Can People Sound Ugly?

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Back at it for another episode of the Blah Blahnah
Sea Show. I'm your host, see note the offishal blonde stepper,
the voice of the same bles, the what else.

Speaker 2 (00:09):
I'm a whole lot today. I'm blonde, sleepy.

Speaker 3 (00:12):
Poppy today blond lightning, Yo, blonde lightning. Fucking she said
blond poppy already.

Speaker 2 (00:17):
I said blonde poppy. I said the fishery blonde stupper. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (00:19):
And I know one thing I didn't see fob C note.

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I study, I studied it.

Speaker 1 (00:25):
I be homegoing over and over because I'm like, I can't.
I gotta get this fobi out of my head. But
you know where we're at sixty five Canal Street, where
dreams happened with magic happened and my boy back.

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On the couch a game last week.

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I mean he was behind the cameras that we back
on the couch, my dog wolf produce.

Speaker 2 (00:44):
You know what.

Speaker 3 (00:45):
And it's it's summertime. It's the summertime because I there's
definitely sixty degrees when I left the crib this morning.

Speaker 1 (00:51):
Yeah, but then last week, oh my god, I'm sweating
from every angle.

Speaker 3 (00:57):
Yeah, I said, summer it's gonna be a hundred next week,
say like literally the next three four days consecutively, it's
gonna be going up and up and up and up
and up.

Speaker 1 (01:04):
Yo, and my son got to wear a tuxi suit
next week for prom and a hundred degrees. Shout out
to you. But congratulations though Dallas shout outs man high school.

Speaker 2 (01:14):
Here he come. You think you think you listened to
this podcast?

Speaker 1 (01:17):
Oh him, Tyana, that was my biggest supporters, biggest supporters
when it comes to the podcast a hard she she was.

Speaker 2 (01:25):
Like, oh, you said such and such, and I'm like, why.

Speaker 3 (01:27):
Are you listening to it?

Speaker 1 (01:28):
It's like now I'd be like, damn, I gotta be
mindful what I say and all that. But I'm like no,
because after that, I want them to know the real
me and the serious me. And I I said that,
but I'm your parent. You gotta we gotta do this
and that, so you know, we get off that. But
growing up, you was a reader.

Speaker 3 (01:47):
Not much I read. I was reading though I was
reading books. I was reading, but you had to. That
was actually one of the coolest things about Like they
do the book fair. They did the book fair when
he was in school.

Speaker 2 (01:56):
Yeah, they did the book fair. But I'll never a
book reader. No.

Speaker 3 (01:59):
I like, I liked the whole idea of going to
like the book fair and picking out the certain kind
of books. But what was fucked up though, is like
you will select all these books, but I could never
afford none of them. So I was just like, yes,
I don't know, maybe I'm traumatized, but yeah, I.

Speaker 1 (02:12):
Fuck with books though. But guess what we about to
make reading cool again? We're about to make reading fun again?
If this podcast is sponsored by Serious Pens Publishing poll,
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(02:33):
were making reading fun again.

Speaker 3 (02:35):
I think I think I'm open that book. I might
see it can read again, you know, because I don't
know if you got it in audio, so I might.
I'm skimming through.

Speaker 1 (02:44):
I feel my eyes jumping because you know, it's good
knowledge in it.

Speaker 2 (02:48):
If you got an audio, that would be great. Yo.
Well what they got to be looking forward to in
that book? Let me see?

Speaker 3 (02:53):
So picking up the book right now. And first of all,
the graphics on the book is really really really dug.
You could tell they really took their time.

Speaker 2 (02:59):
With Oh yeah, he do he like just talking to him.
He passionate him.

Speaker 3 (03:03):
Yeah, it's intentional, you know. We a good product is
a good product. You know when somebody is intentional and
they really put they best into something that comes across
like I'm holding it now.

Speaker 2 (03:12):
It looks nice, look rushed. The process. The art is great.

Speaker 3 (03:16):
It's like a plantation on the right, and then this
looks like tom square on the left, and then it's
a man in the middle, and then he's running. It
seems to be like through a different dimension or he's
he's running super fast. So either way, the illustration is fire.
In the back of the book, I guess it's like
a brief synopsis of what the book is going to
be about. So Dante, I think that's name d U
A N T E. I think that's Dante today. We're

(03:38):
gonna say Dante today. So Dante Elliott is adjusting to
his new life. Smiles have been hard to come by,
and he is weighed down by the loss of his parents.
The past few years have left him feeling defeated. Changing
the form of a new school, great teachers and great
friends has uplifted his spirits. All he wants to be
is an ordinary teenage boy at all with a mysterious

(04:01):
light at the end of a tunnel, a light that
will take him to the eighteen sixties, a life and
time he has only learned about in his history class.
He will make new friends and powerful enemies. Dante Elliott
is clueless about his destiny, superpowers, and why it's happening.
If he survives what's to come, the truth will set
him on an unforgettable journey through time and across continents,

(04:24):
meeting kids just like him. And then this is even
a super dope graphic on the back too.

Speaker 2 (04:29):
This is great. Y'all listen if you go ahead seven
grating up.

Speaker 1 (04:32):
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dot serious pens Publishing dot com.

Speaker 2 (04:39):
That book so quality.

Speaker 1 (04:41):
You never know, Paul blamin Ize c that line between
c Note and Chris might be under your book publishing.

Speaker 2 (04:48):
I don't know.

Speaker 1 (04:48):
We know your people's got to give. With my people,
we might cross some numbers.

Speaker 2 (04:52):
We might get it going.

Speaker 3 (04:53):
Chapter thirteen is bullets, women and uniforms.

Speaker 2 (04:56):
That's something shit. That's all just shout out to you.
I appreciate you for making a good product. Bro.

Speaker 1 (05:02):
Yeah, definitely no, and we're gonna push that order a book,
order two or the three you got four kids, don't share.

Speaker 3 (05:08):
A book, Get each one of them a book.

Speaker 2 (05:10):
Have have a book club in your house because.

Speaker 3 (05:15):
They need to.

Speaker 2 (05:16):
Yeah, I mean what happened to her family's reading with
each other them?

Speaker 1 (05:20):
I mean, oh, just buy a couple of books and
get a couple of your friends to come over, and
y'all just go over. Y'all read the paragraphs, paragraphs. No
good knowledge and from the qualities of what you just read, ship,
I might have to go home and research it on
audio audibley and see if I could know see what
that book.

Speaker 2 (05:37):
Is really you? Did your family ever read together?

Speaker 3 (05:40):
My mother back in the other crazy think about it?

Speaker 1 (05:42):
My mother did me, my sister and my mother like
my mother used to buy books that was that grabs
my attention?

Speaker 2 (05:51):
I was I had a short attentions. Man.

Speaker 1 (05:53):
I was never a book on reading, but my writing
was crazy. So she used to buy get books like
True to the Game, The Coldest Winter Ever, and we
also say sold Yeah that's hard, Yeah, Midnight and all
that Do or Die like street novels. And we used
to be in the house like fourteen fifteen, and she'd

(06:14):
read the page and then she had passed it to me.

Speaker 2 (06:16):
I gotta read a page.

Speaker 1 (06:17):
Then my sister read the page, and then we just
going and then once that paragraph over, cool, we're gonna
do another one tomorrow. Like That's how my mother was.
Like my mother was big on that, like she but
it ain't go long because I hated reading.

Speaker 3 (06:32):
Yeah, my dad used to read stories to me and
my sister and that was I think my mom too.
But I think that was some of my favorite times
as a kid, you know what I mean, because I
don't know something about like your paaring reading to you.
It's a different form of intimacy, but it make you
feel safe, It make it make you feel it's like
a level of a warmness coming over It's a warmness

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that come over you. And it's a level of experience
that kids should not be robbed of today, especially the
replace basement shouldn't be the motherfucking iPad and ship like
that respectfully, because like technology, iPad is raising our kids.
I pass reading our kids.

Speaker 2 (07:08):
Let me tell you something.

Speaker 3 (07:09):
I don't have kids yet, so maybe some people not
gonna really give a how I feel about this, but
iPad will not be raising.

Speaker 2 (07:16):
My child and rightfully so shit, it will not.

Speaker 3 (07:19):
It would not happen rightfully, It just would not because
something I do know with parents that take technology, take
a phone and they put it right into their kids
face and they be and they don't got to be bothered.
But it's like, what are you doing in the in
the process of that, Like, understand, raising the kid means
you have to be intentional.

Speaker 2 (07:36):
Hands on as as a parent.

Speaker 3 (07:39):
You deserve time to self and to get yourself right,
get yourself centered, be a little selfish with yourself. But understand,
like whatever you do to get time for yourself, it's
okay as long as they don't come to as long
as they don't come at the child's expense. Because I
feel like you putting like the phone and the iPad,
Like what is that really teaching that nigga?

Speaker 2 (07:58):
Like you nothing at all? Like what is that teaching
that nigga nothing at all? Fucking his little brain up early?

Speaker 1 (08:04):
So let's change the narrative. Get pull book read to
your kids. That's the first step. And we're gonna start
this episode.

Speaker 3 (08:14):
So we're gonna start this episode. You know, I got questions.
I always got questions.

Speaker 2 (08:17):
Before we even get into that.

Speaker 1 (08:18):
Shout out to men mental health warness man, Oh for sure,
let's geta wolf. Was on a panel two weeks ago.
I was, I mean, doing like spreading the word of
mental health. Man, what is shaking the grounds?

Speaker 2 (08:29):
He out here moving and grooving this interesting.

Speaker 3 (08:32):
Yeah, man, Yo, I'm gonna be in August August. You're
going to that. I'm gonna be in La in August.
Got got flown coming back from the band. Happy birthday again,
thank you it's still your birthday and said your birthday.

Speaker 2 (08:48):
Nigga'm about to buy me a twelve hundred dollars bicycle.

Speaker 3 (08:50):
Nigga, you deserve it. Yeah, I deserve it. Thank you, bro,
you deserve it.

Speaker 2 (08:54):
I ain't gonna lie. You be working the hardest breaking
producer I know. I don't know what Nigga is working
harder than me. Ain't gonna nobody.

Speaker 1 (09:00):
I ain't gonna lie. That's why I was blinding out.
See got the good one. I'm just saying what we
had to give you your flowers though.

Speaker 2 (09:08):
The smell them though, Thank you bro. What we got
today though?

Speaker 3 (09:11):
All right, So I got some questions, you know what
I mean. I was at It's a spot. See the
thing about New Yorkers, they don't be knowing about the
fucking spots because niggas just stay on their block and
they don't go nowhere. And I get as comfortable, but understand,
like you can't grow in comfortability. Just know that got
to expand you got expand. So as I was expanding,
I had walked. You know, the studio is like in
kind of like Chinatown, so close to the water, you

(09:33):
know what I mean. So I walked to Willimsburg Bridge
and uh got to Williamsburg and then I walked to
a spot called Charlotte Beach, right by one of my
favorite vegan Mexican restaurants. The aesthetics in there is super far.
It's very attractive in there. But right down the street
from uh oh, the restaurants called Haha or it's like
in Spanish, just like it's j A j A j
a Haja Mexicano or whatever. But right down the block,

(09:55):
literally right down the block from there, it's a spot
near the water. It's kind of adjacent a Domino Park
for people that know about Domino Park, but it's a
spot called Charlotte Beach. And Charlotte Beach is like this
little sliver that they cut off where it's like they
put sand at the edge. So they put some big
ass like tree logs that are no longer trees, lay

(10:18):
them down. People can come and sit down, put feed
in sand water right there, and then you get to
see it was like that beach beach, little fear, you
know what I mean. It's like a little sliver of
an escape or whatever. And then you see Manhattan right there,
you know what I mean, And it's nice. It's nice.
And so this is where I went because I knew

(10:39):
we needed to come up with some questions. So I
went there and I sat down. I was like, man,
what's some shit I want to ask me? And whenever
I asked questions, I always want to get to know
you a little bit better. And enough you're helping the
world out, get to know me a little bit better.

Speaker 2 (10:51):
That's my plan.

Speaker 3 (10:51):
Bro.

Speaker 1 (10:52):
A lot of people were scared to ask the questions,
so when you ask them, they be damn. I wanted
to ask that, but I was scared to how you
might feel about it. Yeah, and it's like I'm open book.
It's best to ask me. Like I tell people, it's
best to ask me these questions so you gonna know
and you can understand instead of messing up with the
next blond person.

Speaker 3 (11:10):
And speaking about the next blond person like when I
ask these questions, I try to think, so I try
to think about questions like I'm righting a fucking fire
ass double entendree or something like that. I'm trying to
get two for one every time, you know what I mean. Like,
I want the hey, you be hitting too. I want
the audience who just like casual people that's listening, to

(11:31):
be like, oh yeah, because I would want to know
how a blond person feels about this or how they
feel in these type of situations. But they also for
the people that are also blind or other people who
are disabled, I want them to be like, damn, like
niggas really do be going through show?

Speaker 2 (11:47):
So that being my attention, you know what I mean?
You be hitting it on the nose though, So.

Speaker 3 (11:51):
One question I want to ask you. These are all
over the place. I ain't really like structure these, but
we just we're gonna vibe with it, right this this
is our best work. When we all over the place,
we're gonna vibe with it. So let me ask you this.
Do you take it as a compliment when people say
you don't look blind.

Speaker 1 (12:06):
Yeah, I take that as a compliment.

Speaker 2 (12:07):
I feel good. When people say you don't look blind,
you feel good.

Speaker 3 (12:10):
I feel good.

Speaker 2 (12:11):
And then I reverse the question, what do a blond
person look like? I've heard you say that before.

Speaker 1 (12:16):
I always asking, like people like that you blind, Yo,
you don't look you don't look at what do what
do the blind person look like?

Speaker 2 (12:22):
Damn bro? I even heard somebody say, damn brother, you
too cool to be blind. Not that's the crazy one.
I said, I'm too cool. You ain't never heard of
right y'alls, bitch. But then they's like you look at
they I ain't gonna hold you.

Speaker 1 (12:37):
I might be the coolest blind nigga that out.

Speaker 2 (12:42):
Like in the world.

Speaker 1 (12:43):
The way I walk, like my aura, the way I dress,
people like I don't see blonde people dress, the way
you dress. Niggas fuck with you, bro, people like yo,
I see it. They just regular. It's like they don't
want to be noted. They said, when when you come,
it's like you screaming attention. You screaming loud?

Speaker 3 (12:59):
What I even saying?

Speaker 2 (13:00):
Nothing?

Speaker 1 (13:01):
They like people you you gravitate to people like people
got to come and talk to you. Just off the
way you move and the way you walk. They like, yo,
you just smooth as hell. And I'm just like, I don't.

Speaker 2 (13:12):
I'm just being me.

Speaker 1 (13:13):
Yeah, I'm just being me. Like when I first went blind,
they wanted to take the away to iPhone. They wanted
me to take away to close. They let, no, you're
just too expensive.

Speaker 2 (13:21):
You got whoa whoa whoa whoa.

Speaker 1 (13:23):
Yeah, back, this is me because I'm blind. Like, she's like,
how much you be paying on your jeans? And at
the time, mere having to me is how much as
those jeens you got on? I said, he's right here,
I pay two fifty. She said, nah, that's a problem.
I said, what's the problem? Said, you can't be doing
that people when you're a target.

Speaker 2 (13:41):
I said, target. Let me be a target. They said.

Speaker 1 (13:45):
The way I dress, my phones and everything, I'm a
target for somebody around me.

Speaker 2 (13:49):
I don't think you're a target.

Speaker 3 (13:50):
I think to me, I'm not a fan of being
flashy because I don't like attention. That's a certain type
of attention I will accept, but unnecessary attention I don't want.
Like I even think like when I get on, I
don't think I'm ever gonna be the type of nigga,
that's gonna be wearing like, but this is not my
tasting joy. It's like bust down super It's like, that's
not me, you know what I mean? Like I got

(14:11):
a little gold on me right now, and that's enough
for you.

Speaker 2 (14:14):
Cool with it. I'm cool with it, you know what
I mean.

Speaker 1 (14:16):
I could go get the air, I could get the chains.
They don't move me no more.

Speaker 2 (14:20):
They don't move me no more. You know it's about taste.

Speaker 3 (14:22):
Don't get me wrong.

Speaker 2 (14:22):
I get on.

Speaker 1 (14:23):
Oh that blond poppy chain is definitely coming. That shit
that that logo, No, it's definitely gonna live is a chain,
gonna be crazy that that man, They gonna see that
shit shine because know this, I want people to see me.
I want people to see me coming whilse. I want
people to see me coming. They won't never take their
eyes for granted. You're gonna pay attention to everything. You

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gotta see the details when I walk something that I
took for granted.

Speaker 2 (14:49):
So when people are like, oh, just that, like you're.

Speaker 1 (14:51):
Gonna really get that, Yeah, I want people to see it.
Don't take it for granted. I took it for granted.
I do anything just to see the littlest things in
the world. So you're gonna see me coming. I think
you gonna see it again, broin. So I really do
that that would be good.

Speaker 2 (15:04):
I really do.

Speaker 3 (15:05):
Like on some genuine you're the first one to say that,
some genuine niggas I had.

Speaker 2 (15:09):
I had an argument on TikTok with somebody said, yeah,
you gonna see us. I don't think.

Speaker 1 (15:12):
So stop saying that you're gonna see this that I said,
excuse me, I'm sorry.

Speaker 3 (15:16):
I haven't stopped saying that. I genuinely think that with
the advancement of technology and the things that are being
you know, it might not.

Speaker 2 (15:26):
Who knows what that really means, right, it might not.
And the cret thing about it, like I got what
I got shot.

Speaker 1 (15:32):
Only one of my eyes is really damage mm hmm,
Like the bullet swerved around the.

Speaker 2 (15:38):
Eye and hit the next one. Mm hmmm.

Speaker 1 (15:41):
So it's like closely like the doctor's like, one of
my eyes is like the pupils. One is black, the
other one is brown. My left eye no, yeah, my
left eye is black. My right eye is still brown.

Speaker 2 (15:56):
And what does that mean? Like the black one is
the one that's.

Speaker 3 (15:58):
Like that's damage damage. Yeah, I still can see light
in my left eye, but not in your right eye.
I mean in my right.

Speaker 1 (16:06):
Eye still can see like my left eye nothing really
so I can tell when I light in the room
coming off and on, and so this light right here
is bright than a mother.

Speaker 2 (16:17):
You can tell that right.

Speaker 3 (16:21):
Literally it is. It literally is.

Speaker 1 (16:25):
Sometimes like one time I used to flick it like
off and on, off and on and just to see
to react to it. At some point that she got
me so dizzy. I'm like, I gotta lay my head.

Speaker 3 (16:35):
Wow, Okay, definitely, I definitely get dizzy light that I'm like, yeah,
I gotta lay down. But yeah, I think I think
you will see again. I think because the thing is
there's a lot of oh brother, Like there's the way
the direction that technology is pointing in right now. If
it's not virtual reality, if it's not neural link that

(16:59):
Elon Hit created, I mean, like I don't know if
you know about neural link, but neural link is like
it is it's forgive me for my for my ignorance.
But what it is is they it's an implant that
they put in your brain. Right they already had they
had the first I don't have.

Speaker 1 (17:18):
To hear about that. But I mean thing is, it's
like you're fucking with your brain. I don't think I'm
doing that.

Speaker 2 (17:27):
Okay mm hmmm, because.

Speaker 1 (17:28):
Like the one little, one little thing can take the
memory of what I built my kids, my memory, my
my childhood is with me and me who I am today.

Speaker 3 (17:39):
So it's like to put that on the table just
to see again.

Speaker 1 (17:43):
No, I ain't doing it, but I ain't gonna I'm
thinking about investing into some metaglasses. Metaglasses, I ain't gonna
hold you. My timeline is filled with blind people. I
never you know, I never ran across so many blond
people in my life.

Speaker 2 (17:59):
But how about you use the meta glasses.

Speaker 1 (18:01):
They it's like, it's great. They tell you what's in
front of you. Because I'm I'm I'm on TikTok and
I'm just watching like blind people use it. Oh really Yeah,
they'll tell you what's in front of you. They can
read your mail you presently you.

Speaker 2 (18:13):
Read this, they'll read it to you that. No, you
need that, yo, Like what's when I'm looking at I'm like,
I'm my dad. No, you need those? How much are they?
I don't know?

Speaker 1 (18:22):
They say a little pricey, But I ain't gonna lie.
I'm thinking about I told my little my older sister,
she like sting foot. I'm gonna look up the price
of hop bottom just to make.

Speaker 3 (18:32):
You feel like you can see again. I'm gonna buy them.

Speaker 2 (18:36):
Yeah, I ain't gonna lie. You need those. Yeah, I'm
I'm really looking into the meta glasses. You do need those.
But real quick, I want to go back on the
neural aink thing.

Speaker 3 (18:44):
So what if, like you know, you got because you
can't just be anybody performing that type of surgery, you
know what I mean, you gotta be like top of
your class. What if they could guarantee you one hundred
percent that like nothing will be affected.

Speaker 1 (18:59):
I'm okay, that's what And then it's like, what's the
after effect?

Speaker 3 (19:05):
Well, let me say so, the first patient that they
used it on, he's a paraplegic, meaning he doesn't have
legs and he doesn't have arms. But what it allows
him to do, and this is just the first, bro,
we already know how this technology shit gonna run deep.
What it allowed him to do is it allows him
to use the Internet with his mind, you know.

Speaker 2 (19:28):
And it's it's it's initial use.

Speaker 3 (19:32):
It was created to help people stop having mental diseases
or mental like. I wish I had the right, but
I hate when I don't got the right words on mic.
But like people who have epilepsy, people who deal with
like certain things, it is there to mitigate that ship
through like electricity, because your brain ain't nothing but a

(19:53):
fucking electric ball, That's.

Speaker 2 (19:55):
All it is, you know what I mean.

Speaker 3 (19:56):
So imagine if you take like virtual reality, like Apples
doing fantastic virtually and it's only gonna get better and
better and better.

Speaker 2 (20:05):
I even seen them. I'm sorry, go.

Speaker 1 (20:06):
Ahead, shout out to tad GBC. They told me I
should be targeted Apple for sponsors. Why not, he said that,
They said, because their lines with my brand.

Speaker 3 (20:17):
I even seen a video of when AI first popped out.
They were showing these videos. You knew exactly You knew
that it was AI because what it did is it
looked like thousands of images in motion at a time.
It didn't look like a seamless movie or more seamless video, right.

(20:38):
Some what somebody did is somebody put up a side
by side of AI two years ago versus AI today,
and the AI advanced and that AI two years ago,
Like I remember when it looked like that. It was
just like it was still amazing though, but it just
looked like a like a hundred images flickering all at once.
It was it was a it was a video, but
it just looked like it looks weird, you know what
I mean. And that looks so now it's got that

(20:59):
ceiless like it look like a nigga just being a nigga,
you know what I'm saying. So real, and so I say,
you take that, and then you take what Apple doing
with virtual reality, and then you take neural link that
Elon doing, and then you bring these things together. You
can't tell me that you can't bring somebody's vision, you
know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (21:17):
But I respect you.

Speaker 1 (21:20):
It's good because, don't get me wrong, I would love
to see like you gonna see it the people around
me and everything.

Speaker 2 (21:26):
But blond Poppy is awesome. Blond Poppy is awesome.

Speaker 1 (21:30):
Blind stuff is awesome, and it's like I always think
about the after effect to it. Don't get me wrong.
I'm just talking now.

Speaker 3 (21:38):
A hundred percent I might lay on that damn table
a hundred percent. You guarantee I think I'm laying on
that goddamn your vision gonna be like mad a k
and shit like what.

Speaker 2 (21:49):
And I just want soon as it's over and I
can open it.

Speaker 1 (21:53):
I just want my son to be right there. Yeah,
I just want my daughter. I just want my nieces
and nephew. I don't care about the older people. Just
had have my kids around me, and it's like I
just want to see them.

Speaker 3 (22:04):
But you know what's weird though, like you, I don't
know if you'll be able to cry though maybe that's
like the least of your words by the time you
can see, but maybe you won't be able to cry well.

Speaker 2 (22:13):
With the link with the I don't know, Yeah, I
don't know. I still think. I still think I will.

Speaker 3 (22:19):
You're gonna have like a like a like a third
cry on the inside. I could have seen it coming
down my eye. Nah, I'm a boohoo, You're gonna boo.

Speaker 2 (22:27):
Ain't gonna be the water coming in no water, I'm
a boooo. Like thirteen years and I'm saying, like I
can see y'all.

Speaker 3 (22:36):
Seeing your son, bro after thirteen years, gonna fuck you up. Listen,
It's gonna fuck you up. You know it's crazy. I
felt like you're like, who the fuck is this nigga.

Speaker 1 (22:48):
I feel like me seeing my sister kids are fucking
me up more than seeing my son.

Speaker 2 (22:52):
Huh.

Speaker 3 (22:53):
Really I never met them.

Speaker 1 (22:56):
So like before, I used to always hear myself, I
can you love somebody that you never met?

Speaker 3 (23:01):
You met them, you just haven't seen them, but it's
like you know them though you did me.

Speaker 1 (23:07):
I know them, but like when I when I say meet,
meaning like had that that physical like not not physical,
but the look, Uh, it's like no, Like when I'm
talking to them, it's like I'm talking to a perfect stranger.

Speaker 2 (23:22):
I can't put a face to them. Well, let me
ask you this.

Speaker 3 (23:25):
Even though you can't see people, do you so check
this out? When you see somebody, if you see like
let's say you see somebody on your block one day
and then you see them three weeks from them from
that time somewhere else, you recognize them, right. But since
you can't rely on your vision, do you? How do

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you recognize people?

Speaker 2 (23:49):
Voice? I know that voice? People I know I know
who else where you woke up with? Bro? I know
your voice. They're like, damn, Bro, that's crazy, Like I
know you voice. So it's funny, Like your ears is
how you see in a lot of way. It is everywhere.

Speaker 1 (24:05):
It is my ears. Some some people like their body structure.
I know, I'm like, that's old from my block. Well
that's I mean, allen from my building. Like I just know,
Like when you're dapping them, dap them, bring my mom
around you feeling like muscular toll, that's my son. Oh
so it's like, but majority I depend on my ears.

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My ears is my new eyes. And that's how it works.

Speaker 2 (24:33):
Damn what you be doing to take care of the mirrors, nigga.

Speaker 3 (24:37):
Terished though I can't I lose my ship. I'm completely
going over to stay in the house now, like you
can still.

Speaker 2 (24:47):
See, you can still you're gonna talk you can't hear.

Speaker 1 (24:49):
Niggas, And then like I'm taking away music from you,
taking away podcasts, taking away the song that's like these
kids' voices is the soundtrack.

Speaker 2 (25:01):
Of my life.

Speaker 1 (25:02):
You take that away from me, you might as well
just lock me into a goddamn room.

Speaker 2 (25:06):
You're gonna have to learn silanguage at that point.

Speaker 3 (25:08):
But how can I learn silent?

Speaker 2 (25:09):
But I can't see.

Speaker 3 (25:12):
Different?

Speaker 2 (25:13):
How can I learn if I can't see? I'm all
fucked up. Oh, and the like ignorance because you're right.

Speaker 3 (25:21):
I'm gonna see I can't write ship down because like you,
you can say it back ship. I'm all messed up.

Speaker 2 (25:30):
I'm all messed up.

Speaker 1 (25:33):
It's that you just took away everything silent that oh shit,
take away everything?

Speaker 2 (25:41):
Oh shit?

Speaker 1 (25:43):
It that of that I had to be an interested podcast.

Speaker 2 (25:49):
Oh shit different.

Speaker 3 (25:53):
So my see this, I could this could get dark.
I'm gonna just leave it alone. But I got other
questions that I was like, wait a minute.

Speaker 2 (25:59):
You know what I mean, fucking fun. We ain't gonna
go down the road.

Speaker 3 (26:01):
I got a real ignorant question to ask you stuff. Bro,
forgive me, y'all, this is bro. What you ever go
on a blonde date?

Speaker 2 (26:13):
Yo? Oh?

Speaker 3 (26:13):
Me?

Speaker 1 (26:14):
And you're not friends on Facebook? Oh we're not friends
on You're gonna take you What my post was?

Speaker 3 (26:19):
I said I need someone to help me look for
a blind woman. No no, I said I need someone
to help me find a blind a blond mommy. So
we could go on a blond date.

Speaker 2 (26:32):
That would be fine.

Speaker 1 (26:33):
And somebody come in and say, attack my mother, rochuck,
can you please take your son phone away from him?
Because they're like, yo, you looking for a blond mommy
to go on a blind date.

Speaker 3 (26:44):
I'm like, yeah, it going on a blond day. What
does she live in, like Wisconsin or some ship? Hey,
y'all just communicate. We can communicate.

Speaker 2 (26:53):
I ain't gonna lie, Bronna.

Speaker 1 (26:54):
You have to have a third will in the between,
because what if she come out here, we try to
meet up, just be missing each other.

Speaker 2 (27:02):
No, what you mean, will will? No, Well that'll work,
you know what?

Speaker 3 (27:06):
The reason the reason why that'll really work for you
because I'm sure like as a woman, because as a woman,
she knows that there's a chance that she could get
with a guy who don't care, right, you know what
I mean, Like he's not blind, right, you.

Speaker 2 (27:19):
Know, because she's attractive. She's attractive.

Speaker 3 (27:22):
However, I think one thing that's really worked for your
case is the thing that worked for all men's case,
is that you're an ambitious man. You got your hands
on something productive all the time, you know what I mean.
You're building things, You're creating things, you working on things.
You're literally a maniac, bro you literally like always thinking
about ideas, how to get to the next point, Like insane,

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you know what I mean.

Speaker 2 (27:43):
That's coming from a crazy person, you know. So I
think a blind woman because I feel I feel like
you being blind not gonna be enough for her to
be like, yeah, let me this nigga might be the
love of my life. But once you realize, like, oh,
he's like a real he's a dope individual too, and
he understands me. It's my world.

Speaker 1 (28:03):
I gotta get the prenum. Ready the prena hold on
waite ready?

Speaker 2 (28:07):
Wait? What means you might say, Lord take me now?

Speaker 3 (28:11):
Ain't gonna lie. I'm gonna try to get you. I'm
gonna try to make that happen for you. Yeah, like
I'm gonna trying to make that happen for you. A
blonde day. You know.

Speaker 1 (28:18):
You know what's crazy? Though I could, I could. I
be on TikTok and I fall in love with voices.

Speaker 3 (28:24):
Full of love of voices, beautiful voices.

Speaker 2 (28:27):
What kind of voices you like? I can't describe it,
but you can't. You can think about it them sexy voices,
like do you like the voices? Like do you like voices?
Soft tone voice?

Speaker 1 (28:39):
And it's just like like they voice just vibrates my ears.
It's just like I said, Damn, she sounds good.

Speaker 2 (28:46):
Vibrate your ears. This nigga freaky isiga Yo.

Speaker 1 (28:49):
I'm like, damn, she sounds good, yo. Like I'm listening
to her. She's there was another blond woman and I'm like, damn.

Speaker 2 (28:58):
She got a beautiful voice.

Speaker 1 (29:00):
I want to know how she looks, but I ain't
ask somebody, do you know how the blind woman look
I just like, I just use my mad.

Speaker 2 (29:06):
We said you don't care too. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (29:08):
Yeah, well, thank you for answering that very ignorant ask question.
Next thing I want to ask you is, since you've
been blind? Oh this kind of is right on, right on.
It goes with the last question. But excuse me, jesus,
since you've been blind, is there a sound you can't
stand to hear or listen to since.

Speaker 2 (29:30):
I've been blind a sound? I can't. I can't. I
can't say that.

Speaker 1 (29:37):
Okay, Well, when somebody rub their feet against carpet, I
hate that ship. What do you mean like when somebody
got bid feet and they just going back and forth
on the floor with carpit.

Speaker 2 (29:48):
Look they dragging their feet. They're not really picking their
feet up.

Speaker 3 (29:50):
That sound blows my mom. What is it about it?
It just it it hurts my ears?

Speaker 2 (29:59):
Really the carpet, Yeah.

Speaker 1 (30:01):
Somebody rubbing a feedback and forth on the carpet. I
hate that sound. I'm like, yo, pick your feet up.
I hate it and something. I mean they do it
on purpose sometimes just to get me mad. It's like, yo,
pick your feet up, Like what are you doing?

Speaker 3 (30:17):
What?

Speaker 2 (30:18):
You don't like the way that sounds?

Speaker 3 (30:19):
Like?

Speaker 1 (30:19):
I hate I hate the feet rub carb.

Speaker 3 (30:22):
It For me, it's the chalk, the nails against the
choco board. Well, you've been thinking about it now, sending
chairs down my spine.

Speaker 1 (30:28):
Actually, but see, I ain't never been around the setting
when chalk was used or something blind.

Speaker 2 (30:34):
What's not even about that?

Speaker 3 (30:35):
Like, like literally I'm getting chills right now, bro, that's
how powerful I hate. I hate the sound. Even in school,
I hate when the teacher used to call me on
the board they use it.

Speaker 2 (30:43):
Or even styrofoam. Bro, I'm getting chairs right now.

Speaker 3 (30:45):
That's like like the like the styrofoam, getting chills right now.
That's how crazy. The mind is so incredible. I'm thinking
about it. Like sometimes if I.

Speaker 1 (30:58):
Think about a marker, like a marker, I hate the sign.

Speaker 2 (31:00):
Of a marker.

Speaker 1 (31:01):
What the fuck do you mean? What do you mean
when the marker writing on paper? I hate the sign
of that, like.

Speaker 2 (31:06):
On paper or on the dry race board.

Speaker 1 (31:08):
Not on paper. I could deal with the dry race board.
I could even write one the dry razor bo with
the walker, but on paper. Yeah, hate that ship. Why
I'm trying them sounds as sensitive to my ears?

Speaker 3 (31:21):
Was it?

Speaker 2 (31:22):
Were you always like that?

Speaker 3 (31:23):
Or was it?

Speaker 2 (31:23):
These things kind of developed a little bit since.

Speaker 1 (31:26):
It been like that, Like but I could bear it before,
but now I literally hate it. And I just thought
about that because my sister had to write a note. Uh,
she had to write on the callboard when we switched
the party in ten minutes and she was doing it,
writing it fast.

Speaker 3 (31:40):
I had to move away from it.

Speaker 2 (31:41):
I'm like, yo, you heard me.

Speaker 1 (31:44):
I just hate that sound.

Speaker 2 (31:45):
What's your favorite thing to smell?

Speaker 1 (31:49):
My favorite thing to smell? I don't got no favorite thing.

Speaker 2 (31:54):
That's the nigga.

Speaker 3 (31:55):
You got something nigga you like smelling? Some collar greens
and that catfish nigga you like smelling. See look at you.
You's know what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (32:02):
Like, I love the smell of collar. You gotta think
about that ship.

Speaker 1 (32:05):
Bring chicken, that pot roast. I let to smell of
barbecue like burgers.

Speaker 3 (32:13):
I let to smell firewood and during the wintertime anything
like that.

Speaker 2 (32:18):
Nah, that's you. That ain't me. I ain't walking in
the fire.

Speaker 1 (32:23):
I like I like to smell of dove soap. Okay,
like dove soap, the beauty ball. Love that smell.

Speaker 2 (32:29):
It makes you feel good.

Speaker 1 (32:30):
Yeah, it's like I would like I letterally wash up
and instead of like drying off with the tower, I
air drown to have that smell stuck on me.

Speaker 3 (32:38):
Your air drawn. Yeah, how the fuck see now that's
some psychotic shit to me. How the fuck are you
gonna air drawing? Your whole body was just wet.

Speaker 2 (32:44):
Are you a drying Yeah?

Speaker 1 (32:46):
You get out her started taking the tow and drying off.
You just come out. You just sit just like that
edge just dry you.

Speaker 2 (32:53):
But it's steamy, and the steamy in the shower.

Speaker 1 (32:55):
I come out the shower, I mean I come out
the bathroom and you in your room. Just sat in
my room and just you just wet. What just Sullner
fan Just oh hell, that sounds like hell to me.

Speaker 2 (33:08):
I feel good. That sounds like hell. I feel good.

Speaker 3 (33:10):
Like when I get out the shower, I'm so sensitive
to the temperature because in the shower. The temperature is beautiful,
it's lovely, but I'm so sensitive to hopping out the
shower and then the temperature feeling like that, that coolness
from the rest of the house. What.

Speaker 2 (33:25):
I love the cold though. I love the cold. You.

Speaker 3 (33:28):
Oh you did tell me you ain't like summer and
ship You're a different type of nigga when your birthday again, Yeah,
you're a different type of nigga.

Speaker 2 (33:36):
I love the cold, you know.

Speaker 1 (33:37):
So I can come out the shower and turn the
iggoditional and just edge just hit me, no, sir, feel good.

Speaker 2 (33:45):
I can't.

Speaker 1 (33:45):
I can't do the heat.

Speaker 2 (33:47):
Mm hmm. I can't do that.

Speaker 3 (33:48):
Being I jump out the bathroom, I'm like, I got
to open it. Damn, I'm gonna pass out in his heat. Nigga,
I keep the shower running before while I'm getting out,
just for that steam, just for the heat. So I
literally I hop out the shower, I dry off. I
hop out the shower, I dry off, and then when
I'm finally done with the heat, then I turned the

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shower off.

Speaker 2 (34:10):
Me two different people that ship that shit come over.

Speaker 3 (34:14):
I even step out. No, I can't do that and
do that because the cold is too fucking shocking. Have
you ever smelled a woman before you even met her,
and then when you met her, before she even spoke
to you, you knew it was her.

Speaker 1 (34:27):
Yeah, hell yeah yeah. And that woman tell you how
crazy it is right Friday. You know, you came out Friday,
when you left, I'm outside. So she said, you know,
whatever is moody? I mean what she said, wait before
you get me a hug, she sprayed col on perfume more,
spray perfume more.

Speaker 3 (34:47):
So come give me a hug. Now, I want you
to smell me. I said, I'm hugging. I said, you
smell good. She said, yeah, I did it just for you.
And then, you know, the rest is patrion the fact. Indeed,
what I say, rest petreo.

Speaker 1 (35:04):
Just for her to take that initiative to spread yourself
for me to smell, I appreciate it.

Speaker 2 (35:08):
That's dope. I mean, that's care. That's real care.

Speaker 1 (35:12):
It really is that you wanted me to smell you.
And she said, I want you to remember this smell.
That's my favorite cool, that's my perfume.

Speaker 3 (35:19):
That's the type of woman you need. You need a
woman who understands like I'm a play to my man's sentence.

Speaker 2 (35:25):
You know what I mean.

Speaker 1 (35:26):
It's like some excess that I know, like a certain sense,
and I smell it. I think that, I'm I'm like,
they must be around or something.

Speaker 2 (35:34):
Mm hmm.

Speaker 1 (35:35):
I got an X she loves sweet pea from baffing body.

Speaker 3 (35:40):
I smell that. I just see her.

Speaker 2 (35:44):
Mm hmmm, see her in your mind? Mm hmm.

Speaker 3 (35:48):
When you're talking to people that you're meeting for the
first time, do you create an image of them in
your mind as you listening to their voice?

Speaker 2 (35:57):
Mm hmmm.

Speaker 1 (35:59):
And I do little things like a female when I
first meet them. I never shake their hands.

Speaker 2 (36:07):
Why not? I want to see what your body structure is.
You said you never shake their hands.

Speaker 1 (36:12):
I shake their hand, but then I still bring it down.
I'm like, I don't believe in shaking women's head female hands.

Speaker 2 (36:19):
You said you hugged them.

Speaker 3 (36:21):
I want to figure your body structure. Every girl not
gonna like that, though, Yeah, every girl.

Speaker 1 (36:25):
But it's not like I'm feeling on them.

Speaker 2 (36:27):
Of course not. I mean like you be in jail.
Of course i'd be on trial with Did you feel me?
For sure? I mean, but yeah, like a frillly hugged.

Speaker 1 (36:36):
Like okay, I feel like I feel like structured. Like
now I feel like I'm connecting with you.

Speaker 3 (36:40):
More because you you you you kind of that's your
way of kind of you. You know, you kind of
have one step closer to knowing what they actually look like.

Speaker 1 (36:49):
Now it's like I could put my thoughts my my
my imagination of real person is really structured.

Speaker 2 (36:57):
It's kind of like even man like when I give
a pound or I bring it in. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (37:02):
So now it's like, okay, now you're taking your imagination
and you're adding it with some some real information like
maybe maybe they look like this, maybe they got here.

Speaker 1 (37:11):
I'm not I'm not feeling of course. Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah,
I gotta help my thoughts. So in a weird way,
that kind of reminds me of sonar. You know what
sonar is? Like how bats you sonar? Or like submarines
or dolphins. I don't know if dolphins use it, but
like they so sonar is like what like bats use

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this thing.

Speaker 3 (37:34):
I'm really about the nerd out right now, But bats
use this thing called echo location right where when they flying,
they make bounce off the walls so that they can
understand where things are. You know what I mean so
they don't that they don't rely on their vision. I
hear that, but they really that's so fucking cool. First
of all, they don't rely on their vision, but they
let off these sounds that we don't even fucking hear.

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But the sound dispersed from where they at and then
it bounced off off and then come back to them.

Speaker 2 (38:01):
So they get an idea of what I heard that
on Animal Planet.

Speaker 3 (38:04):
Yeah, so they get an idea of what it is
because they don't actually know what the fuck the thing is,
you know what I mean, Like, which is kind of
crazy anyway.

Speaker 2 (38:11):
Now, I'm not gonna go to deep into it. I'm
not gonna get deep into yeah for sure. But do
you judge?

Speaker 3 (38:16):
Do you judge people by the sound of their voice?

Speaker 1 (38:22):
Because there's some female that got some deep voices, some
banging bodies personality.

Speaker 3 (38:27):
Well, I'm just saying it don't matter what what I'm saying,
Like if you heard a nigga, like, could you ever
listen to a nigga talk and be like, I can't
trust this nigga about a Tony's voice?

Speaker 2 (38:38):
Not for that year? I do? I do? I do
judge people with voices? Okay, that's what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (38:42):
Some people be like, get that nigga away from me.
It's just different, like when you like. One thing I
hate when a person do is try to impress me
with they war stories.

Speaker 2 (38:55):
War stories.

Speaker 1 (38:56):
Yeah, I've been through this and it's now I'm starting
to feel like you're just trying to impress me.

Speaker 2 (39:03):
I don't care about it. Don't impress me, sir.

Speaker 1 (39:06):
I don't care about that street shit no more, bro,
Like I'm all the way after shit. Like, man, it's
like I'm on the side walk. Why are you telling
me about your wall stories? I hate when people do.

Speaker 3 (39:18):
That, So tell me about the time. Give me a
scenario or like a time where like you if you
can remember where you just somebody by their voice.

Speaker 1 (39:27):
Every week Fridays, my parties.

Speaker 3 (39:30):
About how to fuck you even hear people in there
because it's so fucking loud.

Speaker 2 (39:33):
You know.

Speaker 1 (39:34):
It's crazy, though. I throw a party every week Friday, right,
But I don't be in a party to be outside outside.
I'll be outside too.

Speaker 2 (39:41):
I stand outside and that's.

Speaker 1 (39:43):
What I have the most fun at. Yeah, you see
you run across different personalities. Yeah, you really getting like
I feel outside, You really get to meet that person
before they go.

Speaker 2 (39:53):
Yeah, and you meet everybody before they come in anyway.

Speaker 1 (39:56):
And it's funny they you know, I get more enjoy
outside inside.

Speaker 2 (40:01):
I understand that I would feel the same way fresh air.

Speaker 1 (40:05):
So it's like they got to greet you before they
walk in. And if that greed, you just meeting somebody
and y'all bonding, y'all laughing, y'all joking. Now when they
come out, they always gonna remember you because you made them.

Speaker 2 (40:15):
Like I make the connection with them.

Speaker 1 (40:16):
So it's like I enjoy being outside better.

Speaker 2 (40:19):
So when people.

Speaker 1 (40:20):
See me and they know who I am and they
know the story or I got shot this that people,
Oh yeah, I know how I feel you, bro, I
got shot right here, right here, right here, I'm like, okay, cool,
but yeah this that and the third and then I
did I.

Speaker 2 (40:34):
Did, I did?

Speaker 3 (40:34):
I did this amount of time in jail.

Speaker 2 (40:37):
Oh I'm from over here, y'all.

Speaker 1 (40:39):
We used to shoot at this this that I lose interests.
I just sit there like mm hm, and everybody don't
my face expressions till at all. I don't get what
you're saying, bro, right, I don't like miss miss me
with that.

Speaker 2 (40:54):
Bro.

Speaker 1 (40:54):
Yeah, Like I'm not saying that I got shot. I'm
the biggest gangster moving around.

Speaker 2 (40:59):
Now I had. I'm a little.

Speaker 1 (41:02):
Body citizen moving out the way. I don't care about
none of that gangster mel Gibson door die story crazy.

Speaker 2 (41:10):
I don't care about it. Have you ever met somebody
who sounds ugly?

Speaker 3 (41:16):
Yeah, like you hear their voice, I'm like out of track.

Speaker 1 (41:20):
They got a bag of rocks today, mother like, oh damn,
And I like, there they don't.

Speaker 2 (41:25):
Brush their teeth. What's an ugly sounding voice? It's just
it's like like they got son in their mouth.

Speaker 3 (41:36):
It's like like you're talking with a mouthful of ship
like and it's like I saund like, why are you
playing me for us?

Speaker 1 (41:47):
You know, I'm like god damn, it's like, what.

Speaker 2 (41:51):
Do you think that person looks like? Who sounds like that?
He ugly?

Speaker 1 (41:57):
And I ain't gonna I wasn't wrong about it because
it they did, like, yeah, some people be talking. I'll
be talking with my head dann because I'm like, damn it,
like they don't be brushing their teeth, like I don't
want that spit to be hitting me another day. So
in the club, you talking to me loud and I'm like, dude,
I'll be talking.

Speaker 2 (42:14):
I'm like, damn, like, I hate that. I hate when
the nigga be talking they spit hit my lip. I'd
be like, oh my god, I'm like, yo, bro, like
my DJ shout out to DJ Chris. He's good for that.
He's like my bad. I Hey Bro, I feel the
spit this lit on my lip. Bro, move back like yo.

Speaker 1 (42:35):
That pisses me off every time. Every time I'm like, yo, Bro,
like you just kissed me.

Speaker 3 (42:40):
Bro, move back.

Speaker 1 (42:42):
He's like all right, Oh he gets drunk and he
want to grab me and talk to me.

Speaker 3 (42:47):
I'm like, Yo, come on, that's my face. That's the
thing where the motherfucker get drunk. They want to embrace you,
arm around your shoulder. Hey bro, we got my nigga
back the some water. You just spit on me.

Speaker 2 (42:58):
Bro, he had my bad My yo, cool on me.
Just wipe it off. Nine Bro, No, ain't no, ain't no.
Just wipe it off. It's on my skin now. I
gotta wash this ship off. Nigga. The life. I live
in the clubs. Jesus Christ, I live in the clubs.

Speaker 3 (43:12):
But yeah, have you ever tried using a day nap?

Speaker 2 (43:17):
Have ever tried to use it being blind? Yeah, have
you ever tried using a day nap?

Speaker 1 (43:22):
I never tried using the day you got to pay
for them things.

Speaker 2 (43:25):
Not all of them, which ones you don't got to
pay for? Facebook?

Speaker 3 (43:29):
This week tender. Never tried it, That's what I'm saying.
Never tried it.

Speaker 2 (43:36):
That back in the days. I definitely did.

Speaker 3 (43:40):
What you was using, was on poff, I was on tag.

Speaker 1 (43:47):
Yeah, I met a lot of girls on Twitter, Facebook.

Speaker 2 (43:51):
You mention girls on Twitter? You don't strike me as
a Twitter type of nigga. What I was on Twitter?
What you was doing on Twitter? Patreon, Patriot?

Speaker 1 (44:02):
I met a lot of girls of Twitter, tag, my space,
Oh man skull next? Back in the days, Oh, I
was a beast.

Speaker 2 (44:13):
You had an I m V you what? That's another
one another.

Speaker 3 (44:21):
You know you definitely didn't have an iron view. You
don't even strike me as that type of thing. It's
some dumb shit. It's like a digital avatar where you
create like a virtual version of yourself.

Speaker 2 (44:32):
Oh yeah, I had that.

Speaker 3 (44:33):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (44:34):
Do you know you said you was in the streets.
Ain't no street niggas.

Speaker 3 (44:37):
I definitely, I definitely didn't do that, But yeah, I
definitely was I was on ord like like I was
really a social media.

Speaker 2 (44:44):
Nigga, like.

Speaker 1 (44:46):
On it, on it crazy.

Speaker 3 (44:49):
You kind of answered this earlier with the I was
saying about the imagination, but just to ask it as
a standalone question. Do you ever get your vision back
when you're dreaming.

Speaker 1 (45:00):
I hate dreaming because then my dreams I can see,
So it's like it's crazy, like in my dreams, I
can see everything clear as day, and then when you
wake up, you back to the dog or you know,
when you have sleep, like you got the TV or
you have sleep or the.

Speaker 3 (45:18):
Radio and you just hear it.

Speaker 1 (45:19):
But it's like you're looking at that video you're looking
at the news is saying, because you get up and
it's like, Yo, it's like you actually seeing it.

Speaker 2 (45:26):
But then when you get up, you.

Speaker 3 (45:27):
Can hear the TV, but the vision is not. The
vision don't match it. It's almost like you're living in reverse.
Like sometimes people go to sleep and they don't dream
at all. Right, that's kind of like you're day to
day when you're actually moving around in the day, but
at night time it's when you actually can see again.

Speaker 2 (45:44):
Yo, it's so interesting when you're sleeping weird. It's wed
it's wed. It's not nice.

Speaker 3 (45:51):
Push you off it's wet, because then it's like you
you can see right, but the pictures is not on point.

Speaker 2 (46:00):
Mm hmm.

Speaker 1 (46:00):
Hey, if I can see my son in my dreamer
right now, I ain't complaining at all because I know
how you look. I'm connecting to you, connecting with you
in my dream. I'm having dreams. My son is still
to your one years old, so it's like wise I'm
reliving dreams with it. I'm just seeing him. The crazy
thing about it is like I see him as one

(46:21):
years old, but we still talk about today's you're graduating.

Speaker 2 (46:25):
Mmmm.

Speaker 1 (46:26):
So it's like the imagination then catch up to the height,
the age and everything else. It's still going off of
what I know him as.

Speaker 2 (46:35):
You don't never control you don't never control your dreams,
all the ones. That's like evil.

Speaker 3 (46:42):
Like sometimes you ever like realize you're dreaming, and then
you kind of just start kind of like trying to
wake up, not trying to wake up, but like you
start kind of like engineering the dream. Like I've never
been through that. Like sometimes I'm dreaming and then I
realize I'm dreaming, and so I kind of start I'm
thinking what I'm dreaming and moving how you wanted them,

(47:05):
kind of like I don't want to make it seem
like I got like control.

Speaker 2 (47:08):
But I know what you're talking about now.

Speaker 1 (47:10):
But I have bad dreams when I try to wake
up and I'm trying to move and I can't.

Speaker 2 (47:14):
Move, And I used to have I used to deal
with that a lot.

Speaker 1 (47:18):
Yo, I'll be trying to move and YO, It's like,
what the fuck, I can't move, I can't move.

Speaker 2 (47:24):
I forgot.

Speaker 1 (47:25):
And then it's like I'm trying to shake. I be
trying to shake it, shake it. And then it's like
I'll be talking like I'm like I do I'm sleep
on the couch. My mom, I know I'm sleep on
the couch. I be trying to throw myself off the
couch so I could wake up.

Speaker 3 (47:37):
You you ever heard of astral projecting? Astral projecting is
I've never done it, so I'm calling a concept.

Speaker 2 (47:45):

Speaker 3 (47:46):
But astral projecting is when your spirit leaves your body
and then you can you can roam around outside of
your body. So like you think about your eyes, right,
so you think about like the rapper Joey Badass, right,
like Joey badass talks about astra projecting and leaving his

(48:11):
body and then just like flying around the city or
like going to like London. If he didn't say London,
somebody else did. But let's just keep it local, right,
leaving your body and then literally flying around the city,
just flying. Never witnessed that, and I'll bring that up
because he said one way for people to astro project

(48:36):
is when you're in that state of sleep where you're
conscious but your body's not responding yet. He said, if
you don't fight it, if you don't fight it, you
just let it, just let it be. Some point after that,
your spirit is gonna lift from your body and you're
gonna astra project and you'll be looking down at your body.

Speaker 2 (49:01):
I ain't trying to.

Speaker 3 (49:03):
I ain't that ship had we having fucked up games
like I ain't gonna lie one to dreak my hat.

Speaker 1 (49:09):
I'm in I'm in the ocean, and I'm swimming with
a dolphin. Not a dolphin, I'm swimming with a mermaid.

Speaker 2 (49:16):
Oh that's not good.

Speaker 1 (49:17):
And we just swimming and we just having fun and
it's like we swimming through the water and she's smiling
and she's beautiful and she took me into the middle
of the ocean, and the like she just got ugly,
and it's.

Speaker 2 (49:29):
Like she got ugly.

Speaker 1 (49:30):
She got ugly. Then she started grabbing me and I'm like,
what are you doing? Like and she dragging me under
the water and it's like I can't breathe. It's like
I'm really trying to gash for air and I'm feeling
it and she dragging me and I'm trying to shake
and she grabbing that and she gets old, like she
went from being a nice, beautiful, brown skin queen goddess

(49:50):
to that she pulling me in. She's getting darkn and
she getting dark, and she getting ugly and ugly. So
I kicked on her face and came back up and it's.

Speaker 2 (49:58):
Like a boat was there. Then I jumped the boat.
I woke up.

Speaker 1 (50:02):
I said, this is a freaky as crazy as a dream.
I'm like, what the hell I'm with this mermaid. I'm
trying to freaking with hermid she was killed me was real.

Speaker 2 (50:11):
You know what's crazy about that is people say that
mermaids are real, and but they say murmaids are like demons. Though, yeah,
I heard that because.

Speaker 1 (50:22):
Somebody told me older woman told me. If you've got
a mermaid in your dream and you don't go with it,
don't go with the mermaid. But we were just having fun,
like little mermaid under the sea and all that.

Speaker 2 (50:34):
But you know what's crazy about that though?

Speaker 3 (50:36):
And that and now that makes me I'm curious because
the the folklore of mermaids, right is that like it's
men at sea or men near water, and the mermaid
is like beautiful enchanting in some type of way.

Speaker 2 (50:54):
And so you know, the mermaid.

Speaker 3 (50:58):
Enchant a man into the water, right, not knowing that
this is this is like folklore, this is a real thing.
But so I'm interested, Like, and dreams are interesting because
you might have heard this story before and then it's
like it got to your subconscious and that's where the
dream came from. But e avenybody, I never heard it
to ask that's the dream. Well, that's the crazy part.

Speaker 2 (51:19):
That's it.

Speaker 1 (51:19):
I'm like, I'm like, murdermans ain't real, but in that dream,
it just felt so real. Like when they take me
on the water's like I was losing the oxygen.

Speaker 2 (51:28):
So that's what they that's what they do.

Speaker 3 (51:29):
That's the whole, that's the whole, Like mythology about them
is that they that's how they kill niggas.

Speaker 2 (51:37):

Speaker 3 (51:37):
It's like, I'm gonna get your little lusty ass up
in here because you don't know I'm using this magic
on you.

Speaker 2 (51:43):
And then you know she almost had me. Mm hmmm.
You think that was like a sign? Yeah, stop chasing cat.
That was the signally think that's what it was.

Speaker 1 (51:58):
Yeah, before I shot, my aunt told me you want
to die for it? You always out there?

Speaker 2 (52:05):
I travel for that day. I mean, who didn't. I
was a risk taker? Yeah?

Speaker 3 (52:09):
Who didn't the times I sat there like, man, God,
you know where it is.

Speaker 2 (52:15):
You're gonna protect me.

Speaker 3 (52:16):
I'm going in these projects?

Speaker 2 (52:18):
Oh god, I was.

Speaker 3 (52:19):
I was a rest taker. Now I am risk taking.

Speaker 2 (52:22):
You know what it is. You're gonna protect me.

Speaker 1 (52:23):
It's crazy now I can't say that I am a
little arrest taker steff.

Speaker 2 (52:29):
Like, God, you ain't bring me back for three shots
to take me away? Now? God?

Speaker 3 (52:36):
Oh go in there. Y'all lived my life, man, It's
like I lived my life. I can't live like being scared.

Speaker 1 (52:45):
I gotta I gotta go out there and meet new
people and try new ence.

Speaker 2 (52:49):
So real quick. So you don't like dreaming.

Speaker 3 (52:52):
I don't like dreams, but you can see though it's curzy,
Like I don't like dreams, but I ain't gonna be
having freaky dreams too.

Speaker 2 (53:00):
Oh it's crazy crazy, like freaky boy dreams.

Speaker 3 (53:03):
Yeah, like like you be with Cherokee and now how
you know? I'm just asking, yoh man, like we always
just had a party, just having fun.

Speaker 2 (53:15):
Crazy.

Speaker 1 (53:16):
It's like those dreams. I love those dreams.

Speaker 2 (53:19):
I'm like, you don't.

Speaker 1 (53:20):
Yeah, that's great, right, those dreams. I love them dreams.
I love those. But the dream that I got my
son and the dream that like I'm really.

Speaker 3 (53:28):
Seeing because your son is still young, right, yeah, but
that's what I mean about, Like, and I know this
is hard to do. I know this is difficult. I
can't imagine how difficult it could be.

Speaker 2 (53:38):
But like you don't like attempt to apply an older
face to him in the dream. I try, Like what
really kind of helps me out?

Speaker 1 (53:49):
Like Like now now they say you look like his mother,
I remember how she looks, so it's like, yeah, cool,
I just try to put that male face on to it.

Speaker 3 (54:00):
I bet he looks exactly how you imagine it too.
I bet he looks exactly like that.

Speaker 2 (54:05):
I just put that to it.

Speaker 3 (54:07):
Then it's like not his voice is deep, So it's
that it is bugging me out to its like have
you ever.

Speaker 2 (54:12):
Had somebody explain describe his face to you? No, I don't.

Speaker 1 (54:17):
I don't be wanting because I don't want to lose
who I know I remember. Yeah, I don't want to
lose what I remember him. Man, So it's like I
don't even bother doing it.

Speaker 2 (54:27):
So when he's talking to you, what do you see?
I still see that one year old. You see a
one year old talking to you with the best voice. Voice.

Speaker 1 (54:35):
You know he's older, But when you're talking to me,
I just keep that one year old mind.

Speaker 2 (54:39):
Is still your baby?

Speaker 1 (54:40):
Yeah, always, even fifty sixty seven years old, he's still
gonna be my baby. But it's like I always keep
that and I know, like I know for a fact,
this is he not one years old.

Speaker 2 (54:52):
He's not.

Speaker 3 (54:53):
Of course, That's what I stick to it though, And
I wrung with that. Yeah. Have you ever had a
dream that felt like a message from God or the universe?

Speaker 2 (55:09):
Plenty of dreams from God?

Speaker 3 (55:11):
Tell me about I when before we It's crazy because
before me and you were linked up and I stopped
coming to the podcast.

Speaker 2 (55:23):
Mm hmm. I had it.

Speaker 1 (55:25):
I had a dream of God really showing me my
purpose of Wow, I'm doing the things I'm doing. Then
it's like in the dream, he's telling me, I brought
you back for what I could have let you go.

Speaker 2 (55:41):
Mm hmm.

Speaker 1 (55:41):
And it's crazy. And it's like people like, what do
you look like? It's not what he looks like. Is
what I'm hearing?

Speaker 2 (55:48):
You just see it?

Speaker 1 (55:48):
No, lize like my eyes was lighting up, like the
pearly gaze like that McDonald's like the McDonald's golden Arch.

Speaker 3 (55:56):
Hold on, hold on, let's let's because let's let's get
this proper context talking about when you were dying. No,
I'm talking about my dream in your dream, okay, that's
actually what I want to get to next.

Speaker 1 (56:06):
Go ahead in your dream, okay, golden arch. And he's
something saying like because I felt my podcast wasn't going away,
so I was like, I'm just stopped. But it's like,
what I sent you here for to get that message across.
You're not getting your message across. You just send in
that room, you're going backwards. I could have let you
just go. I got up I'm like, damn that shit.

(56:28):
Shit's bugging me out. Then like I'm moving through housing
and then like I'm scrolling on TikTok or on Instagram reels,
and then I heard a message saying, oh, don't give up.
You got to keep pushing even when you think people
not listening or watching. They is got to keep pushing.
I said, damn, this is a sign.

Speaker 2 (56:46):
Wait talking about you were scrolling through TikTok. You said
in the dream, nah, Like.

Speaker 1 (56:51):
The dream told me like I have a message. I
was supposed to deliver the message by me not going
to the podcast, and shit, I'm holding back on the message.

Speaker 2 (56:59):
Right, What is I'm here for?

Speaker 1 (57:01):
If I if I bought like he pretty much I
brought you back to be the budes and you ignoring it.
You like you you disobeying me. But then I get
up and I'm scrolling on TikTok and like that's just
a dream. And then it's like, don't give up even
when the people, even when you think people not listening
and watching they is. I sat down, I'm like, damn,

(57:25):
all right, cool. I went through day and I had
another dream again. It's like he's beating it into my head.
I got out, said let me go, let me book
this fucking studio. Time I came back, And once I
came back, it's like, now I'm like, hey, God just
really fugged me because I was in a club. I'm drinking.

(57:47):
I'm not thinking about no podcasts, just having fun. Now,
I'm not thinking about going dedicating myself to a studio
every week.

Speaker 2 (57:54):
But it's like, how is.

Speaker 1 (57:55):
Your message getting across? If you were in a club
like they not, you're not helping nobody out. You You
pretty much doing the devil's work too. So then now
it's like, all right, cool. Now it's like I start,
I'm booking time. Now I'm like I don't know what
direction I'm going in, but let me just go. As
time goes, like all right, cool, Then remember I never

(58:18):
booked you as a producer, and I was booking producers
but not really using producers as producers. So then I'm like,
I like how you're working and everything. And then it's
like when I walked out, you ran. Now you introduce yourselves.
It's like, maybe this is a beginning, this is a sign.
As time started going, then it's like, damn, let me

(58:38):
ask him. I see how Joy was working with bullying
the beasts. I see how editing was working with horrible decisions,
like I need one of those. So now it's like
I'm taking it more serious. It's like what I gotta do, alright, cool,
kept asking, you, kept asking because it just felt.

Speaker 2 (58:53):
Like it was just so right.

Speaker 1 (58:55):
So then when you hit me up and they be
locked in, then I start seeing like the message is
starting to be pushed even more because now if people
understand what I'm going through, and then it's like people,
I'm giving people a voice to talk and say they
went through the same thing. Like now, some days I
go back to old contents just to look at like

(59:16):
just to look at the comments to really let me
know this is what I'm I'm really doing God's work,
because then it's like I'm coming there. I'm drunk, we
can't focus. We're doing ten minute episodes with a whole hour.
You're like, yoh, maybe you need to cut back there drinking.
I don't feel like I feel like that it came
from a good place. But then it's like it's God

(59:37):
work saying like nah, I could say it from a dream,
but I'm gonna give you the voice to tell them too.
Now I cut back with the drinking. Now I start
taking this serious. I start coming in focus. Now Now
it's like I'm not doing the devil's work. The devil
wanted me to drink, being a club, chasing women, doing

(59:59):
all that and keeping my message inside. Now my messages
out to the world. I woke the streets and people. Yo, damn, bro,
I've seen that podcast. I ain't gonnae that shit deep.
I'm going through that. I'm feeling that. So it's like, God,
I got your message, and once I got that, you
stopped coming to my dreams. So now I was like,

(01:00:19):
all right, cool, I know what I was here for.

Speaker 2 (01:00:22):
I feel like when you was on your sister's podcast,
you hinted at something I thought was really interesting, and.

Speaker 1 (01:00:32):
I've seen I've seen that. I crushed over to the
other side. Yeah, yeah, I did.

Speaker 2 (01:00:36):
Can you can you explain that a little bit?

Speaker 1 (01:00:38):
It's like, you know, when people like they see the
other side. I thought it was always thought it was bullshit.

Speaker 2 (01:00:42):
So give me like scenario and then give me a situation,
like give me experience, like so scenario you in the
back of the ambulance.

Speaker 3 (01:00:51):
No, when I seen it, I was on the floor.
This is when I was on the floor when I
first got shot. So you had just got shot. Hm,
you got shot. I'm fighting.

Speaker 1 (01:01:02):
Then it's like my body was getting heavy, I'm getting weaker,
I'm getting tired. I laid down. It started raining on me.
I closed my eyes.

Speaker 2 (01:01:11):
That day in New York City. One thing that's gonna
do is gonna rain on your ass.

Speaker 1 (01:01:15):
When it rains, it polls. Close my eyes, closed my eyes.
I just she's straight dark. But then it's like I
see my best friend I got killed a year before
I got shot, and I'm just looking and I'm like
he dancing there, but he got to glow around him.

(01:01:37):
I'm like, what the hell. Then I see a wheelchair.
Nobody in a wheelchair. I'm like, what the fuck is
going on? If my little cousin died she was in
a wheelchair. She's not in a wheel chair. She's walking,
she's running. I'm just like, yo, it's just it's just
bugging me out. And I'm just like, wait, what the
fuck is going on? And then I look and then

(01:01:58):
I just see my grandfather. He just down and he
got to glow around him, and it's like his normal
uniform that he's wearing sitting down and he get up
and he comes and he's like, what are you doing
up here? And I'm like huh. He like, it ain't
your time. I don't I don't want no company. I
don't want you up here. Get your ass back down there.

(01:02:22):
And then when he said that, I opened my eyes
and my front was shaking me, slapping me, telling me
to get up. How long I was out I don't know.
You don't know, I don't know. Probably was like two
point five milliseconds. Bro oh crazy, But you didn't spend
like ten minutes in the other's dimension.

Speaker 3 (01:02:40):
No Christian about it. It was long.

Speaker 1 (01:02:42):
It had to be longer than that because when I
got shot, nobody know where I was at. It was
it was hard to recognize when I'm at. The crazy
thing about it is somebody somebody would date. That just
so happened. The party I was coming out, it was over.
Everybody leaving. They see me on the floor, they recognized
with the clothes I had on, just laying there, and

(01:03:02):
then that's when they're like, I see no and the
same person I was going back for a random And
that's when even shaking me and all that, I had
to be on that floor for a couple of minutes.

Speaker 2 (01:03:13):
I had to.

Speaker 1 (01:03:15):
Before anybody did any helping, helping me in anything.

Speaker 2 (01:03:21):
Let me ask you this randomness.

Speaker 3 (01:03:22):
Fuck, do you think anybody ever lied to you about
what they look like?

Speaker 2 (01:03:29):
Like?

Speaker 1 (01:03:29):
Tell me this is how they looked. Yeah, he did.
Females definitely, females live. But then it's like, there's not
so much longer you could do. When I got people
around me like Brott now she fights said.

Speaker 3 (01:03:45):
That, Nah, bro, it ain't it?

Speaker 2 (01:03:46):
Ain't it? Like? All right, this is so cool? Cool?
I like you.

Speaker 1 (01:03:53):
They're like, yo, bro, one person told me, don't get
food by the voices.

Speaker 2 (01:03:59):
Bro, don't get food with the voices. The voice is
a trick you.

Speaker 3 (01:04:03):
So I'm like, I get it.

Speaker 2 (01:04:05):
Yeah, we learned that in high school.

Speaker 3 (01:04:07):
Can sure you be signing a real good on the
pune that you meet and be like, U, yo, it's
not what I not what I.

Speaker 2 (01:04:12):
Was looking for. I'm like, damn, I forgot a have
something to do. Yeah, I was a no good nigga
back in the days. Man, Yeah, cleaned up Now though
I cleaned up. What's sure? I cleaned up big time.

Speaker 1 (01:04:28):
It's like I cherished how people feel I ain't trying
to tear nobody down. I build you up, even if
I don't see you in that light. Now we could
be the best of friends. Like before I straight ghost
you straight ghosts.

Speaker 2 (01:04:43):
I had a problem with ghosting once upon a time.

Speaker 1 (01:04:45):
Yeah, so it's like now just you know, I try
to be straightforward and I'm not looking for the relationship.
I'm not this, I'm not you know. We go from there,
we wound up just being friends.

Speaker 2 (01:04:59):
How do you about women.

Speaker 3 (01:05:03):
Fetishizing fetishizing you? How do you feel about women fetishizing
you because you're blind?

Speaker 1 (01:05:09):
Really truly, I'm gonna fetish to certain people. Some people
are scared of adult.

Speaker 2 (01:05:18):
It's like that with people are like, all right, oh
that's a note.

Speaker 1 (01:05:25):
That's what I've been hearing about, sitting on my lap,
bouncing up and down, doing it all. But then when
I get up, because you know, I don't if I
wasn't walking, when them stick or none of that, and
they were like, why you gotta hold onto this, that
and the third, and it's like he can't.

Speaker 2 (01:05:39):
See now they start moving. Funny.

Speaker 1 (01:05:43):
Now you don't want to bounce on me no more.
Now you want to treat me like I'm your best friend.

Speaker 2 (01:05:47):
Mmmm. Funny, that's that's weird, bro.

Speaker 1 (01:05:51):
I didn't counter a whole bunch of weird women in
my life to applycess this all. Let me step back
from this dating shit. Let me step back from these
females made nine. It's not even get focused on some
other ship. It just made me feel uncomfortable.

Speaker 2 (01:06:04):
Mm hmm.

Speaker 1 (01:06:05):
It's like, it made me feel like it ain't made
for me to find someone that can love me.

Speaker 2 (01:06:10):
Being an adult, you're gonna find someone. Oh not, No,
down she they love me. Someone I hugged.

Speaker 1 (01:06:18):
I came in and no, lie after you laugh. I
was outside talking to my sister. Then I'm talking to
my man. You know, he's going through something with his mother.
She's definitely gonna pull through a cashtro I promise you that.
And then we walked back in the club and she's like,
what else she doing. I gave her a hug and
she started laughing. I'm like, what you were laughing at?
She said, Yo, I still get nervous when I hug you.

(01:06:39):
I said, why are you nervous? She said, I don't know.
You just make me nervous. I said, damn, I got
that effect. I felt good when she said that I
make you nervous. Then another girl like, yo, your hugs
is so walk up and like it's passionate them like
I just hugged you.

Speaker 2 (01:06:55):
M h. It's like, now get my just dudes's intention.
That's what they now.

Speaker 1 (01:07:00):
I'm getting my just dudes. I feel good. Before I
felt like shit. I was hotting from everything. I felt
like a girl couldn't love me being an adult. M
But the ones that couldn't do it and did what
they did feel sorry for you.

Speaker 3 (01:07:15):
And I watched my success. Yeah she gonna look real
nice in a minute. Oh it's nice now, but it's
nice now. Ye crazy. They try to come back, trying
to come back. I'm I grew to a beautiful person.
I was nasty, like one time I got shot. A

(01:07:36):
lot of girls start moving funny towards me.

Speaker 1 (01:07:38):
I'm in the club. We popped bottles. A girl came like, oh,
can I get a drink? I should go to the ball,
said now I want some of your drink. I gave
it a bottle and walked away.

Speaker 2 (01:07:51):
She said no, I.

Speaker 1 (01:07:51):
Don't want your bottle. I said, nah, I don't want
not that. I don't want nothing after you, You're not
worth me picking they're not worth me holding that bottle
and getting after even to you and walked off, and
she was like, yo, I still had the same number
I left, she called she while you're acting like that, this, that,
and the third. I said the same reason why you
act through act When I got shot, I don't want

(01:08:14):
I don't even want to socialize myself with you. Shid
damn that that hurts. Yeah, it hurts when you did
what you did too.

Speaker 2 (01:08:21):
Yeah, real talk hurts. It's new for.

Speaker 1 (01:08:24):
Everybody, but you should have stuck around to see whatever
it really was before you started just distancing yourself.

Speaker 2 (01:08:31):
Some people not to this day. You gotta respect that too.
You gotta respect that.

Speaker 1 (01:08:35):
It's people to this day. Some women to this day,
no lie, they caught me. I give my shirt off
my back to them. It never switched up on me.
Everything never switched up. THO love me And to this day,
like never switched up. They had a shirt off my back.
And some girls is like, I'm not even gonna say
what I want to say. I wouldn't even spit on

(01:08:58):
them if they was on fire, probably, And that's that's
mean and crue to say.

Speaker 2 (01:09:03):
But it's like.

Speaker 1 (01:09:07):
The girl like oh, what you're trying to do? Make
me your seeing a dog?

Speaker 2 (01:09:13):
Whoa, I'm like, that's crazy to me talking to you.

Speaker 3 (01:09:17):
I was talking to you shot so me you want
to talk to you?

Speaker 2 (01:09:20):
That's actually crazy seeing dot Yeah, that's actually crazy. It's like,
that's crazy crazy.

Speaker 1 (01:09:25):
I got left the restaurants like so it's like I
don't have been doing it all man.

Speaker 2 (01:09:31):
Trusting believe she got her comments already.

Speaker 1 (01:09:33):
Yeah, oh what tom'son? Yeah, trust believe I'm good now.
People are You won't be hurt by you. You won't
be scared now because I'm not going to go into
a new relationship or I'm not gonna go to a
new person thinking that they're gonna do this to me.
If they do, alright, cool, it's not yo. They did
it again. Yeah, and laugh about it. And I'm coming
a podcast. You gonna talk about it.

Speaker 2 (01:09:53):
And talk about it.

Speaker 1 (01:09:53):
Yeah, you're gonna run up these numbers and people gonna
comment and then we now we ain't.

Speaker 3 (01:09:58):
Gonna drop your addy.

Speaker 2 (01:09:59):
I'm big, bigger than that.

Speaker 3 (01:10:00):
I ain't gonna drop yetty, ain't you ain't gonna drop
the low now. I ain't gonna drop the low on
the man. They're not worth it. Man, I'm giving them
too much cloud.

Speaker 2 (01:10:07):
Well, listen, man, those are my questions.

Speaker 3 (01:10:10):
Yeah, see been real good episode, man, good episode where
they find you at Man. You can find me at
Underscore Wolf Taylor on my Instagram on TikTok, I got
a podcast called Halfway Up. Listen, man, never finished risin
call halfway up because you never finished rising. Man.

Speaker 2 (01:10:30):
We talk about all types of shit. Man. We're just
trying to gems on there. I'll be trying to man dropped.
I mean checking out that mother one you drop? Yeah,
what you think, I ain't gone a lot.

Speaker 1 (01:10:42):
When you when you really think about it, it makes
you want to go. It makes you give grace to
your mother.

Speaker 2 (01:10:47):
Yeah, you got to bro.

Speaker 1 (01:10:48):
It makes you like a lot of things that my
mother did in life said and I never got it
until now that I'm older. Yeah, And it was like
she was just preparing me for the world. My mother
used to say mean shit to us, right and they're
like wow, she said, I'm preparing you. She said, I'm
saying this because when you're going the word, people gonna
say eating more crazy shit to you. I'm just preparing

(01:11:12):
you for the word that you won't crack and I'm like, damn,
why are you doing that? I don't want that? And
my mom we was reading True to the Game at fourteen.
True to the Game is about sex, just that mad
drugs and everything. She was preparing us for the world. Yeah,
like my mother, another sugarcoat that had hit nothing from us.

Speaker 2 (01:11:29):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:11:31):
Now that I'm older, now I traveish herm that like
me and my mother we argue to light.

Speaker 2 (01:11:36):
We beef the light.

Speaker 1 (01:11:37):
Of course, now that I am at the age I
am and who I am now and my mother sit
and talk every day.

Speaker 2 (01:11:42):
That's my best friend. Yeah.

Speaker 3 (01:11:44):
That that that respect, Like, you know, one thing, one
thing I can't respect is somebody who don't respect their
parents outside of if your parents is like a monster, cool,
get it understood. But one thing, one thing that had
pissed me off or make me lose respect for a motherfuckers,
respect your parents. If you disrespect your parents around me.

Speaker 2 (01:12:04):
My mother, you only got one fother because I'm.

Speaker 3 (01:12:07):
Like, so we just gonna act like motherfucker and wash
your ass and take care of you. And then it's like,
you know, sometimes people go through things, life be hard.
They didn't get all the fucking toys on Christmas that
they wanted.

Speaker 2 (01:12:20):
Now, you gotta really understand.

Speaker 1 (01:12:21):
Did you open the door to peek in that room
and see your mother cry because she could.

Speaker 2 (01:12:25):
Because you don't, because you don't know. Did you see
that struggle? Like I've seen the struggle with my mother.
Parents behind this.

Speaker 3 (01:12:31):
Different My mother got four kids. Me and Baranda seen
the struggle.

Speaker 2 (01:12:35):
Nothing to that.

Speaker 1 (01:12:37):
They got a good man. Me and Barna wentrough the
struggle with my mother.

Speaker 3 (01:12:40):
And she made it. She made it look good. We
never went without.

Speaker 1 (01:12:44):
My mother used to go shopping and have three different
cereals on top of that figerator.

Speaker 2 (01:12:49):
So I like this something. Baranda like the son. She
liked the son. She made it.

Speaker 3 (01:12:53):
She made it.

Speaker 1 (01:12:56):
We came home, we had we had dinner.

Speaker 2 (01:12:58):
That's real.

Speaker 3 (01:12:59):
Fun came.

Speaker 1 (01:13:00):
Don't get that homework done, take that uniform off, fold
it up, hang it up.

Speaker 2 (01:13:05):
Like people don't realize, Like I.

Speaker 3 (01:13:07):
Cherished my mother way more now.

Speaker 1 (01:13:09):
Yeah, then it's like back in the days, it's like, oh,
she's just trying to kill my fun.

Speaker 3 (01:13:14):
She tried to like that.

Speaker 2 (01:13:16):
Like that's generally how I feel. But when I really.

Speaker 1 (01:13:19):
Now that I'm older and I have a child, I
understand what my mother tried to prepare me for genuine one.

Speaker 2 (01:13:25):
I appreciate my mother now.

Speaker 3 (01:13:27):
Man shout out to mom. Man, I know it's like
Father's Day was just passed.

Speaker 1 (01:13:31):
Real ship, but not for nothing like pep, pep. I
give grace right, my father wasn't the best. I don't
disrespect that, man though I don't. I texted my Father's Day,
Happy Father's Day. Takes back your Happy father Day to
you too. I love you, I text back, I love
you too. Dawn wasn't in my life, my whole life.

(01:13:54):
But what gives me the right to disrespect you? I
don't know what you've been through, So I'm not gonna
still give you to respect as that man that you are.
Whether you raised me, whether you taught me how to
be a man, none of that.

Speaker 2 (01:14:09):
My mom has taught me that.

Speaker 3 (01:14:10):
My mom's got all hands on me being a man.

Speaker 1 (01:14:12):
But I'm still gonna give that grace and I'm still
gonna give that respect. My step pops give him that grades,
give them the respect like people at that.

Speaker 2 (01:14:20):
That's my father.

Speaker 1 (01:14:22):
Why he taught me how to shoot that basketball, He
told me how to do it, all that shit. So
it's like, I'm not gonna take away the credit that
you put into me. I give him more respect to
because you took a load off my mother. My mother
was struggling with two kids making it work. You scooped
in and you became that superman. Now she can breathe

(01:14:45):
and rest it. And now you you took the initiative
to be more hands on with us, to like show
us different things that my mother didn't have the time
to do it because she had to work. She had
to make sure she got food on the table, close
on our back and everything else. So I never forget that. Yeah,
you can't gotta get grace. And that's why I like
about your podcast because no matter what topic it is,

(01:15:06):
I can always relate to it different topics.

Speaker 2 (01:15:08):
Yeah, I'm like, nah, it.

Speaker 1 (01:15:10):
Makes you really look at life different, like, yeah, I
gotta gotta I gotta get grace.

Speaker 2 (01:15:15):
Yeah, it's important, bro, It's gonna.

Speaker 1 (01:15:17):
Be I mean, like I said, like we said in
the beginning, yep, twenty years from now, it's gonna be
somebody that look at clip and be like.

Speaker 2 (01:15:26):
Damn, And I'm proud I gotta meet this man.

Speaker 3 (01:15:28):
I'm really proud of that. And even though like it's
a slow burn, you know these pots. Sometimes gotta just
trust the process. The thing is is like I plan
on being alive ten years from now, right, that's my plan.

Speaker 2 (01:15:41):
Hopefully God feels the same. You're gonna be allive forty
years from now, bro.

Speaker 3 (01:15:45):
And within twenty thirty forty years right though it feels
like it's slow now, but what's slow now compared to
ten years later, where it's like everything's gonna be clicking
and flowing by that time. And so you gotta you
gotta ain't big in this life. You can't think small,
you know, thinking smallst thinking like oh it's not happening

(01:16:05):
fast enough right now.

Speaker 2 (01:16:06):
But it's like, but my nigga, Like you can't get
tricked over the numbers.

Speaker 3 (01:16:09):
But this moment right now, it's such a such a
small blimp in time in comparison to the ten years
that you're going to be living.

Speaker 2 (01:16:17):
And seeing it like about a ten year mark.

Speaker 3 (01:16:19):
I want to look back and I want these videos
to still be in circulation because they still matter.

Speaker 2 (01:16:26):
You can't get tricked over the numbers.

Speaker 1 (01:16:29):
I was one of those like why ain't get enough viewers?
Like why ain't enough downloads? I was getting tricked over
the numbers.

Speaker 2 (01:16:36):
And sometimes now now right now.

Speaker 1 (01:16:40):
I don't get tricked over the numbers, got the saying say,
is God just he just he trying to see if
I'm that one.

Speaker 2 (01:16:48):
You just building, you just added to the catalog.

Speaker 1 (01:16:49):
He just he's just trying to see if I'm that one.
How dedicated he is he going there and see that
one view?

Speaker 3 (01:16:56):
Is he still gonna go back to that that that
that podcast next week?

Speaker 1 (01:17:00):
The record you just want to see And it's just
like I'm still going now you're going in.

Speaker 3 (01:17:07):
I'm smilling. I'm not tripping over nothing.

Speaker 1 (01:17:10):
Why because it gave me that one person I watched
that that be like, Yo, you changed my life.

Speaker 3 (01:17:14):
And I'm proud of you too, man for real, Like
you've really been consistent in the studio. You've been staying
at it, bro, You've been coming through, You've been giving
your best.

Speaker 2 (01:17:22):
You know what I mean. You ain't been.

Speaker 1 (01:17:23):
Fucking around vacation and all that. You've really been locking
in doing the work. I'm proud of you, man, for real,
You proud of each other.

Speaker 3 (01:17:30):
Man.

Speaker 2 (01:17:30):
What do you want to tell the people when you
before you sign.

Speaker 3 (01:17:32):
Off, Let's go back to that clip. Be the layload
of your own life like you you you you have
maintenance you that meaness worker in your your your life,
like you know what's good for you, you know what's not
good for you. You know what you got to get away from.

(01:17:54):
You know you dealing with this, this tenant can cause
you ten twenty thirty years of your life.

Speaker 2 (01:18:01):
Gotta change the narrative.

Speaker 1 (01:18:02):
You gotta be more smarter, don't fall under prayer pressure,
and don't be scared to be reaching out for help.

Speaker 2 (01:18:09):
Mental health. This is men mental health awareness. Men.

Speaker 1 (01:18:11):
We gotta start tapping into our other side. You gotta
start letting our women know what's bothering us. We can't
be this rock solid person. It's like I was talking
to a therapist and she's like, you know, it's okay
to cry, Like it's okay, it's okay to tap into
your feline side, like your soft aside. I'm like, yo,

(01:18:32):
you you're absolutely right, because I don't hold back it
no more.

Speaker 3 (01:18:36):
But I want to cry. I cry sometimes I cry
for no reason.

Speaker 1 (01:18:38):
It feel good, it's necessary, it feel good something When
you cry, it's not a bad thing. You just cleanser
in your body, your skin. You cleansering the pain and everything.
Like when you cleansing your When you cry, you cleansering
your life. It's just giving you more room to keep
moving forward, that's all. And don't don't be blind to

(01:18:59):
the world. I made sure that vision is is still working.
That's why I told a lot No, I ain't gonna lie.
I dropped a crazy bar and I really like, damn.
Just did the podcast where Kelly was named Kelly did
the podcast and I said something. I'm like, Damn, I
really said that, because after the interview was going on,

(01:19:21):
I'm still thinking about Damn.

Speaker 2 (01:19:22):
I really said that.

Speaker 1 (01:19:23):
I said, I my mom was blond, like my mom
was blind, so I couldn't see my vision. And it's like, Damn,
I really said that. I really wrote blind all over myself.
It was it was impossible for my vision to see.
Not no more. I'm not blond. I got vision. And

(01:19:46):
once people realize that and notice that, like because a
lot of people like put themselves in blind places, blind spots, relationships,
jobs like you stop you blond.

Speaker 2 (01:20:04):
Wow, Like I.

Speaker 1 (01:20:06):
Got people that I talked to to this day. I'm like, yo, bro,
stop being blind and then you just try to make
me blind with you. Nah, I don't want you to
be blonde with me because I don't think you can
handle this world that I'm living in.

Speaker 2 (01:20:18):
And stay away from the dark. Bro.

Speaker 1 (01:20:19):
But you don't gotta live like this. You samething, You
complain it, this, that and the third. Sometime you gotta
really let people see reality. You complaining. I'm like, yo, Bro,
you complaining about the y'all win. People are hit dying
to get in your position.

Speaker 2 (01:20:31):
Be grateful, wake up to market all be gone. Be grateful.
So we're leaving people in that know, Man, be the
landlord of your life.

Speaker 1 (01:20:39):
Man, make sure you you you take that house, that
foundation that you moving and do the world with. Make
sure you you know you give good maintenance to it.
Your body is your everything, Your mind is your everything.

Speaker 3 (01:20:52):
Yeah, y'all, make sure y'all listen to the to the
Kelly Copp New York podcast. Man, man may be double
check and make sure bro, shit is exact. Let me
get the exact same name because man to get into
you ain't gonna lie.

Speaker 2 (01:21:05):
Bro, you cooked up on that episode because I'm thinking
you had rolled out the new, the new, the new,
uh the the how do you say the saying? The
fucking the mantra of the bloc podcast. You had wrote
it out. I can't remember it for life, but I
know you wrote that motherfucker out though I went crazy
off it. I ain't even gonna lie. I went crazy

(01:21:26):
on it.

Speaker 3 (01:21:26):
You did, yo, like we all blondete us? Yeah, blonde
step and then what's the mantra? Bro, you don't wait
to see me just move? When you wrote the whole out,
I was.

Speaker 2 (01:21:36):
Like, Oh, this nigga think you hard on man, This
nigga think he hard harder than me.

Speaker 1 (01:21:42):
Man.

Speaker 2 (01:21:42):
That's how I'm saying. I can't.

Speaker 1 (01:21:44):
I can't. Yes, I stamped that whole podcast, man, Yeah
you did. I stamped it.

Speaker 2 (01:21:49):
I ain't gonna lie. Yeah. I had that man in
here crying. Yeah me bigger. I was standing there crying
back there. I was like, bron, I heard the star before.

Speaker 1 (01:21:56):
Yo, I'm telling you, and every time people always say yeah,
time you tell the story out here sign know.

Speaker 3 (01:22:02):
It's the New Yorkers podcast by New York City Cop
New York City Cop on Instagram. Man, my niggas, look,
were on your podcast now so we can talk out
we really need to.

Speaker 2 (01:22:12):
That's the fact.

Speaker 3 (01:22:12):
My nigga, Kelly, cool ass white dude, cool ass white dude,
as I'm doing the NSV.

Speaker 2 (01:22:18):
I'm like, whoa, whoa. You know, I'm not going to
strip myself completely from b being me.

Speaker 3 (01:22:24):
But I'm giving people that I'm giving. I'm gonna give
him that clean version.

Speaker 2 (01:22:27):
You did good too. I wanted to let you know
you did good. You did good.

Speaker 3 (01:22:31):
I could tell you fully understood that the mission, the
mission and the climbate of what was going on, and
you came through and you did exactly every like because
I don't hurt you tell the story so many times,
so like, I see where you you know, you.

Speaker 2 (01:22:45):
Kept it short certain areas. For sure. I gave it details.
You know I didn't. I didn't get deep into the
details because then it would have been like you just
get you just gave just to that podcast that we
want to release right now. But I gave enough to
touch the people to sit and say.

Speaker 3 (01:22:58):
Okay, yeah, damn, I can imagine what was going on.

Speaker 2 (01:23:02):
Nigga was crying off of the ship that you said, Like, Nigga,
don't you imagine if I gave you the Patreon version?

Speaker 3 (01:23:07):
Yo, shit man, you know you know you made it
when you got that. You got the white man on
the couch crying here I made it so Ray too
about do a part two? He might like, come on,
I inspired him. He was doing odio and he told
about he was thinking about doing the video. You did
say that? Listen New York City Cop. That's his instagram

(01:23:29):
New York City ko Pp. Not like cop because you know,
we don't fuck with the We don't fuck with the pigs.

Speaker 2 (01:23:36):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:23:37):
But yeah, my MANO was just on this show. Had
a great fucking collaboration. It was beautiful and man, listen,
this is I.

Speaker 1 (01:23:47):
Ain't gonna lie. I did my thing on that. I
had to pat myself in the bag of it. Like
we even went celebrated after that, l A, come on, man,
we want to get some burgers. And it's like as
And it's crazy because as I was getting dressed, I'm like,
what should I wear?

Speaker 2 (01:24:02):
I don't want it to come off too.

Speaker 3 (01:24:03):
Hoodish this that, but I'm like, man, I'm going as myself.

Speaker 1 (01:24:09):
You are, bro, let me put this need more black businesses.
And when I was in the cap, I said that
I just really.

Speaker 2 (01:24:15):
Put this shirt on you. I said, ship did.

Speaker 1 (01:24:18):
But then when I got there, he said, yo, that's
a cool shirt. They recognized like, I'm not to take
nothing away from the podcast. I'm just being myself said,
delivering respectful. I'm not gonna curse on it because you
don't get over.

Speaker 2 (01:24:29):
But yeah, we're gonna do this.

Speaker 3 (01:24:30):
We're gonna lock it in and honestly, and it went
crazy and honestly like this podcast is like you gave
them a dose of realness.

Speaker 2 (01:24:37):
That that's not part of their world. It's not it's
not part of.

Speaker 1 (01:24:41):
Their world, bro, because they were stopping and trying to
figure out what's.

Speaker 2 (01:24:44):
Gonna be next to ask me, and then you heard
me saying not just let them talk, let them let
them talk, let them talk. Man. I don't think they.

Speaker 3 (01:24:51):
I don't think they they they couldn't prepare for that.
I don't think that that's how they wanted it to go.
I think it, but I think once they got it though,
they was very happy with that.

Speaker 1 (01:25:00):
Talk about he like, damn, there's more questions I want
to ask this and the third damn, I ain't thinking
of that.

Speaker 3 (01:25:04):
Damn.

Speaker 2 (01:25:06):
It's always part because you can't deny the realness.

Speaker 1 (01:25:08):
It's part two. You know what I'm saying, no fabricated story.
This is who I am.

Speaker 2 (01:25:12):
And you can't. You can't.

Speaker 3 (01:25:14):
You can't deny the realness of the story. Like once
the story was going, how it was? Yeah, what's the
story was going?

Speaker 2 (01:25:20):
How it was? You gotta love it, you know what
I'm saying. But listen, I'm trying, y'all.

Speaker 3 (01:25:27):
I know, I don't know what time it is that
y'all listening to this ship, but it's late over here.

Speaker 1 (01:25:31):
Grinding, fucking grinding, another episode the blond Bnaci Podcast.

Speaker 2 (01:25:37):
But we out of here, dude,

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