Season 1 - Jessica's Journey - Black Widow Podcast

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(00:19):
Hey, girl, what you're doing? Where are you? I'll make your
boys, I was saying if youwanted to join us, So you wait
until you already there to think aboutme. Some friend you are? Girls
stop I text you earlier. Youdidn't respond, but I know you're extra
busy, so I figured i'd giveyou a call. How nice of you?
Who all up there, Danielle,Brianna, a few other coworkers.

(00:41):
Figures I have to pass besides younot got their early flight to catch in
the morning, and I gotta finishpacking. Oh okay, Well get it
done and go to bed. Textme me to get to the airport in
the morning or when you land.Okay, all right, bye bye.

(01:11):
I finally got done packing around ninepoint thirty. Maybe I should go ahead
and meet Stephanie at Kilroy's. Nah. By the time I watch my ass
get dressed and drive all the wayout to bra Rubble, it'll be too
late. Plus I can't stand inbitch of sheet way anyway, so I'll
just chill at the house till Ipass out. I slouched down on the

(01:33):
couch, pick up my phone andproceed to get on the ground. As
I'm scrolling, I come across thepicture of Stephanie at the bar with her
two annoying ass coworkers and it's finetall chocolate brother. His name was at
the Andre three K. I clickhis name and luckily his page was open.

(01:53):
I scrolled through a few picks andnot bad. I could always use
some more ice candy on the ground, so I followed him. Not two
seconds after that follow button turn blue, I had a new follower myself.
Well, hello, mister Andre threeK. He liked my most recent picture,

(02:14):
so I went in liked is hein turned like three more of my
pictures, so it was only fairthat I like three more of is next
thing? I know the good oldn m's lit up, good evening,
beautiful. How are you? I'mfine and yes, sir, I'm good.

(02:35):
Thanks for asking. Thanks for thefollow too. I can always use
some new candy on my timeline.I candy is always good. I hope
you don't mind me stalking your pagea little bit. Had to see if
you really look good or if itwas just the lighting. So do you
like what you see? I know? Good? Good? What was okay?

(02:58):
If I asked you for your number? I don't really care for DMN
like that you waste no time.Huh sure my numbers three one seven.
He wasted no time texting me.I also made sure to text Stephanie to
do a little back checking. Cannever be too careful. Who is the
Andre three K? Why you mustwant him? Just answer the question.

(03:24):
He's fairly north the office, coolguy, really chill, don't know too
many people in the city yet.That's why I invited him out with us.
Okay, inserts devil smiling emo,GI, what are you about to
do? Don't worry about that.I was just making sure he was fair
game. He's fair game. Keepme posted of of course, since everything

(03:49):
clear with Stephanie, it was timeto see what the Andre three K was
really about. We set there textingfor a good hour while was making sure
or I had everything packed. Hewas twenty nine, no kids, single
and he just moved to the cityfrom Cincinnati. Cool enough for me.

(04:11):
You seem legit. I guess youcool? You guess well. I appreciate
that, is it? Okay?If I call you on some leader bar,
yeah, that's cool. Don't keepme waiting too long. I might
fall asleep. Oh I won't.He must have been on Stephanie because he
called me like twenty minutes later.Hello, Hey, what's up? This

(04:34):
is as soon as he called me, I got a text from Stephanie.
Damn you move fast or word?How you know? I don't just go
around and give him my number outto everyone? Mister Andre three K?
What do you mean? I candig that? So what you're getting into

(04:58):
this evening? Going out of townon business tomorrow? So I'm chilling for
the rest of the night. YouWell, I don't really have any plans.
I'm slowly hoping I can see you. That nigga just uped and laughed.
I know it was because of you. WHOA Is that right? That
is right? I didn't do nothing. He did, just ask to see

(05:19):
me, though. I don't know. I have to get up pretty early
tomorrow. I should really try andget some rest. You could sleep on
a plane, huh. I guessyou do have a plane. But still
I don't know you, and it'sgetting late. Maybe we should save this
meet and greatful when I get back. He's pretty cool, jess get you
knowing welcome him into the city.Okay, I understand. Well I have

(05:47):
a good night. Oh don't soundso disappointed. Well, if I told
you I said a tear. Wouldyou change your mind? Boy? Ain't
nobody and any attention? I mightjust stop that. Maybe you should.
You might like what you see.I already liked what I see. Well,

(06:10):
I can always show you more.Okay, make sure you text me
later. Well, in that case, maybe I do have a couple of
extra minutes I can spare tonight.I'm going to send you the location of
where we can meet. Give meabout thirty minutes. I'll be there bet
Okay, girl, I'm usually notthe one to beat people online, but

(06:45):
he was fine and we shared amutual friend so this was an exception.
Exception. I had to meet meon my favorite outdoor spot. It was
out in the open, so incase he tried something stupid, someone can
hear me scream. But on theother hand, it was secluded that we
had our privacy just in case,and spot is pretty cool. I passed

(07:14):
by the every day, but I'venever actually been down here. Oh that's
right, I forgot you and Stephanieworked down here. Yeah, so how
do you know Stephanie again? Yeah? Stephanie is my best friend. That's
my rider. How do you thinkI came across your page? If it
wasn't for her, we wouldn't behere right now. I don't just randomly
meet people off the internet in themiddle of the night. Oh so,

(07:40):
what made you do it this time? Well, you intrigued me. Plus
Stephanie put in a good word,remind me to think of her mom.
We walked around until we made itto the little waterfall, where we sat
and continued to talk. He wassuper easy to talk to, He had
great conversation, and he was agentleman. Mention anything sexual the entire time.

(08:03):
I don't know what it was,but I was starting to get turned
on. Yes, he was fineas hell, but it was something else.
I couldn't quite put my finger onit. But whatever it was had
me horny. I couldn't take itanymore. I jumped in his slap kissed
him. Well damn, what wasthat for? I just felt like it

(08:30):
problem? Nah, no problem atall. You sure, I know you
can feel it? Shit, thatshould be enough indication that I'm sure.
Hmmm, yeah, I can feelhim. We'll take him out. Oh
that's what you own. I mean, if you're scared, boy, what

(08:56):
I'm just saying, if you're scaredof school, shut your so. I
climbed off of him and zipped hispants and pulled out his stick. I
looked around to make sure no onewas close to walking up on us.
Then I took the whole thing inmy mouth. I sick. I started
off slow, he was scared,letting my mouth make love to his stick,

(09:20):
taking in each inch one by one, going all the way down into
my tongue could tickle his boss,coming back up and doing it all over
again. Each time. I wentdown faster than the time before. He
placed his hands on the back ofmy head and was fucking my mouth.
Sure, I could feel this wholebody tensor. I knew he was about

(09:43):
to come, but I wasn't readyfor him to bust just yet. At
this point, my juices were onfull flow. Wow. Luckily I had
on a dress, so I pulledit up, laid him down, and
sat on his face. He definitelydid mine. He feasting on my pussy
like it was his last meal.M He was massage on my clip with

(10:07):
his tongue. Really, the shitwas crazy. He slid two fingers into
my pussy and finger fucked me whilehe sucked on my clip. Oh.
I tried my heartest not to momtoo loud, but luckily to sound like
the water park drowned me out.Oh and after he sucked the soul out
of me, I'll pull a condof out of my purse. He slid

(10:28):
it on and I sat on hisdeck. I rolled him backwards so he
could watch my ass bouncing up anddown. Even though I knew no one
was watching, I gave a performanceas if all eyes were on me.
His moms got louder, and hisgrip on my ass got tighter again.
I knew he was about to come, but this time I was gonna let

(10:50):
him finish. I started going fasterto helped him out. I aim to
please, and he wasn't too badhimself. I definitely called mine, and
he followed right behind me. Shutyeah. I climbed off of him and
we both sat there trying to catchour breath. Once we were both able

(11:18):
to get the feeling back in ourlegs, we headed back to our cars.
Thank you for convincing me to comeout, No, thank you for
coming. Oh yes I did.Well, here's my car. It was
a pleasure meeting you. Pleasure isall mine. I'm a little embarrassed to

(11:43):
ask you this, But what isyour name. It's not important. Well
what am I supposed to call you? Nothing? Wait, I'm confused.
Look, no need to pretend likethis needs to go any further than tonight.
We both had a good time.Let's leave it at that. Well.
I was kind of hoping we cankeep in touch and maybe you know,

(12:07):
if they know each other. No, you were hoping that we would
keep in touch just in case youwanted to fuck again. No, honestly,
you seem cool and I was justhoping that number I'll call you.
Oh damn, you have yourself Agood night, miss don dre three K.
I jumped in the car, droveoff, and left him standing there.

(12:28):
I glanced at him at my rearviewmirror. He had this confused look
on his face. I'm sure hewas wondering what the hell just happened.
I couldn't help but laugh. Betweenthe time I left and made it back
home, he called me twice andtext me five times. He even DM
me on Instagram. I had tonip this in the bug quickie pus to

(12:48):
get him acting clingy. I blockedhim and made sure to tell Stephanie to
pretend she had no idea who Iwas. I wish I could see the
look on his face when she tellshim that I can't believe it's three forty
five in the morning. Let meget some sleep. I do have an
early flight to catch. Excuse me, I'm sorry, girl, it's okay.

(13:37):
They don't make these planes for womenlike us. Women would ass ass
or curves. If you're not builtlike Collie Jenner before the surgery, then
this ain't for you. Tell meabout it. Hi, I'm Jessica.
Hey, I'm Kim. Nice tomeet you. Nice to meet you as

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well. Here, I guess willbe the only two black people in first
class today. Oh, I'm usedto it. I'm usually the only one.
Well, now you got a friendto chill with. I'm glad because
it can get lonely up here.I haven't flown first class before. This
is nice, welcome, and youusually never have to deal with that.

(14:28):
Not too many kids up here.Oh, thank god, ladies and gentlemen.
My name is Ashley. I'm yourchief fight attendant this morning on behalf
of Captain Famous and the entire crew. Welcome aboard NSD Airlines Flight eleven forty
three, non stop service from O'Harato Sky Harbor. Our flight time will
be approximately three hours and fifty fiveminutes. At this time, please make
sure your seatbacks and trade tables arein the upright position, and that your

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seat belts are fashioned correctly. Also, your portable electronic devices must be set
to airplane mode until an announcement ismade upon arrival. Thank you. I
had no idea this flight was fourhours long, sesh. It goes by
quicker than you think. Do youtravel to Phoenix a lot more than I'd
like to? Business or pleasure?Honey? My business is pleasure. Oh,

(15:16):
I know that's right. Flight attendantsplease prepare the cabin for take off.

(15:48):
Ladies and gentlemen, the captain hasturned off the fastened seatbelt side.
You may now move around the cabin. However, we do recommend that you
keep your seatbelt fastened while seated.Finally, what are you about to watch?
Oh? I love Insecure? Ijust watched the last episode last night.

(16:08):
Me too. It was so damngood, though, I gotta watch
it again. Okay, So areyou team Lawrence or teen Lisa? What
you mean team Lawrence? All day? What? Girl? I can't believe
you? Right now, us womenneed to stick together, So I guess

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you're team Lisa. Hell yeah,I'm teen Lisa. She just had a
moment of weakness, that's all.So you condone cheating? Huh No,
it ain't cheating when he's that damnfine shit. Wait, so it's only
cheating when the one you're cheating withis ugly? Basically, you know that

(16:51):
ain't right. Plus, she's stuckaround and waited for him to get his
shit together. I think she deservesa pasty. How does that work?
All I'm saying is that if sheheld down the fort for that long and
supported him, then she should geta pass. You don't really believe that,
do you? No? But didyou see how he was fucking Tasha,

(17:18):
the girl from the bank. Hewas giving it to her ass,
Loki, I was jealous, wasn'the? Shit? I can only get
dick like that from niggas. Iknow. I shouldn't be fucking with Story
of my life, girl, storyof all our lives. That's exactly why
my ass ain't been having sex likethat lately. I ain't got time.

(17:38):
Look, I don't have time either, but I keep finding myself in these
what the fuck situations? Oh thissounds juicy? Do tell I? Need
a few drinks if we sharing stories, say less, I got you?
Ah well, alrighty man? Yes, can we get two drink menus?

(18:00):
Certainly I've never had liquor on anairplane before. Poor baby, you're missing
out here, you go, ladies, a list of the food and burghs
just being served on this flight.Thank you? Oh damn, I ain't
know they had a full on minibar up here. Yeah. I have
definitely been missing out and here Ithought I was bad and bougie, but

(18:22):
I'm really just broken and experienced.You are silly. You should experience new
things. You only live once,right, yeah right, damn. There's
not many options on here. It'slike they purposely left off all the drinks.
Black people may like that, orblack people need to expand their liquor

(18:48):
palette. It's more to life thanHennessy, Crown Apple and moscato no shade.
So is that a note to thehen and Coke asking for a friend?
Girl? Okay, well, whatare you getting? Probably some red
wine? I'll get the same.Then I don't need to be too turned
around these white folk. Good idea. What are you having? I'll have

(19:15):
some of your pino noir please,And for you, ma'am I have the
same, okay, and ma'am,yes, I have these drink vouchers.
Can I use them for our drinks? Yes you may, ah, thank
you, no problem. Now backto these stories. How many more drink
vouchers you got? Because the moredrinks I have, the crazier the stories

(19:38):
get. Oh I got enough?Give me everything. Well, this year
has probably been the most bizarre forme, both dating and career wise.
What do you mean? Here yougo? Ladies? Thank thank you,
right on time. So it allstarted with this trifling ass nigga name Josh.

(20:07):
Who is it? Bit? Opena door? Why you ain't have
the door open? I told youI was pulling up whoa, whoa,
whoa. Relax, you send methat message while I was getting out the
shower. My bad for washing myass and putting on clothes. Oh,
my bad. Exactly. You needa dick appointment like yesterday. These little

(20:30):
hissy fits of getting out of hand, they have not been that bad.
No, okay, let you tellit anyway. Where's the remote? I
want to catch the end of lovinghip hop girl. I can't believe you
watched that fake ass bullshit. Allthey do is sleep around, go out
to eat, talk about making music, and they're drinking on one another.

(20:52):
I know, but my life isso boring right now. I need the
drama, So let me live mylife. It's entertaining your life. Wouldn't
be so worrying any to stop curvingniggas, go on a date and get
some dick. Oh God, herewe go. Who are you the pussy
pulice, always worried about what's goingon over here. I'm not the pussy
pullice. I'm just saying one datewon't hurt you. I mean, it's

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not like you're gonna fall in love. Damn. Actually, bitch, you're
wrong. The last date I wenton I did fall in love. Yeah,
but nothing, now that I thinkof it. You're the one who
pushed me to go on that date. Look, nobody told you to fall
in love with the dumb ass Dominic's. That's not my fault. This is
what you do. Get the food, the conversation, maybe some bomass sex

(21:40):
and be out. You went inwith your guard down, and he ran
good game on that ass. Actuallyran some good penists on that ass.
Had you Dickma's eyes? I know, right, but the G and me
won't allow me to admit that Ifell for some good pin. It's okay,
it happens to the best of us. I mean love to whoa who

(22:02):
are you calling? Oh bitch,don't act like you don't have a bask
You ain't Drea your homemeeter. Don'treset just because you fall in love.
I'm the whole Okay, but didn'tyou just sleep with a merry man.
That wasn't me, That was myoff three ego. That bitch is hot.
I'm a Christian, a good hostomeChristian woman. This ain't even about

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me though. Yeah, okay,mm hmm. But who you texting?
You've been glued to your phone sinceyou got here. You're a nobody.
Well what is this nobody talking about? Damn puts the end phone police,
huh girl? Qris Stalin, ifyou must know this guy named Josh,

(22:45):
he's been trying to get at mefor a while, but I don't pay
him any attention. Cute. Letme see his Instagram, really, let
me see it. Hold up,this is page. Don't pay then.
He ain't bad looking, not atall. So what is he talking about?

(23:07):
What is every nigga talking about?When you're gonna make time for me?
When we gonna hang out. Youknow the same old shit girl.
How long you've been dodging him?Probably four or five months? Damn he
wants you, girl. I know. I thought he would have ran off
by now, but nope. Sowhat's stopping you from hanging out with him?
I don't know. Are you attractedto him? He has my number,

(23:30):
doesn't he? You've given ugly niggasyour number before, so stop it.
Remember they do, Greg, I'vechanged my ways. That was the
old me shit, the way y'alltext him back and forth. He must
be trying to see you today.When is he not trying to see me?
I think he should go and seewhat he about. Break out of
that damn shell shit. What youjust asked me to come over to?

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Where is else? Have you everkicked it before? No? Well,
not alone. We run into eachother a few kickbacks he school. Why
do niggas always want to invite youto their house before y'all go on to
day? Nigga, feed me beforeyou try to fuck me. You could
be a killer or something. Atleast let me have my last meal exactly.

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Invest in the pussy, yes,nigga hashtag invest in the pussy but
in his defense, he's invited meout a bunch of times. But I've
been playing his ass. Yeah,but still invest in the pussy. I
don't care how long you've been coveringhim. There are still steps they need
to happen before inviting you to hishouse. With all that said, should

(24:38):
I go over there or no?I'm conflicted? Why because the horney says
yes, the Christian side says no, Well, then that's a yes because
your Christian side is small as fuck. Basically, but make him feed you
first, engage in a little conversation. Make sure he's fucku with able?

(25:00):
Okay, okay, and if youwhack, you can leave. You don't
have to give him none. You'reright, I don't have to give him
nothing. Damn right. We bothknow you will, but you don't have
to bitch. Why are you shavingmy wholeism today? My bad use your
face timing? Why? Girl?I look a mess? Girl? You

(25:25):
always look like this? Chill yougot one more time? I'm glad.
I'm glad, But call him andsay what be blunt as hell, ask
him what he wants. Put himon the spot. Okay, hold up,
goody gets a banker. Shut up, don't say nothing, bean,
time connected. Damn. If Iknew invite you to my house would get

(25:51):
you to call me, I wouldhave invited your ass over a lot sooner,
boy, stop being extra? What'sup? Shit? Playing two k
kicking it? What's up? What'syou watching TV? Trying to see what
you're about before I show up toyour house? Oh? Oh shit?
You coming? Honestly thought she wasgonna curve me again? I love he
was trolling. Oh so you're beingpetty today? You petty wat today?

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Okay, seventeen thirty eight. Youknow you've been curving me. It's cool.
I just wanted to see what wouldhappen. I didn't think you actually
considered coming. So you don't wantme to come over? Hell yeah,
I do before come through? Sobe honest. Is this your way of
trying to finess me out of mypanties? I'm celibate, so nah,

(26:38):
boy, stop playing? You ain'tno damn celibate. Now see why wouldn't
women say that shit? Men mustappli and respect it. But when a
man say it, it's a jokebecause niggas lie. True. I ain't
lying, though, That's what's up? So were you really gonna come.
You're gonna feed me? Didn youjust eat? Are you just? Yes?

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Damn you greedy girl? I gotyou though, I whipped some up.
You can't cook? How you figurethat? So your celibate and you
can cook? Get you somebody thatcan do both? What I guess I
can come through so you can fakecook your way into this pussy. Don't
nobody, won't you? Girl?I take your mind? Just okay.

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I'll let you know when I'm onmy way. Bet what's so funny?
I bet you can't get a celibateass to fuck what you heard me?
I bet you can't get them tofuck you plan right? Not at all?
Hey, I'm game. What's thebet? The next by day loser?
Pass? Oh, I'm game thisway. You have a real reason

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to go over there. Make itfun? Okay, what are the rules?
You've got three hours to get thedick? What? Girl? There's
plenty of time to have at eatingout the palm on my hand head doesn't
count. Okay, you gotta getto dick. Okay, the whole thing
too, bitch, None of thatjust the tip shit okay, but shouldn't

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be a problem now if you ain'tfeeling him text me and I'll call and
get you out of the situation.Share your location with me, since you've
never been over there, just incase, good, thank you. This
nigga might be crazy. Let medo that now exactly. I need to
go take a shower. Girl.For what? You don't take a mic,
get some dick shower? The fuckfor what? Niggas don't wash their

(28:34):
nuts before they beg us for somehead, Go ahead and eat this semi
fresh box. You are a fuckingsavage. I was trying to be like
you when I grow up. Imean, if you want to take a
shower, you can. I thinkyou still got some clothes over here.
Okay, cool? Thanks. Iput his address on my phone and headed

(29:14):
to his house. He only stayedabout ten minutes away from Stephanie, which
made my decision to go a littleeasier, just in case she got crazy.
She knew where I was. Itcan be there quick. I got
there and he was fried Chicken andlistening to Drakes. My panties almost got
wet. Why because I loved bothDrake and fried Chicken. His house was

(29:36):
clean with nice decore. He hada candle and instant burning on the table.
Hell, if anything I would givehim some just the putting forth effort.
He finished cooking and we ate,but not before he showed off the
meal on his snapchat. Niggas lovedthe flex. After we ate, he
played the gentleman role and cleared thetable. So far, so good,

(29:56):
but I was still trying to figureout exactly how I was gonna get him.
He hadn't made a move on me, and I was getting worried.
I had two hours left. Sohow was the food? It was good.

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You get points for being able tofry get chicken. Well, thank
you. I learned from my mothershe taught you. Well. Yeah,
she told me so I could feedmy younger siblings while she was at work.
That's sweet and mature of you.How many siblings do you have too,
a younger sister and a brother.You I'm the only child. My
mom wanted a darner and she gotme on the first try. So that

(30:45):
was that. Oh, that's what'sup? Thank you again for coming through.
You look good tonight. Thank you, Josh, And no problem.
I'm still really just shocked you evencame. I wasn't sure if I should
keep texting your ass or not?What? Why? Why? Really?
Because you've been carving a nigga forlike four months? Has it been that

(31:08):
long? I got the text toprove it. You want to see it?
Nah? I'm good? Yeah,I thought so? Oh you mad?
Your feeling's hurt? Nah, you'rehere now. I just got to
make the most of it. Andhow you plan on doing that? Well?
Part one was the chicken demolished,Shut up food. Part two I

(31:30):
was thinking, maybe a movie?Is that code for sex? No?
Woman, Damn, I just wantedto watch a movie and chill with you.
Is that okay? Sure, wecan watch a movie on the couch.
I'm not going to your room.Girl. I just told you I
don't want you. That did it. I got tired of him lying about

(31:53):
not wanting me. I mean,what nigga would chase a woman for five
months and not want anything, noteven some head. There is no way
he didn't want something. Now Iwas on a mission. I said fuck
it and got to it. Girl, I just told you I don't want

(32:15):
you. Oh okay, I havea question. What's up if I sit
here and watch this movie in mybron panties? Would that bother you?
What you keep saying you don't wantme? In your celibate. So I'm
asking you. If I was tosit and watch this movie in my bron

(32:35):
panties, what would you do?I would let you watch the movie in
peace. Whole word. Uh yeah, yeah, girl? What are you
doing? I started taking my clothesoff right in the middle of his living

(32:57):
room. I look on. Hisface was priceless. It's IDEs didn't look
away either. He was sizing meup. He probably didn't know I looked
this good out of my clothes.I mean, how would he listen?
Up? Ladies, when you doshit like this, men don't know how
to process it, especially if you'venever talked sexually. They are never prepared

(33:19):
to handle on woman when she isthis forward, this spontaneous, this blunt.
Men are only strong when they cancontrol the situation. But is that
really strength? What? I watchmovies like this at home. It's more
comfortable. Yo. You are wildly, but it's your world. Though.

(33:45):
You want a blanket? Sure,he got me a blanket, put on
a movie that I never heard of, and we cut it up on the
couch. I didn't care about themovie. My goal was to get them
to fuck. I had to bethe aggressive, but I didn't mind it.
I laid on his chest and startedrubbing his dick to see how he

(34:06):
will react. He jumped out firstand got settled so I could keep going.
I mean, nothing wrong with givinghim a digmossage for the chicken.
Right? You are crazy? Youknow that, right? I've heard that
before. Do you want me tostop? Huh? Did I say that?

(34:31):
No? You didn't. What wouldhappen if I was to kiss it?
I'm not sure. I guess we'regonna have to see. I bet
my phone was ringing in the kitchen, but I didn't feel like getting enough
to get it. I was aboutto break this nigga and wasn't going to

(34:52):
stop until I did. I figuredif I gave him just a little head,
he would't want to return the favor. I didn't care how I looked.
I mean, could he really tellpeople this story without them thinking he
was lying? I pulled his stickout and I observed it not too bainy,
not too big, but definitely notlit him. I spit on it

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and took the whole thing in mymouth slowly. I did it again and
again and again. Then I stopped. I was definitely teasing him. I
didn't want him to come, butI definitely wanted him to get close though.

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Oh shit, damn girl, youlike that? Hell yeah? She
feel good as fuck? So yousaid don't want me? I think I'm
gonna have to retract what I saidearlier? Is that right? Yeah?

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I thought so yo, fuck thatI want to taste it? Is that?
Okay? Go for it? Justwhat I expected? Works every time.
I thought I would have to givea little more effort, but he
gave in so easily. He wantedto taste it. Who was I to
deprive them? My phone was ringingagain, but I was limited on time.

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I couldn't stop to answer it.I was almost there, but no,
the phone called his attention. Youwant to get that? That motherfucker
been ringing, I guess. Igot up to check my phone and had
three miss calls from Stephanie. Shewas probably calling to throw me off by
playing pussy police. But I hadno time to be distracted. I had

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less than thirty minutes. I gotback to the couch and opened my legs.
Now where were we? Oh?Yeah, ain't this pussy? I
like that? Bossy shit? Shutup boy? He started eating my pussy.

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It was horrible. I grabbed theback of his head and stuffed his
face into my pussy. It's punishmentfor the lack of skill. He didn't
seem to mind it. He probablythought he was killing it and that I
was loving it wrong. Now seewhy curved his asked for so long.
The longer he did it, theworse my attitude got, and the more
it turned off. I was gettinga nigga with trash had was no friend

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of mine at this point. Icouldn't take it anymore. I'm not sure
what he was doing down there,but I was over it. I wanted
him to fuck me before I gotturned off by his inability to stay on
my clip. I couldn't lose hisback. Don't you want to fuck me?
Hell? Yeah, you want me? Yes, give it to me.

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Go get a condom. He gotup and got a condom out of
his closet. Who has condoms ina shoe box on the top shelf of
their closet? A nigga trying tohide them, that's who? Oh well,
I didn't care. I wanted himto fuck me before my time ran
out. Right as he was walkingback to the couch, my phone rang
and someone knocked on the door.We try to ignore it, but I

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thought I heard my name. Ohfuck, that's my best friend. Let
her in, but we were aboutto wait. I don't care let her
in. She has to be herefor a reason. Fuck, you're right.
Let me find my damn sures?And how does she even know where

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I stay? Don't worry about that. Open the door. Damn. These
women are crazy. How the fuckshe even know? I excuse me,
nigga, Jessica, get your shitand let's go. Hurry up. What's
wrong? I was explain in thecar. Let's go, girl, It
better be pretty fucking urgent for youto be busting in here like this?

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Yo, What the fuck you thinkI would waste my time if it wasn't?
Get dressed faster. Damn, I'mtrying, but I thought we were.
Nigga, shut up with your flexingass. FLEXI bitch? Who the
fuck is you? Bitch? Nigga? I will haze your ass. Shut
up, man, Somebody tell mewhat the fuck is going on? Shit?
Fuck that he don't need an explanation. Let's go. There's some bullshit.

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You need to get the fuck outof my house. My Josh,
I'll hit you up later. No, she won't, fucking girl, let's
go. That's what I was tryingto do before you busted up in the
fuck, stupid ass. We gotin the car and she sped off like
a bat out of hell. Aswe left this apartment complex, there was
another car speeding right past us.I was still confused as to what was

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going on. I had to askgirl, what the fuck was that about?
That nigga was lying Girl, heis a celibate. He is.
It's a whole girlfriend with's a babyon the way. Wait, what how
do you know all of this?Because she on Snapchat talking shit? Who
is Evany? You know Evany,the crazy bitch we went to school with.

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Hold up, that's his baby.How did I miss that? I
don't know how you miss it?But look at her snap story. She
pulled up her snap story and handedme the phone. This pregnant bitch was
going eight shit. She got windof Josh cooking for somebody because this dumb
ass posted it to Snapchat trying toflex. Why the fuck would he put
it on snap knowing he had acrazy baby, mama, dumb ass?

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Y'all. This nigga really got mefucked up, Like for real, I
can't take his shit. No,more. I am sick of Josh Neil.
This nigga got me pregnant, butgot a bitch of his house cooking
like he's some kind of chef.He knows I'm crazy as fuck. Now
I gotta go over there and beathis ass and hers, whoever she is.
This is when I called you thefirst two times, but you didn't
answer. You know what, I'mnot about to go over there and fuck
his shit up. I'm trying tobe a better person. My hormones are

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getting the best of you. Butbucket, I'm about to go over there
and fuck your shit up. Whythe fuck would you get me pregnant?
But tell hoes you sell a bate. You're really out here flexing. Now
you got me looking stupid as fuckedweak dick nigga. I'm gonna fuck his
whole shit up. Ladies, don'twaste your time. He can't fuck,
he can't eat pussy, and hisparents pay his bills. Boom, I'm
gonna snap the whole shit, Sodon't worry y'all. Y'all have front row

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seats to this. I can't watchno more. What the fuck this messy
ass nigga? He could have toldme he had a girl. You know,
some niggas can never be straight up. I'm glad you shared your location
with me. Shit me too,Thank you, girl, No problem.
That's the last time I let yourass talk me into some shit though,
Why bitch, this was your idea? Look, I didn't know that shit

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would happen. You have to knowthat you never do, and that's fine,
But this was the last straw.Ain't mom Fosger were being lazy with
your snooping. So did y'all fuck? Or no? Girl? No?
He gave me some whack ass headand right before we were about to fuck
you knocked on the door. Heonly at your pussy and nothing else.

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Yeah, you know what this means, right, You've got to be kidding
me. You lost a bed.Really, bitch, what if you would
have fucked him before I got there? You would have wonted a spy day?
Am I right? Or am Iright? You get on my fucking
nerves exactly, spy day on you. I'm free this weekend, preferably Sunday.

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I can't stand you. I know. Just like I said, men
are fucking annoying. Oh wow,that's fucking crazy. Celibate, but got
a baby on the way pal sway, girl, tell me about it.
All of that and I still ain'tgetting no dick. Men are fucking annoying,

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girl. Yes, let me getyou another dream. That was too
much, you know, But Ithink it's time for us women to embrace
our inner slut. Oh what doyou mean by that? Women need to
stop wasting time wishing men were different. We just need to learn how to
play by their rules, but wecan't. We would be considered hose.

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So here you go, ladies,thank you. What do you mean so
you don't care about being called awhole? Why should I? What am
I supposed to do? Waiting untila man asks right before I get to
explore my sexuality, all in thename of not being called a whole?
Nah, I'm good because that maynever happen. The savagery. I'm just

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free. It's a wonderful feeling.My mother always told me to never be
ashamed of who I am or whatI want. She sounds like a wise
woman. She is. I mean, it's not the fifties and sixties anymore.
We don't need to follow the samerules our grandparents and then follow.
We don't need men anymore to takecare of us. We got our own

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sheit, and even then they weregetting cheated on. My green daddy had
a whole family on the side.See a whole other family. Here's probably
just a few blocks over with abitch named Geraldine. Oh not Geraldine.
You know they have them old assnames back in the day. Okay,

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so let me ask you this.Then. Shoot, you say you're embracing
your inner slut. But what's thecutoff point? What you mean? Like,
for instance, would you sleep witha married man? You really are
a savage. You're not worried aboutkarma. Karma. I look at it

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like this. Women who never sleepwith married men or guys with girlfriends still
get cheated on. There is noway to protect yourself from that. So
if he's going dig my way andI want it, why should I deny
it? You don't feel bad?No, not really. I mean only
when the sex is trash do Ifeel bad, more so mad than I

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wasted my damn time. But ifit's good, I don't feel shit like
all right. So this one timeI went to the bar after I got
promoted at work, after my exand I broke up, I was down
for about a month. Of course, everyone wanted to know what happened,

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but I had to lie. It'sembarrassing being cheated on, and plus I
was tired of reliving it over andover again. I was ready to move
on. However, Facebook and Instagramhad other plans. It seemed like every
time I got online, I wasconstantly reminded of him and what used to
be us. I had to takea break from it all. I allowed

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myself one month to be down anddepressed about it, and after that I
dove headfirst into work. I neededto indulge in something positive to take my
mind off of everything. After awhile, it became routine and it paid
off. Hey, Jessica, canI see you in my office for a

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minute. Uh sure, thank misterNeil. I'll be right there. Have
a seat. How you doing.I'm fine, busy but fine. So
what's up? Is everything? Okay? Yeah, everything is perfect. Actually,

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that's why I called you into myoffice. Oh okay, So what's
up? Well? For the pasttwo years, you've been really busting your
ass around here. I know theselast few weeks have been tough, but
you pushed through and for that,I say thank you. You're welcome.
Just doing my pardon helping the team. Thank you for noticing. Also,

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thank you for your dedication because Iknow you've made sacrifices. Yeah, you
can say that your social life hasto be taken a back seat to all
that's hard work you've put in.That is accurate, sir, But it's
okay, it's for good reason.I have a question, though, and
I need an honest answer. Okay, what's up? Do you love your

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job? Yeah? I love myjob. Why do you ask? Damn?
What do you love it so much? You're not willing to give it
up? What do you mean?Well, I figure if you love it
that much, then maybe you aresatisfied where you are. Don't catamor up.
No, I hate it. Ijust thought about it. I hate
it. Oh you have a changeof heart now, absolutely I hate it.

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See that's part of the reason welove you around here. You have
a great personality. Mister O'Neill.Are you buttering me up? Anyways?
Back to what I was saying.You know the director of Operations position is
open, right, Yeah, Well, why do you apply for it?
I've honestly been too caught up inmy projects and deadlines. I haven't had
the time to even think about anotherposition. This was kind of true.

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Yeah, I was focused, butmy motivation came from trying to keep my
mind off my ax. I didn'teven think to apply for that position.
What if I told you that theboard has chosen someone to fill it.
Really, that's great? Who youreally don't play with me? Are you
serious? Yes? I wouldn't playwith you like that. We had a

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meeting yesterday and decided if you wantedthe position, it's yours. Of course
I wanted. Why wouldn't I?Wow, we recognize your ambition and want
you to note that it is appreciatedand hasn't gone on notice, and we
definitely want to help you get tothe next level. This promotion was bittersweet.

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I mean, I worked my assoff, so I did deserve it,
but that comment about my personal lifehit home hard. I didn't mean
to cut everyone off person I justdidn't make time for anyone. My family
only saw me on holidays and myfriends only saw me via social media,
and because of my hiatus, thathasn't been much. I put everything into

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my work. I had no ideawhat payoff like this. This was a
surprise. Well say something, Sorry, I just don't know what to say
you can stop by saying yes,Oh, of course, yes I want
the position. Thank you so much, mister o Neil. You can call

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me Steve Jessica. Oh my,I feel like I'm being inducted into some
sort of secret society. Thank you, Steve. No problem, and you
know what, take the rest ofthe day off and go celebrate. If
we need you, we will shootyou an email. But other than that,
enjoy your time off. But cleanout your desk before you leave.

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Your office will be ready by monday. Ooh, thank you so much.
Problem now, don't let me down. I won't. That night, I
felt the need to get a fewdrinks. I had just got promoted.
A small turnup was needed. Thebar down the street always seemed to be

(50:14):
packed on Friday, so I said, what the hell. I threw on
one of my summer dresses, somenice shoes, pin my hair up,
and walk down and have a drink. I got there and it was a
nice crowd. People were being socialwith one another, laughing, having a
good time. Just what I needed. It was at two pack because it
was still early, so I hadno problem finding the seat at the bar.

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Hey, what can I get foryou? Hey? Can I get
a crown and coke please? Okay, one crown and coke coming up?
Are we celebrating anything tonight? Along yet satisfying last week. So if
you had just a little more alcohol, I'll add just a little more tip.
Oh say no more? Here yougo, Thank you, thank you

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God. Damn, this is strong. I guess you want that tip?
You know it. Don't be tryingto get me drunk so I can give
you out my money. You ain'tslick? You need me to remake it
because I can't. Nah, I'mgood, thank you? Oh shit.
Right as I was starting to relax, my ex walks in and spots me

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almost instantly. I haven't seen thisnigga since he cheated on me and we
broke up. That was two yearsago. It was at that moment that
I realized I was truly over him. I felt nothing, no anger,
no resentment, nothing, Jeff,almost like nothing had ever happened. So

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I gave a slight smile and alittle way and he walked over. Damn,
what I jess? Long time?No? See? How you being?
Hello, Dominic? I've been justfine? How are you? I'm
better now? Shit? Damn,you look really good? How am I

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supposed to look you seem really shocked. No, no, no, not
at all. I'm just saying youlook really good. Well, thank you,
Dominic. I'm on a fuck niggafree diet. He does really well
with my skin in natural glove,don't you think? Okay, I deserve
that. I got a question,though, what's up? When did you

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get a sense of humor? Well? After you fuck a clown for so
long, some of the humor isbound to rub off on you. You
know, Damn girl, you're gonnakill me all night? Or can I
sit down and have a drink withyou? You can sit down if you
want. I'm cool on a drink. Stuff. He sat next to me
and I noticed he had a ringon his finger. I almost choked.
I never thought this nigga would everget married. I honestly thought he wanted

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to be a player his whole life. This was a shock. So when
did that happen? When do whathappened? Nigga? Don't play done with
me? When did you get married? Oh? Shit? That almost a
year ago? Wow? Wow?What? Nothing? Just nothing? Congrats?

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Thanks? I think are you beingfunny or I wasn't trying to be
funny? I was being genuine congratulations, Dominic. Look, I'm sorry.
I never thought that I would betalking to you, of all people,
about me being married. It's cool, don trust it's not easy for me
either. We don't have to talkabout your little situation if you don't want

(53:38):
to from my little situation. Huh, you were fucking petty. I'm just
saying, crazy ass, Jessica.We started catching up and I lost track
of time. It was almost oneam and we had been just sitting and
talking shit like we used to.He asked me if I was seeing anyone,
and my response was, it's noneof your business. I mean,

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I'm as single as the day islong. But he didn't need to know
that. He seemed a little jealous, and that made me feel good in
a weird way. It turned meon. I mean, this is a
guy who at one point gave mesome of the most intense orgasms I ever
felt. No matter what he didto me, nothing can take that away.

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The truth is I never stopped lovinghim, but I hated him for
cheating on me. Does he knowhow many niggas I died trying to be
a good girl, only for himto be a hoe When we were together.
I kept my urges to myself.I was afraid I was scaring him
off. Niggas love a freak,but now when she's freakier than him.

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If only I had shown him mytrue self, we could have been fucking
these women together. But who amI kidding? He probably still would have
cheated. Men are fucking annoying.By my third drink, I realized I
was a full flirt mode. Fuckit, why not? I didn't miss
him, but I did miss thedick. I was horny and I wanted
to see if I could get itone last time. At that point,

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I didn't really care that he wasmarried, and apparently neither did he.
Niggas ain't shit, but neither amI. I reached for his dick and
he didn't stop me. Once Irealized that it was all systems go,
So what's up? Shit? What'sup? Look you trying to fuck?

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Or what? Girl? Stopped playingwith me? Who's playing? I lifted
my dress slightly, took his handand placed it on my pussy. Him
playing with my kid. He hadmy juices flowing all over his hand.
I made him look all of mysweetness off his fingers, and then I
kissed him. I didn't care whosaw us, but I couldn't help myself.

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I always did love the taste ofme on his lips. Oh you
were serious, ass? Fuck youtrying to fuck? Or? No?
Bartender? Yo, bartender? What'sup? You want another shot? Nah?
I think we're done? Boss?Can I close my tab and take
her bill? Sure? Thank M? I take that as a yes.

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Nigga? What you think that's thehell? Yes, I wanted you when
I saw you. I know howyou get when you drink. So I
was just letting that sauce kick in. Nigga. Were you plotting on me?
You ain't shit? Here you go, bro, Thank you all for
coming out. Thank you, sir. Here you go, man, keep
change. Thanks? Thanks you ready? Yeah? But where we going?

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I live close? We can goback to my place. Bet answer your
phone before you get in trouble,sir. I ain't trying to mess up
your little situation. My situation.You got jokes tonight, I see.
Don't try and act up. Ifwe can't do this, I understand we

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can call it a night. Nah. I've been thinking about this and you
too much to not go through withit. Oh, so you've been thinking
about me Loki. Yeah, hmm, interesting, what nothing? My building
is right up here? Oh shit, you live close. I go to

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that bar all the time. Whendid you move over here? Huh uh?
You asking too much? Hill,I don't need you stalking me.
Stop it. He grabbed my assssthe elevator doors closed. He rubbed me
just like it used to slow,full of passion and with aggression. He
started kissing and biting on my neckwhile choking me. But as much as

(57:42):
I enjoyed it, I wanted tobe in control, so I stopped him.
I pulled the emergency stop button andcaught him off guard. But I
ain't give a damn wait what you'redoing. Get on your knees. You
were crazy, you know that right? Just do what I say? I
am now what you know what todo? Stop asking questions? Damn?

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When did you get disaggressive? Youtalking too much? You must not.
He lifted my leg up and wentto town. Almost started to scream because
it felt so good. It hadbeen entirely too long. He was a
pro ath this, and I wantedto enjoy every bit of it. I
eventually came and I could tell thathe knew because he started grinting. He

(58:30):
then stood up and took his dickout. It's been so long since I
had seen it, I forgot howblessed this man was. He pulled out
a condom, turned me around,and slid inside of me. It was
fast and intense, but fucking amazing. He knew my body, he knew

(58:52):
exactly what I wanted and how Iwanted it. He went straight to my
spot. He went fast and slow. In a couple of minutes later he
was done. I came in.He followed right behind me. Once we
were situated, I released the emergencystopped button and the elevator proceeded to my
floor. We looked at each otherand just laughed. I'm sure he was

(59:15):
laughing because of how crazy this eveningplayed out. But what I thought was
funny was how I felt absolutely nothing. I didn't regret it, and I
didn't feel bad for his wife.It was just a nut. The elevator
made it to my floor, Igot off, and he began to follow
behind me. But when he triedto get off, I pushed his ass
back on the elevator. WHOA,what's going on? What are you doing?

(59:38):
We found our fund sir? Whatgoodnight? Nah? Nah? Nah?
That was more like an advertizer.I got so much more for you
while you're playing Nah, I'm cold. God, go home to your wife.
Don damn, it's like that boy, Go home before you get on
punishment. She done called you aboutfifty eleven psalms. Oh that's how you
plan it, you cold blooded man, cold blooded. You'll be fine.

(01:00:04):
Damn. Good night, Good night, Jess. You did not send him
home like that? Why didn't I? How many times have you left a
dick appointment unsatisfied? Good point?I'm tired of niggas leaving me high and

(01:00:30):
dry, literally right. Why arewe so worried about men when they aren't
even worried if we come or not? Again, you're right, yep,
damn I need another drink? Metoo? Yes? Two more, please,
no problem. She don't think wehave a drinking problem. When it's

(01:00:51):
wine, it's not considered a problem. It's called being social facts. Plus,
I've seen people and way more thanthis on the flight. We'll be
fine. I only have a fewmore vouchers left anyway. I'm okay now,
don't get me kicked off this plane. Thank you. So you don't

(01:01:15):
care about sleeping with a married man, what about one night stands. What
about them? Those are fair gametoo? Huh. Absolutely? If I
want it and the opportunity presents itself, then why not indulge? What if
you know that you shouldn't like?What if it could potentially get messy or

(01:01:38):
come back to bite you in theass. Oh, I'm no fool,
I do have self control. Okay, good, But there was this one
ancidence when a fine as specimen walkedinto my office one day. I tried
to be cool, but the powersthat be, where's my blanket? I

(01:02:01):
need to get comfortable for this one. Okay? So this guy named Justin
walks into my office to train meon some software. I was frustrated with
everything work, life, sex,life, life, life just so wrapped
up in my own shit. Sohe walks into my office and I'm caught
completely off guard. I try notto mix business with pleasure, but sometimes

(01:02:40):
pleasure walks into your office and introduceshimself. Yes, hey, I'm Justin.
I'm here to train on the newsoftware update. Oh hey, come
in, come in. I've beenexpecting you. Sorry, my office is
a mess right now, let memove this out the way for you.

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I'm Jessica. By the way,nice to meet you. We have this
guy named Justin come in for afew weeks to help us train on new
computer software. He was average height, brown skin, with a low scissor
fain and just really nice. Oh. I know who you are, and
don't be embarrassed. I've seen worse, much worse. You must be pretty

(01:03:21):
important, though, What makes yousay that this office is pretty big?
They don't just hand these out toanybody. Oh no, I'm a nobody.
Don't let this office fool you.Well, I want to be like
you when I grow up. Yougot jokes. I see his colonne smells
so damn good. My cookie almostjumped right out of my pencil skirt into
his hands. Right, So,I have my laptop and will be giving

(01:03:45):
you a rundown on the ins andout of the software. It might seem
like a lot at first, butdon't worry, it really isn't. Okay,
Well, let's get started for sure. You're the last on my list
of train and then I get togo back home. Oh, where's home?
A live pox? Okay, sothat's where you're from. Nah,
I moved there for work. I'moriginally from Rhode Island. Oh okay,

(01:04:09):
I've never met anyone from there.They are black people in Rhode Island.
Yes, they have plenty of blackpeople in Rhode Island. Why does everyone
always ask me that? What?I really had no idea? I guess
you really learned something new every day. Well, I hope I can make
a lasting impression since I'm the first. Me too. He made eye contact

(01:04:29):
when he spoke, cause if heknew what he was doing to me yet
he didn't seem faced smooth ass talkingabout a lasting impression. Boy, the
only way you can make a lastingimpression with me is with money or good
dick, and I have my ownmoney. After a few hours of born
ass lessons on software i've never heardof, I grew restless. Look,

(01:04:51):
I'm sorry. I really don't meanto be rude, but this is a
tad bit born and I'm struggling tostay away. Can we please break for
lunch? Yes? I was thinkingthe same thing. Are there any good
places to eat around here? I'mstarving? Yeah, there are a few
spots within walking distance. You likeGreek? I could go for a godro
and a beer right now, let'sgo. We passed and went to a

(01:05:15):
nice little restaurant up the street.We grabbed a table outside and looked over
the menus. So how long haveyou worked for the company? I've been
there almost four years? Now,what about you? Almost seven? It
seems shorter than that, but timeflies. How do you like it?
I actually love it. I neverthought i'd say that about a company,

(01:05:36):
but they treat me good here,really good. Actually, I can tell
by that often you really like myoffice. Huh. I'm just saying,
what about you, though? Doyou like it? I mean you have
to, if you've been here forseven years. I do, some days
more than others. Of Course,I traveled a lot, so sometimes it
gets tiresome. But for the mostpart, I love it. Have you

(01:05:58):
seen the city since you've been orhave you been cooped up in the office
and hotel room. I've seen enough, and from what I see I like.
I hope to explore a little morebefore I leave, but if I
can't, it gives you more reasonto come back. Oh good, our
food is here. Finally, I'mstarving. I had to change the subject
quick. If it wasn't for thetraffic and commotion from the lunch crowd,

(01:06:23):
you could hear water dripping from myseat. Panties wet I knew he was
talking about me just from how hesaid it. Even how he looked at
me was different. Talking about hehoped to explore a little more. He
was so smooth with it, whichwas a turn on. After we ate,

(01:06:45):
we sat and talked for a littlebit. The conversation was great.
You talk sports, music, realityTV. He was funny and charming.
I know it's sad, but thefact that he could hold a conversation about
something other than sex was dope.It was almost painful to head back to
work. Hell, I forgot wewere even working. I felt like I
had been kicking it with the oldfriend back at the office. After more

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boring training and staring at the computerfor what seemed like forever, we finished
and it was time to depart.I was almost sad that it was over
so soon. Well, it wasnice me and you, Jessica. I
had a really good time with youtoday sucks had a sorry over. Maybe
you'll need me for more training soon. Likewise, here take my car just

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in case you're in town again andwant to go out and see more of
the city. I hate that you'vebeen cooped up in your hotel for two
weeks. Oh for sure, I'llbe sure to use this. Don't they
let you all know who I am? Either, boy, take care.
I shook his hand and watched himwalk away. Damn, did that really
just happen? Did I really lethim walk right out of my fucking office?

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I watched him shake hands with myboss, say goodbye to everyone,
and get on the elevator. Icouldn't believe I let that finance man walk
away without even flirting. I knewhe was flirting with me, but I
ignored all his advances. I wasreally upset in myself for the rest of
the day, sitting in my officetyping with Forrest, soaking with wet panties.

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When five o'clock came, I leftthe office and drove all the way
home in silence. I got home, took a shower, put on an
oversized T shirt, and watched someTV. I woke up around nine pm,
not realizing I had fallen asleep dueto a phone call from an unknown
number. Hello, Hey, it'sjustin from work. Oh it's not too

(01:08:54):
roof to call, but I'm stillin town. And you said if I
wanted to hang then that's your call. I fixed my voice super quick,
trying not to let him know thatI was cheessing from ear to ear,
or that I had just woke up. Hey, what's up? I was
actually just getting ready to head outand go get a drink, and you
want to come. I'm game.I could use a drink. Can you
come and get me? I knowmy way around, and if not,

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I can just catch an uber.Oh no, don't be silly. You
don't need to get an uber.I don't mind coming to get you.
Where are you. I'm at theJW You familiar. Oh yeah, that's
on the way. I'll be therein about an hour or so. That
cool. That's good with me.Okay, back, be ready, I
see you soon. Okay, seeyou then bye. I jumped up quick

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as hell and took a shower,cause you have to take a shower when
sex is a possibility. I didmy makeup really quick, threw on the
sun dress, no panties, someheels, and put my hair in a
bun and jumped on the road.It's like the Lord knew what I wanted
because there was no traffic and allthe lights for green. I made it
to the city and record speed.Hey what's up, Hey, I'm about

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five minutes away. You can makeyour way down to the lobby. Shit,
I'm sorry, I'm not even readyyet. I had a last minute
video conference that tracked on way toolong. Oh, no problem. What
do you want me to do?Valuy your car and come up that way.
You don't have to wait on mein a car. I'll even pay
for it, that's if you wantto. Oh, okay, I can

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do that. What room number isit? Room thirteen twenty eight, thirteen
twenty eight, got it. I'llsee you in a few Okay, back
bye if I want. At thispoint, I knew the Lord loved me.
No denying it. I got tothe door and it was left ajar.

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I pushed it open and almost feinted. Have you ever gotten so turned
on that blood left your head andwent to your private area? That's what
happened to me. There were rosesand candles lit all over the room.
I mean, I didn't think Iwas that obvious this whole time. I

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thought I dropped the ball. Heran my ass. Though he was dressed
butting up open pants on, noshoes or socks. He walked over to
me with this smirk on his face, like he could see right through me.
I really tried to play tough asif I wasn't excited or turned on,
but it didn't work. Wow,what is all this? Are you

(01:11:33):
expecting someone other than me? Ordo you greet everyone like this? I
mean I saw it where you werelooking at me earlier, how you were
talking. You weren't exactly hiding yourattraction to me. I don't know what
you're talking about, justin, andso what if I think you're attractive and
flirted a little, A girl canlook, can't she? I didn't know
you would turn into Rico suave anddo all this. Look, Jess,

(01:11:56):
cut the shit. We don't atwork anymore. You don't half the front?
What shit front? Who's fronting?He stepped closer to me and looked
me up and down slowly. Heknew I was bluffing and called it all
right, let's do this. IfI touch your pussy and it isn't wet,
then I sincerely apologize for jumping thegun and posting. You can leave

(01:12:18):
and you'll never hear from me again. But if it's wet, then your
ash is mine. Deal. Whodo you think? Deal? All right?
Nigga? Deal? If this wasany other guy in any other setting,
I would have smacked his ass forcoming at me like that, like

(01:12:38):
I was some easy piece of assor something. But this was different,
and he was right. I didwant him. I wanted him when he
walked into my office that morning,so I slightly opened my legs as an
invitation for him to touch. Itried to keep my poker face, but
my pussy sucks at poker. Hetouched it, smiled in my face and

(01:13:01):
laughed as I thought. You didn'teven got no draws on. Come in,
sit down and get comfortable. Doyou not wear draws after work?
Or did you have your own hittingagenda? Both? Actually? I like
being free and I have plans.I guess I was moving too slow for
you. Any more questions, sir? Actually yes? Do you want to

(01:13:26):
skip the bullshit? Or you wantto sit here and have pointless conversation all
night straight to the point. Ilike that. Let's skip. I figured
you would. Plus, we don'thave time to waste. I want you
to enjoy every minute of this.He took my hand and took me to
the bed. He laid me downand took off my heels. He kissed
my feet, then my knees,in my thighs, He was aggressive,

(01:13:53):
yet gentle while taking this time,which turned me on even more. He
started to eat my pussy. Theboy had skills. Right when I got
into it and grabbed the back ofhis head, he stopped. He stood
up and went to a suitcase.What did I do something wrong? Nah?
Not at all. Hold up.He came back to the bed with

(01:14:15):
two ties. You teaching me howto tie tie? Girl? Do you
ever shut up? Relax? Iwant you to know that you're getting a
pass on talking to me like this, Just so we're clear. Why could
it turned you on too much?Maybe? He took my dress off and
tied my hands to the hair boardand proceeded to finish. He undressed me

(01:14:39):
and put a condom on. Itslid inside me. He put my legs
up and fucked me like he wasmad at me. He must have known
this is what I like. Hemust have known this is what I needed.
While least working his magic, Iwas losing my mind. Who was
this guy? And why did heknow me so well? It's like he
knew my body. Oh. Hestopped and untied me and flipped me over.

(01:15:03):
He put it back in me andsmacked my ass, and it just
perfect Oh, I felt like cryingtears of joy. It had been a
month since I had sex last,but longer than that since I had dick
this good. He was talking allkinds of nasty shit to me, grabbing
my hair, putting his thumb inmy ass and everything. I must have

(01:15:27):
come like five times in a matterof twenty minutes. I kept shaking.
He turned me back over and laughedat me and lay next to me,
trying to catch his breath. Ido not cuddle at all, but this
dick made me want to lay onhis chest and talk about my dreams.
But I tried to play it cool. Do you think Lloyd said she's five
too or she's fine too? Whatafter all that, that's the first thing

(01:15:51):
you say. Do you want somethingto drink? Yeah, that would be
nice. All that juicing. I'mshocked. You aren't the high. That's
what you're are right now. Whyyou bringing up old shit, Joseph.
I'm glad you find that to befunny. I'm glad. I amuse you
me too. I was faking anyway. None of that was real, My

(01:16:12):
god? Why are you so annoyingright now? I'm annoying? After good
sex? Oh? So it wasgood. It was alright, give me
some water before I leave. I'msick of you already. He brought back
over a bottled water for me andlay next to me in the bed.
Why are you looking at me likethat? You're beautiful and I have no
idea when I'm going to see youagain, low Ki, It's probably best

(01:16:35):
this way. Why you say that? I mean, what did you expect
to happen? Sex would be sogood that I will fall in your arms
and try to date you long distance? And exactly damn, I can't think
that you're beautiful. Yeah you can. Just don't ruin a good night by
getting out mushy on me. Don'tworry you killed that what I just saw?

(01:16:55):
That sappy look in your eyes.That wasn't a sappy look. I
had something in my eye. Igot allergies. Nah, nigga, it's
cool. You don't have to feedmealize after sex. I'm not about to
get my feelings. Don't worry shit, that was real. I just didn't
want you feel in any type ofway. Don't worry about my feelings their
mine. I'm a big girl.I just wanted to have fun and bust

(01:17:16):
a couple of nuts. But didI do that for you? Did you
enjoy yourself? Absolutely? Trust me. The roses and candles weren't needed,
though I was gonna give you apussy anyway. Well, shit, if
I know on that, I wouldn'thave wasted my money just because I don't
like the sappy eyes. Don't meanI didn't like the show. Respect your
coole as fuck. Definitely not whatI expected. Wait, what did you

(01:17:41):
expect? I saw you days ago? I mean you are one of the
only black women in the position ofpower at the office. You know,
hard to notice with all that asswith your demeanor all about business focus.
I definitely developed the thing the firstday I saw you. Oh I know.
I dressed sexy on purpose. Iignored you on purpose. I was

(01:18:01):
the last to train on purpose.All of this was planned before you got
here. Boy, if you thoughtthis was your doing, then you're mistaken.
Whoa, whoa, whoa Wait aminute, what sorry, look at
you all confused? This is cute. Explain this, well, we got
your profile before you got here.I scoped you the first day on some

(01:18:21):
private eye. Shouldn't then put myplan into motion, starting off with training,
and now we're here. I'm prettygood. Huh. Actually, yes,
damn, I feel like a pieceof meat right now. Oh fourteen
ting, It's okay, don't beatyourself up about it. I don't know
if I should feel a violated orturned on a little bit of both.

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You got caught up in my web. Well you think you are some kind
of black widow? Honey, youshould say that. Actually, yeah,
after you got over the shock ofbeing manipulated, we set up and toked
for a few hours before I forcedmyself to leave. Well justin I'm getting
sleepy. I don't sleep over,so I'm sorry, but I have to
cut this short. Yeah, Ihave to get up in a few hours

(01:19:02):
for my flight. But I enjoyedour time together. I know you did.
I never met a woman so arrogant. I know that too. Thank
you for a good time, No, sir, the pleasure was all mine.
I appreciate you. Let's stay intouch. Who knows, maybe that
may send you to Phoenix for moretraining, don't you wish? Actually yes,

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I got dressed and hugged and kissedhim on the cheek. I wished
him a farewell and took my walkof shame down the hallway into the elevator.
Through the lobby right to valet parking. I tipped the driver and looked
in the mirror and smiled that Ifinally got some good d and sped off
home. Once I made it home, I showered and slept like a baby.
I felt blessed. God really doesbe looking out for me. I

(01:20:15):
need another drink after that one?Shit, I know, right, two
more drinks, ladies, Yes,please, thank you. I must be
feeling those strengths. I'm sharing waytoo much info. You're probably over there
judging the fuck out of my liferight now. No, don't think that
I'm not judging you at all.I'm loving these stories. They're pretty intense

(01:20:41):
shit. If anything, I'm admiringyou. Teach me your ways. Oh
savage one, last name, savagefeel my name not Randy A twenty anyway,
twenty one not for mine anyways.So you weren't worried about word getting
back and spreading around your office?Not at all. What are they gonna

(01:21:03):
do? Pick on me, talka beoutind my back, not come to
my birthday party? I'll be fine. I guess you're right. Wow,
you really don't give a fuck,not at all. Trust the boss on
our cool he knows how I getdown? Hold up what you mean by

(01:21:25):
you know how I get down?You heard what I said? No?
For real? What do you mean? Look? What was I supposed to
do? The situation just fell inmy lap? Oh it fell in your
lap or you fell in his?For real? Though I wasn't expecting it

(01:21:45):
to play out the way it did. I'm listening. I don't know if
I should tell you this one.If you wasn't judging me before, you
will definitely read me my life afterthis, girl, tell the damn story.
Look at you getting off snug likeit's some black soap opera girl.
It is all right. Well,we had a company party that I was

(01:22:09):
in charge of planning this year.It turned out really well. It was
in the ballroom of this nice asshotel. The night started off cool as
hell than shit got frill with mynew position. One of the added responsibilities

(01:22:33):
was putting on the company's annual holidayparty. I have an office full of
young drunks who all secretly loved trapmusic in Hennessy. We just needed a
reason to get together and indulge.I have to say, for my first
time throwing an event, it turnedout better than expected. I was just
happy to see that Steve wasn't joiningit. Jessica, you're a hard girt

(01:23:09):
to track down. I wanted totell you this is a great ass party.
I'm really having a good time.Thank you, Steve. I've been
running all over the place trying tomake sure things stay in order. I'm
glad you're in joying yourself. Weshould have had you in charge a lie
sooner. I don't ever remember havingthis much fun. Look at everyone dancing
and shit hollered them fakingly. Theylike each other for the sake of the

(01:23:30):
holidays. It's a beautiful time ofthe year. Faking for sure. I
low key thought I was the onlyone who noticed. Nah, I definitely
noticed. It could be the combinationof the DJ and the Hennessy bar.
I didn't even know you could havea Hennessy bar. If you got money,
you can have any kind of baryou want. True that true?
That well? This is Oh wait, Amy, come here, baby,

(01:23:54):
I want to formally introduce you tosomeone. Hey, babe, what's up,
Amy? This is Jessica, Jessica, this is my wife. Amy.
Amy was beautiful with more sex appealthan I was used to, but
out our heels She was about fiveto seven. Her skin was dark and
perfect, really pretty, big browneyes, a gorgeous white smile, with

(01:24:16):
thick and full hair that comes downto her shoulders. You know how some
people have really magnetic personalities that drawyou in. That's her. Wow,
I finally get to meet the superstar. I've heard so many good things about
you, Jessica. It's good tofinally put a face to the praises.
Oh wow, Hello, so muchfreshure. It's nice to finally meet you

(01:24:41):
as well. Amy. No,the pleasure is all my trust. Maybe
she is pretty. You are right. We always did have great taste in
women. Really, that's how youfeel. No more dreams for you,
I'll say that. Don't take mydreams. Sorry, Jessin, It's okay.
It's not a problem at all.You know, I'm flattered. I
apologize if my blackness meets you uncomfortable. Jessica. I still think you look

(01:25:03):
great, And that was not theliquor talking. That was very sincere.
Don't mention it. Really, Ithink you're pretty as well, so I
guess the feeling is mutual. Thisleg is gonna get us in trouble.
No, it's not. We're aboutto go dance. See you around,
Jessica, Come on, woman,for you to scare that poor girl.

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Sometimes I like standing in nice hotelsto fake like I'm important, to act
fancy. So when the hotel offereda free room, I jumped at the
opportunity. In the midst of meputting on my own formation concert in the
bathroom mirror, I realized I leftmy bag with my phone charger in the
car. I threw on some clothesreally quick and ran out to the parking
lot. While in my trunk,I heard my name being called. Jessica.

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Hey, I thought that was you. What are you doing out here?
Hey? Amy, I left oneof my bags in the car.
What about you? The same?I'm shocked to see you're still here.
I was sure everyone had left bynow. They gave me a free room
for putting on the event. Itwas needed because I drank way too much
to be trying to drive home tonight. I definitely understand. Hell. I

(01:26:13):
think I'm a little drunk myself.We've been working so hard this quarter.
I needed a break. I needa few nights of relaxation and good vibes
to clear my mind. You know, girl, I feel you these past
few weeks have been rough at theoffice, and you've been doing a great
job from what I hear. Iapplied you for keeping your cool with all
the chaos. I hope my husbandhasn't been too hard on you. No,
no, Steve's been great through allof this. But thank you,

(01:26:36):
Amy, You're really sweet. No, I'm not. Don't let my compliments
fool you into thinking I'm this waywith everyone. Oh well, thank you
for the special treatment. You're welcome. Thank you for wearing that dress earlier.
You're funny. I'm not sure ifyou're hitting on me or if you're

(01:26:56):
still bussed from those strengths. Ohgod, hope, I'm not making you
uncomfortable. Oh no, you're fine. If you weren't attractive, then I'll
probably be creeped out. But sinceyou are, I'll play along. Let's
behave I agree. She waited forme to gather my things and we started
walking back to the lobby. Ididn't know how far she was willing to

(01:27:17):
take it, but I was downto see. I felt so comfortable around
her. I was down to dowhatever she wanted, but I had to
be careful. That's crazy. Theyput us on the same floor huh right,
what kind of room did they giveyou? Nothing too big? Just

(01:27:40):
to single? What about you,guys? We got the suite and it
has the perfect view of the city. Oh, y'all fancy just a little
so no boyfriend waiting for you inyour room? You looked great tonight.
I'm sure someone is waiting on you. Hell, I'd be waiting. Oh
thank you for the compliment, Butno one is waiting. I'm single.

(01:28:03):
I have been for a while now. That's how I can dedicate so much
time at the office. I guessyou could say I'm married to my job.
Oh shit, Sorry, if I'masking too many questions. If I'm
getting beside myself, let me know. I don't mean to cross any lines.
It's okay, Amy, I'm notthat uptight and sensitive. Okay,

(01:28:24):
good. Well, I guess wedefinitely owe you for all the hard work
you for them. Well, Ican think of a few ways to repay
me. I can think of afew ways myself. She knew what I
meant by that. I was throwingit at her, trying to put the
ball in her court. She gaveme this evil, yes seductive smirk.

(01:28:44):
Well, Amy, here's my room. Maybe I'll see you at the Wait
before you go and get comfortable,you should come see our room. Come
check out the view real quick.I don't know, Amy, I don't
want to intrude you. Sure,yes, I'm sure it won't take but
a second. Come on, don'tmake me bag. Okay, but I

(01:29:06):
can't stay too long. If Iget too tired, I'll jump in bed
with you. Guys. Warning,I like to cuddle. That's okay with
me. Then I can squeeze yourass in peace. I'm not seeing a
problem here, so come on.Okay. She locked rooms with me and

(01:29:29):
started pulling me towards the room.I knew what she wanted. At this
point. All the compliments and flirtingstarted to make sense as we walked back
to their room, and I wantedall parts of it. This was right
up my alley. I had toadmit Amy was smooth as hell, which
turned me on even more. Iwas anxious to see how it all played
out. I get to the roomand it's huge, with a great view

(01:29:55):
of the city. Steve was inthe shower with the door half open.
She walked me to the window andwe admired the views. I admired the
view of the city and she admiredthe view of my body. I wasn't
sweatpants and a T shirt, butthe way she was looking at me,
you would have thought I was naked. Her wanting me as much as she
did made me want her. WhateverJedi my trick she was using on me

(01:30:18):
was working. Oh my god,Amy, this is beautiful. I agree.
It is definitely a sight worth seeing. You and Steve might have a
hard time trying to get rid ofme tonight. This makes my room look
like shit. I told you thatyou would love it, aren't you glad

(01:30:38):
you listened. I can't wait tosee what it looks like as the sunrises.
Oh, I bet it's beautiful.You two are lucky as hell.
Let me show you the bathroom.It's nice. What about Steve? Steve
won't notice. Don't worry about him. Come check it out. I thought
it was a kid, that theywere baiting me into something I was already

(01:30:59):
down with. I caught a glimpseof who she had been texting, and
it was Steve. Maybe they wereplotting on me the whole time. I
don't know, but at that pointI didn't care. I followed her into
the steamy bathroom. It was muchbigger than mine. I noticed though,
right next to the shower on thetoilet seat, Steve sent my wetbone.
That was all the affirmation I needed. Nice right, oh, this is

(01:31:25):
beautiful, but I kind of Idon't know how to ask. You can
ask me anything. I wanna seethe shower. I looked at her as
I reached for the shower door.She smirked but didn't try to stop me.
Steve was sexy as hall naked.I could have guessed from how he

(01:31:46):
looks in his tailor suits. WhatI didn't anticipate was how nice this dick
would be. Shit. He didn'tcover up or seen face when he saw
me. He spoke and kept showerwell. Jaska, hello Steve. I
turned around and Amy was undressing.She looked just as good naked. Her

(01:32:06):
rest and ass were perfect. Shekissed me before climbing into the shower with
Steve, which caught me completely offguard. He started kissing on her while
she signaled for me to join.I've never had a woman pursue me this
way, this strong. I wasso turned on at that point. I
undressed slowly because I knew she waslooking. Then I climbed in and joined

(01:32:29):
them. The way they handled mewas unlike any other experience. Most men
in threesomes are so eager to touchthe other woman and pay her more attention,
but not Steve. He was morefocused on his wife, and she
was focused on me. I couldtell this wasn't their first rodeo. I

(01:32:50):
didn't just want to sit in theshower and kiss, so I got down
and grabbed Steve's stick and put itin my mouth. Amy got down as
well, but I stopped her.Nah. Yeah, I wanted to show
them. I knew what to dowith it. I wanted to have some
sort of control. But I alsohad an agenda. Make both of them
come, then, make both ofthem please me together. Mm As I'm

(01:33:12):
stucking Steve, I'm rubbing Amy's clitwhile they kissed each other. Giving a
head in the shower as hard ashell. When the water is smacking you
in the face, it always feelslike you're gonna drown. To prevent me
from looking silly, I stopped aftera few good strokes, just enough to
get them hard and let them knowI wasn't playing. Come in. Huh,
stand up? Turn around. Stevethen turned me, so my back

(01:33:35):
was getting here with the water andlifting my leg up to return the favor.
He was amazing. He was lickingwhile Amy was sucking and rubbing my
nipples. M they made me feelsomething I've never felt. The way he
sucked and teased my clip made mequiver. All of the steam and pleasure
caused a lack of oxygen to thebrain. I may or may not have

(01:33:58):
blacked down for two seconds. Hestood up and turned the water off.
When we were off to my drive, we got in the bed, Steve
grabbed me, turned me over andput my face into Amy's pussy. As
I started eating, he slid insideof me. He went slow but hard.

(01:34:20):
M He slapped my eyes and mypussy jump mm. Amy's moms alone
made me ready to bust. Shegrabbed my head and forced my face deeper
into her pussy. I couldn't helpmy have back to back orgasms between harmony
from me pleasing her and Steve fuckingme. It wasn't intense. M oom

(01:34:40):
m m mmm. Steve put outand grabbed Amy and took her over to
the large window. He picked herup, pinned her against the window,
and started to fuck her against theglass of the world to see I was
kind of jealous. I didn't knowwho I wanted more at this point,
Amy or Steve couldn't work. Ohoh. While Steve was fucking Amy,

(01:35:08):
Amy was staring at me. Hergaze was so intense it made my pussy
throb. I fingered myself why Amywas watching me watch them fucks. He
was kissing and stroking her slowly whileshe was rubbing all over his back and
neck. I admired their obvious lovefor one another. It gave me hope
that maybe one day I could findsomeone who would appreciate my sex drive and

(01:35:28):
not trying to make me feel badfor it. Steve turned her around and
started fucking her from the back.I used that time to grab my things
and sneak it back to my room. I was knocked out the moment my
head hit the pillow. The nextmorning, I woke up to breakfast from
room service with the rose and cartattached that simply read thanks XO XO passed

(01:35:54):
forward to the following Monday. Iwas a little nervous as to how things
would pan out afterword, but workseemed to be going like nothing happened today
was going so smoothly, so Icertainly wasn't expecting this. Hey Jessica,
Hey Stee, how are you?I'm great? You have a second Sure?

(01:36:15):
What's up? Just received an emailfrom corporate about this year's company winkup.
Looks like you might be taking atrip in a couple of weeks.
Oh sweet, I'm up for it. Do you know the city yet?
It's looking like you'll be headed toPhoenix, Arizona. You ever been?
Oh no, can't say that Ihave. Well, just let me know
the details when you find out.Should be an interesting trip to say the

(01:36:36):
least. Okay, cool, I'llshoot that over to you by the end
of the week. Thanks. Whenhe left my office, I said they're
stuck for a good thirty seconds beforepicking up my phone. Hey what sub
lady with sub lover boy? Lookslike I'll be in your city in a

(01:36:56):
few weeks. Oh, I know, I'm the one who requested you her
work. Yeah, I want that. And this was the easiest way to
see you, you slick bastard.Kudos. How do you like being caught
up in someone else's webport change?I'll see what you did there, cute.
I gotta go, though, Ijust wanted to call and give your
heads up, but it looks likeyou didn't need it. Nope, boy,

(01:37:20):
bye, I'll text you later.Bye. Well, I'll be down
you okay, Yeah, that justto me on a little bit. Hold
up, I'll be your back.Oh okay. Kim gets up and goes

(01:37:43):
to the restroom, but stays longerthan normal. What the hell was she
doing in the bathroom? Okay,I'm good now. You sure you're okay?
You were in her for a while? Oh yeah, girl, I'm
better now. What's going on?That last one? Did it? I

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couldn't hold it in any longer?I had to rub one out? Well
then, sorry? Is that weird? No? Just unexpected. You seem
to handle the unexpected pretty well.You're right. But on the plane though,

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Oh so, I guess you're judgingme now, not at all.
I just thought I don't know whatI was thinking. First Class is really
lit. Yep, anything goes infirst class. So did you like being

(01:38:46):
pursued by her? I mean itsounds like it was her who wanted you
and he was just along for theride. That's exactly what it was.
And yeah, it was different.I didn't dislike it. From the way
you told the story, it soundedlike you enjoyed it, I did.

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Would you do it again? Orwas that like a one time thing?
Maybe if the opportunity presented itself,I might interesting. Camra stunded my blanket
and placed her perfectly manta caure handson my thigh. Her hands slowly traveled
higher and higher, but she stoppedas soon as she realized I didn't have

(01:39:31):
on any bannies. So you longenough? I wasn't sure. I was
sure soon as we finished that firstdrink. How nothing you said? But
who just wants to hear sex storiesfrom a stranger? I knew you were
a freak, and here I thoughtI was being inconspicuous. I guess I

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better not disappoint. Kim's hand wasrunning slowly along my thigh, but I
want to hurt her. Rub oneout for me. I was horny too,
let's talking. We kept me waitingall this time. Don't take your
time now. You're pretty bossy whenyou're horny. Kim quickly moves their hand
to my pussy and starts to workin my clip. Oh. Sorry,

(01:40:16):
you don't have to be sorry ifyou return the favorite. Okay, I
placed my hands under the blanket.We were both sitting there trying to contain
our mownes. Oh fuck, rightthere. It felt so damn good.

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The fact that we were on aplane turned me on even more. I
couldn't control myself anymore. God,I think I'm Bosso we both sat there

(01:40:57):
with big ass grans on our face, trying not to look suspicious. Girl.
Welcome to the wonderful Mile High Club. Everything okay over here. We're
more than all right. We'll takesome wet naps if you have them,
please sure thing? Any more drinksfor you ladies. I think we're good,

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Jessica, I'll take some water.Ladies and gentlemen, Welcome to Sky

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Harbor Airport. Local time is twofifty seven and the temperature is a beautiful
ninety two degrees. For your safetyand comfort, please remain seated with your
seatbelts fastened until the captain turns offthe fasten seat belt sign. This will
indicate So how long are you goingto be in Phoenix? Maybe we can
meet up and do lunch. Thanks, but it's cool. We don't have

(01:42:21):
to pretend this was something more thanwhat it is. New experiences remember,
Yeah, you're right, I'm withthat. I just didn't want to come
off like a bitch by suggesting it, don't worry about my feelings. My
feelings are my feelings right, Well, look at you. I think I
might have rubbed up on you alittle. Maybe. We made our way

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down the baggage claim, and forthe first time in a while, I
was lost about the situation. I'venever had anyone pulling meat on me.
The walk to baggage claim was awkward. Luckily her bag was first. She
grab her suitcase, gave me ahug, and walked out the doors.
I'm usually the one saying nothing needsto happen from here, but she beat

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me to it. I can't lie. It bothered me a little. Now
I know what men feel like whenI do this to them. As I
waited for my left I couldn't helpbut think about everything that just happened.
Free drinks and a nut while infirst class. This trip was starting off
great. I thought that would bethe last time I saw him, But

(01:43:30):
boy was I wrong. When Ifinally made it to the hotel, I

(01:44:08):
was exhausted. All I wanted todo was get some food and take a
nap. I checked in at thefront desk, got my room key,
and headed to my room. Tomy surprise, there were three dozen long
stim red roses, a bear,some chocolate, and I note that read
I've been anxious to see you sinceour last encounter. I plan on making

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this a very eventful and pleasurable weekendfor you. Justin excel excel. This
boy really knows how to make awoman feel special. I took a shower,
and as I was drying off,my phone rang, what's up,

(01:44:55):
lover boy? Ship running some marriagesright now? What you up to?
Just at the shower? Thank youfor the flowers and candy. You're trying
to get some huh? Can aman just do something nice without looking for
sex? Boy? You right,you're right. I'm trying to get sound.
But is that a problem? Youain't slick? And no, it's
not a problem. Good good,because I made some reservations for us at

(01:45:18):
this nice Sas restaurant. I mean, your ass hungry, m you know
my weak spot. I am starving. What time is the reservation? It's
a seven point thirty that you canbe ready in forty five minutes? Yeah,
I can, all right, allright, make sure you wear something
sexy. Okay, I can dothat. I'll see you in a little
bit bet seeing a minute. It'sbeen a while since someone courted me.

(01:45:41):
It was a good feeling. Finallya man taking charge of making plans.
I hate when a guy asked mewhat I want to eat or what I
want to do one hundred times takesome damn initiative. I got dressed.
Nothing too crazy, but it wasdefinitely sexy. Hey, what's up?

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You close? Yeah, go aheadand make your way down to the lobby.
Oh man, what I just hada last minute video conference. I'm
not even ready yet. Bald car, you got jokes? High? A
few? Bring you down to thelo Okay, I'm coming. Wait bye.

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This nigga pulled up in a niceass BMW. I was impressed.
Damn big money. What this isa nice ass car? Who you steal
it from? Yeah? Mom,somet Oh why are you all aggressive?

(01:46:56):
You seem a little frustrated. Youneed to let that out. Maybe I
ain't having us. This is thelast time I saw you. Look in
the back though. Oh, justinmore flowers? Why are you so damn
sweet to me? Thank you?You know how to make a woman feel
good, don't you? Only theones that deserve? So you're gonna butter
me up? The whole weekend.Huh, that's what you owe. Yeah,

(01:47:18):
I told you. I want tosee. That's just my way of
shreing that I missed you. Andwhat you mean you ain't had none?
I ain't had no. I meanthe drought is real. I've been hopping
city to city for the past twomonths, working like crazy. Oh okay,
Oh you was thinking you thought Iain't having nothing because I was waiting
on you? Did I say that? Nah, But your ego big enough

(01:47:41):
for me to guess that's what youwas thinking. Getting out of my head.
I do what I want. Woman, I can't even lie. I
did think that's why he hadn't hadsex. I thought he was waiting on
little old me. I have toadmit he was swooning me. I wanted
to do something spontaneous to let himknow I appreciated all the kind gestures.

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Pull over just for a few minutes, stop asking questions, just go somewhere.
Ducked off anything you say. Wedrove for another ten minutes before pulling
up behind some abandoned warehouse. Heput the car and park and turned off
the ignition. We took our seatbeltsoff, and I started rubbing his sky

(01:48:29):
pull it out? Damn like howyou think? I bet you do?
Okay, Now what I want toshow you just how much I appreciate you.
Well, I'm on yours. Imissed him sexually, so I took

(01:48:51):
it all in my mouth and wasn'tstopping until he finished. He was squirming
and grabbing a back on my head. I used my tongue to speed up
the process and boom, that didthe tricks. That's like my finishing move.
He came quick as hell, butthe excitement was short fucking lived.

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Oh shit, fuck, fuck boy? What the fucking cops? Oh fuck?
I didn't even see them pull upship me either. My eyes were
closed. You were supposed to keepa lookout when I opened nigga, learn
the most? Ask what a ship? But it was too damn good?
What else show? Faun? Becool, be cool, he's coming.
What are you doing? Don't tripbutN up your pants. Let me handle

(01:49:39):
this? What? Let me handleit? I switched one of my rings
to my ring finger really quick,good evening, licensed registration, please,
good evening officer? Sure thing?What are you two doing back here this

(01:50:00):
late? Sorry? We were justI said, yes, Wait what was
that? He proposed to me,and I said, yes, look it
was so beautiful and romantic. Thisis on my thought, officer. I
begged him to come here because thisis where we had our first gifts back
in high school. Congratulations to youboth. Give me a minute, right,

(01:50:21):
be back, Yes, sir,just got engaged. What really any
other suggestions? You look like adeer in fucking haairdlights. You put your
white voice on and everything good evening, sir? Fuck you all right?
I wasn't worrying too g for that. She fuck you mean? Yeah right,

(01:50:45):
it's okay. You were stared allright. Here you go, mister
Baker, and I couldn't write youa ticket even if I wanted to,
like, love is beautiful, Socongratulations. I just got to gauge a
couple of months ago, so Iunderstand. Oh man, thank you so
much. We appreciate this. Heytake this as my wedding present. You

(01:51:09):
two love birds. Get out ofhere. I get you again. You
got it won't happen again. Thankyou all for you. Have a good
night. Now get out of here. Yes, sir, who the fuck
are you right now? He work? Didn't it? Hell? Yeah?
It did? Shit made me wantyou even more. I I know you

(01:51:31):
have reservations. Remember wait, you'restill trying to eat after that? Am
I dead? What you mean?The only time I won't be able to
eat is when I'm dead. Now, get to get I worked up an
appetite dealing with you. You aresomething else. Okay, get my heart
boy, shut up and drive?All right. I'm gonna drive now because

(01:51:51):
you told me to, but becauseI want to. Let's just make that
clip, gotcha. We drove tothe restaurant without speaking to one another,

(01:52:17):
no bad vibe. So he hadthe music blasting in the windows down.
I could tell that he was ina good ass mood, and so was
I. We got to the restaurant, gave the keys to the ballet driver,
and walked inside. It was fancyas hell, one of the most
beautiful spots I've ever been to.One of those places where they put a

(01:52:38):
leaf on the plate, glaid somesort of sauce on it, and make
you pay one hundred dollars for it. I didn't care. I wasn't paying.
The hostess showed us to our tableand we sat down. This is
nice as hell, justin but wecould have went somewhere like the Cheeseceak factory.
That would have been fine. Yeah, true, but I want to
show you a really good time.You just don't stop. I'm gonna give

(01:53:00):
you some pussy boy. Damn,y'all gotta spend all this money. A
word check please, I lie you. I'm just wondering. So where is
all of this coming from? Doyou treat all the ladies like this?
Hell? No? Oh, soyou think I'm special? I mean I
wouldn't say all that. Mmm.Hello, my name is Lydia and I

(01:53:23):
will be a waitress this evening.How would you like your sake? Medium?
Well? Please, and for you, ma'am, the same, Thank
you, No problem? What whyyou order? Sit with that look on
your face? You order the head? Yeah? Is that a problem?
No? But how did you evenknow what I wanted? I know what

(01:53:44):
you need, and that is youneed a nice thick piece of meat in
your life. You got jokes?Huh per Nah, I'm just playing,
But seriously, this place has thebest steak in time, So just relax.
I've got you or next time I'mgonna take you as a Chick fil
A to avoid all this Bullshitna.He talked a lot of shit, but

(01:54:09):
he was sweet at the same time. Yeah, he was trying to please
me, but he wasn't a pushover. A lot of guys just be so
happy to be around me that it'snot fun. They talk to me like
I'm a poodle being overly sweet andshit. Not him. So we got
some time to kill. Let's playa game of truth or dare you?
Game? Sure? I'm gay?Who's going first? When you know I'm

(01:54:32):
a gentleman? So ladies first?Well, aren't you sweet? What are
the restraints? What you mean?I don't want to be too around you?
Or dare man? Anything goes?Oh you sure? Yeah? Okay,
then truth or dare Well? Youknow ain't no pitch so there you

(01:54:53):
sure? Yeah, I'm sure?She stop back to me. I'm my
shure, I'm sure you're looking aroundfor finger fucked me right here? Oor
how long? And said the wayit just comes and fills my drink up?
Hold up, you are nuts?But okay, this shouldn't be hard
because I know you ain't got nopennies on school closer you know me?

(01:55:15):
Well, he didn't hesitate to touchme. He was still high from the
police incident. He didn't even fingerfuckme. He rubbed and massage my clip
that was not part of the Deer. Open your eyes, girl, he
looks like someone I'm playing with yourpussy. I'm trying. It's hard if

(01:55:36):
you aren't playing fair, I said, fingerfuck not b there. We were
in a booth with people no morethan fifteen feet away from us. It
was hard not to mom trying tokeep my eyes open and talk to this
boy like he puts in't playing withmy pussy? More water? Yes?

(01:56:01):
Please, sorry, I'm just superthirsty. Oh boy, you're fine and
I'm sorry for the delay. Asyou can see, we are slims.
Oh, it's okay. We're inno rush. You just couldn't hold that
big gas laughing. H hell,nah, you are so annoying. It's
your turn. Go okay, okay, shoot it, deer. I'm gonna

(01:56:27):
go with truth. How you playingit safe? Huh swirn okay? Ah?
Got you stumped? Nah? Nah? I got it. When was
the last time you had sex?As soon as I said truth, I
knew he was gonna ask that.It's just what niggas do, so I
can't be mad. But shit,do I lie or do I tell him

(01:56:48):
the truth? Think Jessica, Shit, I don't owe him anything, So
I can just be honest, right, I wouldn't feel so awkward if it
wasn't on the airplane just a fewhours prior. I swear Tom, slow
down, fuck it, tell himif he gets mad. It spares me
having to kick him to the curblater. Here goes nothing. Well,

(01:57:11):
this is awkward, or staf Itwas a few hours ago to play with
the woman she finger fucked me.His eyes lit up like I told him
Christmas was coming early. Didn't expectthis at all. Word, damn,
that's tight, boy. Be quiet. No white folks scare easy. Oh
my bad? So does this meanyou into my high club or does that

(01:57:35):
only apply to intercourse? Huh,you're not mad or disgusted bad for what
I mean? We ain't exclusively.I know what this is, and more
importantly, I know what this isn't. So I respect you for being honest
more than anything. Every time Ithink I got him figured out. In
the past, whenever I told aguy the last time I had sex,

(01:57:58):
they always got mad, then slowlyback away from me like I was supposed
to say. I was waiting foryou, daddy. Man, egos are
so fucking fragile that I can't evenbe fully honest. So I don't so.
How the hell did y'all even getto that point? That's what got
me puzzled, a complete stranger.You got game like that? Damn well,

(01:58:19):
aren't you full of questions? Hellyeah, I'm thirsty now I see.
I gotta be honest. I didn'tthink you would be so chill about
this. It's kind of refreshing.I usually can only be dishonest with my
friend's steph. Stop thinking. Yougot me figured out well, and all

(01:58:40):
started with me watching Insecure on mylaptop. That opened a whole can of
word. Oh word, So youtold her about us? Huh oh man,
I gotta hear this. Here yougo. Shit, I hope you
did me justice. Tell her howput that thing out? Heoy, shut
up? You are going? SoI briefly told him the story and left

(01:59:03):
nothing out. Told him how toshare my most recent sexual encounters and how
she got turned on, how itsort of just happened. It was kind
of cute to see him so interested, but it was also really weird to
see him so intrigued and not disgustedby it all. Oh good, the
food is here. Here you go, sir, Thank you, thank you,

(01:59:24):
I'm started, and here you are. Man. Everything look okay,
yes, thank you? Cut intothe stake. I want to see what
you think about it. It betterbe good for you to be acting like
this. Just dood m my Jesusgood Amy, she's just messing your mouth
so tender. You're right. Igotta give it to you. You got

(01:59:47):
a good taste. I know that'swhy you're here. How was everything great?
Per usual? But I'm stuffed andhappy. Any room for dessert?
I'm good, but I'll take apiece of the tear of myself. God
damn. He was honest the wholetime. Yep, okay, I'll get

(02:00:11):
that right out to you. Whyare you so batty? I asked myself
that every day. I bet so. I got a question. Now you
ain't got to answer if you don'twant to. What's up? The cops
just busted. You've giving me headokay. You just let me finger you
in this restaurant, and you toldme about this airplane. I want to
know whence you get this free?Like? Who opened your nose up to

(02:00:34):
this? No man has ever askedme this fuck that. No one has
ever asked me this for such sincerity. The only person I've been completely honest
with without the fear of judgment.Is Stephanie. I've always had to have
my nasty side, fearing it wouldbe too much for a man's fragile ego.

(02:00:55):
This could end badly, but whatthe hell if it does, I
can go back to and never talkto this man again. But he has
been real accepting of my past.Fuck it, let's see how he handles
this. You sure you want toknow this? Look at my face.
Don't look in tree, Na,you look ugly, man, Stop looking

(02:01:17):
like that. Nah. Really Iwant to know. But if you don't
want to open up and tell me, I completely understand. No, I
don't mind. For some strange reason, I trust you. It could be
my charm, it could be theswine, yeah, whatever. I just
really want to know, though.Well, let's go down this rabbit hole.

(02:01:46):
In twenty ten, I turned twentyone. I wasn't as sexually free
as I am now, but Iwas damn sure curious curious. I used
to just go to random bars withthe intention of picking up guys, never
really have any luck because I wasstill new with the whole thing. One
night, while home from college forthe summer, I went to a bar

(02:02:06):
on the other side of town whereI met the guy who changed everything.
Hey is this seat taking? Nah? That's all you? Thank you.
I didn't expect it to be thispacked on Thursday. Damn well, I

(02:02:26):
mean it is the first game ofthe NBA playoffs. You know what that
is, right, you're trying tobe funny. Huh. Of course I
know what the NBA Playoffs are.I just didn't know the first game was
today, sir. Yeah, okay, Well the Lakers are playing the Celtics.
It's kind of a big thing.I know who they are. You
really trying me tonight, mister.Hey, I'm Keith. My name is

(02:02:50):
Jessica. Nice to meet you,Jessica. So what are you drinking?
Why are you buying? I meanthat's usually was implied when someone ask you
what you want to drink? Youtalk a lot of shit. I hear
that a lot too. But doyou want a drink or no? Apple

(02:03:10):
martini would be nice? Cool bartender? What's up? Can I get another
tequila with ginger and an apple martinifor the lady? No problem, thank
you, It's the least I cando. I'm a lot funnier and less
abrasive. The more drinks you have. I'm glad you know how to help
people deal with that smartass mouth.It comes with time. So Jessica,

(02:03:31):
what brings you out tonight? Ifit's not the game? Just wanted to
get out the house and get adrink. Just one of those days,
you know? Oh, I knowall about those days. Do you mind
me asking how old you are?I know women are pretty word about that.
I never understood it either, ButI'm twenty one. Oh man,

(02:03:54):
what you're about to say that I'ma baby? Well I wasn't, but
now that you mention it, yes, you are a baby. I just
have a daughter who's eighteen, andhere I am flirting with a twenty one
year old. Damn father, Tom. How old are you? I'm forty
four. I'll be forty five inSeptember. Wow. I wouldn't have guessed
that you don't look forty five.I would have guessed like thirty five or

(02:04:18):
something. Well, thank you forthat. So you ever been hit on
by a forty five year old?No? I usually stay at a retirement
home, so I don't run insettle me in that often. Who knew
you had chokes? I got afew, good to know, so what's
up? Are you married? I'mkind of tired of marry me and hitting

(02:04:39):
on me. No, I'm notmarried. I've been free. Excuse me,
I've been divorced. I've been divorcedfor about four years now. Oh
you didn't say free. Damn?How long were you married? Sixteen years,
four months and three days to beexact. Was it that bad?
Yes, it was that bad.Well I take that back. I'm being

(02:05:00):
dramatic figures. I wouldn't say bad, but it was enough for me to
need a drink to talk about it. Oh, well, we don't have
to talk about it if you don'twant it's okay. Usually I wouldn't,
but you might appreciate this conversation.So let me ask you. Are you
seeing anyone? Not currently? No? You ever been in love puppy love

(02:05:25):
when I was younger, but nothingserious. So I guess not got kids?
God? No, I couldn't imaginehaving kids right now. Well,
then, yeah, you might needto hear. This could possibly save you
heartay, confusion, and most importantly, time wasted. So you feel like
you wasted time with your marriage?Do I? That's what makes me so

(02:05:46):
upset, Not at her, though, but more so with myself that I
stayed for so long. Let me, Yes, she changed, and you
didn't like the woman she turned into. Actually quite the opposite, there was
no change at all. Not reallyfair to fall in love with someone,
marry them, then divorce them fornot changing. Never heard of that,

(02:06:08):
Trust me. There are a lotof things you haven't heard about when it
comes to love. And how doyou know what I haven't haven't heard?
I remember being twenty one and arrogant. Excuse me, Oh, I wasn't
trying to be rude. Remember drink, drink it helps. Well, what
did you mean? How do youknow what you know about love? If

(02:06:30):
not firsthand? TV, movies,music, your parents and grandparents? My
grandparents? Yeah, have you evertalked to your grandparents about the ugliness of
love? The shit that happens whenno one is around? I can't say
that I have. I just tookit for face value. They look happy,
so I assume they're happy. Lookaround? How many people in here

(02:06:56):
look unhappy? Scratch that? Howmany people have you ever seen look unhappy?
Not many? And why do youthink that is? I'll answer,
because we get good at hiding howwe truly feel. We don't want to
appear weak, like we can't keepup with everybody else. What does it
matter what everyone else thinks? Weall care what people think of us.

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People say they don't, but theyreally do. What does that have to
do with love and wasting time?Well, in my case, it's two
sides. I was too scared totell her what I really needed from her,
both emotionally and sexually. And theother side, she was too scared
to step out of her comfort zoneemotionally and sexually, both scared of what

(02:07:38):
the other might think. So sheloved you enough to marry you, but
not enough to be what vulnerable andnasty? Exactly? I didn't think people
who were married had those fears meeither until I was in it. To
both of our defense, we wereyoung and in love. Well, how

(02:07:59):
the hell I didn't last that long? Then why even get married? I
don't know about her, but withme, she was safe. I was
reckless. I had no clue whatI was doing in life, and she
offered direction. She was the adultin the relationship. Oh yeah, women
aren't the only ones who can marryfor security. It could have worked,

(02:08:22):
though you were supposed to help herbe more comfortable sexually and emotionally, and
she was supposed to help you bemore responsible. We thought that too,
but it just never clicked. Aftera while we got comfortable. Sounds like
it's your fault just as much ashers. Absolutely, I won't deny that.
You are. You want to takethis conversation to the patio? Drink

(02:08:43):
still on you? Of course?I got you, bartender. Yeah,
we're going to step outside for afew. Kind of had a service switch
over the checks. I mean,how does that work? Oh, don't
worry about it. Heads up.Our TV broke yesterday, so games not
on that that? Oh that's fine? You ready after you? Hey,
Tasha, I got too outside.Okay, excuse me, excuse me?

(02:09:22):
Nice night tonight, Yeah it is. I'm glad I got out the house.
Shit me too. Your beautiful womandefinitely the highlight of my week.
Oh thank you. Must have beena pretty morn week. Not exactly.

(02:09:43):
You smoke cigars? No, thoseare for old men. I'll leave that
to you. Grandpa. There yougo again with the age jokes. I'll
let you have that one. Well, aren't you sweet? So do you
think love and say go hand inhand? Well that's escalated quickly. It
all has a purpose. I promisehmm, I would think. So sex

(02:10:09):
is just better with someone you love. How do you know that if you've
never been in love? Well,maybe not love but strong feelings. Okay,
that's fair. And what about you? Do you think loving sex go
hand in hand? Fuck? No, sex is better with someone you can
trust, someone that won't judge youfor all the nazy shit you just did

(02:10:33):
once the lights cut back on,Ain't That's the fucking truth. Men talk
too damn much. Part of thereason why I'm real low key with my
sexuality. Here we go. Imean, I love sex, I just
love my reputation more. I respectthat. When do you think you'll stop
caring about your reputation and start enjoyingsex more? I ask myself that every

(02:10:54):
time I reach for my damn vibratorand what's your vibrator's name? How do
you know it has a name,because all women see the name of their
vibrators. His name is Tony,and he never lets me down. Why
Tony? Because Tony just sounds likethe name of a nigga that can fuck
good. That's what's up. That'swhat's up. Not all the time,

(02:11:16):
it's just less of a hassle.On and let down. Guys do the
same shit in bed. What's that? A little bit of oral missionary turnover?
Then backshots, all while I'm prayingI get mine up before he gets
his. I remember being young andnot giving a fuck about it if a
woman got her orgasm or not.See, that's fucked up, Yeah it

(02:11:37):
is. But to my defense,no one ever told me the importance of
a woman's orgasm. Yeah the fuckright and for real. But the last
time you told a guy you weren'tsatisfied after sex, I guess I don't
write. I kind of just stoppedreplying to text messages and stop answering phone
with afs exactly, And what gooddoes that do? Well? How many

(02:11:58):
women do you critique after bad sex? Back? Then? None? See,
I just hate it having aqua conversationstalking about me when you did the
same shit. Women have fragile assegos. I know we're not about to
sit here and talk about fragile ego. Yeah, I'm sorry we packed because
of this game, but y'all getout here. I'll take a water me

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too. Okay, be right backwith that, But back to what we
were talking about. Both men andwomen have fragile egos. Yeah, let's
just say that. So what's somethingthat annoys you about sex other than not
always coming? Yeah, it's notat all funny, sir, my bad.

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But I want a man to beaggressive with me. What do you
mean by aggressive aggressive? God?Fuck me like I made a glass,
Like I'll break if they're too rough, nigga, throw me around, choke
me, slap my ass, tieme up, grab my hair something.
Damn. Why don't you just tellingthem what you want? Because it's less

(02:13:01):
fun and sexy when you have togive instructions. I just want a man
to know read my body, takecharge. Man. Sex is fucking weird?
Why do you say that? Here? You go anything else? No,
I think we're fine for now.You want another drink? No,
I'm okay for now. I'll beback to check on you, use you
in a minute. So why doyou say sex is weird? It's like

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we just want people to already knowwhat we want given instructions. Takes the
fun out of it. And youtell somebody that not good or something ego
bruise. Why do you think thatis? Probably because everybody thinks that a
shit and don't need to get betterat nothing. Ain't that it. Everybody
thinks they're the fucking best. Imean, no one wants to say nothing.

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Women faking and men me and justget anohing, move on, And
that's bullshit. That's why I justpull out Tony. So what's your favorite
thing to do sexually? Hmmm?Probably giving ahead? Why is that?
Because I like how men respond togood head. Oh so you're good at
it, I hope so, Imean I probably can be better at it.

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But how do you ask a man? Hey? Can I suck your
dick for practice? Yeah? Ihaven't figured out how to ask that.
Just shit, now, that's funny. No, for real, sometimes I
just feel like sucking dick, nosex, just come and let me keep
going. And you haven't found aguy for that yet. No, I

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don't want niggas to think I'm somekind of whole reputation. Remember reputation,
right right right? I keep forgetting. Yeah, what about you? What
about me? What's your favorite thingto do sexually? You probably think I'm
lying, but trying to give awoman the best orgasm she's ever had?
Oh yeah, seeing the woman comehard is a great fucking feeling. Laying

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there shaking, ribbing the sheets.That don't touch me orgas. Damn,
I haven't had one of those ages. The last time I had an orgasm
like that, it was due tome being tipsy and high. Everything was
intensified. And how do you knowit's because of that because we fucked again
after that and it wasn't there.I know you were pitched. Well,

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yeah, I thought I was aboutto be blessed. But nah, that
fucking sucks. Yeah, tell meabout it. Is there anything you want
to try? Yeah, don't judgeme, but I think I want to
try anal Oh yeah, yeah,but finding a nigga I can trust and
who'll take his time, it's ahassle on in itself. Yeah, you

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gotta have somebody patient for that.So you try. Yeah, nah,
for something I want more of,And don't find your nose up at me.
A woman who was open to lickinga man's ass or even using a
finger, well, damn, Iwasn't expecting that. I'm sure you weren't

(02:15:58):
hard to even suggest that without someonesuggesting you're gay. I can't imagine why
here you go, Look at youjudging me now, I'm not. I'm
not judging you. I just neverheard a man openly say he likes it.
I'm sure men are too gay consciouswhen it comes to sex, and
for good reason. Gay conscious wordif people will consider him gay. A

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lot of men enjoy anal stimulation,but it's not something they can just ask
for. What do you mean byanal stimulation? Exactly like you want a
toy in there? Here you go, it's going to be funny again?
No? No, for real?What do you mean just to the first
knuckle? No more than that,not for me at least. Hm,

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that's nothing. I thought you weretalking about a whole finger. And if
I was, would that be gayto you? I don't know. I
guess not. Why would it begay if he wants this woman to do
it? I guess it's not.I've never really thought about it. Not
many women have. What about aman liking to be choked while a woman

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is on top? You like beingchoked too? Yeah? Something about a
woman taking control does something for me? You can ask for that though,
that's nothing. Yeah, but it'sless exciting when you have to ask for
it, remember touche. Like Isaid, man, sex is weird.
Seems like everyone is just running aroundhalfway satisfied. It appears that way,

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So did your wife do these thingsfor you? Fuck? No, it
was very basic with us. Whatdo you mean we ain't do much out
of the ordinary, you know,oral missionary from the back. What for
sixteen years or sixteen fucking years?Why didn't you say anything? I did?
But nothing ever changed? Shit?Well that sucks. I don't know

(02:17:50):
what you're thinking. Why not teachyou what you like? Right? Like?
Why didn't you bring her into yourworld sexually? Some people just can't
think that way when it comes tosex. I don't believe that. So
what you're thinking that I didn't tryhard enough that I should have been able
to get her to loosen up?I mean, yeah, she loved you.
I'm sure if you had tried hardenough, it would have worked.

(02:18:11):
Oh okay, I mean, amI wrong? Very We tried counseltly,
talking with other married people, talkingto one another. After a while,
I just said fucking and gave up. That just gives me so much hope.
Don't be discouraged. It is whatit is. I should have married
someone who was my match sexually.Have you ever met your match sexually?

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Yeah? But I was already married. Oh so you cheated on her in
the later years, Yeah, therewas avoid not being met sexually that I
just couldn't leave empty. Did youever get caught? God? No,
thankful that I didn't. I didn'twant to heard it like that. I
didn't want her to think that Ididn't love her. I just wanted certain

(02:18:56):
shit sexually that she couldn't provide.You're giving me so much hope tonight.
I'm not trying to discourage you fromfinding true love. I'm just telling you
that if you try to avoid yoursexual hunger, it will not go away.
So find someone I can be myselfwith sexually, then fall in love.
Hell yeah, or end up cheating. I know a shit ton of
married women who are cheating just tofull avoid. Damn. You never really

(02:19:20):
hear about married women cheating. Iknow because women are good at hiding shit
like that. Plus niggas never suspectwomen to cheat, so they never look
for it. I can see that. Yeah, I had a woman pick
up a pilates class. She willcome over my house every other day at
three pm for sex. After wewere finished, she would shower, change
clothes, and go home to herhusband kids. And how long did that

(02:19:43):
last? Shit? Almost two years? Damn two years. That's the long
ass time. Why didn't she doshe just leave? Well? Yeah,
because it's hard to just leave.You're not just leaving one person. You
had to go through the cords withthe family, Explain to the kids.
It's emotionally draining. Shit, cheatingjust seems easier. You are blowing my

(02:20:07):
mind right now. I bet noone really talks about the ugly side of
love. Sometimes you can get stuckin the shitty forever. Stuck in a
shitty forever. Yeah, that's deep. As long as it looks good on
the outside, no one will everquestion it. What do you mean by
that? The people who are theunhappiest in the relationship show no signs of

(02:20:28):
it. They walk out the houseand put their happy faces on, play
the role. A smile is thebest disguise. That's real as fuck.
I used to wonder how people endedup staying shitty relationships or marriages. We
as people just have too much fuckinghope. Too much hope? Is that
even a thing? Fuck? Yeah, and explain this to me. Oh

(02:20:50):
man, I'm about to just listen. I'm listening. I feel like people
just deal with the bullshit of todaybecause tomorrow might be better. When in
actuality. It might just be morebullshit pessimistic much, Nah, I just
know that there are two sides ofa coin. It can go either way
unless you have the bass to forceit to go your way. So when

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did you grow boss? You stayedin your marriage for sixteen years? Is
it safe to say you didn't havethe balls to just end it? Love
made me have way too much faithat first. After that, it was
just cheaper to keep her. Honest, you ain't right, I'm just being
honest. Look, I had togrow balls to end it. I was

(02:21:31):
scared. Sixteen years is a longtime to be with somebody, not including
the time we were together before that. Let's half my fucking life. Fuck,
I couldn't imagine having a split withsomeone after all that time, And
I pray that you never have toexperience it. Thank you for that mini
prayer. But I say amen,amen. But back to the sex,
Yes, back to the sex.Since you're dropping so much knowledge right now,

(02:21:56):
when is one supposed to unleash thebeast on someone? What you mean,
when are you supposed to unleash thenasty on somebody right out the gate?
While wait, no fucking way,I can't be given all the goodies
away right from jump and why not? How can you get mad at a
guy when he doesn't do all thethings you want right from jumped in?

(02:22:16):
What if he's waiting? That's different? You know it? How So?
It just is. A woman hasto carry yourself a certain way. Key
reputation. Remember, Yeah, okay, I think you're more worried about your
reputation than having good sex. Youdon't get it? And what don't I
get? It's harder for women tobe sexually free. Men have it easy.

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The more women y'all sleep with,it seems like the more women y'all
get. But with us it's theopposite. The men we do attract only
want one thing. Men already onlywant one thing? Yeah, true?
Nothing. How many women aren't gettingmarried because they've slept with too many men?
Ah? My point exactly. Theso called hoes you talk about are

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out here winning, getting married whileyou hold. Some women are out here
on you harmony, trying to getit together. I'm sick of you,
Keith, I really am. I'mnot gonna do it with you tonight.
Look, I'm just trying to blessyou with some game you too them Fine,
A man should feel lucky that youunleash the beasts on his ass.
You're feeling lucky? Am I feelinglucky? Yeah? Are you feeling lucky?

(02:23:24):
Shit? Should? I? Ithink you should? Are you feeling
lucky? If you intend on teachingme something new? Then yeah, I
can teach you a few things.Well, where do I sign up?
Just say the word? I feellike we've talked enough. I agree,
So what's next? Can you tellme you want to get out of here?

(02:23:46):
Hell? Yeah, you got mecurious. Now, Well, we
could go back to my place ifyou want. I think I want that
you're gonna put it on me,or you're scared about your reputation. I
think I'm good on holding back tonight. M Is that so? Yeah?
I think so? All right?Well follow me back to my place.

(02:24:09):
I don't stay that far. Okay, lead the way and send me your
address just in case I lose you, and so I'll have your number.
Yeah, no doubt. What's yournumber? It's three one seven. He
pulled out one hundred dollars bill,placed it under his glass, and walked
toward the parking lot. I didn'tknow what the fuck I was getting myself
into, but I didn't care Iwas curious to see how freaky he was.

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When I got in my car,I instantly called Stephanie. Stephanie,

(02:24:54):
Hello girl, What you doing?Not a thing? Just watching the game
with Victor smoking? What appen onmy way to get some deep what from
mo? Uh? Just somebody Imet at the bar. This sounds juicy.
Let me get my ass up,yup, get on ut, hold

(02:25:16):
on, I'm going to be backall right, bitch, spell it.
So I'm at this smooth ass olderman. Right, We've been talking for
like an hour or so, andnow I'm on my way to his place.
Bitch, how much older? That'snot even important right now, girl,
don't be out here fucking these wrinkles. Wow, I heard this.

(02:25:37):
How you get the new worms?Bitch? Shut up? That ain't true,
Yes it is. Listen, mycousin was fucking with this older,
older nigga and got the worms.She ain't been walking right ever since I
got a limp and everything. Girl, Shut the hell up. She walked
with a limp because her legs areuneven. Don't be talking about Peggy like

(02:25:58):
that. So what does he dofor a living and where is he taking
you? I don't really know whathe does for a living. I don't
know. I'm just trying to fuckand I find a partner that's real,
right, and he's taking me downtown. You're really on some hot shit right
now. I love it anyways.I hate to admit it, but I'm

(02:26:22):
a little nervous. Why because you'refollowing a complete trencher to his house for
some deck? Girl? Shut up? Okay, okay, but why because
he ain't one of these little boysI don't mess with in the past.
Real stuff. This is a grownass man would experience his ass gonna turn

(02:26:43):
you out shit, not me.If anything, I'm gonna have him feeding
over this young pussie. Don't hurthim. My man might break a hip
if you throw it back too hard. So look, I'm about to text
you his number just in case.His name is Keith. All right,
girl, you better make sure it'sworth it. If not, I'm gonna

(02:27:03):
clown you. I don't know youwill. I'm gonna call you in the
morning with the details. Okay,girl, be careful, I will talk
later. Bye. We welcome tomy humbler boat. I always wonder what

(02:27:43):
these condos look like on the inside. So you want to tour? Sure?
Mmm? Smells good in here,thank you. Well. This is
the kitchen, just enough space tocook and shiit, nothing too fancy.
I like this island. I wantan island in my kitchen so bad.
Yeah it comes in handy, Yeah, I bet it does. And this

(02:28:09):
is the living room again, justbig enough to watch TV and shit,
have my guys over chill. Iwon't spend too much time in here.
Nice furniture. I like the sectionalthank you. And back here this room
is my studio room slash man cave. Wow, this is pretty dope.

(02:28:31):
Who did the art? This guynamed Scottie. I send him ideas he
create I buy. I never seena home studio like this. All the
guys I know with studios have alaptop with a microphone in the closet and
then aroun with that. Gotta startsomewhere, right, Yeah, so what
do you do? I do somevoice of a work and I help with

(02:28:54):
the production for a few shows basedout of New York. That's dope.
Yeah I enjoy it. And thisis the bathroom. Nice shower, A
lot of space in there, Alot of space. Not much as seeing
here though. And this is mybedroom. This is a big ass room.

(02:29:18):
Nice bed, what size is that? King? The only side for
a king? Here we go,So what's up? You ready to teach
me something new? Of course?You mind if I take a shower first.
I've been out and about all day. I don't feel fresh. Sure
do you think cool? Here's aremote to the TV. That won't be

(02:29:39):
too long. Okay. But hewent into the bathroom and proceeded to take
a shower. So I turned onthe TV and caught the tailing of some
show about ten minutes past. Thenhe called my name, Hey, Jessica,
Yeah, give me in four seconds. Hey, what's up? Why

(02:30:03):
don't you join me? Oh?You want me to get in there with
you? Yeah? Is that aproblem? None at all. I had
never taken a shower with the manbefore. I was kind of nervous,
but fuck it, no turning backnow now. So is the water flying
for you? Yeah? Uh?Let me wash you. I want you

(02:30:26):
to be fresh too. Oh soyou're saying I'm musty? Oh okay,
no, girl, chier. Justlet me wash your body. Okay,
I'll be gentle, don't worry you. Ever had a man wash your body
before? No, never been inthe shower with a man. God's my
age? Don't care if you're freshor not. That's unfortunate. He lifted

(02:30:50):
my hair and washed my neck,then down to each of my breast.
He washed my stomach, then wentdown to my pussy. He took his
time like he was admiring. Itfelt nice to have a man observe my
body this way. It wasn't sexualat all. He was legit admiring my

(02:31:11):
body. It made me feel beautiful. He turned me around and washed my
back, then thoroughly washed my ass, then my legs, and finally my
feet. Once he was done,he rents me off, then turn me
back around. All right, let'spush me spots. Now what put your

(02:31:35):
leg up on this? If youneed to hold onto something, grab the
door to the shower, if Ineed balance, What are you about to
do? Just enjoy yourself. Igot you, okay, it's your world,
sir, Nah, it's all aboutyou right now. Now, let
me see what you taste like.This man started eating my pussy as if

(02:32:07):
he was trying to prove a point. I thought I had good head before,
not at all. I've only hadguys just lick all over my pussy
with no real technique. He knewexactly what he was doing. He licked
and sucked on my clip passionately.He rub my clip while fucking me with

(02:32:28):
his tongue. He took his timeand made sure that I felt good.
Women can tell when a man isrushing to get to fucking. He wasn't.
It was truly about me. Thatalone made me come. When he
felt me tense up from coming,he grabbed me by my ass and forced
my pussy into his face, whichmade me grab the back of his head.

(02:32:50):
He did some tongue trick and Icame instantly. The shit felt so
good. You good enough? Ohmy good sir, you just did some
magical shit right now. I'm neverhaving my pussy ate like that. Oh
I know. I love eating pussy. I love how woman reacts to good

(02:33:15):
asshead. Well, thank you forthat much appreciated. Here's your tie.
Let's draw off and vibe out afteryou. I sat on the edge of

(02:33:39):
his bed in my towel, thinkingwe were about to have sex. He
got the lotion and got on hisknees and put some on my feet.
He massaged my feet, which feltamazing. When he got done with my
feet, he kissed my toes individually, got my legs, my thighs,
my eyes, as my stomach,breast in my arms. He told me

(02:34:05):
to lay on my stomach and hegot my back. He was so good
with his hands. I almost fellasleep until he smacked me on my ass.
Get up, girl, can't fallasleep just yet. Damn, I
was almost out. I know thatfelt good as hell. Thank you for
that little body massage. Alright,no problem, Like I said, please

(02:34:26):
in a woman is what I enjoyeddoing well. I am enjoying this good.
So you want some wine? Yeahthat sounds good. Cool, how
you back? Put the shirt onso you want to be cold. He
left the room for a minute,but not before throwing me a button up
from his closet. It smelt justlike him, which was sexy. While

(02:34:48):
he was gone, I looked around. He had a brown plush comforter set
with four pillows, two with cottonpillow cases and two with satin. His
nice day had a clock, acase for a smell bar, and a
laptop. The knife sand had twodrawers. My snooping ass opened the top
one and there were documents in otherpapers. Maureen, I closed it.

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The contents of the bottom one wasinteresting. This is where he kept all
things sex. There were butt plugs, vibrators, restraints, loop condoms,
and a few other things. AsI picked up the small vibrator, he
walked back into the room. Ohso you find a tool? Shit,
Keith, you scared me. Mybad. Here you go, Thank you.

(02:35:37):
I'm sorry. I didn't mean togo through your stuff. Lie again,
you just didn't mean to get caught. It's all right, I have
nothing to hide. Okay, good? But that that has six different speeds?
And what do you use it for? To place on the clip while
I'm attending to other areas of thebody? Oh? And what about these

(02:36:00):
probe shaped things? Shape? Theseare called anal plugs. Put lube on
it, place it in your ass? Why you get fucked from the bank?
Oh shit, Yeah, the plugsplus a vibrator mixed with some nice
strokes and ashmac and will take youto another place That sounds intense. Oh,
I've heard that it is. Haveyou ever used toys during sex?

(02:36:24):
Can't say that I have. Ididn't get into toys until my late twenties,
realized I needed some assistance with makingwomen have intense orgasms. You really
are all about the woman. Huh? Yeah, make a woman feel good
and comfortable, you can get herto do anything you want. I'm trying
to experience that all of that.Oh you sure you're not gonna go crazy

(02:36:50):
on me, are you? Hell? If it's as good as you make
it sound, then I might.All right, let's see lay back.
He started eating my pussy again.He went for about thirty seconds before placing
the vibrator on my clip. Whileit was on my clip, he started
kissing on the inside of my thighs, then up to my pelvic bone.

(02:37:13):
I fucking lost it. It's likehe knew all the spots that I only
hope God's paid attention to. Heflipped me over and lifted the shirt up
so my ass was exposed. Hey, aren't your back. He proceeded to
eat my pussy from the back line, instructing me to put the toy on
my clip. While back there hewas fucking me with his tongue. He

(02:37:35):
then took his tongue and slid itup towards my ass slowly. Once he
got to my ass, he puthis finger inside my pussy, hooked it
upward as if he were telling someoneto come here, then began to eat
my ass. Shit what nothing,I think, keep going. He went

(02:37:56):
back to locking my ass and fingeron my pussy. The sensation was unlike
anything. I've experienced so many spotsfor getting attention at the same time that
I couldn't help. But come,you're good? What you mean? Am
I good? Hell? Yeah,I'm good. I'm still tingling all over.

(02:38:22):
Oh, give me a minute toregroup. That's what I like to
hear. Right there. I wantyou to fuck me. O. My
pussy is throbbing. Finally you askedfor it. Oh so you were waiting
for me to ask for it.Yeah. I wanted to wait until you
were ready for it and give itto me. And stop playing morning now,

(02:38:45):
no more eating, no more licking. Fuck me? Say please?
Really? He grabbed my neck andlooked me in my eyes and said,
I said, say please, stopfucking playing with me. This was the
sexiest and most aggressive thing a guyhas ever done. I didn't even know

(02:39:07):
I liked being choked until then.I felt powerless, and for some reason
that drove me crazy. Please.He started kissing and taking off the button
up shirt. Once it was off, he started kissing and biting on my
neck, then moved to my breast, where He then beating sucked on my
nipples. He gave them each afair amount of attention before kissing my stomach.

(02:39:31):
He leaned over and got a condomout his nice stand, as well
as the butt plugs and lube.He placed the lube and plung on the
bed while he put the condom on. If anything isn't to your liking,
just tell me if I'm too roughor too nasty. The safe word is
watermelon. Safe word. Yes.If I do something you don't like,

(02:39:54):
say that word cool. Yeah,I guess so. The toyan clip he
slid inside of me. It wasa good fit. He laid on top
of me with his sexy ass body. He took his time so I didn't
have some awkward stroking neck of breathingheavy in my ear, nice, slow

(02:40:18):
and hard while kissing on my neck. He never stayed in any position too
long, now that I think aboutit. He always made sure to keep
moving. He raised up put mylegs together while stroking the choked me as
he sucked my toes all at thesame fucking tong. I almost started crying.

(02:40:39):
Some women are probably listening to thislike that's normal. Yeah, but
this was my first time The strokesweren't rushed either. Everything was done smoothly
yet aggressive. I could tell thathe cared about how I was feeling.
Some men will fuck you and youcan tell they're just trying to get their
neck, not him. I neverknew what he was gonna do next.

(02:41:05):
Turn over? How you're gonna tellme to turn over while throwing me?
What's the safe word? What's thesafe word? Watermelon? Okay? How
are you fucking me? Thiss?Good? Isn't this why you came over?
Yes? I can't hear you.Yes, so let me give you

(02:41:31):
what you came over here for.He spinned my ass that stuck his thumb
in it. This was the firsttime that ever happened. It felt so
fucking good. He then grabbed alub and the plug, loubed up the
plug, and he stuck it inmy eyes. There was slight pressure,

(02:41:52):
like I was gonna shit myself,but it felt good as fuck. Oh
so you like that shit? Yes? Yes? Do you want more?
Yes? Please? You sure?Yes? He took the plug out and
put more lube on my ass.Next thing I know, he took his

(02:42:13):
stick out of my pussy and putthe tip in my ass. Oh.
Word. Remember, yeah, Iremember, I'm gonna go slow. Okay,
Okay, you ready, I thinkso. He used to stick into
my ass. It hurts just alittle, but not enough to stop him.
I took it like a big girl. He put more lub on it

(02:42:37):
than east it all and shit,you good? Yeah, keep going,
that's a good girl. Let mesee that vibrator. M remember the safe
word. Okay. He put thevibrator in my pussy and started stroking my

(02:42:58):
ass past and faster. The morehe did it, the better it felt.
After a while, I didn't noticehe was sucking me in my eyes,
my ass got so wet. Inever knew that could happen. So
I got a little scared, butI didn't want him to stop. He
stopped rubbing my clad and grabbed myhair, and I fucking lost it.

(02:43:26):
Oh shit, I didn't think youwould be down with all of this.
Shut up, let me catch mybosure. That was good, real good,
fucking amazing. Your old ash tryingto have me sprung huh, not

(02:43:50):
at all. I cannot deal withthose problems right now. I bet I
didn't even suck your dig I didn'teven show you any of tim that's oh
no, no, no, it'sokay. I just really wanted to show
you a good time. Don't letthat bother you, okay, Keith,

(02:44:13):
Yeah, what's up? Do youmiss her? Who? Your ex wife?
Us? Kill? I'm sorry,you don't have to answer. We
can just lay here. No,no, it's okay. I don't mind
talking about it. Okay. Wespent almost twenty years dealing with one another,

(02:44:33):
So do I miss her? Yeah? Every now and then. I
just got to move on, youknow. Yeah, damn. We laid
there in silence until we fell asleep. I woke from around four am to
use the bathroom, and he wassound asleep. I just sat there for
a minute, observing him. Heopened my nose in mind. It's so

(02:44:56):
much in just one night, love, trust, and letting go of fear
a complete stranger. I got dressedquietly and wokeome up. Hey Keith,
Keith, huh, wake up everything? Okay? Yeah, I think I'm

(02:45:20):
headed home. I have a busyday ahead of me. Okay, let
me get up real quick and walkyou to the door. Okay, thank
you so much for a great night. No, thank you. I needed
that we should do this again sometime, for sure. I still need another
lesson. Well, you got mynumber coming whenever you're ready. Just don't

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keep me waiting too long. Iwon't Goodbye, Keith, Bye Chess.
It had been a week since Keithand I had sex, and I still
hadn't heard from him. Granted Ihadn't tried to call her text him either,
but I was for sure he wasgoing to hit me up. Nope.

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I was sitting at home board thefollowing Friday night. I didn't want
to go to the bar, tothe club. I wanted great company and
even greater sex. In other words, I want it Keith. I went
against everything I was taught and reachedout to him first. Hello, Hey,

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what's up? Hey? Who's thisreally? Yes? Really? Who's
damn Nigga's Jessica? Jessica? Jesstrying me right now, Jessica. Oh
hey Jessica, stop playing with me? Father time? What stranger? You
really tried it? I almost sunkup on you as my bad, my

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bad? Let me stop playing?Yeah, stop playing? What are your
not going? Eventful? What aboutyou? I'm killing right now. Just
got home from the cigar bar withmy boys. You and those damn cigars,
yep, me and my damn cigars. Are you going to band anytime
soon? I know how you oldpeople like to go to sleep early.
Here you go with the jokes startingearly. Huh, yep, here I

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go. Nah, I was actuallyabout to cook dinner. Oh I want
some? Is that your way oftelling me you want to come over?
Maybe? Do you ever ask whatyou want directly? Or is beating around
the bush your thing? Yes?I do, Thank you very much.
I can't tell hmmm, Keith,but you like my company tonight? Because
I would like to see you?Hm? Maybe here you go? Plan?

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Yeah, you can come over?Some company would be nice. You
remember where I stay? Right?Yeah? I remember? All right?
Cool, Well, let me knowwhen you're in the way. I'm about
to get dressed in head there now, I'll be there in about an hour.
That's cool. I see you then? Okay, bye? Hey you

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right on time? Come on in. Hey, sir, it smells good
as hell in here? What youmaking? I'm sammon asparagus cous cousoo?
Sounds good and healthy? Can't waitto taste it? Good because it's almost
done. Have a seat the islandplaces at dinner table as well. Okay,

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have some wine? Relaxed a littledon't mind if I do. So.
Why you're in at the club?I thought every twenty one year old
living inside of the club on theweekends, normally I would be, but
tonight I just wanted to Chell,that's what's up. And I wanted to
see you. Oh yeah, yeah, I kind of missed that smart ass

(02:48:45):
mouth of yours. Oh I kindof missed you too. Well. If
you missed me, then why didn'tyou call her? Text me shit?
For the same reason you didn't callher text me too? Shake, sir,
to shak, you better start beingthe aggressor ain't they're wrong making the
first move. I remember that forthe next time, since you don't make
the first move either. It's justsexy when a woman takes charge every now

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and then. Want to see ifyou would, I definitely keep that in
mind. Thank you, you're welcome. So ready to eat? I'm always
ready to eat. I gotta giveit to you. That was pretty good.

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I was skeptical. And why wouldyou be skeptical? Because everybody thinks
they can cook and really can't.I would have left if it was nasty
for real. Yes, I don'tlie or play about food. I might
be scared to speak up about badsex, but not about bad food.
Okay, then I hear you.But I can wash the dishes if you

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want. I mean, that's theleast I can do since you cook.
Oh well, go right ahead.I ain't gonna stop you. You were
supposed to say no if you wereso dripling. Hey, I never claimed
that I wasn't. You're right,you didn't. All right? How about
our rents stand? Okay, comeon, so Jessica, so Keith,

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how often do you pick up oldthe fishless men at the bar? Really?
How often do you proy on youngand experienced women at the bar.
I've actually never taken a woman homefrom the bar, especially not one of
your age. Smells like a liefor real, I'm not really good at
it. My smart ass mouth usuallyruins it for me. Oh really,

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I can't imagine why. But toanswer your question, I've never met a
guy and has sex with him thesame night, especially not one year age.
Oh so you never had a onenight stand? Say it with me?
Key reputation. Your memory is shit? Oh my bad, I keep
forgetting you. Better start taking yourvitamins, old man, your memory is

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fading. Hey, you got onemore time, Okay, I'm just messing
with you. Keep it up.You ain't gonna do nothing anyway. I
mean, I'll admit it. Ido go with the intentions of finding fresh
meat, but I always get coldfeet and just go home, Go home
and call an old fling who youknow ain't worth for dam yep, either
that or pull out tony Damn.Life is hard, Tell me about it.

(02:51:20):
Nah, women are just fucking lazy. What Why would you say that?
Because y'all will fuck someone you knowain't worth for them instead of just
finding something new. Honestly, it'sless of a hassle, less risky.
We have to worry about shit thatmen don't like. What like is this
nigga a killer or a crayfist,just to name a few. That's a
bit dramatic, don't you think notat all? Well? I guess the

(02:51:43):
stars were aligned for us to runinto each other that night, huh,
I guess? So Yo, thisis completely random, but I'm meant to
ask you this last time. Whatare you studying in school? Digital marketing?
That's what's up? What drove youto that? I feel like marketing
and advertising are going to gravitate towardssocial media heavy within the next few years.
I mean, I'm already online allthe time. I might as well

(02:52:07):
make money from it, smart girl, because it's coming. People spend so
much time online now, it's crazy. Yeah. Plus I just want job
security. The internet ain't going nowhere, no time soon. And look at
that all done. Teamwork makes thedream work. Indeed it does. So

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dinner was good, But what's fordessert? You? Oh that's how you
feel? Yep? Okay, man, come here. He grabbed me by
my waist and pulled me in fora kiss. He held me close and
looked me in my eyes for afew seconds. What don't ever stay away

(02:52:50):
from me that long? Again?Why you miss me? Yes? I
did all right, prove it.Then he started taking off my clothes.
He started wearing my shoes, thenmy socks, umbuck on my pants,
pulled them down, and took offmy shirt. I was standing in his

(02:53:13):
kitchen in my bron panties. Hejust looked at me with this look of
admiration that made me blush. Whydo you look at me like that?
Like? What like that? Youknow what you're doing because you look damn
good? Is it a problem orsomething like? It stopped? It's fine.

(02:53:33):
I just what. I've never hada man make me feel as good
as you do. That's all.That's the objective to me A favor though.
Yeah, in the future, don'twear so many articles of clothing if
you come up to dick. Whatwhy? I thought, I look cute?
You do, But can't you lookcute in a skirt of something?
Lazy ass? I got you nexttime, and that's why I wear dresses

(02:53:58):
with no panties. I'm on adig mission. He picked me up and
set me down on the island andstarted kissing my neck, two kisses on
the left and two on the right. He kissed me in the middle of
my chest before going on my breast. He pulled one out of my brow
and started sucking my nipple. Hepulled my panties to the side and started
rubbing my already throbing pussy. Oohdamn, somebody's horny. Uh yeah,

(02:54:24):
I've been horny since I smelled thefood. Your greedy ass. Hold up,
Okay, all right, I hadto get a condom. I really
should have condoms all over the house, just in case. That's not a
bad idea. He slipped my pantiesoff and started sucking my pussy. After

(02:54:48):
a few minutes, he got aCuba mice out the freezer, put it
in his mouth, sucked on itfor a little, then got back to
it. The hotness of his mouthcombined with the coldness of the ice my
clip was a new sensation for me. I just had to lay back and
enjoy. Once the ice melted,he put the condom on, laid me

(02:55:09):
down, and climbed on top ofme. The island was the perfect size
for dinner and fucking no crazy positionsor nothing. I'm sure he was trying
to refrain from falling off, justlong, slow and hard strokes while talking
nasty shit in my ear. Igrabbed his back and sank my nails into
it. The more I dug intohis skin, the harder he went.

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I could tell he was reacting tothe pain, and that made me come.
I usually don't come so fast,but it's Keith. Once done,
we went to his bedroom and fellasleep. Hey, come in, I
didn't wake you do that. No, No, I just rolled over and
you weren't there. Wanted to seewhat you were up to. Okay,

(02:55:56):
do you usually wake up at oneam to do work? Nah? I
woke up to the bathroom, butforgot I have some edits to work on.
Last night I kind of got distracted. Ooks bad. Yeah, I
was just gonna knock these out andget back in bed. What kind of
edits are you working on? Thiscompany needs some songs cut down a certain
way for some commercials they're doing.Is it hard? Nah, just tedious.

(02:56:20):
They would't have done a certain way, but they don't know what way
that is. We go back andforth a lot. Sounds annoying. It's
annoying as hell, but it's cool. They mean well and they pay well
and email sent. Yeah, Ireally love this room. It instantly puts
you in a good mood with allthe ron and the lights and the equipment.

(02:56:43):
Gotta have the vibes right, youwant to create. That's vital.
So what does this do? That'sa mixing board. Bug the microphones into
that. Then that fees into thislittle box right here on my computer,
and then you get the sound.And what about this? That's a reflection
filter. It goes behind the microphonefor when I do voiceovers. And what

(02:57:07):
does this do? Well, that'smy dick. It raises standards, mind
showing me. Mm hm, takethem out mm hm. Hmmm, somebody's
happy to see me. He's alwayshappy to see you. Hey, hey,
hey, hey, huh, slowdown? What are you? Why

(02:57:28):
are you going so fast? Areyou in the rush? What? You
you don't like it? I meanit's cool to slow down, baby,
admire my dick when you suck it. It's sexier that way. I mean,
don't you hate it when guys justlook you see y'all fast with no
technique and no passion. Yeah right, man, like the same attention.

(02:57:48):
So take your time, Okay,I hear you. Yeah, oh shit,
and yeah, just like that.Now go all the way down slow,
yeah like that, I'll bite it. What yeah, yeah, not

(02:58:15):
too hard, I'll tell you arterkeep going, keep right there. For
the first time I got a directionfrom a man in regards to sex,
Sucking his dick made my pussy sodamn wet. I had never been a

(02:58:37):
man's dick on purpose before I startedto notice that he really enjoyed pain.
He was opening my mind to somuch. I sucked his dick for a
good ten minutes while taking every bitof direction he gave me. Hey,
now, spit on it. Okay, I want to fuck you now,

(02:59:03):
but I wanted you to finish AAin due time. I want to fuck
you bad. Get up? Ohfuck, I need to get a condom.
All right, Yeah, you shouldprobably keep condoms in each room.
I know, right, Hey,you like jazz? I mean, I

(02:59:24):
don't dislike it. It's cool.I guess do you mind if I play
some? This is your house.You make the rules, you right.
I just like fucking the jazz.Why. It's a different vibe, not
the same with raping R and B. What kind of vibe? The music
just flows so freely, so manydifferent elements. If you allow yourself to
get lost in the music, it'sbeautiful to take you somewhere. Well,

(02:59:50):
let's see, I'm excited now.He played music from a studio monitors and
bit me over the couch. Hewas much more aggressive this time around,
which was a good thing. Guysusually fucked me fast, but he stroked
me slow while smacking my ass.He went slow, as if he wanted
to make sure I felt all ofhim, or so that he felt all

(03:00:11):
of me, grabbing my hair withone hand and smacking my ass with the
other. He was right. Themusic allowed me to go to another place.
I was present, but not really. I was there enjoying him,
but it felt more therapeutic than anything. He flipped me over to where my
ass was propped up on the armof the couch. He bent my legs

(03:00:33):
back and started fucking me hard andfast. He told me to rub my
click and once I did that,I spaced all the way out. All
I heard was the baseline of themusic. Then a few strokes later,
the unexpected happened. I squirted.Ooh shit, somebody likes this. Oh

(03:00:58):
my gosh if I hit the highshit, I'm sorry. It's okay.
What you're sorry for. I've neverscored it before. I didn't even know
I could do that. It's okay, Jessica. Really, I need to
go to the bathroom. It's notfunny, sir. It is just a

(03:01:18):
little bit. What are you doingtrying to make sure your pussy ain't broke?
Can I pee without you? Talking? Shit? My bad, my
bad? Yo? Thea toil's run, the clothing on the top show?
Thank you? Bring one in here. I want this here. I'm sorry,

(03:01:39):
Keith, stop being sorry. Ain'tit wrong with squirting? Did I
get in on anything? Did Imess anything up? Nah? You good,
It's okay, Relax, I've onlyseen it happening porn. I did
not know I was capable of that. That was crazy. That's because the
guys you've been never took the timeto finally hit the right spots. Well,

(03:02:03):
shit, I guess not. Butdid it feel good? Did it
feel good? Hell? Yeah,it felt good? Good? Good good?
You know damn well, I feltgood. You just wanted me to
stroke your ego. You are trifling, just rifling. Okay, I'm a
cheer. Yeah, thank you,I appreciate that. But hey, let's

(03:02:24):
move us to the patio. Ifeel like smoking. Can I have a
shirt to put on? Yeah,no problem. This is a great fucking

(03:02:46):
view. I bet you come outhere all the time. Yeah, it's
peaceful if you as what sold meon this place. Actually, I've always
wanted to live in a condo lookingdown in the city. How long have
you been here? I got itwhen I filed for the divorce. It
was a gift to myself. Ilet her keep the house. I never

(03:03:07):
wanted that shit, Why not.I can't wait to have my own house.
Hey, I don't care for noneof that yard work, none of
that maintenance shit. When you're inthe house, everything is your responsibility.
The roof, the plumbing, electricpest control, and everything else under the
fucking sun. I ain't got thetime nor the money for that shit.
For some reason, it seems likeyou really didn't care for being married,

(03:03:31):
or at least the things that camewith it. I mean, it was
cool. I just don't see howpeople do it multiple times. Folks getting
married three or four times? Nigga? Hell no. How embarrassing is it
to have so many failed attempts?Like, at what point do you just
stop? You know we can seeyou right right after. So many of
the court should just be like,nah my dude, you're done. Man,

(03:03:54):
there's a free cat. Enjoy yourselffor real. You know what.
I don't even need to smoke talkingto you. It's cool, Oh aren't
you sweet? M So what aboutyou? You want to get married?
Yeah? I guess maybe one daywe'll see why? Why? What?

(03:04:16):
Why do I want to get married? Yeah? Because I don't want to
be the old single bitch with cats. You look like a cat lady.
Em I hate cats, so thatwon't even be me. Just thinking about
it makes my throat itch word.But I would like to grow over someone.
You know, it will suck tobe alone forever. Doesn't sound like

(03:04:37):
you've thought too much about being married. Well, I'm sorry, Keith,
I don't have some elaborate answer foryou, sir. Nah, it doesn't
have to be elaborate. Just reallythink about why you want to be married.
If you don't, then when ithappens, you want to know what
you want out of it. Hmm. Yeah. I don't mean to scare
you and turn you off the idea, but just want you to be prepared.

(03:05:00):
It doesn't sound like it. I'mfor real. I just want you
to think about it. Oh,I know, I've never had anyone talk
to me about it like this,making me really think about shit. Shit.
I know when I proposed people wereoh so happy, congratulations all around
the board. Not one of them. Motherfucker sat me down and told me

(03:05:20):
anything anything like what shit? Anything? How to prevent it from going to
complete shit, how to keep itspicy and fresh, how to not get
bored with one another? Nothing?Oh yeah, the last few years were
horrible. We had stopped having sexcompletely. I wouldn't even get horny around
her anymore. Fuck. How longdid y'all go without sex? Three fucking

(03:05:46):
years? Holy shit? What ain'tno way I will go that long without
sex. That's that's crazy as hell. You think you won't until you do.
I thought the same thing, crazything years. Sex just never came
up ever, never. Nah,it was like it was some sort of

(03:06:07):
silent agreement. Fuck, why doyou think that happened? I don't know,
man, I know, I justgot tired of initiating it. I
got tired of being the one seducenter. She really had no clue on
how to turn me on. Shenever learned shit. Nope. I waited
to see if she was everybody aggressor. Nah. Do you think she was

(03:06:30):
sleeping around with someone else during thattime? I don't know. Probably did
you even care? Nope? Thatwould have made things easier had we got
caught cheat on one another. Atleast there's a reason you two weren't always
like that though, Right, Ithad to be something in the beginning that
made you think Mary and her wasthe thing to do. Yeah, of

(03:06:52):
course it was fun. We hadfun, she was beautiful, everything was
new. Then what happened? Shit, time happened, growth happen, life
happened. We were happy until weweren't. Sometimes I wonder how people are
so sure that this is the personthey want to be with for the rest
of their lives, especially if you'rein your early twenties. I mean,

(03:07:15):
you barely know yourself. You barelyknow about life in your twenties. Man,
you don't even know what to lookfor in a person. All this
damn pressure to be married, finda career, get a house, et
cetera. I still try to goto Chick fil A on Sundays. How
the hell am I supposed to doall of that? I've deaf pulled up
Chick fil A on a Sunday pissed. Life is hard, ain't it?

(03:07:37):
And my daughter out here stressing overniggas, and it pains me because I
want to tell her about dating andall of that shit. But I'm just
dad. I'm just an old niggawho don't know nothing. Well, you
are old nigga, Hey what Itell you? You got to let her
learn on her own. Yeah,that sounds good until she pops up pregnant

(03:08:01):
by a little nigga who still putshis middle finger up in pictures. That's
a note for me. You're stupid, I know, but I just I
really wish you just listened to me. But she doesn't she'll come around,
hopefully. Do you want to bein another relationship? I don't know.

(03:08:22):
I think about it sometimes, butthen my underarms start to itch. I
started sweating, my stomach started tohurt. I think I'm allergic. I'm
not about to deal with you tonightat all. Do you want to be
in a relationship you're looking for love? Not at all? I'm okay.
I'm trying to figure out who JessicaKelly is as a woman. Once I

(03:08:43):
do that, I'll be open toit. Smart girl. Have you ever
fucked out here? Nah? Why? I don't know. Never had the
opportunity, I guess. Is thisnot an opportunity? Shit? Is it?

(03:09:05):
Yeah? You're not gonna peel meagain? Are you? I can
get the towel right now, seethat right there? Being an asshole is
the quickest way to make my pussydry. I wish you took jokes the
same way you took dick. Oh, excuse me, you just don't quit,
do you? That just killed themood. Opportunity gone, sir?

(03:09:26):
Oh, never make it up toyou. No get away from me.
Oh it's like that. Yep,stand up? Why girls staying your ass
up? Now? What turn around? Bend over and observe the city.
What you about to do? Shutit up? Make me. He lifted

(03:09:48):
the shirt so that my ass wasexposed. He started kissing me from my
inner thighs on up, while runninghis fingers up the back of my legs.
He gave me chills. He thenparted my legs a little bit and
started eating my pussy from behind.The city was so silent I was scared
to moan. His neighbor's patio wasopen, and the building across the street

(03:10:11):
had a few lights on. Butthe fear of someone seeing us gave me
such a rush. He stood up, put a condom on, and slid
inside me. He started to strokeslowly, then lean forward and started talking
to me. Why the fuck youso quiet? Does this not feel good?
Yes? I just don't want tobe too loud. We are outside.

(03:10:33):
What the fuck that means? Idon't want to get in trouble?
Trouble my hoops? What if someonesees us? Oh? Okay, let's
see how long that last? Wait? He don't. This is my house.
I make the rulers. Remember thisman grabbed the back of my shirt
like it was a fucking saddle andstarted fucking the dog shit out of me.

(03:10:56):
I didn't want to give in,so I bent my bottom lip to
keep from screaming, like I'm onit too. Oh it felt so damn
good. Oh oh yeah, I'mnot I'm not going I'm not gonna scream
back. He let go the shirtand spit in my ass. He eased
his thumb in and started sucking mefaster. With his opposite hand, he

(03:11:20):
began to smack my ass. Itried so hard not to moan, but
I couldn't help it. He wasfucking me like he hated me. I
know my moones and the sounds ofhim smacking my ass I go through the
streets, but I didn't even careabout getting caught no more. I let
it all out. Oh my god, that feel good. Yes, I

(03:11:41):
can't fucking hear you, I said, do that shit feel good? I
thought? So. He was fuckingme so good. I'm sure we woke
people up. I'm sure we hadsome purpose just listening to us. For
fucket, How did he know whatI like sexually? When I didn't even
know what I liked? How washe turning me on like this? I

(03:12:07):
lost it. I came so hardthat my knees started to buckle. Oh
no, Na, nah, you'renot getting away from me that easy.
Stain your ass up. I can'tstain your ass up. I tightened my
fusta on his deck to help himout. I needed to be done,
dick to mo. He was tryingto have me sprung. Oh oh shit,

(03:12:33):
damn girl, Oh my god,Hey God, didn't have nothing to
do with that. That was allyou look unless you want me to move
in this bitch, stop sucking melike that. Okay, Damn, I
can't dick you down like that.No, not back to back, nigga,
spread it out. I didn't knowmy bad, but let's head to

(03:12:54):
the room. Though. I thinkyou woke some people up. Oh now
you want to run trifling? Howare you gonna cook for me? Make
me squirt, suck my pussy onthe patio, and have good conversation.
You better hope I don't tie yourass to the bed like that white lady
in misery. Hey, hey,a a hill, do not do all

(03:13:16):
of that. I got it now, I'll dial it back. Yeah,
spread it out. Give me somemediocre dick here and there. I won't
be mad. You need balance?Balance the fuck? Is that all right?
I warned you. Now I knowhow women be falling in love over
dick. I thought it was amess. I got it. I got
it. Now I need some sleep. My pussy needs a nap. Oh

(03:13:41):
so you're not gonna leave like lasttime? Huh? I know you didn't
have a busy dead ahead of you. You just didn't want to sleep over.
Oh that that. You can justtell me you don't want to sleep
over. I won't get mad.I wouldn't care if you did bullshit?
Then while you lie, Hey,don't call me out. Just let me

(03:14:01):
live my life. I'm gonna letyou live. But are you staying or
not? Because I'm not getting myass up out of bed in the middle
of the night to walk your assout. Oh so do you ever just
ask for what you want? Isee what you did there, cute?
You must want me to stay.Nah, I just want some sleep.
But it would be nice to makeyou breakfast. Oh shit, that's all

(03:14:24):
you had to say, leave withthe food next time. But you really
are greedy? Are you judging?Are you judging all? Not at all?
Good? We lay there in bedin the dark, just talking about
random shit until we fell asleep.Never once did either of us look at
our phones, no distractions. Itwas like his house was some sort of

(03:14:46):
escape from the outside world. Smellinggood, sir, Oh hey, hey,
hey, good morning, Good morning, as promised, breakfast, but

(03:15:07):
there are tooth brushes in the topdrawer in the bathroom. Up, don't
ruin my image of you with thisbad breath. Oh so you don't like
crusty eyes and bad bru The crustyeyes I can deal with. It's the
green fumes coming from your mouth.Have a problem with you. They left
my friend and go tend to that. I just want you to know that
you got me fucked up. Hey, hey, you said enough. He

(03:15:31):
talks so much shit, but Iloved it. Why because guys don't talk
to me like this. They'd betoo scared to joke with me. He
kept it fun. His old asswas cooking me breakfast and sweatpants, no
underwear, so you know, asDick was hanging no shirt on body looking
good, his sweats were hanging lowenough for you to see that little beeline.

(03:15:52):
Love of shit. I had tosuck them off for something. Had
to show my appreciation. You happynow fresh bruh, Come here, let
me see yep, I'm happy.Now we good? That shit was brutal.
Shut up? Why do old peoplewake up so damn early? Did

(03:16:13):
you get some sleep early? Niggais eleven thirty? And yeah, I
got some sleep? Oh is iteleven thirty? Eleven? Yes, eleven
thirty? Shit, my coulds heneeded the rest? I bet it did
anyway. What you're making? Shit? Nothing special? Scrambled eggs with cheese
and spinach, chicken sauceage, raisingtoast. Mmm, sounds good, it's

(03:16:37):
actually done. Ready to eat?Yeah, in a minute. I can't
eat right when I wake up meeither, But since I've been up for
a minute, I'm about to eat. Wait, come here, what you
want me woman? This? Oh? Yeah, yep, don't wake him
up if you're not gonna do nothingwith him. Oh, I'm gonna do
something with him. I pushed himout onto the patio. Oh you bold

(03:17:01):
today? Huh? Yep, youscared girl. Who you think you talking
to? Show me something? Okay, yeah, I'm here for all of
this. I pulled his dick outand started sucking it, just like he
instructed me last night, slowly inand out, licking the shaft of his
dick while rubbing the head dick's areugly, but his was nice. He

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had a handsome dick. I didn'tcare if anyone saw us. I was
putting on the show. I tookit all in and bit the base of
his dick. He grabbed the backof my head. I eased it out
my mouth slowly while biting it afew more times. Oh shit, girl,
you really listened to a nigga lastnight. This shit feels good.

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Shut up boy. I wanted himto come in my mouth. I wanted
to taste him. I grabbed itwith both pants like Superhead did in that
porner with mister Marcus. I wantedto see if I could actually do it.
Yep. His ass started squirming andshit, big ass ego booster,
so I kept it up. Girls, stop, I'm about to come,

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I said. Oh shit, heexploded. I took it all though.
I pride myself on my note gagreflexes. You could tell he ain't healthy,
and I'm glad for it. Hehelped me up and kissed me.
Something about a man kissing you afteryou swallow his nut is so fucking sexy.

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Shit fuck sucked the soul out ofmy neck. Problem. Hell nah,
I ain't need my soul today anyway, I didn't think. So now
let's eat. I worked up anappetite. I bet good work. You
learn fast. You're a good teacher. I know. Now I'm really starving.

(03:18:58):
I'm about to smash oo meat.Who So what you want to drink?
You want orange juice or water?Oh? I got some almonmelk too.
Oh the hell drinks water with theirbreakfast? What's up a old nigga?
Shit is that? Hey? Iwas just giving you options. Boy
that orange juice before I leave you? Funny? Nah, you the funny
one. We ate, washed dishesand sat on the patio. The view

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was so nice. It felt goodknowing that no one knew where I was.
I was eating good and being fuckedlike a queen. So what you
got going on today? Nothing?Really got to help my mom with something
around for so after that? Nothing? Probably kicking it with my girl Stephanie.

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You nothing, and I'm relaxing today, that's what's up? So?
Uh have you told anyone about us? Yeah? My best friend just in
case you were a killer, neededsomeone to know who you were really a
killer? Yeah? Old man swooningyoung women at the bar then locking them

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in the basement. Man, ifyou don't shut the hell up, I
don't even have a basement, justsaying never can be too careful. Yeah,
okay what I watched a lot oflaw in order spu anything is possible.
What about you, though? Haveyou told anyone? Yeah? I
got Chris in Atlanta had to tellsomebody that shit was too good. You

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know I'll do it. I can't. Oh, man, here you go.
What I like my ego stroke too? Let me get mine? You
got it? So you don't feela way about my age? Do you
not? If you're gonna be fuckingme like that? Nah, I'm for
real. I mean no, Idon't know. I haven't really thought about

(03:20:52):
it too much me either, ButI know people will flip the fuck out
if they found out I was datinga twenty one year old. Well,
we don't have to date. Thenwe can go out on dates, but
we don't need to make this athing. This right here is nice.
You sure? I don't want youto think I'm high on you or nothing.
Yeah, I'm a big girl,I tell you. Otherwise, this

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is fun. I'm enjoying myself.Cool. What made you ask that?
This morning? I woke up andjust had to stop myself from staring at
you while you were asleep, Sobeautiful, even with the crust in my
eyes, Even with the crust inyour eyes. I was just looking at
you thinking about how much life youhave ahead of you. I'm excited to

(03:21:37):
see what you make out of life. Oh key nah for real. When
I was twenty one, I wasdating my ex and I can never go
back and redo that. Can't getthat time back. Do you feel like
you really live fifty to fifty?Some shit I didn't do because of her
opportunities. I couldn't take it iswhat it is, though, I ain't
no reset, but not at all. That's why you gotta be careful with

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who you spend your time with.You don't get that shit back. Be
careful who you spend your time with. Man, you don't want to wake
up at thirty wishing you were twentyone, so don't waste your time at
twenty one thinking you're thirty. Beyoung, please, it's okay. You
never hear people telling young people tobe young. I will be fucking young.

(03:22:22):
So many young people doing old peopleshit. Do that when you're older.
I really appreciate this advice you're givingme. It's pivotal right now as
I find myself. You're welcome.Well, I need to hand home and
prepare for my day. I needa bath, go on and soak that

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little pussy. Why my pussy gottto be little? I'm playing, I'm
playing. Well, I won't holdyou up. I went to his badroom
and got dressed. I really didn'twant to leave. I wanted to stay
there with them for a few morehours. In this short time, I
grew accustomed to him being around.As I finished time my shoes, I

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looked up to see him at myeringme. I blushed, and he walked
over and sat next to me onthe bed. There you go again with
that look. I'm sorry, Ican't help it. I really don't want
you to leave, but I knowyou got shit to do. I know
right, I want to stay aswell, but life calls. Just want

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you to know you have an openinvitation to come up with whenever you want.
Do I yeah, you do sowhenever you want to see me or
just get away hit me up.Well, thank you, sir. I
appreciate it. I hate to admitit, but you're growing on me.
Likewise, Well, I should getgoing if I sit here any longer,

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I might not get up. Yeah, I can't have that. Thank you
for a great time, Keith,for real, I mean it. You're
welcome remember anytime open invitation got ithy davy girl bikey. Me and Keith

(03:24:20):
started kicking it heavy. I wouldcome home from school every other weekend to
see him, and we didn't alwayshave sex either. I would bring my
schoolwork to his house and he wouldlet me study while he worked in the
studio. We toyed with the ideaof titles. But I just wasn't ready
to commit to someone. His age. Doesn't mean that I didn't enjoy being

(03:24:41):
with them, didn't mean I didn'thave feelings for him. I wasn't seeing
anyone else. We just had anunderstanding. Although he brought it up here
and there. Did you enjoy thefood? Ooh yes, I'm stuffed.

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How did you even hear about thisplace? Through a friend? They spoke
highly of it, so I said, why not? I know you love
food, so I knew you,of all people, will be done to
try it. Well. I appreciateyou for thinking to me. You know
my heart and my stomach. Ithink about you a lot. Actually,
do you now? Yeah? Ido, probably a little bit too much.

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I don't think that's possible. Imean, I am kind of dope,
so I understand you are as muchas I hate to admit it,
you are that, but you aren'ttoo bad yourself, sir. Oh,
well, thank you, you're welcome. But hey, I kind of want
to tell you something. Oh yeah, what's that? And don't flip out

(03:25:46):
or nothing. I know how youlike to be extra boy, spill it,
okay. I love you, Jessica. Oh. I don't want you
to switch up or nothing, butI do love you. I've been feeling
this way for a while now.Just wanted you to know, well,
I love you too, Keith.Yeah, but you mean yeah, yeah,

(03:26:11):
food. We've been kicking it fora year and some change. What's
not to love? You? Treatme like a queen? What that said?
Have you changed your mind about beingwith an older man, Keith?
We've talked about it. No,I know, I know, just seeing
where your head is. That that'sall. You know how I feel about
you? You know, I don'twant to be with anyone else. Say
let's say, let's I get it. I won't press it anymore. I

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just wanted you to know that Ilove you. We're good, Yeah,
we're good. But is you good? Yeah? I'm good, I promise.
I can't believe your boat ass wasnervous to tell me you love me.
That's hard to believe. Well,shit, you're only the second woman
I've ever told that too, Andit's not like we're in a relationship with
titles. I was scared of sayingsomething will run you off. Give me

(03:26:58):
a break, nigga. Well you'rethe first man I've ever told that too.
So oh, now I feel specialas you should. Now let's go
so I can fuck you before wego. I have something else to tell
you. Well, ask you?Okay, what's up? I wanted to
know if you would take a keyto my place? What really? I

(03:27:20):
mean, you're always there anyway,I figure, why not, Keith?
Are you sure me not wanting tohave titles doesn't bother you? Not having
a title doesn't bother me as muchas you think. So I'm sure I
know you're not going nowhere? Whyis this too much shit? I know?
No, no, no, no, no, no, it's not
too much. I've just never havethe key to someone's place before. You

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don't have to take it if youdon't want to. You don't have to
take it. There's no pressure.Oh, I'll take it. I just
wasn't expecting you to give me akey. All right, So you're cool.
I just hit you with a lot. I'm cool. But is there
anything else you want to tell mebefore we leave? Let it all out

(03:28:03):
now now, I'm good. I'mdone. You sure? I mean you're
on a road tonight. Don't letme stop you there you go, be
an extra promise. That's it.Ain there, good, and don't feel
away about none of this. Justtake it as I like having you around.
Oh I don't feel away. Iknow you mean well, Keith.

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And this isn't me trying to lureyou into a relationship either. See I
wasn't even thinking that, but nowI am. I'm just laying with you.
Now let's go. I want tofuck you now, sir? Oh
yeah, yeah, got me feelingout mushy and shit, let's go.
Oh shit, I like it whenyou're aggressive. That night we made love.

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But the first time in my lifeI was fucking the man that I
loved and that I knew without adoubt loved me back. No, we
didn't have a title in our situation, but it didn't make the love any
less authentic. It had been along and stressful week and I just needed

(03:29:16):
to get away. I walked into find keeps sending on the patio with
this look of concern on his face. Hey sir, Oh shit, Hey
baby girl, I ain't even hearyou come in. What you're doing here?
Though? I wasn't expecting to seeyou this weekend? I know I
missed you, an I had along, gass week. Oh. I

(03:29:39):
just needed to get away. Weain't nothing wrong with that. What's that
with you? Though? Everything?Okay? Yeah, yeah, everything is
cool. Just relaxing. Really,that's what's up. I knew he was
lying, but I didn't want topress the issue. When you know someone,
you can just tell something is up. Something was different about her?

(03:30:01):
Yo. Do you have a passport? No? I keep saying that I'm
gonna get one, but I neverdo. Why you ask? Let's go
down and get one tomorrow? Oh? Okay, wow? What's up?
I think I want to hit upa few places, and you're my designated
travel buddy. Now you know Ican't afford that right now? Okay,
since when have you ever had topay for anything? Chill? I got

(03:30:22):
you. Oh shit, wh whereare we going? I think I want
to see the Eiffel Tower. Ohshit, Paris really don't play with me?
And yeah Paris? Well shit,when we going? Because I'm ready
now, I bet you are soonsoon I'll let you know, but first
we got to get you a passport. Bet I'm glad I just popped up.

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I need to pop up more oftenif this will prompt trips to Paris.
You are the most extra person I'veever met. I'm not I'm just
saying I hear you. There's someother places I've never been that I like
to go, too, Like wheredon't laugh? But Atlanta is one.
Boy? You ain't never been toAtlanta? Nope, what the hell?

(03:31:07):
I've never been to Atlanta? NewYork, California? Shit, nowhere?
Really? Kid? You tripping?I know? I know. I wanted
to go years ago, but neverhad the money. Then when I got
the money, I had nobody togo with. Now I got you.
Well, time is of the essence, Isn't that what they say? Who
the hell is day? Because I'venever heard anyone say that in my life.

(03:31:31):
Here you go, ruining the damnmoment, just going along with the
next time. Damn kid, Ineed to work on that. My bad,
My bad. You would think onewould get better, clearly, not
your ass, clearly, but forreal. There are things I want to
do that I need to stop puttingoff. You're motivating me to get shit
done. Ain't that my job?It is? And you do it well?

(03:31:52):
Thank you, baby girl. You'rewelcome. Well. When we go
to La, we have to hita Rosco. Oh, and we gotta
go to a little five in Atlanta, we had a c limbstone mountain.
Oh, I need to go shoppingin n Why man, I can't wait.
After that conversation, we traveled.Every break I had from school,

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started with spending a week in Atlanta, then La, New York, and
eventually Paris to see the Eiffel Tower. It was beautiful. I graduated from
college spring of twenty thirteen. OnceI moved back home, though, things
started to change. That's when Imet Dominic. I was very apprehensive about

(03:32:35):
giving him any play because of Keith. We weren't together, but out of
respect for him, I didn't dealwith any other guys. But I had
graduated from school, I had ajob and felt the only thing that was
missing in my life was a manwho was mine, a man that I
could possibly build with, a manI could go out in public with and
not receive nasty looks. Dominic caughtme slipping and won me over. I

(03:33:00):
was scared to tell Keith about it, so I kept making excuses. Every
time he tried to see me.I couldn't face him. Hello, Hey,
baby girl, what's up? HeyKeith? How you being. I
haven't heard from you in a coupleof weeks. Everything okay, Yeah,

(03:33:24):
I'm sorry. Just been crazy busytrying to keep up with these deadlines at
work. They are killing me portingting how do you like the job?
But justin will it's great, andyeah, I'm adjusting. They're just working
me to death. Well nothing comesovernight, so just keep going that and
I'm sure to pay off. Hey, can I call you back? I'm

(03:33:46):
kind of busy right now. Ohwell yeah, call me tomorrow or something.
Okay, I will Bye bye.Told you I was That was the
first time I had ever lied toKeith, and it got more and more
frequent. I would pop up everynow and then just to show my face,

(03:34:07):
but we never did anything. Ihave feelings for Dominic. We have
started to build something real, Andthat's when I knew I had to tell
Keith. I still had to keepto his apartment, so I decided to
finally tell him and deal with whateverbacklash I had. Come in. Well,

(03:34:31):
I'll be look you here, Lookwhat the cat don drug in?
Hey sir, what are you upto? Nothing important? So to what
do I owe this pleasant surprise?Oh? Wait, you must be home.
No, I actually just wanted tosee your face. It's been a

(03:34:54):
while, I agree. Will comein, Come in, Come in,
sit down. Are you losing weight? Yeah? I got sick a couple
of weeks ago, but I've beenjuiced since then, trying to keep it
sexy and healthy. You know.So, how's everything going. How's a
job? The job's going great.I love it. They're busting my ass,

(03:35:16):
but it's okay. I have toprove myself. I know that it's
all a part of the come upright right. Your time is coming.
Don't worry about it. Just keepbusting the ass. What's been up with
you though? Any new projects you'vebeen working on? Actually, yeah,
just get back from New York helpingthis company with audio for a few shows

(03:35:37):
they're doing. Oh man, yeah, dope, shit, Keith I know
you love that. Hell, yeah, I'm excited. I bet Hey.
Are you okay? You seem alittle off? What's on your mind?
Talk to me, Keith. Ihave something I need to tell you.

(03:35:58):
Okay, I got somethime. Ineed to tell you too, but you
go first, okay, Keith.Yeah, I met a guy. We've
been talking for a few months,and I'm starting to develop feelings for him.

(03:36:18):
Oh oh damn. Please please don'tbe mad at me. I wanted
to tell you sooner, but Iwas scared. I'm not mad. I'm
not mad at all. I knewthis day will come. I've been trying
to prepare for it. Honestly,I'm actually shocked to last it as long
as it did. Keith, I'mso sorry. It's okay, baby girl,

(03:36:43):
don't be sorry. We had agood run, right, a very
good run. This hurts me sobad because I love you. I love
you so much, and I feellike I feel like I'm betrayed. Come
here, Come here, come here. It's okay. I love you too,
a baby girl. Don't cry,don't cry. I understand. Why

(03:37:07):
couldn't you just be younger? Iwant to be with you. I want
you Keith, I want to bewith you. Hey, hey, hey,
life doesn't work like that, babygirl. I wish I was your
age all the time. Why dowe keep it going so long? Knowing
it would come to this? Iasked myself that every fucking day. I

(03:37:30):
also asked how the hell did Iallow myself to fall in love with the
twenty one year old that I metat the bar? Because I'm cute,
because you're beautiful. You sure you'renot mad at me? You're handling this
better than I expected. Hey,how could I be mad? You've given

(03:37:50):
me the best three years a mancould have asked for. That's why I
heard so bad. I kind offigured you with dating somebody, though.
Really? How because I got distant? Yeah, that and the conversation changed.
You stopped coming over as often,you stopped having sex with me.

(03:38:13):
I knew it was almost over oncethe sex stop. I was just waiting
on you to tell me I'm sorry. I handled this all wrong. I
feel like I've hurt you and Ilet you down. Now, you didn't
let me down. You live,and you learn right. I won't hold
that against you. Hell, ifI were you, I can't say that
I would have handled the situation anydifferently. This sucks so bad. I

(03:38:37):
agree, I agree, But howdo you break up with somebody you are
in a relationship with. Sounds likethe title of a Drake song. It
does. But we had fun though, a lot of fun. Keith.
Yeah, You're the best thing thatever happened to me, baby girl.

(03:39:00):
Thank you, No, let mefinish. You've exposed me to so much.
You taught me so much, notjust about sex, but about love
and loving myself and life and everything. I can't imagine my life without you.
What's crazy is you've taught me somuch as well. I felt like

(03:39:22):
I found myself with you. Butlike I've known you most of my life.
Really, I kind of feel likei've known you most of my life
too. But hey, hey,hey, let's stop talking like we won't
see each other again. I'll behere, We'll still be friends. I
know. I just wanted to letyou know how much I appreciate you,

(03:39:43):
and I appreciate it. Hey,you still got that open invitation come over
whenever you want. Okay, doyou mind if I just lay here with
you for a while. Stay aslong as you like, baby girl,
stays long as you like. Sowhat was it you wanted to tell me,

(03:40:05):
Oh, I can wait, Let'sjust let's just lay here and chill.
I lay there on the slab forhours, hurding, not wanting to
leave because I knew it was over. We have been air tight this whole
time, and I broke the seal. I couldn't help but feel guilty.

(03:40:26):
We want a couple, but Ifelt like I cheated on my life partner
and finally confessed when it was timefor me to leave. I felt like
I was walking out on everything webuilt. Oh man, I did not
plan on falling asleep. What timeis it? Almost two am? Fuck?
I have to be in the officeby seven tomorrow. Shit, I

(03:40:46):
have to go. Okay, reallystart tomorrow. Yeah, big project coming
up. I'm trying to impress them. So yeah, hey, you got
that shit, don't think about ittoo much, thank you. Oh,
here's your keyback? Whoa? Whoa? What are you giving that to me
for? Keep it? Never knowwhen you might need to get away again.

(03:41:09):
Are you sure? Absolutely? Justgive me a ring ahead of time
so I can get my new thingup out of here first. I'm just
playing, but keep it open invitation, remember, Okay? Cool? Well,
I'll call you this weekend. Okay, I'll be around, don't forget
to call me. Okay, goodnight, Keth, goodbye, Jessica.

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He kissed me on my forehead andI left. My heart dropped as I
walked to my car. If Icould go back to that night and do
it all over again, I wouldhave said so much more. I would
have made sure he knew how muchI loved him. I would have stayed
just a bit longer. By thetime the weekend came, I was so
wrapped up with dominic and work thatI never called him. The more time

(03:41:58):
that went on, the more Ifelt weird about reaching out to him,
so I didn't. A couple ofmonths I went by. I was on
his side of town after work,so I called. No answer. I
figured, what the hell, Letme pop up on his ass. I

(03:42:18):
still had the key, so Iwent to his house. Keith, you
home, Kate, Hm, whereis this man at? I started walking

(03:42:46):
around his place. It was different, no energy, energy, no life
whatsoever. The studio didn't feel thesame, The bedroom didn't feel the same.
Y'all felt lifeless. I stood inthe kitchen and looked around, just
thinking about everything we have done andtalked about in this place. I missed

(03:43:11):
him, so I called him again. Hello, Jessica, Hey, who
is this? This is Amber Keith'ssister. Hey, Amber, is Keith

(03:43:31):
around? Yeah? Is he notavailable to talk? I think it's best
that you come up to the hospital. The hospital. What's going on?
Is Keith? Okay? I'll answeryour questions once you get here. Okay,
okay, I'm on my way rightnow. Everything started moving in slow

(03:43:52):
motion as I raced down there.I don't think I stopped for any light
to stop signs. Once I gotto his room, I saw sister sitting
there with big puffy eyes on thebench outside the store. I got scared.
Scared Amber. Hey, I'm justI know who you are. Jessica.
It's nice to finally meet you.This man has been asking have you

(03:44:13):
called for two weeks straight? Twoweeks? What's going on? What's wrong
with Keith? Did you know hehad a camia, had a camio,
had a cameo, had a cameo. He's known He's had it for about
two years now, now that Ithink about it. Right around the time

(03:44:35):
you two started traveling a lot,time stopped. Everything was so still I
couldn't move my lips to say thewords I wanted to say, ask the
questions I wanted to ask. Howcould I have been so blind? How
could I have been so wrapped upin my own world that I ignored everything

(03:44:56):
this man laid out in front ofme, the travel, the shifting energy,
how he started looking so different.It was all right in front of
me, and I didn't even notice. Jessica, Jessica, are you okay?
Huh? Sorry, I just Iknow it's a lot, but you're
all he's been asking about. He'sbeen waiting on you to call him since

(03:45:18):
he got here. Why didn't hecall me? I don't know. That
doesn't make any sense, is it? Okay? If I go in and
see him, Yeah, you cango in and see him. But he's
been in and out of sleep allday, so I'm not sure how much
talking you will get out of him. My mind was racing one hundred miles

(03:45:39):
a minute. I had so manyquestions for it, but I wanted to
see Keith. I was still thinkingthat this was some sick joke and he
would be on the other side ofthe door waiting to say. Surprise,
I walked in and see him hookedup to all kinds of machines. He
looked so frail from all the wayhe get lost. I instantly started crying.

(03:46:03):
He didn't look the same. Ipulled up a chair next to him
and grabbed his hand. Oh God, keep I put my head on his
hand and started crying harder. Whathas happened? I just saw this man.

(03:46:26):
Everything started playing back in my mind. The weight loss, the wanting
to travel. Is this what hehad to tell me the night I told
him about dominic? Is this whyhe took it so well? I couldn't
help but blame myself. Hey,baby girl, he Keith, why didn't

(03:46:48):
you tell me? Why didn't youcall me? I didn't want you to
worry. You had started a newjob, got a new little boyfriend.
I couldn't wear you with my healthissues. That's what she wanted to tell
me the night I told you Iwas seeing someone. Yeah, why didn't
you say anything? Too much heartachealready, But I was waiting on you

(03:47:11):
to call me. You never calledme. I'm so sorry, Kei.
Oh no, no, no,don't do that. Don't do that.
It's okay. We had a greattime, right, Yeah, that's how
all that matters. My sister toldme that I should have called you to
let you know I was in here, but I wanted to see if you
a call. She told me,I was crazy, because you are.

(03:47:33):
You should have called me. Iwould have been right here by your side.
I am crazy, but I knewyou would call. I went to
your place and everything. I hadto see you. I haven't been there
in weeks. I need to findsomeone to take care of it. That's
my baby. What your condo?Yeah? Why not your daughter? Hell

(03:47:58):
no, she wouldn't appreciate it.How about you take it? What you
would give it to me? Whynot? I don't know. But let's
stop talking about this. You're notgoing anywhere. You're gonna be just fine,
okay, but I want you tohave it. I love you,

(03:48:20):
Keith. I love you too,Papy Cirl and thank you. Thank you
for what for making me happy?For everything? Well, I was just
return in the favor. I hopeI didn't raise your standards too high.
He kind of did, but it'scool. They said, I gotta stick

(03:48:41):
from you paying on me? Knowwho? They didn't? I stop playing.
I'm super vulnerable right now here here, drink this. Thank you.
I'm gonna let you get some rest. I'll come back to myrow. Have
to work and check on you.Okay, baby girl? Bay we had

(03:49:03):
fun all right, Yeah, wehad a lot of fun. Oh,
i'll see you tomorrow though. Wecan reminisce then. Okay, okay,
I'll see you tomorrow. I loveyou. I love you too, baby
girl. I left out the roomand tell Amber to call me if anything

(03:49:26):
happened. I kept my composure untilI got my car. I put the
key in the ignition and just startedcrying. What the fuck was happening?

(03:49:52):
How was this happening so bad?I felt like a part of me was
dying on the inside the emotions.I was angry at him for not telling
me and allowed me to be Therefore, I was sad because I was losing
one of my best friends. Iwas hurt because I felt like the universe

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was playing a sick joke on me. All of a sudden, his age
was no longer an issue. Ijust wanted to give him all of me.
Who cares what people think? Thisman loved me more than any man
ever has. Why couldn't I justbe with him? Was I selfish?
Did I take him for granted?That night, I couldn't sleep all the

(03:50:41):
moments I had with Keith for runningthrough my mind, all the slick ass
comments, all the sex, andall of our talks. I staring at
the ceiling with tears in my eyes. His sister called and told me he
had died. Well, this isit, girl, this is nice as

(03:51:31):
hell, I know, right.So this is where you were hiding out
at when you weren't answering your phone. Yep, hmmm, I ain't mad
at it, girl. Look atthis fucking view. I see where you
were always here exactly. Kind ofcrazy how all the paperwork and stuff got

(03:51:54):
finished right when you and Dominicq brokeup. Look at God, right,
I can't be mad at him forcheating on me. I was a pretty
shitty girlfriend. Once Keith died.Did you ever tell him about how close
you and Keith were? God?No, just told him he was a
friend. Oh, I died onthe inside. Couldn't expect him to go
without sex or intention for too long. So is it going to be hard

(03:52:16):
for you to live here? Becauseif so, I can take it and
you can stay at my apartment.Why are you so trifling? Hey,
I'm just saying also trying to cheeryou up. Ano. This is super
tough for you. Thank you,Steph. I'm still trying to process all
of this. It's been a coupleof months since the funeral, but being
here just reopens everything. You know, I can't imagine what you're going through.

(03:52:41):
All of this is a bit much, it is, But I'll be
fine. Are you trying to convinceyourself you're fine? Or are you really
fine? I don't know. Maybea little bit of both. That's real.
Well what do you want to getrid of and what do you want
to keep? I don't know ifI can get rid of any of it,

(03:53:01):
Not now, not until I'm ready. Everything reminds me of him.
Okay, I hear you. What'sback there? The studio in bedroom?
Oh shit, he got a legitstudio on here. I'm about to drop
a mixed tap. Bitch, it'sover. I can't believe it. The

(03:53:22):
microphone, the phone I can getbeats from the dude that's been in my
inbox. Crazy, what I'm Icall it? Bitch? Better have my
money Volume seven? Nah? No, no, no, what about the
other six values? Damn? Thiswas the first time I've been in his
bedroom since it's passing. I wentto his closet and looked at its close.

(03:53:43):
I saw the big shirt that Iwore on our second night together.
He said it was special and Captainhung up. I grabbed and hugged it
while sitting on the bed. It'sstill smelled like his cologne. I looked
around and started every plane, everythingin my head, all of our memories

(03:54:03):
together. I opened the top drawer. If it's nice, then documents an
old mail boring I closed it.I opened the sex shoor, which was
almost full due to all the toyswe went and bought. There was a
novelope on top of everything, addressedto me. I stared at it for

(03:54:24):
a second before grabbing it. What'sthat It's a letter from Keith? You
think I don't know? Well,what are you waiting for? Open it?
I opened the envelope and started toread the letter. Hey girl,
if you're reading this, then I'mgone. I know you've been probably trying

(03:54:45):
to make sense of everything, tryingto piece it all together. I first
want to say that I'm sorry fornot telling you about my condition sooner.
The day I asked about you havinga passport is when I got the news.
My health was on up and upuntil right before you told me about
your boyfriend. I had started gettingsick more and losing weight, which I
blamed on juicing and exercising when youasked. I want you to know that

(03:55:05):
I love you and I never intendedto hurt you. I just didn't want
to weigh you down with my healthissues. I hope you accept my place
as a peace offering. All ofthe memories we have here are yours to
keep. Under one condition, don'twaste your time on anything or anyone.
I want you to live your lifehow you want to, with whoever you
want to be free, because oneday it'll all be over. You made

(03:55:28):
me so happy in such a shortperiod of time that I'm almost upset that
I can't offer you more. Ilove your baby, girl, and I
mean that. I'll be looking downon you to make sure you stay on
track. But I'll also be lookingdown on you when you shower, because
I'm a purv until we meet again. Hech so, keith you good?

(03:55:50):
You may mint it. No,I'm gonna sit right here. You don't
have to hold it in, Jess. You don't have to pretend to be
okay. Now. I know youloved him. I missed him so much.
Stephanie, I know I'm here,girl. I cried on her shoulders

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for what seemed like forever. Istayed the rest of the weekend in his
bed, crying and sleeping. Stephaniestayed at the place with me to make
sure I was okay. I wasn'tokay. That was the reason I stopped
dating. I didn't want to getclose to anyone. I didn't want to
have sex with anyone until I readhis letter again sometime later. Don't waste

(03:56:37):
your time on anyone or anything.I want you to live your life how
you want and with whoever you want. Be free, because one day it'll
all be over. So I workhard, I do what I want,
I do who I want when Iwant, and nothing will make me question
myself as a woman. I lostsomeone who didn't enjoy life unto his forties.

(03:57:01):
We think happiness is promised and guaranteed. We think love works like it
does in the movies, and Iknow it doesn't. I've seen what it
did to him, and I'm aboutto never let it happen to me.

(03:57:52):
Previously on Black Widow, So Igot a question. Now you ain't got
to answer if you don't want to. What's up. The cops just busted.
You're giving me head Okay, youjust let me finger you in this
restaurant, and you told me aboutthis airplane. I want to know when
you get this free? Like,who opens your nose up to this?

(03:58:15):
No man has ever asked me this. You sure you want to know this?
Look at my face, don't Ilook in tree? Nah? You
look ugly? Man? Nah?Really I want to know. But if
you don't want to open up andtell me, I completely understand. No,
I don't mind. For some strangereason, I trust you. It

(03:58:37):
could be my charm, It couldbe this wine. Yeah, whatever.
I just really want to know,though. Well, you really trying me
tonight, mister. Hey, I'mKeith. My name is Jessica. Nice
to meet you, Jessica. Doyou mind me asking how old you are?
I know women are pretty worried aboutthat. I never understood it either,

(03:59:00):
but I'm twenty one. Oh man, what you're about to say that
I'm a baby. Well I wasn't, but now that you mention it,
yes, you are a baby.I just have a daughter who's eighteen,
and here I am flirting with atwenty one year old. Damn father?
Talk how old are you I'm fortyfour. I'll be forty five in September.

(03:59:20):
Wow. I wouldn't have guessed thatyou don't look forty five. Are
you feeling lucky? Shit? Shouldhave I think you should. Are you
feeling lucky? If you intend onteaching me something new, then yeah,
I could teach you a few things. Well, where do I sign up?

(03:59:41):
Just say a word. I feellike we've talked enough. I agree,
So what's next? Can you tellme you want to get out of
here? Hell? Yeah, yougot me curious now. If anything isn't
to your liking, just tell meif I'm too rough or too nat The
safe word is watermelon. Safe wordyes. If I do something you don't

(04:00:07):
like, say that word cool.Yeah, I guess, so keep the
toy and click. Guys usually fuckedme fast, but he stroked me slow
while smacking my ass. He wentslow, as if he wanted to make
sure I felt all of him,or so that he felt all of me,
grabbing my hair with one hand andsmacking my ass with the other.

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He was right. The music allowedme to go to another place. I
was present, but not really.I was there enjoying him, but it
felt more therapeutic than anything. Heflipped me over to where my ass was
propped up on the arm of thecouch. He bent my legs back and
started fucking me hard and fast.He told me to rub my click and

(04:00:50):
once I did that, I spacedall the way out. All I heard
was the baseline of the music.Then a few strokes later, the unexpected
happened. I squirted it. Ohshit, somebody likes this. Oh my
gosh, if I hit the highship, I'm sorry. It's okay.

(04:01:18):
What you're sorry for. I've neverscored it before. I didn't even know
I could do that. It's okay, Jessica. Really, I need to
go to the bathroom. I hateto admit it, but you're growing on
me. Likewise, well I shouldget going. If I sit here any
longer, I might not get up. Yeah, I can't have that.

(04:01:43):
Thank you for a great time,Keith, for real. I mean it.
You're welcome remember anytime? Open invitation? Got it? I larey girl
by Keith. Hey, are youokay? You seem a little off.
What's on your mind? Talk tome, Keith? I have something I

(04:02:07):
need to tell you. Okay,I got something I need to tell you.
Too, but you go first,Okay, Keith. Yeah, I
met a guy. We've been talkingfor a few months, and I'm starting
to develop feelings for him. Ohdamn, please please don't be mad at

(04:02:33):
me. I wanted to tell yousooner, but I was scared. I'm
not mad. I'm not mad atall. I knew this day would come.
Amber. Hey, I'm just Iknow who you are, Jessica.
It's nice to finally meet you.This man has been asking have you called
for two weeks straight? Two weeks? What's going on? What's wrong with
Keith? Did you know he had? They said I got sick from you

(04:03:03):
paying on me? Know who?They didn't. I stopped playing. I'm
super vulnerable right now here here,drink this. Thank you. I'm gonna
let you get some rest. I'llcome back tomorrow after work and check on
you. Okay, baby girl.But hey, we had fun, all

(04:03:26):
right, Yeah, we had alot of fun. I'll see you tomorrow
though. We can reminisce thing.Okay, okay, I'll see you tomorrow.
I love you. I love youtoo, baby girl. I'll staring
at the ceiling with tears in myeyes. His sister called and told me

(04:03:48):
he had died. Well, Isay, God, damn what. I

(04:04:09):
didn't expect it to be so intense. That was a lot. Yeah,
I know, but you asked.You're right, but you you're cools?
All right? Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry for anleashing all of that on
you. I'm sure that's not whatyou expected. Nah, it ain't,
but it's cool. I learned alot about you in just a little time.

(04:04:33):
I'm gonna go to the bathroom realquick and freshen up. No problem,
I'll pay for the bill so wecan leave, okay, br B.
I had to go to the bathroomand let out my thug tears.
I couldn't let him see me cry. Talking about Keith still brought up emotions
for obvious reasons. I still misshim. Should I have told him that

(04:04:54):
story? Probably not, But heasked. I used the rest from a
game my composure before going back out. All right, we set to go.
You're really yeah, I'm ready.What's next? This is a lounge
on the other side of town.It's pretty dope. You want to check
it out? Sure, I'm game. This is your city, and seither
that or back to the hotel tosleep. I'm tired. Cool, I

(04:05:18):
won't keep you out too late becausewe do have an early morning. Oh
fuck, I forgot about that trainingsession. Oh yeah, that bitch can
get pretty boring. We can checkthis lounge out for a little hot minute,
then I'll take you back so youcan get your beauty rests. Okay,
I'm down for that. Let's go. So I told you that long

(04:05:45):
emotional love story. What about you? What about me? Is there anything
you experienced while dealing with someone thatkind of alsterered how you view relationship?
Oh? Hell yeah, Well let'shear it. Okay, all right,
you can start. Man, mybad man, I get a little mad

(04:06:07):
when I think about it. Hadto calm myself down. Woofs, I
really quick. Well damn now,I really want to hear it. It
was my most recent ex that wasthe most exhausting relationship slash situationship I've ever
been in. Well I'm listening.Me and this girl man at the party
and we exchanged social media like everybodyelse, ended up as fuck friends for

(04:06:31):
a while. Sounds typical. Socialmedia is probably the center of a lot
of relationships. Yeah, but thisshit is a trick, a trick,
you know what I mean? Whenpeople aren't what they seem online. Oh
yeah, niggas lie every day.I mean she was fucking nuts, are
Yeah, you will never know howcrazy someone is be a social media Hell

(04:06:52):
no, you won't. All theseupdates on Instagram and they ain't came out
with a crazy detector yet, thesemotherfuckers slipping you big matter about that or
not super mad about this shit man? But anyway, she was so fine
that she kind of thought it wascute until he was waistep in that shit.
So what happened exactly? Fuck buddiesturned lovers? You're not really answering

(04:07:15):
the question exactly that. I mean, we dated for a few months.
We had sex every chance we got. I heard crazy people got the best
sex. You month of fucking right, we had each other with. We
got too comfortable though, and stoppedwearing condos, and she got pregnant.
Oh shit, Oh shit, isright. So after seven or eight months

(04:07:35):
of dating, she gets pregnant.So we try to do the right thing.
Neither one of you thought about abortion, because of course I did,
but she wasn't having it. Andsince women had a final say so we
didn't have one. I didn't wantto force it on her because I ain't
want her, thinking I ain't careabout her, and at the time I
really did. Okay, so ninemonths of dating, come on, she

(04:08:01):
gets pregnant then what? So weattempted to live with one another. My
lease was up, she was roommateswith someone else, so we said,
fuck it, why not? Itjust made sense financially, save money,
prepare for the baby. Prego pussyis the best I heard. Now you
following me, I thought it wasabout to be a lady situation. How

(04:08:22):
did you feel about her having yourkid though? I mean, it wasn't
ideal to have a baby out awell, especially with a woman you hadn't
known for a full year. Butlife happens and you deal with it.
That's true. Every month she gotcrazy and crazy. I don't know if
it was because of the baby orthe hormones, or if it's because we
were living together. I'm gonna gowith d all of the above. She

(04:08:46):
couldn't hide her crazy from you anymore. You can go, man. She
started tripping about my friends, aboutme going out. Then she started going
through my phone. I thought maybeI was doing something wrong, or maybe
I was going out too much,or maybe I was being too friendly with
women on social media. Was thatit? Nope, man, she started

(04:09:07):
questioning women at my job. Oneday, I came home for work and
she was crying. I thought somethingwas wrong with the baby, and I'm
like, what the fuck is goingon? I'm trying to figure this shit
out. She says she was jealousof a woman at my job seeing me
more than her. What the fuck? Man? I was pissed. I
felt like I was being punked.Where the fuck is asking that? I
bet you did, man, shutup? Okay, okay, my bad.

(04:09:33):
Anyway, it gets worse and worse. I was fed up, so
I left. I went to staywith one of my homeboys for a few
days to cool off. While Iwas gone, she had a miscarriage.
Oh shit, I'm sorry, justinIt's okay, man, shit happens.
How far along was she? Fourmonths? Damn that sucks. Man.

(04:09:54):
Losing the baby wasn't even the worstpart. The worst part of all this
is I think she did it toget me to come back home. She
didn't know I was only leaving fora few days. Oh yeah. When
I left, I made a grandexit. I'm sinking this shit. Fuck
this shit packed a big ass bag, slammed the door peeled off stars,
why are you so extra? Justin my blood? And I blocked her

(04:10:16):
on everything. She couldn't get contactwith me via nothing. Why would you
do that? No one? Shewas pregnant because I had to make a
point, and that point was thatI was tired of her shit so much
I would leave her as gotcha anyway. So a couple of days later,
her mom calls me, telling methat she's having complications. I rushed to

(04:10:37):
the hospital found out that, infact, she lost the baby. Shit
justin I'm so sorry. I wascool, but when I got there,
she seemed to look different. Whatdo you mean by different? Her eyes
were just different. She seemed supercalm, blink looked on her face.
Seemed like losing the baby took herto another place mentally. Losing a child
can do that to you, man. That she went from annoyingly crazy to

(04:11:03):
crazy crazy. So you went backhome after that, right? Yeah,
I'm not that big of now,So I had to try to take care
of her as much as I could. Well that's mature of you. Yeah.
I was fucked up for a minuteover losing what I thought was gonna
be my first born, mainly becauseI honestly didn't know what happened. I
bet you were messed up. Whatdid the doctor say? They said something

(04:11:26):
about her stress levels being too high? And what do you think? Truthfully,
I think she did something. Ialways felt like it was her fault.
I couldn't trust her anymore after that, damn. And you can't split
up with someone right after they loseyour baby. I would have really looked
like a dickhead. So I juststuck in a relationship again. Boy,
you can't win for losing, canYeah? Nah? She was cool at

(04:11:48):
first and then and then she startedgoing crazy crazy. I guess she didn't
just start going crazy. What wereyou doing to her? Man? I
was just going to work and cominghome. I wasn't even on social media
like that. I was just beingme. Niggas be lnet where the guy?
One night I went out with theguys bowling all guys. Mind you,

(04:12:09):
When we was leaving my boy spotsin the parking line, the shit
was off. It wasn't like shewas in the area. It was twenty
minutes away from her house. Sowhat did you do? Before I could
do anything? She pulled off likeSnoop did on Jody and Baby boy when
he thought he got shot in frontof the house. Now, my baby,
Jody. Man. The whole timeI'm driving home, I'm wondering,
what the fuck? How can sheexplain herself? What does she say?

(04:12:33):
Man? I got home, shewas in bed, head wrapped in everything.
Now you just making shit up?Man? I kid you not.
I wish I was making this shitup. What did you say to her?
I ain't say shit. I justtook a share and went to bed.
What can you say? If shewas to the point of stalking me?
I didn't even want to argue.She was already on a new level.

(04:12:54):
There are death levels to being crazy. She was involving like a Pokemon
love. I waited until the leasewas up and ended that relationship. Did
she take it well? I thoughtshe did. Man, she got crazy.
She started coming to my job andshit riding by my house. It
was part of the reason I startedtraveling. Soon as that position open,

(04:13:16):
I jumped on it. I didn'twant to deal with her ass no more.
That was smart. Did it work, though? I think so?
Having seen or heard from her inlike a year, I still be looking
over my shoulder and checking behind pushes. I know I won't fuck with no
light skined girl again. I betyou won't. Damn Yo, that was
a lot. Yeah, I'm coolrelationships after that, I bet you are.

(04:13:39):
Hell I would be too after that. Here we are great music,
great food, great vibes. I'mgonna buy you a drink after that story.
Take the edge off. I cantell it took you to a dark
and scary plane. Now you gotchuck. I'm just saying whatever, get
your ass up the car. Canwe say anywhere? Yeah, let's get
to table right here? Cool?I checked yesterday. The band's supposed to

(04:14:03):
be pretty good tonight. We willsee a right, I'm gonna run to
the bathroom real quick. I'll beright back, all right. The lounge
was pretty nice, good vibes andjazz music. Keithle to love this place.
I listened to a lot more jazznow because of him. So I
was excited to hear the band.The band. I happened to look outside
and was shocked. I got itfrom my seat and ran outside. Kim,

(04:14:28):
Hey, wait up, hey Jessica, what a pleasant surprise. I
didn't think I would run into youagain. I know, right, what
are you doing here? You're comingto hear the music. I heard the
band was supposed to be pretty goodtonight. N I was actually getting ready
to head back to the hotel.It's been a long ass day and a

(04:14:48):
bitch aster I heard that. Letme buy you a drink first. I
kind of owe you for all thedrinks you got me on the plane.
Oh that's sweet, but I'm tired. I'm gonna head out. Okay,
Well, it's good to see youagain. Likewise, Stacy, what the
fuck are you doing here? Stacy? No, this is Kim, you

(04:15:09):
know the woman I told you aboutfrom the plane. Wait? Wait what
this the woman you was fingerfucking onthe plane? Uh huh I can't believe
this shit. Um, it's somethingwrong. Yeah, this is my crazy
ex I was telling you about.I'm not crazy, Justin, I warned
your belt calling me crazy? Waitwait wait wait wait wait wait? What
this is your ex? The oneyou literally just told me about. Yes,

(04:15:33):
so you still talking about me?Hum? Man, what kind of
messy shit is this? That wouldmean? Wait? She caught a plane
to Chicago just to catch a planeback exactly. Now you see this bitch
is crazy? Look at your face, Justin? You really thought you were
gonna get rid of me. Wait, so, how did you know I

(04:15:54):
was gonna be on that flight?Dude? Justsica I act until this dumb
nigga's email and saw your flight informationand sitting next to you was just the
Lord blessing me. What the fuck? Wow? Man, why are you
still fucking with me? Bitch?We are done. We're done when I
say we're done with them. Boy, you think you can just quit me?

(04:16:15):
You really are as dumb as youlook. I have never been a
part of some crazy shit like thisbefore this bitch legit hacked his email,
found all of our Google hangout conversationsand the email with my flight info.
I pulled down my phone to requestthe uber and to record this shit.
Why because no one would believe meif I told them this happened. What

(04:16:37):
the fuck do you want from me? Like, for real, what the
fuck do you want at this point? I just want to have a little
fun. Boom boom. You thinkyou could just move on without me?
Nah? You owe me, Youowe us us. There is no uns.
You are fucking crazy. I thoughtI told you to stop calling me

(04:17:00):
crazy. You just hacked my shit. Yep, found out her info,
bought two flights and then finger fuckedher on the plane. Bitch, that's
crazy. Okay, that was alittle crazy, I admit it. As
far as finger fucking, well,that was just random. She's a beautiful

(04:17:21):
girl, and she turned me on. I was horny. Oh thank you,
Chester, you sucally entertain this shit. Hey, this ain't got shit
to do with me. She complimentedme, so I said, thank you.
You keep saying she's crazy. Idon't want to be rude and get
on her bad side. I can'tbelieve this shit. Believe it, homeboy.
So what was you gonna do?Take her back to your place?

(04:17:42):
And fuck, didn't you just havesex last week? Did you at least
wash your sheets? Did you washyour sheets? What the fuck are you
talking about? Oh, so you'restill playing dumb boy. I know about
everything, including Ashley. I've beenfollowing that too. Man. Where is
the popcorn when you need it?It's getting juicy? You know what.

(04:18:02):
I should start carrying popcorn for timeslike this. Thank you Jessica for the
suggestion. No problem, girl,I'm sorry, Jessica. It's okay.
Trust you are not my nigga,so you don't have to Yeah, you
not her nigga. You my nigga, until I'm done with you. You
mad show the fuck out like whatis you own? Like? You here?

(04:18:25):
You did all that for what?This girl was crazy as hell?
But I was so amused that allof it that I didn't blink. I
too wanted to know what she wantedfrom him? I mean, why was
she here? Did she want tofight him? Shit? Did she want
to fight me? Does she wanthim back? Why the fuck was she

(04:18:45):
here? You over here acting sofucking innocent, like you ain't spend all
that damn time playing my games,my games. I was playing my games
with you. I said what Isaid. Then you got little miss pretty
over here. Believe in all yourlives. Run girl, before he got
you thinking of picking fences. Yo, you are bugging the fuck out,
am I does she know that youleft me while I was pregnant to go

(04:19:07):
to another bitch house? Shit,Jessica, do not believe her? Told
everyone that I killed our baby toget you back. I think it's time
for me to leave there. Non, don't go, Jessica. I'm gonna
handle this. You ain't handling nothing, nigga. I'm doing her a service.
Run girl fast. He smoothed hishell. But he ain't shit,
and I cannot believe this shit.I'm going to make your life Hell my

(04:19:29):
feet couldn't move any faster. Justinand who I thought was kept arguing.
I couldn't figure out what was goingon, but whatever it was, I
wanted no parts. I slipped rightpast them and hopped into my uber.
All of this drama was too muchfor me, so I switched my flight
to first thing in the morning.I wanted to get the fuck out of

(04:19:51):
Arizona and fast. This has beenthe craziest twenty four hours ever. I
got back to the hotel, tooka shower, and turned on the TV.
TV. Well, look what thecat done? Drug in? Hey

(04:20:15):
sir, Hey to what do Iowe this pleasant surprise? Oh? Wait,
you must be hungry. No,I am not hungry. Can I
just want to see you? Dang, yeah you can. I just wasn't
expecting to see you to this weekend. I can leave if you want.
No, no, no, no, bring that ass here thoughts. So

(04:20:37):
mm hmm, shut up and giveme a kiss. So what you do
today? You know? My lifeis my life? Editor? More editor?
How was work the same? Justmaking sure I execute on these projects?
Can let them see me sweat right, absolutely not. Keep busting the
ass, baby girl, don't beafraid of hard work. I'm not.
That's how I got you, oldman. Oh man, look at that?

(04:21:02):
What a new record? Almost wenttwo minutes without no damn age chokes?
My bad. I couldn't help it. I bet you couldn't. I
thought about you earlier today, though, Oh good thoughts, I hope,
always good thoughts when it comes toyou. But I daydreamed about us on
the patio again. Oh yeah,yeah, I missed you. What else

(04:21:23):
you missed? I miss this?Oh damn? How you at already?
I ain't even did nothing. I'mwet when I step out the elevator.
Sir, it's been like that fora while. Good, you know I
got that effect over you. Don'tgo and get a big head. You
ain't even all that well. Yourpussy tells me otherwise. Don't trust her,

(04:21:45):
that bitch be lying. She's alittle liar. Yeah, I bet
I thought about you earlier too,did you now I did? And what
about ironically sucking your dick on thepatio? Oh yeah yeah? Why are
we still sitting on the couch then? Because your hand is on my pussy?
Move so I can get up mybad after you. It's just something

(04:22:14):
about you in these gray sweatpants.You know I can see it? Did
right? Yeah? I know?Is that a problem? No? I
love seeing you in them looking outgood. Well, you know I do
what I can. Shut up,boy, m hm ship mm hmm.

(04:22:37):
You really did miss me? Ohsh m hm hm. You really trying
to make me? Mm hmm.Oh stop stop stop? Why because I'm

(04:23:00):
not trying to nuts yet? Butwhy because I want to feel you what
you want to feel? You alreadyknow. Turn that ass around. Oh
I'm so happy. We don't useconders no more to sit feels so good?

(04:23:26):
Are you okaying there? Just asecond, I'm gonna get you some
water? All right? Okay?How long do these things take? I
don't know. I'm never taking oneman. Why you got the damn door
lock? Oh shit? Oh shit, girl, open this damn door before
I kick it down. You ain'tkicking nothing down. Look did you work

(04:23:49):
the p off first? Shut up? Look? Always talking shit? All
right? All right? What amI looking at? Do you need your
reading glasses the plus on? Ohshit? Are you mad? Mad?
Fuck? No? You just mademe the happiest man a lot were about

(04:24:10):
to have a baby. We sir, I think I'm the only one whose
body is about to blow the fuckup. I can't believe we'd be starting
our own family either. Wait,how do you feel I'm pregnant by the
love of my life? How doyou think I feel? I am so
glad we made this official? Metoo. I don't know what I was

(04:24:32):
thinking me neither. This is howI supposed to be though. I love
your baby girl. I love youtoo, Keith. I think the only
question left to ask is Jessica,where you mad? Finally thought you got

(04:25:02):
lost or something, But I'm herethough mm I already ordered the Hookah and
your damn mimosa. Thank you.I see you started drinking without me,
tacky, look after the night Ihad. I need this, Okay,
let me live my life. Iain't mad at it. So what's going
on? Has Justin tried to hityou up or anything? I don't know.

(04:25:23):
I'm blocked his ass on everything.As soon as I got into my
uber won't be hearing from his assno time soon. I still can't believe
that bitch caught off flight to Chicagojust to catch a flight with you back
to Arizona. Why couldn't you juststart her shitting Arizona. I thought I
was crazy, but she took itto a whole new level. I don't
even want to talk about it.Let's talk about something else. So you

(04:25:48):
know, Andre keep hitting my assup asking about you? Who? How
the Andre? Three? K ohshit? I forgot about him? Why
does that seem like it happened foreverago? Because have short term memory?
Probably, I mean the nigga askedfor my name after we fucked. Hey,
when guys do that, clearly I'mw on some host shit. You

(04:26:11):
want some hohle shit. Stop tryingto line and biddle fake friendship exactly,
niggas. What's on your mind?Girl? You're always one thousand miles away.
I have that dream again? Whichone about Keith? That's like what
the fourth time? Yeah? Okay, we just keep moving further and further

(04:26:34):
every time. This time he wasgetting ready to propose. I don't know
what any of it means. Ohshit, girl, damn, I know.
I'm lokey, jealous, jealous?Why because this man has been gone
for what two years? Yeah,and you're still dreaming about his dick.

(04:26:55):
I want dick that good I'm notabout to sit here and play with you
today. What if one of theguys I'm messing with died, I would
not be having dreams of masturbating likethis. Shut the fuck up. I'm
playing kind of just trying to cheeryou up. I know it's a lot.
Still, thanks, girl, Igot you. I'm just happy to

(04:27:17):
be home. Your What a fuck? Your dumb ass keep going through my
phone because you're a liar. Whothe fuck is this? Girl? I
ain't got an answer to you.It's fucking my face with that dumb ass
shit. You must think he's stupidor something. I'm sick of your shit.
If you're so sick of my shit, then leave. Ain't nobody keeping
you here? Bitch? Oh bitch, nigga, I got your bitch.

(04:27:38):
The fuck is wrong with you?Nigga? These motherfucker's staring at us,
always on the dumb man man whoalways leaving man the fuck up? Me
the fuck alone? Why the fuckshe just look at you like that,
you fucking her man? Girl?That's Carla? Carla who Keith Starter?
You have got to be kidding me? What the fuck? Her dad always

(04:28:03):
says she had bad taste of men. I should say something. Have you'all
ever talked? No, we saweach other at the funeral. It was
awkward for obvious reasons. I'm betyou were fucking her dad. Yeah,
damn, I don't know. Maybey'all should just walk up and make sure
everything's okay. Hell no. Ifit's one thing you don't do, it's

(04:28:26):
get in the middle of grownd fuck'sbusiness. She got this, Yeah,
I guess. I just feel likeKeith would have wanted me to say if
she wanted help, she would askfor it. Shit, something must be
in the water with all this damnmale drama. I just feel bad.
Can I get some best sea time? And where the hell is our waitress?

(04:28:48):
With our drinks in hookah? Stephanieand I enjoyed our hookah date.
That's just what I needed after thatcrazy ass episode with Justin. But I
couldn't shake the feeling that something wasreally wrong with Carla and her man.
It's like everybody out here falling forthe wrong ones. Well not me.

(04:29:12):
I'm gonna chill out on niggas fora while because I just can't deal.
In fact, I'm over all thisdamn drama. Who is it? It's
Carla? Can I come in.Oh ship, what the fuck happened to

(04:29:37):
your face? It's nothing. I'llbe fine. Don't feed me that.
Here, let me get you someice. It's fine. Really, you
don't look fine? Here, putthis on it. Thanks? It was
that? No good ass, nigga? Not now, please, just not

(04:30:00):
right now. So I see youredecorated. Oh yeah, I had to
looks nice. Do you mind ifI look around? Sure? Be my
guest. She started walking through theplace, observing the changes I made to
the home that probably should have beenhers. I really didn't know what to

(04:30:25):
say to her. This is themost we have ever talked. I was
pissed she had a black eye,but I wasn't going to bring it up
again until she was ready. Doyou mind if I go to the studio
room? No, none at all. Go ahead. She walked into the
studio room, where I had gottenrid of a lot of his equipment,

(04:30:45):
but kept the couch and the artworkhe had. I had the artist paint
an abstract picture of Keith smoking acigar to hang on the wall. When
she saw it, she broke down. Jessica, I'm missing this so fucking
much. It's okay, it's okay. I miss him too. For a

(04:31:12):
long time, I hated you along fucking time. I'm so sorry.
No, don't be. I justcouldn't understand why a woman only three years
older than me would date a manmy father's age. I just thought you

(04:31:33):
were after his money money. No, it wasn't like that at all.
I guess I was just jealous.You were the one with a real relationship
with him. I couldn't even talkto him like a normal person, and
hearing him call out for you atthe hospital instead of me, like,

(04:31:56):
I will never get a chance toknow him the way you knew him.
Oh, I just never appreciated himthe way I should have. I always
thought he was the reason my parentsgot divorced. I had hoped that someday
they would get back together until youcame around. But I met him years

(04:32:21):
after the divorce. How did youthink that that really doesn't matter? Because
I saw that you really loved him, and he really loved you. But
you know how much that hurts,knowing how I'll never get a chance to
fix I understand, No, youdon't. My dad did nothing but love
me, and I pushed him away. I never listened to him. I

(04:32:47):
brushed him off, like, whatis this old nigga? Though? What's
crazy is I kind of did thesame thing. I used to think my
mom was perfect. She's smart,independent and strong. I kept thinking,
why would they want to leave her? He must want some young dumb bitch.

(04:33:11):
Hey, now, I'm sorry,but you know that's not what he
wanted at all. He just wantedsomeone he could connect with. You.
You can't blame yourself for not seeingwhat you see now. Don't be so
blind. But you described your motheras that's you. But if you don't
believe it, no one else willeither. Your dad would have wanted you

(04:33:33):
to see your greatness. Carla,stop acting like you're anything but that.
Well, damn, baby girl,you're not even gonna try to sugarcoat it
for me. Huh, you said, baby girl? Keith used to say
that all the time. Yeah hedid. But hey, do you mind
if I stay here tonight? Youcan stay here as long as you need

(04:33:56):
to. I woke up to findout that carl had left. She left
a piece of paper with thank youand her number on the fridge. I
never thought we would talk, letalone bond over a black eye. It's
unfortunate that she still struggles with findingthe right men to date, but who
doesn't. I hope she allows meto be a friend. I can't force

(04:34:18):
it. What a crazy ass weekendfrom the Andre three K to Kim or
Stacy or whoever the fuck she is, then getting busted by the police and
finally telling Justin about Keith. Mymind and emotions are all over the place,
but it's life. Dating can betoo damn much. But you have

(04:34:41):
to be open to the bs justas much as you are open to love.
How else will you learn if youdon't take chances. As for the
dreams about Keith, I don't knowwhen or if they'll ever stop. I
guess it's kind of nice because Istill get to see it every now and
then. Am I still in lovewith him? Absolutely? Am I too

(04:35:06):
emotionally damaged to move on? No? Will it be hard to date again?
Hell yeah, I'm only human,and between you and me, Keith
raised the standards on what to expectfrom someone. Not every date has to
turn into something more, not everysexual encounter has to turn into love.

(04:35:32):
I think I might pull out onthe one night stands and fucking excess in
the elevator, or maybe I won'tI guess you'll have to wait and see

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