04):
What I'm saying.

Speaker 5 (27:05):
What it is now, you know, So to what I'm
trying to say is like you know what I'm saying,
women around here in this everything they have no other choice,
you know what I'm saying, because like it's only back
in the day where you know, like like you know
what I'm saying, shouldered, you know what I'm saying. All

(27:25):
the bills and you know, mortgage and all that extra shit.

Speaker 2 (27:28):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 5 (27:32):
Everything, everything's expensive, Everything's highly expensive.

Speaker 3 (27:35):
Yeah, But I don't think that that's about the masculine
or feminine energy, because there can be a h a
two person household where both people are working and doing
all that, but the man is still taking care of
her as a woman and vice versa. So she could
because also it's not even just about money. It's about

(27:57):
safety and security and feeling loved and supported, you know,
like things like that. Because let me tell you something,
as a woman, if I feel safe, right, if I
feel like we're out on the street and you're not
gonna let not that you got to beat everybody up,
but if you are going to go down fighting for me,

(28:19):
that allows me to feel safe.

Speaker 5 (28:21):
If you're if you.

Speaker 3 (28:23):
Were going to be vulnerable with me behind closed doors,
that helps me to trust you. If you're going to
include me in your life decisions and your daily you know,
tasks and you know, just your day to day stuff,
that's going to make me feel secure, you know, if

(28:46):
you're going to tell me how you feel about me,
if you're going to you know, do little things for me,
like you know why, honey, I really love it when
you get your nails done. Here is some money go
to the salon. Right, It's not about well for me anyway.
It's not about needing anyone to take care of me

(29:07):
or to do these things for me. It's about having
the man being his masculine energy and want to do
those things, not that he has to, but that he
wants to.

Speaker 2 (29:21):
Right, But what what happens when you deal when you're
dealing with a woman who has too much masculine energy
where she she gets she gets hold on, so she
gets to the point where, say, for instance, you're in
a relationship with this woman, right and you can't do
anything right for some reason, she's so into her her

(29:45):
masculine energy that she's she's she's getting rowdy with you,
she's getting in lied with you, she's disrespecting you, she's
she's she's not allowed, she'sld she's not allowing you to
be a man. She's trying to be mask. How do
you say it? She's trying to you, you know what
I'm saying. How do you? How do you function in

(30:06):
a relationship where a woman is is so into her
fucking into that masculine energy that it's it's unbearable, Like
what do you? What do you do?

Speaker 5 (30:17):
Like?

Speaker 2 (30:18):
You can't? I mean, first of all, you can't. You
can't punch her in the face. No, you can't do that.

Speaker 3 (30:24):
Being the man, right, being that man, you have to
understand that what is her, that is her trauma response.
You have to figure out what it was that caused
her to feel that she needed to be in that space. Right,
maybe it is her insecurity that she's going to let

(30:49):
her guard down, try to be a little bit more feminine,
and then something horrible is gonna happen. So, like I've
said in many many shows, we are hurt people hurting people,
and a lot of it comes from not wanting to
repeat behaviors, not wanting to repeat situations, not being vulnerable. Right,

(31:14):
So now women are being put in a position that
they were never put in before, and that is that
when they're alone, they're left to have to now provide
for themselves. Or they've been hurt so badly by a
male in their life to the point where it was
like a constant beating you down, beating you down. So

(31:37):
the way she's reacting to you in this relationship is
a traumatic response. It's a trauma response to things that
have happened to her in the past. Like with men,
how the funny thing is, a man will fall in
love with you quicker than a woman. However, a man
will not do it as often as a woman because women.

Speaker 5 (32:00):
Now, what the question is this? You know what I'm saying,
Because like when you say a man falls a love
cooker with a woman, I mean two things could be true,
two things could be not true with that statement, because
you know what the man if the man had you

(32:22):
know what I'm saying, sexu relations with that woman before
you know what I'm saying, did he fall in love
with her? Or he fall in love with just getting
his lot off?

Speaker 3 (32:30):
We're talking about that.

Speaker 5 (32:32):
But but but but but but but I'm just saying though,
like in a way, in a way, it does kind
of like add in because like that's what makes a man,
you know what I'm saying, think that he's in love
because he's letting his dick dictate his heart talking about.

Speaker 3 (32:45):
It's nothing to do with love. That has nothing to
do with love.

Speaker 2 (32:51):
I mean this thing.

Speaker 3 (32:53):
Love is something you do, not something you feel. Yeah,
that's love is something you feel.

Speaker 5 (33:02):
Yeah, you know what. But like most confusable love, you know.

Speaker 3 (33:06):
Oh yeah, a lot of people who are not emotionally
intelligent confused that with love. But what I'm saying is
a man has the capability to know fairly early on
in a relationship if he has feeling, he'll fall a
lot quicker. However, because of societal norms, he will not

(33:29):
do it as often. So for a man to get
hurt once, maybe twice. Not all men once maybe allow
himself to be in a relationship and love someone twice,
but very few will continue the cycle of being hurt
and then be vulnerable, being hurt them being vulnerable. I

(33:52):
had someone recently tell me that that is something that
they will never be ever again because one person hurt them,
just one you, even you, Dubbs, even you were talking
about how you were treating people, because.

Speaker 5 (34:11):
Yeah, yeah, you know what, then then I found out.
Then I found out that I wasn't living.

Speaker 2 (34:17):
But for you to get to that, definitely, to get
to the position where you are, you know what I
mean exactly?

Speaker 5 (34:23):
You know what I'm saying, like like like, yo, you
know what, Yo, you know what? Took a while, but
you know what, that was an inmature approach, yes, but not.

Speaker 3 (34:29):
Everybody has that emotional intelligence to say, you know what,
I think I was thinking wrong.

Speaker 2 (34:37):
But how important? How important? How important is emotional intelligence
in the relationship?

Speaker 3 (34:44):
Oh my goodness, it is so important because that's about
understanding what causes people to feel emotion, what is illogical
and what's illogical and.

Speaker 5 (34:58):
Just understanding another word, I'm sorry, you know what I'm
saying because this one's good. I mean like like to
add on to what you're saying that that's like ninety
percent of a relationship right there, you know, like like
to like to me in my opinion, like that's ninety
percent of a hundred because it's like, what is the
the understand what I'm saying, the emotional intelligence part, it's

(35:22):
ninety percent, you know what I'm saying, because like if
you you know what I'm saying, Like if you're you
know what I'm saying, you emotionally ignorant, you know what
I'm saying, then everything is like you know what I'm saying,
Like there's always going to be like a block, you
know what I'm saying when you're trying to communicate it's
your partner and whatever, there's always going to be a block,
you know what I'm saying. So it's like it's like,

(35:42):
you know what, like to understand somebody else other than yourself,
you know what I'm saying, Like.

Speaker 2 (35:46):
That's a big deal, huge yo, yo yo.

Speaker 5 (35:50):
You know what It's a it's a huge deal because
you know what I'm saying, Like, you guys gotta you
know what I'm saying. You have to be in the
same way link on. You know what I'm saying on
every corner and every turn, what I'm saying like, you
gotta move in unison. You know what I'm saying, Like
it's not just like me and hers us moving in
unison and stuff, right.

Speaker 3 (36:08):
Yes, but also something with that emotional intelligence. One thing
that some people also don't understand is they take that
when two become one very very like yeah, literally, because
the thing is, and especially and we're not talking about religion,

(36:29):
I'm just stating that, you know, in my in my
spiritual religious life, a lot of the ideas are very
rigid as far as like men thinking about like women's roles,
women thinking about men's roles and things like that. The

(36:50):
whole thing is you have to be two separate people
in order to come together. Right, So let me use
you call Leon. So you and me get into a
relationship and all of a sudden, you know, the idea

(37:12):
of to become one. Right, So the normal idea is
we we like the same things, we go to the
same places, or you know, I'm or even the idea
of obedience, right, you have to be obedient to me,
but people take it so literally. No, obedience doesn't mean
I gotta do what you say. Obedience is obedience is respect.

(37:36):
It's you me being obedient to you by not entertaining
other males conversation, you being obedient.

Speaker 2 (37:45):
To me by So this means kitchen now means nothing.

Speaker 3 (37:54):
That's disrespectful. Obedience, Yes, that that's not that's not respect.
That's not.

Speaker 2 (38:04):
Disrespect. I know. I get so not done.

Speaker 3 (38:10):
The stop it, stop it, so the two become one. Right,
So you have to be something called differentiated, which means corleon.
You love video games, you love sports, I love crafting,
I love art, right right, those are things. Your things

(38:36):
belong to you. Those are your interest your hobbies. My
things belong to me. Those are my interests and my hobbies.
Although I would love for you to go painting with
me one day, and you would love for me to
go to a football game with you one day, you
know that's something we would do because we care about

(38:57):
each other, because you know, because because we want to
share that. However, I'm not going to every football game
with you. I'm not watching football with you every week
because it's not my thing and you need your thing. Right,
we can't be attached at the hip. You have to
have things that make you. You and I have to

(39:20):
have things that make me me separately, Like the whole
idea that we can't go nowhere without each other, that
we can't do anything without each other, that that's just
a it is, but not even that, it's codependence, it's
co dependence on each other. The thing is, as much

(39:44):
as two people could love one another, you still have
to be separate people. You want to say, yeah, you
have the same values. You guys are headed like the
values are very important. These are the conversations and I
think we had this conversation the other day on the
show where you have to be compatible. So your belief system,

(40:09):
the things that you value have to be in the
same ballpark with each other. Right, you have to be
headed in the same direction. You have to have, you know,
the same motivations you know to move in the same direction. However,
you don't have to be two copies of one person,

(40:30):
right because because then that's just crazy. It's it's like
where you can't go nowhere, you can't do anything unless
we do it together. And that's codependency. Codependency about I
don't feel valued if you don't value me. Codependency is
whenever you're upset and sad, then I have to be

(40:51):
upset and sad, right, well, no.

Speaker 2 (40:53):
Because who's going to pick the other one up?

Speaker 3 (40:55):
Yeah, And so when you're differentiated, that means that's how
we get the When I'm weak, you're strong. When you're weak,
I'm strong. You know. If we don't have our own time,
our own friends, our own things, like you know, people
think it's so horrible that people go on vacation without
each other. Sometimes that is very healthy because you sometimes

(41:19):
you need vacation or time away or friends on your own.
Because a true relationship, a relationship that works, one that's
understanding and emotionally intelligent, is you need your time to
be able to do the things that you need to

(41:41):
do while respecting and understanding the other person, like you have.
You know, like your friends don't need to be my friends.
My friends don't need to be yours. But we do share,
you know, we do share maybe a set of friends,
you know, and it's not in all the time thing,
but maybe once a year, you do something with your boys.

(42:07):
I do something with my girls. You know, Like you
have to be able to be a person individually and
then a couple together. The couple together is a majority
of the time. The person individually is not as much
of that time, but you require that, you.

Speaker 2 (42:27):
Know, yeah, absolutely, you're absolutely right.

Speaker 3 (42:31):
But the again, this trust thing, you know, like we're
hurt people, hurting people, We we have spent so much
time being hurt by one another that we're refusing to
give all of ourselves to another person again.

Speaker 2 (42:46):
So so in your opinion, okay, in your opinion, how
does one go from that state of mind the to
actually get into the point where they will allow someone
to step into their lives and and you know, work

(43:09):
something out.

Speaker 3 (43:10):
So the first I think the first step to that
is and a lot of people don't realize this is
self care, self love. When you don't think positively about yourself,
when you don't know your own value, there's that tendency

(43:32):
to be afraid, right right, Fear and anxiety is a
normal part of life. But if you risk nothing, you
will never gain anything, right, So you risk nothing, you
gain nothing. So some of that is having faith that

(43:54):
you have that you have a good you know, I
head on your shoulders, good sense of people, judgment type
of thing that you're not gonna just be placing your
heart and your mind and your vulnerability in anybody's hands,
you're gonna be picky and choosy about it. But in
order to be picky and choosy, you actually have to

(44:16):
love yourself first. If you don't feel like you're valuable enough,
you're never gonna have a boundary that's healthy enough to
allow someone to come in, because if you don't feel
good about you, you're just gonna let anybody come in.
It's when you know your value, when you feel good
about you, that you're able to say, hold on, I

(44:39):
see some red flags. Therefore, you can't cross this boundary. Right,
So when you do find some when you do finally
find someone that you're allowing to cross the boundary, it
becomes easier for you to be a little bit more
vulnerable with that person. But if you don't love you,
you're not gonna let anybody else love you, and you're

(45:02):
not going to be able to love anyone else. You're
actually gonna be codependent on them. You're gonna be looking
for them for all of your happiness. Like anytime a
guy says to me, I just want to make you happy,
I have to question because my thing is not because
I don't want to. But honestly, Uh, that's that's that's

(45:26):
a big pressure to put on somebody that my Like,
if anybody says they just want me to make them happy,
I'm gonna be like, whoa, whoa, whoa whoa. Back it up, yeah,
because I don't have that kind of power, dude. Like
the fact that you're depending on me to make you

(45:46):
happy or to help you stay happy, keep your happiness up,
that's a big ask, yeah, because every day we have
to make sure that we're happy. So you have to like, like,
for instance, for me, right, I am at a place
in my life where I know my value. I know

(46:08):
what I bring to the table, I know what I'm
looking for, I know what I need, I know what
I'm willing to give. Right, So that kind of makes
me a little bit of intimidating a little you know,
I don't know, Like I guess people might see a
standoffish or whatever. But even my own daughter makes little

(46:33):
comments like nothing ever works for you, but before not
loving myself feeling insecure about myself, that could be an
insecurity for me, Like, oh man, nothing ever works for me?
What's wrong with me? The truth is nothing is wrong
with me? Right, I actually feel like I'm a ten

(46:56):
just because somebody else doesn't think I'm a ten doesn't.

Speaker 2 (47:00):
Now I wouldn't say I wouldn't say ten. I wouldn't
say ten. Let's be real about it. Ten and a half.

Speaker 3 (47:07):
You know what.

Speaker 2 (47:11):
You probably you probably thought. You probably thought I was
gonna go somewhere else with that. But no.

Speaker 3 (47:16):
But see, but even if you had, the truth of
the matter is, no matter what you and Dubs think
right as men, no matter what you think about me,
doesn't change what I think about me.

Speaker 2 (47:32):
Right absolutely, and it shouldn't.

Speaker 3 (47:35):
Because we talked about the cognitive behavioral therapy and the
dialectical before, because that's part of that, that cognitive behavioral therapy.
It's like, you are what you believe that you are. Right,
So if you're telling yourself that you're a five, if
you're telling yourself that you you know, are less than,

(47:56):
then you're going to believe that and you're gonna allow
other people to treat you that way. But when you
sit back and you start seeing the actual positive things
about you, then that makes you more self confident, not
self absorbed, not you know what do you call it conceited?

(48:18):
None of that being confident in yourself does not mean
being vain. It doesn't mean that you are God's gift
to men and women. It just means I know what
I am capable of because I have seen it, I
have done it. That doesn't make me better than anybody else.
It just means I know my worth, my value, and

(48:40):
my capability. Right, I'm sorry, finish, So just because somebody
else doesn't give me credit for that doesn't change the
fact that I give myself that credit. So that gives
me a better opportunity to say, listen, this is what
I need, this is what I want. I don't judge

(49:00):
you for not having that, not doing that, not wanting that,
that just means that you and I are not compatible
because you need what you need and I need what
I need. And if you're not willing to give that
to me and I'm not willing to give it to you,
then let's not waste our time.

Speaker 2 (49:21):
You are absolutely right.

Speaker 3 (49:23):
Yeah, Now people aren't there.

Speaker 2 (49:26):
Some some people some people aren't now speaking speaking of that.
So you know you have you have the kind of
the kind of the kind of relationship. You know what
I'm saying. What with the dude, say, for instance, right,
and you let's pull it. Let's pull this shit out
of a hat. You have a man who has goals

(49:48):
and aspirations, right, mm hmm. And do you see do
you see it as a sign of weakness or a
sign of what's the way I'm looking for a sign
of weakness or a sign of instability if a guy

(50:09):
has goals and aspirations but but can't get himself over
the hump to make those kinds of things happen for himself.

Speaker 3 (50:21):
Okay, So something that I learned a while ago, even
those words can't kenon? Can't? Right? If you really think
about it, it's not you can or you can't. The
reality is you either will or you won't. Because we
can do whatever we are capable of doing. Right, So again,

(50:47):
the first thing he is finding out, Yes, what are
those goals and aspirations? Great, we write those down, we
check them out, you know, but what are you doing
to actually like, what are the steps that you're accomplishing
to achieve? That is the block? Something financial? Is it

(51:08):
something physical? Or is it something emotional? Does that make sense?
Makes because sometimes and I'm not just saying men, but
sometimes we talk ourselves out of our own abilities. So
having those goals and aspirations are great, but if you
don't believe in yourself, if you don't believe that you

(51:32):
can accomplish them, that's the hump. That's the hump that
you cannot get over, is you don't actually feel that
you're capable of doing it. Because if you believe in
yourself and that you're capable of doing it, not that
you're going to succeed, but that you're capable of doing it,

(51:54):
that's what helps you to get past the humps, right.
And it's the fear and the anxiety. It's the fear
of failure that stops people from succeeding when the reality
is failure is a part of the process, right absolutely.

Speaker 2 (52:14):
I always say, I always say fail forward. Yeah, think
what you learned from that failure, apply it.

Speaker 3 (52:23):
And try again exactly and in order. You know that
it's all of these things that we use on a
daily basis. When they were first created or first uh
found out or you know, like discovered, it probably took

(52:45):
thousands of failures to find the one way that it succeeded.
You know, like when you talk about the the light bulb,
you know, Edison like failed thousands of times before he

(53:06):
finally got the filament right before it stopped burning itself out,
and then he just improved upon it. Right, So he's
not out there saying I'm this, I'm that, I'm whatever, whatever.
He just continued to believe in himself and said, Okay,
that one didn't work, Let's try something different.

Speaker 5 (53:25):
You know's idea. That's what he did. He stole tests ideas. Okay,
but but but but but you know what though I
mean to add on though, you know what I'm saying,
like somebody could have gave someone else and I did,
and he combined the tour and ran with it to

(53:45):
what you're about to say right now.

Speaker 3 (53:48):
But sometimes people have the idea, but they don't know
how to make it work, you.

Speaker 5 (53:53):
Know, like like like you know what I did is
you know, I'm saying, basically the group projects for the elected.
You know, so you have an idea it and like
you can pitch on an idea and all of a
sudden because of group projects.

Speaker 3 (54:09):
But also but also people, like I said, people's self
like self confidence. Right, So corleone could give me idea
after idea after idea, right, but if he's not moving
on that idea, and I'm like, you know what I
know what I'm capable of. I'm going to take that
idea and I'm actually going to do something with it,

(54:31):
and then I become rich and famous. They're gonna be like, oh,
you stole my idea. An idea is just an idea
until I put it into practice. Then it becomes a reality.
Anybody can have an idea. Are you willing to stand
on that idea and make it happen or you're just
going to keep woe is me? Woe is me? This

(54:53):
is my idea. Okay, Well, if you're not going to
develop the idea, I I'll the idea, right, So, sometimes
you got to risk. You have to risk, you have
to risk failure in order to move forward, right because
at least if you move on that idea, you can

(55:14):
patent that move. But if you're just gonna sit there
and talk about it and you're not going to be
about it, then I'm going to go be about it,
and then I'm going to patent your idea and it's
just your idea, but it's not your project because you
didn't do anything.

Speaker 5 (55:31):
With it, as you said.

Speaker 3 (55:34):
Yeah, so, and it's the same thing with love, right
And again, you know I always have all these ideas
as to why I'm still single five almost six years later. Right,
it's because I've done the work on myself. I am
by no means perfect in any way, shape or form.

Speaker 5 (56:00):
Better stop, it's not you know what, it's not your
time yet it's not and and.

Speaker 3 (56:06):
And that's where I'm at. I'm like, you know what,
that's okay. Like even my job, I told you how
I you know, I recently got my promotion, right, yeah.

Speaker 5 (56:16):
Congratulations, Oh, thank you, thank you.

Speaker 3 (56:19):
And the funny thing is there were other people at
my job that went for that same job. Right, So
me being the person that I am, I have a
big heart. I'm very caring, very affectionate, very sensitive to
other people's feelings and emotions. And so of course there's
that part of me that felt bad because the people

(56:41):
that I know, one have been there longer than me,
have a lot of experience, but it doesn't mean that
they're any more qualified than I am or anything like that.
And the truth of the matter is if that position,
if they had interviews, dude, or done whatever it was

(57:01):
that they needed to do, if that position was for them,
then they would have been chosen. All I know is
the work that I did in my interview, the work
that I did to prove myself for that position. That
doesn't make me any better an employee than them. It
just means that I did what they needed me to

(57:25):
do in order to feel that I was going to make,
you know, do that position to the best of my ability,
that I was going to help them to advance, you know,
the unit that I work in. You know. So again,
I'm no better, no worse. And although I felt bad
for the people who didn't get it, if they were

(57:47):
what the job needed them to be, they would have
gotten it and I wouldn't have What was that? Yeah, me,
I'm a liar, you know. And sometimes our our actions
speak louder than our words. It's easy to go into

(58:09):
an interview. It's easy to give mouth service, lip service,
it's not oh stop, but it's not easy to actually
do the work to back it up.

Speaker 5 (58:23):
Right, you see? You know what, like you sound like
you work in a place where they they you know,
they reward you merit. See, I'm not sure you know
what what what? What? Well? You know what, let's just
put it this way, right, because when I was when
I was at Port Authority, you know what, I'm saying,
it wasn't about what you knew, it was about who

(58:44):
you know.

Speaker 3 (58:45):
You know. Yeah, and I think that's everywhere.

Speaker 5 (58:47):
You go, you know, and and like you know, like
and like it was about you know, like I mean like, yeah,
it was like high school because like it was about
you know, like you could tell this person was messing
with this person. All of a sudden, she has a
you know what I'm saying, she got a promotion quicker
than anybody else. Yeah, So it's like so so it

(59:12):
was like like that's what it was. That that's what
it was over there, you know what I'm saying. Like
the office setting and me personally, I never want to
be like I'm not an office person because I have
a mouth, Like I'm saying, my mouth and my attitude
is not it's not built for the office setting. It's
not built for you know, corporate places, right because I'll
tell you what it is and that's it. You know,

(59:33):
you don't like it all well, you know, And I.

Speaker 3 (59:35):
Think that's and I think that's part of the at
least where I work, that's part of the job thing.
It's not it's not necessarily who you know or even
what you know it's how do you let them know
what you know and what have you done to show
them you can help them accomplish a goal? You know,

(59:57):
so it's like, what what are you actually doing? So
because I don't know none of these people, but at
the same set, because again there have been people that
went for the position that have been there years longer
than me. But I had a specific knowledge base, skill set, yeah,

(01:00:23):
a specific skill set. And the way I actually went
about showing them the skill set, I literally sold myself
to them, you know, like I researched what the position
was about what was required to that position, and then
I pulled all of my experience that was relevant to

(01:00:45):
that position and showed them how I made that work
for me. Of course, they have all these questions that
they asked and you never know what.

Speaker 2 (01:00:54):
The something something that's how winning is done.

Speaker 3 (01:01:00):
Yeah, yeah, yeah, right alone. It is like I did
mock interviews. I you know, like I called my HR department,
I did mock interviews. I looked again. I looked, even
though I was kind of already in that area, you know,

(01:01:21):
what is it that they're looking for? And I kind
of put to the front all of the things that
they're looking for that I have actually already done and
I showed it to them. Now if the next person
who'd been there, you know, maybe five ten years longer
than me, who goes for that position, if they didn't

(01:01:42):
do any of that, that's not my fault, true, you know, like,
if you really want something, you're gonna do what's necessary
to put your best foot forward to get it. Now,
had I not gotten the position, I still would have
been okay. And that's a key too, not allowing your
situation to dictate your emotions, right right, So had I

(01:02:06):
not yeah, had I not gotten the position, yes, for
a second, I'd be like, oh man, I was qualified,
I was this, I was that. But in reality, again
this goes into my faith. Then that just means there's
something out there better for suited for me, because just
because I want it doesn't mean I'm right for it.

(01:02:28):
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Speaker 5 (01:03:59):
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Speaker 2 (01:04:13):
All right, so all right, so back back to what
back to what we were saying. Yeah, so so all right,
so I understand, and the thing is the thing is
I'm gonna. I'm gonna, you know, go back to what
I was saying.

Speaker 3 (01:04:29):
We got to figure out what what what? Why?

Speaker 2 (01:04:31):
Why?

Speaker 3 (01:04:31):
Why the dude has these dreams and hasn't accomplished them,
And how long is it taking him not to accomplish.

Speaker 5 (01:04:39):
It because he's holding himself back.

Speaker 3 (01:04:41):
He's exactly, he's getting in his own way, tripping over.

Speaker 5 (01:04:45):
His own Yeah, you know what I'm saying, like like, yo,
you know what, you have a right foot and the
left foot. What I'm saying doesn't mean you need to
buy two left shoes, you know what I mean? Like, yeah,
you know what, I had dreams and aspirations, but they
ain't doing ship about it, you know what I'm saying, Like, hell,
you know what, like look take the foot, you know.
And another thing too, you.

Speaker 3 (01:05:04):
Know, like and they know they're doing it already.

Speaker 5 (01:05:09):
And another thing too, is that that is that most
of these dudes out here, man, they're scared to fail,
scared to fail. Everyone's scared of failure. But fails part
of the game.

Speaker 3 (01:05:20):
Yes, fail is part of success. Failure is part of growth.
Failure is again telling you to find another way to
do it. And and like a lot of military people
that I've worked with in the past. It's like that
that whole saying failure is not an option. Failure should

(01:05:42):
always be an option. It is not the goal. No, no, no,
it should know for anything in life, failure should be
an option, not the goal. Failure is not the goal,
but it should be an option because if you never

(01:06:03):
fail at anything, then that means you're perfect at everything,
and that is impossible. That is impossible. No one is
perfect no matter how hard they try. There will always
be a flaw, if not for you, for somebody else,
because none of us grew up the same. So, you

(01:06:26):
know what, tonight's a good example. I made chili for dinner.
Someone was like, oh, I like chili, Can I get some?
I was like sure, Oh my gosh. So anyway, so
I have no idea what they thought of the chili, right,

(01:06:47):
I know, I love my chili. My daughter loves my chili.
She always wants me to make my chili. But that
doesn't mean that that person liked it. That doesn't mean
that it was flavored to their liking. You know, like
everybody is individual, So what could be a tend to
me could be a five to somebody else, and vice versa.

(01:07:11):
So we're always gonna fail in somebody's eye, but it
doesn't need to be our own.

Speaker 2 (01:07:19):
Damn it, we stopped. It's fucking true. I'm listening and
I'm saying to myself because see me me personally, like
I feel, I feel like sometimes I need to hear ship.
You know what I'm saying, because I sometimes I feel

(01:07:42):
like I need not kicking. You're not kicking me in
my ass. But what I'm saying is sometimes I feel
like I need a cheerleader, and I think you are
everybody to have cheerleaders.

Speaker 3 (01:07:54):
Yeah, you know what I'm.

Speaker 2 (01:07:55):
Saying, and and and and listening listening to you, to you,
to you say with listening to what you're saying, because
there's some things that I have. I have tons of
goals and aspirations besides tonight, I'm Batman just saying anyway,
so you know, there's there's things that that I feel

(01:08:16):
I can accomplish. There are things I feel I know
I have the ability to accomplish. And sometimes like when
when when you when you when when you tell someone
this is what I need from you, When you tell
someone this is what it is gonna help me, help us,

(01:08:43):
you understand what I'm saying, and you you express the
people this is what's up, This is what what what
I feel it's gotta gotta be in order to make
it happen. Right, And it goes in one ear and
out the fucking other. Because that's the.

Speaker 3 (01:09:00):
Thing, Corleon, You're not depending on yourself. You're depending on
those other people to make it happen, when what needs
to happen is you're making it happen. If they're not
on board with the plan, then it's time to find
somebody else to replace them.

Speaker 2 (01:09:18):
And I took I took that route. But no, what
what I'm trying, what I'm trying to say, is this
all right, I'm throwing I'm throwing out what happened in
my my last, my last relationship because I'm using that,
I'm using that as an example a very long time ago.

(01:09:39):
So the thing that the problem with the problem with
the relationship was that I expressed what it is I
needed in the relationship.

Speaker 3 (01:09:53):
Right.

Speaker 2 (01:09:53):
You know what I'm saying, Like I would stand there
and literally listen, this is is what I need for
this relationship to function the way I needed to function.
This is what I need from you. Listen, to what
I'm telling you.

Speaker 3 (01:10:10):
You know what I'm saying, Like, but how did that
other person.

Speaker 2 (01:10:15):
We're not together? What the fuck you think happened?

Speaker 3 (01:10:18):
Well, I mean, I don't know anything could have happened.

Speaker 2 (01:10:21):
No, nothing exactly, nothing happened like it just in when
in one year and out the other And.

Speaker 3 (01:10:25):
Okay, so that's and and people will do what the
other person needs. No, no, let me say it another way.
People will do things for the people that they want
to do them for. So if you're literally standing there

(01:10:46):
telling someone exactly what you need, and this isn't anything,
not just relationships in life, life in life. If you're
literally telling someone this is what you need and they
are not giving it or not willing to give it
to you, then that's when you have to love yourself
enough to say, in order for me to move forward,

(01:11:08):
this is what I need. Clearly, that person either doesn't
feel that you are the person that they want to
do that for, or that is not something they are
willing or wanting to do. So then that's when you
have to realize you're not compatible.

Speaker 2 (01:11:26):
Let's be real, who wouldn't want to do something for me?
Come on, I'm such a cool ass. Dude, man, Like,
what the fuck?

Speaker 3 (01:11:33):
Yes, the way you stop, but when you're not doing
something for the other person, then they give up.

Speaker 2 (01:11:39):
That is true, That is that is absolutely true. So
just what I've learned, but.

Speaker 3 (01:11:46):
Relationship you have done to others?

Speaker 2 (01:11:49):
Yeah, it's true, and I'll admit that I have. But
you understand I've grown and I've learned and I failed,
So I have taken from what I learned from those failures.

Speaker 5 (01:12:05):
Yeap.

Speaker 2 (01:12:06):
And I'm at a point in my life where it's
like I'm ready. You know what I'm saying. Like, I'm
at a point where it's like shit's about to pop off, man.

Speaker 3 (01:12:17):
Like you know what I mean, Like your breakthrough. Yeah,
because you're finally at a place where you know what
you are capable of and you are ready to find
that other half. But you can't make someone do or
feel something that they don't. That's the thing we go

(01:12:39):
in And I say this a lot about women, how
we're looking at a man's potential instead of what he
is showing you is his reality.

Speaker 2 (01:12:50):
Now, explain that to me, please, Okay, I get I
get the whole. I know, I get the whole. Women
looking at the potential right and not looking at what's
right and directly in front of them, but from a
women's perspective, From a woman's perspective, because I can see it,
you know what I'm saying. I can see that a

(01:13:13):
lot of women do look at the potential. But why
is it they do that other than looking at what's
directly in front of them?

Speaker 3 (01:13:20):
Because they want so much to be loved and cared for,
and because they have seen that in the other person.
They know that that person like they see what that
person is capable of.

Speaker 2 (01:13:36):
Right.

Speaker 3 (01:13:37):
The issue is if that person's not already doing that,
it's because they either don't want to, don't know that
they can, or don't believe enough in themselves to do it. Right.
Just because I see greatness in you doesn't mean that
you see greatness in you, right, So if you don't

(01:14:00):
believe you're great, you're not gonna do anything to be
I believe I'm great. I know I'm not talking about
you and Jail.

Speaker 2 (01:14:07):
I know what I'm just saying.

Speaker 3 (01:14:08):
I believe in the great So I'm gonna I'm gonna
say something at the risk that this person's gonna hear it.
I went out with somebody and the date was like magic.
And now this has been a while ago. Now it
was magic. I could not believe. I saw so much potential,

(01:14:32):
But at that moment that potential was reality. He was
literally saying and doing everything he said he was saying
and doing. Then something happened the night of the date
that affected his life, his livelihood. You know. Uh, he

(01:14:55):
got into an accident and he hurt himself. So okay,
but on that first date, he showed himself to be
a person, a certain person. He talked the good talk, right,
he made everything great. But then when he got hurt,

(01:15:20):
things changed. All the things that he was saying, I
was finding out were not reality. He was giving me
what his potential was. He was giving me an idea
of what could be. But if he was really that
person who said all the things that he said, if

(01:15:43):
he was really that person, getting hurt would not have
changed that. Absolutely, he still would have been that person. However,
it appears that all the things he was saying that
he was were things, and the person he wanted to be.
All the things he said that he would provide or

(01:16:06):
to give on his part were things that maybe he
wanted to give or provide. However, that was not his
reality because when push came to shove and the situation
became real for him because he found himself at a
at a I don't know asroads or something acrossroads, a standstill,

(01:16:30):
a life change, all of a sudden, he reverted to
what he knows. He reverted to the behaviors that he
is comfortable with, even though he might be frustrated right now.
He might, you know, because he's of course, because he
got hurt, he's going to be out of work for
a while. So like that's no income. That's very stressful,

(01:16:52):
very stressful.

Speaker 5 (01:16:55):
However, I could speak yeah, because like you know what before,
you know, like when I was working, you know, like
everything was good, everything was great. And then you know,
once I got into my accident and I found out
that you know, like I enjured my I had a
spinal cord injury, right, you know, like to yo, you

(01:17:16):
know what, the spinal cord injury really took a toll
on you know what I'm saying, That took a toll
like like like first, you know what I'm saying, I
was filling it in my pockets, but like more it
was it was more like a mental thing. So it's
like it's like you know what I'm saying, Like you
revert from what you could be. So it's like, yo,
you know what what am I going to show her? Now?
You know what I'm saying, Like, I'm like, Yo, I'm

(01:17:36):
trying the survival mode, you know, so like me, you know, yeah,
you know what I'm saying me, I'm just trying to
survive like like you know, like and yo, you know
what man like like workers comp man like like you know,
you gotta deal with workers comp. You got there with
accident lawyers, you got the adoptor's appointment, you know, Like

(01:17:58):
me personally, I had to deal with the fact that
I could no longer like lips like I can't walk
too much. But sitting down, you know.

Speaker 3 (01:18:09):
But Dubs, look at this like it didn't change who you.

Speaker 5 (01:18:15):
Yes, but it did.

Speaker 3 (01:18:18):
Can can you listen to what I'm saying? All it
didn't change who you were as a person. It changed
your ability to do the things that you did before,
and it changed you as a man, But it didn't
change you as a person. You were still the same, Dubs,

(01:18:39):
you have always been. Your personality, your feelings, your your
your personality period, who you are. It just changed what.

Speaker 5 (01:18:49):
The person needs to make the accident work for him.

Speaker 3 (01:18:53):
Yes, you had to adjust, you had to your new reality.

Speaker 5 (01:18:59):
Look, I look at my accident. You know what I'm saying.
At first, you know what I'm saying. And like when
I found out that the driver admitted that he did
not see me, Bro, I wanted to kill this dude. Bro,
Like how you're not seeing me? You know what I'm saying,
Like this a head on collision, how you're not seeing you.

Speaker 3 (01:19:15):
But you also don't know what was going on in
his part or his mind or.

Speaker 5 (01:19:20):
But but you know what, though, I'm also thankful that
you know what I'm saying, that I walked away from it.
Literally I could still walk, you know what I'm saying,
Like certainly like you know what his viet you know what,
Like I said, when you know what I'm saying, Like
for him, he needs to he needs to have that
accident work towards his event. And I don't mean you know,

(01:19:43):
and I don't mean on some like monetary gain and nothing.
Be happy that you're alive, you know what I'm saying,
Because you know what, an extra five ten miles an hour,
you know what I'm saying, You'll be paralyzed or you
know what I'm saying, like exactly, you know what I'm saying,
Like you know what a certain a certain earn, a
certain angle. You know what I'm saying. That you got
in a collision with you know what I'm saying, could

(01:20:05):
have had could have had that. You know what I'm saying,
the car that you was in explode. You know what
I'm saying, Like like you know what, there's there's so
much you know what I'm saying, There's so much that
like at first I was angry the God's becoming bitter
about it. Yeah, but then like you know, because but
then like exactly you know, like like you know, like
like physically, you know what I'm saying, Like and because

(01:20:25):
of my accident, gained a lot of weight because I
can't be doing things outsilid that no more, you know,
like to do laundry. You know what I'm saying, Like
everything everything now comes with limitations and like and like
you know what, me being a man, you know what
I'm saying, Like I let that really affect my pride
and ego. Yeah, like you know, like like you know,

(01:20:47):
like I used to do my I used to put
like I'm saying, two thirty five pounds laundry bags on
my shoulders, take it to the car. You know what
I'm saying, walking or whatever. I can't do that. You know,
like nobody like that's not especially especially you know what
I'm saying, Like, you know what us men, we don't
want to feel like you know what I'm saying exactly,

(01:21:10):
like like what now? Like you know, like I'm like, yeah,
I'm in my forties, but my spinal corse says I'm
in my eighties. Like I literally have to make jokes
about my you know what I'm saying, my condition, you know.

Speaker 3 (01:21:22):
Like, but you don't see that's the thing. You know
that sometimes when you make jokes, you're actually talking negatively
to yourself when you make jokes.

Speaker 5 (01:21:35):
Actually, you know what, there's this part you know what
I'm saying with Mike Tyson, you know what I'm saying,
where he was like, yeah, I broke my back. He said, yeah, yeah,
he broke your back. Yeah, what's the energy? He was like, h,
spinal you know what I'm saying, like h, I literally
look for that ship to laugh at my own situation

(01:21:56):
because I'm like, yeah, I broke my back, Spinal you know,
like I have to, you know what I'm saying, like
like like like you know what like like you know what,
like me, like I find ways to turn my you know,
saying pain in the comedy relief because you know what,
I roakes people.

Speaker 3 (01:22:13):
I even ROAs myself, Yes, but why not to make
your situation into comedy relief? What do you think you're
really doing?

Speaker 5 (01:22:21):
Dubs, I'm projected in a funny way, you know what
I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:22:26):
Do you think?

Speaker 2 (01:22:27):
What do you think?

Speaker 3 (01:22:28):
It's really funny?

Speaker 5 (01:22:30):
It is to me because you know what, And I'm
gonna tell you why, because I have no other choice
but to look at it that way, because you know what,
like I know, if I start looking at it, you know,
and it's in a very serious perspective, right I'll be
angry and bitter, and I don't want to be that way,

(01:22:51):
you know what I'm saying, And like, as of right now,
like there's no other way to be comfortable with where
I'm at physically because of my accident, other than other
than to laugh about it.

Speaker 3 (01:23:03):
Well, I mean the way of coping, which is cool,
which is you know.

Speaker 5 (01:23:06):
It's fine, like like you know, like you know, like
personally you know what I'm saying, like you know, like
like I like you know what, like it's just you know,
you know, like my situation could be worse. I could
be stuck to a wheelchair, you know, and even then
and even then, you know what, I'll make a joke

(01:23:28):
about me being in a wheelchair and you can be.

Speaker 2 (01:23:31):
In a wheelchair eating some Danilco nice.

Speaker 5 (01:23:37):
You know, you know, like you know like like like
you know, like you know what I'm saying, I could
be stuck to a wheel chair and but like yeah,
I'm about to roll out literally, you know, like I'll
make you know what I'm saying, Like I'll make a
jokes about that, you know.

Speaker 2 (01:23:49):
I know, I know the situation, the situation fucked up.
You know what I'm saying. You just gotta just be
grateful that you're able to I am, you know what
I mean?

Speaker 5 (01:23:59):
And bro, I am. You know what I'm saying like
like like like you know, like you know what though,
like you know what, I'm lucky. I just I'm lucky.
I have six crniated discs. You know, Like I even
joke with the doctors, you know, like they're like, oh yeah, yeah,
Jesus Christ. It acts my stuff. You know you're gonna
need this, you know what I'm saying, spa of fusion
in the future because of the accident and the third

(01:24:20):
you got six crated disc. I'm like, oh word, I said,
I was aiming for eight, but six would do you
know what I'm saying, Like I said, it's sarcastic. I'm
saying I was mad, you know what I'm saying, Like
like like you know, I was mad, but the doctor
was laughing and ship, so I started laughing too, you know,
like like like you know, like but I was being
sarcastic about it, you know, because there's no other you

(01:24:40):
know what I'm saying, Like when things like with me,
me personally, when things change in my life, I have
no control over it. And I'm the one, you know,
getting the ship and the stick, I have no other
choice but to be sarcastic about it. Okay, well you
know because you know what different I can't. I can't,
you know what I'm saying. I can't put my head
in the sand. But like who this me and tip

(01:25:01):
on my nipple?

Speaker 6 (01:25:02):
Who?

Speaker 5 (01:25:02):
Like, who the fuck cares? You know what I'm saying,
Like you know what I bro, I don't know I
just feel like saying that ship you know what I'm saying,
But like, but like you know what, like like you
know what, like life to me? You know what I'm saying,
it's like playing you know what I'm saying. It's life
to me as a chess game mixed with poker, and
I always have to put on a poker pace until

(01:25:23):
I believe it's true. Like that, Like that's how I
cope with things, you know what I'm saying, Like, Yo,
this is bad, but I'll lie to myself like, Yo,
you know what, It's going to get better, you know
what I'm saying, even though it's a bad situation. I'll
lie to myself until that light I start seeing the
light and be like, oh, yeah, you know what, this
is true because you got to speak to shit into existence.

Speaker 3 (01:25:42):
But see, that's where I continuously disagree with you. Every
time you say stuff like that. I mean, for you,
that's what you believe, that's great. But my thing is
like when you talk about fake it till you make
it and all that kind of stuff, No, if you
change the way you see it, like you won't even

(01:26:04):
have to fake it till you make it. If you you.

Speaker 5 (01:26:06):
Know what those, some people have a hard time doing
that though. That's what I'm saying, you know what, some
people don't start by looking in the Maryland exactly. But
but but you know what, like you know what I'm saying,
some people don't even try because like they see, like
there's no way that this could change for the better.
That's what I'm telling that, That's what I'm saying. You
know what, sometimes you know what I'm saying, like you

(01:26:28):
have to break it.

Speaker 3 (01:26:32):
But if you challenge it and reframe it, if you
have the ability to try to see things from a
different perspective, sometimes you can actually see it instead of
having to fake it. Like I understand talking thing into existence.
I understand that manifesting and.

Speaker 5 (01:26:54):
You know what, and like that's how like you know
what I'm saying, Like because me, like you know, you know,
like I joke around whatever, but you know, I'm a
pretty dark person, you know.

Speaker 3 (01:27:06):
Like, and I can believe it or not. That's why
when you say stuff like that, it frustrates me because
I know that you're saying out of a out of
a dark place and.

Speaker 5 (01:27:19):
Not actually a personal experience. I'm saying that out of
a personal experience because you know what, like like you know,
like there's been times, but like, you know, like I
was at the point of my life where I'm like, yeah,
you know what, today's a good day to die, yes,
and you talk about and I had to go to
yeah exactly, and you know what, and I had to

(01:27:39):
like pray. You know what I'm saying, Like that's one
you know, but like I pray regardless of how I
come across, I pray, you know what I'm saying. I
do read the Bible. I pray. I mean, I read
the Bible a lot more now because I'm older, and
like I'm starting to you know, I'm starting to see
the laws of my soul, you know. So I pray
a lot, you know, and that you know what I'm saying,

(01:28:05):
that helps a lot. So like I'm currently you know
what I'm saying, Like like whenever I'm in a dark place,
I start praying and like and like you know what,
and then I start telling myself, you know what, whatever, man,
you know what, everybody catches beatings. I'm gonna wake up tomorrow.
I'm gonna be on my own two feet and things

(01:28:27):
will get better eventually, they will because you know what,
because but you know what though, like coming from a
dark place, you know what I'm saying, like where I
felt like you know what I'm saying. And some people
will feel this way too, like there's no way out.
Some you know, like you have to start feelings, but yeah,

(01:28:48):
we have to start somewhere though, But you have to
start somewhere.

Speaker 3 (01:28:52):
Though, Yes, but you went to logic like okay. So
the thing is, the way to help you get away
from those feelings is like you said, I am still
able to walk. That's a reality. I feel this way
like it's okay to not be okay. I have a

(01:29:12):
shirt it says it's okay to not be okay. The
thing is, it's not talking yourself. It's talking yourself motivating
yourself into it, but it's not lying to yourself. Like
the truth is, yes, I feel lucky because I'm walking.
I feel lucky because I feel pain, I can still

(01:29:35):
feel something. Those are realities. Those are the proof that
helped to support the fact that you are going to
be okay. You know you don't feel okay now, but
you know that if you continue on the same path,
you will feel okay eventually. You know, those are realities.

(01:29:57):
That's not lying to.

Speaker 5 (01:29:58):
Yourself, and and and another thing. You know what I'm saying.
What yo? What yo? What you're saying? It makes a
lot of sense, you know. See, it's okay not to
be okay, you know what I'm saying. I like that shirt,
but you know what, if you could add on, but
you will be okay at the end of that that sound, yo,
that shure will be high, like really high, because like

(01:30:20):
it gives because you know what, though, like it gives
on you know what I'm saying, Like I don't know,
like you know what I'm saying. Yeah, you know what
I'm saying. You know what, There's a light at the
end of everything. There's a light at the end of
every town.

Speaker 2 (01:30:38):
Yes, you know, make sure it's not a train.

Speaker 5 (01:30:40):
Well, this is what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:30:41):
Yes, But that's the thing. That's the thing right there, Corleon,
there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
You are the one that decides is it the train
or is it the end of this problem. We're the
ones that determine what that light is.

Speaker 5 (01:31:02):
And it's still over.

Speaker 3 (01:31:06):
It's still over. Whether it's the train or the end
of the problem doesn't matter because it's still going to
be over once you reach the light. So it's the
way that you see the light. It's the if you
go to the light expecting it to be a train,
then it's a train. If you go with the hope

(01:31:31):
that that light is the end of the pain, the
emotional pain, or whatever it is, then that's what it is.
You know, it's what you are asking or what you
are deciding that that light is. But in either way,
no matter what it is, when you reach the light,
whatever you're dealing with will be over. So instead of

(01:31:53):
focusing on what it is at the light, focusing on
the fact that whatever the light is, it's over. That's
the part. That's what I'm talking about, the reframing, the
seeing things differently. You know, you don't have to lie
to yourself. You just have to change the way you

(01:32:13):
perceive what is happening bad things. Like a lot of
people are like, why me, Why is this happen to me?
Why do I do this? Why? Why does this? And that?
Why not you? Who are you that you're so special
that you're going to get out of this life without
pain and heartache? Right?

Speaker 5 (01:32:31):
When good things happen, good things happen to bad people,
and bad things happen to good people happening exactly.

Speaker 3 (01:32:37):
None of us are exempt. None of us are so
special that we are not going to have anything bad
or anything good happen to us. But if we look
at it this way, if nothing bad ever happens to me,
how am I going to appreciate the good things that
do right?

Speaker 5 (01:32:55):
It's like it's like it's like saying It's like saying,
you know what, how would you know what lover is
experience hate? You know, like, you know what, how do you.

Speaker 3 (01:33:08):
Know how to love others if you've never experienced hate.
One of the reasons. And people told me this all
the time, I'm too nice, you know. They think people
walk all over me. Bro, I'm not blind when these
things are happening. I'm giving people opportunity. Right, I'm living

(01:33:28):
and walking in forgiveness and I'm not holding on to
pain and anger and resentment. Because I have forgiven, I
have moved forward. I have picked myself up off the ground.
That doesn't mean it didn't hurt, it doesn't mean it
didn't break me. It just means I'm getting back up

(01:33:49):
and I'm putting my pieces back together. Differently, it didn't
work that way, so now I need to put these
same pieces back together, but in a different order because
the last time didn't work. We're gonna try something new,
and if that doesn't work, I'm gonna put my pieces
back and maybe my foot's gonna be on top of
my head. Who cares?

Speaker 2 (01:34:09):
Or up somebody's ass?

Speaker 3 (01:34:11):
Yeah something, you know. So people are always like you're
too nice. You let people no, I'm not. But the
truth of the matter is the only way I got
to be this nice is because I know what it
is to be broken. I know what it is to
be lost. I know what it is to be in
the dark. But the truth of the matter is I

(01:34:31):
have a tattoo on my arm. It says hope begins
in the dark. Right. If I never knew what darkness
look like, I could not appreciate the light. If I
never knew what wanting to die look like, then I
can never be on my knees grateful for another day. Right.
So sometimes we need those bad things to happen just

(01:34:54):
so that we can be in a good place later.
You know all that you've been through. Look now, you're
a fine of a beautiful little girl. This is your
opportunity to see how holding on that one more day
brought new life, brought happiness.

Speaker 5 (01:35:10):
Oh absolutely, like yes, like like look you know what,
like like you know what the thing is, you know
what I'm saying, Like like you know what a perspective, right,
learning is a gift and pain is my teacher. Pain
will always be my teacher.

Speaker 3 (01:35:23):
Yeah, but look at it this way. If you didn't
have the pain in your back, right, you couldn't be
a stay at home dad like you are right now,
I'm a housewife.

Speaker 5 (01:35:32):
Excuse yourself.

Speaker 3 (01:35:32):
Okay, okay, you couldn't be You couldn't be a housewife
the way that and even though and even though.

Speaker 5 (01:35:40):
For most people, for a yo, you know what, that
hurts my pride. I'm gonna be honest with you. You know
what I'm saying because like because like you know what,
speak on.

Speaker 3 (01:35:48):
That as a man, that's not what you want to
be doing.

Speaker 5 (01:35:51):
However, no it's not. But who who's.

Speaker 3 (01:35:54):
To say that you doing that for your daughter now
turns out to be something that she needed to be
who she's going to be later, that.

Speaker 5 (01:36:06):
She's going to be a bully done. Now I'm just
playing like like look, you know what, like I always
tell on this, I'm like, yeah, I have plans, God
have plans. You know what I'm saying, what's up listening?

Speaker 2 (01:36:21):
Look at me in skyship I have with her, of course,
I'm saying. From the day she was born to the
till till forever, the bond that me and that girl
have is like no other. Absolutely, That's why I tell you.

(01:36:41):
That's why I tell you. The time that you that
you're spending with her now and going forward, it's going
to be erished.

Speaker 5 (01:36:50):
I'll be having yo. I'll be having yo. I ain't
gonna lie man like, I'll be having a little too
much fun. You know what I'm saying, Like you know what,
like you know, like like mom to me. She you
know what I'm saying, She used to have a schedule
in that time, but now she falls to sleep. A
little later, I'll be taking a place and you know
what I'm saying, like little mama, let's go, let's gonna
be me. You know what I'm saying. I lay down
with her. You know what I'm saying, try to like

(01:37:12):
that and I'm the one and I'm going to ends
up falling to sleep. But she's here slapping the shit
out of me, and shit, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:37:18):
And do you think as a woman that your girl
doesn't feel some type of way because she's not the
one doing that.

Speaker 5 (01:37:27):
Yeah, I mean, I mean you know what. I wish
you could switch roles.

Speaker 3 (01:37:32):
Yes, But the thing is, there's a reason. You have
to believe that there is a good reason why the
roles are where they are now. Because it's killing you
to be killing you to be home and for her,
it's killing her as a woman to not be the mom,
to not be the nurturer and be with her all

(01:37:54):
that time. But there's a reason.

Speaker 5 (01:37:56):
There is a purpose, and I know there's a reason.
You want to know why. I'm gonna say it once
and I'm gonna say it again. See, I have plans.
God has plans. Who you God had plans?

Speaker 3 (01:38:09):
So who's planning when you want to see when you
want to see God laugh? Tell them you got plans.

Speaker 5 (01:38:15):
You know, like you know, liked like, I'll.

Speaker 3 (01:38:19):
See you got plans, but they ain't my plans.

Speaker 5 (01:38:22):
Exactly, you know, like like you know, like but you know,
like everybody used to say that. I'm like, hey, you
want to make God laugh, make plans? You know what
I'm saying, Because guarantee whatever plans you're going, whatever plans
that you have, it's not happening. Some of them may happen,
but the full one hundred plans not happening. Like you know,

(01:38:43):
I got it.

Speaker 2 (01:38:43):
I got a question. Somebody eating chips.

Speaker 3 (01:38:48):
No, I'll just open the freezer because I'm about to
child down or something like.

Speaker 5 (01:38:53):
But hold on, hold on real quick. And Coon, I
told you this right, you know, when I found out that,
you know, I was having a baby, I was like,
damn that I have plans. You know, I want to
do hood Rats ship with my hood rap friends of Vegas.
I'm like, goodbye Vegas, Hello, disney Land, goodbye Dots Charging Hey,
hello Kire Carnival. I'm like ship, you know.

Speaker 2 (01:39:16):
Like, so, so here's my here's my question. Here's my question.
And this is this is full out the thought of
because this is she's she's on the road. So when
when when you when you get involved with someone, right
might being getting involved with someone? What if this person

(01:39:38):
that you get involved with, right, yeah, isn't because I
know I know your your your and we don't we
don't talk about religion and stuff or anything. But how
how do you manage being in a relationship with someone
who isn't as into religion as you are, Well, do

(01:40:04):
you not? Do you not? Do you not deal with
it and and just keep it moving? Or I mean
what if? I mean, how how does it? How does
it work? I mean do you have to.

Speaker 3 (01:40:14):
Well, it's different, it's different for everybody. It depends on
your your belief your your faith, your religion. Like right
now in my life, I'm not asking anybody to be
like me, right and it's different for everybody. Some people

(01:40:35):
are very adamant. If you're not a Christian, I'm not
messing with you. If you're not Muslim, I'm not messing
with you, like because that's that's their faith and that's
what they believe. If you're if you're not Jewish, I
can't be with you. So if you're asking me personally,
my thing is, I'm not asking you to be on

(01:40:56):
the walk with him that I'm on. But you do
have to know him, you do have to have a
relationship with him. You have to at least want a
closer relationship. So because I have found that for me,
my belief system has been such an integral part of

(01:41:16):
my positive life of mind. Yeah, my walk, my improvement
my success. It's such a big part of that that
I have to make the conscious choice that I can't
enter into a relationship with someone who doesn't at least
have the desire to know him. Like I said, they

(01:41:42):
may not be where I'm at, like I go to
church twice a week, they might not be where I'm at,
But I can't be with someone who doesn't believe at all,
you know. So that's a personal choice. It's how much
how much value do you give your belief system, how
much value do you give your religion, how strongly do

(01:42:05):
you practice it, what part does it play in your life?

Speaker 5 (01:42:09):
You know?

Speaker 3 (01:42:10):
Like those are all again conversations and communication because it's
such a for me, it's such an integral part of
who I am as a person that if I'm with
somebody who doesn't even believe in God, or if I'm
with someone who doesn't have a relationship or want to

(01:42:32):
have a relationship, how is that going to work for me?
Considering I am such a loving, sensitive person. But I
am that way because that is what my God, what
the God tells me to be, to be forgiving, to
be loving, that's how I can be who I am.
So if I put myself with someone in a relationship

(01:42:55):
with someone who doesn't want that, who doesn't believe that,
who's not even in interested in knowing that. How does
that work? Because then that means he can't respect why
I am who I am, And that means that I
could never hold what was that?

Speaker 6 (01:43:13):
Walking easy?

Speaker 4 (01:43:14):
Man?

Speaker 3 (01:43:15):
Walk is not easy at all.

Speaker 5 (01:43:16):
It is the most challenging, the challenging hard.

Speaker 3 (01:43:23):
Yes, the more you believe, the harder your journey is
going to be.

Speaker 5 (01:43:27):
That's that is that and and and you know what
and like and like you know what. And that's what
turns a lot of people off about it because it's
like but.

Speaker 3 (01:43:36):
They're not to hear what the reward for that.

Speaker 5 (01:43:39):
Is exactly, you know, like like like you know what,
like like I said, you know what that that's what
turns a lot of people off from it because you
know what, like but.

Speaker 3 (01:43:48):
Look at the now how many how many dealers have
you known that said I had no other choice. That
was the only life I knew. There was no other
way I had to make money. It's the same thing
for me.

Speaker 5 (01:44:02):
There is no other choice.

Speaker 3 (01:44:03):
There is no other way, you.

Speaker 5 (01:44:08):
Know what though, like like you know but but but
what I'm trying to say from experience as someone that's
slowly transitioning slowly, you know, like it is like the more,
it's the more, the more, the more you give in
the herder, the beating, you know what I'm saying, that
you give from the outside world, if you know what

(01:44:30):
I mean, you know, like, yeah, the more the the
you know, like the more you know, like the more
like like the like the it's like it's like it's like,
all right, so you're at the summon the amount of
rest you're trying to and you're trying to climb that
last five thousand feet and the most treacherous part mm hmm, right,
and like you're climbing and you're looking at you know

(01:44:51):
what I'm saying, all the people that didn't make it,
you know, you looking at their bodies, right, and then
like you know, like you're climbing and the weather, you
know what I'm saying, the weather changes out, you know
what I'm saying, all of a sudden, you know, and
it's like and it's like, you know what I'm saying,
Like just to climb to get to the summit of
where you're trying to get to on that part is

(01:45:14):
the hardest thing because you know, but the beatings that
you take along the way you're supposed to take you
so you can be stronger on the spiritual level.

Speaker 3 (01:45:28):
Right but if the okay, so you're talking about the mountain, right,
if you're if your dream, if your life dream is
to climb Killiman Jarrow, Mount Everst right, you know Mount Elfres.
You know that for you, that is the ultimate ultimate gift,

(01:45:49):
right that that once you did that, you've accomplished. Anything
else you accomplish your life will never amount to that.
Right now, you know that the higher you go, the
worse you're not going to be able to breathe, the
more danger you put yourself in, right, but you do
it because that and because the end result is worth

(01:46:12):
all of that. The frost bite, the the dehydration, the malnutrition.
You know that for you, for you.

Speaker 2 (01:46:23):
That that is the malnutrition as long as you have.

Speaker 5 (01:46:26):
Some n Wow. Bro, Now, but like you know, you know,
you know, like and not only that, you know what
I'm saying, Like like you know what I'm saying. Going
to the summit, you know, like the wind chills, like
you know, like the wind you know what I'm saying.

(01:46:47):
I don't know where you know what I'm saying, the
uncontrollable storms because of the higher atmosphere, or like the
landslides and the avalanches and all that stuff, like like
you know, like every like everything, you know what I'm saying,
everything you do from here wrong is considered. How's it
is in a way. Yeah, the only thing that you have,
you know what I'm saying, Like your faith is and

(01:47:09):
the gear that you're wearing, and that lifeline that you've
got that you know that you have to like throw up,
you know what I'm saying, the hope that you know,
like it it attaches, like you know what I'm saying,
to a rock that's like hard enough to like support
your weight. That's your faith, a.

Speaker 3 (01:47:24):
Solid foundation, solid foundation. But let me put it in
more Layman's terms.

Speaker 5 (01:47:29):
Okay, yeah, no doubt.

Speaker 3 (01:47:32):
We know that when somebody gives us something, we don't
take as good care of it as if we work
and paid for it ourselves.

Speaker 4 (01:47:42):
Right?

Speaker 3 (01:47:44):
Is that correct? Am I? Right? Wrong?

Speaker 2 (01:47:46):
Right now?

Speaker 5 (01:47:47):
You're right?

Speaker 3 (01:47:49):
So the thing that we work the hardest for is
what makes us the proudest, is what makes us the happiest,
because every day we can look at that that we
saved for that, We worked for that, we blood, sweat
and tears for. Be proud of it, Love it, take
care of it as opposed to something somebody gave to you.

(01:48:13):
So it means nothing to you. There is no value
to it, and you don't take as good care of
it as you would if you had worked for it
and paid with it with.

Speaker 2 (01:48:21):
Your own mind. Also, it depends on who gets to you.

Speaker 3 (01:48:26):
Yeah, but the point is if you got it for yourself,
you have pride about that. You you take care of it. Yeah,
like our kids. Our kids are the perfect example, right,
although and not all of them are blood related. Right,

(01:48:47):
But you you gave love, you gave affection, you gave care,
You watched out for them. You protected them. They were
your purpose. You were put here to protect them, to
love them. Excuse me, you would not just allow anybody
to do anything to them, you know, you protect that. Like,

(01:49:12):
let me tell you something, and my daughter has seen it.
I'm very non confrontational. I might have a little base
in my voice because of where I grew up, how
I grew up, things that I've done for work, you know,
all kinds of stuff. So I might have all that.
But people who truly know me, or actually listen to
the things that I say, Know how soft I am,

(01:49:32):
how loving and caring and affectionate that I can be. Right,
I'm very non confrontational. I will always avoid the problem
if I feel that there's another way, if it's not
necessary to throw down. I'm not throwing down, and I'm
not going to cause a problem where there is no
problem just for the sake of doing it. But I

(01:49:54):
tell you this, mess with any of my daughters, my
grand daughter, and will catch a case. Okay, I will
go to jail. I will kill a mother for my
kids because they are They're not even mine. They are

(01:50:18):
the greatest gift that I have ever been trusted to
care for. Right. That is my ultimate job on this earth,
aside from loving and doing what I'm told by my God,
is to protect these lives and show them how to live,

(01:50:39):
what path to go into, support them, be there to
pick up their pieces when they break. It's not to
do it for them, it's to support them. It's to
teach them. It's to care for them. Right. So that's
the thing. And being a parent is one of the
hardest things I've ever had to do in my life.

Speaker 2 (01:51:00):
It definitely is something that.

Speaker 3 (01:51:02):
Let me, let me tell you my mom. Did your
mom ever tell you this is gonna hurt me more
than it hurt you? And you were like what you're
talking about?

Speaker 2 (01:51:09):
And that was right before the time I came flying, Yes.

Speaker 3 (01:51:13):
Right before or for me the freaking wooden spoon broke
on my butt? Right, how's this gonna hurt you worse
than it hurt me. It wasn't until I became a
mother that I understood that while I'm beating you behind,
I am breaking on the inside because emotionally, the last
thing I ever want to do hurts you. But if

(01:51:35):
I don't do this, if I don't discipline you, not
hurt you, but discipline you show you right from wrong,
you were going to suffer later. So I have to
do this to save you. I have to do this,
to show you what love looks like. I have to

(01:51:57):
do this so that you don't hurt. So, Yes, it's
gonna hurt me to do this more than it's gonna
hurt you. To get a little pout bowl for a minute,
Your butt is gonna sting for an hour. My heart's
gonna hurt for years. So that's what it's like. That's
so Unfortunately at this part in my life, I can't

(01:52:22):
even consider being with someone who doesn't at least want
to know want to live that life, because even in
daily living, it's so rewarding when you know for a
fact that something is promised to you and that it's

(01:52:43):
actually gonna come true. You don't know when, you don't
know how, but you know that's somebody that's never gonna
lie to you and it is always gonna come It
is always going to happen. So to be with because
to me, that's just like that's asking myself to be punished,

(01:53:06):
you know. And when you build and when you build
a relationship on a firm foundation, like Doves was saying,
when you build your foundation on rock and not on sand,
you know that the storm cannot blow it over. So
you asked me that question. I don't know if you

(01:53:26):
were asking me in general or you were asking me
as a person, But for me, it's not an option.
They have to they have to believe. They don't got
to be on my level, but they have to believe,
and if they don't, then they don't have anything that
I need.

Speaker 5 (01:53:44):
That makes a lot of sense because like, because like
you know, what like like I said, you know, I
actually you know a quick story, Like my mom and
my dad they always took me to church like a
great grandfather was a was a preacher, you know, and

(01:54:05):
like you know, like like you know what, like every
Sunday was like church, you know, like and I went
until like my grandmother died. Once my grandmother died, like
you know, I went to a dark place other than that,
but like I always knew that God existed, you know
what I mean. I just you know what I'm saying.
I just went against everything, like I rebelled, and you

(01:54:29):
know what I'm saying, like my you know what I'm saying,
my rebellion. You know what I'm saying. For so long,
you know something that you know, you kind of get
used to up until you know what I'm saying, up
until that one situation where everything like you have the
lowest of your low And believe me, it wasn't a

(01:54:50):
time when like you know what I'm saying, the three
suicide attempts that you know that had me in my
lowest form. It was when I got arrested for my
d even saying my d Y and I was like
I was like yo, and like being handcuffed, right, and
I've used the bathroom, so like I still had, you know,

(01:55:11):
pills in my pocket that they ain't like like you know,
like they you know, fiss me, right, and I ended
up like sneaking and popping the pills and in the
precinct and I got high, you know, like and the
fact that my parts have to come pick me up
because like it's it's five in the morning and nobody

(01:55:35):
I knew was awake. That made me realize that something
had to change. And it's the fact that you know
what I'm saying, like it dawned on me. I was
high as shit. I'm like, yo, you know, I started
laughing at myself, but it wasn't even funny, but I
was laughing because when I get nervous and start laughing,
I was like, you know, if they would have actually

(01:55:57):
did their job, not only would have had a du why,
but I would have had a drug charge, you know.
And that's God right there, you know, Like, and that's
why I'm so thankful for about du why believe it
or not, Like I'm glad I got arrested, because if

(01:56:18):
I didn't get arrested, you know what, I'm saying the
next would have been me killing somebody, and then I'm
sitting in the cell vehicular mess lord, or I wouldn't
even be here. And I'm telling you this. You know
what I'm saying because I know who I used to be,
you know, like coll the only be like yo, you
just sleep both of while I tell Neggar drunk has

(01:56:41):
helped Negga. If I don't drink and drive, how the
fuck am I going to get home? You know, like
no regard, but no regard for other people's lives more
or less no regard for my own, you know. Like
now from that du why I'm about to make mm hmm.

(01:57:02):
I'm about to be four years sober. You know, I'll
be going to you know, I've been going to church,
believe it or not. Like I don't come across as
someone that you know, come, you know what I'm saying,
go to church, you know, but this is what I do.
You know, like I go to church. I'm trying to change.
Like if you listen to the past episodes to where

(01:57:25):
I'm at right now, I feel like you know what
I'm saying. There's been a lot of tone down things
because some of the jokes I may say, yeah, you
know what I'm saying, but I like, it's just you know,
I'm saying there's a lot of things that I used
to want to say. I won't say it because I like,
you know, it's not it's not me. And that's how

(01:57:46):
I know that God is working slowly. You know. I'm
one of them hardheaded children that you know, God will punish,
you know, like he will slap around just to get
his point across. And I accept that, you know, But
what God did for me, He's gave me an opportunity
to be a father again and three times a charm,

(01:58:13):
you know, like he gave me an opportunity to make
this one like.

Speaker 6 (01:58:19):
You know, And.

Speaker 5 (01:58:23):
That's what he's done for me so far. I feel
like he's done. I feel like he's done a little
too much because I don't deserve it, none of us two.
But you know what, you know what I'm saying, The more,
the more, the more I keep pushing through, you know
what I'm saying, I just want to keep pushing through
at the end of the day, man, because I don't

(01:58:45):
I don't ever want.

Speaker 6 (01:58:46):
To go back to Yo you you were West three.

Speaker 5 (01:58:51):
But I won't. I don't ever want to go back
to where I was at three years ago. You know,
three years ago, I thought I was happy for I was.
I was high every weekend. You know what I'm saying.
That was my happiness. I was high every weekend. I
was drunk every weekend. You know, that was my happiness.
You know, because you know what a lot of us,

(01:59:13):
a lot more people are running away from something, you
know what I'm saying than they are chasing something. You
know what I'm saying, or you know what, let's put
this in perspective, like what I was doing. I was
running away from my reality, chasing a fantasy that came
in a form of liquor and pills and occasional powder.

(01:59:37):
I don't do none of that, you know what I'm saying.
I face my realities and sometimes, you know, like sometimes
I hate my reality for a moment. And the reason
why I say I hate it is because, you know what,
I feel like, I can't change it for a moment,
but I know it will change personally. You know, my
reality is this. I eventually will have to get rids

(02:00:01):
in my back. You know. I don't like that I did,
but things are subject to change, you know. Yeah, things
are always subject to change for the better. And you
know what, and you know what, and my reality is this,
I'm not going to get those rods on my back, no,

(02:00:22):
you know, because I believe that guy will find a
better way for my you know what I'm saying, to
heal my back. You know, doctors to do their jobs,
of course, but you know what, God to open the
door for that doctor to do with his job, you
know what I'm saying. So that's my reality. You know,

(02:00:44):
like sometimes like sometimes you know what, I'm human, don't
don't forget you know what I'm saying. I'm human and said,
we're all human. You know what I'm saying, We're not that.
You know what I'm saying, Like you said, it's okay
to not be okay. There's times of like you know,
there's times of like you know, like I look at
my daughter, I'll start crying, like you know, like we's
not do more. Then I'll get happy because you.

Speaker 2 (02:01:01):
Know what you're doing, what you're doing this?

Speaker 5 (02:01:03):
Yeah, yeah, right, you know what I'm saying, like like
you know, like you know what I'm saying, Like like
what like like on the other day, you know what
I'm saying like I was crying because I missed my brother,
and I was like, yo, you know what, and like
I feel bad that, you know, my daughter's here and
she never got a chance to meet my brother, right,
you know, the other day, like you know, when you're
talking or whatever about Thanksgiving and stuff. Right, but then

(02:01:26):
I realized, I'm like, you know what, he's always going
to be with her because my brother's name was.

Speaker 6 (02:01:30):
Attached to her.

Speaker 5 (02:01:33):
Kai, that's part of her middle name. That's always going
to be attached to her. You know. Like the responsibilities
that my brother had from my mom and my dad,
they fall on me, and you know what, and I'm

(02:01:54):
taking you know, I'm taking them as I can. You know,
do I want to do a lot more for my
parents because then during the twilight of their lives, of
course I do. I put my pass through hell. But
you know what, they're happy that I go to church.
They're happy that you know that, you know, I'll tell them, Hey,
I call you back. I'm a Bible class. You know,
Like they're happy about that. You know, like they're happy that,

(02:02:16):
you know, like like I try to get myself involved
in prayer classes. I may not talk, you know, like
like it, but this is what I'm trying to do,
you know, because you know what like like back then,
like you know, growing up, you know, like the used
to listen to Wou Tang and there's a song called

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Bible Basic Constructions before leaving Earth, right and when you
know what I'm saying, like it adds so much more
now that I'm actually reading the Bible again, because it's
it is basic instructions. But like what makes the hardest
the fact that we have free will, you know, the

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free will alone is like you know.

Speaker 6 (02:02:59):
It's like it's hard.

Speaker 5 (02:03:03):
And then you know there's the opposition where the biggest
live that he ever says that he don't exist, you know.
But like you know, like it's like the more you
read into it, the more you see. You know what
I'm saying. How safe you know what I'm saying, Like
how like how like intertwined like you know, everything is

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so like yeah, that's that's that's the reason why, like
you know, like I became more you know what I'm saying,
like like I dove more you know into it right right,
you know because like because because because like believe it
or not, like you know, like the hip hop music
back in the nineties, like when Mutang was dropping knowledge
and you know you have raz Cast and foul Mount

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and all that stuff, like they'll actually be get played
on the radio. Right, they were dropping like you know,
they were dropping gems and stuff, right, you know, like
like five percent of stuff. But the five percent of
stuff like you know it derived from you know, some
parts of the Bible, some parts of Islam, some parts

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of the Bible, you.

Speaker 6 (02:04:08):
Know that stuff.

Speaker 5 (02:04:10):
So the you know what I'm saying, Like that's why
I said, like you know, like they're dropping nods and
like that's what like you know, open me up as
a teenager to like still have that, you know, have
that a place where that yeah, God still exists, you
see what I mean.

Speaker 2 (02:04:26):
Yeah, so.

Speaker 6 (02:04:31):
I understand, but like like yo, you know, well lady said, Yo,
that's you know that that was.

Speaker 5 (02:04:38):
That was real.

Speaker 2 (02:04:42):
Absolutely you don't have real too.

Speaker 6 (02:04:46):
The fact that my daughter.

Speaker 5 (02:04:49):
Was like me, while I was talking, my daughter farted
and let out a little smirk, right, and in my
in my mind you know, like like like you know,
like like I took a second, I took a second
pause or whatever, and I'm like, I hope she ain't cooping. Herself. Yeah,
well yeah, you know what, you know, like like you

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know what, stuff like stuff like this where you know
what I'm saying like, it makes me, Yo, I'm lucky
at my age, you know, to be where I'm at,
you know, with a be a terrible to terrible two
year old.

Speaker 2 (02:05:26):
Yeah, because hold on, Dove, Yeah yeah, another one of
your another screen of you popped up and I don't
know what happened and just disappeared. How to bring you
back up? I don't know. Yeah.

Speaker 5 (02:05:39):
Places At the same.

Speaker 2 (02:05:40):
Time, Wi Fi is really working the night.

Speaker 5 (02:05:46):
Comcast Comcast because because because you know what, because you
know what.

Speaker 6 (02:05:53):
Oh yeah, I was Files.

Speaker 2 (02:05:55):
I was like, man, I'm running on I'm running on
fires Man with that. Yeah, say what you gotts.

Speaker 5 (02:06:03):
Say is man, I hate tam Mobile. Man like t
Mobile Files, Man, I hate it, you know, like because
like you know what, like it's it's like you know
what they say, like it's unlimited, but everything's.

Speaker 2 (02:06:17):
Always they put a cap on it after Yeah, exactly,
you know.

Speaker 5 (02:06:21):
What I'm saying, Like it it's like, yo, you know what,
so what are we paying for?

Speaker 2 (02:06:25):
Right?

Speaker 3 (02:06:26):
So that with that being said, do we have any
listeners tonight?

Speaker 2 (02:06:30):
No, we had we actually had. It was a lot.
We had a lot. It was you don't you don't
see the next to where it says live the number,
the little eyeball with the number.

Speaker 5 (02:06:43):
Nah, you don't know what. You don't see that, Like, bro,
I'm on my phone, to be honest, on the phone,
all right, yeah you know what like like like you know,
like if you're on a laptop at THATSK top you
probably see that, Like I personally don't. So it's like
I'm just like rambling away like.

Speaker 2 (02:06:58):
Well, we well to be to be quite honest, that
the chat room wasn't really live, but the viewers were
like it was jump It was jumping up and down,
up and down, up and down. So we had we
had a We had a hefty amount of viewers tonight.

Speaker 5 (02:07:14):
So so.

Speaker 2 (02:07:17):
Anyway, with that being said, Dubbs, give me your final
thought of the evening.

Speaker 5 (02:07:24):
Final thought of the evening. Believing yourself the most importantly believing.
Find faith in what you can find faith in. You
know what I'm saying, which is yourself for understanding you
know what, if it wasn't, if it wasn't for the
person you don't that you cannot see, you will not
be here. I'm not trying to It's hard to like

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not speak on it on a you know what I'm
saying on a religious level. But I'm just trying to faith,
like you know, you know what I mean, like like
you know, like like I was like, I don't want
to tip to a right Look, look, believe a god
or believe in yourself man, because you know what, if
you woke up this morning, then he was already blessed.

Speaker 2 (02:08:02):
All right, what's your final thought of the evening?

Speaker 3 (02:08:07):
My final thought is there is somebody out here for everybody.
Don't settle for less than you know that you're worth.
Because at the end of life, as long as you
don't settle, you can be happy alone instead of miserable

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with the wrong person.

Speaker 2 (02:08:36):
Oh that makes a lot of sense. I'm giving you
props for that ship. That is really dope.

Speaker 3 (02:08:44):
Love will find us. It will find us, corleone, Yes
it will, Yes, it will hold on. And something else
is for the right one, you will not have to
beg you will not have to ask. It would just
be provided and freely given. Yeah, So that that that

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that right person, they're going to be your cheerleader and
you're not even gonna have to beg them to do it.
Until then, just keep dreaming and living your dream.

Speaker 5 (02:09:22):
You know, you know what prior to my you know
what I'm saying, prior to like you know my situation now,
Like if you were saying something like that, if you
were saying something like that, I probably have been like,
you know what I'm saying, you're just hopeless romantic. But
seeing that you know that whole cheerleader part, yeah, because like, yo,
you know what, I'm a dude, and you know what
I'm saying. And whenever my girl does something you're saying

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accomplishing something, it could be the smallest thing. You know
what I'm saying, I'll put up you know, I got
my pomp palms out and be like give me a
b B. Yeah, I'm not gonna still out her name,
but you know what I'm saying, Like like you know,
like I'll be I'll be a little Cheerleader's not.

Speaker 3 (02:09:58):
A problem, right, But it's because you don't want to
do it for her, right of course, when somebody.

Speaker 5 (02:10:04):
Loves nothing for you, and hold on, hold on real quick,
funny story. So, like you know what, when she was pregnant, right,
we used to get the arguments, right, I hang up
the phone on her being a deck and I'll call
her back up no more than fifteen minutes later, and like,
you know, she'd be sniffling whatever. I'll be feeling bad
and I didn't and I didn't know how to apologize,

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so like I'll be you know what I'm saying with
an angry voice. I'm like, you know what I'm saying,
sounded like DMX you angry? Yeah, chop cheese? Yeah? Could
they get some? You know I'm like, yeah, that too, right,
So I'll go get the chop cheese. Get her like
you know what I'm saying, KC mask. You know what

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I'm saying, like bake macaroni whatever and whatever, you know,
pregnancy favorite she had, right, she'd be outside.

Speaker 6 (02:10:51):
I'll be there.

Speaker 5 (02:10:52):
You know what I'm saying with an angry face.

Speaker 2 (02:10:53):
Like here, Oh, I take this too. Oh and you
know what, I got you a beverage.

Speaker 5 (02:10:59):
Take this what I'm saying with an attitude, right, and
then like you'll start smiling. I was like, happy mommy,
happy baby. You know what I'm saying. I'm like, happy mommy,
happy baby. And I'll speed off. You're pissed off and
stuff you know, because I didn't know how to apologize, like,
you know what I'm saying, Like, it was hard for
me to apologize because you know what I felt like,
you know, I felt like I was always writing things.

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But oh yeah, another thing fellas learn how to be wrong,
you know, trust me, you know what I'm saying, Like,
sometimes it's good to be wrong. That's what I'm gonna say.

Speaker 2 (02:11:31):
Mm hmm, all right, that was that was a good one.
And I thought I had a good one too, and
that that that was really good.

Speaker 5 (02:11:38):
I like that. All right, he's gonna bring out of that.
I find thought of the evening and enjoy saying your
ankle yea, it's only you have the soundboard for that

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video game, bro, Yeah.

Speaker 2 (02:12:03):
No, I got, I got. I have a soundboard. I
just got to get it to work, right man, it's.

Speaker 6 (02:12:09):
I know.

Speaker 2 (02:12:09):
And I have some stuff recorded on it too. That's
so funny. But the problem is I can hear it,
but on playback you don't hear it, So it makes
no sense for us to use it right now if
only we can hear it, but then when it plays
back on the videos that people watch, you can't hear it,
so it won't make any sense. I'm trying to figure
out how to get that working. Final thought of the
evening is this, don't be afraid. Don't be afraid to fail.

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Don't be afraid to to to go after the things
that you feel are good for you. If you feel
something it's right for you. If you feel something can
add purpose to your life, don't be free to go

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after it. Remember, failing is part of the process. Fail forward,
take what you learn from that failure, apply it to
your life, try again, and move forward. You have a
purpose in life, and there's nothing wrong with adding people

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that bring more purpose into your life. So with that
being said, that's Dubs a Dawn, that's Lady g I'm big.
Holy on doctor Hank, Smash him and always remember that
at some point.

Speaker 3 (02:13:40):
This might hurt.

Speaker 2 (02:13:46):
Good Night, everybody,