EP 34 BROOKE EDEN

What a treat! This week we have on this gay country icon!!! Brooke Eden! Her voice is insane, she is so hot, and you’ll fall in love with her like we have once you take a listen! She is releasing a bunch of new tunes perfect for the summer and we just couldn’t love her more!!! Enjoy! 

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:03):
I get a little such up, Hi am teren and
you're listening to up.

Speaker 2 (00:12):
We hope you're picking up what we're putting down.

Speaker 3 (00:15):
Did he just back page in your face with his
little peanut?

Speaker 2 (00:18):
Does happen at.

Speaker 4 (00:19):
Least like, like at least ten ten times it happened
for the first time.

Speaker 2 (00:24):
In your face?

Speaker 3 (00:25):
Yeah?

Speaker 4 (00:26):
Yeah, it's like almost impossible for it not to haven't.
I mean, you're like.

Speaker 2 (00:34):
Anxiety truly only with little boys.

Speaker 3 (00:37):
Well, yeah, because obviously you can't.

Speaker 1 (00:39):
Write just wow, speaking of peen in the face, everybody, welcome,
Brookie did.

Speaker 3 (00:48):
Perfect?

Speaker 2 (00:49):
What an intro?

Speaker 3 (00:50):
What an intro?

Speaker 4 (00:51):
I tryed to know that that was how we were
going to start the day out, but we.

Speaker 2 (00:54):
Never got an hour. Yeah, we never know. We just go.
We just go.

Speaker 4 (00:59):
That's the only way to do life in general. You
just have to keep swimming.

Speaker 3 (01:03):
Yeah, keep swimming, keep swimming.

Speaker 2 (01:05):
We're figuring that out.

Speaker 1 (01:06):
We're like, like, we don't really know what we're doing.

Speaker 2 (01:10):
We're just doing it. Yeah, And I feel like you,
as an artist, you probably relate.

Speaker 3 (01:14):
That's what you do.

Speaker 2 (01:15):
You just go, Yeah, that's what I'm gonna do.

Speaker 1 (01:16):
I know what I'm doing, but I don't know what
I'm doing exactly, yes, but I'm.

Speaker 3 (01:21):
Moving my arm.

Speaker 4 (01:21):
But I move my arm, I'm kicking. I'm saying above
the water.

Speaker 3 (01:27):
Under I know, because I'm not going to choice.

Speaker 4 (01:30):
Yeah, exactly often.

Speaker 1 (01:32):
Oh yeah, right, when Brooke walked in, she just had
a baby five months ago, and so her and her
wife and so we are just talking about baby things.
And I don't know why I didn't like compute. You
just get pete in the face. You just get a
straight shot to the kisser.

Speaker 4 (01:47):
Yeah, I mean it doesn't always go straight in your face,
but it will at some point. Yeah, times happened, Yeah,
at least so far. Yeah, that's good.

Speaker 2 (01:57):
Five months.

Speaker 4 (01:58):
Yeah, it's like because you get you get good and
not getting pete on yeah yeah, or like you you
get quicker at the diaper changes and then you like
learn you put the diaper over the peepee before you
you know, like.

Speaker 2 (02:12):
It's actually cute.

Speaker 4 (02:13):
There are like me, the only.

Speaker 5 (02:15):
Time is cute, Like that's the only unless that unless.

Speaker 2 (02:19):
You're yeah, you're like way later, right, But if.

Speaker 5 (02:24):
Someone's like putting their like that's disgusting. No, we don't
want to, but if it's.

Speaker 1 (02:31):
Well, yeah, I would also like if you let your child,
sleep with you sometimes in bed.

Speaker 4 (02:37):
What I just said, my grandma, and then you were
talking so it sounded like my grandma my face. Oh no,
my grandma just used to be like so sweet about
all my bodily functions that I was a little like,
you know, she would be like, oh, honey, if you
were constipated, I would just stick my finger in there,
and I'd be like Granda, And now I get it. Yeah,

(02:57):
I'm like, if he was the job to figure this out,
bring this, yes, exactly.

Speaker 3 (03:03):
Yeah. If you go when they're no glove, you're raw
dog in that thing, you're yeah in there.

Speaker 2 (03:07):
Oh, I mean I don't imagine I.

Speaker 4 (03:09):
Might start with a Q. Yeah yeah, but but no,
it's really it's really sweet, like and it's really funny,
like so many things happen and you just have to laugh.
Like I remember we were probably four weeks in and
Hill was in the other room and I was changing
his diaper and he had pete on me to start

(03:32):
the diaper change. And then as I was changing his diaper,
he started squirting ship. Yeah, the second act, the second act.

Speaker 2 (03:45):
Second yeah, yeah, entered the second act.

Speaker 4 (03:52):
Yeah, You're like, honey, and I just started cracking up laughing,
and Hill is like, what's going on in there? And
I'm like, Hi, can't talk. Yeah, And she comes in
and they're ship on the floor and I have pa
on my face and I'm just cracking up laughing and
I literally am laughing so hard that I can't even
change a diaper like I am and it's funny. Yeah,

(04:14):
And She's like, I didn't think I was going to
find this when I heard you cracking up laughing.

Speaker 2 (04:18):
Well, something really funny happened.

Speaker 1 (04:20):
Yes, exactly, exactly the Joys.

Speaker 3 (04:25):
Wait until you get the first act in the second.

Speaker 1 (04:27):
Half, Oh my god, Yeah, it's so good.

Speaker 2 (04:30):
Well, I'm gonna put a j on diaper duty a lot.

Speaker 4 (04:33):
Yeah, that's what I thought about Hill. My wife. I
would go like, oh, we we did like the shoe
game at our baby shower where you take one of
your shoes and the other shoe and you sit back
to back and then they say like who will change
the most diapers?

Speaker 2 (04:47):
Oh?

Speaker 4 (04:48):
Hill and I both put up her shoe real quick.
Oh you know, oh yeah, oh wow, oh yeah.

Speaker 3 (04:55):
Interesting.

Speaker 2 (04:56):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (04:56):
I mean here's the thing. I will say that I
travel a lot and she is full time mama. The
longest I've been away is three days, but I'm about
to go on a week run and that's going to
be really really hard, and so I'm I'm not looking
forward to that. But I mean, I'm super looking forward
to the tour that I'm going on, but I'm not

(05:17):
looking forward to missing them. Yeah, but yeah, I will say,
like obviously when I'm gone, she has to change one
hundred percent pipers, So I feel like when I get
a night nurse or anything we did in the very beginning. Now,
maybe he sleeps through the night. Oh, maybe he still
leaves through the.

Speaker 2 (05:34):
Night because you are sleep raining. Okay, copy, That's what
I'm like excited about.

Speaker 3 (05:40):
Did you put him on his belly?

Speaker 4 (05:42):
What do you mean like while he sleeps? Yeah, he
will roll himself. He wants to be he's he's very
like he's a big boy.

Speaker 2 (05:51):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (05:51):
So he's in like six to twelve months right now,
and he's five months oh and has been since he
was like four three or four months, like he is
a donor six four.

Speaker 3 (06:04):
Yeah that's yeah.

Speaker 2 (06:05):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (06:07):
Charlie, she looks like she's eleven years old.

Speaker 5 (06:10):
She's almost as tall as I like's wild.

Speaker 3 (06:13):
Wow, she's like up to hear it's crazy.

Speaker 4 (06:16):
I mean, we knew what we were signing up for,
but the donor was so amazing, and then we literally
like every single thing checked off the list, and like
I was so neurotic about choosing a donor. It was
the scariest situation for me.

Speaker 2 (06:32):
And finally that's the time you get to carefully choose.

Speaker 4 (06:36):
Yes, half of your baby's DNA, Like that is a huge.

Speaker 3 (06:40):
Decision, so important that we're checking off.

Speaker 4 (06:44):
Our biggest thing was like health, so we wanted him
to have like a really clean bill of health. And
also like his family, yeah, like we wanted and like
literally his grandparents are all still alive, Like, uh, there's
the only reason anyone in his family has died thus
far is like a car accident or like something, which

(07:06):
is amazing. Great genes, and he was super smart, and
he was an adventurer and we are adventurers. We just
love to travel and see the world. And I think
that inquisitiveness about someone with something that we really wanted.
And so also when we saw his picture, beautiful, he

(07:27):
looked like if Hillary and I could have a baby together, what, Yes,
it was wild. There were so many like features of
mine that he had. And then so many features of
Hill that he had, and then there was this really
cute little picture of him fishing when he was a
little kid, and Hillary's dad has the same picture of

(07:48):
him when he was a child, Like we're just a
little younger. It was really really wild, yes, And it
was literally like when you know, you know, you know,
like we're getting our nails done at like it was
Pride month, like two years ago. We're getting our nails
done Hill, Like instead of you know, Instagram scrolling was
like donor scrolling and oh yes there's an app. Every

(08:13):
sperm bank has an app, honey, and.

Speaker 3 (08:14):
You're just swiping laught on like all though you're like.

Speaker 4 (08:17):
Well it's a little less like swipey laugh, but it's
like you can open this profile. You can open this profile.
So we had it filtered so you could see baby
pictures and adult pictures. So I think the picture is
like the first thing that she saw and she was
like whoa, Like this man looks like our child. And
then she started reading his health and his education and

(08:37):
why he's doing it and what his life is like,
and she was trying to play it so cool and
she did. She was like, hey, I just want you
to look at this donor. I think he looks pretty good,
and like handed the phone over to me and I
start crying and I'm like, oh my god, he's perfect.

Speaker 3 (08:55):
That's your soul going.

Speaker 4 (08:56):
No, this is right, yes, like the gut feeling an
immediate and I'm like, what do you think? And she's like,
I think he's perfect. She goes, is there anything that
he's missing? I said, no, is there anything he's missing?
For you?

Speaker 5 (09:06):
No?

Speaker 4 (09:06):
It was like I start crying. She starts crying. The
nail The nail tech is like, oh, honey, are you okay?
Like checking in on us. I'm like, we just found
a donor, and she's like, you just found a what
you know? Like I'm sure she thought like one of
us were getting like exactly, but we're gonna have a

(09:28):
baby and and so it was just like the most
wild moment ever. And then all of a sudden, we're like,
add to cart to cart the sperm yeah, the car much?

Speaker 2 (09:41):
How much sperms?

Speaker 4 (09:42):
Air?

Speaker 2 (09:42):
Can you give up?

Speaker 4 (09:44):
World?

Speaker 3 (09:45):
That? You know how it works? You know?

Speaker 4 (09:48):
If we ever like if you ever talk about time
travel and either you go back or forward, we have
to go forward because that would be so screwed if
we had to go back, so screwed.

Speaker 3 (09:58):
Is he is he anonymous?

Speaker 4 (10:00):
He's anonymous. We really really wanted an anonymous donor just
because like we're two very involved parents, need another parent,
and we just wanted, you know, someone who is willing
to give their sperm and like kind of give that
gift to us. We found him, so he.

Speaker 3 (10:16):
Doesn't know where his sperm went.

Speaker 4 (10:18):
He has well, he knows, he knows like that there's
been a baby that's been born from his work. He does,
so he knows that he knows, like, oh yeah, like
a baby was born in Nashville. I don't even know
if he knows it's in Nashville. I don't even know.
We don't know his name, we don't know where he lives.

Speaker 2 (10:35):
Nothing.

Speaker 3 (10:36):
Yeah, we wanted to do it just to He just
said he was.

Speaker 4 (10:40):
So so close to his parents and he wanted to
give that to other people who wouldn't otherwise be able
to do that. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (10:48):
Period, yeah, period.

Speaker 4 (10:51):
Yeah, And like you know you can really quickly too,
Like there were a lot of good looking men and
then you like read their reasons or you like you know.

Speaker 3 (10:59):
They they do like an essay.

Speaker 4 (11:01):
Yeah, and all of a sudden, you're like, okay, past,
thank you, next, you know what I mean?

Speaker 2 (11:08):
Like that one what's that one documentary where.

Speaker 4 (11:12):
Our father that was an Indiana that's like, oh my
my wife's hometown. What Yeah, I mean they didn't do IVF.
They had four of them and it was all mom
and dad.

Speaker 5 (11:24):
But that guy was fucked up, so fucked up, like
the most fucked up and it's so crazy's.

Speaker 2 (11:33):
Wrong with you? Do you ever find out what was
wrong with him?

Speaker 4 (11:36):
I think it was just like one of those people
who was like I want my I want to spawn
my sperm everywhere, like I want to have spawn?

Speaker 3 (11:47):
How many kid?

Speaker 4 (11:47):
You over one hundred by the time the documentary was
over and they were like there's more.

Speaker 2 (11:53):
He just changed his sperm out for everybody else's sperm.

Speaker 3 (11:56):
Yeah. I never went to jail. There was no repercussion.

Speaker 4 (11:58):
That is the most insane part to you can just
do that well.

Speaker 2 (12:01):
Because who went you know what? Hold on a second,
I have a law. I have a law. We should
probably make this.

Speaker 4 (12:07):
Yeah, there's laws. It should be so.

Speaker 2 (12:15):
Should be able. That's like tampering with evidence.

Speaker 4 (12:18):
Yeah, I mean absolutely tampering specimens. Yeah, specimens, I mean
absolutely like that you think that this like man growing
up is your dad? Which he is your dad? Dad
is a verb not and oun like no, yes, like
dadding dad. Yes, you can have a dad and and

(12:42):
that dad not be a like you can have a
father and that father not be a dad. You know
what I mean?

Speaker 2 (12:47):
Yeah?

Speaker 4 (12:48):
But yeah, this so that was you know, that person's dad,
but knowing that they were not biologically related to the
dad they grew up believing they and he grew up
believing that that was his child or whatever. That's so sad.

Speaker 3 (13:02):
God, And just knowing that you have a hundred or
more of.

Speaker 4 (13:05):
The sails that you could be like dating that was
like super about Yeah what was Indiana? Indian? It's not
a small town. They've got there's a lot.

Speaker 2 (13:15):
But I mean I could have been an oopsy daisy
a small pool. Could have been an oopsy whoopsie and
poopsy sister brother Yeah.

Speaker 4 (13:25):
Sis, husband brother, husband, brother, sister, sister sister.

Speaker 2 (13:34):
Could you could you imagine that? Chris?

Speaker 4 (13:37):
That would be awful.

Speaker 3 (13:38):
You look gorgeous.

Speaker 2 (13:39):
I know you look so good.

Speaker 3 (13:40):
Talk to you.

Speaker 2 (13:42):
I love all the new branding.

Speaker 1 (13:43):
I need to know like everything behind everything, like what
what what?

Speaker 4 (13:48):
What? What?

Speaker 1 (13:49):
This is like a new album coming out or is
this like just a new Brook coming out?

Speaker 4 (13:53):
Yeah, kind of all of this right. Yeah, so like
I do think that, you know, coming to Nashville, I
had this like thing in my head of like what
a country artist was supposed to look like and sound
like and be like and all the things right, And god,
we all know, I've been through like a complete metamorphosis
since I moved here. Yeah, and I've just become so

(14:17):
much more free as a person and and do Yeah,
I'm just like, I mean, Mari, especially you. I don't
see you as much as I see Terran, or I've
seen Terran throughout the years. Like I feel like you're
probably like, whoa, this is like a same girl, but
the different.

Speaker 3 (14:37):
Different. Don't put yourself in that box.

Speaker 5 (14:43):
Like metamorphousize being free, find who you are.

Speaker 2 (14:50):
I don't know, I just like it.

Speaker 3 (14:52):
Yeah, metamorphousie like a lot of it.

Speaker 4 (14:54):
I don't know if it's a word, but yeah, you're.

Speaker 5 (14:57):
Like you're a little seed and then you're like growing
this beautiful, blossoming flower that you're like turning into and yeah,
beautiful and that's important to be able to do that and.

Speaker 4 (15:09):
All that goes together, right, and so yeah, I just,
you know, the the last couple of years, I've been like,
you know, putting out love songs, which has been so
fun because like before I met my wife, I never
wrote a love song because I didn't know how, because
I you know, I try to write what I know,
and I just didn't know any of that. And so

(15:29):
I did love songs for a really long time. And
I was just like looking back at like what makes
me tick, right, and I was thinking about growing up.
And I literally grew up in a line dancing bar, y'all.
Like my dad is still and was the drummer in
our local line dancing band.

Speaker 2 (15:48):
Your dad, I met your dad, He totally line dances.

Speaker 4 (15:53):
Oh yeah, well he and my mom actually met because
like my dad was the best like guy dancer, like
couple line dancer, and my mom was the best girl
couple line dancers. So they met like on the dance
floor and like started kicking kicking, yeah, from from like dancing, right.

Speaker 5 (16:11):
And then they made me beautiful together too, Like your
mom look exactly your mom too, and your dad's probably
just a stud in there.

Speaker 3 (16:17):
We're the best of the best.

Speaker 4 (16:19):
Yeah, baby, yeah, yeah, I love it. I love it.
It's just like the cutest little in Florida, in Florida. Yeah. Yeah,
and so yeah, they made me. And then I started
singing when I was like four, and then my dad
was like, hey, do you want to start like singing

(16:39):
with my band on the weekends. And I was like
yeah at four.

Speaker 2 (16:44):
That is that a figment in my imagination.

Speaker 3 (16:46):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (16:47):
I like started yodling when I was like nine. Yeah,
it's so fun. That end.

Speaker 2 (17:00):
The breath that was.

Speaker 3 (17:03):
Do you still yodel? Yeah?

Speaker 4 (17:04):
I mean I don't back. Once you go yodel, you
never go back. I mean I can still back yoda Yo,
don't go back?

Speaker 2 (17:20):
Yeah no, no, brook Okay.

Speaker 3 (17:24):
Once you once you yodel.

Speaker 4 (17:27):
Yo, don't go back.

Speaker 2 (17:28):
Don't go back.

Speaker 4 (17:29):
You don't go back or something like that. Yeah, but yeah,
and so like I started line dancing when I was
five when I was singing in the bars, like I
would sing with my dad's band, and then I was
when I was done, I would just go and line
dance with all the people in the bars. And of course,
like all the sweet like redneck women would come over

(17:52):
and be like, come on, girl, let me teach you
this dance. And so it was so cute.

Speaker 3 (17:58):
It was all in country and line dancing, right.

Speaker 4 (18:03):
I know. And then you know, I graduate from college,
I'm like, okay, I really want to move to Nashville,
but like I'm broken. He broke and he broke, you know,
twenty two and so I'm like, Okay, I'm going to
go and bartend at our local line dancing bar because
like again that's like all I know, right, And so
our local line dancing bar is called Renegades. So I'm

(18:24):
bartaining at Renegades. I meet all my friends there, so
like my whole community was line dancing. Then after I
was done with my you know, what are they called
when you're working? Thank you?

Speaker 3 (18:37):
It's been a while shift.

Speaker 4 (18:41):
My shift?

Speaker 2 (18:42):
Yes, thank you?

Speaker 4 (18:45):
I know. I was like, in a while since you've
had a shift, I believe, to chee che I said,
it's been a while since you've had a shift. Yeah.

Speaker 2 (18:56):
Well, also when do I work?

Speaker 3 (18:59):
I was supposed to have my first ship today, but
I quit.

Speaker 1 (19:02):
Wait what Mari's on a journey of what do I
do next?

Speaker 2 (19:07):
Or what do I do to fill time?

Speaker 4 (19:09):
What were you doing a place?

Speaker 2 (19:11):
And then you said, just kidding, I don't.

Speaker 5 (19:12):
Want to Yeah, today she was like, are you still
good for one o'clock today? And I was like oh,
and I was like I'm not. I was like, I
bit off more than I can chew. I'm not What were.

Speaker 4 (19:20):
You going to do?

Speaker 5 (19:21):
I'll just work at like a little like a little
bar pizza beer like thing.

Speaker 4 (19:25):
Oh my god, just a little side hustle.

Speaker 3 (19:27):
It's right down the road for me. But I already
quit at my friend.

Speaker 4 (19:30):
You quit y okay?

Speaker 3 (19:32):
She understood. Yeah, she was like a creative.

Speaker 5 (19:34):
I was like, well, I just you know, this is
my makeup thing is last minute, have a podcast. I
think I'm getting my personal training license. I'm a part
time single mom. I was like a bit more than
I can chew. I don't think I have time for this.

Speaker 3 (19:46):
And she was.

Speaker 5 (19:47):
Like I like yeah.

Speaker 4 (19:51):
Yeahs if you don't have enough going on.

Speaker 1 (19:53):
I know it's wild. And I keep learning this over
and over and over again. Just because you're good at something,
or just because you can doesn't mean you have to know.

Speaker 4 (20:01):
Yeah, you'd be a great pizza beer girl and golf.

Speaker 2 (20:04):
Cart and girl, but about me to do it?

Speaker 3 (20:06):
We don't need to do it.

Speaker 5 (20:07):
And as soon as she said the word shift, yeah,
like are you available for this shift for training.

Speaker 3 (20:12):
I was like shift training schedule, like I have to,
and I was like, absolutely not. I don't think this
isn't cut out for this.

Speaker 4 (20:19):
It is like I think it's also like our brains
are so trained to not be trained, yeah, to do
something whatever we want.

Speaker 1 (20:28):
We choose if we want to go, like yeah, sometimes
you don't want to play a show, or like yeah
sometimes it's like, oh my god, this music video is
an all nighter, but like I still get to do
what I wanted. It's like we're hanging out. We know everybody, Yeah, everybody. Yeah,
it's fun.

Speaker 4 (20:44):
It's a vibe.

Speaker 1 (20:46):
At the second you're on stage, you're like, ah, this
is why I'm here, you know, or like whatever.

Speaker 2 (20:50):
So it's totally different than beer and pizza.

Speaker 5 (20:52):
Yeah, and this is all I know. This is all
I've known for the past twenty something years. Is like
on my terms and do it.

Speaker 2 (20:58):
You know, you know you can't.

Speaker 5 (21:02):
I got one schedule, break the funk out, And she
said shift.

Speaker 1 (21:07):
No, I don't want to shift, she said, ship shift ship.

Speaker 3 (21:18):
Practicing.

Speaker 5 (21:18):
I was practicing, like being like I was like you
first time you guys ever came in here, you know
you want a tower.

Speaker 4 (21:26):
What are you looking for? You're looking for a sour agger.

Speaker 3 (21:31):
You want to you want to pal. I don't know
the difference, don't ask me.

Speaker 4 (21:36):
Don't know the difference. I don't know the difference between
a logger, a pale ale, and a pilsner.

Speaker 3 (21:42):
I have no idea.

Speaker 4 (21:43):
I think that is.

Speaker 2 (21:44):
I I know that's what it stands for, Indian pal.

Speaker 3 (21:50):
Yes, and that's it. Turn. Yeah, you got the shift.

Speaker 2 (21:56):
Great, that's what he'll do. I'll be a pregnant waitress bartender. Yeah,
no offense to all the pregnant people in the service industry.

Speaker 3 (22:05):
So sorry, it's just picturing you.

Speaker 2 (22:07):
Yeah, I would be the worst one ever.

Speaker 4 (22:09):
I actually tress for a while, and I was not
good at it. Oh.

Speaker 1 (22:12):
I was a waitress for when I moved here. I
lied to get a bartending job. Oh, and I got it.

Speaker 2 (22:17):
We personality yeah same personally high for me too. And
I did it always.

Speaker 3 (22:23):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (22:23):
I did it for a couple of years and I
was awesome.

Speaker 1 (22:26):
Yeah, and not good because I would drink on the
job because everybody drinks here.

Speaker 4 (22:31):
Well yeah, but also you're way more fun and people
are going to buy more drinks if you're having fun.

Speaker 2 (22:36):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (22:37):
It's part of the job.

Speaker 2 (22:38):
Yeah, I put my time in.

Speaker 4 (22:39):
Yeah, I was a terrible waitress, but I think I
was a pretty good bartender.

Speaker 5 (22:42):
See, bartending would be fun, but I would get too
involved with someone and I'd be like over here for
a little too long.

Speaker 3 (22:48):
It would be all like and everyone else.

Speaker 4 (22:50):
But that's the thing, though, that's the thing. You become
people's therapists. Like bartending is very like therapeutic. And yeah,
you probably know things about me that people didn't know
for a long time.

Speaker 2 (23:03):
Oh yeah, I have lots of things about lots of
people that we all know.

Speaker 3 (23:07):
So many.

Speaker 4 (23:09):
You've got the yeah, we know the vaults.

Speaker 2 (23:12):
I will never say anything. I also don't remember.

Speaker 3 (23:15):
Yeah, mostly.

Speaker 4 (23:17):
I don't remember.

Speaker 5 (23:18):
Yeah, that's why we keep the best secrets, because it's
just like people tell us things that.

Speaker 4 (23:21):
Have gone see you later in one ear out the other.
It was fun while I was in there.

Speaker 2 (23:27):
It was fun two minutes while it rattled around and left. Yeah, anyways,
back to your shift when you ed your yes.

Speaker 4 (23:35):
When I was done with my with my bartending shift
at the line dancing bars, I would go line dance
and I was doing this like five nights a week,
and it was so fun and my friends, Oh girl,
I knew all the dances. It was. It was so fun.
Oh is that real? Yeah, that's a real girl.

Speaker 2 (23:51):
There's that don't ye get down, turn around, go to town.

Speaker 4 (23:58):
It's so good.

Speaker 3 (23:59):
I feel like that's a lot better than I can.

Speaker 4 (24:04):
No. But like that's you know, And that's how this
like kind of idea started swirling in my brain is
because I have always That's kind of always been the
place that I've gone when I was like not feeling safe.
Was like line dancing, right like it was always like
a comfort zone for me. I guess. Then I moved
to Nashville. I was like, where's a lot of dancing?

Speaker 3 (24:24):
Yea?

Speaker 4 (24:25):
And they were like wild Horse And then I would
go to the Wildhorse and they would teach the same
thing every single week because it was just tourists. And
I was like, this is not the community that I
came from from my little town in Florida, Like.

Speaker 2 (24:39):
That why that is natural?

Speaker 3 (24:41):
Interesting?

Speaker 4 (24:42):
And it's all these towns, like you know, these small towns.

Speaker 2 (24:46):
Tell me, should you open a gay bar, a gay
line dancing bar?

Speaker 3 (24:49):
Fuck?

Speaker 4 (24:49):
Yes, I do. I have had conversations about this and
it's not happening. Yet, but for the future. I've had
conversations with like a really big line dancing gay line
dancing bar about possibly like extending it to Nashville. Wouldn't

(25:12):
that be sick? Gide up like you doesn't want to
get down at the gideo? Yeah right, I missed.

Speaker 2 (25:24):
Well it's because you're so gay, even like you're gay?

Speaker 3 (25:28):
Really, how are you? I know what you're like?

Speaker 2 (25:35):
So gay? So gay line dance that's yeah gay.

Speaker 4 (25:38):
And yeah, well this is the craziest thing you have
to I just.

Speaker 2 (25:44):
Like saw it.

Speaker 4 (25:45):
Yeah, how when you you would come.

Speaker 2 (25:47):
I would come, I would.

Speaker 6 (25:48):
Say, yes, it's literally you came in baby, I on
im coming a little Wayne.

Speaker 4 (26:01):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (26:01):
The tapers like three months ago.

Speaker 5 (26:03):
Yeah yeah, oh yeah those babies January, February, March April
three months wow.

Speaker 2 (26:08):
Wow wow.

Speaker 3 (26:10):
I know time goes by so quiet.

Speaker 4 (26:11):
Conversations, thank you, thank you, I'm.

Speaker 3 (26:15):
Ready, you're ready to show? They don't sometimes.

Speaker 1 (26:19):
Yeah, I'm so perfect. Oh no, it's so cute. My
mom line danced forever. She took me Lne Nancy and
with her all the time in La.

Speaker 4 (26:28):
Yeah, in California, No, seriously, and La it's huge. Yeah,
this is like yeah, and this is like where I
realized this, right, Okay.

Speaker 2 (26:36):
So I got my mom would come to your bar?

Speaker 4 (26:37):
Oh, your mom, your mom needs to come. I'm doing
these pop up shows.

Speaker 2 (26:42):
Okay. I was going to say, can you do something?

Speaker 4 (26:44):
Yes, I'm doing pop up shows Austin, Atlanta, Chicago, New York, La, Denver,
not Nashville. What. I don't know. You don't have to
figure that out.

Speaker 2 (26:57):
You're right, Okay, you have to do something I do.

Speaker 4 (27:00):
I have a show here at the Basement East on
May ninth. Okay, and that is going to be line
dancing as well.

Speaker 3 (27:07):
Okay, yes, are there any line dancing places now? Like
when you first moved.

Speaker 4 (27:11):
Here, it was just there's one line dancing place pretty
close to here, near the Opry at the Nashville Palace. O.

Speaker 3 (27:19):
I love that. Oh yes, yes, and it's legit.

Speaker 4 (27:22):
Oh it's legitkay oh yeah yeah, yeah, like the Nashville
Palace is legit. I went with my Cowgays.

Speaker 2 (27:31):
That's also a really cool name for a part.

Speaker 4 (27:35):
Yeah I know. Yeah. My my two best friends who
are also queer country artists, Adam Mac and Chris.

Speaker 2 (27:44):
We're having him on. We're having Adam Mac on the
podcast and.

Speaker 4 (27:47):
Oh great, oh, you just wait. He's so fun. Okay,
he is a nut.

Speaker 2 (27:50):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (27:51):
I mean everything that comes out of his mouth is
something that will come out of a drag queen's mouth,
and you're.

Speaker 2 (27:54):
Just like, yeah, that's the only kind there is.

Speaker 3 (27:57):
Of course, that's why he's coming on.

Speaker 2 (27:58):
Give me to you, yeah, me.

Speaker 4 (28:01):
To you, and you to me, me to you, then
give you to Yeah, what is it?

Speaker 2 (28:12):
Yeah?

Speaker 4 (28:13):
So we went. Chris Housman is actually really good at
line dancing. He would be he would be yeah, yeah right, yes,
yeah uh And like our other most of our other friends.
We went with a bunch of our friends, but specifically
the Cowgays.

Speaker 2 (28:26):
Were very good.

Speaker 3 (28:27):
Did Ford go?

Speaker 4 (28:28):
Ford went? He didn't get on the dance fo get him.

Speaker 3 (28:33):
He didn't try and give him, he didn't give a little.

Speaker 4 (28:35):
He didn't. He's not that guy. He's not that guy.
My wife got out there real quick. This was you know,
this was when he was still drinking. So okay, maybe
and sober for Ford.

Speaker 3 (28:50):
If you're if you're watching, we believe in you. Get
out there.

Speaker 2 (28:53):
We're just gonna take We're just we're all going to go. Yeah,
we're all gonna do it.

Speaker 4 (28:57):
We all should him, no choice, Yes, we're all getting
out on the.

Speaker 2 (29:00):
Mall, all soldiers on the field.

Speaker 4 (29:03):
And also if we do my line dance to my song,
that would just be rude.

Speaker 2 (29:08):
If you didn't, it would be rude. Friend it.

Speaker 4 (29:13):
Oh, I freaking know, you guys are gonnail it.

Speaker 5 (29:15):
Also, this is going to be the only line dance
that I know, so I'm going to do it everywhere.

Speaker 3 (29:19):
It doesn't matter what else people are doing. I'm doing
my own way.

Speaker 1 (29:23):
That's the most popular one. I feel like that's the
one I know.

Speaker 4 (29:28):
I mean, there's like one that's very close to the
Electric slide.

Speaker 2 (29:32):
Electric Side. That's what I know.

Speaker 4 (29:34):
Okay, that's not yeah, that's not there is a yes,
is it? The Electric Site is absolutely a line dance.
It is not a country line dance, but it's absolutely
a dance that you dance in a line and everyone
does the same movement, which is an dance. Okay, okay, okay,
I just dancing is country music, right, I hear that.
I hear that.

Speaker 3 (29:53):
So the Macarena is also a line dance.

Speaker 4 (29:56):
Well you're not moving your feet, I don't know, but
like the wobble, the wobble they play that every line dancing.
Bar Okay, yeah, because you're done.

Speaker 3 (30:07):
Wabble play Yeah, I know the wobble too, Yes, okay.

Speaker 4 (30:10):
Yeah, dancing it's so fun also personal trainer. Like the
best shape I've ever been in is when I was
line dancing five nights a week. Well, sure, you're just going,
your heart is going. And like when in when you're
like twenty minutes on the chadmill, I'm done. Yeah, try

(30:32):
to do that when your favorite song comes on. Yeah,
yeah you say, I just got to suck it up
and get back out there. Yeah, I'm sweating. My hair
is literally wet from sweating.

Speaker 2 (30:42):
And but this is my gym. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (30:45):
I mean I love to dance. We both love to dance.
Like I will not I will be on that dance
floor all night.

Speaker 4 (30:51):
Yes.

Speaker 1 (31:03):
And I have had so many times where she's just
like I gotta dance, man, I gotta go.

Speaker 4 (31:06):
I just can't be here.

Speaker 5 (31:11):
Yeah, fly free, Birdie, go that you just feel. Yeah,
and I've always been. I went to the stockyards in
Fort Worth, Texas.

Speaker 3 (31:22):
Have you been there before? My girl? That is like
I'm assuming the.

Speaker 5 (31:26):
Mecca of line dancing, country line dancing. Every single bar
I walked into, it was just everyone. It was like
it was like a like a high stems Like that's
reminds me of everyone's doing the same ship and like
killing it real cowboys like for me, like real cowgirls,

(31:46):
Like it's just amazing.

Speaker 4 (31:48):
For me.

Speaker 1 (31:52):
For me kind of both yea, yeah, I mean that's
on Yeah, depends on the night.

Speaker 4 (32:02):
Oh, but yeah, that was that is so fun. I've
never been a four words, So I guess I gotta
start there.

Speaker 3 (32:09):
Cool.

Speaker 5 (32:09):
I know, I get what I was doing, but I
threw myself in there and just kind of watch everybody else.

Speaker 4 (32:13):
Okay, I am playing Arlington Pride, which is just outside
of Dallas Fort Worth. Okay, so I need to find
the stockyards.

Speaker 3 (32:20):
Go to the stockyards. You will love it. Oh my god.
I can you believe you've never been there before and
you're gonna die.

Speaker 4 (32:26):
I'm going to die. It's gonna be like moving here
from people who.

Speaker 3 (32:29):
Walk around with like like caroal cowboys.

Speaker 5 (32:32):
Like that's not though, because they're all safe.

Speaker 4 (32:35):
They're all yeah, they all know how to use their know.

Speaker 5 (32:37):
How to use their guns, and they just walk into
the salomony with their Yeah it's the protect the ladies.

Speaker 3 (32:43):
The men do this.

Speaker 5 (32:44):
They're like wow, their hats Oh my god, and just
line dancing bars up the wazoo.

Speaker 4 (32:50):
Wow, that was like Heaven to me. You guys, I'm
literally gonna call you and be like, so, I'm the
new singer at the line bar also coach line dancing.
I live here.

Speaker 3 (33:03):
I live here now.

Speaker 4 (33:04):
I'm no longer a country artists because I just live
here and only touring country. I'm just playing in dancing.

Speaker 3 (33:16):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (33:16):
I feel like once you put it out to the world,
like the whole like line dancing and that whole vibe,
especially how much history you have and how much.

Speaker 2 (33:25):
Like you're passionate about it. Yeah, I feel like you'll
just go on like a fucking line dance.

Speaker 4 (33:29):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (33:30):
I mean, and you'll be able to play like all
the big like line dancing bars.

Speaker 4 (33:34):
That is really and truly like the goal.

Speaker 3 (33:37):
Like it sounds like a true passion, Like.

Speaker 4 (33:40):
It's a real, real like love for me. And I
think that, like, especially when I moved here and there
was not that, and I like, I like lost that
community of like having that in Nashville, and then I
fucking find out I'm gay and I'm like, damn it.

Speaker 3 (33:58):
Hold gay.

Speaker 2 (34:00):
I know, Oh my god, application game, you're gay? That okay, yeah,
it was a college application.

Speaker 4 (34:11):
I was scared. I was scared because I was like,
how is like the country music world ever gonna like
merge my weird at you know that long? Was that scared?
Like a heaviness for you, Like seven years that's a
long time. It's a long time. Yeah, from the time
I was like twenty four to like thirty.

Speaker 3 (34:31):
One long time a minute.

Speaker 4 (34:32):
Yeah, And like just I think it was just that
fear of like, you know, all I've ever done my
whole life is saying country music.

Speaker 2 (34:40):
That's it.

Speaker 4 (34:40):
Five years old, singing country music like I always knew.
Like they threw a cowboy hat out onto the dance
floor upside down and people started throwing tips in it.
I sang three songs and made three hundred dollars and
my dad was like, that's what I make in a
whole weekend. Damn for four hours a night. You know.
I was five. I was adorable, you know what I mean?

Speaker 3 (35:02):
Yeah, yeah, a little baby.

Speaker 4 (35:05):
Version, you know, like how baby, you know? And I
was like, wait, like you can make money doing this,
Like this is all I've ever wanted to do. And
then like you know, I come to the realization and
I guess kind of just wipe the denial out of
my brain after going to a Baptist school my whole life,
growing up super super religious, and you know, being told

(35:26):
to pretty much hate yourself your whole life for being queer.
Like I once I realized that, I was like, oh
my gosh, how are these things gonna mesh? You know,
And to find out that queer line dancing is a thing.
It's like such a thing in la Actually I didn't.

Speaker 2 (35:44):
Even know it. Yeah, I am just so into it.

Speaker 3 (35:48):
Oh my god, just wait, you can't even imagine what
dance floor looks like. Oh my god.

Speaker 4 (35:54):
Oh my gosh. It's so fun. Like there's so many
pictures and videos and stuff that they put online and
it's just fun. Everyone dances with everyone. It's so fun.
But I'm doing a little line dancing tour and that's
what I'm doing, and I'm gonna sing, giddy up and
teach the line dance and then like you know, line
dance with everyone until the cows come home. Because to me,

(36:14):
a line dancing bar a couple of pick shots and yeah,
somebody gonna have to take me out of.

Speaker 2 (36:20):
The bar right picklebacks, And.

Speaker 4 (36:26):
I know it's going to be so fun. So it's
a good reason to have to leave my son and
my wife for double days.

Speaker 3 (36:32):
Yeah, but it's like the reason if you're gonna leave them.

Speaker 4 (36:37):
Yeah, pick picklebacks and line dancing with those are dangerous.

Speaker 3 (36:42):
I would naked on that dance floor.

Speaker 2 (36:45):
I don't know when to stop.

Speaker 3 (36:47):
I don't want to stop.

Speaker 4 (36:48):
I don't want to stop.

Speaker 3 (36:49):
I don't want to stop.

Speaker 4 (36:50):
So good, so good, so good. You take the shot
of jamison, you take the pickleback, You're like, wait a second.

Speaker 2 (36:56):
Liken No, but I'm saying.

Speaker 4 (37:00):
But it's a pica.

Speaker 3 (37:03):
Nothing.

Speaker 4 (37:04):
Yeah. Nothing.

Speaker 5 (37:05):
It's so interesting, especially I find like living in the
South because I'm from New York, right, you're la we
just like you gay, you're gay like this or that,
it's who you are.

Speaker 3 (37:16):
Like I'm We're used to it.

Speaker 5 (37:17):
But yeah, from coming from the South or southern parts
of Flora or whatever. Yeah, and knowing having friends here
like Ford and Fancy and this and that that. Yeah,
up with such like hard religious beliefs, being shoved in
their faith and then having to like deny who they
are for so long.

Speaker 3 (37:35):
I can't imagine that.

Speaker 5 (37:37):
It's all of our reality, it's all of your reality.

Speaker 4 (37:40):
There's not a I think it's so wild because people
who don't know queer people or you know, I I
ended up on the wrong side of TikTok this week.
I don't know what happened. Literally, I've been on gay
talk TikTok for like four years and then all of
a sudden, I like ended up on this side where
like everyone was like, you're going to hell, and then
I like go on their profile to block them because

(38:02):
I just don't take that. I just don't do it.
And like everyone was like Jesus loves you or like
had a Bible verse, and I'm like, how there is
no hate like Christian love like it is, so I
agree crazy, and I'm like, first of all, Jesus like,
if you ever read anything about him, he's not like this.
So if you're a Christian, Jesus Christ was not like this, right, Okay,

(38:26):
let's just get that out of the way.

Speaker 1 (38:28):
It's likeriticalt everighbor.

Speaker 4 (38:34):
That's the only thing that's written three right exactly.

Speaker 1 (38:40):
And so somewhere the lines the religion, the Christian religion,
just got so moreh It wasn't originally intended to be
that at all.

Speaker 4 (38:50):
No, no, like that is what it's religion. Well, they
cherry pick all the things. Like also in the Bible,
you're not supposed to wear clothes that are of two
different fabrics.

Speaker 1 (39:05):
I know I'm going to hell, but that's the thing
that nobody seafood.

Speaker 4 (39:10):
You're not supposed to eat seafood. Men are not supposed
to have long hair. Yeah at the football, Oh the football,
it's like the leather and yes, exactly. Yeah, it's like
there's so many things that they just choose what they
want to choose.

Speaker 2 (39:24):
Right, and they just focused. They're like esperfixation.

Speaker 4 (39:27):
It's a hyper.

Speaker 5 (39:29):
Fixiation's usually the ones that are the most fucked up
human beings because they have to they're abiding by all
of these rules.

Speaker 3 (39:36):
There's so many rules, they've lost them.

Speaker 4 (39:39):
Yes, I actually wildly enough. I went to a Baptist
school my whole life. My parents were about to get
a divorce. They ended up staying together because I got
O c D. I was so afraid to sin. I
was eight. I was like the Bible was just being
so like like sewn into my DNA with a needle,

(40:00):
and it was so painful. I was so afraid I
was going to sin. I was so afraid that I
was going to like go against God or like do
something wrong, or like just I was. I was so
just encompassed by fear. And that was like when I
was the most like Christian, you know, or like the
most like into the religious things. So like for me,

(40:22):
spirituality is a thing because like my relationship with my
God is its own thing, and like no one's going
to tell me what that is, you know, yes, amenjah.

Speaker 3 (40:34):
Yeah, But what I was.

Speaker 4 (40:35):
Going to say is like every single queer person that
I know grew up extremely religious, every single one.

Speaker 5 (40:41):
And I don't know that. And that's what I'm saying.
The only Yeah, but I only know that from living
in the South, right.

Speaker 4 (40:47):
And you meet Fancy, and you meet and you meet Ford,
and you meet Adam and you meet Chris and like
all of the the story, we all have the same story.
And it's it's the wildest thing because you think you're
the only one, because no one talks about it, because
it's terrifying because you think you're going to get freaking
beat up. It's so scary.

Speaker 2 (41:06):
Yeah, because people have that's people's stories that beat up.
You've been killed.

Speaker 1 (41:11):
Yeah, even I was just reading something about how a
group of people killed a trans I mean, he was
so young.

Speaker 4 (41:21):
It happens day hearing as much about it because it's
trans and like our media right now is full of
propaganda and they're they're they're not talking about it as much.
You know, it's crazy.

Speaker 2 (41:34):
Yeah, it's wild.

Speaker 4 (41:35):
I know. I don't know.

Speaker 5 (41:37):
I just on you and having your family and your baby,
and you're you know.

Speaker 4 (41:41):
Like, literally, how does how does me living my life
affect you living?

Speaker 3 (41:45):
It doesn't. And that's the problem is that people have
a hard time letting people live their own lives.

Speaker 5 (41:51):
Yeah, I know, I sleep really well at night because
I don't carry the burden of other people's expect.

Speaker 4 (41:58):
You know, that's not my ship, that's your totally, and
I feel the same way.

Speaker 5 (42:02):
And if you're a great person, I'll still love you,
if you're kind, if you have all of those like morals,
and we can we can be friends, we can, kik know.

Speaker 1 (42:15):
What's so wild too, I feel like we've talked about
it on the pod is how much there's been drag
trans gay prostitution, all this ship from hundreds of years ago.

Speaker 2 (42:29):
It's existed for years and years and years.

Speaker 4 (42:31):
Center ship ain't now what.

Speaker 2 (42:34):
The fuck it's actually I'm bored of.

Speaker 1 (42:36):
You get something else, right, you guys are word yeah,
Jesus Christ's it's so like, oh my god, and here
we are.

Speaker 3 (42:46):
We're going to move on from I think we're Are
we at the end?

Speaker 4 (42:49):
No?

Speaker 3 (42:49):
Is this the end? This is the beginning.

Speaker 2 (42:51):
I don't know if it's the beginning. I just think, God,
I don't know what.

Speaker 3 (42:56):
And watch the who's what's her name?

Speaker 4 (42:58):
Uh?

Speaker 3 (42:59):
Trans was big? What the hell's her name? Damn it?

Speaker 1 (43:02):
Oh oh, I'm thinking of she was just like known
like in New York City.

Speaker 2 (43:09):
Oh she Oh, she's fabulous.

Speaker 3 (43:11):
She's fabulous.

Speaker 2 (43:11):
I've met her one time.

Speaker 3 (43:12):
Yeah, And just I was like a six you would know, you.

Speaker 1 (43:15):
Would know, she's like, uh, just a fucking queer icon
trans or dragon, she's Trans.

Speaker 3 (43:23):
I had it and then it went away.

Speaker 5 (43:25):
But I was like a seventeen year old girl, just
a little New York going into New York City with
my friends, going to these raves, just watching this human
being and being like this is just normal.

Speaker 1 (43:35):
Normally like that, like Mac promoted gay culture. Oh, we
worked with trees right now, And I did drag makeup
before I did any other kind of God. Yeah, but
it's just that's La New York. The rest of the
world is sheltered and repressed and religious. And my parents

(43:57):
literally went like, you whatever you want to be.

Speaker 5 (44:01):
Yeah, my parents too. My mom was like, whatever you
want or whatever you want to do, or whatever you
want to be, just be the best at it, you know. Yeah,
But it's when it's when you're open minded and you're
going to be like this with your sweet baby boy.
Is that when you're like you just go out there
with love and kindness and be who exactly who you are,
that you allow him to be free, just like you're
free and I'm free. When you're repressed and you're like this,
those are like the people who have the darkest fucking

(44:23):
skeletons in their.

Speaker 4 (44:24):
Darkest Let me tell you, I have never been more
full of anxiety as I was back then.

Speaker 2 (44:31):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (44:31):
Like, I think that a lot of people think that
queer people have mental illness. No no, people you are
no no no, no, no, no no no. People who
are queer have so much repressed feelings that are happening
in their lives and so much fear of living their
truth that it becomes it becomes like a mental fog.

(44:56):
The moment that I came out and was able to
be my elf. Y'all, thirty years of anxiety left my body.

Speaker 2 (45:04):
Yeah, I believe it.

Speaker 3 (45:05):
Yeah, old I.

Speaker 4 (45:07):
Used to have OCD. I have no iota of it anymore.
Panic attacks I don't have them anymore. Anxiety, I don't
have it anymore. It is wilde.

Speaker 3 (45:19):
What happens is ready for yourself.

Speaker 1 (45:21):
I think everybody deserves the right everybody feel every love.
If you don't feel like you're in the right body,
so you can't love yourself, great, be whoever the fuck
you want to be.

Speaker 4 (45:33):
Because honey, if you can't love yourself, how the hell
you're gonna love somebody? Exact exactly? Oh that he said
at the.

Speaker 3 (45:42):
End of it, don't back it up, back it up?

Speaker 2 (45:46):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (45:46):
How old were you when you knew that you would gay?
You get you gay?

Speaker 2 (45:51):
You gay gay gay?

Speaker 3 (45:53):
Yep? Like when when did you have that first feeling
where you're like.

Speaker 4 (45:56):
It Probably three years old?

Speaker 1 (45:58):
Wow, Yeah, that's so cute, so cute, You're just.

Speaker 3 (46:02):
Adorable little girl.

Speaker 4 (46:05):
Oh yeah, it's probably Therefore, when I was like, I
want to kiss a.

Speaker 2 (46:09):
Girl, oh, then so cute.

Speaker 4 (46:11):
Yeah, And then I went to my private Christian school
when I was five and then quickly learned like no, no, no,
you kiss boys. And I was like, oh okay, so
I did that for twenty years.

Speaker 3 (46:24):
Well and this is just like very real talk.

Speaker 5 (46:27):
But people probably they look at you like your whole
life all right, so you have to horse?

Speaker 3 (46:33):
Yeah? Yeah, I walk.

Speaker 4 (46:40):
In the room. They're like, look at that straight cowgirl.
And then I started making out with my wife and
they're like, how did she get in here?

Speaker 2 (46:51):
Get her out and get her well video the video.

Speaker 4 (46:57):
Yeah, No, it's honestly been like really wild, like.

Speaker 5 (47:00):
Because you're not like this, like really like you're not
there's nothing mascolt. You're so you're so feminine and just
like so visually people probably and your family have like
put that on you your whole life, like when you're
gonna meet a nice boy, and that's that they just
would never assume in a bazillion years.

Speaker 4 (47:16):
Oh yeah, the slightest Oh yeah. Even when I was
bringing Hillary home for like every single holiday for three years,
my family would be like, you know what, our friends,
they have sons, their brothers, you guys should date them.
And we're like, aret do not, And like we weren't
out like we hadn't said to them like we're dating,
but like come on yeah, and you know, oh still

(47:38):
didn't put TUNESO together. No, But then like when we
did come out, they were like super supportive and like, hey,
sorry about those things that we said. And like even
going back to like my old stomping grounds, like my
the old honky Tonks, like where my dad still plays
in Florida, I was worried about like what people would say.
And people are like, oh my gosh, where's Hillary or

(47:59):
like it's Hillary here, we want to see her. Yeah,
like oh my gosh, did Garth Brookes marry you?

Speaker 3 (48:06):
You know what I mean?

Speaker 4 (48:07):
Like you're so into it and so sweet and just
I think the thing that I've had to let happen
was letting people surprise you, you know, and just like
letting that fear go away, and if people have something
negative to say, let them say it and yeah, just
is what it is. It really really flies off my
back and I just kind of feel bad for them.

(48:28):
And then letting people surprise you. I think going back
to like the whole fem thing that was very confusing
even for me because representation is so important and I
had never seen any feminine lesbian on or in media
my whole life. I mean, you have Ellen, we have Rosie. Yeah,

(48:52):
Like really when did she well, I think that she
was later. That was later and like the first time
I really saw like a fen and lesbian was like
Piper Chapman from Orange's New Black, and yeah for me,
that was she.

Speaker 5 (49:08):
No oh no, no, no, okay, so just the show, just
the show, okay.

Speaker 4 (49:12):
And just that she was then because I kept on
like I would literally be like eighteen, looking at myself
in the mirror and being like, you do not want
to cut your hair, you do not want to wear
the cargo pants, like you know what I mean, stereotypical.

Speaker 5 (49:26):
I think for a seconds that you had to that
I had to do, yeah, because I would like go
into gay bars with my gay Yeah but she's by, sure,
but she's.

Speaker 4 (49:37):
Like never been out with a woman, yeah yeah. And
that was the thing like literally before Chapel Roone, like
what what pop stars did we have? Like you had
Halsey who's by, and you had Miley who's by, but
no one was ever out with their girlfriend has always
like we met there's.

Speaker 2 (49:53):
A blonde girl who's a lesbian.

Speaker 4 (49:56):
Well, now there's so many others.

Speaker 5 (49:58):
Now, yeah, when she's growing up and like living out
like for.

Speaker 4 (50:04):
Like just representation, you know what I mean? Also, guy,
speaking of representation, Oh my god. Okay, well I read
on Tamed. Did you guys know that book by Glennon Doyle. Okay,
let me give you a little like back story. Yeah,
Glennon Doyle. She's a Christian artist, married to sorry, a

(50:28):
Christian author, married to a man with three children. She
had alcoholism and samnorexia, and she was just dealing with
some things. But she was writing Christian books about basically
how to stay in a marriage, in an unhappy marriage,
like from her own words. And she's on her book
tour and she meets Abby Wambach, who is the Olympic

(50:51):
soccer star.

Speaker 3 (50:52):
Oh, the one who took her shirt off right, the goalie.

Speaker 4 (50:55):
Oh no, no, no, Abby, She's amazing.

Speaker 3 (50:59):
Okay, Okay.

Speaker 4 (51:00):
They have a podcast called We Can Do Hard Things.
It's incredible. But they they met. Abby was on her
book tour, Glennon was on her book tour, and they
fell in love. Glennon had to go home. They didn't
do anything. They were just like, oh my god, I'm
in love with you. Glenna had to go home get

(51:20):
like a divorce from her husband. She gets with Abby,
she has to like figure all these things out while
she has three children. She writes this book called Untamed.
I read this book in October of twenty twenty, and
it was the catalyst that made me come out that
like made me realize like, oh, these are like these

(51:41):
were the boundaries that were set plate set in place
in my life and in my mind. That made me
feel as though I couldn't be myself and kind of
lifted those boundaries for me. And I'm literally reading this
paragraph about integrity and I realized in that moment that
I can no longer be in the closet, like I
can know longer lived this double life. Yeah right, So

(52:02):
I'm like reading it in the backyard during the pandemic.
I start like yelling. I'm like, babe, I have to
come out. And she's like what She's like, it's about
damn time, Like yeah, you know this is crazy.

Speaker 3 (52:16):
So was she wanting you to Like she was like
patient with you, giving so.

Speaker 4 (52:20):
Patient with me, but also like babe, like you are
not living your truth. Like this is very hard for
me to continue to watch because I'm watching it hurt you. Yeah,
and in this at the same time, like I put
her back in the closet for five years because she
was out when we met, and in order to like
keep my career, which we were told to do, Like

(52:40):
we stayed in closet for five years. And then I
read this book and I was like, oh my god,
I literally cannot do this. Like I think I was
waiting for someone else to come out so it'd be
easier for me. And then I was like, maybe I
need to come out.

Speaker 5 (52:53):
Yeah, Like you needed to read that book because people
probably have the same stories.

Speaker 3 (52:56):
I'm sure there's.

Speaker 4 (52:57):
There's so many, so many.

Speaker 5 (52:59):
That book came into your life at that moment when
you were truly ready.

Speaker 4 (53:03):
You were before I didn't know and I didn't have
the self confidence or.

Speaker 3 (53:07):
Truly the self life exactly to.

Speaker 4 (53:09):
Be able to go out into the world and like
be the representation that I actually needed to be for myself. Row.

Speaker 3 (53:17):
Yeah, like absolute sit in that darkness and that sadness
and that fear.

Speaker 4 (53:20):
Yes, and like gain strength and courage and like all
the things. So this happens. I've talked about, you know, untamed,
and I guess it ended up getting to Glennon. At
some point she started following me on Instagram.

Speaker 2 (53:35):
What are you talking about?

Speaker 5 (53:38):
So she was she wrote this book, Yeah, how to sit,
like just sit in your marriage, just yea, how to
stay and how to stay it.

Speaker 2 (53:47):
She can hate him.

Speaker 3 (53:48):
Yeah, she's probably a completely different.

Speaker 4 (53:51):
Person, different person talk about representation. I mean she's everything.
And so you guys. A week and a half ago,
I was at the Glad Awards.

Speaker 2 (54:03):
I saw that.

Speaker 4 (54:05):
Abby and Glennon walk in the room. I am panicking
because they are They're like homebodies, right, Like they talk
about how they just don't like to leave their house.
They like to hang out together and like aren't super social.
They're at the glaud Awards and they're like five tables
away from me. Oh my god, and kind of like

(54:27):
You're like, I just had to get on the dance floor.
I was like, I have to dan ahead of them.
I gotta do it right now. My pants.

Speaker 3 (54:37):
Let them know.

Speaker 4 (54:40):
It's my pants. Right. So I'm like, I have no
idea how this is gonna feel. But I'm just gonna
go up to Glennon and just say hi. I don't
know if she's gonna know who I am. She followed
me a couple of years ago on Instagram. I don't know.
I don't know if my stuff shows up on her page. Right, So, guys,
I met Shania Twain. I was not cool, but I

(55:00):
was chill enough.

Speaker 3 (55:01):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (55:02):
I met Delly Parton. She's so disarming and so sweet,
and I just like she was amazing. Didn't cry or anything,
but I was just chilling. I meet Glennon. You guys. Firstly,
I just tap around the back.

Speaker 2 (55:17):
She turns around, brock stop please stop, no, no, no.

Speaker 4 (55:21):
You no, no, hugs me for probably fifteen seconds. During
that time, she's During that time, she's like, I'm so
proud of you. I've been watching on you on social media.
I'm so proud of you. And I'm like, Glennon.

Speaker 2 (55:37):
Oh my god, does she know? Did you tell her
that you can? Oh?

Speaker 4 (55:41):
No, she knows. I like literally talked about it and
like every interview because I need people to read this book.

Speaker 2 (55:47):
It's my old Yes, yes, I say that, you sound
like my sister. She sent it to me.

Speaker 4 (55:52):
Real of untamed.

Speaker 2 (55:53):
Yeah.

Speaker 4 (55:53):
No, it's literally that good. It's literally that good. It's
like every single person, it's not just for gay people
are really Yeah, bring out your authenticity and like help
you with that? And so yeah, y'all, I just started sobbing.
My friend Aaron was with me and she's videoing this.

Speaker 3 (56:11):
So this did you post it?

Speaker 4 (56:13):
I posted it literally last night? Okay, yeah, wat, I
posted it, and you guys, I cannot my I'm like
body shaking. Poor Abby. Her wife is sitting at the
table thinking what the fuck is happening here? In the
video kind of like she's like, what's going on here?

Speaker 1 (56:32):
Yeah?

Speaker 5 (56:33):
You know?

Speaker 4 (56:34):
And then Aaron, my friend who's videoing, sees Abby's confused
look and she goes, do you know this story? And
I was like no, and she's like, Brooke came out
because of Untamed and Abby goes hi, and then she
wraps me up in a hug and I'm just like
I don't know what to do right now.

Speaker 3 (56:52):
Just keep hugging, yes, love.

Speaker 4 (56:55):
Oh my god. It just like felt like such a
full circle and we were so connected and before we left,
Glennon was like, please reach out. We want to be friends,
and I was like, we have dinner at their house. Yeah,
oh my god.

Speaker 3 (57:11):
And people like that want to help you want to share.

Speaker 5 (57:13):
That's why she wrote that book, That's why she's doing
that so she can touch people's lives, so.

Speaker 2 (57:18):
She can help people who are stock.

Speaker 5 (57:20):
So people like that are genuine, they want to be
there for you and help you.

Speaker 2 (57:23):
And point, oh my god.

Speaker 4 (57:25):
Point it was just like such an important, obviously like
point in my life. And then like, I mean, I've
never sobbed meeting a celebrity, you know what I mean. Like,
I live in Nashville. My life has been country music
my entire life. I've never sobbed meeting any of my
like you know, singing tours. Yeah, I meet Glennon Doyle

(57:47):
and y'all, I am on the damn floor.

Speaker 1 (57:49):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (57:50):
Well, because it's more than that.

Speaker 3 (57:51):
It is more than you are going to be that
for some little oh my god, wow, that is going
to meet you one day because you're because of the.

Speaker 5 (58:02):
Club or the book or your whatever that you go
and speak your truth and write your book and do whatever,
and you're going to change people's lives to And it's
like it's the trickle down effect. It's once people are
just come from nothing but like here and this and
your truth and your purpose and your one shot this
fucking life. It's inspiring and it's people want to grab

(58:24):
onto that and and that's the point of life.

Speaker 1 (58:28):
That's religion, that's that's God, that's God's spiritual yea, that
is what the life is.

Speaker 4 (58:35):
God with you. Yes, Like God lives within us, and
it's our our job to show God within us by being.

Speaker 5 (58:46):
Our words are not just that we're not. We're here
to share our pain and our suffering. We all have
our all that we've gone through, you know. But if
we're not here to help people and see people.

Speaker 2 (58:57):
What are we doing?

Speaker 3 (58:58):
And what do we do? What do we what are
we doing doing?

Speaker 4 (59:02):
Yeah?

Speaker 2 (59:03):
What's the plan?

Speaker 3 (59:03):
Guys?

Speaker 2 (59:03):
I feel like we got off track here. Tuddle up.
That's some weird I love my name. Feeling that you
guys got the wrong memo. You're causing a lot of we.

Speaker 3 (59:15):
Wrong ship is wrong.

Speaker 4 (59:17):
Ship, wrong ships, a hatred shift. We need to get
back all it up.

Speaker 2 (59:23):
I'm not a bail by the way, you guys are fired.

Speaker 3 (59:25):
I'm not available.

Speaker 2 (59:30):
Yeah, did off too much.

Speaker 4 (59:33):
Putting this job?

Speaker 2 (59:34):
Yeah, witting this job.

Speaker 3 (59:35):
We're so proud of you.

Speaker 5 (59:37):
Yeah, you're it's it's so wonderful. And like you said before,
like we don't see each other all the time, so
when I do get to see you and I've seen like,
but I've known you for a long time, you know,
and and seeing you as like a woman, a memory woman,
and like a wife and a mother and just this
like essence, this like as soon as you walk in,

(59:57):
you can tell when somebody's loves life and is truly happy.

Speaker 3 (01:00:01):
Like it's so it's just the chills.

Speaker 4 (01:00:04):
You know. And I feel the same way about y'all.
And I love that you're we're all in this place
which we probably will be for the rest of our
lives and keep on swimming, yeah, and just yearning and
growing and loving.

Speaker 5 (01:00:17):
You know what I do now, I picture like my
eighty year old self, like eighty year old Mari, n
year old Mari.

Speaker 3 (01:00:22):
Like sometimes when I feel.

Speaker 5 (01:00:23):
Like I want to make her proud, Yeah, Like I
want to make her proud, you know.

Speaker 4 (01:00:28):
I want eight and eighty year.

Speaker 3 (01:00:30):
Old, Yeah, I do.

Speaker 5 (01:00:31):
When I look at little baby Mari and I'm like,
I'm so proud of you for going through all that
ship that you went through, a little baby Brook and
you know, and now you're here and like you want
to be someone that, like the older version of yourself.

Speaker 3 (01:00:43):
Is going to be even more proud of.

Speaker 5 (01:00:46):
We're just always just this growing, fucking beautiful flower that
shifts in so many different ways.

Speaker 3 (01:00:52):
That will like a fine we are, we are? You
want to take some take a little mush.

Speaker 4 (01:01:00):
I'm on the gummy trade over here.

Speaker 5 (01:01:02):
You got any comino here, maybe I'll be there.

Speaker 3 (01:01:10):
Line dancing.

Speaker 4 (01:01:14):
Actually, that sounds super fun.

Speaker 2 (01:01:15):
That sounds so much.

Speaker 4 (01:01:17):
Get a little high line.

Speaker 3 (01:01:21):
That's what I baby.

Speaker 1 (01:01:28):
Let's wrap this up really quickly because we have some
content we have to shoot.

Speaker 2 (01:01:32):
Yeah, you have new music coming out. Yes, when does
that come out?

Speaker 4 (01:01:38):
Comes out May second?

Speaker 2 (01:01:39):
Oh my god, yeah, whole album.

Speaker 4 (01:01:41):
Less than a month. No, the one song is coming.

Speaker 2 (01:01:44):
Out so far, okay, but that's on the next.

Speaker 4 (01:01:47):
Yes, yes, yes, Okay. There's so many songs I'm so
excited about. I have kissing for the cameras that I
just want to like literally sing at the top of
a mountain.

Speaker 2 (01:01:58):
Oh my god.

Speaker 4 (01:01:58):
I have one called Honky a queen talking about little me,
Little Me. I have one called Rainbow Rodeo. And you
already know what that one's about.

Speaker 1 (01:02:11):
It sounds kind of gay, a little bit gay. Okay, amazing.
So you have a new song dropping May second. You're
doing a little pop up tour, a little dance pop
up you guys, but notlle.

Speaker 2 (01:02:29):
But not that.

Speaker 4 (01:02:31):
We'll face show, I know, but there will be lined in,
there will be there will be line dancing.

Speaker 2 (01:02:37):
We have to bring my mother and.

Speaker 4 (01:02:40):
I love that. Yeah. We're doing an intro of the Cowgays,
which is our side project. Me Adam Mac Chris Housman
started a trio called The Cowgames.

Speaker 2 (01:02:56):
I love the songs.

Speaker 4 (01:02:57):
This is the first time we're talking. I'm talking about
this and we're introducing the Cowgays at my show.

Speaker 2 (01:03:05):
Do you guys wear nine? Okay? Do you guys wear matching?
Now they do?

Speaker 3 (01:03:09):
Come on, okay, the Cowgates? What why would that?

Speaker 2 (01:03:13):
Oh shit? Oh ship my big a heart.

Speaker 4 (01:03:18):
You're a big I know.

Speaker 2 (01:03:19):
I just felt my like little is your baby kicking
like just like he always like kicks me down?

Speaker 5 (01:03:24):
And why do I picture like the guns shooting out
like like like rainbow flames.

Speaker 2 (01:03:29):
Oh my god, rainbow, Oh my god.

Speaker 4 (01:03:33):
Yeah, this is to go down.

Speaker 3 (01:03:35):
Yeah, but don't go home because don't go home.

Speaker 2 (01:03:38):
Yeah, don't go home, go home. Yeah, go to the
website by tickets exactly. Oh my god. How fun.

Speaker 4 (01:03:44):
Also doing World Pride, Arlington Pride and One More Pride
that hasn't been announced yep, but super so.

Speaker 1 (01:03:52):
Everybody can find everything at Brooke Eaton on Instagram probably
brook Eaten dot.

Speaker 4 (01:03:58):
Music on Instagram music, Yes, and then Brookden.

Speaker 2 (01:04:02):
Dot com, Brookide dot com. Just googlerr. She's all over
the weibs googler her music.

Speaker 3 (01:04:09):
It's all this hair part of your new like, yeah, okay.

Speaker 1 (01:04:13):
You're not twenty six inches. I don't want to know,
you know what I mean?

Speaker 4 (01:04:17):
Yeah, it's that world.

Speaker 2 (01:04:18):
Yeah, when we're just sitting on it.

Speaker 4 (01:04:20):
I'm just an apologetic in this next music. I am
not trying to county be country. I'm trying to be cuntry,
do you know. Yeah? Yeah, likes Beyonce and chapel Erone
made a musical baby like perhaps that.

Speaker 5 (01:04:37):
Yeah, a big gay baby, a big beautiful twenty twenty
twenty six inch locks.

Speaker 2 (01:04:44):
It's twenty six.

Speaker 3 (01:04:45):
Or twenty four. Yeah, it's so good and you can
do whatever you want. You can do whatever the fuck
you want to do, Brooklyn.

Speaker 4 (01:04:50):
Yeah you should, girl, as you as everyone should.

Speaker 2 (01:04:55):
Everyone should when you look, take a page out of
this book.

Speaker 4 (01:04:58):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (01:04:59):
Yeah, I love you so much.

Speaker 1 (01:05:00):
Thanks for coming with me so much, Thanks for stopping by.
Everybody have you learned a little something.

Speaker 3 (01:05:05):
I hope you learned a lot.

Speaker 2 (01:05:06):
Yeah, this is good.

Speaker 5 (01:05:08):
It's always the best, amazing now to talk to, to.

Speaker 2 (01:05:11):
Be known for years. Well also that checks out. All right,
Well here you go, see you later. Bye, Let's fly dack.

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